#and cannot for the LIFE of me get back to work

[ssahotchnerr]

Flustered!reader !!!! Her and Hotch are freshly dating and he’s just so doting and in love and obsessed with her and she’s just :,) not used to all of his attention and is so blush-y :,) and the team just cannot believe this is the same unit chief who chews them out

lovestruck

aww 🥰 cw; fem bau!reader, established relationship, bau banter and fluff <3

"Aren't they amazing? And they were on sale."

"Seriously?" You glanced down, catching another look of Emily's new - and insanely cute - heeled boots. "No way."

"Got two pairs for almost the price of one." Emily smirked, looking rather pleased with herself. "Made Penelope really proud with that one when I told her."

Spencer, blissfully unaware of the girl talk around him, quietly turned another page in his book.

Emily's eyes suddenly shifted, looking past you. "Hey."

What caught her attention was Aaron entering the bullpen, balancing two coffees as he walked in. He was arriving later than usual, an early meeting on the other side of town keeping him. His eyes immediately went to the collection of desks, finding the team. Finding you.

Your heart picked up.

"Quick. Pretend to look busy."

"As long as you stay productive, you can talk amongst yourselves." Aaron told Prentiss once he approached, his lips briefly tugging upwards as he placed one of the to-go cups on your desk. His discrete amusement made your heart flutter, you found it utterly endearing. "They were out of almond, so I got you oat milk. I hope that's alright."

"It's perfect," you smiled softly up at him, warmth rushing to your cheeks. "Thank you."

He gave you a smile, his hand finding your shoulder and giving it a doting squeeze. "Are we still on for tonight? Jessica should be picking Jack up around seven or so. The movie starts at eight, so I can be at yours soon after. Hopefully traffic has died down by then."

"I wouldn't miss it for the world. Popcorn's on me."

"Can't wait." A gentle flicker was present in his eyes, different from his usual office-stern visage, igniting more nervous yet welcomed butterflies in your stomach. A slight tip of his head, addressing everyone. "Now, back to work."

"Look at you two." Emily stated once Aaron retreated, disappearing up into his office. Clearly she was in no rush to be productive just yet.

"Who?" Ignoring the urge to fan your face, still flushed, your hand vaguely gestured in the direction of Aaron. "Us?"

She gave you a look, one that read: who else? "He's whipped. You're whipped. If it weren't for the undeniably real stack of files gracing my desk, I'd think I was dreaming."

"You better get on those too." Reid chimed in, chin on his knuckles as his novel re-engrossed him.

You shrugged shyly, trying to keep your smile small. You wouldn't deny her observation, picking up your coffee and taking a sip. It was prepared just how you liked it, hints of vanilla and cinnamon dancing on your tongue; Aaron had your order down perfectly. "He's sweet."

Emily's face twisted in a mix of disgust and amusement. Her head craned back as Derek joined you, her chair squeaking as it shifted. "What's a word to describe Hotch?"

"Is this a trick question? Who are you working for?"

Emily snorted lightly, looking at you as she spoke. "Would you say he's sweet?"

"Me? I don't have a crush on Hotch." Derek defended, before flashing you his signature grin. "Though, it is nice that he's not on our asses as much. And we have you to thank for that, pretty girl."

Your blushed more, taking another drink of coffee and allowing it to scorch your tongue, doing nothing to calm your growing fluster. "I don't think there's been too much of a difference. Aar- Hotch is the same as he was before."

You were being modest, in slight disbelief yourself you had somehow made a noticeable impact on his everyday life. In such a short amount of time, too.

From the moment you met him, you wanted him to be happy; a simple, quiet goal - to bring a smile to his face each day. Not just because you were drawn to him, but because, deep down, you sensed he truly needed it.

And miraculously to you, you had become the reason for that smile.

"Mhm," Derek playfully replied, keyed in on every ounce of adoration written openly across your face. Your gaze shot to the right, hoping to catch a quick glimpse of Aaron through his window. "You keep thinking that."

[ascotcos]

Scientists will do this too!! The insane paywalls around journals piss us off!! We love telling people about our work please just email scientists and ask for papers! Ask us questions! The pursuit of knowledge means nothing if that knowledge cannot be widely shared and commonly understood.

You Don't Need To Pay The Journal For Our Work. We Will Tell You All About Our Work.

I have no papers as of now but I have volunteered at a few science communication things now and the sheer joy I get from explaining my subject to those who aren't academics is amazing. Seeing kids eyes light up as the knowledge fragments become a web of understanding. Watching adults step back from a microscope in awe of the tiny life they just saw, that they might never have considered before! The reassurance I make people give me as I emphasise that seaweeds aren't plants!

The job of an artist and the job of a scientisr often go hand in hand: considering larger questions, and exploring for the answers via various traditional and novel techniques. And, like artists, scientists too love to tell people about their work.

Ask us questions. It's our job to find answers.

[mamans-fille]

Why are try agains so special?

I cannot say how happy I am to be able to answer this question. Every decision and misfortune in my life up to this point IS worth it because now I can answer this Question.

To say what makes Try Agains Special I need to start with the name, as Try Agains works so well from multiple angles as a name for a diaper. Not feeling cute today? Perhaps you better Try that outfit Again with this diaper on. Are you in the mindset of potty training? Even if you fail, you Try Again! Are you wanting to recapture the joy of babyhood? Good thing you can Try Again! You think you get to be an adult? Try Again kiddo~

Then we move on to the appearance of these adorable little things. To discuss the appearance, let's start with what remains consistent between all of them, first there's the color of the accents, an off teal not quite turquoise, done in a soft pastel that suits the theme, with wings embossed with small shapes and symbols that aligns with the theme (notably music notes; but we will get there); all of which frames the largely white body. Second, is that body we just mentioned, framed by that signature color, and cleanly demarcated from the landing zone and back panel is the trail of stars on pseudo quilted material (the pattern being in a lovely light blue that fades unless you examine it closely, but always just LOOKS comfortable) and those stars are the thing that most people remember about Try Agains; because they fade when wet into water droplets. This feels like a magic trick, other designs fade into complete nothingness, or remove parts like a sticker book, but this change is mesmerizing the first time you see it. This is wonderful for reinforcing in some part of your brain how obvious it is that you need your diapers, because you used them, and that fact is plain to see, not only in the fading print, but in how the largely white body shows staining very effectively. The fact that it is so obvious to an outside observer allows you to engage even momentarily in the idea that it isn't for you to be concerned with, the diaper is there to protect you until an adult takes care of it. That's the magic on display here. Tragically, I cant finish talking about the visuals here, as the appearance of Try Agains famously has some mild variance, and I put it off long enough- Lets talk about the characters.

