#AND I OWE SO MANY REPLIES

[orangeshinigami]

so i had like the worst day ever at work so far yesterday and then when i finally got home, i drank pretty much a whole bottle of wine & quite literally passed out after that, was it from exhaustion or from how drunk i was? i'll never be sure lmao. anyways i did some adulting today before trying to drown my sorrows with alcohol once more and now i'm here to try a healthier coping mechanism than drinking, which is writing, not sure how well that'll go tho. hopefully i can be at least a little bit productive tonight. :')

[peachpitss]

i am dogshit at self-promotion and haven’t had serious time to sit and write fic in a while, so thank you to the random people still discovering my work and leaving kind comments and messages about it. the world is your oyster. 😭💞✨🥳😭💞✨🥳😭💞✨🥳

[bisexualmcqueen]

Ok listen, I know you literally just posted about McQueen's parents, but I am already so obsessed with them and would love to know more about them!! 💙

ok so this has been sitting in my askbox since JULY (CRAZY??) and ive been thinking about it ever since. thank you for bearing with me<3 quite frankly i needed to reacquaint myself a bit longer with cars/my cars ocs after a 4 year long break!! lightning is about 43 now in 2024, which means i have 4 decades of his story to mentally keep track of (simply the flavor of autism i have). i bounce all over like a laserbeam in a hall of mirrors.

alright. oliver and donna time. blanket warning for varied implied child abuse/neglect. [background info this ask is referencing!!] ***

the very basic core of these characters is looking at lightning mcqueen and wondering how the hell he wound up all fucked up the way he did. hes got all the issues (he thinks hes sooo normal but there are so many things going on that arent right). so i invented a couple of fucked up guys to fuck him up (mildly to moderate) in his formative years.

oliver is the main culprit here. oliver mcqueen. yes- one of the core aspects of this character is "Two Of Them". what if there was Another mcqueen. imagine a second mcqueen man (dear god). he had a dad somewhere along the line. and what a guy, oh i'm sadly a bit obsessed with oliver. hes like if lightning mcqueen was Worse. hes a boomer from the boston metro area and he thinks he's cool as shit like bernie madoff doing investing fraud, trying to get rich. he thinks hes the wolf of wall street of texas. his head is completely up his own ass and hes a mean little idiot worm. hes supposed to be raising monty but all hes taught him is 'every man for himself' and how to close the door quietly. that and other things.

they live in the dallas metro area together from about 1988-1999. oli does not want to raise this kid, so he sort of just throws food and tires at him occasionally. monty spends a lot of time outside, raising hell (where'd you learn to fly like that, city boy?). typical racecar behaviors. (his teachers find him impossible to deal with often as well).

not to say that oliver is some irredeemable evil freak- hes funny, hes charming, hes a bit of a badass, hes sort of a hot pathetic mess in a funny way. he does pass on some decent traits to his son, gives him good advice occasionally. he's crazy, but he works in an office, so most of his schemes are social and criminal. i recently made an AU where he's a racer, so hoping to post more about that as i develop. (a successful oliver is much more frightening than one distracted by failure!)

this has oliver and monty vibes, oddly enough:

don't be fooled- oliver could never hold a candle to the heart of logan wolverine. oliver is a republican and he hates women (he loves women /derogatory). oliver sucks enough that lightning straightup considers doc to be his actual dad. next! ***

ah, donna. origin of abandonment issues, ring ring!

she's less developed than oliver because she exits stage left pretty early on in the story, but we still love her (or hate her, up to interpretation!) i actually recently gave her a full name even: Donna Ann SteelDust. yep, steeldust as in the mythical foundational sire of the American Quarter Horse breed. partly because texas, partly because i love horses, and partly because in the 1950's there lived a pair of quarter horses who were father and son named Doc and Lightning. and they were racing quarter horses to boot! oh, and partly because the mother of lightning mcqueen deservedly needs a badass name.

donna has monty at about age 20, with a godless charmer from faraway boston, out of wedlock, in a small community somewhere towards western texas in the early 80's. oliver is fresh out of uni and a couple years older. donna is a waitress at the local eatery. girl, your taste in men is abysmal. you can NOT fix him. traveler meet-cute gone wrong...

hes miserable enough of a partner that he is ultimately what drives donna to leave. gone in the wind one day when monty is about six. she met someone new. someone who she thinks is kinder.

she puts the tv to RSN every sunday. she likes watching races- radio when theres no tv. when monty becomes obsessed, she gets him a little strip weathers figurine when shes out of town one day that he manages to hold onto til his teen years. they sit in front of the tv and watch together, and have popcorn made on the stovetop. when lightning recalls his mother, this is the first place his mind goes.

she didnt want a kid (as in unplanned). she didnt consciously try to be a good parent (neither did oliver). but she was sweet. well, sometimes, when she wasnt being a hot mess and stirring up drama.

