#and i don't know how to find a middle ground between this kind of respect and also being able to actually engage with and explore mb

[prettyboykatsuki]

WHAT YOUR LOVE&DEEPSPACE MAIN LI SAYS ABOUT YOU

or what i would assume about you based on your favored LI. this post is not meant to be taken super seriously and is not meant to offend anyone 🙂‍↔️

its for fun!!! whether or not it applies to you Varies but itd be nice to know how accurate it was to you!

some notes: i play this game in cn and my characterization is influenced mostly from this. also i view the relationship between calebmc not as childhood friends but adopted siblings. i respect your interpretation so pls respect mine but it doesnt come up much in the post itself.

RAFAYEL

For most Raf stans, your interest in sassy and melodramatic men tends to have some history behind it. Whether that be in real life or in your other fictional men, you find yourself drawn to a specific kind of character type over and over, easily swayed by eccentric charm and large displays of emotion and grandeur. Perhaps as a result of needing convincing of the depths of someones devotion, rather then being swayed easily with words.

You may be the type of person that struggles to be with people who they don't have much in common with. The safety net of common ground, of someone who feels like a flirtatious friend at times and not a domestic partner, and the playfulness of the ultimately serious connection gives you a sense of quiet assurance and lets you breathe. Intimate relationships both friendship and otherwise can feel overwhelming.

You are especially conscious of your autonomy in relationships and hold a fear of losing yourself in love. The way Rafayel is able to navigate and subtly assure his commitment to you while also not always forcing you confront it brings you a sense of comfort no other LI really can.

You could be fearful about the idea of losing yourself in the act of loving someone else before you ever realize you're doing it. You may have a tendency to emotional extremes, though outwardly you seem ambivalent to most things. Internally though, the depth of your obsession and internalized longing for your partner genuinely inhibit you in your life for a period, in a way you have trouble articulating verbally. Engaging in wholehearted, sappy romance is something you struggle with and perhaps something you even feel embarrassed by.

You're not particularly avoidant of commitment, but the daunting idea of spending your life with someone scares you, even though it's something you truly want. Whether that be in lifestyle, viewpoint, or life experiences - you find catharsis in the (maybe misguided) belief that you could always go back to being friends and find yourself feeling very convinced of it. Having something aside from love tethering you brings you assurance, because for better or for worse - you aren't sure if love will be enough. Being Miss Bodyguard to Rafayel is something you like - as it feels more tangible a role than lover. It might even become a sore point in your relationship depending on how you go about it.

For Rafayel stans, a level of relatability and Rafayel's clever way of engaging your emotions and being considerate towards your expression is important to you. You might have a strong sense or fear of grounded reality and feel a slight envy towards Rafayel's freedom of expression even at his most frivolous or when you know he's acting. There's a also strong chance you are queer and a switch.

XAVIER

For Xavier stans, I think the poll is split evenly down the middle who like characters like him historically and people who were completely blindsided by their feelings for him. You might have a tendency towards anxiety and/or overthinking.

You are likely someone who tends to bottle up their emotions and resentment and may have a tendency to take things personally even if they are not directed at you specifically. It's likely you're capable and tenacious person in your career but struggle with recognizing your emotional needs.

The main driving point for you and Xavier is his loyalty. Above both devotion and obsession - you're drawn to the assured quality of his emotions that seems to reach past something tangible, but never fully undermines your capability. You may take preference to Xavier to Caleb explicitly for this reason.

It's likely you also enjoy the comfortable, natural element to Xaviers romance. A bluntness followed with irrefutable proof of affection is comforting - as it doesn't feel forced and does not need to be asked for. It may be that you're somewhat prone to feeling like partners should be able to read your mind, and find yourself harboring some resentment when they cannot. This may be especially true as you see yourself as being less of a 'needy' partner and find that blow especially tough.

You could have had the type of childhood that required a lot of sacrifice. Not necessarily a big, traumatic incident but a small series of sacrifices that accumulated over a lifetime that influence your way of thinking in relationships. You're somewhat adverse to the feeling of needing someone because of how you've developed your autonomy. Being the one to 'chase' might be something you avoid, or something you'd prefer to be relieved of after doing it most of your life in other areas. I think there's a strong overlap between Xavier fans and middle children / only children.

As a LI, Xavier will always have you and being with you, at the forefront of his priorities, almost to the point of absurdity but without feeling intentional. There's an ease and effortless that comforts you - as if love is the one thing you think it'd be nice not to work hard at. He's the love interest that most strongly expresses his monopoly over you regardless of consequence and morals.