I cannot pretend; while every aspect of a Try Again is wonderful; I have a clear favorite, and its not even a contest. The naming is wonderful sure, but no one in the modern day is moved by a name alone; the design works wonderfully even without a centerpiece on either side, but they are clearly waiting for a star to take center stage; The fade when wet tech is impressive- but there are other options if that was the only thing you wanted out of a diaper. No, the single best part of Try Agains- Is the Training Pals.  Going from worst to best we have Tuffy, a mouse with a lot of speed, stamina and determination, I solely rate him this low because he's a sports boy, whose smug face mocks me from the landing strip. Climbing up the list we have Devin the Koala, a marsupial music fanatic that loves moving to the beat as much as making it! Jax is an artsy corgi with a talent for getting his paws into the art! Osito the Bear, the number crunching cub who you can count on to help those 123’s stick! And finally Caden the Dragon; my alphabet friend, the bookhoarder himself capitalizes on being the only non mammal on the list earning extra points for breaking the mold. I would buy a picture book about these guys. I would WRITE a picture book about these guys (get at me PretendAgain; I'll murder someone for a job with yall). Tell me one thing about any of the PeekABU’s. What are ANY of their interests? That's right, nothing. No matter how cute the design, what actually makes it little, what makes it properly baby is that there is a character to go with it. These are characters that don't have too much to them yet; but they could; given time. You can play pretend with these guys if you want, and that's something no other brand can claim, let alone a single diaper. All of this character can be gleamed from the landing strip and back panel art of each character (the back panel art doesn't change, but you get what I mean.) each one gives you some actual character to project friendship on, who will have your back as you Try Again.

The final aspect is something you only get by wearing though, and that's the feel. Every Try Again experience starts with the feeling of soft almost, duvet-like cottony swaddling, taped up in place with adjustable sides so you can get a fit that actually works for your body (hook and loop is the way of the future) . Once you’re all snug you can relax with ease, the material is soft but fairly breathable (even for cloth backs) but doesn't peel away like some other cloth backed hook and loop options, instead staying firm and comfy until its nearing its limit. And that limit takes some time to reach, so you get your money's worth. But once it's at that limit; good lord what a sublime feeling. The sap rarely bunches, instead staying soft and swelling just so. While the sensory feelings of these diapers aren't earthshaking, they are top of the line, and they are Consistent. 

What makes Try Agains special is that they inspire imagination and joy, and then follow through on that promise on what I believe to be the best Diaper possible given present technology. Are they more expensive than other options? Yes. But I say every cent is spent on quality.

[elistarrk]

#if nothing else I think WN and WQ would be like#mmm. maybe let’s wake up the patient and ask him before we commit to this on WWX’s analysis of JC’s character alone#anyway the problem with JC needing to be up front about his own self-sacrifice#is that he barely has the chance to process what happened to him before they sent him to Lalaland for being such a downer#it’s not like WWX asked him what happened and he lied#WWX made assumptions and did not bother to confirm them

picking this out from the long list of @cerusee 's wonderful tags too because yes!! i will never be over this! especially the part in bold.

yes, they're all teenagers or maybe early 20s! yes, they're making terrible decisions in high stress moments! and wei wuxian is so insane about jiang cheng that he cannot bear to see him in this moment of pain and goes into immediate panic "i must fix this" mode and hyperfocuses on the one bit of agency he does actually have to "fix" the situation!

no one really pauses to consider "oh hey this kid just saw the bodies of almost everyone he's ever known and then got brutally tortured in front of their bodies (including and honestly likely staring the bodies of his parents) for an unspecified amount of time and ending with a debilitating injury and loss of his life's work/maybe what he thinks his only role in life is. and then woke up to see the same robes as the people who did this to him. and one of them was there. that's kinda a lot that he hasn't really had the time to process at all."

like... a crashout is a perfectly normal response here??? intense depression/dissociation is a reasonable way for anyone's brain to react to even a modicum of what the dude has been through???

it's understandable for him to be stuck in a mindset of expecting or even wanting to be dead when he drew away the wen patrolling forces not expecting to live.

and the thing is, even if he was given the opportunity to, i can't even quite say he would admit it. if he knew about the plan for the core transfer, he might, but he'd probably do everything possible to stop it without revealing what he had done. as much as i love a "no, idiot. i didn't sacrifice myself for you to turn around and sacrifice yourself for me in a more stupid and unnecessary way", i really don't see jiang cheng processing his own sacrifice in any positive light at that moment.

he, the last heir of his clan, willingly put himself in a place where he had reason to believe he wouldn't make it out alive or at the very least whole (he knew wen zhuliu was there) for the sake of a "servant". by all accounts, he should have prioritized his own survival as the person now responsible for reviving their sect. but in some subconscious impulse or maybe a moment of clarity, he made the most selfless and yet selfish choice. he threw away his filial duty to give someone he loved a chance to escape a sure death. and then had to face his mother's dead body knowing how horrifically he had just failed her.

wei wuxian's assumption of why jiang cheng was back in lotus pier might actually be one he wouldn't want to correct. at least then there would be some amount of understanding in his duty to his family. it paints him as rash and impulsive but that isn't anything new really.

regardless, no one gives him the time to explain his side or come to terms with it. and yeah they're on a time crunch residing in enemy territory. but even still, there is very little time he is noted to be conscious between being rescued and the core transfer! he's treated like he's so unreasonable for... being traumatized? going through several stages of grief at once?

