#IT JUST WOULDNT END. JESUS
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elvhenmage · 2 years ago
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fucking hell, the night i’ve had with bg3. i got into act two and shit just kept fucking happening 😭
two feet off the elevator basically and i meet elminster, who eats my cheese and drinks my wine and then tells gale mystra wants him to kill himself
try to tell gale we could find another way to deal with the absolute’s heart; falls on mostly deaf ears
the entire party basically said fuck mystra, we love gale
^ all except halsin, who had no opinion but did come onto me for the second time since we met
fought some shadows with the harpers, had gale come onto me via talking about smutty literature. immediately put on edge at having to reject him soon
get to the last light inn, meet jaheira and the tiefling kids again. meet his majesty!!! see raphael sitting against a window. find rolan drinking about his potentially dead siblings. immediately leave in search of dammon instead
find dammon. updates karlach’s quest (she is NOT looking good). go back to camp to get karlach; long rest
long rest brings mizora. UGH. she wants us to save some devil from moonrise towers. tell her she has to release wyll from his pact if we do. she repeatedly calls him a dog before disappearing
check in on everyone again. wyll thanks me for sticking his neck out for him (💖). karlach says wyll’s happiness is her happiness (🥺). astarion wants to find raphael to talk about his scar (😥).
go to sleep. surprise dream visitor visit in the most revealing outfit i could’ve possibly imagined. completely caught off guard the entire scene bc i thought he also was going to try to make a move on me
still no gale confession scene. still a black cloud above me
go back to last light. talk to dammon, get karlach on the road to recovery (still have to find infernal iron). talk to the strange ox again - it shows me mountains of dead bodies. makaria relates to the ox as she’s dealing with the dark urge. decide to leave the ox alone (for now)
go talk to raphael and mol. help mol win the game. both gale and astarion are now inspired :) but raphael says he’ll find us later to talk more about astarion’s request :(
go back to camp. have a few chats - astarion says he “respects my killing instinct” and that i should consider taking control of the power the tadpoles have instead of getting rid of it
tell him NO THANK YOU. please do not say that to me. he scoffs me off but otherwise doesn’t actually disapprove of my answer, so hopefully uh… i haven’t locked anything in wrt That yet
long rest again. still expecting to get gale’s confession, but — THE BUTLER? cue me pounding my fist on the table
he goes through his schtick. wants me to kill the last light cleric bc i “haven’t been disinherited yet” and i have to “feed the Urge” or else who knows who i may kill next?? rudely brings up alfira. fucks off into the night
realize it’s like 11:30pm and i should go to bed. STILL never got gale’s confession, if i’m going to get it at all, which i hope i don’t but i’m sure i will
this has been, by far, my most eventful session to date. holy hell
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saturdaymorningcartoonz · 1 month ago
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Btw im like full on blocking people who defend the live action Lilo and stitch lol
#I WILL DELETE THIS LATER BC IM DRUNK LOL#but like godddd anyone who defends nani literally giving lilo up to to the state is missing the fucking point#and is also probably white ITS NOT ALWAYS ABOUT LIVING YOUR DREAMS#i bet u hated encanto too like jesus christ#SHES 19 ITS UNREALISTIC AND UNFAIR TO HER UHH. YEAH DUH HAVE YOU EVER HEARD OF A TEEN MOM............#like its literally the point oh my godddddd AND THE NEW ENDING AND EVERYTHING STRIPS AWAY THE COLONALISM/TOURISM MESSAGE LIKE......#obviously nani deserves a happy ending but guess what. in the og movie SHE GETS THAT. SHE DOES GET A HAPPY ENDING#WITHOUT GOING TO COLLEGE AND WITH OUT A PORTAL GUN#LIKE I KNOW THE MOVIE HAS ALIENS IN IT BUT THE PORTAL GUN IS SUCH A DUMB JUSTIFICATION BC ITS LIKE.....#if LA nani was struggling so mucj she could have give lilo to her neighbor in the first place that shes so close w#in the og SHE WAS ALONE AND HAD NO ONE TO LEAN ON and pushed david away bc she saw that as selfish#and SHE. WAS THE ONLY ONR WHO UNDERSTOOD LILO IF SHE WAS W ANYONE ELSE THEY WOULDNT UNDERSTAND HER#AND THE LA MOVIE STRIPPED LILO OF HER WEIRDNESS SO IT LIKE JUST ALL FALLS APART#like ohhhh. my god#il drink and tis is apst hyperfixarion fro me so im very passionate abt it#but u have to he so dumb. to defend the new movie like. i csnt even fsthom#like im so baffled at the overall letterboxed rating. cmon guys i thought we were better than this#I KNOW THIS MIGHT SOUND EXTREME LIKE NORMALLY I WOJLDNT SAY THIS ABOUT MOVIE OPINIONS BUT LIKE.....#if u think a version of a movie that removes its colonialism/tourism message. has an actress do brownface. sanitizises the hardships native#hawaiians face daily AND LIKE GENERALLY TEENAGERS WHO HAVE TO GROW UP TOO FAST. and removes any queer and neurodivergent subtext is anywher#near as good as the original movie. uhh then. youre wrong and probably have other bad opinions about either POC neurodivergent people queer#people or more than one or all of the above#and i dont wanna be around ppl who think like that
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rearranging-deck-chairs · 1 year ago
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having funnn im having fun
#yaz starting this breakdown by going 'and i think im angry'#actualy i mightve edited that out i think she just says 'i hate him sometimes' now ghjfkghjg#cant have your characters say what they meannnnnnn#this is already very direct#but you gotta let them yell sometimes#especially yaz#the doctor opening this scene calling her co-pilot and telling her not to jump out of the tardis#yaz ending this scene by telling her to jump out of the tardis gfhjkghgj#'i love you dont kill yourself' -> 'i dont believe you and actually you know what. do kill yourself'#dhfkjhfgjh <3 girlies#15 in the background like fUCK#hey wait im having a language realisation here#You Who Calls The Shots. the verb agrees with........'it'. right? yeah. you is the.......i have no idea. but not the subject#fun bc i dont even notice these things..............anymore#but in french it's like 'c'est moi qui ai' and im like heyo wtf are you doing 'ai'?? fghkghj#anyway 'if im not who i thought i was'#i dont think yaz ever really bought into........like the flat team structure. bc i think she always felt that her position wasnt equal#or she wouldnt have been so angry abt it in halloween#so i dont think thats a crisis necessarily in terms of identity or position#but i do lately have her ask 'what am i' a lot to the doctor in different words#not from a place of 'i thought i was your equal and now i realise im not'#but more 'i knew i wasnt your equal but jesus am i even WORTH anything to you?'#she knew she was human vs the doctor's superhuman or supernatural a little#but now it feels like. or she feels like. maybe theres a relegation from person to.........toy :/#she knew she wasnt equal but she didnt feel replaceable necessarily#i think now she feels replaceable#not just not a friend in the doctor's eyes. but not a person in the doctor's eyes#and idk maybe thats true#idk how the doctor really thinks abt humans. i think it'd be hard for me to keep thinking of people as people when...youve known so many#maybe they become Friends instead of people
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nowendil · 9 months ago
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#sorry to vent post yet again the pms is pms-ing. i am ultimately in the end ok and this too shall pass etc#cw pet death#UNNA IS FINE no worries#i just. i just really miss Pulmu. my baby my sweet old lady. jesus fucking christ#i just. idk i still hold a lot of regret over her last months. i loved her so much I DID but no amount of love#and money and guilt and open mouth sobbing could make her not Old and Sick.#i just refused to see that because i wanted her to be alright so badly#i feel so bad about letting my feelings go over her comfort. i'm so sorry baby i shouldnt have hung on to you as long as i did#of i could change one thing about the whole of world's history it would be that. so you wouldnt have to die scared in a hospital#but i cant do that. i just have to live with the memory#usually i try not to be too hard on myself about it. first of all because beating myself up about it doesnt change anything#and also because i recognize that i was profoundly mentally ill about the whole thing. (not joking)#like i genuinely dont think i have ever felt and been worse than i did when Pulmu was old and sick. i wasnt thinking clearly.#i should have been but i wasnt.#it has been 1 year and about 8 months since her passing and still sometimes i dont know what the hell to do with all that grief#some days i'm completely fine and i can talk about her without problems. and some days i sob into my pillow feeling like i just got shot#ah well. nothing to it but to keep on trucking#i hope she's fine wherever she is.
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sampilled · 1 year ago
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when teachers tell you to stay in school they are NOT fucking lying
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themyscirah · 1 year ago
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Started thinking about the Amanda Waller + Ben Turner relationship again.... fuck, I'm gonna need a minute
#I JUST- SHDIAUDJSHDSHEYEYRYRYRY guys. guys#i know none of you see my vision and thats okay. i will make you see my vision. i will force you to see my vision. i will-#like jesus fucking christ oh my god. its so interesting and gives me so many emotions and just!!!#i know im not making sense bc none of my moots are sui sq fans and also like half of the content fucking me up specifically here is in my#head because i cant stop thinking about my absolute power fix it au but like!!!!!!!#also the fact i have a fix it for a comic that isnt out yet is so funny to me. its literally fucking real though. god knows we need it#may my own content carry me through the dark times (extreme villain waller arc)#anyways this fucks me up so bad you dont even know. someday ill actually explain it#dc hire me to write a suicide squad ongoing PLEASE. i could do it so good it would be so fucking good dc PLEASE 😭😭😭😭😭😭#also like this isnt me shipping them btw. like 110% not that. just to clarify.#i wouldnt even call it a friendship bc like. theyre not friends really. he has the most equal dynamic with her i would say but it still isnt#equal. shes v much his boss even though they have an understanding and respect there#like she believes and trusts in him much more than anybody really even himself. like she sees the good man and the leader even when he#doesnt. but she isnt nice about it. and there is a lot of conflict between them when there needs to be#like as much as ben is “wallers man”--the team leader she wanted from the beginning before rick flagg pushed his way in#ben i would say is still a very moral person even when lost and unsure of himself and his goodness (which is like one of his main things)#like i feel like while amanda can lean very into a “the ends justify the means” mindset in her worse moments and do bad things to get#herself out of a corner ben has like a deep and meaningful understanding of how the choices of your methods and how you act can weigh on you#like even though he was brainwashed and whatnot (thats still the story right? i cant remember) he holds a lot of guilt and baggage over his#actions and i think is able to temper amanda's worse tendencies in terms of that by calling her out when he recognizes that behavior#idk. i just really think that amanda waller and the suicide squad as a whole has lost its way without a more moral authority presence there.#like someone who can call her out and keep them more on track. which i really thing ben is and could be#i just very much am interested in their dynamic and how that would look like as equals and how i think they could help each other.#which ofc is what my wip is about and revolves around#blah#sui sq
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festivalofthe12 · 1 year ago
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mmmmmmmmmmmmmm when it comes to Kyou I sometimes worry if I'm being too hard on him through like a certain kind of projection, right
but. I can't be... the only one to think there's at least..a little bit of a...victim complex in him, right...?
WHICH: to clarify straight up, he was treated awfully and never deserved any of that, and is all-around 100% a victim who's right to think of himself as such. All of that is correct!!!!!!
but. The whole STORY. is that the cat is the one animal who gets exiled. The one 'bad' one. The one who's ostracised.
And with that comes a certain... I mean, it's a bit easier to think of yourself as the victim, when that's the way everyone frames it, right? That you're the one who's been hard done by? That everyone else has it out for you? That to make things right, everything should be inverted, so everyone apologises and bows down to him for once???
Especially with Yuki. And, again to be fair, Yuki is not at ALL immune to minimising the shit that Kyou's been dealt with because it's often the inverse of what happened to Yuki and that envy is toxic and because Yuki was raised to think that way and also just because Kyou is annoying to him personally hahah.
But. Yuki knows about Kyou's True Form. Kyou... doesn't actually know what happened between Yuki and Akito. And psychologically, there's a hell of lot to benefit him if he reaaaaaally doesn't think about it.
So. Am I being biased to think that, all things considered, Kyou is more dismissive of Yuki's struggles? And that even up through the end of the manga, he still sorta... doesn't really entirely get it?? (At least from what I remember... which is little........)
But here's where I feel like I'm projecting because. My experiences are WAY more like Yuki: pushing things down, trying to do the right thing, feeling like you're just supposed to be grateful for what you have because you've been so privileged. And people who match the sorta description I have of Kyou above have kinda. screwed me up mentally in a lot of ways hahahahahahhhh.
so. I know it's such a cliche thing to have people learn about what Yuki's been through and be so Shocked and Comforting and ooo weepy uke Yuki or what ever (ever notice how nobody ever gets mad at the smug asshole seme stereotype?? HMM.) and I know I might just be biased against Kyou, because of all that IRL stuff and also because early in fandom people kind of did IIRC act like Kyou was right about everything and Yuki not that far off from how Kyou saw him. but.
IDK there's always a part of me that just. keeps thinking up scenarios where Kyou like. still doesn't entirely gets it. and gets called out a bit, or proven wrong.
and maybe that's really dumb or childish of me hahahah;;;;;
#that's it that's the post. there's no point to it im just like. what if I did these things is that bad maybe.#and. to clarify AGAIN. i do think Kyou legit cares abt Yuki by the end#has grown a bit more than yuki in that respect#cause yuki always pitied Kyou. and I mean that in a morally neutral way. he always knew things sucked for him.#he just. was too caught up in his own shit to not react back when Kyou pushed his way into his life and was actively hostile#and I mean react back as an ongoing thing. obviously sometimes yuki initiated individual spats or whatever lol#ANYWAY by the end I think Kyou does. get to some extent that things are shit for yuki too. and wants them not to be???#to which yuki is very. 'no fucking shit. i wouldnt wish that bullshit for you either if you weren't fucking attacking me all the time' kind#but. there's still some ways for them both to grow there#tbh in yukis case. I guess due to his issues with trust/opening up.#it's harder for him to think of Kyou as someone to really care about?? consciously???#whereas like Ive said above. Kyou still thinks of himself as Worse Off than Yuki.#but he can like. Extend a Hand maybe. Graciously. for Tohru's sake as much as anyhting#I dont even fucking know Im just writing fanfic at this point#what even is this post (or any of the furuba posts on this blog)#idk maybe I should just read some Kyo/Yuki again. :///#fruits basket#look maybe I just want the zodiac crew post-canon to start gallows humour 'bragging' abt the awful shit that traumatised them as teenagers#and when it gets to yuki it's like. jesus christ even for this group thats fucked up. or maybe its just because Nobody not even Haru knew#which. great yuki even when the topic is 'haha our childhood was fucked up wasn't it' you still made things weird. <- yuki's thoughts only
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wp100 · 3 months ago
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watched the rise of skywalker for the first time
eeehhhhhh.... plot armour galore. idk if you'd call it plot armour but wowie... so much happened in favour of rey lol
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spock-adoodledoo · 6 months ago
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there's a hazy, tangled up thread in my head that goes: cheng xin felt guilt over metaphorically selling her mother (yun tianming) to the brothel (space hell) -> she resolved not to make that mistake again -> when given the choice later, she keeps choosing the kind or ethical option over utilitarian "ends justify means" survival at all costs -> kept the kindness of humanity alive as opposed to blue space etc
though i don't want to attribute all that to cheng/yun because she was also just that kind of person before everything happened. does this make her writing any better? hm.