You may be reluctant to admit that you like these things and may feel a sense of guilt over how much you indulge or enable his desire to monopolize you so completely. Even though you know logically it's not anything bad. You may also have a tendency to get easily attached to people who show you genuine kindness even when it's to your own detriment. It's surprisingly easy for small acts of kindness and relief tend to move you more deeply then anything.

For Xavier stans, the fact he prioritizes you without second guessing himself makes it difficult for you to second-guess him either. Struggling to reconcile your needs, you appreciate that Xavier meets them silently on his own and often subtlety that protects your pride. That and his ability to do it all without making it seem like a labor. Comforted by his certainty that does not require you to express your own vulnerability often.

ZAYNE

For Zayne stans - it's perhaps undeniable that one of the main draws of his character is the sort of perfection and stability he provides to your life. He upholds a gentle, considerate demeanor while being able to make choices and decisions without hesitating. It's likely that he is a character type that's shown up in your history at some other time, though in respect to what specific aspect might vary.

You are likely someone who struggles with a sense of loneliness, regardless of how many people you have in your immediate circle and in your life. It's not from a lacking gratitude, but rather - a tendency to never quite show your hand when it comes to intimate relationships. You might be someone who has had to learn to navigate social situations as a means of survival - choosing to front with many different masks to accommodate for each group. You often have a hyper-vigilance towards you and a sensitive intuition about people.

While there is the assumption (and some merit in that assumption) that most Zayne mains are attracted to his sense of responsibility - it's more likely what you're attracted to the feeling of acceptance Zayne offers. What that acceptance is of specifically may vary, whether it be an acceptance of your neediness or of your childishness or just your general authentic self. Beyond simple honesty, it's the understanding that your presence is wanted regardless of what it looks like.

You may have had a childhood that came with high expectations of you and a pressure to behave/perform that you found difficult to withstand. As an adult, you may carry these expectations still and critique yourself harshly when you are unable to meet them. It makes the blow feel especially harsh when you fail at something.

Additionally, it's possible you have a strained relationship with authority figures in your life. Whether it be parentification, general incompetence, or neglect - some circumstances have given you a certain pessimism and a sustained yet strong belief that relying on another person is not possible, though you long to do so.

It's likely that the trust and rapport Zayne provides innately is the biggest comfort you receive from his character. Not only is he trustworthy in the literal sense, but he's consistent in proving himself with actions and emotionally trustworthy without fail.

You may also see and recognize Zayne's struggles within yourself, and are attracted to the idea of partnership with him because the relationship would be on equal footing. You may have had past relationships where you accepted less then you deserved as a result of mentioned loneliness and need for companionship. You might find yourself attracting partners who need to be taken care over partners with their own autonomy as you find it hard to relinquish control despite your desire to do just that.

For Zayne stans, rather than the surface level need for stability - you are attracted to the feeling true partnership in his romance. A person that is both dependable, capable and understanding. Zayne speaks to the desire you have for a true companion - not necessarily out of monopoly, but a deep and answer to an almost cosmic loneliness from years of struggling all on your own.

SYLUS

For Sylus stans, it's likely true that you were at least somewhat attracted to Sylus' character on the surface - even before developing a more refined understanding of his character. You might have a preference of villains or other types of characters with an outcast quality to them or some kind of habitual vigilantism.

You enjoy, generally, being the exception to the rule when it comes to characters you like. Rather then a character who tends to form relationships and connections easily - you prefer being the person 'chosen' in a matter of speaking. You may have a history with being socially outcast / abrasive and find yourself less drawn to characters who are too expressly friendly with everyone, though you yourself tend to be amiable.

You likely have a strong sense of identity perhaps at the price of your social life and capital, and a strong commitment to authenticity that comes at the cost of receiving ire from people you consider friends and foes alike. As a result, you also find yourself somewhat overly forgiving and take betrayal extremely personally as deep intimate relationships are difficult to form as few people also fit the criteria of your values. You might be prone to sensitivity and feelings of hurt, while being almost too lenient with those you love and care for as a result.

The initial enemies-to-lovers part of Sylus' romance may appeal to you, but more then that its the gradual deepening of the relationship that you find classically romantic. As opposed to being seen at your worst, its knowing that Sylus is capable of always seeing exactly who you are no matter how you may appear in front of him that calls to you most. Not only that but loving you for it.

You have a history of being misunderstood or having your intentions misconstrued as a result of how you choose to navigate the world while staying true to your values. Sylus demonstrating continuously that no matter the circumstances, he understands you with ease is a large part of his appeal. In addition - you may be someone who struggles to express their emotions verbally without feeling a sense of embarrassment.