(oops it's yapping hours i guess but more below)

and then when he does get some time to process, they never talk about it. his brother is gone and then comes back wrong. but hey, at least he comes back! he might be messing with corpses in a way that should be concerning but he says he's fine and he's got it under control and he's a genius so it's not too far off the mark that he's "attempted the impossible" yet again and figured out how to be in control of it. and if it helps them win this war, sure. whatever. all the better to get revenge.

and then after the war, wei wuxian is out getting drunk all the time and picking fights and flaunting his power with other sect leaders. but jiang cheng doesn't pull rank (as he is very much valid to do) and order him to tell him what the fuck is going on or to do his job as head disciple. he just sorta accepts "yeah wei wuxian is going through it. no clue what he went through in the three months we didn't see each other but frankly i don't have the time to babysit him while rebuilding my sect that he was supposed to help me with." he does try to confront him about his sword but it's brushed off and he drops it. whatever.

and then wei wuxian kills the officers at Qiongqi Pass and frees the Wens. and suddenly the snake pit of the Jins turns their eyes to him and it's wei wuxian or all of the people of the yunmeng jiang he has built on the line. and wei wuxian has now put his own neck on the line for people from the very sect that massacred their people, with the only explanation that jiang cheng can come up with being that wen ning and wen qing helped the two of them after he was rescued from his torture, so he owes them. but jiang cheng can't save him this time. it's not only his own life that he would have to put on the line anymore, and he can't risk the lives of the people depending on him.

and the man who he was willing to give his life for isn't willing to stay.

but that's fine. he'd never been anyone's first choice anyway. they stage his defection to prevent from implicating yunmeng jiang in his actions and thereby dragging the innocent disciples into the fray. maybe if they wait this out long enough, things'll calm down and wei wuxian'll be able to come back.

and they do start to calm down over time. he brings jiejie to see him before the wedding, and suggests that wei wuxian give the courtesy name for her unborn child. and they invite wei wuxian to the kid's one month ceremony, only for the death of her husband (and many other cultivators from various sects) at wei wuxian's hands to be announced. and yeah, he never really liked the dude, but would wei wuxian really go that far?

either way, there's not really time to find out. a major sect heir was killed and the sects are uniting against the threat and demanding blood. and it was his sister's husband, so if he doesn't show up, that puts a massive target on his back (jiang cheng must have supported these actions if he's not willing to hold wei wuxian accountable for them) and thus yunmeng jiang's back as well. so fuck, he has to go.

and then wei wuxian shows up too and something's very clearly wrong. and a fight breaks out and then jiejie is there. and one of the corpses wei wuxian swore he could control attacks her? and then she throws herself in front of a sword meant for wei wuxian. and whatever thin thread was holding him to sanity breaks and his corpses start killing like crazy.

and jiang cheng has the lifeless body of one of the people he cared about most in the world in his arms and he trusted wei wuxian.

at every step jiang cheng is left in the dark and it isn't until his sister is killed that he actually fully gives up on wei wuxian.

and 13 years later, he knows better than to blindly trust wei wuxian when he comes back. he hounds him for answers that he doesn't receive. he demands that he kneel and apologize to his parents' plaques in the ancestral hall, only for wei wuxian to keep running away and avoiding responsibility.

and of course when wei wuxian does come to lotus pier in the end, he does visit the ancestral hall, but to start to marry the man who's had a hate-on for jiang cheng for the last decade? all while avoiding jiang cheng whenever possible the whole way. and when confronted about it, he denies it until lan wangji is insulted.

and then jiang cheng finally learns the truth by having it thrown in his face by one of the people who helped do the operation without his consent.

it's only then he finally gets some answers for why wei wuxian made the choices he did and of course it's devastating and he's heavily implied to have a breakdown about it. understandably.

and then less than 36 hours later when he sees a danger to wei wuxian in the guanyin temple, his immediate instinct is to block it and protect him (even if it is unnecessary and illogical if he had taken the moment to think about it) and he ends up badly wounded as a result.

he very much changed his response to wei wuxian once he had more information! to go from hitting him with zidian and tying him for answers to instinctively protecting him and returning his instrument of the very cultivation that led to his sister's death?

bro did not change in 13 years but he did change in 36 hours. crazy how actually being given the information that would give him the reason to change actually inspires him to.

Lotta takes that are like "Jiang Cheng didn't change his behaviour at all in 13 years, that proves that he doesn't want to grow as a person" and it's like, sorry but why would he change his behaviour when the information that would recontextualise Wei Wuxian's actions and thus lead him to rethink his own reactions was deliberately kept hidden from him? From his perspective, his brother broke all his promises for no goddamn reason, picked a different family over him, lost control of the evil energy he swore he could control, and in doing so caused such a catastrophe that both of Jin Ling's parents were killed. We know that there's more to that story, but he doesn't, and it would be impossible for him to find out on his own because again, everyone involved was lying to him and hiding the relevant information on purpose.

He's told about the golden core transfer like three hours before the book ends, and frankly processes it faster than most people could reasonably be expected to after 13 years of grief and loneliness! "He had chances to improve his behaviour and didn't" HE LITERALLY DIDN'T HAVE ANY CHANCES BECAUSE WWX LIED TO HIM!! His behaviour was completely justified from his perspective and when his perspective is changed, and he realises that what he did was wrong, he's like, SUPER upset about it!

[yourhostfortheevening]

♡Miscellaneous lost boys headcanons! (+ a few star ones)♡

♡This is gonna be so disjointed cuz its just me rambling essentially, all of these I came up with today while i was at work 💀 it was the only thing getting me through the day

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To begin with, the order i think they were turned: David, Dwayne, Marko, and then Paul

Idk why but to me Paul was turned no earlier than the late 60s.

'Young Guns' changed my brain chemistry (go watch it) so pre-max cowboy David is canon to me. He definitely had a bit of a southern accent that he lost over the years, but it comes back out every now and then. Paul is the first to pick up on it and starts calling him 'partner' to piss him off.

David traded riding a horse for a motorcycle the minute the option became available

David and Dwayne saw the original Nosforatu in theatres, thought it was the funniest shit.

Marko is banned from the boardwalk arcade for getting his arm stuck in a claw machine while trying to win Laddie a prize, Dwayne saw the whole thing, took Laddie for ice cream and left Marko to fend for himself.

