#200 notes to my first dumb reply

[cultivating-wildflowers]

STOP RECORDING YOURSELF PERFORMING ACTS OF CHARITY OR KINDNESS AND THEN POSTING THE VIDEOS FOR INTERNET CLOUT

[ilygetou]

MET HER 0N THE iNTERNET | EREN JAGER.

PAIRING: EREN JAEGER X FEM! READER.

SYNOPSIS: Eren Jaeger met you on the internet & immediately fell in love with your looks, personality and body. He knew his crush on you was dumb and will not last long because come on — online relationships? Those don’t last that long. Until eren found a way to not make it online anymore!

C/W: losing the pwp war, noncon –> dubcon, online stalking, solo m! masturbation, lovesick! eren, possessive! eren, cheating, vaginal fingering, face/throat fucking, facial, brief after-care at the end.

WORD COUNT: 5.9K

NOTE: repost. i know y’all are so sick n’ tired of me but this is going to be the last time i promise 😓😓🤞

Eren was laying down on his bed, the moonlight illuminating and reflecting on his phone screen as he scrolled through people’s accounts/profiles on instagram. None who’ve piqued his interest, scrolling and scrolling until he came across your profile.

Clicking on your username, he was met with the highlights you have saved on your profile and the three posts you have posted. Eren clicked on the first post–it was a picture of you laying down on your bed, ass slightly up while you had your tongue in-between your teeths with a small smile.

Eren slightly gulped and continued going through your posts, his breath slightly hitching once he came across a picture of you with your thong peeking out from the low rise jeans you were wearing, shirt too tight your cleavage was all out.

Eren quickly zoomed out and went to check your highlights, clicking on the first one which was titled with “<3”, knowing exactly what it meant as soon as he saw a picture of you and another man holding hands. The next story being another picture of you and that man nose touching. As eren continued going through the highlights, the more furious he got even though he doesn’t even know you.

Eren clicked his tongue in annoyance before hitting the ‘follow’ button, maybe, fate might be on his side for once and you’d break up with your boyfriend soon.

The next day came rather quickly and throughout his whole day–eren was thinking about you. He was thinking about how gorgeous you looked, your smile so sweet, your hair styled in a unique way, everything about you was perfect. He couldn’t help but keep thinking about you, despite not knowing who you are.

12:40am.

Eren threw himself on the bed, letting out a sigh before unlocking his phone–clicking on the instagram app and checking his notifications, to find that you’ve followed him back. Eren smiled. Viewing your story to find that you’ve posted a new picture of yourself, it was a full body mirror picture. Your body slightly tilted to the side showing off your ass, you held up a peace sign over your face–you were wearing nike pro shorts with a plain white t-shirt.

Eren quickly liked your story, swiping up to reply–“lookin real’ good” and not even a minute has passed, he has already received a reply from you. “Thank youuu,” eren scoffed at the lack of energy and effort in your reply but then again, he gets it, you have a boyfriend. You shouldn’t be giving into other men’s compliments.

Eren decided to check your following, maybe even try and find your boyfriend’s username since you didn’t tag him in any of your posts.

You were following a couple of hashtags, some celebrities and then the rest were mostly your friends, family and classmates. Eren scrolled and scrolled until he came across a guys’ profile, he had your initial in his bio and a “i ❤️ my gf” pfp. His account was private and you were one of the few people following him. Eren decided that this was your boyfriend and to confirm his suspicions about it he went through your posts and checked the comment section.

A total of almost 200 comments were under each one of your posts and finally, after a few seconds of scrolling he found the same guy bombarding your comment section; “wife” “😍😍” “mine <3” eren rolled his eyes, slightly clenching his fists in annoyance.

He turned off his phone and placed it anywhere besides him. Eren was laying down on his bed, his hand resting on his forehead as he went deep into thought. Thinking of ways to get to know you better and maybe even make you fall in love with him just like how he fell in love with you at first sight.

Then an idea suddenly popped up. Eren quickly turned on his phone and texted one of his closest friends.

Eren’s fingers dragged towards the “ + to your story” button, scrolling through his camera roll and clicking on a picture of himself after the gym–shirtless and all sweaty from working out. He added any song that seemed to fit and posted the picture on his story. In a matter of a few seconds, eren got a bunch of notifications– “armin_arlert liked your story” “conniethegoat liked your story” “mikasa_ackerman liked your story” scrolling past the notifications and pausing once he got to a certain notification.

It was a notification from you, your username displayed on his screen with a ‘liked your story’ beside it. Eren felt his heart flutter, it was just a small little interaction from you but it still left eren flustered. He did find it a bit odd though, you had a boyfriend and no guy would like it if his girlfriend was liking other men’s stories. Especially not pictures of other men shirtless.

He didn’t give a fuck though. That just means he was one step closer to having you.

Eren took a screenshot of your notification, to stare at it every time he’s feeling a bit down–to remind himself that the girl he’s currently chasing noticed him and knows he exists.

Eren was already working on getting rid of your boyfriend. So he could finally get the chance to slide into your dms again but he needs to have your boyfriend out of the picture; It was simple really, all he had to do was contact one of his closest female friends to get the job done.

And who would he speak to other than mikasa. One of the prettiest girls he knows, his childhood best friend. Texting her & telling her to do him a small little favor; to text your boyfriend and “befriend” him. She obviously refused the request, why would she break up a perfectly healthy couple? And to have you, an innocent sweet girl, fall for eren’s schemes. But after eren’s constant nagging and him threatening her to drop her and waste years of a long healthy friendship made her agree.

“mikasa_ackerman requested to follow you.”

Your boyfriend didn’t accept mikasa’s request until she suddenly messaged him;

“You’re cute. Think you can settle for two?” your boyfriend was confused, how does this stranger know what he looks like when his account is private. He didn’t question it any further though–not when he went through mikasa’s profile. Pale-skinned girl with gray eyes, shaggy black hair that reached her chin and bangs that added more to her looks, her well-toned body that made her more attractive than she already was.

Immediately accepting the request and following her back.

“Thank you, not sure about the ‘settling for two’ thing though.”

Sure, your boyfriend might’ve done the wrong thing by messaging her back instead of just ignoring her dm but come on, men will be men and having a cute girl in his requests–patiently waiting for him to text back, did not make him greater than any man.

They texted for a while, mikasa occasionally sending pictures of herself wearing a sports bra while at the gym or sending full body pictures to your boyfriend to make him fold. All to which were eren’s requests and of course against mikasa’s will. Feeling an aching feeling in her gut every time she had to text another girl’s man made her feel horrible about herself. She was no better than a homewrecker.

Your boyfriend didn’t cross the line while talking to mikasa, yeah sure he was hiding it from you but he wasn’t flirting back. Sometimes, occasionally, on rare events, he’d compliment her. Saying she has a well-built body or sometimes saying she’s “kinda” good looking. But that was all before he found out she lived in the same city as him.

As soon as he found out, the way he was treating mikasa all changed. Becoming flirty with her, washing her with compliments. Doing all that behind the “i heart my gf” profile picture and behind your back as well.

And it wasn’t long before you found out. Eren texted you from an anonymous account, making mikasa send him screenshots and even screen recordings of her and your boyfriend’s chat for more solid proof. You didn’t believe it at first, denying the proof presented to you.

Until you found yourself at your boyfriend’s apartment, tears stinging your eyes as you held up your phone to show him the screenshots displayed on the screen. Crying while asking him if they’re real and begging him to tell you they’re fake, that it’s just someone wanting to play with your feelings. But when you saw the look in his eyes, shame and regret. You broke down crying, asking him why’d he decide to ruin a perfectly healthy relationship over some girl he met online? Were you not pretty enough for him? Did she love him better than you did? Deciding to just leave and not hurt yourself any longer by staying here as your ex-boyfriend chases after you. Calling you and yelling for you to wait.

As soon as you got back home, you didn’t even bother changing clothes–laying down on your bed with your phone in your hands, watching as it buzzed from the calls your ex was spamming you with, along with his desperate text messages. You dragged your finger across the block button, not thinking twice as you pressed on it. Switching apps to block him everywhere. You even deleted the story highlight, removing him from your bio and deleting posts that he appeared in. When you were finally done, your eyes were red and puffy, swollen from crying too much.

It’s been two days since the breakup and two days since you last posted on instagram. Eren knew that his vicious plan worked, having you dump your boyfriend and getting extra information about you; for example, where you’re settled at.

And what a lovely coincidence, you both live in the exact same city.

eren 🦇

Hey, everything alright? You haven’t been active lately.

Your phone lit up with a notification from; “ern_yger.” You stared at the notification for a while, debating whether or not you should respond to this random stranger who noticed your absence when even your own friends didn’t.

Unlocking your phone and tapping on his notification, dragging your fingers across the keyboard–thinking of a simple, fitting response.

Yeah I’m alright, I’ve just been busy with college.

You clicked send, not thinking twice about your response. Your message has already been seen by eren, you were left on read for two minutes before you saw him typing and while he took his time thinking of a response back you clicked on his profile. You were met with two highlights and zero posts, you clicked on his “me” highlight, feeling your mouth run dry once you were met with a picture of eren shirtless with only a pair of sweatpants and Calvin Klein boxers that peeked out. He was laying down on his side, the room was slightly dim but you were still able to makeout his face. The next one was a picture of his side profile, his hair was put up in a messy bun–his hair also looked soft and messy.

The other picture was taken from a slightly high angle, he was wearing white beaters with gray sweatpants. Once you were about to view the next story, you suddenly got a notification from eren which you accidentally clicked on.

“You sure? I noticed the missing highlights and change of bio.”

If you weren’t in the midst of trying to cope and move on from your past relationship, you would’ve noticed the fake acting concerned tactic men use to get any women they want and in this case, you were in the start of it. And deciding to fuck it and just pour your heart out to this random stranger because you really need it. Need someone to talk to right now and since none of your friends got time for you, you really appreciate eren reaching out to ask about your whereabouts.

You didn’t hold back, venting out your emotions and feelings about your situation. You didn’t leave out a single detail and made sure eren knew exactly how you’re feeling.

Eren was slightly taken aback by your reaction and willingness to share your private life with him. He even felt bad for you, you seemed genuinely upset and hurt but that still wouldn’t make him give up on chasing you. He comforted you for a bit, sending you long reassuring paragraphs. And eren slightly cringed at himself, he has never done this type of thing before—never in his life has he ever had a girl vent out her feelings to him and have him comfort her.

At the end you thanked him a lot for listening to you and apologizing for "being a bother" which eren responded with: “Not at all, I was the one who reached out first, don’t apologize.” You liked the message and thanked him once again before going on with your night.

It’s been three months since your breakup. And three months after you started talking to eren, he helped distract you from thinking about your past partner. He was funny, kind and understanding, everything you looked for in a man. You both even shared the same clothing style, music style and humor.

You didn’t have any bad intentions while talking to eren–you weren’t trying to use him to help you forget about your ex boyfriend. He was the one always texting first, asking you how you are, cracking jokes, sending you songs that he thinks you might like (you always end up loving them), sends you both movies & tv shows suggestions–he says they’ll help with distracting you and keeping your mind occupied from thinking about anything related to your past love.

While eren was the one filled with bad intentions and thoughts. First thing he did in the morning was check his phone for any notifications from you and if he got one, a wide smile would form on the corner of his lips–immediately unlocking his phone to respond back. And if he doesn’t receive a message from you, he’d unlock his phone only to be met with “sent 9 hours ago”, he’d aggressively throw his phone back to his bed. Sometimes gritting his teeth in anger and frustration, stressing over you not texting back.

But as soon as he does get a response back, he’d immediately forget all his anger and frustration from earlier. Telling you that it’s alright and to not apologize once you tell him how you fell asleep because you were too tired and ended up oversleeping which were followed by a bunch of apologies from you. And eren dismissed them, reassuring you by saying it’s okay and he really doesn’t mind—acting like he wasn’t absolutely losing his shit over you moments ago.

Second thing he does is go through your highlights. He has seen the pictures in the highlight multiple times but he still always ends up getting mesmerized by your beauty, way too much that he’d accidentally get turned on. An erection forming just by simply staring way too hard on your photos and eren couldn’t contain himself—pulling out his laptop and logging into his instagram and pulling out your highlight.

He’d zoom in on one specific picture, It was you laying down on bed while holding your camera high in the air–You were wearing a spaghetti straps pink tank top with baggy pajama pants. Your cleavage was all out and was very visible due to the high angle. Your face was mostly the main focus as you flashed the camera a small, warm smile.

Eren cupped his bulge, his breathing shifting from steady to unsteady, letting out shaky heavy pants as he lowered his slacks to where they stopped right beneath his knees. Eren’s eyes were heavy, his eyelids threatening to shut close as he started caressing the tip of his dick, kneading the tip roughly with his thumbs. Spreading his pre-cum all over the tip and slowly coming down to his shaft, massaging his hands up and down his length as his eyes were glued to the picture of you plastered on the screen in front of him.

A moan of your name slipped past his lips, his head slightly thrown back, his eyes were squinted–his hands wrapped around his cock as he messily jerked himself off. Curses and moans kept leaving eren the more he stared at your photo and the more his fantasies about you grew wild. Thinking about splitting you open with his cock while you whine and babble about how big he was, having you gush and cream all over his cock multiple times until you pass out from overstimulation.

Eren fastened his movements, squeezing the head of his cock as you kept flooding his mind and not even 5 minutes had passed and eren was already cumming all over his laptop screen. Staring at the bright screen with half-lidded eyes, his cum staining your picture that was displayed on the screen–he was letting out loud heavy pants, thinking up a way to make you his quickly and fast because eren can’t keep going on like this and it pains him knowing that he lives in the same city as you but still feels as if he was too far away from reaching you.

Eren’s phone lit up with a notification from you, a small smile spread across his lips as he stared back into his laptop screen before grabbing his phone and clicking on your notification. You sent him a couple pictures of yourself, asking him which one to post. Eren felt his heart flutter, staring at your photos in absolute awe. He clicked on each one of your pictures and saved them to his device.

He wanted to tell you to post all of them and that you look beautiful in each one of them but the idea of other men seeing your pictures ticked eren off, he didn’t want other men to see you, just the thought of it had eren boiling up with anger—with furrowed eyebrows, eren aggressively typed you a response back, a not very nice one.

“None. They’re not post worthy and the camera quality makes you look off,” which wasn’t true at all. Eren was sure that even with a poor camera quality you’d still manage to look good.

You stared at eren’s response for a while and then went and looked back at the pictures and the more you kept thinking about his reply the more his words started to seem true, maybe you do actually look kinda bad in these pictures…even though you finally got ready for the first time after the breakup. You did your hair, makeup and carefully selected an outfit for these pictures. You decided to just brush it off, you could take better ones next time.

“Oh okay! I won’t post them then.”

It has now been six months. You and eren started talking more frequently and even started going on both regular and face-time calls. And eren couldn’t be happier, your voice was soft and soothing, every time you sent him voice messages of you ranting about your day to him, he’d melt from the sound of your voice, he’d replay the voice message multiple times throughout the day. Your voice brings him both comfort and easeniss.

But then again, eren was sick in the head. He was the definition of the word ‘deranged’ but you still didn’t know that yet.

The way he’d wrap his hands around his cock while you two were on a call together, he would be on mute as you talked to him about random things–thinking that eren was listening to you but he was more focused on rubbing his aching, hard cock to the sound of your voice.

Every time you notice the silence you’d ask him if he’s alright, concern visible in your tone. Eren would reply with a shaky, low; “y-yeah” accidentally stuttering which he cursed himself for it in his head. Fisting his cock rapidly as you went back to talking. Eren loves it when you have a bad day, he’d get the chance to hear you whine and complain, sometimes on the verge of tears as you rant to him about your bad day, it makes his cock hard against his pants.

11:10PM.

You posted a picture of you in your story but you weren’t alone in the picture, a young man who looked eren’s age with short, light ash-brown hair with the sides and back trimmed shorter; making them a darker hue. He had small, intense light-brown eyes. His hands were wrapped around your waist making both of your shoulders touch.

Eren’s eyes twitched in anger, his brows knitted together as he swiped up and replied; “Who’s this?” you immediately replied with “A friend of mine! :)” eren left you on delivered, his jealousy over-taking him as he kept looking back at the picture, the way you happily smiled at the camera and the way you willingly allowed that guy to touch you like that pissed him off. A lot of thoughts ran through his head, one of them was marking you and making you his already.

An idea popped up in eren’s head. Quickly grabbing his phone and opening up the chat between you two, completely ignoring what you said earlier and typing out; “You free this friday?”

You opened the text and looked at it in utter confusion.

y/n 🐐

what do you mean?

eren 🦇

I’m asking if you’re free this friday? You know, maybe come over to my place.

y/n 🐐

Come over? To your place? I’m sorry but i can’t.

eren 🦇

Why not? It’s finally time we meet up, don’tya think?

y/n 🐐

We could meet up anywhere else, it shouldn’t be your place.

eren 🦇

What? don’t trust me?

y/n 🐐

it’s not that, it’s just that i’ve never met you before.

eren 🦇

Well obviously you didn’t? but we went on facetime calls and we’ve been close friends for months now. I even helped you get over your ex-boyfriend and you still don’t trust me yet?

Eren stared at his screen for a while, hoping that his guilt tripping tactic works. And to his surprise, it did;

y/n 🐐

You’re right, i’m sorry. What time?

Eren lets out a long sigh that he didn’t know he was holding.

“7pm is good.”

Friday, 7:30PM.

You wore a simple pink dress that reached above your knees with black thigh highs and throwed in a plain black jacket to cover up a bit. You were outside of eren’s residence, your breathing thickened before you reached out to grab your phone to tell eren you’re here.

y/n 🐐

i’m here.

sent 7:35PM.

eren 🦇

doors’ unlocked

seen at 7:35PM.

Your brows furrowed together before you turned off your phone and walked towards eren’s doorstep, hesitantly–you slowly unlocked the door of his house. And once the door was wide open, you were met with an empty hallway, a fish tank that was filled with various colorful fishes that decorated said hallway. “Eren?” you whispered his name as you walked in and closed the door behind you, slowly proceeding further into his place.

You were inspecting the furniture, everything looked so luxurious–that you were afraid to touch anything. You heard chirping noises and decided to follow the sound, a mottled grey colored, medium-sized parrot with a vent and a tail. It had a large black bill and a white mask enclosing a yellow eye, as well as a striking red vent and a tail. An african gray parrot was just sitting there in a silver cage, with his food and water in front of it.

You were admiring the parrot before feeling a large figure pressing his back against yours– “his name is hook,” his voice was deep, it came out as a low murmur, you slightly flinched and turned to face him. “E-Eren?” the teal-eyed man looked straight into you, a warm smile making its way to his face, “mhm?” he went and stood beside you and you slightly moved away to make some space between the two of you.

“Hooks’ a nice name, ‘t fits him,” you turned your back towards eren and went back to admiring the parrot. “You think?” eren tried keeping his eyes at his pet parrot as well but the way the girl of his dream was standing right beside him, in his house, right at this moment–makes him unable to focus on anything that wasn’t you. He side-eyed you to take a quick glance at you, he noticed the height difference between you two, he loved it, it was cute. It turned him on.

Eren cleared his throat which made you turn towards him, “so, wanna come up to my room?” you paused for a moment to think about it before nodding your head. Eren led the way to his room as you walked behind him, giving you an opportunity to look around his place even more. And once you made it to his room, you were shocked by the amount of space and furniture it had. His room was big which made you wonder, why would he need all that space if he lives alone?

His bed was king-sized, it could possibly fit three-four people. He had some posters of his favorite bands, artists and games plastered on his walls, a desk that had his laptop placed on top as well as other random stuff, including studying stationery. His room was well organized and filled with lots of unnecessary stuff as well as another fish tank.

You kept looking around until you spotted a wooden door, thinking of what could be behind that door until it clicked to you–probably a bathroom. He probably doesn’t like going out of his room that much so he designed a bathroom that connected to his room.

“What’dya’ think?” Eren asked before plopping down on the black cushion that was placed beside his bed– “‘ts too big'’ you answered before seating yourself beside eren, he moved closer to you, looking down at your dress, his eyes darting from your top to your thighs, that were half-covered by those thigh-high socks you wore. “I guess but it’s not that bad, is it?” you nodded your head, trying to look at anything that wasn’t eren’s face since he was too close. Way too close that you could probably count his eyelashes from how close he was.

Eren backed up a bit, noticing how uncomfortable you were. Eren grabbed a can of beer from the wooden table and opened it, taking a huge chug out of the can. “Want some?” you gave eren a confused look mixed with a disgusted look, “i prefer water” he playfully rolled his eyes before getting up and placing the beer can on the table. “I’ll go get you some then,” you watched as eren went out of the room–his footsteps fading away.

You sat there patiently before your curiosity grew, wanting to go confirm your suspicions on what’s behind the huge wooden door. You got up, unconsciously walking towards it–you grabbed the handle and pushed it down slowly, making sure to not make any noise. Once you unlocked the door, you were met with a dim room–the only sort of light coming from the three monitors placed on another desk in the room. Three huge monitors that all opened to different tabs.

Deciding to just fuck it and proceed even further–accidentally stepping on something that made a slight crunch noise, looking down and picking it up only to be met with a pornographic comic that had dried up cum splattered all over it. You let go of it quickly, your face scrunching up in disgust as you walked towards the three huge monitors.

You bent down a little to be met with a picture of you which you have posted a while ago displayed on the screen, your throat ran dry once you noticed the gooey white stains on the screen–you looked to the right monitor, an instagram profile opened on it which was one of your years old instagram accounts that you used to own during your teenage years. And the left monitor had the guy you recently posted a picture with instagram account.

You let out a shaky sigh, the guy who you thought was naturally sweet, understanding & charming was the complete opposite. A complete creep, a weird perverted man.

“You caught me,” a mans’ voice came from behind you, making your heart stop for a second–you turned around to face him, eren had a wide smirk curved on the corners of his lips as he leaned against the doorframe, you weren’t sure for how long he has been there watching you but probably long enough to catch your full live reaction.

“What is the meaning of this?” your voice came out low as if you were completely terrified of speaking up; “I don’t know, you tell me” eren walked towards you, shutting the door behind him–you took a step back, your back hitting the wall, eren had completely cornered you giving you no way out. Eren took hold of your chin, forcing you to look back at him–he aggressively moved your chin to the side, allowing himself to give you a small kiss on the neck.

You fluttered your eyes shut, you didn’t try pushing him off as he started nibbling on your neck; covering it with hot, messy kisses. “I’ve been wanting to taste you for so long, been wanting to do this for so long,” eren confessed, making a pit of disgust form in your stomach. Eren slipped a hand under your shirt, squeezing your right breast from above your bra. “Eren please…stop,” you finally managed to say which eren turned a blind eye on, ignoring your pleas for him to stop.

“Come on baby, you’ve made me suffer long enough, don’t ya’ think? Always had to beat my dick to pictures of you but now I finally have you within my grasp, don’t you think I deserve a reward for my patience? Hm?” Eren got on his knees and spread your legs apart, he placed his middle finger on your clit through your panties and started cautiously moving his finger.

You looked down on him with half-lidded eyes, tears pricking the corner of your eyes as you bit your lips to surpass any sounds from slipping. He moved your panties to the side and brushed his digits past your glistening folds before slowly pushing in two fingers into your tight hole, he teasingly started thrusting his fingers sometimes stopping mid-way but the way your slippery walls clamped down on his thick digits encouraged him to continue.

You were out of breath, wanting this to end quickly but the praises eren was muttering made it a tad bit better; “Ah, so good angel, gonna have you cummin’ all over my fingers soon, okay?” “fuck you’re so pretty, ‘ts makin’ my dick hard” he was plunging his fingers deeper into your messy cunt, your silk gushing and dripping all over his fingers. The squelching noises made eren’s cock slightly twitch in his pants as he imagined what kind of things he’ll be able to do to you from now on.

You couldn’t hold in your moans any longer–letting out your moans & whimpers freely as he kept thrusting his finger in n’ out of your pussy, “think..’m close!” you slightly arched your back and squirmed in your place, you placed your hands on your mouth to silent any moans from coming out as you gushed all over eren’s fingers. You were letting out heavy pants, you plopped down on the floor, your eyes glued together not daring to even try taking a quick glance at the mess you’ve made.

Eren lowered his sweatpants–enough for his cock to spring out and slap his abdomen, he moved his hips closer to your face and started rubbing his dick on the side of your cheeks which made you let out a whimper at the sudden warm feeling. “Open up, princess, ‘t hurts, y’know?” he pushed his cock against your lips, smearing his pre-cum all over your plump, glossy lips.

You swallowed your saliva before obeying and opening your mouth, your vision hazy which didn’t give you the chance to make-out eren’s girth. He shoved his cock into your mouth causing you to slightly gag, “s-so good, fuck,” you sloppily started sucking the tip, hollowing your cheeks and bobbing your head up and down his length. Swirling your tongue around his tip while drool dripped down your chin and coating his balls, you moan around his cock while eren lets out soft groans; “so cockhungry, huh?” he snickered–throwing his head back while he was still firmly gripping your hair.

He pushed his cock deeper into your throat causing you to choke a bit, tears rolling down your cheeks uncontrollably, eren started thrusting his hips against your mouth, his dick stretching your throat with every jolt of his hips. “S-Shit,” he sharply inhales, letting go of your hair and cupping both of your cheeks instead. You could feel his cock slightly poking at the side of your throat, a clear bulge.

Moving his hips in a slow, gentle manner–scared to hurt you but the way the head of his cock kept hitting your uvula which caused you to gag around his dick and ruin his steady pace, making his hips stutter and cock slightly pulsate as his shaft land flat on your tongue, “f-fuck, keep this up and i’m gnna’ be cumming all over your face” eren groaned, caressing your face while also letting out shaky moans.

His cock shuddered, twitching inside the warmth of your mouth, “Holy shit…” he mouthened before pulling out his dick with a ‘plop’ sound, your drool was connecting to his tip–your mouth hung open, your tongue stuck out, you were letting out heavy pants as you tried gasping for air. Without any warning, a sudden splash of warm, thick liquid covered your face. Managing to get on your tongue as well, the bitter taste made you flutter your eyes shut in disgust.

