#Torturous Inception

[thethcministry]

[ghoulodont]

guys this is so humiliating and embarrassing but i want to talk about it and you already know some of it anyway. basically my psychotic emergency room experience that ive talked about on here was brought about by edibles and i cant ever say that because it makes it seem like something it really wasnt. i took a normal reasonable amount & reacted completely differently than in the past. they thought i was just really really high off 1000000mg of weed. honestly it was a blessing because there was no mental health treatment involved and it could have been way worse for me. they just let me leave in the morning when i regained contact with reality

[mister-eames]

you don't understand how much I ADORE your arthur/eames headcanons!! this fandom is so so small so to see someone regularly post new ideas/headcanons/thots about these guys makes my heart just grow 980545958 times bigger. i will say though, i did have to google "zerberting". i never knew that had a name! always thought people described it as blowing a raspberry against someone's stomach etc lmao so thank you for educating me as well as making extremely happy with your dreamy headcanons <3

Ahhh thank you so much, this ask made MY heart expand 980545958 bigger!!! We are a small-- but mighty---fandom -- I'm so so grateful for everyone here, the events, and to the quieter part of the fandom that goes feral when called to arms! I'm happy that my contributions bring you as much joy as they do me <3

Aha yes!! It's a marvellous word I only learned within the last few years - though it makes me wonder, why the words 'blow a raspberry' ?? - where did that come from? Who is blowing raspberries?? Aaaaand I just googled it and learned something too 😂

[joeloverture]

tlou & enjoyment vs. conscious enjoyment

im currently in the deepest throes of finals season and looking down having to travel for two back to back residencies so ive been highkey spaced out on here, popping in and out at my own leisure. but im showing up to add to the conversation. reminder that ive studied all of these concepts at the collegiate level for years, have experience running workshops for poc, etc. i know what im saying. blah blah blah im vetty im mexican chilean / nahua & mayan

i do not fault anyone for enjoying tlou. in fact, i encourage them to. it’s one of the most popular medias of the time with a hit hbo show and it’s one of the most successful playstation games of all time. tlou is simply something that is meant to be enjoyed. this is good! finding comfort in these times is important for all of us. but simultaneously, we need to be aware of where this comfort comes from; i.e. is it at the expense of someone else’s discomfort? consuming any storytelling is an act that cannot be apolitical. everything about writing, art, and television is political from a story’s inception to its delivery.

these critiques about tlou are not new! they’ve existed for years. many call into question in the first game the deaths of poc as an engine that powers the white characters’ stories. this is a problem that persists into the second game and the second season. tlou is also inextricable from the zionist mindset of its creator neil druckmann. once you look for these things as an audience member in a critical way, they begin to pop up everywhere.

for example, martyr’s gate. in abbys part you come across a setup where seraphites leave written prayers to their martyred leader. if the player interacts with the environment in a specific way, abby picks up one of the letters that asks for the fighting to stop. she says, offhandedly, “easy. stay on your fucking island.” this is colonizer mindset turned to the highest degree. when layered with the themes of martyring and idealism that neil is clearly critiquing, this is just one example of horrific worldviews that have wedged their way into the storyline. she also announces to her friends that killing children seraphites is acceptable and necessary if they attack first. remind you of anything?

i’ve made a separate post about show joels death, which can be found in my pinned. poc trauma is especially prevalent with abbys character: her entire storyline centers white saviorism. her past sins can be forgiven because she saves two asian kids from their evil religion, whose trauma directly propels the plot. (yaras amputation, lev killing his mom, yaras death). the game never actually considers abby’s past actions. she changes in the course of about two days and we are expected to see this as a well rounded character arc as if she wasn’t the right hand woman of someone who yall watched brutally torture someone on live television last sunday. ive also heard a sound bite from the show: “i don’t care if they’re women kids or fucking babies look what they did! kill them all!” manny — a full blown stereotype of mexican culture — has his eye shot out by tommy. tommy later loses his eye to show consequences. neils pivotal ideology of “an eye for an eye”

and that’s just in abbys part. in ellies part, she tortures and then kills nora. jesse dies at abbys hand.

if i can write 3 entire paragraphs without even scratching the surface of the games intrinsic, racist properties, there’s a problem.

the issue is not engaging with this media. the issue lies in how it is consumed, and how it is addressed in internet spaces. this is not a dogshit take. the torture porn and racism is EMBEDDED into the plot. there is not a tlou without it. this is undeniable. attempting to deny it is to make attempts to save your own skin in lieu of poc begging you to experience this content with some level of consciousness about its origins.

it hurts to see the people we poc share this platform with brushing over our trauma and using it as fodder for their fanfiction and entertainment. it just does. especially when the vast majority of all of us have experienced this trauma firsthand or generationally to a degree that most white people have been lucky enough to be spared from.

denying that tlou is racist is simply a racist take. interacting with tlou is not something that is inherently racist in and of itself. this seems to be where the mix up has occurred. the mix up has also occurred on our end; for thinking that our experiences would be empathized with. or that certain members of the fandom would move forward with a larger degree of awareness. we know better than to think we’ll be taken seriously these days.

ive seen arguments like: the actors knew what they were getting themselves into! other poc disagree with you!

1- acting is an industry. many of the tlou hiring stories happened quickly without the specifics of the storyline being shared. pedro had the first 3 scripts and confirmation that he’d die; likely not HOW he would die.

2- poc are not a monolith. we can also be racist. we can also partake in racist ideology. we can also have differing views on this. i think most of us agree, though, that neil is a piece of shit whose perspective inundates the game.

that’s my piece. im missing some stuff but i typed this on my phone between finals. so 🐛

poc you will always be safe on my blog and with me. we can enjoy parts of tlou while disgracing other parts of it.

