#amara answers

[fuckingmonsterjammed]

Bestie which one am I too you?

Note I was Pennywise for Halloween back in 2020

(I ask this cause someone is sending me to your location as an autistic clown)

Probably nicklesmart

[poisontypefart]

what are your thoughts on the slutch

As in Slurg ??? I love him ^_^

Otherwise I dont really know what the slutch is unless it's just poison type stuff in that case yes!!!!!

Also I know that's you @mimikinyuu

slutch moment

[amaradangeli]

Hey! I just went to go read All rivers have to bend and saw that you took it down?!? I’m so sorry people made you do that. Fandom has become less than kind. Happy to talk about it if you ever want to/need to vent. I was looking forward to reading it.

Eh, it was a lot more about me than other people. Do I wish that the fandom had been more inclusive/welcoming? Of course! But I definitely only took it down because I felt like I was writing in a vacuum and that, well, sucked the fun out of things (pun intended). I don't actually know if I'll come back around to the fandom, but never say never, right? 😊

[realprissygirl]

how to get pretty privilege?

‘pretty privilege’ 101 🛁🎀

alright you all have been asking for this so here ya go. this is my take on how to live in your pretty. (i just don’t like the notion that pretty is everything. also it gets dangerous when you take into account certain harmful, discriminatory, and divisive beauty standards. so take all this with a grain of salt.)

stop being so stuck on ‘pretty.’ i understand the world we live in and obviously being pretty is an aspiration to many but you look desperate, lame, insecure, and worse when you’re so consumed with how to be pretty. let alone pretty privilege. everything isn’t about that so don’t act desperate.

now actually be pretty. take care of yourself. make and stick to your maintenance routines!

learn natural vs artificial beauty and utilize both. actively treat your skin with intention but also practice your makeup.

invest heavy time into your self development. be it school, a cert, a passion. it’ll make you feel good and boost the confidence you need.

build and honor your body. however you want it. align your activity and diet to your goals. don’t pump your vessel full of bull shit.

don’t be nasty. truly. like as a fellow bitch i love a good bitchy persona. but when you are arrogant and showman, people can’t see your beauty so it needs to be dialed back. be a pretty person on the inside.

learn your features. this is what the beauty binder is for. i started maramaxxing and to me this simply meant aligning what i want with what i’ve got (hence the use of my name). and it truly has changed me for the better. work with what you’ve already have.

i cannot stress how important it is to have your own sense of fashion. you need your own aesthetic. i’m not saying everything has to be artificially pieced together but curation can really create a brand. and this creates a sense of allure and can truly speak for you.

signatures are such a pretty amplifier. a lot of people hear the word ‘signature’ and think you need to stick one thing. no. it’s literally whatever you decide. it gives you a sense of polish and perfection.

go where you’re appreciated!! if you wanna feel the benefits of your brand of beauty go where it’s the standard. won’t go further if you know you know.

[mxwhore]

You should draw Martin getting a little kissy on the cheek

kissys can now be outsourced from little sister! but be careful

[poisontypefart]

Interesting! What's this plan you have? I know you said pokemon are strong enough as is so, I'd imagine your plan would be pretty difficult. It's also clearly not too popular, from the responses on other posts.

Whats your definition of harm? A margikarp can't really use big moves and stuff, but if you stick your finger in its mouth it can give you a good bite which Is harm,, and also their harm to local ecosystems at times. If these are included too, I believe Metapod, Kakuna, and Cascoon would be the only remaining pokemon after this purge? This is a genuine interest.

hi! it's nice to see that you're genuinely interested! <3

My personal definition of harm is initially if they actively hunt or hurt humans.

But more of a secondary definition (which are pokémon that I plan on annihilating after the initial first definition ones) are ones who cause humans harm by simply existing.