You have a tendency to use actions or gifts or other more tangible means to show your love - but directness tends to weaken your resolve and feels especially charming when being pursued romantically. Sylus being able to communicate his emotions to you concisely and without irony - as well without needing your interpretation speaks to you. Rather then needing to read his intentions, you can trust in his honesty and in his commitment. Of course this is backed-up with actions, but more than anything - you need to be assured verbally and directly.

You might've struggled with having a guardian (perhaps specifically a mother figure) that was passive aggressive. You have a tendency towards anxiety and catastrophizing under duress - and as a result find Sylus' consistent calmness appealing even in moments it should bother you to see him act that way. His assuredness feels almost medicinal in that sense.

For Sylus stans, its not only his sense of devotion but the extent of it - the ways in which he commits to understanding you, honoring your choices, and making the effort to do it continually and without expectation. His romance provides a specific kind of clarity and has a more soothing quality, someone that assures you that you can make it out of anything unscathed - no matter how big or small.

CALEB

For Caleb stans, some of your preferences and your reasoning will depend on which view you choose to see the relationship that Caleb and MC shares. Regardless though, there's a strong likelihood that the type of character Caleb is, is one you have somewhere else in your history for one reason or another.

There is a distinct feeling of wish fulfillment when it comes to your view or interest in Caleb as a love interest - and there might even be a distinct degree of separation between your interest in him and how much you view MC to be yourself as a result of the nature of his romance.

It's possible you have a strong sense of detachment or compartmentalization when it comes to your own emotions. Or find them so intense at times it gets difficult to hold relationships comfortably. As well as a strong feeling of emotional invulnerability that can seem ironic when considering Caleb as a love interest. However, it's explicitly the exclusivity and the appeal that Caleb holds - the 'special' foundation of his relationship that draws you in

Regardless of which interpretation of the game you choose, there's no doubt that Caleb is a character that builds a lifetime of rapport in his romance that influences his level of fierce protectiveness. It's likely you had a difficult childhood and home life - one that forced you to grow up sooner and made your youth primarily focused on escaping. It's possible you felt both much older then your peers while also feeling emotionally stunted when it came to your romantic relationships as an adult.

It's likely you find navigating vulnerability challenging - either because you're concerned with being too much when expressing your emotions sincerely, or because the very thought of doing so is rather foreign in general. Regardless on which side of the coin you fall on, you take comfort in the act of being loved almost forcibly.

Difficult to anger, quick to forgive, and always overwhelmingly willing to coddle even your smallest incidents - Caleb's romance provides a love that demands nothing of you in any capacity and exists as a sounding board for your emotions. You may be the type of person who struggles deeply to care for themselves even at their most healed.

It's possible you prefer love to be treated as an avenue of destiny and inevitability, something infallible and absolute and unchanging. You might be a bit of a romantic or a person with a strong inclination towards daydreaming, but you find this part of yourself in earnest a bit difficult to face with honesty. There's perhaps nothing so difficult as the admittance you want to be loved so much, though it's a theme that appears repeatedly in your life.

For Caleb stans, the main draw is in a way the choicelessness of the affection he shows. There's an almost overbearing quality to his love that makes it inescapable - and this both serves you and reassures you that there is no right or wrong way to make him leave. Caleb might exist more than anything as an answer to abandonment wounds in your adolescence, a hero even at his worst.

[hoseokslefteyebrow]

In which the first years find out you're engaged, and to whom.

Arranged marriage au.

In which you meet for the first time.

" You're already engaged?!" 

Nobara Kugisaki's mouth is wide open as she grabs your hand, studying the ring that fits you taste.

You smile at her reaction as you nod, allowing her to look at it. 

Today, you, along with the other second years, are training the first years, as Gojo was sent off to a mission. 

Currently, everyone was seated on the lush ground.

Nobara can't see it, but from opposite you, Toge grins, his blush and expression hidden behind his high collar.

" Why? You're so young! He must be amazing if he managed to pull you!" 

You blush at her words.

" Thanks. It started out as an arranged marriage actually."

" What?- Wait so you don't love him? Do we need to help you get rid of him and escape?"

Nobara is serious, and you can't help but snort.

" Ah, don't worry-"

Your gaze shies away, the hand she's holding pulling away as you pluck at the grass below you. You blush as you continue to speak.

" We might've started out arranged, but we've fallen for each other along the line."

Nobara blinks, taken by surprise.

" How long have you known each other?"

" Since halfway through middle school. We were introduced with the announcement of our marriage."

" I see. When are you getting married?- Oh, I'm invited too, right? Do you need a maid of honor?"

