#IT WASN'T HIS FAULT LEA

[6rookie-writer0110]

Collide your heart with mine

Casey Novak x Female Reader

Request - Hii could I request a Casey Novak x fem reader angstty fluff please? I was thinking something like Olivia is ur mom and she finds out you’re with Casey and is not happy lol.

Casey is feeling frustrated with Olivia and Elliot, they messed up her chances to win the case. Casey was at the police station and she yelled at Olivia and Elliot, and then Olivia yelled back but Elliot stood in the middle and told them to stop yelling.

“We didn't know he had a twin brother,” Elliot said

“Now both are out of New York. It was your job, to catch them and get the evidence so I can win the case” Casey said

“Winning the case is more important for your streak?” Olivia asked

Olivia and Casey started to glare at each other.

“My job is to put bad guys away. You messed up and lost the perp. Even if, we had him in jail I don't have the evidence to keep him there!” Casey yelled

“My fault!?” Olivia yelled

Everyone in the station is watching them argue. Elliot stands in the middle

“Stop! Olivia go take a walk now. Casey, you too when we get new evidence then I will call you” Elliot said

“Try not to screw up again, I don't want to do your job,” Casey said

“Watch it, Novak” Olivia angrily said.

“I’m not scared of your threat, Benson” Casey said

Casey walks away and Olivia is still glaring at her. Casey heads back to the office and starts to work on the case in her office. Then her girlfriend called and she could tell that Casey was feeling frustrated and overwhelmed. Casey does appreciate that her girlfriend is trying to cheer her up. She couldn't help to smile. They talked for a while then they hung up, Casey started to work and read the files.

It's very late and Casey is still in her office. She hasn't taken a break and Olivia and Elliot didn't get new evidence just yet. Casey sighed heavily and she put down the pen.

“I figured you would be here and you didn't eat anything” You smiled

“You know me so well” Casey smiled.

She stands up and she walk towards you.

“I got your favorite food and red velvet cupcakes. Dinner in your office?” You said

“How about my place and you stay the night?” Casey asked

She kissed you on the lips.

“Good idea, let's go,” You said

Casey put on her jacket and then grabbed her bag and the files, she left with you. You and Casey hold hands while leaving the building.

“What happened earlier? You sounded mad when I called you” You said

“I wasn't mad at you, babe. I thought I had strong evidence to put the bastard away but he had a twin, and they didn't know. And the judge threw out the evidence because it wasn't the perp. I got into an argument with the detectives” Casey said.

Once at her apartment, she helps you take out food from the bag. Then you sit across from her at the table and you start to eat your food while she drinks the wine.

“Wow, you had a rough day. I dont know how you keep working with them” You said

“I don't have a choice. This is a huge case and I don't want to mess up because of them” Casey said

“You won't mess up. You are smart and you always Think of something when it gets hard, you don't give up” You said

“Did you give your mom the necklace you bought for her?” Casey asked

“No. But tomorrow I will give it to her, I think she will like it” You said

You told Casey that your mom is a cop but never said her name. Casey didn't ask for her name, you and Casey are still getting to know each other.

After dinner, you and Casey cuddle in bed while watching a movie. While watching the movie, you and Casey fell asleep. She has her head on your chest and you have your arm around her.

——-

You went to visit your mom at her job, she was happy to see you.

“Hi, mom” You smiled

“Y/N, what you are doing here?” Olivia asked

“What, you are not happy to see me?” You pouted

“Of course, I'm happy to see you” Olivia smile

Your gives you a strong hug and kisses your head. Then She takes you out for lunch and you always spend time with your mom. Your mom leaves the station with you, then you take her to a restaurant.

“Sorry, I haven't been answering your calls this case got everyone arguing with each other. But I will make it up to you, I promise” Olivia said

“I get it, mom. some cases, you do hit close to your heart. I got this for you” You said

You give her a small gift bag, then she takes out the jewrly box. You watch your mom open the box and she is speechless.

“Oh, sweetie I love it,” Olivia said

You stood up then she stood up, then you hugged your mom. She turned around and picked up her hair and you put the necklace on her. Then you and your mom sit back down.

“My girlfriend helped me pick the necklace” You smiled

“Wow, it must be serious since she helped you pick the necklace. When am I going to meet her?” Olivia said

“I’m feeling nervous about you meeting her, it's my first serious relationship. And I don't want you to scare her away” You said

“I’m not going to scare her away. I just need to make sure she is the right woman for you, Y/N” Olivia said

“Okay. I will ask her because she has a very busy job. Please mom, I'm begging don't scare her away I think she might be the one” You said

“I won't scare her away. Does she truly make you happy?” Olivia said

“Yes, she makes me happy. I never felt like this before” You said

“I've never seen you like this before when you dated other people,” Olivia said

You can't stop smiling and she is happy that you found someone special.

✫ ✬ ✫ ✬

Casey has been having a rough day and she called you, she wanted to hear your voice. After the conversation, you went to surprise your girlfriend at her job. You semi-closed the door and you walked towards her desk, she stood up and walked towards you.

“Y/n, what are you doing here?” Casey asked

“I wanted to surprise you,” You said

You put her hair behind her ear and she wrapped her arms around your waist.

“These cops are idiots and they are always giving me a hard time. Since I’m new they think I don't have a backbone, I know how to do my job” Casey sighed

“Yeah, they can be idiots well some. But they shouldn't be giving you a hard time every day” You said

You kiss her on the lips and she starts to kiss you back. She pulls you closer and she doesn't let go, her lipstick starts to get on your lips. Then her hands go on your ass. The kiss is filled with passion then you start to kiss her neck and she starts to smile.

“You can't leave hickeys on my neck, babe I'm still on the clock,” Casey said

“Well, that sucks,” You pouted

She smiled then she started to kiss you again. You don't want to let go of her and you start to smile at her.

Olivia and Elliot just arrived at the law firm, they are heading to see Casey. They are talking about the case.

“You were hard on her,” Elliot said

“We told her, about the evidence but she didn't listen to us,” Olivia said

Before heading to her office, Elliot grabbed her arm.

“Just give her a break, Liv. Not everyone can be like Alex” Elliot said

She knows that he is right but she is being stubborn.

“Let’s just go see her,” Olivia said

They head to her office then Elliot opens the door. They catch you kissing Casey and you hear your name being called, and then you see your mom.

“Mom!?” You yelled

“Mom? Wait, Olivia Benson is your mother?” Casey asked

“Y/N, wait you have been dating her this whole time!?” Oliva yelled

“Yes! Casey is my girlfriend. I didn't know that you two knew each other, I didn't put the clues together” You said

“You would not be dating her anymore,” Olivia said

“Liv, calm down,” Elliot said

“Mom, you can't be serious. I'm not a teenager anymore” You angrily said

Casey was going to something but Olivia said something first.

“I will not support this relationship,” Olivia said

“Liv, don't say something that you will regret,” Elliot said

“You are my daughter and you won't be with her anymore, Y/N,” Olivia said

“No. I will not listen to you” You said

“Olivia, you need to stop. She isn't a child and -”

Olivia started to argue with Casey, they went back and forth. Elliot grabbed Olivia’s arm and dragged her out of the office. She tried to go back but he didn't let her, he just kept dragging her away from the office until he got out of the building with her. You are feeling angry and embarrassed

“Casey, I’m sorry,” You said

“Why you didn't tell me she was your mom?” Casey asked

“I didn't know you were talking about her and I didn't know she was talking about you. Maybe you and my mom can try to get along” You said

“Y/N, that won't happen,” Casey said

“At least try, please. I will talk to my mom tonight” You said

“I think you should go, Y/N. I have to get to work” Casey said

“Casey,” You said

“Please leave,” Casey said

“At least call me tonight,” You said

She watched you leave the office then she sat on her chair. Casey sighed and she couldn't believe what just happened with her girlfriend.

You went home and you are frustrated. Your mom did you but you ignored her call and text. You are hoping that Casey will call you so that you can fix the situation.

——

The next night… you went to see Casey at her apartment.

“We need to talk,” You said

“We do,” Casey said

“I will talk to my-”

“Y/N, let me talk first please,” Casey said

“Sure,” You said

“Y/N, I can't see anymore. I think we should break up and I don't think this will work” Casey said

“Why are you doing this? We can make it work, you are my first love. I know you and my mom don't like each other but I want you and her to try to get along with each other” You said

“It’s not going to work, Y/N. It’s too much on the line, and -”

“So, it's over just like that before we can try to fix it,” You said

You are trying to hold back your tears.

“You should go now,” Casey said

“Out of everyone, I didn't expect you to break my heart but you did it,” You said

You leave her apartment and she doesn't go after you. Casey starts to cry and she wipes the tears away. But she cried again and she thinks you won't forgive her for breaking your heart.

You went home and you couldn't stop crying. She was your everything and you thought you could fix the problem but that didn't happen. You don't call your mom and you just cry in your living room.

✫ ✬ ✫ ✬

You have been in your apartment for days, you have been ignoring your phone. You are feeling sad and hurt about the breakup, that you didn't tell your mom about it.

Your mom went to your apartment, she has the spare key. But first, she knocks on the door a few times

“Y/N, please open the door,” Olivia said

But you don't open the door. She takes out her phone and she started to call you, but it goes straight to voice mail. She knocked again but you still didn't open the door. Now, she uses the key to go inside your apartment. She looks around and everything is normal, then she heads to your bedroom. You are lying in bed and your back is facing the door.

“Y/N, I have been calling,” Olivia said

“I'm fine, mom just leave me alone,” You said

“What’s wrong?” Olivia asked

“Mom,” You said

“Talk to me, please. I have been worried about you for days” Olivia said

You sit up on the bed and she sits next to you.

“Casey broke up with me, she thinks we couldn't make it work because you and her have beef,” You said

You look down at your hands and you don't look at your mom.

“Oh, I'm sorry,” Olivia said

“Just forget it, mom. It's over and there's no point” You said sadly

“I know, I had had issues with Casey. But I didn't expect you to be dating her. And how I reacted was wrong and immature” Olivia said

“Why are you apologizing? Casey dumped me. You don't have to worry about anything” You said

“You are my daughter and I want you to be happy”

“Mom please leave me alone,” You said

“Okay. I will bring you dinner later. I’m sorry, Y/N” Olivia said

You don't say anything and she just leaves your apartment. Olivia feels bad because she feels she is the cause of the breakup. You lie back in bed and you don't bother checking your phone.

—-

Olivia is at her desk and she can't focus.

“What’s wrong?” Elliot asked

“Y/N is angry at me and Casey broke up with her,” Olivia said

“I get why she would be mad at you,” Elliot said and he drinks his coffee.

“I never seen her like this before. She told me that Casey was the one” Olivia said

“You have to fix it. I know you don't like Casey but you have to make it right, if you want your daughter to forgive you. Whatever you dislike about Casey get over it, because soon enough she will be over for Thanksgiving” Elliot said

“Cover for me, I have to see Casey” Olivia said

Olivia left and she rushed to the law firm. But Casey wasn't there then Olivia went to the court, and she found Casey putting her stuff away in the courtroom. No one else is there but the two.

