#I want to share how good she was

[nerdyqueerandjewish]

Because of generational divides/distance in our culture, grandma doesn’t even feel like the right word to encapsulate her relationship to me. I saw her all the time growing up. She gave me truly unconditional love. She could be my confidant when I was having any problem. She gave me so much support and affection, which was so vital to my well-being, as I did not grow up in a particularly affectionate or supportive household. Her apartment was a place where I could let go of the breath I was holding.

Her life was hard, she was a very young single mom, mostly worked waiting tables and bartending. She got sick with lupus in her 20s, and eventually had to go on disability. I’m not quite sure when, but I remember that we shared a bedroom for a bit when she was sick and I was 5 or 6. She was only 8 years older than I am now when I was born, when I made her a grandma. She had a lot of chronic pain and had to do a lot of hard work in her life, I know she struggled with depression sometimes. She also was just so down to have fun and be goofy. She loved kids so much and they loved her. She tapped into that playful mode so easily. The playfulness wasn’t a mask either, it often felt like she was the only person in my life who discussed feelings openly and honestly, even the ones that suck. She was exactly who I needed.

She used to say that she was haunted by the spirit of her dad, but that she liked it and it helped her feel less alone, and that she would haunt me too. And I used to be like “no please do not haunt me!! That’s too spooky!” And she would say “well what if I don’t do anything, and I just watch?” And I was like “nope!! Still too spooky!”

I was able to give her permission to haunt me today. I get it now. I would love to hear from her. I would love to be reminded of her. Please come swing my cupboard doors open.

[sexygaywizard]

One of my old friends from high school recently came out (she's on the right), and I just met up with her to hang and do her makeup for her because the choir that she's a part of is taking pictures today. It came out so good and she was so happy with it and she looks so pretty and joyful and I just love her and I love trans joy!!! I LOVE WHEN PEOPLE ARE TRANSGENDER AND HAPPY ✨🩵🩷🤍🩷🩵✨‼️‼️‼️

[wildstar25]

WoLGraha Week 2025 - Day 4 - Touch

Touch, I remember touch.

[carnation-damnation]

Fear of being left behind, and wanting to be loved as much as you love others. Sometimes little reminders from a friend can help. Peep my tags

[navree]

Incorrect, the fact that Biden has dropped out and a candidate with history of supporting medicare for all and being more receptive to a ceasefire in the I/P conflict has made me go from "I cannot morally support the Democratic nominee" to "I am voting for the Democratic nominee despite the fact she isn't perfect in every respect." I'm really happy this played out. The Dems for the most part abandoned the old Obama platform and it feels like its possible an actual progressive agenda could come to pass in my lifetime.

Kamala 2024!

If you weren't going to vote Democratic in this election before Biden dropped out you're a dorkass loser who does not care about any of the issues you're yammering about here and also a fundamentally bad person, and I hope you get run over by a bus.

But you got one thing right in all of this gibberish, Kamala 2024.

[wojtekaneko]

Thank you @kasztanek86 @rainbowhedgehog123 @shishkas @astheflowersgrow for all your malevolent sweets suggestions from my last post! Here they are, all of these were very fun to draw c:

[skys-archive]

It's kinda weird to me to see mizu as transmasc. Like I don't think it's necessarily wrong but just... what.

She was forced to present herself as male so that she wouldn't be found, and continues living that way. It's not explored a whole lot which is why I think it's fine as a headcanon because yeah it's easy to say she was forced into it but found she preferred it that way. Or to say she doesn't care but it was easier to live that way since she had been doing it for thet long.

I just personally feel like if anything it better fits a transfeminine experience because even though she is born female, she was forced to live her life a gender she isn't.

I haven't watched the show in over a year so i could be misremembering but I don't think she ever shows any discomfort in being female. When she lives as a woman wither her husband and the woman who raised her she seems a bit uncomfortable at first but that could easily be because it's just different and she's not used to it. It's shown that those were the times that she was arguably most happy and comfortable she's ever been in herself.

And also iirc there was a scene, I think during her teen years, where she was wrapping her chest or looking at herself in the mirror or something and did specifically seem unhappy or uncomfortable. Of course she was using bandages so it could easily just be that she's in pain. But still I think it fits into a transfeminine allegory.

[it-came-autumnally]

obsessed with how he keeps specifying that part of his roommate dream is to be poor together LOL

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Bonus 12: Beware the Grapes of Wrath.

