#and again. these are not lesbians. this is functionally a straight relationship

[sightofsea]

experiencing like level 5 lesbian drama and the two people involved aren't even lesbians

[danatron1]

Help trans people in the UK!

TERF island sucks, however thousands of innocent people are harmed by their tyranny. Have sympathy for brits like me who would rather be born anywhere else.

An unprecedented attack on trans rights took place last Wednesday, with the UK Supreme Court writing trans people out of the Equality Act by redefining "woman" to only mean assigned female at birth.

Protests erupted across the country, with thousands taking to the streets to fight for trans rights. With our current government, our suffering falls on deaf ears.

It won't be enough to just fight in the streets, but we need to fight in the courts. The UK Supreme Court is the highest court in the country, with no chance of appeal. However, there is hope.

The European Court of Human Rights can step in if we can get them to recognise this blatant violation of human rights. Leaving the EU doesn't get you out of it! This legal case will be time consuming and expensive, so please donate all that you can to help us win this fight. We're fighting JK Rowling money, but together we can make a difference!

If you can't donate, please share instead!

If you need to know how bad this situation really is, keep reading.

The Supreme Court's ruling, where 3 men decided what "woman" means, puts all women at risk. Male police officers in the UK now have the power to strip search any women they believe to be trans.

It is an offence to enter a single sex bathroom and changing room different from your birth sex, but also to enter one where your presence is "likely to cause offence". This leaves trans men and women with nowhere to go, as well as gender-non conforming cis people.

Non-binary people naturally have zero legal recognition whatsoever, the existence of trans men has been ignored again, and intersex people have been written out of existence.

Trans people are always sent to male prisons regardless of sex. If you don't know the horiffic ramifications of this, Google v-coding.

Gender Recognition Certificates, which were supposed to update your legal sex for all purposes, have been rendered functionally worthless. Trans people are being forced into their assigned sex at birth.

Trans women are banned from rape crisis shelters, domestic abuse protection, and discrimination claims such as equal pay. Trans women have also unsurprisingly been banned from Women's sports.

Trans women are banned from all lesbian groups and organisations, and not just that, cis women are too if they're dating a trans woman. The court ruled that "lesbian" means "AFAB attracted to AFAB", making cis women dating trans women legally straight. The definition also means bi women aren't a thing in UK law now - just a sidenote!

Trans people sent to hospital wards are now always housed according to their assigned sex at birth, regardless of their comfort.

If you're a trans minor, your life is even harder. Puberty blockers and HRT, despite being completely safe and legal for cis people, are banned nation wide for trans youth. The only "help" offered is conversion therapy, which the government calls "exploratory therapy".

And if you're thinking "well, people won't comply" or "My workplace is friendly," then I regret to inform you that this isn't allowed. The UK expects all organisations to update their policies to be trans exclusionary by this summer, and the so-called "Equality and Human Rights Commission" has announced they will persue any organisation which doesn't immediately comply.

By the way, earlier this year the EHRC made the trans panic defense legal. Even kissing someone without disclosing that you're trans is enough to get you convicted with sexual assault. Trans people must always out themselves before any relationship forms or be charged with a sex crime.

Any organisation with bathrooms, changing rooms, rape crisis centres, etc. will be for Ed to exclude trans people. If an organisation lets a trans woman (who in UK law is now legally a man) into a women-only space, they lose the right to operate the single sex space, and can be successfully sued for not letting cis men into it.

The EHRC's recommendation? Trans people use their "powers of advocacy" to request "third spaces" with regards to toilets. THIS IS NOT A JOKE.

We CAN put a stop to this. We CAN defeat transphobia. Bigotry has fallen before and it can fall again. Be the side history remembers fondly.

We'll let you mock our accent if you stop innocent people from suffering first.

DONATE

[my-castles-crumbling]

Anon Advice Asks - April 18

give up anon (new), 🍋 anon, new relationship anon (new), pg anon, thumbs down anon (new), the anon, grounded anon, functioning anon (new)

give up anon

I don’t really know what to do anymore. My life just feels bad all the time and I’m almost never happy.

(The rest is redacted)

Hi <3

I know it feels absolutely awful to feel like this. I've been there, and it's like...indescribable. But please know that it does get better and the important thing is to be gentle with yourself. Do small things to take care of yourself, and remember that you are worthy of love. Remember that doing anything - taking a shower, going on a walk, finishing a small task - is better than nothing. And, if you're able to, finding a therapist might really help

Sending love!

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🍋 anon

Hi it’s 🍋 anon. I FINALLY made a new art account and I’ve started posting. It feels good but omg the pressure. I do want to DM you maybe once I get a little more comfortable I will. Also would to have ideas for what to draw . I’m so thankful to you. I’ve been trying really hard to like my art now after changing my style since I’m trying to be different than what I used to be before and it’s hard, but I’m getting there I think. I think I’m slowly getting there I think and hopefully I’ll soon be able to take commissions and be a great artist 😭😭😭😭

(I would love any encouragement, I do tend to be very self critical) Also if you happen to find me naturally I would love that. It’s a Wolfstar fanart that I’ve posted. But it’s ok if you don’t. Sorry for rambling.

Hi! I'm so glad you're posting art again! You should definitely DM me, I'd love to see it! Congrats on the new account!!

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new relationship anon

Heyy. So, help?

So I am openly trans, and my partner is straight, and it's a new relationship, too recent.

And since I am openly trans, (I have been in pride, I am in lgbtqia club in uni, have been going to doctor regularly, etc.) I thought he knew when we first met. Because like, we met at a pride-like celebration ( in January, it was kinda new year for gays? It is almost the same as pride believe me). He said he came to support his sister (lesbian) and such. We talked there. I didn't had a noticeable flag on me, my nails painted in trans flag colors and my outfit in those colors too but not a flag directly.

Anyway we exchanged numbers, we talked, we talked more, hangout, after about 3 months we started dating at 1 April (bad date to start dating I guess?)

And now, after 15 days, I realized he doesn't know I am..trans? Like. Is he blind.

Blond technically

Anyway, but like, right now I am stressing out because I thought he knew? I have plenty of things around me that screams trans and he doesn't know I guess? What if he doesn't want to date me anymore this is new I don't want to ruin it- I wanted this to be something that lasts..

How do I say him? He is straight, what if he doesn't like me.

Fuck, cas, I am gonna cry

hi!

I mean so...I don't think hiding it is going to go well, in this situation. Like, he's going to find out eventually, you know? And really, why date him if he doesn't like you for who you are?

I think it's just thinking about HOW to tell him? Do you feel safe telling him in person or should it be over text? Should you have someone with you if you tell him irl? I know it's bad to think about, but I've heard stories of trans people getting bad reactions when coming out, and you want to make sure to stay safe.