His sperm was burning your face, wanting to get it off of you fast and quick while eren was admiring your cum covered face. It stained your cheeks and dripped off your chin, your mascara melted and your lip-gloss got smeared all over your face. He was panting heavily but his gaze still focused on you, half-lidded eyes pierced through you.

“Did so good f’me,” he exclaimed, bending down and gripping your chin before pulling you into another messy kiss. Pulling out with a smug look, you looked back at him with a foggy vision–a small smile made its way to your face and eren heart stopped for a moment, the way you looked at him with droopy eyes, messy face and a smile on your face will forever be engraved deep into his mind.

“Stay here, ‘M gonna make some warm tea for your throat, alright? Clean yourself up, m’kay?” he kissed your forehead before going out and leaving the room, once again. You turned your head towards the monitor, your vision landing on the picture of you, the cum stains making you fill up with shame & guilt even though it’s not you who’s supposed to be feeling like this.

The sound of a notification coming from your phone pulled you out of your thoughts.

eren 🦇

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Us after i destroy your uterus <3

[tendousthoughts]

HQ Boys Thinking Their S/O Left Them Pt. 3

Character(s) included: Oikawa & Kyoutani

Requested by: @chibiiichann

Warning(s): Cursing, Mention of bullying [Oikawa], Mention of flinching [Kyoutani], Hints towards readers tough past [Kyoutani]

Song of the day: Trees II by McCfferty

A/N: First off thanks for 200- I know I said it a lot but I’m just so glad! Next, many of you haven’t seen but I have updated a few things. One of the biggest being my name I go by. At the moment I’m trying out Xic. I also noted my pronouns and stuff. Which you can all find on my announcements post. Now back to some more ‘important’ things [though this is important, this is not why you came here!]. Sorry about the long wait for part three! Please read through the warnings again to make sure everything is okay. Thank you for everything. Bye!

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Oikawa

He was at it again. Working late nights and shit. You were happy for him. You were. Of course you were. He was back doing what he loved. He was back playing volleyball. With that happiness also came fear and worry. You knew how he was. Everyone who ever met him, knew how he was. He over worked himself. He always did and scared you. No matter how hard he tried not to. He pushed himself past his limits. Even after the doctor already told him, if he didn’t ease up on the practice, his knee would get even worse. But he was Oikawa Tōru. Determined and intelligent.

It was ten thirty and he already missed your date. Which you expected to happen, but it still kind of hurt. You tried calling for the fifth time that night, but you were met with the same thing. After a few rings it went to voicemail.

“Hey! You’ve reached the voicemail of Oikawa Tōru, thank you for calling! At the moment I’m busy but I promise after I’m done I’ll call you back. If you want, leave me a message and I’ll get back to you. Byeee!”

You waited all night for him to come home around twelve thirty. He looked tired. Extremely tired and to be honest that pissed you off more. Not only did he not respond but he over worked himself again, and when he woke up the next night sore, you were the one who would have to take care of him.

Instead of bringing it up you waited for the morning. Not wanting to have this conversation while he was tired. It would feel like you were talking to yourself, and he wouldn’t understand. So you went to bed with him and by the morning he was already up before you.

You went to the kitchen to find him shuffling through your medication bin. “Are you sore?” You ask, looking at him.

“I’ll be fine, I just need breakfast and some medicine,” he muttered. He couldn’t have cared less. At least that’s what it looked like. He didn’t even spare you a glance.

“Maybe you should listen. You know, lay off volleyball practice for a day or something. Try to lesson the hours and stuff..” You looked back at him for his reaction.

“Can’t. If I ease up I’ll never be able to catch up.” He finally looked to you now, finding the medicine.

“I mean I think you will be fine. It is taking over your whole life and stuff so I just don’t want it to be a bigger issue. Like you know.. with your knees and stuff.” Your eyes are pinned on him.

“I told you not to worry about my knee, and it’s not taking up my life okay? It has and will always be my life. It’s the only thing I’m good at. So no, I'm not going to take a break.” He snapped at you. Which caught you off guard.

“It is… It is taking up your life,” you replied which made his face change.

“You don’t understand how it is like me. You don’t! I understand you don’t have anything you're good at and shit. But you have to understand that I actually have goals in life okay? You have to understand that my fucking life won’t revolve around you and how you feel when I do something. It won’t and never will. You and I are together because I feel like having you around. Because you know what, volleyball is the only thing that distracts me from leaving. Volleyball is the only thing I can do to escape you!” He screamed.

It takes a few seconds for the weight of his words to sink into your skin. But here’s the thing. You knew what you were up against when you started dating him. He just lit a fuse in you. A spark that made an explosion of feelings hit you. When it did you couldn’t control your words. “After all that practice I wondered why you never made it to nationals. I mean seriously. You need a distraction from me, right? Your always doing it, and get you can’t even fucking get to nationals. Not only that but I can see why your last girlfriend left you. You're a dick. You can’t remember a fucking date. A fucking date we have been planning for weeks. Oh wait, let me correct that, a date I’ve been planning for weeks. Not only that but I took my fucking time to work around your schedule. For you not to even send a message.” You spat out. You looked down at him, “I wonder sometimes if everyone was right. You and me. Never belonged. I’m just a distraction from such a ‘handsome’ and ‘kind’ person.”

He looked hurt at first, but then again he started it and intended to finish it. “I can see why your whole family doesn’t talk to you. You always think you're the best or something. Maybe I remembered the date. Have you ever thought of that? Maybe I didn’t wanna hangout with you. Maybe I didn’t want to hear you nagging me every fucking second. You know what? I can see why people fucking hate you. Bully you and shit. Your such a fucking selfish freak.”

“What..?” You looked at him. You told him you were bullied, because you thought of him as your safe space. You thought of him as the only person who understood you. You felt safe when he was around you. You felt understood. To use that against you. To say you deserved it. To say you deserved to get hurt. To get shamed. To get everything that happened to you… it was your fault?

“What are you too dumb to understand?” He laughed at you. Hatred and venom spilling from his lips. “Awe.. look at the baby. You should be grateful I didn't break up with you. You should be thankful because I’m the only reason you're even someone.”

Tears filled your eyes. “God fucking damn it.” You muttered softly. You weren’t going to allow him to take you down. You were stronger then he would ever understand. “You really think anyone wants to hang out with you..? Do you fucking think anyone find you a good person..? Your just a fucking pretty face, okay? Your nothing compared to anyone else on your team. You might not realize it but to be honest sometimes I do want to be set free. Set free from this shitty relationship okay? That’s the truth. Sometimes I get sick of having to take care of you. When your fucking sore before you over works your self again. I am the only one trying to keep you okay. I’m the only one who actually thinks about the long run. No matter how hard you practice in the end you won’t even be able to walk. Let alone play volleyball and shit. You know what sometimes I get sick of being the only fucking one trying to keep us together.”

“Then maybe you should give up okay. Maybe we should finally go our separate ways. I mean after all, you're too easy.” He was hurt. He just blurted out whatever he thought would hurt you the most. Which fucking worked. Before you had said anything more he had left the room, leaving you stunned.

It took a moment but before you knew it you were out of the house, crying and walking the farthest away from your shared house as you could. “Fuck..” you whisper. Did he really not want to be with you..? You should have known. This relationship wasn’t a relationship. You barely talked. You felt alone. So fucking alone.

It took an hour for him to fully cool down. When he walked out of the room he was expecting you to be waiting for him. He was expecting everything to be okay. When he was met with the emptiness. The emptiness of you being actually gone. He was met with the realization that his words were taken just how he thought he wanted them to be.

You on the other hand we’re at the park blasting music in your ears. Forcing the thoughts to be pushed deep down. Forcing you to forget everything. Everything that hurts you. Maybe it would be best if you guys did go your separate ways..? You knew this wasn’t good for your mental health. But fuck that. This was the only thing that made you feel grounded. Made you feel okay. When he wasn’t with you or practicing he was out with friends, drinking and partying. You couldn’t continue to live like this. So maybe it would be best to let go. To give up on everything and everything you loved… your everything was him. You always argued and at this point you felt sick. Thinking about it just broke you. You had no more tears to cry, with your tear stained cheeks you decided to go back. To your home. It was over. Everything you had built up was coming crashing down.

On his side he was freaking out. He knew he was in the wrong. He knew there was no excuse for what he did to you, but what could he say? You were gone already. It took a bit for him to get to the nerve to call you. To his surprise he heard the sound of your ringing phone. So you left it. Maybe you were going to come back. Maybe you will and then everything will be okay again. Maybe everything would be perfect. It was a small chance but that's all he could hold on to.

When you walked in it was quiet, but there were soft whimpers and cries coming from your shared room. Gently you knocked on the door and waited for a response. You were surprised when you immediately heard a stumble and then were met with a hug. Your shoulder almost immediately feels wet to the touch. “Ba.. Oikawa..?” You muttered.

“Please don’t call me that.. please..” He muttered softly. His face buried deep into your clothes.

You kinda ignored his response. “I came back to get my stuff. I took into consideration what you said and I realized that you don’t deserve to be distracted by me all the time..” You whispered softly. “So like you said earlier.. I think it is best if we stop seeing each other.. entirely because I don’t know if I could let you go otherwise..”

His arms tightened around you, “C..can we please talk about it first.. please..” his nightmare was coming true, and maybe it was dumb but he didn’t realize how much he needed you.

“There’s nothing to talk about.. I don’t understand why you want to make it harder on me. I gave you what you wanted okay..? You can practice your heart out and hangout with your friends and stuff okay? You can finally find someone who will fit all your needs. You and I both know that I will never be what you want. So maybe it would be best if we just let go..”

“No… please no.. that’s not what I want.. I want to make it up to you and be there for you and I want to make you happy and I want everything to be perfect. I know I messed up okay? I don’t deserve you and I don’t know what came over me today because you're everything I’ve ever wanted. I know I don’t deserve it and there’s no excuse for what I said or did… I know I should let you find someone better but I love you. I love you so fucking much. I know I’ve been lacking and I want to make up for it. I want to be someone you want to be around again.. I love you so fucking much okay? I should have been there. I shouldn’t have said the things I did. I know I don’t deserve a second chance but please.. just one more.. I promise I’ll make it up to you.” He didn’t want to let go of everything.

“I’m sorry too.. you didn’t deserve it. I’m sorry for everything and that’s why I want to let you go. To find someone who will not hurt you like I hurt you.. You and I both know that I can't resist it. I don’t know why you do this to me.. pull me back.. you have one more chance… Please don’t make me regret it. I really love you but this.. this isn’t going to work if we do what we are doing now okay? We will just tear each other more and more apart..” you whispered gently, kissing his head. Your arms finally meet his back as you hold him. “I’m sorry.. but I’ve got you now baby. I love you so fucking much..”

Kyoutani

Kyoutani was the type of person most people would never understand. Not because they were “difficult” or anything.. they just never took the time too. Well other than you. You were different. You understood his outburst and such. But at the same time you were human. There was only so much you could take. There was only so much you would take.

When he came into the locker room you were already waiting for him. He had been thrown out of the game for fighting with a few people. You knew he was frustrated. You could hear the crowd from a mile away shouting to kick him off. It was harsh. Even for ‘mad dog’ which he hated to be called. He hated to be tied to an animal.. and always being an angry reck. Anybody would. But of course nobody understood other than you. When he sat on the bench you immediately rushed over.

“Baby.. I’m sorry.. You didn’t deserve that.. just ignore them, please. I know it’s hard but their not important okay..?” You we’re just trying to comfort him. But there were times when Kyoutani couldn’t control himself. Like any other person when they get looked down at every fucking moment of their lives. When they are ridiculed and laughed at all the time. When they are nothing more than an angry person.. Sometimes there is nothing more to do than be the person everyone so desperately makes you out to be.

“Not important? Not important! I just got fucking kicked from the game because of them chanting to kick me. They didn’t even fucking have the decency to call me by my name. So don’t tell me it’s okay and that their opinion on me doesn’t matter. Because quite frankly their opinion is the only one that matters it seems.” He lashed out.

“I didn’t mean to upset you. It’s just that.. it wasn’t entirely their fault. You were arguing with the other team members.” You muttered. It wasn’t meant to do any harm, just for him to keep in mind.

“Are you serious right now.? Nobody else got kicked. Nobody. If they can’t handle a little trash talking, maybe they shouldn’t play a sport. I mean seriously there’s no need for them to tell the referees to kick me.” He started raising his voice when he spoke.

“I know it’s just that.. maybe you should try and not trash talk you know?” You whispered softly, retreating a bit.

“What?” He looked annoyed. “God ducking damn it. How can you be so cute but so fucking annoying. I mean seriously how can someone with such a face be so fucking dumb and so annoying?” His hands were balled into fist

“I..I don’t understand, can you tell me why you act so sweet..? Then so cold the next moment..? You don’t mean it right..? Please say you don’t mean it.” You were worried you loved him but god it was hard. It was hard to respond when your friends asked about your relationship. It was hard when they flaunted their perfect relationship and then asked about yours. Its was so fucking hard.

“Do you think I would say it otherwise..?” He looked at you. He laughed at you as he saw your pitiful expression. God it was almost sickening how much he saw that expression. That expression that nobody else had ever shown him. The one of worry  but at the same time already knowing it was coming. He loved it. He loved everything about you. But most of the time you pissed him off. This relationship wasn’t healthy. But for god sake you already started counseling. But fuck this was a bad idea.

Silence. Nothing could come out. You wanted to scream. You wanted to forget this. You wanted it to stop. Everything to stop.

“Answer me.” He punched the wall next to you. Fear spreading all over your face. Fuck. Fuck. Not here. Please no. He gripped your warm face making it so cold in seconds. Forcing you to look at him he laughed at your crying face. But when you didn’t stop for a minute he immediately backed away. He fucked up. He knew he fucked up. “Wait I’m sorry baby..” he muttered.

“Please stop. Please. I won’t do it again.” Flashbacks we’re pulling you way too far out. You were drowning. No one was around to save you. He was laughing as you begged to be saved, pushing you deeper into your own pool of your own thoughts. You were so cold. The next second you were able to move back to the surface.

Realization hit as he stepped back. “I..I am sorry..” he muttered softly as he left the room without another word leaving his mouth. Words were banging on his lips but he knew if he spilled them out everything out it would just hurt you ten times more.

You got up five minutes later, finally pulled back to reality and decided to get up. Grabbing your stuff you walked back into the stadium. Waving a small wave to the rest of his team before exiting. Confusion was read all over as they saw your tear stained face. To be honest, all that was running through your mind was that you didn’t want Kyoutani to break up with you. You didn’t want to be alone, again. You didn’t want to be just another one of his ex’s. So for the better of both of you it would be best to leave him be. To let him cool off.. for him to feel better.

He was freaking out. He fucked up. You. You were his everything, not only that but you were more than just that. You were like a fucking rainbow at the end of a rainy day. You were his partner in crime. You made him feel normal, you made him feel safe, and loved. He couldn’t believe he just put that all in danger. He just put everything on the line because of some stupid game. He hit the wall hard, “fuck me. I’m sorry y/n..” he muttered as he sank to the floor and balled up. Tears burning through his eyes. He did the one thing he promised you that he would protect you from. You became the one thing he was always scared of becoming. He loved you so much, he love you so fucking much.

You left and got into your car. Sinking into your seat you locked the doors, and hit the steering wheel. Taking a deep breath salty tears rolled down your already stained face. Placing the key in and turning it the car started. Next thing you knew you had left wherever you could go. You loved him. So fucking much. But it was hard to be okay when he acted so fucking rough with you. It was hard to stay calm and not imagine your past relationship in this one. You tried. You really did but god it was hard to feel okay, feel okay about everything happening around you. It was too much. So fucking much. It made your head hurt.

When the game ended Kyoutani was still freaking out, now moved back into the lockers. He didn’t know what he was expecting but he knew he hoped you would still be there. God damn it. He fucked up. You had left. You were gone. Tears brimming his eyes as he teammates walked in. Now mentioning it to his teammates their faces seemed to change. More salty fucking tears left his eyes, as he heard about what type of pain you looked like you were in.

You headed back to your shared place. Unsure where else to go. You weren’t close with your family anymore. You had no friends. You had no work buddies. You had nobody but Kyoutani and in turn, now you were left alone with the thought of everything being gone. Ripped right out of your hands as you're forced to watch your whole world come crumbling down on you. You placed your stuff down on the side and laid on the bed. It smelled just like safety. Just like Kyoutani. You just wanted to be held. You just wanted everything to be perfect, again. To be okay at least. You needed him more than anything.

After a night out he finally made it back to your shared place. He didn’t want to be back without you, but you weren’t answering and he didn’t know what else to do. When he walked into the apartment he slowly walked into your shared room. There he saw you. Laying in bed cuddled up in the blankets. Slowly and carefully he walked up. Not wanting to cause you any more hurt. He missed you. Even for a few hours he had felt like he hadn’t seen you in years. But maybe that was because he thought that’s what might have happened. Maybe he thought you had left for good. Maybe he thought he would never have the chance to apologize. Never have the chance to hold you again. When he reached the bed he noticed that you were awake. “Hey y/n..” he muttered softly. The silence was killing him. “I’m so sorry. I know I fucked up. I promised to make you feel safe and protected around me. I made a promise to keep you safe and protected. I broke both of those. I fucked up. I know I did. I lashed out again. I did exactly what everyone says I do. I just get so fucking heated for no reason and I know I shouldn’t and I know I should just relax. But I feel like if I do the worlds would burn though my throat and then it would just explode.. and I know it’s stupid and I know I end up hurting you more. I know that there is no good reason to do that. But I just.. I don’t know. You're the only one that makes me feel normal okay..? I know it’s not fair. I know it’s not. You just make me feel like whenever I’m with you that I’m floating. I just want everything to be okay again. I want everything to be back to normal. I know I should give you space but I missed you so much. I don’t want you to leave, please don’t leave..” he was crying again. He barely had any tears left to cry. He wanted to hold you but he knew it was a stupid idea. “I’m sorry for being so selfish.. but please..”

You never really heard him or saw him crack. But fuck. It hurts you so much. To see him beg for you to stay with him. What were you supposed to do..? Leave him now? That was never even the plan. You didn’t have a plan to be honest. You sat up biting your lip before you gently held him. “Hey baby it will be okay.. calm down I’ve got you.. I’m not going anywhere now. I promise you I’m not going anywhere.” You muttered softly. He melted into your touch. He knew he didn’t deserve it but he felt like he couldn’t breathe. “Shush… I’ve got you.. take a deep breath..” you mumbled softly kissing his head as he took deep breaths. Soon enough he was relaxed in your arms again. “You know and I know that I love you so much. But there’s a line between where I can take it and I can’t. I understand you get frustrated but I don’t deserve to be treated like that. I don’t deserve to be scared of being hit.. and I know we both know that. I try to be understanding but you need to try to be too okay..? I love you so much.. more than you might believe but Kyoutani I can’t handle being in a relationship with you if you're constantly annoyed or angry with me. I think we deserve to be happy.. and if that means needing to take a break then we would have to okay? You need to work on communicating. I know it can be hard.. but please..” you whispered. Tears flowing down your soft skin again. It was getting a lot. So it would be best if you told him… you needed him to understand.

He gently shook his head. He understood. He knew he was in the wrong. He knew he was lucky for you to be holding him.. for him to even still be in a relationship with you let alone it be still a romantic one. He loved you and he knew you didn’t deserve anything that he put you through. In the end all that mattered was you in his eyes. He was going to change.. he was. “I promise.. thank you y/n..” he whispered softly. Gently he wrapped his arms around you. “I love you so much..” he muttered. Everything would be okay.. he knew it was going to be now. All that mattered was that you were safe. That you were happy.. that you were in his arms again.

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i don't remember me, before you | 5

 PAIRING: Hyunjin x reader, slight Minho x reader

 CONTENT/WARNINGS: fluff, angst, a slight love triangle, amnesia!Hyunjin, Doctor!Chan, Rude!Hyunjin, car accident, trauma

 WORD COUNT: 4.3k

 RATING: pg13

 SUMMARY: a rude and arrogant patient with no identification wakes up from a year-long coma and develops temporary amnesia. Assigned to you, a volunteer who’s not going to put up with his attitude, you’re both in for a rough ride.

 SERIES SONG: I Don’t Remember Me (Before You)

 A/N: yay part 5! i'm actually really surprised this series has over 200 notes in total, because like, when did that happen?? anyway, thank you guys for the love you always give to this series! i might make a little Hyunjin oneshot in celebration of hyunjuly (feel free to request something!) and i've already got 2 more skz works that are like 65% done, so like, keep and eye out for those! if you'd like to join a taglist click here! anyway, i hope you enjoy! reblogs are always appreciated (as well as replies/feedback)!

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Hyunjin felt ridiculous using movies to piece together his flashbacks, but it was all he had to work with. He felt dumb and useless as he compared his situation to that of Fifty First Dates, because he was quite obviously not living a romcom. Instead of some ridiculous comedic relief, he had just found out someone had followed his car, then he had crashed, which he could easily blame on a hitman. Had that been his last experience before going down? He touches the scar on his temple, recalling the vivid feeling of blood spilling from it, and decides it doesn't feel too old, so it was most likely right before his coma. It would make sense that the accident had put him in the coma too. And Areum… What happened to her? Did she die? Was she in a coma? Why hadn't they run his plates to find him? There were so many holes in everything, something was terribly wrong here— “So, what’re you thinking about?” You cut into his thoughts, interrupting him with your words. Straightening himself out, he blurts out the first thing that comes to his mind, “Dogs!” semi-relieved that it was believable enough, “I was thinking about dogs.” You nod, plopping onto the couch next to him, “Why?” innocently plopping a chip into your mouth and waiting for a response. You were suspicious since you’ve never seen anybody think about dogs so seriously, but you neglect your instinct and allow him to elaborate. Hyunjin almost felt worried at how gullible you were, but at least his excuse had been enough, “Nothing much… I was just wondering about them…” an awkwardness filling his tone, unable to go into detail on the matter. Instead, he tries to deter the conversation, “What’s up with you?” “Not much, although I think I’m going to start working in the office more,” you drag out the last word, “Which means I’m going to be around less.” Hyunjin straightens at your words, suddenly feeling nervous, “... Oh.” You tilt your head. What was ‘Oh’ supposed to mean? Was he disappointed or indifferent? You wanted it to be the ladder because you were sure Hyunjin and your relationship had passed the indifferent stage. “I'm going to have Minho and the boys pop in to check in on you, though. That sounds alright, right?” He nods. He was nervous, having come to rely on you heavily since the store incident, but he knew he couldn't keep you at home forever. Plus, he wouldn't have to try and be as sneaky about piecing together his past. With his silent agreement, you wear a squared, close-mouthed smile and stand, “Okay then. I'll let my boss know I can start tomorrow then,” rocking awkwardly on your heels as you wait for some response. Hyunjin wasn't necessarily a quiet person, and the odd silence he'd been giving you was starting to worry you. Was he still upset about the hospital? Did he need to talk to Chan about his episode? Almost as if he can sense your stress, Hyunjin turns to smile at you, “Don't worry, I'm alright [Y/N],” reassuring you gently, his eyes forming crescents so you know the grin is genuine. Tomorrow came faster than Hyunjin had hoped. Instead of the calm, relaxed mornings he was used to having with you, he woke up to you scrambling to finish breakfast, giving Han and Minho instructions for what he guesses is how to take care of him. He may not have remembered much embarrassment, but he sure could recall the feeling now. “... just don’t let him use the stove, and make sure he eats before noon.” Minho rolls his eyes playfully, “Yeah, yeah, we’ve got it,” smiling at you with those eyes Hyunjin knew were more than friendly, “Don’t worry [Y/N], we’ll take good care of Sleeping Beauty.” You glare at him a bit for that but laugh afterward because, in all honesty, it was funny—rude, but funny nonetheless. You point to Jisung, “Don’t let him be mopey and make sure Minho isn’t too mean, please?” “Anything for my bestie.” “Sorry, I'm just worried,” With a semi-reassured breath, you set out a final plate of eggs and bacon. To say you were nervous about leaving Hyunjin for so long was an understatement. You hardly left the house most days, and when

you did, you were sure to bring him with you. The thought of something happening to him while you were gone was terrifying, and you were this close to sitting back down and staying when the blond finally speaks up. “Don't stress yourself out [Y/N], I'll be fine,” he smiles at you from the hall, walking up to you, “I'm sure they'll keep me alive anyway.” You want to hug him but resist because you knew he didn't always like the coddling feeling of physical contact. Instead, you opt to beam at him, the apples of your cheeks squishing your face, “I'll see you in seven or so hours then. Bye guys, love you all!” And Hyunjin’s so glad you don't look at him after you say that last bit because he's sure he's redder than the ketchup on his plate. Was the ketchup for the eggs or bacon…? And as soon as you’re out the door, Hyunjin rushes to lock it, checking it twice before rushing back to his room—well, trying to. Before he can make it halfway down the hallway, he’s stopped by the slightly older man he’d proclaimed as his casual enemy. “Where do you think you’re going?” Hyunjin freezes, awkwardly turning around to face him, “To my room…?” His statement comes out as more of a question as he tries to proceed. “Yeah, no,” Minho shakes his head, picking up his keys and jacket, “Us three, we're going out today.”