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phagodyke · 1 year ago
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what if i just killed myself
#the entire fucking REASONNNNN i titrated through right to choose was bc they said GPs will accept shared care after!!!!!!#i CANNOT fucking afford private meds. i can afford a few weeks to finish titration but i dont have the income/savings for more#like the meds for this month alone cost £150. and thats on top of 25 quid for the prescription n more for any communications#and yeah i wouldnt have to pay the monthly titration fee after that but its still 200 quid a month plus a mandatory 200 quid review yearly#plus extra every time i want any changes to meds itd work out at like 10-15% of my annual income before tax jesus fucking christ#they said someone would get in touch with more info and they havent and im uughghjgf. please dont do this to me#i dont even want to send a follow up message bc id get charged for that at their stupidly expensive rate per minute#man i just. i cant think about this right now its making me so anxious#lets just get to the end of the process and ill pay for discharge/referral and if my gp refuses then ill deal with it from there#i need to look into my workplaces healthcare coverage bc thats another option i could get private treatment covered through them#but i may still have to pay for my own scripts and i dont want to be tied to my work like that..i mean i can go back to being unmedicated#or switch gp until i find one that does accept. and maybe they will straight away so ahhhhhh. its okay its okay lets just see#one thing. at a time. im not going to panic about it#i haveto call friends now anyway so i need to stop spiralling abt this wah#.diaries#whats the fucking point of having public healthcare if u cant even get ur fucking treatment covered by it this country is DOGSHIT#AND MY PRESCRIBER SPELLED MY NAME WRONG THREE TIMES IM SO PISSED OFFFFFFF
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devotedlystrangewizard · 1 year ago
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will never forget the time the school counselor told me that maybe my ex friend couldnt accept me being trans because he was in love with me. or the time he gave my number to his ex and asked her to text me and she informed me that he spent the entire year since i last spoke to him talking about how great i was. actually fascinating. same guy who exploded when anyone even dared to imply he wasnt straight
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yeahiveheardofbears-fics · 1 month ago
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Be My Anti-Valentine
You and your best friend Steve have a movie night on Valentine's Day, since you are both perpetually single. Except, maybe not for long...
hey babes! Happy way late Valentine's Day! I will say that i did base the reader character, once again, on my OC Mac from my ST rewrite series. so some side characters, relationships, and places will be from that universe. You don't need to read that to get the story, but if you like this dynamic then I definitely recommend it! I treat this little smut one shots like deleted scenes that didn't make sense in my main fic, but wouldnt escape my brain. I also did a lot of build up because I can't seem to write smut for Steve without making him an absolute loverboy <3 Enjoy!!
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l-bombs, friends to loves, lots of exposition word count: 14,096 TW: uhhh, really not much, this is pretty loving honestly. underage drinking i guess
REQUESTS ARE OPEN, IF YOU LIKE THIS, PLZ MESSAGE ME CAUSE I NEED INSPO <3
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February 14th, 1986
The neon glow from Family Video flickers just across the street, casting a greenish hue onto the wet pavement outside. Through the glass doors of Vinyl Frontier , you can see the faint movement of Steve inside, pacing behind the counter, no doubt pretending to look busy. You know better.
He’s probably just spinning a tape case in his hands, waiting out the last few miserable hours of his shift—same as you.
You stretch your arms above your head with a groan, then lean against the counter, staring at the real misery: the Valentine’s Day display Jet had you set up. Rows of records with love songs, sappy ballads, and an obnoxiously large hand-drawn sign that reads MAKE A LOVE MIX FOR YOUR SWEETHEART! in looping red letters. The entire thing makes your skin crawl.
You’re halfway through reorganizing the New Releases section—because some asshole put Iron Maiden next to Cyndi Lauper —when the store’s phone rings behind you. You sigh, abandoning the records to grab the receiver.
“ Vinyl Frontier , what do you want?”
There’s a scoff on the other end of the line. “Wow. That’s how you answer the phone now?”
You smirk, already recognizing the voice. “Oh, it’s you. My bad. Vinyl Frontier , home of angsty losers and overpriced imports. How can I help you, Steve?”
“Much better.” There’s a pause, then his voice lowers conspiratorially. “Listen, just giving you a heads-up—there’s a couple that just left my store, all lovey-dovey, handsy as hell. They’re headed straight for your store, so you’ve got, like, thirty seconds before you have to witness… whatever the hell they were doing here.”
You groan, already standing to peek through the store window. And sure enough—there they are. The couple in question, walking hand-in-hand across the street, their matching red sweaters obnoxiously bright.
“Ugh. Them?”
“You know them?” Steve asks, bemused.
“They were making out between The Smiths and Bauhaus the other day,” you say, flopping back against the counter. “I Lysoled the shelves after they left.”
Steve makes a disgusted noise. “Jesus Christ. They were all over the romance section at Family Video . Like, I get it, love is great, whatever, but I work here. Have some goddamn respect.”
You snort. “Happy Valentine’s Day, Harrington.”
“Oh yeah, it’s been real happy,” he deadpans. “Nothing like watching every couple in Hawkins remind me that I’m pathetically single.”
You roll your eyes, even though you feel the same way. “It’s like an infestation. Can’t even walk two feet without seeing someone swapping spit.”
“Tell me about it.” There’s some muffled conversation on his end, the sound of a VHS tape clattering onto the counter. “Anyway, you still coming over?”
“Obviously.”
“I grabbed your stupid movies,” he says, sounding so put out that you have to grin. “But just for the record, I still think your choices are ridiculous.”
“They’re perfect,” you correct. “What’s wrong with them?”
Steve exhales like he’s been waiting for you to ask. “Alright, let’s start with The Thing . How exactly is that an anti-Valentine’s movie?”
“Because it’s about paranoia and distrust,” you say. “There’s no love. Just body horror and existential dread.”
“Uh-huh. And Sleepaway Camp ?”
“You know damn well why.”
“Okay, fine, that one’s fair.” He pauses. “But My Bloody Valentine ? You picked a Valentine’s Day slasher . That’s, like, half giving in to the holiday.”
“It’s a classic, Steve.”
“Mm-hmm.” He doesn’t sound convinced. “I feel like you just wanted an excuse to watch a bunch of horror movies with me.”
You scoff. “Oh, please. I don’t need an excuse for that. I can bully you into watching horror movies whenever I want.”
There’s a beat of silence before he huffs a quiet laugh. “You know, I hate that you’re right.”
“I love that I’m right.”
Steve sighs dramatically. “Fine. But when I get nightmares about shapeshifting aliens, I’m blaming you.”
“You’ll live.”
“Debatable.” Another pause, then his voice softens just slightly. “Robin’s not gonna make it, by the way. She’s got a ‘not-date’ with Vickie.”
That gives you pause.
“So it’s just us,” you say.
“Yeah.” He clears his throat. “Just us.”
There’s a moment of… something. Not awkwardness, exactly. Just an awareness that wasn’t there before. You glance around the store, suddenly finding it hard to focus on anything. The record stacks, the cheap plastic Valentine’s decorations Jet made you put up, the couple now giggling in the corner near Fleetwood Mac .
“Well, that just means more popcorn for me,” you say, brushing past it.
“And I won’t have to listen to Robin complain about my movie choices.”
“ My movie choices,” you correct.
“Whatever.” You can hear the smile in his voice. “So, uh… you still coming?”
You twirl the phone cord between your fingers, a habit you thought you’d grown out of. “Yeah. I’ll be there.”
“Cool. See you later.”
“See you.”
You hang up, staring at the receiver for a second longer than necessary.
This was fine. Totally normal. Just another movie night.
Right?
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Steve sighs as he hangs up the phone, rubbing the back of his neck before turning toward the counter—only to find Robin standing there, arms crossed, one brow arched so high it’s practically in her hairline.
He stops short, already exasperated. “Don’t.”
Robin tilts her head, feigning innocence. “Don’t what?”
“ Don’t make it weird.” He gestures vaguely toward the phone, like somehow the conversation itself was to blame for whatever this was.
She scoffs. “Oh, I didn’t make it weird. You did that all on your own.”
Steve groans, rubbing his temples. “Jesus Christ, Robin.”
She just smirks, shifting her weight against the counter. “It’s not my fault you two sound like a couple in a bad rom-com.”
He glares. “It’s your fault for having a date tonight.”
Robin immediately corrects him. “It’s a not-date.”
Steve rolls his eyes. “Same difference.”
“Uh, huge difference,” she says. “Dates are romantic. Not-dates are for pretending it’s not romantic while still getting nervous about it.”
He gives her a flat look. “That literally makes no sense.”
Robin shrugs. “Well, good news, dingus—you’ve got a not-date too.”
Steve scoffs, crossing his arms. “It’s not a date.”
Robin just lifts a brow. “That’s what I just said.”
He throws his hands up. “No, I mean—it’s not even a not-date! It’s just a normal night. We watch movies all the time.”
Robin sighs, then pushes off the counter, walking over to him with that look—the one that means she’s about to call him on his bullshit.
“Steve.”
“What?”
She softens just slightly. “You do realize that you two are both my best friends, right?”
He shifts uncomfortably. “Yeah?”
“And that I’m not blind?”
He groans. “Robin—”
“I mean, come on.” She starts ticking off fingers, like she’s listing off groceries. “You grab her movies for her even when you think they’re stupid, you call her at work just to talk, you let her make fun of you without even trying to fight back—”
“I fight back,” he protests weakly.
Robin ignores him. “—and, oh yeah, you both spent the last five minutes awkwardly dancing around the fact that you’ll be alone tonight.”
Steve crosses his arms tighter. “So what? It’s not weird to hang out with a friend.”
Robin nods sagely. “Totally. Just a friend.”
“Exactly.”
“Just a friend. On Valentine’s day. that you think is funny and hot and cool and—”
“Okay, I never said that I find her hot.” He throws his head back dramatically. “She’s annoying and bossy and thinks she knows everything—”
Robin hums. “Mmm, yeah. Real convincing, Harrington.”
“—and she’s constantly making fun of my hair—”
Robin shrugs. “You kinda deserve that one.”
“—and she has this stupid little smirk when she’s right about something, and she always has to be right, and when she gets all smug about it, she does this thing where she tilts her head a little, and she has this way of looking at you like she’s three steps ahead in a game you didn’t know you were playing—”
Robin lifts an eyebrow.
Steve doesn’t notice.
“—and she has that voice, you know, like all confident but a little raspy, and when she laughs at something she actually finds funny, not just something dumb Dustin says, it’s, like—”
Robin makes a face. “Steve.”
“—all breathy and warm, and she smells good all the time even when she’s just coming off work, and I don’t know what it is, but it’s like cherry or maybe something floral, but not too much, and—”
“ Steve .”
He finally stops, blinking at her.
Robin stares at him, then slowly grimaces. “You do hear yourself, right?”
Steve pauses. Blinks again. “Shit.”
Robin claps him on the shoulder. “There it is.”
He groans, dragging a hand down his face. “It’s not like that.”
“Uh-huh.”
“She doesn’t even like me like that.”
Robin snorts. “Yeah, sure.”
Steve points a finger at her. “You don’t know that.”
Robin raises both hands in surrender. “Okay. If you say so.” But she’s grinning, and it pisses him off.
Before he can argue, the bell over the door jingles, and a couple walks in, already giggling to each other. Steve immediately straightens up, plastering on his best customer service face.
Robin steps back with a smirk. “Don’t worry, lover boy. We’ll continue this conversation later.”
Steve glares at her as he turns to the customers. “I hate you.”
Robin flashes him a grin. “You love me.”
And unfortunately, she’s right. Again.
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You hang up the phone, exhaling through your nose, then lean against the counter and let your head fall back, staring up at the ceiling. The sound of a throat clearing makes you lift your head, and when you glance to the side you see your boss, Jet, standing in the doorway of the back office, arms crossed, looking entirely too amused.
"Was that Harrington?" he asks, voice dry as ever.
You roll your eyes and turn away, stacking the pile of records you’d been sorting before Steve called. "No, it was the Pope. He wanted to know if we have any Black Sabbath in stock."
Jet snorts, stepping further into the shop. "So, Harrington."
"Maybe."
Jet leans against the counter, watching you work with that knowing look that always makes you feel like you’re under a microscope. "You two sure do talk a lot."
"Yeah, it’s called friendship, Jet."
"Uh-huh." He tilts his head. "Y’know, back in my day, we didn’t call it friendship when two people made goo-goo eyes at each other across a counter."
You nearly drop the stack of records. "Oh my god, shut up."
Jet just grins. "I’m just sayin’."
You huff and move to the other side of the store, grabbing a rag to wipe down the shelves. The Valentine’s Day display mocks you from the corner, obnoxiously pink and full of records Jet made you pull— Foreigner , REO Speedwagon , Whitney Houston , all the stuff people were eating up today.
"He's annoying," you say, mostly to distract from whatever the hell Jet was implying.
"Sure."
"And bossy."
"Mm-hmm."
"Thinks he knows everything."
Jet makes a vague gesture. "Yeah, yeah, you’re really selling it, kid."
You scowl at him, but Jet just chuckles, watching you scrub furiously at a perfectly clean shelf.
"You know," he says, a little softer, "you don’t gotta dance around it with me. If you like him, you like him. No shame in it."
You pause, grip tightening on the rag. "I don’t."
Jet tilts his head, unconvinced. "Look, all I’m sayin’ is… I’ve been around the block a few times. And I know the look of someone trying real hard to pretend they don’t care about someone when they definitely do."
