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archivewriter1ont Ā· 2 days ago
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Thank you so much for the tag, @snips-fics! Btw I now love Crow!
Okay this is a long one, but it's an excerpt from I Know Your Name as My Brother: Adopting Echo, a work I'm really proud of for a couple of reasons. 1, it's the first longfic I ever completed. 2, I love writing just-adopted Echo and how he gets absorbed into the Bad Batch, and I actually feel like I did pretty good with this one. 3, I love brotherly/platonic love in general and the Batch are SUCH good character examples of that affection.
This is from Chapter 5: Broken Pieces (Somehow Fit Together).
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Echo nuzzled into the pillow, glad that they couldn’t see him – or that if Crosshair could, he wasn't commenting on the action. He closed his eyes and breathed deeply, reminding himself that he wasĀ safeĀ and everything was okay because he wasn’t alone. They were right here, they were with him, nothing could happen. ā€œG’night.ā€
He drifted off to sleep within seconds, foggily thinking that he hadn't been this comfortable since he'd gotten blown up.
Then the terror reared its taunting head, nightmares with all their dark terrors and inescapable labyrinths of horror that he never could tell were false or real. Sometimes he would see the slaughter that had taken place on the Rishi Moon and look on in horror all over again when Cutup was eaten by a giant eel and when poor Droidbait was shot down. He’d be trying to get away with Fives and Hevy, the only ones left…and then Hevy was suddenly ripped away from them too, in a blaze of sacrificial glory that Echo had never thought he’d have to live with. Sometimes it was the shuttle explosion after he’d made it out of the maze of fortress called the Citadel, and there was nothing but fire and the smell of burning flesh, searing pain devouring limbs that he could clearly tell he no longer possessed. He distinctly remembered seeing what was left of his legs just before he blacked out for what he assumed would be the last time, and the memory never ceased to make him want to vomit or pass out. Then he’d be strapped to a cold metal surface in an even colder room, unable to fight the modifications being made to his shattered body as expressionless droids and strange figures in masks floated in the void that threatened to swallow him, orchestrating his transformation from an ARC trooper into some twisted half-machine creature that he didn’t want to be…
Tonight the nightmares took him to Kamino.
The sterile halls were flashing crimson, the red alarm signals washing across the white tile like a symbol of the blood being spilled around the city. His blood ran hot with adrenaline and the stinging fear-excitement of battle while his heart pumped in a rhythm chilled by dread. There were blaster bolts screaming around him, and through the visor of his helmet he caught glimpses of Commander Cody and Rex and Fives and –
ā€œNinety-Nine, no!ā€Ā 
His own voice echoed inside his bucket as his vision blurred, then focused on a figure in light blue crumpled on the floor. He heard the droids’ shooting grow more frenzied as he stepped out to block the hall, his own blaster growing heated from the rapid firing, but he glanced over his shoulder anyway.
Ninety-Nine had been wounded in the leg but was struggling to his feet, trying to heft the bag along with him down the hall. He was fighting to get up, to get the ammunition they needed…
And then suddenly he was down again, this time with two blaster wounds burned into his back.Ā 
Echo knew in his gut that the older clone wasn’t getting back up. An outraged roar broke from somewhere nearby and served as the background to the furious bolts he sent flying toward their enemies. It took him a few seconds to realize that the sound was coming from him.Ā 
The next few moments went by in a cacophonous whirl. One second he was standing over Fives, letting bolts of energy sear holes through anything inanimate in the search for the remaining droids. The next he was stumbling to his knees, dropping his blaster and hearing it clatter to the tile as he gathered Ninety-Nine’s malformed, too-still body into his arms.
He knew he was dead. What cruel irony – dying in the same buildings where he was decanted, on tiles he’d likely cleaned a thousand times after being relegated to maintenance. Ninety-Nine should have been an Alpha, he remembered Hevy saying once, but something had gone wrong with his DNA. It had been corrupted, or maybe some of the Kaminoans had tried experimental mutations that just hadn’t worked out right. The man had never been outside Tipoca City, never seen a battlefield. While his siblings had been slaughtered in the millions on distant planets, he had been the one left behind, left to live as an outcast while the rest of the clones forged bonds with each other in the fires of battle. But he’d died a true soldier, fighting alongside his brothers…that had to count for something, right?
Echo blinked quickly, then again, trying to keep tears from rolling down his flushed face. His body was drained from the last few days and he was so tired…he really just wanted to close his eyes and sleep…
He forced his eyes open and his world shattered into pieces. He was no longer holding Ninety-Nine.Ā 
He was holding Hunter.
The sergeant was a mess. There was blood smeared over his face and many – too many – blaster burns bored through his armor. His long hair was matted with crimson and he was deathly still, his skull tattoo stark and mocking against his pallid skin.Ā 
Echo was horrified to realize he wasn’tĀ breathingĀ .
ā€œHunter!ā€ His voice cracked halfway through and he fumbled as he checked for a pulse. There wasn’t one.
He whipped his head to the left to look for Fives, for Cody or Rex, forĀ anybodyĀ , but he couldn’t find them. His frantic gaze fell on three new, familiar figures in the red-tinted dimness – Crosshair, Wrecker, and Tech, each sprawled near their discarded weapons in dark red puddles.
They were all dead.Ā 
Echo screamed their names, but the calls went unanswered and suddenly he couldn’t breathe. Black dots danced in his vision and he couldn’t see past them except for the flashes of red and gray and Hunter’s closed eyes. He tried to move but something was frozen onto his legs and his right arm. He couldn’t make them work. It was almost like they weren’t there at all.
ā€œEcho!ā€Ā 
Someone was coming for him. He heard them running down the hall, footsteps far louder than they should have been. He couldn’t see them, his eyes still fighting the spinning dots and dimness of the hall. Was he passing out? Because it sure was taking a while….
ā€œĀ Echo!Ā ā€Ā 
The voice was so close it rattled his brain. He flinched back and tried to answer but all that came out was a muffled sob. He was crying, a grown ARC weeping in front of whoever had come to rescue him and his brothers. He didn’t remember how they’d gotten here or what was happening and he didn’t want to. He wanted to punch someone, preferably the person who was yelling at him, the person who was shaking him and acting like he couldn’t see Echo’s dead brothers, like he hadn’t beenĀ too lateĀ to save the 99s…
ā€œWe need ta calm him down,ā€ a different voice suddenly said. It wasn’t yelling but it wasĀ bigĀ and right next to him.
ā€œJust grab him before he hurts himself!ā€ A third voice joined in, sounding like crisp new sandpaper.
ā€œWait! He's just been through a traumatic year of imprisonment and a violent rescueĀ andĀ is currently in new surroundings. Any unannounced touch may contribute to a higher level ofā€“ā€
ā€œKark it, Tech, he'sĀ scaredĀ .ā€Ā 
Wait, that raspy voice was Crosshair. But Crosshair was dead, right? Crosshair wasĀ worriedĀ about someone? It must be somebody special for that cold devil to be concerned – one of his brothers, definitely. Echo wanted to open his eyes and see who this special person was but he couldn't seem to wake up. Was he even asleep?
ā€œI thinkĀ notĀ touching him is worse right now.ā€ Hunter’s voice agreed with Tech’s and Echo felt something brush against his face. It was rough and cool and felt like a palm. Someone was holding a hand to his cheek.
ā€œEcho.ā€ Hunter’s tone was lower now, but urgent. ā€œĀ Vod’ikaĀ , please. Stop moving or you’ll hurt yourself.ā€
WasĀ he moving? Echo didn’t know. He just knew his heart was thumping way too quickly in his chest and he felt like he was going to be sick. Ice was clotting in his veins and he was so cold he thought his hands were frozen, at least the one he could still feel.
ā€œIt’s okay,ā€ the voice continued. The hand stayed on his cheek and Echo abruptly felt the world grow calmer, like the ground wasn’t shaking so badly. He could breathe a little easier and he thought he could almost see something through the black. ā€œĀ You’reĀ okay, Echo. You’re safe on theĀ MarauderĀ .ā€
What was aĀ MarauderĀ ?
Echo blinked and suddenly he could see. He stared up into a pair of concerned amber eyes and realized Hunter was leaning over him, dark curls framing his face in the dim light streaming in from the cockpit. There was no top bunk blocking his view to the ceiling and no mattress underneath him. He must have thrashed out of the bed and fallen to the floor.Ā 
ā€œYou with us,Ā Ey’ika?Ā ā€ Hunter’s voice was smoky and low, like he was talking to a frightened aakhound.
Without answering, or maybe as an answer, Echo launched himself up with his one arm as leverage and plowed into the sergeant’s chest.Ā 
Hunter’s arms were ready and waiting and closed around his shoulders, holding him tightly and pulling him close to his chest. Echo's fingers clutched the back of the tracker's blacks so tightly he thought they might rip the fabric. He couldn't bring himself to care at the moment, and he doubted Hunter did either.
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queenmuzz Ā· 6 months ago
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Ballrooms and Bloodlines: Chapter I
A steamy story set post Veilguard
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It’s not what she’s used to.Ā  She’s used to wearing rugged leather, chain mail, her shield and greathammer.Ā  Not tonight.Ā  She wields and wears neither.Ā  She’s used to having her hair in a rough, practical ponytail. Not tonight.
She’s used to going barefaced, no need for accentuation of features that get obscured by dirt and grime. Not tonight.Ā 
She’s used to wearing minimal jewelry, and aside from one item, is for battle scenarios, with enchantments for necrotic damage, or defense against demons. Not tonight.
Tonight, she is draped in bangles, rings, necklaces, all generously borrowed from her Ingellvar ā€˜ancestors’.Ā  As much as she finds it distasteful to loot from their crypts, she knows that the long extinct noble family is more than happy to lend their grave gold to the hero that bears their name.
Tonight, Myrna gently brushes the eye shadow on her eyelids, blending the shades together, before tutting at her to remain still as she applies eyeliner.Ā  How women and men are able to point a sharpened implement straight at their eyes without flinching is beyond her.Ā  Still, there are few people she would trust more than Myrna to do such an intimate and delicate thing.
Tonight, Vorgoth rumbles contentedly as it braids her silver hair, working on what will probably be one a set of twenty or more separate tiny braids, all entwining together , resembling a string of pearls adorning her head.
Tonight she is wearing a full length dress made of the finest Nevarran velvet dark green, almost black, with the accents of lilac in the bodice.Ā  The amount of times she’s worn a formal dress in her lifetime can be counted on a skeleton’s hand. With two fingers removed.
Each of these times, they had been an ill fitting dress, borrowed by an old watcher, several seasons out of fashion and she’d removed them at the first opportunity she had.Ā  This one is the latest in Nevarran fashion, fitted perfectly to her stature, and hugs every curve.Ā  And for once, this dress is not borrowed, it is her very own to keep.Ā Ā 
For tonight, she is no longer Watcher Ingellvar, disgraced Cryptguard.
She is Lady Ingellvar, Slayer of Gods.
Well, that’s the name on the ball invitation.
A ball given in HER honour.
It still surprises her that she, a foundling with no name, is the star attraction at this gala.Ā  Although, at this point, she ought to know better.Ā  She has spent the past three years walking the length and breadth of Thedas, traveled to the Fade, fought battles that only take place in legends.Ā  And come face to face with the most dangerous entities that have ever existed.Ā  That people wish to celebrate their champion, especially when she comes from their own soil.
Of course, she would be the first to say that she wasn’t alone.Ā  That she had the best of the best at her side.Ā  People with far more experience than her at practically everything.Ā  All she happens to have is the skill to bring said people together.Ā  Somehow that makes her something Varric called her all the way back, a ā€˜Leader.’  A person that people can look up to.
ā€œIT IS FINISHED.ā€ Vorgoth rumbles with apparent satisfaction as it floats back a bit, and Mryna gives a final brush of blush.
She sees herself in the mirror, almost completely unrecognizable. She shimmers in green, gold, and silver
ā€œAre you ready?ā€ Myrna asks, doing her best to keep her voice settled ā€œThey are waiting for you.ā€
ā€œHE IS WAITING.ā€ Vorgoth adds.
She nods, swallowing all her doubts as she makes her way to the door, followed by the two people she is the closest she’s had to parents.
The double doors open revealing a figure.Ā  He stands there, looking resplendent in his formal Mourn Watcher garb, glittering epaulettes on his deep green and burgundy uniform.Ā  He looks the definition of dignified. Aside from the waves of anxiety that he’s exuding, the way he quickly hides his hands behind his back, trying to look stately, but not quite quick enough to hide the way they tremble. She sees his eyes widen as he takes her in, the sharp intake of breath, the way he wets his lips, and her heart thumps painfully.Ā  Even if the worst should come toĀ  pass and she makes a complete fool of herself, seeing him looking at her with such adoration will have made it all worth it.
He straightens his back, takes one hand from behind his back, now still and under control, and takes her hand.Ā  He bows low, and kisses it. Ever the gentleman.
ā€œYou look… he struggles to find the right word, glances at the two people behind her,Ā  ā€œstunning, my dear.ā€Ā  It’s not the word he’s looking for, and she knows it.Ā  Whatever word he wanted to use is not for a gentleman to say, especially in front of a lady’s parents.
ā€œShall we?ā€ He offers her his arm and she hooks hers with his as the four of them make their way to the hustle and bustle of the ballroom.
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It seems that the entire Mourn Watch has shown up, as well as the cream of the Nevarran nobility.Ā  There’s even a few Tevinter nobles, several Antivans, even a very out of his depth Orlesian, who keeps nervously looking at the undead servants offering hor'dourvesĀ  on golden platters.Ā  The only conspicuous absence is King Markus, but no doubt he’s far too busy to attend.Ā 
Besides, there’s more than enough people to make up for one reclusive Royal.Ā  There’s elderly men who are wheeled about by their skeletal servants, enjoying one of their last social events before they too will join their ancestors in the crypts.Ā  There’s a gaggle of small children, most of them utterly entranced and entertained by the magic show Manfred is performing for them.Ā  She idly muses on how well he works with children, his happy hisses as the children cheer as he juggles fireballs.Ā  He only pauses his show to wave at them when he notices them.
But a good chunk of the party goers are young, attractive, and most importantly, unmarried men and women, all circling her like vultures.Ā  She involuntarily moves closer to Emmrich, who notices her discomfort and squeezes her arm reassuringly.
ā€œMay I have the honour of having the first dance?ā€
If she had her way, she would have ALL her dances with him, she muses as they dance, his one hand chastely at her waist, the other entwined in hers, guiding her around the ballroom floor, as the band played a traditional Nevarran waltz.Ā  (Sadly one of the few things that the undead couldn’t do was wind instruments).Ā  He’s delicate with her, his touch barely noticable as they move to and fro with the other dancers.Ā  It feels so out of place, almost a regression to when he first started courting her.Ā  Fade knows that he has been much LESS gentle with her lately, not that she’s been complaining.Ā  But she knows she must appear… ā€˜Available’.Ā  In high society, you can make so many more connection if you have the potential for a marriage alliance.Ā  It feels dirty, leading all these people on, having no intention of even considering a union with any of their relatives, but that's how the upper crust works.Ā  It's not unique to Nevarra, sadly.Ā 
ā€œYou dance so well,ā€ he murmurs in the shell of ear, causing a shiver of pleasure to run down her spine, driving away the shame at her deception.
ā€œWell, I had a good teacher,ā€ she tells him, ā€œan incredibly patient and kind teacher,ā€ and she can see a flush appear in his cheeks.Ā  This is not idle flattery, as she has spent the last few weeks having her feet being taught to follow a set pattern, instead of reacting on the fly.Ā  It was a hard thing to learn, until he had come up with the idea to treat it like a battle, that when her his left foot moves forward, her right foot should move backwards and to the left.Ā  There’s a fine line between offense and defense, and she learns to recognize the signs when the roles should reverse.Ā 
ā€œIt didn’t hurt that he is incredibly handsome as well,ā€ and she senses, much to her satisfaction, a tiny little hitch in his step, and his blush deepens.
The song draws to an end, and he gracefully leads her off the floor.Ā  She’s aware that a silent crowd follows her, all eager for a sample of her attention.
ā€œMy dearest, as much as I would love to keep you to myself for the entire night, they are here for you.Ā  It’s timeā€¦ā€Ā 
She stiffens, as this is the one thing she had feared about this event.Ā  It is one thing to command a fire breathing Adari, a possessed assassin, a Tevinter detective, a magical dwarf, a Warden who has killed an archdemon and lived, a savant in ancient elvish technology, (and an incredibly charming necromancer) to kill Gods.Ā  It’s quite another to be the star attraction in a ballroom, where everyone wants her attention, even for a brief second.
Still, she swallows her fear, pastes a polite smile on her face, and goes to greet her followers.
She starts out easy, picking out a tall lanky teenage boyĀ  who seems awed by her mere presence as her next dance.Ā  He stumbles over his words as he tries to play the gentleman and take the lead on the ballroom, before she gently smiles at him, and lets him relinquish control,Ā  and then leads him across the ballroom, round and round again.Ā  He attempts to talk to her, stammering out questions about her adventures.Ā  It’s adorable how he’s transfixed by her, not love precisely, but she knows he will go to his grave, many, MANY, years later (she hopes) with this moment etched into his bones.
By the time the song ends The poor boy is as red as the tomato sauce Lucanis canned for her as a gift before they last parted company.Ā  She places a chaste kiss on his cheek, and he practically flees the room, overwhelmed by his feelings.Ā Ā 
The next dance is elderly matriarch, who starts out deceptively easy to dance with. That is, until the woman reveals she has several sons of marriageable age.
ā€œMy eldest, Edwin, runs a tailoring business!Ā  He’s high in demand by both the living and the dead, you MUST come see his work the next time you’re outā€¦ā€
ā€œThat sounds niceā€
ā€œAnd there’s my boy Lothar.Ā  Shame he couldn’t make it, busy supplying masonry to Minrathous rebuilding efforts.Ā  He also hosts the best soirĆ©es!
ā€œLovelyā€
ā€œAnd my youngest, Cyril!Ā  He’s part of your Mourn Watch!Ā  No doubt you’ve been acquainted with him.Ā  He’s such a gentleman! You two would definitely get along!ā€
ā€œI’m… sure we would.ā€
The song is mercifully shorter than the previous one, and she’s thankful she can disentangle herself before the woman starts arranging invitations for her to visit her manor when her sons are in town.
She takes a quick break from dancing, sipping a drink, making small talk with guests, thanking them for coming, all while she makes her way slowly towards Emmrich, who is in a conversation with Vorgoth.Ā  She needs to get to him before the next song starts, she needs to take her on the ballroom once more.
He sees her approach, and she loves the way his eyes light up, the way he apologises to the entity that he really must be going, and makes his way towards her.Ā  They’re about to embrace…
ā€œLady Zea Ingellvar!ā€
An iron voice rings out, sharp and demanding, but coated in a thin layer of gold plate, to make it sound palatable and pretty.Ā  Emmrich’s brows furrow as he looks towards the intruder, and she follows his gaze.
It’s a young man, around her age, his wavy rose gold hair perfectly combed.Ā  He wears the Mourn Watch uniform, but unlike Emmrich’s, it’s garishly decorated in an assortment of medals, relics, and other gold flimflammery from long dead relatives.Ā  Whoever dressed him seems to think quantity is more important than quality.Ā  Still, he has a presence that cannot be ignored.
ā€œI don’t think we’ve been acquainted,ā€ he holds out his hand, palm up, and she places her hand in his as he gives his a kiss.Ā  It’s not gentle, like Emmrich’s, it’s more possessive, as if he’s entitled to her hand, ā€œLord Heinrich Karppinen, heir to the Duchy of Cumberland.ā€Ā  She can’t help but wince at his emphasis on his title, like he clings to it like grave gold.Ā  ā€œMay I have the next dance?ā€
She can’t help but see Emmrich stiffen and bite his lip out of the corner of her eye, but he makes no move to voice his disapproval.Ā  She weighs her options.Ā  To spurn a ducal heir, even casually and with good reason, is not something that is done lightly. Strangely, she’s intrigued by this challenge.Ā  Perhaps she could humour him, allow him to think he has a chance to receive her grace.Ā Ā Ā 
She gives a quick glance at Emmrich, nodding curtly, and he backs up, accepting her decision, despite not liking it at all. Ā  She allows the young man to escort her to the ballroom floor, proud of his latest ā€˜catch’, and not afraid to show his accomplishment off.
ā€œYou’ve become quite the talk of Nevarra, Lady Ingellvar,ā€ Lord Karppinen says as he smoothly guides her across the floor.Ā  ā€œIt’s been quite a few years since we had one of our people reach such a renowned status.ā€
ā€œYes, it’s strange to be compared to Cassandra Pentaghast, even if it’s a high honour.ā€Ā  She does not feel worthy enough to be associated with that woman that Varric liked to talk about, who wrote romance novels specifically for her enjoyment.
The name seems to irritate the young man, as he does his best to suppress a grimace.Ā  ā€œPentaghast!ā€ He says, the P sounding like he wants to spit out a wad of mucus.Ā  ā€œShe was the Right Hand of the Divine, Founder of the New Inquisition, and what does she do with that power?Ā  Goes off and marries a Dwarf.Ā  A DWARF!Ā  Doesn’t even protest when the Inquisitor disbands her organization.Ā  All that power… gone…. And she ruins her family name.ā€
Insulting Lady Cassandra, a risky move. Zea thinks.Ā  She already doesn’t like the man, but out of necessity, she pastes a smile on her face as they continue their dance.
ā€œYou, on the other hand, have single-handedlyĀ  accomplished so much more than her.ā€
ā€œOh, I wouldn’t say that, I didn’t do it alone.ā€Ā  She honestly argues, ā€œI had many friends and allies. I had one of the best Antivan Crows, a brave Grey Warden, (it’s still hard to keep her emotions in check whenever she thinks of Davrin), and of courseā€ She takes a glance at the gentleman across the room and her heart seizes as she sees him watching her, ā€œthe eminent Professor Emmrich Volkarin.ā€
That name brings out a face ofĀ  outright disgust.
ā€œVolkarin…  a man who doesn’t know his station in life, deems himself as far too important to be bound by it.Ā  Plays at being a noble, despite being nothing but a commoner.Ā  In fact worse… a butcher’s son .ā€Ā  It’s the way he says those last few words, the way his voice drips with disdain, as if Emmrich’s father was vermin that repulses.Ā  She frowns, and she catches Emmrich’s face from across the ballroom, seeing how concerned he looks.Ā  He must know something is going on.Ā  But she tries to remain diplomatic.
ā€œHonestly, I find that to be very noble, to take on such a lowly profession to support your family.Ā  To suffer the social stigma, to bear it willingly for the ones you love, is there not honour in that?ā€Ā  It is the truth.Ā  She has never had the pleasure of meeting Rupert Volkarin in life, but she knows that he must have been a good man, someone his son emulates to this very day.
Lord Karppinen scoffs,Ā  ā€œYou are very naive to think like that, Lady Ingellvar.ā€
ā€œI am not,ā€ she argues back.Ā  ā€œDon’t forget, I am an orphan.Ā  A foundling.Ā  I claim no title nor lineage.Ā  I am no better than that butcher you disparage.ā€Ā  From the corner of her eye, she sees Emmrich now acting agitated, with Myrna placing a supportive hand on his arm.Ā  The situation is getting out of control, and Emmrich may do something he will regret if he sees that she is being upset by this arrogant noble.
ā€œYou are much different.ā€ He responds, his voice now returning back to its honeyed state.Ā  An attempt to ingratiate himself to her.Ā  ā€œYou are a founder, a once in an Age person who has the potential to start their own dynasty.Ā  Butā€¦ā€ his voice dips deeper, ā€œIn order for a dynasty to take root, it must also be grafted with other trees, not with the weeds that wither and die miserable short lives.Ā  It would be beneficial to join roots those with the pedigree of us nobility. Ā  We are the ones who have fought dragons, after all.ā€Ā  He’s trying to woo her, to bring her glory and accomplishments over to his household.Ā  But he has no idea how much it has backfired on him.
There it is …she sees it now, his weakness.Ā  In a battleground this is the moment that she would find the chink in their armour, a flaw in their fighting technique.Ā  Nobles and their everlasting love for dragon hunting.Ā  A butcher who carves up meat to feed starving bellies may be considered sacrilegious, but a noble’s taste for killing majestic creatures merely to decorate their halls with is apparently considered virtuous.
ā€œAre you?ā€ she asks sweetly, a true smile now creeping into her face.Ā  ā€œTell me, Lord Karppinen, how many dragons have you killed?ā€Ā Ā 
The man sputters… looks shocked that she would ask such a question, but she continues.Ā  ā€œHow many generations has it been since a Karppinen has slain a dragon?Ā  Your father?Ā  Your Grandsire?Ā  Your Great Grandsire?ā€
ā€œThis hardly mattersā€¦ā€ he protests, but she has him with his back against the wall.Ā  Now her warrior mind tells her to put her shield away, and bring out the metaphorical greathammer.
ā€œBecause Emmrich Volkarin has personally helped me huntā€¦ā€ she makes an exaggerated act of calculation, ā€œOne… two… three… four… five?Ā  Possibly more, since one of the archdemons had multiple heads… but he has taken down AT LEAST five dragons.Ā  Who is the more noble now?ā€
He loses his sense of speech and she grins, as she is now the one to lead him across the ballroom floor.Ā  Emmerich seems to have calmed down, reading the situation as not as dire as he thought, but there is a perplexed look on his face.
ā€œEmmrich Volkarin has helped me personally dispatch not only those dragons, but also two ancient elvish gods.Ā  He has broken into one of the most secure prisons ever created, and,ā€ she thinks back to the conversation between Emmrich and Solas in Minrathous on that dark final day,Ā  ā€œhe has earned the respect of the Dread Wolf himself.ā€
At any other time, she might feel sorry for the man, the way he splutters and stammers, but today, she feels no mercy.Ā  In fact, she feels like she ought to pay him back for his slander of her beloved.Ā  She pulls him in for the kill, and whispers in his ear.
ā€œLet me tell you a secret, my little ducal prince,Ā  you might think you wish to claim me as your own, but I carry the child of the wisest man in all of Thedas in my womb.ā€
He stiffens, and their dance comes to a complete halt, causing a disturbance as other dancers have to make last minute swerves to avoid crashing into them.Ā Ā 
Lord Karppinen has gone a deadly shade of pale, or green, but perhaps the veilfire lighting is to blame as he releases her immediatly, as if she is infected with the Blight.Ā  His lips are moving, but no sound comes out.Ā  He looks like one of those freshly caught fish she had seen in Docktown, gasping and suffocating in an environment it did not belong in.Ā  Except this time, she feels no sorrow, no sympathy.Ā Ā 
And with that, without a word, he turns around and storms away from her…
And goes straight for Emmrich.
Oh. Crap.
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"Waking Up in Vegas"
Prologue, Chapter one:, Chapter 2,Chapter 3, Chapter 4:
ok guys! we're back and reader's hot girl summer has started! Sorry I was gonna put this chapter out earlier today but i've just been so busy today plus i'm cooking up a 3rd part for "older" I got my period AND i have a math test and english essay coming up. If some parts don't make sense, its on purpose. Reader is disoriented and drunk half the time, the days blur together for her. Lmk what yall think of readers hot girl summer and what you want/think will happen in the next chapter .Sorry for any mistakes! Comments, reblogs and ASKS make my dayyyy and encourage me.
Saint-Tropez wasn’t just a place, it was a playground, a haven for those who didn’t care about consequences or anyone else’s rules.
And you? Well, you were done with rules.
For the last two weeks, you’d been living like this, untouchable, free, and completely lying to your family.
You had told Bruce you were staying with Ariel and her father, which was true, for the first two days anyway.
Ariel's father is a busy man, he couldn't take 2 and a half months off work to babysit two 16 year olds who would do what they wanted anyway. As soon as he left, Ariel began calling your two other close friends, Claire and Rory. Together, all four of you were unstoppable at school though it was an unspoken rule that you and Ariel were the dynamic duo. All four of you stayed in Ariel's ocean front villa, relaxing, tanning, and just getting settled.
God, let's not even start on how drastically everything changed while you were at boarding school and the family found out Tiffany's true colors. They were all so.....protective now. You got calls everyday, from each of your 'siblings' separately, dozens of texts asking you what you ate, who you were with, and what you were doing. You didn't entertain them. The only person you replied to was Bruce, and that's only because you knew if he wanted to, he could call off this whole trip.
You didn't answer Tim's random, vague questions like, "Who's that on your story? Do you know them? Are you sure they're safe to be with?" He was asking about a simple sunset dinner picture you posted with Ariel, so you blocked him. He's way too nosy.
You didn't reply to the groupchat the girls, Barbra, Steph, and Cass added you in called "The girls!!"
What a creative name!
You left after you saw 'Tiffany was removed from this conversation'. Maybe you were being petty but they obviously had this chat before and didn't bother to add you to it before Tiffany was exposed. It was your turn to ignore them.
You definitely didn't reply to Damian's outright threatening messages that he sent almost every other day, they all sounded something along the lines of "You will regret this. You cannot simply leave and run away from your family. Come home or else."
He's such a strange little boy, he spoke and acted like an angry Victorian prince. He texted you like you were close before, like it wasn't him who pushed you away. You were coming back in two months and yet he acted like ran away and changed your name.
Jason, Bruce, and Dick were the most consistent and annoying, in that order exactly.
Jason texted you every morning at 8 and every night 11, like clockwork. His texts were daily updates what he was planning on doing that day, asking you the same, and reminding you that he's sorry and that he loves you. It tugged at your heart not to answer him, and sometimes, you gave in and you could feel the joy in his response when you replied. You and Jason's conversations went like this, on the odd occasion you replied,
"Good morning." - Jason
"How are you? No trouble in paradise I hope."- Jason
"My days gonna be pretty dull today, nothing much except patrol. Might go to that bookstore you used to like." - Jason
Your cold heart would melt when he said things like that and you would reply,
"awww! jason, thats so sweet." and follow with "I'm good!! how bout you??? staying out of trouble?"
Jason was your softest spot and he knew it.
Bruce texted you three times a day. Morning, afternoon, and evening. His messages were dry and authorative, demanding answers. He wanted to know who you were with, what you were doing, if you left the house, and if you were okay. The fatherly care and authority isn't something your used to, it was strange. You weren't sure if you felt cared for or suffocated. You answered Bruce once a day, your tone straight to the point, answering only what he asked, nothing more.
Dick is by far the worst. He texted you constantly, as if trying to make up for 11 years of not texting you at all. He texted you when he woke up, when he slept, when he ate, what he ate, and sent you pictures of everything. Once he sent you a picture of a tiny bird saying it reminded him of you. You nearly blocked him after that, the only reason you didn't was because you liked how desperate he was. Not long ago, it was you spamming him like that. Plus he can be funny most of the time. You don't even want to think of the constant selfies he sent. You only ever replied once.
Dick sent a selfie of him hanging with some of the Titans, you forgot why or what he said along with it, but you do remember seeing Connor Kent shirtless in the background. You giggled and showed Ariel how hot he is. You replied to Dick almost instantly hearting the picture, screen shotting it, and drawing a heart around Connor saying something like, "WHO DAT IN THE BACK????" and "Tell superboy to hmu".
Dick was not happy about that, that was the last group selfie he ever sent. He got more frequent with his texts after that. He must've snitched to Jason because not even five minutes after you got a text from him.
"Remember what I said. No boys, i'll kick his ass." - Jason
You ignored him of course.
