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bunnakit · 2 months ago

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i've been dealing with a lot so i'm just gonna dump a stream of consciousness here; lots of personal life shit and general whining 🌸

god between the house shit, tariff shit, work shit, streaming shit, i'm so fucking exhausted. something has to give soon.

you guys know how the mortgage lady said we'd need $126,000 for a down payment? she fucking typoed her text. we need $26,000. so that was at least a massive weight off - thank you so much to anyone who helped me, even though this down payment is much more manageable i'm still scrounging and spending as little money as possible these days and you guys made things so much more comfortable for me.

money aside, though, I still need to clean years of depression and general malaise for an appraiser to come check out the house in early June and your good bitch has cleaning trauma up the ASS. tldr: cleaning was a way to avoid being yelled at by dad, if I was cleaning I was being "good" and there was no way I could be part of whatever caused his outburst.

so now I just mentally go to this horrible place and my stomach hurts but i've been trying to find ways to make cleaning fun - listening to audiobooks, podcasts, blasting music, whatever. it hasn't been too bad but I just feel like I don't have enough time and I feel like i'm the only one in this house (i'm 1/4 people) fucking doing anything - but that's just the story of my life.

went on my little trip which was so fucking needed. peaches and "lemon" (mutual friend of ours) paid for my flight and wanted to just give me an escape from home and all of it and GOD it was so nice. it made me realize how much tension I hold at home and how much the house unfairly relies on me. but whatever. it iiiiis what it iiiiis and i'm not entirely blameless bc i'm a control freak and tend to take over anyway.

during ALL of this work has just been a shit show. we got fucked by tariffs and customs wouldn't release one of our shipments to us until AFTER that shipment was supposed to ship. we finally got it weeks later and hired some people to help us pack it all up and they put the wrong items in the wrong shipping bins. so everyone got products we hadn't even announced yet and STILL not the items they're waiting for. we ended up giving everyone the surprise stuff for free and finally this week got the correct items sent but I received 300 emails in the span of 1 week. it's definitely the most insane work has ever been, thankfully I didn't have to do much aside from field questions but it's been so stressful and I was SO behind on emails (until today, i'm now 48 hrs behind thank godddd)

(if you know where I work no you don't but also hey hi lol)

but with all this stuff going on I've been too exhausted to do anything creative, i've even had to pause my streams for right now. I just don't have enough hours in the fucking day. I want to write so badly, I want to stream, I want to do NOTHING, but every moment of every day I need to do something.

AND THEN THIS WEEK I GOT SICK.

idk what I had, I was getting so nauseous, so many headaches, my whole body hurt so bad I had to go get some lidocaine patches, i've just been fucking miserable but i'm finally feeling better today.

AND THEN I STARTED MY PERIOD.

my period has been getting progressively worse as I get older to the point where my cramps have me stuck in bed crying some days. I thankfully have plans to get an implant put in so it's a minor issue right now but it was just a like, OF COURSE THIS WOULD HAPPEN.

with all the stress and everything i'm exhausted but because i'm me I'm struggling so badly to get any good sleep. I keep waking up every few hours and just toss and turn and it's miserable.

so i've become a bigger stoner than ever to just try and unclench and have some moments of peace to get everything to quiet down.

but then I have guilt for that bc it's considered a "gross" habit and there's still so much stigma about it and then the concerns come in of "omg i'm turning into my dad."

but like. i'm not bringing my daughter to my meth den so. y'know. maybe i'm doing fine. (I don't have a meth den lmao)

i just never want to be one of those people that makes smoking weed their entire personality but it's the only thing keeping me sane lately and in so much less pain, I only smoke after work is done, and the worst that happens is I open my mouth like Kirby and ingest half my snack rations in a single night.

i'm always such a pro-weed person, I think it's such a valuable resource and the stigma is bullshit, but as many things in my life that gentleness doesn't apply to myself lol

and then again I just miss writing and streaming so much. I wanna play clair obscur, I wanna write afterimage, I wanna write bas' fic. UGH. I still owe my friend a fic.

and then some of my friendships are strained. someone asked me not to talk to them so much about kpop and that just really hurt me. I know i'm a lot; i'm too loud, too excited, too much. it just really punched me with all that and I was like sure, okay. I haven't brought it up myself since. she's asked and I think she feels bad but I will never talk to her about my interests the same way again and it really made our friendship feel conditional.

i've also just very much felt like some friends are just waiting for me to stop talking so it can be their turn to talk rather than actually listening to me.

i've noticed some of my friends want to talk about their creations and their worlds and yet no one asks about mine. i'll have multiple questions I ask bc I want to hear about their passions and their creations and worldbuilding but I get none of that in exchange so i'm just. wondering if there's any point.

if my own friends aren't interested then is it even interesting? why is a stranger going to care? perhaps writing just isn't for me. perhaps I shouldn't waste my time.

at least i've been making new connections in streaming. at least the house thing is better than I thought. at least as soon as i'm done yapping I can go smoke a bowl and put off a mental breakdown for one more day.

anyway if you read this thanks, love you, kisses, do something nice for yourself today.

#oat yaps #personal #life shit #cw: recreational drug use #cw: childhood trauma #lmao these tags are so scary it's not that bad I promise #not reread or edited if there are mistakes let them fly

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suchsaccharine · 2 years ago

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I haven’t eaten in going 48+ hrs.

Finals are upon me.

Trying to finish my shitshow of an honors philosophy course

And then span 1, which has been humbling after my comp 1 prof forced me into honors last semester.

These late late night that I stay up by myself,

I wonder if I’ll miss them. I wonder if I’ll ever be in the position to miss them.

Nothing is elegant or glamorous or even tragically beautiful. I love art, and when I was younger I truly did not understand that life imitates art. Nor that art imitates dilapidated, dramatic, anticlimactic, monotonous “nothingness”

It looks so good as brush strokes on paper or on a typewriter, a book published with almost no punctuation. Using /s instead of ‘s because / is easier & the artist hadn’t time for such nonsense while birthing his story.

I’ve read those book and watched the screen adaptations more times than I ever care to view again. (Mostly)

Ten years later after starting my temperdefusion-blog on here and I am so different. And so much the same. I know what I didn’t. I understand how the world works. How different kinds of people work. What they expect of me. How to play different roles.

