it’s one thing to fuck someone, and another thing to raise them into kingship under the mantle of prophecy, to see them elide into a register of rhythm and madness, to find a new king to set in his place—this one more handsome, with his nephesh tied to so many men that even god needs a piece—to then finally die, and yet be riven from sheol by this former king, now refusing to eat bread or let prophets rot
adam wakes up, probes his side. rib gone, wound sticky. god's fingers have touched a place that will never be touched again. how does adam not curl up, swell and fall, beg god to touch him again. to touch him everywhere else. not just ribs but cheek, inner thigh, lap. the worst part of the side-wound is not that god penetrated you but that he won't do it again
i love you shy women. i love you melancholy women. i love you aging women. i love you perverse women. i love you romantic women. i love you strange women.
After Regulus dies, James always wears a sliver ring with a star on it on his middle finger. People are always asking him why he wears all gold jewellery except for that one ring. He just shrugs