The sun beat down in the south of France, but you were far from concerned with the blistering heat. Not when there was a private yacht at your disposal, a poolside filled with strangers and familiar faces alike, and the soundtrack of Drake keeping your pulse racing. You felt the vibration of your phone against your palm for the third time in ten minutes. Another text from Bruce. He was becoming more insistent you answer him the longer you were gone. It's only been two weeks! Another "where are you?" or "be careful." As if you were gonna listen. Or reply to him.
Bruce. The man who'd ignored you for the better part of your life, suddenly acting like a worried father because Tiffany, the perfect sister, had betrayed them all. Tiffany, the adopted daughter who had somehow replaced you in their world. Now, she was the enemy, the traitor, the spy, and she was gone. That meant you had all the freedom you could ever want.
The more you thought about Tiffany the angrier you got. She had everything. How many summers has she spent on yatchs partying? How many times has she blown thousands of Bruce's dollars? Why were you forgiving them so easily? Why were you even listening to him?
Just because he apologized and said he'd change?
Why should you forgive Jason so easily and respect his rules, he ignored you for years and replaced you with Tiffany. The more you drank, the more you thought and the angrier you got. Who do they think they are? You've always been too nice, too obedient, and they're still taking advantage of it. You'd show them, show them what its like to be ignored and forgotten and made fun of.
For the next two months, you were going to ignore them. Bruce and jason included. You've been too nice, too good these two weeks, your friends were begging to party but you didn't want to, you were scared of disappointing them.
You were so angry nothing changed in you that you finally caved and decided to do what Claire and Rory were doing, give your phone to a worker here and have them turn the location on and send updates to Bruce. You still used the same icloud so you could read their messages and make sure they weren't suspicous.
He'd think you were always at the villa or just going into town, they won't know what hit them.
You turn to Ariel and grin, "I'm free. What are we doing tonight?" You were done obeying their rules and living your life for them. Who knows when you'd be alone in Europe with your best friends again.
Ariel hopped off her chair and squealed, her dark skin glowing from the sun, she grabbed you and twirled you around, your giggles echoing through the yacht and drawing Claire and Rory's attention.
Ariel grinned and explained to Rory and Claire, "Little Miss good girl finally came to her senses and went M.I.A with her dad. Now we can finally party! Hot girl summer starts now."
All three girls start squealing and join Ariel in her celebration.
You rolled your eyes feeling guilty, "I told you, you could've gone without me!"
Ariel wrapped her arm around you, "Nonsense, it's not a party without you. Now, come on we gotta go shopping if we're going out tonight. It's lucky that we both have daddy's black cards. It's really lucky that they have Dior, Hermes, and YSL down the street."
You weren't sure how much you spent and the drinks kept you from feeling guilty. Bruce is like, a bajilionaire, what you spent won't make a dent.
Somehow, you ended up on an even bigger yacht filled with guys, in your brand new Dior bikini with a matching bag.
By the time night fell, the yacht was buzzing, the VIP lounge overrun by people who hadn’t even been invited. The bass was so loud you felt it in your bones. You didn’t care. You've never felt so alive.
Your new phone wasn't getting any messages except DMs, and the woman you hired confirming Bruce thought you were sound asleep in the villa.
You can practically taste the summer air as you step onto the deck of the boat, laughing with Ariel and your friends and the others you’ve met along the way. No one cares about where you’ve been, where you’re going, or who your family is.
As the DJ cranks up the volume, a cute guy with long blonde hair catches your eye. You wink at him and saunter over. This summer is all about freedom, and you’re ready for it. His hands are already on your waist, pulling you close, and suddenly you’re lost in the rhythm, spinning and laughing, his lips brushing against your ear.
The night wears on, you drink more, laugh louder, flirt harder. The yacht turns into a blur of lights, drinks, and music. As midnight rolls around, the party shows no signs of slowing. You could stay here forever, with no rules but your own.
But then it happens. You wake up in a completely different city.
London.
You’re sprawled on a plush couch in a ridiculously luxurious flat, a half-empty bottle of champagne next to you. The room smells like expensive perfume, and the decor is all sleek lines and minimalist chic. You sit up slowly, your head pounding from last night.
You sit up straighter, rubbing your eyes.You vaguely remember a private jet, but it’s all blurry. One moment, you were on the deck of the yacht, living it up, and the next, you're waking up in an entirely new country.
You look around the room in panic and spot Ariel sleeping on the couch and a random guy, butt naked on the floor next to her. You sigh in relief at Ariel being okay and the fact you weren't kidnapped.
There’s a knock at the room door, and when you answer, it's a random guy from last night, British accent, disheveled hair, wearing nothing but boxer shorts. He grins at you sheepishly. ā€œHey, you good?ā€
You, Ariel, the naked boy named Christian, and the Brit named Thomas, have breakfast and exchange stories of what you remember from last night. It was fun, but you and Ariel flew back to St. Tropez where a jealous Claire and a worried Rory were waiting.
Last night was fun, but it couldn't happen again. It was dangerous and if anything happened Bruce wouldn't know.
Except it did happen again, and again, all summer long.
The next weeks were a blur, Venice, Monaco, and Madrid, with stops in Dubai and Los Angeles along the way. Each city more vibrant and intoxicating than the last. Every place you went, you had the freedom to be whoever you wanted to be. There was always a fresh crop of people, and you reveled in not having to answer to anyone. No father, no brothers, no sisters, just you and your friends against the world.
You and Ariel lived your lives like you were gonna die tomorrow. You were unstoppable, no family, no rules, no responsibility. Your abilities weren't acting up at all, everything was perfect. Bruce and the family were off your back, being made to think you were at the villa all day.
The ā€œNo Boys Ruleā€ was completely disregarded, though. It seemed that whenever you let your guard down for just a moment, you’d end up surrounded by someone new. Whether it was a guy from a club in Monaco or a guy you met on a private yacht in Venice, you were always finding someone new
Despite all the parties, the alcohol, and the private Instagram posts, and funny Tik Toks, there was still a growing sense that you weren’t living this life for you, you were living it for the rebellion, to spite Bruce.
It wasn’t just about freedom anymore. It was about finally being seen, even if that meant drifting away from everyone you once called family.
You only had one month left of absolute freedom, and you were gonna make the most of it. With Ariel, Rory, and Claire by your side, you partied in just about every city.
The final month of your wild European escapade had arrived, and things were only getting wilder.
The clock had no meaning anymore. Days and nights blended into each other as you danced from one city to the next, your world a whirlwind of music, champagne, and endless laughter. Ariel, Rory, and Claire had become your partners in crime, literally when you got arrested, but thats not important.
Each morning you woke up in a new place, groggy and confused, only to remember the night before—flashing lights, pounding beats, and the promise of more. Cannes, Monte Carlo, Paris, or Dubai, it didn’t matter. What mattered was the freedom you’d found in them, and in yourself. You were more than the neglected, ignored girl from Gotham; now, you were the life of the party.
there was always someone waiting to whisk you away to the next nightclub, the next gala, the next beach party where the world’s richest men tried to get your attention.
First, it was Paris. You could feel the eyes on you as soon as you entered the hotel lobby. The air smelled of expensive perfume, freshly polished marble, and the faintest trace of guilt, because in some corner of your mind, you could still hear Bruce’s voice echoing in your ears. But it quickly faded as the first private yacht rolled up to the dock. The deck was crowded with Parisian socialites and half-drunk billionaires, but it wasn’t about the crowd, it was about the feeling of being wanted. Being worshipped.
It was in Paris that you really started feeling the distance between you and the life you’d left behind. The champagne flowed easily, the laughter came effortlessly, but there was an ache you hadn’t anticipated. A pang that struck at the edges of your satisfaction, the kind you couldn’t drink away.
You thought about Bruce. His pleading words, his desperation, and how, for a moment, you almost felt sorry for him. But only for a moment. You couldn’t let him win. Couldn’t let them see that you’d needed them. Because that would mean giving up everything you had now, the freedom, the endless nights, the city hopping, the boys who adored you.
You let it all sink in, just for a second, how much control you had over them now. How much they wanted you back, how much they needed you back. It felt good, knowing that you could walk away and have them chase after you, like you used to chase them.
Maybe it was the brief, fleeting moments when you thought about Gotham, about Bruce, about your family, and how none of it felt real anymore. They’d played their games, ignored you, and now it was your turn.
Meanwhile, your phone was a constant buzz of messages. Tim had sent at least five texts, each one more urgent than the last. Jason called twice, his voice sharp and filled with that annoying overprotectiveness he just developed. And Bruce… well, Bruce sent you one long, pleading message, something about understanding, about giving him another chance, and answering his calls. You didn’t even bother reading it all. You didn’t need to. You didn’t care enough to respond.
You had no intention of being tied down by anyone, but when a French prince with dark, tousled hair and eyes that burned through your soul offered you a glass of champagne and a seat next to him, you took it.
You didn’t even have to look for him, he found you. He was the one with the perfect jawline, the one who could be a model if he wasn’t already a prince. His eyes, blue locked onto yours the second you entered the VIP area. A raised brow, a subtle smirk, and you knew that for tonight, he was yours.
You didn’t speak much. He didn’t ask questions, and that was the kind of energy you craved. A few words, some flirting, fleeting touches, and then you were in his Lambo, the leather seats smooth under your skin as the city sped by. He went as fast as you wanted, loving the thrill and impressed look in your eyes.
The thrill was intoxicating, the feeling of being someone else, someone free. The kind of person who didn’t have to answer to anyone. A few hours later, you were standing on a balcony, watching the sunrise, your lips tingling from the kiss he’d stolen.
Your mind was a haze of laughter and the aftertaste of expensive whiskey. The view of the French Riviera was far too beautiful to appreciate right now, and your thoughts wandered back to Gotham, to the family you’d abandoned, the ones who had never cared for you.
But as the days wore on, it was harder to ignore the hollow feeling creeping in. The message from Dick, the one where he told you that he loved you, stayed in your mind longer than it should have. You told yourself it didn’t matter. You didn’t owe him anything. But you couldn’t help but wonder, just for a second, what it would have been like if things were different.
You turned away from those thoughts quickly. You couldn’t afford to get attached. Not now. Not when you were on the verge of something bigger. The freedom you had now was everything you wanted. No one could take that from you.
You couldn’t let them control you. You wouldn’t let them.
You and Ariel were inseparable now, pulling Claire and Rory into your whirlwind of recklessness. You all had your roles, Ariel was the carefree partier, Claire the quiet one who always managed to keep ya'll out of trouble, and Rory was the one always ready with a camera and a new Tik Tok idea. You were the star, the one they all gravitated toward.
Each day was a new city, a new set of challenges, a new set of eyes who wanted to be close to you. You knew the game, knew how to play it. You knew how to keep them guessing, how to make them want you more.
So, you danced. You partied. You lived in the moment and let your life spiral further from Gotham’s grasp.
From there, it was off to the next city.
Las Vegas; Sin City, there was no place like it. You couldn’t even remember how you got there, your mind fuzzy with a mix of adrenaline and whatever was in that last glass of tequila. The strip was lit up like daylight, people everywhere, the air thick with smoke and the sound of slot machines ringing through the night.
You woke up in a penthouse suite that could have been mistaken for an entire floor of the Bellagio, the morning sunlight filtering through the floor-to-ceiling windows. And there he was, a prince. The same French prince, draped in a robe embroidered with gold thread, a fresh glass of mimosas on the table beside him. He was smirking, lounging on the couch like this was all part of his daily routine. You couldn’t even remember how you got to the suite. What had happened between the bar and now? You didn’t care.
He didn’t seem to care either, his hand casually tracing the rim of his glass, his eyes never leaving you. You laughed, feeling the surrealness of it all wash over you, the weight of your last 48 hours in Ibiza and Monaco still fresh on your skin. One minute, you were dancing at a celebrity’s secret after-party in Monaco, and the next, you were here, on the other side of the world with some mysterious prince who had probably already forgotten your name.
The rest of the night was spent taking private jet rides to exclusive clubs, partying with people whose names you couldn’t even pronounce, and waking up to the flashing lights of a casino floor. Vegas was the kind of place where everything felt fake, but that didn’t matter. You really are Brucie Wayne's daughter.
Next stop, Ibiza, the heart of Europe’s clubbing scene. Ariel and you slipped into the club, stepping past the velvet ropes like it was second nature. The security guard practically bowed as you walked by. The crowd parted for you, the clinking of champagne glasses and the hum of expensive conversations filling the air.
This was where you belonged. The heat of the island, the night that stretched into forever. You and Ariel danced on top of the table at Pacha, popping bottles like they were nothing, the music vibrating in your bones, the crowd chanting your name like you were the star of the show. It was your second night there, and you had already met a Spanish duke who was more interested in buying you a yacht than actually getting to know you. There was white powder everywhere, tempting you to try but you didn't give in. Who knows what could be in it. Your friends and most people at the club didn't share the same idea.
You just wanted to enjoy the view and keep the party going but you were worried, maybe this was too much.
ā€œwe’ve got to live for the moment,ā€ Ariel grinned, taking a shot of something that made her eyes water. ā€œWho cares if we’re in a foreign country surrounded by dangerous people? It’s the best kind of chaos. When else are we gonna do this?ā€
Somehow you ended up on a private yacht again, this time surrounded by Ibiza’s elite. You weren’t sure how many shots of tequila you’d had, but you knew that the man at your side had given you a diamond bracelet to match your dress. You accepted with a grin asking him to put it on for you, your hair wild, your makeup smudged from hours of dancing, but it didn’t matter. You were untouchable.
It was getting close to 3 AM, and the music hadn’t stopped. The drinks kept flowing, and the Duke’s yacht you somehow ended up on was finally leaving the dock. You couldn’t remember how you ended up on the boat, but you were there now, floating on a million-dollar boat with peopl you’d only seen on TV. One of the men from the night before was already making eye contact, his glass of sangria in hand.
It was hard to be shy in a setting like this. Rory, who’d never been afraid of attention, was deep in conversation with a couple of supermodels who were likely on their third or fourth drink. Claire was wrapped up in a flirtation with the duke who owned this yacht, and Arie was in her own world, laughing with a group of guys who were definitely not short on cash.
The next morning, you woke up on the yacht, the sun blazing over the Mediterranean. You stretched lazily, your body still buzzing from the night before, and found yourself face-to-face with the man from last night.
He smirked, ā€œCare for another round?ā€ he asked, his accent thick, the sound of the waves crashing against the boat providing an oddly peaceful background.
You laughed and agreed. It was all so easy, this life. This endless, carefree abandon. No rules, no family to answer to, no obligations. It was just you, your friends, and a bunch of gorgeous strangers who only saw you for the party girl you had become. And for now, that was enough.
Next, Monaco, the grandest of them all. You didn’t just go to Monaco, you ruled it. You, Ariel, Claire and Rory crashing the most exclusive gala in the world; rich industrialists, F1 drivers ,tech moguls, the faces that appeared on the front of every magazine. But to you, it was just another game to play. Every conversation was a carefully curated performance, everyone vying for your attention, for your approval.
The days blurred together. Each city more beautiful, each party more decadent than the last. Monaco was wild, filled with the world’s elite and their very bored children. The private yacht parties were nothing short of a movie set, jet skis, champagne, drugs, and the sun beating down relentlessly. The thrill of it all never left, and every night you found a new billionaire, actor, or race car driver to distract you. It wasn’t about them, not really, it was about keeping the power in your hands, it was about feeling good. Taking away the pain that came with your powers, fortunately, men were jumping into your bed.
You didn’t even have to try. One wink, one smile, and suddenly you were in a Bentley, whisked away to a private after-party in a hidden corner of Monaco’s coastline. The prince of some oil-rich kingdom was at your side, and the night was long, filled with laughter and stolen kisses under the stars. You didn’t care what his name was, where he came from, or who he was, he was just another prince who could buy you anything you wanted.
You met guy, almost as rich as Bruce, who you beat at poker, he was more than happy to throw a yacht party in your honor. The invitation was clear: ā€œCome party with us. No rules. No limits.ā€
Ariel had already decided to make a game of seeing how many men she could flirt before sunset, while Rory was doing her usual thing, charming people with her wit. You, on the other hand, had become the center of attention, as if the whole event was designed around you. You couldn’t remember the last time you’d had a conversation that didn’t involve someone trying to buy you a drink, or a private island.
As the weeks stretched on, you could barely keep track of all the cities you had visited. You spent one night in Berlin, dancing until dawn in one of the city’s most infamous clubs. The next, you were in Milan, draped in designer clothing and laughing with the most influential fashion people in the world. Every day felt like a new chapter, filled with new people, new parties, and a new sense of power.
It was intoxicating. Everyone loved you here, you were the life of every party. You had so many friends, you'd never be alone again.
There was something so exhilarating about being surrounded by people who knew your last name, who were used to rubbing elbows with people like Bruce Wayne, but didn’t realize you were his daughter.
You felt it in your bones now, the distance between you and Gotham was growing wider. The weight of the past, the guilt that had once threatened to crush you, was nothing more than a distant memory. Each city, each new face, each new party was a reminder that you didn’t need them. You didn’t need anyone.
But deep down, something shifted. Maybe it was the late-night conversations with Ariel on the balcony of a villa in Santorini, the wine flowing freely as you discussed the future, her dreams, your dreams, how you’d never go back to the way things were. Maybe it was the quiet moments alone on the edge of some private infinity pool, staring out at a horizon that seemed endless and just… empty.
You didn’t know when you started to feel it, but you knew one thing for sure: when you finally did come back to Gotham, you weren’t going to be the same person who had left.
The Final Stop, St. Tropez. You did a full circle. Your last hurrah before you returned home, or where your family assumed you were all this time. The private beach parties, the yachts that lined the harbor, the whispers of billionaires in their private jets. You danced in the sand, surrounded by flashes from cameras and jealous glares from women who had no idea who you were, but wanted to be you all the same.
A private villa awaited you, and there, amidst the most extravagant dƩcor, you found yourself facing yet another prince, yet another man eager to claim you as his own.
You turned to find a prince—probably from denmark—standing next to you. You immediately recognized his face from magazines. He was the one who was always pictured at galas with his equally famous family. He was beautiful, dark-haired and dangerous, with a body like chiseled stone. But the only thing you could think about was how long it would take before you got bored of him, before you moved on to the next.
His thick accented voice cut through your thoughts, "Well, if it isn't the infamous party girl." He smirked eyeing you up and down.
"Oh, so you've heard of me" You said smiling. You had no idea how he knew you, all your socials were private and theres no way you had mutual friends. You froze for a second, just how far has your reputation proceeded you, did Bruce hear?
You brushed the thought away as soon as it came, Bruce didn't exist. Not tonight, your last actual night of freedom. Not when you were boarding the flight to gotham after tomorrow.
"Hard not to. You've been everywhere. Paris, London, Ibiza, Monaco, Dubai, Vegas. You're practically the princess of Europe." He grinned leaning closer.
After two months you were finally starting to feel the rush of it all catching up to you. But for now? Who cared? You were a 16-year-old filled with confidence, chaos, and fun. The world was yours, and there was no one who could stop you, least of all, your father, who were still clueless about your whereabouts and secretly obsessing over your every move. You were too busy living in the moment to care about that.
You were officially the European Party Girl, the one everyone wanted to be friends with, the one they all wanted to take selfies with.
Ariel once called you a prince magnet, she wasn't wrong. You woke up next to him the next morning, his strong arms around your waist.
When you went back to Gotham, you weren’t just going to show up. You were going to treat them like they treated you all these years, you were going to laugh in their faces, ignore them like they ignored you.
As you and Ariel spent your last night together packing, you couldn't help but smile. In these two months with her, you lived more than you had in your entire life.
When you boarded the plane back to Gotham, you were different. You were someone new, someone who had tasted freedom and wasn’t sure if she could ever go back. The Waynes had no idea what was coming for them, but you were ready. The game had shifted, and you were about to play it all the way to the end.
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CRUSH CULTURE ━━ paige bueckers x reader
ā˜† ━ summary: paige has a hopeless crush on you, a cheerleader
ā˜† ━ word count: 5.4K
ā˜† ━ warnings: alcohol consumption, kissing, this one’s tame
ā˜† ━ links: my masterlist, inspired by this request (lol i know this was forever ago)
ā˜† ━ author’s note: hiii i hope y’all enjoy—lemme know if you guys want a part 2 and if so send in ideas for it!!! i have been hopelessly uncreative recently!!! also yes i have been writing tmtc and safe and sound i promise—new chapter of tmtc should be out sometime this weekend, no idea on safe and sound because goddamn that fic takes me forever to write
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PAIGE HAS ALWAYS noticed you—though, funny enough, at first it wasn’t because you cheered. That part didn’t even register until her junior year, when she started paying attention to things off the court. But she’d first noticed you back in her sophomore year, in that one class she didn’t feel like she needed at all. She’d often zone out, either doodling in the margins of her notebook or letting her eyes drift around the room as she let her mind wander. Her gaze would skip over classmates until, one day, it stopped on you.
And, God, she remembers that moment. The way she’d blinked, like she needed to reset her brain for a second because… well, you. It wasn’t anything specific, nothing she could even name at the time. But there was this something about you that made her stomach flip. From then on, whenever she zoned out, her eyes would find you before she even realized it. You’d be focused on your notes or lost in thought, completely unaware, and Paige would catch herself staring just a little too long.
She’d think about talking to you, but for some reason, you made her nervous. And that wasn’t something Paige was used to feeling—not with girls. She’d been confident her whole life, even a little cocky when it came to flirting, and her reputation certainly proceeded her. But with you, all of that confidence vanished. Her brain would go blank, her hands would fidget, and her heart would pound just watching you, sitting across the room. The idea of walking up to you, striking up a conversation, felt almost laughable. You’d somehow managed to turn her, Paige Bueckers, into a stammering mess with just a look.
And then there was the other part—the part that kept her from making a move even when she managed to work up the nerve. You looked so…straight. She knows it’s a stupid assumption, but something about the way you carried yourself—she’d convinced herself that you had to be straight. Maybe it was the way you fit in with the other girls, how they flocked around you like they were all in some effortlessly straight, picture-perfect group. Whatever it was, Paige felt certain you’d never look at her the way she looked at you.
So she let it go, or at least, she tried to. But you kept slipping into her thoughts, distracting her in that class, making her mind wander back to you when she least expected it. Her silly little crush on you lingered all through sophomore year, and even when summer rolled around, she found herself thinking of you every now and then, imagining what it might have been like to know you outside of that class.
Then junior year rolled around, and her whole world changed with that ACL tear. Benched for the season, her focus shifted in ways she never anticipated. Instead of charging down the court, she found herself sitting on the sidelines, watching, observing things she normally wouldn’t have noticed. And it was during one of those games, one of those long, frustrating nights when she just wanted to play, that she saw you again—this time, on the court as one of the cheerleaders.
At first, she couldn’t believe it. She actually had to blink a few times, like her brain was trying to catch up with what her eyes were seeing. This was her third year at UConn, and she hadn’t noticed you were a cheerleader ever. Maybe she really was just unobservant, but it truly shocked her. You looked completely different from how you did in class—more animated, more alive, like you were in your element. And when you started that long, impressive tumbling pass down the court, her jaw dropped. She didn’t even know you could do that, and it left her staring, heart hammering in a way she hadn’t felt in a long time. (And maybe the tiny little uniform helped speed it up, too.)
From then on, Paige couldn’t keep her eyes off you during games. She’d always find herself watching you, wondering if you’d somehow feel her gaze, hoping that maybe, just once, you’d look her way. She spent so many games like that—sneaking glances, letting her mind wander, imagining what it might be like to finally work up the nerve to talk to you. But game after game, you never seemed to notice her, too focused on your routines, your teammates, and the cheering crowd around you.
And Paige? She knew she was hopelessly stuck. She’d sit there on the sidelines, feeling ridiculous, pining after a girl she couldn’t even talk to, a girl she thought she’d never really have a chance with. It was her worst crush yet—the kind that left her feeling off-balance, stumbling over her own thoughts, trying to convince herself that it didn’t matter—and she’d never even spoken to you. But each time she saw you out there, smiling, moving with that same effortless grace, she’d feel that same pull, that same quiet, persistent ache.
It’s senior year now, and Paige has one thing on her mind: basketball. It’s been more than a year since she’s played, and she’s determined to make this season count. All summer, she told herself the same thing over and over: Stay focused. Don’t get distracted. No more drifting thoughts, no more daydreams, and absolutely no more pointless crushes on girls she can’t have. And especially no crushes on you.
You, the cheerleader she’d spent too many junior year games staring at from the sidelines. You, the girl she still thought about when her mind wandered late at night, even though she knew better. No, this year, she was locking in. She’d worked too hard, too long, to let her head get all twisted up over you again. She was here to play basketball, not to chase after some unattainable crush.
But as she jogs onto the court for warm-ups, trying to ignore the butterflies that come with her first game back, her eyes somehow find you anyway. Just like they always do. And it’s like no time has passed at all. You’re laughing with the other cheerleaders, your hair perfectly styled in a half-up-half-down, a bow nestled in it, your uniform hugging you just right. The lights catch on your skin, giving you this soft glow, and your smile—God, that smile, so open and sweet and painfully distracting—has her heart skipping a beat before she even realizes it. Paige quickly snaps her eyes away, reminding herself she’s here to play, not to get lost in some imaginary world where she has a chance with you. This is her first game back, and even if it’s just an exhibition against Dayton, she’s got to make it count.
With a deep breath, she manages to brush you off. The pregame excitement kicks in, and her focus sharpens as the game begins. And it’s everything she’s been waiting for—the sounds of the court, the rush of the crowd, the thrill of moving with the ball in her hands again. She’s finally back, and for the first quarter, she’s locked in, feeling the rhythm of the game, feeling unstoppable.
Then it happens. KK makes a bad pass, and Paige is already in motion, chasing down the ball to save it from going out of bounds. She dives, stretching to reach it, but it’s just out of reach. Before she can stop herself, she’s crashing full speed into the sidelines—right into the cheerleaders.
Right into you.
The impact is quick and jarring, and she scrambles to her feet as fast as she can, heart hammering in her chest. She’s prepared to rattle off an apology when she realizes who she’s just barreled into. You’re significantly smaller than her, and her stomach drops as she takes in your wide eyes and the faint wince that flickers across your face. But you handle it with the same grace she’d always admired from afar, waving her off with a laugh and saying, ā€œIt’s fine! You’re good!ā€ Your smile is easy, casual, and she’s even more mortified by how sweet you’re being about it.
She tries to apologize again, but you’re already brushing it off with that smile, and she feels her face heating up as she mumbles something unintelligible before hurrying back onto the court. But now her head’s a mess, all her carefully built-up focus gone, replaced by the embarrassing replay of what just happened. She tells herself to get it together, but it’s no use. Her mind keeps drifting back to the look on your face, to the sound of your laugh, to the softness in your smile when you waved her off.
The rest of the game passes in a frustrating blur. She’s off her rhythm, missing open shots she’d normally sink with ease, getting caught in rotations she usually anticipates. By the end, she’s only scored eight points—a painfully low number, especially for her—and she feels the weight of it like a stone in her stomach. She should be thinking about the game, her missed shots, how to get her focus back. But as she sits on the bench, watching the last few minutes tick away, all she can think about is you standing there, laughing off her clumsy collision, looking up at her with that easy, unbothered smile.
So much for not getting distracted.
After the game, Paige is still kicking herself over how sloppy her performance was. She lingers in the locker room, hoping to avoid any unwanted run-ins. But finally, when she’s convinced she’s given it enough time for everyone to clear out, she heads out into the quiet halls of Gampel Pavilion.
Except, of course, her luck isn’t that great. Just as she’s walking out, she spots you—still in your cheer uniform but with a UConn sweatshirt thrown over it, heading down the hall, cheer bag on your back. Her first instinct is to turn around, bolt back into the locker room, and hope to avoid any more humiliation, but it’s already too late. You look up, and your eyes meet, and suddenly she’s frozen in place, panicking because she’s actually staring straight into your eyes.
And then you smile at her. That smile, the one that sends her brain into a meltdown every time. But it’s so much worse now because your smile is directed at her. And, suddenly, you’re walking up to her and saying, ā€œHey, good game tonight,ā€ and Paige is pretty sure her heart has stopped.
She tries to seem casual, to play it cool, but all she can manage is a shrug and a half-hearted, ā€œEh, wasn’t my best.ā€ She’s hoping you don’t notice her stutter, but her cheeks are burning, giving her away.
You just wave it off, your dimple showing as you grin up at her. ā€œNah, this was just your warm-up. You haven’t played in, like, over a year. Next game you’ll drop thirty.ā€
Paige blinks, and the fact that you know she’s good at basketball—even though everyone knows she’s good at basketball—is enough to send her into a coma, she thinks. ā€œOh, gosh,ā€ she says, rubbing the back of her neck, struggling to find words. ā€œGonna have to now, just for you.ā€ The second it’s out of her mouth, she mentally facepalms. That totally sounds like she’s trying to flirt with you.
But you just laugh, eyes crinkling as you look at her, completely unfazed. ā€œI’ll hold you to it,ā€ you say, and that smile doesn’t waver.
There’s a pause, and Paige knows this is where you’re about to say goodbye, and she panics because, after two years of thinking and practically obsessing over you, she’s finally talking to you, and it feels too short, too fleeting. Before she can second-guess herself, she blurts, ā€œOh—uh, hey, about earlier… when I ran into you. I’m… really sorry about that.ā€
You shake your head, smiling even wider, brushing it off with an easy laugh. ā€œDon’t worry about it. Happens all the time; more than you’d think.ā€
There’s something so casual and warm about the way you say it, and she feels herself relax a little, caught up in the fact that you’re looking right at her, not at all bothered, almost… endeared? And for some reason, seeing your dimpled smile has her stammering like she’s never done before.
ā€œSo… uhā€¦ā€ Paige stumbles, her words failing, her confidence gone. ā€œAre you, um, going to Ted’s tonight?ā€ She bites her lip the moment it’s out, but she presses on. ā€œYou know, a lot of people go there after the first game—it’s kinda, like, a…thing. Which, y’know, I guess you probably already know about because… you’re, like, not a freshmanā€¦ā€ She sounds so stupid. God.
You tilt your head slightly, considering, before you smile at her again. ā€œI wasn’t really planning on going, butā€¦ā€ You pause, looking at her with a bit of a spark in your eyes, and for a second, she feels like she might actually combust. ā€œShould I?ā€
Paige’s eyes widen, and she’s nodding before she can stop herself. ā€œY-yes! I—I think you’d have a good time.ā€ She mentally scolds herself for the stutter, but you’re just nodding, still smiling, still looking so effortlessly at ease while she’s a nervous mess.
You laugh softly, a sound she’s sure she’ll replay in her head all night, and say, ā€œAlright. I’ll think about it. And if I do decide to go, I’ll see you there, Bueckers.ā€
And with one last smile, you turn and walk away, leaving her standing there in shock, her heart racing and her mind replaying every word you just said. She’s tempted to pinch herself, convinced this has to be some elaborate daydream because there’s no way she actually just talked to you.
She doesn’t move for a long moment, replaying the way you said her name, the sound of your laugh, and the chance that she might actually see you tonight.
IT’S LATER in the night at Ted’s, and Paige is doing her best to stay composed, talking with one of the guys from the men’s team. Dirty Shirley in hand, she’s feeling just the faintest buzz, not enough to loosen her grip on reality but just enough to feel the edges of her confidence soften. She’s nodding along to something the guy’s saying when, over his shoulder, she spots you walking in.