[fellow-fandom-fruitifier]

Edwin is way too fucking kind. Like, picture this. You JUST got dragged down into a pit that took you 70 years prior to escape and, while down there, you run into the very boy that SENT you there. Yes, it was supposed to be a “prank”. But it was never EVER a good one, even if it did turn out to be fake. You were dragged out of your bed, tied up and gagged like a pig, and held down. That “prank”, since it’s inception, wasn't funny or harmless. (Not even getting into how bad it would be to be labeled a homosexual in the 19-fucking-hundreds.)

Then you get dragged into The Pit™️ for 7 decades and tortured beyond comprehension. Now you're finding out its cause the boy ASSSUMED you were like him then ASSUMED he assumed wrong. All that because the boy couldn't handle you not being what he assumed you were, you didn't even know he assumed that! You didn't even know HE was that!

Edwin had every right to berate Simon and leave but he DIDN’T. He offered him a hand — all but begged Simon to join him — and promised a salvation no one had offered him before. (Before Charles I mean.) He’s just so kind it breaks my heart. Like, yes, he’s a petty bitch; but he read to a dying boy to comfort him in the same year he escaped Hell. He upended his entire afterlife to go save Becky Aspen despite his protests. He offered his killer a helping hand.

Someone get this jerk a break oh my GOD he deserves one.

[predoom]

Pete Wentz Has a Reoccurring Nightmare About Eating Spaghetti On Stage, and I Am Making a Post About It For Some Reason

• 2008 - as part of a bit for his tv show fnmtv, pete airs a music video imitating ll cool j’s “doin’ it.” the video, aired in front of a live audience, shows pete looking, frankly, tortured while eating spaghetti.

was this episode the inception of the nightmare?? did fnmtv traumatize pete for life with spaghetti?? i can’t say. but yes.

• 2017 - reoccurring stress dream about eating catering on stage mentioned.

• 2024 - seven years later, in his friend’s infamous youtube series, dad dinner, peter details his reoccurring nightmare about being unable to stop eating the catering spaghetti onstage while his band plays without him.

the end. idk what the point of this post is 🍝

[xxnashiraxx]

WIP Whenever 🖤

Going off the last line challenge and the wips I've been tagged in, namely by the wonderfully talented @lanafofana, @andromedaancunin, & @vividiana to name a few!! I love you guys! 💖

Here's a little snippet from Chapter 20 coming out tomorrow!!

His lips a delicate introduction, he presses them over her quivering pulse point, ever so gently. His touch barely skims across, like she’s made of glass, seeking the perfect entry in contrast to the savagery he’s about to enact. Slotting his fangs above his old mark, tentative press to the divots, she sucks in a breath in anticipation. Not for weeks have they done this- not since her feelings were barely past their inception, not since she’d spiraled into whatever presence occupies space alongside the tadpole… The line dividing them from the past and uncertain future is gone the instant his teeth sink in, a prick of delicious agony, the time between them struck from the record. Elegant points perforate the conduit carrying what he seeks most until it flows from her into his mouth. She suppresses the whimper that hangs taut in the air, her own canines blunt as they bite down hard on her lip. His moan of relief is vulgar, fingernails digging through the fabric of her pants as he grips her leg, the other sliding up her waist to rest over the healing injury, still sensitive. For a moment she’s afraid he’ll claw at her there, too, but he doesn’t… Instead, he caresses the soft flesh until she can no longer hold back the sounds trapped in her throat. Such a contrast to the sharp digging of his fangs, tearing with an almost amateur fervor that spurs tears in her eyes. It hurts, gods, it hurts so much… “Don’t-” She gasps, feeling him loosen his jaw. A muffled huff of disapproval melts against her shredded derma, and in resignation, he clamps down again. Her body spasms beneath his touch, every inch of her fighting the impulse to shove him away, to ask him to stop. It’s neither cruel nor merciful- frostbite that claims each digit as it snakes its way up her arms and down her spine. Indiscriminately it claws and rips as it extracts tears from her and she shudders in his arms, trying to latch onto the gentle soothing of his fingers at her side. She sobs, the threads of his connection leashing her thoughts to his. It’s a sweet and excruciating concession, spreading like a blight through every limb. As he intertwines them further, pushing past the tadpole to connect them in a different way entirely, she admits defeat with a sorrowful whine. Because making it hurt still isn’t enough… There’s no escaping how good it feels- not even when he’s trying to rip my throat out. “O-okay,” She rasps, voice gravelly and raw. He can feel her submission before she speaks, tongue running over the torn skin like the sear of an iron. His approval heady and thick in her skull, he moves to the other side and kisses her there, fingers wrapping her long hair around his wrist to tug her head back. Anchoring her in his grip, leash loosening around her laughable self-control, he sinks in, her eyes drifting shut at the soft bite of pressure- surrendering to the warmth that pulses through her body. It’s torture, fighting the instinct to touch him, weightless in his lovely embrace both in body and mind. If this is what all those books and movies hoped to portray, a dominion all-consuming and passionate, then the meager self-control she’s maintaining isn’t long for this world...

Anyway!!! This is ready to go!! I am equal parts terrified and excited to finally move past the total freeze out we've had and god I hope the dialogue is good. I've been mentally torturing myself over it for like three weeks.

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[sl-walker]

Booster's Queer af

Something I wrote on Reddit on a thread asking 'what's your DC hot take??', because if you're gonna kick a hornet's nest, kick it with your best steel-toed boots and then smile:

Booster's queer. That man hasn't come across as straight-- ever. Like even when I started reading DC in 2003, he came across as queer to me, pretty much from his inception. Seriously. He comes across like someone closeted and decidedly not-straight who just stays in the closet initially because it was a very bad time to be anything other than heterosexual when he landed in the past and later because it's habit and expected of him. I don't think he's gay, I think he probably leans pretty pansexual or maybe even demisexual, but any which way, you'll never convince me he's not at least a little bit queer. He's had one in-universe romance that hasn't been retconned (Firehawk) in his entire time existing and one that was a joke and maybe not even real canon (Gladys). After almost four decades. His thing with Firehawk lasted, I think, like less than a year, too. I'm pretty sure you can count his on-panel kisses on one hand, but not more than two. He's never had a 'morning after' scene. The one seriously emotionally intimate relationship he has is with another guy. When he does flirt or attempt to, it comes off as being awkward and a bit desperate and a bit like a man who is kinda using it as cover. And like-- that really makes way more sense for him than anything otherwise. I'd sincerely hope by the 25th century that we'd stop giving a damn who loves or wants whomever else based on gender presentation. It also makes for a pretty compelling tale, a guy getting dropped into the middle of the AIDS epidemic learning a very quick and ugly lesson about what happens to queer folk in this time period. I dunno how hot a take this is, though, because at least some people up top agree (he's canonically hooked up with Ted in Teen Titans Go! and like-- any time Tom Taylor writes them, he all but says it aloud), but if TPTB were brave, they'd finally confirm it mainline. Like you don't even have to ship him with Ted (though that's my preference), just confirm he's queer. Here's my essay. What's my grade? LOL!

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Since it's relevant, tho, here's a few pieces I wrote from a long email back and forth (since us old people still do that) with another very long-time fan of his a couple weeks ago:

But anyway, to me, he acts about like how a kid who got dropped into the 80s during the height of the AIDS panic and rampant homophobia and the wholesale death of gay men might, especially if he were queer himself. I'd probably try to straight-wash myself, too, in his boots. (I remember that time period, if distantly. I didn't realize I was queer myself until I was well into my 20s, despite falling in very desperate and intense love with another girl when I was 12. I do remember being in high school when a boy was murdered for being queer by being tortured and left tied to a fence to die, though. It was that kind of world back then for people like us. In some places, it still is.) Still, where Booster fails at any hetero romance (oh god does he), he's so devoted to Ted that a big part of his second solo was dedicated to him either trying to save the man or actively mourning him. It's heartbreaking and amazing and really actually quite good stuff, from a literary POV. Whether DC meant it or not, somehow they managed to write one of the greatest love stories I've ever seen in a comic across most of twenty years, no kidding, and I've read a lot across a lot of companies, even back when I was a twelve year old girl and ridiculed for it. And not just a great queer love story, it's a great love story period. A person can make a credible argument for it being a one-sided -- romantic and therefore non-platonic -- love, but it's pretty hard to argue it's not a very intense one regardless.

And

I guess what I'm trying to say is: This is another read on him. And I think also a very valid one. He's one hell of an amazing character, I wish DC had handled him half as well post-Flashpoint than they did pre-Flashpoint, and I don't think a queer reading of him detracts anything from how amazing he is. If anything, I think it makes the older stuff several shades deeper (and so, so relatable, god), and I think if they decided to write him as explicitly queer now, not too many people would actually be all that surprised. With or without Ted. I can't really identify with Alan Scott, love him though I do, even though I can acknowledge that a generation of gay men likely could quite strongly. But I can identify with Booster Gold, who grew up poor and wrecked his future in part for love of family, who clawed his way out of poverty and fell back into it, who has brilliant and shining moments of courage and heart, and moments where he lands on his face, who was tough enough to survive a lot of shit but devastatingly vulnerable to exploitation, and who looks like a fellow queer kid who might've fallen for his best friend, but was surrounded by homophobia and hate and terror and buried that part of himself because the alternative might have been getting beaten and left tied to a fence to die.

[ithildinwrites]

just rewatched inception and hear me out - ratiorine inception au bc i love inception and playing thru penacony reminded me of inception and the matrix sooooo my movie loving ass had to

i feel like it could go one of two ways tho

ONE! ratio is breaking into aventurine’s mind to steal IPC secrets or something that he thinks might be of harm and i’m doing it as ratio breaking in instead of aven bc i think aven would have fun defences in his mind and he’d be messing w ratio the whole time and they go deeper a layer maybe and spend time together or smthn and fall in love IDK OKAY IDK

OR TWO! this one im prob gonna write ngl they’re partners in the business together and they’re stealing ideas from idk the family in penacony or something? hurt comfort perhaps withhhhh them getting caught in the second layer of the dream (think beginning of inception) and aven is being tortured bc obv death wakes u bc he’s. idk he’s fucked up a little and ratio doesn’t approve but he’s also distressed bc aven seems so okay w being tortured even tho he’s obv in pain. anyways so ratio has to watch them torture aven before aven shoots himself snd gets the secrets in the first layer and then they’re back in the real world after their kick. idk smthn smthn ratio gets mad and angry confession maybe then they’re kiss and fade to black bc idk how to write smut!

[kropotkindersurprise]

May 12, 2025 - Here's the full statement on the PKK's congress and the decision to disband:

PKK Final Declaration: Activities under the name of the PKK have ended

The final declaration of the PKK's 12th Congress has been released. The congress decided to dissolve the PKK’s organizational structure and end its armed struggle, effectively concluding all activities carried out under the PKK of the PKK. The PKK (Kurdistan Workers' Party) 12th Congress Board issued the following statement: “The process initiated by Leader Abdullah Öcalan’s statement on February 27, and further shaped by his extensive work and multidimensional perspectives, culminated in the successful convening of our 12th Party Congress between May 5–7.  Despite ongoing clashes, aerial and ground attacks, continued siege of our regions, and the KDP embargo, our congress was held securely under challenging conditions. Due to security concerns, it was conducted simultaneously in two different locations. With the participation of 232 delegates in total, the PKK 12th Congress discussed Leadership, Martyrs, Veterans, the Organizational Structure of the PKK and Armed Struggle, and Democratic Society Building, culminating in historic decisions marking the beginning of a new era for our Freedom Movement.

All activities under the PKK name have been concluded The Extraordinary 12th Congress evaluated that the PKK’s struggle has dismantled the policies of denial and annihilation imposed on our people, bringing the Kurdish issue to a point where it can be resolved through democratic politics. It concluded that the PKK has fulfilled its historical mission. Based on this, the 12th Congress resolved to dissolve the PKK’s organizational structure and end the armed struggle, with the implementation process to be managed and led by Leader Apo [Abdullah Öcalan]. All activities conducted under the PKK name have therefore been concluded.

