#aev rambles

[sotc]

jeez they really uhh nailed that intense gaze description from TN huh 😳

[antiendovents]

woof,, okay. Been a while since I been here and I just wanna, rant. Cause jesus Christ

I am not actually as mad as I usually am when I do this, but, like,, still. Sometimes I'm just,, reminded of how desperate endos are to get into systems spaces and I just... can't believe it. Like WHAT.

Like, these people will straight up ,, lie ,, about being pro endo and then will,, be surprised,, that when they join an ANTI ENDO safe space,, people there are anti endo?? And then they'll crash out and scream "I'm being harassed" when they're called out???

And like,, I dunno. This is just fucking crazy to me. Imagine being SO desperate to pretend to be disabled and that you literally lie your way into safe spaces for disabled people, try to gain a role of power in said safe space, and then lash out on members and staff of the safe space because,, you lied?? And because they don't support endos?? Even though you knew that from the fucking start?? Because it was literally in the rules?? And description?? I don't know,, endos are just sooo soo fucking dumb

(not to mention how predatory it is to be an endo, go into a space filled with people who are uncomfortable and even traumatized by endos, and then to attempt to try and gain power over a large amount of those people.. ew. I won't get into that now though)

[aevari]

Dragon Age comm batch is a GO.

All confirmation emails have been sent! If you sent in a submission please double check your inbox/spam folders for an email from me confirming your slots!!!

also omg the euphoria I experienced remembering all over again this is an entire batch dedicated to drawing DRAGON AGE!!!

[ahkiez]

Lil intro!

Hi natm fandom! (if yall still alive,,) I am the resurrected version (/hj) of my first main blog "Aevst4r", i just decided to make this side blog so i can still continue my natm ramble :3

I'm Ahkie, but you can also call me Aev, I'm a minor so please don't get too weird or freaky around me,,

That all being said, hope yall have a great day!

[lycorii]

o I got the point of no return prompt on the main quest.....

hrhhrjdjxhdjsjxhd soon.

some thoughts unrelated to the plot, mostly aev related character ones

as I approach the end, I am still wondering if aev is the type of person to hold the title of rook. or if he's just someone with a specific skill/trait that the group just recruits for.

I can't come up with anything tho.. because aev was made to be someone who needed help themselves but was never going to ask for it or even thought that he needed it.

he eventually realizes that all that time in isolation, the world seems to have shifted in a way that wasn't going to criminalize him, enslave him, because of his magic. I think that, through the veilguard story, he learns that fighting, channeling the intuition, can get him pretty far. he's still immensely clumsy with it, but survival instinct is a pretty raw thing to lean on when your life is in danger.

it's funny, I guess?? to put him in a situation where he's been given the responsibility to help a bunch of other people with their problems and wholly ignoring his own. the mask he puts on is so thick and the refusal to untie it is probably frustrating.

and then there's that weird thing he got going on with lucanis, (weird in a "how did this happen" kind of way) where he's just a deer in headlights. instantly charmed but not knowing what the fuck the clammy feeling down his neck and shoulders means whenever those troubled but soft brown eyes look at him in such a way. worst part is that they both don't think it's something that they should pursue, but the yearning ... dnhfjxjshx. the unspoken concern and care.. at the core of it, they're just two lonely people scrambling for something to make it less so.

I'm rambling at this point, this is unedited. maybe I'll write some fic later....

[lonewolflupe]

I screamed, I fainted, I picked myself up again and stumbled over my own feet because this art has now infested my brain

I'm not really sure where to begin, so I'll start with saying THANK YOU. This is absolutely stunning and so well executed and asdlhdgksgjstjajtskskfsfskdk

So creating an OC and throwing them out in the wild is pretty scary. It was for me with Lupe, because she's actually very much a self insert OC. She's me, a combination of who I am (faults and insecurities included) and of who I'd like to be (bold and brave), thrown into the Star Wars universe. So she's very dear to me, and it made it even scarier to share her online with a bunch of complete strangers.