[redo-rewind-if]

Okay okay so consider this

How would the ROs react if they went to speak to the MC for smth (in whatever setting that fits) But when they reach them they see that MC has been crying

And perhaps the MC composes themselves to talk to them, putting on a normal expression

How would they react

(I'm a little too into these scenario stuff lol I hope this wasn't confusing I have too many thoughts in my head)

Oooo, bit of an angsty one I see! Nice! Gonna assume ROs are in a relationship/close friends with MC for this scenario.

This also got a little long so under the cut it goes.

V: Walking into the room, V spots you seated by the window staring out into the city below. You jolt as the door closes, but don't turn around.

Shoulders shaking, you try to blink away the tears still slipping down your cheeks and surreptitiously wipe away any lingering wetness. You hope V doesn't notice. Doesn't say anything.

"Is everything all right? ... MC?" V asks softly -- because of course they do -- sitting down next to you on the couch, leaving just enough space that you don't feel closed in. Suffocated.

"Fine. I'm fine." You manage to reply with a weak smile. You doubt it convinces them -- doubt you even could at this point. "Just... had a long day. That's all."

V frowns, tinged with something soft and worried. "... I understand. Just know you can always come to me. No matter what."

"I know." If only it were that simple.

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Amara: "MC! I'm back! You'll never believe what--" Amara voice rings out in the otherwise silent apartment as the door swings open. She cuts herself off when she sees you. Laying on the sofa, face pressed against a throw pillow. Maybe she'll think you're asleep?

"MC? Is everything okay?" Shit. Guess not.

You lift your head from the pillow, offering her a tumultuous smile. Hopefully, she'll mistake any lingering evidence of your tears for the remnants of sleep and pillow creases.

"Thought you weren't coming over for another hour?" You ask quietly, voice just a touch too rough to go unnoticed.

"Got finished earlier than I thought and wanted to surprise you." She says as she crouches down next to you, the sweet cinnamon of her perfume washing over you. Your shoulders relax just the slightest bit. "Is there anything you need me to do?"

"Just... stay? Here, for a little while longer. Please."

"Always." Amara replies, resting her hand softly on your shoulder.

You wish things would stay like this.

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August: Lying with your head pillowed atop your arms on the kitchen table, you try not to jolt as you hear your doorbell ring. Not expecting any visitors, you don't even bother getting up to see who it is. You just want to be left alone.

Alas, it seems life has other plans for you. Your visitor doesn't bother ringing the doorbell again, instead you hear a rattle and a click and then August comes strolling in.

Head snapping up, you try to look casual -- try to hide the tear tracks under a smile and hope he somehow misses the obvious. As if.

"You really need better locks. That one hardly even..." He trails off, having only just looked up from the metal shim in his hand to see you.

You try to summon a smile. Try to pretend he hasn't noticed what a wreck you are. "Yeah, that's... yeah. What brings you over August?"

"... No. We're not doing this." He states firmly after a long moment.

"Not doing what?"

"Pretending you're okay." He sighs, clearly frustrated. "Look, you know I'm no good at this, but... just -- let me get your mind off of whatever's wrong, okay? We could... watch a movie or something?"

"Or something?" You repeat with a small laugh. "Okay. Let's."

"Shut up." He says with no real heat. "Come on, let's move over to the couch, I doubt that chair's that comfortable."

At least for now, maybe things will be okay.

[shallowseeker]

For your consideration, because I've been thinking about this...

According to Chuck, Dean doesn't mind feeding Amara "into the meat-grinder with a wink and a smile."

And certainly there are layers to how he feels about doing that... Dean has always walked the line between doing what’s right and what’s necessary, but in this moment, his morality is being pushed to the breaking point.

It’s an existential crisis because it challenges everything he stands for, every instinct to protect and not betray. In this situation, his sense of duty and survival are at odds with his humanity—making him question what he’s willing to sacrifice to win. But ALSO.

Perhaps, deep down, he’s still reeling from the fallout of his and Amara's initial connection.

