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[cosmickid-inmotion]

When You Build Your House, Then Call Me Home

Frankie Morales x AFAB!Fem!Reader

Masterlist : Triple Frontier Masterlist

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Summary: You are pregnant, and don't want to be.

Warnings: Abortion. Addiction. Explicit mentions of drug use. Pregnancy ofc.

A/N: Thank you to my beloved @toxicanonymity for encouraging me with this, and for being so outspoken about abortion access, how it effects lgbt, poor, and POC people different, sharing resources for access etc. Thank you to EVERYONE in this tumblr fanfiction community who has come together to make it clear they do think abortion is murder, and it is healthcare. I don't know who all has personal reasons, but I do.

A/N2: This fic is from the perspective of "I want this with you, but now now" I plan to write another of the perspective of "we know we both dont want kids, it's an easy choice, but all these factors (protestors, medical lies etc) make it harder" Sometimes it's a difficult choice to abort. Sometimes it isn't

Resources and some myths linked

Enough yapping.

***

You couldn’t look at the test results. 

On the floor of the bathroom, you stared up at the counter where the blue tip hung off the edge. You still had piss on your fingers from taking it, and you were pretty sure there was still coke on the counter from last weekend’s rager. God knows you’d been too high or in a stupor to do anything but drag yourself to work. Frankie was too far in the same state to clean either. It’d been going like this for months, worse and worse every week…

Now was not the time for a baby. 

By the time you heard Frankie’s voice approach, it was too late to realize you hadn’t locked the door.

“And Ben says he-” Frankie stopped, a look of concern on his face at seeing you dead-eyed on the bathroom floor; the room was so small, the door opening grazed your toes. “I gotta go, she’s taking a pregnancy test.” Yup, definitely high if he’s saying that outloud to Santi.

‘Wait, what-’ But Frankie hung up, practically throwing his phone blindly. It clattered against the sink as Frankie dropped to his knees. The cheap linoleum floors that had been bubbling up creaked under him.

“Baby…” He hands on your bunched up knees. “You’re pregnant?”

You wish you could say you felt anything at the confirmation of your fears, but you knew already. In your gut, you knew. “That what it said?” You let go a breath when he nods.

“Two lines, right?” His gaze is unsteady, but it’s soft. You reach out, guiding him to sit down for fear he’s going to fall over. You both confirm each other: yes, it showed two lines. Yes, two lines mean pregnant. A smile grew on his face. “We’re having a baby.”

But instead of warmth, your face whips to him. “We can’t have a baby, Frankie.”

Confusion blisters his face. “I mean… there is one. Already.”

“It’s not a baby.” You snap at him. “It’s a fetus. And we don’t have to have it.”

Whatever he’s on that created the cloud lifted. His face fell. “Oh. Right.”

Tears prickled at your eyes, feeling like he was disappointed in you. “Francisco Morales, don’t you dare make me feel guilty about this.”

Frankie scrambles to sit up, unsteady but his eyes wide with worry. “I’m not! Baby, I’m not, I swear.” He was earnest. You know where Frankie stood on abortion; your body, your choice. You also know you and him talked so often about having children together, this must be a shock.  He takes a hand, kissing your knuckle. You don’t tell him you haven't washed yet. Might be the wrong hand anyway, you are sure anymore. “I just think… we could do this, you know? I’ll get sober, we can get sober. I’ll get a real fucking job, stop the parties… Santi said we could stay with him for a bit if we were sober… save up a little for the baby?”

You would need to save up a lot more than a little. You had $27.53 in your bank right now. You sigh. “Frankie…”

“I bet he’d let us stay a while too. Will could probably help me get some help at the VA”

Your eyes close. “Frankie.”

“Ben might know a good job too, if I’m sober. He knows a lot of peo-”

“Frankie!” Your voice is louder than you want it to be. You grip his hand back, only realizing your nails are digging into his skin. You wonder if he can even feel it.

