#actuallyavoidant

[bpdboyfriend]

i hate the expectation that youre just supposed to be suddenly getting better mental health-wise because youre getting older

like,, im in my mid 20's and my mental health has just gotten worse as ive gotten older...

[avoidantghost]

i miss the people i ghost and take weeks/months to respond to.

[avoidantcreachure]

typing a text like

“yeah no it’s all good sorry i just overreacted because i always assume everyone is mad at me and im afraid to take up any emotional space haha-

*backspace*

“its totally ok! sorry i overreacted, i always assume everyone is mad at me.”

…

*backspace*

“it’s ok! sorry haha”

[happywastedyears]

hi just so you know if you have a personality disorder I love you personally

[clusterlgbt]

Shoutout to trans avoidants whose avpd makes it difficult to transition. Maybe we can’t bring ourselves to correct ppl who misgender us, maybe we can’t come out, maybe we’re too scared to seek transition. or maybe despite our fears we have done all these things. or maybe we don’t even want those things.

Either way, trans avoidants - you deserve support and as a fellow trans avoidant i am here for you.

[avid-detachment]

have an urge to create an online presence

post something in a discord server

instant regret! overwhelming shame!

its been hours at this point and i still feel awful!

[girlfriendriddler]

Hot bitches lie to therapists so they'll be proud of them. Hot bitches stop going to therapy because it all becomes too much and feels pointless. Hot bitches are scared nobody will believe them. Hot bitches are good at appearing functioning and masking so nobody believes they're debilitated at all times. Hot bitches have avoidant personality disorder. Hot bit-

[hauntedselves]

My personality disorder info site is live!

It's still a WIP, but pretty much everything is up that I plan on putting up.

If you have any suggestions, let me know!

[avoidantcreachure]

saw a reply on a post by an avpd blog that said something like “those people aren’t real good friends!! you should find people who-“ and i was like i’m gonna cut you off right there, not being able to do that is like my central character aspect… that’s the name of the disorder

[avpdescalate]

Bo Burnham clips I wish I couldn't relate to

[unstablevalley]

reading about how avpd tends to be caused in part by subtle trauma over time rather than really big moments of trauma is weird because like...

on the one hand, it means that my theories about my childhood being traumatizing and what kind of trauma it was are probably right because the descriptions i’ve seen are pretty much exactly what i experienced

but that also means i can’t hide from the fact that it was traumatizing anymore because it was clearly traumatizing enough to affect literally everything about me and my life

[exhaustedborderline]

[hurt-plushie]

when someone shows a clear disinterest in what you're hyperfixating on so you stop mentioning it entierly around them and feel bad for even liking said thing.

Bonus points if its the first thing that has genuinley brought you comfort in a while.

[cursedsappho]

You know these cute pages on social media where they spread awareness about a certain thing like ADHD or OCD or depression through comics or motivational phrases written with a fancy font on some pastel background?

Well, I find really rude never having seen one about avpd. It literally never gets mentioned and I get it, it's not that common and most of us won't really be vocal about it probably but come on I want to see my illness portrayed in a little comic too why can't we have it

even if to be fair I guess all personality disorders get kinda snobbed from these kind of things, I guess we aren't relatable enough

[avid-detachment]

I don’t feel like a person, I don’t have any sense of identity that I share with the outside world (do I have any identity at all? is anything about me even real?). I don’t leave any trace of myself behind; I want to be known, and yet i guess I don't have enough energy or desire to change any of the things that result in me living like this. So i continue to exist in this unsatisfying, half-formed state.

[medicineteeth]

me: cuts everyone out of my life because socializing kills me and they all hate me anyways

me, a year later: hey this actually sucks but socializing is still too hard so i'm just going to live in constant suffering