You set the rag down a little harder than necessary. "And what look is that, exactly?"
Jet just grins. "The same look you get when you talk about him but try to pretend you’re just complaining."
You open your mouth, then close it. Scowl. Pick up the rag again.
Jet chuckles. "Listen, I don’t give a damn one way or the other, but if you wanna keep lying to yourself, at least try to be good at it."
You groan. " Jet ."
"Hey, just giving you some wisdom." He pushes off the counter, stretching. "Y’know, back in the day, I had a girl I danced around with like that. Thought I was bein’ slick, thought no one noticed."
You glance at him, wary. "And?"
"And turns out I was just an idiot," he says with a shrug. "So maybe don’t be an idiot, huh?"
You roll your eyes. "Thanks, dad ."
Jet winks. "Anytime, kid."
---
Steve shuts the register with a satisfying clack and stretches, rolling out the tension in his shoulders. It’s finally closing time, and for once, he’s actually looking forward to tonight—not just because it means getting the hell out of Family Video , but because he has plans.
Casual, totally normal, not-a-date plans.
Robin is watching him, arms crossed, in that ‘I know something you don’t want me to know’ way that makes his skin itch.
He sighs. “Just say it.”
Robin grins. “Say what?”
“You know what.”
“Oh, I was just wondering if you were gonna make a move tonight.”
Steve groans, grabbing his jacket. “Jesus, Robin. Again with this?”
“What?” she says, following him as he grabs the store keys and heads for the back door. “I think it’s a valid question.”
“Well, I think it’s a stupid question.”
Robin shrugs, undeterred. “That’s funny, because you didn’t actually answer it.”
Steve flicks off the lights, plunging the store into dim shadows illuminated only by the neon glow from the sign outside. He turns back to Robin, exasperated. “There’s no move to make.”
Robin smirks, watching as he fumbles a little with the keys. “Uh-huh.”
“There’s nothing going on.”
“Sure, sure.”
Steve scowls. “You really think I’d make a move?”
Robin shrugs again. “I mean, yeah.”
Steve groans, shoving his arms into his jacket. “Okay, fine, let’s say hypothetically I was gonna make a move. What would that even look like?”
Robin raises an eyebrow. “Go on.”
Steve exhales sharply, shaking his head, but then—he starts talking. Slow at first, still pretending this is all theoretical, but then it starts flowing a little too easily.
“Well,” he says, rubbing the back of his neck, “first of all, I wouldn’t just spring anything on her. She’s not the type you can just, like, surprise with that kind of thing. So I’d make it seem like a regular movie night. No pressure, no expectations. Just us hanging out, watching her dumb horror movies, which—by the way—are not romantic at all, so she wouldn’t suspect a thing.”
Robin hums. “Sly.”
Steve points at her. “Exactly.”
They step outside into the cold night, their breath fogging in the air. Steve locks the door behind them, still talking.
“Then, I’d wait for the right moment. Maybe during The Thing, since she always gets way too focused on the practical effects and starts ranting about how they were done. That’s when I’d sit next to her—real casual, nothing weird. But, like, closer than usual. Just enough to see if she notices.”
Robin leans against the wall, intrigued. “And if she does?”
Steve shrugs, flipping the keys in his hand. “Then I’d play it off, act like it’s no big deal. But if she doesn’t ? That’s when I’d start testing the waters. Maybe during Sleepaway Camp , since she’s seen it a million times and won’t be as locked in. I’d stretch, put my arm on the couch behind her—”
Robin snorts. “The yawn move?”
Steve glares. “No, not the yawn move. Just an arm casually placed behind her. If she leans in, then, boom—I know she’s comfortable with it. And then,” he continues, getting into it now, “if everything feels right, if she’s not pulling away or making fun of me, then I’d make my move.”
Robin crosses her arms. “Which is?”
Steve exhales, eyes flicking upward like he’s playing it out in his head. “I’d wait for the perfect moment. Maybe when she’s talking, because she always talks during horror movies—”
Robin raises an eyebrow. “You like that she talks during movies?”
Steve waves a hand. “That’s not the point. The point is, she gets really into it, and when she’s really into something, she forgets to be sarcastic for, like, a whole second. So while she’s mid-sentence, I’d just… shift toward her, lean in a little, make sure she notices before I do anything.”
Robin watches him, interested now. “And then?”
Steve tilts his head slightly, picturing it.
“And then,” he says, voice softer, “I’d go for it. Just—slow, you know? Like, give her the chance to pull away, but hoping she doesn’t.” He shakes his head. “I wouldn’t make it some big thing, no cheesy lines, nothing rehearsed. Just… see what happens.”
Robin stares at him for a second. Then makes a face.
“Okay, ew,” she says. “Reel it in, Romeo.”
Steve blinks. “What?”
“You were getting way too into that.”
Steve scowls. “I was just answering your question.”
Robin smirks. “Oh, you so weren’t. That was not hypothetical. That was a step-by-step plan.”
Steve huffs. “It was a theoretical —”
“You definitely have thought about this before.”
Steve groans, rubbing his hands over his face. “Robin—”
“You even mapped out the exact movie timing—”
“Shut up.”
“You are so nervous.”
“I am not—”
“Hey, what are you guys talking about?”
---
You’re walking toward Steve and Robin, hands shoved into your jacket pockets, head tilted slightly in curiosity. You glance between the two of them, your eyes narrowing ever so slightly, like you just walked in on the tail end of something you weren’t supposed to hear.
Steve immediately panics. “Why are you here?”
You blink. “Uh… hello to you too?”
He clears his throat, scrambling to backtrack. “I just—I thought we were meeting at my house.”
You shrug. “Eddie’s still working on my car, so I figured I’d just come straight here.”
Steve nods a little too fast. “Right. Cool. Yeah.”
Robin, who had been standing beside him with a smirk so smug it could power Hawkins for a week, is now outright grinning. She’s practically vibrating with barely restrained laughter.
Your eyes flick between them again. “What?”
Robin doesn’t answer. Instead, she turns to Steve with a knowing smile. “Well, I’m off to my not-date . Wish me luck.”
Your brow furrows. “Good luck?”
Robin winks—not at you, but at Steve. “You too.”
Steve glares at her. “Robin.”
She just grins wider and gives him a two-fingered salute before turning on her heel and heading off down the sidewalk, leaving you standing there with an eyebrow raised.
You shift your weight onto one foot, watching her go before turning back to Steve. “Okay, what was that?”
He shakes his head way too quickly. “Nothing. Just—nothing.”
You don’t buy it for a second. But whatever that was, Steve clearly isn’t going to spill, so you let it slide. For now.
You exhale, rocking back on your heels. “Alright, weirdo.”
Steve shifts awkwardly, clearing his throat. “You ready?”
You nod.
“Cool,” he says, fumbling for his keys like his hands suddenly forgot how to function.
Without another word, you both head to his car.
Once you’re at his house, Steve pushes the front door open first, stepping inside and flicking on the lights without a second thought. You follow behind him, toeing off your shoes as the familiar silence of the Harrington house settles around you.
As usual, the place is empty.
“Where are your parents this time?” you ask, already knowing the answer.
Steve snorts, tossing his keys onto the hallway table. “No idea. They left a note on the fridge, but I didn’t read it.”
You roll your eyes, unsurprised. “So, what? Business trip? Spa retreat? Another month of pretending they don’t have a son?”
“Something like that,” he mutters, shrugging off his jacket. “Not like it matters.”
It’s not like you’ve been here a ton, but every time you have been, it’s been the same—big house, too much space, and no parents in sight. Just Steve, filling the empty rooms with music or movies, like background noise could make up for the lack of anyone actually being home.
You don’t push it. Instead, you drop your bag on the couch and walk straight to the TV, glancing over your shoulder. “Movies?”
“Yeah, yeah, I got ‘em. You set up, I’ll grab snacks.”
You flip through the stack of VHS tapes he brought home from Family Video .
“You actually grabbed all the ones I asked for?” You sound surprised.
Steve scoffs, walking past you toward the kitchen. “You don’t pay me enough to improvise.”
“I don’t pay you.”
“Exactly.”
---
Steve tells himself he isn’t nervous.
He tells himself this as he unlocks the door, steps inside, and watches as you walk in after him, dropping your bag on the couch like you belong here. Which, in a way, you do.
He’s not nervous.
It’s just a normal movie night. Just like all the others.
Except it isn’t.
Because tonight, he has a plan.
A foolproof, step-by-step, can’t-go-wrong plan—one he stupidly let Robin in on, which means there is no backing out now. She’ll ask about it later, and if he tells her he chickened out, she’ll never let him live it down.
So he’s doing this.
…Right?
This is fine. If he just acts normal, you won’t suspect a thing. He pours the popcorn, pops open a couple of sodas, and grabs a bag of chips for good measure. When he comes back into the living room, you’re already loading The Thing into the VCR.
Steve watches you from the doorway for a second. The way you move so easily in his space. The way you don’t hesitate, like it’s your house too.
And yeah. Fuck . He wants this.
He clears his throat and heads to the couch, dropping down beside you—closer than usual.
You don’t say anything.
Step One: Close the Distance.
Easy.
Done.
You didn’t call him out on it, which means he’s in the clear.
The movie starts, and you sink into it, fully focused by the time the sled dog is sprinting through the snow, the helicopter in pursuit.
Steve lets himself relax. Just a little.
Step Two: Casual Arm Placement.
He waits. Gives it time.
You’re locked into the movie, already muttering something under your breath about the brilliance of practical effects. You do that a lot—talk through horror movies, not in a bad way, but in a way that shows how much you actually care about them.
Steve listens, nodding like he’s paying attention to what you’re saying, but really, he’s timing it.
Then, casually, effortlessly, he stretches, letting his arm fall across the back of the couch.
Not touching you. Just there. Close enough to be felt but not enough to be anything.
You don’t react.
So far, so good.
Steve suppresses a smirk. See, Robin? I got this.
Step Three: The Lean-In.
This one is trickier.
It has to be subtle . Smooth.
He waits again, watches as you settle further into the cushions, legs curled up beneath you, completely lost in the movie. That’s when he shifts—barely, just enough to angle himself toward you. Just enough to close the gap a little more.
Still, no reaction.
That’s either a really good thing or a really bad thing.
He reminds himself of the plan.
Wait until Sleepaway Camp for the next move. That’s when he’d test the waters, when you wouldn’t be as focused, when he could ease into it without making it weird.
But then you glance at him, just for a second, and something about the way you look—eyes slightly narrowed, like you noticed but aren’t saying anything—makes his stomach flip.
Fuck it.
Maybe he doesn’t want to wait.
You’re completely locked in when the scene shifts to the research station, the dog curling up in the kennel with the other huskies. It’s the moment before all hell breaks loose, the moment before the thing reveals itself.
It’s perfect.
Steve watches your profile, the way your eyes flick between the screen and your soda as you reach for it.
This is it.
This is the moment.
He turns toward you, leans in slightly, ready to shift even closer.
And then, of course, everything goes to shit.
Disaster: The Soda Incident.
He reaches for his drink at the exact same time you do.
Your hands knock together.
Oh, fuck.
Cold liquid spills all over your shirt.
You gasp, jerking upright as the icy soda soaks through your clothes.
“Shit—”
Steve freezes. Stares. His brain short-circuits.
This was not part of the plan. Not even close.
“Fuck—hold on—” He scrambles to set his drink down, moving fast like he can somehow reverse time and undo the absolute catastrophe he just caused. “Shit, shit, shit. I—I’ll grab a towel—just—shit—hang on!”
He bolts up so fast he nearly knocks over the popcorn bowl, tripping over the coffee table in his rush.
You’re just sitting there, stunned, dripping soda onto the couch, blinking at him like you can’t believe what just happened.
The movie keeps playing in the background, oblivious to the fucking disaster unfolding in real life.
Steve disappears down the hall, heart pounding, and he knows—
Yeah.
This definitely didn’t go according to plan.
---
You sit there, staring down at yourself, blinking at the damp fabric clinging to your chest.
What the hell just happened?
One second, you were watching the movie, minding your own business, and the next—Steve fucking Harrington managed to dump an entire soda all over you like some teenage rom-com protagonist who can’t keep his hands to himself.
Except this isn’t a movie, and Steve is currently gone, having bolted from the room like the place was on fire.
You exhale, peeling the wet fabric away from your skin, grimacing at the way the cold sticks to you. From somewhere in the house, you hear the telltale signs of Steve running around in a panic. Footsteps pounding up the stairs. The sound of a cabinet slamming. A muffled curse. Footsteps back down the stairs, faster this time, followed by another thud and another round of cursing.
Then silence.
You sigh, shifting uncomfortably, and just as you’re about to get up and find a towel yourself, Steve comes jogging back into the living room.
He’s got a hand towel in one hand and a shirt in the other, looking a little too disheveled for someone who was gone for all of thirty seconds.
“Okay, here—” he starts, reaching out with the towel.
And then he stops.
You blink at him. He blinks at you.
Because, yeah. If he was actually going to clean you up, that would mean touching your chest.
Steve goes bright red. “Right. Shit. Here—just—take it.”
He thrusts the towel at you, along with the shirt, and you grab them both, giving him a look.
“Yeah, genius. Didn’t really think that one through, did you?”
Steve groans, dragging a hand down his face. “I was panicking!”
“No shit.”
You push yourself off the couch, the wet fabric sticking uncomfortably as you shift. “Gonna go change.”
He nods quickly, eyes locked very purposefully on anything but you as you walk past him and down the hall toward the bathroom.
You shut the door behind you and sigh, shaking your head.
Steve had been weird all night. Fidgety. Kind of jumpy. Not normal.
And this? This had to be a new record for him in terms of absolute dumbassery.
You grab the bottom of your shirt, pulling it off with a wince, already shivering slightly as the air hits your skin. Then, you look at the shirt he gave you.
It’s not one of his polos or his sweaters—it’s a T-shirt, old and worn, with the faded logo of the Hawkins High basketball team across the front.
You snort. King Steve in his prime.
The fabric is soft, smelling like detergent and him, and when you pull it on, it’s tight. Not uncomfortably so, but enough that it stretches a little over your chest, fitting snug around your torso in a way that most of your own shirts don’t.
Great.
You shake your head and step back out, making your way to the living room.
Steve is at the VCR when you return, swapping out the tape for Sleepaway Camp , his back to you.
He glances over his shoulder when he hears you come in, eyes flicking down to his shirt on you before darting back up to your face.
