#I am home and I'm still squeeing over this

[nib-mettaton]

I saw the post over my lunchbreak. You have absolutely no idea how much I was trying to contain my squees in the company break area. Ohhhmygosh, your artistic interpretation looks so gorgeous!

Uuuuuuuuh my hand slipped... this was going to just be a concept piece tonight like I was on the verge of passing out and I told Ghost theres no way i have the strength to draw anything but then i had a passing vision of a 2025-tella to @nib-mettaton's orginal nutella major arcana card, the priestess. I was plagued by symbolism in the pillars of Ube's arms and the moon motif already present in one of the outfits that i designed for him. I ACTUALLY had started an illustration back in 2018 of like.. the og nutella to the original card just to have some fun (under the cut) and well.. it never really lasted... this was like three computers ago too

7 years of life altering events for him and for me lmao

[saintvainglorious]

Fics I Enjoyed in February - DC Comics Fic Rec List Part 3

To the shock of precisely no one, I'm still in DC Comics hell. Enjoy the fruits of my labor (reading so so many fics)

Here's fic recs Part 1 and Part 2!

Individualized Education Plan by @cowboysorceror & @deadchannelradio (General Audiences, 7k, 2024) Dick goes to Damian's parent-teacher conference. Damian endures the consequences of Dick being an extraordinarily attractive man. Left me wheezing on my bus ride to work, this fic is hysterical.

“Richard,” he says, in tones of the deeply suffering, “this place is a hostile environment. I must be collected post-haste, as after this latest indignity I am dropping out. Come at once, or I may die here.”

In Service by @smilebackwards (Teen & Up, 13k, 2023) Bruce refuses to let Tim be Robin. Tim, still determined to help, asks Alfred to let him train to be Bruce's next butler. I could not stop squeeing as I read this, deeply wholesome and great worldbuilding to boot.

Tim rings the doorbell of Wayne Manor for the third time in as many days, and for the third time, Mr. Pennyworth opens the heavy oak door. He looks tired and careworn and Tim knows for certain that he’s choosing the right thing now. Mr. Wayne isn’t going to let him anywhere near the Robin suit, but maybe Tim doesn’t need it. There’s another tack he can try.

this year's love by @flybynightwing (Teen & Up, 20k, 2023) A thoughtful and tender exploration of how Dick and Kory might get back together post-Infinite Crisis, featuring Tim being a little troll, Dick & Kory having So Many Issues to work through, and Donna not getting paid enough to deal with this.

Dick and Kory get back together while on vacation. It goes beautifully. If only vacations could last forever.

descartes by @deadchannelradio (Teen & Up, 5k, 2024) Jason finds out how weird Slade acts towards Dick. Yet another fic by deadchannelradio that had me cackling out loud.

“I’m going to kill him,” Jason decides aloud. “Next time I see that man, I’m gonna kill him.” “No, Jason, do not,” Dick says in the same tone Jason uses to tell his dog not to chew on his boots.

The Threat by @jackhawksmoor (General Audiences, 2k, 2022) Damian has some pointed opinions about the way Bruce treats Dick. A gripping Damian POV fic - I love a Damian who expresses how much he cares by via emotional manipulation, and Bruce's reaction is equally tantalizing.

"What are you talking about?" His father sounded puzzled. He had that tone in his voice that Damian always hated to hear. That careless, American tone. His father had never needed to earn his place in a family, so the idea that someone could take it away from him if he wasn’t worthy of it hadn't even occurred to him. Not yet.

A Talon After My Own Heart by @wildsofmarch (Teen & Up, 13k, 2022) A surprisingly well-adjusted Talon!Dick goes on a mission for Slade. I rec the whole How to Train Your Talon series, but this one's my personal favorite. They're so damaged your honor it's great.

There’s a Talon lying on his floor, guzzling his good whisky, when Slade walks into his safe house in San Francisco. “What are you doing here?” he says as he draws his sidearm and slides the safety off. Robin — Dick, he reminds himself — showing up unannounced is never a good thing. “Relax. I’m not here to kill anyone,” says Dick.

Leap, Fall, Fly by @malcyon (Explicit, 15k, 2019) Post-Red Robin, Tim and Kon go on patrol together, and then they go home. This fic is 100% my headcanon for how Tim and Kon would get together if they didn't start dating while Tim was Robin. Gorgeous, peak, no notes.

He tries to use his voice, “You have one of my shirts?” Tim looks at him, amused. “Dude. I have, like, four.” Kon figures some stuff out. Tim helps.

Putting both hands over my mouth, I can only hope nothing's gonna come out by @hmslusitania (Teen & Up, 26k, 2024) Tim and Jon (now both in their 20s due to Jon's canon aging-up) pretend to date. Kon and Damian proceed to lose their minds. Funny, angsty, and ultimately really heartwarming.

“How unethical would it be to let him keep thinking we’re dating just to try and figure out what the hell is wrong with him?” “On a scale from ‘this is completely hinged behaviour and not weird at all’ to ‘cloning him unsuccessfully ninety-nine times’?” Tim nods. “I don’t know,” Jon says. He thinks about it. “Probably like a four.”

Shoulders by @bluegarners (General Audiences, 4k, 2024) Robin!Dick has a close call on patrol. Bruce is catastrophically bad at expressing love. I rotate Bruce's choices and dialogue from this fic around in my mind like a rotisserie chicken.

It’s as he’s assessing Goon #1’s shoulders that he hears it. Grhk. The sound of someone choking. (You are ten-years-old, and the world is wide open before you. You don't yet know how to worry for yourself. It is your father's job.)

Truth Serum is The Worst by @jackhawksmoor (General Audiences, 3k, 2022) Bruce is truth serum-ed and is very unwell about it. Nightwing!Dick is there to help. Bruce's stream-of-consciousness dialogue (and Dick's reactions) are totally engrossing; the love they have for each other looms large here.

Batman gets dosed with a truth serum and unexpectedly spends most of the time talking about how desperately he loves his children, how awesome they are, and how he wishes he was better at being a father.

i'll grab my light (and go with you) by @havenesc (General Audiences, 3k, 2024) Dick helps Robin!Jason after the kid gets into a fight at school. Sweet, spot-on-characterization for both of them.

“Come again?” “I…” Now, the tone is sullen, even in hesitation. “I got into a fight.” Dick glances at his far wall, still a little sleep-hazed as he puzzles together what exactly about a scrap requires a phone call. “With Bruce?” Dick asks tentatively. “At school,” Jason clarifies, and oh, yep, there’s the difference. That one’s a no-no.

the only people on a stranded boat by @unicorncoalition (Mature, 5k, 2023) It turns out that Dick will call Jason if he ever has to hide a body. I've reread this fic multiple times since first discovering it, it's a gem. The scenario is unhinged, the emotions are raw, and the dialogue is perfect.

When Dick contacts Jason in the early hours of the morning to ask for help, Jason is so thrown by the request that he drops everything and drives to Bludhaven. He is not expecting to find Dick dissociating next to the dead body of an unfamiliar man, nor is he ready for the revelations that follow.

i never noticed the clouds gather round (oh, how fast we fall, how slow we drown) by @this-world-of-beautiful-monsters (Teen & Up, 5k, 2022) Batman!Dick has a flashback, and Damian makes a deduction. I'm very picky with stories on Dick's family members finding out about Nightwing #93, and this one handles how Damian might react so flawlessly it hurts.

It's raining on a rooftop in Gotham and Batman isn't getting up. (Dick dissociates after a bad patrol and Damian comes up against the outline of something his mentor never wanted him to see.)

the higher fidelity by birdsofthesoul (Teen & Up, 3k, 2020) Bruce and Dick go on a road trip scavenger hunt to find a runaway Damian. Dick indirectly confronts Bruce with his questionable parenting decisions. The conversation they share in the diner lives rent free in my mind.