I mean, I'd hope that he knows. Or at LEAST is supportive, given that you met a a pride event and he supports his sister. But yeah, I'd be like "hey, I wanted to make sure you know..." and go from there.

But remember that if he has a bad reaction, it's NOT a reflection on you or your worth. You deserve love <3

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pg anon

for friends: I genuinely don't think you can do anything else. all you can do is be there for them as much as your mental health allows. from what you're saying, you've literally done anything I can think of, so the important thing is to just be there, listen, and give them love. But also remember it's okay to step away when you need it. You can't help anyone if you're not feeling well.

dizzy: it's....mildly concerning the doctors aren't doing more about this. Like...what's causing the low iron? It sounds super frustrating, but also I'd ask more questions. push them to actually do their jobs, you know?

friend w cancer: I can't say much to this other than that sounds so overwhelming and I'm sending hugs <3

coming out: I mean if you don't want to do a whole coming out thing, could you just say 'btw, I'm dating x' and leave it at that? And if they ask about sexuality/labels say you don't want to talk about it? That way they're aware, but it's more of a casual thing. Or do they know about your boyfriend?

Your positives made me smile!

<3

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thumbs down anon

I've been a lesbian for the past five-ish years and since I figured it all out I've been really secure. But recently there's been this one guy and I've just been really confused. I've questioned my sexuality a few times but always in a passing conforming to the expectations of my extended family kind of way and just the thought of daring a man would make me feel off. But that's not really the case here and I'm just lost I guess. I'm not really too invested in labeling or figuring out this new thing anytime soon because quite frankly, I'm not sure I like him back. I feel like I do but I struggle sometimes to tell platonic and romantic feelings apart. And beyond that, I am terrified of commitment. Ans unfortunately I don't know him too well. I've known him technically for four years but not until the last week did we talk. I did tall to him about it but I really don't know how to process any of this. One one hand I feel like I'm betraying myself (for sure due to my fear of change) but at the same time I know I'm not. All in all, feelings are weird and I'm not a fan👎

Hi!

I, too, am not a fan of feelings lol

I mean if he's aware of your conflicting feelings and he's chill with it and you're also comfortable, maybe you could just...explore your feelings? Hang out with him and see what happens naturally? It's okay to explore feelings without knowing exactly what will happen, as long as everyone's comfortable and no boundaries are broken. It's also okay to not tell people until you're ready. It's also okay do decide you don't want to explore this! Honestly, whatever feels right to you (again, as long as everyone's comfortable and boundaries aren't broken).

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the anon

heyyy, it’s the anon!! Been awhile since I popped in, nuh? (Like nearly 6 weeks, damn)

Anygays- I’ve got words to speak and such (obvi, why else would I be here?)

So, I’ve been doing better at setting up boundaries with my partner. It’s been a slow struggle, but I have begun doing so.

There is one caveat to all this

Let me preface this by saying I’m in a special program for school (Idk if I’ve menti9ned it before, but yeah. Special program)

My partner has been missing so much school that they’re transferring to online instead of in person. Sad part? I feel way more comfortable at that thought. I kinda feel like a horrible partner because of how I feel about it. And it’s not even cuz I know it’ll help them, it’s because I know that I don’t have to put on as much of a mask during school.

I don’t get it, I don’t really know what to think.

Ignoring the negative/advice seeking part of my ask, I do have good news!! I made a friend à few months back, but just started talking to him more frequently. And guess what?? I managed to get him into Marauders. He literally stayed up all night to learn all about it.

So far his fav marauder is Remus, kin is regulus, and overall his fav ship is wolfstar

(I also got a very ‘angry’ text from him saying “WHY DIDNT YOU TELL MY BARTY’S NAME WAS BARTHOLOMEW” obvi, Barty’s name isn’t bartholomew its Bartemus or however the hell you spell it. But it was funny)

Hi!

I don't think you should feel guilty for your feelings. Sometimes spaces is what people need to sort their feelings out, you know? I'm glad you're working on boundaries, it a difficult thing! Remember that your partner's reaction to your boundaries is also a key sign.

Omg Barty's name being Bartolomeu would be awful.

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grounded anon

hi! I answered your ask right here :) God, what your mom said is so messed up and disgusting though, that's infuriating. I hope you know how wrong she is.

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functioning anon

hi cas. do you have any advice on how to start actually living, like being a functioning human being, instead of letting your mind float through brainrot and just generally hating existance?

idk if you'll get it but i'm just feeling very dead rn.

I totally get this. For me, making to do lists of little things I need to do to take care of myself (brush teeth, take a shower, eat) and then crossing them off is super motivating and helps me get out of bed on those days. Maybe that could help?

[itsacautionarytale]

Random Mean Girls headcanons im unrelenting about [bway musical & movie musical]

• Karen, very platonically, calls Gretchen “honey”, “sweetie” and “baby”, because she knows that’s what people who love each other call each other. Again, it’s so platonic, but Gretchen reciprocates it.

• Janis’ favourite food is burgers and she loves everything on it - as much sauce and salad as possible.

• Cady is autistic.

• Also Cady hates buffets and this was found out because Janis’ and Damian decided it would be a good idea to help her acclimatise to American food. Cady had a meltdown.

• Gretchen has severe but extremely high functioning anxiety. [This is practically canon lmao]

• Gretchen has notes folders on her phone with everyone’s details. She knows your medical history, darkest secrets, favourite food etc.

• Karen is so sensory seeking. She has no idea about her limits because her introception is terrible. She loves crunchy foods and at parties, drinks far too much because she doesn’t realise it’s too much until it’s too much.

• Regina has a terrible relationship with her mum.

• Aaron is very traumatised by his time with Regina and is so shocked when Cady doesn’t display the behaviours that Regina did.

• Betsy Heron has a special interest in parenting and, post spring-fling, her house becomes The safe space for Cady and her friends. [Betsy is autistic too]

• Damian fucking loves pizza. Easily eats a large pizza himself. Favourite food.

• Cady adores chicken wings. Janis tells her she’ll hate them because they’re so messy, but Cady adores them.

• Cady is straight, Janis is a lesbian, Damian is gay, Regina is an extremely closeted lesbian, Karen is pan, Gretchen is unlabelled, and Aaron is straight. [Damian is also trans].

• Karen has dyslexia and several other undiagnosed learning disabilities / neurodivergencies.

• Cady hates the taste and feeling of alcohol. Still drinks at every single party though.