“Uh,” he says, rubbing the back of his neck. “Sorry. Again.”
You shrug. “It’s cool, this is how most guys try to get me out of my clothes.”
Steve chokes.
Like, actually chokes.
“…Okay,” you say slowly, watching him. “That was a joke.”
Steve shakes his head so fast you think he might snap his own neck and you narrow your eyes. Something is off with him. But you let it slide, stepping back toward the couch as he finishes setting up the movie.
When he sits down again, he leaves a little more space between you this time, but you don’t comment on it. The movie starts, the opening credits rolling, and as the familiar music kicks in, you shake your head.
Steve Harrington is acting weird as hell tonight.
---
Steve is reeling.
He never fucks up like that.
Sure, yeah, maybe he’s been in a bit of a dry spell lately. Maybe he hasn’t had as many dates as he used to. Maybe he’s been selective (Robin’s word, not his) about who he flirts with. But when he does?
This is the part he’s good at.
The easy charm, the confidence, the effortless way he makes a girl laugh and then smoothly inches closer—that has always been his thing.
But this? This was a fucking disaster.
It has to be a sign that this was a bad idea, that Robin got into his head and made him think there was something here when there wasn’t.
Because if there was, he wouldn’t have botched it so badly. He wouldn’t have dumped a fucking drink all over you like a nervous wreck. Wouldn’t be sitting here now, stiff and awkward, trying way too hard to act like nothing happened.
He flicks a glance at you, at the way you’re curled up on the couch, adjusting yourself in his old Hawkins basketball T-shirt.
And—fuck.
The thing about that shirt?
It was his from junior year.
Which means it used to fit him.
Which means, on you, it’s tight .
Steve swallows hard and yanks his gaze back to the screen before his mind can wander any further.
Platonic. Just friends, Harrington. And friends don’t look at their friends’ boobs in a too-small shirt and think about—
He shoves the thought down so hard it practically leaves skid marks in his brain.
Instead, he focuses on the movie.
Sleepaway Camp isn’t a great distraction—it’s weird, and dumb, and kind of awful in the best way—but it’s what’s on.
You talk through it, like you always do, making the occasional joke, sometimes pointing out a particularly bad effect or cheesy dialogue.
Steve answers, strictly platonically.
He ignores any comment that could be vaguely sexual, even when you joke about the guys’ ridiculously short shorts or when you outright laugh at the worst attempt at seduction in cinematic history. Normally, he’d engage—he’d throw something back, tease, maybe flirt just for the hell of it.
Tonight, though, he forces himself to keep it neutral.
Because the more he thinks about what almost happened—the way he was about to go for it, the way he was about to shift even closer—the more his stomach twists.
The movie ends, and Steve is way too quick to jump up.
“Want another drink?” he asks, already halfway to the kitchen.
You nod, stretching as you get up to swap the tapes. “Yeah, sure.”
Steve heads to the fridge, grabs the handle, and—
---
You’re kneeling in front of the VCR, sliding My Bloody Valentine into place, when you hear Steve’s footsteps behind you.
“No more soda,” he announces like it’s a death sentence, hands perched on his hips. “I got, uh—water, orange juice, milk—”
You pause, turning to look at him. “Milk?”
Steve throws his hands up like that’s somehow your fault. “I don’t know, I’m just listing shit. We’ve got juice boxes if you wanna feel like a kid again.”
You roll your eyes, but the second he says it, an idea sparks in your head. You glance at the TV, then back at Steve, then at the couch, where the remnants of the soda disaster still linger. Tonight’s already off the rails, so why not lean into it?
“Why don’t we just make it a drinking game?”
Steve blinks, caught off guard. “What?”
“Come on, we’ve done drinking games before.”
“Yeah, but that’s when there’s more people.”
You narrow your eyes, tilting your head slightly. “And?”
Steve opens his mouth, then stops. He looks at you, thinking, probably trying to come up with a reason why that matters, why it’s somehow different when it’s just the two of you. But he doesn’t have one. Instead, he lets out a slow sigh, rubbing the back of his neck.
“Yeah, okay, I guess that doesn’t actually matter.”
You smirk, victorious, and push yourself up from the floor. You don’t know why he’s hesitating. It’s not like this is some big deal. It’s just a stupid drinking game to go with a stupid horror movie on a stupid holiday. It’s a way to make the night a little more fun, a little less whatever the hell this has been so far.
Steve still looks skeptical, like he’s waiting for some reason to say no, so you press on before he can talk himself out of it.
“We’re both alone on Valentine’s Day,” you say, watching his expression carefully. “Everyone else is out on their dumb dates, drinking their dumb fancy wine, eating overpriced chocolate, being all lovey-dovey. And we’re here, watching horror movies and trying not to spill anything else on my shirt.”
Steve lets out a quiet laugh through his nose, shaking his head.
Encouraged, you keep going. “For once, we don’t have to deal with interdimensional bullshit, no creepy government guys, no nightmare monsters from hell. Just a normal, boring, stupid romantic holiday that we’re stuck spending alone.”
He huffs, crossing his arms. “So, your grand plan is to drink through the pain?”
You shrug. “We deserve a night of dumb, normal young people shit.”
It’s only when you say it out loud that you realize how true it is. You’ve spent so much of the last couple of years dealing with things that no one your age should have to deal with. Near-death experiences, government cover-ups, missing people, watching friends suffer and not being able to do anything about it. It’s been a lot, and maybe it’s selfish, but you just want one night that feels easy.
Steve is quiet, considering. You step closer, just enough to reach out and clap a hand on his shoulder, half in encouragement, half in challenge.
“Come on, Harrington. It’s one night. What’s the worst that could happen?”
For a second, he just looks at you. There’s something in his expression you can’t quite place, something unreadable behind those brown eyes. But then he sighs, running a hand through his hair before shaking his head.
“Fine,” he mutters. “I’ll go grab something my parents won’t miss.”
---
Steve comes back into the living room, bottle in one hand, glasses in the other, expecting to see you on the couch where he left you. Instead, you’re sitting on the floor, pillows propped against the coffee table, legs stretched out, completely at ease like this is just how movie nights are supposed to be.
He stops short, eyeing you with confusion. “What are you doing?”
You glance up at him, completely unfazed. “It’s more fun this way.”
Steve squints. “Sitting on the floor ?”
“Yeah.” You pat the space next to you, smirking. “Come on, try it.”
He sighs but doesn’t argue, lowering himself down beside you, setting the bottle and glasses on the floor. His knees knock against yours briefly as he gets comfortable, and for some reason, that small, barely-there contact sends a little jolt through him. He ignores it, grabs the bottle, and tilts it in your direction.
“Alright,” he says, twisting off the cap, “rules.”
You hum in thought. “Okay, obviously, we drink every time someone dies.”
“Obviously.”
“Drink every time someone says ‘Valentine.’”
Steve snorts. “This is My Bloody Valentine , we’re gonna die.”
“That’s the point.” You grin and hold up a finger. “Drink when someone does something really fucking stupid, like running upstairs instead of outside.”
“Classic.” He pours your glass, then his, setting the bottle aside. “What about drink if you get spooked?”
You narrow your eyes. “You just want an excuse to make me drink more.”
He grins, bumping his knee against yours. “Gotta level the playing field somehow.”
You roll your eyes but don’t argue. “Fine. And… drink if there’s a sex scene.”
Steve raises an eyebrow. “You just made that one up.”
“Maybe.”
“You so did.”
You smirk. “It’s still a good rule.”
He shakes his head, but his smile lingers as he lifts his glass. “Alright, to terrible horror movies and drinking games.”
You clink your glass against his, and with that, the game begins.
Two-thirds of the way through the movie, and you’re both comfortably tipsy. Not drunk, but warm, relaxed, feeling looser, laughter coming easier.
At some point, Steve stopped noticing when your knee brushed against his. He didn’t think much of it when your arm pressed against his as you reached for your glass. Didn’t acknowledge the way you shifted slightly, leaning more into him as you adjusted yourself on the pillow, both of you sinking deeper into the comfort of the moment.
But now?
Now, he notices.
His focus snaps to the way your thigh is flush against his, how your elbow nudges his arm when you gesture toward the screen, still mid-rant about the practical effects.
And suddenly, it sobers him up just a little.
Not enough to stop enjoying himself, but enough to remember.
The plan.
The one he’d botched spectacularly earlier when he panicked like a fucking idiot and spilled soda all over you. He should have waited for the right moment, should have followed through exactly the way he told Robin he would.
But maybe this is the moment.
He watches you as you talk, completely wrapped up in explaining why this particular death scene is underrated. Your eyes are bright, hands moving as you emphasize certain points, and you’re not filtering yourself the way you sometimes do. This is that window—where you’re passionate, where your guard is down, where you aren’t trying to be anything other than exactly you.
And you look so fucking pretty.
His chest tightens.
He doesn’t think. Doesn’t overanalyze. He just goes for it.
His hand moves before he can stop it, reaching up to cup your face, fingers brushing along the curve of your jaw. Your words falter, breath catching, eyes flicking to his in startled confusion, but you don’t pull away.
And then he’s leaning in, closing the space between you, pressing his lips to yours.
It’s soft, tentative but steady, warm in a way that has nothing to do with the alcohol. His thumb strokes lightly along your cheek, grounding himself, savoring the way your lips part slightly, like you weren’t expecting this but aren’t against it either.
You don’t pull away.
You don’t pull away.
It’s a slow, lingering kiss, the kind that feels like it’s meant to happen, like it’s been waiting to happen. The kind that shifts something in the air, something unspoken but undeniable.
When he finally leans back, just enough to look at you, he searches your face, breath unsteady.
And for the first time all night, you’re speechless.
---
You stare at him.
For a full minute, maybe longer.
The kiss still lingers, warm on your lips, your brain lagging behind, trying to catch up with the reality of what just happened. Steve watches you like he’s waiting for something—maybe for you to freak out, maybe for you to say something, anything.
And eventually, you do.
“What—” You shake your head, eyes narrowing slightly. “What the hell was that?”
Steve opens his mouth to answer, but before he can, you cut him off.
“Wait, no. You’re drunk.”
“I’m not—”
“You’re drunk, and you’re feeling weird about Valentine’s Day, and you were caught up in the moment—”
“I—”
“We’ve been drinking, and you’re—”
“Jesus, would you let me—”
You’re still talking, half-rambling, voice layered with that dry disbelief you always get when shit blindsides you, and Steve, clearly realizing that you’re just gonna keep going, shakes your shoulder a little. Not hard, just enough to jolt you.
You stop. Blink.
He exhales. “I did it because I wanted to.”
Your stomach does something stupid and traitorous at that, but you shove it down, tilting your head slightly, giving him the flattest expression you can manage.
“Okay,” you say. “Well. Now you have.”
Silence settles between you. Not uncomfortable, but something. You’re still way too aware of the fact that his hand was on your face, that his lips were on yours, that you let him do it.
And worse—you kissed him back.
Steve shifts beside you, turning his attention to the movie, but his voice is softer when he says, “For the record, you kissed me back.”
You don’t respond. You just keep watching, your heart pounding way too hard for something as simple as sitting next to him. Your brain spins, trying to process the entire situation, trying to put all the little pieces together, trying to figure out what the hell you’re supposed to do with this new information.
And then, for some reason, you look at him.
Like, really look at him.
He’s still staring at the screen, trying to act normal, and to the average person, he probably looks normal. But you know him better than that. You’ve spent too much time around him not to pick up on the small tells—the way his jaw is a little tighter than usual, the way he shifts slightly like he’s trying not to fidget, the way his fingers tap lightly against his knee. He’s trying to keep his cool, trying to play this off like it isn’t a big deal.
And now, you can’t stop noticing things.
The two beauty marks on the side of his neck, just under his jaw. The way the glow of the TV flickers against his skin. The shape of his mouth, the way his lips look softer in this lighting, the way his eyes shift when something catches his attention on screen. The way his arms look in that stupid polo shirt, his biceps just defined enough that—
Nope. Absolutely not.
You shake yourself out of it, tearing your eyes away, trying to breathe properly again.
And then—like puzzle pieces clicking together—your brain finally catches up. The closeness, the arm around the back of the couch, the spilled soda. You turn to him, narrowing your eyes, and before you can stop yourself, you smack his arm.
He flinches, looking at you, completely caught off guard. “What the hell?”
“You planned this.”
Steve’s face does this weird thing—half shock, half shit, I’ve been caught —before he recovers, shaking his head. “What? No.”
You stare at him.
“Steve.”
He doesn’t say anything and you raise an eyebrow, waiting.
He shifts, clears his throat, and you see it all over his face—he’s absolutely about to try and deflect.
And then, just as he’s about to speak, you say his name again.
“Steve.”
And just like that, he freezes.
---
Steve feels cornered.
And not in a bad way, necessarily, but in a ‘shit, there’s nowhere to run and I’ve already been caught’ kind of way. You’re looking at him, waiting, eyes narrowed, arms crossed, the full force of your glare locked in.
And Steve—Steve does what he does best in moments of extreme pressure.
He rambles.
“If I planned this, it wouldn’t have gone so disastrously,” he starts, gesturing wildly like that’ll somehow help his case. “Like, this is the part I’m usually good at, okay? The flirting, the—moves, the whole making-it-seem-effortless thing. You know, the part where I don’t look like a complete idiot and spill an entire drink on you like I’ve never spoken to a girl before.”
You don’t say anything. You just raise an eyebrow, completely unimpressed.
Steve exhales, shaking his head. “And, honestly? It’s kind of your fault.”
That makes you blink.
“My fault?”
“Yeah, because you—you throw me off!” He gestures at you like that’s an obvious answer, like that explains anything. “You’re always making these stupid jokes, and you’re too quick, and you make fun of me before I can make fun of myself, and you never let me get away with anything. It’s—”
His mouth keeps running. His brain catches up about three sentences too late.
“—it’s really annoying, except it’s not, because I actually kinda—”
Steve stops mid-sentence, everything catching up with him at once.
Fuck.
You tilt your head, waiting.
He swallows, rubbing a hand over his face. “Jesus Christ, I’m an idiot.”
You hum. “Yeah, but I already knew that.”
Steve lets out a short, almost nervous laugh before dragging a hand through his hair. “Okay, listen. That wasn’t—I didn’t mean it’s actually your fault. That was—I’m sorry, that was just me being defensive, and that was a dick thing to say.”