“Casey, we need to talk,” Olivia said

“For what?” Casey asked

“I know we didn't get along from day one. And I wasn't happy that you were dating my daughter, but when i saw her distraught it broke my heart because I was the cause of you breaking up with her” Olivia said

“I don't want to come between you and Y/N, she values your opinion,” Casey said

Casey closed her briefcase and she started to walk away, but Olivia grabbed her arm.

“You have my blessing to date my daughter. I know you still care about and your feelings for her haven't changed. Whatever issue we have between us, let's fix it because I don't want her to pick between us” Olivia said

Olivia lets go of Casey’s arm.

“She does make me happy. I broke up with her because I didn't want her to pick between us. Breaking up with her was the hardest thing I had to do” Casey said

“I believe you. I will see you later, Novak” Olivia said

“See you later, Benson” Casey said

✫ ✬ ✫ ✬

Casey goes to your apartment and you are surprised to see her.

“Cas, what are you doing here?” You asked

You let her inside your apartment.

“I’m sorry I broke your heart, Y/N. I did it because I didn't want to put you in a situation where you would have to pick me or your mom. I know you hate me, but I didn't want your relationship with your mom to be ruined just because your mom and I don't get along,” Casey said

“It hurt that you hurt me because it felt like I didn't do enough,” You said

She put her hand on your cheek.

“Y/N, you mean so much to me. I hate that I hurt you, but if you let me I will make it right” Casey said

“How do I know you won't do it again?” You asked

“I won't do it again, I-”

You kiss her then she starts to kiss you back.

“This means we are back together?” Casey asked

“The kiss is the hint,” You said

“I think you should show me again” Casey smirked

She starts to kiss you and you start to smile. Casey’s arms are around your body then she starts to kiss your neck.

“Your mom came to see me,” Casey said

“Really? Wait, did you and my mom get into a fight?” You asked

“No, we didn't get into a fight. She wanted to make things right because your happiness is important. Your mom and I will work together and she gave me the blessing to date you” Casey said

“She didn't tell me,” You said

“She wanted me to talk to you first. But call her and tell her the good news” Casey said

You kiss her again then you call your mom, she is happy that you and Casey are back together. Olivia is happy that she fixed the problem then she tells Elliot about the good news.

Casey takes you out for dinner. She takes you to your favorite restaurant and she holds your hand.

“I think I have a feeling that your mom will invite me over for the holidays” Casey joked

“She will do that,” You giggled

You and Casey ordered food.

“Move in with me, Y/N,” Casey said

“What?” You asked

“I mean it, baby. Move in with me and I think we are ready for that step” Casey said

“Wow, I don't know what to say,” You said

“Are you ready for us to live together? You spend most of your time at my place” Casey said

“Okay, let's do it” You smiled

You and Casey can't stop smiling at each other. Casey picks up your hand and kisses it.

[ravennaortiz]

Always Here

Summary: Juice works through his grieve and regret at never telling you his true feelings.

Juice stared at himself in the mirror. His usual shirt and jeans exchanged for a suit and tie. “Can’t believe you got me in this” he muttered as he moved his arms trying to get used to the confining fabric. “Wish you could be here to see it. I know you’d be snapping photos and shit” he continued as a lump formed in his throat. “It’s not fair” he choked out as the grief hit him again.

“Easy laddie” soothed Chibs as he made his way into the bathroom followed by Tig and Half-Sack. “Easy” continued Chibs as he held Juice closed.

“It should have been you” sobbed Juice angrily as his eyes landed on Half-Sack who shrunk back.

“It wasn’t his fault. She died trying to give them both a chance” stated Chibs as he patted Juices back. “She wouldn’t want you harboring this anger towards him”.

Juice barely nodded. He knew that was true. If you were here right now you would be dragging him out by his ear to apologize. “She survived being blown up in Iraq only to be gunned down in a damn small town. I should have been with them. If I was maybe she” started Juice before Tig cut him off.

“She would still be in the casket in Chapel man. She was always going to sacrifice herself. Only thing that would have been different is you would be just as cold and in a casket next to her” stated Tig firmly as he clasped Juices shoulder. “While we all can understands the grief and pain of losing someone. None of us will understand the loss of losing her like you and Half have. I know it’s hard to think of this but he’s just as lost and torn up as you. Remember he had to sit with her as she cried, came to terms with dying and took  her last breath. That he has to replay that though his mind day and night. She will always be here” continued Tig as he patted Juices chest and head before leaving the bathroom.

Awhile later Juice made his way out to the main area of the clubhouse. Jeez he thought as he looked at the crowd that was inside and looked to be out the door. A mix of bikers, soldiers and random civilians milled about as they wait for their turn to say goodbye. Tears started again as he thought about how many lives you had changed in the short time you had been on this earth.

“Hey baby” murmured Gemma as she pulled Juice in for a hug. “It’s okay” She soothed as she patted his back. “Why don’t you head into chapel with Half? I told him you two take as long as you want alone. The two of you deserve to say goodbye in private and without everyone else being present. We can all wait. She would want to be with her boys one last time”

Juice nodded as he let her move him towards the door. Taking a deep breath he opened it and stepped in. Keeping his eyes off the casket, not ready to see you so still again.

“I can lea-“ started Half-Sack as he turned tears spilling down his cheeks as he finished fixing your dog tags.

“Stay. I want you to and she would want that” stated Juice as he moved to stand across from him on the opposite side of your casket.

Half nodded as he wiped at his eyes. Before extending his arm out with a chain. “She would want you to have this” he stated as Juice looked at the dog tag that dangled from his hand. “It’s her extra I dug around our stuff when I was looking for mine to put on hers.

“Thanks” gulped Juice as he took the necklace and traced your engraved name before putting it over his head.

The two men fell into a comfortable silence. Each with their own thoughts as they said their goodbyes.

“I’m glad you were her battle buddy when she was over in Iraq. She lucked out with you. Thanks for watching over her when I couldn’t.” stated Juice as he glanced up to look at Half-Sack. "I took my anger on never telling her how I feel out on you. It wasn't your fault I didn't have the balls to tell her I loved her more than a friend. That I wanted her to be mine and all that sappy romantic stuff she would have dragged me for. I lost out on that with her and that's my cross to bear. Not yours"

“Pretty sure she watched over me.” Chuckled Half-Sack lightly as he met his friends’ eyes. “She loved you too. Just so you know. Always talked about you and shit. I’m sorry the two of you never got to be together like that. I’m sorry I couldn’t save her this time” continued Half-Sack as tears poured down his face as he went from the time you were both blown up to the time the bullets only pierced your flesh.

“You did all you could. Neither of you had any idea the bullet would hit her prosthetic like that and ricochet. She wouldn’t want you blaming yourself” stated Juice as he walked around and pulled him in for a hug. “I’m sorry for being an ass. She will always be here with us.” He stated as he felt a warmth on the back of his neck and a slight weight followed by what he swore was a whispered finally.

[slut4msby]

bad idea, right? suna rintarō x fem!reader

+ tags & warnings; suggestive content, implied smut, mentions of parties/alcohol, use of the pet name "princess", not proofread

+ a/n; hey guys its lea :p. i <3 suna sm its not even funny anyway this is for all them suna luvrs out there like me. this obvs very influenced by the olivia rodrigo song not much to say there. some of this was also written whilst i was "under the influence" so it may be a little bit all over the place, apologies @_@.

seeing you tonight it’s a bad idea right?

“Y/n! what’s wrong baby” Your friend yelled over the loud music despite standing right next to you. 

“Nothing, I'll be back hot stuff.” you jokingly respond.

Stepping outside from the smell of sweaty college students and cheap alcohol. You stepped into your car. You weren’t going to be back. However, you didn’t care you had plans elsewhere that your friends would have killed you for, plans with a certain ex boyfriend - Suna Rintarō. 

You couldn’t lie, the breakup was pathetic. And maybe you should ignore him but god was he a good lover. You knew it was a bad idea. As you drive through the dark night, a black lacy shirt hugging your body, highlighting you in all the right places accompanied with a short red skirt, matching the lipstick on your lips. You know you should stop, but you can’t. You had second thoughts about seeing Suna every time but god you never regretted it. It’s not like the affair was one sided, he didn’t stop messaging you all night. He wanted you just as much as you needed him.

Suna Rintarō was intoxicating.

“It’s a bad idea, right?” You think to yourself as you exit the car walking towards the new apartment building, his new job must be paying him well. Walking the unfamiliar halls to his apartment, knocking lightly on the door. Only for him to open the door resting against the doorway, the biggest smirk across his face.

“Looking good princess.”

“Quit the small talk, Rin.” You murmur before pulling him in by his collar. He doesn’t hesitate in returning the kiss, turning your bodies slamming the door behind him.

“Someone missed me.” He chuckles whilst pulling away from the kiss, “as hot as this shirt is princess, I know you look better without one.” He says, before removing the fabric from your chest, leaving you exposed. Suna couldn’t help but stare, he knew he missed you but god he didn't understand how much.

“Take a photo, Rin. It will last longer.” You sarcastically respond, before your lips reconnect. His hands move up to cuff your breasts. Your bodies made their way to the couch, your lipstick now leaving kiss marks down his neck. Maybe this was a good idea? Whatever it was, it was intoxicating. Your bodies moved together rhythmically. The need grows as your bodies feel each other. 

Your bodies continue to dance throughout the night, the moans of each other's name escaping your lips in desperation. Hands desperately searching each other's bodies accompanied by purple marks left by both parties. God it was hot, there was no denying that. 

As the night continued it would eventually come to end. As you woke up the next morning to missed calls and unwanted messages from your friend from the party asking where you were. You can’t help but respond that you had gone home to sleep. I mean it wasn't your fault, right. You just tripped and fell into his bed after all. 

©slut4msby

[xxkissesforchanniexx]

hii! i saw that your requests are open so i thought i would send one :)

i can't stop thinking about sub changbin being so needy for reader to please him that he pleasures himself without readers permission and reader finding out and what they would do

hope this doesn't make you uncomfortable in anyway! have a lovely day <333

𝐋𝐢𝐬𝐭𝐞𝐧

Pairing: sub!Changbin x fem!reader Word count: 747 Genre: Smut 🔥❤️ Warning: MOMMY >.>, slight voyeurism, soft!dom reader >.> (Binnie was being human), not proofread, use of y/n, err lil cringe from my pov >.> i think thats all..

He always listened, always sat obediently, never did anything without your permission. But it's been a week and a half, it wasn't fair to him, you were busy, he understood. But the growing ache in his pants when you came out of your office, oversized t-shirt barely covering your panties as you entered the kitchen for a snack before retreating into your domain, it made him feral. But you were busy. Who was he to disturb you?

Changbin found himself in your shared bedroom, moaning into the pillow as he gripped his cock. Couldn't you see he needed you, couldn't you see he was so desperate and tired. He stroked himself slowly, imagining you sitting at the foot of the bed, "No, no. Who said you could go faster?" He groaned softly and bit his lip.

The door started opening, Changbin went pale. Shit.

"Binnie-" you froze in the doorway, looking at the buff man.

He opened his mouth to explain himself, say something in his defense, say anything to make the situation less... less what exactly? But no words came out of his mouth.

You closed the door slowly behind you. "Seo Changbin..."

His heart leapt into his throat. "Yes, y/n..?"

"What are you doing?" you asked, slowly walking to the bed.

He looked up at you, "I was..." His voice trailed off as you sat at the foot of the bed.