Our party, the PKK, emerged as a Kurdish freedom movement in opposition to the denial and annihilation policies rooted in the Treaty of Lausanne and the 1924 Constitution. Influenced by real socialism at its inception, it embraced the principle of national self-determination and carried out a legitimate, just struggle through armed resistance. The PKK was formed under conditions dominated by aggressive Kurdish denial, annihilation, genocide, and assimilation policies. Since 1978, the PKK has conducted a freedom struggle aimed at securing recognition for Kurdish existence and establishing the Kurdish issue as a fundamental reality of Turkey. As a result of this successful struggle, our movement achieved a resurrection revolution for our people, becoming a symbol of hope and a dignified life for the peoples of the region. During the 1990s, a period of major gains for our people, Turkish President Turgut Özal began seeking a political solution to the Kurdish issue. In response, Leader Apo declared a ceasefire on March 17, 1993, launching a new phase. However, the collapse of real socialism, the imposition of gang-like tactics on our war strategy, and the deep state’s elimination of Özal and his team sabotaged this initiative. The state intensified its denial and annihilation policies, escalating the war. Thousands of villages were evacuated and burned; millions of Kurds were displaced; tens of thousands were tortured and imprisoned; and thousands were killed under suspicious circumstances. In response, the Freedom Movement grew both in size and capacity. Guerrilla warfare spread across Kurdistan and Turkey. The impact of the guerrilla struggle led the Kurdish people to rise in mass uprisings (serhildans), turning war into the primary option for both sides. The resulting mutual escalation of war could not be reversed, and Leader Apo’s efforts to solve the Kurdish issue through democratic and peaceful means ultimately failed."

Rebuilding Turkish-Kurdish relations is inevitable The process entered a different phase with the international conspiracy of February 15, 1999. In this process, one of the main goals of the conspiracy, a Kurdish-Turkish war, was prevented thanks to the great sacrifices and efforts of Leader Apo. Despite being held in the İmralı torture and genocide system, he persisted in seeking a democratic and peaceful solution to the Kurdish issue. For 27 years, Leader Apo has resisted the İmralı system of annihilation, nullifying the international conspiracy. In his struggle, he analyzed the male-dominated, power-driven statist system and developed a paradigm for a democratic, ecological, and women's freedom-oriented society. Thus, he materialized an alternative freedom system for our people, women, and oppressed humanity. Leader Apo, by referring to the period before the Treaty of Lausanne and the 1924 Constitution, where Kurdish-Turkish relations became problematic, proposed a framework for resolving the Kurdish issue based on the Democratic Republic of Turkey and the concept of a Democratic Nation, founded on the idea of a Common Homeland and co-founding peoples. The Kurdish uprisings throughout the history of the Republic, the 1000-year Kurdish-Turkish dialectic, and 52 years of leadership struggle have shown that the Kurdish issue can only be resolved based on a Common Homeland and Equal Citizenship. Current developments in the Middle East within the scope of World War III also make the restructuring of Kurdish-Turkish relations inevitable.

Our people will understand the dissolution of the PKK and the end of armed struggle better than anyone and embrace the duties of this era Our honorable people, who have joined the Leadership and PKK path for 52 years at great cost, resisting policies of denial, annihilation, genocide, and assimilation, will support the peace and democratic society process more consciously and organizedly. We firmly believe that our people will understand the decision to dissolve the PKK and end the method of armed struggle better than anyone and will embrace the responsibilities of the democratic struggle era based on building a democratic society. It is of vital importance that our people, led by women and youth, build their self-organizations in all areas of life, organize on the basis of self-sufficiency through their language, identity, and culture, become self-defensive in the face of attacks, and build a communal democratic society with a spirit of mobilization. On this basis, we believe that Kurdish political parties, democratic organizations, and opinion leaders will fulfill their responsibilities to advance Kurdish democracy and the democratic nationhood of the Kurds. With the legacy of our history of freedom, struggle, and resistance, and the decisions of the PKK’s 12th Congress, the democratic political path will develop more strongly, and the future of our peoples will progress based on freedom and equality. The poor and working peoples, all faith groups, women and youth, workers, peasants, and all excluded segments will assert their rights and develop a common life in a just and democratic environment.

We call on everyone to join the peace and democratic society process The decision of our Congress to dissolve the PKK and end the method of armed struggle offers a strong basis for lasting peace and a democratic solution. Implementing these decisions requires that Leader Apo lead and guide the process, that his right to democratic politics be recognized, and that solid, comprehensive legal guarantees be established. At this stage, it is essential that the Grand National Assembly of Turkey play its role with historical responsibility. Likewise, we call on the government, the main opposition party, all political parties represented in parliament, civil society organizations, religious and faith communities, democratic media outlets, opinion leaders, intellectuals, academics, artists, labor unions, women’s and youth organizations, and ecological movements to assume responsibility and join the peace and democratic society process. The involvement of Turkey’s leftist-socialist forces, revolutionary structures, organizations, and individuals in the peace and democratic society process will elevate the struggle of peoples, women, and the oppressed to a new level. This will mean achieving the goals of the great revolutionaries whose last words were “Long live the brotherhood of the Turkish and Kurdish peoples and a fully independent Turkey!” With Democratic Society Socialism representing a new phase in the peace and democratic society process and the struggle for socialism, the global democracy movement will advance, and a just and equal world will emerge. On this basis, we call on democratic public opinion, especially our comrades leading the Global Freedom Initiative, to expand international solidarity within the framework of the democratic modernity theory. We call on international powers to acknowledge their responsibilities in the century-long genocide policies against our people, not to obstruct a democratic solution, and to contribute constructively to the process.