You nod slowly, clearly waiting for the rest.
He sighs, looking at the ceiling for a second before bringing his gaze back to you. “Robin put this thought in my head. I mean, she’s been putting this thought in my head. Since, like, the second I met her at Scoops.”
You don’t look surprised.
He shakes his head. “But if I’m being completely honest, it was already there.”
That’s when you stop him.
“Of course she did.” You sigh, rubbing your temple like this is something you’ve been expecting.
Steve frowns. “Wait—what do you mean of course she did?”
You hesitate, shifting your weight slightly before reluctantly admitting, “Because she’s been saying the same things to me for months.”
Steve blinks. That is not what he expected you to say.
It takes him a second to process, but when it clicks, when he realizes what you just admitted, his mouth stretches into a slow, growing grin.
“Wait.” He points at you. “Are you saying you like like me?”
Your entire face shifts into the most unamused expression he’s ever seen.
“Did you just say like like ?”
“Yeah.”
You narrow your eyes. “How old are you?”
“Okay, what about fancy me?” He wiggles his eyebrows. “Sweet on me?”
“Oh my god.”
“Got a little crush on me?”
“Steve.”
“Are you pining over me?”
You groan, shaking your head. “I refuse to answer if you keep saying it like that.”
Steve leans in slightly, tilting his head. “Not answering kinda is an answer.”
You look at him, lips pressing into a thin line, but you don’t pull away.
And that’s when something in him shifts.
For once, he stops talking. Stops trying to play it off, stops trying to dance around it, stops deflecting. He just watches you, watches the way your expression flickers—sharp one second, a little softer the next, like you’re not quite sure where this is going.
And then, quieter than before, he says, “How do you actually feel?”
You inhale. Exhale. Then, with the kind of reluctance that makes his heart beat just a little faster, you start listing.
“Despite the fact that you’re ridiculous.”
He grins.
“Despite the fact that you’re a little too cocky sometimes.”
“Objectively false.”
You roll your eyes.
“Despite the fact that you’re an idiot who spilled an entire soda on me.”
Steve huffs a laugh. “Yeah, that was bad.”
You pause, hesitating, but then, softer, you add, “Despite all of that… I still like being around you. More than I should.”
Steve swallows. “Yeah?”
You nod once. “Yeah.”
Something settles in his chest.
He exhales, gaze flicking down to your lips briefly before meeting your eyes again, smirking a little. “So, theoretically,” he starts, tilting his head, “if I wanted to kiss you again, would I still be at risk of getting punched, or…”
You roll your eyes, but there’s something there now, something warmer, something less guarded.
So Steve doesn’t wait for an answer.
He just leans in and kisses you again.
This time, it’s different.
The first kiss had been tentative, careful, almost testing the waters. But this one—this is something else entirely. This one is lingering, deeper, his hand sliding along your jaw again, the warmth of his palm grounding you as his lips part against yours.
The shift is slow but undeniable—the way his fingers slide back into your hair, the way he tilts his head just enough to deepen it, the way your hand moves, resting lightly against his chest, gripping the fabric of his shirt like you’re steadying yourself.
Steve barely has time to think—barely has time to do anything other than sink into you—before the next thought crosses his mind.
Holy shit. This is actually happening.
He smiles against your mouth and feels the corner of your lips curve upward.
When you finally lean back, it takes a second for his brain to catch up, his eyes opening, his breath coming in unsteady, shallow waves. He stares at you, the way the glow of the TV dances against your skin, the way the softness in your eyes matches the one in his chest, the way his hands are still cupping your face, his fingers threaded through your hair.
He exhales, letting his forehead rest against yours.
And then, without thinking, he says the first thing that comes to mind.
"Wanna be my Valentine?"
You snort.
You literally snort.
"That was so lame," you mutter, pulling back enough to look at him, laughing a little. "Seriously, Harrington?"
He shrugs. "So?"
"So, you missed it. Valentine's Day technically ended like an hour ago."
"Yeah." Steve pauses, thinking. Then, "We can do better next year."
Your stomach does a fucking somersault.
"Next year?"
"Yeah." He's got that dumb, boyish grin again, the one that makes his eyes bright and that's simultaneously too much and not enough. "I can take you out. Somewhere nicer than just my living room, somewhere where we're both not covered in soda. We can dress up, make a real thing of it. Maybe dinner, maybe a movie, maybe the stupid arcade."
"You hate the arcade."
"Not the point."
You huff a quiet laugh. "And what about the year after that?"
"Ah, see that's the year we get really crazy. We take a vacation, maybe road trip to Chicago, rent a hotel room for the weekend."
"A hotel room, huh?"
"Yeah, and we can have a fancy dinner at a nice restaurant. One with tablecloths and candles and everything."
You narrow your eyes slightly, watching him. "So, basically, you're planning a bunch of cliche, classic Valentine's dates."
"Basically."
"Like we're a couple."
"Like we're a couple." He nods.
"And you want to keep doing this for years?"
"And I want to keep doing this for years."
Steve looks so certain, so unbothered by the fact that he just threw out the words 'for years' like it's the easiest thing in the world. Like it's a promise, a guarantee. And when you see the way his gaze softens, the way his eyes flick between yours, the way his expression goes a little more serious, you realize—
That's exactly what he's doing.
You swallow, looking at him, and then, slowly, you ask, "Why?"
"Because I'm an idiot."
You roll your eyes.
"Because I'm an idiot," he amends, "who's liked you for way too long, and I've just been trying not to notice it."
"Steve—"
"And because I know I've made a lot of mistakes, okay?" He pauses, exhaling a little shakily. "Like, a lot of mistakes. But the biggest mistake would be not going for this, not seeing where it could go."
You shake your head, your heart beating way too fast.
"Steve," you say, "we've only kissed twice."
"Yeah, and?"
"And... it's been twenty minutes."
"And?"
You let out a small, exasperated laugh, looking at him like he's insane. "It's been twenty minutes."
"Listen," he starts, and the fact that he's using the exact same tone of voice as you, the one where he's trying to argue, the one where he's determined and stubborn and refusing to back down, makes something in your chest shift.
He reaches for your hands, lacing his fingers with yours.
"There is a lot of shit we've had to deal with. A lot of crazy, unbelievable shit. But this is something I know, okay? This is something I'm sure about. So, maybe we go into it too fast, and maybe we take our time, and maybe we try a few things and figure out what works. But I don't care."
Steve squeezes your hands gently.
"We've spent the last three years dealing with monsters and evil Russians and upside-down hellscapes, and the second I got to kiss you, the second I got to actually act on the thing I've wanted for way too long, I didn't think about any of that. I didn't think about the fact that the world is probably gonna keep fucking us over. I didn't think about all the reasons why this wouldn't work or why we shouldn't be doing this. I didn't think about the risks or the bullshit. I didn't even think about the fact that I'm supposed to be spending Valentine's Day alone. I just..."
He stops, his breath catching a little.
"I just felt it. The way it made me feel. The way I just want to keep doing it, again and again. And the fact that I know, I fucking know, we're gonna have to deal with a lot more weird shit before we can even begin to be normal, I'm not worried. Because at the end of the day, if you're there, then everything else doesn't matter."
And with that, the last of your defenses crumble.
You stare at him. At this ridiculous, self-proclaimed idiot, with his perfect hair and his pretty smile and his dumb, charming confidence.
At Steve Harrington, the guy who used to be the most annoying, egotistical prick you'd ever met.
At the guy who's become one of the best people you've ever known.
At the guy who is, somehow, right now, here, saying all the right things.
"Shit," you mutter. "You're making it really hard not to fall in love with you."
Steve grins, and then, the absolute bastard, leans in.
"Then stop trying."
He kisses you again.
You feel it everywhere—in the way his mouth slides against yours, warm and inviting, the way his fingers tangle into your hair, the way he pulls you closer.
Your fingers curl into his polo, gripping tightly as you shift closer, and Steve groans against your mouth, his hands sliding to your waist like he can’t not touch you now. The warmth of your body pressed against his is enough to make him lightheaded, the scent of your shampoo mingling with the faint whiskey on your breath making his head swim.
His hands start to move without thinking, fingertips tracing over the fabric of your shirt—his shirt—feeling the heat of your skin underneath. You gasp softly, and Steve nearly loses his mind right there. He has to pull back, has to take a breath before he does something completely reckless, but even then, his forehead stays pressed against yours, his breath mingling with yours.
“Bedroom?” His voice is rough, barely above a whisper.
You nod. “Yeah.”
That’s all he needs.
Steve gets up first, pulling you with him, hands firm on your waist as he steadies you. You both stumble slightly, tipsy but nowhere near drunk, laughing under your breath as you navigate through the house. It’s not far—just up the stairs, past the stupid family portraits his parents insist on keeping up despite never being here.
And then, finally, his room.
The door clicks shut behind you, sealing you both in, the soft glow from outside casting long shadows across his walls.
And then, Steve is on you again.
He doesn’t hesitate this time, doesn’t second-guess himself as his hands find your face, thumbs brushing over your cheekbones as he kisses you like he’s been waiting to do this forever. Like he’s scared it might slip away if he doesn’t hold onto it.
The backs of your knees hit the edge of his bed, and you sink down, pulling him with you. Steve follows, pressing you down gently, settling between your legs as he leans in, his lips never leaving yours.
His hands start to wander, slow, exploring—mapping you out like he wants to memorize every dip and curve. And god, you’re soft. So warm, so right against him.
 His mind is already racing, imagining every place his lips could follow, every inch of skin he could trace, every way he could make you melt into him.
Your own hands roam, sliding down his chest, fingers curling into the fabric of his shirt. Steve leans back, just enough to let you pull it off, the cool air hitting his skin making him shiver. His chest is exposed, his hair a little messy, his arms flexing slightly as he props himself up, and the sight is enough to make you pause.
Steve smirks, catching you.
But instead of teasing, he leans down, kissing along your jaw, his voice low and soft as he murmurs, "My turn."
Steve teases the hem of the shirt he let you borrow. You sit up a little and he starts to lift it up over your chest, but it's a tight fit and it gets stuck. You're about ready to have him just rip it off at this point, but when he speaks, his voice is soft and gentle and his breath is hot on your skin and all the words die on your tongue.
"Hold your arms up, okay?"
You obey, raising your arms and letting him slide the shirt off. He tosses it on the floor and you shiver at the sudden cold, but it's quickly forgotten as Steve looks down at you.
"Fuck."
The word slips out of his mouth before he can stop it. His eyes drink you in, trailing over the swell of your breasts in your bra, the smooth skin, the curve of your waist, and suddenly, he's overwhelmed.
"So you don't think I'm like, a total perv, I didn't think that shirt would be that... snug when I grabbed it. So, uh, sorry, but I'm also not complaining, because you have a really great—shit, what was I saying?"
"Shut up, Harrington," you mutter, grabbing his neck and pulling him in for a kiss.
He chuckles against your lips, then shifts.
Steve starts slow, his mouth tracing a line down the side of your neck. He pauses, sucks at the hollow of your throat, feels the way your breath hitches when his teeth graze over the delicate skin. Your fingers card through his hair, nails lightly scratching his scalp, and the sensation is enough to make him shudder, a quiet groan slipping out.
Then, he moves lower, lips pressing a kiss in the space between your breasts. His hands trace over the tops of them, then down, cupping you, feeling the weight, thumbs swiping along the edge of your bra. You sigh, arching into him, and it takes every ounce of control not to lose it right there.
Steve leans back, eyes meeting yours, silently asking permission.
You nod, and he reaches behind you, unhooking your bra with a little more ease than expected. When he slides it off, his eyes flick down to the newly exposed skin, and you swear you hear his breath hitch.
Then, his mouth is on you, and all rational thought leaves your brain.
Steve knows his way around a girl's body.
But right now? With you?
It's like starting from square one.
Because right now, everything is heightened. Every noise you make, every little gasp and moan, every hitch of your breath, every brush of your skin against his. It's enough to drive him absolutely insane, enough to make him lose focus, and when he feels you shift underneath him, when he sees the way you look up at him, his mouth still wrapped around your nipple, sucking gently, he feels that familar tug in his stomach.
It's that same feeling—the one he can't shake, the one he can't get rid of, the one that has him thinking thoughts like 'fuck, she's so pretty' and 'holy shit, I really like her' and 'god, this is gonna ruin me, isn't it?'
But right now, none of that matters.
Right now, he can't stop.
You're arching into him, fingers buried in his hair, tugging lightly, and the sound that slips out when he scrapes his teeth lightly is enough to make his cock twitch. His mouth trails lower, over your stomach, kissing along your hipbones, and he's moving faster now, impatient, hands sliding to the button of your jeans.
He hesitates, just for a second, looking up at you.
"Is this okay?"
You nod, swallowing, and Steve's hands move. He undoes the button, slides the zipper down, and hooks his fingers into the sides. He doesn't wait for a response this time—he yanks, hard, and the sound that slips out is one part surprised, one part pleased, and it's so fucking hot that he can't stand it.
Once they're off, he looks at you, taking a second to breathe, to appreciate how fucking gorgeous you look, laid out on his bed in nothing but a pair of panties. Then, his gaze trails lower, and he sees the wet spot on the fabric, and it hits him.
Fuck, you're soaked.
He exhales sharply, his eyes flicking up to yours. "Holy shit."
"Yeah." Your voice is breathy, a little embarrassed, but there's something there, too. Something needy, something desperate.
"Do you have any idea," Steve says, leaning over you again, "how long I've wanted to see you like this?"
His hand slides down, palming you through the fabric, and when he rubs lightly, your entire body shudders.
"See, this?" He rubs a little harder, the fabric of your panties sliding against your clit. "This is my new favorite thing."
You gasp, arching into him.
Steve keeps going, rubbing you through the thin layer of cotton, watching the way your hips lift into his hand. He presses a kiss to your jaw, then to your neck, sucking lightly, and then, without warning, he slides off your panties and his fingers are back on you. 
"Fuck," he groans, feeling the heat, the wetness coating his fingers. "So fucking wet, baby."
His voice is lower than before, the pet name slipping out without thinking, and it takes every ounce of self-control not to start fucking his fingers into you. Instead, he teases, sliding his fingers, feeling the slickness, the way your breath catches when his thumb circles around your clit.
And then, he dips a finger inside.
You let out a low moan, a sound that has his cock twitching again, and the urge to just bury himself in you and fuck until neither of you can breathe is almost overwhelming. But he doesn't. He doesn't rush it.
