#I hate using his real name

[memorayy]

Unfortunately I still have a level of shame when it comes to self shipping that I’m really trying to get over

And the way I’m doing that is making mini comics and art for myself of my self insert oc and Keigo Takami

[pointlesscandies]

The true Asian drama fandom experience is having a little laugh on here with your mutuals about something silly a show or actor did and then going over to twitter and realizing people are like. Actually mad about it and want them taken out back and shot

[hballegro]

"It's more than something. It's everything."

s8e11 "Life Time"

painted screenshot. cannot give a time estimate, i lost track long ago. still gouache brush, my beloved, with blur tools to fade edges and so on

i have to go to the zoo now and will be making the version with the clock later [i cannot express how long ive been battling with hawkeye's face, gamers]. background went very fast like i said it would lol

version 2 [as in, w/ clock] will probably be done later today, and i will edit this and add it when that happens [and prolly make a separate post too, for celebration purposes, and will link them]. i will also compile progress pics for that post. they are terrifying early on lmao

"A lot of very touching songs came outta that war" previous painting

"It was pink, and perfect, and I tossed it in the scrap bucket" previous painting

everyone say thank you to bj to being a perfect painting subject today he was very polite and he looks about how i wanted unlike SOME PEOPLE

that was me to my sibling last night, and i stayed up til 1:10ish and still didnt finish the final pass over hawkeye's eye. everything else took like 5ish minutes

also everyone say thank you to margaret and nurse kellye for also being perfect and lovely and pleasant to work with

photo used blatantly stolen from this post thank you again @remyfire i owe you my life

update edit;

clock back

[knockknockitsnickels]

Ryis & my farmer

[willyhoos]

you know for someone who loves metamy so much. i gotta say having it be fully unrequited is honestly fitting with metal's whole arc (or rather his LACK of arc)

he wants what he can't have. he's not anything or anyone, he doesn't deserve it. what would he even do with it?

"i don't think i have anything. i don't think i can have anything. i don't know how to have something." (src: 17776)

whether or not you subscribe to the roboticized metal theory, it doesn't change that metal's goals are not aligned with reality. ironically it's the robot that is unable to logically analyze his situation. he wants to be sonic but it doesn't change the fact that he isn't. he wants to win but it doesn't change the fact that he won't. his desires are narratively and morally unfulfillable because what he wants is wrong (factually and ethically.)

and so if he, in theory, wanted amy rose how could he ever actually have her?

the most she would give him is "you're more like him than i thought."

because he's Not sonic. all he can be is sufficiently Like him (sometimes). whatever metal claims he is (and honestly whatever he ACTUALLY is) is irrelevant because he can't MAKE himself sonic. he can't make himself the version of sonic that amy loves. amy loves sonic for WHAT he is (good) not what he's named. the most she could ever do is passively appreciate the traits of sonic that metal is able to imitate. emulate. simulate. fabricate.

sonic's role (in the meta story and in-universe) is so unique and treasured and irreplaceable. the only way to kick him out would be to, idk, replace him with an identical copy and put the old sonic in a lose-lose situation where he could not possibly be believed or sympathized with. or something.

say he gets "rehabilitated," rebels against eggman... you know those metamy fics. what is he then?

-> another job well done. another good deed for team sonic (y'know, the real one).

because it's not just that he's Not Sonic. (and he isn't. even if you believe he once was, he's not anymore in any way that is relevant to the narrative. the narrative, as you know, is the real sonic's pov.) it's that he's not even really a person anymore.

he's been forcibly depersonalized, dethroned, removed from his role (+ promptly replaced with something canonically better!) and isolated from any semblance of humanization. he doesn't even have a mouth. either it was taken from him or he was never given one. and we are not given any glimpse into his thoughts. (they're not important.)

like. this is a dead end. he is a dead end. there's nowhere to run.

he won't "get the girl" (pardon the term) not because he's evil not because he's not sonic but because he is not a "person" in any sense. not literally not socially not narratively not practically not really

idk. whether metal falls in love with amy genuinely, or if it's just out of jealousy/desire to want what the real sonic has/instinct to emulate the real sonic's emotions... it's doomed. he's just a ghost from a doomed timeline and everything he will ever do is destined to fail. he can't kill sonic. he can't hold amy's hand. he can't do anything but lose.

in that sense, metal "losing" amy to the real sonic (as if metal was ever even a contender, as if he was ever real enough) is just another failure in a long, long string of mostly unpleasant memories of a character who doesn't even get to go by his real name. because someone more important took it already has it.