"You were?" you crossed your legs.

"I missed you, but you were so busy and-"

"What were you doing? Show me." You tilted your head.

Changbin's face went red in embarrassment, the tips of his ears going pink, he couldn't tell if you were mad or not, your face expressionless. He slowly started stroking himself again, his brows knit in concentration. He groaned and his big chest heaved.

Your eyes narrowed. "What were you thinking about?"

"You." He whined.

"Why?" You crawled up the bed and smiled at him gently.

"Missed you." he moaned, rubbing the head of his cock.

"Be a good boy?" you kissed his chest gently.

He nodded and exhaled shakily.

"I'm sorry I left you like this, Binnie." You grabbed his cock and stroked it slowly, rubbing the head with your thumb.

He groaned. "It's my fault. Didn't say anything..."

"Let me make it up to you hm?" You kissed his neck and giggled as his whole body stiffened. "Mommy's sorry, mk baby?"

"Mk... 'm so sorry." He moaned as you stroked his cock faster.

"Don't apologize." you kissed him as you squeezed his dick.

"Wanna feel it." he begged.

"Oh?" You raised a brow. "Where are your manners?"

"Please, Mommy, I wanna feel it." He whined.

"Feel what exactly?" You breathed against his neck.

"Want you to ride it." He looked like he was about to cry.

"Changbin." You kissed his neck gently and pulled away to remove your underwear. "Don't cum until I say so. Prove you can still listen to instructions."

He nodded eagerly. "I can listen.

"Good boy." you got over him and stroked his thick tip against your pussy before sinking down on him and releasing a breathy moan as you took him to the hilt.

He groaned. "Move, please."

"So needy." You lifted off and sank down on him slowly, adjusting to his thick girth.

He moaned and covered his mouth.

"Who said you could do that?" You stopped moving and he moaned desperately.

"'M sorry! Please." He gripped the sheets.

"Good." You started bouncing and rocking your him on him. The sound of slapping skin and his groans filling the room. You moaned softly above him. "Binnie..."

His hands came to steady your hips. "Agh! Faster."

You moved faster and leaned down to kiss him. "Move, Binnie."

He squeezed your hips and fucked up into you. "Feels so good." He whined.

"I'm gonna cum..." You gasped, grinding down on him, trying to stimulate your clit.

"Can I cum? Pretty please?" He begged and gasped.

"Cum with me Changbin!" You moaned, head falling back.

He thrust up into you a few more times, rubbing your clit and whimpering as your walls pulsed around his cock.

"Binnie!" You moaned as you came hard.

He groaned deeply as he released his seed into you.

You stayed on top of him for a moment before looking down at him.

"I expect you to listen next time." You rolled off him.

"Will you ride me like that again if I don't?" He smiled gently.

You rolled your eyes.

[retiredficwriter]

me? being tagged by @jetsteelyourheart ?? what an honor!

just like the top 5 favorite characters: Make a poll with 5 of your favorite rarepairs/crackships. See which one is everyone's favorite!

i became too invested in this. some of these ships i haven't thought in years, so it was nice to relive the times i was obsessed with them. i narrowed it to one ship per media/fandom and just like my tag-buddy, I'll provide my questionable reasons/propaganda.

REASONS/PROPAGANDA

Sydney Sage/Trey Juarez:

so when i was first reading bloodlines, i read online that sydney gets a human boyfriend in book 2. i had heard about brayden but never in the context of HIM being the boyfriend, so i thought he was the random dude in book 1 (wasn't he, unironically, called hayden??) who asked sydney out. i was theorizing who that boyfriend would be until my brain went: "omg.... IS IT TREY??" and got soo hyped. i loved their interaction in book 1 and thought exploring them in a romantic setting would be so interesting, especially with the implication of trey having a major role. they are so similar (growing up in a cult, daddy issues, both being smart) and yet, trey has some adrian-like traits?? charming, popular in the dating pool, laidback... and it would create some tension between sydrian??? imagine adrian watching trey and sydney date and feeling discouraged because she found a human "version" of him?? and with trey being a warrior, he would try to get sydney to have the alchemist side with them and push the "moroi are evil" narrative, creating more doubts for sydney to rebel! BUT THEN SYDNEY HELPS TREY REBEL AGAINST THE WARRIORS!!

i love their friendship as is, and know for a fact they wouldn't last that long but man... i would have eat up their failed romance.

bonus point for an adrian/sydney/trey polycule

Rachel Berry/Sam Evans:

ah yes. my first ever rarepair. since that one episode in season 2 where she and finn helped sam with his young siblings, i fell in love with them. if you were in the glee fandom, you know every single couple was problematic one way or the other (this is the writers' fault). yet somehow, every relationship sam was in, it was the healthiest the woman he was with ever had. and i wanted that for rachel! i ate all the crumbs this show gave me, which were... almost nonexistent. the big difference between this rarepair and the others on this poll is that, in the show's final season, THEY BECAME CANON. I WAS SO HAPPY. they were very unpopular because it came out of nowhere and the writers only put them together to give rachel a love interest for the final season (and give the storyline they planned for finn to someone else), which... fair. but he was so caring, encouraging her to follow her dreams and telling her the tough truth about things she didn't want to hear. it was so good to see rachel heal from finn and her failed broadway dreams while with sam. (also she was less insufferable with him).

but then, ha... they broke up on the third to last episode of the series. so she could be with jesse who showed up out of nowhere on that same episode, after he "left" 4-3 seasons ago. don't get me wrong - i love st. berry! jonathan groff and lea michelle have chemistry! love ambitious broadway wannabes being a power couple! but why not, i don't know, put the storyline she had with sam with jesse instead so it could be more organic and avoid crushing my dreams???

i'm fine. not bitter at all. I'M FINE. I'M F-

Clarisse La Rue/Silena Beauregard (PJO):

this isn't a rarepair compared to the previous two, but within the pjo fandom, it isn't as popular (surprisingly?? at least in ao3. i'm so out of the loop). first time reading pjo, little old only thought of clarisse and silena as best friends. but as i got older and read more fan analysis of the series, i realized the tragedy of these two. either 1) clarisse had an unrequited crush 2) they dated and didn't work out 3) it was a failed situationship. the daughter of ares, the girl people in camp-half blood are so scared of because she is mean to everyone and can (and will) beat the shit out of them, had a wholesome friendship with the daughter of aphrodite, and one of the nicest people in the camp?? and this friendship appeared because silena helped clarisse with her "boy problems"??? and then clarisse basically protected and comforted silena after what happened with charlie?? no spoilers for those who haven't read the books, but they parallel a famous greek mythology couple and their ending hurts. still love silena/charlie, but god... poor clarisse...

can't wait to keep rereading the books and suffer once i get to their part!

Gary "Eggsy" Unwin/Roxy Morton (Kingsman)

everyone prefers hartwin and merlin/eggsy, but i can't help but love mortwin. i watched the first movie and loved their small moments. loved how they bonded over being the underdogs in the competition and, instead of becoming sworn enemies, they recognized each other as worthy opponents. their small fun, friendly-rivarly banter was cute. part of me was relieved they stayed as friends in the end... but i couldn't help but be soo disappointed. the chemistry? it was there!! even taron egerton said there was potential to explore a romance if given the chance! plus, i'm a sucker for well-developed friends-to-lovers.

never watched the sequel but after reading what the writers did to roxy, i'm glad i didn't and never will. i can now create my own sequel in my head and read fanfics of the story they deserve 😌

Bella Swan/Leah Clearwater (Twilight):

i want to thank this one brazilian fanfic i found years ago (and never wrote down the name and lost it 😔) for presenting me with this ship. everyone talks about bella/alice, bella/rosalie, bella/carlisle... but what about bella/leah??? think new moon, when bella has just been abandoned by edward, meeting the werewolves through jacob and therefore leah, who is still dealing with the whole paul/emily thing. they can still start out with leah hating bella but they can bond over being abandoned by their boyfriends and heal from it, and in the end realize they don't need them anymore - they can have each other!

i also love if edward still comes back and bella is conflicted, and it's a edward/bella/leah love triangle (apparently people ship edward/leah and how i never heard of it?! imagine the drama!!) i will take anything where jacob isn't involved

tagging @morocorra @forcebookish @artianaiolanthe @sydneysageivashkov + anyone who wants to do this!

[mythicalartistx]

Why Mickey is not to blame for leaving Aqua in the realm of darkness — He was busy

All the time I see people say how it's Mickey's fault for leaving her there for ten years— No doubt Anti-Aqua says that and makes him feel bad.

But the thing is he actually only left her there for 1.5 years if you want to say he left her there.

Cause he didn't know where she was for ten years. Ven was hidden and his heart has been lost, but nobody knew where he was except for Aqua. Aqua and Terra went missing and there was no sign of them.

Nobody was that close to Terra that realized Oh he and that person with no memory look oddly similar except he has silver hair.

Mickey didn't know Terra, he only knew Aqua and Ven. The closest people who would know his appearance well were dead, missing, or wouldn't help cause they're antagonists.

So for several years they probably searched and had no clues also around that time Maleficent was cause chaos with the start of gathering the first few princesses of light' hearts. So Mickey probably had to deal with that.

Then when he realized what was going on and worlds being disappearing he took an opportunity to go to a world that's heart been lost and jump into the door of darkness to find the key that will help close the door

That's when he first finds Aqua and it's been ten years.

She sacrifices herself for Riku and then Mickey and Riku go through the realm of darkness until they get separated somehow. Riku reaches castle oblivion and then Mickey soon helps him and officially becomes his dad.

Then while Sora is asleep, Riku protects Sora and does everything he can to try and help him wake up.

During this part Mickey and Riku separate for a bit. Mickey probably went to Yen Sid and was like Aqua is actually in the realm of darkness we need to save her.

And Yen Sid probably was like we don't have the capabilities or strength to do that, it's way too dangerous.

He probably also told Mickey about Organization 13 and how they're dangerous and needs to be stopped.

Once Sora wakes up he must make pathways to the other worlds and stop organization 13. Mickey also is trying to find Ansem the wise. So after all that happens they finally go back to the islands and Mickey is probably going to try to see what can be done about Aqua.

But then wait Jiminy Cricket runs in and tells him about his journal. So they spend time doing that.

After all the journal stuff is over, Mickey informs Master Yen Sid and sends a letter to the destiny Trio that explained what happened.

Master Yen Sid then tells Mickey because of the stuff they discovered through the data in the journal that Riku and Sora must take the M.O.M. Exam because they fear of darkness uprising.

Then while they are taking the Exam, Mickey goes back to his castle cause Maleficent and Pete captured Minnie. Lea/Axel appears saves the day and then saves Sora from being turned to Darkness. And they realized what Xehanort is planning. They finally have the abilities to find Aqua now. Mickey is now free.

It's only probably been a year and a half since. 1-2 is a year. The events of 2 probably took like a few months, coded probably took 1 month, DDD probably took 1-2 months. And 3 probably took about a few months too.

Reminder that Sora is in 15 for KH2 and KH3.

But they realize they need 7 lights and it's now their mission to find Aqua have Sora get the power awakening to wake up lost friends like Roxas.

Mickey and Riku goes to find Aqua.

And Aqua at the beach, she has trauma being there so long but when she sees ANSEM she says I'm staying here they'll come for me.