In Gimme Shelter, Dean is chafing over her decision to meddle:

DEAN: You're damn right. Look at you. Just another cosmic dick rigging the game. You're just like your brother. AMARA: It was a gift, Dean, not a trial. DEAN: I'm not angry, Amara. I'm furious. To know that all my life, I've been nothing but a hamster in a wheel, stuck in a story. And you know whose fault that is? Chuck's. And it ain't just me. We're all trapped. Sam and Cas and Jack and even you. And you want to talk about the people that he's killing right now— AMARA: Stop. ...

AMARA: Can I... trust you? DEAN: I would never hurt you.

Amara and Dean's initial relationship wasn’t just symbiotic; it was predatory.

And with Chuck’s voyeurism looming over the season, it’s all a trigger for Dean. Dean longs to be free—not just from Chuck’s voyeurism, but from Amara’s fascination with him. It’s not just about the manipulation; it’s the lack of consent, the way Chuck and Amara have both used him for their own agendas, to make Dean tap-dance, or to "see what could put out his anger/fire."

///

That said, Amara empathized with Dean

She wanted to return a lost loved one to Dean. She’s not alone. In fact, both Amara and Cas did that—Amara bringing Mary back to life in season 12, and Cas trying his best to bring Sam back to life in season 6.

But how they perceive and engage with Dean could not be more different. Amara: Her actions toward Dean come from a place of curiosity that borders on predation. At first, she seeks to feel what it is to be human through him.

When she revives Mary, it's at its core a way of experimenting with his emotions, not engaging with them. It's a desire to feel what Dean feels for her own sake, not truly honoring him as a person. (It's a bit of a throughline from how Crowley initially sees Demon Dean, "See what I see, feel what I feel.")

It’s tricky because empathy tends to be, at least in part, self-focused. That’s normal. But the difference here is that Amara wants to see what Dean does in response to a cosmic trigger. It’s a grand experiment.

In season 15, she's taking tentative steps toward her own experiences, but when it comes to Dean, there's still a niggling sense of predation or compulsion: "You have a distinctive musk. We will always help each other." Cas: On the other hand... Cas’s fascination comes from a place of genuine empathy and a burgeoning recognition of Dean’s humanity. Cas tries to witness Dean’s emotions as a detached observer but can't help resonating with them.

He finds that Dean helps him stand up for his own values—values he's been forced to bury over and over again. Quickly, Cas's engagement with Dean becomes based on a shared history, a shared fight, and shared values. They don't always agree, or even always help each other. But despite their sometimes very explosive differences of opinion, they usually come to a mutual understanding of one another.

When Cas revives Sam, it comes from a deep sense of guilt and frustration with his own kind. Cas wanted to protect Sam from a fate he felt was tied to his angelic brethren's actions—their failings and their manipulation of the human world.

Cas’s shame about his brothers' actions simmered beneath the surface, eventually boiling over into the white-hot rage of an authoritarian, but unlike Amara, Cas’s initial move was to simply to protect those he loved from the celestial forces he once served.

In short, Cas sees Dean’s pain, his flaws, and his humanity, not as something to be experimented and tinkered with, but as something to cherish and understand. To protect.

Overall, despite some occasional teasing and sniping, Cas witnesses and honors Dean’s humanity, recognizing it as something valuable and worthy of respect, even when, and maybe especially when, it's ugly. //// Anyway, it just seems to me that Dean's panic response in late season 15 regarding Amara could have been inflamed by his and Amara's underlying history.

Amara assumes she and Dean are bound by fate to always help each other—an inevitability, not a choice—and so, choosing to betray her becomes an act of rebellion in itself.

[lookatmysillies]

What are your light's on the other crAwl members? Like Kafka, Amara, Eunbin, Everest, and Jwi,,,

"Kafka was the one who came up with the idea to start this crAwl thing. She used to follow me around when we were kids. I mean, she followed me everywhere. It was annoying. I wanted to be alone, mostly. I didn't want to be there and I didn't want anyone there to notice me. I wanted time to pass without incident until time stopped. Kafka had other ideas. She's... the opposite of me. She wants to be everyone's friend. She practically is. I don't know how she does it. I guess something about her pulls you in. For such a bland place, she's... a bright spot. Who wouldn't want a bright spot? I thought maybe if I could be more like her, life would be easier. But I don't think that's true. She's too trusting. Too brittle. And something is going to shatter her someday. I can't be there to protect her from every blow.