originally, i was going to have her die before lightning became famous. oliver was going to also be dead by now (2024). but ive got some new ideas- oliver is in prison, donna is in denial about her famous son and festering with guilt. she does not reach out to him. (latter idea from Non).

to boil them down further: donna believes in love, oliver believes in money. they go about it the wrong way. they make mistakes. (part of lightning's obsession with money is in unconscious spite of his father- he wants to prove a point, that he was doing it all wrong, he can do better, he can Win ['i'll show him!']. consciously, lightning's money worries are about his own longevity. there is no lightning mcqueen parts factory: hes some sort of rare 1 of 1 anomaly. unconsciously again: death [mortality, time lost, being forgotten] frightens him. out loud, he says wrecking does. he does not connect any of these dots fully.)

a looottt of this is in flux, these characters still need significant development. but its a story about loneliness, about escaping the cycle, about finding your wings. this is not lightning's family, this isnt where he lands. he doesnt have christmas at ma's. you cant go home again- there's no one there for you and there never was. cps doesnt save you. you find yourself.

mostly this all comes from my fascination with lightning's mysterious origin. and frustration with it. what do you mean the only in-film lore we get is "i've been dreaming about it my whole life!" and "glen elen- my first win!". all his convoluted emotional shielding (for a minute there). he jumps at loud sounds and thinks someone is shooting at him. his natural jackass behavior even after he is 'reformed.' his clearly ignored mental health concerns. he drives me insane forreal. lightning mcqueen i will dissect you and put your parts spread out on a clean workbench you bitch. i will label and graph you in 4D space. im putting you in the bee centrifuge.

gonna cap this off with a recent sketch of donna. turns out corvettes are IMPOSSIBLE to draw, send help. more info about this timeperiod/my ocs are filed under the "origin fic era" and "my ocs" tags on this blog (mostly barren at this time though. will add more.). excited to refine these characters even more as time goes on!

thank you again for the ask!

[townofcadence]

If you're waiting for a reply from me, I'm really sorry for the wait! I have most of them written in drafts, but I'm holding on to all of them except the resonance thread (Resi is a fickle muse sometimes and I don't want to lose him while he's working with me) because I'm trying to get some artwork done for commissions and gifts!! I plan to release threads come Friday, but i really appreciate the patience! ^^

[glcwbitch]

under      the      cut,      you'll      find      another      round      of      test      muses      that      i'd      love      to      get      some      interactions      for      !!      hit      the      like      &      i'll      throw      a      starter      (      or      three      )      your      way      !!

                             alora  howards  (  film  /  television  star  .  )  cindy  kimberly  .

                             reina  salcido  (  performer  at  lounge  nur   )  becky  g  .

                             atarah  tanglao  (  pastry  chef  for  sweetums  cafe  .  )  janella  salvador  .

                             ilhami  yılmaz  (  pageant  director  /  coach  .  )  melisa  pamuk  .

                             anora  weatherall  (  pro  volleyball  player  &  barista  for  sweetums  cafe  .  )  sherry-lee  watson  .

                             isadora  souza  (  winery  &  vineyard  co-owner  .  )  giovana  cordeiro  .

                             charlotte  '  lottie  '  guerrero  (  low  -  level  drug  dealer  &  employee  of  dark  matter  dispensary  .  )  rachelle  vinberg  .

                             giulia  pugh  (  mob  boss'  daughter  &  heiress  .  )  margaret  qualley  .

                             sabino  moretti  (  lyrical  and  instrumental  soloist  .  )  damiano  david .

                             jensen�� graham  ( full  -  time  student  &  baker  at  sweetums  cafe .  )  louis  partridge  .

                             cyan  lavigne  (  hotel  receptionist  .  )  archie  renaux .

                             garrick  harrier  (  corrupt  detective  /  officer  .  )  aaron  pierre .

                             hemi  neal  (  corrupt  narcotics  officer .  )  kj  apa .

                             daniel  gibson  (  pre  -  law  student  &  contractor  for  montell  syndicate .  )  copper  koch .

[irltowa]

anyways im slowly trying to get back to rp stuff bc i miss it (and its towa's birth month) but pls bear in mind that i have So Much catching up to do 😭

[techniiciian]

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[knightedgales]

@pawnedprince asked: ∗ 86﹕ sender  brings  receiver  to  their  knees  during  combat . + reverse / 𝟏𝟎𝟎 𝑵𝑶𝑵𝑽𝑬𝑹𝑩𝑨𝑳 𝑷𝑹𝑶𝑴𝑷𝑻𝑺: still accepting.

When they'd met, he was but a peasant. If memory serves, in fact, Lord Capon had demeaned him as some blacksmith's boy. Yet, the season has shifted ever speedily, the nipping of the springtime now succumbing to the heat, and there in the span of some dizzying few weekends, this boy, their Henry, now stands a man.

Wolf.

With a hard shove, Hans, off center, is dropped to his knees.

Henry! Bernard's voice, in his skull, peals like a banshee. The young lord hates losing! I'd told you that, didn't I? (You had, sir, aye.) Well, if it's your ass on the hotseat, don't blame it on me!