I know ive focused on some characters more, but these are just the headcanons that I’m so about. The hcs that are my definite, if that makes sense. Feel free to send asks and ask more about different hcs!!! I have so many thoughts

[yourtoradorasextendedwarranty]

so does that make straight trans men lesbians? dick, beard, and all? or does that suddenly change things

of course, I dont doubt phalloplasty isnt enough for you either. Or anything really.

Let me make you understand this.

Gay: Male attracted to Males

Lesbian: Female attracted to Females.

If you are willing to date a person that is fully presenting as the opposite sex, but still NOT able to change their biological sex because, you can't, definitionally you are STILL Homosexual. At most I could give you is PRESENTING as being in a Heterosexual relationship but again. It needs to be understood that attraction to biological sex is what makes a person gay. If it wasn't the gay people ashamed of themselves in the 80s-90s could have just dated MANLY women. But they like dick. And you can't get a functional natural dick to have sex with. You can get one that looks semi real and half ass works. But you will never BE the opposite sex.

Changing what gay and lesbian mean is a middle finger to people who are gay and lesbian. Because it implies they are attracted to someone that is feminine or masculine RATHER than to a person's sex.

[bengiyo]

Love Sea Ep 5 Stray Thoughts

Last week, Mut followed Tongrak to Bangkok, and had to suffer the Mook Worrywart Gauntlet. Tongrak has put up walls again, and Mook had Mut sign a contract with Rak about how their relationship will function. Rak is prepared to support Mut, and even pay for school, but Mut keeps insisting that he is worth whatever Rak wants to pay. Vie is having a great time with all of this, and went with Mook to buy clothes for Mut, who also reminded Rak that a contract can't control his heart.

I feel like Vie definitely gave Mook an order to give the guys some space.

I do like Mut using this ridiculous contract against Rak.

Chapter 5: Supporting a Guy is No Big Deal

I really like the clothes Vie got for Mut. She gets him.

Hold on, this omelet with crab curry sounds good.

Congratulations to Mook on finding a suitor who likes listening to her bemoan her responsibilities that she clearly takes seriously.

I love this woman who handed Mook a drink. She said, "Drink your juice, Shelby."

Grocery date my beloved. I also like grocery shopping after a decent meal. I find I buy more practical things. This is the kind of sponsorship and product placement I don't mind.

Mut is actually so attractive for insisting he will take care of Rak in a grocery store.

I love the idea of Mut and Vie becoming friends and teaming up.

Yes, Mook, please spell out the plot and themes for the audience. We can't let the Wedding Plan discourse run unchecked again.

Wow, we have two shows running where a big ole lesbian thinks they're being hit on by a straight girl.

Wow, is Prin a half sister from the dad's new marriage? She is so rude. Why come to this man's house to start shit?

"Can I walk to you?" My man.

My man Mut made all this real food and it's going to waste.

Y'all, if I am ever crying over an omelette and rice, please send help immediately.

I really love this changing room scene. From Mut dropping the bullshit and making Rak be real, to tucking that shirt back in.

So much of this show works because Peat is really good at expressing feelings with his face.

Okay, I really don't like Prin. We haven't had a woman show up being this rude in a long time. I'm glad Mook spent much of the episode away from Mut, since it revealed she just has an incessant need to be useful and also complain. I'm also relieved that Mut got Rak back on the romance track. I was frustrated last week.

[chadgamer]

this past february marked the 10 year anniversary of me first starting testosterone, but it hits kind of funny because it's not actually 10 years on T for me because of that crazy little time where i went off T to try to be a woman again. one thing i can say is that i have in fact given basically every possible gender iteration for myself a shot since figuring out i was probably trans, and the one thing that's done for me is made me realize that i am for all intents and purposes a garden variety dude. gender navel gazing under the cut!

the weird thing about that for me is that i just don't give a shit about being a man or manhood or masculinity in any particular way, i bear no allegiance to men as a class, if i could choose my gender i would be nonbinary and do intermittently label myself as such but honestly it's a political thing more than it is representative of me existing in the world as anything other than a "man". i feel kind of complicated about the fact that it was definitely in part moral baggage about woman being the "good" gender and man being the "bad" gender that led me to detransition (and also lesbian being the "good" sexuality unfortunately, I have always struggled to square my attraction to women w/ my masculinity and the pain i have experienced as a "woman" on the receiving end of male sexual attention), though of course that was a lot more wrapped up in my specific experiences of trauma than anything else. the other piece there was also trying to parse the distinction between gender and gender expression, what being a man/woman/anything else means relative to masculinity/femininity/androgyny. i think i got so hung up on the fact that women can be masculine and my lack of internal sense of gender identity beyond masculinity that i couldn't prove to myself that i WASN'T a woman, therefore... i had to be one? or at least give being a masculine woman a shot since i'd never done it before? of course i ended up slipping into feeling like i needed to perform a certain degree of femininity anyways, because at least for me that's been an inescapable part of playing the woman role. ultimately what i realized is, for me, what makes me a man is my masculinity. not in any spiritual or psychological sense, just in the practical sense. i am at my most comfortable and happy when i'm on testosterone with a beard and short hair and a deep voice in men's clothing. this means that i pass as a man, that i functionally move through the world as a man, and this is something i actively enjoy and feel good about. theoretically i could still identify as a woman, but... it just doesn't really make sense, does it? i don't like being referred to as one because to me it indicates perceiving some kind of feminine quality in me. again, i struggle with this, because i don't don't believe masculinity = maleness. but for me, functionally, that's how my own gender seems to work. understanding my own "man" quality coming simply from the degree of masculine embodiment that i find the most comfortable has also allowed me to shed any weird baggage about gender/sexuality moralism. i know that when people say "men are bad" they don't mean "masculinity of any and all kinds is morally wrong and makes you a worse person", so i don't need to take that personally - and if they do mean that then they're not someone who'd want to hang out with me anyways, so nothing lost there. my own attraction to femininity/androgyny is queer no matter how you slice it, but i think i'm also beyond the point where engaging at all in "straightness" makes me feel evil or bad because i bear no conformist allegiance to "straightness" nor has my extremely limited access to it ever made my life remotely easier, as someone who gets homophobically harassed in public whether i'm out with my partner OR out alone. the fact that my partner and i can in any way pass as a straight couple at this point in our relationship is something i actively appreciate due to it making us both feel safer, rather than something i feel ashamed about anyways tl;dr

[lesbian4mbb]

okay i can literally guarantee no one is ever gonna read this but like i’m gonna write it anyway okay

ENOLA HOLMES IS A LESBIAN AND NOBODY CAN CONVINCE ME OTHERWISE.

if netflix had even BOTHERED to read the books before creating the movies maybe then they might had included her obvious queerness in the movies. actually tell a lie, they’d always not include it BECAUSE NETFLIX CLEARLY HATES LESBIANS LIKE WHY TF CANCEL IANOWT IT WAS SUCH A GOOD SHOWWWWW

anyways i also despise how tewkesbury was literally aged up four whole years JUST to be able to be with enola. something doesn’t sit right with me there. it’s literally netflix finding a way to avoid making enola THE LESBIAN SHE TRULY IS UGHHH

I QUOTE FROM THE DAMN BOOK:

how strangely it affected me to hear her say my true name in that way. gripped by emotion, i could neither move nor speak.