Amara joined the group when she was only 14... I felt off about that. She secured her spot through auditioning, and by all means, she deserves it. But - ugh. She's too young. She's only a child. But I can't underestimate her. Aren't we all children? We were, at some point. I forgot when. She's more hardened than Kafka, or any of the others, really, despite her age. I hope she stays that way.

Eunbin isn't my classmate. She doesn't even go to ANAKT. In this way, she should be more of a mystery to me. But she's not. She's emotional. Tender. Her feelings about the people around her are too obvious. But there's something dark about her... I think she longs for a bright spot in her life. If that's what she was expecting by joining crAwl, I would think she's disappointed. We're a business, not a friend group. The work is hard. It's no walk in the park, is all I'm saying. As talented she is, she'd be better off home...

Everest is - strange? Cold and distant. You get the feeling she has more going on than she lets on. He's a season winner, more of a professional than any two of us combined, and he knows it. What's she even doing here? Or in Alien Stage again, for that matter? I guess time will tell.

Jwi is an anomaly. Sweet, but not personable. Odd. Like Everest, she hasn't been here as long as Kafka, Nilaavu, Amara, Eunbin and I. Maybe we just haven't clicked yet. I doubt we ever will. She seems to like performing. We have something in common, then.

And Nilaavu, she's a founding member with Kafka and me. I've known her almost as long as I've known Kafka. She warmed up to the idea of crAwl before I did. And, well... her and Kafka running off on their own to start a group without a plan would've gone horribly. So here I am."

Light: Kafka’s so weird but I tolerate her I guess

Also Light: Mentions Kafka 8 times

Kafka belongs to @/lulling-riot, Amara to @nottoonedin, Eunbin to @apple8ees, Everest to @verdantlights, Jwi to @imperfectnothing, and Nilaavu to @chevalperd!

Light is a closed-off person who keeps her emotions strictly separate from her speech, but she does care about the other members of crAwl, particularly her fellow founding members + Amara and Eunbin. She’s less certain about Jwi and Everest, but she does care for their well-being. She thinks of Kafka as her best friend and those other 3 whom she’s closest to as her sisters, but good luck getting her to admit it.

[fuckingmonsterjammed]

Amara, i know youre a car genius, so i wanted to ask: what type of car do you think Bam is? And do you know anything about the other vehicles? Share your headcanons or facts with meeeeeee

I'm pretty sure Bam is custom built. We're talking about the most advanced car ever created here, thats not just some car with a few modifications. His fenders (the parts over his wheels) make me think of a Chevrolet Corvette Stingray, preferably 3LT. I don't know what kind of car Bam exactly is but i'm positive he was based of some sports car. His body design makes me think of a Corvette but i'm pretty sure hes a custom. This is Batman.

Its similar to the Lightning McQueen debate. People have been brainstorming what car type Lightning is for YEARS. While its confirmed that the designers took multiple cars, like Corvettes and Dodge Vipers, and mishmashed them together to create one unique vehicle. I like to think this is the case with Bam too. And its very likely.

I think its the same with Bibi. Shes definitley some type of sportbike hybrid seeing the stunts she does. But she has more coverage and thicker wheels, so she is probably a hybrid too.

About Redbird i'm not sure. Its said hes a sports car but his build makes me think of a Hyundai Santro, wich is not a sports car, but he has scissor doors (doors that go up instead of open) a feature a lot of sports cars resemble. Another hybrid i guess.

They are probably all hybrids, Batwing and Buff seem like it too. Thanks for the ask bc this is really interesting!! :D

[poisontypefart]

ANOTHER POISON-TYPE SPECIALIST 🫵

Omg I totally missed this ask ahhh 😣

YES!!!!!! I love poison types so much, seriously underrated, aside from gengar :3

What kinda pokemon do you have?