Paige’s attention falters as she takes you in. You’re in baggy jeans that hang low on your hips, and a leather tube top that clings in all the right places, dipping enough to make her gaze lower slightly. She can barely tear her gaze away as you head over to the bar with a couple of friends, both of whom Paige recognizes from the cheer team. You’re laughing, leaning into one of them, completely at ease, and she can’t stop watching.
She realizes she’s staring a little too long, so she quickly excuses herself, not to talk to you—God, no, she can’t even think straight around you—but to hide by her teammates before she does something stupid. Her teammates notice her the moment she approaches, grinning as they watch her flustered expression.
ā€œYou see who just walked in, P?ā€ Azzi teases, nudging her.
Paige groans, cheeks burning. ā€œDon’t start.ā€
But they’re all laughing, and Ice is elbowing KK with a smirk. Nika, who’s been listening with a barely disguised grin, rolls her eyes. ā€œOkay, this is ridiculous. You’ve had a crush on this girl since, like, forever. Go talk to her.ā€
ā€œAre you kidding? I can’t. She’sā€”ā€ Paige doesn’t even finish the sentence, glancing over her shoulder just in time to see you at the bar, waiting for your drink. She’d be lying if she said her confidence hadn’t evaporated the moment you walked in, looking like that.
ā€œGirl boo,ā€ KK sighs dramatically, before grabbing Paige’s wrist and dragging her toward the bar. Paige stumbles after her, mumbling weak protests, but KK is determined, practically hauling her across the crowded floor until they’re standing right next to you. KK orders a Sprite, leaning casually on the bar and glancing over at you with a grin. ā€œHey, girly pop! You cheer, right?ā€
You smile, looking more at Paige than at KK, and Paige’s heart thuds against her ribs. ā€œYeah, I do,ā€ you say, introducing yourself and holding out a hand to KK, but your gaze flickers right back to Paige, who’s half-hiding behind her friend, cheeks pink and looking slightly caught. ā€œHi, Paige.ā€
Paige’s voice comes out a little sheepish. ā€œHey.ā€
KK smirks, clearly satisfied, and gives Paige a quick wink before excusing herself, leaving Paige standing there alone with you.
There’s a beat of awkward silence as Paige shifts on her feet, trying to keep herself from looking like an idiot, which is hard considering how aware she is of every single thing about you—your posture, your smile, the way you’re leaning in just close enough that she can catch a faint hint of your perfume.
ā€œSo,ā€ Paige says, trying for casual. ā€œYou glad you came?ā€
You tilt your head, your lips quirking up. ā€œHmm, not sure yet. I’m not too impressed so far.ā€
She nods, stifling a wince, feeling more awkward than she can ever remember. And yet, her mind’s racing, urging her to just go for it, because this is her moment. She’s Paige Bueckers—she’s supposed to be confident. She always is. Besides, if you’re not interested, at least she’ll know. And if you are…
She hesitates, then swallows, trying to keep her voice steady as she says, ā€œUm… can I buy you a drink?ā€
There’s a flicker of something in your eyes—maybe amusement, maybe surprise—and she’s mentally bracing herself for you to say no when you glance at the bar and say, ā€œActually, I just ordered one.ā€ Her heart sinks a little, but she forces a smile, trying to play it off. Of course you’re not interested; she should have known better—
Then you’re leaning closer, nudging her elbow with yours, and you smirk, your voice soft and playful. ā€œBut you can buy my next one, if you want.ā€
Paige’s brain short-circuits as your words settle in, her mouth going dry as she realizes what you just said. ā€œUh, y-yeah, totally,ā€ she manages, trying to keep from looking as giddy as she feels. ā€œI…I’d love to.ā€
Your smirk turns into a grin, and you’re looking at her like she’s the only person in the room. She’s trying to come up with something smooth to say when, suddenly, one of your friends pops ups beside you and Paige, tugging on your arm, pulling you off the barstool and towards the crowd with a teasing, ā€œCome on!ā€
Paige opens her mouth to protest, but before she knows it, you’re being swallowed up into the throng of people—not before you send her a quick, apologetic look over your shoulder, your friend still dragging you. Paige frowns, a little disappointed, but quickly catches herself. It’s fine, she thinks, though a twinge of regret lingers. She pushes it aside, grabbing her drink from the bar and returning back to her table, telling herself to focus on celebrating. She’s finally back on the court, and after such a long, difficult recovery, tonight is meant to be about unwinding. So she does, letting her team hype her up as they cheer and clink their drinks in her honor, pulling her deeper into the night.
As the time passes, Paige’s frustration eases, replaced by a warm buzz that dulls everything except the elation of being surrounded by her friends. But even as she sips her drink, she can’t help but think about where you’ve disappeared to, if you’re still here, still laughing with your friends somewhere across the bar. She finds herself scanning the crowd more than once, looking for a glimpse of you. She tries to push it down, laugh it off with another round, but every time she looks around, her gaze seems to search for you.
Eventually, the heat of the crowded bar gets to her. She feels flushed, dizzy from the alcohol and the mass of people, so she slips out the back door for some air. The cool breeze hits her face, and she closes her eyes for a second, sighing as the sounds of the bar fade behind her. She barely has a moment to herself before she notices a figure sitting just a few feet away.
It’s you, sitting on the curb, looking down at your hands as if lost in thought. Paige blinks, unsure if she’s seeing things. But then you look up at the sound of the door closing and smile, that familiar, gentle smile that makes her heart stutter. You seem just as surprised to see her, but your expression softens, like you’re genuinely happy she’s there. And that’s all the encouragement Paige needs.
ā€œYou care if I join?ā€ she asks, trying to sound casual, even though her heart’s racing.
ā€œNot at all,ā€ you reply, and she takes a seat beside you, a bit closer than she planned. She feels your warmth even in the night air, and it makes her head spin in a way she can’t blame on the alcohol.
There’s a pause, a comfortable silence stretching between you. Paige watches as you draw patterns in the gravel with your fingers, the lights from the bar casting a soft glow over your face. She swallows, summoning up the nerve to say something—anything that might keep you sitting here with her.
ā€œWhy you out here?ā€ she starts, genuinely curious.
You shrug, glancing back toward the bar. ā€œGot a little claustrophobic in there,ā€ you say, voice soft.
ā€œYeah… me too,ā€ Paige nods, grateful for the fresh air and this quiet moment with you. The silence returns, but this time, it’s charged, heavy with something she can’t quite put into words.
Finally, Paige finds her voice again, her words slipping out before she can think them over. ā€œYou’re a good cheerleader, y’know. You do all those flips and shit—it’s impressive.ā€
You let out a small laugh, looking away for a second as if flattered. Paige is almost certain she sees a faint blush on your cheeks, and the sight makes her smile a little, lips curving upward. ā€œDidn’t know you really paid attention to the cheerleaders,ā€ you respond, teasing.
Paige scoffs, shrugging as if it isn’t a big deal, even though she feels like she’s been caught in some sort of confession—which, she kinda has. ā€œWell, I did sit out for a year, so… I had to find something to watch.ā€
You tilt your head, smirking as you ask, ā€œSo you chose to watch me?ā€
Paige’s cheeks warm, and she silently thanks the alcohol for the courage that lets her meet your gaze. ā€œYeah,ā€ she murmurs, watching as you look away, biting your lip as if trying to hide a smile. The sight makes her heart skip in a way that’s both exhilarating and terrifying.
After a moment, Paige adds, ā€œI think we… had a class together, couple years ago?ā€
You nod, eyes lighting up at the memory. ā€œYeah, we did. Sociology, right?ā€ you reaffirm, nodding in tandem with her. ā€œā€™M surprised you remember that—you always seemed so disinterested.ā€
Paige nearly blanches, genuinely surprised you’d noticed her too. She didn’t think you’d have remembered her, much less noticed her back then. The notion gives her some of her usual confidence beck and she manages a chuckle, shaking her head and tilting it slightly toward you as she murmurs, ā€œAh, so you were watching me too, huh?ā€
You roll your eyes, but your smile betrays you as you nudge her shoulder. ā€œShut up,ā€ you mutter, but the blush on your face doesn’t go unnoticed.
There’s another pause, the two of you sitting side by side in the quiet, both of you lingering on the edge of something unsaid. Finally, you break the silence, voice soft and hesitant. ā€œHow come you never said anything before?ā€
Paige swallows, the question catching her off guard. She doesn’t know how to answer without giving herself away, without admitting the way her stomach twists every time she sees you around campus. So instead, she asks, turning the question back on you, ā€œHow come you never did?ā€
You don’t seem to mind that she didn’t really give you an answer. Instead, you just shrug, looking down at your hands. ā€œI don’t know… you make me kinda nervous.ā€
The confession makes Paige’s heart alight, feeling like it’s on fire and might spread throughout her whole body. She’s used to people being in awe of her for basketball, for her skills on the court. But hearing you say that you feel that way too, like she’s someone more than just her reputation, shakes her. Besides, you’ve always seemed so incredibly at ease around her, never even bothering to look her way. So, almost incredulously, she asks, ā€œWhy?ā€
You scoff, looking at her like she’s missing something obvious. ā€œUm, because you’re Paige Bueckers. Basketball prodigy, campus celebrity.ā€ You raise your eyebrows at her. ā€œI think most people would be.ā€
Paige feels a rush of warmth at your words, the way you say her name like it means something special. She searches your face, feeling the air grow thick around you, heavy with something she couldn’t quite name. And maybe it’s the alcohol in her system, maybe it’s the way you’re looking at her like she’s somehow both intimidating and endearing at the same time, but she’s feeling bold. Bold enough to keep this conversation going, to see where this moment might lead.
She clears her throat, a small smile tugging at her lips. ā€œWell, if it helps… you make me nervous.ā€
You laugh, a little breathless, clearly surprised. ā€œYeah, right.ā€
ā€œI’m serious,ā€ Paige insists. ā€œYou ain’t see the way I stuttered around you earlier? Ion know, ma, you just kinda fuck with my head.ā€
She watches, grin widening, as you blush at her words, the color blooming across your cheeks. It’s addictive, seeing you react like that—because of her. She doesn’t even try to hide her amusement when you ask, gaze set out in front of you instead of on her, ā€œWhy would I fuck with your head?ā€
It’s a good question, one Paige asked herself for a long time. It never took her long to figure out the answer. Though, she’s a little nervous to explain herself.
And she gets even more nervous when your gaze slides back onto hers, your head turning towards her. Paige’s smile falters, just slightly, at the eye contact. It’s intense, the kind that feels like it’s holding the world still for a second. Paige’s heart is a drum in her chest, each beat vibrating through her veins. Her eyes slide across your face, your features, tracing the slope of your nose, the curve of your lips, the faint shimmer glitter swiped along your eyelids. She catalogues every detail as if she’s never going to get this close again—a very real possibility if she doesn’t up her game.
Finally, she leans in—just slightly—her voice low and steady as she answers you. ā€œYou got this positive energy that makes you just… stand out in front of a crowd. Big smile. Bright eyes. Mm, I just… like seeing that in people.ā€
The words settle in the space between you, warm and lingering. Paige hesitates, letting them wrap around you both before adding, her voice dipping lower, her boldness shooting upward, ā€œAnd it doesn’t help that you’re too beautiful for your own good.ā€
You blush deeper this time, cheeks tinted more red than pink, and it makes Paige’s heart skip. She can’t help the way her lips twitch into a grin. She’s waited so long to see this—see you flustered because of her. It’s everything she imagined and more.
ā€œStop,ā€ you protest, fighting a smile as you push at her hands, your tone not carrying any weight behind the word. Paige just laughs, soft and easy, catching your hand in hers before you can pull away. She lifts it slightly, letting her thumb brush over your knuckles as she murmurs, ā€œNah, really.ā€
It’s then that the air changes—shifting into something heavier. The space between the two of you is practically nonexistent at this point, your sides tucked right into each other. You’re staring at one another, and Paige can’t help it when her gaze flickers down to your lips, just for a second. But it turns out to be enough. Because then she sees your eyes dart to her mouth in return, lingering there. And that’s when Paige knows.
Still holding your hand, she locks her gaze on yours, her voice firm but soft when she repeats, ā€œReally.ā€
It’s like that word unlocks something between you because suddenly you’re leaning in, and Paige is doing the same, her breath catching the moment your lips touch hers. It’s soft, tentative at first, like neither of you are quite sure if this is real. But then you press into her just slightly, and Paige swears the whole world tilts on its axis.
The kiss deepens, slow but deliberate, and Paige feels her whole body light up. Your lips are warm, soft, and you taste faintly of tequila and strawberry chapstick. It’s intoxicating, the way you move against her, gentle but with enough purpose to make her head spin. Paige’s hand slides up to cradle your jaw, her thumb brushing against your cheekbone.
Your fingers grab at her bicep, holding on like you don’t want to let go, and it sends a thrill through her. Paige’s lips part slightly, and when you follow, letting her slip her tongue into your mouth, it’s like a fire ignites somewhere deep inside her. The kiss isn’t frantic or messy—it’s unhurried, like the two of you have all the time in the world to explore this. She can feel the heat of your skin where her hand cups your face, and she wants to memorize every second, every sensation.
The way you tilt your head just a little, giving her more access, nearly undoes her. Paige tilts her own in response, deepening the kiss further, her fingers slipping from your jaw to the back of your neck. The touch is light, almost reverent, but the closeness makes her heart race.
Your other hand moves, grazing against her side before resting lightly on her hip. Paige’s stomach flips at the contact, her body leaning instinctively closer to yours. She swears she can feel the warmth of your breath between kisses, the subtle hitch when she nips at your bottom lip.
It’s slow, it’s sweet, but it’s intoxicating. Paige swears she’s never kissed anyone like this before, never felt this much just from simple lip-locking. When you pull back slightly—not breaking the kiss entirely, just catching your breath—she can’t help herself. She follows you instinctively, her mouth chasing yours in a way that feels both vulnerable and utterly fearless. You allow her to, tongues half entwined between your swollen lips.
When you finally part, Paige keeps close, her forehead gently pressing against yours, her hand still cradling your neck. Neither of you moves far, the space between you so small your breaths still mingle, soft and warm against each other’s lips. Paige’s eyes flutter open, but she doesn’t look away from you, her gaze locked on yours like you’re the only thing in the world that matters—which, right now, you might as well be.
Her voice comes out lower than she intends, husky and laced with something she can’t quite hide as she murmurs, ā€œYou gonna let me buy you that drink now?ā€
Your lips curve into a slow, easy grin, and Paige feels her chest tighten, her heart skipping a beat at the sight of it. You’re so close she can see the faint glimmer of mischief in your eyes, the way they soften as you look at her.
ā€œYeah,ā€ you say, your voice soft but sure, ā€œI’d like that.ā€
The way you say it, the way your smile widens just slightly after, makes Paige’s heart race all over again. She can’t help the small, satisfied smile that spreads across her face. Paige leans back just enough to take in the sight of you—your flushed cheeks, the way your hair’s slightly mussed, and that lingering, breathtaking smile she knows will haunt her in the best way.
ā€œGood,ā€ she murmurs, her thumb brushing your jaw lightly one last time before she pulls away completely, standing up and offering you her hand. When you take it, she holds on a little longer than necessary, leading you back into the bar, already planning how she’s going to keep you smiling for the rest of the night—and, hopefully, much longer afterwards.
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Alpha ATEEZ x Assistant Omega Reader
Warnings: omega reader, alpha ateez, scenting, heats, ruts, slow burn, eventual smut, forced command, more to come!
When Y/n accepts a position as assistant to alpha K-pop group ATEEZ, she's prepared with professional skills and scent blockers to hide her omega status. What she's not prepared for is the immediate, inexplicable connection she feels with all eight members—a resonance that defies her careful boundaries.
As Y/n becomes eerily attuned to their needs, her suppressed omega nature begins to emerge: purring for the first time in years, responding to alpha growls, feeling safe in ways she never has before. When a protective incident reveals the depth of the members' attachment to her, Y/n must confront the possibility that what binds them together is something ancient and profound.
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Ā Chapter 13: Omega Eyes
Yunho had abandoned his gaming session entirely, drawn downstairs by the lingering memory of your purr and chirp, and the irresistible pull of whatever was happening to your omega. Now he sat at the kitchen table, methodically eating the cookies you'd brought him while watching you move around the kitchen with an expression of pure fascination.
You were beautiful like this—completely in your element, humming softly as you flitted from stove to counter to sink with an efficiency that spoke of deep omega satisfaction. Every movement was purposeful yet graceful, your entire being radiating contentment as you prepared what appeared to be enough food to feed an army.
Yunho had been sitting there for nearly an hour, mesmerized by the transformation he was witnessing. This wasn't the professional assistant who carefully managed their schedules and maintained polite boundaries. This was your omega in full domestic mode, nesting and providing with an instinctual drive that was both beautiful and deeply moving to watch.
The sound of the front door opening barely registered until he heard Hongjoong's voice in the hallway, followed by Seonghwa's lower tones. The two had been at the studio working on final touches for their next promotional appearance, but they were home earlier than expected.
"Yunho?" Hongjoong's voice carried a note of confusion as he entered the kitchen and found the younger alpha sitting motionless at the table. "What are you doing?"
"Where’s Y/n? You were supposed to—" Seonghwa began, then stopped abruptly as he followed Hongjoong into the room.
Yunho simply pointed toward where you were standing at the stove, stirring something that smelled absolutely incredible. "Look," he said softly, his voice filled with wonder.
Both alphas turned to follow his gaze, taking in the sight of you moving around the kitchen with that same graceful efficiency Yunho had been watching. At first glance, it might have seemed like simple dinner preparation, but there was something different about your energy, something that made both experienced alphas take notice.
"Her eyes..." Seonghwa breathed, his own gaze sharpening as he focused on your face.
Yunho nodded slowly, never taking his eyes off you. "She's been like this for an hour. Maybe longer."
Hongjoong frowned, studying your movements with growing confusion. "What do you mean, her eyes? What's—"
His question was cut off as you turned to check something in the oven, giving him a clear view of your face for the first time. Hongjoong's words died in his throat as he caught sight of what the others had already noticed.
Your eyes held a soft, dim purple hue that seemed to glow from within—subtle but unmistakable to anyone who knew what to look for. Omega eyes. The equivalent of an alpha's golden glow, appearing when an omega's instincts took over and they surrendered to their natural drives.
"Oh," Hongjoong said quietly, the single word carrying a wealth of understanding and something that might have been awe.
All three alphas stood transfixed, watching as you moved through your domestic tasks with that telltale purple shimmer in your gaze. It was beautiful and rare—many omegas never felt safe enough to let their instincts take over so completely, especially not around unfamiliar alphas. The fact that you were doing so here, in their space, was both a gift and a sign of incredible trust.
The moment was broken when you finally noticed their presence. Your face lit up with a genuine smile that made all three alphas' breath catch simultaneously.
"You're home!" you said, your voice carrying a warmth and enthusiasm that seemed to fill the entire kitchen. Without hesitation, you moved toward them, picking up another plate of cookies from the counter as you approached.
"I made cookies," you announced proudly, holding out the plate. The purple in your eyes shimmered brighter as you offered them the fruits of your domestic labor.
Hongjoong accepted a cookie with slightly shaking hands, his alpha responding powerfully to the sight of an omega presenting food she'd made specifically for her pack. "They smell incredible," he managed, his voice rougher than usual.
Seonghwa took one as well, his own hands not entirely steady as he processed what he was witnessing. "Thank you, little one. This is... you've been busy today."
You beamed at their acceptance, that purple glow intensifying with pleasure at their praise. "There's dinner too," you said eagerly, gesturing toward the stove where multiple pots were simmering. "And I did the laundry, and cleaned the living room, and—"
"You've been taking care of us," Yunho interrupted softly, finally finding his voice again. The way he said it—with such reverence and gratitude—made your omega practically purr with satisfaction.
"Of course," you replied, as if there could be no other possible response. The simplicity of your answer, the matter-of-fact way you accepted the role of caretaker, sent a collective shiver of alpha satisfaction through all three men.
Hongjoong bit into his cookie and had to suppress a groan of pleasure at the taste. "These are perfect," he said, and the way your eyes brightened at the compliment was almost blinding.Ā 
You let out a purr at the praise, causing a groan from Yunho and blush from Hongjoong.Ā 
Seonghwa was studying you with that intense focus he brought to understanding the people he cared about. "How long have your eyes been like this?" he asked gently.
You blinked, confusion flickering across your features. "Like what?"
"Purple," Yunho supplied helpfully. "They're glowing purple."
Your hand flew to your face instinctively, as if you could somehow feel the change in your eyes. "They are?"
"It's beautiful," Hongjoong assured you quickly, recognizing the note of uncertainty in your voice. "It means your omega is content. Safe. Happy."
The explanation seemed to reassure you, your smile returning full force. "I do feel happy," you admitted. "Today has been... good. Really good."
"Even after yesterday?" Seonghwa asked carefully, his protective instincts clearly still on high alert.
Your expression softened as you looked at him. "Especially after yesterday. Because now I don't have to hide anymore. I can just... be."
The honesty in your words hit all three alphas like a physical force. To know that you felt safe enough, comfortable enough, to let your omega instincts take control completely—it was a level of trust that none of them took lightly.
"And this is you just being?" Hongjoong asked, gesturing toward the evidence of your afternoon's domestic spree.
You nodded enthusiastically. "I wanted to take care of you. All of you. Because you've been taking care of me, and it felt... right. Natural."
Yunho made a soft sound that might have been a whine, his alpha clearly overwhelmed by your sweetness. "You don't have to take care of us, Tulip. That's not your job."
"I’m your assistant so technically it is my job. But now it doesn’t feel like a job," you corrected him gently, your purple-tinged eyes warm with affection. "It's what I want to do. What feels good to do."
The distinction was important, and all three alphas recognized it. This wasn't about obligation or traditional omega roles—this was about genuine care, freely given, born from your own desires rather than external expectations.
"Well," Seonghwa said, his voice slightly hoarse with emotion, "we're incredibly grateful. All of this—" he gestured around the immaculate kitchen, toward the delicious smells emanating from the stove, "—it's amazing."
You let out a purr of satisfaction again, this time, the sound making all three alphas go slightly rigid with the force of their response. The combination of your glowing purple eyes, your obvious contentment, and that perfect omega sound created a moment of such pure rightness that none of them wanted it to end.
"Should I call the others for dinner?" you asked, already moving toward the hallway as if the thought of your alphas not being properly fed was unacceptable.
"In a few minutes," Hongjoong said quickly, catching your hand gently as you passed. "Let us just... appreciate this for a moment."
You tilted your head curiously, but allowed him to guide you back toward them. Standing there surrounded by three of your alphas, your eyes glowing with omega contentment, offering cookies you'd made with your own hands—it was a picture of domestic bliss that none of them had realized they'd been craving.
And judging by the way your omega was practically radiating satisfaction, it was exactly what you'd been craving too.
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As Hongjoong and Seonghwa went upstairs to change out of their studio clothes, you returned to your cooking with renewed energy, chattering happily with Yunho who had moved closer to the kitchen island to keep you company. The purple glow had faded from your eyes, returning them to their normal color, but the contentment radiating from your omega remained strong.
"The sauce smells incredible," Yunho commented, leaning over your shoulder to peek at the pot you were stirring. His proximity sent a pleasant warmth through you, and when his hand came to rest lightly on your lower back, you found yourself leaning slightly into the touch.
"It's my mom's recipe," you replied, unconsciously tilting your head to give him better access as his thumb traced small, soothing circles against your spine. "She taught me that the secret is adding the gochujang slowly, letting each bit dissolve completely before adding more."
"Smart woman," Yunho murmured, his hand trailing up to squeeze your shoulder gently. "You'll have to teach me sometime."
The casual touches continued as you worked—his fingers brushing yours when he handed you ingredients, his palm settling on your hip when he moved around you to reach something, a soft kiss pressed to your temple when you successfully flipped the pajeon without breaking it.
"Perfect," he praised softly, his lips lingering near your ear. The combination of his warm breath and gentle approval made your omega purr with satisfaction.
You were so absorbed in cooking and Yunho's attentions that you barely noticed the sound of the front door opening again. It wasn't until you heard Wooyoung's dramatic gasp that you looked up to find four more members crowding into the kitchen doorway.
"What is that incredible smell?" Wooyoung demanded, his eyes wide as he took in the spread of dishes covering every available surface. "Tulip, did you cook all of this?"
San was already moving toward the stove, his expression one of pure amazement. "This looks like a feast. How long have you been cooking?"
"Most of the afternoon," you admitted, ducking your head shyly as their praise washed over you. Your omega practically glowed with pride at their obvious appreciation.
Mingi appeared at your other side, his tall frame creating a warm shield as he peered over your shoulder at the kimchi jjigae bubbling away. "You made kimchi jjigae from scratch?" His voice held a note of awe that made your chest flutter with happiness.
"And pajeon," Jongho added, pointing to the golden pancakes keeping warm in the oven. "And what's that?"
"Bulgogi," you replied, gesturing to the beautifully caramelized beef. "And banchan—pickled radish, seasoned spinach, bean sprouts..."
"You made banchan too?" Yeosang's quiet voice held a wonder that was somehow more affecting than the others' more vocal appreciation. "When did you have time for all this?"
"I just... wanted to," you said simply, the honest admission making several of the alphas make soft sounds of appreciation. "It felt good to cook for you all."
Wooyoung moved to stand behind you, his arms wrapping around your waist as he pressed his face into your neck—not quite scenting, since your blocker was still in place, but seeking that closeness anyway. "You're amazing," he murmured against your skin. "Absolutely amazing."
"The luckiest pack in Seoul," San agreed fervently, earning nods from the others.
Yunho's hand found the small of your back again, his touch possessive and gentle as he guided you toward the dining table. "Come on, you've been working all day. Let us help serve everything."
"Oh no, I can—" you started to protest, but found yourself surrounded by eight determined alphas who had apparently decided that your cooking duties were officially over.
"Absolutely not," Seonghwa said firmly, appearing in fresh clothes with damp hair that suggested a quick shower. "You've done more than enough. We're taking care of the rest."
Watching them work together to transfer your carefully prepared dishes to the table filled you with a warmth that had nothing to do with the temperature of the kitchen. Your omega hummed with contentment at the sight of your alphas enjoying the fruits of your labor, their obvious pleasure and gratitude more rewarding than any praise you'd ever received.
And when Yunho pulled out your chair for you with a soft kiss to your temple and a whispered "thank you for taking care of us," you realized that this—being surrounded by alphas who appreciated your care while cherishing you in return—was exactly where you belonged.
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You finished eating before the rest of them, your omega satisfied by watching your alphas enjoy the meal you'd prepared. Unable to sit still while they continued eating, you quietly began clearing some of the empty serving dishes and storing leftovers, moving around the table with practiced efficiency.
Jongho was the next to finish, setting down his chopsticks with a satisfied sigh. He'd barely started to stand, his plate in hand, when you appeared in front of him as if from nowhere, your hand extended expectantly.
"I can take this to the kitchen," he protested gently, but you simply wiggled your fingers at him, waiting.
Surprised by your insistence but unable to resist your determined expression, Jongho reluctantly placed his plate in your waiting hands. The moment he did, you reached up with your free hand and gently tapped his nose with your finger—a soft, affectionate boop that was followed by the most delighted chirp any of them had ever heard.
Jongho stood frozen as you practically skipped away to the kitchen, his hand unconsciously rising to touch his nose where you'd booped him.
"That..." he said slowly, his voice filled with wonder, "was the cutest thing I have ever seen."
Wooyoung was practically vibrating in his seat, his earlier satisfied calm replaced by excited, dramatic energy. "How—how do I get her to do that? What did you do? How can I make that happen again?" His eyes tracked your movements like a predator watching prey, though his expression was purely adoring.
Most of the others sat frozen in various states of shock, processing what they'd just witnessed. The casual affection, the omega sounds, the pure contentment radiating from your every movement—it was almost too much adorable stimulation for their alpha brains to handle.
Yunho, however, was smiling broadly, looking remarkably pleased with himself. "She did that earlier when I thanked her for the cookies," he said smugly. "Made the most beautiful purr and chirp I've ever heard."
"You didn't tell us about the nose boop!" San accused, his own eyes following your figure as you bustled around the kitchen.
"She didn't do the nose boop for me," Yunho admitted, though he didn't look particularly upset about it. "That was just for Jongho."
"Why just me?" Jongho asked, still touching his nose with an expression of bewildered delight.
"Because you're the baby," Wooyoung declared dramatically. "She's got omega instincts to take care of the youngest pack member!"
But Mingi wasn't participating in the playful analysis. His eyes tracked your every movement with an intensity that was different from the others—more focused, more predatory. His hands gripped his chopsticks so tightly his knuckles were white, and his eyes kept flashing between their normal brown and that telltale alpha gold.
Yeosang, ever observant, noticed first. "Mingi," he said quietly, his voice carefully controlled in the way that suggested he was trying to stay calm. "When is your rut due?"
The question landed like a bomb in the middle of the dining room. All conversation stopped as seven pairs of eyes fixed on Mingi, who had gone very still.
"Next week," Mingi said roughly, his voice strained. "Maybe... maybe a few days."
Hongjoong's expression immediately shifted to leader mode, his alpha instincts recognizing the potential complication. "How long have you been in pre-rut?"
"Since yesterday," Mingi admitted, his eyes flashing gold again as you bent to load dishes into the dishwasher. "Since the incident at the radio station. My alpha's been... restless."
The others exchanged worried glances. A protective alpha in pre-rut, around an omega, whose omega sounds were triggering every instinct they possessed—it was a situation that required careful handling.
"Mingi," Seonghwa said gently, "maybe you should—"
He was cut off as you returned to the dining room, completely oblivious to the tension that had descended over the table. Your satisfied omega energy filled the space as you began collecting more dishes, humming softly under your breath.
Mingi's breathing became noticeably more labored as you moved around the table, his alpha responding to your presence with an intensity that was becoming harder to control. When you reached for his plate, your fingers accidentally brushing his, he jerked back as if burned.
"Sorry," you said softly, concerned by his reaction. "I didn't mean to startle you."
The gentle care in your voice, the worried expression on your face, the way you instinctively moved closer to check on him—it was everything Mingi's pre-rut alpha could want and everything he needed to avoid.
"It's fine," he managed through gritted teeth, his hands clenching into fists to keep from reaching for you. "I'm fine."
But judging by the way his eyes blazed gold and his entire body vibrated with barely controlled alpha energy, fine was the last thing Mingi was.
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After dinner, you'd settled into the living room with Wooyoung and Yeosang, some of the members went to their rooms, Yunho had taken Mingi for a walk to ā€˜clear his head’ he had told you.
Ā The conversation between the three of you had been animated and thoughtful, your omega still riding the high of having successfully cared for your pack, when Wooyoung's attention had suddenly shifted to something else entirely.
"You know," he said, settling closer to you on the couch with that mischievous glint in his eyes that usually meant trouble, "I've been thinking about that adorable little chirp you made for Jongho earlier."
You felt heat rise to your cheeks immediately. "Wooyoung—"
"It was the cutest sound I've ever heard," he continued, completely ignoring your warning tone. "Like a little bird. A happy little Tulip bird."
Yeosang, who had been quietly reading in his chair, looked up with an expression of mild exasperation. "Wooyoung, leave her alone."
"I'm not bothering her!" Wooyoung protested, though his grin suggested otherwise. "I'm just... appreciating her omega sounds. They're beautiful."