“We can’t have a baby right now! No amount of help from your friend is going to change the fact we are drug addicts. We can’t just- we can’t quit magically! It takes time! I’m what, 4 weeks? How much fucking drugs do you think I’ve had already? I can’t go through withdrawals and detox like this! I can’t be a new mom and be what, 8 months sober? Jesus Frankie, you aren’t even supposed to start a new relationship until into sobriety minimum! You think a baby is better?” His eyes are large and sad, but understanding is seeping in. “I’m high right now, Frankie.” You couldn’t take the test sober.

The reality settled onto his face. Still holding your hand, he sat beside you this time. You both looked out the open door, to the cracked wall of the studio apartment. 

“Yeah. I am too.” A beat before he spoke, a little more steady now. “You’re right. It’s not my choice to make, but I support you. It’s the right choice.”

You rest your head on Frankie’s shoulder. He’s thinner than he used to be, but still strong. “I want this life with you. I do. I love you, more than anything I’ve ever known, my sweet, sweet man. I’m not keeping it… but are you serious about getting sober?”

“Yes.” He was firm, definitive. His head rested on yours. “I’ll get sober.”

A deep breath. “We’ll have to ask Santi to visit him. I’m probably at 6 weeks. Heartbeat. All that.”

He nods. “He’ll understand.” And you knew he would. Santi lived in a blue state. They’d keep it under wraps, only tell Santi. They wouldn’t even really need to tell Santi at all, but you’d want to stay a few days to recover and you felt wrong doing that without explanation. Besides, you weren’t ashamed. It was healthcare, and you were doing what’s best for you. For Frankie. For your lives and family together.

“I want a family with you. Children.” You blurt out. “We can do it. I know we can. We’re gonna get better.”

Frankie kissed the top of your head. “Yeah baby, you’re gonna get better.”

*

Santi is driving. You and Frankie in the back seat. Suitcases in the trunk.

It was your drop off first. St. Monica’s would help you through detox, something Frankie was scared to leave you alone for. He’d held you through many before, but this was something you had to go alone. You’d had your abortion, and Santi wanted to help you guys get on your feet. Santi would take Frankie to his treatment center next. After giving you a hug and a sincere goodbye, he sat in the car while Frankie held you.

“I’m gonna get better for us, okay baby? I’m gonna be the man you need, from now on.”

Tears wet the flannel your face was buried into.

“Me too. We’re better together, as a team. We’re gonna be there for each other. Always.”

His hug was tight enough it felt like he might never let go. He never did, not really. When you focused on getting better, it wasn’t always easy in the rehab center… But when you closed your eyes, you could still feel that last hug, and you knew he’d be right there waiting when you both got out. Better, and ready to start a new life.

***

It's not a heartbeat

Abortion resources (thanks Tox and @dark-scape for sharing these)

LGBT and abortion

Abortion as an economic issue

Where to donate

Indigenous women rising rain fund

Adriana Smith fundraiser

Other perspectives

Indigenous perspective on abortion

Reform Judism perspective on abortion

Asian countries and abortion

Progressive christian pro choice

Islam and abortion (Debate among leaders, but generally more open than the fear mongering right would have you beleive. I know less about these arguments than I do Christianity and Judaism, so if anyone else has resources hmu.)

Thank you all for reading! I'll keep my asks open for now incase anyone wants to share their story but if I get nonsense, I'm closing it.

You won't change my mind on abortion. I co-founded an anti-choice youth group as a teen. I know all the talking points, propaganda, and lies. I changed my mind.

If you got the abortion you wanted, I'm proud of you.