But what never seems to change is this core version of me stuck at 18. No baby yet. My first true beyond-bender that put me in a state of psychosis I’ve never been able to replicate. Follie a deux? Madness for two? My baby dad did that to me. His dad shared delusions with us too but we had more time focused on the two of us, and boy the thing your first dump of dopamine will make you believe. Because it FEELS true! What a trip! I didn’t know I was ND and he easily brainwashed me into thinking I was the devil literally but without being able to tell, but fully believing him.

Looking back I think he is much more low vibrational than I used to give him credit and it is actually me that is special. Anyway it’s 2:33am and if I’d didn’t sleep tonight we’re looking at day three.

I’m starting to lean more and more on stuffs to keep my appetite down. Do they still sell phenermïne or whatever? Idk.

Twitter kinda sucks for some reason and seriously, fuck u for that, Elon. I have a 12 yr old acc and whatever the fuck you’ve done has resulted in me resenting my time on my fave app! You fuck. So here I’m back again and again. Drugs, bpd, trying not to eat.

Twitter.com/lostomwhome

#eedee #eedee tumblr #eedeetwt #rice cake nation #tw drugs #stimulants #weight loss #diet mountain dew #tw gaslighting #manipulation #sociology #anthro #philosophy #i want a cigarette

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tricornes · 5 months ago

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i feel bad talking about my life recently because things have actually gone very well. and i doubt that many people are having the same experience, so i think i will squirrel this update away on this blog with zero followers and bask in my own amazement.

i doubt my future self will forget what happened but just in case: everything was fine until it was not. in october, i was told that my performance was subpar at my semi-annual review. the lack of clear goals, isolation from the rest of my team, and sheer chaos of the job had started to wear on me. i bumbled through into december, when i was told that i could either walk away or go on a PIP.

i chose the PIP, which turned out to be the right choice, even if it made january a living hell. i continued to try and fail to achieve something. my optimism, fortunately, was not great enough to make me think i would stay at this company. so i applied like mad for something else. i got a few rejections, refined my resume, and kept going.

two more weeks went by. on a random sunday, i got a message from a recruiter at a company i recognized, complimenting my resume and asking if i would interview. it turns out that interviews are much easier when you have actual experience to draw upon. it also helped that my potential coworkers were pretty easy to talk to!

friday 1/31, i was set to have a meeting with my managers. and i was prepared to quit. but i saw that an HR rep had started the meeting, so they took action before i could. and that was fine. it was mildly humiliating, and i could tell that my supervisor hated me. but i no longer required her approval. i had an interview later in the afternoon anyway.

that interview went about as well as an interview could go. i could tell that the manager liked me, and i was near 100% confident that i would be hired. they said i'd hear early the next week, so i did prepare for the possibility of rejection. but! as i was preparing to leave the house for a get-together with my now ex-coworkers, i put my phone on to charge. when i checked it, i had a text from the recruiter, informing me that the team wanted to hire me :)

so i was unemployed for about 8.5 hours. and now i am on a paid vacation thanks to the PTO i accrued! it is hilarious that i stuck around this long because i got 48 hours at the start of the year. i'm sorry, but i'm not. because even though i was definitely not great at my job, the training i got SUCKED. the support i got SUCKED. i got conflicting messages all the time. by the end, my supervisor didn't want to believe ANYTHING i said. and dragging myself to the office 3x/week was taxing. i think being mostly remote will also be taxing, in a different way. but with therapy etc i think i may have a chance to not fuck it up.

as a wise man once said: if you don't get punished, you don't have to learn.

i will miss all the parts of my job that are not work. i feel a little bad knowing that i am taking a not-insignificant chunk of joy and whimsy with me when i leave! even though i wasn't particularly close to any of my cohort, i think they will miss the comic relief, if anything. and i'll miss my spanish class.

i'm not sure that anyone in my life knows all of this information, or how bad it really was. so in case i get amnesia, i guess i'll have to figure out that tumblr exists in order to remember how batshit (in a positive way) i can get when the chips are down.

i guess that's all for now.

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mystictarotcafe · 9 months ago

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Sorry

I've finally gotten off my last old psych med and haven't felt up to posting on here. Add that I had the outline of my first tattoo done last Friday I've been super sleepy. Slept over 48 hrs since Friday, it's Monday morning now, and still a bit sleepy.

Probably the worse time to give up, or cut back on, sugar and caffeine. I'll survive and once all the withdraws are over I'll definitely feel better. I just can't see drawing out withdraws from everything on a one at a time basis. Get it done and over with so everyone, and me, are miserable for the shortest time possible.

I think I mentioned it before, but I got a new tarot deck at an event just over a week ago. I'll try to work with it and post a CoD later today. It's adorable.

Anyway, I should be back on track in the next couple weeks. Though, I'll toss that to the wind when I get shading done on Nov. 8th.

#tarot #card of day #understanding

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yoshimonster · 2 years ago

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Blog #11: Reaching Next Levels of Existentialism

This past week and a bit has been so strange. I believe I started it by doing a hackathon – which, if you don’t know, is basically a weekend long challenge where you have to make a product or even propose a product by the end of the 48 hr time period. There are also random mingling activities hackathons do, typically a getting to know you type event or trivia nights etc. It’s not a bad idea at all, but typically if you apply with a group you just stick with that group over the next couple of days. I think the socialising towards the end of the hackathon is when things get actually interesting and connections form. Forming new connections always takes time.

I also, since Monday this week, have been watching so many geopolitics of the world videos and it’s gotten me to recalibrate part of my life. I believe I was just looking up some random Kpop news which turned into me googling North Korea, which then turned into looking up world news. A lot of the videos are super history-centric and focused on the aftermath of a series of events … yep I can relate to the aftermath of a series of events a lot. It touches on what I said in earlier entries, where I talk about the exhaustion of navigating through tough situations/putting up a front and how draining that can be. It’s been really interesting how certain world events that happen, especially the really major life changing ones, and then decades later the effects would be felt or people would continue to be hung up about them. I reckon that’s a part of life.

I really used to dismiss the long-term impacts of my decisions which I’m sure is clear from everything earlier and treat life sort of like a video game. You have a challenge you overcome it and then you move onto the next challenge. Despite this, I’ve always been such a fantasy lover and Harry Potter was my entire childhood – I just loved the idea of some mystical external being coming over and whisking me away to a land where I wouldn’t be so hopeless and in fact people liked me by default. Though, I’m not sure that I would’ve handled things are gracefully as Harry did back then – I was given way too much lenciency and freedom as a child that I was almost paralysed with the freedom I had.