But I'm so glad I did. I cannot put into words how much it means to receive art of your own creation, your own OC. I never expected this to happen when I casually threw her onto my blog almost a year ago, and how it would result into all the awesome shenanigans and friendships <3

Sorry, I'm wandering off. Let's talk Art Nouveau, or Jugendstil, because I personally prefer German over French (kriff, I hated French at highschool, sacre bleu! Why would you use 'papillon' if you can use 'SCHMETTERLING'??? @eobe 😂). I've always been very fond of this art style. It really intrigued me, seeing those beautiful humans in calming surroundings, with all those organic shapes and patterns. It made me wonder, it left me in awe, but mostly, I've found it soothing. (When I was younger and stayed overnight at my grandparents', I stayed in their guestroom in the attic and there was this beautiful Jugendstil door poster on the inside of the door, and I couldn't stop looking at it. I loved staying at my grandparents' so this is a happy memory)

I'm wandering off again, I apologise.

This art is superb. Now I am in awe of how you managed (also with your previous Jugendstil pieces) to combine the art style with the Star Wars universe. It's still very visibly Jugendstil, but it's also clearly Star Wars. I love that. There's depth into the objects in both the background and the foreground, and I love how you created the shading on the faces. It drags the focus to them, making them the centrepiece of it all. And can I just say how much I love to have Aev and Lupe together in art? (And bonus Fives because my stars, does he look handsome?! @ghostymarni you designed Dives so well ahaha)

This piece is also very you @foxwithadarkside , and I have mad respect for your ability to shift between your wonderful comical art style and incredibly complicated stuff like this. Amazing, you are truly a great artist!

So I started with saying thank you, and I'll finish my ramblings with it too: THANK YOU for this incredible art. When I have my art board up in my room I'm gonna print this and put it up and I'm gonna look at it for forever ❤️

Lupe @lonewolflupe Aeviririn „Aev“ @ghostymarni

There's no reflection on them from the light sticks on purpose. I like it better that way. The oreginal piece screamed these three.

The stolen tag list is stolen

@wings-and-beskargam @eclec-tech @fiveminutetrash @eobe @crosshairs-dumb-pimp-gf @feral-ferrule @ladylucksrogue @nika6q @skellymom @vimse @gargothnightzine @sunshinesdaydream @noblelightfighter @returnofthepineapple @freesia-writes @covert1ntrovert @vikushat @nocturius8015ficore @mamuzzy @risavulpes @niobiumao3 @sazzujazzu @blackseafoam @thora-sniper

[prenvii-moved]

i can wait techno. ive been here for 3 years i can wait. i can forgive and i can be patient. i believe responses like these take time i mean you need to gather your thoughts n everything so im not gonna rush you like everyone else on twitter rn but please. dont. dont fuck this up. dont hurt your millions of fans i swear to god.

[seanfalco]

oc rambling + baby talk under the cut

talking to flor about which characters would have kids and i’ve come to these conclusions:

nathan & win are having a daughter (i flip flopped on this one)

luke & win would have a son & an unplanned pregnancy

sean & aev, a daughter

billy & aev, two daughters

darren & aevy, one daughter, definitely unplanned

and nikolai & aev, a son not sure on this combination, but nik with a son would be so cute

[lillupon]

is it just me,,,, or did you add another chapter in aev? ommmg hahahaha and also aev is in the 5th page of having the most kudos in minwon ao3, think of it it's not yet finished shshshshs it deserves the hypeeeeee <3

wow omg!! AEV is making some serious numbersヽ(・∀・)ﾉ I wonder if it’ll become my most viewed fic on AO3 at some point... I guess it’s likely, since prior to AEV, I really only wrote one shots ^^;; Maybe I should do something for views/kudos milestones? I do a lot of bonus content for AEV already, so maybe a fic giveaway haha. Idk if that’s cute or tacky, or if people would even be interested. Anyway, I’m rambling. Thanks for letting me know! I’m very happy.

Edit: oops, I was half asleep when I answered this and my eyes jumped over the first part of your Ask. Yes, AEV is now 20 chapters instead of 19. It should have been 20 chapters from the start, but I miscounted (I write in scenes instead of chapters, and then group the scenes into chapters after)

[magic-multicolored-miracle]

🍓💛

How do I love thee, let me count the ways. No really, I’ve got a numbered list.