You smile at her enthusiasm.

" We're set to marry once we graduate. And of course you're invited. Maki's already my maid of honor though."

From beside you, Maki smiles.

Meanwhile Nobara's eyes widen in realization.

" Once you both graduate? Your family is a Jujutsu clan right?!-"

" Are you going to marry Panda?"

Everyone turns to Yuuji with an obvious questioning expression in their eyes.

From beside him, Megumi smacks him upside the head.

" No, idiot. She's engaged to Inumaki." 

Yuuji whines as he holds his head.

" That was my second guess."

Nobara blinks between the two of you. Opposite you, Inumaki gets up, moving over to plop down closely besides you. You smile as he does so, leaning over to press a kiss to his cheek in greeting.

This time, everyone notices the blush on his cheeks.

" No way! You?!"

You're not sure if that's a negative or positive reaction.

" Salmon."

" Is there something wrong?"

Nobara hurriedly shakes her head.

" No, I just didn't know. I'm surprised. I've rarely seen you two sit beside one another in class, or spar together, or do anything together except for eating lunch side by side, so- and how do you even communicate?"

You grin at her. From behind his pulled up collar, Inumaki does the same.

" We've been dating since before Jujutsu Tech. We know each other well and respect each other's space. Besides, our class is small, and we already hang out a lot outside of class as well. Besides, once you're together for long enough, you kind of just know how to communicate without communicating, you get me?"

Nobara's looking at you with wide eyes, obviously intrigued by this newfound information. 

" So you're basically already married?"

You and Toge exchange looks, the both of you shrugging.

He picks up your hand which was resting on the ground, holding it in his lap as he messes with the engagement ring he willingly got you. Just like every clan marriage, it was mostly meant for on the papers. To continue the bloodline eventually. He had never been given a ring to give you, and you never asked for one.

Nonetheless, he's happy he did, proud to show you off and already be able to call you his.

" Almost."

[A/N: Lowkey crave a full blown story for Inumaki in an arranged marriage au tbh.]

[allastoredeer]

Personally I think Alastor, Lucifer AND Angel are on the pretty boy side of the scale and none of that has to do with their preferences in bed. More like in... How to say it... Body type and behavior? All three are obviously men but don't quite adhere to the masculine/feminine dichotomy.

With Alastor it seems to me that he is closer to "masculine" but not in an alpha range, but in that he sees himself as a "gentleman" and at least a part of him consciously or unconsciously knows that the male representation has more privilege, but he doesn't particularly care as much

AAngel just does his thing, and I think Angel has benefited from and used looking more "delicate" or "feminine" more than once to his advantage in getting underestimated. I think that gender in general is quite fluid for Angel, but not so much because he has thought about it but because living and dead, roles have been imposed on him that he has taken as a mask for himself.I imagine he is very comfortable with himself now but the impression I got is that Angel oscillates between hating and loving his own traits due to how little control he has and how he is perceived.

(I'm thinking specifically about how he talks about his body and how attractive it is but sees himself as only important because of those kinds of things. After E4 it's obviously in a much better place. What I'm saying is that with Angel it's complicated because it's part his own feelings and part coping mechanis)

Lucifer actually exudes an aura of seduction, it's just those bedroom eyes and his whole vibe when he decides he's going to crush this guy he met 5 minutes ago. But I think the show did well to represent a beauty that tends more towards androgynous with him. And as we've already talked about, Lucifer gives off very versatile vibes, I think he would be the middle ground.

I definitely agree that all three of them are on the pretty boy side. Pretty, pretty, pretty boys

(I couldn't find a better gif of Angel forgive me)

Though, I do see Alastor more on the feminine side than the masculine side. He is a gentleman, but sometimes I think people lean too far into him being a gentleman.

Like, not to bring Websters Dictionary into this (Cambridge Dictionary technically) but the definitions of gentleman are:

A polite way of talking to or referring to a man. Obvious one, but not the definition people use.

A man of a high social class. Which, yeah, considering Alastor is an Overlord in Hell, technically he is part of a high social class. But that's not typically the type of gentleman he is depicted as either.

A man who is polite and behaves well towards other people, especially women: This is the one I think people lean on, which I find funny because Alastor is polite and he can behave well, but typically that is only aimed at women. Not people in general. I see him being a gentleman with women, but even then, not all the time - does that make sense?

Like, there are times he still acts like a mean little bastard, even to women (albeit less often) like when Charlie was having a break down in her bedroom cuz she found out her girlfriend has been lying to her for years and she'd essentially doomed everybody she cared about. Alastor had no sympathy for her, he didn't actually care about the situation, he went up there with the sole intent to get something from her. He was blunt, rubbed her situation in her face, and then gaslit, gatekeeped, and girlbossed his way into getting a deal out of her.