I feel like this is quite privileged thing to say; people sacifirce their lives for such freedom and ability to pursue their dreams. But, regardless, that was my experience and it feels wrong to discount the fact that you kind of need a balance between firmness and freedom to deal with things as they come. I remember after a long time of being so confused and not sure of anything, that I got to see people living under such harsh conditions. I, in a weird twisted way, wanted me to live under those conditions … ultimately I would be so much more productive than I currently was. I followed this feeling with the sheer amount of workload I had, but this caused me to fall back down mostly because of having a pretty weak foundation and I really started hating the time that I had lost where I could’ve spent building that foundation. Now, I have considerably less workload and such limited guidance … and I have to forge my own path ahead which is just something to dislike given a still weak foundation. At this point, I’m just convincing myself that this is possible despite everything and I hope that it doesn’t come back to bite me at all. It’s such a hard balance of believing in yourself and also strengthening your base.

I do see these sort of crises effecting other people in my life, but probably to a lesser extent because of a relatively stronger foundation. A lot of my friends at this stage have their careers sorted out but their personal lives are minimal. My parents have pretty much everything they wanted on an individual level anyway and are feeling the effects of mid-life crises – caught in between helping their daughters and needing to set themselves up for a post-employment life. They are simultaneously trying to enjoy their lives while they still feasibly can, look after the family and make a last hurrah in their places of work, given that my career is not sorted out at all. I also see other people my age that have gone through such hard times and have such expansive visions. Fortunately or unfortunately, depending on how you look at it, a lot of those circumstances were more resolvable than mine mostly because the skill gap was considerably less. I don’t know how to feel about it, like on one hand I’m definitely really particular about everything for obvious reasons and definitely thinking more forward than ever, but this isn’t impossible to do if many other things in your life are sorted out. So I believe it’s best to diversify as much as possible, and that usually means there does have to be a semi-strong foundation at the very least. Even though I have nothing, at sometimes it feels like I have so much because of these pains – like some unseeable emotional energy where I can’t afford to take anything for granted (I am still guilty of this somewhat). A nice, cliff-falling type feeling.

-yoshimonster-

#daily blog #existentialism #skill issue #gap #kpop #geopolitics #hackathon #socialism

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yourfavoritecascade · 2 years ago

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Travel Rambles

Ok, so this is very random, but me and a few family members went on vacation right? So we went and got delayed a few days but we still got there and had a good time.

On the way back our flight from the layover gets CANCELED meaning we’re stuck in Toronto without our bags for the night. After an all-night-long trip we eventually make it the next day and are now staying with family for the night but DEAR GOD I AM TIRED. And now I just woke up at 4:00am and my mom just told me I’ve been sleeping for 12 HOURS. This is probably fair when you consider I didn’t/barely slept for nearly 45 hours(not accounting for a literal one hour time difference bc I’m too tired) but still istg I’ve never slept that long before.

Anyways yeah that’s kinda it. 7 am me might come back and delete this later bc 4 am me just woke up from a 12 hr long nap but we’ll see. I might just leave this as a dumb story for now idk. Also I did spend a solid part of the past 48 hrs on art stuff so I’m gonna post a bunch of stuff once I actually come home today. Imma go shower and get ready for our 7 am flight home today, so goodbye, goodnight or good morning, wherever you may be!

-Cascade

#Not art #idk how to tag this #travel ig #I’m too tired to tag anything else #Cya

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skaruresonic · 1 year ago

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Dude the original tweet is even worse. I hope he's trolling because oh man. You cannot have said this with a straight face and expect to be taken seriously. I refuse to believe it.

...this is your typical "play, don't show" advice flanderized into "NO EXPOSITION EVER" and it's like bruh what? How are you supposed to enjoy a game without setup? You just want to hack and slash bad guys for no reason?

Hell, Super Mario World opens with several short text boxes filling you in on the situation. What he's demanding is absurd.

This guy's claim also immediately falls to shambles when you remember the existence of visual novels. The "novel" part inherently requires dialogue.

Of course, he'd probably say something like "visual novels aren't real games," but... you know. Obtuse is as obtuse does.

"Most of you are absolutely terrible at storytelling and most people will skip right through it anyway." - What kind of argument is that lol. You could just as easily say "So many of you suck at programming game mechanics, just make as little gameplay as possible." Doesn't make it a sensical argument.

Can't speak much for Bioshock because I never played more than 3 hours of the first game, but I do seem to remember some exposition when you climb into the bathysphere to descend into Rapture.

The very first chapter of the very first Half-Life sticks you in an enclosed space where you engage in absolutely no gameplay except looking around while the tram announcer drones on about Black Mesa. If Half-Life released today in exactly that same state, he'd no doubt criticize it for being too slow and boring, omg why doesn't the tram announcer shut up and let me shoot something.

In addition, while we're stuck on the tram unable to interact with anything, extra exposition flashes across the screen, telling us Gordon's age, education, security clearance, and sponsor.

All the walking around you do around the facility before counts as exposition as well. It tells you that Gordon is relatively low in the Black Mesa pecking order, liked by some scientists and shunned by others.

The speech the HEV suit voice gives about all the cool gadgets and functions it comes equipped with? Exposition. Wild, I know.

The suit's exposition explains why you're able to withstand impacts, shock, blows, bullets, and other traumas that would otherwise kill Gordon. And it works because it's written in such a way that it gels with the kind of delivery you'd expect from a mechanical suit of armor.

(Fun fact: the HEV suit was originally envisioned with even more functionality than in retail, with the ability to apply tourniquets and tell time. The latter could explain why a series of non-canon chapters later turned demo, called Uplink, opens with the text "TIME: CONTAINMENT FAILURE - 48:00 HRS":)

OP seems to think all exposition is a dry infodump a la the Star Wars opening scroll 🤣

BRO HOMEBOY SAID "DONT START THE STORY IN MEDIA RES THAT'S TOO CONFUSING, HAVE THE MAIN CHARACTER HAVE AMNESIA OR BE FROM ANOTHER WORLD INSTEAD" I'M FUCKING DYING BRO, THIS IS SOME LILY ORCHARD TIER SHIT WRITING ADVICE NOBODY EVER LISTEN TO THIS FOOL

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jeonwonwoo · 3 years ago

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— i think it’s been a year and a half since i posted my last tutorial! with a few more requests (and me learning new things) i decided to make a new and updated tutorial 💎 — this is a VERY image heavy tutorial and it is also very long! i’ve put it under the cut <3 like there are OVER 50 images...this is more of a masterpost really. if there is something that does not make sense, feel free to ask!! i will more than happy to clarify! — i promise the header gif was once good quality but for some reason, i did something to it and it became weird. please ignore that 😭

the first step is to make the gif! i’ll try to go through everything, step by step! there are different methods to make gifs but i’ll only be explaining the method i use. but i’ll link some incredible tutorials from other content creators later :D

i’ll be using photoshop. make sure you use a version of photoshop that allows you access to the timeline option! there was a weird update where the adobe timelines were not compatible with the m1 macbook chips so look out for that!