The boys used to have game nights (mostly card games) but quickly stopped, all of them cheat but none of them will admit to it so it usually ended in fighting and a table being thrown, if you look closely in the cave you can still find the odd playing card hidden away.

Paul can play guitar no doubt in my mind.

Marko made all of the other boys jewellery.

Paul seems like the type of person to steal a shopping cart then ride it around with Marko inside before purposely ramming it into the nearest wall.

Paul and Marko are both banned from the cinema because they kept either stealing or destroying the promotional cardboard cutouts.

The boys have a copy of the comic the Frog brothers gave Sam (stolen of course) because is Max gonna tell them vampire lore? Like shit he is.

Star has tarot cards, whether you want it or not shes giving you a reading.

She also pockets any pretty shells or pieces of sea glass she finds, shes considered turning them into jewellery but puts them in an ornate glass bottle instead, says she likes how it looks when the light hits it.

Together she and Marko are the groups magpies, however marko has a tendency to collect animal bones (and a few human ones) as well

The boys cannot have candles in the cave, Marko kept testing to see if the hair products Paul uses were flammable, they were. Fire pits are good enough.

Some of the patches on Markos jacket are taken from victims.

Dwayne goes to the movies alone some nights if he gets bored enough, David isnt interested and obviously Paul and Marko aren't gonna go with him, he's not a film buff by any means but he likes the thrillers and horrors.

Marko is a hopeless romantic idc

While I dont think any of the boys are avid readers I do think Dwayne reads the most, he often had trouble sleeping when he was human and that carried over into his vampire life, so he'll just sit and read whatevers lying around until he falls back asleep.

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Thats all I've got for now! Pt 2 coming whenever I have another bad day at work lmao

Lemme know what hcs you guys have, id love to hear them!

Thanks for reading, love ya! ♡

[mooonologyy]

I am worried about Stray Kids

NOW HEAR ME OUT.

I mean that I am truly worried for their mental health and their relationship towards STAYs.

Lemme explain.

So I don't know if you've noticed but there have been some troublemakers in STAYville. So called "fans" that believe themselves entitled to outright disrespect the members and violate their privacy.

Now I know Kpop is a breeding ground for immature fans and dangerous parasocial relationships, and I am well aware that having such weird fans is a job liability. However, to me, STAYs have always been the more chill and kind fandom, be it towards each other or the members. We've therefore almost always managed to build a trusting and loving but still respectful bond with our beloved idols.

But in the last few weeks/months, there have been more and more disturbances. "Fans" polluting their lives with comments like "english please", "can you be my boyfriend for 5 minutes", "speak spanish", "make a heart" blablabla.

I don't know what possesses people to make such puerile demands towards actual grown men. Like, they are adults, artists, not your plaything. Not your character AI bot. They have thoughts, feelings, and get annoyed as well. And I don't know how they don't see how visibly annoyed they get each time one of these stupid comments shows up.

And it's not just the comments. it's the behaviour when they are seen in public, or at the airport (just see how some fans behaved themselves when Skz returned from their (must I add super exhausting, long) tour DominATE, right after Chan made that one livestream calling STAYs out on their disrespectful behaviour. Look at it and see for yourself and tell me that's ok to do).

Channie did a live on Instagram where he had to put some so called "STAYs" in their place for being disrespectful. And you could see his exhaustion, frustration, annoyance, anger. He pointed out some crazy fans intruded into his and the boys' intimacy. I cannot believe STAYville has fallen so low. Disappointing our leader, annoying the members, just to post a weird ass comment or get a picture up close with them. I cannot comprehend how any fan could do this.

Because, first and foremost, fans, especially Kpop fans, should support their idols. Not harass them. Their job (because yes, it is a JOB) is exhausting and life sucking enough, they don't need immature, obsessive freaks running after them, intruding their private (OFF WORK) life, commanding them to speak in a language they don't want to, begging them to be their boyfriend. And if you consider yourself a STAY (or an Army, Engene, Moa, Carat, whatever i don't care) you should be RESPECTFUL. You should wish them rest, sleep, calm, peace. You should support them, wish for them to succeed but also take care of themselves. You should want for them to feel as good as possible in an inhumane industry (the Kpop music industry that is) and not contribute to their mysery.

Because that will ultimately not only harm them actively, but also drive them away from their fans. From us. And I don't think that these immature fans want that.

Now I know these "STAYs" are a minority, and that these behaviours are seen through all of Kpop and has been for many many years, and it's not gonna change. Unfortunately. But it just makes me sick watching their lives, seeing how tired they are of our bullshit, how they'd rather be doing anything else, how disappointed they get with us because frankly, we are letting them down. Our boys work so fucking hard all year to produce the best for us STAYs, and we pay them back with exhausting, immature comments and harassment and physical violence. It makes me sick to my stomach seeing them grow more and more bitter. And the fact that this minority screams the loudest and poisons STAYs relationship towards the members.

Because I just want them to be happy, to have a sane and healthy relationship with their fans, and to enjoy what they do. To enjoy making music, and interacting with their fans, finding strength in STAYs rather than getting even more tired of us.

And we, as a fandom, are failing at supporting them by being disrespectful idiots.

Idols are people. Men and women with a life, thoughts, feelings, a mental and physical health. They have lines that are not to be crossed, as Channie himself said. If you respect them, they'll respect you. They are not babies, they are not your boyfriend. They are grown men making music, and they do not owe you anything. Especially if they are treated like that by their "fans".

People treating them like this can't consider themselves STAYs, nor fans. People like this aren't fans, they aren't appreciative of the artists. Because if they were, they'd be respectful, wishing the best for the members. And the best for them is to be left alone when off work, and being treated like humans.

I'm not saying you specifically are. As I said, these "STAYs" are the minority. And I know STAYville's degradation will continue, inevitably. But I just needed to get this off my chest, it makes me sick, and I'm worried for the members.

I know I'm screaming in a void. Please know that I'm just worried for Stray Kids, because I love them. I don't mean no harm. I just wanted to get this off my chest, because things need to be said.

Please respect and be kind to your idols, or they will inevitably disappear.

[haruintheblank]

checking into your getaway drive tag like an obsessive ex checks their ex's socials.

have you got any more sneak-peaks you'd like to share?