“shhh.” her touch made me want to weep, but i quite needed to function.

i thought in how many ways i felt myself a soulmate to her.

my movements caused her to lift her head and stare at me. i felt once again that sense of electric shock when our gazes met and locked.

i apologise to my english teacher but i’d much rather spend hours and hours analysing those few simple lines rather than the whole of macbeth. and i’m sure i could write a much larger essay about those few lines than all of shakespeare’s work.

and i mean, have you SEEN the way she is around tewkesbury compared to cecily?! she’s all huffy around him and CLEARY finds him an idiot and rightfully so. despite that you’ll still get people cooing “awww they’re so cute together. clueless boy and genius girl.” UM HELLO?? THAT IS NOT a good ship dynamic and i stand by that. a genius deserves nothing less than another genius. and a fool deserves nothing more than another fool. having enola and tewkesbury together really flattens enola’s potential in my opinion. and the time period as well?? women couldn’t vote, constantly forced into marriages, men dictated their entire lives. the list goes on and on, and i seriously can’t understand why these movies couldn’t solely focus on empowering women. you don’t need a male love interest in a movie like that. a female love interest however…… WINK WINK NETFLIX.

anyway it just seriously pisses me off STOP MAKING PEOPLE STRAIGHT UGHHHH

if i turn my tv on to watch the third movie whenever it comes out and i see tewkesbury and enola in a romantic relationship i will quite literally throw up, smash my tv and leap out of my window.

good day to you all.

[sunflowerspirals]

Happy Pride, young wizards! 🌈

Tell me about your rainbow OCs—wizards, pirates, and NPCs alike!

Here are mine:

💀 Ophelia Starshroud is bisexual! ��

A hilarious mishmash of characteristics, this one: bisexual, polyamorous, and intensely introverted. Her first significant intimate relationship comes in her mid twenties and is actually with the asexual Dasein, whose dynamic with her could perhaps be best described as a QPR. Some time after the events of Arc 4 she meets Sumi (who can be found right down there ↓), and the two eventually act on mutual feelings of attraction and strike up a romantic relationship, with the understanding that Dasein is Ophelia's partner just as much as Sumi, albeit in a different way. Outside of Sumi and Dasein, Ophelia (again, massively introverted) doesn't tend to notice many people in an intimate light.

🌸 Sumi Fallenblossom is a lesbian! 🛼

LESBIAN PRIDE ⚢ LESBIAN POWER ⚢⚢ Has known she only likes girls from quite a young age and is very comfortable and confident in her identity. Loud, out, and very proud. A massive flirt who will not hesitate to steal your girlfriend. Cue up the Hayley Kiyoko when she walks into the room—Kissed your girls and made you cry, boys~—because she exudes such Strong Top Energy™️ that she leaves straight girls questioning themselves left and right. Ironically, when it comes to Ophelia, Sumi is rather romantically shy, prone to luminescent blushes and copious amounts of giggling at the slightest sign of affection from her girlfriend.

🌼 Suri Liontooth is a lesbian! ✍🏻

Your friendly neighborhood cottagecore Jewish lesbian. More focused on working on herself and healing from her verbally/emotionally abusive childhood at the moment, but she absolutely loves the thought that she will someday have a wife, and she frequently entertains pastoral daydreams of building a quiet, sustainable, quintessentially cottagecore life with a woman who shares her values of responsible storytelling, compassionate honesty, and courageous vulnerability.

🧊 Yulia Seafang is a lesbian! 🐺

Dyke with a capital D. Lifting weights—and various other heavy objects—to impress the ladies. If you're a man, do not even look in her direction because she will eat you alive. Kind of a fuckboy, if we're being honest.

🌺 Ocean Prismshimmer is bisexual! 🌊

Pasifika queen of febfemmery. Boys are nice to look at, but girls are absolutely radiant. Lowkey a flirt. Ironically, her brain tends to short-circuit when a pretty girl starts flirting back. In Pasifika, same-sex relationships are considered completely normal and unremarkable, and part of the culture shock Ocean experiences upon starting her schooling at Ravenwood is that such unconditional acceptance is not guaranteed in other worlds of the Spiral. Just as she proudly promotes native Pasifika cultural practices, at home and abroad, she also campaigns for Spiral-wide acceptance of bisexuals and gay people, particularly fellow Pasifika in moe aikāne.

🔥 Abigail Soulpyre is bisexual! 🎲

Functional bi (as much as a feral child with social anxiety and scads of trauma can be considered "functional," anyway). Leans slightly more toward girls than boys but is really just appreciative of beautiful people of either sex, which she often expresses through her pencil sketches. Currently not dating; generally speaking, people (of both the female and male persuasions) still freak her out, and between her brother and her schooling, she's got her hands quite full enough. Still, she likes to fantasize sometimes about finding a partner, someone who accepts her—all of her—for who she is and makes her feel safe and cared for, and enjoying a quiet courtship. Maybe someday...

🦇 Michael Soulpyre is gay! 🪻

Disaster gay. OH GOD BOYS ARE SO HOT WHAT DO I DOOOOOO. One (1) boy compliments his makeup and he's going to Abigail to commission designs for wedding attire. It would help if he knew how to socialize in general, but he doesn't. Someone send help. The kind of person to use the word "femboys" when describing his type on his Spellbindr (wizard Grindr) profile. And then follow it up with "/pos." He's trying, you guys, he really is.

[thatgirl4815]

Side Character Roles/Functions

I've been thinking about the roles of side characters in this series and how they function as narrative devices. I have no specific point to laying them all out other than I think it's interesting to take a look back at what they've shown us about the main characters.

Yo & Plug - I'm putting them together because they're almost always in scenes together. To no one's surprise, I think they are intended primarily as a mirror to SandRay's relationship. What is first presented as a seemingly ideal relationship turns sour fast when Sand and Ray catch their breakup outside of the bar. Yo is afraid of commitment much in the same way that Sand is afraid of setting boundaries or rejecting people he cares about lest he lose them. In that way, Yo's behavior almost contradicts Sand's own--Yo is so afraid of losing someone that she opts to leave them first, while Sand is so afraid of losing someone even if they treat him badly. There are so many juicy comparisons to Sand and Ray's commitment to each other.