Breathing hard, the blunted end of that blade finds his throat.

"What about it?" Cocky. Proud. Sweat drips twinkly down Henry's neck, skin flush, and by their Holy Father up above...! Christ's wounds, those brilliant and impossible and goading-you eyes! "Ready to wave the flag, Sir Hans?"

How had he gotten so good?

[ghostzzy]

THANK U SO MUCH FOR CURSEDWIP CHAT TODAY <33

[polishedforsurvival]

awkward levi i will always love you

[stevecoven]

Funny thing. This song got me thinking about Murph.

Walk The Moon - Population of Two

https://music.youtube.com/watch?v=FfR-xPbNxNk&si=V6gi1Mk_DzKJryhd

HEY so fun fact this song is already on my Sturphy playlist and Walk the Moon are my fave band of all time. Truly we are on the same wavelength 🎶

[sirensofthefiveseas]

Update; still no power but my dad caved and bought a generator. He'll plug it in tonight after I drop my mom off at work

[unladielike]

To be honest, I could bring myself to get with the times and add an 'Affiliated with' and 'Mains' section on Vivian's Pinned Post like all the youngins on here, but I'm cursed with the affliction of threads on this blog rarely extending past two notes due to the fact I have abysmal luck when it comes to pulling roleplay partners that won't vanish/deactivate on me, so realistically speaking, @illholy, @spiritpyro, and @dis--parity would be the only ones I could say I'm affiliated with... while my mains would probably be a constant '???', just because I'm uncertain on who even considers me a main at this point.

I mean, I'm fine with not being considered an affiliate in return, especially since Judith is permanently a part of Vivian's default canon verse for example regardless, but mains wise, I don't wanna assume stuff or be presumptuous... so for the longest time, I opt not to update my Pinned Post. Like, perhaps one day, Vivian would end up being important to more muses, but she tends to not receive much engagement compared to other blogs, I'm unconsciously all, 'God, who even wants this trash girl as their main?'.

Granted, I know I should probably be more confident about my OC since I've been writing her for ages now; only... even after all the time, I still can't help being self-conscious about Vivian, since I get the sense I'm the black sheep of the RPC and I know her personality can be a lot.

[oculusxcaro]

[I portray Rorschach as gay but low-key his bond with Khare is so sweet and meaningful that I could see him being fine with platonically marrying Khare. In a world where that would even be on the table, which I'm sure is not.

but also Khare could get a green card that way. just sayin]

Rue, this is the sweetest thing and I'm sorry it's taken a while to reply to this because I kept coming back to this and grinning like an idiot until my cheeks hurt? Rorschach and Khare's relationship is by far one of my all-time favourite experiences, not just on this one thing but roleplaying in general.

Their connection is one of those things I never saw coming but holy crap, it's so good, the way their bond has grown so much and whenever I'm having a bad day, I just think back to one of their many interactions and start smiling like a loon all over again. It goes without saying your Rorschach is absolutely-fucking-phenomenal - all your muses are, but your writing in particular pulled Watchmen from the deepest recesses of 2009 and dragged it right back into the forefront again. Dan, Liz and Adrian are all beautifully written but I can't deny these two are something deeply special to me. Guilty as charged, your honor. ♥ Your Rorschach being gay (which I adore about him) is so brilliantly portrayed and reasoned, so it's all the more meaningful that, in the best case scenario, he'd actually be okay with platonically marrying Khare? I don't think she'd mind either; sure he's no Bruce Wayne, but that doesn't matter to her because she adores him and he really is the closest friend she's got, both in Gotham and probably in her life which was nothing special until, you know, the whole getting-kidnapped-and-turned-into-an-experimental-guinea-pig type thing. He's been good to her though, and even though not a lot of people like him very much, he's important to her, so even though it's not likely there's a world where this would actually happen given the issues™ our two have, just the thought that he'd willingly do this for her says a lot considering his attitude about women. She gets a green card, he gets a beard so nobody looks at them too closely and Rorschach can continue contending with his feelings and accept his being gay. It's a win/win situation if, you know, Rorschach didn't have a crippling deathwish and Khare wasn't basically rotting from the inside out. Still, it's a very sweet thing to think about and these two being able to heal from their pasts and come out as better people for it.

[cloudbends]

HAI VI ! 1, 10 and 15 for the manga ask game <3 very curious abt your top 5 hehe

HI LITO!!! tysm hehe <3

1. Your top 5 reads of 2023:

Already answered very lengthily so in short!!

skip and loafer

ikoku nikki

nabari no ou

akane-banashi

megami ibunroku persona

10. A story you related to:

Honestly so many, but if I've had to pick one it'd probably be skip and loafer because well... shima... yeah.

15. The manga that made you laugh the most:

already answered here!

[sobeautifullyobsessed]

Okay, so I know this is just me channeling my feelings of total inadequacy, but a lot of the time I feel like I'm letting most of My Beloved Mutuals down.