We announce the martyrdom of Ali Haydar Kaytan and Riza Altun Our 12th PKK Congress, convened at the call of our leadership, has declared the martyrdom of Fuat-Ali Haydar Kaytan, one of our party’s leading cadres, who was martyred on July 3, 2018, and comrade Riza Altun, martyred on September 25, 2019. On this basis, it has recognized comrade Fuat-Ali Haydar Kaytan, one of the founding leading cadres of the PKK, as the symbol of “Loyalty to the Leader, Truth, and Sacred Life,” and comrade Riza Altun, one of Leader Apo’s first comrades, as the symbol of “Freedom Comradeship.” We dedicate our historic 12th Party Congress to these two great martyr comrades who have led us from the beginning of our Freedom Movement until today with their uninterrupted struggle. In their names, we renew our promise to all martyrs of the struggle and affirm our commitment to fulfilling the dreams of Peace and Democracy Martyr Comrade Sırrı Süreyya Önder.

[oliversepitaph]

crazy how bayonetta and dmc are just so casually in the same world, i mean, it comes as no surprise to me

there’s a billion dmc references in bayonetta, even going as far to mention eva and sparda themselves on the bracelet of time:

along with dante stealing his alias from lukas dad, antonio redgrave, that’s pretty funny :

theres other silly references, like when Luka lists his “girlfriends” and mentions trish

theres also the torture attack tombstone with “dmc” on it

i forgot to add this but this is my favourite reference: dante’s in the bayonetta art book playing i assume poker with enzo and losing tremendously bare ass naked heheh

i just wish dmc would reference back, it dosent even need to be big but come on man bayonettas been doing it since its inception and you can’t even put a small mention ?! you could’ve put like a building off to the side called the gates of hell or something but noooo

best case scenario would be a crossover game but …. thats never gonna happen (unfortunately)

[flusteredmoonn]

down bad; remus lupin

summary: "everything comes out, teenage petulance," in which remus doesn't realise how caught up he is in searching for a cure.

tags: (SFW), angst, attempted angst to fluff, mentions of remus being a werewolf, discussions of gore and injuries, unspecified house, implied pre-existed relationship, she/her pronouns, fem!reader, third person y/n

words: 1.5k+

ttpd tracklist. request.

the shrieking shack wailed painfully, howling at the glistening sky. the residence of hogsmeade village had grown used to the inception of the regular screeching, rarely sharing worried glances as they passed one another on the cobbled streets anymore. the students of the neighbouring wizarding school slept soundly, barely roused by the distant disruptions.

it wasn't much longer until the suns wake, aggressive abrasions persisting against wood on the inside of the rickety house. the wolf inside the old building heaved as it scratched itself, rolling on the ground in search for some form of relief inside the small space. its claws bit into its own skin, spilling crimson on the wooden panelling as it yearned to hunt in the forrest just outside the constraints of the torturous walls.

the moon reflected through the broken windows, casting an eerie shadow through the space. the partial illumination caused the wolf's attention to shift suddenly, turning to the orb in the sky and letting out louder pained cries. the whimpering shook the nearby village as the moon began to depart from the sky.

remus woke with a jolt. the cold of the early morning air making a shiver snake through his body. he reached for a blanket before he stood up, wrapping it around his waist and flinching in pain. ahh. he seethed as he moved to dress. the scarred boy was unsure how many more moon turns he could handle. the repressive cycle had made remus feel as though he was living two different lives, that he was perpetually living an out of body experience.

he couldn't remember the journey, yet he had found his way to madame pomfrey's office, who awaited him with a solemn expression. the tension within the room was nearly palpable as the nurse moved to treat remus. internally, he grumbled any time she cast her wand at him.

"i was doing some reading over this last week–"

"i'm not an experiment, poppy," the brunette interrupted with a shout, before mumbling an apology, refusing to let his gaze dance over the rest of the room.

"i've found a potion, that i believe, in the least, would help," pomfrey's tone was now hesitant, remembering the imbalance on the days either side of a transformation. "it's called wolfsbane," she continued after being met with silence. sharply, his eyes snapped to her, a silent plea for her to continue.

"it's still in an... experimental phase– and it's by no means foolproof, but it's something remus. it could help," unsureness filled the space as she continued to fix him up.

the beat between words could've been mistaken for an eternity, as remus deliberated over the risks within taking up the offer. he wasn't an experiment, but he couldn't keep doing this. the nurse opened her mouth to speak again, filling the silence;

"okay," was all remus said, as poppy opened her mouth. trying her best, she suppressed a smile as he accepted help, asking what it did.

"i'm not entirely sure of how effective it is, but it is meant to stop part of the transformation, i'll have my contact send it over," she smiled at the boy as he hopped off of the stretcher in the office.

remus left the office infirmary with a renewed sense of assurance, feeling lighter than he had a month ago as he repeated the same routine. his head finally felt silent, relieved that something could actually work in at least partially dulling his condition.

he was so in his own head he almost didn't hear her call his name. yet, as though it were subconscious, he looked down at her, pausing his quickened pace.

"hey," her voice was small, unsure. she was shocked by his demeanour to say the least, "are you alright? are you hurt?" her eyes scanned him apprehensively, searching for invisible signs of pain.

"i'm okay," he half smiled at her, shrugging before feeling relief in knowing the scratch which had been there no longer caused him discomfort. "i do have assignments to catch up with, however, so i do need to get going," he paused, "i'll catch you later?" he pressed a kiss to the crown of her head, abruptly turning away and continuing on his venture without waiting for an answer.

behind him, she pivoted on the spot, following him with her eyes. her brow quirked as she noticed that he no longer held the limp he normally did after the night of the full moon. part of her wanted to follow after him, question why he didn't have his usual limp, question why he had brushed her off. yet, she shook her head and decided to continue the rest of her day.

she had made her way throughout her scheduled classes of the day, scribbling down as much as she could pay attention to, for her mind was elsewhere. she was awfully concerned for him. choosing to observe him rather than pay attention to whichever professor they shared, in classes they shared together.

he had been unfocused throughout the day too, hanging on to every word madame pomfrey had said to him that morning. he had brought his book of potions to each of his classes, desperately searching through it to see if the instructions for his condition had been in there all along. by the days end, he had read the book from cover to cover, deflating slightly at the revelation.

days had passed before remus was finally called down to the hospital wing to speak with the nurse. days had passed since remus and y/n had had a proper conversation, only short murmurs were exchanged in passing. but not due to a lack of trying from the girl, at every opportunity she sought him out, only to be shut down under the guise of the workload and the cycle of the moon.

remus had entered the infirmary as the girl had walked into the great hall. it had become apparent that she wasn't the only one which her boyfriend had been neglecting. his group of friends had sat by themselves, an incomplete trio, as they glanced around expectantly. she walked past them and moved to sit with her own friends, only for to be called after.

she whipped her head around to be met with sirius, who had asked where remus had been.