Atom - Also unsurprisingly, Atom functions as both a point of conflict for Boston and, more importantly, a turning point for Boston in his own self-reflections. What makes Atom different than Boston's other hookups is that Boston had established a genuine friendship with him prior. Not only that, but Boston was under the impression that Atom was 100% straight up to the point that Atom asked if he could try things out with Boston. Judging from Boston's reaction, the fact that this friendship leads to a sexual encounter is disheartening in that it once again affirms Boston's worth as coming from his body. This topic hasn't been explored in too much detail, but I like that the situation with Atom subtly hints at it. Additionally, we see Nick tell Atom that he knows what it's like to be in love with someone who doesn't love him back (right in front of Boston!) which is a poignant line for Boston to hear. Boston was already aware of this, but in light of his recent revelations, I think it hits harder to hear Nick say it in the interaction between AtomBostonNick.

Boeing - Boeing is here to ruin everybody's day. I think he serves multiple functions given that he is involved in multiple relationships (I'm sure he will have an important function in BostonNick's relationship as well judging from the Ep12 preview). For TopMew, Boeing is both another road block for them to move past and proof that though Mew wants to forgive Top, he still wants to take revenge against him. Boeing is a convenient way for Mew to take that revenge; Boeing even invites it. Mew deciding not to take the bait though is what allows him and Top to move forward. For SandRay, Boeing is a source of conflict that they must overcome too, but he also plays a very integral role in illustrating Sand's boundary issues.

April - April is here to be the unproblematic gf of the year. In my own personal opinion, I think she deserves better than Cheum. I do not think Cheum is a bad person, just like I don't think anyone in this series can be considered a bad person, but her behavior--especially with the Atom/Boston incident--frustrates me to no end. But back to April. I think her relationship with Cheum is important in that it remains fairly consistent even though it has its own issues. I'm glad they encountered some conflict to remain realistic and show the audience that not even the lesbians are safe from drama.

Moms/Dads - I won't go too deep into this since there are so many avenues (might be better-suited for a longer post), but moms and dads play an important role for many of the main characters, particularly Sand, Ray, Boston, and Mew (with variation of course). Contrasting the relationship that Ray had with his mom to Sand's mom/Mew's moms illustrates how Ray has been lacking in a familial support system for much of his life. On the other hand, Sand's father is an absent figure while Ray's father is only mostly absent, though he does care about saving Ray from his mother's fate. We also see small glimpses of Boston's father and Nick's father; Boston's father is an especially good indicator of the role of reputation, expectation, and even toxic masculinity in Boston's life.

[beetlejuce]

I might be spiralling so uh. Gender/sexuality vent under the cut, all 1,000+ words of it.

When I first came out to my family as trans FTM at around 13, it didn't work out in the end due to reaching a plateau following social transition and a haircut, coming from my parents not supporting me and my hesitation. I was beginning to explore my attraction to men. I learned to love men the way gay men love men because of this, because I saw myself as a boy at the time, so that's just the way things flowed.

Because of the complex relationship I've had with my gender identity since adolescence there will always be something queer about the essence of my attraction to men, no matter how it manifests. As of right now, I don't feel an urgency to change anything about my body to make it less feminine/more masculine. Am I dysphoric? I don't know, it's past midnight, so I don't exactly trust how I feel about myself now. If I were stranded on a desert island I'd be chill with what I've got, as of February 2025.

But still... post-desisting, while I did what felt most authentic to my own self, I have a lot of woes about my role as someone who appears and functions primarily as a cis(❓)het(❌) woman. I won't lie, there is comfort in the privilege of being seen as such, and not having to deal with the brunt of being visibly LGBT in a conservative state. Had I continued my transition in Part 2 Electric Boogaloo of coming out as trans again last year, my life would have been infinitely harder. I'd lose my extended family, the respect of my peers, and my entire livelihood.

But there is part of me, something so visceral, raw, and impassioned, about the way I love men, and my connections to the way men love each other. It can be oh so tender. It can be downright filthy. I find something so beautiful about it that runs so much deeper, in a way that I can't even put into words. It is nothing like what I've observed of how straight cis women are attracted to men. I don't think I'm a man, but I so badly wish I could experience gay love. As someone who's lived as a trans man for developmental parts of my life, I was more deeply entrenched in gay male culture, community, customs, and history than anything close to straight "culture." If by culture, proudly unwashed man-ass, Crocs with socks, and women becoming their boyfriends' mothers count as such. I hate it. So much. I have never felt more alienated by anything, ever, than when I think about cisheteronormative standards of what a relationship should be like. How men and women should look. Conventional norms of how women should act. I want absolutely nothing to do with it. All the games men and women play with each other, the expectations. Oh my god. Literal. Hell. The average cishet men of my generation are also just fucking pigs, and I feel doomed when I imagine myself ending up with one forever. I'm sure you get what I'm hinting at if you've made it this far (why?). I want nothing to do with it, but alas, that IS the gender I am attracted to. On the other hand, I couldn't relate to lesbian culture either, or at least not entirely. I do relate to gay (male) culture though, in a way that is near and dear to my heart. Every piece of pain gay/bi men feel for who they love is another knife to the heart for me, it feels like an attack on them like an attack on myself. I've always felt a pull towards man-loving notions of loving and attraction to men. I am a woman. Well.

By dictionary definitions and societal standards, I function like a regular-degular cishet woman. I'm okay with being perceived as a woman currently, as I go with what feels right at the moment, a fact that has proved itself to be clear since 2016. People can't usually tell what a disaster my relationship with gender has been over the years just by looking at me. And while I do consider myself bisexual, I also, admittedly, have a streak of being boy-crazy. In practice, I am the eeeeevil stereotype of "bisexual girl who isn't actually that into women" that everyone got up in arms about when that Who Is Truly Allowed At Pride Parades And Chappell Roan Concerts discourse happened last year.

So like, I'm losing regardless. Is it too much to want genuine connection to a guy with a kind heart? Oh, that's right, every man I end up liking is either taken or GAY.

There's a reason why I'd never dare to admit this to the cis gay men I do know. They'd look at me like I was insane and told them I have 7 nipples, which, 1/2. I've seen how horrible some can be about trans men, genderqueer people, and feminine gays in the gay community, I don't feel the need to justify shit and prove myself. I just am. There is no acceptable way of explaining why I feel the way I do about men because this fact is mine and my own only. It doesn't even make sense to me, so why would it make sense to someone who's likely never had to introspect on their identity in their life?