Shout out Haru bc when I sent this header to the server you asked if frankie was having an abortion and given my toe dipped into mpreg i wouldn't put it past me.

to show I’m putting my money where my mouth is I may respond to comments but im largly on hiatus still i just felt the need to post this today.

regular tags (i know this can be triggering or not someones cup of tea so its okay to not read!): @my-secret-shame-but-fanfiction @pedge-page @hornystan @mani-pedro @femmeanonymelives

[mrs-hatake]

Dating Both Kakashi and Gojo hcs

Pairing: Kakashi x F!Reader & Gojo x F!Reader ⟡ Genre: fluff, wholesomeness, friends to lovers ⟡ O.D.P (Original Date of Publication): November 24th, 2020

A/N: I wrote this ages ago so i don't find it to be suuupperr accurate, esp when i got to know the characters better. but i thought i'd share this nonetheless :)

Kakashi

Being a very busy shinobi, Kakashi really values those rare moments where he can return home and unwind after a long mission. He doesn’t mind what he does in his free time but he prefers when things are peaceful and quiet. So, book dates are to be expected. You’ll find yourself at his apartment, both of you sharing a couch. He’s lounging lazily at the edge of the couch with his arm on the arm rest, his favorite copy of Icha Icha in his hand. Your head is on his lap, a copy of your favorite book is in your hand. You let out a sigh of contempt at the way he delicately runs his fingers through your hair. Sometimes, you’d fall asleep from pure bliss.

You dont go out on dates often due to your busy schedules but when he does take you out on one, they’re memorable. You don’t go to fancy restaurants but it’s enough to satisfy your needs for an outing. Plus, Kakashi always knows the best restaurants that has the tastiest food you’ve ever had.

Kakashi is the kind of boyfriend who would randomly drop by your office when he needs to escape team 7. He’ll lounge around, look over your shoulder to read whatever paperwork You’re working on and, when he’s in the mood for it, massage your shoulders to help ease out any tensions. Those types of visits don’t last very long because team seven always manages to find their sensei within half an hour.

Night time strolls are a must in your relationship. you don’t have any specific destinations but the lanterns adorning the village and the way the stars twinkle were very captivating. It can get very quiet, though it’s not awkward. Your pinkies would be linked and there’s a slight sway in your arms. When it gets slightly chilly, you snuggle up to Kakashi, your body practically glued to his. he would chuckle before clasping his hand with yours and stuffing your hands in his pocket for extra warmth.

Kakashi is the kind of man who would comfort you during your anxiety attacks by wrapping his big arms around you and burying his nose deep into your hair as his hands glide down your body in a soothing manner, whispering words of reassurance in your ear.

At some point in your relationship, when he trusts you enough and feels like his heart is going to burst from all the love he has stored in it, he’d introduce you to his dogs. it fills him with a warm, bubbly feeling when he sees you interacting with his babies. and he’s ecstatic to see you bonding so well.

Satoru

Sightseeing. sightseeing. And more sightseeing. because of this, spontaneous road trips are not unexpected. He always has everything prepared in the trunk of his car. Food, extra clothes, chargers, drinks, you name it! He even made a road trip playlist and You’d be lying if You said You didn’t memorize every single song and belt out the lyrics whenever the song is being played. he’s a crazy driver but You trust him with your life for some reason.

Satoru isn’t scared to try new desserts so he always drags your ass all over the city to try any sweet shop his eyes lies on. Sometimes they’re a hit and other times they’re a miss. Going to candy stores is the worst because Satoru is reduced to a child and ends up purchasing two bags filled to the brim with candy. His sugar rush is a nightmare.

And on his short days off where he can’t go on a road trip, he likes to go to amusement parks with You. He’s the kind of man who would make dares and challenges on how long either of You would last before puking. Je’s always very competitive so don’t be surprised when, by the end of the day, You’re carrying a bunch of plushies and stuffed teddy bears.

Satoru is the kind of man who would have movie marathons with You, regardless of the genre. He even psyched himself up to watch all the romance movies known to mankind but he was overjoyed to know that You hated romance and instead was more of a horror movie fanatic. To him, that was as romantic as it can get.