Bruce goes sheet-white, looking like Dick’s just cut him to the quick, and Dick can’t help but think they should have booked a flight, discretion be damned. This — this is why they don’t do road trips. Cars are like confessionals, cramped spaces built for coercing confessions, and neither of them are good with words.

O'er These Mountains I Would Fly by @lurkinglurkerwholurks (General Audiences, 2k, 2019) After saving an injured baby bird, Dick and Damian drive out to a wildlife rehabilitation center. A wonderful edition to the "Damian slowly learning to trust Dick early on in the Batman!Dick era" genre.

“Nervous?” Grayson asked. They had been driving for over half an hour, and this was only Grayson’s fifth attempt at conversation. It had been an unusually quiet ride.

and the shapes that you drew may change beneath a different light by @popsunner (Teen & Up, 5k, 2020) Post-Dick's death, Tim tries to be a brother to Damian. Featuring Tim's grieving headspace, his evolving relationship with his brothers, and his enduring status as the Emotional Support batkid.

Damian is around a lot more since Dick died, hovering like he’s looking for something that isn’t here anymore. It’s alright. Tim is used to playing the part of ghosts. Or: Dick is dead. Things change.

[messinwitheddie]

Squee "Nny!! It's been, like, 45 minutes! It's a tiny-ass mobile home! What are you still DOING in there?!"

Nny "Right now, I'm sitting on the ugliest crushed velvet couch I've ever seen while eating a big bowl of the best slow cooker chili I've ever had. I can't wait to learn this recipe in the future. On that note, I should invest in a slow cooker."

Squee "Come on, man! You haven't found ANY physical proof he's not the future you yet??"

Nny "I mean... Other than the alarming number of empty tequila bottles left all over the place."

Squee "Ok, well, you never drink, so he's not you. Mystery solved. Let's ho home, please?"

Nny "Eh... I've started worse habits.

Future me is supposedly dying. Maybe I just stop caring."

Squee "Jesus, Nny, really?"

Nny "He lied about having wife. I haven't found any kind of medical bills or ID or photos or anything-"

Squee "Maybe he keeps his ID and important papers on him at all times, because, you know, cops are dicks."

Nny "Maybe, but-- The fuck--? Future me has a vintage dough boy salt shaker... And it's filled with baby teeth!"

Squee "What?"

Nny "Baby teeth, some shiny rocks and a Canadian dime?... I'm going to draw on it. See if I notice."

Squee "Don't draw on his shit, man."

Nny "Seriously, what's with the teeth?

I found a JAR completely filled with gold-capped teeth in his bathroom cupboard. I found a 25 lb bag of powdered lime in his pantry-"

Squee "Oh God..."

Nny "Yup. Just like the one in my pantry--

A chest filled with jewelry-- pirate booty shit."

Squee "That's kind of neat--"

Nny "And a BIRD WATCHING diary filled with nothing but terrible doodles of the local bird population. NO WORDS."

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(Excuse any and all spelling mistakes. I always overlook one or two.

Oh, the invasion of privacy. Poor Mr. Casarez. Don't shit on his hobby, Nny lol.

To me, one of the funniest things Nny does, at least according to Twitter what I recall, is break into peoples' homes and helps himself to their stuff before killing them (because it's all fiction!! To be clear. I wouldn't think it was funny if it happened to a real life neighbor or real life person in general.)

Also, now I really want chili, but it's almost well past 3 AM and I have no ingredients for good chili. My fridge is all condiments at the moment. Been a rough year...

Finally, Noise is born!! Sorry, @psycho-doughart for the slow crawl to his debut. Poor little guy doesn't have a voice yet.

Again, I really appreciate any reblogs, comments or tag-comments I've received from previous strips. Tugs my heart strings.]

[criolla-star]

Overwhelmed (Vinny x Garmadon)part44

(I suggest you check out parts 1-43 if you haven't already)

After Vinny went inside he went to his room and decided to pack a bag with things he's going to need once he spends the whole day out doing jack shit and maybe just maybe relaxing, very low possibility. As he packed he looked back at the blade Rida gave him, "Dragonbone and leather...where would he get those...he didn't kill a dragon right..?" Vinny mumbled to himself as he took off the sheath. He looked down at his foot and sighed out, he was still sort of limping on it but it wasn't stabbed that badly by Enji.

There was a knock on the door and the cameraman instantly covered the blade and put it in his pocket. "Come in!" Vinny called out to whoever knocked. To the cameramans' surprise Garmadon came in. "O-Oh hey!" Vinny responded surprisingly not expecting to see him. "Lloyd told me how you have work again....I know you're lying and trying to avoiding me..." The oni said as he sat on the bed and avoided eye contact and Vinny did the same. "I...am...I just need some space away from you and you do too we both need space to breathe...and not being cooped up in this room....I-I won't do anything else..." Vinny responded as he looked down to his hands.

"You're not just avoiding me...you're avoiding everyone...Lloyd noticed how you pushed questions away..." The oni added, hearing this made Vinny tense, he didn't wan to involve anyone in this situation he was having and he didn't want to explain it to anyone, Wu was pretty freaked out over being told about Enji and how would he tell anyone about Rida, or how Enji stabbed him, he could barely trust himself with what he saw he was a sleep deprived guy with a black haired guy tormenting him and apparently the guy he takes orders from being a hundred times nicer. "I'll be fine..." Vinny responded as he stood up and slid the blade into his pocket.

"Please...get some rest at least...coffee isn't a permanent solution..." Garmadon spoke out worriedly, Vinny knew the oni was right, he's always had a cup of coffee before going to work and after a while it would wear out and he would be miserable when he came back home. "I'll...think about it..." Vinny responded as he put on his jacket. Garmadon nodded before watching Vinny leave the room fidgeting with something in his pocket, and the oni had no idea that Vinny had that blade with him. "What am I going to do with you...?" Garmadon sighed out before laying on the bed his tail wrapping around his leg loosely, he decided to take some rest to get his mind off things. (I think I forgot to mention that he does have a tail earlier on)

Vinny walked out of the room quickly not wanting to talk to Garmadon any longer. He wanted to talk to him but didn't he wasn't ready for him to start asking questions and he definitely didn't want to be in the same room knowing very well he would out himself about something. As he walked Vinnys' stomach grumbled due to the fact he skipped breakfast, "Shit I'm hungry..." he mumbled, so he ended up going to the kitchen. Vinny looked around the kitchen and found some bread, cheese, lettuce, tomato some chicken strips in the fridge that he ended up air frying. He used a panini press to crisp it up. It was a pretty good sandwich and he put the the lettuce and tomato after it was cooked. (I HATE tomatoes in sandwiches)

He sat down on the table and began eating it while scrolling through his phone and it was cut into triangles, because that's the only normal way to cut it. As Vinny was eating somebody snatched the second slice from the plate. "Hey!" The cameraman hissed turning his attention to the culprit. "Nice sandwich!" Enji said as he tore off a piece of the sandwich and ate it. "Give me back my sandwich!" Vinny hissed angrily because ain't nobody messing with anyones' food!.

"Or what!" Enji teased wanting to know what Vinny would do. The cameraman attempted to grab the sandwich but failed and had his hand squeezed really, really tightly on top of that it was his hand that was burnt by Garmadon ages ago. "What kind of guy steals someones' sandwich!" Vinny said as he winced in pain. "Me~!" Enji replied before tearing off another piece and eating it. Vinny groaned, he hated it when Enji decided to be a pain in the ass. "Whatcha gonna do about it short fuse~?" The black haired menace teased again.

Without warning sucker punched Enji and slammed his head against the table. "Oww! You piece of shit!" The black haired menace groaned in pain as he felt his jaw and his head. "Give me back my sandwich!" the cameraman hissed . "Geez ok ok! Don't kill me!" Enji replied before handing Vinny his sandwich back. "Fuck! You punched me that hard over a sandwich" Enji groaned as he looked over to Vinny who was happily eating his sandwich not caring about Enji.