"They're involuntary," you said firmly, trying to sink deeper into the couch cushions. "I can't just make them on command."
"But what if you could?" Wooyoung asked hopefully, leaning forward with obvious excitement. "What if I did something really nice for you, and you got so happy that you just couldn't help but chirp?"
"That's not how it works," Yeosang said dryly, not looking up from his book. "You can't manipulate omega responses like that."
"I'm not manipulating!" Wooyoung said indignantly. "I'm providing excellent alpha services that naturally result in omega satisfaction!"
You couldn't help but laugh at his ridiculous logic. "Alpha services?"
"Yes!" he said triumphantly, apparently taking your laughter as encouragement. "Like... bringing you snacks! Do you want snacks? I could bring you the most amazing snacks, and then maybe you'd be so grateful and happy that you'd chirp for me too."
"You're not a vending machine," Yeosang observed, turning a page with deliberate calm. "And she's not a pet that performs tricks for treats."
"I never said she was a pet!" Wooyoung protested. "I said she was a beautiful omega who makes the most adorable sounds when she's happy, and I want to make her happy so I can hear them again. That's completely different!"
"It's really not," Yeosang replied flatly.
"What if I sang for you?" Wooyoung suggested, apparently undeterred by Yeosang's logic. "I have a very nice voice. Very soothing. Omega-approved."
"Your voice is not omega-approved," Yeosang said with a slight smirk. "I've heard you sing in the shower. It's traumatic."
"Excuse me!" Wooyoung gasped in mock offense. "My shower singing is a masterpiece of vocal artistry!"
"It's a masterpiece of something," Yeosang agreed mildly.
You were laughing openly now at their banter, which only seemed to encourage Wooyoung further.
"See? She's happy!" he pointed out eagerly. "Surely that's worth at least a little chirp? Just a tiny one?"
"Wooyoung," you said, still giggling, "I can't just chirp on demand. It's not something I control."
"But what triggers it?" he asked with genuine curiosity. "Is it specific types of happiness? Gratitude? Alpha approval? I need to understand the mechanics here."
"There are no mechanics," Yeosang said patiently. "It's instinctual. Emotional. You can't engineer it."
"But Jongho got one just for letting her take his plate," Wooyoung argued. "That's such a simple thing! I do nice things for her all the time!"
"Maybe it's because he didn't expect anything in return," you suggested gently. "He just accepted my help naturally."
Wooyoung considered this seriously. "So if I act completely natural and don't expect a chirp, I might get one?"
"That defeats the purpose of acting natural," Yeosang pointed out with exaggerated patience. "You can't consciously try to be unconscious about it."
"This is very complicated," Wooyoung said with a dramatic sigh. "Being an alpha is hard work. All these omega intricacies to navigate."
"You're overthinking it," you said with fond amusement. "Just be yourself, Wooyoung. The sounds happen when they happen."
"But I want them to happen now," he said with endearing honesty. "Your omega sounds make my alpha very happy. It's like... confirmation that you're content and safe and pleased with us."
The sincere admission beneath his playful demeanor made your heart flutter. Before you could respond, though, something shifted in the air around you. Wooyoung was leaning forward, gesticulating enthusiastically as he made a point about alpha-omega dynamics, when suddenly his scent hit you like a physical force.
Bergamot and ginger, bright and spicy and utterly intoxicating, flooded your senses with an intensity that made your head spin. Your blocker was failing again.
Your blocker was failing again.
"I'll be right back," you said abruptly, standing so quickly that both alphas looked at you with concern.
"Tulip? Are you okay?" Wooyoung asked, half-rising from his seat.
"Fine! Just need to—bathroom," you managed, already backing toward the door. "Be right back!"
You practically ran to the guesthouse, your heart hammering as Wooyoung's scent lingered in your system despite the distance. In your bathroom, you fumbled for the scent blocker behind your ear, peeling it off with shaking fingers. The adhesive came away easily—too easily.
Grabbing a fresh blocker from your supply, you paused before applying it, finally taking the time to read the fine print on the packaging that you'd never bothered with before. Your eyes scanned the text until you found what you were looking for:
*Warning: Effectiveness may be compromised when omega approaches heat cycle. Increased pheromone production may overwhelm blocking capabilities. Consult your physician if...*
Heat cycle. You weren't due for another month, but omega cycles could be irregular, especially under stress. Yesterday's traumatic revelation, the awakening of your omega instincts, being surrounded by eight alphas who were openly acknowledging you as pack—it could easily have triggered an early cycle.
The sound of your front door opening made you freeze.
"Y/n?" Hongjoong's voice called from the main room. "I knocked but there was no answer. You ran off so quickly, I wanted to make sure—"
You emerged from the bathroom, fresh blocker in hand, so wrapped up in your internal panic you hadn’t realized you hadn’t applied it. "I'm okay," you started to say, looking up to meet his concerned gaze. "I just needed to—"
But Hongjoong had gone completely still in your doorway, his entire body rigid with tension. His eyes were fixed on you with an intensity that made your breath catch, and as you watched, they began to glow that familiar molten gold.
It was becoming a common occurrence recently, but something about this felt different. More intense. More—
The wave of his scent hit you like a tsunami.
Sandalwood and ocean breeze, but stronger than you'd ever experienced it, pure and unfiltered and so perfectly right that your knees nearly buckled. Without your blocker in place, without any barrier between you and his alpha pheromones, the full force of his scent crashed over you and triggered something primal and immediate in your omega.
Your eyes blazed bright purple in response, matching the gold of his gaze as your body went completely rigid. Dimly, you registered the unused blocker falling from your nerveless fingers to clatter on the floor, but you couldn't move to retrieve it. Couldn't move at all.
Because Hongjoong's scent was wrapping around you like a living thing, calling to something deep in your omega that recognized him on a level beyond conscious thought. And from the way his pupils had blown wide, from the way his breathing had gone ragged, you knew he was experiencing the same overwhelming recognition.
He was smelling your scent for the first time too. Jasmine and vanilla, sweet and warm and utterly omega, filling the small space of the guesthouse until it was all either of you could breathe.
The moment stretched between you, loaded with a recognition that went beyond attraction, beyond the connection you'd all been feeling. This was something deeper, something cellular and undeniable.
"Mate," you whispered, the word falling from your lips without conscious thought.
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The soldier in the armour | part ii
marcus acacius x f!reader
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summary: Acacius left for battle while emperor Geta makes his way back to you in a sinister way. After returning, Acacius realizes he is not enough to protect you and you reunite with someone from your past.
wc: 14k???
warning: angst, fluff, age gap, power imbalance, harassment, anxiety, someone bites another person on here, allusions to smut, mentions of poisoning, mentions of blood, reader has a mental breakdown on this one.
a/n: hello! First of all I want to thank everyone for the amount of love you gave to the first part of this fic that was a request and it was going to be a one piece only. But now it has become a series. This chapter is full of a lot of things so i hope you like it and share your thoughts with me. I spent the whole afternoon finishing this and the weather is almost killing me. šŸ’Œ
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You could feel the change of beating in your heart when marcus acacius looked at you now. The years of yearning and longing for freedom felt like they had met a fate the moment he said three words to you.
The golden cage you had been part of, the years of being of prisoner faded to nothing after he poured all his love for you in that kiss, in the way he touched every single inch of your skin when he made love to you.
You felt the freedom kissing your skin because you had him. You felt a string connecting both hearts beating and that was the way you coped with everything that was taken away from you.
acacius saved you, he completed you and made this world feel less lonely for you.
He felt the same, since how his hand burn over your skin or your heart beated like a beast under his palm.
He had come to learn how to love you, beyond the duty and protection he has swore to work for.
Now you were his heart and your life his purpose.
The hours before he had to leave for battle, the air around the Villa felt heavier. Charged with and unspoken tension of an impeding separation just when he had become addicted to your presence next to him.
Acacius busied himself with preparations, knowing he would give up everything in order to stay back with you. But he knew better. He was aware of how the glories he brought back from battles became the privileges that would keep your life safe.
After Lucilla sent Lucius away, you and her stayed in Rome, becoming prisoners under the ruling madness of Emperor Geta and Caracalla.
Always at bay, always with your life depending of the outcomes of Acacius battles.
And you, bound by blood and beauty, remained, a pawn in a dangerous game where your survival now depended not only on Acacius’ victories but also on Geta's unpredictable affection.
Geta’s obsession with you had become a double-edged sword. His love, if it could be called that, offered a semblance of protection, a shield against Caracalla’s wrath. Yet it was a prison of its own, trapping you within the steel of a cage, where every glance, every word, was laden with passive threats. You lived in constant vigilance, knowing that Geta's favor could turn to fury in an instant, and that fury could mean your end.
Now, Acacius battles weighed heavier over his shoulder. From this moment, with every campaign, he would risk his life, leaving you to endure the suffocating air of the emperor’s court, where you were little more than a gilded possession. He hated it, the helplessness, the waiting, the gnawing fear that one day he might not return, and you would be left to fend off Geta's advances alone.
You watched him from a distance, your fingers gripping the edge of the balcony railing. His broad shoulders bore the weight of his duty, but the occasional glance he cast your way betrayed the turmoil beneath his composed exterior. He was a man bound by honor, but also by a love that had grown more profound with each stolen moment between you.
"Will you look at me?" you whispered, your voice breaking the silence that had grown unbearable for him.
Acacius paused, his hands stilling on the edge of the balcony. Slowly, he turned to face you, and the weight of his gaze, filled with longing, regret, and the love he could never fully express in words, made your breath hitch.
"I fear," he began, his voice rough with emotion, "that if I do, I may never be able to leave."
You stepped closer, slowly, as though you could hold back time itself. "Then don't," you said, your hands reaching for him, your touch soft yet insistent as you placed your palms over his chest, feeling the steady thrum of his heart beneath his clothes.
He let out a shaky breath, his forehead falling to rest against yours. "You deserve more than this life of waiting, of uncertainty. I cannot give you freedom, not truly. All I can give is my promise that I will return."
"Acacius, that’s all I need from you." you said, your voice firm, closing your eyes as you felt his warm enveloping you. ā€œI have a surprise for youā€
Acacius raised his head slightly, his brows knitting together in curiosity. ā€œA surprise?ā€ he asked, his voice soft but tinged with intrigue.
You nodded, a small smile breaking in this moment of madness. ā€œCome with me,ā€ you said, taking his hand in yours. He hesitated for a moment, his sense of duty tugging at him, but the warmth of your touch and the glimmer in your eyes proved irresistible.
You led him through the villa, weaving through the familiar halls now draped in the golden hues of early evening. The air grew warmer as you approached the chamber where the servants had worked quietly under your instruction. Pushing the doors open, you revealed the scene you had prepared.
The bath was set within a sunken marble basin, steaming water rippling gently beneath a scattering of rose petals. The room was lit by the soft glow of dozens of candles, their flickering flames casting dancing shadows on the walls. The scent of lavender and sandalwood lingered in the air, soothing and rich.
Acacius stopped in his tracks, his eyes widening as he took in the sight. ā€œYou did this… for me?ā€
You turned to face him, your smile soft and filled with affection. ā€œYou’re always giving so much of yourself to Rome, to the battles, and now to protect me. Tonight, I want you to let me take care of you.ā€
His eyes softened as they landed on you. "You’ve thought of everything," he murmured, his voice laced with gratitude.
You graced a small smile. "You deserve at least this much."
Acacius began to remove the layers he had worn all day, setting them aside piece by piece until he stood before you in nothing but the bare vulnerability you had come to know by yourself. He stepped into the bath, sighing as the warm water enveloped him, washing away the weight of the day.
You moved to leave, thinking he might prefer solitude, but his voice stopped you.
"Stay," he said softly, his eyes locking onto yours. "I want you close tonight."
Your heart skipped a beat at the quiet plea in his tone. You hesitated only briefly before nodding. Removing your dress, you stepped into the bath, the warmth of the water immediately soothing your tense muscles.
Acacius reached for you, pulling you gently toward him until you were nestled against his chest. His strong arms encircled you, his hand brushing lightly against your damp hair.
"For all the battles I’ve fought," he murmured, his lips brushing your temple, "this one feels different. I can’t bear to leave you behind."
"You’ll come back," you whispered, your voice firm despite the lump in your throat.
He tilted your chin up, his gaze piercing and filled with emotion. "I will move heaven and earth to return to you, my lady." he promised.
You sat in the water together, the silence filled with the unspoken fear and hope that swirled between you. For that moment, there was no war, no emperors, no uncertain future, just the two of you, bound together by a love that defied everything else.
But still, you shifted slightly, resting your head against his chest, listening to the steady rhythm of his heartbeat. The warmth of his body and the soothing water wrapped around you, but the weight of reality pressed against your mind. After a moment, you spoke, your voice soft but filled with worry.
"I don’t like you fighting Geta and Caracalla’s battles," you admitted, your fingers tracing idle patterns on his chest. ā€œThey have done nothing to deserve the place they are at. All his glory comes from blood and murder. They don’t deserve loyalty.ā€
He sighed deeply, his hand stroking your back in slow, comforting motions. "I know," he said, his voice heavy with the same frustration. "I’ve questioned my place in their service more times than I can count. But my duty... it’s the only thing that keeps you safe. As long as I fight their battles, they have no reason to turn their cruelty toward you or Lucilla."
You lifted your head, meeting his gaze. The name of your mother troubled you. You couldn’t even name the feeling, perhaps jealousy. After all, the years Acacius had spent his life on battle were to protect her before you.
"My happiness," he whispered, ā€œIt’s you.ā€ He said as he could read your thoughts
"How was it like?" you asked softly, your voice barely audible above the gentle ripples of the water. "When you served in Maximus's army?"
Acacius shifted slightly, the tension in his body growing palpable. His eyes flickered with something unreadable, and he took a moment before responding. "It was... different," he began cautiously, his hand never ceasing its soothing caress along your back. "Maximus was a man of honor. He fought for the empire, yes, but also for something greater. For justice, for the people."
You noticed the change in his demeanor, the way his jaw tightened and his gaze drifted, as though he were remembering something painful. You knew there was more he wasn’t telling you, a truth hidden beneath his words. "You respected him," you said, more a statement than a question.
"Yes," Acacius admitted, his voice low. "He was a leader unlike any other.ā€
You studied his face, searching for more, for the deeper truth that lay behind his guarded expression. "Did you know him well?" you asked, your heart pounding in anticipation.
Acacius hesitated, his eyes meeting yours with a flicker of hesitation. "I knew him," he said carefully. "He was a great man, but like all great men, he carried his burdens."
There was something in the way he spoke, a weight that suggested he knew more than he was letting on. Your curiosity piqued, but you decided to tread carefully. "My mother never spoke much about him," you said quietly. "Only that he was a noble warrior."
Acacius's hand stilled on your back, and he took a deep breath. "He was loved by people." he said gently.
You nodded, understanding the unspoken words. "I remember him more than I remember my own father," you murmured, your mind drifting to the stories you had heard of Maximus’s valor and strength. ā€œI remember seeing him fighting at the colosseum and I remember how Lucius got obsessed with becoming a gladiatorā€¦ā€
Your eyes drifted somewhere else as if you were trying to find an exact extract of a moment where you would find your brother inside your memories. Acacius’s expression softened, but there was a shadow in his eyes. He knew a truth beyond, something Lucilla had confessed to him only and he had sworn never tell.
Ā "He defeated your uncle," he reminded you, his voice barely above a whisper trying to bring you back from your thoughts.
ā€œI know. I can recall that day.ā€ You said, and after a pause you spoke again. ā€œHe wasn’t different from Geta or Caracalla, but I remember how much he loved Lucius. More than me even.ā€ You looked up at him for a moment, ā€œI’ve never feel truly seen, truly lovedā€¦ā€
Acacius kissed your head, his lips lingering against your damp hair as though trying to imprint the moment into his memory. His arms tightened around you, pulling you closer until there was no space between your bodies.
ā€œYou will always be loved by meā€ he whispered as you closed your eyes at the sensation of his lips on your head. ā€œUntil my last breath.ā€
You tilted your head back slightly to look up at him again, your eyes searching his face. The flickering light of the lamps cast soft shadows across his strong features, but it couldn’t mask the vulnerability in his expression.
"You remind me of Maximusā€ you said, tracing his jawline ā€œYou’re the strongest man I know," you whispered, placing your hand gently on his cheek. "You’ll come back to me, General Acacius. I believe in you."
A faint smile tugged at the corner of his lips, though his eyes remained solemn. "You make me want to survive every impossible fight, just to see your face again."
He leaned down, pressing his forehead against yours, his breath mingling with your own. The bathwater lapped softly around you, the warmth a stark contrast to the cold reality of the coming day.
"Promise me something," he said after a long silence.
"Anything," you replied without hesitation.
"If I fall—"
"No," you interrupted, your voice sharp.
"Listen," he urged, his thumb tracing soothing circles on your arm. "If I fall, I need to know you’ll keep going. You’ll live, for yourself.ā€
He cupped your face in his hands, his touch impossibly gentle. "You’ve always been the braver of us," he said, his voice heavy with emotion. "But I need to know you’ll fight for your happiness, even if I’m not there."
You swallowed hard, nodding despite the ache in your chest. "I’ll try," you promised, though the words felt hollow. You didn’t want to confess he had made your life easier to bare.
He kissed you then, not with urgency or desperation, but with a deep, abiding love that seemed to say everything words could not express. It was devotion in a silent vow; he would return to you.
And as the water cooled and the night deepened, you stayed in his arms, unwilling to let go, even as the weight of tomorrow loomed over you both.
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When the early morning light peeked through the curtains, casting a soft glow on the bed where you still slept. Acacius lay awake, his arms wrapped around you, his chest pressed to your bare back, feeling your skin against his own. He observed the gentle rise and fall of your breathing, committing the peaceful moment to memory. Every fiber of his being ached at the thought of leaving you behind haunted by the demons that threatened to take you away.
Quietly, he shifted, slipping his arm from under you and placing a kiss on your shoulder. You stirred slightly but didn’t wake. With a heavy heart, he got out of bed, moving through the bedroom as he dressed in his armor, getting ready for another senseless battle. The sound of leather straps and the faint clink of metal echoed softly in the room.
Acacius paused at the edge of the bed, glancing back at you one last time. Your face, serene and unguarded in sleep, was a sight he wanted to carry with him into battle. He closed his eyes briefly, murmuring a silent prayer for strength before placing a longing kiss on your temple and stepping out into the hall.
Outside, a handful of guards waited, their expressions tense but respectful. They fell into step behind him as he strode toward the courtyard, the weight of his duty heavy on his shoulders. The morning air was crisp, a sharp contrast to the warmth he had just left behind.
ā€œGeneral!ā€ a guard called suddenly pointing at behind him, stopping him in his tracks.
He turned, his heart clenching at the sight of you running toward him, barefoot, wearing your nightgown you must had put on in hurry. Your hair was loose, tumbling in waves around your face, and your eyes glistened with unshed tears.
ā€œAcacius!ā€ you called out, your voice trembling with urgency.
He met you halfway, his hands reaching out to steady you as you nearly collided with him. ā€œWhat are you doing out here?ā€ he asked, his tone both tender and concerned.
ā€œI couldn’t let you leave without saying goodbye,ā€ you said, your breaths coming in quick gasps from running. ā€œNot like that.ā€
His expression softened, and he pulled you into his arms, ignoring the curious gazes of the guards. You clung to him, your fingers digging into his armor as though you could anchor him to you.
ā€œIt’s too early for you to be outside. You’re freezing,ā€ he murmured, rubbing his hands over your arms to warm you.
ā€œI don’t care,ā€ you replied fiercely, looking up at him. ā€œI couldn’t let you go without telling you that I love you, Acacius. And I’ll be waiting for you to come back to me.ā€
His breath hitched at your words, and for a moment, the stoic general was nowhere to be seen. In his place was a man who adored you with every fiber of his being.
ā€œI love you, too,ā€ he said, his voice raw with emotion. ā€œMore than you’ll ever know.ā€
ā€œYou have made my life worth living again,ā€ you whispered, your voice barely audible, but the weight of your words hung heavy between you.
His breath caught as he stared into your eyes, the raw vulnerability there piercing through every defense he had ever built. The battlefield, the war, the chaos Rome had become, all of it disappeared in that moment. There was only you, grounding him, giving him a purpose beyond the duty that had defined his life.
Acacius covered your hands with his own, the calloused warmth of his touch steadying your shaking fingers. ā€œYou’ve done the same for me,ā€ he replied, his voice thick with emotion. ā€œI was lost until you brought me back to life.ā€
You smiled faintly, though tears streamed down your face. ā€œPromise me you’ll come back. Promise me this won’t be the last time I see you like this.ā€
ā€œI swear it,ā€ he said firmly, leaning down to press his forehead against yours. ā€œBy the gods, I’ll return to you. Nothing will keep me away.ā€
Your lips brushed his in a fleeting kiss, filled with all the love and hope you couldn’t put into more words. When he pulled away, he gently placed your hands back at your sides, as though committing every detail of you to memory.
ā€œI’ll see you soon, my lady.ā€ he said softly, before mounting his horse.
As he rode away, you stood there, the wind tugging at your gown, your heart heavy with emptiness. Watching him disappear into the horizon, you clung to his promise and touch, letting it light a spark of hope in the uncertain of what was coming without him anchor.
A gentle hand touched your shoulder, pulling you from your thoughts. You turned to see one of your loyal servants, her eyes filled with concern as she took in the sight of your tear-streaked face.
"Come with me, my lady," she urged softly, her voice full of care. "You’ll catch a cold out here."
You nodded silently, allowing her to guide you back toward the warmth of the villa. The wind whipped around you, carrying the scent of the olives and the distant sound of Acacius’s departing horse still in your mind. Each step felt heavier than the last, your heart aching with the weight of a farewell.
Once inside, the servant led you to your chambers, where a fire crackled warmly in the hearth. She helped you out of your damp gown, wrapping a thick shawl around your shoulders. "You need to rest, my lady," she said kindly, her hands lingering on yours in a gesture of comfort. "General Acacius will return sooner than you expect.ā€
You offered her a faint smile, though the ache in your chest was still fresh. "Thank you," you whispered, sinking into the plush cushions of the chair by the fire.
The servant bowed her head slightly before retreating, leaving you alone with your thoughts. The flickering flames cast dancing shadows on the walls, their warmth doing little to ease the chill in your heart. You stared into the fire, replaying Acacius’s words in your mind, clinging to his promise as though it were a lifeline.
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A few weeks had passed since Acacius left for battle, the days had stretched into endless hours that seem not to meet the dawn, time felt longer, the nights colder without Acacius filling the space. You found yourself feeling more tired lately, there were new changes happening to you body, some pain, uncomfortable sensation that you blamed on the deep emptiness settling in your heart that nothing seemed to fill.
So, as you sat at the table for breakfast, the familiar clink of silverware was the only sound in the room. Lucilla sat across from you, her regal presence unshaken, but there was a softness in her eyes as she regarded you. The way he looked at you, as a mother who was supposed to love her daughter.
"Acacius will return soon, my child," she said gently, her voice calm and reassuring. "He never—"
Before she could finish, you interrupted, a sharp edge to your tone. "You must know a lot about it," you said, your gaze fixed on your plate. The bitterness in your voice was unmistakable.
Lucilla’s expression shifted, a flicker of pain crossing her face. She set down her cup, her hands folding neatly in her lap. "What do you mean?" she asked softly, her voice tinged with a sorrow that mirrored your own.
You looked up, the walls you had built around your heart beginning to crack. The silence stretched between you, heavy with unspoken words and shared pain. ā€œYou were the one he returned to before.ā€ you said, bitterness inking your tongue.
Lucilla's face softened, her eyes reflecting the guilt he carried, the story between her and Marcus that seemed unfinished. She took a deep breath, her hands trembling slightly as they rested on the table.
ā€œYes,ā€ she admitted, her voice barely above a whisper. ā€œHe was bound to me once, by duty and by the burdens we shared. But that was a different time, a different life.ā€
You felt the sting of her words, the truth you had known but never fully confronted. ā€œDifferent time?ā€ you asked, your voice trembling.
Your question hung in the air, thick with the weight of your emotions. You could feel your heart pounding in your chest as you looked at your mother, waiting for an answer. The air between you was charged with uncertainty, like the quiet before a storm.
Lucilla shook her head, her gaze steady and filled with an intensity that made your heart ache. ā€œYesā€ she said firmly. ā€œYou are his heart now. I see the way he looks at you as if the world begins and ends with you.ā€ She paused for a bit "I never wanted you to be caught in the politics of this empire, my dear," she said, her voice soft but laden with guilt. "I never wanted you to be a pawn in a game of power between two men. But I feared what would happen if I didn't do something."
You looked at your mother, the weight of your question pressing on you. The air between you was thick with the tension of everything unspoken, of truths that had been hidden for so long. Your voice trembled slightly as you asked, "Would you have married Acacius if the emperor hadn’t courted me first? Would you have still arranged for him to marry me, or would you have chosen a different path for us?"
Her gaze fell for a brief moment before she raised it to meet yours again. "Had it not been for Emperor Geta, I would have never allowed Acacius to marry you.ā€
A bitter smile tugged at your lips as you absorbed her words. "But you didn't expect he would end up loving me instead of you," you said, your voice laced with a mix of hurt and defiance.
Lucilla’s eyes flickered with a flash of emotion-wether it was regret or something deeper, you couldn’t quite tell. She hesitated for a moment before speaking, her tone measured but filled with a quiet resignation. "No, I didn’t expect that. I thought his loyalty would always lie with me. I never imagined he would find in you what he once saw in me."
You swallowed hard, the weight of her confession settling heavily in your chest. "And yet, you still pushed us together, knowing it would tether me to a life I never wanted."
"I believed I was protecting you," she murmured, her voice barely above a whisper. "From the dangers of court, from the whims of powerful men. I thought if you were with someone like Acacius, someone strong and honorable, you would be safe."
"Safe?" you echoed, incredulity seeping into your tone. "You call this safety? Acacius leaving to fight battles to kept your place in this empire and protect me?ā€ You took a deep breath, anger raising within you. "And what about Acacius? Did you ever consider how he felt in all of this?ā€
Her eyes glistened with unshed tears as she met your gaze once more. "I didn’t think he could love anyone else," she said, her voice breaking. "I thought his heart was mine alone, even if our paths diverged. I never anticipated that he would find solace, comfort, love... in you."
The room seemed to close in around you, the weight of her words pressing down. "Well, he did," you said, your voice steady but filled with a quiet strength. "And now we’re both paying the price for your miscalculations."
Lucilla reached out, her hand hovering in the air between you. "I never wanted to hurt you," she whispered. "I only wanted what was best for you."
The silence stretched once more, but this time, it was not filled with bitterness. It was laden with understanding, a shared pain that neither of you could escape.
ā€œI only want him to come back,ā€ you whispered, finally allowing the tears to fall. ā€œI want him to be safe.ā€
Lucilla reached out, her hand covering yours in a gesture of comfort. ā€œHe will,ā€ she promised, her voice soft but resolute. ā€œAcacius will return, because his heart belongs to you now, and nothing will keep him away.ā€
You couldn’t bear the thought of a life without him. Ever since Acacius had shown you kindness, the warmth his love could offer, he had filled the hollow spaces in your heart. You had become addicted to him, to the gentle way he would brush a stray hair from your face, to the force of his arms around your waist when the weight of the world threatened to crush you.
Before Acacius, your life had been a series of obligations and sacrifices, each day blending into the next in a monotonous cycle of duty you didn’t choose. But then he appeared, his unwavering loyalty and quiet strength breaking through the walls you had built around yourself. He had finally seen you as a woman with dreams, fears, and a desperate need for freedom.
You and Lucilla remained in a heavy silence, the weight of your shared worries filling the space of the room. The warmth of her hand on yours felt protective as never before.
A servant entered the room, bowing respectfully before addressing Lucilla. "My lady, Emperor Geta has requested your presence."
Lucilla shook her head, her voice firm yet calm. "Later," she said, unwilling to let the fragile moment between you both be shattered.
The servant hesitated, shifting uncomfortably before speaking again. "No, not you, my lady. Her." His gaze flicked toward you, and the room seemed to grow colder.
Lucilla’s hand tightened on yours, her expression hardening as she closed her eyes briefly, understanding the implications of Geta’s request. She knew this moment would come, had dreaded it ever since Acacius left for battle. Geta’s twisted fascination with you was no secret to her to you, neither to Acacius. That was the reason of your marriage after all, him providing protection from him. Ā She feared what it meant now that Acacius was no longer there to shield you.
"Stay calm," she whispered, her eyes opening to meet yours with a shining light. "I will do everything in my power to protect you. Remember, you are stronger than you think."
Her words were meant to reassure, but the unease in her voice betrayed her true fear. You swallowed hard, trying to gather your courage as you stood. The servant’s eyes avoided yours, his discomfort evident as he waited to escort you.
With one last squeeze of your mother’s hand, you followed the servant, each step feeling heavier than the last. The shadow of Geta loomed over you, his intentions clear and menacing. But even as dread settled in your chest, you clung to Lucilla’s words and the hope that Acacius would return, his promise lighting a fragile spark in the darkness.
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The quiet of the palace gardens was only broken by the soft rustling of leaves and the distant murmurs of servants. Emperor Geta was sitting on the stone bench, perhaps trying to gather his thoughts, when he noticed your presence. He turned around to face you, his golden robe gleamed faintly under the pale light of the sun, and there was an intensity in his eyes that unsettled you.
ā€œYou’ve been avoiding me,ā€ he accused you, his voice carried yearning and longing. ā€œI understand why, but I needed to see you. To speak to you.ā€
You stayed silent, your gaze fixed on the ground. His presence was overwhelming, and the weight of everything he had done, and might still do, pressed heavily on you. Yet you knew there was no escaping this conversation.
Geta crouched before you, his piercing gaze softening as he studied your face. ā€œYou’ve always been kind, even when you had no reason to be. Even when I didn’t deserve it. That’s why I love you,ā€ he admitted, his voice dropping to a whisper. ā€œNot because you are the princess of Rome, not because of your beauty or grace, but because you have a heart unlike anyone I’ve ever known.ā€
You flinched slightly at his words, unsure how to respond. ā€œEmperor Geta,ā€ you began hesitantly, ā€œI’m your prisoner and my heart belongs-ā€œ
ā€œTo General Acacius,ā€ he interrupted, bitterness creeping into his tone. ā€œYes, I know. But does he truly deserve it? Does he love you as I do? Does he see you for who you are?ā€ He reached out, his hand trembling slightly, and cupped your face. His touch was surprisingly gentle, but it sent a shiver down your spine.
ā€œI would give you everything,ā€ he murmured, his thumb brushing against your cheek. ā€œThe empire, my loyalty, my life… I would burn the empire for you.ā€
You felt a lump in your throat as his words echoed in the morning. His words were both a confession and a threat, a reminder of the power he wielded and the danger that came with it. Before you could move away, he leaned closer, his forehead briefly resting against yours as if seeking solace.
Then, without warning, his arms wrapped around you in an embrace. It wasn’t harsh or demanding, it was almost tender coming from him. But the closeness made your heart race with fear. His lips hovered near your ear as he spoke again, his voice low and possessive. ā€œYou were made for me. There is not marriage, no power that can change that.ā€
Before you could respond, you felt the sharp sting of his teeth against your shoulder. It was a claim. His eyes locked onto yours, dark and wild, and you could see the faint trace of blood on his lips.