You’re a bomb ass writer. I swear my “fic recs” tag is at least 80% yours with me screaming about how good they are           a) Whether it’s writing the established characters to PERFECTION or deftly weaving new ones into an existing world, you have such control and precision with tone/voice.          b) Rereadability! There are so many fics that I’ve read that I’ve been like “yes this was good” but I’ve never felt compelled to go back to them. But yours I do. And almost always, I spot new things I didn’t catch, like a cheeky reference or a particularly nicely structured sentence. They’re a gift that keeps giving

You have excellent taste. :P I say this jokingly, but also fics you’ve rec’d and shows I’ve gotten into in part or whole because of your posts have greatly enriched my life in the past 6 months. (Plus Robert. He’s such an oddity that I don’t know if I would have found/noticed him without you. And he’s so nice to look at)

You are so NICE. Whether it’s flailing in tags on a fic or your messages doesn’t matter. Even when it’s just playing along with whatever dumb ask game thing I’m doing on a given night, it makes my heart go “*pitter patter* yay” whenever I see your urls in my activity. And unlike my rambling ass, you get to the point with your niceness. You don’t write an essay to say the thing you’re thinking/feeling when a sentence will do. 

Valdo Marx. Yup. He gets his own point. No matter what, you bear the burden of praise for creating him as an actual, wonderful character. Yes, it eventually became a collective project, but it starts at you. And every time I write for him there’s a little voice in the back of my head asking “would Joz agree with this characterization?” At the end of the day, the Douche Prince is your baby, you just let me play with him. Eh you get what I’m trying to say without it sounding weird, right?

Aevryn Swift. HOLY SHIT I LOVE HER SO MUCH! Like in a “she deserves all the happiness in the world” way, and an “I’m super gay for her” way. I love everything about the punk!AU that you and Kat built, and would read literally anything about that crew, but not going to lie, Aev is my fave.

[sotc]

for my own self indulgence i made a quick gif of lucanis rubbing his fingers together after touching his hot coffee :)

[antiendovents]

I dont usually do this but,, I just got this comment on this post and ...

Wow,, I'm sure this person is wonderful to hang out with and totally isn't a complete asshole /sarc

Because it is TOTALLY a good look to be commenting shit like this on a post about an endo literally breaking tons of peoples boundaries and lying to try gain power over a large group of traumatized individuals who explicitly do not want to interact with them <3 /sarc

But like seriously, how is this your reaction to that rant?? Your takeaway is that I'm "uninclusive" for calling out frankly predatory and dangerous behaviour from an endo? Yeesh.

woof,, okay. Been a while since I been here and I just wanna, rant. Cause jesus Christ

I am not actually as mad as I usually am when I do this, but, like,, still. Sometimes I'm just,, reminded of how desperate endos are to get into systems spaces and I just... can't believe it. Like WHAT.

Like, these people will straight up ,, lie ,, about being pro endo and then will,, be surprised,, that when they join an ANTI ENDO safe space,, people there are anti endo?? And then they'll crash out and scream "I'm being harassed" when they're called out???

And like,, I dunno. This is just fucking crazy to me. Imagine being SO desperate to pretend to be disabled and that you literally lie your way into safe spaces for disabled people, try to gain a role of power in said safe space, and then lash out on members and staff of the safe space because,, you lied?? And because they don't support endos?? Even though you knew that from the fucking start?? Because it was literally in the rules?? And description?? I don't know,, endos are just sooo soo fucking dumb

(not to mention how predatory it is to be an endo, go into a space filled with people who are uncomfortable and even traumatized by endos, and then to attempt to try and gain power over a large amount of those people.. ew. I won't get into that now though)

[aevari]

OK! All emails / paypal invoices have been sent to folks so double check your emails!! Thank you again everyone for your support commissioning me and for spreading the word for this batch! 💞

[sotc]

wow datv mods are poppin off already. prayer circle a body hair mod comes out for lucanis and body/facial hair for elves soon🤞

[sotc]

omg shut the fuck UPPPPP fenris 😭😭😭

[isobug]

I've talked about it at length in this post before, but I do want to bring up two specific instances of this new policy being actively harmful to trans and mspec people re: warnings which makes me view it more harshly

( EDIT ) Also regarding the "slippery slope" of adding in things like "voting history", that shouldn't be an issue as long as there's a simple guideline about keeping things relevant. You could even use those exact examples as guidelines for what isn't acceptable or needed in a warning.