Satoru isn’t really great with comforting people or expressing his emotions but he sure does know how to make You laugh! That person bothered You? Simple, dangle them over the edge of a rooftop until they apologize. The person on the other end of a phone call is drawling on and on? Hang up ❤️

He also LOVES it when you play with his hair, running your fingers through his white locks. he would purr a bit and turn into putty when he feels the tip of your nails gently grazing his scalp.

Kakashi & Satoru

Kakashi likes silence. Satoru likes road trips. Mix those two things together and what do you get? A spontaneous getaway to a hillside where you rent a cabin big enough for three people. Each individual has a task of their own. Kakashi does the cooking. Satoru does the itinerary. And you do the unpacking. After having your lunch, You spend the afternoon away swimming in the lake, splashing and chasing each other around. When night falls and you’ve all cleaned up and had your dinner, You take a large blanket and lay it outside to star gaze. You'd be in between the two white haired teachers and each of your hand is occupied in one of theirs. The night is spent by locating constellations and sweet whispers of nothings.

Dating two men at once means double the amount of affections. from cute terms of endearments, cheesy pick up lines to random cuddle session galore. Neing sandwiched by two beefy men is the best thing you’ve ever experienced in your life, especially during winter because it means double heating source!

despite the two of them being eerily similar in terms of appearance, Kakashi and Satoru did not share the same personality. Satoru was loud and a bit arrogant. He always had to make his presence known and demands attention. Whereas kakashi was mostly reserved but can become clingy once he was comfortable enough/

Their love language was also different. Satoru would make you special playlists that reminds him of You, likes to buy You souvenirs whenever he travels without You and wasn't scared to be physically affectionate with You. While Kakashi was the kind of man who values quality time. He always had a camera with him, to capture the moments, he had said.

Kakashi and Satoru weren't perfect. There were many times where they made You so mad that You refuse to speak to them for a week. things can be challenging at times when three people communicate, which often results in fights or arguments but the three of you always made sure that the other person didn't go to bed with a heavy heart. They weren’t the best. they were messy at times, annoying and downright obnoxious but You loved them just the way they were and they love you just the same.

[girlwiththegreenhat]

team fortress 2 finally getting rid of the bots after 5 years

work on the team fortress 2 comic continuing after 7+ years

half life 3 development looking more likely than ever with legitimate code, file, and voicework leaks referencing a new non-VR single-player game from valve featuring a HEV suit wearing protagonist and Xen creatures and concepts

shoutout to the valve fan that found the genie lamp. you a real one

[uldahstreetrat]

happy june and happy pride!! but wait! what's this??

it's a very lowkey and unofficial birthday gpose event! June 21st is my birthday and Ophianne's nameday! you can find my mare files for Ophianne and my persona here, so feel free to take a silly screenshot with us to celebrate! or if you don't use those files, take one with the selkie minion (who has accidentally become my little mascot here aha)! no official tag or anything, just @ me in the post whenever you post it! <3

i've been a little quiet here as of late but I've seen this trend go around and always feel uh-- a little weird and kinda bad about my birthday aha so thought I would try to make something a little fun out of it <3

[bedforddanes75]

do you have any fanfiction recs??

I DO!!!!!! im honoured that someone's thought of Me to ask for recs omg... anyway theyll be under the cut because making long posts without a cut makes me feel mean

okay im assuming u mean gatty cos. its Me so sorry if u didnt 😞 smut is marked with * btw!!! (also before i start i'm sorry to everyone i tag i Hate tagging it's really scary.) SO. in no specific order. let's go

love me to death* by...somebody who i do not know the tumblr of (sorry) is amazing. i'd also recommend everything else by this person, too, because all of it is beautiful.

all the king's horses by the wonderful @allylikethecat is one of my all time faves, it just makes me want to scream and cry and yell and jump up and down. in a very, very good way!! (also, it has horses, so.)