And the words she speaks to Mickey in her antiform are only half right. She was possessed by darkness of course she going to say the worse things. Like I don't think she really blames anyone.

It's kinda like people trying to blame one of the trio members in BBS— you can't.

But it wasn't Mickey's fault.

He was busy and they did it as soon as they could which was about a year afterwards.

She has trauma but she was in there for about a decade. Nobody knew where she was for 10 of those years and then the remaining few years they tried at the best time to get her out

When I first saw things relating I was like that's kinda plot hole, they didn't mention them before and was now just added but more I think about it. It kinda makes sense.

I feel like they could have gotten her out when Riku and Sora went to kh2 but she probably was at a deeper part of the dark world. But the point is they were all busy dealing with other things.

Yen Sid probably didn't want Mickey going alone. And Riku was literally using darkness and his form was Ansem, who knows what that would do to him if he went there and if he would ever get it back.

So after passing the exam, Riku went with Mickey where Sora eventually helped them out too

And It wasn't Mickey's fault.

[studentinpursuitofclouds]

i don't know if you did this already, but i'm kind of in an angst mood, so: how would the bachelors and bachelorettes react to not having their feelings reciprocated?

like i know in the game they get upset and all, but it's never elaborated more on how they act afterwards; do they avoid the farmer for some time? do they get overprotective, does the friendship stays the same or it ends there, or? i would like to see your perspective on it :)

I thought, dear anon, what you meant about the situation where the bachelors first confess their love for the Farmer, but Farmer doesn't reciprocate. And then I thought: maybe you meant events after the breakup, when they were already in a relationship (i.e., receiving a wilted bouquet)? I did the first option, and I hope I didn't make a mistake, because I might not understand in translation. If I didn't guess right, feel free to write me the ask again. Enjoy!

SDV bachelors:

Harvey:

Heartbreak, emotions running high. But Harvey, despite his mild and, as some might think, "weak" character, managed to keep all his composure and not show how upset he was after his rejected declaration of love. Still, professionalism and cold common sense helped him save face in front of his friend. He will ask them to forget about the incident and assure them that it will not negatively affect their doctor-patient relationship and their relationship as friends. Plus, it would also not affect the fact that Harvey would still be worried about Farmer's health, and would again berate the careless lover of climbing in dark mines with monsters and constantly getting new wounds.

Elliott:

Oh... Ahem, well... Oh goodness, Elliott feels so awkward. He's, uh... He needs to be alone. No, no, no! It's not the Farmer's fault, it's just... Well, Elliott was pretty sure they felt the same way, and was so transfixed by his crush that a brutal jolt of reality left him confused. It would take him a week or two to come to his senses, after which he would emotionally apologize to Farmer for his long absence and offer to forget everything over a mug of ale at the Saloon.

Alex:

What? But Alex thought... You know what? He doesn't need this. He said it at all because he thought Farmer had a crush on him or something, and wanted to feel pity for them, because they're following him around...! Wait, no. In fact, Alex would immediately regret and apologize to Farmer for this outburst of emotion after these words. It wasn't their fault they didn't share his feelings, and it was very mean and unseemly to say so. Farmer should tell them that they are not mad at Alex, or else the athlete will be avoiding them for a long time to come, crushed by his own conscience.

Shane:

...And why he isn't surprised? Who in their right mind would want a partner like Shane? It was a dumb idea on his part to suggest dating. He'd regret it for a long time, avoiding Farmer whenever possible. But surprisingly, he won't be drowning his sorrows in a mug of beer anymore. After all, he's trying to kick his bad habits, for Jas and Marnie's sake. Shane won't be particularly social with Farmer anymore, but he won't be as rude as he was when he first met him. Fuck, why is everything so complicated, stupid crush and stupid love...

Sebastian:

Fuck, Sebastian doesn't like this awkwardness. What on earth possessed him to open his mouth and say all those words, huh? Honestly, he should have kept quiet like he did before. He's upset, it's clear as day. But he doesn't want to ruin friendship for both of them. Their time together with Sam when they played board games, their gathering at the Saloon on Friday for another game of billiards. But he'll feel a little better if Farmer tells him that things are cool between them, and the four of them also get together at the Saloon again, like old times Sebby has no luck in love, but at least he has his good friends.

Sam:

Ah, bummer... Well, no means no. But they'll still be friends, right? Actually, Sam would be fine if he could at least have a few days alone, but he and Farmer have mutual friends, Sebastian and Abigail, and he doesn't want to ruin friendly meetings with everyone because he and Farmer didn't work out. He can get too friendly at times, constantly hugging Farmer. But it's all just friendly hugs, see? Farmer will explain the situation to Abby and Sebby, and all three of them will talk to Sam about not doing that anymore, that it's okay to feel sad, and that his failed relationship with Farmer will not ruin everyone's friendship.

SDV bachelorettes:

Leah:

Although she gets upset, Leah, among all the bachelorettes, behaves like the most mature person. No luck in love? Unpleasant, hurtful, but life goes on. There will be an residue for a couple of weeks, but afterwards she will communicate normally with Farmer again. Sometimes she will even joke that she first pushed their feelings away as soon as they moved to the old farm, and now they no longer share her feelings. Awkward, yeah? She's glad that even though they didn't work out as a couple, they remained good friends.

Maru:

Oh, Maru... She doesn't want to show outwardly that she's sad, but she can't help it. She thought that they could have something, that they would be together. The girl understands that she needs to act like an adult, but her heart constantly shrinks when she sees Farmer not far away after her unrequited feelings. Maru delves headlong into her inventions and science to distract herself from her sad thoughts.

Haley:

Haley will show some pretty mixed emotions after her rejected feelings. When Farmer replied that they did not show the same crush, the blond girl would take it rather quickly and guffaw as if the proposal was not important to her at all. Like, just to dispel boredom. On the other hand, at the sight of her "not established" partner, she becomes very flirtatious with Alex or anyone else. As if to show Farmer that "here, look who you lost." There will be quite a long struggle between her adult self and her child self, and at times it makes Haley sad.

Penny:

Penny is too emotional to react calmly to rejection. The sentimental girl will burst into tears, her shame and pain will overwhelm her. The Farmer was so friendly and kind to her, she thought, that they... She will want to be alone for a while, and in the days to come she will constantly hide her gaze and say a short "hello" every time she bumps into Farmer in the library.

Emily:

Oh, no! No, of course not! Emily and Farmer may not work out on the love front, but she wants to remain friends! Emily sincerely hopes that they will forget this as a misunderstanding and maintain the same friendship as before. She will be very glad that she will also be able to chat with Farmer on various topics while she serves their order at the Saloon.

Abigail:

Ah man... Abigail thinks it's her own fault. She's always hid her crush on Farmer, thinking it inappropriate, and when her gut was screaming at everything that it was a bad idea, she opened her mouth and declared her love after all. And got her (expected? sigh...) answer. But the hell if Farmer thinks she's going to stop talking to them because of it. What are we, little kids? The only thing that will be childish is playing video games together like before, but in a love confession situation Abby will act like a mature and responsible girl.

[fushichoumomo-arch]

tagged by:  @biskael tagging:  @inmensapotentia, @opscurus, @hirak0s [shinji && ayame.]  EMOTIONS / FEELINGS:

001. restless anger.

002. unfathomable guilt.

003. the drive to protect.

004. loyalty.

005. passionate.

VOICE / GREETINGS / SPEECH PATTERNS :

001. momo sounds quite young and soft-spoken; she feels like she needs to raise her voice to be taken seriously, which is especially annoying for her as a lieutenant.

002. seeing that she's mostly on her guard these days, she often doesn't speak first unless it feels safe to do so or the situation is dire.

003. she mostly talks like a normal person would — except when she's angry. that's when all those poetry lessons by aizen come in handy: her language becomes flowery and somewhat formal, yet she still manages to come across as the attack dog she is.

COLOURS:

001. any variation of pink . has always been her favourite colour, always will be. [even though her reiatsu is red, let that sink in.]

002. scarlet red . the colour that signifies the departure of the “momo hinamori” everyone knew, and her vow to bring purgatory to her enemies. the colour of her evolved form [bankai etc.]

003. dark purple . her hair.

004. black . her uniform.

005. gold . her hairpin and bracelets. associated with fudo myo'o, or acala, one of the wisdom kings in buddhist mythology.

SCENTS:

001. peaches , her namesake.

002. vanilla , a woman's signature scent.

003. bright citrus , in memento of the ‘self’ that was lost in the war.

004. burning wood , in the heat of battle and its aftermath. a side-effect of using tobiume.

005. wisteria , signifying the fact she had to grow up quickly.

CLOTHING:

001. momo modified her standard shinigami uniform to include frills [a skirt instead of the hakama pants she wore in the past, and detached sleeves.]. she's taking care of her appearance when she didn't before — because before, she didn't take herself seriously nor think of herself as someone important.

002. furthermore, her new outfit closely resembles a traditional tengu ensemble; rmoderately-heeled geta, pompoms, you name it. [fitting, because when in bankai, she might as well be a tengu — she has wings.] 

003. a set of plum flowers on the side of her head. 

OBJECTS:

001. TOBIUME, her most precious zanpakutō. they may not see eye to eye sometimes, but they got each other's back.

002. a pair of golden bracelets and a feather-shaped hairpin. fudo myo'o is often depicted with a lotus on his head, and since momo is a phoenix… it is feathers spread out akin to a peacock's.

003. an agate talisman that her beloved granny gifted her after the war; consecrated to fudo myo'o himself, it represents protection from evil.

VICES / BAD HABITS: 

001. deep-seated anger issues . you see, momo is both brave and overwhelmed in times of adversity; when confronted with something that she doesn't necessarily have an answer to? she lashes out. when her cherished comrades [understandably] don't understand her decisions? she lashes out. her enemies will get under her skin, no matter how much she tries to conceal it. 

002. prone to overthinking . it's no secret to everyone around her that momo still thinks about those that have died in the war against the quincy; she did nothing, and yet she was among the living when her squad fought till their last and were less capable than her. and no matter how much she's reassured that it wasn't her fault — she doesn't believe it.

003. fear of failure . above all else, momo fears a situation that will leave her just as powerless as the war had left her. worse, that this time, tōshirō or granny might be dead because of her. the latter, at least, will have respite — tōshirō will go to HELL.

004. she's fucked up . she talks about the most morbid of things with an airy voice and a languid smile, and will even go as far as to say that aizen's betrayal [and stabbing] have made her stronger — that he is far more interesting now than when he was her captain.

BODY LANGUAGE:

001. very straight and upright when leading her subordinates into battle. momo, despite her small stature and meek voice, is still a gotei 13 lieutenant. 

002. though she does not realise it, her hands have a slight tremor, and the way she carries herself appears… tense. like she's always on alert. 

003. she's not much of a gesture person. when her hand is not on tobiume, she keeps her hands folded. 

004. cold, lifeless eyes [like aizen] and a languid smile when she is in the zone [read: when she is in the heat of battle.]

AESTHETICS:

001. the phoenix . momo hinamori is a woman that has died a total of three (3) times — metaphorically, of course, but still. one, when aizen shattered her whole world by revealing to her who he really is. two, the deaths of her comrades. and finally… when she became a deceiver herself. each of these deaths gave rise to the person that she is today.