(also pls share your opinions on Tango's performance in the latest life series episode. me personally? i love a pathetic boyfailures. one of the reasons why ranchers are my fav ship.)

IM SO HONORED SHDKSH genuinely cannot fathom that anyone is interested in this au. but i will work hard to please even a single person so :] thank u 🥹🥹 be my obsessive ex i am so honored

i have a bit that i could share … hehe.. ok so i realize for a ranchers!au i haven’t posted many snippets of them actually interacting.. please have faith 🙏 just for u anon, i shall post a wip soon!!! (if i forget please remind me..)

and to share my opinions: i have gone through every single emotion imaginable in the last 24 hours 😭💔 i said a lot on twitter so im copy-and-paste-ing a bit but;

im devastated of course (partially because id hate to see his season end so soon, and because he was genuinely trying) but i adore how stubborn he is with choosing to do the “right” thing, if that makes sense. it comes out very prominently in this session, with tango not wanting to take the “dirty” kills (via pvp, or continuing w someone after trying once already) and is very adamant about trapping. he never really wanted to kill his allies (which was unfortunate because. that didn’t leave many options). he also refused most of the help from others, despite MANY people being willing to lend him a hand (maybe to save their own ass but also because they care?). he was cautious, which kinda worked against him but seemed like he didn’t want collateral damage in the form of other deaths…

he genuinely tried and even though he failed, i think the episode highlights some of the best of tango. he’s a stubborn, but good guy, and he’s keeping his morals (maybe not his lives and his ego tho..) after this at least!!! he. is undeniably a pathetic boyfailure, which is why we love him, but he’s stubborn. i am holding out hope. i’m just praying there’s a way for him to get his lives back and that the red life won’t force him into isolation…

apologies for the word vomit! thinking about tango does that to a guy <3 thank you for ur kind words abt the au and sorry for being mostly tango centric in my rambling lol (i havent seen jimmy’s pov yet💔)

[masoncantthinkofaname]

hi!! just realised i saw your posts on tiktok already and i installed tumblr a few days ago. saw one of your posts and decided to scroll past all your blogs only to realise i recognize you from tiktok!!! to start, sorry that this us long a bit but hope you’ll read it and answer :), i’ve been feeling so frustrated with shifting

i know that i’m just putting a limiting belief by saying to myself i can’t shift and other stuff i’ll mention rn, but i feel “stuck” , it feels like everytime i try it “won’t work”,(i’m putting “ because i know it’s a limiting belief) and i need to “let go” but, i don’t know how to let go, what do i let go of? my desire to shift now? because i do wanna shift now and i’m just completely lost on how to let go, i read your posts, that time doesn’t exist and it doesn’t matter when i’ll shift, that i’m infinite, but my little human brain cannot comprehand that,

i wanna experience it now and i’m not sure. How do i “decide” i’m already there, and when i do “decide” when i attempt to shift i still see my cr. I’ve been trying methods and i don’t know what to do, i know the only key to shifting is “me” but how do implement it into “real life” ,

I KNOW it’s wrong of me to assume that you’ll magically help me and solve my issues, i know that this is my journey but still what do i do???, i feel like i know the basic knowledge on shifting on what to do and what not to do but, when it comes to terms of doing the stuff, i have no idea how to actually do it in REAL life. I’ve been so frusterated with shifting i suddenly woke up from my sleep and couldn’t fall back asleep and decided to binge on tumblr to find out more on “what’s wrong with me” and why i “cannot” shift, more knowledge on “HOW TO SHIFT” , i know nothing is wrong about me, but it FEELS like that, i keep searching for answers and knowledge that will be “my final push” to “make me shift” but, i know in theory that i don’t need to do that and that i already have done enough, the thing is it doesn’t feel like that.

also wanted to ask, i’ve been anxious about this, how do i know people in my cr didn’t “leave me” and shift to another reality, like i’m overthinking about people in my life that they already shifted somewhere else and left me. How can i even tell if they shifted away? Did they leave?

I understand your feelings, shifting is and can be a really frustrating journey. You're not doing anything wrong by letting those feelings get to you. In the end, you're only human, and it's natural for you to overthink these things.

I'll try to answer the all the questions you asked.

How do you let go? What do you let go of? This is a difficult question to answer, especially because you seem very focused on the now. But in most cases, you don't let go of wanting to shift, you don't let go of your desire to shift, but you let go of your expectations of when or how to shift. Letting go is knowing it will happen, and being able to trust yourself in that fact, without constantly having to worry about it.

How do you decide you're already there? This again goes into a similar direction as the other question. You have to realise that shifting is and can be instant, you could blink and shift right now if you wanted. But as someone who doesn't have much confidence in that ability, it's likely it will take you just a tad bit longer.

By deciding to shift, and then immediately backtracking 10 minutes later because you didn't see or feel a change, you're basically persisting again in perceiving this reality. If you decide to shift and know it will happen, even if not immediately, you make it a whole lot easier on yourself to embrace that belief and let it come to you. Which goes hand in hand with the letting go as well.

What do you do? You're right I can't magically make you shift. Especially if you're unwilling to change your mindset or approach to shifting. But you also have to remember that there's not one way to do it. You can shift always, with any method, at any time. If you don't feel like you can let go, or trust yourself, try other things. It's not a crime to look for answers, as long as you don't let it get to a point where you don't have your own opinions anymore. Really, take a deep breath, you already got this. Don't beat yourself up over something you cannot change right now, shifting will always be there. You're not in a hurry, even if it feels like it.

For your last question, remember that we shift millions of times every single day. So does your family, so do your friends. Everyone is always shifting. Do they ever feel any different? They don't, because they're still them. Even if they would shift to one of their drs, you wouldn't know, you wouldn't notice, and it wouldn't affect you. It's nothing to worry about, I promise. They're still them, they always will be💚

[blossombabbles]

When did he fall?

Pspspspsssss c'mere kitty~ got a special seat for ya~

Taiga couldn't remember, honestly, when it happened. He didn't remember much that wasn't important to him and at first, all of it was a blur. You were just there, you know? Pliant, easy, and you looked so cute when you were scared.

Ahhhh maybe if he focused hard enough he could remember....