— the first thing you need is an .mp4 video. i use the in-built screen recorder on a macbook (which you get by pressing command + shift + 5). i usually just record the section of the video that i need but some people use programs such as 4k video downloader (which also works very well but i stopped using it because i was worried that i was using too much data downloading longer videos!)

— i’ll be using a clip of jeonghan from the hot music video! when you open photoshop, go to file > import > video frames to layers

— this will open up your files and from there, you should select the video that you want to make a gif out of!

— once you have selected the video, you will get a pop-up and it has a little trimmer (that i’ve highlighted in the blue box!) that you can use to find precisely what you want to gif. the little triangle that i’ve placed in the yellow box is like a slider than you can use to preview the video!

—now your specific video clip will be opened as a bunch of layers and you want to press the small button (i am so sorry 😭 i don’t know what it’s called) and it will do something (which, even after three years of making gifs, i still don’t what its called) but just press it!! i’ve highlighted it in the yellow box!!

— then select all the layers and right click and then convert to smart object. this will make it a lot easier for you to sharpen and colour your gif at a later stage.

— if you still think your gif has unnecessary frames/scenes, use the small trimmers in the timeline to trim the gif even further!

— now at this stage, your gif is technically ready but the chances are that the gif is too large to be posted on tumblr. tumblr has a 10mb gif size limit (praying that they don’t go ahead with the bad updates) so we want to bring that gif size down into a gif that can be posted onto the dashboard.

— go to image > image size! something very interesting that you can also do when resizing your gif is changing the resample settings (look at this post by @usergif here!)

— now there are many sizes you can make your gif but if you want a recommended size for a single gif on the dashboard - check this out! the width should always be 540px but the height can vary!

— now that your gif is ready (unsharpened and uncoloured - but this is just the base gif tutorial) we can now save the gif! go to file > export > save for web. don’t make the same mistake as me back in 2018 when i was trying to make lotr gifs but i kept clicking save as...and it would save as a still image.

— saving settings can vary! but these are the ones i use and they usually work for me! make sure that your looping is set to forever otherwise your gif will play out and then stop :(

— and this is our final gif! it has no sharpening or colouring but its a functioning gif on its own :D

— i enjoy this part the most!! there are so many different ways that you can colour a gif and it is all up to personal preference! but this is first the basic colouring on a gif. you should go to layer > new adjustment layer > curves.

you’ll see three eyedroppers on the side (black, grey and white)! we’re going to be using the black and white ones! when you click the black eyedropper, you’re going to click it onto the darkest pixel in the gif. and then take the white eyedropper and place it onto the whitest/lightest pixel in the gif! it makes a huge difference!

— as you can see, the difference is immense. that cyan sort of washed tone has been lifted from the gif!

— the gif on the left is a comparison of only the curves layer against the original gif. the gif on the right includes some extra adjustments that may help your gif :D

the two little skin-tone rectangles compare jeonghan’s skin tone without selective colour and then WITH selective colour (respectively). the rectangles near the bottom-right corner show just one example of how you can play and adjust hues with selective colour!

— now i’ll show an example of how this might with a more yellow/darker toned scenes. for some reason, so many shows love turning the brightness down on their scenes and its up to gifmakers to actually make the scenes visible 😭 i’ve taken a small clip of halime sultan from dirilis ertugrul!

— i resized the gif but i have not added any adjustments yet to it!

— i created a new curves layer and i took the black eyedropper, placing it on the darkest pixel i could find (a fold in her headdress) and this is how the gif looks now. arguably it looks worse but this is a necessary step for the final gif.

— so now i took the white eyedropper and placed it on the lightest pixel i could find. it was a reflection on the metal decor on the headdress. and it brightened the gif up quite a bit!! but here is where things can get interesting...

— this is an alternative use of the white eyedropper! in this case, i placed the dropper on the highlight reflection on her cheekbone (which was originally tinted a more blue with red on the edges) and this also brightened up the gif but it gave it a more green/yellow hue!!

this is important and something that is so useful for me because basically if your gif is too BLUE-hued, find the lightest blue-ish pixel but if it is too YELLOW-hued, then find the lightest yellow-ish pixel. you can easily manipulate the tones in the gif this way!

— so on the left i have the final gif!! and on the right i have a comparison on how the lighting has improved so much from the original gif!

— now i could go on forever about all the ways you can colour a gif but we would be here forever, and you would be scrolling forever so instead, i put together some colourings that you can download here!

— cheers: it brings out the reds and orange and it turns greens into teals and blues! — selemzar: if you’ve watched historical turkish dramas, especially ones with tribe/city sets you know that they love their yellow hues! this one gets rid of the yellow cast on a scene <3 — httyd: a very basic psd that turns blues into greens and brings out skin tones! — up: i use this one very often (and named it after the mv in which i first made it). its a psd for bright and vibrant gif colourings that focuses on making the blue colours as bright as possible!

— i’m gonna be honest...i am not a huge expert in this area and my knowledge of sharpening is limited to photoshop’s own features. there are so many softwares and programs you can use to clean up a video and to make it smoother and sharper such as avisynth and topaz!

— this is the sharpening i use the most nowadays! it has two layers of differing smart sharpens and then a layer of noise on top. it usually works well for me except noise increases the size of the gif a LOT so my gifs are never too long 😭

— this is one that i used to use all the time. it gives a very glowy look to the edges and i’ll use it if the video is lower quality as this sharpening covers up some of the weird pixel squares!

if you would like some more clean and comprehensive sharpenings, then take a look at these!

this tutorial by most beloved @woozi / this tutorial by @trashcora / this tutorial by @haleths / or this one from @hyunfelix

— another thing i like are matte gifs!! i haven’t made many of them but they are such a neat effect to add onto gifs - especially stage/live gifs! so here i’ve made my base gif of heeseung and given it some base colouring (curves and selective colour)

— now i saw this tip from another blog (an nct/wayv blog im so sure but i cannot remember the url for the LIFE of me) but what i remember is that you add a levels layer (and with the three numbers under the graph in order: it’s 20 / 1 / 250 and then with the numbers next to output levels it’s: 20 / 240) and then you add a solid fill colour of #2f2f2f and set it to screen and you get the results below!