[brie-draws]

MODELU, Season 12, Week 3: Easter Contestant: Campanella "Easter. The time of. Chocolate. I have. Chocolate. Every day... But in rabbit form? That is. Rare. Usually. I am. Pouring chocolate. Drink mix. Into my. Beloved. Husband. Of whom I am married to. Legally. Not for PR. His. Drinks. When he is cleaning. He does not care for this. But I. Know best. " -- Campanella's statement.

[chotachica]

Okay okay I agree with everyone talking about the possibility of Pluto finally getting to go to France and meeting Duke in one of his shows, but I now raise you: What if they met BEFORE and Duke was actually the one to tell him about France and the lights and everything. What if Duke were the reason he wanted to go there in the first place. What then.

[thefrogdalorian]

I think on this fine Saturday afternoon it's a good opportunity to take a breather and remember that there are really no ethical paparazzi pictures. Every single one is inherently exploitative.

Just because photos were taken on a movie set, when someone is 'working,' does not make the practice any less invasive and creepy. Imagine just going about your day, doing your job and having some weirdo snapping pictures of you to sell without your consent for others to endlessly repost online.

There are thousands of pictures of your favourite actor online already. Plenty taken with his knowledge and consent. I'd really like to see more of them on my dash, rather than the creeper shots.

And don't get me started how disseminating these pictures directly leads to people going to said sets. What starts off as admiring how good someone looks has real world implications.

No, hanging around a movie set and disrupting people doing their jobs is not harmless fun or a way to show your appreciation.

If you hang around a movie set, you are a stalker.

Don't tell me that it's okay to take your online admiration for someone offline. You may admire him but he does not, and will never, personally know you. He will never be your friend/boyfriend/daddy. He is a stranger.

The only way meeting your favourite actor is going to happen is at a convention or maaaaaybe a movie premiere if you're incredibly fortunate. You know, places they appear specifically to meet fans (or not in the case of premieres, where the purpose is to promote a movie. Which is also completely understandable if actors don't stop. You are not owed an interaction).

Of course, you cannot help it if you randomly run into someone you admire in the wild. Even then, consider that they probably won't be all too thrilled to be approached in public by a complete stranger. It's up to you to gauge the situation, but remember there is a person at the heart of all of this.

Boundaries and respect are a kindness which deserves to be extended to each and every human being regardless of their looks/talent/fame/wealth.

Fandoms blur those lines a little too often for my liking and I think just scrutinising what you're interacting with, or what behaviour you could be possibly falling down that slippery slope towards is nice to do every once in a while.

I mean no malice with this post and it is not directed at anyone in particular. It's something I cannot help but feel strongly about because I've seen this destructive cycle time and again in fandoms over the years. It's not healthy and it makes us all a little bit more disconnected from our humanity for it...

[wakeywakeyjakey]

Hey, can you explain to me why so many people call Two-Face "Harv" in fanworks?

I know in a few comics, Two-Face calls Harvey "Harv" but I've never seen it the other way around.

I get the want to give Two-Face a name that isn't.... well, Two-Face, but I've never liked it being "Harv" both because it's a part of Harvey's name and because of what I mentioned above.

The first time that "Two Face" ever receives a name other than TF is in BTAS—in fact, afaik BTAS is the only place he's ever given a name like this—and they call him "Big Bad Harv." Technically, Harvey is the one who names him in therapy so that he can address/talk about "his" darker impulses/violent tendencies, but still. I've never seen BBH used for TF in anything other than BTAS but it stuck around! Most likely in large part because it's the only canon non-TF name we're given. But I think it also appeals to people in the same gimmicky way that "Two Face" does lol (a little cheesy, a little on the nose, but it gets the point across in a fun way).

I do see people who refer to the TF alter exclusively as Big Bad! Though of course most of the time we see people use Harv instead.

But I've also seen fanworks that intentionally give TF/Harv a different name because of the same reasons! I've seen him be called Apollo a few times (because in theory there could be an alter in the Harvey/TF system who resonates with that nickname) and one author—in a phenomenal piece called A Day in Two Lives—named him Alastor, which is the name of a Greek god who represents justice and vengeance (chosen to parallel the Apollo title). I've also seen him named Christopher, which is the name of Harvey's father, because sometimes alters can take on traits of the system's abusers.