Nope, nah, nothing. Better luck next time sweet cheeks, he's going back to the game-

Oh hang on! Yeah! That was it! You came in here, traipsing around like a trap would suddenly spring up and trap your legs or something! Harry and all these other dopes would do that too, that was nothing new. But what was new, the way your heightened senses seemed attuned to just him. No matter what he threw at you, you handled it like Lulu, but with ten times more honesty.

He always saw you as Schrodingers cat, possibly alive and possibly dead with a foot on either side. Never saw much harm in scaring you, getting you hurt or seeing you injured. But when he looked at you this time, he saw a future. A better one than what he currently felt he had laid out before him and it was all dependent on one thing. You living. Ugh, that seemed so boring... Like so much work... But fiiiiiiine.

He'd do it. This once. To see what else you hold.

We are not letting you walk outside like that, BB! Come here, if you're to be seen with me, we're going to fix this pathetic wardrobe of yours.

Romeo couldn't understand what it was about you, perhaps you were just so moldable he saw potential in you? Or perhaps it was just all the times you were able to gear Taiga in the ... Mostly right direction, making his life that much easier. You at least did everything he asked.

Only questioned when he seemed unreasonable. At first he thought you'd be a decent assistant. Which eventually led to him thinking about time you'd spend together, as you'd be around him a lot.

That's how this fucking guy started fantasizing himself into a crush on you. Can you believe it? His overthinking led him to overthinking about you. To how you'd be able to pass the smell check to his abrasive family. How he could defend you as much as possible from them and still come back to find you holding onto his arm and assuring him of your place in his life.

Now when you come by he's silently assessing you, thinking about what would look cuter on you, how he got to hold your hand just for a boost of power before but hardly needed it now.

Hm, maybe that's how he could sell you...

I'll need you to sign here and here to accept the new status of our relationship. I've laid out the terms and when I can pencil you in for free time but I cannot promise them, do you accept? ... What do you mean?

What clearer way could I ask you to be my romantic partner?

Oh Ritsu... Darling Ritsu. Of course you two work closely together, often, bothering Ren for coffees when he very much does not want customers. How else was he meant to get through everything you both dealt with on almost a daily? Especially if he's to win the Laurel Crown, after all, you give him the knowledge of the other cases and whose caught what, giving him insight into their position.

But all this time spent together of course eventually led to feelings, unfortunately, he's not a machine and cannot parce those away. Though he wishes he could. It would make him much more effective at his job.

You had stayed too late at the diner, which Ren didn't seem to be around to give you the bill, something that was grinding on his patience slowly. As he opened his mouth to complain to you, your head was down on the table and already you were sleeping soundly. The way your hair haloed against the table, sleeping atop papers he had handed to you before, breathing soft and shallow. Your body had to be acutely aware you were sleeping in public... and while he wanted to give you flack for it, the words didn't pass his lips... It was after hours, anyways... He could add a sleeping charge later.

But for now was there any harm in silently admiring?

Ah... So this is the feeling mother described... This boundless warmth in his chest, a certain softness that became his icy blue eyes and this ... Bubbling? Beneath his fingers that twitched in a moment's hesitation to brush some hair away.

"Get out," Ren stated as he tossed down the bill, snapping Ritsu from his thoughts like being jolted from a dream, "senpai. Get up. I have to clean this." Ren added, sharply tapping you with his foot. Ritsu quickly held his hand out.

"please, allow me. I'll take care of them. We'll leave shortly."

He always assumed he'd like someone with more manners. Not that this was his first crush... but it was the first one he found himself serious about.

[scrapyardboyfriends]

Episode Thoughts…

Well John continues to be more evil with Robert so that’s good even if it makes me want to slowly torture him to death. Haha. But no, I’m really glad that they’ve finally been steering him toward deliberate villain territory this week. It’s so needed in this story.

Poor Robert after dealing with John trying to choke him out yesterday is back two seconds and Ross is lurking around the corner to throw him up agains that clothes bin thing by the neck to threaten him. Ross better not do that around any wrenches or shovels.

I know people often get annoyed with Vic, but I do feel like they’re doing reasonably well with her. She’s continuing to stand by Robert despite being very frustrated with him and with all of John’s lies making Robert look crazy and paranoid and all of Robert’s actual ptsd issues plus the things he’s actually done like stealing the weed, it’s easy to see why she’s annoyed at him. But she’s still trying to make sure he doesn’t end up back in prison and she’s still trying to help him. So, I appreciate that.

Aaron on the other hand…haha. I mean I do think he’s taking his anger too far right now but that’s because it’s so rooted in 6 years of unresolved feelings. I also feel like he just cannot allow himself to acknowledge that Robert is struggling for real. Him bringing up Robert giving Vic the black eye. He just doesn’t seem to really want to think about all of the hell he must have gone through in prison and what it’s doing to him now because then he would start to care. And he almost let himself in that shop scene weeks ago before Robert tried to talk to him about it. Because Aaron knows that the minute he lets Robert be vulnerable with him, the minute he lets himself acknowledge that Robert has suffered too these last six years, he’s going to fold. I think on some level he wishes he was just back in prison so he could continue trying to live his sad little life with John and not have to think about Robert. It’s very frustrating to watch but I do get it. This is why I just need someone to lock them in a room so Aaron can work through all of his feelings.

Very curious to see how Monday plays out, especially with John being the one to encourage it because of course he has to control everything.

Now, to the Robert of it all. Ugh that scene with John was so infuriating to watch. I’ve seen lots of discussion over whether or not Robert was playing him. I think I agree that multiple things are happening there. I think functionally, he needs to say whatever he has to, to stay out of prison. So while that wasn’t exactly sincere, he genuinely needed to do it. At the same time, I think he was laying it on a little thick for a reason. And that’s where I agree that the chess metaphor comes in. That he is letting him have this win so he can regroup. I just don’t think he has a plan quite yet. So it’s more let me just make this sacrifice to my self respect now and then I’ll figure it out later.

I do feel like he had to sort of reset multiple times in that conversation though, every time John started trying to gaslight him. His whole “you hated me from the start” when Robert tried to bring up what John said yesterday. His comment about being trained to fight as a last resort while you’re a violent bully. I feel like Robert just kept having to backtrack and reevaluate and that’s where he started just really trying to stroke his ego.