"i don't know, he's been dodging me like mad, figured you lot'd know something about that," she had responded.

"you're not the only ones being dodged, it seems," james spoke up, biting into a half sandwich. the girl nodded before continuing over to her friends.

the rest of the week was much the same, with her desperate for a moment with her boyfriend. and his friends desperate for their friend back. and remus hunch over in the potions class late into the night trying to perfect the brew.

that was where she found him on the last night of the week. hunched over a cauldron, glass ladle in hand, with the other propping open a folded page of parchment.

"remus?" her voice was quiet as she pushed the door open, its creaking filling the silence of the space. his head snapped up at the call of his name. "y/n?" he questioned, before glancing between her and the potion, making sure it bubbled just the right amount.

"how did you find me?" he spoke unsurely, mindfully stirring the mixture beneath him.

"james showed me on the map".

"oh,"

"yeah".

silence blanketed between them, both unsure of what to say. this is the most they had seen of one another in a week. there were so many questions left hanging through the room. "how're y–"

"where've you been, remus?" they both spoke at the same time, the girl prevailing.

"here," his voice was small suddenly, looking over her shoulder rather than in the eye. "after the last full moon, poppy told me about this potion, and i've been trying to brew it ever since,"

"oh," she was at a loss for words at what remus had told her. "i would've helped you, if you had just asked, you needn't shut me out," she paused, "i would've helped you in a heartbeat,"

"i didn't know how to tell you, i–"

"your friends would've helped you, then, they would've understood," she begged.

"they've done so much for me already, for my... condition, i didn't want to ask for more," he explained, the sizzling of the cauldron filling the silence.

"they still would've helped you. been proud to do so, even," she assured him.

"i dunno, i mean, i don't want to inconvenience them even more than i already do,"

"you don't mate," both heads whipped round at the third voice entered the room. it was sirius, who was tailed by james and then peter.

"we saw you two were still in here and came to see what was up," peter squeaked from behind his friends.

"yeah, wormtail's right. but we sent pads in first in case it was anything less than decent," the bespectacled friend spoke, causing y/n to look at him unimpressed.

"thanks, guys," remus matched her face with his tone, rolling his eyes, "i guess i'll fill you all in, then," he gave a shy smile to the group before beginning to talk.

i'm back, i think... sorry i left for so long, life's been lifin' lately. short fic whilst i get back into it.

[estcaligo]

Twisted Thoughts: Silver’s Unique Magic

One might think that Silver’s UM is weak or even useless, primarily because what we traditionally consider "strong" is often associated with physical damage.

However, many would agree that strength isn’t about the tools or abilities you possess but how you use them. Any tool can become a deadly weapon. Any knowledge or skill can make you dangerous and powerful. The real question is whether you can realize the full potential of your "weapon".

The best example would be Jade. And I think it’s been discussed a lot how cleverly he utilizes his ridiculously impractical UM. But let’s get back to Silver.

Won’t delve too deeply into descriptions. Basically, Silver’s UM is dreamwalking - visiting dreams of other people (and animals, perhaps??). That’s it. That’s the UM.

It can’t be used in a battle, it can’t defend, it can’t harm, unless…?

Mind control

Driving someone to madness. Pushing them toward dangerous extremes. Haunting their dreams every night. Filling their sleep with nightmares. Making them regret waking up or fear falling asleep. Exhausting them to the point where they know no rest, until they can’t distinguish dreams from reality. Breaking their mind.

Physical harm isn’t always the most dangerous thing. Mental torture can be far more excruciating.

We’re lucky that Silver is a good boy. Having someone invade your subconscious with malicious intent could lead to truly horrifying consequences.

P. S.

Naturally, I cannot help but mention The Inception - the film I had in mind writing this. So, some quotes from there:

“In the dream state, your conscious defenses are lowered, and it makes your thoughts vulnerable to theft.”

“What is the most resilient parasite? Bacteria? A virus? An intestinal worm? An idea. Resilient, highly contagious. Once an idea has taken hold of the brain it’s almost impossible to eradicate. An idea that is fully formed—fully understood—that sticks; right in there somewhere.”

*won’t mention Jung or Freud or it'll be at least 10 pages

[risestarkiss]

Are you a fan of other TMNT iterations, or is Rise the only one?

Good question! TMNT has been a part of my life for three decades. I was the target demographic for the 1980's cartoon. I watched the first TMNT live action movie in theaters. I owned all of the live action movies, recorded the cartoons religiously, and begged my parents for their toys every year. I've seen the turtles through their heyday and on their worst day. (*cough* Ninja Turtles: The Next Mutation *cough*)

Therefore, all of the iterations have a special place in my heart. However, I've always wanted more out of their story; more family values, more brother bonding, more heart, more love. I wanted the boys to find peace and genuinely enjoy themselves! I remember watching an episode of the 2003 turtles (aka, the Beefcake turtles, fight me) and the ep starts with the boys sitting in their den playing videogames, just enjoying each other's company. Younger me thought that was so nice!.....Then their lair blew up, all of their enemies descended on them at once, and the turtles spent the rest of the episode fighting for their lives. That type of storyline wasn't just in the 2003 version. It was across virtually every iteration. To me, it seemed like the boys were always being...tortured. It felt like their family was being punished just for being different, in every single TMNT universe. I've said all that to say this.