[nottoonedin]

HI toon love you toon I hope your day has been good : D

I'm curious on Amara's thoughts on the other members of crAwl,,, like Kafka, Light, Everest, Eunbin, and Jwi,,,

Kafka (@/lulling-riot):

"Worries too much. She always fussing over me, and freaks out when I'm out of her line of sight for too long. Kafka says she's like my 'older sister,' as if that, I don't know, justifies it? I've never had an older sibling before, but I'm not sure if I want one of they all act like that.

I remember one time I was gone for like a day, and when I came back, the group all looked so worried, especially Kafka. She had started to question me, to ask me where I was, blah blah blah. But the look of worry on her face.. I couldn't help but start laughing! I could tell from the others faces that it was a strange reaction, but I didn't care. I thought it was funny, her concern for me, that's all.

I guess her interest in bugs is pretty cool. If it weren't for that, we wouldn't have our group's name, which is a pretty sick name. [Laughs]"

Light (@lookatmysillies):

"Again with the 'sister' thing.. aren't sisters supposed to be blood-related? [Sighs] Anyways...

Light's more laid back than Kafka, which I appreciate, I guess, she's not as.. clingy? She's more encouraging about how I perform on stage, we both seem to have the same views on the segyeins, those bastards.

Interesting that she's related to Castor, a previous winner of ALIEN STAGE.. Season 38, I think? If I were her, I would be focusing on training for the competition, rather than spending time dancing around in this little circus we call an idol group. She has the choice to leave, at least."

Everest (@verdantlights):

"I don't like looking in mirrors—

Everest is alright, I suppose. Quite different from the others, not the 'protective big sister' type. Though, she does have a sibling, right? Persimmon or something? Per— Pirouette! That's their name, I've seen them in the Garden for time to time.. kinda funky looking..

I admit, Everest is quite inspiring, being a previous winner of ALIEN STAGE and all. I do hope to be like him when I'm older. Though, she doesn't seem to like when others mention his fame and success, so I don't, to be safe. Kind of ungrateful, if you ask me...

If I were to call anyone my sister, it would have to be Everest, due to our appearances being so similar.. sometimes looking at him can be... overwhelming."

Eunbin (@apple8ees):

"Tch, she always seems to be so gloomy, seriously brings the mood down. Can't say I blame her, she's been through a lot. We share a similar struggle, though the knife seems to have cut her deeper. But moping won't help at all!"

Jwi (@imperfectnothing):

"I don't like her. Plain and simple. But I won't cause her trouble. I'll stay out of her way if she stays out of mine. We all know what happens to a rat that gets too curious."

CrAwl:

"As much as they want to believe it's our sisterhood that connects us, it's our pain that is the glue keeping us together, but it is also the very thing threatening to shatter us into tiny pieces."

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Cough I wanted to wait until I could draw something digitally but I'm impatient so have that doodle of teenage Amara (her crAwl era hehe)

[realprissygirl]

what are your favorite fashion shows? What fashion shows do you recommend for hyper-girly winter looks?

my absolute fav runways:

moschino cheap & chic, anna sui 1994, lanvin fall winter 1991, alaia spring 1992, d&g fall winter 1995, vsfs 2000, blumarine underwear fall winter 2004, sweetface fall winter 2005, momi intimo fall winter 2002, betsey johnson spring 1994, betsey johnson spring 2004, baby phat lingerie 2000, agent provocateur fall 2005

[helenestica]

Oc brainrot so bad I'm thinking what brand washing machines would my heartburn main 4 have

[tummyisyummy]

🧠 💀 for all your BC ocs, please :>

Let me get my list real quick 🚶🏾‍♂️

🧠- what do you like most about the oc

💀-Do your ocs have any phobias

Levi

🧠-I like everything but mostly his personality!

💀-he has entomophobia! Which is the fear of insects in general. Fun fact, he screams every time he sees a big spider

Mathew

🧠- I love the way he’s designed 😊 He’s just so huggable and so sad looking it’s adorable !!!