Yes, his words were crafted in a way that can seem gentlemanly, but that doesn't mean he was being a gentleman. He wasn't being polite, he was being a sassy, condescending little shit.

And I'm not saying Alastor isn't a gentleman, he definitely acts like a one when he wants to be, especially around those he likes or respects (like Rosie, Niffty, and Zestial - and yes, even Charlie and Vaggie). But like...most of the time? He's just a smooth-talking bitch with fancy words (affectionate).

Don't get me wrong, I definitely see Alastor as being a gentleman, but I don't see him being as much of a gentleman as people make him out to be, which actually might be the reason why he so often loses his clownish, trolling nature in fanon, because that gentlemanly characteristic he's been given implies some level of general politeness and good behavior, which cancels out when he's trolling and/or insulting people. He can be more passive-aggressively and subtle about it, like he did with Lucifer, but I still wouldn't call that being a gentleman.

I agree with Angel though! I think, while Angel has benefitted looking more feminine, he also enjoys presenting as feminine. I can see him being very fluid in it.

"the impression I got is that Angel oscillates between hating and loving his own traits due to how little control he has and how he is perceived."

THIS! ⬆️ Definitely agree with this. 100%. Perfectly said.

As for Lucifer, I do see the seduction side of him, even if I think it's overblown at times. He has amazing bedroom eyes. I agree that there is an androgynous beauty to him, but at the same time, idk a lot of the time, he still came off as very masculine to me. Could've been the way he carried himself. Could've been his voice. Could've been the way he spoke. Don't know for sure.

I think Lucifer can fluctuate before feminine and androgynous, but overall, he felt masculine most of the time.

[gothic-thoughts]

Wrath

Lil homage to Supernatural lowkey (cuz i miss that show)

Ghost Riley x Black GN Reader Angst

Fallen Angel!ReaderAU, MeetUgly

CW: Ghost finds you, Reader wakes from a coma

TW: I, myself am not religious but that don't mean ion respect other people's beliefs and obviously this isn't meant to be offensive in terms of religion, killing mention, bad injury/wound description

Word Count: 1449 (give or take)

The ground finally stopped shaking like nothing even happened, but this wasn't some minor tremor. This was the most unlikely place to have earthquakes and yet a 5.2 just rocked the entire base out of nowhere like it was nothing; strong enough to shake the building but weak enough that nothing was broken, just knocked over. We tracked the origin to find it was only 20 miles from here in a random forest, deducing that it was some kind of weapon meant for us but thankfully missed by only a couple miles. And I was determined to find out who had the balls to threaten us in our own home.

Once the chopper landed, I cautiously led my squad across the field towards a huge clearing of knocked-over trees and scorched grass with a giant, steaming crater in the middle. We approach it to find nothing: no metal, no casing, nothing. Just somebody lying naked in the center.

"Oh, what the f--” I trail off as lowering my gun, “Who the hell is this? And why are they naked?"

I groan in frustration before ordering most of the squad to investigate the area while ordering a couple others to get a blanket from the chopper. I carefully walked down into the crater with my gun trained on the person, waiting for them to make a move but the only movement was the staggering rise and fall of their chest. I nudge their calf with my foot only for it to move limply.

“And what the hell were you doing all the way out here...? Whatever, hello?! Hello, hey!”

No response. Not even an eye twitch to let me know they could at least hear me...or alive. I put my gun away and kneeled into the now dissipating steam to examine the many, many cuts and bruises marking the front of their body that seemed to be already healing. I reluctantly reach down to shake their shoulder but again not even a change in breath; they’re out cold.

I roll them onto the side to check but the sight of two, large matching wounds between the shoulder blades makes my eyes widen. The skin around it was pulled outward, looking either melted or like they were ripped off of something hot. 

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Three days after we bring them to the medical bay, their eyes finally open, darting around the room and then to the cuffs keeping their right wrist chained to the gurney. The medics thought it was a bit much since they were so hurt but I couldn’t trust them just yet, if at all, given the fact that in 3 days, we still knew nothing about them: not their name, age, nationality; nothing, so I wanted to be extra cautious. Their eyes lock with mine and I give them nothing but a cold, skeptical stare as I walk into the room and stand at the end of the bed.

“Stop struggling; I don’t trust you enough as is.”

“So we understand each other then.” They snap, “Who are you and what have you done to me?”

“Done to you? I brought you to a medical bay and kept you even more alive than you looked in that crater so how ‘bout we start with your name and we’ll go from there.”