Hyunjin didn't know what kind of “out” he was expecting, but an old, empty arcade was not it. He gulps, then coughs from the foul smell of the docks, drawing an odd look from a passerby. Jisung groans, waving his hands in front of his nose, “Oh my gosh, I thought you meant the new arcade.” Minho laughs, before pushing the door open, a loud chime ringing as the door knocks against a bell, signaling new customers. “Why would we go to a new arcade when this one is half the price and twice the games?” Han pouts at him. “Plus, Changbin and Jeongin work here. You remember them, right, Hyunjin?” He nods, actually excited to see Jeongin again. They stroll up to the front desk, “Hey! You guys brought Hyunjin!” Jeongin cheers, flashing his pearly whites at the older boy. Hyunjin’s cheeks tint red, flattered that someone was excited to see him, and waves. Minho nods, “Yep, and we were hoping our dear friends could give us a discount so Hyunjin and us could play some games. How about it, Changbin?” Changbin rolls his eyes, before digging in his pocket and pulling a small bag of tokens, and handing them to Minho, “I’m not giving you more than that, so use them wisely,” a warning tone in his voice. Minho rolls his eyes, knowing the muscular softy would hand him another batch if he asked nicely. “Of course. Thanks Bin,” Han smiles sweetly, being tugged away from the counter by Minho. “So are we dividing them up or playing all together?” “Let's play some games together. Plus, I don't think we're supposed to leave Pretty Boy here alone,” Jisung pouts, before following in a light jog—neither of them noticing the almost hurt expression on Hyunjin’s face. Pretty Boy…? What was that supposed to mean? He wishes you were there to explain it to him. “Y’know, ‘cus you're handsome and tall,” Jisung explains, giving Hyunjin an odd look, “You do know that, right?” Hyunjin nods, face flushed in embarrassment. He'd thought it aloud, not in his head. But then he thinks about the tan boys words. For some reason, he doesn't like how the nickname made him seem all looks and height, and no substance—but he holds it in, not wanting to provoke Minho or cause trouble for you. “So, what do you wanna play?” He shrugs hesitantly. He didn't pick much—he didn't want to disappoint anyone with his choices—and honestly, he was hoping you'd waltz in and choose an answer for him. Of course he knows you won't, so he goes with the next best thing: trusting the little voice in his head that sounded strangely like yours to help him decide that a shooting game was something he didn't get to play often—you didn't like the idea of him getting hooked like Felix—so he takes advantage of the situation. Hyunjin was sure he liked arcade games before his coma.

There was no way he didn't love the adrenaline that came with the competition or reaching the goal—just like dancing. He'd played about four shooting games, three Down-the-Clowns and five rounds of a claw machine, but he was still as pumped as the first game. He reaches for the bag of tokens, giddy to see there's still plenty left, and tries again, naturally talented at the stuffed bear claw machine. “Okay, I think that's enough of the claw machine.” Han groans, slapping the machine when he doesn't manage to grab the squirrel plush, “Whatever. The thing’s rigged anyway,” trudging off to the bathroom in dramatic disappointment. Hyunjin laughs at his short figure, grumbling towards the bathroom, “Is he always like this when he loses?” No malice, only pure curiosity in his gleeful tone. Minho nods, “Mhm. I suspect you probably behave the same,” almost teasing Hyunjin. As Han exits his vision, he turns to the tall boy with a less and less mischievous expression, “So, any new memories?” The question startled Hyunjin. He hadn't told anyone other than Chan about his memories, and Minho had never seen one of his episodes. Had Chan been breaking his confidentiality and telling Minho? “[Y/N] told me about your episodes,” he answers Hyunjin’s thoughts, crossing his arms, “Hearing how she described them, I've seen enough movies to recognize a flashback.” Hyunjin stills a bit, clenching his fists shakily. You'd told Minho about them. Why? Had they scared you? Were you afraid of him? His thoughts go back to that first night when he'd practically clawed up your arm, and guilt drenched him from head to toe. “What did she say about them?” “Never mind that. It wasn't anything bad. What I wanted to talk about is what you remember exactly,” he stares at the younger, brown eyes boring into Hyunjin’s, “Tell me what you remember, Hyunjin.” Minho made Hyunjin’s stomach churn in the most unpleasant of ways, filling his being with suspicion and discomfort. He backs away from Minho, dark brows furrowed, confused at him, and he thinks of what kind of response you'd be proud of, “I don't see any good reason that I have to do that,” Well, maybe with a bit less of a standoffish tone would have been praised but he was sure you'd be proud of his ability to stand his ground and making sure he was making himself comfortable. The shorter male sighs, a rough, “You're going to want to,” under his breath. With his catlike eyes, he peers up at Hyunjin, “Just, remember what you and [Y/N] are, despite what she might say. You two are patient and caretaker, nothing more.” Hyunjin wants to punch him for that, but he doesn't have a chance to release his angry thoughts before Jisung reappears. He almost wants to thank the loud male for coming back when he did because Hyunjin was sure you'd give him more than a few ear-fulls if he had actually punched Minho. And as a secret thanks, when Jisung starts complaining about the claw machine difficulty, Hyunjin offers to win something for him, quickly pushing the speculation over his conversation with Minho to the back of his head—unaware of the sharp side eye the oldest was directing right at him. He hopes, for your sake, that Hyunjin thinks about their conversations long and hard, and remembers everything on his own soon. “Geez, why’re you staring like that? You look meaner than Minho…” Han quirks a brow, pushing Hyunjin playfully, as if to get him to loosen up. Hyunjin throws him a delayed smile, giving him the greenlight to play more games. Jisung wastes no time tugging him to a booth for basketball, popping two tokens into his slot then two more into Hyunjin’s as the buzzer rings. The game ends one-hundred fifteen to eighty-five, Han winning by a landslide as Hyunjin can't help but wish you were there to make the situation comfortable again for him. He couldn't shake the uneasiness in his stomach after seeing how quickly Minho managed to switch, and his throat filled with bile as he wondered why he was so interested in Hyunjin’s past. His head splits, and he doesn't notice he's dropped the tokens all

over the floor, shaking and hissing in pain. The air is too thick, his shirt is too hot and the walls are all too close, games too loud. It's all too much, meshing into each other and becoming mud in his brain as he opens his eyes somewhere different. The floor is marbled, a large, black comforter covered bed in the center, the sides decked with dressers, a desk and a medium sized flat screen mounted on the wall. Shelves are decorated with figurines and books, pens, paints and paper stacked messily on the desk, bright colors complimenting all the plain walls and furniture. His eyes move to the window, slowly opening it and looking out, only to see Minho grinning back at him. The older male crawls in, bear hugging the blond and dropping what Hyunjin assumes is a school bag. “Hey! Are you ready to go?” A bright, boyish smile tugging on the older's lips when Hyunjin’s head nods. Then they're sneakily running into a dance studio, changing quickly and joining a few others in one of the rooms, jumping into the choreography. He groans quietly, squeezing his head and staring into Minho’s eyes just as he'd stared at Areum's drawing. He wipes his eyes, picking up the coins slowly and pleading, “Don't tell [Y/N].” Minho and Jisung stare at him quizzically, before turning to each other and nodding their heads, “Okay, we won't,” they agree, pulling him into an upright position and sitting beside him. Han clears his throat, handing Hyunjin a tissue from his carry-on pack, “Are you alright, man?” Hyunjin nods, drying the tears that had yet to spill and leans back on the game’s base. His face was flushed, and his throat felt tight. He was embarrassed. Now not only had your friends known about his episodes, but they'd seen one for themselves up close. Hiding his fluffy head in his arms, he mumbles shakily, “I'm sorry.” “For what?” He shakes his head, bringing his knees to his chest and wishing he could just disappear, “I didn't mean to worry you guys,” which makes Minho scoff. “It's not like you did it on purpose, don't apologize,” he scolded sternly, but there's something softer in his voice, that makes Hyunjin think more about the flashback. Minho was his friend, yet he hadn't explicitly told him anything and in all honesty, he didn't seem to like Hyunjin much. Trying not to give himself a headache, Hyunjin pushes away his thoughts—they weren't for now when he couldn't analyze them correctly anyway—and nods gently, sniffing. The air around them becomes awkward and silent, and Hyunjin’s glad the games are so loud, because otherwise he'd have to explain himself to Jeongin and Changbin too. After thinking for a moment, Jisung decides he wants a bit more of an explanation, “Why can't we tell [Y/N]?” “Because I don't want to make her worry,” and that's enough for the youngest to nod in understanding. You may have been his age, but everyone knew you were the mother of your group, which was probably why Chan chose you to take care of Hyunjin. If he told you about this happening while you were out at work, there was a good chance you'd stop going to the office in a heartbeat and never allow Hyunjin out of your sight, which wouldn't be great for either of you. With another uneven but steadier breath, Hyunjin picks his head up, “Can we play Dance Dance Revolution?”

“Have you all eaten? Ji, what the heck? It's almost noon, find something healthy around you quick—and make sure Hyunjin’s food doesn't have any eggplant or he won't eat it—” you gasp, offended, “I'm not acting like his mom! Ugh, just make sure none of you starve or die, or I'll kill you. Okay, love you.” You groan as you rub your temples, tucking your phone in your pocket for less than a second before you pull it out again, dialing Hyunjin, “I'm pretty sure Han didn't tell you guys what I said, so I'm telling you. Hyunjin please eat something within the next half-hour and please, please don't die. Thank you and see you at home.” You're about to text Minho, but you stop when you hear snickering behind you, turning and glaring at Felix from your desk, “What's so funny Lix?”

“You do sound like his mom,” His freckled cheeks pushing upwards against his eyes and his deep voice chuckles. You puff out your cheeks, still death-staring the Australian, “Hey, don't make that face, you'll get wrinkles.” You stick your tongue out at him, before turning back to your desk. Disappointed with the minimal work you'd completed throughout the entire day. You had tried to focus, every trick from gum to music, but you couldn't seem to focus. “Are you okay?” Felix asks more tenderly, a genuine worry in his eyes at your distressed figure. You nod awkwardly, shaking your head both yes and no, drawing a laugh from Felix when you reach for your phone again, “[Y/N], I'm sure he's fine. It's almost like you've forgotten how to function without him.” His words draw another's attention, “Without who? Does [Y/N] have a boyfriend?” An excited, girlish giggle escaping your close coworker. “Not yet, unfortunately,” Felix informs her, smirking at your beet red face, “Although she's definitely fond of a certain someone—well, two someones—” You whack him, making him stop your embarrassment and chuckling, “Don't listen to him. I'm just worried about my roommate…” Trying to convince yourself more than her. She nods and leaves, and you're stuck with your thoughts. You knew Hyunjin was a reason you couldn't focus, but had you seriously stopped functioning because he wasn't with you? Well, you had been temporarily only working from home—thank goodness for your flexible job—and you hadn't really been away from the blond for this long since that time he kicked you out of his dance practice because he was embarrassed, and you didn't know what to do then either. You groan when you realize you had, infact, hardwired your brain to always be worrying about Hyunjin. Felix, as if reading your thoughts, places a hand on your shoulder, patting it lightly as if to say, “Mhm,” with the most obnoxiously drawn out syllables possible. Cradling your head in one of your palms, you begin to reread the document laid out before you, marking off each box lazily as you wonder how to get out of this rut. Hyunjin didn't think you were overbearing, did he? It wasn't like you were always over his shoulder or anything, right? Making sure he was fed and healthy was what you were supposed to do! Oh no, you shuddered, I do sound like his mom.

“I thought you said you liked horror films?” Minho stares at his terrified counterpart, hands on his hips, as he stares at the shivering duo in disbelief. “I did! Just because I like them doesn't mean I'm not scared of them!” Shrieking as he hides his face under the blanket he was sharing with Hyunjin, “It's so predictable but creepy at the same time...” Hyunjin peaks through his fingers, chewing his lip as he gawks at the screen in horror, “Oh my gosh, please turn it off! No, don't! Just—oh my goodness, why is it so nerve-wracking!” The two of them were watching a newer movie Han had recently found on a bootleg movie site, after he'd insisted on watching it because “horror movies are sick!” and he was too broke to wait until it was taken down and having to buy it himself. After about fifteen minutes, Minho wished he'd said no because these boys could scream. You laugh through the door, knocking for Minho to let you in, as you hear them scream at what you presume is a jump scare. Waltzing in, you open your arms at Minho, “Honey, I'm home!” Doing your best working husband impression as he hugs you loosely and affectionately, impersonating a tired wife. “Sweetheart! Thank goodness you're home! The children have been a handful,” an odd accent to mimic old sitcom female characters. At your giggle, he beams and releases you. Hyunjin is eager to say hi, but hesitates. He loved your hugs, but they made him feel weak and vulnerable—especially now because as he thinks about it, you usually hugged him when he was weak and vulnerable. Coincidence? He thinks not. Plus, it wasn't like he was willing to make the first move, so he instead just hopes you decide to engulf him in a hug like Minho’s,

lighthearted and warm. Instead, he opts to awkwardly wave at you, before you pull his wrist and hug his side loosely, oblivious to how his arms try to not-so-subtly flex under your touch. Minho may not have been Chan or Changbin, but the man was fit, and Hyunjin wasn't very keen on the fact that you probably liked feeling Minho’s muscles now and then. “How was your day?” You ask him, pulling away and brushing a few stray hairs behind his ear, making him flush. As the two of you sit on the couch beside each other, Hyunjin stutters to respond, cursing himself in embarrassment when Jisung raises a knowing brow at him, smirking. Remembering the incident earlier, he decides to leave it out completely, as not to give you any sort of reason to worry, “I-it was f-fine,” cursing under his breath when he stutters unconfidently, pull yourself together Hyunjin. He wonders if he was this awkward before the coma, which brings his mind back to his earlier conversation with Minho. “You two are patient and caretaker, nothing more.” He wondered why the older was so adamant on making him feel so… unwanted. It sounded childish as he thought about it, but that was a mean thing to say. The words stung even now as he recalled how you'd so casually greeted Minho while you seemed so formal with him. Were you two really not friends? Snap. Snap, snap. He blinks, seeing your [S/C] hands snapping repeatedly in front of his face, pulling him out of his thoughts, “... Hyunjin..? Earth to Hyunjin?” “Sorry!” He squeaks, blushing. What was wrong with him today? He felt like the female lead in a certain drama he'd been watching with you recently—always flustered and overthinking the little things. “How was your day?” You shrug, using odd hand gestures and muttering “eh”. Which makes him tilt his head in confusion, only to be brushed off by your waving hand. You didn't really feel like explaining how you accidentally reprogrammed yourself to revolve around Hyunjin’s well-being, especially not in front of Jisung—although you doubted he was paying your conversation any attention with the way he was staring at the TV with such intensity and frightfulness. He nods, awkwardly rubbing his hands over his clothed thighs, trying to refocus on anything other than your beautiful self next to him. You were pretty, which he already knew, but he never understood how gorgeous you were until now—a white button up neatly tucked into your dark pencil skirt, accentuating all your best qualities from your figure to your skin and hair. His mouth gaped slightly at the sight, you were stunning. He only ogles you a little while longer, before something in the movie catches his attention and you waltz off to Minho for a conversation. Unsurprising yet disappointing, Hyunjin thinks as he sees you two whispering and laughing at each other. He wishes the two of you had more conversations like that, just the two of you, goofing off together while stealing loving glances at each other—yes, he'd ignore the fact that you obviously liked Minho and continued his fantasy. Soon, his mind drifts from the events in the movie and real life. Minho must've had a reason to try and push you two apart (he still hadn't processed today's earlier events to be honest), at least he wanted to believe that. He was sure you weren’t friends with some killer-yandere-sociopath who'd followed Hyunjin from his rich life into this one, and, even if he didn’t like him, Minho was reasonable. He tapped his chin, why did Minho want Hyunjin to remember so badly, when he could just tell him? He almost seemed to want Hyunjin to remember more than Hyunjin did himself. Hwang. The name pops back into Hyunjin’s mind, clear as day. He throws a few glances around, making sure nobody was watching him as he pulls out his cell, typing quickly, Hwang Hyunjin. His breath catches in his throat as the results fill his screen, countless articles popping up. ‘Hwang Hyunjin missing’ ‘Hwang heir missing’ ‘Mr. And Ms. Hwang call off search for missing son’ ‘Hwang Hyunjin missing from hospital’ He reads through the confusing headlines, rapidly clicking into and out of articles until he lands on one, “Hwang Hyunjin crashes and goes missing. Suspected kidnap…” Whispering to himself as he wonders how he ended up missing after being found.

His eyes dart from you to Minho, and back. Was he in danger? And more importantly, were you?

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Inure (KSJ)

Inure: To accept and grow accustomed to something undesirable

Part of the “Protect the Village!” Oneshot series.

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Pairing: Banker!Seokjin x FinancialAdvisor!Reader

Genre: Fluff, angst, mutual pining, misunderstandings, a bit of suggestive content (?) idiots to lovers (kinda) 

Note: This was supposed to be out yesterday, but my dumbass fell asleep before I got to finish and polish it. I drank dumb bitch juice, apparently. 

Summary: Having strict, overbearing parents meant expectations, and those expectations pushed you to be a financial advisor for the sake of making them proud. Worst idea ever. Well... Maybe not. Besides, you got to meet Kim Seokjin.

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      “Taehyung... I’ve told you that eating half of your cookies every time you make a new batch isn’t good for business. You’re lucky Jimin and Jeongguk like your treats so much or you would be here filing for bankruptcy.” I scolded the younger boy in front of me. Taehyung gave me a sheepish smile as he scratched the back of his neck. “Sorry, Noona,” I sighed, shaking my head to relieve the small headache I had going on. 

      Taehyung was a good kid. Well... He was in his twenties, but he still had that childlike glow to him. But with the childlike glow came the less than logical decisions. “Tae, you still have loans to pay back and they’re coming up soon. I don’t want to be the pessimist, but it’s better to sell those cookies.” 

      Taehyung nodded, “Don’t worry! I got this!” He exclaimed, a determined grin on his face. “I’m sure you do, now you’re free to go do more fun things,” I chuckled, gathering all the paperwork that laid on my desk that detailed Taehyung’s finances. Boring stuff, really. “Thanks, Noona! Come by sometime, okay?” We waved goodbye, silence now encompassing my small plain office. 

     It wasn’t even lunch yet, and everything has already drained my will to stay awake. It’s not that I absolutely loathed my job. I enjoyed seeing Yoongi or Taehyung light up in joy when I told them they reached their business goal or answered their questions about the best way to save. It was satisfying.

But that doesn’t mean it wasn’t boring as hell sometimes. 

      Sometimes I wished I gave my parents a big middle finger and majored in art conservation. I’d rather be looking at 200-year-old paintings of dead people and bringing a portrait back to life rather than staring at paperwork with endless numbers printed on them. But, alas, I didn’t. Now here in Bangtan Village, I help the businesses (and occasional person) here thrive. 

      “Tired already?” My coworker, Hyejin, asked as she walked into my office. “An accurate observation,” I sighed, resting my forehead on my mahogany desk. “I assume Taehyung’s business is doing well then?” She chuckled, handing me some files that I’d have to look over later. “Now you know I can’t disclose client information, but let’s just say he’s lucky to have gluttons as friends.” I chuckled. 

     Hyejin snorted and shook her head. “That boy... Besides that I came in here to ask if you wanted to go out to dinner after work, but you really do look exhausted,” Hyejin’s face contorted into worry. She grabbed my face with both hands and moved it in different ways, looking at the consequences work related stress gave me. An acne breakout on my right temple, dark circles under my eyes, pale face. I’ll admit I didn’t look my best, but there wasn’t anything I could do about it. 

I had to work.

      “It’s fine, really. I’m fine. I just need more coffee,” I shrugged, gently moving away from her grasp. “Y/n, running on just coffee isn’t good for you either,” Hyejin pouted, gesturing to the 2 empty mug already sat on my desk. “It’s not ideal, but I can’t just not work,” I pointed out, “You haven’t taken any days off since you came down with the flu, in January, two years ago.” Hyejin deadpanned, “You need a break. I’m sure Yoongi and Taehyung won’t go bankrupt in a matter of three days,” 

      I groaned and slouched in my old leather desk chair. “But what if they do...?” I whined. “You’re being irrational.” Hyejin sarcastically whined back, mimicking my slouched shoulders and pouty lip. “Why don’t you just ask Mr. Kim to give you a couple days off?” She suggested. I laughed, “Mr. Kim? Overly handsome Mr. Kim that I can barely speak a word too without blubbering? Me? Talk to him?” 

      I chuckled some more and Hyejin gave me an unimpressed face. “It’s not that hard! What’s so bad about it?” She scrutinized. “What so hard? His handsome face! The way he says my name! His eyes! They make me loose all brain function like I’m not a college graduate,” I pointed out, because it was obvious. 

      Kim Seokjin. Manager of Bangtan Village’s bank. 28 years old, tall, the embodiment of professionalism. He looked as if god sculpted him. A modern rendition of Galatea. He had a demeanor that called for authority without question. When he walked by, you had to pay attention. 

      Some may say that this only affected me so badly because of my tiny crush on him. But I beg to differ. How could you look at that beautiful face and not stutter? How could you hear that voice and not swoon? How could your heart not skip a beat whenever he smiled or laughed? Even if he always played the boss role, I couldn’t help but fall.

      “You’re overreacting, it’s just-” Hyejin was cut off by a knock at the door. “Come in!” I called, sitting back up in my seat and dusting off my blouse. The door opened and the one and only Kim Seokjin walked in. Speak of the devil. “Good afternoon ladies,” He said with an unwavering smile. We replied with a ‘good afternoon’ back. 

“What brings you here?” I asked, fiddling with my hands. 

“I just wanted to ask your opinion on something,” Seokjin explained. 

      He walked further into the room, rounding my desk to stand beside my sitting form. He placed a folder in front of me, three sheets of paper spilling from the manilla cardstock. Seokjin leaned down next to me, one hand on my desk, one hand on the back of my chair. I could faintly smell his earthy cologne. 

      I cleared my throat, erasing the invasive thoughts of Seokjin from my mind. This was work, business, he needed your help with something. Calming my shaky hands, I grabbed the first sheet of paper, examining the printed black numbers and letters. The closer I looked, I spotted the bank’s name printed on the top and different amounts of money though a certain number of months below it. 

    “M-Mr. Kim, are these the statements for our bank?” I asked, flipping through the three pages that contained more information on money and spending. “It is,” He answered back, turning his head to look at me. I looked at him in return, suppressing the gasp in my throat when I realized just how close he was. His honey eyes roamed my face for a moment before he spoke again, “What do you think?” 

      Confused, I looked back at the papers briefly. “Are you asking me to make a business plan for the bank...?” I questioned, looking back at my boss. He shrugged nonchalantly, “No, do you think we need one?” Answering my question with more questions. “N-No, the bank’s doing well.” I said, “We’re not drastically losing money or anything, not losing money at all actually...” I mumbled to myself, but loud enough that the man beside me heard. 

      Seokjin let out a nonchalant hum, sitting back up in his pitch perfect posture. “If you say so. I trust your opinion.” He said, gathering the papers from my desk and making his way to the door. “Wait! Mr. Kim!” Hyejin spoke up. Seokjin stopped, turning his attention on Hyejin, who had a knowing smile on her face. “Ms. L/n actually has a request for you,” She said in a sweet voice, gesturing her hand towards me. 

      Seokjin’s attention spun towards me and I stopped like a deer in headlights.  “Yes, Ms. L/n?” He asked, raising one of his eyebrows. That shouldn’t be attractive... But it was. “I- uh... I’m...” I stuttered, not being able to tear my eyes away from the alluring man in front of me. “Ms. L/n wants to know if she can have a couple days off,” Hyejin spoke for me.

      “I do?” “She does?” Seokjin and I asked at the same time. “Yep!” Hyejin said, giving me a “If you say otherwise I’ll put itching powder in your skirts” look. So for the sake of my comfort, I shut up and went along with it. A couple days couldn’t hurt, right? If there's a financial emergency, then I’ll get a call or something. 

      Seokjin cleared his throat and turned back to me with a worried look on his face. “Are you okay Ms. L/n? You’re not sick or anything?” He asked. “N-No just... I just need a break, ya know?” I nervously chuckled, fiddling with the end of my blouse to keep my racing thought to a minimum. “Ah, okay. You’re welcome to have a few days off, you deserve time off,” Seokjin smiled. 

      After we exchanged our goodbyes and Seokjin left, I whipped around towards Hyejin and glared at her harder than a teenage boy glaring at his mom after she took away his vape. “What was that?” I hissed, crossing both of my arms. Hyejin, unphased by my threatening demeanor, chuckled and sighed. “That, my friend, was you getting a well-deserved break”

      I never realized how bland my apartment was until now. I mean, yes, it looks kinda lived in and yes, there are kink-knacks lounging about. It just looks, barely used. Which wouldn’t be an understatement considering falling asleep on my desk at work is a common occurance. 

     Maybe it’s because I haven’t spent a lot of time here. I’m always cooped up in my office, whether it be my home one or the one at work. My home office looks like I’ve used it well, if all the coffee stains are anything to go off of. But the rest of my apartment looks like a set from a sitcom, purposefully messy, not “I’ve been here for 10 years” messy. 

      It was slightly unsettling how much I got used to something I dreaded. How I threw myself into a routine- an unhealthy one at that- and got used to it. I always told myself that no matter what, I’d still paint. I’d still go to art galleries and watch those calming art restoration videos on YouTube, living vicariously through the screen. 

But I didn’t.

      I suppressed the hurt I felt for not being able to follow my dream by forcing myself to like what cards my parents dealt to me, what cards I played. That fact scared me. It scared me cause even if this was my apartment, even if I had trinkets that reminded me of my favorite shows and books, even if I was away from the pressures of my overbearing parents. I wasn’t living in a home. This was my apartment, but it wasn’t my apartment.

      Not a single thing around reminded me of my passion. Not a painting, not a paint tube, not a paintbrush. Not even an art catalog. I love art catalogs. Maybe I really needed this break, maybe I needed it to show myself that I wasn’t thrilled with the life I had now. 

However, there was nothing I could do, could I?

       It was too late. The diplomas on my wall told me that. It was too late to turn back. I’m 27. I already laid my life out for myself. I would be a financial advisor until I retired or died. That fact didn’t leave a pleasant feeling in my heart. But what could I really do about it?

      The sound of the doorbell ringing jostled me awake from my nap. I gave myself a second to get my bearings. I was in my living room, on the couch. Grey blanket draped over my form while the T.V played some trash show. Groaning, I got up from my makeshift bed, stretching out my stiff muscles as I made my way to the front door. 

       Opening the door, I saw Jimin, the town's delivery boy, standing on my doorstep with flowers in his hands. “Hello Jimin,” I said, giving the boy a smile. “Hey Y/n! Long time no see,” He chuckled, “I have a delivery for you,” He said, extending the vase of flowers in his hands towards me. “Oh, thank you Jimin, but I didn’t order any flowers,” I said. 

     “Not you, someone ordered flowers for you!” He said, turning the vase around to show me a little card that was hanging off of it. “You have a secret admirer,” He chuckled. Confused, I took the vase from him, smelling the saccharine aroma of the peonies and daisies that laid perfectly together. “Oh, wow, thank you again Jimin. Have a good day!” I said, Jimin gave me his award-winning smile as he bid me farewell. 