ā€œThat mark,ā€ he said, his voice steadier now, ā€œwill remind you that you are mine, no matter what. Even if you deny it, even if you run to Acacius, you will carry me with you.ā€
You stared at him, horrified and furious, your hand instinctively going to your shoulder. The pain was sharp, and you knew the wound would scar, a permanent reminder of his obsession.
ā€œYou’re mad,ā€ you whispered, your voice trembling with fear ā€œThis isn’t love, Geta. This is control. And I will never belong to you.ā€
His expression flickered, as though your words had struck a nerve. But the defiance in your voice didn’t deter him. Instead, he straightened, his composure returning. ā€œYou may hate me now, but time will change that. You’ll see,ā€ he said softly, almost as if convincing himself. ā€œOne day, you’ll understand.ā€
Without another word, he turned and disappeared into the shadows, leaving you alone under the light of the sun, that now seemed to disappear. Ā Your hand remained pressed against your shoulder, the wound throbbing painfully against your fingertips.
Your gown clung to your shoulder, damp with the blood running from the bite Geta had inflicted. The metallic smell lingered in the air, and the dull throb of the wound made your steps falter as you returned to the villa. You wrapped a shawl tightly around yourself, hoping to conceal the evidence of what had transpired.
The flickering lamplight in the villa's corridors cast long shadows as you entered quietly, your heart pounding in your chest. You prayed no one would notice your state. But as you made your way toward your chambers, a familiar voice stopped you in your tracks.
ā€œDaughter?ā€ Lucilla’s voice was soft but carried a tone of concern. She had emerged from her own chambers, her sharp eyes immediately taking in your pale face, the stiffness of your movements, and the crimson stain slowly seeping through your shawl.
ā€œWhat’s wrong?ā€ she asked, stepping closer, her voice dropping to a whisper. ā€œYou’re distressed. What happened?ā€
You shook your head, attempting to brush past her. ā€œIt’s nothing. I’m tired. I need to rest.ā€
But Lucilla was relentless. She reached out and gently pulled at the shawl covering your shoulder. ā€œLet me see,ā€ she insisted, her voice tinged with a maternal sternness that left no room for argument.
You hesitated, swallowing hard, but the look in her eyes left you no choice. Slowly, you loosened the shawl, revealing the blood-soaked fabric of your gown and the angry bite mark on your shoulder.
Lucilla gasped, her hand flying to her mouth. ā€œWhat in the gods’ name happened to you?ā€
Tears welled in your eyes as you struggled to find the words. ā€œIt was Geta,ā€ you whispered hoarsely. Regretting the words you had throwing at her earlier, ā€œHe... he bit me. He said I was his. That I would never truly belong to anyone else.ā€
Lucilla’s face hardened, horror contorting her features. ā€œThat monster,ā€ she hissed, her voice trembling with anger. ā€œHe’s lost his mind. He has no right to lay a hand on you- no right at all!ā€
She took your hand, guiding you firmly toward your chambers. ā€œWe need to clean this wound before it festers,ā€ she said, her voice now brisk and focused.
You followed her silently, the weight of the revelation pressing heavily on your shoulders. The pain from the bite throbbed with each step, but it was nothing compared to the turmoil swirling inside you. Lucilla’s grip on your hand was firm, a silent promise of protection despite everything that had transpired between you.
Once inside your chambers, she set about gathering water and cloths, her movements efficient and practiced. She didn’t speak, but the tension in the air was palpable, her anger simmering just beneath the surface. You sat down, your hands trembling as you tried to steady yourself.
Lucilla knelt beside you, gently peeling back the fabric of your gown to get a better look at the wound. Her expression darkened at the sight of the raw, inflamed skin. "This will sting," she murmured, dipping a cloth into the water and pressing it against the bite.
You winced, biting back a cry as the cool water met the tender flesh. "He said I could never escape him," you whispered, your voice barely audible over the sound of the water. "That no matter what, I would always be his."
Lucilla’s hand paused for a moment before resuming her careful cleaning. "You are not his," she said firmly, her voice leaving no room for doubt. "You are your own person. No one has the right to claim you, especially not in such a barbaric way."
You observed her, focused on mending your wound with such caring.
ā€œWas it worth it?ā€ you asked.
Lucilla’s hands stilled, her eyes momentarily closing as if the weight of your question struck her deeply. When she opened them again, her gaze was heavy with emotion.
She set the cloth aside and sat back on her heels, her hands resting in her lap. "I don’t know," she admitted, her voice barely above a whisper. "I thought I was doing what was best, what would keep you safe. I believed that Acacius could protect you in ways I could not. He brings the glory they lack of and-"
Her eyes met yours, the pain in them reflecting your own. "But I never anticipated this. I never thought Geta would..." She trailed off, her voice faltering as she fought to find the words. "I wanted to shield you from the dangers of this world, from the cruel games of men like him. I thought I was giving you a chance at something better, even if it meant sacrificing my own happiness."
You swallowed hard, the weight of her words pressing heavily on your heart. "But it didn’t stop him," you whispered, the bitterness and sorrow mixing in your voice. "Even with Acacius by my side, he still came after me."
Lucilla’s expression crumpled, her composure breaking as tears filled her eyes. "I failed you," she admitted, her voice cracking with the weight of her guilt. ā€œI should have sent you and Lucius away.ā€
Her words hung in the air, a heavy confession that seemed to echo through the silence of the room. You felt a pang of sadness at the mention of your brother, the thought of him bringing back memories of simpler, happier times.
"You wanted to protect us," you said softly, your voice trembling as you tried to console her. "You did what you thought was best."
Lucilla shook her head, her tears falling freely now. "I thought keeping you close would be safer, that I could shield you from the worst of it. But I underestimated him, underestimated the depths of his cruelty." She paused, taking a shaky breath. "Sending you away might have spared you from this... this nightmare."
You reached out, placing a hand over hers. "We can’t change the past," you said, your voice steadier now.
As you held her hand, a sudden wave of dizziness washed over you, making the room spin. You blinked, trying to steady yourself, but the sensation only intensified. Your grip on Lucilla’s hand tightened involuntarily.
Lucilla’s eyes widened in concern as she noticed your pallor. "Are you alright?" she asked, her voice laced with worry. "You’re pale."
You nodded weakly, though the dizziness persisted. "It’s nothing," you murmured, attempting to downplay it. "It’s been happening lately... just moments of dizziness. They pass."
Her brows furrowed with worry, and she guided you to sit down, her hands firm on your shoulders. "You’ve been pushing yourself too hard," she said, her tone gentle but insistent. "Rest now. I’ll send for the healer."
You wanted to protest, to assure her that you were fine, but the fatigue and the weight of everything that had happened made it hard to argue. With a reluctant nod, you allowed her to help you lie down, her concern evident in every movement.
"Promise me you’ll tell me if it gets worse," she said softly, brushing a strand of hair from your face. "We can’t afford to ignore this."
"I will," you whispered, the heaviness of your eyelids pulling you into a restless sleep, Lucilla’s soothing presence the last thing you felt as you drifted off.
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The moon casted a pale glow across the courtyard as Acacius rode back into the Villa. His horse’s hooves echoed softly against the stone pathway, a familiar sound that had once brought comfort. Now, with the weight of the world pressing down on him, it only seemed to remind him of the uncertainty and chaos that had taken hold of everyone he cared about.
As he dismounted, he glanced toward the fountain where Lucilla was tending to the delicate flowers growing around its edge. The peacefulness of the moment, in stark contrast to the storm brewing inside him, caught him off guard. His breath caught in his throat when Lucilla looked up, a soft smile appearing on her lips despite the weariness in her eyes.
"Acacius," she said warmly, her voice filled with relief as she walked toward him. Before he could say anything, she closed the distance between them and enveloped him in a tight hug. His arms instinctively wrapped around her, the familiar embrace both comforting and bittersweet.
"I’ve missed you," Lucilla murmured against his chest. "We’ve all been worried."
Acacius hesitated for a moment, then slowly returned the hug, the feeling of her presence grounding him in a way he hadn’t realized he needed. The tension in his shoulders seemed to lessen, but only slightly. He pulled back, searching her face for answers, as if he could find some peace in her expression.
"Where is she?" he asked, his voice low and urgent. His eyes flicked to the passages of the place, his heart racing at the thought of seeing you again.
Lucilla sighed softly, her expression softening with concern. "She’s asleep," she said gently. "She’s been resting a lot today."
ā€œI need to see her.ā€ Acacius said.
Lucilla placed a hand on his arm, stopping him from moving toward the door. "She’s asleep, Acacius. She needs rest more than anything right now," she said, her tone firm but caring. "Let her sleep, please. You’ve been gone too long. You need to eat something first. You’re no good to her if you’re running on empty."
Acacius clenched his jaw, his gaze flickering toward your chambers once again. "It doesn’t matter," he said, determination in his voice. "I’ll see her now."
Lucilla’s hand tightened on his arm; her voice soft but insistent. "Please, Acacius. For her sake, you need to rest too. She’ll be fine. I’ll wake her once she’s had some rest."
He looked at her, torn between the urge to be with you and the concern for your well-being that Lucilla had so clearly expressed. The room was heavy with unspoken words, the tension between what he wanted and what was best for you both almost too much to bear.
ā€œNo. I have to see her first.ā€ He said, walking towards where you were.
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The door creaked softly as Acacius entered your chamber, his heart pounding in his chest as the longing and concern filled his. The room was dimly lit by the fading light of the moon, casting soft shadows across the bed where you lay, still deep in sleep.
He moved quietly toward you, his steps light, careful not to wake you. His gaze softened as he looked at you, taking in the way your body relaxed under the weight of exhaustion, your face serene in a peaceful slumber. The sight of you brought a bittersweet smile to his lips, and without thinking, he sat down beside you on the bed.
His hand hovered for a moment before gently caressing your face, the touch tender and filled with affection. His fingers traced the delicate curve of your cheek, as if he could somehow erase the pain and hardship, you’d endured His thumb brushed over your skin, a silent apology for everything that had happened, for everything he hadn't been able to prevent.
He observed you. He watched over you memorizing every inch of a face he had missed you for weeks.
He lived for you, breathe for you.
At the touch, you stirred, your eyelids fluttering open slowly, the fog of sleep still clouding your mind. For a moment, your gaze was unfocused, as though you weren’t fully aware of where you were or who was beside you. Your eyes met his, but there was a distant look in them, as if your mind was still caught somewhere between the dream world and reality.
Acacius held his breath, his heart aching as he watched you struggle to fully wake. "It’s me," he whispered softly, his voice barely above a breath. "I’m here."
But before he could say more, your eyes fluttered closed again, and you drifted back into a deeper sleep, your breathing slow and steady.
A soft chuckle escaped him. He leaned closer, brushing a stray lock of hair from your face as he whispered to you, his words meant only for your ears.
"Rest, my love," he murmured, his voice full of emotion. "I’m back.ā€
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The soft light of morning filtered through the curtains, casting a warm glow across the room. The air felt fresh, the quiet stillness of dawn wrapping itself around you like a gentle embrace. You slowly stirred, the remnants of a dream still lingering at the edges of your mind. For a moment, everything felt hazy, like the lines between the real and the imagined were blurred.
As your eyes fluttered open, you felt the comforting weight of warmth beside you, and a soft breath against your skin. For a heartbeat, you thought it was just another dream. Your mind was still foggy, the night’s turmoil and the strange sense of peace from the past few hours making it difficult to separate reality from the dreamworld.
But then, as your gaze shifted, you saw him.
Acacius was there, lying beside you, his presence so real, so tangible that it almost hurt. His features were softer in the morning light, his expression calm and peaceful as he slept. His hair fell in gentle waves around his face, and the steady rise and fall of his chest was a reminder that he was truly here.
You blinked, unsure whether this moment was part of your dream or if you had truly woken up to find him next to you. The feeling in your chest, the warmth, the weight of his presence, it was so vivid that it seemed too perfect to be real.
You slowly shifted, sitting up slightly, careful not to disturb him. Your hand reached out tentatively, brushing a strand of hair from his face. The touch was soft, hesitant, as if you were afraid, he might vanish like a dream upon waking.
But he didn’t. His warmth was solid, his breath steady, and as your fingers lingered near his skin, you realized with a rush of relief that he was truly there. You felt the tightness in your chest ease, the anxiety that had plagued you for so long slowly dissipating in the comfort of his presence.
Acacius shifted slightly, his eyes opening slowly, and when they met yours, they were filled with warmth, tenderness, and something more, something deeper.
"You’re awake," he whispered, his voice still thick with sleep but filled with a soft affection that made your heart flutter.
You nodded, still taking in the reality of the moment, still unsure whether you were dreaming or not. "I... I thought you were just part of a dream," you admitted, your voice barely more than a breath.
ā€œI came to see you last night, but you didn’t truly see meā€ he smiled softly at you.
Your smile widened; he mirrored your smile. It made your heart swell. You were overwhelmed by the certainty that he was real, that he was here, and that this was not just another fleeting dream.
Without thinking, you leaned closer, your hands trembling slightly as you cupped his face, pulling him toward you. The space between you shrank with every heartbeat, and before either of you could say another word, your lips met his.
The kiss was soft at first, a gentle testing of the waters, but the emotions swirling inside you, the love, the longing, the relief, soon poured into it. It deepened, quickening, both of you unable to hold back the fervor that had been building for so long. Your hands slid into his hair, tugging him closer as if you couldn’t bear the distance between you.
Acacius responded immediately, his arms wrapping around you, pulling you to him with the same urgency. His kiss was filled with the same passion, his hands tracing the lines of your back, pulling you into the warmth of his embrace as if you were the one thing that anchored him in this world.
You broke the kiss slowly, your forehead resting against his neck as you both breathed heavily, your heart racing. You lifted your head, looking at him into his eyes, searching for the same love dancing on them.
"I’ve missed you," you whispered, your voice shaky with the intensity of your feeling. ā€œI’m glad you are back.ā€
Acacius's eyes softened as he gazed at you, the smile still lingering on his lips, but there was a quiet intensity now as he studied you more closely. "Last night, you didn't even see me," he chuckled, his voice low and full of affection. "Why are you so tired?" His gaze lingered on your face, searching for an explanation, a hint of concern creeping into his words.
But before you could answer, his eyes drifted to your shoulder, and the lighthearted smile faded instantly. His hand reached out gently, brushing aside the fabric of your gown to reveal the angry bite mark on your skin. His breath caught, his face contorting with anger as he traced the wound with his fingertips, his touch almost sacred.
"What... what is this?" His voice was a whisper, edged with disbelief and a growing fury. "Who did this to you?"
You winced slightly at the touch, but it wasn’t from pain, but from the overwhelming flood of emotions that rushed through you at his reaction. You were ashamed.
Ā "It’s... from Geta," you said softly, your voice trembling as the memory of that night flooded back. "He... he bit me.ā€
Acacius’s eyes darkened, his jaw tightening as he clenched his fists. He pulled his hand away from your shoulder, his gaze never leaving the wound as if he couldn’t believe what he was seeing. "Geta..." he growled, his voice low and filled with contempt. "That animal."
You swallowed, feeling a lump form in your throat as the weight of the situation settled on you. "It’s nothing," you tried to reassure him, but the words felt hollow. "It’s just a bite. I’ll be fine."
But Acacius wouldn’t be soothed so easily. He leaned closer, his hands gently cupping your face, forcing you to meet his gaze. "It’s not just a bite," he said firmly, his voice steady but full of determination. "You’re not just a victim of his games, and I won’t let you be."
His thumb traced the line of your cheek, his expression softening with an intensity that took your breath away. "I will make sure this never happens again," he promised, his voice low and filled with an unspoken vow.
Acacius's words hung in the air, carrying a promise as his hands gently cupped your face, his thumbs brushing softly over your skin. Without a word, he leaned in, pressing his lips to your forehead, a tender kiss that seemed to erase some of the heaviness in your heart. His lips lingered there for a moment, as if grounding you in the warmth of his protection, before he moved to kiss your temple, his touch both gentle and filled with an overwhelming tenderness.
Each kiss was a quiet declaration of his love, his need to soothe the pain and the fear that had taken root in your heart. His lips trailed down your cheek, the soft pressure of each kiss igniting a calmness in you, a sense of safety that had been lacking during his absence. As he kissed your nose, your eyelids, your cheeks, his touch was soft and reverent, like he was willing to erase every trace of hurt you had face.
"You don’t have to carry this alone," he whispered against your skin, his breath warm as it fanned across your face. "I’ll be here. Always."
Your heart beat wildly in your chest, the overwhelming emotions of relief and love flooding through you as you closed your eyes, letting him soothe your pain. You weren’t his to fix but you were his to love.
The way he kissed you with such care, it was as if he was healing not just the physical wound, but the deeper, hidden scars.
As he kissed your lips, a soft, lingering touch, you finally opened your eyes to meet his once more. His gaze was full of such raw emotion, as though he, too, was feeling the depth of the moment.
"I love you," he whispered softly, his voice thick with emotion. "I’ll do anything to keep you safe, to keep you whole."
He knew the plan he had under his hands. He would free Rome from the tyranny and free you from the fear.
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The roar of the crowd was deafening as the announcer introduced the key figures present at the Colosseum. The names of the emperors, Geta and Caracalla, echoed through the massive arena, met with cheers and restrained applause. Then came Lucilla's name, and the reaction was thunderous.
"Lucilla, the beloved daughter of Rome!"
The cheers were wild, a wave of adoration sweeping through the crowd. People stood, clapping and calling her name, their admiration evident in every gesture. You watched as Lucilla stood gracefully, acknowledging the crowd with a serene smile, her presence commanding the space in a way that only she could.
Your eyes flicked to Acacius, who was seated beside you. His gaze lingered on Lucilla, a soft, unreadable expression on his face. Admiration, respect... perhaps something more?
Your thoughts were threatening to betray you again, after the accident with emperor geta not even Acacius’ reassurance could take you away from that dark place of your mind. Ā 
The thought clawed at you, your chest tightening painfully. You tried to look away, but the image was seared into your mind: the way his lips curved into the faintest of smiles, the way his eyes seemed to curse you.
Acacius was holding your hand, tightly but your skin felt empty. A cold wave of detachment washed over you. The cheers around you became distant, muffled, as though you were underwater. Your heart felt heavy, your thoughts spiraling into the possibility that you had been wrong all along.
Had he chosen you, or had he simply settled for you?
You were lost in the haze, barely registering the sound of the announcer continuing the introductions. It wasn't until you heard your name being called that the fog lifted.
"And now, the princess of Rome, our General Acacius' beloved wife!"
The crowd clapped politely, but it was nothing compared to the ovation Lucilla had received. You blinked rapidly, startled back into the present. Acacius had turned to you, his hand still touching yours.
"Are you all, right?" he asked, his voice low enough that only you could hear. His brows knitted with concern as he studied your face.
You forced a smile, though it felt brittle. "I'm fine," you replied, the lie slipping easily from your lips.
Acacius' gaze lingered, his frown deepening slightly, but he said nothing more. He turned his attention back to the arena, his grip on your hand tightening slightly as though to reassure you.
But the seed of doubt had been planted, and no matter how tightly he held onto you, you couldn’t shake the feeling that he might not truly be yours.
You weren’t naive, nor blind to the reality of the world you had grown up in. The web of alliances and betrayals, the quiet manipulations cloaked in love and duty, those were woven into the very fabric of your existence.
And now, here you were, seated beside Acacius in the Colosseum, as the echoes of Lucilla's name still hung in the air. You couldn’t stop the twisting knot in your stomach. The way Acacius had looked at her earlier, the subtle warmth in his eyes, wasn’t something you could ignore.
You weren’t stupid. You had always known there was a past between your mother and Acacius, a bond that ran deeper than either of them cared to admit aloud. They might have buried it under the guise of duty, but you saw the shadows of it, lingering in their words, in their looks.
This wasn’t just about the admiration Acacius showed Lucilla in the public eye or the respect the people of Rome gave her. It was about how every move seemed calculated, as though Lucilla had once again positioned herself as the center of the narrative. And you? You were a mere piece on the board, trapped by the choices made to ā€œprotectā€ you, thrown into a marriage that sometimes felt like a gilded cage.
Your mind raced. Were you just another pawn in a game of power, destined to be discarded when your use was up? A part of you feared that Lucilla had orchestrated this entire situation, not to protect you, but to ensure Acacius stayed close, tethered to her orbit under the guise of protecting her daughter.
How Geta looked at you as if he owned you.
The thought sent a shiver down your spine.
"You’re unusually quiet today," Acacius said beside you, his voice calm but tinged with curiosity.
ā€œI’m just… thinking,ā€ you murmured, brushing a strand of hair behind your ear, avoiding his intense gaze for a moment.
Acacius shifted closer, his presence radiating the strength you so desperately needed right now. ā€œThinking about what?ā€ His tone was soft, but there was a sharpness in it, the concern for you evident beneath the calm surface.
You hesitated, biting your lip as the image of Geta’s cold eyes lingered in your mind and sitting just centimeters from you. "How he looks at me," you admitted, your voice barely above a whisper. "Like he owns me. Like I’m a possession."
Acacius’s expression darkened instantly, his jaw tightening as if he were struggling to keep his emotions in check. "He will never own you," he whispered for yourself to hear, his hand gently grasping yours. ā€œYou belong to no one but yourself.ā€
Before you could respond, the distant sounds of the gladiators preparing for the fight reached your ears, shouting commands. The world outside seemed to snap back into focus, the heavy air now filled with tension as Acacius’s duty called to him.
His hand lingered on yours, but there was a palpable shift in the air between you. The intensity of the moment, the weight of his words, and the fear of what might come next made everything feel suddenly fragile. For a heartbeat, you wished you could stay suspended in this moment, untouched by the chaos that was about to unfold.
Your attention also shifted to the arena, where the clash of steel and the roar of the crowd filled the air. A single gladiator stood out among the combatants, his movements precise, calculated, almost effortless. Something about him felt oddly familiar, tugging at the edges of your memory.
He moved with a grace you’d only seen in a few, his strikes landing with deadly accuracy, his stance reminiscent of a soldier rather than a slave. The sun caught the sharp lines of his face for a moment, and for a moment, your breath hitched.
It couldn’t be.
The gladiator turned slightly, and you swore you could see the faint scar across his cheek, the same scar you remembered tracing with your finger once, years ago. Just as he used to do it with yours, the one you had just above your eyebrow.
It can’t be Lucius.
Your heart raced as you sat frozen, unable to look away. What was he doing here? Why was he in the arena, fighting for his life as if he were no more than a pawn for entertainment?
"Are you all, right?" Acacius asked, leaning closer to you, his tone concerned.
You barely heard him, your focus entirely on the gladiator. The crowd erupted in cheers as he disarmed his opponent, standing victorious in the center of the arena. His chest rose and fell heavily, but his gaze lifted, scanning the crowd as if searching for someone.
When his eyes met yours, the recognition wasn’t there, but you feel in your heart.
He didn’t smile, didn’t falter, but you could see the fire in his eyes, the defiance, the unspoken words that passed between you in that fleeting moment. He was here for a reason and it wasn’t just surviving.
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The ride back to the villa was suffocating. The echoes of the crowd’s cheers and the clash of steel still lingered in your ears, but your thoughts were consumed by Lucius. You had barely spoken a word since leaving the Colosseum, and Acacius, sensing your unease, remained silent beside you.
Your mother, seated across from you, attempted to meet your gaze, but you kept your eyes focused on the window. The weight of the day pressed down on you, and exhaustion threatened to pull you under.
When you finally arrived at the villa, you stepped out of the carriage without a word. The evening air was cool, but it did little to soothe the fire burning in your chest. You didn’t wait for anyone, heading straight to your chambers, your footsteps echoing through the empty halls.
Acacius called your name softly as you walked away, but you didn’t stop. You couldn’t face him. Not now.
Once inside your room, you shut the door and leaned against it, the tension in your body finally breaking as you slid to the floor. You felt tears prick your eyes, but you refused to let them fall. Not yet.
Instead, you crawled to the bed, too drained to even remove your sandals. You climbed under the covers, pulling them tightly around you as if they could shield you from the storm inside your head.
Your eyelids grew heavy, and though the weight of the day lingered in your chest, sleep began to claim you. The last thing you heard was the faint creak of the door opening and quiet footsteps entering the room.
Acacius.
He didn’t say anything, and you didn’t have the strength to look at him. You felt the bed dip slightly as he sat beside you. A warm hand rested lightly on your shoulder, and his thumb brushed against the fabric of your sleeve.
ā€œI’m here,ā€ he whispered, his voice low, filled with a quiet worry.
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The night was quiet as you walked through the villa, your footsteps muffled on the stone floors. The house felt empty despite the people inside, the silence pressing in on you. When you stepped into the garden, the cool breeze brushed against your skin, but it did little to calm the restless thoughts swirling in your mind.
It was there, among the shadows of the tall, ancient trees, that you saw them. Acacius and your mother, Lucilla, standing close together, speaking in hushed tones. Their words were soft, but you could feel the weight of the conversation, the tension between them thick enough to be felt even from where you stood. Acacius’s hand hovered just above Lucilla’s arm, his posture protective, and though their expressions were unreadable, there was something in the way they stood together that felt... familiar. Too familiar.
A sharp pang of jealousy gnawed at your chest, but you didn’t dare move closer. Instead, you turned silently on your heel and walked back to your chambers.
You couldn’t bear to stay in that room any longer, not with the questions swirling in your mind, not when you felt so abandoned in the very space that should’ve been your refuge. Without a second thought, you grabbed a cloak and threw it over your shoulders, the fabric billowing softly as you exited the villa once more.
The air outside the villa was cool and quiet as you slipped through the shadows, your heart pounding with each step. The guards were focused elsewhere, their attention scattered by the faint buzz of the city. The path to the gladiator quarters was one you had never taken before, but your determination pushed you forward.
When you reached the holding area, the scent of sweat and iron filled the air. Lanterns flickered dimly, casting long shadows on the walls. The clinking of chains and low murmurs from the gladiators made your stomach churn, but you pressed on.
Hanno, you were told his name was.
But in your heart, he was Lucius.
You spotted him immediately. His broad back was turned to you, his head bowed as he held something in his hands. The sight of him like this inside this cell, broke your heart.
Taking all your courage, you stepped forward. ā€œHanno.ā€
He didn’t look up. ā€œWhat now? You people love seeing prisoners like this, don’t you?ā€ His voice was sharp, cutting through the air like a blade.
You flinched but held your ground. ā€œI’m not here to gawk. I’m here to talk.ā€
He finally turned; his sharp features illuminated by the lantern’s glow. His eyes locked onto yours, cold and untrusting at first.
He stood in front of a prisoner dressed in gold, not knowing the story interlocked between you both.
You said nothing, frozen under his piercing stare.
Hanno stood slowly, his presence sent shivers down your spine, you didn’t fear him but the possibility of him being your beloved brother.
Hanno’s eyes narrowed as he looked you up and down, his stance growing more rigid. The silence between you felt thick, charged with an intensity that made your chest tighten.
ā€œWhat are you doing here?ā€ His voice was low and clipped, filled with suspicion. ā€œAre you the general’s wife?ā€ His words were sharper than the chill in the night air, and they stung like a slap.
You held your ground, refusing to be intimidated, though your pulse quickened at the mention of Acacius. The tension between you and Hanno was palpable, and yet you could sense something else, something more.
ā€œI’m not here for himā€ you said, your voice steady but quieter than you intended. ā€œI’m here to see the gladiators. To make sure they’re well.ā€
Hanno scoffed, his lips curling into a bitter smile. ā€œYou think they deserve your pity? These men? You’re nothing more than a part of this twisted game, just like the rest of them.ā€ His words hit like a blow, but you didn’t flinch, though they stung nonetheless.
He stepped closer, his eyes flicking to the guards who watched from the shadows, before turning back to you with disdain.
ā€œYou wear their pain like a cloak, but you’re not one of them,ā€ he spat. ā€œYou’re just another piece of property, owned by the man you married. Don’t pretend you’re anything else. You can’t fool me. You-ā€
He stopped abruptly, his eyes catching on something above your eyebrow. His gaze sharpened, his face shifting from scorn to recognition. His expression faltered slightly, and he took a step closer, his attention now focused entirely on the scar.
ā€œThat scarā€¦ā€ he whispered, his voice faltering. ā€œNo. It can’t be...ā€
You said nothing, frozen under his voice.
The world seemed to slow as your heart raced. You had never told anyone about it, not in years. It was a relic of another time, another life before this one, before the crown, before Acacius.
Hanno’s eyes widened, his hand rising instinctively toward your face, as if drawn by some invisible thread.
ā€œYour name is Lucius Velarius,ā€ Tears welled in your eyes as you spoke ā€œYou’re the brother to a siste who is stand in front of you right now, hoping that’s is you.ā€
For a moment, he simply stared at you, as if trying to convince himself you were real. Then, without warning, he pulled you into a tight embrace, his rough hands trembling as they held you., You could hardly breathe, the weight of the revelation pressing down on you. The realization came slowly, but it hit you hard, like a hammer to the chest.
Your brother.
His eyes softened as the truth sank in, and for the first time in years, you saw the hint of a smile tug at his lips, though it was tinged with sadness. ā€œI thought I’d never see you again,ā€ he murmured, his voice breaking.
He reached out, his fingers lightly brushing the scar on your face, as if confirming you were truly there, truly the same person he had once known. ā€œI thought you were dead,ā€ he whispered, his voice cracking slightly.
ā€œI thought you were deadā€ you replied, your throat tight with emotion.
You clung to him, your tears soaking into his tunic. ā€œI thought I would never see you again.ā€
He pulled back slightly, his hands gripping your shoulders as he studied your face. ā€œWhy are you here? This is no place for someone like you.ā€
ā€œI had to see you,ā€ you replied, your voice trembling. ā€œI couldn’t stand not knowing if it was really you.ā€
Lucius’s jaw tightened, his expression hardening. ā€œYou shouldn’t have come. If they find you here-ā€
ā€œI don’t care,ā€ you interrupted, your voice firm. ā€œYou’re my brother, and I won’t abandon you.ā€
His eyes softened again, and for a brief moment, the weight of the world seemed to lift from his shoulders. ā€œThen we have much to talk about, sister.ā€
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Lucius sat down heavily on a wooden bench, wincing as he shifted his weight. The dim light of the small cell barely illuminated the fresh gashes and bruises marring his skin. Your hands trembled as you dipped a cloth into a bowl of water, wringing it out before gently pressing it against a cut on his shoulder.
He hissed in pain, but you didn’t stop. ā€œHold still,ā€ you murmured, your voice soft but firm. ā€œThese need to be cleaned, or they’ll get infected.ā€
Lucius watched you closely, his gaze flickering between your face and the careful movements of your hands. ā€œYou shouldn’t be here,ā€ he muttered, though his tone lacked conviction.
ā€œAnd you shouldn’t be fighting for their entertainment,ā€ you shot back, your eyes narrowing. ā€œBut here we are.ā€
He let out a dry chuckle, though it quickly turned into a wince. ā€œYou’ve grown sharper since we last saw each other.ā€
ā€œYou left me no choice,ā€ you replied, dabbing at a particularly deep cut. ā€œI had to learn how to survive without you.ā€
The room fell silent for a moment, save for the sound of water dripping back into the bowl. Lucius finally spoke, his voice quieter this time. ā€œYou know it wasn’t my choice.ā€
You paused, your hands stilling as his words sank in. ā€œYou never tried to come back.ā€
ā€œI would be dead.ā€ he admitted, his jaw tightening.