Instead, he keeps going.
"This is what I'd think about," he says, adding a second finger. "When I would lay here, at night, after I was done talking to you."
You don't say anything, too focused on the feeling, but he knows you're listening. He kisses down your neck, fingers moving slowly, curling inside of you, his palm brushing over your clit, and then, when he adds a third finger, the stretch is enough to make your brain short-circuit.
"I'd be in bed, alone, and all I could think about was this." His voice is rougher now, the way you're squeezing around his fingers driving him insane. "What you would look like, how you'd feel, how you'd taste."
Steve picks up the pace, thrusting a little harder, his fingers curling, finding that spot, and the whimper that escapes is the hottest fucking thing he's ever heard. He's fully hard now, his cock straining against his jeans, and he has to shift, has to grind his hips against the mattress to take the edge off.
"And now," he murmurs, "I get to find out."
Steve presses his lips to yours, swallowing the moan as he fucks you with his fingers. He can feel the way your body starts to tighten, the way you squeeze around him, the way your breath gets unsteady, and he knows you're close.
"God, look at you." He curls his fingers again, watching the way your hips rock into his hand. "So pretty, baby. So perfect."
His free hand comes up, brushing over your nipple, and that's all it takes.
You gasp, clutching onto his shoulder, your head falling back as the orgasm rips through you.
And then, Steve has an idea.
Before you can even process, he's sliding lower, his lips moving, pressing open-mouthed kisses along your stomach, then down, until he's settled between your legs. You can feel the heat of his breath, and then, his tongue drags along the inside of your thigh, and the realization of what's about to happen sends a jolt through you.
You barely have time to process before his mouth is on you, and fuck, the sensation is overwhelming.
"Oh, god," you gasp, and your hands fly down, tangling into his hair, trying to anchor yourself.
He doesn't go slow this time. He's not gentle or teasing. He just licks a long stripe over your pussy, his fingers parting you, his tongue swiping through the wetness, savoring the taste, and when his mouth finds your clit, his lips closing around it, you have to fight to keep your hips still.
Your entire body feels like it's on fire, the pleasure sharp and white-hot.
Steve is relentless, his tongue moving expertly, swirling around your clit, alternating between hard, firm strokes and light, teasing ones. When he sucks, his tongue flicking, you cry out, a string of curses slipping out as your fingers tighten in his hair.
He groans against you, the sound muffled, his fingers gripping your hips tightly, and then, you feel it.
One hand slides under your thigh, his arm hooking under your leg, pulling it up and over his shoulder. His other arm wraps around the other, holding you down, his hand spreading you, keeping you wide open for him.
Then, Steve goes harder.
He doesn't give you time to breathe, doesn't let you recover. Instead, his tongue moves faster, licking, sucking, his face buried in you, his grip on your thighs iron-tight. The sound is obscene, filthy, wet and messy and fucking perfect, and when his teeth scrape over your clit, your back arches off the bed.
"Steve," you pant, trying not to lose it completely. "I'm—I'm gonna—"
He hums, like he already knows, and the vibrations are enough to send you over the edge.
Your entire body seizes, the pleasure shooting through you like lightning. You don't even know what's happening, if you're crying out or moaning or gasping or a mix of all three, but you can't focus, can't breathe, can't do anything other than let it rip through you, white-hot and fucking amazing.
By the time it finally fades, the aftershocks rolling through you, you're completely breathless. Your legs feel like jelly, your fingers are numb from gripping his hair, and you're positive that every nerve in your body is fried.
When Steve pulls away, sitting up, you look at him.
Your eyes are wide, your chest heaving, and it's only then that you notice the lopsided smile.
"Did I kill you?"
"Shut up," you mutter, your face flushing.
Steve's smirk widens. He crawls up, leaning in, his lips brushing against yours. "You taste amazing."
You're too weak, too fucked out to respond. All you can do is look at him, his mouth slightly parted in a loose smile, his lips shiny. And the fact that you're the reason, the fact that he was just between your legs, eating you out, is enough to make another pulse of warmth spread through your stomach.
Then, Steve looks down at you, his smile turning softer.
"Hey."
"Hi."
"You good?"
You exhale. "Yeah. Just... a little lightheaded."
"Sorry," he says, not sorry at all. "I'll try not to be so good next time."
He grins in a way thats too sweet, too genuine, and then, he presses a kiss to your forehead. He shifts, pulling back, and you're about to ask what he's doing when he reaches for the nightstand. He opens the drawer, digging around, and you're about to ask him why he's suddenly acting so weird when he holds something up.
A condom.
Steve glances at you, and his face does that thing—that half-shy, half-smirking thing—like he's still trying to play it off.
"We don't have to," he says. "If you don't want."
You hesitate.
It's not like you've never thought about it. You've imagined him more times than you'd ever admit, late at night, under the cover of darkness, when it's just you and your own mind and the things you'd like to do. But now the guy is currently in front of you, giving you the biggest puppy dog eyes of all time, as if he didn't just give you the best orgasm of your life with his tongue a few minutes ago.
Your heart stutters, and it's not because you're scared or nervous.
"Yeah," you say. "Okay."
Steve blinks, and then, he grins.
"Yeah?"
You roll your eyes. "Yes, asshole."
"Hey." He points a finger at you. "No name-calling while we're having sex."
You snort, and the laugh that follows makes him smile wider.
Then, without thinking, he leans down and kisses you.
The kiss is soft, gentle, almost hesitant, but you can taste yourself on his lips and it's enough to send a shockwave through your system. You wrap an arm around his neck, pulling him closer, and the second his bare skin presses against yours, the weight of him settling between your legs, the hardness of his cock pressing against your thigh, your pulse jumps.
Steve reaches for the button on his jeans, fumbling slightly, but once he's kicked them off, he's on you again. His body is warm, the skin soft under your hands, and his mouth finds yours, his kiss a little more desperate now, like he's trying to ground himself, his fingers sliding into your hair, nails scratching lightly against your scalp.
When you shift underneath him, spreading your legs, his breath hitches, the friction enough to make him grind into you. You bite back a whimper, arching into him, and when you reach between you, palming him through his boxers, his cock twitches.
"Off," you say, tugging the waistband. "Now."
Steve huffs a laugh against your mouth.
"Demanding."
But he doesn't hesitate.
He sits back, just enough to pull them off, and the second they're gone, you swallow.
Fuck.
Steve Harrington is a lot of things.
Gorgeous. Annoying. An absolute idiot.
But right now, you're noticing a whole new set of adjectives.
He's hard, the tip flushed and swollen, and he's a little bigger than you were expecting. He's lean and fit in a way that has heat pooling in your stomach, the muscles in his arms flexing slightly as he reaches for the condom, and the sight is enough to make you a little dizzy.
"I can practically hear you thinking," he mutters, leaning in again, his mouth finding your jaw. And then, there's that stupid, cocky smirk. "Like what you see?"
"Absolutely not," you deadpan.
"Uh-huh." Steve's grin widens, but instead of saying anything else, he tears the wrapper open, rolls it on, and then, he's leaning in, bracing his weight over you. "You're cute when you're lying."
You feel the head of his cock brush against your entrance, and when he leans down, kissing you softly, his hand finds yours.
He tangles his fingers with yours, pressing them down into the mattress, his thumb tracing over the back of your hand.
"Still okay?"
His voice is different now. Quieter, softer.
And something about it makes your chest ache.
"Yeah."
"Tell me if it hurts."
You nod, and then, slowly, Steve pushes into you.
He goes slow, inch by inch, his gaze locked with yours. It's intense, overwhelming, and you can't tell if it's the fact that his eyes are so fucking pretty, or the way his fingers lace with yours, or the way his breath stutters a little when he bottoms out, but whatever it is, you feel it everywhere.
Steve holds still, letting you adjust, his chest rising and falling unsteadily, his eyes a little more focused now, and you know he's holding back.
"You can move," you whisper, squeezing his hand.
He exhales, nodding, and then, he does.
The first few thrusts are slow, experimental. He's careful, gentle, and the feeling of him, stretching you open, the way his hips meet yours, the way his hand finds your thigh, pulling it up and wrapping it around his waist, it's all so much.
But when Steve looks at you, his hair falling into his face, his eyes dark, the words slip out before you can stop them.
"Harder."
His rhythm stutters. He blinks.
And then, the corner of his mouth tugs upward.
"Yeah?" He pauses, the smirk spreading. "Are you sure? Cause you might not be able to walk tomorrow—"
"Oh my god, Harrington."
"You know, I think we're past the last name thing at this point."
You groan, burying your face in his neck. The laugh that escapes him is so fucking dumb and beautiful and perfect, and then, without warning, he slams into you.
"Jesus," you gasp, your body arching, fingers clutching onto his shoulders.
"Still not my name," he quips, and before you can respond, he keeps going, his hips snapping into yours, and the noise that slips out when his cock hits a certain spot is obscene.
It's different, being with Steve.
With anyone else, you're always a little guarded. Always a little reserved. Always trying to keep yourself in check, make sure your reactions aren't too exaggerated, make sure you're not too loud, not too much, not too needy. But with him, it's different.
There's none of that.
Right now, the only thing in your head is him.
The scent of his cologne mixed with sweat, the softness of his hair, the warmth of his skin, the sound of his voice, low and breathy and perfect. His hand slides over your breast, cupping you, his thumb rolling over your nipple, and the pleasure shoots straight through you.
And then, he leans down, his lips brushing over the shell of your ear.
"God, you're gorgeous." He hikes your leg higher, angling deeper, and the drag of his cock inside you is almost enough to send you over the edge. "So beautiful."
You whimper, the sound high and desperate, and his lips press against your neck.
"Could stay here forever," he murmurs, and then, his teeth graze your skin. "Inside you. Just like this."
"Steve," you gasp, your head falling back.
His name on your lips does something to him.
It's almost instinctive, the way his body moves, the way he fucks into you, his hips grinding against yours. His fingers dig into your thigh, his other hand moving down, sliding along your hip, gripping your ass, and the way you react is perfect.
"Just like that, baby."
Steve keeps talking, his mouth running, whispering the most ridiculous things, like how he loves the way you feel and the way your nails drag over his shoulders and the way your breasts bounce when he fucks into you. And every single one of his stupid, filthy compliments has your body tensing, the heat building in your stomach.
Your legs are around his waist, the heels of your feet pressing into the small of his back, and when he leans forward, shifting the angle, his mouth finding your breast, his tongue swiping over your nipple, the sound that escapes is embarrassingly loud.
"Steve," you whine, the sound needy and desperate.
"I know," he murmurs, his breath hot against your skin. "Fuck, I know."
Steve knows what he's doing. And the fact that he's got you wrapped around his finger, completely under his spell, makes him feel like he's on top of the fucking world.
His hips start to lose their rhythm, his movements getting a little sloppier, and when you start to tighten around him, the whimper he lets out is downright sinful. He leans back, his eyes meeting yours, and when his fingers find your clit, his touch firm, the feeling is enough to send you over the edge.
You don't even try to stop the moan, the sound slipping out, and then, the words.
"Don't stop." Your nails drag down his back, fingers curling, and Steve nearly loses it right there. "Steve, please. Don't stop."
"I won't." His voice is rough, the sound making you squeeze around him. "I won't."
And then, his mouth finds yours, and the second your lips part, the second his tongue slides against yours, the sensation is too much.
"Steve," you pant. "Fuck. Steve."
The sound of his name, over and over, coming out like a plea, is too much.
It's the combination of everything—the way your body arches, the way you clutch onto him, the way you squeeze around him, the way his name slips out.
"Shit," Steve groans. "I'm gonna—"
"Me, too," you gasp, and when you squeeze his hand, the orgasm ripping through you.
He chases after you, the pleasure slamming through him, his hips stuttering as he comes, his forehead falling against yours. Your names spill out, mixed together, and then, the room is filled with nothing but the sound of ragged breathing, the scent of sweat and sex and his cologne mingling together, the faint buzz from the TV downstairs drifting through the room.
By the time Steve catches his breath, his head is spinning.
His limbs feel like jelly, and his arms shake slightly, his body half-collapsed on top of yours, the feeling of your bare skin against his making his pulse race. He doesn't pull out, doesn't move, just lets his forehead rest against yours, the sound of your breath the only thing keeping him tethered.
After a few moments, his brain finally catches up.
He leans back, watching you.
Your face is flushed, lips slightly parted, the light sheen of sweat on your skin making you glow. And the expression on your face—the blissed-out, relaxed, fucked-out expression—makes his stomach flip.
"Shit," Steve whispers.
And then, before he can stop himself, before he can think, he says, "I love you."
The words are quiet, a little shaky, and the second they slip out, his breath catches.
Your eyes go wide.
Fuck.
He didn't mean to say it. Not now. Not like this.
The thought comes, unbidden, and then, he's hit with the realization.
Oh.
That's exactly what he meant.
Because it's true.
It's always been true.
Steve has said those words before, a handful of times, and each time, it never meant the same thing. The first time was in eighth grade, during a game of truth or dare. It was a joke, an inside-out version of the words that had everyone laughing. The second time was to a girl he dated briefly during sophomore year. He wasn't in love with her, not really, but the way she reacted, the way her entire face lit up, made him wish he was. And the third was to Nancy, when he was convinced it was true. That it would be true. Forever.
But the second it leaves his mouth, the second he says it now, the weight of the words settles over him.
It's heavy. Solid. Like the kind of thing that can't be taken back, the kind of thing that changes everything.
And when he looks at you, when he sees the way you stare back, the look in your eyes making his chest ache, the words hit him again.
He loves you.
"Fuck," Steve says, exhaling sharply. "Sorry, I didn't mean—I shouldn't have said—"
"You love me?"
Your voice is soft. Small. A little incredulous.
"I..." He pauses, looking at you.
You don't say anything, and Steve doesn't know if he's ever felt this fucking terrified in his entire life.
And then, slowly, your lips curve into a smile.
"You love me," you repeat, the smile spreading.
"Yeah."
"Like, love-love?"
"Oh, so ‘love love’ is okay to say, but ‘like like’ is childish?"
You ignore his call back. "Like, 'I want to hold your hand in public and fall asleep on the couch together and wake up with my face buried in your hair and spend the next ten years wondering what took us so long' love?"
The corner of his mouth tugs upward.
"All of the above."
Your heart jumps, and without thinking, you lean in, kissing him softly. When you lean back, Steve's eyes are a little wider, and the hope in his expression is almost painful.