I agree that using Harv can be... complicated because it's so tied into Harvey's name/identity. I also don't necessarily think calling him Two Face exclusively is bad in and of itself because in some cases, it's a name he chose for himself and that's a pretty big deal within systems! Especially for non-Host alters. For the most part he seems comfortable with it, so I think it can be assumed it's affirming.

My motivation for using Harv is primarily because I think it's more humanizing than Two Face! As a system, it's nice to see the individuality recognized and I think their distinction can get lost behind "Two Face" sometimes. So I tend to use Two Face for Harvey/Harv the same way you might use Batman for Bruce—as a persona or costume that, in their case, represents their supervillain identity but not who they are "underneath." But ultimately imo as long as the distinction is recognized, the specifics for the names used for both feel less significant!

[dykedvonte]

If I was on the Tulpar nothing would’ve happened at all but not for any heroic or altruistic actions but because I’d constantly be beefing so hard with Jimmy there would be no time for him to do anything.

This is like also like in a world I know nothing of mouthwashing. I know we’d annoy each other so bad that all we’d think about is how to fuck with each other and ruin this experience. Likely for everyone else too.

[oceandiagonale]

Actually, Guzman is his spanish name.

OH YEAH some other folks pointed that out too, makes sense since it's an irl Spanish name (probably why I see it around a lot!) 😳

(normally it's a surname, I've only seen it used as a first name once in a blue moon -- but also in the pokemon world it's pretty clear that naming conventions aren't the same lol)

[dynamitekansai]

WWE: "RICKY SAINTS IS NXT!" The revolution has begun! 🙌

[vaguely-concerned]

there's nothing quite like a dark souls game when you're really depressed. fromsoft places a hand on your shoulder and says "yeah no you're right. sometimes the whole world really is coming at you shrieking and flailing and trying to claw your face off and there is no hope in sight. what is left for us here but the deep sorrow of a magnificent beast doomed to a slow and possibly endless descent into ruin? here's a sword about it. go wild"

and then you stand there with tears in your eyes clutching your giant claymore to your chest like a lover and whisper "I. love my sword" and you do. you love that sword

[aro-throughyourchest]

I think I'm developing a crush on my boss but also he's in a crisis mental state right now (he's stalked I think all of us) but we kind of all are (in crisis) and i'm also definitely hiding something that would give him more reason find me suspicious so maybe I shouldn't but he trusts me the most because I lied to him and I feel bad he needs support right now and to also possibly quit this job. um. help; i think.

^ the magnus archives idk i'm on episode 61 why are they in a microsoft computer

[absolutechaosss]

Hmmmm people who hate Shuro for supposedly fetishizing Falin sure are silent about how one of the things Shuro couldn't stand about Laios is constantly being asked about the East and foreign countries.

[leftoversludge]

psych has been pissing me off so hard, man, i cannot stand this slapstick and food comedy their going for in these later seasons and the onllyyyy story line i give a damn about right now is lassie and marlowe, i want a wedding episode and more lassie centered episodes i dont even care man. they did gus so dirty with the way they're making him just food crazy like its actually so not funny i get a pit of cringe in my stomach when that or like some stupid slapstick thing happens, they really just dumbed gus down and made him like a vat of catch phrases and thats so sad. also i want chief vick in more episodes, its really falling off man, season 1 through maybe three were pretty solid, it started sliding off in 4, came back around in 5, some strong episodes in 6, but now in season 7 its dreadful, just put lassie on the screen and call it a day, he is actually the saving grace of the show. they also keep doing henry dirty too with minor implications that contradict his character, i dont have any examples off the top of my head, i just know im mad about something. jules and shawn remain pretty constant, but i do feel like jules needs more, shes starting to feel watered down like shes just "shawn's girlfriend" although it doesn't always feel that way... i think im just mad about her treatment in that clue episode. what can improve this show: more lassie, more marlowe, less weird food shit (but maybe thats just bc of personal issues idk), and more beach murders idk. also they haven't done a tiny shawn flashback in a while like what is going on, you had a formula that was working and now you stray? right when it could possible be your only saving grace?? i think what i really want is a lassie spin off where it becomes a noir detective show or an old western, either or. if noir detective he would have to be smoking in basically every scene, and shawn is there but like in the way mr. yang and mr. yin were in psych's over arcing story line, and each season would be 50 episodes long and there would be 100 seasons and he dies in season 99, season 100 is marlowe uncovering his murder (bc he couldn't just die of natural causes, he would rather kill himself) and rediscovering herself, and yes that season is also 50 episodes, each episode is an hour long.