— often if you’re giffing a music video / a film / a show, there are people speaking and you want to add subtitles!! i like to use the font: arial rounded mt bold and then i open the character window and click on the bold and italic T <3

— now we have the basic subtitles, but they are not as easy to read against jeonghan and seungkwan in the background so we’re going to right click on the text and go to blending options and then you add a shadow behind it!

— i personally find that subtitles look nicer with a stroke as well, so you can add a stroke (any size of your choosing) and set the position to outside.

— and here we have subtitled gifs!!! if there is more than one person speaking, you can change the colour of the gifs and my go-to secondary colour is #fda700 :)

— if you want to learn how to blur captions, i recommend this tutorial by @chanstopher

— now that i’ve gone through the basic tutorials for making gifs, let’s take a look at some fun effects!!

a place that i really recommend learning these things from is @usergif as they have super cool tutorials and a directory as well that you can access here <3

— if there is one thing i love...it’s gradient backgrounds. and also this video of seventeen and thus i will show both in this next tutorial! i’ve started off with this seokmin clip and i’ll add some adjustments to it.

— so now that i’ve added curves, exposure, colour balance etc (all the basic adjustments) we’re ready to add the gradient!

— go to layer > new fill layer > gradient!

— a small pop-up comes up and click on the gradient (in this case that blue-transparent bar) and another pop-up will appear! here you can make your own gradient or choose a pre-set gradient (there are heaps of good options)

— once you’re satisfied with the gradient, you can click OK and then set the gradient layer to hard light. you can play with different settings but this is the one that i prefer the most!

— now convert the gradient to a smart object!

— in the small yellow box, i’ve highlighted the layer mask button and you should add one to your gradient layer! a layer mask will be useful because if you make a mistake later on, you can simply make another layer mask and start again! also bring out a soft brush (hardness set to 0%) and make sure the brush colour is BLACK. a black brush erases the layer mask and a white brush brings it back. use the brush and you can erase over the subject in the gif!

— so now we have a seokmin-shaped hole in our gradient (if he is not a heart🧡 why heart shaped?) but the edges (even with the 0% hardness) are still too sharp and we want to soften the gradient!

— go to filter > blur > gaussian blur and play around with the blur settings till you find a gradient edge that satisfies you! you don’t want it to be so soft that the gradient ends up covering the subject again but not too hard either.

— and this is our final gif!! the gradient background is really so versatile and it adds pops of colour to your gifs (and can be very useful in covering pesky pixel ugly-coloured backgrounds!)

— another effect that i love so much is adding gradient text and pngs to gifs! i feel like they just make the gif so much more fun and interesting <3 so here i’ve got a gif ready (its been coloured and resized) and i want to add text and an image onto it!

— in any font you like, and any size you like, you can type out your text but make sure that the text is WHITE (otherwise you won’t achieve the same gradient effect)

— i love adding transparent pngs and a site i like to use is called nicepng.com as they’re free to use and they have a great selection of transparent images! i looked up an angel image (for beloved jeonghan ofc) and i downloaded one! i prefer images that have a thicker outline as this helps the gradient appear more clearly!

— i downloaded the png and placed it on the gif. but the original png was NOT white so i need to make it white. for that, i made a small white rectangle and placed it in a clipping mask over the angel wings and then merged the layers. then you can reposition the text and png to wherever you want them to sit in the image.

— now we’ve reached the gradient part! set the text to EXCLUSION (this will let your text have that see through property and if you don’t want it to look transparent, then you can keep it on normal). then go to BLENDING OPTIONS and go to gradient overlay. here you can select the gradient that you would like!

— once you’ve selected a gradient to your liking, click OK and then make sure that the blend mode of your gradient (in the gradient overlay box) is set to HARD LIGHT. in the previous step, if you did not change the white text to Exclusion, then you can keep the gradient blend mode on normal. i also like to add a shadow on my text as it helps it stand out a bit more!

— so i did the exact same process to the angel png (exclusion > blending options > gradient on hard light) and there we have our final gif! its such a versatile and fun effect that can liven up your gifs!!

there are countless more effects and tricks and tutorials that you can use to make your gifs but we would be here for another fifty years so i will add some links below of some incredible tutorials that i often refer back to!

if there was anything that i said above that didn’t make sense (because after a while, my brain turned to mush), you can always come and ask for clarification :D

colour isolation tutorial by @simoneashly

my own tutorial on blending over @kgifsource

an amazing guide on colouring those heavily yellow tinted scenes by @nobodynocrime as well as this amazing glitch effect tutorial!

the tutorials from which i learnt blending gifs together are these two: this one by @jackarthurdavenport and this one by @yenvengerberg

a guide on vapoursynth and colouring by one of my favs @wonublr

and this comprehensive guide on gif making in general by @soonhoonsol <3

#tutorial #gif tutorial #usergif #allresources #photoshop tutorial #completeresources #pshelp #kpop gif tutorial #photoshop #usernik #userbecca #cheytermelon #userjoanna #userkitty #tusermanny #usershreyu #usermarcy #aleksbestie #ANYWAY 48 hrs later...

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Bro please can I get “I broke the lock. You were screaming” with nines and our little detective? I don’t really have much of an idea for a story… maybe a case gone wrong and nines insists on staying with her because she’s clearly shaken?!? Idk I love your writing it’s def one of the things I look forward to on my feed <3

Okay SO first things first thank you, Anon, for your super kind words!! You are the sweetest <3

Secondly, I took the liberty of assuming based on the descriptor of "our little detective" that you're talking about the reader from Ruiner, Ruination, so I wrote this fic within that universe (which i hope is alright).

This idea led me to the creation of an offshoot series stemming from Ruiner, Ruination, which I have titled Ruiner, Ruination - Indictus. The point of this series is to highlight little canonical moments that have occurred between Nines and the Reader that went unsaid in the main series (hence the name Indictus, meaning "unsaid").

The creation of this series is super exciting for me because it allows me to write out requests in the Ruiner, Ruination universe AND make them canon without it being too confusing or weird to map out, since I can simply say where each fic takes place in the timeline as things are planned out and published in the original fic.