Am I just like, a genderfucky girlfag? Can I even say that? Am I queering and overcomplicating something as simple as liking dudes? Did I fry my brain with AO3? Whatever. I need to date a bisexual artsy dude with weird pronouns. Get yelled at for feeling more "myself" when around queer men. Ogle guys' pits and fall asleep thinking about jockstraps and eating male ass like literally none of the other straight girls that have ever existed, ever. In the history of ever.

Y'know what it is? After rereading this bullshit? I need healthier, wholesome examples of what M/F relationships can look like, because my GOD it is bleak. I still love like this though.

[violets-in-her-arms-writes]

WIP introduction : Par Amour de la Vengeance

Titre : Par amour de la Vengeance

Genre : urban fantasy

Status : third version

Target wordcount : 100k (but only ~50k will be written by me since it's a project with my best friend 🥰)

Actual wordcount : 11 683 (as of 05/11/2023)

TW : blood, violence

Synopsis :

Revenge. That's what keeps us alive, what keeps us from being swallowed up. It helps us preserve our past. The past that made us suffer so much. We made mistakes, we have wounded others, we have lied, we have betrayed. And we are all of this at once: two women wounded, two women betrayed. Two errors of nature that should never have been allowed to exist. But here we are. Our hearts and our magic are the essence of our survival. Our hearts may be black, dry or atrophied, our magics perverted or hesitant, but they have preserved us from the ravages of time. Few understand our way of life. But it doesn't matter. Revenge guides our steps. And that's the only thing they need to know about us. We are the Ravens of the Shadows. The common folk knows it, and no one looks any further. And yet, we sometimes hesitate…

Please don't judge this (terrible) synopsis. It's from 2013 and I took it straight from our wattpad story (which hasn't been updated since 2017...). I'll rewrite it later because it explains nothing about what is actually going on, but later because right now my brain is fried and it's time for me to sleep XD

Settings : a government agency in charge of regulating the uses of magic and the relationships with the other dimensions/species ; a house that will never be a home again ; a shack in the middle of bumfuck nowhere, France

Characters:

Lorelei Douxruisseau || [15 000+] || bisexual || Red Witch, High Priestess to the Goddess of Revenge || clinically insane ; if "danger? I laugh in the face of danger" was a person ; half-magic half-tree ; most powerful witch to ever walk the earth

→ Dalia Ravens || [80+, looks 40] || bisexual || Red Witch || Lorelei mortal persona ; functional human being ; competency kink ; actually has feelings

Némésis || goddess of revenge || teetering on the brink of insanity ; doesn't emote right ; cold and calculating

Arianna Shadows || [400] || straight || former black witch || currently trying to cleanse her magic ; in love with a dead man ; eaten by guilt

Prudence Ruthven || [37] || bisexual || black witch || head of the torture department ; coldblooded ; done with Dalia's shit but willing to tolerate it because she's hot ; mother of two

Jørgen Ruthven || [37] || bisexual || werewolf || stress is for the weak ; family-oriented ; paperwork is afraid of him ; father of two

Rélina Ravens || [15] || lesbian || water witch || Dalia's long-suffering daughter ; doesn't understand how potions work ; ran away from her posh school to run after her mother ; thinks Arianna is the worst™

Other characters include several temperamental familiars, dozens of well-meaning agents, ghosts from the past, a dead man walking, several goddesses and a flesh-eating old lady.

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So this is my NaNo project for this year, but it's technically an old story since my best friend and I started writing it in 2011.

[diedandwenttobobevans]

First Journal Entry 7/21/24

Hi. Hello. I'm so fucking bad at journals. I've been wanting to do this for a bit tho. It's going to be a big dumb thought dump. Don't really care about coherence, this is just a habit I really wanted to get into. Theres a part of me thats like, anxious? I'm dealing with some really bad self image issues right now. Lots of stuff going on in my life. I've been insanely insecure and self concious recently and so even just the idea of airing my greivances out publicly with the protection of anonymity is nerve wracking to me. Everything in life feels overwhleming and. just. AAAAAAAAAA

Here's the thing. I'm a sorry excuse for an adult. I'm 35, just got out of a mediocre and toxic 13+ year relationship with my ex back in April. It was a long, dragged out death to a unfulfilling existence that I held onto too long. Dear Jesus I just realized I'll be 36 in 3 weeks. Fuck. Ready to get off Mr. Bones ride already. I am she/her/they (oh hey, that they is new but dont want to dwell on it too much) bi- lesbian leaning mess of a human being. I don't have spawn thank god. That's not to say I dislike kids or anything, I just don't find I am a patient and responsibile enough person to care for one. I barely can take care of myself.

So mental disorders. I haven't been properly diagnosed. Gotta love the American Health Care system. But it's more so I don't do anything. I don't take care of myself in the very obvious ways and I am always prcrastinating and straight up avoiding difficult and stressing tasks that every other normal ass person can do. So I haven't bothered with getting health insurance. I don't have a traditional job that provides benefits. God, I sleep so much but everthing tires me. Even just writing this out is mentally exhausting. I don't know whats wrong with me. I think its ADHD, Depression, Anxiety, maybe something else. Autism? BPD? Maybe I'm just a hypochondriac. I don't know how people can function if they feel like I do. I barely want to get out of bed.

My brain is starting to fry and I'm struggling to sit and type these feelings out. Again, so overwhelmed. It feels like I have so much to dump here. But at the same time I don't know what I want to talk about? If its not obvious, I'm not a self actualized person. I'm struggling defineing myself and my goals and what I want out of life. I'm hoping journaling practices will help with that.

I hung out with my brother and two of his friends on Saturday. One is renting out his basement, hes a long time friend of my bro's wife. Great guy, but I kinda want him to move out so I can take over the basement. Hes been house hunting recently so it seems possible. The other friend is a woman I just met this year, not sure how long of a friend shes been with Bro but shes openly Pan, outgoing, smart, adorably nerdy. Fine as hell. An amazingly caring person. I, the absolute garbage bag I am, went to a party at the beguinning of the year and not knowing anyone there, drank fast and furious and went a little loud and first met Adorable Nerd (not knowing the extent of her nerdiness) while plastered, trauma dumped about my failing relationship. Claimed to "like her vibe" THEN GAVE HER ASS A SQUEEZE according to other party goers. I'm so ashamed. and cowardly to boot so the next 2 parties I seen her at I avoided her out of embaressment. The fact she still wants to talk and even has invited me out to future hangouts is insane. She loves DnD and wants to play so bad. Maybe she would want to go to Gen Con? Trying to enjoy roleplaying games and board games is kind of weird when theres a lot of history of my ex and those activities, but damn it, I like that stuff. I may of learned a lot from him about the subjects but that doesn't make me not interested anymore.