"Next time you're getting stabbed again~!" Enji laughed out manically before disappearing. Vinny acted like he didn't care but he did, he really did, he was scared of where he would be stabbed and how much it would hurt. But one thing was certain....Today Enji learnt to never steal Vinnys' sandwiches.....and neither should you......

(THIS SHIT IS SO GOOFY!!!!! AND REMEMBER NEVER STEAL SOMEONES SANDWICH)

[koraesrambles]

KORAES SUPER DUPER COMIC READING CHALLENGE 2024

Alright, I've decided to set a goal for myself. I've been binge reading comics for over a year but only of a specific variety and it's time to expand my tastes. Especially since OUTCAST ODYSSEY is updating on webtoons. The more comics I read, the better my own comic should be, right? I mean, supposedly.

I decided to read 100 of the top graphic novels on goodreads. The list spans all ages and genres, so there's going to be some VARIETY here. There are some graphic novels I've already read (like Maus or Calvin and Hobbes) that I didn't include. I dunno if I could handle reading Maus again (It stabs you in the heart, twists it and pulls it from your chest still beating, but instead of being happy about it like I am with fiction it's soured by the realization that this actually happened and then I want to die).

Here's the list I copy and pasted from Goodreads. If you don't see your favorite on here, add it! I need to read all of the things!

Watchmen

V for Vendetta

Batman the Dark Night Returns

Saga

The Complete Persepolils

The Sandman

Y: The Last Man

Batman: Year One

Batman: The Long Halloween

The Walking Dead

Preacher

Sin City

Locke & Key

The League of Extraordinary Gentlemen

Fables

From Hell

Blankets

Fun Home: A family tragicomic

The Arrival

Haven

The Far Side Gallery

Marvels

Kick-Ass

Habibi

Batman: Arkham Asylum

Pride of Baghdad

Cult Girls

The Crow

The Absolute Batman: Hush

Chew

Amulet

X-men: The Dark Pheonix

American Born Chinese

The Umbrella Academy

Kingdom Come

The Absolute Death

Marvel 1602

Sweet Tooth

The Cartoon History of the Universe

Transmetropolitan

Superman: Red Son

All Star Superman

The Ultimates

The Unwritten

Runaways

Astonishing X-Men: Ultimate

Buffy the Vampire Slayer

Planetary

Wolverine: Origin

Identity Crisis

Black Hole: A graphic novel

Spider-Man: Blue

Hellboy: Library Edition

The Books of Magic

Astonishing X-Men

Lone Wolf & Cub

Anita Blake: Vampire Hunter

300

Squee

Rat Queens

The Uncanny X-Men: Days of Future Past

Monstress

Wolverine: Weapon X

The Wicked + the Divine

Captain America: Winter Soldier

My Friend Dahmer

Blake Orchid

Dr. 2

Once Upon a Time

Superman: Secret Identity

Asterios Polyp

Ex-Machina

Domu: A Child's Dream

One Piece

Civil War

Mouse Guard

Summer Blonde

Desolation Jones: Made in England

I Kill Giants

Pumpkin Heads

The Wolves in the Walls

The Batman Adventures: Mad Love

Through the Woods

Absolute Dark Knight

Lenore

The Fountain

The Eternal Smile: Three Stories

The Unbeatable Squirrel Girl

Death Note

Girl Genius

Wonderstruck

The Tragical Comedy or Comical Tragedy of Mr. Punch

Happy New Year

Logicomix: An Epic Search for Truth

Skooter Girl

Daytripper

A Little Prince in the Land of the Mullahs

Absolute Justice

Wanted

Velvet

Obviously, a lot of these are series, and I'm not going to read the whole series of every book on this list. If I like it enough, I might continue it for fun, but it won't count toward the list. I'll cross the title off as I finish them and write up my thoughts. Cuz what's the point if I don't post an analysis, right?

[tuttleturtle]

Here energy to reformat my About Me so you get my About Me actually added to my pinned (I think this order makes the first shareable easily still idk I hope that's why I went with this order)

1. Multiply disabled. Multiply neurodivergent. No I don't mean "autism and ADHD". 2. I won't ever bother listing all my disabilities. Whether or not I have a label likely to be relevant to me isn't relevant to anyone besides those closest to me. However, what I'll most likely end up talking about re: disabilities is autism, chronic migraines with complex aura, hEDS, MCAS, or adrenal insufficiency. These interact weirdly. 3. AAC User. Part time eyegaze user. Part time manual wheelchair user. Sure wish it was easier to leave my home than it is. Having things I need to help is a huge privilege. 4. Depends on human support. Gives support to others. We're not all either Needing Support or Giving Support. People are complicated.

5. Queer. Trans. My pronouns are they/them. 6. I do yarn things. Yarn holds my brain together. Yarn is how I can focus yarn is how I can keep myself able to do what I want yarn is how I can feel like I belong in my body. It's necessary and the importance of necessity isn't what makes it important. What we do because we want to is important. 7. I have a super cute fluffy cat who is my medical alert cat. He is a task trained service animal. He is my second task trained service cat. 8. I'm also absolutely gonna be squeeing about the process of getting a service dog since I've literally been wanting a service dog for over 15 years but known I needed life to line up before it'd be right for me. 9. My primary fandoms are Young Wizards and Discworld. 10. Into sci fi, fantasy, ttrpgs, board games, the like

11. Math, math education, teaching disabled students, no really people should be taught, opinionated, unable to be working, miss it so much. 12. Being quite literal when I say I taught introductory abstract algebra to people who were told they were "too disabled" to be ever shown multiplication. Did that at multiple different schools. It's not what I'm most proud of [there's so much more about existing and survival that I'm more proud of] but its one of the best ways to understand who I am.

13. There's things i'm good at. There's things i need help with. Sometimes these are the same things.

I'm gonna get a service dog! I am working with a small organization and between 18 months and 2 years I hope to have a service dog ready to be placed with me, trained to help with a whole bunch of disabilities (we've discussed plans for tasks for chronic migraine, EDS, MCAS, adrenal insufficiency, autism). This will make a big difference for me and I'm super looking forward to it. I am really excited about this even knowing its so far off in the future. Of course this means right now I need to do fundraising 'cause I need to fund the training of my future service dog. Any donations or shares would be super appreciated. As someone living on SSI yet also someone who a service dog would be life changing for navigating making sure that my dog is funded is an unfortunately big stressor in the excitement of future help. Link for donations: givebutter.com/nhEnw1

[whimsycatcher]

LONG UPDATE - SORRY

Hello tumblr, my old friends.... I’m so sorry I keep saying I’m going to be active again, only to disappear after a few posts! It’s been well over a year since I last shared anything! I deeply regret failing to reply to so many messages, and I apologize if I’ve left some artistic obligations unfulfilled (please feel free to let me know if I owe you a drawing).

I'll avoid ranting too much about other things and just admit to this – I’m struggling to draw “for fun” again! I put so much creative energy into a studio job which is frequently burning me out, and even making art to sell at local conventions has felt stressful and dispassionate. I'm grateful I've gained these opportunities but am questioning my goals... My work/life balance is definitely a mess...

Less and less am I caring about getting my real name out to the masses in public or on social media – honestly, I miss partaking in fandom like I used to do! Drawing silly and perverted things for fellow fans of my favourite shows to squee about, lol. I’m just... slowly taking steps to have more free time to do so...