Anyways, sorry for the rant on the new series, but I hope you enjoy this fic and any upcoming Ruiner, Ruination - Indictus pieces that follow!

Avoidance Tactics (rk900 x reader)

A Ruiner, Ruination - Indictus chapter

Timeline - This fic has a lot to do with the events of the 7th Ruiner, Ruination chapter and takes place after the (currently unpublished, oops) 8th chapter.

Nightmares/sleeping dialogue prompt #2 - "I broke the lock. You were screaming"

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"Could you hover a little bit less ominously? You're really creeping me out."

You muttered under your breath as you passed a wandering gaze over the incident report you had spent the past few hours filling out. Once you were done, you would finally be finished with the process of submitting Nines' work related injury to the DPD's HR department, which you were eager to be done with for good.

It had been two days since your partner's accident, and you had spent nearly every waking hour since avoiding the subject as much as possible by working yourself to the bone.

The unfortunate downside of this was that just 48 hours later there was nothing left for you to do but file away the very incident report you'd been avoiding, and honestly, that had been just as awful as you'd feared it would be.

It required you to go into immense detail pertaining to not only Nines' injuries, but also his reactions to them, the lethality of them, and the traumatic responses that may have occurred as a result of them.

Gavin had filled out his end of the form on the day of the injury back at the DPD with you, and now it was your turn to fill out the individual portion.

And to an extent you hadn't truly expected, the memories were haunting.

Your hands had shaken vigorously above the keyboard as you'd typed out the amount of blue blood that you had gotten on yourself in the process of stopping the bleeding,

the stickiness that lingered between your fingers for hours afterward,

the way it had remained spattered on your clothing even when you could no longer see it,

the scent of it and the way it had stuck to you until multiple showers later.

You had bit back tears when recalling the staticky quality to Nines' voice as his vocal modulator had struggled without the support of his circulatory regulator,

the slightly glazed quality of his eyes,

the way he had groaned in pain as they loaded him into the android care ambulance,

and the trail of blood he had left behind in the process.

It had all been so awful.

And the extent of his injuries had been no small issue either.

Without his stock circulatory bio-component, Nines' thirium pump regulator, and therefore his thirium pump as well, had been put under unnecessary strain for days now, unnecessary strain that would doubtlessly cause a machine like him to falter and shut down sooner than he ever would have otherwise.

And somehow, it was this fact that terrified you the most.

Sure, you had always known that Nines would outlive you,

that fact had never once bothered you,

but the idea that his likely absurdly long life would be cut short, even slightly, by this accident?

It unsettled you that such a thing was even possible.

Years off of the life of a thing that some didn't even view as living at all.

The humanity of it all struck you in the very worst way,

But fortunately you wouldn't really have to dwell on that for long.

"I am not hovering, Detective."

Nines replied coolly from where he stood beside the entryway of his dining room, where you had been sitting for hours as you worked tirelessly to write up your incident report.

"I am simply analyzing you to discern whether or not you are still capable of writing your report in a manner that will meet the Captain's standards."

You rolled your eyes,

"Well that really doesn't matter now, because I just submitted it."

Nines gave a low hum in response, but neglected to say anything more.

You were right though, he had most definitely been hovering, and for quite some time, at that.

He had started making his way throughout the apartment around the time you'd started your write up, and had been careful to ensure that he never stuck around you for too long as he performed his scans, which allowed him to discern whether or not your actions were causing you any emotional strain.

And every time that he had scanned you, the results always came back the same: judging by the amount of cortisol present in your bloodstream, the report was almost assuredly bringing back traumas you were not yet ready to unpack.

And yet, try as he might to think of something he could do, Nines had yet to come up with a single solution.

He was resigned to let you finish, and then, maybe, he might just get you to talk about what was bothering you.

Except now, as you looked over at him for the first time in hours, he could see how exhausted you were, and pushed the thought out of his mind.

It was time to get you to bed.

"Would you like to stay the night, Detective? The spare tooth brush you utilized the other evening is still in the bathroom, and I believe you packed an extra work outfit in your trunk after last time."

You glanced towards your partner quizzically, raising a brow as you closed your laptop,

"Seriously? I thought for sure you'd want me out of your hair by now."

Nines shrugged a bit at your statement before he moved to plug your computer in on the counter where the cord was located, just out of your reach.

"I have no qualms with you sleeping here if it would be easier. It is not as if I require the use of my bed for any particular purpose."

You gave a small laugh at that, but Nines was quick to note that it didn't reach your eyes, despite the distinctive lack of sarcasm found within it.

Your mannerisms were certainly concerning, but he tried not to over analyze for the time being.

You spoke up,

"Yeah, I guess not huh? In that case, if it doesn't bother you I think I might as well just stay over again. It'll give me a little extra sleep, which I could really use right now."

Nines gave a brief nod in response before heading into his bedroom at the end of the hall,

"Alright, in that case I should find you something to wear to sleep for the night. Any preferences?"

Your cheeks were dusted a slight pink as you spoke, and Nines noticed a sudden increase in your body temperature as well, but even so he chose to ignore it in favor of paying more attention to your response instead,

"Uh, I didn't mind the shirt you gave me the other night? If its clean?"

Nines hummed and retreated to the bedroom without another word, leaving you to make your way to the bathroom to get yourself ready.

You sighed as you stared at your face in the mirror, taking note of your haggard and saddened appearance.

God, that report had taken a lot out of you.

Forcing yourself to give a brief smile, you squeezed some tooth paste out onto your tooth brush before beginning the familiar motions that went along with brushing your teeth as you waited for Nines to return.

To your surprise though, by the time you were finished, your partner still had yet to come back from his detour at the end of the hall, so curiously, you opened the bathroom door, only to shriek in surprise when you saw that Nines was standing on the other side, that familiar shirt of his that you had worn the other night in hand.

You placed your palm against your chest as you took a few deep breaths to calm yourself down, shooting your partner a wordless glare as you did so.

"My apologies, Detective, I didn't mean to scare you."

You groaned and rolled your eyes before ultimately choosing to forgive the man in front of you, offering a gentle thanks as you took the shirt from him and re-entered the bathroom, closing the door behind you once more.

You took another deep breath as you looked back into the mirror, the scent of Nines' shirt wafting into your nose as you did so. You were a bit surprised to find that this was oddly soothing, and elected to ignore the comfort that warmed you as a result of it.

Afterward, you told yourself that you just happened to require a rather deep inhale at the very same moment that you were pulling the white undershirt over your head.