I do think there were a lot of truths in there too but it was just a whole combination of things.

The Jack stuff is interesting. And just bringing up the fact that they’re blood. The fact that once again it seems like John just hated Robert before they even met. And I’m just screaming at the screen “tell me more!” The comment again about how Robert sabotaged the life he had with Aaron and Vic. Like he has this whole narrative in his head and I want to understand it. If they don’t circle back around to this for some backstory/origin story I’m going to be so mad.

I still think it makes way more sense for him to just be a Sugden. And it would be so convoluted for him not to be at this point. Or for him to be pretending to be John Sugden. I just don’t see why he would be doing any of this. I feel like the only way he could not be a Sugden is if his mom just lied about Jack being his dad. And then he’s had all of this resentment for years over something that wasn’t even true. But I don’t want him to be tragic about it. I’d rather he just be a Sugden. I just want them to use this retconned history in an interesting way.

I also need to know what gibberish John was saying last night Aaron. Do you think you could record some of this for evidence for the court please? Haha. It’s not the first time they’ve brought up him talking in his sleep though either. I want to know if they’re going to go somewhere with that. Cause John looks terrified every time Aaron brings that up. Wake up Aaron!

Speaking of recording things…is that dash cam just always on? Also notice how when John attacked Robert, he made sure he wasn’t on camera and then he walked away in front of the van. Ugh I hate him. I wonder what he will end up using that video for.

Over all, a solid week. Looking forward to Monday. Feel like that might be all we get of Robert, which is sad, but at least we have that Vinny and Aaron conversation to look forward to.

It is hilarious that Aaron is ready to kill Robert or send him to prison this week but next week he’s like “please don’t go and let me fondly remember kissing him on my wedding day to someone else” haha. John warns Robert to stay away from Aaron (which…by the way he has been) but he needs to pay more attention to his husband and make sure it’s him that’s not straying. Haha.

[twooftheluckyones]

Rare post from Cake. Sorry for not having made any writing or comics recently. I was in the zone for a few months and I just can't seem to get my mind back onto fanfics. I feel like my brain is broken, like I'm trying to herd a cat into doing something when it acts on whims I cannot control. I've been trying to read more and rekindle that spark but work takes all my brain energy juices and squeezes me like an orange. At the end of the day my head feels full of static and I just want to stop thinking. I wish writing didn't feel like a chore sometimes.

Hopefully once life calms down I can finish some stories. I've had a Shamura origins fic stuck at its midpoint for months now and it's beginning to feel like a ghost haunting me.

[frazzled-froggie]

Tumblr where was my notification???? 😭 Anyway thanks for the tag!!

Origin of blog name:

My dad calls me Frazzle as a nickname and frogs are my favourite animal so I thought frazzled froggie sounded cute :)

OTPs and ship names:

AZIRACROW/INEFFABLE HUSBANDS (I'm obsessed atm 🙃), I don't really have any others tbh

Favourite colour:

Definitely green but generally I love the colour combo of black with a bright colour

Song stuck in my head:

Currently got xXXi_wud_nvrstøp_ÜXXx by 100gecs in my head

It's taken me so long to write all of this out I now, while I'm looking back through my answers as I add the colours to the questions, I have Rot by Lacey Sturm in my head which is probably a more accurate representation of my music taste

Weirdest habit/trait:

When I get nervous I start singing everything instead of talking normally

Hobbies:

I LOVE drawing, I also love climbing (I do bouldering and bottom rope and a bit of lead but I need some convincing for that one lol), I really enjoy singing, I do a bit of dance, I play the bass guitar and the kalimba a little bit, and I enjoy sewing (currently making a Vox plushie for my best friend's birthday), I also love reading but I don't find the time anymore as much as I'd like

If you work, what's your profession:

I'm currently a student but I might try to get a job at Lidl over the summer

If you could have any job you wish, what would it be:

I really want to be an animator (2D, frame-by-frame) so that's what I'm aiming for but other jobs I would enjoy, I would love to be a singer in a metal band except I cannot write songs for the life of me, (I'm currently in a punk rock kinda band where I play bass guitar so maybe that might go somewhere)

Something you're good at:

Drawing (hopefully anyway otherwise my career path isn't looking good), I've been told I'm good at singing and I'd say I'm pretty good at climbing (V3 bouldering, 6b+ bottom rope)

Something you hate:

Drawing on the wrong layer or forgetting to save my work 😭😭

Something you collect:

I've had many collections over the years but my most recent is my crystal collection which is now worth probably about £200. I spend way too much money on collecting things I'm going to try my best to not start any new collections 😭

Something you forget:

All my memories after about 6 months it feels like 😭 My sister will ask me about what some kind of event like Sports day for example was like last year and I have no idea, I only have one memory from that day 😭 I know that I did do the 1500m, no recollection of actually doing it though. I need to write things down to remember them, but I also forget to write things down 😭

What's your love language:

Gift giving, but not in the traditional way. More like: We're walking along the path together. There's a leaf. I shall give it to you. Or, I just peeled a very satisfying layer of paint out of this tub. Here you go.

Favourite movie/show:

GOOD OMENS :D Also Hazbin Hotel and Helluva Boss are close runners up

Favourite food:

Fruit and even better, ✨dried fruit✨ I will fall in love with anyone who supplies me with dried apple or dried mango. Also randomly I have a newfound love for noodles

Favourite animal:

Frogs :3

What were you like as a child:

In first school I was very popular and very smart. I had bundles of energy and loved running around and people would always come to me if they had an argument that needed solving.

In middle school I was still pretty smart but definitely not popular anymore. I didn't have any friends for a while so I became a massive bookworm. I still had loads of energy but people didn't wanna run around and play tag as much anymore. I was also very innocent and gullible which got taken advantage of sometimes.