“I don’t have to tell you damned thing, I demand you release me. Now.”

“Yeah, that’s not how this works.” I cross my arms, eyes narrowing behind my mask, “I don’t care how pretty or rich you think you are, but--”

“Do I look ‘rich’ to you?”

“I don’t know what you look like, all I know is we found you at the epicenter of 5.2 earthquake only a few miles from our base, thinking you were some kind of missile. That was 3 days ago.”

“Three...? I... I caused an earthquake...? Was anyone hurt?”

“You must’ve hit your head harder than we thought if you think you could cause a damn earthquake, much less one that strong.”

“Wait, did you say ‘base’? Like a mortal military base...?”

Mortal? They're more entitled than I thought. "Yeah, sure a ‘mortal’ base. You’re being detained until we determine and learn who you are and what you are."

“What I am? So you do understand I am not from here...”

“I almost considered that since that's the only answer I can see after 3 whole days of trying to figure out why the hell you have no blood type, fingerprints or an even an SSN; so either you’re an infant, faked your death, or you’re a fucking spy. So as I said earlier, we’re gonna start from the fucking beginning.”

They sigh, no longer struggling with the cuffs, “Fine... I’ll comply.”

“And no lies; you may not have a blood type, but you have a heartbeat. If I feel like you're lyin', we do this the hard way, got it?"

They nod. I don't budge an inch, continuing to watch for even the slightest twitch.

“Name.”

“(Y/n).”

"See, easy. Alright; then (Y/n), what makes you so special that we can't read your fingertips?"

“Since you're already so skeptical, I doubt you will believe me if I tell you...”

“Try me.”

They rolled their eyes with a scoff. “Yeah, because you mortals are known for your trustworthiness.”

“What I believe isn't the point here, just spit it out."

Another exasperated sigh. “I'm an angel...or I was...”

I blink a few times, processing their words. “I said no lying.”

“Thought you said what you believe wasn't the point.”

“It is when you lie.”

“Whatever, if you're so smart how do you explain my lack of human information, Mr. Easter Bunny? The earthquake? You didn’t find anything else besides me in the area, did you?”

I scoff with a chuckle. Angel or not, they're a smart ass. "You're right, I actually can't. But I know that angels aren't real... and if they were, they can't be hurt. How'd you go from this invincible being to half-dead in the middle of a forest?"

“I said I was an angel, didn't I? I'm a fallen angel now.”

"So how'd you lose your wings then?"

“Simply put, I sinned.”

“Can you elaborate on that?” 

“A demon killed my best friend and wrath got the better of me..” Their voice cracked a little, “So I found that monster and showed him the exact same mercy he showed her...”

I pause, hearing the amount of stifled anguish in their voice. I relax my shoulders and uncross my arms, softening my eyes just slightly enough to let them know I believe them...enough...for now.

"You regret it?"

“I am aware of what I signed up for when the thought entered my head... but she was my best friend.” (Y/n) sniffles, avoiding eye contact, “It was worth it, though I am a terrible person for it...”

“Well yes...” I walk around the bed and unlock the cuff from their wrist, “And no.”

They gasp, doing a double take. “No? I killed someone."

"We have something called nuance down here on Earth. What you do matters, but the intent matters more."

"So you don't think I'm a terrible person? Are you serious right now?"

“Not a terrible person, just a terrible angel. You’d make a great person.”

"Right, because mortals kill more often than not."

"Hey, not all of us are serial killers, (Y/n). Most have legitimate reasons for killing someone, your case just so happens to be very common."

"Oh..." (Y/n) sits up against the pillows, "That doesn't make it okay."

"I never said it made it okay; I said it doesn't make you terrible."

"I never got your name..."

"Call me Ghost."

"Ghost...?"

"We'll work on real names when I trust you more."

"Okay then...Ghost. So what happens now? I stay in some special cell, treated like a freak while your army interrogates me?"

“I'm not putting you in a cell."

“You won't?”

"Unless you give me a reason to, no. You don’t seem dangerous, and besides, if we keep you in an actual cell... I think you'd just try and break out. You're just gonna have to live here for now."

“Thank you... I think..."

"Don't get too comfortable though, I'll still be keepin' my eye on you. But at least you get to not be cooped up in a cell. Until we figure out what to do with you that is."

“...And... just how comfortable are army barracks?”

I let out a soft chuckle. "They might not be the most luxurious, but I can give you a room to yourself. No one should bug you as long as you stay out of others' way."

"Thank you."

"Don't thank me yet; you might hate it here. Not many people like being surrounded by soldiers in every direction."