You shook your head, resuming your work. ā€œBut you are not.ā€
His hand reached up, catching yours and stilling your movements. ā€œBut what about you?ā€ he asked, his voice thick with emotion. ā€œWhat have they done to you?ā€
You hesitated, the question cutting deeper than any blade. ā€œIt doesn’t matter,ā€ you said finally, avoiding his gaze. ā€œWhat matters is getting you out of here.ā€
Lucius’s grip on your hand tightened. ā€œAnd how do you plan to do that? These people… they don’t let anyone go, not without a price.ā€
ā€œThen I’ll pay it,ā€ you said, meeting his eyes with determination. ā€œWhatever it takes, I’ll free you, Lucius.ā€
He stared at you for a long moment, ā€œYou’ve always been stubborn,ā€ he said with a small, bittersweet smile.
ā€œAnd you’ve always underestimated me,ā€ you replied, dabbing at his wounds one last time.
Lucius's gaze softened as he watched you work, the rough edges of his hardened exterior beginning to crack just slightly. There was something in the way you spoke, the quiet determination in your voice that made him believe, if only for a fleeting moment, that maybe, just maybe, you could change the outcome of his life.
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The trip back to the villa was a blur, your mind heavy with the thoughts of Lucius, and the promise you had made to him. As you arrived at the villa, the sight of the grand stone walls did little to ease the tension in your chest. You couldn’t stay in that cell forever, and you knew there would be consequences for what you’d just done.
Inside, the quiet stillness of the villa seemed to press in on you. You didn’t want to face Acacius, not after everything. Not after what had just happened with Lucius, with the way he had looked at you and spoken to you, reminding you of the bond you shared, the family that had once been torn apart.
But you didn’t have a choice.
Acacius was waiting for you in the courtyard, his broad figure standing against the fading light of day, the tension in his posture unmistakable. His eyes, dark and intense, followed you as you walked toward him. You could feel the weight of his gaze like a physical presence.
ā€œYou’re late,ā€ he said, his voice edged with something sharp, something that wasn’t just concern. It was frustration. Maybe anger. You didn’t know anymore.
ā€œI’m not here to discuss time, Acacius,ā€ you replied, your voice cooler than you intended, but the fight in your chest was growing.
He stepped forward, his expression tightening. ā€œWhere were you?ā€
ā€œOut, taking a walk,ā€ you said bluntly, not willing to sugarcoat it.
Acacius’s eyes flashed with anger, and before you could even process it, his hand shot out, grabbing your arm with an intensity that caught you off guard. ā€œWhere?ā€ he asked, his voice low but simmering with rage. ā€œWhat were you thinking?ā€
You yanked your arm back, glaring at him. ā€œWhat does it matter to you?ā€ The words escaped before you could stop them, frustration bubbling over. ā€œYou were busy with my mother, right?ā€
Acacius’s jaw tightened, his eyes darkening at your words. His hand dropped from your arm, but the tension between you both was thick. "That's not the point," he said, his voice colder now. "The point is, you didn't come to me. You didn't think to tell me where you were going, what you were doing. Do you have any idea how dangerous it is for you to go off on your own, especially with everything going on? After what Geta did to you?"
His anger was palpable, but so was the hurt. You could see it in the way his fists clenched at his sides, the way he stared at you as if you were slipping away from him, slipping away from the bond you shared. It was clear to him that there was something more, something deeper happening, and he didn’t know how to reach you in this moment.
He stepped closer, his breath coming quicker now, trying to seem calm, maybe even desperate, hidden behind the harshness of his words. "I care because I love you," he said, his voice low, almost broken. "Even when I’m angry.ā€
Your heart hammered in your chest, the raw honesty of his words piercing through the fog of anger that had clouded your mind. You opened your mouth, but the words didn’t come.
"I don't need your love, Acacius," you said finally, the words slipping out more bitter than you intended, making up a lie you didn’t believe ā€œYour love made me weak, Acacius.ā€
Acacius froze, his face going pale as your words cut through him like a dagger. The air between you both seemed to freeze, his body stiffening as if the words had physically wounded him. For a long moment, neither of your spoke, the only sound in the room was the heavy, labored breathing from both of you.
His voice trembled when he spoke again. "You think I made you weak?" He took a slow step toward you, his eyes searching yours with disbelief and pain. "You think my love for you made you weak?"
You tried to steady your breath, but it caught in your throat. Your heart twisted painfully as you met his gaze, seeing the hurt in his eyes, the raw emotion that mirrored your own. But you held firm, even as your chest tightened with regret.
"Yes," you said, your voice trembling despite your best efforts to remain cold. "I had to rely on it. On you. And now..." You couldn’t finish your sentence, the words getting stuck. The truth you refused to admit was suffocating you.
Acacius didn’t move. His face was unreadable, but his eyes, those soft brown eyes that had once looked at you with so much tenderness were broken.
The moment you saw the tears fall from his eyes, something inside you shattered. The wall you had so carefully built around your heart crumbled, and you felt the weight of everything you’d been holding in, your fears, your anger, your pain, all come rushing to the surface. You had hurt him, and the sight of his vulnerability, of the pain in his eyes, made you feel like you were drowning.
"I didn’t mean it," you whispered, your voice breaking as the truth tumbled out of you. "It’s a lie... I’m sorry, Acacius. I didn’t mean it."
Before you even realized what you were doing, you stepped toward him, closing the distance between you, and kissed him. Your lips crashed against his with an urgency you couldn’t contain, as if trying to take back all the hurt, all the mistakes, in one breath. The kiss was desperate, frantic, and full of apologies you didn’t know how to say.
He couldn’t hold back, he kissed you back, his arms pulling you closer, his hands sliding into your hair. His kiss was full of relief, as if he had been waiting for this moment for far too long.
You broke the kiss reluctantly, your forehead resting against his as you tried to catch your breath. "I’m sorry," you repeated, your voice barely a whisper. "I didn’t want to hurt you. I didn’t know how to... how to deal with my jealousy.ā€
Acacius cupped your face, his eyes searching yours as if looking for the truth in them. "I love you. Only you." he said softly. "
ā€œShow me.ā€ You pleaded, ā€œShow me how much you love me, Acacius.ā€
His hands were gentle, but there was an urgency in his touch that matched the racing of your heart. Acacius pulled you closer, his lips finding yours again, this time with a fiercer intensity, as if he couldn't get enough of you. The way he held you made everything else in the world fade away.
You circled your legs around his waist instinctively, feeling the warmth of his body press against yours. His arms were around you, steady and strong, and for a moment, it felt as though the weight of the world had lifted. There was no war, no political schemes, no uncertainty, only the two of you, caught in a moment of raw, vulnerable truth.
Acacius broke the kiss just enough to breathe, his forehead resting against yours. "You have me," he said, his voice thick with emotion. "In every way. I always have."
You could feel his heart pounding, matching the beat of your own. He held you tighter, his lips trailing down your neck, his hands roaming to places that made your breath hitch in your chest. "Show me," you whispered again, more desperately now, wanting to feel every piece of him, to bridge the gap between the broken parts of you both.
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The next morning, a summons arrived from Emperor Geta, delivered by one of his trusted attendants. You knew you couldn’t avoid him forever, though a sense of foreboding settled deep in your chest. As you entered the emperor’s hall, you were greeted with the sight of an opulent feast laid out on a long table, the scents of roasted meats and sweetened wine filling the air.
Geta stood at the head of the table, his expression warm but calculating. ā€œAh, the princess of Rome,ā€ he said with a smile, gesturing for you to join him. ā€œCome, sit. Let us enjoy the morning together.ā€
You hesitated before stepping forward, your gaze flicking to the feast. ā€œDo you do this for all your prisoners?ā€ you asked, your tone laced with sarcasm.
Geta laughed, a rich sound that echoed through the hall. ā€œFor you? Always.ā€
You took your seat cautiously, your back straight and your hands folded in your lap. Despite the lavish setting, there was no mistaking the undercurrent of tension in the room.
ā€œI’ve heard some interesting tales,ā€ Geta began, leaning back in his chair and studying you. ā€œStories about my dear princess sneaking into the gladiators’ quarters. Healing slaves, no less.ā€ His eyes glittered with amusement and something darker.
Your stomach tightened, but you met his gaze steadily. ā€œI didn’t realize compassion was a crime,ā€ you said evenly.
Geta chuckled, pouring himself a goblet of wine. ā€œCompassion? Is that what you call it?ā€ He leaned forward, his voice dropping. ā€œTell me, what’s going on? Why risk yourself for men who are nothing more than property? What would General Acacius say if he knew his wife was spending her nights in such unsavory company?ā€
Your heart raced, but you kept your expression calm. ā€œAcacius has no reason to doubt me,ā€ you said carefully.
Geta swirled the wine in his goblet. ā€œHow noble. But I wonder... is there more to this than you’re letting on?ā€
You forced a small smile, even as your hands tightened in your lap. ā€œWhat could there possibly be, Emperor? I am simply doing what I can to ease the suffering of others.ā€
He watched you closely, as though searching for a crack in your armor. Finally, he leaned back with a sigh, his playful demeanor returning. ā€œYou are fascinating,ā€ he said. ā€œA woman of such fire and mystery. It is no wonder I love you.ā€
His words sent a shiver down your spine, but you maintained your composure. ā€œI am married to General Acacius,ā€ you reminded him firmly.
ā€œAnd yet here you are, sitting with me,ā€ he said with a smirk.
You said nothing, unwilling to give him more power over you.
The feast continued in strained silence, and though Geta’s attention remained fixed on you, you managed to deflect his probing questions. By the time the meal ended, you felt as though you had just survived a battle of your own.
As you left the hall, your mind raced with thoughts of Lucius. You couldn’t let Geta or anyone else discover the truth about his identity.
As the feast continued, Emperor Geta leaned forward, his piercing gaze fixed on you as you took a sip of the wine he had poured. The drink was sweeter than you expected, with an almost metallic tang that lingered on your tongue.
You set the goblet down, a faint unease creeping over you. Your head felt oddly heavy, as though the air around you had thickened. Still, you forced yourself to maintain your composure, unwilling to show any weakness in front of him.
ā€œYou seem quiet,ā€ Geta remarked, his voice smooth and casual, but his eyes glimmered with something far more dangerous. ā€œIs the wine not to your liking?ā€
You hesitated, the words catching in your throat. ā€œIt’s... fine,ā€ you managed, though your voice sounded distant, even to yourself.
He smiled, leaning back in his chair as though satisfied. ā€œGood. It’s a rare ancient. Fit for a princess such as yourself.ā€
A strange warmth spread through your limbs, dulling your senses. Your vision blurred slightly, the edges of the room softening. Alarm bells rang in your mind, but you pushed them aside, trying to focus on Geta’s voice as he continued to speak.
ā€œI can see why Acacius is so fond of you,ā€ he said, his tone almost mocking. ā€œYou have a way of captivating men, don’t you? Even ones who should know better.ā€
You clenched your hands beneath the table, willing yourself to stay upright. ā€œIf you have something to say, Emperor, say it,ā€ you replied, though your voice wavered.
Geta’s smile widened, but there was no humor in it. ā€œOh, I’ve said enough. The rest... well, time will tell.ā€
A wave of nausea hit you suddenly, and you reached for the table to steady yourself. Geta’s expression didn’t change, but you caught the faintest flicker of satisfaction in his eyes.
ā€œPerhaps the wine was too strong for you,ā€ he said, feigning concern. ā€œYou should rest. Shall I have someone escort you back to the villa?ā€
You shook your head, forcing yourself to stand despite the dizziness that threatened to overwhelm you. ā€œNo... I can manage.ā€
He rose as well, stepping closer to you. His hand brushed your arm, the touch cold despite the heat radiating from your skin. ā€œTake care, my dear,ā€ he murmured, his voice low and dangerous.
You pulled away, your heart pounding as you stumbled toward the door. The room spun around you, and each step felt like a battle. By the time you reached the villa, your body was trembling, and your breath came in shallow gasps.
ā€œHey, hey, stay with me,ā€
Acacius whispered, his arms pulling you closer, cradling you against him.
ā€œI’ve got you.ā€
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ambrosiagourmet Ā· 1 year ago
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I love Izutsumi. She's got a great design, she's a fun addition to the main party, she adds some new tension, and she's honestly one of the reasons I read dungeon meshi in the first place. I mean, "the most cat to ever girl" is an extremely appealing hook to anyone who loves cats and girls (me, I love cats and girls).
However, while I have always liked Izutsumi, I finished the story kind of feeling like I didn't really get her. I felt like I had a decent grasp on her character an character arc (she's a traumatized teen given space to feel safe and open up, and because of that she realizes that she can't grow without letting go of the coping mechanisms she once needed). But I didn't feel like I really understood her role in the story as a whole.
She follows the group of her own accord, after a coincidental meeting and a misunderstanding of what they can do for her. She's never super invested in saving Falin, at least not compared to the rest of the group. Though they do help her escape Maizuru's shackles, and are clearly good for her in general, she doesn't really have a healing Moment with the group the way that Senshi does with the hippogriff soup.
And yet, she gets an entire chapter, the third-to-last chapter, dedicated to exploring her growth and future. She's the one who frames much of the falling action, who lets us check in with everyone. She's the one who helps talk Laios into accepting his role as king. She may join the story part way through, but she is there for most of it. So Izutsumi! What's your deal!?
Well, I think I've come up with an answer, at least for myself, that I really like. Two of them, even! Though they both really work together to form the overall point - Izutsumi is the character that most helps the story face towards the future. Here's why I think that.
So the first of these "ah-ha" moments was when I realized that Izutsumi really is the best supporting evidence for Laios' point about the good things that wouldn't have happened if Falin hadn't died.
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If Falin hadn't been eaten by the dragon, Izutsumi probably would still be a slave. It was because of Shuro and Laios' parties both being in the dungeon to rescue Falin, as well as Marcille's use of ancient magic in the resurrection, that she got the chance to escape. None of that would have been the case if Falin hadn't died. Shuro wouldn't have separated from the group and joined up with his retainers, Marcille wouldn't have revealed her knowledge of ancient magic, and Izutsumi never would have even met any of them. They are only part of her life because of Falin's death.
Though this isn't explicitly pointed out by Laios or Izutsumi in the scene, I do think you can very much feel the presence of it. For one, when Marcille reflects on the journey and how much it made her realize she didn't want to lose everyone, her relationship with Izutsumi is prominent:
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It's the main original group at the top and center, but when you read it right to left, it’s Izutsumi and Marcille who might catch your eye first. And it's specifically Marcille and Izutsumi's relationship on display here, not just Izutsumi's presence in the group in general.
Also, after Laios' statement about how none of their adventure would have happened without Falin dying, it is Izutsumi who gets the final word:
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Izutsumi is also the one here who is the most forward-facing. Chilchuck is trying to correct Laios, Senshi is focused on the immediate future, and Izutsumi is talking about her new goal.
And I want to talk about that goal in general as well, because it’s also interesting how it comes up. In that moment, everyone is trying to remind Marcille of her less destructive desires - to eat food, to share it with them, and to meet Chilchuck's family. All of which are previously established, existing desires. When prompted by Chilchuck to join in, however, Izutsumi offers something new:
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That's interesting, isn't it? It's kind of funny, of course, to see her rambling on about a completely new thing, her own personal motive, in the middle of everyone working together to reach out to Marcille. Izutsumi doesn't even know who Yaad is! But at the same time, it’s kind of meaningful. Amidst the focus on desires that everyone already had, she adds a completely new one to the mix. It’s even the final bridge that lets Laios reach Marcille.
It is, in fact, even an idea that comes back later to help out another lord of the dungeon. The idea of finding new goals and feeling new desires... this is exactly how Kabru reaches out to Mithrun, after the Winged Lion is gone
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So yeah, Izutsumi's presence here, both in what she's actively choosing to say as well as what she represents of the consequences of Falin's death, supports the story's ideas of moving forward. Of accepting the past, and finding new reasons to live.
Which is all really good, and that alone works pretty well as an answer to what Izutsumi's role in the story is.
But oh, oh. There's more. Something I realized after having thought of all this, because I still couldn't let go of the feeling that there was still something I was missing.
And as I reviewed the things I loved about Izutsumi - her sometimes unhealthy ways of coping with trauma, her struggles with isolation, her skill with fighting, her selfishness contrasted with the ways she grows to care for and protect the group, her perpetually guarded nature, born from the seeming impossibility of ever fitting in or finding a safe place to just be herself - I realized something.
Izutsumi...
is a foil to Falin.
Where Falin copes with isolation and trauma by being eternally caring and struggling to say no to people, Izutsumi copes by constantly saying no to everything she can. Falin is often considered selfless, but does have selfish desires that she can’t easily express until a moment of crisis. Izutsumi is delightfully selfish, but chooses to stick by her friends when they need her. They are both transformed, against their will, into partly monstrous hybrids, and they both will have to live with that - there is no undoing what has been done to them.
Falin anchors the group in the past. Izutsumi pulls them towards the future. Neither would find freedom without the other - it is Falin's death that leads to Izutsumi joining the party, and likewise, it is Izutsumi who inspires the realization of how they can save Falin.
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And Falin is her future, as much as Izutsumi is Falin's. Both learn to be a little more like each other, even though they never meet. Falin gets a little more selfish. Izutsumi gets a little more willing to bend.
In this context, I feel like I have finally started to understand just how important Izutsumi is to the story. She is a proof that they cannot just go back, and she is a clawed, happy-to-scratch-anyone-who-pisses-her-off reminder, at that. In any conversation about what the group wishes would have happened with Falin, she cannot be ignored or brushed aside.
She is a reminder that, even in the midst of a tragedy so big it feels like a shadow you will never escape, you have yet to met all the people you will love. Hell, some of those people might even be catgirls. We should all be so lucky.
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angelicgirlmj Ā· 10 months ago
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an angels guide: sunday reset routine
hi angels! at the end of a busy and long week you need to prioritise taking care of yourself, your mental health and your space. i like to save sundays to be a ā€˜me’ day, a day where i indulge in self care, cleaning and preparing myself peacefully for a busy week ahead. resetting your space and self can be an intensive routine (think thirty minute youtube videos of someone deep cleaning their house) or just simple and short (having an early night). this is my more aspirational reset routine, on an ideal sunday i will do all of this but some days i may negotiate and do a little less. hopefully this post inspires you to take care of yourself and your space.
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space Ėšā‚Šā€§ź’°įƒ ź£‘ą§Ž ą»’ź’± ā€§ā‚ŠĖš
open your windows, let air circulate.
wash bedding, pillowcases, towels and any face cloths.
light candles or incense to make your space smell good.
polish any mirrors and windows.
declutter surfaces or desks (put everything away and back into its place).
fold clothes and ensure wardrobe/drawers/clothes storage spaces are tidy.
wipe down surfaces.
clean any hair brushes, makeup brushes etc.
throw away any rubbish from bins or around you.
plan meals for the week ahead. look at what is in your fridge or cupboards and clear anything expired.
play calming playlist or playlist themed around the atmosphere you want to create in your space.
water any plants.
get new flowers/rid of old flowers.
plump any pillows, refold blankets and make your space cozy and safe feeling.
body Ėšā‚Šā€§ź’°įƒ ź£‘ą§Ž ą»’ź’± ā€§ā‚ŠĖš
apply hair oils + hair mask and leave to soak in for the day.
do yoga/stretching in the morning.
drink a glass of water first thing.
eat nutritious meals that will allow your body to feel good.
go on a walk or exercise.
have bath/shower.
do full body exfoliation - scrub off dirt and grime from past week.
shave (if you shave your body hair).
apply deep, cleansing body washes and give self a massage of sorts.
drink tea/matcha.
clean teeth, floss, mouthwash and oil pull twice.
apply body oils, body lotions/creams.
finish day doing light stretching/yoga.
face Ėšā‚Šā€§ź’°įƒ ź£‘ą§Ž ą»’ź’± ā€§ā‚ŠĖš
do full am and pm skincare routines.
ice face.
do gua sha routine.
apply a face mask.
tweeze/tidy eyebrows if that is a preference.
use a lip scrub or exfoliator.
gently facially exfoliate.
give self brief facial massage.
apply any spot treatments or specialised skincare.
mind Ėšā‚Šā€§ź’°įƒ ź£‘ą§Ž ą»’ź’± ā€§ā‚ŠĖš
meditate in the morning.
journal and plan week ahead.
read at least one chapter of a book.
watch a comforting/relaxing show.
ensure all school work or anything similar is complete or at a point where it needs to be.
do something for yourself (paint your nails, colour, make something, bake etc).
plan ways to stay on top of any goals set.
set weekly goals and targets.
have an early night.
be off devices by eight if possible.
spend time with a family member or friend.
spend some time outdoors.
drink plenty of water.
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thank you for reading angels! i hope this post is helpful and you have a relaxing and productive sunday. all my love, m.
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skyedancer-system Ā· 5 months ago
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Going into Poppy Playtime Chap. 4 I was not expecting to get halfway decent plural rep but here we are????
Spoilers for the new chapter under the cut, and also cw for all the general Poppy Playtime stuff (child death + experimentation, body horror, if you know the game you get the gist)
SO THIS GUY HUH
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Doey the Doughman, the surprise character revealed just days before the chapter dropped and who finally answered the question of the red/orange/yellow hand imagery we’ve been getting teased with for so long
In the chapter himself he’s pretty important to the plot and is an ally to the player, Poppy, and Kissy for (most of) the chapter, and he’s a pretty nice guy just with a bit of a temper, and very overwhelmed by having to keep the Safe Haven together and protected in Poppy’s absence.
But his personal story? How he was created via Playtime Co.’s Bigger Bodies Initiative? Oh god it’s honestly one of the most messed up ones yet other than Yarnaby (and that’s saying something considering this is child experimentation we’re talking about, and Yarnaby lost his entire self and was treated like a straight up animal, isolated so he would love and obey Harley and only Harley)
Where most of the living toys were made from one child, Doey was made from three. Jack, a visitor to the factory that got caught in a freak accident and was taken into Playtime’s care for his medical recovery. Kevin, a problem child in the Playcare known for his anger issues. And Matthew, an extremely kind boy who tried to keep hopes up among all the orphans in the Playcare, and was a sort of leader to them.
And all three of them are still present in some form; at various points in the game you see them switch, speaking and thinking differently, with varying opinions on everything happening. And from the tape of the Jack’s parents seeing what Playtime did to their son, we see that the three have separate memories as well, at least they did when they were first put together.
And this plurality that was forced onto them isn’t played for scary points like you’d expect from a mascot horror game. Yes it is part of Doey’s monstrous design once they get upset, but them being upset is because everything they had worked to protect was destroyed by the Prototype. All of the other kids turned toys that had kept their consciousness and relied on Doey for protection, mercilessly killed. Anybody would be horrifically upset in that situation. And one of the three boys - Kevin - lashes out at the player, the other two trying to calm him down only for all of them to fall into anger and emotion.
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You can clearly see the three kids; one angry, two sad, all of their emotions coming together into a grief induced rage, with physical pain only compounding it. And when you eventually have to kill them and put them out of their misery, their last words?
ā€œI’m sorry.ā€
They were just kids; three kids forced into a horrible situation and having to learn to live with it. And for a long time it seems that they did, working together rather peacefully until their lives were upheaved by the arrival of the player and Poppy’s reappearance.
Kevin’s anger at everyone and the world is completely justified; I mean he and the other two were experimented on and then kept caged like animals, being practically forced to kill! He wanted to protect them; to avenge the countless others that had been killed by the Playtime scientists and the Prototype! And considering things only went to shit after the player and Poppy showed up? Well it’s no wonder that anger got directed at them
It it a super good depiction of plurality? No, not by a long shot. But it’s definitely way better than I would expect from a game like Poppy Playtime.
I was not expecting this post to get this long whoops fbsnbdns; if anyone else has anything they want to add though we’d love to hear it!
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playboysturns Ā· 4 months ago
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hate the way i love you . Żā‚Š ⊹ .
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chapter 1
pairing; jock!chris x loser!reader (secret dating)
your valentines plans ruined. tensions rise between you and chris as you wonder if he is really as committed in your relationship as he says he is.
warnings; toxic relationship, underage drinking, mentions of feeling sick.
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you hid your phone as you read the message chris had texted, it was only 20 minutes into first period english. with nick sitting beside you, you didn’t want him to see your phone and question why his brother was texting you.
your brain working to make an excuse to leave class, you didn’t want to keep chris waiting especially when you knew that he was probably already there.
ā€œi can’t believe we have no valentines! this is sick,ā€ nick sighs dropping his head onto the desk, his eyes peering up at you. ā€œhow about we go out and get pizza, maybe come back to mine since my brothers are going to be out?ā€
ā€œi actually have plans tonight,ā€ you admit, nick shooting off the desk looking at you in confusion.
ā€œwith who?ā€ he asks curiously, you sigh before shaking your head.
ā€œnothing special, i think my parents are taking me out to dinner because they feel sorry for my lonely ass,ā€ you lie, still looking at the text you received thinking of a way to leave class.
ā€œfuck i really wanted us to rewatch ā€˜bottoms’ together,ā€ nick pouts before going onto his phone.
this was the first time you had an actual valentines in your life, and you had exhausted yourself the night before to make sure you were prepared. you had shaved, exfoliated and moisturised completing the most treacherous everything shower, meticulously doing your hair the way chris liked. A little red dress that hugged your figure just right hanging in your closet for wherever chris was planning on taking you tonight.
ā€œlook at this,ā€ you quickly closed your messages as you look to see the tiktok nick was showing you, it being a slideshow of horses with weirdly big human feet.
ā€œyour for you page is fucked,ā€ you giggle as he scrolls showing the next tiktok.
ā€œyeah well you should see chris and matt’s,ā€ he says, you think to agree that chris’ was way worse but stop yourself before realising that it wouldn’t make any sense for you to know.
you murmur an ā€˜i bet,’ at him before standing up and grabbing your bag.
ā€œwhere are you going?ā€ nick asks confused it had only been 20 minutes into class.
ā€œy/n, is there something wrong?ā€ your teacher says making his way over.
ā€œi think i started my period, i need to go to the bathroomā€ you whisper the lie, pointing to your bag feining embarrassment.
ā€œoh! okay go quick,ā€ your teacher says awkwardly, motioning towards the door, nick giving you a look as of sympathy.
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you see chris standing under the bleachers, looking around for you. he was in his football jersey and some dark washed jeans, his north face backpack sliding down his back.
ā€œchris!ā€ you called out, his eyes snapping to the sound and his face into a smile when he spots you.
ā€œhey baby,ā€ he wraps his arms around you pulling you in for a kiss. ā€œtook you long enough.ā€
ā€œlook i had to say i was on my period leave class,ā€ you sigh into his lips, relishing in the comfort that they brought you.
he quickly pulls away to grab his backpack, unzipping the bag to pull out a bouquet of flowers.
ā€œhappy valentines,ā€ he holds the bouquet out, you blush before taking them gratefully.
ā€œthank you, they’re beautiful,ā€ you admire the flowers, pulling him into a hug.
ā€œnot as beautiful as you though,ā€ his words coming out muffled against your neck, the smell of his addicting cologne making you dizzy.
ā€œso what we doing tonight?ā€ you ask, chris pulling back to give you a confused look.
ā€œwhat do you mean?ā€ you look at him with equal confusion, putting the flowers safely into your bag.
ā€œi thought you said we were going somewhere out of the city to eat?ā€ you look at him as his face breaks into an awkward grimace.
ā€œabout that-ā€ he starts looking everywhere but you.
ā€œwhat? don’t tell me you’re going to a party. who has a party on valentines day?ā€ you say irritated, this wasn’t the first time he had blown off a date because one of his friends had decided to throw a party.
ā€œcourtney-ā€ you would’ve thought you had heard him wrong but the guilty look on his face confirmed what he was saying. courtney was the head of the cheer squad and was a part of his friend group inconveniently she was been his ex before you.
ā€œcourtney? seriously chris. you’re going to go to your ex’s valentines party but won’t take me out.ā€
ā€œit’s not like that, it’s just everyones going so it would be weird that i’m not.ā€ he looks at you like this was a reasonable reason.
ā€œso what? you can’t miss a single party, are you kidding me,ā€ you back away from him, you had spent so long getting ready and today was supposed to be perfect.
ā€œbaby please-ā€ chris walks towards you pleading.
ā€œi have to get back to class but have fun chris,ā€ you turn heading back into the building.
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ā€œchange of plans, i have nothing to do tonight,ā€ you say as you sit down next to nick.
ā€œoh? what happened to the dinner with your parents?ā€ he asks, looking over your slightly disheveled appearance.
ā€œnothing, i called them when i was in the bathroom to tell them i had made plans today,ā€
ā€œare you sure they don’t mind?ā€ nick looks hesitant but you quickly shut it down.
ā€œyeah honestly they were happy that i actually had plans today,ā€ you reassure him, truth be told if you had to spend your night alone knowing that chris was out at his ex’s house there was a high chance you would cry yourself to sleep.
ā€œokay then come by mine like 8ish?ā€ a grin spread across nick’s face excited at the thought of a movie marathon.
ā€œyeah, i’ll bring a shit ton of food as well,ā€ you say already mentally noting that you’d have to stop in the store before you arrive to his.
nick claps his hands beginning to ramble about the movies that he wanted to watch.
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friday 14th february 8:09 pm
you don’t even have to ring nick that you were outside, he rips open the door as soon as you were in front of it squealing in glee at the bag of food you had brought.
ā€œcome in, chris and matt already left,ā€ he ushers you in, taking the bag off of you and dumping the contents on his kitchen table.
ā€œnice shorts,ā€ you giggle, looking at the heart patterned material. nick twirls showing them off in a 360 view.
ā€œi thought it was only fitting, you’re on theme tooā€ he points to the heart pyjamas set you were wearing.
ā€œof course,ā€ you help nick as he finishes setting the assortment of candies into bowls, carrying them into their living room and settling next to each other on the couch. you stuff your face with chocolate as nick stars ā€˜Bottoms’.
9:55pm
the movie had just ended and nick is sat scrolling through snapchat as you decide on what movie to watch next.
ā€œoh god,ā€ nick says, you hear ā€˜Rick Flair Drip’ blast out from his phone.
ā€œwhat is it?ā€ you look over curiously, though immediately regretting your decision. on his phone is a story of courtney pouring a shot into chris’ mouth, part of the liquid falling down his chin. a resounding cheer is heard into the background as arms come into frame to pat him on the back.
ā€œthey make me sick,ā€ nick sighs shaking his head, pressing onto the next story posted. this one was somehow worse, it was courtney and another cheerleader ashley with a few of boys off the football team with the caption ā€˜best valentines party’.
ā€œcourtney and chris?ā€ you ask, wondering what he meant by the both of them.
ā€œyeah i mean, it’s so obvious she just threw the party as an excuse to be with chris on valentines,ā€ nick’s face is scrunches up in disapproving scowl ā€œit honestly wouldn’t surprise me if he comes back and i find out that they fucked.ā€
it felt like bile was coming up your throat, ā€œwhat do you mean?ā€
ā€œcourtney wants him back so bad. i don’t know why chris doesn’t just date her again, it’s not like he’s got anything else going on,ā€ nick says laying his head back onto the couch ā€œanyways, what movie you choosing?ā€
ā€œyeah right,ā€ you try to compose yourself but your voice comes out shaky, nick looks up at you confused.
ā€œare you okay?ā€ concern laces his voice as he takes in your paling complexion.