So, SOOOO... I still adore Merthur, and Stucky, and 00Q! But I must credit something new for pushing me toward being here again. I watched “The Sandman” on Netflix and then read a ridiculous amount of fanfic while home sick one day... and now I’m obsessed with the pairing of Dream and Hob Gadling! Another scrawny, dark-haired, magical immortal to be my muse, haha... I’m curious if any of my followers can relate? I’m hoping there’s a community here for it. If not, I was considering starting anew and giving “Pillowfort” a try? I guess I’d be allowed more naughtiness there, too... ;)

Well, if anyone I know is on Pillowfort, feel free to follow me and I will follow back! I have the same handle although it’s a very empty account atm. Not promising to be active very soon but I’m definitely feeling a spark of whimsycatching again. ♡

Much love to my followers, old and new. Hope I can bring some joy with my art again! I have to study how tumblr works these days, haha... what the heck is "Blaze"!? XD

TLDR: RL sucks but I really want to draw Dream and Hob Gadling flirting/loving/courting/fcking ... so this account might come back to life! XOXO

[seriouslycromulent]

Soooooo ... I just finished episode 6 of ST: Picard, season 3

... and can I just say ... How can anyone not love this season so far?!

No, seriously. If folks are complaining about Picard this season, I have to question whether or not they were ever fans of Star Trek, in general, and Star Trek: TNG, specifically.

Forgive me, but this is going to have some spoilers below. So if you haven't watched episode 6 yet, please keep scrolling.

...

Is it safe to squee?

...

OK.

Seriously, folks. I fangirled so hard throughout this entire episode, you would've thought I've never experienced joy before. It was that f*cking awesome!

Oh "The Bounty," how do I love thee? Let me count the ways:

(Almost) the entire TNG band getting back together again in one episode

The first appearance of Geordi LaForge looking all distinguished and sh*t

The younguns sneaking off to try and figure a way out of this mess while the parents argue and deliberate

Riker's "We're all gonna die" line

The trip down starship memory lane including a moment for Seven to reflect on what the USS Voyager meant to her

Me immediately recognizing the Bird of Prey from Star Trek IV: The Voyage Home

The cameo by Daniel *motherf*ckin'* Davis as Professor Moriarty. Oh. My. God! I literally leapt out of my seat when I saw him appear on screen. That was such a beautiful gift. Michelle Forbes last week was an amazing, but bittersweet gift. But this. This was just a truly beautiful gift. Thank you to whomever made that happen.

Geordi still being a badass engineer even though he's all "play it safe Dad mode" now

The flashback to season 1 Riker for a quick recall of "Pop Goes The Weasel" which he somehow manages to recognize by the isolated keys on their own 30 years later

Brent Spiner cycling through all the "Data's" he's played over his career, and me immediately recognizing Lore before he even said his name

Amanda Plummer just killing it with the villainy. I'm here for all of it!

And that ending?!?! Oh. My. God. Come on. How are folks not loving this?!

See. I honestly don't get the folks who are complaining. I know a lot of us Trekkers are fully enjoying this, but for the ones who aren't ... Honey, I don't know what to tell you. This season has been so much more than I ever expected, and I'm in ... just ... pure bliss with this episode and this season overall.

And no. I'm not just watching this season alone. I loved Star Trek: Picard seasons 1 and 2 as well. So much so that I was sad when I heard they were only going to do one more season.

But oh boy! What a season to end it on.

I am in deep smit with this show. And just to be clear, I also love Star Trek: Discovery, Lower Decks, and Strange New Worlds. I even like Prodigy, even though I've only watched about halfway through the first season.

Yes, I'm one of those Trekkers who loves Trek with my whole chest, so it was unlikely that I wouldn't relish this final season of Picard. But I never expected to love it as much as I have so far.

At this point, I'll probably cry when the season finally ends, but that's OK. Because I'll just watch it all over again to experience this joy one more time.

[yurtletheturtlehenderson]

COSMIC - S1:E8; Chapter Eight, The Upside Down - [Pt. 4 - FINAL]

A Will Byers x Male!Reader Series

𝘋𝘳. 𝘉𝘳𝘦𝘯𝘯𝘦𝘳 𝘩𝘰𝘭𝘥𝘴 𝘏𝘰𝘱𝘱𝘦𝘳 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘑𝘰𝘺𝘤𝘦 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘲𝘶𝘦𝘴𝘵𝘪𝘰𝘯𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘸𝘩𝘪𝘭𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘣𝘰𝘺𝘴 𝘸𝘢𝘪𝘵 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘌𝘭𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘯 𝘪𝘯 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘨𝘺𝘮. 𝘠/𝘯 𝘴𝘵𝘳𝘶𝘨𝘨𝘭𝘦𝘴 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘯𝘦𝘸𝘧𝘰𝘶𝘯𝘥 𝘥𝘪𝘴𝘤𝘰𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘺, 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘤𝘰𝘯𝘵𝘦𝘮𝘱𝘭𝘢𝘵𝘦𝘴 𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘧𝘦𝘦𝘭𝘪𝘯𝘨𝘴 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘞𝘪𝘭𝘭.

A.N: awww this is it!!! Squee! Also, i almost added the scene where Hopper leaves the eggos but i am super tired and my main priority was the reunion between the gang and Will and I figured, you guys know what happened. Enjoy!

|| 𝐑𝐞𝐚𝐝𝐞𝐫'𝐬 𝐏𝐎𝐕 ||

We finally made it to safety in one of the science classrooms. At least, it was the best we could do under the circumstances.

It would do. For now.

Dustin carried El to the back of the classroom and placed her on one of the black tables. Meanwhile, Lucas helped me sit down and I opted to for the ground, back against the cabinet so that if I passed out I would be closer to the floor.

I panted and my head bobbed up and down as I tried to fight unconsciousness.

Dustin and Lucas lingered around me, but I gestured towards El.

"She- I'll be fine. She, she's the one... you need to worry about."

I closed my eyes and let my head rest against the cabinet and I focused on the voices of my friends to stay awake.

"Just hold on a little longer, okay?" Mike said. "He's gone. The bad man's gone. We'll be home soon, and my mom... she'll get you your own bed. You can eat as many Eggos as you want."

There was a pause and I could hear El sniffling.

Mike continued. "And we can go to the Snow Ball."

There was more sniffling and I heard El whimper. "Promise?"

My eyes fluttered open and I looked to Mike who was holding El's hand. I could see a hint of fear in his eyes.

"Promise."

The lights were still flickering and they only got faster when we heard the awful sound of the Demogorgon. It was getting closer.

We stayed as silent as possible, knowing it was only right outside.

WHAM

The door slammed to the ground, ripped right off its hinges and the disgusting creature we had been running from finally stood before us.

It was a long slimy figure, a purplish grey and it let out a growl that could only be described as an echo reverberating off of tin.

"Go, go, go, go!"

I scrambled to my feet in fear, clutching the desks desks keep from falling over. Dustin and Mike began screaming at Lucas for the wrist rocket.

I tumbled over so that I was standing in front of El protectively.

Lucas scrambled inside his backpack for his wrist rocket and moved to the front.

"Get the rocks! Get the rocks! Get the rocks!" Mike shouted as him and Dustin fished through he backpack.

While his hands were still searching for the rocks, Dustin turned to shout in Mike's face, his voice squeaking. "I'm getting the rocks!"

"Give me one!" Lucas ordered!

He drew back the wrist rocket as Dustin and Mike shouted frantically and released.

It missed and the Demogorgon stomped towards us.

It roars in anger.

I grasped the table, trying to not fall over. Not sure what I would pass out from first; exhaustion or fear.

"Give me another one!"

"Kill it! Bastard!"

"Kill it! Go, go, go, go!"

"Kill it now!"

He releases and it hits. The monster is unfazed. The boys hand Lucas more ammo.

"Get, get, get... come on, kill the bastard!"

"It's not working!"

"Hit him again!"

"Kill him!"

"Keep going! Come on!"

"Get, get, get..."

It continues to stalk towards us.

It opens its mouth, or rather head by the looks of it. Lucas draws back and releases.

Just as the rock hits the Demogorgon its thrown back across the classroom and is pinned against the chalkboard.

We stare in awe and suddenly I sense movement out of the corner of my eye.