💀- he has anthrophobia which is the fear of people. His is minor but he does NOT like crowds or lots of people. He doesn’t even like to talk to them. He’s working on it tho👍

Ziya

🧠- I also like his design/concept. He also has rlly cool powers(that only I’ve seen) Green is a creative color and It causes me to create so many cool characters

💀- He doesn’t fear anything. It’s actually rlly hard to scare him. He doesn’t know why he’s like that 🤷🏽‍♀️

Clara

🧠-lol I barely mention her but I love her whole concept . A pink girl holding a big axe is like my favorite thing ever

💀-coulrophobia which is the fear of clowns. This happened because of a birthday party she had. One look at the hired clown and she started crying. Poor guy didn’t know what he did wrong.

Ophina

🧠- I like her eyes 👁️. Very cat like

💀-another entomophobia lol . They’re just so nasty to look at🤷🏽‍♀️

Cesar

🧠- His personality 😊 he’s just such a sweetheart bro 😭. He loves his family and would do anything for them . Fun fact out of all my ocs he gives the best hugs!!

💀-he has thanatophobia. (Fear of death so it relates to losing a loved one)After losing his first wife and seeing the decline of Mathew’s mental health he’s just been kinda of worried. He doesn’t want to lose anymore close family .

Vasilios

🧠- I love his hair. It’s such a pretty red. I love colors 😋

💀- I couldn’t find like a good official term for it but he just fears not being liked/loved. His dad doesn’t like him so he goes to his citizens for praise.(uhh fun fact they don’t like him either )

Theodora

🧠- I love her wings😆 They’re HUGE!! like bigger than Levi huge

💀- ig she would have atelophobia which is the fear of not being perfect or something. Idk she just fears not being strong enough.

Yanira

🧠- I love her energetic personality. She’s so cool y’all 😭 She always brightens up the mood of any room!!!

💀- sadly she also has thanatophobia. She lost her dad when she was young and she has gotten over it for the most part… BUT this great, amazing little guy named Mathew started to make her fear losing him🙄. (Fun fact Mathew somewhat gets worse)

Njeri

🧠- SHES STRONG 😆 and canonically super buff too 🦅

💀- she has thanatophobia. This only started again because of a small little ginger guy named Mathew. When she first met him the first thing she noticed was how depressed/ low energetic he was. She knows Cesar is trying his best with him but Mathew is just pushing him away. She’s afraid she might she him dead one day.

Dahlia

🧠- She’s a silly goober like Levi. She might not look like it but she’s funny 😋(personality)

💀- guess who also had thanatophobia. “Had” because when she got her big injury she didn’t was stressed out about dying and Leaving little levi alone. It sort of delayed her healing process but as she was getting better it slowly went away.

I’m not going to include new Gen au here I just don’t have enough ideas besides design 🚶🏾‍♂️ um but if I do this again I’ll start to include them 👍

[wildmayhemz]

How does hal feel about his dad? (⁠ㆁ⁠ω⁠ㆁ⁠)

Conflicted. He wants his dad to be a good man like Gabriel was to his mama all those years ago. But Amara didn’t lie to him about what she thought he’d become. Nightmares and a constant drive to be good and make her proud wears on him. It’s too much stress for a young man’s mind.

His path is still uncertain. Hal wants to look up to Gabriel and did until Elias Walker came to find his mama. He told her what his father became, what he’s done, and when Elias met the son of Gabriel Rorke, he was afraid. Not of him but of what Hal may become. It strikes a deep rift with the idea that he will be a good man when he’s older, and brings a new posible future of flames and destruction.

He feels haunted by the man he’s never met. Amara knows she raised a good man but will the inner turmoil be too much? Will he overcome the doubt and prevail through everyone screaming he’ll be just as hungry for blood as his father? Or will he be a spitting reflection of ‘The Ghost Killer.’

Im so excited!! This is my first ask about an oc!!(>v<)💖💖