You glanced over at yourself in the mirror, legs bare and hair mussed from changing your shirt, and let out a soft sigh as you ran the pad of your pointer finger over the dark circles beneath your eyes.

It was definitely time for bed.

So, with that idea in mind, you placed your hand on the cold doorknob, letting it absorb some of the heat from your palm for a while as you basked in all of the external stimuli that surrounded you, grateful for the proof that the world around you was real at all.

And then, quietly, as if afraid you might be frightened once again, you pulled the bathroom door open, allowing yourself the time to glance up and down either end of the hall before making your way over to the door found at the very end of it, which remained cracked as an invitation for you to enter.

Nines looked up at you in greeting as you pulled the door open further, closing the door to his closet before he made his way over to the bed you were now working to climb on top of, his foot steps quiet and lithe behind you before they halted at the foot of his queen sized bed, which was fitted with the same huge black comforter as last time.

You glanced up at him as you laid your back against the soft pillows found at the head of the bed, struggling to make eye contact as you tried not to think too hard about the comfort his scent had offered you previously.

God, what a weird thing to think about your partner. Maybe you should buy him a cologne so he smelled different or something.

You shook off your thought as Nines brushed imaginary lint from the blanket you were now comfortably laying beneath as he finally spoke,

"Is there anything else you need, Detective?"

He watched you intently as you shook your head, and gave you a few moments afterward to change your mind before he finally started turning around to head back out the door.

"In that case, I'll just be out in the living area. I will remain in light stasis so you won't have to worry about me being hard to wake up if you find that there is something you require my assistance for. I will also be locking the door, as my research has supported that this will help you feel safer. Is that all agreeable with you, Detective?"

You were a bit taken aback by the sudden influx of information, but nodded nonetheless after allowing yourself a few seconds to comprehend what was being said to you,

"Oh uh sure, yeah, that's fine, whatever you want."

Nines gave a slight nod in response before clicking the lock in place, taking a step over to the other side of the door frame before he turned back to look you over once more, his eyes traversing your frame slowly as he did so,

"Sleep well, Little Mouse. I will see you in the morning."

And with that, he was closing the door behind him before you could say a word, leaving you with nothing left to do but drift off to sleep.

And drift off to sleep you did, though it was far from the peaceful slumber you had anticipated.

You fought back a cry of pure anguish as you watched the android, the same AV500 model from the abandoned car factory, shoot Nines for the fifth time that night, this time right between his eyes.

Your partner fell back soundlessly, his body hitting the ground with enough force to make the floor shake as he stared up at you with those unseeing gray-blue eyes of his.

They were so haunting like this, when you could tell they were observing nothing despite their unnatural openness, and you forced yourself to reach over the close them in spite of the blue blood that coated your fingers as you did so.

It was sticky and warm, just as it had been every other time he'd been shot within this hellish nightmare, and you had to stop yourself from vomiting as everything started all over again.

Here you were, for the sixth time, standing in that same room with that same murderous android, and once again, there was nothing you could do to stop him from killing your partner.

You couldn't plead for mercy, tackle the man to the ground, or even shoot him with the gun Nines had provided you with. You had no choice but to simply stand there and watch as he gunned down your partner, your friend again and again.

It was torturous.

And this time, as he shot Nines right in his thirium pump, and you saw that pained and confused look on his face for the sixth time that evening, you couldn't help yourself.

You screamed.

You screamed out of fear, out of frustration, and above all else, out of grief.

Here in this nightmare, you couldn't even tell what was real anymore, and with each passing murder, you could swear that Nines had really died back at that factory, and that this reality, where you simply had to watch and suffer wordlessly, was the real one.

You screamed for so long your throat hurt even within your own dream, raw and painful as you prayed internally for this torture to end, eyes squeezed shut and brimming with tears as you heard distant gunshot after distant gunshot go off before hitting thick plastic over and over again.

You would never be able to forget that sound.

But then, even more distantly than those gunshots, came the sound of Nines' voice, far off and calling out to you as if he were searching aimlessly while alone in the dark.

And without a second thought, you called back.

You awoke gasping for air, throat aching tremendously, and eyes stinging both from your tears and from the much too bright light coming from the lamp to the left of you.

But none of that was nearly as noticeable as the android who was hovering above your form as you laid on your back, his arms poised on either side of your head as he looked down at you with an almost fearful look on his face.

"What the- Nines?"

You croaked out in confusion, glancing over at the previously locked bedroom door as you attempted to make sense about what was going on.

“I broke the lock. You were screaming”

Nines all but panted out, eyes still a bit wild as he slowly began to pull away from the bed, standing at the edge as if afraid you would start screaming all over again the moment he moved.

You squinted your eyes in confusion and in an effort to mitigate the impact the lights were having on your head,

As if he could read your mind, Nines reached over the turned the lamp off without a word.

You sighed softly, noting the way that the air barely managed to leave your mouth due to how shaky you were feeling.

That nightmare had to have been one of the worst you'd ever had.

And the worst part yet? It wasn't going away.

You could still hear the sound of a single strong bullet hitting thick hard plastic, and you could feel the splash of warm thirium against your skin as a result.

It was horrible.

Tears filled your vision as you sat up slightly, bringing your knees to your chest as you tried to make sense of what was going on.

Why couldn't you stop thinking about it? Why were you torturing yourself like this?

You were just about to ask Nines what was wrong with you when he spoke up first,

"May I see your hand, Detective?"

He asked not unkindly, and hesitantly, as if afraid this could somehow go awry, you gave it to him.

You then watched in the dim lighting of the bedroom as your partner raised your hand up to where his thirium pump worked tirelessly within his chest, pumping in a manner that you could feel as it did so.

"I am alive."

He murmured softly, and you briefly wondered how he had known what was bothering you without you saying a word before you simply let it go and pressed your hand harder against the area below his sternum, feeling the evidence of his existence thump strongly against your palm and the pads of your fingers.

You looked up at him then, tears pooling in your eyes and spilling down your cheeks, and asked him for something you had never once expected to throughout the entire duration of your partnership,

"Nines, can you lay here with me?"

You murmured, watching as the android briefly contemplated your request before nodding once in compliance.

The bed dipped slightly as Nines dropped his knee on to the mattress before climbing the rest of the way over to the empty spot beside you, where he sat a bit awkwardly as he awaited your next request.

None of this was familiar to him in the slightest, and no matter how hard he tried, he could not figure out what you might want from him.