the big light by @betweenthings2 is for real godsent, and i would die to be able to write like this!!!!! (but if u do then tw for speak of s/a!! keep urself safe!) it's beautiful and sad and sad and sad and wonderful. again, i'd recommend everything else by them, too!!! (also loads of crisps because it got updated like three seconds ago, and i Love It)

in the search for it, inside of you* by @arainesque is so beautifully sad, and the best thing ever. it's so soft and wonderful and lovely and aaaaaahhh!!! the way she wrote their dynamic makes my heart ACHE. obsessed always :(((((<3

how little i really know (about the things that matter)* OH MY GOD. farm boy george. literally almost entirely what inspired deus like it's AMAZING. beautiful and i love it so much

roadkill, again, by @betweenthings2 because she's genuinely amazing and deserves nine hundred thousand billion kudos on every single fic <3 (tw for restrictive (i think) EDs btw!!) i think if i read this while not in a good mood i would explode and die. it's amazing

into my spiral patterns you (my love) by @lookedlikethebins which is in progress rn is HWHSKJSJSJ. beautiful. obsessed with how they've written george in this one <3

okay im Very sorry to everyone who i tagged here i genuinely hate tagging people so much it makes me SICK but i kinda felt bad speaking about fics and Not tagging people. LORD. someone give me a tumblr etiquette class

[perilegs]

i'm still getting the hang of making gifs but it's already interesting to see the editing magic happening

[drawnecromancy]

yeah okay. i put some music up on bandcamp bc why not.

[danketsuround]

https://archiveofourown.org/works/62070826

Bend

Characters: Kitakata Yu (Kuwana Jin), Kuwana's uncle-in-law, Original characters

Summary: In 2011, Kitakata returns to his family in Yokohama after surviving the last three years in Tokyo.

NOTE: This fic deals with heavy themes such as suicide and self-harm. Please read the tags carefully before reading. Thank you!

I hope you enjoy reading! A small note below....

woo! my first kitakata-centric fic in a long, long time. i wasn't expecting it to be this long (maybe a quarter of the size or so?) but i just kept writing and i couldn't stop. oops. someone in lj (i think the owners of the restaurant near kuwana's apartment) said he moved to yokohama in like 2011-ish so i wanted to speculate on what he might have done between 2008 and 2011, and how he got to yokohama in the first place..... so yeah that's it yay bye:)

[silent-sentinels]

dont mind the username change btw we're just separating blogs into a personal talky blog and a more plural oriented (ploriented...) blog, we'll keep you updated [fingerguns]

[wthicomic]

to you, who has lost the privilege of your name.

mobile links: - page directory - next ->

[waywardsalt]

gonna be a hater in tags real quick

[maletofujoshi]

this weapon is like. my favourite thing in the game. but like its kinda funny that like its found in caria manor... and said to be wielded by the nightfolk...? like. elden ring has indian people but they are either porcelain white or silver. with these facial features. who live in gothic castles.

...I kinda wish from soft would like. take racial representation a bit seriously. like the world of elden ring specifically pays so much homage to so many cultures, like, it's not like its a 100% European Fantasy Setting, but like. ah well.

i remember thinking it was cool that nepheli loux's quest emphasized her values of like standing against opression but then i realized she was like. literally the only visibly dark skinned character.

[autisticlee]

how to make business plans: spend 2 weeks looking for a website to make a visual plan guide that you can collaborate with business partners, but you end up nowhere because all of them require paid subscriptions to do more than a few basic things. except you don't want to pay for these because you don't have a business yet and therefore no money!!!! but you need more than basic features (basically you can only put 50-100 items on your board with free account and i will definitely need more)

[your-local-uwu-artist]

decided to start making spotify versions of my youtube music playlists for funsies: + draw covers for them all! starting with charlotte!!!

[imflyingfish]

Fish you are so good at building to me your the Bdubs of people I know

Pheo ;w; ty

[voidimp]

maybe now that i have adhd meds i can attempt Language again