In Rise, they laugh with each other and enjoy each other's company. They pursue their interests and interact in a world that doesn't hate them at first sight. The turtles act like brothers, not just roommates. (The show actually pokes fun at this. "We're brothers, but sometimes it feels like we're just roommates." - Don) There are episodes where the boys just do silly things, or simply have a great time, and love that for them! Of course they'll go through tough times, but ultimately I want these boys to be happy, safe, successful, and loved. Besides, after all that they've been through in the 40 years since their inception, they deserve it! So, am I a fan of the other iterations? Absolutely. But Rise is the series that I, personally, have always been waiting for.

Thanks for the ask! 💜💜💜

[girlactionfigure]

Jewish Defiance

Below is the speech I gave at a tiny, spirited protest of Jews - and their allies - who faced off a vast, snarling, swarm of pro-Hamas racists marching through London. Thank you to the organisers and those who turn up every week to show the indomitable defiance of the few.

This is a nice day out, isn’t it? What a lovely day out? Isn’t it nice to shlep into London when we could be doing anything else? We all really wanna be doing this on a weekend, don’t we? It ain’t what I want to be doing with my life. I don’t want to be here. I don’t think any of us wanna be here. These idiots are making us waste our time. But you wanna know what’s even more stupid? They’re wasting their time because they are not going to win. The State of Israel and the Jewish people are not going anywhere. We haven’t gone anywhere for three and a half thousand years. We’ve seen off the Romans, the Babylonians, the Nazis. We’ve outlasted all of them. And we’ll outlast these schmucks. Because antisemitic movements don’t have a long shelf life. History is not kind to the antisemite. And neither should we be. Any antisemite who transgresses should be made to suffer within the full scope of the law. They should be made to suffer consequences, socially, occupationally, legally.

Let’s be clear about who they are. We are not the same as them. They are fakes and frauds. Their calls for “ceasefire” aren’t about peace? You’re not for peace if you’re for globalising the intifada. You’re not for peace, if you’re calling for a Palestine from the river to the sea. You’re not for peace if you ignore, justify or excuse Hamas and their rocket attacks and their acts of terrorism against the Jewish People. You’re not for peace if you don’t condemn Hezbollah for firing rockets. You’re not for peace, if you don’t condemn the theocratic, Mullah regime of Iran and their complicity in all of this. You’re not for peace if you haven’t been calling for the complete and unconditional return of the hostages since day one.

If these liars on the streets of London were for peace they would be marching with Palestinian AND Israeli flags. But they aren’t. If they were for peace they would be screaming for the end of Hamas - a criminal rape gang of Islamic fundamentalists dedicated to jihad and the total extermination of all non-muslims. But they aren’t. These liars, these frauds, these Jew haters feign their tears and call for a ceasefire when the rapists Hamas are under the cosh, but they cheer when Israel is attacked. Sod them.

We on the other hand ARE for peace. There is no Jew that doesn’t want a world of peace and love. But you can’t shake hands with someone who’s trying to punch you in the face. And that is all our enemy does. Since Israel’s inception we have extended our hand in peace. But we have been met with punches, and knives, and rocks, and bullets, and car rammings, and rockets, and bombs, and rape, and torture, and murder and kidnapping. And if the world just expects us to take that. And to smile. And to say thank you world for allowing us to be murdered - then sod them. We are not the world’s punching bag, and we will not be sacrificed because of the non-Jewish world’s problems, or because of a superior, supercilious and utterly misplaced notion that they somehow own us and can dictate to Jews who we are, how we must live and how we are to die.

No one else decides our destiny. We do. When our destiny was in the hands of the world - the world bullied and slaughtered us. Zionism liberated us from the shackles of an abusive relationship with the world. And no one gets to tell us we go back into that relationship. The dynamic has changed. Get used to it. Zionism is the self-determination movement of the Jewish people. It is OUR liberation movement. Not yours. It is OUR civil rights movement. Not yours. The minute a non-Jew tries to define who the Jews are, or define Zionism or control our story - they prove exactly why we need Zionism - to liberate us - from them.

And like an abusive partner, many in the world can’t handle us being free. They can’t handle seeing us happy, thriving and getting on with our lives. Antisemites in Europe and America can’t handle seeing a Jewish minority making choices for themselves when they believe that they, the oh so cultured and civilised non-Jewish world, knows best. And antisemites in the muslim world can’t handle seeing a Jewish minority thrive outside the totalitarian confines of Islamic theocracy.

And so they come after us. Wanting to enslave us again. Not gonna happen. We will never be second class citizens or dhimmi again. And if you don’t like it that we fight back - good. I’m glad you don’t like it. Fuck around and find out. We’ll go as long as we need to.

And let me reiterate here: Jews don’t want violence. There are a million things we’d rather do. You are stopping us from achieving our full potential by making us have to fight you. We don’t want to spill blood. Jewish laws reiterate relentlessly the sanctity of blood. And then there was King David - who wasn’t allowed to build the Temple, because his hands were tainted with blood and the wars he had to fight. We are Jews and we wanna do good shit. We want to make advances in art, science and medicine for the good that it brings and for the joy of simply enriching our knowledge of this world.

Jews do not want war. But be under no illusion, if you bring it to us we will give you a war. Because there IS a time for war just as there’s a time for peace. And the time for war is when THEY come to kill us. Don’t fuck with Israel. Because our ancestors weren’t just shepherds and prophets and judges - they were warriors. And what was in them is in us. And just as they gave hell and triumphed over their enemies - we will give our enemies hell and we will triumph and we will win and then we will laugh and we will sing and we will dance - and with a bit of luck - we will make love and create more Jewish babies.

Look at the idiots out there who want to destroy us. They have to sing repetitive rhymes en masse - like morons in a cult - because they’re scared to be individuals. They’re scared to think for themselves. Scared to speak for themselves. They’re scared to be different. They’re scared to stand alone. They need nursery rhymes because they’re scared to engage in the complexities of an imperfect world. They’re morons.