      I stepped back inside my apartment, shutting the door behind me. I walked to my kitchen and placed the heavy vase down on the counter, grabbing the attached card. “Min’s Flowers” was printed on the front in a style resembling calligraphy. Opening the card, I saw a neat handwritten note. 

‘Dear Y/n, I hope you are feeling better after getting some rest. You should know that you can always ask for a break when you need one, you’re an amazing advisor, but I know that staring at paper work can get a bit boring. I hope you like the flowers, I remember you mentioning that your favorite art piece had beautifully painted peonies. Get some rest, okay? 

P.S. Why was the office of cantaloupes so glum? Because they were melon-colleagues!”

      “Melon-colleagues... Oh!” I chuckled to myself, only understanding the play on words once I said it aloud. “This was sweet of you, Mr. Kim,” I said to myself, smelling the peonies once again. It was stupid how easily the man made me swoon, a simple smile here, a compliment there. Anything he did made my heart skip a beat, and this was no different. 

      I carried the vase to my bedroom, placing it on my bedside table next to my alarm clock. Deciding that I should thank him, I grabbed my phone and opened it to my messenger. Was it unprofessional to text your boss? I mean, I am thanking him for a gift so I suppose it’s fine. I texted out a simple ‘thank you’ message and sending it. 

‘I got the flowers Mr. Kim, thank you. They’re beautiful :)’

But what I didn’t expect was an immediate answer back. 

‘You’re welcome and please call me Jin :)’

‘Alright, Jin’

      “I’m telling you Y/n, I think Mr. Kim has a thing for you!” Hyejin squealed over the phone to me. “No, he doesn’t, he’s just a nice man,” I said, placing the new vase of flowers that were just delivered to me on my coffee table. “He sends you flowers every day! That’s not nothing!” She argued. I rolled my eyes, picking up the new card and flipping it open to read. 

‘Dear Y/n, I got you mini sunflowers this time, they remind me of you. Also, why was the broom late for work? It overswept!’

      I chuckled, turning my attention back to Hyejin. “I’m sure he’ll stop soon,” I counter argued. “Besides, what would Mr. God’s bragging right want from me?” “God, you are so dense it hurts. Did you know he asks about you? Checks your office to see if you came in today? Every single day.” Hyejin revealed. I stopped fiddling with the flowers for just a moment. “He does?” 

      I heard Hyejin groan and sigh, “Yes! Mr. Kim totally has a thing for you!” She stressed, “Jin’s just-” “See! He even lets you call him by a nickname!” Hyejin cut me off. “Hyejin, you’ve been watching too many Hallmark movies,” I giggled, “Friends are nice to each other. No matter how badly I want Mr. Hottie to smack me in the face with his lips, it’s just unrealistic.” 

      “Okay, how about I prove to you he’s crushing on you? Get you undeniable evidence?” She bargained, and I could only imagine the mischievous face she was most likely sporting. “What are you going to do? Follow him around with a camera?” I chuckled sarcastically. “No! But what if you tell him about something you like? But really discreetly. You mentioned he remembered your favorite painting, say something in passing that nobody would care about unless they wanna impress you!” Hyejin answered. 

      “That’s a horrible idea.” I deadpanned, “But if it’ll get you to leave me alone about this, I’ll do it.” I heard Hyejin cheer, sounding way too excited about what will end up being nothing. “You’ll see!” Hyejin teased. I was about to refute her statement when my phone chimed. I took it away from my ear to see a message from Jin. “Speak of the devil, he just texted me,” I said aloud. “Well, don’t leave him hanging, go on! I’ll talk to you later!” Hyejin said as she hung up. 

Shaking my head at her antics, I opened my messages. 

‘Hey! How are you feeling?’ The text said,

‘I’m feeling better, thank you. How are you doing?’ I asked.

      That was the start of a very long conversation. One where we talked about mostly anything. Jin mentioned that he was bored in his office doing nothing and decided to check up on me, to which I joked about telling the boss about his slacking. 

      The conversation flowed without hesitation. There was no long pause between messages, no awkward one-worded responses. Just the two of us talking freely. I completed Hyejin’s challenge when Jin was telling me about all the pretty colored flowers that Yoongi had in his shop. I agreed with him, saying that it would be nice to paint it, preserving the colors in art form. 

But what I hadn’t expected was for Jin to drop a bomb on me. 

       We were talking about Jin’s printer that seems haunted because it beeps at the weirdest times. He was making a joke about talking to it and having it as a friend, and to bring that joke to a close he took a selfie with the printer. Admittedly, he looked very handsome posing next to a hunk of metal, but it wasn’t his face that caught me off guard, it was his collarbone. 

     Normally, looking at someone's collarbone on purpose just seems... Pervy... But when there’s an irritated bruise on it, it draws one's attention. Right there, peaking out from under his slightly unbuttoned white button up, was a bruise on his collarbone. Now, I’m not naïve. Why else would you have a bruise there unless someone left it on you in a steamy way? 

      Maybe I was denying the possibility of Jin having a crush on me to Hyejin, but that didn’t mean I wasn’t hoping for her words to be true. Deep down I wanted her to be right. I wanted my feelings for the stunning man I was texting and talking to for the past couple days to be reciprocated. How dumb was I?

      Of course he had a lover. Just look at him. Not only is he handsome, but he’s kind, funny, hard-working. We were in our late 20s, this was the time where most of the people our age were settling down, having kids, getting ready for the future. There’s probably going to be a ring on his perfectly imperfect finger soon.

That fact shouldn’t hurt as bad as it does...

‘Dear Y/n, You mentioned you’d like to paint the flowers in Yoongi’s shop, so I got really colorful flowers for you. Maybe now you can paint them? I’d love to see if you did. I’m sure your just as good as an artist as you are an advisor. Hyejin mentioned you plan on coming back to work tomorrow, I’m happy you’re feeling better. :)

P.S What’s red and smells like blue paint? Red paint!’

      I felt as if my body was betraying my thoughts as a slight smile graced my lips at Jin's terrible dad joke. My heart still beating for him even if my brain was against it, flashing the image of a passionately bruised Jin into my mind every time my heart rate picks up at his words. 

      What betrayed me more was my body moving on autopilot towards my storage closet, wrestling my way to the back, pulling out tubes of old paint, sets of old paintbrushes, and an old easel. What betrayed me more was my body going to an empty corner in my room, setting up a workspace for my suppressed passion to flow, setting the colorful flora delicately on a spare table. What betrayed me more was the way I didn’t hesitate to squeeze colors out of their tubes, meticulously pick paintbrushes, lift my hand up to start the first stroke. Then the second, then the third.

      Soon I got lost in the motion of forgetting everything. Enclosing myself in my own world, nothing but me and the canvas. Focusing on the details of flowers that nobody cared to look at. Stem, sepal, stigma. All pieces of a puzzle that made up a delicate lily. Those lilies making up the picture of the vase, that bouquet having much more meaning than anybody could interpret. 

      A bouquet that represented longing, hurt, disappointment. All conveyed with every stroke of the brush, every color mixed, every dot placed. Anyone looking in on my life from a fogged window wouldn’t understand why tears fell from my eyes as I continued painting. People would tilt their heads in confusion at the way I stared, longingly, at the seemingly simple flowers. People would whisper words of confusion as I unconsciously desaturated my colors to match the feeling that plagued me. 

A once bright image turned into a foggy photo of melancholy. 

      I painted those flowers and cried, dreaming about the man I couldn’t have, the man I longed to hold, to kiss, to cherish. Maybe it was stupid. Maybe I was overreacting. A simple bruise. A simple reddish bruise is all it took to break my spirit? Silly when you think about it hard enough, but feelings and rationality are a funny concoction. Never quiet going together in how they should, many opting to unconsciously separate the two. Many like me. 

      I should’ve suppressed the wayward feelings when I recognized them years ago. Lock them in a box and throw them away, never to be seen again. Have my heart swallow the key, then forget about its existence. But I didn’t. The nights spent thinking about him; the days spent watching him from afar; they passed like a flash of lighting. My feelings growing quicker than I expected, right under my nose. 

      When I finished, I didn’t move. I just looked at the painting that was a product of my suppressed sorrow. Realizing that not only did Jin steal my heart, he reawakened my passion for painting as well. 

      “Hey, are you okay? You don’t look so well,” Hyejin asked, taking a sip from her mug that aptly said “Cupid’s Sleuth” that I got her for her birthday one year after she set up two of our mutual friends together. “I guess,” I mumbled, focusing my attention on my own cup of liquid energy. 

      Hyejin put her hand on my shoulder to gain back my attention, but after a restless night my reaction speed wasn’t the best, so I didn’t notice it. “Y/n,” She called, and I looked up from my mug. “You’re even worse than you were before you took a mini-vacation, what happened?” 

      I sighed, placing my mug down on the gray counter of the employee break room. “You were right. He remembered.” I said in a gravelly voice. “That’s great! Right?” She cautioned. I said nothing, opting to fish my phone out of my pocket and opening my messages with Seokjin, turning the phone to her to show her the picture. 

     “I don’t- Oh...” She coughed. “That um...” She stammered. “Yep, looks like a hickey.” I said, putting my phone back in my pocket. “But that doesn’t make sense, he’s obviously likes you!” She argued, “Well, obviously he doesn’t!” I snapped, startling Hyejin. “Sorry, but the proof is right there, Hyejin, he already has a lover,” I sighed. 

      Hyejin didn’t say anything. Her face showed she was thinking about something, and she was thinking hard. “There has to be an explanation,” She mumbled. “There’s something we don’t know. If he had a lover, why has he never talked about them? Mentioned them in passing? Or even have a picture of them on his desk?” She pointed out. “Maybe they’re a private couple,” I reasoned. 

     Hyejin shook her head, mumbling out, “No... that’s not it,” Her eyebrows creased as we stood there in silence. “He’d at least have a picture... Why don’t you just talk to him?” She suggested. I choked on the coffee I was sipping, hacking up the liquid that made it down the wrong pipe. “Talk to him? And what? Admit that I’ve fallen in love with him so he can laugh about me to his significant other when he gets home? Not happening.” I said. 

      Hyejin rolled her eyes, “Come on, talking is the only way to sort this out. You’re an adult Y/n!” She gestured to my matured, adult body as if I didn’t already know this fact. “Sometimes, things are best left to the unknown, for the sake of my heart.” I finished the rest of my coffee and left the cup in the sink. “I appreciate your effort, but this time you can’t be cupid's sleuth.” I lamented, leaving the break room to go back to my office.

      I avoided Jin like the plague for the next few weeks. Running away from him in the halls before he saw me, leaving for lunch before him, not leaving my office unless absolutely necessary. Others were starting to notice my sudden aversion for my boss, but I didn’t care. I couldn’t look at him. 

      Every glance at his face, rumble of his voice, whiff of his earthy cologne whenever I rushed by him in the halls, it was torture. I hated the way my heart skipped a beat at everything he did. How my breath picked up and palms turned sweaty. I hated the way he still held my heart captive in his hands, even if he didn’t know it.

      So, if it hurt to be around him, I’ll avoid him. No matter how long it takes for my feelings to dissipate, I’m willing to dance this dance around him. They have to go away eventually, right? I wouldn’t be a hopeless romantic forever...

      I drowned my thoughts in paint. Left my sorrows in swirling blues and purples. Expressed my frustrations in striking reds and yellows. Wrote my whimsical wishes in hues of greens and pinks. I got lost in the empty canvas set up in front of me, giving color to the void of white. 

      I never knew how to start or where to finish, but I just let myself flow. Orange here, maroon there, wherever it felt right is where it went. Soon pictures of flowers and sunsets would emerge from the cacophony of colors that I splattered on the canvas. The worlds that I painted ones of idealization. Worlds where there was no hurt, no pain, no disappointment. 

      That’s where I was now, currently getting lost in saturations of green. Sitting in front of a canvas, I painted a world of my own. This one was turning into an open field at dawn. Maybe if I give it to a psychiatrist, they’ll understand the unconscious emotions I laid bare in the paint. Point out why such a picture gave off feelings of longing, melancholy. But for now this was my solitude, my abditory. 

      A knock on my front door threw me out of that daydream, however. Confused, I turned to look outside at the weeping sky. It was pouring. Who in their right mind was at my door? I quickly got up and hurried over to my door, not caring that I was in my paint stained apron or that I had paint on my face. But maybe I should’ve when I opened the door and was greeted by a soaking wet Seokjin. 

      Gasping, I took in his sopping form. He was dripping from head to toe, still dressed in his work attire. “Jin? What are you doing out in the rain? Come on, come in,” I said, ushering him inside. I wasn’t thinking about anything other than his comfort and the fact he was most likely freezing. 

      I quickly hurried to my hallway linen closet, grabbing one of my fluffy towels and rushing back to give it to Jin. “Let’s get you warm,” I led him to the couch, sitting him down. After Jin dried off a bit, I prepared some tea and handed him a cup. “Thank you,” He said, giving me that same adorable smile. “What were you doing out in the rain?” I asked, keeping my mind off of his charm. 

      “I wanted to come see you...” He admitted, nervously looking down at his cup. “M-Me? You see me at work, Jin,” I pointed out, taking a sip of tea from my own cup. “No... I don’t, you’ve been avoiding me Y/n,” He whinged, emphasizing the “avoiding” part. “I haven’t been avoiding you...” I fibbed, looking anywhere but at him. 

      “Yes, you have! It’s like I’ve got the plague-Which I don’t- Did I do something wrong?” He fretted, a look of hurt on his handsome face. I didn’t know what to say, I wanted to say no, tell him it was all me and my stupid feelings for him, but admitting that to him was terrifying. After I didn’t answer for a minute, Jin sighed, running a hand through his damp hair. 

      “I don’t- I really don’t understand...” He whimpered, sounding like a kicked puppy. It tug at my heart string more. “I’m sorry...” I mumbled, guilt bubbling up in my throat and stinging at my eyes.  

“I don’t want a sorry! I want an explanation! What did I do?” Jin glowered.

“It wasn’t you! Alright? It was never you... It was me! I can’t be around you!” I yelled.

“Why not?”

     “Because I love you, asshole! And it hurts to know that you already have someone who loves you the way I wish I could.” I wept, tears of frustration spilling out of my eyes. I furiously wiped away the stray evidence of my inner turmoil, turning away from the man in front of me. “Alright...? Is that what you wanted to hear...?” I sniffled. 

      Jin stayed silent. Not making a sound. The only noise that could be heard was the beating of rain against the windows and the occasional distant rumble of thunder. “I’ll call you a cab...” I choked out, stepping towards my bedroom where I left my phone laying on my bed. 

      As I went to go grab it, Jin stopped me, grabbing my wrist, pulling me back. I whipped around, bumping into Jin’s wet chest, his large hand still wrapped around my dainty wrist. “Jin, what are you-” “Where’d you get that idea?” Jin asked, cutting me off. 

      “What?” I whispered. “Where’d you get the idea that I have a lover?” He asked, staring directly into my eyes. His face was so close to mine that I could faintly feel the breaths he took. I could see the little imperfections on his face, a freckle here, a scar there. He never failed to take my breath away. 

      I peeled my eyes away from his amber ones, focusing on the- now faint- bruise that rested on his collarbone that was semi visible through his damp shirt. I reached up and lightly touched it, my hand shaking a bit. “I’m not seven, I know what a bruise on the collarbone means,” I whispered. 

“Y/n, that’s not a hickey,”

“Then what is it, Jin?” 

      “It’s the result of Jeongguk’s carelessness. He was swinging around his baton, hit me square in the collarbone. Hurt like a bitch,” He grimaced. Jin guided my hand away from the bruise, lifting it to his lips and giving it a chaste kiss. “The only bruise on my collarbone that I want is one that you give me,” He whispered, bringing my hand to cup his cheek. 

      I rose my other hand to rest on chest. I could hear my heart in my ears, beating in a rhythm rivaling the gallop of a horse. “Jin... What are you saying?” I asked. “When you started avoiding me, ignoring my texts and dancing around me at work. It hurt. I realized that without you, I felt like I was missing something important. I tried to ignore it. I tried to tell myself that even if it wasn’t what I wanted, I’d get used to it. But earlier today, when all I could see at every street corner was a happy couple... I knew I couldn’t ignore it anymore.” 

      Jin wrapped an arm around my waist, bringing one of his soft, slightly calloused hand to gently cup my cheek. Even if he was cold, the touch was so undeniably warm. “I really like you Y/n. More than I probably should.” He admitted, “So please, let me kiss you.” 

      Jin lent down, capturing my lips in his soft, plush ones as my knees threatened to buckle. His lips lingered in place, basking in the warmth mine offered. We moved together in an unspoken rhythm, a waltz we created in our own heads as our lips danced together. 

      Jin kissed me like the second he pulled away, the world we had created together behind our closed eyes would melt away, and he would be back shivering in the rain. “I love you too,” He whispered against my lips, kissing me with more fervor after every second. He held me tighter, his wide hands enveloping my waist in a comforting hold. 

      It felt so hot. Whether that was the heat from Jin or the flush from myself, I wouldn’t know. Our bodies melded in a way where you couldn’t tell who was who. Arms wrapped around one another, legs brushing together, lips clashing in a fight to get impossibly closer. 

      After we calmed down and our lungs started to burn, we pulled away. We still held each other close, not willing to part just yet. “I never want to part from you again,” I admitted, resting my head on Jin’s broad chest. “Me neither,” Jin whispered back to me, pressing a kiss on the top of my head. 

      We stood there in silence, holding each other in an embrace that said so much. So many unspoken words of “I’ve wanted this for so long” and “I never want to let go,” communicated through delicate touches and lingering kisses. 

       The man who stole my heart and refused to let it go. The man who reawakened my lost passion for art. The man who taught me that maybe talking is better than letting things wallow in an abyss of self pity, was mine. He was in my arms, kissing my lips, hugging my body. 

And I couldn’t be happier.

      “Let me see,” Jin said, looking over my should at the painting I’ve been working on for the past 2 hours. “Wow, you never cease to amaze me,” He said, giving me a kiss on the cheek. I was painting the recent bouquet of flowers Jin got me this morning, this one filled with different color peonies. “You’re so sweet,” I chuckled, giving him a kiss back. 

      Jin gave me a smile, his eyes full of admiration and love. “I love you, flower,” He whispered to me. “I love you too,” I whispered back, stealing a chaste kiss from his lips. “Are you going into work tomorrow?” Jin asked. “No, none of my clients need me so I’ll just stay home and paint,” I shrugged, turning my attention back to the canvas.

      Jin watched me paint for a little longer, stealing kisses here and there. It was relaxing to have him so close. “From workaholic to laid back painter,” Jin chuckled, his squeaky laugh pulling a giggle from my throat. “Well, I had someone to show me that it’s okay to have passions,” I said, giving Jin a loving look. “I’m glad,” He whispered, pressing a kiss to my waiting lips. 

[mldrgrl]

prompt: Mulder and Scully being competitive with each other over silly things - Jeopardy? solving the case before the end of an episode of some sort of forensic crime show? how many slices of pizza they can eat? a board game? etc.

Loved this one, Anon, thank you so much.  And I was in the mood to whip up something humorous.  Went to sleep last night thinking about it.

Half and Half

by: mldrgrl Rating: PG

“I’m dying to get out of this suit,” Scully says.  “Give me ten minutes and then we can go through the report?”

“I’ll leave the connecting door unlocked,” Mulder says as they exit their rental car and head to the doors to their rooms.  “Come over when you’re done and we’ll order in.”

She sighs in relief as she kicks off her heels at the door.  She tosses her blazer to the side, unbuttons her shirt, and loosens her skirt.  She clips her hair back, washes her face, and changes into a pair of sweats and a t-shirt.

File folders under her arm, she taps lightly on the connecting door before she pushes it open.  Mulder is sitting at the edge of the bed, tie off and buttons undone at the neck.  His shirtsleeves are rolled up and he’s yelling at the TV.

“What is Mork & Mindy!” he yells.  “Mork and Mindy, you idiots.  Everyone knows ‘nanu nanu.’”

“We were looking for, ‘What is Mork & Mindy?’” Alex Trebeck says.

“Obviously,” Mulder says.  “How did you people even get on the show?”

“What are you doing?” Scully asks.

“Playing Jeopardy.”

“TV Catchphrases for $400, Alex.”

“Book ‘em, Danno.”

“What is Hawaii 5-0,” Mulder yells, just as Scully says, “Hawaii 5-0.”

Mulder makes the sound of a buzzer.  “You have to answer in the form of a question, Scully, or it doesn’t count.”

“I still knew the answer.”

“You mean, the question.”

“Do you want to debate the semantics of Jeopardy or go over the reports?”

“Sure, sure.”

“Let’s try Shakespeare Who Said it? for $200.”

“Double double, toil and trouble.”

“Who are the witches?” Mulder answers.

“Who are the three witches of Macbeth,” Scully says at the same time.

“Who is Macbeth?” answers the first contestant to ring in.

“Oh, come on,” Scully says.  “You can’t be that dumb.”

“Right?”

“Not quite what we’re looking for,” Alex answers.  Finally, the second contestant answers correctly.

“Shakespeare Who Said It for $300.”

“I prithee daughter do not make me mad.”

“Baptista, maybe,” Mulder answers.  “Who is Baptista?”

“No, who is King Lear?” Scully disagrees.

“Who is King Lear?”

“Who is, King Lear.  Act 2, scene 4, referring to Goneril.  And that will lead us to our first commercial break.  More to come after these words from our sponsors.”

“I should’ve known that one,” Mulder says, scooting over to make room for Scully on the bed.  “$600 to $500, I’m winning.”

“How do you figure that?”

“You lost Hawaii 5-0 to incorrect phrasing.”

“You didn’t establish the rules.  $600 to $900, I’m winning.”

“I didn’t have to establish anything, those are the inherent rules of Jeopardy.  Everybody knows that.”

“Mulder, I’m here to go over these reports,” Scully answers, holding up the file folders that have been tucked under her arm the whole time.  She is still standing.

“How about a little wager?”

“On what?”

“Winner orders the pizza of their choice, loser pays.”

“Come on, Mulder.”

“You don’t think you can beat me?”

“No, I know I can beat you.  I just want to get this review done so I can go to bed.”

“Scully, it’s 7 o’clock.  The review can wait.  Unless you’re just chicken.”

“Very mature.”

“Triple dog dare you?”

Scully held her hand out as though to shake Mulder’s.  “We start with a clean slate going in from the commercial and we make our own wagers on Double Jeopardy questions.”

“I’ll keep score!”  Mulder leaves Scully’s handshake hanging in the breeze and jumps up to grab the complimentary pad of paper and pen on the motel desk, which she snatches from him as soon as he comes back to sit down.

“I’ll keep score,” she says.

“You are the math geek.”

They sit through contestant bios and Alex Trebek’s vaguely sarcastic comments on the tidbits they’ve chosen to share with the audience.  When the game starts back up again, there are two answers left in Shakespeare Who Said It? and every answer available in Civil War Nicknames, The Old West, and American Folklore.

Unsurprisingly, Mulder dominates the folklore category, but they tie for two answers.  They both struggle with The Old West more than Civil War Nicknames, but the answers there are easier to decipher within the clues.  Mulder is up $700 when the first Daily Double comes up in The Old West.

“$200,” Scully says.  “I already don’t even want to know the answer.”

“$500,” Mulder answers.  

“Suffering from tuberculosis and alcoholism, this dentist turned gunslinger died in a sanitarium at the age of 36.”

“Who is Doc Holliday,” Scully answers.

“Who is Bat Master..dammit!” Mulder replies just a beat behind her.

“You should’ve known that one.”

“It was the first thing that popped into my head.  What’s the damage?”

“We’re tied.”

“All right, next round, it’s getting serious.”

“Prepare to pay for a large vegetarian with extra olives.”

“Ugh, vegetables on pizza is the antithesis to the point of pizza.”

“And what is the point of pizza?”

“All the pepperoni you can handle and then add in some sausage for good measure.”

“You’re a heart attack waiting to happen, Mulder.  When was the last time you had your cholesterol checked?”

“In May, actually.  Fit as a fiddle.  Here we go, round 2.”

“...categories are: Before & After, Science, Word Origins, Potpourri, The Body Human, and finally, Astronomy. ”

The contestants seem fixated on Potpourri and Before & After, to Mulder’s relief.  He isn’t ready for Scully to completely smoke him in the Science and The Body Human categories.  He figures if he can do well enough in the first two, he might be able to hold firm and maybe they might get to Astronomy where he can make a comeback.  Sure enough, she responds so quickly in the first two Science answers he can’t even get a word out.

“Born this year, a sheep named this introduced the world to cloning.”

“Dolly!” Mulder yells, too excited about knowing a Science question he forgets to phrase it properly.

“Who is Dolly,” Scully corrects.

“Dammit!”

“Your rules.”

“I know, I know.  Still, dammit.”

Blessedly, the contestants leave Science and migrate to Astronomy and since the first answer is the planet nicknamed The Red Planet, a Jeopardy equivalent of low-hanging fruit, they stick with it.  The first Daily Double of the 2nd round hits them at the $800 question in Astronomy.

“I’m up by $1,600,” Scully says.  “You have $3,900.”

“I’m going to make it a true Daily Double.”

“Seriously?”

“Yes.”

“$600,” Scully says, after a few moments hesitation.

Mulder worries his bottom lip with his teeth and waits for the answer to come.

“This spiral galaxy is named for an Ethiopian princess in Greek Mythology.”

“What is Andromeda!” They both yell.

Mulder realizes he’s sweating after the last question and even though it paid off, he vows not to make that kind of gamble again.  Scully berates herself for not being more confident in her astronomy knowledge as she now trails Mulder by $1,700, which may or may not be easy to recover from.

Time runs out before all the clues are revealed and the 2nd Daily Double is never found.  By final Jeopardy, they’re nearly neck and neck, with Mulder at $9,100 and Scully at $8,500.

“The final category is: Computers.”

“Good thing The Gunmen aren’t here,” Mulder says.  “Gimme one of those sheets of paper and we can write our wagers and guesses like the others.”

Scully rips off a piece of paper and they both take nearly all of the commercial break to come up with their wagers.  Scully folds her paper in half with the wager face down.  Mulder turns his over and places it on the bed.