ā€œi don’t know, i just felt really sick all of a sudden,ā€ you get up from the couch, all you wanted to do now is go back home and cry in bed.
ā€œdo you need anything?ā€ nick gets up as well, putting his hand to your forehead to check your temperature.
ā€œno, i think i just ate too much candy. i might go back home and try to sleep it off,ā€ you lie, nick looks at you worried.
ā€œyeah that might be it,ā€ you both make your way to the front door, nick telling you to text him when you get home to make sure you got there safe.
as you leave the cool night air hits you, somehow making you feel better but worse at the same time. you just wished that you were in your bed with chris and your cat right now cuddled up watching some cheesy romcom. you try calling him a few times to no avail, sighing you get into your car heading home.
saturday 15th february 12:34am
you chew on your lip, wondering if you should send him a message or not. you had tried calling him a few more times, then thinking to yourself ā€˜this is my boyfriend why am i worried about texting him?’ you hit send on the message, waiting a few minutes for a response that doesn’t come before finally going to sleep.
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sunday 16th february 11:05pm
chris hadn’t texted you anything else since yesterday, sending a simple ā€˜morning’ at 1pm. he hadn’t said anything about the 10 missed calls you had left on his phone or bothered responding to any of the texts you had sent him after.
you grew restless, doing things you enjoyed like reading or playing with your cat leo wasn’t helping in taking your mind off of him. at times like these where you felt frustrated in your relationship you wish you could talk to nick about it, but the thought of telling him that you had secretly been in a relationship with his brother for 6 months made your stomach churn. not to mention the thought of how chris would react to you telling someone about the relationship.
you sigh deciding to stalk chris’ bitmoji to see where he was whilst he was ignoring you, thinking that you’d find him with matt and nick at a drive-through or at their house. To your surprise it showed him active at a random house with a whole bunch of other people, you curiously click on one of the avatar’s stories, your heart faltering.
even in the dimly lit room and the shitty camera work you could still see chris in the background of the video on his phone, talking to him was courtney and her friend ashley. now it wasn’t like chris was touching her, and you trusted him enough that even if she was flirting that he wouldn’t entertain it. still the feeling in your chest wasn’t going away and you decided to try calling him.
the phone rings twice before the call drops, you were getting annoyed now of his silent treatment and you could see he was active. you send a few texts before deciding to go to bed, and reassuring yourself that surely at school he’d at least try to talk to you.
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wednesday 19th february 1:30pm
It had been 4 days since you and Chris had last spoken.
4 days of sending these one sided messages, and at this point you were embarrassed at the blue wall in your chats. his last message still being the one he sent the day after valentines then radio silence after. to make it worse it wasn’t as if you could go and talk to him either, nobody would’ve thought that he even knew you let alone dated you. the sadness you felt had turned into anger.
you had enough of the silence and finally decided to try and corner him alone when you were out of class. though every time you tried he was hanging out with the rest of his friends. it wasn’t hard to spot them considering they were so loud, the group being filled with both football players and cheerleaders.
it was the end of lunch and you were getting your things out of a locker, you stole glances at them hoping that you could at least catch chris’ eye. unfortunately for you, you end up locking eyes with someone else.
ā€œwhat theĀ fuckĀ is she looking at?ā€ courtney shouts her face contorted in a scowl, fifteen pairs of eyes turn to look at you. seeking at leastĀ someĀ comfort you look at chris, who only looks back with a blank expression.
now you were not shy in any means, but the sudden confrontation and the amount of people had heat flooding to your cheeks in embarrassment. ā€œi-no i’m-ā€
ā€œleave her alone,ā€
you turn to see nick behind you. you sigh in relief, looking back to see everyone still looking at the both of you.
ā€œor what?ā€ another ashley responses from the lockers flicking her hair behind her and giggling to the others about it.
ā€œcan you both shut up,ā€ matt says, offering you a small smile that makes the tension in your chest ease a little bit.
ā€œwell does that freak have a fucking staring problem?ā€ courtney continues her eyes trained on you. her lips twitching into a smirk at the sight of you getting flustered.
ā€œoh don’t act like you hate people looking at you, you attention whoreā€ nick rebuttals rolling his eyes. courtney’s face turning bright red in anger, she opens her mouth ready to shout back but ashley quickly tries to calm her down.
nick chuckles beside you, grabbing your arm and dragging you to your shared class. he turns to you ā€œoh my god did you see how red she got?ā€
ā€œdeserved. she’s so annoying,ā€ you and nick laugh as you both sit down in your seats.
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wednesday 19th february 5:00pm
you couldn’t resist him. the familiar sight of their door greets you, before you could even knock it swung open to show chris. his soft brown hair falling over his face, he had your favourite sweater of his on.
ā€œhey,ā€ his voice coming out soft, tentative like he was testing the waters between you.
ā€œhey baby,ā€ you say back, he pulls you into a hug and you let out a sigh off relief. you were still mad at him for ignoring you but decided to bring it up later to not ruin the moment.
ā€œcmon, i got something i need to doā€ chris leads you to his room, he takes of his sweater chucking it onto his bed before flopping down onto it himself.
he pats his bare chest in signal for you to cuddle, you giggle before making your way over and nestling on top on him. you practically melt into him. everything about him comforted you, his familiar scent and his smooth warm skin pressing against your cheek. his left hand comes up to rub up and down your back whilst the right runs gently through your hair.
ā€œi missed this,ā€ he sighs in content, his lips brushing over the top of your head.
ā€œi missed this too,ā€ your words coming out slurred from being smushed against him, he hums beneath you. the both of you lay there in silence enjoying each others presence before chris speaks up.
ā€œi’m sorry about courtney earlier again,ā€ his hand continuing to rub up and down your back in comfort.
ā€œit’s fine, i just wished you would’ve said something to her,ā€ you sleepily stare to the other end of the room, your eyes growing heavy.
ā€œyeah well i can’t exactly do that. it’d make us too obvious,ā€ as the words left his mouth you feel sleepiness disappear completely.
ā€œwhat?ā€ you sit up, freeing yourself from his hold to whip your head around to look at him.
ā€œnah it’s nothing personal,ā€ chris says sitting up whilst grabbing his sweater and putting it back on.
ā€œwell it fucking feels like it when you ā€˜can’t’ even say anything to her,ā€ you spit out bitterly, hurt with how he was talking about what had happened.
ā€œwhat do you want me to say? leave my girlfriend alone?ā€ he looks at you absurdly.
ā€œno, maybe i wanted you to be a normal person and tell her to shut the fuck up,ā€
ā€œwhat like matt did?ā€ he laughs as if the idea was ridiculous. you felt your heart breaking, was the idea of defending you really that bad to him?
ā€œexactly, your brother can say it so why can’t you?ā€ you felt sick, you had never had an argument like this before and chris was the last person you wanted to have on with.
ā€œgo date matt then,ā€ he says angrily.
ā€œare you serious? you’re acting like a child over what? me being angry you can’t call me your girlfriend?ā€ your your voice raising with ever question.
ā€œcan you just leave it alone,ā€ chris groans rubbing his face in annoyance.
you look at him in shock, ā€œleave it alone? chris i haven’t said anything about your decision to keep it this a secret for 6 months.ā€
ā€œyeah well you said it yourself you didn’t want anyone knowing,ā€ it was like he wasn’t listening to anything you were saying and you felt yourself starting to get angrier by the second.
ā€œyeah and i thought that meant no one knowing for maybe the first few weeks not 6 fucking months!ā€ you shout, getting up off his bed.
ā€œcan you just fucking drop it, i told you that i would tell everyone when i’m ready.ā€ chris says lowly.
ā€œoh yeah, and when is that? graduation? when we both move to different cities for college?ā€ your chest heaving up and down from frustration.
ā€œi don’t fucking know, okay.ā€ he looks at you with wide eyes like a deer caught in headlights.
ā€œwhatever, fuck you.ā€ you grab your phone off of his bed turning quickly for the door.
ā€œwait?- baby slow down,ā€ chris gets up off his bed and moves to try and stop you.
ā€œchris, stop.ā€ you say trying your hardest to stop your eyes from watering, leaving his room. sure both of you had gotten into arguments before but never this heated and never about how your relationship was concealed.
chris didn’t come after you, choosing to stay inside his room. you silently walked out the house and only then did you let your tears fall.
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an - ahhhh its here, hopefully you guys like the first chapter even though chris is a major douchebag in it! chapter 2 hopefully coming soon with a much nicer chris and hopefully them resolving their argument fully šŸ’‹
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False Accusations (You know I KNOW right? Chapter Two)
Let me first say thank you for all the kind reception part one received. It was … a surprise, and a welcome one.
Also, a massive thank you to @sunnie-angel for beta reading. If you haven’t read their work… Do yourself a favor and check out their masterlist!
This Chapter takes place over a few days in two mini stories., and I would appreciate being told if at any point this causes confusion. Currently how I’ve done it is as tilted segments. Content warning: this chapter has themes of sexual harassment in the workplace up to the point of groping (from an OC), and corruption. Proceed with caution. Be safe.
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The morning after. You are going to murder your partner, Grayson. Perhaps with a gun. Maybe your own two hands. Or maybe you just need coffee.
It's probably the coffee thing. Coffee, then you’ll decide if you're going to kill him and how. As you sit at your table, surrounded by notes you’d made at 4am, the urge to throttle Grayson slowly subsides. You hadn’t slept a wink. You’d had a weird night. But if you were going to do this, help him find this killer… you’d need a plan for if it all goes to hell. A diversion. A plan so that if you’re made, maybe the killer will think you’re on the wrong track. A dummy investigation. But simultaneously one that you won’t overthink, so that you can devote your time and brainpower to the truth. Luckily for you, you have the perfect person to pretend to accuse. After all, your partner, Grayson, is an incredibly weird guy. 8:55 am finds you walking into the station sipping your third coffee of the morning, only to find Grayson sat at his desk. Shirt pressed, tie perfect, hair shampoo commercial glamourous yet slightly messy. The urge to murder your partner returns, just a little. How dare he be so… normal? So unaffected? How dare this man fight crime by night, and be smiling at you as he is now, chipper and bright and perfect, before 9am? The nerve. Maybe you could hit him with a patrol car and claim it was an accident. ā€œMorning detective… Long night?ā€
Oh.. This fucker. Your partner, Grayson, is the most annoying man alive. You hate how badly you have to fight the urge to grin at the sheer audacity.
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She looks exhausted, the poor thing. Dick remembered the feeling, but at some point he’d adapted to running on less sleep than was by any means reasonable. He hoped she wouldn’t need to. That this would be over in a few weeks and she’d be back to getting a full eight hours. ā€œMorning Detective… Long night?ā€ She glares at him like he’s caused personal offence. He raises an eyebrow at her to prompt a response. Inside though, he panics. Had he done something wrong? Could she suspect? No. no of course not. But whatever she said next would surely be important. It was a test of sorts. What would she say she’d spent the night doing? Would she betray his alter ego? Could she sell the lie if she didn’t? ā€œJust had a night in, had a little too much to drink,ā€ she shrugs, opening her bag and removing a notebook. Casual, calm, partially true and nearly impossible to disprove short of a blood test or breathalyser, and even then there was deniability. Dick nods, and looks back down to his computer to hide the grin that splits his face in half. He knows he can’t dwell on it, knows he can’t act on it, but it’s completely unfair that she was that smooth. That helpful. She’d agreed to help him - as Nightwing - instantly. Her words about how Blud owed him a debt had played in his mind on loop for the rest of his patrol. He knew what it felt like to fly. To flip through the air at dizzying heights, gravity a mere afterthought. It was cruel, frankly, that he’d found someone who made him feel even better than that, only for her to be someone he couldn’t be with out of principle and professionalism. It wasn’t that he objected to her as a partner - short of his family, she was possibly the best he’d ever met. Frankly, if she was transferred to Gotham, the bat signal would be turned on far less frequently. And he didn’t object to rules about dating fellow officers, especially one’s partner. Objectively it made sense. But it didn’t change the fact that her smile was the best part of his day. That on the rare times she laughed he could swear he heard an angel just straight up quit its position in the heavenly chorus out of pure envy. That when she’d said she’d help he’d wanted nothing more than to grab her face and kiss her till she was breathless. But he can’t. Or at least Dick Grayson can’t. A new voice breaks him from his spiralling thoughts. ā€œDetective Grayson.ā€ The man standing behind his partner's desk has a hand on the back of her seat, preventing her from swivelling around.Ā 
ā€œWe haven’t met yet, I’m Sergeant James McElroy. Seems you spent most of my first day back stuck on a stakeout.ā€ ā€œPleasure.ā€ he responds, with all the charm he’s learnt to use at galas and parties, forcing down the venom incurred by the way his partner had seemed to lose a gallon of blood at the sound of his voice, and the way she had seemed not to breath since the name was spoken.
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He's not touching you. Of course not. He knows better than to do anything so blatant. It's how he’d gotten away with it for so long last time. He doesn’t touch you, or say the things he was so clearly thinking. He would masterfully walk the line between making you feel unsafe, alone, and naked, while never crossing over into anything actionable. Till one day he had. It had been in a crowded lift where he’d used the crush as an excuse to grab and to feel, whispering something vile in your ear.Ā 
He’d figured he’d gotten away with it when you tried to tell your captain and he’d asked if you had a witness. You’d thought he’d gotten away with it too. Till a uniformed officer, Janet Rodwell, had stepped up to have your back. You should have known, really. For the second time in 24 hours you feel like a fool. But while the first time it had been accompanied with a dizzying realisation of love, this time the realisation is dark and chilling to your core. You’d thought you’d won, that it was over. But he’s back and he’s not touching you, but you feel the ghost of his hands all over. You can’t win. He’d been sent away and you thought you were safe again, but he’s back and he’s a sergeant now. Because Bludhaven, as it is, rewards men like him. You can’t bring yourself to look over your shoulder at him, so you look straight ahead, across your desk and to your partner’s adjoining one.
It's not Dick Grayson’s eyes you meet though. They aren’t cheerful, carefree and beautiful. Well, they are beautiful. But they are angry, intelligent, and fierce. You meet Nightwings gaze, and you feel the claws around your lungs relax, even if they do not recede.Ā 
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His partner did not rattle easily. Did not panic unnecessarily.Ā 
Pinned down by the Penguin’s smugglers, he’d thought their goose had been cooked unless he could work at his true capacity, so he had shot out the lights and gotten to work. He’d taken out nine, but been unable to find the tenth, until he’d heard the struggle.Ā 
She’d taken him down blind, without drawing her gun. When he’d asked her why she hadn’t, she’d told him she’d lost sight of him in the chaos, and was unwilling to risk it. He wished he hadn’t shot the light out so he could have seen it.Ā 
Still, he had been oblivious. It had hit him like a batarang to the face last night, in that moment where she agreed without hesitation to help him find a serial killer. He’d known she was beautiful, and brilliant. That he had a crush.Ā 
He’d realised last night he was in far, far deeper trouble than that. So, if she was frightened and upset by the presence of this man, then Dick would take his looming over her as a serious threat. He trusted her gut. ā€œYou haven’t introduced yourself to my partner, Detective—-ā€ He’s cut off with a dismissive wave that boils his blood. ā€œOh we’ve met. In fact, she was my partner first. Until the misunderstanding.ā€ There are many ways to snap someone out of a panic. He’s seen sheer rage do it many times. As it does now. ā€œThere was no misunderstanding,ā€ she says, her voice firm, her teeth gritted. ā€œWell. I want you to know-ā€ he moves from directly behind her, to her side, leaning down over her, invading her space. Dick wanted to hit him. ā€œI understand that what I did could have been seen as invasive, and you may have felt that I overstepped. I have completed a course, as demanded by HR, and will attempt not to cause you to feel that I have been inappropriate again.ā€
She takes a deep breath. He can practically hear her count in his head. He stands, moving around the desk to stand beside her, not quite a barrier but a comforting presence, or at least he hoped. ā€œWell. Whatever occurred, we have work to be getting on with, if you don’t mind.ā€ It takes a great deal of the restraint his training has given not to add the words ā€˜you bastard’, or something far more creative. ā€œBut of course. Detective. Detective.ā€Ā Ā 
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Your hands shake as you sit back down in your seat. Your partner, Grayson, returns to his own, his gaze - Richard’s gaze, never leaving your face, crumpled in concern. ā€œI don’t want to overstep… but are you alright? What … did he do?ā€ ā€œIā€¦ā€ you want to tell him, in part. Or maybe you don’t, and you want him to know without having to go through the ordeal of rehashing it all. Maybe by consulting whatever ā€˜oracle’ he used as nightwing. But you can’t right now. So you don’t. ā€œI… need some air.ā€ Your partner just gives you a comforting smile, a nod, and lets you leave without question. Wingding in the windowĀ 
It's five days later, on his patrol, when he notices it. The wingding left in her window. He stops on the roof of the building adjacent to her. As far as city roofs go, this one’s relatively nice. Someone’s placed some potted plants around, in an eclectic attempt at a rooftop garden. Some of these pots contain small pebbles as cover for the soil from the wind. Grinning to himself, he takes a handful.Ā 
Was this a good idea? No.Ā 
Was it deceptive? Well, no more than anything else he did as Nightwing… well, maybe a little more.Ā 
But it hurt, holding her at arm's length, when a part of his soul he tried to ignore yearned to be as close as she would allow. He knows it’s not good. He knows it’s a violation of the utter trust she seems to hold in Nightwing. Really, it would only make things even more messy for his chances as Dick. But he wants to make her smile. Blush, even. He knows she finds him attractive, and in both contexts, but he wants more than that. Over the last week he’s realised just how much he wants to have with her, and it terrifies him.Ā 
If it was simple lust he could deal with it.Ā  But it wasn’t, and so here he was, about to attempt the cheesiest move known to hallmark films, just to see if it would make her laugh at him again.Ā 
He’d managed to be professional while surrounded by highly capable, badass women in skintight clothes for most of his life. He’d had crushes before and gotten over them. He wanted everything with her. And that was not something he knew how to handle, given the mess of their situation. Dick shakes his head, snapping himself out of his doom spiral. He had a detective to meet, and a serial killer to find.
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Bap. Bap. Bap. You look up from your book. You’d been getting ready for sleep, wearing your cosy pyjamas, curled up in bed with a book and a hot chocolate. You go still, listening. Bap. Bap. A pause. Then, the rap of knuckles on glass. ā€œI ran out of rocksā€
You know that voice. ā€œWith you in a moment.ā€ You pull on a dressing gown, and take a moment to curse the fact that your slippers are rabbits before pulling the curtains aside. Nightwing is crouched on your windowsill. You lift it, stepping back as he enters through the window with all the grace of a cat. You know that you shouldn’t be embarrassed to be in your pyjamas, it's late, you had no means of knowing when he’d arrive. But he looked divine in that suit. An adonis. And you're in your old bathrobe and bunny slippers. Truely, you must have done terrible things in a past life. ā€œNice footwear.ā€ Nightwing says with a smirk. Curse him. Curse his cheekbones and the way his lips look so damn inviting. ā€œYou picked up what, five rocks?ā€ you sass right back. Nightwing makes a noise you suspect was supposed to be a scoff, but is more of a squeak. ā€œDo you see a lot of pocket space on this?ā€Ā 
ā€œFair.ā€ you say, leading him out of your bedroom and into your living room. He sits on your couch, one leg spread wide, the other’s ankle resting on its thigh, as you open a drawer on your coffee table and produce your masterpiece. Nearly five metres of red string. Names, photos, dates, all studded with pins so pressed so tightly in they haven’t a prayer of accidental removal. You prop it up on the coffee table.Ā 
Maybe your friends were right. Maybe you did need to touch grass. A line of thought for later. You look at Nightwing, who’s no longer relaxed and laying back on your sofa like he owned the place.Ā 
Its years of maintaining a poker face in interrogations and more recently, dealing with his shenanigans that prevents you from grinning.Ā 
He's as pale as you’ve ever managed to see him, and leaning forward now, elbow on knee and chin in hand. ā€œWell, this is… impressive.ā€ He sounded like he’d inhaled helium. ā€œShall we start with Sergeant McElroy?ā€ you offer, smiling your best ā€˜there’s nothing wrong’ smile, enjoying making him squirm. ā€œYou seem to have … a significant amount of evidence against Detective Richard Grerson?ā€ You fight the urge to roll your eyes as you take a ruler, poking your picture of him between the eyes. You hadn’t planned to do him first, you’d hoped to discuss evidence that would actually lead somewhere.Ā 
This was still going to be fun though. You take a deep breath, and pause for a suitable level of dramatic effect, and begin your game.Ā 
ā€œDetective Richard Grayson. He’s my partner. He’s an excellent detective, and a good man. You might have heard of the charity he founded.ā€ Nightwing makes a noncommittal humming noise. ā€œBut is it all too good to be true?ā€ you ask, moving to your first notecard. ā€œExhibit one. He asked about the file. On its own, innocuous. But then, exhibits two through four. He’s prone to frequent disappearances on cases. He often knows a little too much about the criminal underside of Blud. Things that I have triple checked are not in any police database.ā€
You run a hand through your hair. ā€œHe’s a highly trained combatant. I once saw him take down nine men armed with guns, in the dark. They don’t teach that at the police academy.ā€ ā€œNo? No.ā€ Nightwing says, clearing his throat. ā€œI mean yes. That is… suspicious.ā€ ā€œIncredibly. Which brings me to exhibit five. Now I’m no behavioural analyst or shrink. But I know my basics. Childhood trauma and instability can have… lingering impacts. I… don’t feel the need to dredge up his past, but I did look into it… and it’s grim. He was then taken in by Bruce Wayne. His relationship to his father, whatever it is, is something he’s even tighter lipped about then… everything else honestly. It’s not on the board because it’s circumstantial at best… but he has this skill of being able to hold long conversations and yet you come away not having learnt anything deeper about him.ā€Ā 
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He was pretty sure he’d been nodding for a good thirty seconds at this point.Ā Ā 
It would be funny if it didn’t hurt so much.Ā 
The worst part was that it was all well reasoned. Practical. He had done everything she accused him of. She had just drawn a far more down to earth conclusion, that he was a corrupt cop, rather than Nightwing.Ā 
It made sense. Too much sense. How could he shut this down without seeming invested in his own innocence?Ā 
That isn’t what causes his lungs to burn though. No. The root of that was that even if he’d forced himself to maintain a professional - if friendly - distance from her, he would have hoped that she trusted him.Ā 
But in this moment, looking at the evidence, looking at her holding that ruler to his photo’s face like a judge's gavel ready to condemn… he knows. He knows that she will never look at Dick the way she does as Nightwing, happy to see him, believing in his mission, ready to help as soon as he’d asked. Even if he clears himself of this crime, she would surely suspect him of others.Ā 
He’d known it, at least on one level, ever since he’d first met her. He knows it now all the deeper, and he wants to scream. Dick Grayson will never get to tell her how truly wonderful she is.
How highly he regards her.Ā 
How she is one of the reasons he keeps fighting for Bludhaven.Ā 
Dick Grayson will never get to tell her that he loves her.Ā 
But… perhaps Nightwing could have something. Because if she was his north star, then the way he’d felt when she agreed to help him had been like being engulfed by a supernova.Ā 
If she was water, then seeing her cosy and ready for bed and smiling as she let him in through the window had been an oasis in the Sahara.Ā 
If music was the food of love, her attempts not to laugh and stifled giggles over his peeps popcorn had been a symphony orchestra.Ā 
But he’d never have her as himself. Not at all. Nightwing though? She at least found him attractive. Aligned with his ideology. No, he’d never feel that warmth of 10,000 stars directed at the real him.Ā 
No, he’d never be able to be quenched by her life saving presence.Ā 
No, he’d never feel her laughter shaking his bones as if in a musical crescendo.
But even the dimmest and most distant star gave off some light.
Even the last drop in an empty water skin was better than nothing.
Even the memory of a melody could be sweet. True, he would only ever have scraps of her affection. True, he could flirt, and perhaps go even further… but he’d never truly be with her.Ā 
But who was a starving man to deny scraps of sustenance? He’d take what he could have and try to ignore the lingering hunger.Ā 
ā€œPerhaps we should discuss… another suspect?ā€ he prompts, realising how long he’s been silent. How long she had been too, watching him with a strange, concerned look.
She nods, and moves on to their Captain.
Dick is almost relieved when some ten minutes later Oracle calls in a robbery downtown. ā€œWell - sorry Sherlock.ā€ He takes a picture of her board for further study. ā€œI’ll be around next week to continue this discussion, and look over this in my own time till then. Duty calls.ā€ ā€œBe safe,ā€ She says softly, as he’s halfway through the window He looks over his shoulder. ā€œAs you wish.ā€
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allfortheslay25 Ā· 5 months ago
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Bestie, your brain šŸ‘ŒšŸ‘ŒšŸ‘Œ i love all of your aftg au's, mermaid and omegaverse especially. Any headcanons or other things you wish people would ask but haven't/generally be willing to share? Hope you're doing well šŸ’œ
Another au from the secret stash!
All for the Cult
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I hid this one cuz I’m afraid it’d be controversial and up until this week, I hadn’t even shared it with my sister
I actually am writing a fic for it but the fic will not be published until it is completed. I don’t want to risk leaving it in the public on a hiatus so it’s safe with me until I can finish all the chapters
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Basically instead of exy as the base of AFTG, it’s bastardized religion. Exy technically exists but instead of Tetsuji continuing Kayleigh and his pet project, he turns to forming a cult. Exy ends up being a dying sport no one really cares about unless it’s Kevin Day who still plays on the side of his true passion, communing with God.
Neil was a human sacrifice raised for slaughter until his mom took him and ran. Homeless and with no way out, Neil joins Wymack’s staff at his wayward home/church where junkies and sob stories go for their last second chance. No one actually has to pray to god or believe in the Bible’s teachings to work there as it is not a standard church and more like a theater than anything
The more kids Wymack recruits, the longer he gets to keep his church and program at the school
(Also side note but I was doing the comic of andreil but forgot my house looks like a Catholic Church threw up in it so I got awkward and couldn’t finish it)(oh and my sister renamed it all for the debauchery cuz she got to read the altar scene lol)
Key points and fun facts of this au:
- the Ravens are a cult cult instead of a sports cult
- Riko is obsessed with his holy trinity (perfect court)
- The Moriyamas are still a crime unit but Nathan is sort of a satanist on the side (Would like to say mass majority of satanists are not evil or bad, Nathan just is)
- Neil was born as a sacrifice. Mary took him and ran tho before the ritual
- The Foxes are ppl from broken pasts who work at Wymack’s church for scholarship/community service.
- Wymack’s church isn’t a standard catholic kind. He has his own unique spin on it so even those who aren’t religious can still work there. Campus students attend the services to watch the plays, hear the readings, listen to the choir, and some even use the confession box. Some even go to donate as the Foxes are connected to a bunch of charities
- Andrew is not a real priest. The cousins were apprentices for Luther for a couple years to get him off their backs. Because of his experience and eidetic memory, Wymack has Andrew do scripture readings and other tasks. In return, Andrew gets to be off the meds the entire time of mass
- the Foxes attend classes and work shifts at the church in their free time. If they flunk classes or skip church, their scholarship is revoked
- all of the Foxes live in the upstairs rooms above the church
- When Andrew first met Luther, Luther promised to take care of the Cass situation as long as Andrew gave God a try. Andrew only agreed to read the Bible and took Nicky’s since the Hemmicks were worried he’d vandalize a new one. Andrew thought it was a good read but mostly was humored by all of Nicky’s annotations
- Andrew doesn’t care about religion enough to hate it so he’s fine chilling around and hearing the preaching
- When Neil goes to the nest, he agrees to spend those weeks in Riko’s church where he’s ofc tortured. Riko no longer has the desire to sacrifice Neil as long as Neil joins his cult
- Renee holds a Bible study on Sunday evenings and Saturdays so weekends are Andrews days off
- Lots of their readings are done performatively with music, spoken word poetry, or with their own unique spins/translations of the text. (Every mass always starts with a disclaimer that what is being said/shown is their interpretation and not to be taken as the honest god given truth)
- whenever they raise enough money or supplies, the foxes celebrate by getting wasted; Wymack’s treat
- Betsy is still there for mandatory therapy sessions since the point of the scholarship is to rehabilitate troubled youth
- Abby is Wymack’s assistant but she also is a part time nurse
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ihopeyoubothstaysafefromharm Ā· 5 months ago
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art inspired by first watch of night by @tackytigerfic
ā€œRosie!ā€ Harry shouted joyfully from somewhere over their heads, and then they heard a ā€œwoahā€ and the creak of something old and wooden, and looked up just in time to see Harry, holding one of the fencing swords from the training room, balanced on the upper bannister of the mezzanine stairs, his body twisting lithely away from a flashing flurry of something.
hello! this is the first time i’ve done something in my… actual style on here in forever, but what better cause for it than tacky’s new incredible, epic fic. this piece is a gift from @sweet-s0rr0w and @maesterchill!
like the characters of this story, i’m blessed with good friends in every universe i inhabit, especially this one. i was completely swept up by what it must have felt like to be in that library - a heavy, hard-won, sudden happiness, the kind that often appears in tacky’s work. i felt the need to do something that would visually translate the immense detail, whimsy and familiarity of that moment.
the chapter title comes from a wilfred owen poem, and i continued to borrow from him for the piece - the big sigil made by malfoy and rosie, as well as the small ones helping harry and draco duel, are all coded from lines from two of his poems.
from training day:
harry - none else may meet me till I wear my crown
draco - my renown be the clean beauty of speed and pride of style
the big sigil malfoy and rosie are casting comes from owen’s poem the end and it spells out: all death annul, all tears assuage.
i hope you all go and read this incredible story (and tacky's entire back catalog) and i hope you're all happy and safe forever.
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Alpha ATEEZ x Assistant Omega Reader
Warnings: omega reader, alpha ateez, scenting, heats, ruts, slow burn, eventual smut, forced command, more to come!
When Y/n accepts a position as assistant to alpha K-pop group ATEEZ, she's prepared with professional skills and scent blockers to hide her omega status. What she's not prepared for is the immediate, inexplicable connection she feels with all eight members—a resonance that defies her careful boundaries.
As Y/n becomes eerily attuned to their needs, her suppressed omega nature begins to emerge: purring for the first time in years, responding to alpha growls, feeling safe in ways she never has before. When a protective incident reveals the depth of the members' attachment to her, Y/n must confront the possibility that what binds them together is something ancient and profound.
ā€¼ļøNSFW Announcementā€¼ļø This is the only announcement on a chapter I’ll be doing, so if you’re under 18 do not attempt to read from this chapter on. I do not go very mild when I write smut, this is the tamest I’ll be going so if you don’t like it and don’t want it don’t continue. I don’t let you know when smut starts and ends so read with caution. I also know knotting is a big part in a/b/o lore, however I’m not a big fan of it. I mention it, I acknowledge that it’s a thing and respect it but I don’t go into detail. My characters in this don’t wrap it up, it’s not good irl. Always wrap it up! EnjoyšŸ’œ
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Chapter 9: Breaking Point
The week following the pool incident had been a study in escalating tension. Whatever barriers had been holding the members back seemed to have crumbled completely after Hongjoong's public kiss, leaving you navigating a minefield of heated glances, lingering touches, and barely concealed desire from seven different alphas.
Your body felt like it was on fire constantly now. Even with your scent blockers firmly in place, your omega seemed to be responding to their collective alpha attention in ways that left you restless, overheated, and aching for something you couldn't quite name. Sleep had become nearly impossible, your dreams filled with phantom scents and touches that left you waking up disoriented and wanting.