El walks confidently past us and towards the monster.

Mike runs after her. "Eleven, stop!"

Without looking, she throws her hand back and Mike is thrown to the ground and against the cabinet. He sits against it in a daze, the wind knocked out of him.

We all stare, frozen as she walks up to the beast. It writhes against the chalkboard and she calmly looks over her shoulder to us.

Tears begin to fall once more when she speaks.

"Goodbye, Mike." She looks to me and smiles sadly. "Thank you, Y/n."

My vision is blurry but I can make out El's figure as she turns back to face the monster.

"No more." She states softly.

She raises her hand and the monster begins to cry out in pain.

The noise was too much for me to bare and I quickly covered my ears, I could see the boys do the same.

She let out a scream and she was engulfed by the ashes of the Demogorgon and just like that, she was gone.

We all stood in shock and pain as we shared at the spot where she once stood.

Ashes flitted around the room and settled all around the classroom.

I knew that was it, and there was nothing more that could be done. Which is why it broke my heart all the more when Mike jumped to his feet and began looking for her.

"El? El?"

"Eleven?"

"El?"

"El, where are you? Eleven? El?"

I turned to Dustin, tears freely falling from both of us, we embraced and I cried into his shoulder at the loss of another friend.

⊹ ⊹ ⊹

We all stood out in the parking lot of the school. Multitudes of police cars and ambulances were surrounding the entire building. Some of the paramedics had checked my vitals and given me a shock blanket.

Dustin and I were waiting for our mom knowing she had been notified by now.

The Sinclair's had met up with Lucas and they went home.

I leaned against the side of the ambulance as I sat in the back. It was silent between the two of us. That is until Dustin broke the tension.

"So, when the hell where you gonna tell us you have superpowers?" Dustin said weakly with a hint of fake anger.

Without moving my head, I looked up at my brother.

"Give me a break, I didn't even know. Not until we got split up and I lost my bike."

"You what?" He asked incredulously.

"I would have told you sooner Dustin but we kinda had our hands full. You know, running from the government and all?" I snapped defensively.

My stomach grumbled and I looked to my brother. "I'm sorry, I'm just really hungry. and sad. And completely exhausted." I chuckled half-heartedly.

"Y/n? Dusty? Oh, my babies! Come here!"

We looked to see Mom speed walking towards us, her arms outstretched.

"Good luck telling, Mom." Dustin whispered before she could hear, earning a quick glare from me.

Suddenly, I was engulfed in her embrace, partly squished up against Dustin since she hugged us both.

I couldn't help but embrace her. I nuzzled my head into her shoulder as she hugged us tightly, forgetting how safe I always felt in her arms.

|| 𝐖𝐢𝐥𝐥'𝐬 𝐏𝐎𝐕 ||

When I came to, all my senses picked up on things before my eyes could open. I could feel the gentle flow of oxygen into my nose and the beeping of a familiar sounding machine.

I vaguely remember my mom and another man, the chief I think, finding me.

My eyes fluttered open and I saw my mom and Jonathan sitting at my bedside.

Mom was quick to notice I woke up and she lit up immediately. Jonathan followed suit.

"Hey." She said softly. "Hi, sweetheart."

"Hey,"

Mom began running her fingers through my hair, something she'd always to do to comfort me when I'm sick.

I smiled when I saw them, glad to be with them again.

"Where... where am I?"

Mom and Jonathan shared a relieved look and Jonathan grabbed my hand.

"You're home. You're home now. You're safe." Jonathan said a smile on his face as he began to cry.

"Jonathan." I said happily, knowing he was really here.

"Yeah, it's me, buddy." He sighed. "We missed you. We really missed you."

I noticed his other hand and the splotchy bandages around his palm and I frowned.

"Are you okay?"

He smiled and gestured to his hand.

"What, this? It's just a cut. It's nothing." He shakes his head, a disbelieving looking smile on his face. "You're worried about my hand?"

They both started to cry again, but they were chuckling softly.

I looked back at my mom, who was smiling through tears as she continued to run her hand through my hair. I smiled tiredly up at her.

"Oh, hey, uh..." I looked to Jonathan when he spoke, grabbing something from off the floor. "We, uh... we brought you some stuff..."

I noticed it was a box of my things from home.

"so you don't get bored in here, so..." He reached into the box and pulled out a cassette tape. "Uh, I made you a new mixtape. There's some stuff on there I think you really might like."

I smiled fondly at my family, silently thanking them for all they had done.

"Oh, and uh," Jonathan looked at Mom and they shared a look before he reached in the box again and pulled out a very familiar duck.

"Y/n insisted that we bring you this. He wanted you to have it while you're in here. To keep you company when he can't, is what he said." He chuckled fondly and I blushed, reaching for the duck I had won for him all those years ago.

"I-is he here?"

Mom rubbed my arm and smiled down at me.

"Yeah, baby, he's here. So is everybody else, everybody has missed you so much."

"When can I see them?"

⊹ ⊹ ⊹

"Byers!"

All my friends burst through the door at once and ran to the side of my bed.

Mike was first to get there and he leaned down to hug me which I gladly accepted. Lucas did the same.

"Be careful. Be careful with him." Mom cautioned.

"Move!"

I see a pair of hands rip Lucas and Mike off of me only to see Dustin who quickly dives in for a hug.

I gladly pat his back when he leans down to hug me.

I try my best to follow along when they all start talking at once.

"You won't believe what happened when you were gone, man." Lucas started.

"It was mental." Dustin exclaimed.

It was then that I saw over his shoulder. It was Y/n and he seemed to be in shock, but he still followed behind the guys and stood quietly, listening to them ramble.

I blushed when we made eye contact and he smiled warmly at me. He was acting different.

"You had a funeral." Lucas continued, which quickly grabbed my attention.

"Jennifer Hays was crying."

"And Troy peed himself."

"What?" I laughed.

"Yeah, right after Y/n told him off in front of the whole school, too! It was awesome." Dustin exclaimed.

Y/n laughed at the comment and looked at his feet and it only made my heart beat slightly faster. I only hoped the heart monitor didn't give me away.

I started laughing at the thought of Troy peeing himself in front of the whole school and the laughter quickly turned into coughing.

My coughing made everyone fall silent, and then Mike nudged me.

"You okay?"

I nodded and looked at him. "It got me. The Demogorgon."

"We know. It's okay. It's dead." I looked at Mike when he said this. "We made a new friend. She stopped it. She saved us. But she's gone now."

Mike seemed to get sad when he talked about her. Then Dustin spoke up.

"Her name's Eleven."

"Like the number?" I asked.

"Well, we call her El for short," Lucas added.

"She's basically a wizard."

Suddenly Lucas got quiet and whispered so that only we could hear.

"She has superpowers."

"More like a Yoda." Mike added.

"Speaking of superpowers, Y/n-" Dustin was cut off by Y/n elbowing him harshly and I frowned in confusion.

"She flipped a van with her mind, and these agents were trying to shoot us-"

I listened in awe as I caught bits and pieces of what they were saying. The boys were all talking over each other.

"Yeah, it flipped over us-"

"Them she squeezed the brains out of their heads-"

"And blood was pouring out of their faces."

"Ew!" I couldn't help but laugh at how excited Dustin was about that part.

"Agents started grabbing us and stuff-"

"And then they were knocked back because Y/n- Ow!"

"Not yet!" He mumbled to Dustin. "Not here."

"And then Demogorgon shot out of the wall - it was insane!"

"Hey, boys," Mom called out.

They all quieted down.

"I hate to do this, but it's pretty late. And Will needs his rest. But I promise you guys can come to visit tomorrow, straight after school if you want to." She smiled.

They all frowned and each of them leaned down to hug me again and they said their goodbyes.

Mom walked them out of the door, asking if any of them needed a ride.

Y/n was the only one who lingered.

He shyly turned to face me and I smiled at him, and he gladly reciprocated.