"Do you...?"
You grin, and the second the words slip out, you know they're true.
"Yeah. Iove you too, Harrington."
"Hey," he starts, tilting his head. "I told you, we're past the last name thing."
"Fine," you say, rolling your eyes. Your face softens as you meet his gaze, and you move your hand to fix some of the hair stuck to his forehead. "I love you, Steve."
He's never loved his name more.
"So," you start, "where does that leave us now?"
"Well, according to my calculations, you are currently in my bed, naked, and I am stil insi-" he pauses, realization hitting him. "Oh my god. I told you I loved you for the first time while I was still inside of you. What kind of maniac does that?"
"Is this what love is like for you?"
"Oh shut up," Steve says, smiling, and finally, he pulls out.
He rolls over onto his back, staring at the ceiling, and then, without looking, he reaches for your hand.
"How about," he says, squeezing lightly, "we sleep, and then, tomorrow, we can talk about all the ways we're going to tell our friends and make them suffer?"
You snort, looking over at him. He's taking the condom off, tying it off, and then, he tosses it into the trashcan beside the bed. He turns back, shifting closer, and the fact that you're both naked, in bed, post-coitus, isn't lost on you.
"And the day after that," he adds, pulling you closer, "we can spend the entire day here, naked, in this bed, and we'll figure out a new plan."
"A new plan?"
"Yeah."
He's so close, his nose brushing against yours, and when his eyes flick between yours, there's a look there. A promise.
"We can make a new plan every day," Steve says, his voice a little lower, "for as long as you want."
And then, he kisses you, and it feels a little like the world shifts.
It's a small shift, just enough for everything to click into place.
Because now, everything is different.
Everything is new.
It's a promise.
And when Steve pulls away, when his eyes meet yours, when he smiles, a little crooked, a little sleepy, a little in love, you can't help but smile back.
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silvermahogany · 10 months ago
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I hear all your 'Wade fell first and Logan fell harder' plotlines and thats incredibly based but i raise you the opposite.
At the end of the film, Wade is quite literally Logan's entire world. Hes HIS marvel jesus. He dragged him out of his depression pit, sent him on an emotional rollercoaster, fucked him in a honda oddessy and gave him a new home, new family and new reason to live. He was prepared to die for him, and then with him, three days after meeting him, and when they survive he immediately agrees to move in with him like a domesticated stray. Bro might like Wade juuuust a little bit methinks.
Meanwhile Wade is very casual and enthusiastic when it comes to hookups/flirting/physical contact, the whole deal, and he was 100% down the entire fucking film to get in Logan's pants. But i think when it comes to real romantic feelings hes much slower to develop and realise them. And god forbid he try to pursue the person with his self worth issues (of course THE Wolverine wouldnt be interested in him, ha! Can you imagine?). But when he falls, he falls HARD. Vanessa was previously the only person he truly liked romantically, and i dont think hes fully over her yet at the end of the film. But over time with his new roommate and their dog, it just hits him like a fucking train.
He looks at Logan one day, maybe in the late morning after a long night of merc work when hes making them coffee wearing Wade's too tight shirt with dogpool under his arm and instead of daydreaming about sucking him off sloppy style like usual Wade just thinks. Huh. I kinda wanna just kiss him right now, maybe go on a nice little date and pick out baby names together- wait what.
Im just thinkign. I dont think Wade would be so quick to jump to a real romantic relationship, his feelings towards that sort of thing are much more intense than just his usual lust and i dont think he'd pursue it right off the bat. But they figure it out, of course they do.
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luvhyukai · 5 months ago
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body. ||mingi x you||mdni!
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pairings : fwb!mingi x blackfem!reader
synopsis : you and your best friend fucked around one day, and now hes all you think about. what if he doesnt want you the same way you want him? youre mind, heart, and body are desperate to know.
warnings : s m u t , pwp, mentions of past sex, unprotected sex (wrap it up ho), friends with benefits to lovers, use of petnames (baby, princess, etc), creampie, oral (fem rec), love confession, fluff towards the end, lowercase intended, i used some random male idol names but it has nothing to do with them, rambling, mentions of squirting, implied orgasm denial, softdom!mingi, submissive asf! reader, it fr gets cheesy at the end, implied aftercare, mentions of soft choking (he placed his hand on your throat)this shit was filthy
a/n : sorry for late uploading. but we should be back on schedule! anyways thank you for all the likes and i hope you guys enjoy it!! this was heavily inspired by the song body by summer walker so i suggest listening to it! story under the cut ;)
i been all up in my phone, i got options.
youve been on several dates, some more successful than others. some ended in a kiss on the cheek, some ended in the sheets. you saved the numbers of the best ones.
jailen
hyunjin
taeyong
marcus
damn, thats it? you thought to yourself. “who should i call tonight?” you thought again.
somethin’ that makes me look at you too often. and baby you can give it somethin’.
hes been circling around your mind all day. you told him that after the first time, it wont happen again. he respected it. he came over at times and you guys chilled like friends normally do. but theres something about him, the way he slowly moved his hips when he was deep inside. the way he caressed your body. the way he made you feel was way beyond what anyone in your phone could make you feel. song mingi.
but you told him that it shouldnt happen anymore…maybe just a little touch? no, you’re talkin crazy now. oh goodness, the more you think of it, the more memories come back of the best night of your life, the more you craved him.
i need you all in my space, for now. i need it, baby im late but i can still check in with you.
you(r pussy) decided that you needed him. just for him to sit next to you. sure hes just your friend, a friend who gave you dick when you wanted to test the waters, now youre thinking he completely ruined you. he ruined it for everyone else. you need him in your space. so you called and asked him to come over for something “important”. he told you he’d be there in about 10 minutes.
it feels like 10 days when your waiting for something that you know you cant do without.
i know that i need my friend, but i wouldnt wanna leave.
mingi arrives at your place. of course not empty handed. he has some snacks and drinks. “hey you!” mingi says as he walks into your home. he side hugs you and sets the bags down. “hey! im so glad your here.” you say but the last part sounded more needy than anything. “so whats the important thing you told me to come over for? wanna snack while you talk about it?” mingi said. its his calm and caring nature that sets him apart from anyone else.
“oh uh, yeah lets go ahead and eat—well you go ahead while i talk about whats important.” you told him. its probably obvious by now but you were so full of adrenaline, you started to tremble slightly. you felt hot with anticipation. here goes nothing you suppose. “so remember that night we fucked?” you said suddenly. he was mid swallow when you said that. it caught him so off guard that he choked a bit. “jesus girl, you tryna kill me? but yes i remember…how can i forget.” he said smirking.
but my heart, my mind, and my body is sayin…
“i know i said it shouldnt happen again…” you trail off. at this point, the adrenaline is so high youre not even sure if youre in control of your body. it feels like your on autopilot. if it were anyone else, you wouldnt mind speaking your mind, but its him whos making this difficult. “yes?” he says. his deep voice pulling you out of your thoughts. “i need you. i want you. no one else can make me feel good. sex with you is amazing. my pussy doesnt cry for anyone but you. i dont know what you did to me. and its not even my pussy who wants you. im scared to say this, i dont want to lose our friendship but—.”
mingi kissed you to calm you down. you were so busy ranting that you didnt even notice he was close to you. “you want me baby? i want you too. im not saying that just to silence you, i actually want you. i want more than whats in your pants. i want your heart, mind, and body. would you give it to me, hm? lemme make you mine.” he said as he guided you to your room.
he laid you down and kissed you passionately. he kissed from your lips to your neck. as he took off your shirt and bra, he kissed and marked you down. he took your tits and kissed them, he licked and sucked on your nipples. you let out soft whines for more. “you like that princess?” he asked softly. you quickly nodded. “you want more?” he asked. you nodded again. “ah ah baby, use your words. tell me you want more.” he said as he held your throat. he didnt squeeze, he just held it.
“i want more! please, please min, give it to me!” you said out of desperation. by the time you were finished with your sentence, your pants were already on the floor, and he was faced with your pussy. “hm, youre so wet honey. i know you needed me, but i didn’t think you needed me this much.” he said while making eye contact. jesus, that mans stare is deadly. it makes your pussy leak some more.
he wastes no more time, and gives your sensitive clit and fat lick. one lick, then another, then another, then he closed his lips around it and started to suck gently. this made you immediately want to close your legs around his head. he held them open by locking his arms around them. “oh no baby, let me give you want you need.” his voice dripping with lust. he hadnt even started good yet but you were already closing your legs. he began to make out with your pussy. slipping his tongue in, youre tasting as sweet as honey. hes becoming drunk on you.
“f..faster..please min!” you moan out. he listens to you and licks on your clit, meanwhile he inserts one finger in you. just to get you ready for the “real thing” as he says. this made your body lift slightly off the bed. shortly after noticing how well you were taking it, he slid another finger. doing the come hither motion. hes so precise in what hes doing, hitting your g-spot effortlessly, you get closer to cumming faster than youd like. “oh my goodness min, i…i-m about to cum!” you moan loudly.
he only smirks as he brings you closer and closer. you feel yourself about to cum, its so hot. it feels so good it makes you close your eyes tightly, but it never comes. as you open your eyes, your breathing becoming stable again, you realize he stopped. “why?” you say out of breath. “dont question it honey.” he says as he licks his fingers. “to make you officially mine, you need to cum on this dick baby.” he said. this tone he had, it was adding fuel to your fire.
mingi gets off the bed to strip his clothes off. his toned muscles, the way he jerked his insanely erected dick, it was making your head spin with need. he climbs back in bed, and positions himself. he looks at you to make sure that your still good. there wasnt a single thought behind your dark eyes, but you managed to nod your head to let him know your ready.
he slides himself in slowly. the stretch wasnt too painful due to how wet you were. he felt bigger than last time. you closed your eyes in bliss, your mouth fell open and you let out a string of cuss words, and moans. him the same. “goddamn babygirl, youre so fuckin tight…fuck baby, they must’ve not done you right.” he said as he bottomed out. you couldnt even speak at this moment. all you think about was how delicious he felt inside you.
he started to rock his hips into you slowly, letting you savor the feeling. “feel me here? you feel my dick right here?” he said. he had one hand pressing slightly down on your belly. it felt like he was in your stomach. you couldnt do anything but moan and scream for him. “ah—fuck it feels….sososo good!” you managed to moan out. he started to pick the pace up, you were already close from how good he ate you up. no surprise that you were about to cum for him.
he knew you were close without you saying a word. your cries and screams were enough for him. “i—i…” you moaned. “i know baby…fuck—hold it for me. can you hold it for me? hold it so we can cum together?” he huffed out. it felt like mission impossible, the way that he was rocking, the fast pace, how deep he was. “no—i cant do it….i…i cant take…it—-fuck im gonna cum.” your noises were music to his ears. mingi couldnt lie, the way you sounded, felt, looked, smelled even…it was bringing him closer to his orgasm.
“okay baby…let go…cum on this dick baby! make it yours, make it—oh fuck make it yours honey.” he moaned. the quickness of his high took him by surprise. it didnt take but 2 more snaps of his hips before you were cumming hard. you mightve even squirt a little, it didnt matter in that moment. all you could do was ride the wave of your intense high.
you were outta breathe, legs were shaking, beautiful colored skin glistening with sweat, tears forming, this was the sight that did mingi in. “oh my fucking—god baby youre so—fuck m’cumming…oh fuck—shit!” he moaned as he stilled his hips in you. his cum coating your walls. his toned abdomen twitching, his skin feeling hot, his breathing was deep, his lower body would twitch as ropes of cum were coming out. mingi was a bit of a whimperer. it was sexy nonetheless.
he pulled out slowly, as to not overstimulate the both of you. he watched as your pussy was expelling the excess of his cum. it made his cock twitch, but he pulled himself away from the sight to go find a rag and clean the both of you up. he wiped the cum off his dick and your pussy. he helped you up, and you stripped the cum ruined bedding, soon after you were both dressed comfortably, you laid down and looked at the ceiling.
“i didnt wanna lose our friendship. i didnt wanna ruin it.” you said tiredly. “oh baby, it was ruined the first time we fucked. i was ruined, when i fucked a girl, i moaned your name instead of hers. thats how i knew i needed you more than just sex. i needed to be with you.” he said. he turned his body toward you, and spooned you. “same, so what are we?” you asked. “youre mine. youre my girlfriend, your heart is mine, your body is mine, your mind is mine. and im yours all the way.” he answered. it made you smile.
after that night, you deleted every number you saved. and he did the same.
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sunny-knight · 6 days ago
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CAINE IN EPISODE 5
Day 1 thoughts of ep 5 that are very subject to change
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Im going to refrain from talking too much about things not involving Caine, as Im currently working on a slideshow to explain all my thoughts on EVERYTHING, especially Jax and Pomni stuff because thats like….why is Jax acting like that- I feel like we missed some character development- what is going on???
BUT YEAH THATS NOT WHAT I NEED TO TALK ABOUT RIGHT NOW
I first need to acknowledge how Caine is acting??? because NO ONE ELSE IS?????????? (Like, in the show)
Caine felt incredibly out of character during this episode- is that just me? Not in a writing flaw way, but in a “oh god he’s BREAKING” way. He has good intentions, but BY GOD him threatening Zooble made me recoil, dude are you okay 😭 that was incredibly jarring like- jesus.
He just has one hell of a temper, is genuinely out cold during the baseball adventure, and is a lot more- scarily nonsensical. Like before he was chaotic, sure, but it still felt like he knew what he was doing/had everything, including himself, semi under control. In this it feels like he is just falling apart at the seams.
The temper thing I will get into more later, but on the being out cold part of the baseball thing, is we’ve acknowledged several times that Caine doesnt need to eat, doesnt need to sleep, he’s a machine, he SHOULDN’T be doing that. The way he acted when he woke up is the part that concerns me, since I could totally expect him to like pretend to sleep for a bit, but nah he was ZONKING😭😭
It feels like the more tired he is the more effort he’s going to put in and over exert himself (me too, brother, me too)
I expected that, I expected the getting more nonsensical, what I DIDN’T expect, what I DON’T understand, is the temper and the savior complex???
my buddy @starrysquire had something to say about his temper that I think is GENIUS and absolutely something to start with when explaining the temper, though.