Wooyoung and San had become your constant shadows, their natural affectionate natures now amplified to an almost overwhelming degree. Gone were the casual touches—replaced by deliberate cuddling sessions that left your skin tingling and your heart racing.
"You look tired, Tulip," San had observed just that morning, settling beside you on the couch where you'd been reviewing schedules. Without asking permission, he'd pulled you against his side, his arm wrapping around you with possessive comfort. "Rest for a bit."
The warmth of his body against yours, the steady rhythm of his breathing, should have been soothing. Instead, it had sent electric currents through your nervous system, your omega practically purring at the alpha contact while your rational mind struggled to maintain professional boundaries.
Wooyoung had appeared moments later, as if summoned by some invisible signal, settling on your other side and casually draping his legs across yours. "Group cuddle session?" he'd suggested with that mischievous smile, though his eyes held a heat that had nothing to do with playfulness.
"I'm supposed to be working," you'd protested weakly, even as your body had instinctively relaxed between them.
"Work can wait," Wooyoung had murmured, his fingers beginning to play with strands of your hair. "Taking care of our Tulip is more important."
The possessive "our" had sent a shiver down your spine that both alphas had definitely noticed, judging by their satisfied expressions.
Mingi and Yunho had taken a different approach, but no less effective in driving you to distraction. Every interaction seemed to involve some excuse for physical contact—Mingi's hand on the small of your back as he guided you through doorways, Yunho's fingers brushing yours for just a moment too long when passing you documents.
"You've got an eyelash," Yunho had said yesterday, appearing beside your desk with that bright smile that never failed to make your heart skip. Before you could protest, his thumb had gently brushed against your cheek, the touch so tender it had made your breath catch.
"There," he'd murmured, showing you the non-existent eyelash on his finger. "Make a wish."
The intimacy of the moment, the way his eyes had lingered on your face, had left you speechless and flustered in a way that had clearly pleased him immensely.
Even Jongho and Yeosang, typically the most reserved of the group, had begun showing their interest in ways that surprised you. Jongho had started bringing you small gifts—your favorite coffee in the morning, a book he thought you'd enjoy, a small potted plant for your desk. Each offering came with minimal explanation but maximum impact, his dark eyes studying your reaction with quiet intensity.
Yeosang's approach was more subtle but perhaps more devastating. He'd begun engaging you in deeper conversations, his perceptive observations and thoughtful questions creating an intimacy that was purely intellectual but no less affecting. Yesterday, he'd spent an hour discussing a book you'd both read, his quiet voice and insightful commentary drawing you into a bubble of connection that had felt almost as intimate as physical touch.
"You have a beautiful mind," he'd said as you'd wrapped up the conversation, the simple compliment delivered with such sincerity that it had stayed with you for hours.
And then there was Hongjoong. The leader had become bold in a way that left you constantly on edge, stealing moments whenever you found yourselves alone. A kiss pressed against your temple as he'd leaned over to check something on your computer. His lips brushing your knuckles when you'd handed him a document. Yesterday, he'd cornered you in the supply closet, pressing you against the wall for a kiss that had left you breathless and wanting more.
"I can't stop thinking about the pool," he'd murmured against your lips, his hands framing your face with reverent care. "About how you felt in my arms."
The memory alone was enough to make heat pool low in your belly, your omega responding to his alpha presence with an intensity that sometimes frightened you.
But it was Seonghwa's behavior that confused you most. The eldest member seemed to be the only one maintaining his distance, though you often caught him watching you with an expression you couldn't quite decipher. There was warmth in his gaze, certainly, and something that might have been longing, but he kept himself carefully apart from the increasingly bold advances of his packmates.
The contradiction was maddening. You found yourself craving his touch, his attention, in a way that seemed disproportionate to his reserved behavior. Sometimes you caught him looking at you with such intensity that your skin would flush, but he never acted on whatever he was feeling, maintaining that friendly but professional distance that left you wondering if you were imagining the heat in his gaze.
Your omega was becoming increasingly agitated by the mixed signals, by the constant state of arousal without resolution. Your scent blocker felt like both a necessity and a prison—protecting your secret while preventing you from fully experiencing the alpha pheromones that your body was clearly craving.
You'd started having moments where you seriously considered removing the blocker, just to see what would happen. The thought terrified and thrilled you in equal measure. What would it be like to smell Hongjoong's scent?!Wooyoung's ? San's? How would they react to your own scent of jasmine and vanilla?
But fear always won out. Fear of changing the dynamic irrevocably, of complicating your professional relationship, of facing the reality of what you all seemed to be building toward.
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Tonight, that careful balance finally shattered.
You'd retreated to the guesthouse early, claiming exhaustion from the day's packed schedule. In reality, you'd reached your limit for alpha attention without resolution, your body feeling like a live wire from the constant state of arousal their touches and glances induced.
You'd taken a cold shower, hoping to calm your overheated system, but even that hadn't helped. Now you sat on your bed in just a oversized t-shirt and shorts, your skin still feeling too sensitive, too aware. Every nerve ending seemed attuned to the main house across the garden, to the eight alphas who had somehow become the center of your universe.
The sharp knock on your door made you jump, your heart immediately racing. It was nearly ten PM—late for casual visits, but you'd learned that normal rules didn't seem to apply to your relationship with the members anymore.
"Come in," you called, expecting perhaps Hongjoong with another stolen moment, or maybe Seonghwa checking on your wellbeing with his characteristic concern.
Instead, Wooyoung burst through the door with the barely contained energy of someone who'd reached his breaking point. His hair was disheveled as if he'd been running his hands through it, his eyes bright with something between desperation and determination.
"I can't do this anymore," he announced without preamble, his voice rough with emotion. "I can't pretend that what's happening between us is normal. I can't keep playing these games where we touch and flirt and dance around what we all know is true."
You stood slowly from the bed, your heart hammering against your ribs as you took in his appearance. There was something wild about him tonight, something unleashed that sent both thrill and alarm through your system.
"Wooyoung," you began carefully, "what are you—"
"I'm talking about this," he interrupted, gesturing between you with frustrated energy. "About the way you look at me, at all of us. About the way your pulse races when I touch you. About the way you practically melted into Hongjoong in that pool."
Heat flooded your cheeks at his words, at the accuracy of his observations. "I don't know what you—"
"Don't," he said firmly, taking a step closer. "Don't pretend you don't feel it. Don't lie to me, to yourself, about what's happening here." His voice dropped to that register that always made your omega sit up and take notice. "I see how you watch us, Tulip. I see how you respond to our touch. And I know you want this as much as we do."
Your breath caught in your throat as he moved closer, the space between you shrinking with each step. "Wooyoung, we can't—this is complicated—"
"Why?" he demanded, stopping just inches away from you. "Because you work for us? Because there are eight of us? Because it doesn't fit into neat little boxes that society approves of?"
You could feel the heat radiating from his body, could see the golden flecks starting to appear in his eyes as his alpha nature responded to the charged atmosphere between you. Your own omega was practically vibrating with need, with the desire to close the distance between you, consequences be damned.
"Because I'm not who you think I am," you whispered, the admission slipping out before you could stop it.
Wooyoung's expression softened slightly, his hand coming up to cup your cheek with surprising gentleness. "Then tell me who you are. Tell me what you're hiding. Tell me why you think it matters more than this."
His thumb brushed across your lower lip, and you couldn't suppress the small gasp that escaped at the contact. The sound seemed to break whatever restraint he'd been clinging to.
"Fuck it," he muttered, and then his lips were on yours.
The kiss was everything you'd been craving and more—desperate, passionate, claiming. His hands tangled in your hair as he pulled you closer, his body pressing against yours with an urgency that matched your own. You melted into him, your hands fisting in his shirt as you kissed him back with equal fervor.
This wasn't the playful, teasing Wooyoung you'd grown accustomed to. This was pure alpha, pure need, pure desire finally unleashed.
When you finally broke apart, both breathing hard, his eyes were fully golden, the alpha glow unmistakable in the dim lighting of your bedroom.
"There," he said, his voice rough with satisfaction and desire. "No more pretending. No more games. Now tell me you don't feel it too."
Looking into his transformed eyes, feeling the way your body hummed with rightness at his touch, you realized that your carefully constructed walls had finally crumbled completely. There was no going back from this moment, no returning to the professional distance you'd tried so hard to maintain.
"I feel it," you whispered, the admission both terrifying and liberating. "I feel all of it. With all of you."
Wooyoung's smile was triumphant and tender as he laid you down. His breathing hard above you, radiating energy and satisfaction, but the hunger in his gaze said he was far from done.
He pulled back just enough to drag his shirt off, tossing it somewhere into the darkness, before returning to you—his bare chest warm against your skin. His hands settled at your hips and he tugged at the waistband of your shorts; there was no pretense of patience, just a raw urgency as he peeled them away, taking your underwear with them.
ā€œBeautiful,ā€ he breathed, eyes devouring every newly revealed inch, heat and reverence warring there. ā€œWish I could breathe you in—wish I could drown in your scentā€”ā€ He cut himself off, frustration flaring, but his hands were sure as he spread your legs, kneeling between them. ā€œGuess I’ll just have to taste you instead.ā€
Then his mouth was on you. The first slow drag of his tongue from your entrance up to your clit was deliberate—so, so deliberate—and your hips tried to jerk from the bed in answer. Wooyoung growled, low in his throat, holding you down as his tongue circled, flicked, lapped, learning your responses by sound and the tremors in your thighs.
The world narrowed to sensation: the heat of his tongue, the tease of his lips, his hair against your inner thighs, rough and ticklish. He was messy about it—no smooth choreography, just hunger and intent, making up for everything he couldn’t sense with pure appetite. You whimpered his name, fingers curling in the sheets, desperate for anything to ground you.
He sucked your clit into his mouth, humming at your cry, then licked deeper—his tongue broad and hot, relentless—until there was only the build and build of pleasure, white-hot and unbearable. You were loud now, uncaring, every cry a thank you and a plea.
He only stopped when your thighs trembled against his cheeks, when you pleaded, broken-voiced, ā€œWooyoung, please—please, I need—I needā€”ā€
He growled ā€œLet go. Now Tulip.ā€
You shattered with a cry, your whole body shaking.
When you finally catch your breath, body limp and aglow from Wooyoung’s unrestrained attention, you prop yourself on your elbows to look down at him. His hair is wild, lips slick and red, eyes smoky with pride and adoration—a little bit wrecked and loving it. The sight ignites something bold inside you.
Without breaking eye contact, you reach for him, fingers curling into his hair to bring him up, capturing his lips in a hungry, grateful kiss. You taste yourself on him and he moans into your mouth as if he’s never wanted anything more. You pull him close, rolling so you’re on top, knees bracketing his hips.
He laughs softly, surprised and delighted, letting his head sink back into the pillows. ā€œOh?ā€ His hands settle on your thighs, stroking them encouragingly. ā€œYou wanna take over, Tulip?ā€
You smile, feeling a thrill at the way his voice—husky and playful—wraps around you. ā€œYeah,ā€ you murmur. ā€œI want you like this.ā€
He bites his lower lip, a flush creeping up his throat as he looks at you spread over him. ā€œWhatever you want, I’m yours tonight,ā€ he whispers. ā€œShow me what my Tulip wants.ā€
Your heart thuds, but the words make you bold. You drag your palms slowly down his torso, watching him gasp and arch into you, sensitive and eager for more.
You shift, settling between his legs, and slide your hands down until you’re hooking your fingers into the waistband of his sweatpants. Wooyoung lifts his hips with a helpless little sound. ā€œTake ā€˜em off,ā€ he pleads, needy but so gentle. ā€œI want to feel you—your hands, your mouth, whatever you want to give. Please, baby.ā€
You oblige, slowly, teasing him with little grazes of your nails as you drag the fabric away. His cock is heavy and flushed, impossibly hard, and your mouth waters at the sight. The urge to please him, to unravel him as thoroughly as he did you, takes over.
You wrap your hand around him, just enough to make him hiss, then look up through your lashes. ā€œTell me what you like, Wooyoung.ā€
He groans, his head tipping back, eyes dark gold with want. ā€œTouch me—just like that. A little tighter, ah—yeah, that’s good—I love the way your hands feel on me.ā€ He cards his fingers through your hair, not pushing, just anchoring.
You stroke him, noting every twitch, every whispered curse. He’s unguarded with you, rolling his hips into your hand, whispering encouragements: ā€œYou—fuck, you’re so pretty like this. You look so good between my legs, Tulip. You have no idea what you do to me.ā€
You lean down, brushing the head of his cock with your lips, then your tongue, just a soft swirl. He shivers, his hand tightening in your hair. ā€œGod, yes—just like that, baby…take your time. Don’t rush. I just want to feel you.ā€
You tease him, kitten-licks at first, loving the way he gasps—so responsive, so vocal for you. You trace the vein along the underside, stroke him with your tongue, taking him in slowly, feeling the heat and weight of him on your lips.
Wooyoung’s voice becomes your guide, a constant thread of affirmation. ā€œThat’s it, yeah…ah, you’re driving me fucking crazy. You look incredible—don’t stop, please, don’t stop.ā€
You work your mouth and hand together, building a rhythm, watching his face for every clue—he’s a mess for you, eyes squeezed shut, sweat beading at his brow, chest heaving with every ragged breath. You hum around him, and he bucks his hips, barely holding back.
Suddenly, urgency overtakes him. ā€œWait—wait—slow down, I don’t wanna come yet, not so fastā€”ā€ He pulls your hair gently, guiding you off him, then dragging you up for a breathless kiss. ā€œYou’re gonna make me lose my mind,ā€ he pants, nuzzling into your neck, ā€œYou’re perfect. So fucking perfect. I wanna last, I wanna remember every second with you.ā€
You giggle against his throat, giddy with power and affection, and grind your hips gently against his thigh. Wooyoung moans, hands sliding down to squeeze your waist, his cock pressed between you, slippery and aching. You reach down, stroking him again.Ā 
You sink back down, taking him in hand and mouth once more, working him with careful, practiced flicks, all the while basking in his praise. ā€œYeah—fuck, yeah, you’re so good, Tulip…your mouth—your hands—can’t believe you’re doing this for me, letting me have you like this.ā€
When he starts to grow restless, hips flexing, you stroke him a little harder, licking the sensitive spot just beneath the tip. His breath stutters, his hand a tangle in your hair.
ā€œClose—so close—baby, you gonna let me?ā€ His words are a shudder, trembling with vulnerability and hope. ā€œGonna let me come for you? Want you to see, want you to know it’s you—only youā€”ā€
You hum your ā€˜yes’ and don’t let up, watching him unravel, pushed to the edge by just your mouth, your hand, and the knowledge that he’s yours to wreck, to comfort, to love. He groans your name—a long, strangled sound—and spills in your mouth and over your fingers, hips jerking upward.
He’s shaking in the aftermath, loose and glowing and utterly undone. You swallow, then crawl up to kiss his flushed cheek, his jaw, his lips. Wooyoung gathers you into his arms, pulling you close as if he never wants to let go.
ā€œYou’re amazing,ā€ he whispers, brushing stray hair from your forehead, thumb stroking your cheek. ā€œThank you. I could do this forever with you. I want to.ā€
He kisses you soft and deep, then lets his hand drift, stroking your back, grounding you both. In the quiet that follows, his voice makes you feel cherished, safe, and wanted—exactly as you are.
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scariusaquarius Ā· 6 months ago
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rehab.
Avenger! Bucky Barnes x Winter Soldier! Fem! Reader
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Summary: While on a mission to find any more possible super soldiers that were a part of the Winter Soldier program, Steve and Bucky make a discovery in an abandoned HYDRA base that was cleared out a few years prior to their mission. They discover the Reader, a long-forgotten soldier that was still asleep within a functioning cryostasis pod; still awaiting orders. While Bucky isn't happy about it, he is put up to the challenge of helping to rehabilitate the soldier in Wakanda where she may be able to become a person again.
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A/n: I couldn't help myself. I really think it would be cool to navigate Bucky's mind within a situation like this, so I really hope that this takes off honestly. I saw another writer on AO3 (@sunny_shadows, PLEASE check out their work, Shattered Under Midnight, it is fucking phenomenal) do story notes and explanations after the chapter, so I wanted to try that out as well! I am NOT fluent in Russian, so I did use google translate cause I couldn't find a good translator that I trusted. If anything is wrong, PLEASE let me know!! Also, I tried to list as many warnings as possible so you know what the story will contain as chapters are posted. Stay safe!
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Genre: Slowburn, Enemies to Lovers/Friends to Lovers, Angst, Hurt/Comfort, Fluff, Humor, Drama, Dark Content Rated: Explicit Warning: Angst, Dark Content: Graphic Depictions of Sexual Assault, Blood and Gore, Mentions of Manipulation, Kidnapping, Canon-Typical Violence, Body Horror, Nonconsensual Body Modification/Scarring, Emotional and Physical Abuse, Mentions of Murder, Mentions of Suicidal Thoughts/Ideation, Graphic Depictions of Human Remains, Mentions of Sexual Coercion/Manipulation, Death, Misuse of Drugs/Forced Drugging, Self-Harm (Graphic Depictions and Mentions), Nightmares
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Author: ScariusAquarius
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Cryogenic frost was a completely different kind of frost. It was invasive; delving into every crack and crevice that it could; went into every orifice possible until you were cold from deep within. It hit you internally first; freezing your organs and bones first before it began to spread out to the muscles and tendons and fat of the human body.
It was uncomfortable, and when it was time to come out of the pod; the melting frost left behind such uncomfortable feelings that would have you desperately messing with your ears until the melted frost drained.
Don't even get Bucky started on the way his balls felt after.
It was an all-around uncomfortable feeling; disorienting and sickening that Bucky could recall some times when he would be taken out of cryo that he would throw up from the vertigo and aching that would come from deep within.
Even now, he could feel the tresses of nausea poking at his stomach as he stared up at the cryostasis pod that was steaming as it opened.
"You know, I think I vaguely remember telling you that I wasn't the only Winter Soldier...and I thought Zemo had killed the remaining Winter Soldier's back in Siberia."
His tone was annoyed, accusing, and the response that Bucky got back didn't make him feel any better about what his old-time friend was doing.
"Well, it seems Zemo was lying or he just wasn't aware that there were more soldier's within the program."
Steve then sighed as Bucky continued to stare at him, his brow furrowed deeply and making Steve return the look.
"Listen, with HYDRA being gone from these facilities, someone needs to rescue these people and rehabilitate them...just like we did with you."
Bucky's brow creased, and he was unrelenting as he turned to Steve, shaking his head.
"You don't understand. Without a handler, some of them can't be rehabilitated. I've trained these people, Steve, there's no getting through to them."
"We got through to you, didn't we? Besides, it wouldn't be right to leave these people in these pods like this."
Bucky's lips pursed and he spun around to face the cryostasis again, his metal arm whirring as the plates shifted; ready for a fight.
"That was different. You were my friend before everything...these people don't have anybody to bring them back."
Steve was quiet, concentrating on the pod. Slowly, a form began to show; boots, familiar leather pants, the same vest, and the same mask. Bucky couldn't help the tightening in his chest when he realized that the person in the pod wasn't just a Winter Soldier: they seemed to be a young woman; their hair becoming wet as the frost within it began to melt.
Beside the pod was a black book; most likely with notes about who the Soldier was and how to activate them, and Steve asked gently as the Soldier opened their eyes.
"Do we need to use the book?"
"I don't know."
Bucky was taken back by the brilliant (e/c) eyes that flicked to him for a moment before looking straight; and when the woman tried to take a step, they began to crumple to the ground. Steve jumped over the control center to catch them, giving Bucky a slightly miffed look as Bucky's feet stayed planted to the ground.
It was too familiar; too known, and Bucky was uncomfortable. He watched as Steve dragged the woman to a chair and sat her down, asking her.
"Hello, are you alright?"
She was unmoving and unblinking, staring straight ahead like a good soldier should and Bucky swallowed thickly, shaking his head. Steve asked her again, but Bucky shook his head a little more.
"She's not going to answer. You're not her handler."
"Okay, then how do we get through to her?"
Bucky pursed his lips, sighing heavily before he stood in front of the woman.
"ŃƒŠŗŠ°Š¶ŠøŃ‚Šµ свое обозначение."
Her eyes came to life for a moment, glancing up at Bucky with a look that he knew all-too-well before she glanced back down; clenching her jaw.
"Зимний ДолГат."
Bucky sighed deeply, rubbing his temples slightly, and Steve just observed, his blue eyes curious as he glanced between the two of them. Bucky then took the black book, noting the way the woman's shoulders seemed to square slightly; muscles in her neck tensing, and Bucky felt sick to his stomach. He handed it to Steve, muttering.
"There might be some information in here about her. If not, we'll look into the files we downloaded...if we have time."
Steve nodded, and Bucky turned to the woman again, asking.
"Что ты помнишь?"
"ŠŠµŠ²Š¾Š·Š¼Š¾Š¶Š½Š¾ Š·Š°Š²ŠµŃ€ŃˆŠøŃ‚ŃŒ. Š”Š»Ń Š²Ń‹ŠæŠ¾Š»Š½ŠµŠ½ŠøŃ ŠøŠ½ŃŃ‚Ń€ŃƒŠŗŃ†ŠøŠ¹ необхоГимы Š“Š¾ŠæŠ¾Š»Š½ŠøŃ‚ŠµŠ»ŃŒŠ½Ń‹Šµ Ń€Š°Š·ŃŠŃŃŠ½ŠµŠ½ŠøŃ."
Bucky frowned again, muttering to himself before he asked.
"Что ты помнишь переГ тем, как Ń‚ŠµŠ±Ń уложили ŃŠæŠ°Ń‚ŃŒ?"
Her jaw clenched again, and this time, she seemed hesitant to answer. Her eyes flicked up to Bucky, and he could see the uncomfortable look she was giving him within her eyes. The person that was in there was trying to respond; trying to tell him, but the programming wasn't allowing her to answer. Fear flashed in her eyes from the inability to complete his request, and Bucky could feel his throat trying to close up.
HYDRA was getting better at their programming, it seemed.
"I'm not going to hurt you if you're unable to answer. We are not HYDRA."
Confusion flashed within her eyes though her expression never wavered, and Steve stepped forward.
"We're with the Avengers...do you know who we are?"
"ŠŠµŠ²Š¾Š·Š¼Š¾Š¶Š½Š¾ Š·Š°Š²ŠµŃ€ŃˆŠøŃ‚ŃŒ. Š¢Ń€ŠµŠ±ŃƒŠµŃ‚ŃŃ Š“Š¾ŠæŠ¾Š»Š½ŠøŃ‚ŠµŠ»ŃŒŠ½Š°Ń Š°ŃƒŃ‚ŠµŠ½Ń‚ŠøŃ„ŠøŠŗŠ°Ń†ŠøŃ."
Steve turned to Bucky and suggested, crossing his arms slightly.
"This might be a job for Shuri. We should contact King T'Challa and set out for Wakanda as soon as possible."
Bucky pursed his lips before he turned to the woman, her fists clenched slightly.
"ДлеГуй за мной, солГат. Š£ Š¼ŠµŠ½Ń ŠµŃŃ‚ŃŒ Š“Š»Ń Ń‚ŠµŠ±Ń Š¼ŠøŃŃŠøŃ."
She stood up immediately, her eyes becoming dead again as the programming within her mind forced her to follow the commands of The Winter Soldier.
"Готов ŃŠ¾Š±Š»ŃŽŠ“Š°Ń‚ŃŒ."
Bucky hated it. He hated this feeling; of being the one on the opposite side of the glass; giving orders and handling. While Bucky had trained many super soldiers before, he wasn't ever a Handler like Brock Rumlow or Alexander Pierce. He was another instrument; another tool that just had higher privileges because of his compliance and performance record.
He had learned early on that resistance was futile and met with much harsher consequences.
No, the Winter Soldier's only purpose was to serve HYDRA and to further their cause. That was all. Anything that didn't involve a mission was null. He, among others like him, were only meant to serve the purpose of HYDRA and HYDRA alone.
But he hadn't activated her nor told her that he was her handler, so why was the soldier complying?
Was it possible that the woman had been frozen long enough that the programming was malfunctioning? Was she just assuming that Bucky was her handler because of his arm?
Or was it possible that she was faking it on pre-existing orders given before she was put under.
Bucky glanced over his shoulder at the soldier, the woman's eyes still just as dead-looking as they had been before; looking straight ahead. For a moment, however, her eyes flicked to his, and Bucky frowned before he turned to Steve, muttering.
"I have a bad feeling about this."
Steve's brow was furrowed, lips slightly pursed as he glanced over at Bucky, worry within his eyes.
"You having a bad feeling is never a great sign."
Bucky almost scoffed, but refrained from doing-so; elaborating on his thoughts about the situation instead.
"I never gave her any indication that I was her handler nor did I activate her. What if she has pre-existing orders?"
Steve frowned, his tone becoming more hushed as he walked a bit closer to Bucky.
"Are you saying that she's a threat?"
"Any Winter Soldier is a threat, but I don't know if she's an active threat or not is the problem. She's blankly following orders...either someone gave her a mission before she was put under or...it's possible she thinks that I am still...with HYDRA. We should be careful."
Steve glanced back behind him to look at the woman before glancing down at the black book within his hands. As the three of them walked to the quinjet, Steve instructed Bucky as he sat down at the controls.
"You go ahead and get her strapped in and call Shuri. I'm going to see if there's anything in here about who she is and where she came from."
Bucky nodded before he turned to the woman who was standing in the middle of the jet; rigid and unmoving. Bucky sighed slightly before instructing.
"ŠŸŃ€ŠøŃŠ°Š¶ŠøŠ²Š°Š¹Ń‚ŠµŃŃŒ."
Wordlessly, the soldier sat down, strapping herself into one of the seats, and Bucky took a long glance at her. To a normal; outside perspective, it would look as though she was completely still and robotic. It would seem as though she wasn't even breathing; a blank stare to the opposite wall and deathly still.
However, to a fellow soldier, Bucky could tell that there was something on the woman's mind. The soldier's fists were clenched as they rested upon the top of her thighs, eyebrow furrowed just slightly, and Bucky could tell that her feet were fidgeting inconspicuously.
If Bucky didn't know any better, he'd say that the woman seemed nervous.
But what about?
Bucky wasn't able to ponder the thought any longer. Instead, he simply just looked ahead and began to call Shuri, hoping that this wasn't going to end up in a fight.
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STORY NOTES: In the beginning, Bucky is remembering what it was like to be put into a cryostasis pod. He recalls that it was uncomfortable and that the frost and ice seem to penetrate every orifice possible, which is extremely uncomfortable when being thawed.
Then, it is revealed that Bucky and Steve Rogers are on a mission to find any remaining super soldiers that were a part of the Winter Soldier program that weren't killed by Zemo, which Bucky is apprehensive about but Steve is adamant on doing.
The soldier within the cryostasis pod then awakens after being thawed, seeming to be completely blank. When Steve tries to make contact, the soldier does not respond, leaving Bucky to resort to acting as a Handler, finally getting responses out of the soldier.
While trying to ask the soldier for information, Bucky is unable to get anything useful from the woman. He makes an educated guess that HYDRA had further adapted their programming, making it difficult to make the soldier talk without having to completely activate them.
Steve decides to take a trip to Wakanda to see Shuri and T'Challa so they can rehabilitate the soldier just as they did with Bucky, but Bucky begins to think that the soldier is a threat due to their compliance despite Bucky not activating them nor introducing himself as their handler.
Bucky makes a final observation, noting that the woman seems nervous, though Bucky is unable to figure out what about. He speculates further that there could be foul play, and is unhappy at the possibility of a fight. End Scene.
TRANSLATIONS:
ŃƒŠŗŠ°Š¶ŠøŃ‚Šµ свое обозначение - Indicate/State your Designation
Зимний ДолГат - Winter Soldier
Что ты помнишь - What do you remember?
ŠŠµŠ²Š¾Š·Š¼Š¾Š¶Š½Š¾ Š·Š°Š²ŠµŃ€ŃˆŠøŃ‚ŃŒ. Š”Š»Ń Š²Ń‹ŠæŠ¾Š»Š½ŠµŠ½ŠøŃ ŠøŠ½ŃŃ‚Ń€ŃƒŠŗŃ†ŠøŠ¹ необхоГимы Š“Š¾ŠæŠ¾Š»Š½ŠøŃ‚ŠµŠ»ŃŒŠ½Ń‹Šµ Ń€Š°Š·ŃŠŃŃŠ½ŠµŠ½ŠøŃ - Unable to complete. Further clarification is required to complete the instructions.
Что ты помнишь переГ тем, как Ń‚ŠµŠ±Ń уложили ŃŠæŠ°Ń‚ŃŒ - What do you remember before you were put to bed/sleep?
ŠŠµŠ²Š¾Š·Š¼Š¾Š¶Š½Š¾ Š·Š°Š²ŠµŃ€ŃˆŠøŃ‚ŃŒ. Š¢Ń€ŠµŠ±ŃƒŠµŃ‚ŃŃ Š“Š¾ŠæŠ¾Š»Š½ŠøŃ‚ŠµŠ»ŃŒŠ½Š°Ń Š°ŃƒŃ‚ŠµŠ½Ń‚ŠøŃ„ŠøŠŗŠ°Ń†ŠøŃ - Unable to comply. Additional authentication required.
ДлеГуй за мной, солГат. Š£ Š¼ŠµŠ½Ń ŠµŃŃ‚ŃŒ Š“Š»Ń Ń‚ŠµŠ±Ń Š¼ŠøŃŃŠøŃ - Follow me, soldier. I have a mission for you.
Готов ŃŠ¾Š±Š»ŃŽŠ“Š°Ń‚ŃŒ - Ready to comply.
ŠŸŃ€ŠøŃŠ°Š¶ŠøŠ²Š°Š¹Ń‚ŠµŃŃŒ - Have a seat.
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scoonsalicious Ā· 1 year ago
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Unwanted Masterlist
Pairing: Bucky Barnes x Avenger!Fem!Reader
Summary: When your FWB relationship with your best friend Bucky Barnes turns into something more, you couldn't be happier. That is, however, until a new Avenger sets her sights on your super soldier and he inadvertently breaks your heart. You take on a mission you might not be prepared for to put some distance between the two of you and open yourself up to past traumas. Too bad the only one who can help you heal is the one person you can no longer trust. Completed.
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Warnings: 18+ Minors: GTFO; I don’t serve your kind here.
"*" indicates explicit sexual content (each chapter will feature its own warnings as needed), language, alcohol/drug use, drunk!Bucky, drunk!/high!Reader, pick-me!oc, angst, mentions of CSA, angst, emotional affair, angst, physical infidelity (dependent on your pov), canon-level violence, emotional trauma, did I mention angst?, some fluffy moments, destructive behavior, injury, medical conditions, poorly translated Russian, unprotected anonymous sex, murder, minor oc character death, mentions of SA and torture, underage drug use, mentions of sex trafficking, mention of child injury.
More will be added as the story progresses, and some chapters will have specific warnings that I will keep under wraps to avoid spoilers. When we get to those sections, I will let you know, so if there is a specific trigger that you absolutely cannot handle, let me know and I will tell you if the section is safe. As always, please let me know if I miss any warnings.
Word Count: 155.2k
A/N: And here I present unto you, my beloved, the fruit of my labors these many past moons. Seven months in the making. My magnum opus.
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