002. a crimson bird's mask . both figuratively and literally [her hollow mask; verse-dependent].

003. a rope of kidō . it is said that the gods feared fudo myo'o because he could bind their transgressions and hurl them at them.

004. higanbana . known as lycoris radiata, this flower blooms at eternal partings, and guides to HELL.

SONGS:

001. angreifer // unlucky morpheus .

002. heavy is the crown // linkin park.

003. city of delusion // muse .

004. the walls // THE SIXTH LIE .

005. genshindou // autodidactic studios.

006. honkai world diva // mika kobayashi

[lovechrissturniolo]

5/ day one - morning

contains: Lea & Chris talking and being interested in/ looking at each other

After a 30 minutes intro Chris and Matt played Fortnite.

As the day was just dawning, Lea - sitting in the living area - noticed an unfavorable change in the light in Chris's room and she texted him:

I have to adjust your light if it`s possible? Your room is a literal lighting challenge!

No problem, go ahead. I open the door so they can't hear when you come in.

Chris tried to concentrate on the game as she slipped into his room, but he couldn't help but watch her out of the corner of his eye.

She had this deliberate posture and highly concentrated look when she was working.

It was kind of cute.

Lea was wearing blue jeans and a black baby-T, her long hair tied into a messy bun and subtle make-up. Chris had to admit to himself that she looked pretty good.

Her belt and the lower part of her belly were visible as she leaned over the table behind the camera making adjustments to the ring light.

〽️

Her being here during the stream was definitely better than some old guy, he thought to himself again.

Immediately afterward, he heard Matt yell and realized he'd been shot down.

“Chris! You're an idiot!”

“Fuck, sorry!” he shouted back, ruffling his hair.

As Chris leaned back in his chair, he caught Lea's gaze, who silently formed the word “Sorry!” and twisted the corner of her mouth.

He waved his hand to indicate that it wasn't her fault and smirked without looking directly at her.

“What's funny about that, you moron?” Matt joked from above.

“Nothing!” Chris answered, laughing about his stupid fault and rubbed his eyes. “Bro, I don't think I've ever played Fortnite this early in the morning! You can't expect my full concentration!”

“You better focus, man! We almost won that round!”

“Yeah yeah, all right! Go!”

Lea sat down on Chris's bed with her laptop and phone.

Sorry for the interruption!! I'll be off again in a minute.

You can also stay! You're not bothering me.

〽️

After the light was set, she moderated the chat without changing her location again to avoid making too much noise.

The madness in the comments was limited - probably because it was still early in the morning - so Lea kept catching herself watching Chris play.

He was one of the most expressive people she had ever met. Concentration, anger, excitement, joy - it was as if his whole body showed how he was feeling in every moment.

Something about his posture and facial expression was so fascinating that she could barely look away.

It was undeniably a beautiful sight to see him on her screen from the front and live from the side.

〽️

Chris noticed out of the corner of his eye that Lea looked over at him once in a while.

He somehow liked it and wondered what was going on in her head. Probably just the lighting situation, but maybe also personal interest?

Chris couldn't really log into Fortnite today, causing him to blow one game after another.

Eventually Matt had enough and they decided to have breakfast and try again later.

Lea disconnected Chris's computer from the stream, stated: "It's off." and gave him a thumbs up.

They unintentionally stretched at the same time and smiled sheepishly when they realized it. “Sorry about the interruption earlier. It shouldn't happen again.”

“Oh, please." Chris relented. "That's not the reason, I'm just still tired and play like shit!”

“That I can't judge, even though I've watched you guys play often.” Lea smiled.

〽️

Chris dropped onto the couch, stretched his hands over his head and mumbled: “I really should have slept more!"

“You didn't?” she asked casually.

“Not really well. Probably too nervous.”

“You guys really don't need to stress. Literally everything you try turns to gold anyway.”

“Nick says, you always have to be a little uncomfortable to be comfortable. That's what we do and why it works, I guess."

“That actually applies to my life too, I have to say,” Lea replied thoughtfully.

“You know what, I'd like to know more about that!” Chris replied quickly, sensing his chance to find out more about her and sat up.

Lea smiled involuntarily and wondered whether she was feeling a little too comfortable right now.

〽️

“You need to go support Matt, I think.”

“Is he already on camera in the kitchen?”

“Yes, he texted me to switch over right away.”

“Damn, this kid needs to chill, we'll be here for a while!” Chris sighed and made his way to the door.

“We talk later. I'll bring something for breakfast when I come back."

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[nicolefirekitty]

putting my thoughts under a cut since my friend who knows nothing about kh will probably see this post:

Thinking lots about Roxas and Xion post Kingdom Hearts 3, though this is more focused on Roxas.

They're both just children who came into the world at (supposedly) fourteen with no memories, and therefore no knowledge or experiences, and now they're thrust into as normal a life a Keyblade Wielder can get after being trapped for so much of their short lives. Xion became almost nonexistent until suddenly becoming two people against her will, only becoming whole when Sora rejoined her minds. Roxas had his ENTIRE LIFE replaced, only to suddenly remember his previous life in a fit of rage.

He clearly remembers both lives at the same time, shown with Sora being sad when leaving Twilight Town and saying goodbye to the real Hayner, Pence, and Olette. As well as appearing in a black coat in the fight in The World That Never Was and the snippets of memories we get to see afterwards. So his mental state must be a disaster, remembering two very conflicting lives and a one of them wasn't even real. But it was real to HIM.

Four kids living in Twilight Town enjoying their summer vacation, but now Hayner, Pence, and Olette don't even personally know who he is. They're willing to befriend him, clearly, but these aren't the people Roxas knew, and so much of his normal, fake life is overlapping his life as an Organization Member, and vice versa.

It's probably also practically impossible for this fifteen year old with one year of TRUE life experience and no real memories to process this to explain the horrors he went through to others. Even his friends. Only Xion would really understand what it feels like to be two people at the same time, surrounded with nothing but reminders of everything he is and isn't. But would she truly?

I headcanon the Days Trio +Saïx/Isa made the abandoned mansion their home, so it must be even more torture to Roxas. Probably to Xion as well, but I doubt as much since she made her choice willingly; though she did kinda force Roxas to kill her but that's neither here nor there. Oh but he definitely remembers her body crystallizing in his arms as she shatters into truly nothing, not even memories remaining, it all being his fault.

Man, can't wait for that Psychology of Roxas video :)

My thoughts on Xion aren't all that organized and I feel I put down the gist of what I have for her so far in my ramblings above. I just really feel bad for her and hope she gets to have a role in Kingdom Hearts 4. I do headcanon she's extremely touch starved and will hold Roxas' or Axel/Lea's hand as much as she can though. Also that she avoids Isa as much as she can, out of fear, anger, and pure spite.

[mischivana]

Letting You Go Was the Hardest Thing I had to Do.

Will Solace x Sibling!reading

Requested by anonymous.

Masterlist

I looked out the window again, it was English and again I wasn't paying attention. My mind was elsewhere, on something, someone, more important. I watched as the pairs of late siblings ran to the school from the parking lot or ran out of minivans being scolded by their mothers.

I thought about my brother again. My half-brother. How much I missed him and how mad I was that he chose not to be here. I knew it wasn’t his fault though, it was his dad’s. Yep we have different fathers. But it’s more complicated than that.

My name is y/n Solace, my half-brother is Will Solace. The thing that sets us apart though, he’s a demi-god. His father is Apollo, yep the sun dude. I'm not a demi-god, pure mortal blood right here. It never got in the way of our brother-sister relationship though, not until now at least.

During the summer Will goes to this camp, Camp Half-Blood I think he called it. It's basically a safe haven for demi-gods, a place where they can train and be safe from monsters. Yep monsters, they’re real. One almost killed me and my brother one time. I think he called it an Empousai?

Usually he only goes during the summer, hence the name SUMMER camp. Which was nice, he would go to camp and then spend the school year with me. Sure I couldn’t be with my best friend for 3 months but I’d wrather he’d be alive. But this year he decided to stay at camp, which means I won’t see him for another year. Mom says it’s because he's the head of the Apollo cabin and their best healer. Makes sense, still hurts.

I was too busy thinking about my brother to notice my name being called. “y/n? y/n? Y/N!” my teacher yelled. I quickly turned to the board and saw a couple people snicker. I ignored them and said “Yes miss?” I didn’t know what she wanted but I knew it wasn’t good. “Since you seem to be so distracted, you must know the topic already? Care to answer the question on the board?” I looked at the board and answered quickly. “The subject is referring to a place so the correct form would be ‘there’ not ‘their’” I said. She looked at me for a second, pleased with my answer, before turning and continuing her lecture.

I looked back towards the window when I heard a ridiculous scream followed by the sound of running footsteps and hooves on the epoxy floor. A scream that I had unfortunately recognized. For some reason my half-brother, William Andrew Solace, was at my school with a satyr screaming at the top of his lungs. Without thinking I ran out of the class room and saw Will, a satyr, and a younger girl who I’d assumed was a recently discovered half-blood, running down the hall. I looked back and saw three snake women climbing the stairs and started running with them. Before I knew it I was right next to them.

“HEY WILL!” I yelled at him. “HEY Y/N! WAIT Y/N? WHAT ARE YOU DOING HERE?” he said as we all turned a corner. “I GO TO SCHOOL HERE? WHAT ARE YOU DOING HERE? AREN’T YOU SUPPOSED TO BE AT THE CAMP?” I yelled, biting back my anger. “IN HERE” the satyr yelled. We rushed into the supply room and barricaded the door quickly.

Once the door was barricaded I turned to face my brother, who was on the ground from exhaustion. “WHAT ARE YOU DOING HERE? I THOUGHT YOU COULDN’T COME BACK THIS YEAR! YOU CHOSE TO STAY AT CAMP?” I yelled at him, all the anger in my body finally releasing. “Calm down, I swear I can explain-” he started to say but I cut him off. “EXPLAIN? EXPLAIN WHAT? THAT YOU LIED? YOU TOLD ME YOU COULDN’T COME BACK HOME BUT HERE YOU ARE! AT HOME!” I yelled at him, tears starting to form in my eyes. “Y/n LISTEN!” he yelled.

I shut up quickly and stared at him. “I did have to stay at camp, you're right,” he paused, “being head counselor of the Apollo cabin and head of the infirmary required it, at least for the first year” he looked at me with a sympathetic look, like he didn’t even like what he was saying. But why didn’t he at least tell me he was coming here?

“That doesn’t explain why you’re here though!” I told him. “I'm here for her” he said and pointed at the young girl, “she’s a demi-god and a rather powerful one, maybe a big three kid. They needed to send a cabin head to get her” he explained. “Why didn’t they send Nico? He’s a cabin head and a big three kid right?” I questioned. He sighed and said “Nico is in New Rome right now representing Hades-” “Pluto” I corrected “-Pluto, whatever it is and I was the only cabin head at the ready” He said, it made sense but still.

“Why didn’t you warn me?” “If I had more notice I would have, trust me, but I was told about her 10 hours ago!” he said. I looked at him for another second before attacking him with a hug, he hugged back and got warmer. He was glowing, he did that when he got happy, I thought it was funny, I knew his boyfriend Nico thought so too.