You sighed in slight relief as you laid yourself back down, noting the way that Nines watched as you did so before slowly doing the same, his head propped up by the pillows as he laid his palms face down on the mattress at either side of him.

He was very clearly not used to laying down, but you almost found it endearing that he remained so stiff even when in a position that was meant to be relaxing.

How very Nines of him.

Giving a gentle sigh, you turned your body on its side in order to better face your partner, who immediately shifted his gaze towards your own as you spoke, your hand raised ever so slightly towards him as you did so,

"Would you... Do you mind if I feel it again?"

Your cheeks burned as you considered your own request, but before you could back out, Nines shook his head before expressing his response verbally to reassure you,

"Not at all, Detective. I have no issues with you touching me if that is what you require."

You couldn't help but clear your throat upon hearing his words, but slowly lowered your hand onto his chest anyway, feeling yourself relax a bit as you once again felt his thirium pump beat strongly against your palm.

"Does it help you to know that I am well?"

Nines murmured, giving a low hum of interest as you nodded in response.

The room was silent for a few moments before he spoke up again, his voice quiet despite the silence of the room around you.

"I did not realize you had been so deeply impacted by my injuries. I apologize for my ignorance."

You were quick to shake your head upon hearing his words, and raised yourself up onto your forearms to better address him as you spoke,

"Don't apologize. I didn't realize either... I think I was just hoping to ignore it until it went away on its own."

Nines didn't reply, but instead gave a gentle hum of acknowledgment as he further considered your words.

You, on the other hand, took the silence as your queue to try and get back to sleep, something you were more than a little bit eager for after your night of terror and exhaustion.

Even still, you found yourself struggling to drift off, despite the added comfort of Nines' thirium pump as it beat steadily beneath your palm.

And after waiting and waiting for sleep to overtake you for what felt like far too long, you sat up on your knees and faced your partner in the darkness, your cheeks tinted pink as you made your second humiliating request of the night.

"I uh I can't sleep. Can I try something?"

Nines gave a small nod of approval, curiosity evident in his tone as he replied,

"I don't see why not, Little Mouse."

You felt your heart skip a beat at the familiar nickname, and swallowed thickly as you pulled yourself closer to your partner, letting out a nervous sigh as you lowered your torso back down onto the mattress, straightening out your legs beneath you as you let your head fall to Nines' chest, where the sound of his thirium pump working tirelessly within immediately filled your ears.

And with that, even more so than before, you found that your body grew relaxed, your eyes becoming heavy as you allowed your newfound comfort to will you to sleep once more.

Nines remained silent all the while, but watched you as you slowly drifted off to sleep with your head lying atop his chest, soothed by the sound of his artificial heart as he relished in the knowledge of your safety and comfort, even within a presence as dangerous and cold as his own.

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tahwan · 3 years ago

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I Quit Smoking Cigarettes And You Should Too

It's been 50 days since I last smoked a cigarette and I'm very proud of myself. Tobacco smoking is a dangerous, costly, and difficult addiction which only serves to put money in the hands of huge companies at the cost of millions of human lives.

With this post, I want to encourage people to quit smoking cigarettes.

I know how hard it is to stop and I will never judge people for smoking, but if this can help in anyway, then it's worth it.

I feel so much better now physically. I can breathe more easily, I've retrieve my full senses of taste and smell, I've saved so much money... I don't endanger the people around me anymore, I don't smell like cold tobacco. I have more time on my hands. There are only plus sides to quitting.

You can find help everywhere to stop, your local pharmacy or just online, there are tons of free apps to help with daily tips, you can find coaching videos on youtube... if those aren't enough, nicotine patches (with the right amount of nicotine in them) suppress your chemical cravings entirely, altho the physical movement/habit remains and you'll have to master that on your own because smoking while wearing a patch will make you sick. There are nicotine gums too. And I hear hypnosis works very well for a lot of people.

The saying "I've smoked for this long already, there's no point in quitting now" is a lie. Your lungs can recover immensely (even fully, especially if you're young), and in fact, they start recovering the second you stop. It's the reason why some people cough a lot in the week following their last cigarette—their lungs are expelling excess mucus because they are starting to function at full strength/speed again.

You can always quit, even if you've tried before to no avail. I've tried several times already. Maybe I'll fail this time too. But every attempt is a step in the right direction rather than a failure.

Nicotine cravings usually last 5 minutes. Distracting yourself for 5 minutes can be more than enough. The chemical cravings stop entirely after 2 to 3 days—and then all that's left to fight is the habit, which is the hardest part.

I stopped after a party during which I drank and smoked a lot. The morning after, I was hungover, and I had no cigarettes left. I wasn't planning on quitting at that time. But I had a headache and a sore throat, I didn't want to smoke because I felt sick, and I didn't feel like walking to the nearest bar to buy new packs.

So I asked myself "what if I just don't smoke while the hangover lasts, since it'll make the first 24 hrs without cigarettes easier." so I didn't buy anything, and the following day was a Sunday, so the closest open store was too far for me to bother.

And voilà. 48 hours without smoking. The chemical cravings were gone. All I had to do was fight the habit, and I developed a lot of tips for that, such as:

watching some funny videos to stop thinking about it.

replying to texts I've left unanswered for too long.

eating clementines (a fruit that makes cigarettes taste terrible when you smoke right after eating it). Drinking orange juice will do the trick as well.

brushing my teeth (once again, cigarettes taste awful immediately after).

playing sudoku or other phone games.

etc.

There's tons of things you can do for 5 minutes. And 5 minutes later you wonder why you even wanted to smoke so badly.

I know you might not feel like quitting yet, or you think you'll just indulge again later so there's no use. Motivation is important. But you can nurture motivation instead of just waiting for it to come. Here are a few links to help you get started:

SmokeFree.gov

How to Quit Smoking (CDC)

Quit Smoking (American Lung Association)

Timeline: what happens after you quit smoking? (Medical News Today)

10 self-help tips to stop smoking (NHS UK)

Videos:

CDC: Tips From Former Smokers - Tiffany R.: How I Quit Smoking

Health Benefits of Quitting Smoking (American Lung Association)

How I quit smoking: David’s story | Ohio State Medical Center

#tobacco #cigarettes #smoking #x #i don't expect anything from this post #but it makes me feel good to talk about this and realize how much i'm gaining #and if it can help someone else then it's a double win #ALSO: this is strictly about tobacco and cigarettes and has nothing to do with weed

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