“And here we go with the final answer.  Born in 1815, this daughter of a famous poet published an algorithm for a mechanical calculator and is believed by some to be the first ever computer programmer.”

Mulder writes his answer immediately and Scully taps her pen against her teeth as the final Jeopardy music winds down.  She finally picks up her paper and memorializes her guess before the final note.

“Whatcha got?” Mulder asks.

“I want to see their answers first,” Scully replies.

Mulder bounces his knee in anticipation.  The contestant in 3rd place answers incorrectly with Dora Wordsworth, but only wagered $1.

“I hate when they do that,” Scully says.  “It’s not The Price is Right.”

“Listen, if the category was Nuclear Physics, I might only be waging $1 as well.”

“Too bad it wasn’t.”

The contestant in 2nd place also answers incorrectly with “Who is ____?” and ends up with $4500.  Mulder shakes his head.

“At least put something,” he says.

“Seriously,” Scully agrees.

“And now Judith, our three day champion, currently in the lead with $13,800.  What did she guess?  Who is Ada Lovelace?  Daughter of Lord Byron, known for her work on Charles Babbage’s Analytical Engine, August Ada King, Countess of Lovelace, or Ada Lovelace.  And how much did Judith wager?  $7,000, bringing her three day total to $65,941.”

“Alright, Scully, moment of truth.”

“Count of three?” she asks.

“Is that one, two, reveal?  Or one, two, three, reveal?”

“One, two, reveal.”

“Okay.  One, two…”  

They both turn their papers around.  Both answered Who is Ada Lovelace?  They both grin.

“Frohike would be so tickled with your familiarity with the mother of computer programming,” Mulder says.  

“Yeah?  How does he feel about your familiarity with her?”

“Pretty jealous, actually.”

“What was your wager?”

Mulder turns over the paper again to show her.  “$3,000.  You?”

Scully bites her lip a little and then flips the fold of her paper for Mulder to see.  “$8,000.”

“$8,000!”

“Go big or go home, right?”

“Damn, Scully.  You’re a monster.  In a good way, obviously.  But, damn.  So, I guess that vegetarian is on me.”

“Extra olives.”

“With extra olives.”  He grimaces and gets up to grab the Yellow Pages in the nightstand.  

Scully opens up her file folders and begins sorting the reports for review across the end of Mulder’s bed as he searches for a pizza parlor.  He’s on the phone fairly quickly after browsing the phone book.

“Yes, I’d like to place an order for delivery,” Mulder says.  “A large.  Vegetarian.”

“Half vegetarian,” Scully interrupts without looking up.  “Half pepperoni and sausage.”

“Sorry, half vegetarian, half pepperoni and sausage.  Extra olives on the vegetarian side, please.  Yeah, I’ll hold.”  Mulder drops the phone to his shoulder while hold music plays and smiles slightly.  “Scully, you interested in a rematch tomorrow night?”

“Depends on how interested you are in buying another pizza.”

The End

[casbeanwrites]

Dean goes on a terrible Tinder date. Cas is the waiter and sees the whole thing. “I can do way better than that.”

also on ao3

Cas notices it about two minutes after they’ve sat down. Actually, he notices it before, when the guy pulls Dean’s chair for him, and Dean looks a bit dumbfounded and clears his throat like he does when he’s uncomfortable. Cas is immediately on high alert.

Dean’s been a client here for a while – bringing dates, friends, or even sometimes dining alone. He’s friendly, a generous tipper, and his warm laughter makes Castiel weak in the knees. Also, he’s ridiculously attractive.

Which is why Castiel doesn’t understand what he’s doing, week after week, with a different and insufferable date. He understands why Dean always end up taking a cab alone at the end of the night, though. Cas knows this because he’s usually on his break, hanging out on his phone in the back alley, when Dean leaves, and Dean stops to chat with him if he’s managed to escape alone. It’s how Cas learned his name and the very few other details he knows about him – like the intricate pattern of freckles scattered on his cheek, and the fact that he’s a mechanic and owns his own body shop. It’s how he knows that there’s nothing in the world Dean loves more than his little brother, even though his car comes pretty close second.

It’s also how he knows that one of those dates deserve him, but the mystery remains of why he’s dating them in the first place. Dean shouldn’t be trolling for dates on a stupid hookup app – people should be lining up in the street for a chance to be with him.

That man should be loved and cherished every single day, and if Cas had a chance with someone like that… But he chases those ridiculous thoughts away as he makes eye contact with Dean from across the room. He can see already that this is going to be another bad one, just from the way Dean glances around with a contrite look on his face as his date keeps talking about his very scientific workout and diet in details. 

Cas can only see the back of the other man – broad shoulders in an expensive suit, a haircut worth at least 200$, and too many rings on his large fingers. Their eyes connect again, Dean’s widen in a please help me way Cas knows too well. 

“Are you ready to order?” 

“Yes, finally, we’ve been here for at least an hour,” Dean’s date complains when Cas steps up to their table.

Dean frowns and opens his mouth, probably to apologize, but Cas shoots him a reassuring smile. That guy isn’t the first client to be a dick, and Cas is used to it – at least he’s not the one who has to sit there and listen to him all night long. He orders a chicken salad but asks for a vegan dressing, which makes no sense but Cas notes it down anyway. Dean looks at him the whole time, sympathy and apology in his stunningly green eyes. Warmth, too. His eyes are warm like the sunshine through the leaves on Cas’ favourite plant and they make him melt from the inside out. 

He’s worked in this restaurant for years, has been a waiter for even longer – yet he almost forgets to note down Dean’s order because he’s too busy getting lost in the delicate pattern of freckles on his cheeks. In the admiration of his pink, plush mouth, in the way it moves as he speaks. Cas blinks quickly when he realizes Dean’s not talking anymore, and that both him and his date are watching him expectantly. His hands are shaking as he picks up their menus and his heart beats loud against his ribs all the way back to the kitchen.

Dean is leaning over with his head in his hand when Cas walks towards him, balancing two plates on one arm and a water carafe in the other. He only looks up when Cas puts his steak in front of him and then gives him a weary smile, along with the usual thank you, which so many costumers don’t even bother with. 

“Is your date gone?” Cas asks, slowly refilling the water glasses just to give himself reason to stay.

“No, uh, just the bathroom, I think. Shit, I’m sorry, he’s been such an asshole to you.”

“It’s fine,” Cas chuckles. Dean’s hair is sticking out from running his hands through it. “What does he have on you?”

“What?”

“Why are you still here? You don’t look like you’re enjoying yourself.”

Dean huffs, the hint of a beautiful smile spreading on his lips.

“Nothing, just… my brother’s been on my ass to settle down since his wedding. I guess I want that too, y’know. Figured I gotta give people a chance.”

“People, yes. Him? I think you should run.”

Dean laughs fully at that, and Cas heart flutters happily. He made Dean laugh. He did that.

“I would, believe me, I would… But he works with my brother, and I don’t wanna make things awkward between them, y’know. Straight up leaving wouldn’t be subtle.”

“I could tell him you have an emergency.”

Dean doesn’t have time to reply that the guy gets out of the bathroom. Cas could swear his hair is even more shiny and wet-looking than it was before, as if he’s dropped a second bucket of hair gel on it while he was gone. He’s not bad looking, with a professional stubble on his large jaw and piercing blue eyes, but comparing him to Dean would be like comparing a rock to the actual sun. Cas gives Dean an apologetic look and makes his exit before the guy can comment on how long it took for the food to arrive.

“How is everything? Are you enjoying your meal?” 

“Chicken is cold,” the guy says, and Cas doesn’t miss the way Dean looks at the ceiling in a silent prayer.

“I’m so sorry, do you want me to take it back?” Cas politely offers, resisting the urge to tell him that of course the chicken is fucking cold, that’s why it’s called a cold chicken salad. 

“I don’t know, are you sure there’s no eggs in that dressing? I feel like I can–” the guy ticks his tongue against his palate in what is possibly the most annoying noise Cas has ever heard, “–I feel like I can taste it, it’s eggy, it’s–”

“No, there are no eggs, sir. It’s a cashew nut dressing. Will that be all?”

The guy shoots him a glare at the interruption, like Cas is the most offending person he’s ever met.

“No, we’re fine.”

At that moment the man’s phone – that’s been laying next to his glass the entire meal, Cas saw him check it almost obsessively whenever Dean managed to slip a word in – lights up and starts ringing. He takes it with a rude “excuse me” directed at Dean and steps away from the table.

“Help me,” Dean immediately whispers. His green eyes are pleading, his hand reaches forward as if to touch Cas and then falls back on the table, grasping at his utensils. “I’m fucking dying here. He keeps talking about the benefits of egg white and about how dumb his assistant is and how much his fucking suits cost and I’m about to stab this fork into my fucking brain.”

He still manages a smile when Cas laughs. “I’ll see what I can do.”

The easier way would be to tell Dean that he has a phone call, but thanks to modern technology, no one calls restaurants to talk to costumers anymore. He’s seen Dean use the emergency phone call trick a few times, but on his last date the girl definitely saw through it and started yelling at him in front of the whole restaurant. Dean ended up having to comfort her and his eyes stared at Castiel in complete panic as she sobbed against his chest.

Cas isn’t entirely sure of what he’s about to do when walks back to the table. He has a bottle of the wine the guy’s ordered in his hands, ready for a refill, and he mulls over his options. The thought of just grabbing Dean and kissing him crosses his mind – he could maybe pretend to be his jealous ex, make a scene – but that would basically be assault. It’s tempting, though. And could possibly work, but… 

This is his brothers’ restaurant, and Cas is their best waiter, so he can get away with a lot without getting fired – but he suspects that assaulting a client in front of his date would be crossing the line.

He still has no clue when he steps up to the table. The man is currently explaining something to Dean and Dean is looking down, his cheeks a little red. Cas frowns, and then he hears it – “Look, I’m not saying you’re fat, but you could use to eat a little less pie, if you know what I mean–”

Cas’ ears are ringing and he doesn’t even question it – he pours half the bottle of wine directly into the man’s cold chicken salad. There’s a moment when everything is still, except for the dark red liquid pouring and sloshing and dripping all over the white tablecloth… and then the guy shoves his chair back and scrambles to his feet. 

“What the fuck, idiot?” He yells, his face as red as the wine, as Cas calmly straightens the bottle back up. “This is a ten thousand dollar suit you incompetent fucking moron!” 

There’s barely a drip on his pant leg but he’s wrapped his hands around it as if Cas had stabbed it with a butter knife.

“I’m gonna fucking break your–”

“Alright, alright,” Dean says and Cas finally looks at him – he looks strangely calm, as if he’s fighting hard to keep a straight face. He quickly stands up and places himself between his date and Cas, almost like a shield. The whole restaurant has fallen silent, all the eyes are on them, but Cas only sees Dean – standing tall and protective in front of him. He smells like a field of wildflowers under the sun, he smells like cool wind and an autumn walk… 

“There’s a dry cleaner two blocks from here, if you run you can make it before it closes. I’ll deal with him,” Dean turns towards Cas as his date frantically tries to wipe his pants with a handkerchief. His eyes lock with Cas and there’s a spark in them, almost teasing. “I’ll make sure the ‘idiot’ gets fired.” 

The guy barely lets him finish that he’s storming out of the restaurant, phone against his ears, saying something along the lines of “I know you’re it’s after-hours you dipshit this is a fucking emergency”. 

Dean stares at Cas like he’s just fallen from Heaven and crashed right into the restaurant. Wine drips along the leg of the table. 

“Holy fuck, Cas,” Dean finally says. “I could fucking kiss you right now.”

“That would probably be inappropriate since I’m on the clock,” Cas answers without thinking. He’s too lost in the way Dean is looking at him, soft and adoring. “But my break starts in five minutes.”

He hears the words come out of his mouth but doesn’t fully register them until Dean’s eyes widen and his lips part. And suddenly Cas isn’t standing in front of him anymore, but instead he’s slamming shut the door of the walk-in and leaning back against it, sighing in relief as the cold metal presses against his back.

Crap. 

Oh god. Oh god, Cas has made a complete ass of himself. He just poured wine all over a table, caused a scene, and then somehow managed to expose his feelings for Dean in the most pathetic way possible.

He takes a few minutes to breathe and let the crips cold bring him back to his senses. He still needs to clear his head, though, so he grabs Anna in passing and asks her to take care of his tables for a few minutes. He hears Gabriel call for him – “who the fuck just poured wine in the middle of my dining room?” – but manages to escape through the back door. He’s barely made two steps that he collides with a warm, insanely good smelling chest and would’ve fallen back on his ass hadn’t it been for Dean grabbing him.

“Hey,” Dean chuckles, his breath warm on Cas’ face. 

For a moment Cas is too shocked to answer. Dean’s face is breathtaking form up close, and Cas resists the urge to grab him and kiss him senseless.“Dean, I’m so–”

“Did you mean it?”

Cas stares at him, feeling like a deer caught in the headlights. His heart is pounding wildly in his chest and he’s pretty sure Dean can feel it. Their noses are inches apart. Dean’s never looked quite as beautiful, the hard lines of his face softened by the yellow glow of the street lamps. 

His eyes dart down to Cas’ lips, then back up again. His grips softens around Cas’ waist but his hands remain there, warmth seeping through Cas’ clothes and onto his skin.

“Yes,” he breathes out. He feels like he’s under a spell. Dean’s eyes flick down to his mouth again and he licks his own lips. “I’ve been wanting to kiss you since the first time you walked into the restaurant.”

“Damn it, Cas. You should’ve said something earlier.”

Before Cas can reply, a smooth, warm mouth presses against his lips. His eyes flutter close, his fingers grasp at Dean’s shirt to bring him closer. The kiss is gentle, soft and tentative at first, but Cas can’t resist deepening it. Dean groans his approval and his arm curls around Cas’ waist, slamming him against his chest, his other hand sneaking into Cas’ hair and pulling. Cas pants, heaves, grasps at Dean’s strong shoulder as if he could possibly hold him closer. This is so much better than anything he’s dreamed about, Dean’s lips are plump and soft and fucking sinful to bite into, his tongue is playful and warm and Cas feels shivers running under his skin and deep into his bones.

“Really should’ve done that a lot sooner,” Dean mumbles when they finally part. He still keeps them close, resting his forehead against Cas’. 

His cheeks are deliciously pink and Cas can’t quite believe he’s real. 

“Maybe I should give you my phone number so you can call me and save me next time I’m on a shitty date,” Dean murmurs, letting his lips run along Cas’ jaw, then down his neck.

Cas freezes. Again, the words leave his mouth before he can even think about them.

“Or maybe I should give you my phone number so you never have to go on another shitty date again.”

Dean smiles wide and bright, and his neck kiss leaves Cas dizzy and barely able to stand on his wobbly legs.

“Yeah. Yeah, I think you should do that.”

[angelbabylu]

Birthday Present // CH

pairing: reader x calum 

warnings: fluff, smut towards the very end so you can skip it if you want, an itsy bitsy bit of angst 

word count: 5.5k ish 

notes: this was really supposed to be a short fic about you and Cal fucking for his birthday but my brain decided to add an extra 3 thousand words of plot so??? which is also why i’m posting this more than a week after his birthday haha. also i’m the only one who has edited this so if you find mistakes let me know so i can fix them.

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Calum was on the couch across from Luke idly plucking at his bass strings. The two of them were supposed to be working on the rhythm and lyrics for a song Luke had written a few days before. They had only been together for five minutes before it became clear they were both not in the mood to get anything done.

His eyes flickered from Calum to the notebook in his lap, where his handwriting was scrawled, barely decipherable, pen ink smeared from the tears he had cried while writing it. They were lyrics about a stupid fight he and Sierra were both too stubborn to apologize to each other about. This never got easier for him - putting himself in his lyrics like this. But what was he supposed to write about if not himself?

Sighing, he looked back up at Calum whose random plucking had yet to become a discernable bassline. Calum wasn’t getting anywhere with the rhythm and Luke didn’t want to put any effort into finishing the lyrics. With the wound still fresh, it was hard for him to put words to his pain. He decided to make an attempt, anyway.

“What do you think about this,” he said, trying to grab Calum’s attention before reading off the pre-chorus idea that had been stuck in his head for the past few days.

He looked up to Calum for his advice. It was no secret that Calum was a crazy talented songwriter. Luke almost always deferred to his judgment on these things. But Calum was not paying attention to him. Instead, he was miles away, smiling at what Luke hoped wasn’t the lyrics about heartbreak.

Luke had to call his name three times before his eyes refocused, locking with Luke’s for the first time that session.

“Huh?” he asked, trying to seem as if he was listening along. “Sorry, I didn’t catch that last part.”

“I said, what do you think about the pre-chorus?”

“Yeah, it’s really – “

Before he could come up with a bullshit answer to pretend he had been listening, Luke leveled him with a glare.

Calum’s mouth snapped shut.

“Sorry,” he grimaced.

Luke closed his notebook and relaxed back into the loveseat. Honestly, he was thankful for a reason not to think about the lyrics or how much he missed Sierra. “Want to tell me what you were thinking about?”

“No, man.” Calum was replying, removing the bass from his lap and placing it in the stand next to the couch. “Today’s supposed to be about you. Run those lyrics by me one more time.”

Luke really didn’t want to, so instead he took a guess. “Were you thinking about (Y/N)?”

(Y/N) was a friend of the band. They had met her at a party in West Hollywood early last year where they all became fast friends. On New Year’s a few weeks ago, Luke, Calum, and Ashton ended up at the same party as her. Calum had mentioned a few times that he regretted not kissing her that night. Luke, knowing what a hopeless romantic Calum was, guessed that was what had him smiling and staring off into space.

Calum blushed and tried to hide his face at the mention of her name.

“Calum,” Luke couldn’t help his teasing tone. He was so gone for her it was cute. “(Y/N)? Seriously?”

Next thing he knew, the pillow closest to Calum was sailing through the air and hitting him in the face.

“Shut up,” Cal grumbled, the smile and the blush never leaving his face. “I never said anything about how vomit-inducing you were with Sierra.”

Luke threw the pillow back at him with a little bit more force than necessary. “Actually, you did.” Calum, Michael, and Ashton had teased him about her for months. “But let’s not talk about Sierra.”

He could see the second Calum remembered why they were in the studio, the second he remembered the lyrics they were supposed to be working on that day.

Calum’s lips twitched downward into a small worried frown; then, he was sitting forward, elbows coming to rest on his knees. Luke instantly recognized these motions as signs of Calum wanting to have a talk. “Luke,” He said, voice softening as if he thought that speaking too loud would re-break Luke’s heart. “You and Sierra will be fine. Why don’t you just call her and talk to her?”

Luke shook his head. He didn’t want to be the first one to reach out to her. Yes, his behavior was childish and stubborn, but so was hers. He hadn’t heard a peep from her in two weeks, the longest they’ve ever gone without speaking to each other. The worst part is that she left L.A. to visit her dad and none of her friends seemed to know when she would be back. This meant that their old song and dance of getting mad at each other then running into each other at Ashton’s house and instantly apologizing wasn’t going to work this time.

Luke didn’t want to think about it, so again he tried to change the subject.

“Your birthday is coming up! What are we doing?”

Luke watched as Calum decided whether he should go along with Luke’s misdirection or attempt to have it out about how Luke was feeling.

“Fuck my birthday.”

He released a sigh in relief as Calum chose the second option.  

“I’d be happy to just stay at home and sleep,” Calum continued truthfully.

“You’re so fucking boring, man. Are you turning 23 or 40?”

Calum rolled his eyes, “75 actually.” He was probably tired of how often his friends called him an old man. Not that Calum didn’t enjoy a good party - he was just more lowkey than Luke or Ashton. “You guys’ll be pretty pissed if I don’t have a party, huh?”

“It’s not like we need an excuse to party - but it’s nice to have one. Besides, it’s not every day that you turn 23. We should celebrate!”

“There’s also nothing exciting about turning 23. It’s not like 21 or 18. If I spend this one birthday getting drunk on my couch and watching Bojack Horseman, it’s not like I’m going to regret it.”

A part of Luke didn’t want to push Calum too hard. It was his birthday. But a louder, more selfish part wanted a party. Anything to take his mind off Sierra. Plus, if he was clever, he could plan a party both he and Calum could benefit from.

“How about this? You throw a party, I’ll invite (Y/N).”

Calum pretended to take a minute to consider - but Luke knew there was no way Calum would turn him down.

His answer was, “Don’t be weird about it.”

Luke was confused. “Huh?”

“Don’t be weird about inviting (Y/N). Don’t tell her that I’m only having a party so I’d get to see her or something weird like that.”

Calum knew Luke too well. “Yeah of course,” Luke lied, hoping Calum would bite. “I’ll just tell her I need company or something, because of the whole Sierra situation.”

“Okay.”

Hook, line, and sinker. “Okay?” He didn’t bother concealing his excitement. “We’re having a party?”

“Yeah.” Calum sighed. “Let’s have a fucking party.”

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Calum was not enjoying his party. He had invited 100 people, but there were close to 200 packed into his living room alone, even more milling around in the kitchen. There were people in his house that he barely knew and definitely had not imagined spending his birthday with. He couldn’t even move around his living room without someone bumping into him. When a girl whose face he didn’t even recognize tried to start a conversation with him, he finally had too much. Before she could even begin speaking, he turned around and pushed through the crowd towards his backyard.

The most annoying part of this entire birthday party ordeal was Luke.

Hours after they had decided on the party, Sierra showed up at Luke’s door with tears and apologies. No matter how many times Calum had spoken to Luke since then, he couldn’t seem to get a concrete answer on whether or not he had invited (Y/N). His mind was all Sierra all the time. Calum didn’t have it in his heart to feel anything more than mild annoyance, however, knowing how much the two-week spat had affected his best friend.

Now, Luke was probably off with Sierra somewhere, and Calum was heading outside alone with a pack of cigarettes and a lighter.

A lit cigarette in hand, he leaned his forearms on the railing of his deck, his back to the party going on inside his house. He should have kissed (Y/N) when he had the chance on New Years. The more he tried not to think about it, the more the thought stayed at the forefront of his mind. In truth, it was all he had thought about in the three weeks since then. He needed to see her again. Desperately. Before his mind started writing lyrics about it.

“You do not look like you’re enjoying your own party.”

He turned so fast, his cigarette almost flew out of his hand. If he believed in that sort of thing, he would have thought her an answer to his prayers.

“I’m not,” he said, trying to control the widening grin that contradicted the somberness of his words. “Too many people.”

“Oh definitely.” She was like him, her willingness to be in a crowd very dependent on her mood.

“You know,” he began, gesturing with his cigarette, ash flicking off the edge. “There are people here tonight that I’ve never even met? They walked in saying ‘It’s your birthday!’ and I had to restrain myself from saying, ‘Yeah I know that, do you?’”

She laughed, and he hated how he was so gone for her that even her laugh made his heart jump.

“Maybe they were asking you - to make sure that they were at the right house, you know?”

Calum snickered. “It’s your birthday?” He mocked, exaggerating the question.

“So it is your birthday! Perfect, that means I have the right house.”

It was a dumb joke, but it had her giggling at him, so he counted it as a win.

“Do you want me to go kick them out?” She asked after a beat. “I totally would.” And she would. That’s one of the things he liked the most about her. She didn’t really care what other people thought. Which was perfect, because it could be said that he cared too much.

“Nah,” He responded. “But keep me company, maybe?” He couldn’t care less what was happening in his house at that moment. Not if she was out there with him.

“Of course.”

A moment passed where they both just stood, smiling at each other, soaking up this nearness they hadn’t shared since New Year’s. There was a magnetism about her that had Calum taking a few steps closer. “I was afraid you wouldn’t be here,” he was saying, and he hated how something about her presence pulled confessions from him. He hated even more how desperate he was for her to feel the same.

“Why wouldn’t I be here?”

“Well,” Calum began to explain. “I know Luke invited you because he didn’t want to be alone after the whole Sierra thing. . .”

At the look on her face, he trailed off. The way she bit her lip to hide a grimace suggested that Luke hadn’t invited her as his plus one.

“Fuck,” he groaned. “What did he say to you?”

Anxious for her answer, he took a drag of his cigarette, giving his mouth something to do. He knew he should have invited her himself.  He shouldn’t have trusted Luke not to embarrass him.

“Are you sure you want to know?” she asked, already pulling her cell phone from her pocket.  

Calum wasn’t, but he nodded anyway.

He immediately cringed as she started to read. “Calum desperately wants you at his party, but he’s too afraid to ask you himself. Please come and make out with him or something. Put the man out of his misery.”

“Fuck,” Calum groaned, dragging out the word, before taking another puff of his cigarette. He was going to murder Luke.

(Y/N) must have seen the murderous intent on his face - or perhaps the flush of embarrassment - because she was smiling sweetly and stepping closer to him and saying, “Well it worked, didn’t it? I’m here.”

She was there, despite the very embarrassing text she had received. He was about to ask what that meant for them when she shivered and pushed her hand into the pocket at the front of her hoodie.

“You’re cold,” he said, and before he could think better of it he followed up with, “Want to share my jacket?”

They both blushed at the implications of his words. Then, in true (Y/N) like fashion, she teased him about it. “Are you putting the moves on me, Hood?”

Calum considered shooting back a teasing joke of his own, but he needed to know, “Is it working?”

“Yeah,” she breathed out, crossing the few steps between them, wrapping her arms around him, resting her head on his chest. Calum’s heart fluttered as his chest touched hers, one arm reaching up and around her, pulling her closer. He had to breathe in deep to keep his emotions in check. He realized too late that taking a deep breath was a bad idea. Her scent, her touch - his senses were overflowing with her.

It didn’t help that his mind was racing a million miles an hour, going over everything that happened in the past 5 minutes with her, making sure that he wasn’t misreading anything. He wanted to ask her what it all meant, that she came despite the embarrassing text, that she stood in front of him, arms around his waist, face on his chest.

She distracted him from the question again by groaning, “Fuck, you’re always so warm,” and melting further into his chest. “My hands are freezing. Do you mind if I-?” She was pushing up the back of his shirt, asking for skin-to-skin contact.

He doesn’t hesitate before saying, “Yeah, of course.”

But, as soon as her hands touched his back, he was jumping away from her and she was laughing as he shivered.