After we let go we were able to explain to the demigod, who I learned was named Hannah, what was going on and who she really was. It took her a while to believe it, but Will told me it always does. The satyr, who was named Oakly, told us we needed to leave as soon as possible. The only problem was that the monsters were still out. Slowly and quietly we unbarricaded the door and Will crept out, quiver on shoulder and bow in hand. We closed the door again, I was scared for my brother but before I knew it he’d opened the door covered in golden dust.

We made it safely out of the school and back to the “Delphi Strawberry Service” van they’d taken here. I saw Argus, the hundred handed guy in the driver seat. My brother may be a demigod and it may have gotten me face to face with all sorts of monsters but I would never get used to that guy.

I gave Will one more hug, and almost crying I said “So I guess you’re leaving again? Probably pretty easy for a demigod”. He let go of the hug, his hands still on my shoulders, and said “staying at camp? not being able to see my sister? Leaving you for camp was the hardest thing I ever had to do, and It’s harder the second time” now we were both about to cry. “Make sure to tell who claimed her, be safe glow stick” “you too homegirl” I gave him one more hug and cried into his shirt before letting him go. I watched the van drive away, wiped my tears and headed back into the school for lunch.

*a few days later*

I woke up, it was saturday which meant no school. I ran outside and checked the mail for any word from Will. I saw a yellow envelope with a wax seal with the image of the sun on it. I grabbed it, ran upstairs, and ripped it open. It said next to nothing.

“Hades

Glowstick :)”

I smiled again. My brother had made it to camp safely and Nico had a sister.

[yellowsugarwords]

alright lemme know if you don’t wanna do that but season three group reacting to David accidentally killing javi? got the idea from that one game over screen in ep5

OH DAMN

David: David had been angry. No, he’d been livid. And seeing Javi cozier with his family than he had ever been? It fueled his rage even more. He had pulled out the gun as a threat, as a means of reestablishing his power both in Richmond, and in their family dynamic. He only wanted to get him to back down. To listen. To respect David as the tried and true leader. But his finger slipped, and the gun roared, and suddenly, splatter from his brother’s forehead hit his shirt and face. Then, Javi was on the ground. The screams and cries echoed from all around him, as though he wasn’t really present; as though he was watching a movie. It was an out of body experience, making that big of a mistake. “David, how could you?” Kate roared. She ran up, punching him angrily in the chest before Tripp pulled her away. Her attention turned to that of Gabe and Mariana’s; Javi’s limp body on the ground, watching him take his last breaths. Fuck. Fuck. It was the only thing passing through David’s head. He had killed his brother. His only brother. Everything was all his fault.

Kate: Kate screamed the moment the BANG! roared through the air. Her hands slapped over her mouth, her heart stopping entirely as she watched the scene play out in front of her. Just as David slammed his foot on the ground, his finger hit the trigger, firing a bullet straight through Javi’s forehead, forcing him onto the ground. “Javi” It was the only thing she could say, slipping shakily out of her lips. She wobbled forward, about to collapse herself. Her legs felt weak. She felt like her body was suffocating, every inch of it. “Javi?” She finally knelt down beside him, staring into his lifeless eyes, and studying his still chest. “Javi? Javi?” Her voice became more and more distressed the more he didn’t answer. She knew he was gone. She just couldn’t stomach it. “Javi, no!” For the first time since the apocalypse began, she felt really, truly, alone. “No no no no no,” she whispered under her breath, holding each side of his pale face, trying to soak up every last bit of warmth his body had to offer before it was all gone. “I can’t lose you too,” she whispered through sobs.

Eleanor: Eleanor felt his stomach twist when David pulled out the gun. She lifted up her hands, as if trying to generate peace. “Woah, David, we can--” She wasn't able to finish. Before she had a chance, the gun fired, the bullet ripped through Javier’s throat, and he was down on the ground. It had all happened so quickly, it took Eleanor a beat to even understand what had happened. Why Javi was on the ground. Why he was bleeding so severely. Finally, Kate’s scream and Gabe’s wails snapped her out of it. She darted to his side, waving the others away. “Give me some room,” she said softly, leaning in, listening for a heartbeat. She knew it was useless, but she needed to do something. She couldn’t just stand there in horror. She needed to try. At least then, she could say she did. Her eyes began to cloud over with tears as she attempted to stop the bleeding, take a pulse, do anything. Eventually her tears began falling freely, her voice shaking from sobs. “Javi, come on, man. Stay with me.” But she knew he was gone. It was too late.

Tripp: Tripp’s hands tightened into fist when he realised what was going to happen. “David don--” The shot was fired before Tripp even had a chance. He reached his hand out, wanting to lea for the gun, but wasn’t fast enough. The bullet ripped from the gun and landed straight into Javi’s chest. The moment he saw it, Tripp knew it was over. He lowered his hand, it tossed down to his side in defeat as Javi collapsed, a hand on his chest, the life draining out of him on the ground. Tripp closed his eyes and sighed, pressing his fingers into his eyes. David just stood; still and horrified. “I’m--” “Shut it, David.” Tripp snapped, finally opening his eyes. “Get the hell out of here. Right now.” David hadn’t ever seen Tripp this stern, this rattled, this angry. “Get the fuck out of here.” Tripp said again, louder and more aggravated this time. The sound of weeping and sobbing bounced off of every wall. Tripp stood in front of the grieving family, keeping eyes on David as he wandered away until he was fully ot of sight. Mari, Kate, and Gabe didn’t need him nearby. Not right now. Not after what he did.

Gabe: Gabe could feel his stomach drop. For a moment, he felt as though he was weightless - floating in place rather than existing. He felt like he was outside of his body, watching as Javi crumpled to the ground. David had pulled out his gun as a threat, demanding for Javi to back off. When he didn’t, David got frustrated. His finger slipped, and it fired. Directly through Javi’s throat, rendering him speechless, waiting for death. “No!” Gabe screamed, lunging forward and collapsing onto his knees, laying beside Javi’s limp body on the ground. “Javi! Javi, please!” Gabe could barely breathe due to how hard he was crying. For so long, Javi raised him. He taught him more about being a man than David ever did. More than David ever could. David put his gun away, hands up as though protesting. “I didn’t…I didn’t mean--” “Shut up!” Gabe screamed. He had never raised his voice at his father in his entire life before. “I hate you!” He didn’t care if walkers came to their location due to the noise, he could care less. All he could do was lay his forehead on Javi’s still chest, and weep into the bloodied fabric.

Mariana: Mariana screamed. It was all she could think to do, but it was still muffled by the BANG of the gun. “No! Javi, No!” Mariana flew herself forward, reaching Javi just as he hit the ground. He groaned and squirmed, blood pooling around his head and shoulders. “Javi, please. Please stay. We need you,” Mariana could see her tears falling, crashing onto his shirt and face. Every time one landed, she brushed it away. With her hand on one of his cheeks, she could feel how warm his cheeks were. Knowing they would only get colder was devastating. “It’s okay,” Javi wheezed, his eyes beginning to cloud over. “Stay safe.” Those were the last words to escape his lungs before his chest collapsed, all the air leaving his lungs, and his body giving in to the concrete. Mariana wailed. Louder than she had ever cried at anything before. She clung to his shirt, begging for him to stay. “Javi, no! Please!” She felt as though she was going to pass out. She couldn't breathe. Her chest physically ached. This really did feel like the end.

𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘯𝘬 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘴𝘮 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘥𝘪𝘯𝘨 💌☕️♡

[dreams-and-honor]

Dove

ship: my down to earth lover (nivis x menogias) aus: kite stand au source: genshin impact word count: 1627

DAE IT'S YOUR FAULT FOR THIS DAMN AU

anyway, yeah. first menogias fic and it's for this au.

tag list: @dearly-beeloved @camellias-and-coriander @rebel-wolf13 @sunstar-of-the-north @goldenworldsabound @mahitoslittlebird @edencantstopfallininlove @adoredbyalatus @dorothys-wife @faerie-circle-ships @kylars-princess @little-miss-selfships

Nivis was always a contradiction.

He incited equal parts stares and aversion of the eyes, his frigid appearance affecting how people perceived him. Never once did his expression change from the neutral-bordering-cold blankness, eyes half-lidded, brow low, and lips practically a perfect pout. His appearance nearly chilled the air itself.

Though anything BUT frigid, it was either out of ignorance or acceptance that he didn't bother trying to keep his expression warm.

That was just his face.

Though a number of residents of Liyue Harbor were accustomed to his chilly aura, he never cared to make acquaintance with anyone enough for them to see what he was really like. He was known as polite, but that was about it.

Most would rather come to the conclusion he was being curt, not shy, as was the genuine truth.

It was no different this lively market day, navigating through the crowds was relatively easy as some would move out of his way based on his expression alone.

Internally, he was tired. Being around so many people was unpleasant, it was killing him not to apologize for every bump or nudge. He needed a moment, stepping out of the crowd to linger in front of a particular stand for a bit of respite wasn't a bad idea.

As he slipped off to the side, he found himself in front of a rather peculiar stall, and it took him a moment of comprehension to realize it was a kite stall.

The various shapes and colors greeted him all at once as his eyes lifted to the display, almost overwhelming in their beauty. It was all so much to look at, and he could only take so much of it in before his pale eyes widened.

And instantly, that cold expression became one of joyful wonder, and his eyes began to sparkle in a manner similar to the fashion that the first heavy snowfall of winter did in the sunshine that followed.

"So pretty…" he breathed, his blue-tinted lips curling into an enchanted smile.

"And made all by mself no less," came an unfamiliar voice, snapping Nivis out of his state of wonder.

Though the joy on his face was replaced, it was by that of one of surprise as opposed to the prior coldness. White lashes batted as he blinked, looking up at the shopkeep.

His face immediately flushed, and his pale eyes widened. A friendly smile from a man so beautiful it nearly knocked the breath out of his lungs. Brunette and gold that filled his eyes in a manner not unsimilar to the way the kites had just done prior.

"Beautiful…" he spoke in a soft tone before realizing he had spoken out loud, shaking his head to clear it before stammering. "Th-The kites, I mean! They're so beautiful, you m-made these?" he asked, his eyes remaining open wide in wonder.

A few of the shopkeeps and people who frequented the market who had seen Nivis before were unable to refrain from staring. What was this? What had caused this sudden change in demeanor, was this what Nivis was truly like? Was it just a reaction to the admittedly very handsome shopkeep?

The handsome shopkeep in question chuckled before nodding.

"Indeed I did. With quite a bit of hard work, I may add. Might I say, I'm glad to find someone who appreciates my craftsmanship so," he replied.

Nivis merely stared at him for a moment, unable to speak. To try to compose himself, he looked at the kites. They truly were beautiful, the wide variety an implication that the shopkeep perhaps enjoyed designing just as much as crafting.

"Do you… Design them all yourself?" Nivis asked sheepishly as if wanting to confirm his suspicions.

The shopkeep nodded again, the friendly smile never leaving his face.

"I do, yes. I may have a tendency to go a little overboard, I can't help but want to articulate every little idea that comes to mind. Therefore, my selection is always… Revolving. So, not to be one such pushy shopkeeper, but, if you see something you particularly like, I'd suggest buying it now in case it's not here later," he hummed in what seemed like amusement for a second before continuing, "Although… I suppose I could be persuaded to offer a custom request for someone who appreciates my craftsmanship so much."