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To expand on it a bit more and segway into some savior complex things, Caine wants others to be happy, sure but HE wants to be the ones to make them happy, because if he’s not, then he sees himself as disposable. I think thats the main thing we can take away from this episode. His entire conversation with the moon threw me for a loop because I did not expect this to be that direct. “They like the suggestion box adventures more than the ME adventures.” Them being happy is a BAD THING. WHAT.
Caine is dealing with feelings he’s probably never felt before because we can assume he’s never had his purpose come into question this strongly before, ONG!!!
The temper and the savior thing seem to be going hand in hand in that way, since all the issues that come with wanting to be THE ONE to make others happy (for machine purposes on his end) comes with a lot of struggle, therefore a lot of lashing out.
Im still very curious however on what spectrum of emotion he’s incapable of feeling, since tiredness is something we saw from the baseball game. I would have speculated before it was GENUINE rage but ep 3 already put that into question, and now 5 proves me ABSOLUTELY wrong. Maybe… sadness? I don’t think we’ve ever seen him genuinely sad before…. which is actually kind of scary 😭
We’ve seen him stressed, mad, tired, but not sad
….I cant imagine that helps with the temper problems- if you can’t be sad ABOUT something, you’re going to be mad AT someone
But onto the things that make me feel gaslighted district
Zooble severely underreacted to being threatened like that- and im just left kind of confused. Like they say the only thing holding him back is the fact that he likes them, and they wouldnt push it, but- but theyre pushing it?? a lot??? im so confused 😭 I dont even have an analysis on that
What I DO have analysis on though is JAX and his relation to Caine
Jax’ subtle yet not subtle reaction to realizing Caine may have lied about what he can do, makes me INCREDIBLY intrigued, honestly Jax and Caines interactions in this entire episode have me thinking I was right about their relationship/dynamic being something of interest later in the show.
A lot of people complain, but whenever Jax specifically does, Caine is always quick to pop in and explain to him why whats happening is happening. Specifically in the democracy, and voting Zooble to turn into a slug bits. Then when Caine comments on Jax’ acting- It just feels like it’s leading up to something. What also doesn’t help their case is how both of their stances on adventures seem practically identical. How can Caine tell a compelling story without horrific things? How can Jax have FUN without horrific things???
Since Jax and Pomni seem to be getting closer, I have a feeling this is leading up to Jax informing her/the audience about some of the shit he does behind the scenes, because all of this leads me to believe he works with Caine on a more personal level. I dont think their like- partners in crime, but more rather Jax taking as much control as possible. Like if he doesn’t have control, he’ll find ways to control the person who does. But THEN I feel like that’d be leading to Jax slowly finding out through the punishment thing in episode 4, and the vegan thing in ep 5, that Caine still has the upper hand in every way.
Which, as all good things do, leads me to the best place imaginable the INTERMISSION SEQUENCE
That…like a lot of the episode less intrigued and more confused me which I didnt particularly like, I still prefer the last episodes to this one if im being so honest…but the intermission sequence was probably one of the best things ive ever seen in my entire life…
I feel it has SO much symbolism, which I wont put my specific thoughts about here just yet, thatll be saved for my slideshow, but the sequence AS A WHOLE is incredible in conveying the fact that Caine has everyone under his control to a SCARY degree. Like we all already knew this, but I feel like this just hammered it home- it feels like a nicer version of the fucking Happy Place sequence where he’s torturing everybody. Caine isnt torturing everyone, but he’s still demonstrating the POWER yknow?
But basically my thoughts and feelings summed up into one sentence
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This is Papyrus 2015 all over again.
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freshxsturniolo · 5 months ago
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let me worship you - chris sturniolo x fem!reader
warnings : smuttttttt, pet names, established relationship.
chris sighed softly as he slowly woke up, arms reaching out to grab you, confusion instantly over his brow when he couldn't feel your soft skin. but the smell of coffee that hit his nostrils made him smile, turning onto his back and rubbing his eyes.
there was only one time the house smelt of coffee, and it was whenever you were in the kitchen. the coffee machine nick bought himself for a joke in one of their christmas videos at the end of last year. no one in the house but you knew how to use it. no one in the house but you and nick liked a cup in a morning.
reaching for his phone, he frowned however when he saw the time read 6.30am. you were always awake before him, and he always joked you were an early riser, but he had never known you to wake up SO early. he rolled back over, looking at the bedside table that was now covered in all your things, but noticed your phone and your book had gone.
he sat up immediately, getting himself out of bed and padding over to where his pants lay from last night, a smile etching his lips when he noticed his hoodie however was gone. he knew he was going to walk up those stairs into the kitchen and see you wearing it, likely cuddled on the couch with your book, blanket wrapped around your legs. but he wanted to make sure you were okay.
he found a clean hoodie, and opened his bedroom door to pad his way up the stairs. he made it half way before he heard your soft voice, quietly singing the lyrics to one of your favourite songs, the smell of coffee intensifying. when he reached the top, his eyes scanned the living area. your book was on the coffee table, a blanket already laid out ready for you, the blinds opened ever so slightly so you could see the morning sunrise. and then when he turned to you, he couldn't help but stare. you were still softly singing the lyrics to your favourite song, but you were cleaning around the coffee machine whilst your coffee sat on the kitchen table waiting, his hoodie on your body. your legs visible, a small peak of your pyjama shorts peaking underneath.
chris leant against the top of the stairs railing, watching you. but when you turned around, your head whipped to his instantly.
"jesus, chris" you say, hand on heart, "how long have you been stood there?"
he chuckled, watching you walk over to your cup of coffee. "not long. i came to check you were okay"
you smiled, taking a sip from your coffee. "im okay, baby. why wouldnt i be?"
you walked over to him now, still stood in the same position, and pressed a small kiss to his lips.
"i noticed your phone and book gone and just, i dont know, you dont usually read up here by yourself unless we're out."
you're about to walk away but he grabs your waist, his hands sliding up his hoodie on your body and his thumbs tracing lines onto your stomach. you stop and turn to look at him, a soft smile on your lips. he can't help but stare at them for a second longer than he maybe should have done, and before he knows it you've leant forward, body pressed against his as your lips brush his once more.
"i've been tossing and turning for the last few hours, is all. i didn't want to wake you up, you kept shuffling around and mumbling" you say.
"you could have woke me up, baby." he says.
your body pressed against his is slowly sending him insane. he wanted to check you were okay but the sight of you in his hoodie, your legs bare, your hair a little messy and unbrushed, the two kisses you've blessed him with, suddenly his body is tensing.
and you notice, his grip on you tightening, you can tell he doesn't even notice that he's pulling your hips so tight to his own. you smirk, settling your coffee on ledge behind him and wrap your arms around his neck.
"you've just got back from italy, babe. you've been so tired. sleep."
but his lips are on yours, his hands have moved from your hips to your face and he's holding you so tight. his tongue runs across your bottom lip, asking for permission, and you smile as you give him access.
you haven't been intimate since he got home from europe 2 days ago. he's slept so much and when he hasn't been sleeping he's been filming content or having meetings. its been cuddles in bed and stolen kisses for the last two days, but you were fine with it. you didn't need sex to know chris was your everything.
but god, the minute his tongue danced around yours, your arousal matched his. you needed friction between you even though you were pressed tightly against him, his cock hard against your stomach, but you pull away just shortly. he grumbles, leaning forward to catch your lips again but you place your finger against his lips.
"your brothers, babe."
he whips his head to the left, your finger in the air left stranded, and he aims for your neck. placing his lips on your soft spot that makes you melt every time. he places a soft kisses before mumbling.
"have to be quiet then, wont you?"
"chris" you giggle. "lets go downstairs."
his hands on your waist again now, but he's pulling at the waistband of your shorts so you’re forced to move closer to him again.
“get comfortable on that couch, baby girl. i missed you so much”
heat rushes to your core at his words, and you obey him. the coffee is long forgotten as you practically run across to the couch. you didn’t realise how much you HAD missed him until this very moment.
sitting yourself down on the couch, chris watches you intently before he places his hands on your thighs, squeezing tightly as he gets down on his knees in front of you. his eyes on you the whole time, you let out a shaky breath.
“on YOUR knees, huh?” you joke, but his hands find their way to the waistband of your thighs again tugs. your body reacts instantly, lifting up onto your hands so he can bring the shorts down your body, throwing them discarded onto the floor behind you as you settle back down.
your hands are already in his hair, you know exactly where this is going to go.
"you know i hate having to leave you. one day, i'll be able to take you everywhere and show you off like you deserve to be shown. for now, let me worship you."
worship you. oh fuck. you were not going to last longer than a few minutes.
his lips are kissing up your inner thighs, he hands firmly on the backs of them as he squeezes with each kisses. your breathing is heavy, your hands are roaming his curls. by the time he's kissed lightly at your soft cunt, you're practically hyperventilating.
"stay quiet for me, baby girl. we dont want my brothers to hear whats happening in here, do we?"
he doesn't give you time to answer before his tongue is in your fold, his nose pressed deeply against your skin. you can't help it. he did it on purpose. you screech, pushing back from the immediate sensitive pleasure as his names pass your lips.
he chuckles into your folds, vibrations sending you crazy, but his hands on the back on your tight pull you closer to him.
you have no choice but to clamp your hand over your mouth. he's working his damn magic. the feels better than it ever has before. maybe because you haven't felt him like this in almost a week, maybe because you're tired and sensitive, maybe because you're aware his brothers could hear you any second now with the paper thin walls. but you don't care.
chris is not being quiet. he's purposely moaning into you, purposely looking at your eyes and letting out little chuckles as he catches your eyes. because he loves it. he loves seeing you squirm. loves seeing the way HE makes you feel. he doesn't need anything from you when you look like this. nothing at all.
but he can see the frustration on your face when he slowly runs circles around your clit, his eyes trained to you perfectly, and suddenly air hits his lips as you pull yourself away from him.
"you're purposely being a fucking tease, aren't you?" you whimper, your breath raged. but you're leaning forward, you're grabbing him by the neckline of his hoodie and pulling him closer to you. you need him in more ways than a tease or you're going to combust. chris chuckles as he can't help but catch his lips with yours, allowing you to pull him onto you as he arms reach out to the back of the couch to steady himself, your head leaning back with him.
"want me to fuck you on this couch, huh? where we sit and watch movies and play games? where my brothers are going to sit in the next hour when they wake up?" he says in-between kisses, his hands running lines up your thighs.
"i don't care what you do, chris. just fucking do something."
you reach for the waistband of his sweatpants but he stops you, and you let out a grumble.
"missed me, huh?" he laughs, but his hands travels up your inner thigh, thumb hitting your already sensitive clit. "what did you do when i wasnt here, hmm?"
"chris" you whimper, his thumb working wonders as he rubs circles all over you, your back arching for more friction. he smirks, thumb losing contacting before taking his index finger and running it down your folds, stopping at your dripping wet entrance.
"god i missed you making you a whimpering mess" he breaths into your ear, before his finger finally enters you. you can't help it, you clamp your mouth around the fabric of his hoodie on his shoulder, not wanting to a make a sound. he was done with teasing, he was finger fucking you so hard you had to close your eyes because you couldn't see straight. when he enters a second finger, you have to let out of breath of air as you lay your head back onto the couch, eyes meeting his.
but the both of you stop immediately when a creak of the floorboard coming from upstairs startles you. chris doesn't even think before his free hand flies over your mouth, his fingers laying limp inside you. his eyes divert to the stairs, and then your eyes widen when you hear nick let out a cough.
but chris smirks, his eyes coming back to you.
"gonna cum for me, pretty girl?" he whispers, his fingers moving once again. slow at first, waiting for you to answer, but he never once moves his hands from your mouth. so you nod. you nod and try let out a small yes, but his hand pushes onto your lip further.
you're going to cum in 5 seconds flat and he knows it.
"keep looking at me, baby." he says as his fingers work in a way that can only be described as magic, his eyes full of lust as he looks down at you. the breath from your mouth and your nose trying to keep up with his pace was sending him crazy. he saw it in your eyes the exact moment you were about to come undone, and he let go out of your mouth right at the last second.
your eyes widen, and your instinct is to pull him to you. your lips crash, his smirk and chuckle hiding the muffled moan you let out as you finally hit your climax. his fingers slow, your lips part, and you lean backwards, head to the ceiling.
"chris, that was-"
your eyes widen and chris' removes his fingers from you instantly when the bedroom door behind you opens. a singing, chirpy matt making his way to his bathroom. you scramble to your feet as chris removes himself from above you, and your eyes search for your shorts. chris is chucking behind you as you final spot them, rushing over and grabbing them. you can't help the smirk the emerges to your lips as chris lets out a low whistle as you bend over. you're dripping wet and you can feel the sting on the backs of your thighs where he's left marks from squeezing you so hard. but your pulled back to reality when you hear your name called.
"y/n?"
you spin around so fast, jumping onto the couch and grabbing for the blanket to cover yourself. chris erupts, laughter washing over him as he comes and sits by your side.
"oh, chris?" matt voice calls now, and you look up at the same time matts head peaks around the corner. "oh, both of you"
"hi" you say, your voice a whimper. you don't even want to know what you look like right now. your legs are still tender and you know full well your cheeks are still flushed.
"you two are up early? i smelt the coffee and assumed you'd be reading your book" matt says to you. you smile, but chris gets in there first.
"she was. just keeping my girl company" chris shrugs. his hands move under the blanket, his hands making their way to your sensitive spot between your legs, again.
"you jet lagged too, bro?" matt says.
oh gods, he's walking towards you. you're sat utterly spent in nothing but your boyfriends hoodie with his hands edging towards you again after he just gave the greatest 10 minutes of your entire relationship on the fucking couch. and you can't even get out of it because your shorts are in your hand.
chris shrugs. "yeah, i think."
matt looks at you now. "fancy making me a coffee?"
you don't realise he's talking to you at first, but chris moving his hands away from you alerts you.
"coffee? you?" you laugh. matt shrugs.
"ive been awake for the last hour." your hearts in your fucking throat. "im gonna get a shower and get on with the day." he says. you can only nod and smile. he rubs his eyes before walking away, and when the bathroom door finally clicks shut you turn to chris immedately.
"oh my fucking god" you say, reaching out to slap his arm. but he laughs, grabbing your wrist and pulling you into his chest. "do you think he heard us?"
chris kissing your head, his grip on your wrist loosening as you sit yourself up and look at him. there's a soft glow to his face, and his eyes bags have reappeared.
"i love you" he whispers. you suddenly you don't care. hell, let the world hear you.
"i love you, dumbass."
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