“Goddamn,” he exclaimed. With the hand not holding the cigarette, he reached for hers, rubbing her icy fingers with his thumb. “Why are you so cold?”

“I warned you!”

“I know. I just wasn’t expecting it, is all.” He popped the cigarette into his mouth so he could have both hands free. Then, he grabbed each of her hands in each of his and rubbed them together, before ushering them back beneath his jacket and his shirt. When the cold of her fingers hit his skin for the second time, he barely flinched. His right arm came around her again, the left taking the cigarette from her mouth.

The stood quietly for a moment before he realized, “You are the perfect height for me to rest my chin on your head.”

She squeezed him tighter, then dislodged his head from hers by leaning her head away and looking up to meet his eyes.

“To quote Luke,” and he knew exactly where she was going with that statement.

“Throwing some cheddar in the works here.” They both finished together with a laugh.

“Sorry. Just something about you makes me such a fucking cliche.” He immediately had to stick his cigarette back into his mouth to avoid saying anything else he would eventually regret.

She watched as he avoided speaking with one puff and then another.

“Those things will kill you, you know.”

He rolled his eyes and laughed. “You smoke more than I do.”

“Yeah,” She sighed. “We should try quitting again, maybe?”

As soon as the words leave her mouth, they’re both laughing again. They had both tried to quit late last year. It did not go very well. It was two weeks before she was caving and three weeks before he followed suit.

“But,” she said, voice low, once they had their laughter under control. “If you put the cigarette out, you could kiss me maybe?”

He had never dropped a cigarette so fast. He snuffed it out beneath his feet and brought the hand that was holding the cigarette to rest on her face.

“Yeah?” He asked, eyes flickering from her lips to her eyes, looking for any hesitation.

Before she could finish nodding, his lips were on hers.

Calum was afraid to go to seem overeager. He knew he had wanted this - craved this - for months now, but he didn’t know where she stood. He didn’t know if this was a decision made in the moment, if this was a decision made because of Luke’s shitty text, or if, like him, this kiss had been the subject of her daily daydreams.

So, he tried to take it slow with her. Lips pressed hard together, hand gently cradling her head, rubbing softly at the hairs at her nape. She had other ideas. It only took a minute before she was pushing for more, moving her hand from under his jacket, up around his shoulders. Her fingers tangled in his blonde hair, pulling him closer, opening up her mouth to him. He barely had time to groan “fuck,” against her open mouth before they were deepening the kiss. He finally allowed himself to get lost in the taste and feel of her - so lost, it was not until his head began to spin that he realized he had not been breathing.

He pulled away, chest heaving. As he caught his breath, she leaned forward to attach her lips to his neck.

“You’re trying to kill me,” he panted, the hand that previously cradled her head running down her back, coming to rest parallel to the other on her waist. He squeezed as she detached her lips from his neck with a wet sound, then leaned forward again to bite down.

“You have no idea how long I’ve been waiting to do this,” she was saying - but he could barely understand her with his skin still between her teeth.

He replaced the hand on the back of her head, to guide her back into another heated kiss. He didn’t want to assume where this was heading, but he’d fuck her right there on his deck if she’d let him. The issue was there were 200 people on the other side of his sliding glass door that would be getting a free show.

“We should take this upstairs, maybe?” He asked when they came up for air again, relieved when she nodded, grabbed his arm, and led him back inside. She had been to his house often enough to know the route to his bedroom blindfolded, but the massive amount of people still gathered in his living room made it hard to push through.

Cal was annoyed, grunting, “Fuck people,” when they were finally enveloped in the silence of his soundproofed bedroom. She didn’t seem to care. She just toed off her shoes and got on the bed before removing her hoodie, tossing it somewhere on the floor.  

Calum instantly forgot about the mass of people in his house, his sole focus on her. She wasn’t wearing a bra. Instead, she wore a thin white camisole that left nothing to Calum’s imagination. He felt his mouth water at her nipples peeking through.

“Damn.” He whispered under his breath, appreciative and aroused at the sight in front of him. He moved towards her, toeing off his shoes as well.

She laughed, and he wasn’t sure what prompted the laughter until she asked, “Do you think this is what Luke meant when he asked me to make out with you or something?”

Calum groaned, unbuttoning his pants and dropping them to the ground. “Please don’t talk about my bandmates while I have a half chub.”

She was laughing even harder then, waiting for him to step out of his pants, before pulling him down to sit against the headboard and straddling him. “You’re right,” she said, ass immediately grinding down to meet his erection. His hands flew to her waist in surprise. He released a low his hiss of arousal, his head tipping back in frustration. “Let’s get you all the way there, then we can talk about Luke.”

He ended the Luke conversation the best way he knew how - bringing their lips together to meet once more. Her laughter turned to whines as he gripped her ass and ground up against her a few times. Then, he gently shifted them, rolling them over so she could lie down, and he could hover over her, attaching his lips gently to the place where her jaw met her neck. He kissed softly down her throat, hands underneath the camisole, moving slowly towards her breasts.

“This okay?” he asked, pushing the camisole up, almost to her armpits, ready to take it off.

She nodded, sat up, and removed the thin material. As soon as she was under him again, his lips were attached to one nipple, his hand pinching and rolling the other. He loved the sounds that she made and the movement of her body as she whined and arched up towards him.

“Feels so good,” she huffed, voice high and breathless. Calum moved on to the other nipple, sucking and tugging lightly with his teeth. This had her whining, “Fuck yeah,” hips snapping up, trying to seek friction from Calum’s body. Her jeans needed to go. Besides, there were other places that he wanted to get his lips on.

He left her breasts with a final kiss on both, then slowly trailed his kisses downward. He feathered a kiss on each of the freckles she had scattered across her stomach, before reaching her belly button, dipping into it, and blowing cool air over it lightly. 

Finally reaching the button of her jeans, he looked up to her for approval. She nodded and moaned, “Jesus,” running her hand through his hair. “I love that you do that. I love that you ask for approval every step of the way. It’s fucking hot.”

He hummed in agreement, unbuttoning her pants, waiting for her to lift her hips so he could roll them down. “There is nothing hotter than enthusiastic, verbal consent,” he croaked, voice gruff with arousal. And it was true - he loved it when women were vocal about wanting him.

(Y/N) was smiling again. “Look at us. We could be the face of the next high school sex-ed consent campaign.”

Calum chuckled as he finished taking her pants all the way off, throwing them over the side of the bed. He liked this with her - he liked that they could still joke with each other in the middle of sex. Another part of him wondered what it would take to leave her speechless. He gave it a shot.

He made quick work of her panties before settling between her thighs, scruff, and lips gently rubbing and kissing the sensitive skin there. “I’ve wanted to eat you out for ages,” he hummed, before giving the same attention to the other thigh. “Thought about holding you down for hours - maybe get you to ride my face?” He looked up to see if that would be something she was into.

And it was if the dark flush that had overtaken her was any indication. She whined and bent her knees, running her foot up the side of his body. “Not tonight though, Calum,” her hand running through his hair. “Want you to fuck me.”

At that, Calum felt a wave of arousal flush through him. He nodded. He could do that. He had been dreaming about that. But first, “Just a taste, okay?”

He waited until she was nodding before he brought his head back down. He didn’t taste her immediately - he went back to her thighs, nipping at them, loving the sounds she made as his scruff rubbed lightly against them.

“Cal, don’t tease.” She pushed slightly, trying to direct him towards her pussy. He just moved over to the next thigh.

It wasn’t until she whined “Cal,” again that he gave into her. He flattened his tongue and ran it over her clit before taking it between his lips and sucking. She cried out, bending her other knee, bringing it up to match the other.

Calum wove both arms underneath her legs, bringing his hands to rest on her waist, holding her still beneath him. He alternated between sucking her clit and licking between her folds, loving how wet she was, loving being enveloped in her scent, enjoying the noises she made and the way she tried to get a grip on his too-short hair. She was so responsive under him, panting and squirming at him tonguing her.

He pulled away for a short breath asking, “You like that?”

She could barely breathe out “Yeah,” before he was on her again. He felt himself pulse with desire at every, “Jesus” and “Cal that feels so good.”

He spent forever between her until she pushed him away, hissing, “Cal.”

He looked up at her, licking the lingering taste of her off his lips. “Yes?”

She looked down at him, panting and sweaty, somewhere between wanting to pull him up towards her and push him down towards her cunt.

“What do I have to do to get you to fuck me?” she breathed out.

Chuckling, he untangled his arms from her waist, coming up on his knees. He put one hand on her stomach, holding her down. “Sorry,” he said, slowly removing his rings, tossing them on his bedside table. “I got carried away.”

She doesn’t get to respond before he is slipping two fingers inside her. They both groaned in unison as he watched as his fingers scissored in and out of her.

“God, I could play with your pussy all night,” he teased, knowing that was not what she wanted to hear.

She glared and pouted up at him, making her frustration evident.

“Put that lip away.” 

When she didn’t, he leaned down and kissed it away.

They spent a minute licking into each other as Calum’s finger worked inside her. Their lips had barely parted before she asked, “Now will you fuck me?”

Instead of answering, he slid his fingers out of her and moved over to his bedside table drawer, pulling out a condom. He held it up to show her, a silent yes to her earlier question. She rolled her eyes, watching and waiting as he rolled the condom on.

“How do you want it?” He settled over her again, lightly peppering her neck with kisses.

“Just like this,” she requested. “Wanna see you.”

He captured her lips once more with his own in silent agreement. The next time he’d take her from behind, hard and fast, until both of them were breathing hard, unable to do or say anything more than each other’s names. Right now, he wanted to enjoy her, savoring what he had spent weeks dreaming of.

He aligned himself with her and pressed in slowly, overwhelmed by how good she felt, enjoying every second until he was buried inside her. Then, Calum took a moment, drawing awareness to the fire he felt everywhere they connected, wanting to chase that heat. He flattened himself on her, burying his face in her neck, flooding his senses with her, before putting one hand on her waist, the other gripping the sheets above her head. Her legs came up to wrap around him, one arm in his hair, the other around his back. The noises she made were downright filthy, as she gasped and whimpered and cried out with every stroke.

“You feel so fucking good,” he grunted, lips attaching to her neck, sucking and biting at the skin there.

“C’mon Cal,” she pleaded. “More.”

And that was all it took for him to lose his resolve to go slow. He got up on his elbows and pounded into her. She had both hands in his hair now, pulling his head down, unable to keep their lips connected with the jerkiness of his rhythm, but wanting his mouth close anyway. He slowed for a second, to join their lips, to taste her. Then, he let his desires overtake him, got to his knees, and rammed her. His hands gripped and held her boobs while hers twisted in the bedsheets above her head.    

He wasn’t surprised how quickly he felt his orgasm building. He was surprised, however when she came before him, her whole body tightening, head thrown back in ecstasy.

He rode out the aftershocks of her orgasm then went to pull out of her, to finish himself off, but she shook her head. “Come in me.”

He couldn’t even form a coherent response to that. All he managed was, “Fuck,” drawing out the vowel of the word.

She’s nodding in agreement as if her suggestion affected her just as much as it did him. “We’re going to have to get tested ASAP, so you can actually come in me when we do this again.”

He nodded eagerly, both at the idea and the implications that this would be happening again.

“But for now. . .” She trailed off because she really didn’t have to finish. He got the message. He braced both hands on her waist and slammed into her. It only took a few strokes before he was gone. He let out a deep groan, hips coming to a halt as he came inside her. 

“Fuck,” he whispered, barely breathing, before burying his face into her neck. He had to take a moment waiting for his limbs to work again, before he moved off of her and deposited the soiled condom in the trash near his bedside table. 

When he rolled back over, coming to lie flat on his back, she laid on him, heaving a content sigh. He lazily ran his fingers down her back while she mimicked his motion on his chest.

Then, it only took a few seconds for reality to hit. Everything had happened so fast they never really talked it out. What was this to her? She had briefly mentioned a next time, but even with that he couldn’t get his hopes up. They were both notorious for friends with benefits arrangements. And that was another thing - if they did decide to give this a try, would it be exclusively? Would they end all other arrangements on the side?

He didn’t know how to ask all this without seeming desperate and insecure, so instead, he asked, “What do you want for breakfast tomorrow morning?”

He knew she had a rule, no staying overnight at an fwb’s house. If he could gage if she were staying the night, he would know where he stood with her. Getting on her elbows, she raised herself above him and leveled him with an unimpressed look. 

She saw right through him.

“You can just ask me,” she said, silently, reaching her hands up to run through his hair. He leaned into her touch. “Ask me what I want from this, from you. This is us. It will only work if we’re real with each other.”

She was right - she wasn’t just some girl he picked up at a party and decided to fuck. This was (Y/N). They were friends first. They had a rule about transparency in their friendship, and when he started hiding the fact that he was falling for her, they had lost some of that. It was time for him to start again.

“I really like you,” he confessed, eyes never once leaving hers. It took a lot for him to say those words, to put his feelings out there. He could only hope she felt the same. “I want to try this, try us, together, exclusively.”

In the few seconds it took for her to answer, he couldn’t breathe, anticipation thick in the air. He was afraid that what she said next would break his heart.

It didn't.

“I love that we’re always on the same page.”

He breathed out a sigh of relief as he pulled her down for a celebratory kiss.

“This is the best birthday present,” he murmured against her lips.

“We’ll have to send Luke a thank you card.”

“Do they make ‘thank you for inviting a mutual friend to my party so that I could bone her’ thank you cards?”

She shrugged, settling back down on his chest. “We’ll have to give hallmark a call in the morning.”

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@admiral-craymen replied to your post “Contra Matter MOM, GET ME A GLASS OF CAPREIT! HERP, PUT THAT GREAT DEEPLY SPECIAL HOT POT IN THE KITCHEN NOW! MOM, WE...”

I read that as a "glass of carpet"

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Mediocre Brad:> A hard alien/human alien war could start in 20,000 or 30,000 years, and a world state would be formed by then. It would be a black hole like death and will have nothing of value around except for that, filling up oceans and so on. The one asset is technology, but that would just grow our empire. I would call this one a "sub-optimal combination" of dumb movies like Godzilla or Avatar, which involve planets/terraforming, while the Dexter movies are curently following the mary sue author's canon for the most part. And while the Harry Potter books hold up overall, why not buck up our faith as well and start reading my first Harry Potter books??

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Well, there's the tone shift that happened after the Firelord War. Then the Draco/Hermione relationship can't actually go any further without it being too obvious that Hermione is in love with him. So this change helps:

Sandhog:

Desertheale, sometimes they are in convergence, sometimes they are out-of-coherence due to principle of indifference. Right now, all of them are probably out-of-coherent. In tune and in dissonance. Read the words in reverse, more interesting. Notes about planets jumping GLOOM DOWN from speculative singularity to different sort of on-the-lark eventuality( )* to the bs. ALT-DATA," Different Kinds of Anomalies"

Sandhog: Mr. Billion Dollar Man is spectacular at its subject and entertaining on its own merit alone. It is a beautiful presentation and also a beautiful journey through the weird star stuff. Yes, you are correct, Ma has just demonstrated the homeostatic effect of super accurate box office films."

Mann

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Mountain Wirtschaftscharakter Bohnn,

Pyleshaschesaun, Reichsstoßer. :bern̆eh?n*, brɪɛʁɔ. əɻɪ/ ɨr.yahoo.com

Avoid excessive trust in your own wisdom in exchange for a seat in the Best Choices. I would like to point out that in this video, an intelligent young man was an voice of necessity, at another, a more grotesque showing of beastly weakness. AND AGAIN, LET US NOT GO TO THOSE WHO THINK themselves obligated to act for others. Let us be careful to not perpetuate inequality.

Listen to Nikola Tesla when he was being tortured:

Mastery of My Inventions. For the employ of a busy man,

Eighty-eight per week,, with an option to increase itself to

additional years. a3 I am conscientious of periodical savings, and

would stipulate it about two thirtieths of one year (to

date besides being five cents a thousand). Said option in

payment, amounts to $200 the next Tuesday, July 4,

Financial policy is no disclosure. Additional

year, with the option of storage until October

31, or a sum not to exceed $7.40 per week. Whilst

wishing to agreement m sweep across all catatonic

with my vocation, I am aware that many of the

enthusiastic are boasting of what l am half-way

accomplished, with manœuvres to the contrary. I

resent all this. I will not follow the losing

method of denying myself, which will wheedle or gag

me daily or weekly until myself is in

possession of the fruit of each mistake, compounded

with regret that it had been so wildly wasted at

what seems like an absolute loss. In my friendships

I continually press a grudge against the chance. I

will have no more friends at all. Listen to Rudy [Byrne] obliquely:

>[…] dsunlike about contributions equal to eighteen

cents ($]. Of course I can spare part of it.

He takes to the Sif tacks and quills, and I to the

Davy money. […]I will feel degrading, and unhealthy,

even if this sweated paper ends up the Fruit of my burden. Think

of the irregular costs to yourself as you pass from Rusty to Rust.

[…]procession. file 1 to 2: Goy & Cit. & C-I but without the Bridges. And now, a final exception that I shall come. Study history, enter upon the career of a devoted and efficient writer: have all concerns connected with your work. Know your lot is but to endure. This all leaves me with some reflections to make. I will say to Allrock member

who has multiple copies of Star Trek and wishes to transfer them in a sweep and asks to myself to share the review with herself: quote from chapter x, basically Harari makes it sound entertainingly pill on including sentimental bits in theoretical non-mathematical setting in a philosophy which cuts away all knowledge of these phenomena such as Affect –

Here is an example of my annoyance: San Bernardino in the new University City wasn't the original. The place was then called Lind's Furnace.

Put these immediately upon Holy Men's heads to engender Envy: "Clyster" and "Butcher" and "Bulverist".

Thomas Pynchon talked about how novels can be *part* of a process that inevitably runs in another direction. Try to turn your exes into martyrs: make the book a mop garden, Simetian, nursery,

. . . whatever didactic position on the path is of the moment. Indulge in the trophy of this rap.

(And why fiction is not philosophical: some things better be axiomatic, and ideologism is never axiomatically true or not. Fine)

– Butler, Gurney, etc. needed something to be angry at, at least a lot of the time. What is more, perhaps, humour is an equally good rampart against this –

What Hope? Hope is the shaky thing that falls under unfortunate tolerance.

But onto other things? May we have what the (fascist?) authors Bellwether and Kingsley Moore feared in 1930s London?

– And some celebrities sprawled out across deflated balloons, clutching to rubber storage bins, passed untalked for like devils, peacocks, balloons, might as well be hair dye-lovers with the grotesque if they had left out bouquets for flowers:

Daniel Marcel Mugabe, only vaguely licensed by the government and a blank pas de deux in his passport

Hillary Clinton, a woman who hasn't shirked her political responsibilities on multiple fiddly needs

Shirley Temple, a person wired to a neon tube (a neon tube!)

Une (now) unshakeable pubescent Goddess,, triumphing with the rare help of musical beat strippers (and also), with her typical meanness, an empty marble of a box, which reassures children's saturnalia. Can we rephrase with shades of harmony the myth - "he is the flower of the Clockwork Society" (in Joan Didion's experiments with hypermetric metaphors)?

Mid 1975, Tyndall offices – then again, this was a question punctuated by beauty:

Anyway, is it because they want to be survived? Generalized explanations should not make a people create, sketchy greys, at a sea level of 2.5 in. of sea level. I wish you'd all understood me at the beginning. Now I'm lonely out there, and I'm afraid only because I though I had been estranged from the trans-Siberian people (kyakaia or crismata), who seem to be no longer the black of whiteness (like the Jews in Mamie Eisenhower's fiction), but red (whiteness-redness). Anyway, they do everything that we want. For me in the United Kingdom they are less faceless. I suppose that for our kind they have the same feature. HAPPY, although painful, dismantling of preexisting groups. Best of all New Zealand. We are here – survive any dark impulses, joy is unending. (But it is not all too subversive, until perhaps I have got the jump on the other end. Faddy! You fellows would have been only too happy for me to be in imminent danger. But I think that you have dimmed the euphoric light.) The colored colors are white-faced though at which_. For chewing Tamil Lennyles, QB Mustesnight, 18 June 1987

– the mortal historian sitting side by side with his (performative) act.

– When you ask me what I'm coming home from, which is the short answer – but it's a long answer, I feel, as the terminus of the miserable chain of the trinodical dyad that contains, of course, JFK assassin and Robert F. Kennedy Jr. (pun, in James Fenimore Cooper's spectacles, intended to warrant his, plural, ART-Renderings).

If I've read the mid-1970s history correctly - somewhat, cruelly,

rather ambiguously.

My brain couldn't cope with any more frothing straightness, for reflection is difficult in the trans-Siberian mind. So of course, I did not make any sense. I forgot the herbaria for even the

glassy pints, and finished with only the briefest comedy of Marching Fashions, a Bronx Typewriter by James Fenimore Cooper, a Newsfeed of onl "electoral champagne" sips, but when the electrons descended on me they did not reach, havoc befalls the glory of Zeus, here amongst the musicores of the torrid zone.

I'm discovering, knowing that my discursive Marxist in Orwell, post-millennial leader would clash with

[jungshookz]

can you do a college ta!jimin where y/n is failing her class but she’s too scared to go to jimin for help even though he’s her ta bc every time she sees him in lecture she makes a fool of herself and is embarrassed bc jimin is also v hot

→ pairing: park jimin x reader

→ genre: university!au, ta!jimin, neRVOUS!y/n, tae and kook are the dream team from hell, joon is a try-hard but we still luv him 

→ wordcount: 2.5k

→ note: ok i was going to write this tomorrow but i couldn’t wait because i need ta!jimin in my life right now immediately so i’m soRRY if it’s short but IT WAS SUCH A CUTE IDEA and i needed to get it ouT into the world also fun fact: a girl that i met during my first month at uni told me all about how she fucked her friend’s psychology TA to help her friend get an A in the class and i need me a friend like that

(gif isn’t mine!) 

um

hi

quick question

why the FUCK did you think this astronomy course was going to be easy peasy

it was supposed to be your grade booster!!!!!

all you learn about are the STARS in the sky

they’re just flaming balls of gaS and you somehow are unable to grasp that concept for some reason

“how’d you do???” namjoon plops down in the seat next to you before looking at his own test and flicking through the sheets

you blink down at the test in your hands

49% written in an angry shade of red

you technically failed even though you were 1% away from getting a passing mark

this was the last chance to boost your mark before the final exam and you totally just bombed it

there are three midterms that you have to take in this course

which meant you had three chances to study hard and do well

you got 59% on the first one

63% on the second one

and this one?

49%

you droPPED not 1% not 2% but a FAT 14%

o boy

you have a feeling you’re not going to do too well on the final exam considering the journey so far

“i, uh, i did okay.” you shrug and stuff your test into your backpack quickly “how’d you do?”

“eh, i did okay too. 86% is fine, i guess.” namjoon murmurs and circles one of the questions on the test “i didn’t study as much for this one so that explains why i did more poorly compared to the first and second one.”

you peek over at namjoon’s test and let out a sigh when you notice his has a significantly less number of red cross marks

you love namjoon but you’re ready to smack the back of his head because you would be ecsTATIC if you got 86% on a midterm you barely studied for

“i’m probably going to go talk to jimin during office hours and ask for some help with the questions i got wrong. you wanna come with-“

“nO” you immediately curl into yourself and wince when namjoon mentions jimin

jimin

park jimin, if we’re being more specific here

he’s the TA for this class and let’s just say,..,,..,,. there’s a reason why the class filled up so quickly at the beginning of the year

he is drop-dead gorgeous

like unbelievably gorgeous

like sculpted from the gods themseLVEs gorgeous

soft, perfectly tousled raven locks

pretty brown eyes

the cutest button nose

and his lips

his pillowy lips that curl around certain words so perfectly and you’re always mesmerised when he takes over a lecture because he does this thing where his tongue will poke out and swipe over his bottom lip in the middle of his rant and you will never admit to anYone that you’ve fantasised about what it’d be like giving him plump bottom lip a lil kith once or twice or thrice

he has a couple ear piercings and you never thought you’d be attracted to that but oH boy you definitely are

not to mention he’s like???? so fashionable???????

most of the time he wears like a button-up tucked into a pair of slacks just to keep things professional or whatever but SOMETIMES he walks in in like a pair of ripped skinny jeans and a loose white tee and a denim jacket or something and that just gets your gears gOING

one time you caught a glimpse of his bicep flexing as he ran his hand through his hair and you literally couldn’t focus on anything for the rest of the class

(today he’s wearing a white button up tucked into a pair of ripped blue jeans and he has his thick black glasses sitting perfectly on his nose)

and!!!!! on top of that he’s the sweetest human being in the entire world

everything about him is just so utterly, frustratingly perfect

he gigGles very often and overtime he does that you’re pretty sure an angel is born in the heavens above

and he’s always super helpful with everyone

even though it’s pretty obvious some of the people in here approach him with the dumbest questions because they just want an excuse to talk to him he will anSwer those dumb questions and help them to the best of his abilities

you haven’t really had a conversation with him before just because this is a class with 200 people and you obviously aren’t going to elbow your way through the crowd just to stand there with nothing to ask him

the only question you can imagine yourself asking is “…..wat is a star” and u don’t want him thinking you’re a big ol dummy

however

the times that you havE interacted with him or the times that prove to you that he does indeed know that you exist have been awful to say the least

absolute humiliating

you don’t know why but every time you make a fool of yourself it’s in this class and it’s riGHt in front of jimin

when you were doing your presentation with a couple other classmates you kept stuttering over your words because jimin was in the front row just staring at you and you could feel your face growing redder than a tomato

you kept stumbling and missing important parts in the presentation so your teammates had to step up and help you a little and afterwards you apologised proFuSely and treated them all to a drink from starbucks

another time namjoon asked if you could go down to the front and grab his paper for him and as you were walking down the steps of the lecture theatre you missed a step and fell riGHT in front of jimin

so, in conclusion: jimin probably thinks you have a speech impediment aND you’re clumsy as hell

you’re just glad that there are only like 2 weeks of class left because that means you’ll finally be able to get away from jimin

it’s not like you want to get away from him

it’s just that

you can.,,.,. u can feel yourself starting to develop a tiny crush on him (spoiler alert you already have a fat ass crush on him you stubborn walnut) and that ain’t good because then you’ll be all sad and mopey because you know for a faCt park jimin is way WAY out of your league and there’s nothing you can do about it

“y/n.”

but you know what you should at least try and say something to him before the year ends because if you don’t you’ll probably regret it

“y/n.”

oR you could make an anonymous page on that ‘university crushes’ page (there are already severAL park jimin posts on that Facebook page so you’re sure your contribution won’t make a difference)

“y/n!!!!!!!” you jump when you feel someone grab your shoulder and you snap out of it immediately “what’s gotten into you?? i said your name like a trillion times!” jungkook furrows his brows

“what? what?” you look around frantically and-

what the heck

when did you get to the dining hall

“i said her name a trillion times on the way here and she didn’t reply to me either.” namjoon snorts as he picks up an apple from the fruit basket “she’s probably daydreaming about jimin again” he teases and you resist the urge to roll your eyes when you see slow smirks begin to appear on everyone’s faces

oh god

here it comes

“ooOooooOOOHH-“ jungook and taehyung begin teasing you and you whack their hands away when they reach up to pinch at your cheeks “our y/n has a little crush on park jimin!!!!!!!”