Not knowing what else to say, my nerves getting the best of me I spoke up. "Thank you for the duck,"

He smiled warmly once more. "Of course. It's always been a sense of comfort for me. Figured you need it more than I do."

I smile at him, not wanting this moment to end despite the awkward pauses. It was worth it.

He was worth it.

"I'm really glad you're back, Will."

I couldn't believe what happened next.

He leaned down, and I assumed he was going to give me hug as the others did, but then I felt a pair of soft lips on my cheek and he pulled back, looking almost as flustered as I was.

He started to back away and he was almost out of the room when he looked back at me and smiled. Looking at his feet shyly, he turned he was gone.

[here2bbtstrash]

Chapter five:

Well first off, the half-assed attempt at an apology. grumps tried. it wasn't a very good try, it was actually really bad. but there was a small small small small attempt. we love growth even in the tiniest of steps.

WE JUST LOVE A MAN THAT OBEYS OKAY. this really has nothing to do with the receipts (unless? 👀) I JUST NEED TO LET IT BE KNOWN THAT I LOVE THIS MOMENT.

i think i've gone off the rails a bit. but still. we love asking questions and for permission. I feel like normal mr. grumpy pants wouldn't resort to begging for anyone.

grumpsisjealous

fucking her makes him happy and not mr. grumps. #confirmed

Chapter six:

HE CARES OKAY. HE CARES.

he's comforting her by barely choking her. it's like a distracting comfort. can't tell me there's no heart there.

if she didn't shock him by asking him to fuck her right then and there, you can't tell me he wouldn't have kissed her. YOU CAN'T.

jeeeaaaaalllloooouuuuusssssyyyyyy and then making sure to point out to jungkook he knows about it. tsdhrryafdsbjfira

Chapter 7:

Just before the sex, the desire to trust reader with practicing his presentation with her. To actually LISTEN to her advice and start over doing what she suggested. IF THAT IS NOT A MAN THAT CARES.

and then just letting her suck his cock while he continues practicing. Even letting her tease him with words (and her tongue) while he tries to get through it.

and the "i need to fuck you" just personally hits me in the feelings and the pussy, whether or not it shows he has ~feelings~ doesn't matter. makes me happy.

BABY BC YOU ARE. THE MAN WANTS TO GO DOWN ON YOU. THAT'S A MAN THAT CARES.

i said this to you already but i'm just going to say it again. LET HIM EAT HER OUT.

THAT'S CLOSE ENOUGH TO A CONFESSION OKAY

and the fucking mouths being so fjkahgljearnf close while fucking. i just. rewgrabgakjbdsjkab. that kiss is going to kill me. i feel it.

and don't even get me started on the "what are you doing to me?" that is typical "Oh shit, i have a heart and it's yours now" behavior.

bam. the ultimate receipt. (however, he did leave after the bathroom sex. but she did leave the actual happy hour and went home.) but he ran away while she was on her not date bc jealousy mhmmm.

and then the whole car ride. him actually sharing something about himself. the unfortunate cosmic coincidences comment. the "you don't scare me anymore" and the "maybe so" and the awkward silence as she gets out of the car

HE HAS A HEART. ONLY FOR HER THO. FIGHT ME I DARE YOU

also i love you thank you for writing such lovely things okay bye get home safely mwah

........i can't even front i am squeeing so hard at this and i fucking wrote all the quotes lmfaooooooo. AM I ALLOWED TO BE DOWN BAD FOR MY OWN YOONGI 🫠 but ya know this could all just be...... coincidence...... post-orgasm hormones....... probably nothing else...... 😭 excuse me while i wallpaper my house with micro-soft yoongi interactions

🎉 LDOMLT brainrot hours !!! 🎉 drop your theories 👀, headcanons 💭, questions ���, and fluffy or smutty (or angsty?!) thots 🥰 about look down on me like that!

[oodlyenough]

@firstofoctober dedicatedly does this fandom meme at the end of every year ever since back in lj days and i am bored so here we go

even just calling this a "meme" is so dated now. love it

1. Your main fandom of the year: It was probably Borderlands by definition for a majority of the year, although in that sort of waning way where different things monthly would catch my eye. Ah the slow end of an era...

2. Your favorite film this year: Oh my god wtf movies did I watch this year. I think basically by default it's No Way Home because it's the only film I can remember watching from 2021 flkhghlg... it was certainly the movie I was most anticipating, by which I mean also the only movie I was anticipating and the only one I braved a movie theatre for in the past two years.

3. Your favorite book this year: Much like the above, I only read a few books, and right now I'm hard-pressed to remember what I read, when. The pandemic's a blur. But I am certain How to Pronounce Knife by Souvankham Thammavongsa was 2021, and I did enjoy it. I like short story anthologies. The other one I've been working through is a Shirley Jackson collection.

4. Your favorite album or song this year: According to Spotify wrapped it was Red lmfao. I also got into Sour like, six months after everyone else.

5. Your favorite TV show this year: Arcane apparently?! Sneaking in just below the deadline.

6. Your favorite Tumblr game this year: I'm using creative liberty since a) no fave tumblr?? and b) this meme is not designed for Gamers and I played way more games than I watched movies or read books. Anyway Psychonauts 2 was my GOTY! I absolutely loved it, what a gem. Fun to play, great script, incredible level design, unique look and feel. I played a lot of good games this year, but Psychonauts 2 takes top slot.

7. Your best new fandom discovery of the year: I guess I have to give it to Arcane despite only being around for like, two weeks, it's the first time in years something sort of wholly took over my thought process after finishing and made me want to write fic, etc. Runner-up mention will go to Spider-Man just because god I consumed so much Spider-Man this year lmao... two Insomniac games and their DLC, every movie including Spiderverse and all the MCU ensemble clips. It didn't really give me the same level of intense emotional investment, but it sure did give me something to, like, academically study lol.

8. Your biggest fandom disappointment of the year: Man I actually... can't think of anything that really stunned me? I guess I was lowkey disappointed we didn't get Harley Quinn s3 but that's not really the same. Also the Harley Quinn TV show comics sucked ass, so maybe that.

9. Your TV boyfriend of the year: Viktor Arcane, the latest in my long line of beloved white men with sad puppy eyes. I am nothing if not consistent.

10. Your TV gamer girlfriend of the year: I'll give this one to Alex Chen. I really wanted to like True Colours, of course, but I was still surprised by HOW MUCH I liked True Colours, and particularly Alex herself. What a wonderful, nuanced character. The whole game rests on her lovely empathetic shoulders.

11. Your biggest squee moment of the year: "Squee moment". This meme is so old. God bless. I'm actually not sure? I can't think of any big announcement or ship development that made me lose it this year, lol. Maybe seeing No Way Home just because it was cool to be in such an excited, cheering theatre, especially after two years of pandemic. And now I am back in covid 2: christmas boogaloo lockdown anyway, so it was kind of a last hurrah lmfao.

WAIT NEVER MIND it was the announcement RTD is coming back to Doctor Who?!?! !?? What the fuck!! Return of the king... Roll on 2023

12. Your most missed old fandom: Don't have one. I do have an old fandom I wish I could stop hearing about forever because mention if it brings only pain and bitterness due to a creator's radicalization. No points for guessing.

13. Your fandom you haven’t tried yet, but want to? None comes to mind.

14. Your biggest anticipation of the New Year: Lots of video games lol... LIS Remastered, Oxenfree 2, Horizon Forbidden West. Killing Eve's final season. Harley Quinn... hopefully...

[bottlecaprabbitgames]

February 3rd, 2020 Scenario: Vacation (Adontis)

I am using @ducky-writez prompt list as I said, and I did the one for February 3rd with Adontis and an ungendered MC! I may go back and do #1 and #2 today too.

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You could really use a vacation. Even if it's just one day away from the hell your life has been for the last two years and running. Some get away where the only stress you have is nothing. And, lucky for you, Adontis agrees. 