Putting it under the cut but tw for transmisogyny/transphobia/queerphobia/exclusionism and examples/discussion of these things

I was trying to make an edit to the pages featuring a certain Gay Man's flag (specifically the Uranian page first), made by one Val/entin Bely/aev, to potentially warn others (but especially other transfems) that Valentin is Transmisogynistic/Transphobic and his accounts are not safe for Transfems/Trans gays. This edit was rejected under this new policy.

I specifically cited his twitter accounts and certain tweets. He has other accounts and has made similar statements on those. It's not very hard to find

(the last one is a little less clear out of the context of his whole account but he genuinely seems to insist that all of the the trans-inclusive gay men flags are "trans-exclusive/exclude cis gays" and frequently bashes on them.)

I hope I don't have to explain why his narrative of "GNC men are wrongfully transitioning/becoming transfem because people hate men" is Transmisogynistic and why "there's no point in being proud of being queer" is Queerphobia.

(Plus, having a flag exclusively for "homosexual men" as The Uranian Flag on the wiki is misrepresentative of the history and scope of Uranians/Urnings. Despite how Valentin uses it, it does describe a a varying set of gender and sexual identities. I'd really think the LGBTA page needs to be closer to the Nonbinary Wiki's Uranian page in scope. Not to mention that there's no page or even mention of Urningin/Urninde which is a shame.)

The second example is a rejected edit to the Junian (Exclusive) page. Junian is a sibling term to Oshian and Erosian, both of which were coined by exclusionists to be exclusionary terms (this is cited on both pages with sources) and are explicitly anti-mspec Lesbians/Gays. These accounts are also not safe to browse for those trying to avoid exclusionist/queerphobic content.

Junian was coined by the same person who made Erosian and is equally exclusionary, yet my edit to the Junian page that simply added the same information that was present on the Erosian page was rejected under this new policy.

Erosian info and it's cited resource

Junian info (there are no cited resources on the page + even less context about why the term was made)

Citeable exclusionism being ignored aside, this also just makes the Junian page terrible in contrast with the Erosian and Oshian pages. I should not have to go to a different, older page for it's sibling term made by the same person to get the actual background for why they were made (and if those reasons were even correct).

Sorry for rambling. I'm not sure how to wrap up my thoughts on this other than repeating the tags on my original post about it

"I cannot tell you how much LESS USEFUL this makes the wiki... and actually if someone is citing a person saying openly 'i hate this marginalized group' it's not 'personal interpretation'. it's just exclusionism and bigotry'"

Let's talk about term sourcing.

So a few months ago, the LGBTA wiki announced a revision of its policy on declaring an author's personal biases in its references. This..... didn't go down well, and I went ahead and brought it up with Jeb the same day to figure out exactly what xe was thinking and why this policy was announced. The conversation summarises to something like this:

We don't want to call people exclusionist on the wiki because it means we're making the wiki biased

Exclusionist could be used to mean lots of different things so we don't want to use it at all

Slippery slope: If we say a creator didn't like trans people, we could end up adding warnings about a creator's political alignment, voting history and favourite colour of underwear.

At that point it was gone midnight with a pretty stressful day lined up for me the next day, so I decided to leave it there and get back to it later. In very typical fashion I then forgot to get back to it later, until now, when I can actually talk to the users of tumblr about this.

So, I'd like to discuss a possible different solution for this policy. I understand the community on Tumblr doesn't like it, and quite frankly, I'm not a fan either. There are a lot of pros and cons with this policy, so lemme list them out, starting with the pros:

The wiki is supposed to be a source of information, not a source of personal opinion

Different users have different views and understandings of of phobia

As a wiki, it shouldn't be biased

There's probably a few more, but I can't think of too many currently. On the other hand, the cons:

If a user wants to read more about the term, they don't know if (eg.) the tumblr blog they're about to open is phobic. So any further reading from the wiki is a big leap of faith.

We literally have a list of identities that we recognise as good faith, and so it shouldn't be too hard to warn if a source is against these.

We also have a ban on queerphobia, ableism, racism, exclusionism and abuse on the wiki itself.

And I'll leave that at three as well, just to be fair.

So what do we make of this over here? I'd be curious to hear Tumblr's feedback, and anything that I think is really good (from either side of the debate) I'll probably bring up with Jeb in a couple days.