“i don’T have a crush on anyone!” you scowl and grab a carton of apple juice for yourself “cut it out, you freaks”

“aw, don’t be like that! it’s okay! he’s a very pretty person.” taehyung nods and grabs the juice box from your hand

“get your own juice box.” you snatch it back from tae’s hands before whipping around and heading towards the table where they put all the muffins and donuts (you’ve been craving something sweeT)

as you walk towards the table you turn your head so that you’re able to send a glaRE at your friends “i’m terminating this conversation because i do not want to talk about my crush on park jim- oH-!” suddenly you’re stumbling riGHt into someone and you feel hands grip at your waist to keep you steady while your own hands instinctively reach out to balance yourself

you turn your head back quickly ready to profusely apologise to this person for your clumsiness and that’s when you realise you just stumbled riGHT into-

p a r k   j i m i n

/…..FUCK

christ

jesus CHRIST

see

it happened again!!!!!!!!

whenever you do something humiliating jimin is riGHT there

“careful there!” he laughs lightly and you retract your hands from his pecs (ᵒʰ ᵐʸ ᵍᵒᵈ) immediately “you good?”

“great. i’m good!” you squeak out and feel your cheeks starting to warm “i- uh, are you okay? i’m so sorry, i wasn’t watching where i was going-“

“don’t worry about me, i’ll survive.” he jokes and your eyes immediately dart away because of your inability to hold eye contact for more than like fiVE seCONDS

“okay, cool, um, that’s good. ……anyways i’m just gonna pay for my juice box-“

“y/n, right?”

you immediately look back up at him

o god

he knows your name

okay okAY okay calm down just act cool you’re super cool you’re a cool gal!!!!!!!

[high pitchy voice] ʸᵒᵘ’ʳᵉ ᶠᶦⁿᵉᵎ

“yes. that’s me. i am her. i am y/n.” okay there we go we finally got there “you’re… jimin.” oOFhkj

u know what just shut up don’t say anything

“you’re the one who wrote about astronomy and its relationship with astrology, right?”

huh

oH righhhhhht that paper you had to write for astronomy

while you’re not good at exam-type things you’re pretty good when it comes to papers because it’s just you ranting about something but make it ~professional~ aNd also cite ur sources

“yes! that was me!!” you perk up because that paper was the onLy thing you were confident handing in in the class lol “i actually changed my topic last minute but i’m glad i did because i had a loT to say about the subject - b-but you probably already know that because you’re the one who graded it, hah-“ you reach up and scratch the back of your neck awkwardly

you catch a glimpse of the boys over jimin’s shoulder

they already paid for their food and they’re sitting at your guys’ usual table and while namjoon is shooting you a thumbs up and a dimpley smile both tae and kook are being iDIOTS

kook has his fingers curled like an ‘o’ while tae is sticking his finger through the hole and they’re botH wiggling their brows at you and you feel your cheeks warm even moRE

that’s so embarrassing

why are boys like that

whY are you friends with boys like that

namjoon scowls and whacks their hands down before pointing to their food and you can practically hear namjoon telling them to cut it out and just eAT you dumbasses

“i thought it was really well-written and very well executed. i enjoyed reading it, actually. i enjoyed it so much i read it twice!” jimin laughs and you feel your heart skip a beat when you hear his cute giggle “how did you do on the latest midterm?”

you’re not… particularly sure why jimin is stiLL talking to you

it’s not like you’re complaning or anything

you’re just confused 

..,.,.,is he just being friendly because TA evaluations come out soon

hM

“i did, um… let’s just say i could’ve done a loT better.” you clear your throat

you’re not about to remind him of your grades because u really reaLLy don’t want him to think you’re a moron  

“oh! i’m sorry to hear that…” he frowns and his shoulders droop slightly before he perks up again “i’d be happy to talk to you and help you out! i’m free at 5:30 this afternoon.”

“5:30 works for me! but don’t office hours end at 4?” you furrow your brows in confusion and your bottom lip pokes out a little in the tiniest of pouts and jimin uwus internally

“yeah, and?” he still has his bright smile on his face and you are just conFUSEd “i’ll help you out and maybe we can grab a bite to eat afterwards.”

wait what

wait hWAT

“are- are you sure? i don’t want to inconvenience you or anything-“

“don’t be silly, you could never. here, i’ll give you my number.” jimin plucks the pen out from behind his ear and grabs your hand and you feel your heart rate SPIKE almost immediately

you instinctively giggle when the pen starts gliding against your skin and jimin peeks up at you with a smirk “ticklish?”

you take your bottom lip in between your teeth and keep your eyes on your hand “a lil”

jimin clicks the pen and tucks it back behind his ear and you look at the digits that have been scrawled on your hand “alright, i have some more midterms to grade so i’m going to disappear but i’ll see you later?”

“yes, that sounds good” you swallow thickly because you’re still registering the fact that park jimin just,,, gave you his number

“see ya!” jimin waves at you as he starts to walk away and u literally almost scream when his right eye drops in a wink

you wave back at him shyly and press your lips together

what is going on

is this a fever dream

are you in a simulation maybe

and then you’re standing there just wondering.,..,,. what was THAT and also are u going on a….. date later

nO no no

don’t over think it

he’s just being nice

he’s a nice guy

jimin lets out a breath once he leaves the dining hall and he has to stop to let his heart calm down a little

god damN

that number thing was a bold move but he’s so glad you didn’t reject him or anything

hopefully you show up this afternoon otherwise that’d kinda suCK

he can’t believe it took him nearly two whole semesters to finally grow some balls and say something to u lol

better late than never!!

help me help you make your wishes come tru (aka send me a request)

masterlist

[sounds-of-the-universe]

May 31st

It’s pretty ironic how I joined this site nearly six years ago now, back during my Freshman year of High School, all in the faint hope of getting to know a girl I liked much better. Inadvertently I ended up never following her, and stuck around regardless on this site. About three to four accounts later, here I am creating my first blog/journal account. I suppose I simply outgrew the more ironic side of humor this site offers. One I know too well. I’ve had a successful humor blog, if you consider 2,000 followers a feat. I currently run an art blog that is right around 1,200 followers as well. Yet, I’m just so tired of that all. It feels so dumb to only now realize that somehow, despite all that I’ve done, it was the loneliest feeling. Sure, I could post a joke and get a good 200 notes, or post some art and get 100 likes, but what is it worth if not of it is personal? Sure, people would enjoy what I have to offer, but my words? Nothing. People enjoy you, but they don’t like you. It was infuriating, it was just shouting into the void, when all I wanted was for someone to even acknowledge what I spoke.The obvious reply to that would just be, “Just say what you have to IRL.” and I get that. However sometimes there’s just moments I don’t want to throw my garbage onto my friends. Sometimes a strangers perspective really helps. It’s just a strange situation. Running an art account, sometimes you ask your followers things such as “Hey guys, should I use this palette, or try this technique?” and literarily no one will respond. 1,200 souls and not one sign of acknowledgement. 

...Anyways, after years of experiencing that, I just decided to make a true blog. That way there isn’t any expectations in my mind about how people will perceive my words, or ignore what I want to tell the world. It just makes things easier for me.

[fuckyeahkagepro]

.......... ok um genuine question??? all that from earlier aside

HOW DID YOU ALL EVEN

FIND

my blog

because uh

I’ve definitely been talking about the ages issue and references gathering a lot recently yeah

but like BEFORE THAT

this blog somehow gained some 5800+ followers over the years ????? and I lost a lot at times too but yeah still I definitely do not even mind that by the way but like

HOW ???????????????????

I KNOW I REBLOGGED A LOT DURING 08/15 DAYS PARTICULARLY

and some of the first 2000 or so (of followers) were attracted during early MCA era / when MCA was / still running / (BEFORE THAT IT WAS LIKE SOME 200-400 FOR /OVER A YEAR/)

(AND IT WAS STUCK THERE FOR A VERY LONG TIME)

the second 2000 or so up to 4000 were just post-MCA and up through to the present day ?????

and then of course a ton of you went more inactive over the years too there’s TONS of dead blogs in this followers list

BUT LITERALLY STILL HOW

I KNOW I’M A KAGEPRO BLOG BUT UNTIL THIS BECAME AN ISSUE

and before I started posting dumb theories

I LITERALLY NEVER SPOKE UP MUCH BEFORE NOW

OR EVEN POSTED MY OWN THINGS

I had a few dumb Hibiya and Saeru theories back then too and from analyzing Wannyanpuu’s pv so much but they didn’t get THAT much attention I thought (like maybe a hundred notes at most)

that’s why my “ tags ramblings “ were things so

I’M STILL CONFUSED HOW’D YOU ALL EVEN FIND ME

* PREFER YOU REPLY IN COMMENTS rather than reblog this if you want to say but yeah ???

LIKE WHO EVEN ARE ALL OF YOU AMAZING PEOPLE FOLLOWING

I DON’T EVEN KNOW WHO MOST OF YOU  / ARE /

[bountyofbeads]

What Happens When Ordinary People End Up in Trump’s Tweets https://nyti.ms/32bCiou

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What Happens When Ordinary People End Up in Trump’s Tweets

By MATT FLEGENHEIMER | Published Nov. 2, 2019 | New York Times | Posted November 3, 2019 |

McCALLA, Ala. — The evening of April 29 passed like many others for Ben Rawls, a fire lieutenant in Tuscaloosa: settled in the rocking chair on his porch, amid empty beer cans and mosquito-fighting candles, tweeting to an audience of dozens until he got sleepy.

“Granted I am in Alabama,” Mr. Rawls, 45, wrote around 11 p.m., after a major firefighters’ union endorsed Joseph R. Biden Jr. for president, “but most of the firefighters I talk to are voting @realDonaldTrump.”

The morning of May 1, some 36 hours later, was less typical.

Mr. Rawls showered and took his daughters to school. He ignored his phone, until it yapped so insistently that he had to look. An ashbin of Twitter comments greeted him: Racist. Moron. “‘Toothless’ — that was a good one,” he recalled.

The most curious posts disputed Mr. Rawls’s very existence. Strangers accused him of being a bot. He replied to one with a video he recorded in his pickup. “Here I am,” he said to the camera. “No faking here.”

All told, it took about 12 hours for him to solve the mystery. Back in his rocking chair, he stared at a fellow Twitter user’s note of congratulations: Mr. Rawls had been retweeted by the president of the United States.

Along with the Republican allies, Fox News hosts and conspiracy-mongering trolls whose messages President Trump pinballs across the political arena, he has also elevated regular people whose words he finds pleasing. Perhaps no group understands the praise-seeking cyclone that is @realDonaldTrump better than these arbitrary few who have lived inside it, briefly and usually unwittingly.

Their brushes with cybercelebrity are a portal into the Twitter feedback loop powered and experienced by Mr. Trump — dark, caustic, skimpy on nuance — where the ripples of a single presidential tweet can be hard to fathom unless measured against the relative anonymity to which these users were accustomed. Mr. Rawls got 2,700 retweets and 14,000 “likes” with the boost from Mr. Trump. The reach of his tweets before and since, he estimated, was approximately zero.

For many of the retweeted, the temporary platform stands as a testament to a style of politics they have never seen before — one that has bonded the president to his followers, virtual or otherwise.

“No other president has ever done stuff like this,” said Curtis Vincent, a 35-year old in Bowling Green, Ky., who operates one of the more than 215 unverified accounts Mr. Trump has retweeted since taking office. “They’ve been on a higher pedestal.”

Mr. Rawls, Mr. Vincent and several others were retweeted by Mr. Trump on May 1 after responding to a post by a Fox News personality, Dan Bongino, about the fire union’s endorsing Mr. Biden.

Joining them in temporary Twitter fame was Joelle Palombo, 46, a Southern California resident with 11 followers, who had largely used her account to cheer on her daughter’s soccer team. But after Mr. Bongino tweeted that “NONE of the firemen” he knew were with Mr. Biden, she replied with a note of support for Mr. Trump from one “fire family” out West.

The flood of reactions so spooked Ms. Palombo that she enlisted her teenage son to help block anyone she saw in her feed. The purge took three days, she said, and included the president, who she did not realize had retweeted her until a reporter told her months later.

“I went and looked at his account, and I blocked him,” Ms. Palombo said of Mr. Trump. “That’s how scared I was. I’m just one tiny hair on a dog. Are you kidding me?”

Although her affection for the president persists, Ms. Palombo questions the value of his favored medium. “How many hours of the day do people put in to do this?” she said. “I don’t need to have a voice on this. I’ll vote.”

Others have found more purpose in the practice. Mr. Rawls described himself as a reluctant Trump voter in 2016. He preferred Ted Cruz during the Republican primary, and he winces at some of the president’s choices, including insulting John McCain well after the senator’s death.

But as the 2020 election approaches, Mr. Rawls suggests, the president’s Twitter output is a more effective galvanizer than even the slickest campaign ad. “The tweeting doesn’t bother me so much anymore,” he said. “I don’t really feel like I wasted a vote.”

And the validation of the president’s retweet has encouraged his own more quarrelsome instincts. “Before all this happened, I would type something out and say, ‘People will think I’m crazy,’” he recalled, citing prospective tweets that he scrapped.

Since May, these second thoughts have been rarer. He has called Anthony Scaramucci, the former White House communications director, a “bitter jerk.” He has shared a doctored video of Speaker Nancy Pelosi appearing to slur her words. He has weaponized a gif of Judge Judy (“Either you are playing dumb, or it’s not an act”) to mock Representative Eric Swalwell, a California Democrat promoting gun control.

“I’m a little bit less of a wallflower than I used to be,” Mr. Rawls said, crediting Mr. Trump’s retweet. “I guess you could say I was more emboldened.”

CATCHING HIS EYE

Capital letters help. Sentence structure can be disregarded. Mornings, East Coast time, are best.

Grabbing Mr. Trump’s attention on Twitter is more art than science — and, often, more fluke than art. But some who have been retweeted say there are certain flourishes that can improve the odds.

The surest path is echoing Mr. Trump’s voice. The user @fiiibuster, whose profile boasts that he has been retweeted twice by the president, has built a following of more than 38,000 accounts — and won the digital stamp of approval from a man with 66 million — through a steady offering of posts that resemble Mr. Trump’s own. Among the words in @fiiibuster’s retweeted messages: “security,” “prosperity,” “America first,” “Pathetic,” “bad reporter,” “shame!”

In other cases, Mr. Trump has gravitated toward those who share his taste in reading. A few weeks ago, he retweeted Cathy Buffaloe, 70, a retired librarian in Walton County, Ga., after she quoted a Wall Street Journal column criticizing Representative Adam Schiff, the Democratic chairman of the House Intelligence Committee.

When she told her husband what had happened, he asked if she had simply dreamed it. She took screenshots to show to friends and gained about 200 followers. “It isn’t often that ‘regular’ people have an opportunity to be heard concerning national issues,” Ms. Buffaloe said in an email.

J. T. Lewis, a 19-year-old Republican candidate for the Connecticut State Senate whose brother Jesse was killed in the Sandy Hook massacre in 2012, was retweeted last year after writing a flattering message to Mr. Trump. When he traveled to Washington months later to meet with the president as part of a school safety event, Mr. Lewis brought a printout of the tweet.

“He smirked and signed it,” he said. “It’s in my room somewhere.”

Mr. Lewis said he hoped the president’s imprimatur would show that Mr. Trump was not in league with the conspiracy theorist Alex Jones, who has spread bogus claims about the Sandy Hook shooting, including asserting that the victims’ families were actors and part of a plot to confiscate guns. (In 2015, Mr. Trump appeared on Mr. Jones’s “Infowars” program and praised him.)

But Mr. Lewis is skeptical that getting through to Mr. Trump owes to any elaborate strategy. “I don’t think things are planned out the way we think they are from the outside,” he said. “I think that was literally just: Guy in pajamas, ‘Oh, this is a nice tweet.’”

THE WRONG IVANKA

“The fingers aren’t as good as the brain,” the president once explained, discussing the typos he makes on Twitter.

And those fingers have at times conferred a spotlight on unsuspecting tweeters with low opinions of him.

In a tweet one night in January 2017, just before his inauguration, Mr. Trump shared a message calling his daughter Ivanka “a woman with real character and class” and tagging @ivanka.

That Twitter handle belongs to Ivanka Majic, 45, a technology researcher in Brighton, England, who shares a first name and little else with the president’s daughter. Ms. Majic woke up to media inquiries and a dilemma.

“There’s a decision to be made,” she said in an interview. “If you’re going to say something, what are you going to say?”

Ms. Majic recognized she would probably never be handed a megaphone like this again. “He was a bit unlucky, really, that it was my Twitter account,” she said.

She settled on this: “You’re a man with great responsibilities. May I suggest more care on Twitter and more time learning about #climatechange.”

Instantly, Ms. Majic became something of a local luminary as her progressive city strained to process Mr. Trump’s victory. Days later, at the London chapter of the global Women’s March, one attendee’s sign read, “@Ivanka, loving your work!”

In the years since, Ms. Majic has celebrated an annual “Trumpiversary” to mark the occasion. But one news clipping from the time still grates.

“There was one article that said, ‘Ivanka only has 2,700 followers,’” she remembered. “I was like, ‘That’s quite good for a normal person!’”

_______

Karen Yourish and Larry Buchanan contributed reporting. Kitty Bennett contributed research. Produced by Gray Beltran and Rumsey Taylor.

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[weakeninghope]

The (love) story we wrote together

Rating: Teen

AO3 link here

Summary:    He didn't think it was important, it was just a random insult written on his desk, easy to erase -which he did when he saw it- (written in a horrible penmanship, if he had to add something) and he probably knew the culprit. It was most likely Yut-Lung, an underclassman who had his diva-like eyes on Ash for some reason. Well, Ash did know the reason. Turns out Ash Lynx here was the top student in his high school year, with an IQ over 200, he was even smarter than his upperclassmen, and Yut-Lung was jealous, because he was the smartest in his class, but he was still way behind Ash, and that asshole hated losing.

Notes: It's been a long time!! I'm here again hehe this time I'm here with something I read on otpprompts about messaging a person using a table and writing to them and I thought it could be a cute idea for Asheiji.This is my gift to postingpebbles aka @eijis-okuumura on tumblr for the @bananafishvalentines! I hope you enjoy this <3!! Sorry if anything feels weird, this spent two weeks sitting on my drafts because I couldn’t ffind the time or the inspiration to end it, but I did my best anyway ;;;;

I hope everyone likes this, comments and kudos are much appreciated ;;

I'm weakeninghope on tumblr and Shirotxpoison on twitter btw, you can contact me if you want *^* See you soon!

fic under the cut!

The first time it happened, Ash just brushed it off.

 –

 He didn't think it was important, it was just a random insult written on his desk, easy to erase -which he did when he saw it- (written in a horrible penmanship, if he had to add something) and he probably knew the culprit. It was most likely Yut-Lung, an underclassman who had his diva-like eyes on Ash for some reason. Well, Ash did know the reason. Turns out Ash Lynx here was the top student in his high school year, with an IQ over 200, he was even smarter than his upperclassmen, and Yut-Lung was jealous, because he was the smartest in his class, but he was still way behind Ash, and that asshole hated losing.

 Well, too bad for him.

 Ash just hoped it was a one time thing, though, he had enough with Yut-Lung calling him a nerd or making fun of his glasses when they crossed ways in the corridors, he didn't want someone to dirty his desk, the only place besides the high school library where he could be by himself and all right, reading a book or writing stories like his brother had been teaching him ever since he was a brat. The blond just wanted silence, he had already a bunch of reasons for punching the hell out of Yut-Lung and his followers, but if he got expelled that would cause trouble to him in the end.

 And he wouldn't be able to see him.

 That's right. Ash Lynx, 17 years old, the lone wolf, the smartass, had a crush on an upperclassman. He didn't even know his name, he just knew how every time they crossed ways on the corridor to commute classes (there was a course that his crush and the other third year students did on Ash's class) their gazes would cross and Ash would stare agape at those black eyes, that apparently looking silky hair... damn, Ash was enhanced even by their height difference. The boy was slightly shorter.

 Oh, he would have to tip-toe if they were to kiss...

 Damn, snap out of it! Ash thought. He would often space out in class thinking about him, even though every time the teacher asked a question, Ash always got the answer right. But he was constantly spacing out thinking about that boy, even if he didn't even know his name. Sometimes, he would even fantasize with the boy sitting in his desk, being able to be in the same place as he was, even if just for a moment...

 Maybe that was too much.

 Whatever.

 Those bastards better not touch Ash's desk again if they didn't want to be taught a lesson. Ash was a tidy person, and besides that, he hated trash and that “nerd” written in his desk was that, trash. The letters forming the word were ugly as fuck, it wasn't even nice to your eyes, reading that shit. Moreover, weren't desks supposed to be clean? Like, if you don't keep them clean, weren't you supposed to be on detention?

 It turns out that he was wrong.

 –

The second time it happened, Ash was angry.

–

  That time, there were various insults in his desk, those bastards went beyond the classic, recurrent “nerd”, they wrote “asshole” “bastard” “nerd”, “loner”. That last one was written in a puffy, boring penmanship, which Ash identified as Yut-Lung's. Ash had a keen eye for identifying kinds of penmanship, and he had seen Yut-Lung's once, enough for Ash to recognize it forever.

 Instead of staying put like he always did, Ash decided to take action. That winter day in the middle of January, shivering by the cold but with his blood boiling, Ash launched himself at Yut-Lung; he knew where his class was.

 “What the fuck are you doing to my desk?” Ash shouted straight to Yut-Lung’s face.

 “Me? I wouldn't dare doing anything to the genius of this institution.” Yut-Lung replied.

 “The first time you used your lackeys and now you wrote in it yourself. Don't play dumb. Well, you don't have to “play”. You are dumb.” Ash yelled.

 Yut-Lung got angry at that, his face went red and he jerked his arm, grabbing Ash's.

 “You pretentious bastard! I'm tired of you trying to be superior!” Yut-Lung cried, his voice echoing in the hallways.

 “No one's talking about superiority you asshole! I just want you to stop fucking with my desk!” Ash shouted. Having arrived at that point, a lot of people were gathered around them. That highschool loved rumors and fights, huh. Ash just wanted those fuckers to stop messing with him. So what if he was a loner? It was better than to mingle with people like Yut-Lung.  

 (even though Ash would love to mingle with people like his crush)

 Then, Yut-Lung ran away with tears in his eyes. A few minutes after that, he came back with a teacher, and Ash got expelled. Oh well, it looks like it was bound to happen, eventually.

 That day, when he got home, Griffin asked him about what had happened.

 “Got into trouble?” He kindly asked.

 “I'm sick and tired of Yut-Lung.” Ash said.

 “Didn't I told you to ignore him?” Griffin asked in return.

 “I do ignore him! But this time he started writing insults on my desk!” Ash shouted, furrowing his eyebrows.

 “And instead of insulting him couldn't you just erase the insults and keep living your life? I mean, he's an underclassman, he isn't even your classmate.”

 “But I bet he stalks me. He knows in which classes I study. He knows where I sit and he writes stuff in my desk, Griff. And I don't like people sitting in my desk.”

 “Then you won't like the period in which you have to swap classes between those people in third year.”

 Ash's heart skipped a bit. He suddenly got flustered and even blushed a little bit. Griff raised an eyebrow.

 “So there's someone you like in third year? Oh, Ash... Youth is so plentiful...” Griffin acted, putting a hand in his forehead and raising his voice, like he was performing something dramatic.

 Ash remained silent, but Griffin kept going nevertheless.

 “So now you're over Kelly Momsen? The girl you liked when you were 14 years old?” Griffin asked. How the hell did he know about Kelly?

 “Shut up. I don't think about her anymore. We grew apart and that's it. But at least at that time I didn't have to worry about assholes insulting me in my desk.” Ash stated.

 “Well, use those three days to think about you've done and blah blah blah and all the things you know you'd have to do but you won't do. But please don't call one of the favorite pupils “an asshole” in front of the whole class, got it?” Griffin said, winking an eye to Ash, which made clear that he wasn't angry. Griff wasn't angry most of the time, he knew Ash had his reasons.

 Instead of doing what Griffin told him, Ash used his time off the school to think about his crush, to think about how now they wouldn't be looking at each other when commuting classes, which was a shame. But they'd eventually see each other again, so it wasn't that bad.

 And they did, they saw each other again when Ash returned to school the following monday.

 But then it happened again.

 --

 The third time it happened, Ash was tired of this shit already.

 –

 That looked like it was Yut-Lung's revenge, because besides from insults there was stuff like “you'll pay for this” written on his desk. Instead of ignoring it like Griff said, Ash chose to reply that time. He used all the remaining space in his desk to scribble a big, SHUT UP, with the best penmanship he could manage, because he wanted to make Yut-Lung angry, if he were to tell the truth.

 The day after that, he expected to encounter another insult as he sat in his chair (which was right by the window, he could see the snow falling), but what he found instead was a clean desk, only his “shut up” remained. That, and a reply to his comment in a penmanship he had never seen before. It was simple, not much could be said about it, but it still looked cute and attractive.

 That's some nice penmanship.

 And then Ash had a crazy idea. He knew the handwriting of all his classmates by heart, so it had to be someone from another class, or someone from another high school year.

 From another school year.