"Yes, I think given everything that has happened… you need one. Hell, I think we both do." When you look over to him, there's a little secretive smile on his lips as he cleans up his alchemy station, and you can tell by his body language he is more than aware you are looking at him.

"You saying you want to go on a vacation with me?" you ask, an excited flutter starting in your stomach and chest. You look forward to any alone time you get with him, honestly; the team has been growing on you as a whole, but… you're not exactly in love with all of them. Adontis, though…

He laughs, a low, seductive sound that sends electricity skittering over your skin. "Yes. I was considering talking to you about one soon anyhow, so I'm glad you brought it up." He clasps his ingredient case close, then turns to look at you, leaning against the case with his elbow and against the desk with his hip. "Have you considered where you want to go?"

"Well… no," you answer honestly. "Just… away from so much noise. So many people. No offense to the team, but-"

"They can be a bit much, and without us taking Telalyse anymore, it's even louder," he finishes, a knowing grin on his lips, showing his double set of fangs. "Believe me, I know." He hums thoughtfully, one hand rubbing the other's wrist as he stares at his desk. After a few beats, he speaks. "Well, if you want near-total privacy, I own a home in the middle of a beautiful, magical forest, accompanied by the caregivers, their home, a garden, and a few farm animals." His hands dance as he talks, and voice takes on a dreamy falsetto tone. You raise a brow, liking the image he paints.

"Adontis?"

"Hmm?"

"Why do you own a house in the middle of the forest?"

"Oh, well, you see, the colony of Undine in the nearby river had a problem from Super hunters, so I got rid of their problem. They had me a home created in their forest as a thank you." He shrugs. You give a thoughtful frown. 

"I mean… fair enough." You tap a finger on your chair for a second to help find your words. "When can we go?"

"Whenever you are ready, of course, darling."

"How about, like, now?" His chuckle is answer enough.

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You take in a deep breath of the forest's fresh air. It looked like a fairytale, Adontis's home. A mid-sized mansion made of white, living trees with a roof slated with paneling the same bluish purple of the surrounding flora. The door has intricately made detailing of swirls and spherical imagery, and the vertical center shows a river with beings dancing inside. 

The caregivers turned out to be dryads, humanoids that look like humans crossed with plants (one seemed to be crossed with a fern, while the other was wild pink roses). Both women were incredibly friendly, with one teasing Adontis relentlessly over finally bringing someone here for them to meet. He actually even blushed, something you have still rarely seen him do. It was pretty cute to see, and even cuter when he tried to hide his face in your hair. 

And, maybe it made your heart squee a little when he pressed a kiss into it. 

You shiver happily at the memory of it, now examining the odd coloration and movement of the forest's plants as Adontis gets everything set up in his room. Some of the ferns wrap around your legs and squeeze for a second, softly, then release, seeming to wave. It almost feels like… they are welcoming you. Little animals are also beginning to peek out at you, some looking like odd versions of "normal" animals like squirrels and rabbits and deer, while others… you can't even describe. A particularly chubby, round… bird-thing bumbles out beside you, its four small, corgi-like legs seeming to struggle to carry it. It cheeps at you, and for some unknown reason, you feel the need to pet it, so you do, earning more cheeps. You begin to feel like this is the only thing you need to do, ever, as if nothing else is ever as important as this, and you can't find a reason to disagree. 

Or, at least not until your hand is wrenched away. Your immediate thought is to fight, but after a few seconds, Adontis's voice breaks through the cloud in your mind and you stop. "${Name}! ${Name}! Calm down, it's me! Stop fighting me!" 

"Adontis? Wh… what's happening?" you slur stupidly, confused. 

"It's a oricanle, they're bird-like creatures that can entice you to pet them until you die," he informs. The bird hisses at him and attempts to peck at where his hands hold you. He hisses back, his face shifting and morphing into its… less-pleasant form. The bird squeaks in fright and tumbles off. 

"My hero," you say dramatically, still feeling weird. He lets out a chuckle, but you can hear his nerves and concern in it.

"Always. Now, let's get you inside where you can rest." He easily picks you up bridal style and carries you to his home. 

"First day of vacation and some bird thing tries to steal my soul, don't that beat all," you mumble, nuzzling into his warm shoulder. His chest rumbles with another laugh.

"Oh, come on darling, even on vacation you have to have a little fun." 

"Oh, yeah, sure, it's all fun if it's not your soul tryin' to be gobbled." 

"Ah, well," he shrugs, "I get to play hero so what's not to like about such a situation?" He lets out a loud "ow!" when you punch his chest. 

"Your caregivers will have to save you when I'm not too dizzy to stand," you grumble threateningly, but are cut off when he dips you over the threshold and presses his lips passionately against yours, making you lose your entire line of thought. When he pulls away after a few seconds, he gives you a bright smile. 

"I'll trust you to save me from whatever you have planned," he replies cheekily, before pulling you out of his dip and setting you down on the couch, tucking a very soft pillow under your head. You can't answer as your brain still tries to process what he just did.

Some goddamn vacation, alright. 

[awww-brain-no]

Oh hi

I’ve been really struggling to reach out and reconnect with everyone, so I decided to just ignore the little voices that stop me and do it. Here I am reaching out. So, let’s go with a weird holiday, year-end card / journal approach to tell you about what’s been going on with me.

Living

So, as some of you know, I was considering relocating earlier in the year. I checked out a couple places (North Carolina, I love you) but eventually decided to stay closer to my family for a couple more years. At the moment, a lot things are up in the air while I figure out employment but I have to be out of my apartment by January 20th and I’m really struggling to not bury my head in the sand and ignore that forced change. 

Work

I’ve been wanting to leave my current company ever since I got hired on full-time last September. Since I decided to stay closer to home, I’ve been looking around LA or closer to my hometown. There’s a really awesome tech company that I interviewed at a few years ago that I went through the whole full-day interview process with again last month. Many of you saw my freaking out about that. It was very much NOT the role for me and I got really bummed that I went through all that for nothing. But, I’m finally hearing back from a couple other recruiters as well as the recruiter at the same tech company for the team I’d actually want to work with. So. Fingers crossed that works out sometime.

Writing

n/a

Just kidding. But in all seriousness. I have hardly written anything for personal enjoyment this year. I did like five short prompt requests in the first half of the year and added a few thousand words to a WIP that I just can’t seem to find the motivation to rework/finish. I don’t know if it’s just a shift in hyperfocus, if it’s depression, or if I just am not as into writing anymore and that makes me both sad and nervous. I miss being able to fully engage with fandom. I miss interacting with you guys over all the squee and fluff and just....yeah. I miss it. 

Family

My grandmother has alzheimers and needs constant care. My aunt has been living with her, but is going back to Arizona at the end of the year. That means my mom is going to move in with my grandmother, but my dad is still working and will live in their house. Alone. I don’t think my dad has lived alone...ever. I know he’s going to implode and I feel horribly guilty as though I should do more, despite the fact that he’s an adult. That’s part of why that tech company job would be so awesome, because I could live at my parent’s and commute or even at my grandma’s. 

Health

My health has been a couple of roller coasters for me this year. I started getting into really good habits at the end of last year as I finally got the motivation to get fully into recovery from depression. But then my hormones went whack and I was having major PMS for half the month. I got put on birth control and that’s helped. But with all the stress from work and such, my anxiety has been coming back into play.

That being said and despite the fact that I haven’t hit the big goal, I need to say it. I’ve lost over 90 pounds in a little over a year. I have gotten back into a workout routine. I have significantly improved my eating habits. I am in so much better health than I’ve been in at least five years. 

Dating

With the improvement of health and return to feeling more like myself emotionally, I decided to get back into online dating. I’m still bad at it. I still have not been on a date in years. But I’m trying?