"Better than the middle of a crater."

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(a/n): Last mythical one i swear (prolly, maybe, not really)

[cskv11]

What lore predictions do you have for the b.o.b?

I really hope we find out wtf is going on between him and the Axolotl tbh

I really hope this ages well 😭

When it comes to his personal lore (as in origin story) I believe non of it will be true; he'll dramatize every detail he's physically able to, and he won't even try masking it. We'll be able to see his lies, but the truth will come out to be real clear when we'll read between lines (as in "liberated my dimension" means " Arson is my middle name and everyone that once knew me can confirm that I love burning people). The codes and ciphers Bill will leave hanging around the pages will contain heavier lore drops, but really decontextualized, and will be mostly gossip.

He will definitely give us some juicy lore about all these "higher" beings (?) that the Gravity Falls cast has encountered throughout the series, like Time Baby and Jheselbraum. Maybe he'll introduce us to someone new characters! But the thing about unreliable narrators is that you never know where the lies end and where the truth starts, so it'll mostly be a competition on who he trash-talks about more hahaha.

Of course, OBVIOUSLY, the Axolotl will be there. Not only because of his apparent connection with Bill, but the way Alex has portrayed them both in the promos he's posted on Instagram, makes me believe there's absolutely some deep things going on between those two. Personally, I feel like he sees the Axolotl as some kind of hypocrite and coward. He's envious the Axolotl is respected while Bill is plainly feared and "betrayed" constantly. There will be a bunch of pages dedicated to this guy - half of them just insulting him, the other half explaining how they met (while insulting him, of course). He'll make sure to let us know he's infinitely better than the Axolotl, in all aspects possible.

The Henchmaniacs! They will be there! Tho, I don't know if this book is supposed to be set before or after the events of Gravity Falls. Depending on what part of the timeline the book covers, there'll be more or fewer detriments directed at them. He'll explain the nobodies they were before joining him and how they came to him, dragging on the ground, searching for divine enlightment and loyal servitude. And he, as benevolent as he is, gave them the blessing of being his henchmen. If the book is located after the events of Gravity Falls, this will be flooded with irony (or maybe he's totally oblivious and doesn't actually care they made him a statue saying he's the worst).

Weird anatomical and physiological facts about himself! He knows what we crave, and he'll give it to us. We'll regret ever thinking of wanting to know how his eye-mouth-tongue operates! This will be extensively graphical, and there will be illustrations and schematics of it! I hope!

He'll explain to us what the hell he meant when he said he eats his own exoskeleton! (WE'LL KNOW WHAT'S THERE BEHIND HIS EYE???? IS HE SOME KIND OF MR KRABS BLOB OF FAT AND MEAT UNDERNEATH HIS very jazzy triangle OUTFIT?)

He'll take credit for an innumerable quantity of cults and important historical events he claims to have influenced, participated in, or fully provoked! Ford gave us the info he had about Bill's global influence, and Bill's going to expand on it and give us his side of the story! (Maybe he'll explain more stories like the one document Ford had that talked about "Billius Cipherus"?)

He'll tell us how he got his powers cause he ain't convincing anybody saying he just popped into the Universe like that. Sweet lore. He'll give us clues he had a sibling (<- I hope). He'll justify killing his family and explain the atrocities they commited against him. Maybe there really is some deep trauma buried in there? We gonna see tear marks when (if) he talks bout his family? Man, I WISH

Enchants, curses, summonings and all that stuff. They will be there.

And I'm gonna end this here cause I already have written too much and probably won't be able to correct any grammar mistakes I've made cause I'm ecstatic:

FORD...

You know he'll be there, you know half of the book will be about this poor babygirl, and he's gonna act tough, pretending he doesn't care bout nuthin but YOU KNOW THERE WILL BE DEEP IMPLICATIONS THAT THESE TWO WERE MORE THAN "STUDENT" AND "MENTOR". HE WILL TRY TO HIDE IT BUT WE KNOWWW WHAT THESE TWO LOOSERS WERE, WE KNOWWW THEIR DIRTY LITTLE SECRETT and I'm gonna be drooling about it –I won't sleep I won't eat, I won't drink, my brain will be picturing these two lil mfs wishing each other a good night ASHDHHSHS

Anyway, this is it for now, I apologize for any grammar mistakes that could cause potential brain damage! Thanks for the ask!