Look at the numbers they have to gather in to feel brave enough to chant what they think? To shout that they want jihad and to kill every Jew between the river and the sea?

People who gather in that volume in order to shout at Jews are scared of Jews - and they should be. Because we’re fucking awesome. Being small in number is not a weakness. It is our superpower. It’s always been the Jewish superpower. It gives each of us ten times the resilience of those who rely on numbers. Never forget, no matter how surrounded you feel, strength is not in numbers, it is in your soul, it is in your heart and it’s in your resourcefulness. And we’ve got all of that. We are small in number but the things we’re each capable of are mighty. So go out every day and be mighty.

And don’t ever forget what Hamas did and what these people support. Darkness. They support darkness. There has never been more moral clarity to a fight than the one we face. What Hamas did on October 7th - demons from hell would ask them to be their teachers. And Hamas promise to do it again and again. A ceasefire is not peace. It’s a downpayment on future blood shed. It’s an investment in future war. The first step for the Middle East to even have a chance of peace is for Hamas to be gone.

Hamas are not the same civilisation as us. No peace can be made with them or anyone who thinks like them.

Our civilisation is worth protecting because it offers something good. The next time you’re in Jerusalem go and visit the Kingdom of David and you will see how precarious our origins were and how miraculous it is that we are still here and the responsibility we have to protect ourselves. David’s Kingdom was tiny. A tiny hillside that offered something new. A small outpost of light in a sea of darkness. It offered a revolution. It rejected what surrounded us. And what were we rejecting? We were rejecting the cruelty of those who engaged in child sacrifice. We were rejecting those who worshipped Moloch and set their own children on fire.

Now look at what’s happening today! Nothing has changed.

We’re facing an enemy who still sacrifice children. Deliberately. In Hamas we have an enemy who encourage their children to die, to blow themselves up, to set themselves on fire, to become so-called martyrs and shaheeds. We face an enemy whose parents praise Allah if one of their children blows themselves up with a suicide bomb to kill other children. We face an enemy that teaches their children in kindergartens, in schools, in mosques and in the home to die. We face an enemy that deliberately hides behind its own, and prevents them from seeking safety, so that they can be harmed in a war that THEY started. We should have no ambiguity and no doubt that we are on the side of good, and that good must triumph. Not just for us, but for this planet, lest that the ancient darkness faced by King David conquer every hillside and plunge the whole world into a night without end.

I want to leave you now with something important. The most important thing. What’s going on with our cruel and wicked enemies is deadly - but it’s also theatre. It’s designed to be a spectacle that scares you. It’s designed to make you crumble inside, give up and walk away. But it’s clear from your presence here today that you will not. And that none of you ever will. I wanna say that you are all fucking brilliant. All of you. You don’t even realise how brilliant you are. Seven months into the most disgusting war against us and here you all are standing tall, not backing down, ready to go on for as long as you need to. You are epic Jews, equal to any Jews of the past.

And don’t let the world spin your heads. Because mark these words: this is the best time to be a Jew in 2000 years. It is the best time to be a Jew in 2000 years. Because we’ve always had enemies. There have always been those who’ve risen up to kill us. But this time, this time we have the State of Israel. The Jewish People are home. They are in their indigenous homeland and they will never be uprooted again.

And because we have the State of Israel we will never be as vulnerable as our ancestors. As bad as things sometimes feel we will never know how vulnerable they felt when the rug was pulled from their feet. And they would be SO happy for us. We are the luckiest Jews in 2000 years. With Israel we can defend ourselves. We can fight back. We have an army. We have infrastructure. We have technology. For the first time in 2000 years the Jews can truly fight back. And if our enemies wanna bring it, they will know we can fight.

So you can be anxious now and then. But never, ever give in to fear.

In this life you can be scared. You can be messed up. You can even be fucked up. But the most important thing is to show up. Always show up and give a good account of yourself and with God’s grace we will always triumph. God bless you. Baruch HaShem.

LEE KERN

[rabdoidal]

(*before reading, please understand that going into the dropout discord to start the argument back up again is taking away from the poc this actually effects so dont start fights until people ask for support. this is about supporting palestine not taking away from serious discussions by spamming)

idk if you're all aware of whats happening on the dropout discord server but during the last few weeks since the war on gaza started, there has been both pro-zionist discussions and the silencing of pro-palestinian voices, leading to the banning of a person (grasstoucher666 on twitter) that spoke out against the zionism the mods didnt do anything about / mods were making the palestine conflict a personal issue - oomf squidias on twitter took screenshots of their announcement after people spoke out about it:

which on one hand, is understandable from a cooperate standpoint, but on the other hand, dropout has been an explicitly politically minded company since its inception. theyve sold merch items promoting anarcho socialism and anti-capitalism, openly supported black lives matter, several lgbt charities, ecological conservations, union strikes, and voting awareness. they've talked about communal funding, workers rights, fair pay, socialism, and equal rights for 5 years through both company-driven posting and individual talents associated with dropout posting about political and social issues. many of the talent associated with dropout have openly been supporting palestine, so i dont fault them, but the mods and social media admin are certainly making a choice.

the fact that now, after all that, theyre taking an apolitical stance on palestine by actively and literally silencing people is frankly despicable. also by their own rules, a lot of their content technically cant be discussed on the discord (tweets by asswalock and justariotghoul)

and lastly, on a personal note, real fucking bold of them to have a mug that says "the police are basically an occupying army" then not support a country that LITTERALLY HAS AN OCCUPYING ARMY ACTIVELY MURDERING AND TORTURING ITS CITIZENS

UPDATE 14/11/2023

personally im still on the fence - as i understand it, its hard for palestinians to receive donations right now, but i hope when it is possible, dropout can do a pin of the month to raise money for support or something. at the very least statements from brennan and sam would be great, and im glad people can talk about politics again