Anyway, AdoraNerd seems intent on trying to "help" me. Trying to get me out and about, talk about my feelings. It's been 3 months now since the break up. I guess I should leave the house. Is she into me, is this weird to ask. Why would she care. I told her she would do amazing in psychology

God this a jumbled mess of thoughts. I would love to get better at writing and organzing my brainworms. For now though I think I'll end it here and try to make this a daily practice.

I want to add what I'm listening to here as well. Remember on myspace and xanga and most people ended their blogs with "currently lsitening to/currently watching/ currently playings/currently eating ect" stuff? I want to continue the tradition. What would all the important stuff be? I also kind of want to get into a collages for my mood so I have some kind of creative outlet outside of work.

Listening: SUPERHEAVEN - I'VE BEEN BORED / LITHONIA - CHILDISH GAMBINO

Watching: THE TICK (1994)

[cantsayidont]

Some movies, considered chronologically:

THE FLAMINGO KID (1984): Nostalgia-burdened period piece, set in 1963, about working-class kid Jeffrey (Matt Dillon), who gets a summer job parking cars at an exclusive beach club called El Flamingo, starts dating a rich girl (Carole R. Davis), and becomes fascinated by her father (Richard Crenna), a self-made sports car dealer and local card sharp who thinks college is sucker's game. This alienates Jeffrey's own father (Hector Elizondo), a stalwart plumber who doesn't want to see Jeffrey squander his chances of bettering himself. The story is thus a sort of YA prototype of Oliver Stone's later WALL STREET — a Reagan-era morality play about a young man caught between two father figures, one representing the Lure of Easy Money and the other a paragon of Honest Hard Work — badly undermined by its absurdly idealized longing for the alleged innocence of the Kennedy era (underlined by an obnoxious oldies soundtrack). It offers a meaty role for Crenna, but as a drama, it has less substance than FERRIS BUELLER'S DAY OFF. Davis's character is such a nonentity that you keep forgetting she's there, and the way she ends up functioning as a proxy for Jeffrey's obsession with her dad is awkward. CONTAINS LESBIANS? Nope. VERDICT: A simple-minded story blinded by its rose-colored glasses.

THE JOY LUCK CLUB (1993): Sudsy but affecting episodic adaptation of Amy Tan's novel about four middle-aged Chinese women and their strained relationships with their Chinese-American daughters, starring Ming-Na Wen and nearly every other Chinese actress working in the U.S. at the time. The way the script segues between the characters' respective stories is clunky, and it often teeters on the brink of schmaltz, but there are moments of real dramatic power amongst the more superficial tearjerker moments, and you'd have to have a stonier heart than I to not sob at the bittersweet ending. Strong acting helps, with Tsai Chin particularly good as Auntie Lindo. CONTAINS LESBIANS? It seems like it should, but alas. VERDICT: Heavy-handed at times, but undeniably moving.

COLD COMFORT FARM (1996): Before she became an action star, Kate Beckinsale starred in this hilarious adaptation of Stella Gibbons' 1932 satiric novel about glib orphan Flora Poste, who makes it her project to fix all the problems of the titular farm and its eccentric denizens — distant cousins who feel obligated to Flora (whom they will only address as "Robert Poste's child") because of some unspecified wrong they once did her late father. Among the inmates of Cold Comfort are Cousin Judith (Eileen Atkins), a hysterically morose creature straight out of a gothic novel; Cousin Amos (Ian McKellen), a fire-and-brimstone preacher who warns his brethren, "There'll be no butter in Hell!"; Amos and Judith's oversexed son Seth (Rufus Sewell), a local stud who dreams of being in the talkies; and of course Aunt Ada Doom (Sheila Burrell), who rules the family with an iron fist and won't let anyone forget that she once saw something nasty in the woodshed. A delightfully silly spoof of a particular category of once-popular English literature, as the farm's assorted grim melodramas prove no match for the implacable (if somewhat snobbish) modern sensibilities of its plucky heroine. CONTAINS LESBIANS? Nope. VERDICT: Great fun throughout, although Stephen Fry irritates as a boorish "Laurentian person" who keeps hitting on Flora despite her obvious disinterest.

BREAKDOWN (1997): Competent but underwhelming Jonathan Mostow thriller starring Kurt Russell and Kathleen Quinlan as Jeff and Amy Taylor, a couple of Yuppies whose fancy Jeep breaks down on the highway on a trip from Massachusetts to California. A passing trucker (J.T. Walsh) gives Amy a ride into the nearest town to find them a tow truck, but when Jeff gets their Jeep running again and follows her into town, he finds that Amy has disappeared, and no one, including the trucker, will admit to having seen her. It has a great premise, and Russell is credible enough in the lead, but it's pretty ordinary, and, once you know what's going on (which is revealed a little over a half-hour in), pretty superficial — there's no psychological depth, and I kept waiting for some other story twist that never came. CONTAINS LESBIANS? It barely contains women (Amy is absent for 80 percent of the running time). VERDICT: Not bad, but nothing special, and you'll forget it 10 minutes after it ends.

MY TWO HUSBANDS (2024): Okay Lifetime thriller about a young woman named Eliza (Isabelle Almoyan), still reeling from the recent murder of her mother (Joanie Geiger), who becomes deeply suspicious of her father's young new wife, a flight attendant named Brooke (Kabby Borders) who's no older than Eliza — and, as the title alludes, is secretly married to another man (Britton Webb, who looks like a lesser Baldwin brother) and up to no good. Despite the cheesy title (which is really also a spoiler) and awkward marketing (which misleadingly suggests a comedy-drama with Brooke rather than Eliza as the main character), it has a surprisingly decent, reasonably credible script, hamstrung by very weak performances. The story is still interesting enough to make it a not-bad little thriller, although it would have been better with a stronger cast and less somnabulistic direction. CONTAINS LESBIANS: It sometimes seems like Eliza's friend Star (Kristen Grace Gonzalez) might be her girlfriend, but the script is noncommittal on this point. VERDICT: A B+ script burdened with D+ acting and C- direction.