In highschool most of that wore off, I became pretty average and hung out with the "weird queer kids" (still my best friends, I love them)

Favourite subject at school:

Art! But also the coursework side of media too

Least favourite subject:

Wasn't a big fan of French (the only subject I did foundation for) and I was SO bad at chemistry 😭 Writing subjects generally I was a lot weaker on and they annoyed me because I got extra time but still couldn't finish the English and history exams

What's your best character trait:

I think that when there's arguments and drama, I don't come in hot, I listen to everyone's point of view and try to de-esculate the situation and promote understanding which I think has helped me avoid a lot of arguments and help my friends out as well

What's your worst character trait:

I'm horrible at telling people how I actually feel which has definitely lead to a lot of mental health problems that could've been avoided. That's definitely something I need to work on

If you could change any detail of your life rn, what would it be:

Either magically disappear the executive dysfunction or skip the absolutely massive waiting list for testosterone

I think I only have 1 moot who hasn't already answered or been tagged in this as far as I know, @residentdisaster but if anyone else wants to join in, go ahead!

Get to know your mutuals!

Got tagged by @wishfulsketching! Let's do this~

What's the origin of your blog title?

I honestly can't remember but it's been the one that has stuck with me the longest.

OTP(s)+ shipnames(s):

Zaundads and Jayvik (Arcane), Hartwin (Kingsman), BayoJean (Bayonetta), Hankcon (Detroit: Become Human), Cherik (any rendition of Xmen foreverrrrr)

I was trying to remember which were my oldest and it's a toss up between Zelgadis/Amelia (The Slayers) and Xena/Gabrielle (Xena: Warrior Princess)

Favourite color:

I'm an all shades of purple kinda gal but I do love me a teal from time to time.

Song stuck in your head:

This one specific rendition of Malagueña Salerosa

Weirdest habit/trait:

i fucking love eating freezer ice

Hobbies:

the usual reading, gaming, cross stitching, writing, drawing i used to do archery and i miss it so much...

If you work, what's your profession?

my family and I run a bakery/cake shop (I did the math the other day and I make 24 cheesecakes a week)

If you could have any job you wish, what would it be?

I'd like to think there's an AU version of me out there that's a published author. That or a funeral director cuz funerals here in Spain fucking suck.

Something you're good at:

My mother often said I'm a good problem solver so I'll go with that.

Something you hate:

'proship DNI' culture

people who yuck people for their yum in general

The commodification and girlbossing of Persephone's myth.

No wind in the air. No even a breeze.

Something you collect:

I'm quite fond of the collection of NMBC Sally merch I've acquired throughout the years.

Something you forget:

to call my dad

What's your love language:

i'll throw hands in a parking lot

Favourite movie/show:

Movies: Rocky Horror Picture Show, Who Framed Roger Rabbit, Kingsman, Into the Spiderverse, Death Becomes Her, Blazing Saddles, Millennium Actress

TV: The Venture Bros, (Go Team Venture ✌️😭) Interview with the Vampire, Haunting of Hill House, Arcane, Twin Peaks, Puella Magi Madoka Magica

Favourite food:

I could eat ramen forever.

Favourite animal:

octopi and bears reign supreme!!!

What were you like as a child:

"She's so good! She barely makes a sound!" was something I heard a lot growing up. I was fiercely shy but liked that people found me funny so I leaned heavily on wanting to make people laugh. I enjoyed my own company and my imaginary friend was Basil of Baker Street.

Favourite subject at school:

English lit. I remember when it finally clicked and how much I enjoyed picking apart the themes and symbolism.

Least favourite subject:

German. My teacher said that since I was already bilingual i was just too lazy to learn another language.

What's your best character trait?

I do like making people laugh

What's your worst character trait?

how i express my anger

If you could change any detail of your life right now, what would it be?

I really wish my grandfather was still around.

ALRIGHT! time to tag!

@glitteryrainbows @ballowvalence @poltergeist-punk @artknifeandglue @silcobrainrot

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

MDZS Modern AU where Madam Lan faked her death years ago, and the secret comes out in a random burger joint, in the middle of her estranged son's first date.

Part 2 ->

[peace-hunter]

tfone au where OP is created as the last of the primes but way after them, a sparkling born at what were thought to be the last days of the war against the quintessons, the beginning of a new generation of peace after eons of war. a child meant to be loved and raised knowing nothing of war nor sacrifice.

he's kept mostly out of the spotlight by his siblings, who don't wish to expose him to everyone's optics so young, and want to wait until the war is done and over to properly introduce him to their people.

except of course the primes are betrayed and murdered by sentinel, the war is lost and everyone who knows and cared for the truth is either banished or outright killed in order to suppress it.

and the high guard, the ones the primes trusted the most, the ones that were supposed to protect them, the ones who failed in their most important duty, have to make a choice. to take the last prime, their last hope, with them to the surface, a hostile environment where there's little to no supplies and where they'll be hunted down by both sentinel and the quintessons as the biggest threat to their regimen.

or hide him in plain sight. place him where sentinel won't think to look for him. one more sparkling among many. and hope it will be enough to keep him alive. pray to primus that he'll protect his last child long enough for them to come back for him when it's safer (even if most of them have already lost their faith on him when he allowed the rest of his children to be massacred like that)

they almost lose their resolve when they realize they will have to take the little one's cog away in order to make him blend in with the rest of the newborns (and oh do they burn with murderous intent when they see what sentinel has done to their people but it's not the time yet-) but in the end they decide an impaired little prime is better than a dead one.

and so in the chaos of thirteen dead primes and a sudden energon crisis, a little sparkling who very few mechs really knew about and even fewer had seen completely vanishes. and in the depths of iacon a mech in charge of a new batch of newborns scratches their helm in confusion as they realize they must have miscounted the first time.

optimus prime is quietly erased from any official records by sentinel, written off as dead when they find a sparkling's frame mangled beyond recognition after an attack on the base of those rebels that insist on being a thorn on his side. killing the sparkling hadn't been precisely in his plans, he probably could've found some use for it after all, but he's not particularly upset about it either.

and orion pax grows up with an ache on his spark that tells him he's missing something far more important than a t-cog and dreams of gentle and loving hands, cradling him against the frames of mechs he cannot recall the faces of.

[wistfulwatcher]

finales + ava's (lack of) experience outside of deborah

[sunlit-mess]

I can only take so much, but lately, they have replaced my reflection. And realize I'm just as bad as them.