 His heart skipped a beat.

 There was a possibility. There was a class which was conducted in that room, and his crush attended to that course.

 What if...?

 No, no, wishful thinking.

 But still, he replied something.

 Can't say that about yours, though

 He didn't mean it in a bad way, though, he hoped the receiver of the message got it, it wasn't a threat, or something bad, he just wanted to... start a conversation. For the first time in his life since he met Shorter, his best friend, who was in another class and they didn't coincide in any subject.

 That night, Ash went to sleep thinking about the receiver of the message. What kind of person could they be? They looked like a nice person, erasing those insults. But a little bit nosy too, they minded another person's business after all. However, Ash wasn't... entirely dissatisfied with what happened. Suddenly, all of Ash's class periods didn't matter; he was only focused on the one in which he could talk, well, write, to the person sitting on his desk.

 And so he fell sound asleep hearing the sound of the pouring rain as he thought about the mysterious person.

 The following day, Ash found a clean desk again, with only a single sentence written on it.

 Thank you, thank you. I try to write as well as I can. It's not my speciality, though.

Ash wondered if someone had written insults on his desk again and that kind person had cleaned them off as they did last time, but instead of giving it much thought, he just replied the message.

 What is your speciality, then?

 He swirled the pencil around his fingers, thinking about tomorrow and the answer he'd receive. The days were slowly going by and each day, he exchanged a line with the secret person he was writing to.

 I am on the pole-vaulting team. They wrote one day. Ash slowly imagined his crush in the pole-vaulting team; his crush training, wearing gym shorts, sweating as he ran, his taut muscles exposed for him to see... damn... did he seriously had to think of this?

 It was inevitable, every time he commuted classes and saw the boy, he would look at him as if he knew something Ash wasn't aware of, meanwhile Ash secretly dreamed about the desk person being him.

 If it was really him, he had to work on improving his handwriting though.

 That's nice. I write. Ash replied. My brother taught me, he is a novelist and I love his stories. He really enjoyed Griff's books and stories, he wasn't lying. If Griff was here though, he would probably say that that look like a classic shoujo manga story and that Ash was head over heels for his crush and that the person on the desk was probably interested in  Ash.

 At times like those were when Ash's heart seemed to stop; what if they were really the same person?

 Anyway, he didn't want to worry about that, everything was going smoothly with the receiver, they spent a few days exchanging life stories, anecdotes; and their penmanship was slowly getting better. Ash was starting to love it. Besides from that, every time he crossed ways in the corridor with the boy from third year, he would smile at Ash; a knowing smile. Ash was way too flustered by that, it couldn't be true that he was losing his cool demeanor.

 But he did.

 That's great. By the way, would you like us to meet?

 Boom.

 Ash's head exploded. Of course he wanted to meet them. He had spent an entire month talking to that person, he desperately wanted to know who they were so he could finally know if they were his crush or they were another person. He needed confirmation and he needed it as soon as possible, so he answered that he was okay with it.

 Okay, let’s meet tomorrow by the gym, at lunchtime.

 He hoped he hadn’t sounded rude, but since it was written everything seemed more serious. Deep inside, Ash was afraid of the person not showing up. He had abandonment issues ever since his mother went out of the picture when he was born, and his father neglected both him and Griffin, but that person seemed pretty gentle, right? They would definitely show up, right?

 Yeah, right.

 Ash went to the gym as he said and spent an entire hour waiting, only for uselessly acknowledging that he had kept his hopes up and that he should just give up. He should have never started this to begin with. Who the hell starts a friendship or whatever with someone you’ve never seen?

 That day nothing was written on the table when commuting classes either, and his crush was missing too. Good, February 13th couldn’t get any worse.

 What Ash didn’t know though, was that Yut-Lung had planned it all out. He knew who the person writing those messages was and successfully entertained its subject, Eiji Okumura, so that he couldn’t meet Ash.

 --

 Eiji was so tired. He had spent an entire hour going over his paperwork of the student council and he couldn’t even get a second to sneak out of the student council room to go meet the person he was scribbling with. He didn’t dislike Yut-Lung, but he had to admit that what he did was kind of unfortunate and that he could have waited or could have asked Eiji for his help another day.

 He had to make it up to that person because he didn’t want them to think that Eiji had left them alone.

 That was when Eiji got an idea. That day was February 13th, so the next one was Valentines Day. He could make chocolate for them and tell them to meet in the gym that afternoon, because truth be told, Eiji had a little crush on that person. Was it weird, to like someone you haven’t even seen?

 Eiji shrugged and kept going over his paperwork. He didn’t know if it was normal or not, but it was happening. That person had… nice handwriting; and there was something in the way they spoke that was strangely captivating.

 As captivating as his underclassman, the blond one he kept eyeing when he went into his classroom. Well, Eiji supposed he had to say goodbye to them now, his heart already had an owner.

 Eiji was determined to finish that and to go home to make the chocolate, and this time, he would sign it with his name. It was time to be brave.

 You’ve got this, Eiji. You’ve gone to worse hardships than having to help with the student council paperwork. You’re in the pole vaulting team and you’re doing pretty well. You will ace this.

 --

 The next morning, when the time in which he usually read messages from the person at the other side of the table (which sounded pretty weird, he was really communicating with someone via a table) arrived, Ash found a pretty pleasant surprise.

 Chocolate.

 Oh my god today is Valentines Day. Ash thought.

 Oh my god there’s a note attached to the chocolate. Ash thought. His heartbeat increased. He felt his face grow hot.

 With slightly shaky hands, Ash started reading the note. And then he froze.

 The handwriting.

 It was from the nice penmanship person.

  “It’s me. I’m sorry for not showing up yesterday, I had to help the student council with some paper work. I hope you like this in compensation for what happened. Let’s meet today at 5PM near the gym, if you’d like?

 Eiji Okumura.”

 A name.

 Oh my god the person he had been talking with had finally identified themselves. They weren’t a blurry ghost in Ash’s mind anymore. And today he was going to meet them, but he wanted to do a little investigation, and Shorter was going to help him.

 At lunchtime, he went to look for his friend and told him what had happened.

 “Do you remember the person I was talking to?” Ash asked while looking at Shorter, furrowing his eyebrows.

“Via your table.” His friend deadpanned.

 “Yes.” Ash answered.

 “I still can’t believe you’ve spent a month talking to someone via a fucking table, Ash.” Shorter stated while pointing at Ash.

 “Shut up and listen to me.” Ash grabbed his hand and put it back to its place. Shorter was a bit annoying sometimes.

 “Aye aye, sir.” Shorter motioned, sailor-like.

 “They’ve given me this” Ash held the wrapped box of chocolates in front of Shorter’s eyes. “And sign this note. Eiji Okumura. We need to find out how his face looks like.”

 “You’re talking to the master of figuring out how people’s faces look like”

 “That’s why I’ve come to talk to you”

 “You flatter me.”

 “Let’s go to where the teacher have the data on the students. If we rummage through the computer will find data on the people from third year. And you said he was on the pole vaulting team? We could find something out.”

 And so they did. Shorter entertained the teachers while Ash went inside the faculty room only to find out that the table person was actually his crush.

 Eiji Okumura.

 The boy he had spent so much time dreaming about.

 The boy he imagined in tight shorts running-

 Focus.

 Rummaging through a computer that doesn’t belong to you sent a strange thrill to Ash, knowing he had done something he shouldn’t have, but he had a goal in his mind.

 The rest of the day went by pretty boringly, he was way to flustered and nervous about the encounter with his crush to think about anything else.

 Until the time to meet arrived, and Ash grabbed a pen and went to the gym. Eiji was waiting for him, and without saying anything, he went to where he was and wrote “it’s me” on his hand.

 Eiji then reacted, blushed to the tip of his ears and confessed something. And they started confessing their lives out.

 “To be honest, I have a crush on you.” Eiji confessed.

 “To be honest I’ve been in love with you since I entered this high school.” Ash followed.

 “To be honest I’ve been looking at you when we crossed ways in the corridor.” Eiji continued.

 “To be honest I’ve imagined you in your sport clothes running and thought you were pretty handsome-“ Ash blurted out. Shit! He wasn’t supposed to say that! “Forget what I said.”

 “What if I don’t want to.” Eiji said, approaching Ash and grabbing his hand. It was warm.

 “Well, you’re the upperclassman here.” Ash admitted, his fierce green eyes piercing Eiji’s adorable black ones. “But I’ll make you forget.” He finished.

 “Oh, how?” Eiji asked.

 Ash then closed the distance between them with a kiss. It was fast, harsh and imperfect, a bump of lips more than a kiss, the rim of his glasses smashed Eiji’s nose.

 “That was a terrible kiss.” Eiji chuckled.

 “Want to prove if you can do it better?” Ash taunted.

 And then Eiji shut him up with a kiss and his pen fell, rolling on the floor.

 “Wait!” Ash exclaimed when they parted “I need that to talk to a very special person!” He said.

 “You’re terrible.” Eiji laughed.

 And everything seemed to be all right. Ash was undeniably happy.

 Yut-Lung, who had seen the development of what was happening, on the other hand, wasn’t as happy.

 But honestly,

 Fuck him.

[fuck-customers]

FAQ’s

I decided to get around to making a full FAQ to add to the sidebar. If I’ve missed anything, let us know.

Do you accept fuck coworker and manager submissions?

Yes we do! A while back we tried running a couple of separate blogs on the subjects but they weren’t successful because we continued getting asks and submissions here about coworkers and managers. Instead of just rejecting these we decided to accept them because they are a part of why customer service sucks. Changing the name of the blog isn’t necessary and would hinder the ability of our old and even new followers to find us if we suddenly just changed. We’ve been Fuck Customers for years, and it’s going to stay that way no matter how the blog evolves.

Why is the inbox/submission box closed?

We need to catch up because we’re neck deep in back log.

Can I use fan mail to submit my stories since the inbox is closed?

For the love of God no! This clogs the inbox up so bad and makes the process of catching up so much harder! Please be patient! We can’t reopen in a timely manner if we have to sift through and delete fan mail submissions that had no place being submitted in the first place in that format. Even when the inbox is open we delete those. The faster we can reopen the better. That all depends on our inbox remaining closed and uncluttered by fan mail. I may seem rude saying this, but it has become a serious problem and is hindering progress a LOT.

Why hasn’t my submission posted yet?

See here.

Who are the mods?

Abby, and Rodney.

Can you tag (insert thing)?

We used to, but with how big the blog has become it is unrealistic to be able to tag absolutely every single thing. We’re going to have to trust that our followers will be able to put trigger warnings before their own asks and submissions. We get up to 200 new asks and submissions a day on top of our personal and professional lives, so keeping up with posting/queuing is top priority.

Do you need anymore mods? Can I be one?

Ultimately this is up to Mandie, but at the moment the answer is no. Three is more than enough. You know what they say about too many cooks in the kitchen.

What don’t you post?

Anything racist, transphobic, homophobic, xenophobic, etc for starters. Anything not on topic to customer service is a big one too. We also don’t accept customers whining about employees. There is a line where it might be acceptable, though, like a case where a customer may see a manager or coworker abusing an employee. But if you’re bitching because someone smashed your bread then you are in the wrong place. Go to yelp. Fan mail is not the proper course of submitting your questions or stories. Use the ask or submission options and if the inbox is closed then check back later. Finally, hate mail. We get a lot of it and it’s a waste of space. Now, sometimes we do post one of any of these simply to drag your ass through the coals. Catch us on a bad day and expect to get roasted. Don’t be an asshole and you’re fine. We also try not to post anything that includes real store names, so try to use a fake one.

Why have I been blocked?

If you said anything offensive in a note towards us or another follower then you will be blocked. That could be death threats, telling someone to kill themselves, racism, homophobia, basically being an asshole. If you’re dumb enough to send hate mail without being anon, whether it’s to us or another follower, you’ll also get blocked. We do not tolerate that shit.

I requested my submission be posted anonymous! Why did it get posted or why wasn’t it posted?

It is your responsibility to submit anon. We post what is given to us in a format that tumblr allows(why we don’t post fan mail btw). If we were to post your submission anonymous we would have to cut and paste. Multiply that by 100 per day and we’d be swamped. If it accidentally gets posted that is on you, but most of the time we just delete it.

I found something on here offensive! I’m sending hate mail right now!

You know that is the equivalent of asking to see the manager, right? Just skip the post and move on, you’re holding up the line.

*This does not include reporting posts that were accidentally posted that we would definitely remove. If you’re polite about it that is fine, but if you’re going to yell at us and tell us you’re unfollowing then that’s customer like territory. We get a lot of hate mail when all you need to do is point it out nicely. We also don’t condone sending hate mail to other followers. Maybe what they said was offensive, but sometimes good people don’t realize that their wording wasn’t that great. Sending hate mail isn’t the proper way to get your point across and help them learn from the situation.*

If I’ve missed any questions that need to be added let us know. These are the ones I can think of off the top of my head.

Why hasn’t my submission posted?

We get this question a lot so I thought I’d compile a list:

1.) You sent it through fan mail. We do not post anything sent that way since it does not include an option to queue or post it, just reply. We stopped copy pasting submissions a long time ago.

2.) You included a store name. Some of these slip through, but for the most part these get deleted for the safety of your job and this blog. There are actually people whose job it is is to hunt down stories like these and punish those who tell them.

3.) You requested to be anonymous without actually submitting on anon. Again, we do not copy paste submissions.

4.) You said something extremely offensive. Such as racist, ableist, homophobic, xenophobic, etc. Sometimes you might find we will call you out on it, but for the most part these posts are deleted.

5.) You sent hate mail. We will sometimes destroy you in response, but we delete 99% of these.

6.) The subject matter has been talked about to death. After a while we stop beating the dead horse with a stick.

7.) You posted a customer complaint. Yes, we will post good experiences praising an employee, but if you’re here to complain about an employee from a customer point of view then you’re in the wrong place.

8.) Rarely tumblr will eat the post. If your submission hasn’t posted in a month and it does not fit the rules above then resend it.

9.) Also extremely rare we might have accidentally deleted it. Again, if it hasn’t posted in a month and doesn’t fit the first 6 rules resend it. I think this has only happened twice to me personally though.

10.) It’s already queued or still in our inbox waiting to be queued or posted. We get a lot of submissions and asks, so you’ll need to be patient.

11.) Also, if you send a long submission through several asks instead of the submission link then we’ll delete them all. It is difficult to find all the parts.

12.) It isn’t on topic for the blog or any conversation happening on the blog.

13.) Asking to become a mod. We’re not accepting new mods.

14.) Complaints about what has been posted that does not fit the criteria on this list. This is rare, but it happens.

15.) Anything that seems like it’s an advertisement.

16.) Your post did not seem like it was related to customer service in any way. If you did experience at work then you need to make it clear.

[jungflowers]

ocean waves // f o u r (taekook au)

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genre: College! AU/ light angst

pairing: taekook/vkook

word count: 2,268

read it on AO3 here!

summary:  Taekook AU in which Taehyung, an aspiring writer and professional cynic, learns from the mysterious stranger outside his cafe window that life is more than letters on a page

A/N: trying to run a fan account off of a side blog is officially the hardest thing I’ve done oof. Thanks for reading and don’t be afraid to leave any advice or comments! My message box is always open

“So I woke up soaking wet and in shock all because of that petty little demon,” Jimin ranted to Taehyung as he swiftly worked around the counter during his morning shift. “Do you know how terrifying it is to feel ice down your back first thing in the morning?”

“No, not really. Hopefully I never will,” Tae responded, amused at the whiny tone the barista’s voice had taken on. Jimin had been the victim of a revenge prank from his roomate, which had put a bit of a damper

Taehyung sat at the table closest to the store counter on a cloudy Thursday morning, enjoying the company of his new friend as he frantically attempted to finish the homework he had procrastinated. Ever since meeting the week before, the two had comfortably slipped into the habit of hanging out every morning at the coffee shop before walking to their Econ class. Taehyung liked Jimin despite the fact that he still barely knew him. He talked a lot, sure, but he never had a dull thing to say and never minded that Taehyung didn't speak as much as he did. In the few short days that they had known each other, Taehyung had learned a lot about the giggly mocha haired barista. He was from Busan, had a younger brother that looked like a carbon copy of him, left home and moved to Seoul when he was 16 to go to a performing arts school, and was now majoring in dance. Despite being a dancer for almost 10 years, he was one of the most clumsy people Taehyung had ever met. He tripped over his own feet on an hourly basis, like he still wasn't used to having legs. "It's because you made me laugh," he would whine, giggling infectiously. "I can't see when I laugh." He told him about his roomate, who he had met his sophomore year through a sketchy app for college students too broke to afford their own house. He played pranks on him regularly just to make sure that he wasn't a serial killer. He may have been the complete opposite of him- an extroverted, energetic manifestation of caffeine itself- but Taehyung had to admit that spending mornings with Jimin felt way better than spending them alone.

“I mean, sure, I hid his towel. And sure, we had guests over. But in my defense, it was in the laundry. I was doing him a favor. It just happened to be at a particularly inconvenient time. But tell me, what do I gain from a bucket of ice water put on my pillow and tied to my arm when he knows damn well I move around in my sleep?”

“The man doesn’t play games,” Tae sipped his tea, putting in a weak effort at editing his latest creative writing assignment.

“Hi, what can I get you?” Jimin’s demeanor took a 180° turn as he attended to the latest customer.

“Hey, can I have a caramel machiatto?” An eerily familiar voice ordered. Taehyung turned his attention toward the counter and immediately, his breath caught. As he turned around, the doe eyed stranger’s face lit up with recognition.

“Hey,” he smiled, walking a few steps closer.

“Camera boy,” Taehyung nodded, an awkward attempt to play it cool.

“How’s it going?”

“It’s going,” he sighed. “You?”

“Same here,” Taehyung smiled nervously in response.

The boy nodded, the short conversation seeming to end on that note until he piped up once more. “I never did get your name, did I?”

“N-no, you didn’t,” he choked out, caught off guard. “It’s Taehyung.”

“Jungkook,” he held out his hand. Taehyung shook it cautiously, trying to ignore the sparks that flew through him the instant his fingers made contact with the no-longer-stranger’s surprisingly soft skin.

“I’ll see you around, I hope?”

All Taehyung could do was smile enthusiastically in agreement, his voice rendered useless.

“Oh, and check the city magazine this week.” He grinned. “You might find something you’ll like.” He watched as the boy left, following the same white shirt and ripped jeans until he was no more than a mere blur in the distance.

“Oh my god,” Jimin’s eyes were wide in unexplained surprise, his mouth pulled into a larger, more blinding grin than usual.

“What? Did something happen?”

“It’s you,” he laughed heartily. “You have a crush, don’t you?”

“On who?” He played dumb, putting on his best, most confused face.

“On who?” Jimin mocked. “Camera boy? You act all standoffish and tough all the time, but you like him enough to give him a nickname.”

“Oh, him?” Taehyung scoffed, continuing the act. “I barely even know him.”

“But you want to, don’t you?” Jimin giggled, thoroughly entertained.”

“I don’t have a crush on him,” He concluded seriously, pushing up his glasses to the bridge of his nose and continuing to work, seemingly unbothered by his friend’s antics. Jimin emitted a final burst of laughter, but dropped the topic, seeming to believe his words.

They spent the next few minutes in silence, both focused on their work. Jimin took orders at lightning speed, and Taehyung managed to finish editing his assignment fairly quickly, mostly motivated by nervous energy.

“What type of camera does he have?” Jimin asked casually.

“Canon Rebel,” Taehyung replied, too quickly for his own good. Jimin’s suspicious stare tormented him until he finally cracked.

“Fine!" he sighed, throwing up his hands in surrender. "I might have the tiniest, microscopic interest in him. Not a crush. Just an interest.”

"An interest, sure." he scoffed as he emerged from behind the counter and wrapped his arms around the boy, smothering him. “My little Taetae is growing up! Look at you, showing your feelings and shit.” 

“I'm still taller than you,” he mumbled through Jimin's sweater. "And I don't have feelings. They're gross."

Jimin bit his lip to hold back a huge smile with a hint of something mischievous in it. That couldn’t mean anything good.

“Stop it. Stop thinking right now.”

“I know how you can pay me back for saving your life last week.”

“Didn’t you say-”

“Let’s pretend I didn’t,” he replied quickly. “Let me help you get together with him.”

“What makes you think I want to initiate a conversation with a virtual stranger?”

“If you keep watching him that hard every time he comes in here, you’re gonna need new glasses,” he playfully nudged his golden frames.

“No. Never. A thousand times no.”

Jimin smiled even bigger, staring deep into Taehyung’s soul.

“No.” He said stronger, refusing to be swindeled into a dangerous arrangement.

Defeated, Jimin pouted all the way back to the counter. Taehyung turned his attention back to his homework, pulling out his calculus binder. As he tapped rapidly at the buttons on his calculator, he heard a loud sigh from a few feet away. Ignoring it, he returned back to his work, scribbling the answers down on his worksheet. Then another loud sigh. Taehyung rolled his eyes, shooting a pointed stare in the barista’s direction. Not even a minute later came another sigh, so loud and mournful that it caught the attention of some of the customers nearby. 

“I’ll think about it, okay?” Taehyung had reached the peak of stress, throwing his pencil down and pleading with the boy. “I’ll think about it.”

Jimin’s face brightened into a satisfied smirk, relieving the other boy. He yelled something to the workers in the back room before untying his apron and hanging it up by one of the shelves and grabbing his backpack.

“Let’s go to class, lover boy.” He teased, pinching Taehyung’s cheeks as he scrambled to keep up with him. He didn’t tell anyone—he barely even admit it to himself, but he spent the rest of that day trying to beat back the sparks that shot through him whenever he remembered that morning.

“What’s your favorite flower?”

“My what?”

“Favorite flower,” Taehyung repeated. “What is it?”

“Why?” Namjoon laughed at the strange question. “Are you going to buy me flowers?”

“Not if you don’t tell me what your favorite flower is.” Taehyung joked. “Come on, hyung. It’s for my stupid writing class. Help a brother out.”

Taehyung had done remarkably better on his last two chemistry tests thanks to Namjoon’s amazing brain. The change was so drastic that he had actually begun to understand the material on his own, meaning that their tutoring sessions had shifted into study dates with an occasional question here or there. Taehyung had insisted on paying the boy for his help, but Namjoon strongly declined the offer, suggesting instead that Taehyung continue to help him in the studio, which he was more than happy to do. Of course, Namjoon’s idea of help was really just watching him bob his head self consciously to the music and listening to his mediocre feedback. “You’re like a lucky charm,” he claimed. “The last time I finished a song while you were there, my teacher complimented me on it in class. It was a fucking miracle.”

Now it was Taehyung’s turn yet again to ask for advice.

“What’s the topic today, Shakespeare?” He leaned forward to peak at Taehyung’s blank screen.

“‘Write a story from the perspective of a flower.’" he read the prompt. "How am I supposed to write a 200 word piece on something that doesn’t even move?”

“Hm,” Namjoon bit lightly on the end of his pencil as he contemplated the idea. “What kind of flower? Like, a garden flower or a vase flower?”

“The flower kind.” Taehyung replied dryly.

Namjoon ignored his sarcasm and finally answered his question.

“I like wildflowers, I guess. Anything you just find growing by it’s own outside, without a garden. Write about those.”

Taehyung nodded, thinking for a minute before acting on the first inkling of an idea that popped into his head, exhausted with trying to overthink every essay he wrote. He typed carelessly and furiously, causing Namjoon to look up from his book every couple minutes in concern. The words flowed quickly and dangerously, now that he refused to censor himself. In 15 minutes he was finished, handing it apprehensively to Namjoon to read.

 “Somewhere in the forest, a wildflower turns its petals to the sun for the first time. For the first time, it dares to uncurl it’s young limbs and bloom. For the first time, it is able to relax. Wildflowers do not have to be told that they are beautiful, like the roses of the garden or the morning glories that peek out from bushes every so often. Wildflowers are born knowing so, without any human to tell them. Wildflowers do not wait to be watered. They do not stand to be coaxed from their buds for the sake of profit. They provide for themselves and they bloom on their own time. But like any good flower, they are plucked from the ground, torn from their roots and thrown in a vase of water. Their once strong, confident petals will learn to wither away, and they will learn to bleed silently, so as not to corrupt their beauty. Like any good flower, they will not last, and the beauty that held their chins up with pride will be their demise.”

 “You came up with this,” he cocked his head from side to side, completely examining the words on the screen in front of him. “In 7 minutes?”

“It’s a rough draft,” he explained.

“I’ve never heard you write like this.”

Namjoon scrolled through the file, skimming it a second time. “It’s usually so... happy.”

“Yeah? Well, it was a lie.” The words that he had sighed came out before he realized what he had said, regaining consciousness only when he felt Namjoon’s concerned glare analyzing him. He didn’t bother asking the question that should have come next, because he already knew the answer that he would receive. Instead, he said,

“You’re coming to Hoseok’s party. End of discussion.”

Taehyung opened his mouth to attempt a response, managing to squeak out a surprised, “Why?”

“Because,” Namjoon began, closing his book and beginning to pack his things into his backpack. “I’m not letting you grow old and bitter alone in your apartment all year. You’re stressed. I can see it. I can hear it in your writing and your voice. Just look-” He pulled out his phone and stuck the camera lens in his face, a click sounding as Taehyung frowned in confusion. He turned the screen toward him, revealing a rather grumpy looking photo of the boy, enhanced with gray eye circles and tossled hair that further proved Namjoon’s point.

“You look like you need a hug. Now get up, we’re going to your house.”

“What- now?”

“The party is at 8. In 3 hours.” He stood up from the table, forcing Taehyung to follow his lead.

“How am I supposed to mentally prepare myself for a party that’s 3 hours away?” He grumbled.

“You’re not.” He replied. “That’s why I’m helping you.”

As Taehyung reluctantly threw his things into his messenger bag, he swallowed bitterly, his throat dry from something akin to dread. “Does this mean I should throw away the story? W-was it that bad?”

“Are you kidding me? It’s the best thing you’ve ever written, which is saying a lot. I’m not worried about your writing. I’m worried about you.” He gave him a softer smile, dimples accenting the corners of his mouth, that put him at ease. “Now come on, we've got work to do.” he said as he dragged Taehyung toward the exit, draping an arm around him all the way.