Nivis froze, his lips parting in an attempt to speak that ultimately ended in failure.

Nothing had prepared him for such a kind and pleasant interaction. Not that people were CRUEL to him, so much as that he was unused to ANY sort of interaction.

Immediately, he turned his head away again, looking at the kites as if for moral support. As his eyes landed on one in particular, he blinked, almost to change the conversation to something casual.

"Does this one… Have a whistle?" Nivis asked, pointing at one in particular. It was one of the bird-shaped designs, mostly white with only subtle accents of color.

The shopkeep laughed, and Nivis flustered once more.

"It does, yes, you have a keen eye for detail. It's an emulation of the whistles that some attach to the tail feathers of pigeons and doves."

Nivis looked up at him curiously.

"Then this design is…?"

"A dove, yes."

Nivis found himself staring at the kite again as if utterly fixated on it.

"That's very creative… You really put a lot of thought into these…" he said, voice soft and nearly a murmur.

"It means a lot to me that you would say that. There's nothing more fulfilling than someone recognizing the work you put into your creation," the shopkeep commented, his voice sincere and genuine in its tone of gratitude.

Nivis merely nodded, continuing to take in all the details of the kite as if he could drink them in all day.

A thoughtful hum from the shopkeep caught his attention, and he politely faced him again.

"You seem to like that one quite a bit. I could give it to you for…. Half off, if you'd like?" the shopkeep offered cheerfully.

"HALF!?" Nivis reacted with shock, covering his mouth as he realized he had gotten a bit loud. "But that's…! I don't want to cut into your profit, that kite is so beautiful that it would be a disservice to pay you so little for your efforts!"

Again, the shopkeep laughed.

"The very fact that you're acknowleding compensation for my efforts is enough to make me sure that you're someone who would appreciate it enough for it to be worth it. I do have a condition, however."

A condition?

Nivis nodded slowly, his eyes remaining fixed on the handsome shopkeep. He really was so beautiful…

"Of course…" he said quietly, nearly distracted if one wanted to look into his tone too hard.

A smile spread across the shopkeep's face at that, bright and friendly.

"The condition is… You tell me your name."

Confused silence rang in the air as if a breeze blowing between the two.

"My… name?" Nivis questioned as if to clarify.

"Yes," the shopkeeper confirmed without speaking further.

Another blush had found its way to Nivis's face. Oh by the Archons, his heart was aflutter with a sort of emotion he was unsure he knew of.

"I'm… Nivis," he answered, his tone mild.

"Nivis…" the shopkeep repeated, as if… savoring?

The shopkeep contemplated a minute before smiling brightly again.

"A pleasure to make your acquaintance, Nivis. I am Menogias."

A squeak left Nivis, to his dismay and the shopkeep's apparent delight.

"Th-The pleasure is m-mine," Nivis did his best to sound composed while his stomach did flips. "A-And I'll… not insult you by rejecting your… very GENEROUS offer. That is… I'll take the kite with the whistle."

"Fantastic," Mengoias chuckled and moved over to retrieve a pre-packaged and ready-to-take-home kite of the same design.

The exchange between Menogias offering the kite and Nivis offering the amount in mora was a perfect handoff, and their fingers brushed together on not only one but both of their hands.

Nivis felt as if his face were going to combust, holding the packaged kite gently despite his need to tense his entire body in preparation of running in the opposite direction. He never handled being flustered well.

"I-I t-tried to count out how much half off th-the price on the display was…! But I'm not too good at math, and don't want to underpay, so m-maybe you should count it out before I go…!" he stammered to ground himself, swallowing nervously.

Contrary to Nivis's insistence, Menogias smiled and waved a hand dismissively.

"I trust your ability. And I don't mind if there's a slight difference, though I DO hope to have your business again in the future, Nivis."

Every single nerve in Nivis's body screamed at him to run away from the source of his hammering heart and fluttering stomach. Standing his ground was a near-impossible feat, but he did so. Somehow.

"Y-Yes! Definitely! I will definitely do that!" he managed to nod without outright trembling.

"Excellent. I'd love to hear your opinions on my other designs when I change out the selection. Your feedback is very much appreciated. Though, I have a comment on your purchase today. Do you know what doves are a symbol of?" Menogias's head tilted to the side as he crossed his arms over his chest.

His smile was… radiant. That's the only way Nivis could describe it.

"N-No I… What?" he replied meekly.

For the short moment Menogias laughed, Nivis was equal parts enchanted and confused. As the gentle laughter died down to a good-natured chuckle and a smile that was more subdued but still just as enchanting, Menogias spoke.

"Eternal love."

"GOODBYE, SEE YOU LATER!"

Nivis ran.

[shi-daisy]

Misery Business

Day 7 for best boy, this week flew by but let's keep giving Tam love! For the final day I chose to make a songfic and drag everyone back t9 their emo era (not mine, I'm still on it!) And also Elain dunking cuz rereading has made me super salty, apologies to the cross shippers. So enjoy modern-college- band AU with Tamcien and Paramore. Hope you like!

@tamlinweek

Tamlin Week 2024- Day 7: Free Day (Songfic)

Misery Business

I'm in the business of misery

Let's take it from the top

She's got a body like an hourglass, it's ticking like a clock

It's a matter of time before we all run out

When I thought he was mine she caught him by the mouth

They were all standing in the middle of the campus with their mouths agape. Daphne had dropped her books, Azalea's tan skin was pale and Tamlin knew he hadn't fainted because Tamarand held him in place despite his shock.

Lucien and Elain were kissing. Not a French kiss but not a chaste one either. Both he and the triplets were nauseous and rushed off before they could be seen.

"I'm calling Dore to pick Tam up!"

"I have agricultural science after this, Lea! I can't skip-" He tried to protest but his younger sister stopped him.

"Tell me you can sit beside Elain without throwing up and I'll let you stay!" His sister said.

Tamlin wouldn't argue with that. Tamarand and Azalea stayed in college while Daphne who was done with class left with him and Dorevan.

The eldest sibling made a detour for chicken wings and ice cream. "Mom and Dad are coming back today business trip in the meantime Mama Ophelia and Mama Asteria will keep us company." He said.

"Mama will help with the broken heart. She's good with words."

Tamlin knew that to be true. Their head housekeeper and her wife had become family to the Evergreens before he was even born, so when they chose to start a family his father had been more than willing to help them, getting him and his brothers triplet half siblings he loved more than anything and two more parents he desperatly wanted to see.

Asteria had the living room ready with cushions and greeted him with a hug. "It's okay, sweetie. It'll be okay."

"Its my fault Mama. I never told him! I can't be mad about this!"

"Darling if there's anything I know well is that things have a way of working themselves out. If this isn't meant for Lucien then in time you'll get the redhead back, and will be able to confess."

He decided to trust Asteria's council.

I waited eight long months

She finally set him free

I told him I couldn't lie he was the only one for me

Two weeks we caught on fire

She's got it out for me

But I wear the biggest smile

In the coming months he was supotive of his best friend turned crush, while he cried on his siblings shoulders. Tamarand and Dorevan left for military service and Azalea soon started residency in another town, which left Daphne and Andras to cheer him up along with the rest of the band.

During practice Ophelia had nearly drowned them in snacks. Nemesis took his place at the drums while Daphne picked up the bass and Andras the keyboard. Only Feyre and Lucien were left.

He was surprised to see his mother also coming down to the basement with them. Bringing tissues and blankets left on their grey sofa.

Feyre was letting Lucien cry on her shoulder and it looked like she'd been in a fight.

"What the fuck happened?" Andras asked.

"Lulu got dumped and I threw hands with my sister." Feyre said with a grin as if her eye wasn't bruised and he didn't catch a long hair stuck in between her nails.

Band practice was canceled and they all focused on comforting Lucien. Rosabella and Ophelia made sure they were cozy and even barred Oisin himself for making a single comment. Tamlin tried not laugh at his father's defeated look and acceptance of the 'pity party' now taking place in the basement.

"Ugh, well that was a waste of eight months and for The Syphons guitarist?! That band has as much charisma as wet paper towel!" Andras ranted as he took a spoonful of cookie dough ice cream and then passed the pint to Feyre.

"Ugh I know! I can't believe their front man is a creep! Man should be in jail, I knew that martini was spiked just from smelling it!" She said. "Like dude, I am not into men and if I was it wouldn't be your manipulative, self centered, entitled ass!"

"Is that why Ness dumped their bass player?" Daphne asked as she took the ice cream.

"Nah, she said the man always prioritized Rhysand over her. Maybe they should get together and leave everyone else alone!"

The group laughed but Tamlin was only half listening to the conversation, his focus was on Lucien. Nemesis had all but fed him his ice cream and soda and tucked him in letting him lean on Tamlin's shoulder.

He was relieved but also so very sad, because despite his dislike for Elain or his wish to have Lucien by his side, Tamlin wanted to see Lucien happy. His tears all felt like a burn.

Two hours later, the others were leaving. Asteria offered to let Lucien spend the night and winked at him as she left.

They stayed still on the basement sofa for a bit. Eventually Lucien spoke.

"How come I can stay with you but Andras can't stay over with Daphne?"

"Because neither of us can get pregnant."

For the first time that night he heard Lucien laugh, and that was all the push needed to not let him be stolen away again.

"Luce. I know it might not be the best time now but I have something important to tell you."

"Oh sure. I always love hearing from you! What is it?"

Tamlin took a breath. "I love you. I been in love with you since we were young. I didn't tell you because I didn't want to ruin our friendship but...I don't want to ever see you slip away again, without saying anything.

You're the only one for me and I love you, but I'll respect any decision you make."

Lucien was surprised for a moment but then he smiled and planted a soft kiss upon his lips. "I never thought I'd hear this from you but it makes me very happy.

The truth is I've realized my feelings for you also go beyond frienship. Elain's been dead set on having me focus on college and the future and despite it being slightly overbearing I obliged. But when she suggested I drop off the band and cut you off as a friend I vehemently refused and nearly broke things off myself. She did it for me and well...even if it was time wasted it still hurt, but not as much as it would hurt if I lost you.

It'll be a while until I'm over it, but it'd like to be with you if you'll have me."

"Always."

The next two weeks were full of dates, band practice, and of course lustful fire. His sweet Lucien was all but glued to him except for classes and while they prepared for auditons he also made time for cuddles and less innocent moments between them. Tamlin couldn't be happier, his grades were even improving.

'Ciaran's gonna think I stole his weed stash while he's wedding planning.' He thought as he put everything away in his lab locker. He hadn't noticed Elain standing beside him, glaring ar him.

Tamlin didn't mind, rather her smiled at her sweetly. "Hello Elain."

Whoa, I never meant to brag

But I got him where I want him now

Whoa, it was never my intention to brag

To steal it all away from you now

But, God, does it feel so good

'Cause I got him where I want him now

And if you could then you know you would

'Cause, God, it just feels so

It just feels so good

"We need to talk about Lucien."

"What about him?"

"You're derailing him!"

"Pardon?"

"Lucien is studying to run his father's business, your constant band practice is derailing him from that!"

He laughed. Tamlin knew Lucien's history and intentions better than the woman before him. He'd heard it from his beloved himself. 'Mother and Beron were force to wed and after they had Nemesis and Eris to get their families off their backs they amicably divorced and wedded who they actually loved, I'm the result of Mama's second marriage.'