[gravemushrooms]

like a lot of people my early revelations about my own experience with gender were aided by media that proposed typologies outside of strict binaries or what we might call queer media (in some sense or another).

japanese 2d culture that has work that is woman-centered, even if it were originally intended strictly for a cis male straight audience, can be interesting insofar as the gender segregation or exclusion can create a setting or space that has the freedom (restriction) to express everything through that singular lens. one consequence of that is that it can become easier to see "woman" as essentially human, instead of essentially objectified as chattel, even in the shadow of patriarchy

maria-sama ga miteru (marimite; "the [virgin] mary is watching") is a series like that, where the characters are mainly japanese catholic school girls. it's a late addition to the 'class-S' genre of lesbian or girl-love fiction, where same-gender relationships between girls are allowed and encouraged to flourish in intensity so that they might avoid the scandal and complications (read: pregnancy) caused by other kinds of relationships. these girl-girl relationships are also intended to only be temporary and not involve lust or commitment beyond school or childhood. because mary is watching, we can't fully give in to our passions. this is a series written by a woman about women and girls, and it allowed me some insight into thinking about myself as something other than a being destined by biology towards the roles and functions prescribed by patriarchy.

as the title indicates, the story/ies are ultimately still bound by patriarchal supervision and limitations; it is not properly radical fiction. despite that, i went into it anyway with the expectations that it would be an intensely dramatic series in the style of onii-sama he or utena, but what i got instead was a relatively lighter romance (though with bittersweet notes and a few darker parts). i was also interested because i had my own experience with catholic school and i wanted to see how a japanese story centered on that setting would depict everything. again, whatever expectations i had about it in comparison to my own experience had little to do with what i found, where instead of the familiar rules and expectations of patriarchal catholic christianity i found something that seemed more like a japanese syncretized buddhism with the superficial details changed to accommodate yet another foreign influence that ran up against a kind of immovable japanese chauvinism.

what i ended up with, and what i wasn't prepared for at the time, was a series that placed women at the center, time and again, something i was unused to and hadn't engaged with before. when i was given this framework of seeing an imagined world that was woman-centered, it was easier for me to imagine being human as woman-by-default, against the opposite norm i find in patriarchal culture where women are treated as distaff or an alteration/alternation of the primary male experience. being able to imagine myself as a woman became closer than it had ever been before. i felt like i was allowed to think of myself or being itself in a way that had been denied to me until then. ultimately i didn't settle on thinking of myself as a woman, but it was an important first step in being allowed to consider my own issues with gender.

[laureljacobs]

LAUREL JACOBS

full name: laurel jane jacobs

pronouns & gender: she/they, nonbinary

birthday & birthplace: november 19, 1984 (40); austin, tx

location: seabrook quarter

time in aurora bay: since november 2021

sexuality: lesbian

occupation: lawyer

@aurorabayaesthetic

about.

laurel was born in austin, texas, and she's country girl at heart even if she won't readily admit it. they've always got a patsy cline or dolly parton record going at home, but that's the extent of what they'll let other people see in terms of their southernness.

(alcoholism, neglect tw) her early home life was bad. her mom left at an early age and her dad was a functioning alcoholic who just worked, drank, and slept, and he just couldn't take care of her. they went into the foster system when they were six, after a CDC call when their neighbor noticed they was alone for more than 48 hours once. her dad got visitation and she spent the occasional weekend at home.

foster care wasn't good either. the homes were always underfunded and crowded, even when the parents did what they could. laurel learned quickly that there was a hierarchy in these places, and they learned to sleep with a metaphorical shiv under their pillow. they grew up with no sense of home or family, and it really fucked them up!

but she was always smart. unlike many of the kids around her, she stayed in school and focused on her work, cutting out any extra noise to do so. to cope, they just buried everything deep, deep down. she got into texas a&m for college, which wasn't her first choice, but she went for the in-state tuition. it's a party school, so they indulged occasionally and made a few friends for the first time ever, but they grinded all the while.

undergrad finished, and they went straight to law school — nyu, their first choice, which was also completely free and gave them a nice stipend, but they still took part time jobs through law school to chip away at their student debt. after getting her JD and passing the bar in new york, she got a job as public defender.

she stayed for a few years, until she was 28, but the work was starting to bog her down quickly. the complete lack of choice she had over who she represented often clashed with her morals, when she found herself advocating for people she knew were guilty of sometimes pretty heinous crimes.

so, with a good amount of money saved by then and nothing keeping her tied to new york, she quit, packed up her life, and moved to montana, specifically to the blackfeet nation, where her mother was from. they'd never known their mother, but they knew of their indigenous ancestry and had done a lot of their own reading into it. going there was a huge leap for them emotionally and spiritually, having spent almost 30 years feeling disconnected from any kind of heritage, but they eventually decided they could have a lot more to gain than to lose.

she settled in and opened a practice out of her home, though she was frequently working for pretty low pay or pro bono outright. she was sort of a one-stop shop because she was sometimes willing to work for free, able to flex a lot of different muscles outside of her speciality in criminal law.

they were there for a long time, almost ten years, and had really started to feel like they were making a life. they felt connected to the people and them and the land they were living on more than they ever had before, and life was quiet in a way it'd never been.

but then one day, laurel heard a knock on her door and answered it to someone who introduced themself as their half-sibling through their mother, and it was sort of comical how fast laurel ran. she'd managed to reconcile a lot of things with herself in her adulthood, but her relationship to her parents and her upbringing was never something she let herself confront.

they chose aurora bay basically by just putting their finger down blindly on a map, moved, took the bar in california, and quickly set up an office out of their home again, using some of the connections they'd made throughout their career to get contacts and clients early and get things moving from the get go. life's been quiet since then.

laurel is spiky, very slow to trust, and doesn't know how to take care of herself at all. they live in a big house in seabrook quarter that they maintain immaculately, has taken the batteries out of all of the smoke alarms so they can smoke inside, and has nothing but basics in their fridge. at her best, she's jocular and witty, and at her worst she's explosive.

family.

mother: minnie hudson (unknown)

father: jonah jacobs (estranged)

tidbits.

she's not very up front about her not-cis gender identity and use of mixed pronouns, but it's really because she has no interest in having a serious talk about her identity with everyone she meets, most of whom she doesn't really care to know past an initial conversation. if someone asks directly, laurel's happy to tell, and if they're ever in a situation where the need to be referring to themself in the third person, they'll switch out the pronouns. if others catch on, they catch on, but she's not incredibly pressed about it herself

a little bit of a jock, though she would never admit that. loves baseball and hockey, plays softball in a rec league like the little lesbian she is

(alcoholism tw) laurel has a complicated relationship to alcohol; on one hand, they know what it did to their father and know that being his child probably makes them predisposed to the same tendencies, but on the other they're entirely sure that they're different and smarter and actually they could stop whenever they wanted to.

connections.

ex-girlfriend of @katrinaxbeauford

close friend of/don't make her think too hard about it she'll have a crisis @margaretxalexander

went to high school in texas with @benj-hyun

bar regulars/frequent drunk debate partner w/ @clint-bennet

softball teammates w/ @cassidyxcooke

employed by @willxmeyers, @colexwalters

friend of @delilahcarreno

forever trying to steal @cricketcampbell away from her clients

foster kids who made it out alive club/avid shipper of @thewrenxharlow, @nomadjones