Cats

Still alive and little bastards but they're my little bastards. And I have to figure where they'll be when I'm moving and figuring things out.

So yeah.....that’s me. 

How are you guys doing?

[messinwitheddie]

Around 4 AM;

Outside a residence located in a trailer park a thirty or so minute walk away from Nny's home.

Squee “What are we doing here? I’m not helping you if you don’t tell me.”

Nny “I don’t intend to kill anyone. That's why you need to be my lookout. Usually, it wouldn’t be an issue, but I could possibly erase myself from existence if I kill this person. Not the worst case scenario, BUT- Damnit! Where's the kit? I know I-ah ha!"

Squee “This is Mr. Casarez's home, isn't it? You're STILL convinced this guy is you from the future?”

[I know, I know, yet another mini plot started sketching in the break room. Would love to write this as a fic, but no time. More important things to finish over the next few days. This cringe I'm dumping onto the dash is just to distract myself from some personal issues 🙃

Never thought the plot of a Great North episode could give me an idea for Nny story, but here we are, so I guess I'll refer to this as Nny's Looper au until I think of something better.

[amariemelody]

For the ask meme: 6, 9, 10, 19, 20, and 25! <3

Heya, friend!! Thanks!

6. say three nice things about yourself (three physical and three non-physical).

Oh my goodness I already did this, but I guess I can go again! Hmm...

I'm a kick-ass writer...that needs to get back into her groove!

2. I'm funny and goofy as hell.

3. I have a great fashion sense, tho I've had to acknowledge that I dress like a Prep and therefore I Am A Prep.

9. what calms you down?

Reading; writing; deep, 4-count breathing I learned in therapy; rhythmic muscle clenching and un-clenching that I also learned in therapy; listening to music; watching rain/a thunderstorm in the summer.

10. what’s something you’re excited for?

Hopefully getting my car before my birthday this September...shhhh...

19. most important thing in your life?

Just...living a full one where I can help people in the medical field, do and see the things I want to do and see, and have a great romantic love or even a few.

20. what do you want most in the world right now?

Uhh...an end to global anti-black racism? An end to this pandemic? For the right-wing in both this country and all over the world to finally implode on itself and go away? Climate change to be resolved so people don't roast for the oil/coal/fossil fuel dollar? Goddamn healthcare reform? I guess I kinda...want everything...?

25. what’s the best personal gift someone could give you (playlist, homemade card, etc.)

Awww...hmm...honestly, I'm not picky? I admit that's in part bc I'm still rebuilding my self-esteem (and will be for quite a while), and so when someone even thinks of me enough to take resources out of their life to give me a gift, I deeply appreciate it every time.

My coworkers laugh at me in disbelief if I go -squee!!- when they share snacks with me or give me a little cute spiral notebook and pens out of their drawer. But...even those little things mean so, so much to me because of the thought. I make sure to keep and use the things people give me.

Even if someone gave me just one, single flower (and you can prolly tell from my blog that I adore flowers), I would -squee!!- at it and make sure I placed it in some water when I got home.

[antigoddex-a]

NO NOT NEXT WEEK!!! at least it's still pretty close instead of it being 5 weeks away gosh... i get what you mean so much- high school really did NOT set us up for this ack... but you're studying film production and that sounds super fun (and i hope that the environment is at least fun to learn in despite all the stress and pain.... that was the only thing that kept me going until the end of my school year WOOF..) im squeezing ur hand for reassurance while we listen to bongo cat together!! it literally made me squee when i clicked on one of their videos and i just!! THATS SO CUTE YOU WERE RIGHT 😭😭😭 sometimes you just need cuteness to push you through! the savage love cover.... i clicked on the FRIENDS cover (that song from marshmello that dominated most of my high school years over here) and its! ah! i love it! so much! please take this sunday to rest and recharge as much as you can... you definitely deserve that! have a nice snack- i wish they sold goldfish crackers here (and i feel that!! so! much! im also working on a dip in energy thats made me retreat from a lot of the stuff i love doing and want to do- school took away so much of my energy and writing while schooling is... a whole thing on its own, truly... ) i'm going to watch a heist with markiplier in your honour (a date with markiplier was actually the first interactive story i played and i have a WHOLE essay about interactive media and how! i love what may be considered 'strange' but innovative mediums to tell a story- i've played with the idea of starting an arg but i never got around to it. i need to ask you if you've heard of the max2019 ARG? it's so good- and it, especially the near end of the arg, really reminds me of que now that i think about it!)

FSDBGJSDB YEAH, YOU'RE SO RIGHT ON THAT... Also, I only really need to focus on my final assignments as all of my daily school tasks are done, so I know I'll be able to get through them despite everything!!! I got this!!! 😌 But I am actually studying Behavioral Sciences ( B/H/S )!!! Film production would be so awesome to study in, though.. I haven't really figured out what do I wanna do in terms of career wise exactly yet lmfao but I do love the idea of assisting people with mental illnesses or / and learning disability like me... B.H.S had taught us primarily a.pplied b.ehavior a.nalysis (A/B/A), but I eventually learnt there's a controversy around it as it's harmful towards those who have autism, so, fucking Yikes, of course, I am avoiding any jobs that use A.B.A... ( Behaviour therapist or youth worker does sound very neat to get into! )

But the environment was quite chill despite me having to wake up at 3:30am-4am to go to campus by 8am via transportation busses and getting home to usually 7-8pm at least three times a week jbsdhdsjnk ( clearly, the silly ol' high school Morningstar did not research B.H.S along with this program and college very well, errrr..... ) I no longer talk to them when we all parted ways last year winter semester as we all graduated from the B.H.S program, but I did made a very few friends who were very cool, so that's lovely! I'm so glad to know though that your environment was what kept you going despite everything! High school really did not have us expecting any of this, for fucking real lmfao

FRIENDS!!! Legit, same, Friends and Faded by A.lan W.alker were like... a Huge Thing during my high school years as well sngsdjgn I'm super duper happy to know you love the channel!!! I discovered it a few days ago and I was just,, Where Have I Been,,,,,, You're right, cute content is one of the best things to get through anything, we shall hold hands while we listen to Bongo Cat content together, so true, bestie <333 Thank you so much!!! My Sunday has been very chill and I plan to take a nap after this so sdnkgdd I will definitely have a great Sunday with a well earned rest overall, thank you again!!! ( YOU GUYS HAVE NO GOLDFISH CRACKERS!? What the fuck, catch me sending you a bunch of them over to you!?!? ) God, yeah, school really is a massive fucker to be messed with, but I really hope you'll get out of the dip of energy soon!!! I don't know when you'll have your break but I am cheering you on constantly!!! I just know that you're doing amazing and I am so proud of you!!!!!! <3 <3 <3

AH, PLEASE!!! I am so flattered that you will watch A.HWM in my honor, what the... Pls lemme know your thoughts when you do!!! <333 And I would absolutely LOVE to read your essay, honestly. ( This isn't related to the ARG itself, but I think you will really enjoy reading this article on timeloop narratives being about love and growth. It's so amazingly and beautifully written! ) I had actually done an ARG with my friends on D.iscord very briefly about a character who was in an apocalyptic world paralleled to our that was dominated by the physical embodiments of black holes that were devouring people, and the character managed to contact that group of my friends to help them choose what to do and say, and it was extremely cool!!! I think it would be amazing if you ever get to doing an ARG in the end. It's a lot of work to plan out and execute to make everything align okay according to plans, but when it plays off, it's just extremely rewarding and fun!!! :]

MAX2019 ARG, holy SHIT, yeah, I heard of it! I can only remember very vague details of it sadly :S but I see there's a summary post about it so I'll definitely (re)check it out after I nap! From what I can recall right now, it was SOOO wildly good omf I would absolutely love to get into doing ARG again with [ redacted ] on Tumblr, actually, but... We will see with that in the end dsgjsdgjd <3 <3 <3