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[hummingjay]

Instead of working on artfight references (which i should be doing) here's @basil-does-arttt's Scwhalbe

[xxplastic-cubexx]

i know kayla hates playing with me bro

[sysig]

Ellen McLain’s commentary from my trivia playthrough

[wazzappp]

I love thinking about how this would go down with them

[okultraoldmanyaoi]

something i REALLY need people to understand about phasma is her relationship with her armor. specifically her helmet. it is SO important to understanding her as a character and i don't see people acknowledging it enough.

look. i understand gwendoline christie is pretty. and that 1 photo of her without the helmet (for the vanity fair magazine iirc?) is also absolutely gorgeous and it stays stuck in my head. but she would NOT take off her helmet as much as fanon makes her!!

obligatory disclaimer that a lot of this is supported by evidence from the novel and i know some people don't like/disregard it so if you are one of those people this post is not for you lol

so i think the most important thing to start with from the novel is the simple fact that, even when we see her a decade into the past, she is STILL wearing something that covers her face:

She wore her war mask, a rust-red terror of hardened pinniped-skin painted with black slashes and surrounded by scavenged feathers and fur. The eyeholes were covered in fine mesh salvaged from a wreck, making Phasma seem less like a human and more like a nightmare monster.

and she wears this almost constantly. even when trying to reason with her brother, she is described wearing it. this is odd even for the scyre- because these masks are war masks. even phasma's warriors, like siv, torben, carr, and gosta, don't wear them all of the time. not as much as phasma does, at least.

and this attitude persists throughout the novel. not only with her mask, but with the helmets she picks up on the way to brendol's ship. siv describes her to be "ill at ease" when she's without one of them. and even when phasma is seriously injured, her helmet is the first thing she asks for.

but, okay. this is reasonable. phasma was raised in an incredibly hostile environment. parnassos isn't exactly kind to people. and a helmet is one of the most vital pieces of protection. too much damage to your head and you're OUT. whether that be via a brain injury or an attack to your eyes.

so maybe phasma is rational, actually. maybe she's right? maybe all she wants is protection, and she gets anxious when she's without it. she's still on the front lines of a war, too, so it's not like she's had the time or environment to cultivate any other feelings on the topic.

but no, actually. it's not just about protection. not in that sense, at least.

Funny how, even on Parnassos, she didn’t feel comfortable without her helmet. After she had joined the Scyre, she’d embraced their fierce masks and salve paint as her new visage, as a better way to face the world and terrify it, perhaps giving her a slight edge in any battle. Her helmet performed the same service. She’d first put on the fallen stormtrooper’s armor in the middle of this very desert and had never looked back. No one in the First Order knew what her true face looked like, except Brendol. She would remedy that. Soon.

it's also about hiding her face. something that's really, REALLY interesting to me.

see, my take on it is that phasma sees the helmet as an extension of herself in some ways- like the shell of a crab is an extension of the flesh underneath. when that shell is cracked, every soft and squishy bit of tissue is exposed. and phasma doesn't want to be exposed. to be exposed is to be vulnerable, and phasma wouldn't even want to risk vulnerability.

survival at any and all costs.

“No one ever sees her face,” he says softly. “I never have. No one I know has. She has her own quarters, as I do, and never eats with her troops.”

there is one, and i mean exactly ONE scene in the novel where she willingly takes off her helmet in her FO era (i think her need to cover her face got even worse after parnassos). and it's when she's just stabbed captain cardinal with a knife laced with poison, and she's absolutely certain that he'll die.

“Are you still in there, CD-0922?” she asks. “Still trying to understand how you lost?” “Hypocrite,” he mutters, although it’s an effort. “I’m not a hypocrite just because I don’t believe the same things you believe.” “Liar.” “Yes, and who isn’t? Armitage doesn’t reward honesty. He rewards results.” He coughs, and wetness splatters the inside of his helmet. “Monster.” Instead of answering this accusation, Phasma does the unthinkable: She takes off her helmet.

but immediately after this, she takes off cardinal's helmet, too- she makes them even. to prove a point.

She kicks him, and when he can’t do anything but groan, she kneels and pulls off his helmet, setting both of their helmets side by side like an audience, one shiny silver and one red. “Everyone is a monster,” she says, and her voice is so different without the vocoder.

idk i think it's pretty notable the only person that we know of that she willingly revealed her face to was on the verge of death. she wants no one alive that knows her face- no one that sees her for what she really is, no one that peels back the shell to reveal the weakness inside.

i think phasma is very, very scared.

[bumblingbabooshka]

[Tuvok & Janeway: Control, Distance, Duty & Connection.] Sources: St Voyager Transcripts / Mitski 'First Love Late Spring' / Disco Elysium

[bibxrbie]

I don't really know how to feel about the fact that Ahsoka has all these things that could help revive the Order, and she just doesn't share it with Luke who is actively trying to revive the Jedi Order. Like, Hyuang is with her as she goes on an intergalactic space trip, and she has holos of Anakin training lightsaber combat, which I would argue she doesn't really need.

And, idk, I wouldn't say it's selfish for her to have these things, that's not really fair on her, and I don't expect her to give them to Luke, but I do hope she shares that knowledge with him.