Lucien wasn't in need to inherit anything, he was the youngest of the Spellcleaver children and unlike Beron's one track mind and high expectations Helion was a relaxed father and worker. The redhead could do as he pleased and only studied for the sake of a degree. His true goals were the band, just like him, just like the others. Funny how Elain didn't know that.

"You really just wasted his time, huh."

"What?"

"If you knew Lucien like I do, you'd know he's a musician first and businessman second. I have no doubts he could excel there if he wanted to, but Luce told me himself his goal was to play, not to do paperwork.

The only reason you're telling me this is because auditions are next month and you want us to fail against your boyfriend's precious band. Don't you?"

"That is not true! I'm saying this because I care about Lucien and you're dragging him down!"

"Please, you didn't even bother to know him. You just wanted to change him into what your perfect man. But Lucien isn't stupid, and he's certainly not one to chase unhappiness.

You're just livid he's moved on quickly and didn't entertain your bullshit. It's not often a man tells you no, is it flower girl?"

"How dare you?!"

"I'm his partner sweetie, I dare defend him because that's my duty. A duty you never upheld when having said title. Let me tell you, you missed out. There's no better man than him and there's no better revenge that having him live well without you.

So keep on yelling at the void. None of us will listen, much less Luce. We're too busy being happy and getting ready to get signed."

With that he left the lab, putting away his lab coat and letting the hickeys Lucien made be seen without the protective clothes. He knew she glared at him even when his back was turned and he left.

Tamlin Evergreen wasn't one to gloat but he enjoyed this more than he should.

I watched his wildest dreams come true

Not one of them involving you

Just watch my wildest dreams come true

Not one of them involving-

It was a perfect night. No other performance of theirs had been this good, and despite big brown eyes being present in the audience Lucien's gaze only went to his family, their managers Vassa and Jurien, and the talent agent who'd sign them if they won this. However when it came to love songs, Lucien only looked at him. Tamlin reciprocated.

By the end of the night they all wrote their names on a recording contract. Both Lucien and Vassa bounced so much he thought they'd break the floor. Jurian spun Feyre around in a hug and Nemesis was squishing him, Andras, and Daphne into a group cuddle. Once the papers were signed and everything was settled he ran into his beloved's arms. "We did it! I'm so happy!"

"Me too sunshine, me too." Tamlin said.

Whoa, I never meant to brag

But I got him where I want him now

Whoa, it was never my intention to brag

To steal it all away from you now

But, God, does it feel so good

'Cause I got him where I want him now

And if you could then you know you would

'Cause, God, it just feels so

It just feels so good

"Why are the Syphon's still on the waiting area? They got a contract too?" Lucien asked as he and Tamlin walked out of the office and into the hall.

Their rival band was still waiting, an exasperated Cassian slumped onto a sofa while Amren made calls and Azriel and Elain looked tired as hell.

"Nope. Rhysand contested their lost and got into a fistfight with the agent. The others are probably waiting to get a bail for batsy frontman."

Nemesis chuckled. "I know they say to act like rockstars but this is a bit too much. I'll go get the van, wait here. Feyre text Lena before she goes overboard with the celebration party."

"Gotcha! I'll make sure she doesn't go overboard."

"Let her. Tonight's for celebration!" Daphne said while she jumped.

"Hey! Not too much celebration! You're not gonna drink for the next nine months!" Andras tried to reel in his girlfriend.

"No but I'm eating for two!"

Tamlin laughed at the chaos of his friends and band mates, he finally got his dream come true, and beside him was the man he wanted to share it with.

"After we're done with the party, want to up to the roof and stargaze? Lunara's been teaching me how to read zodiac. I feel I predicted our win quite well."

Lucien smiled. "That you did. I'll be happy to oblige you. There's something I must know if you cam predict."

Tamlin tilted his head but nodded, unaware that there was wedding ring in Lucien's pocket intended to be given tonight.

He glancef at their rivals one last time before the honk of the van hurried them to leave. He'd gotten everything he wanted from all rivals, including the romantic. It was so good to finally have the upper hand.

Lucien all but princess carried him as they had one last kiss before heading home.

[parkeryangs]

listen. getting an essential tremor diagnosis is such a tipping point for arthur in the college band au. he doesn't even remember when the shaking first started but he does remember that it keeps getting worse and he can't even hold a glass of water without spilling it these days. it's something he adjusts to, but never really gets used to.

he doesn't reach for straws often enough, even if it would make his life a lot easier, because it feels like giving up. it isn't—not even close—and, regardless, there's really no honor in spilling half a mouthful of coffee or water or lemonade down his chin every time he tries to take a sip. that makes him feel like a kid, still; too clumsy for the body he inhabits, flecks of damp soaking into his shirt and his jeans before he snags a napkin and does his best to scrub it out of the fabric, like that does any good.

a diagnosis is the answer for everything that was always laughed off as clumsiness, all the spilled drinks and shakily-written notes. all of the silent building pressure to grow up, you're not a kid anymore. get ahold of yourself— just take care of yourself. don't spill the glass of water again, arthur. it explains everything and more, and leaves arthur almost seething in the fallout. it was that simple. it was that simple and it was never his fault, just bad luck. (after that, the laughter at his expense stung a bit more, but it was still better than the alternative.)

when he'd left that first doctor's appointment, he sat in his car and read everything he could. the cause is unknown but it's in his head and he's not imagining it. the prescription medication was much less well-received, but he was willing if it was going to make him better or at leas not so bad, and he wasn't supposed to drink coffee anymore, not every day, but some things were worth the pain and instant coffee in his dorm room was one of those things.

regardless, his symptoms were only so manageable; he was a college student with a well-known band, too much stress was pretty much a given on more days than not. he told himself the coffee made him less stressed, and maybe he wasn't getting enough sleep either, but that wasn't new; he'd been a chronic insomniac since he was young, and a too-small pill every night at 8:45 wasn't the solution to that problem. he doesn't reach for straws often enough but he takes the medication and still drinks coffee and stays up too late, it doesn't fix everything but he knew it wouldn't anyway, and he still shakes all the time like he's out in the winter without a coat, but it's not his fault.

[siravalondulac]

xix. the visit

a heart so golden, a sun so bright

asoiaf ff | fem!oc centric

summary: the paladin visits word count: 1192 warnings: none

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Luke had never expected to meet the Golden Paladin.

In part because he had assumed her to be a myth, but also because their village was simply too far away from everything else.

She was as the songs described, for the most part. Golden hair, strong demeanour, yet a soft heart. Only her green cloak was missing - perhaps she'd lost it, perhaps she'd never had it in the first place. Instead, she wore a dirty blue tunica that might once have been very expensive.

No one had doubted her when she had introduced herself. Something about her made everyone want to believe her. Luke wondered if people would believe her if she said the sky was green and the grass blue. But then again - she was no witch.

Then there was the thing with her hair. Luke had never seen gold in his life, but it had to look like this. Otherwise he would be disappointed in actual gold.

The Paladin had given them no name to call her by, yet had immediately started doing any work people could find for her. They had been quite untouched by the war, so she was mostly relegated to farming and building and taking care of the children. The village elders clearly felt terrible for not giving her something proper to do, but she seemed quite content.

As she ran around town, endearing herself to his fellow people, he was left confused. Despite never having exchanged even a single word with her, he wanted to. He wanted to get close to her, stay by her side, and remain there for the rest of his life.

Something drew him to her. It was not love - his friends had explained that feeling enough times for him to know he’d never feel that. No, this was something different.

He decided to keep his distance from her. Lest he'd do something stupid.

Like Elias.

One day into the Paladin's stay he had marched up to her and screamed that she had killed his brother. He had said her existence had caused the Lannisters and some Vypern general to kill anyone associated with her, and his brother had gotten into the crossfire.

Luke had expected her to be angry - she had every right to - but she wasn't. She simply laid a hand on his shoulder, and spoke.

"I am sorry for your loss. I know what you feel, have experienced it myself more than once. It never gets easier. But his death is not my fault. It is the fault of the Lannisters, who are so obsessed with control that they can't even let a simple girl help those in need. I started my journey as a reaction to the pain and suffering I was seeing wherever I went. All of this would have still happened were I not here. But if I were not, who knows how many more people would have died. Look around. We're fighting back. That has to count for something, does it not?”

It was the most Luke had ever heard her talk at once. Elias had huffed, but had left the Paladin alone from then on.

She had a sense of sadness about her, he noticed. Something was constantly weighing on her mind it seemed - but she was also the Golden Paladin. The thing on her mind was likely the war, the death, the misery around her, not one person.

The Paladin was surprisingly good with children. They flocked around her like a herd of sheep, fascinated by everything about her. And she did not seem to mind. She entertained them, talked to them, showed them even a few tricks with knives. More than once did the Paladin walk through town with a flower crown on her head.

One night, when Luke returned home, he found the Paladin in his sister's room. They had been giggling about one thing or another, yet when he approached, the Paladin already tried to get Lea to fall asleep.

“Please tell me a story,” his sister begged. “I promise to be nice if you do.”

“A story?” The Paladin laughed quietly. She had a deep voice, not enough to fully pass for a male, yet still distinct.

“Yes! You're the Golden Paladin, you must know so many.”

Luke knew there was no denying his sister.

"Once upon a time there lived a princess. She grew up in a beautiful palace, surrounded by all the luxury the lands had to offer. But she felt there was something missing. And so she set out to explore the world.”

“But what about her family? Did she not miss them?”

“She did. But she also met new people, and found herself a new family. This lessened the pain of leaving.

“With her new family she had more fun than ever before. You see, the life of a princess is very lonely. She is not allowed to talk to people below her station, and everything she does has to be approved by either her mother or her father. And as the queen and king, they could not risk losing face. But now, in this new life, no one told her what to do. She was free for the first time.

“But the princess’ life seemed doomed. She soon found out that some in her new family tried to use her to take revenge on her father. And so, with a heavy heart, she left them as well.”

“This is sad,” Lea whined. “I want something happy.”

“It gets happier. Very soon, as well. Because the princess found a purpose for herself. While she was travelling her kingdom, she found her people desperate and abandoned. So she started helping them in any way she knew. Thanks to her they found hope, found ways to end their own suffering, despite the indifference of the men that ruled over them. And she also met someone.”

“Was he a prince like her?”

“No, not even close. He was a bastard, lowborn, and someone no one would have allowed her to be around in her previous life. But he was kind, and clever, and loved her for her, not for the crown that awaited her at home.”

“Did they marry? Please tell me they married!”

“They did. After having had to separate, the bastard risked everything to get back to his true love. She fell into his arms upon his return, and they lived happily ever after.”

“Did she become queen?”

“No, not this princess. Her and her husband settled down far away from the palace she grew up in, and from the restrictions they both would have had to suffer. They had many children, and gave them the life they never had.”

“I think she should have been queen. She would have been a good one. She could change the rules and make it so that no one had to suffer again.”

The Paladin left their town two days later. She refused any gifts and money and food, simply accepting one last flower crown before riding into the distance on her white steed.

The visit of the Golden Paladin would never leave the stories of their town.

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author's note: the next chapter will not be posted tomorrow but the day after, because i have another fanfic i want to update and don't want these two stories clashing (it's this one if you're wondering)