[radioactivedragonbones]

ok here it goes! keep in mind that this has just existed in my head off and on, and not for very long lol!

so, i love the guardians are a family and Jack is the son trope lol, so that's what I based this on.

background:

Set in Berk times

Jack is a fairly young Frost Giant and I'm not really sure yet how he meets the guardians but they're really close

the Guardians are pretty prominent figures in Berk, not visiting all that often, but after Berk became accepting of Dragons they've had an awareness and respect for the Guardians (they're kind of like spirits in this if that makes sense)

the main plot point that I would love to write for a fic is Berk stuck in a very long and harsh winter that keeps going on long past it should.

Berk calls the Guardians because they believe it's spirit related (they haven't met Jack yet)

Jack has been missing and the Guardians have been looking for him so they haven't been back to Berk in a few years

when the Guardians make it to Berk the sense Jack's presence (magically idk lol 😅)

Jack's been put to a coma like sleep under the ocean surrounding Berk (he's hugeeee compared to Berk rn so he fully surrounds it curled up)

Because he's a Frost Giant he's so cold that he was accidentally causing a permawinter in Berk

The Guardians manage to wake him up and he slowly and sleepily rises out of the ocean to face all of Berk and the Guardians

I've had this imagery of water raining off him cause he's so huge, but also so cold so it freezes on him and breaks off when he moves

The Guardians tell Jack that Pitch was the one to imprison him (more magic i haven't figured out lol, also don't know how he does it 😭)

Jack gets angry and tries to stand but can't so he reaches over, rips a tree out of the ground and uses his remaining energy to grow it into a new staff (the movie in my head makes this look so cool and awesome trust me)

he stands, almost falls and has to shrink down where the Guardians catch him and Berk offers them a place to stay while they figure things out

obviously there's Hiccup x Jack lol

That's all I have for now! Sorry if some of it doesn't make much sense!! thanks for listening to me ramble lol

That sounds awesome and the imagery of Gigantor Jack rising out of the water with icicles forming and breaking off him is stunning. I too have a movie-maker in my brain lol. Also the tree becoming a staff is super cool.

I always imagined the Guardians being these distant god-like figures that the villagers in Berk see similar to how we understand viking era folks relationships with their gods/figures of magic. Them forming a relationship with these larger-than-life [sometimes literally] beings would be really cool to explore! Coming to know these figures they've been arguing over being superstition or not *are in fact real* and are *so very human* when they drop their mighty facade; and later forming interpersonal relationships and general Berk-Guardian deals.

I imagine North to be the frost giant father figure when he meets Jack, kinda taking him under his wing as a young frost giant who keeps getting knocked down by far more ancient creatures like pitch. He's been around a while and chills in Jotunheim most of the time, having basically the = of his workshop situated there. But the Berkians see him as a bit of a protective winter diety, one who brings 'gifts' in the middle of the harshest season; wildlife to hunt, winter berries and hearty crops that can survive the frost, etc. They'd probably find some stashed goods they forgot about and attribute it to North gifting it to them, which may be true. A lot of random items ppl dont remember having, but have thought about needing, seem to turn up in their homes throughout December.

Bunny would be a spring forest fey-creature type figure, known to paint the colors into nature in the spring. Maybe they start finding painted dragon eggs around and a yearly hunt starts up as a game between them and the illusive harmless trickster creature. Soon they start painting their own dragon eggs around hatching season, in his honor, and as a bit of a decoration. If youre gonna have dragon eggs all over berk anyways, why not make em pretty? He's also a protector figure, thought to keep dangerous creatures away from the town and people. Maybe even a helper to the lost; leaving a little trail of colorful eggs along the path back to town when kids wander off and get disoriented in the thick woods.

Haven't thought too much about Tooth and Sandy tbh cause I'm not entirely sure how to reform them into a bit more... unfamiliar and creepy but ultimately beneficial diety/folkloric figures. Tooth would be a human-sized fairy, ofc, and have smth to do with teeth and deals made with said teeth, but I'm not sure beyond that. Maybe shes a symbol of wealth and growth, as well as memory and retaining knowledge from your youth to inform your future. And ofc Sandy still has to do with dreams and sand, but I'm not sure how the Berkians would worship him yet. What kind of offerings they'd give in exchange for dreams or a good night's rest. Maybe he works with oracles/seers to give them visions in their dreams; omens good and bad alike, of past, present, maybe future. Perhaps he works primarily with Gothi and her practice revolves around divination and wisdom, with Sandy as a bit of a guide and source of knowledge.

Idk you've got me thinking about their relationships with the Berkians and how that relationship impacts their everyday life and religious practices. I love it!

[divinekangaroo]

I’m baffled as to why Tommy married Lizzie really. She is unsuitable to be a politician’s wife, a mistress on the side surely would have been fine, it's even norm. It is no way a good strategy or helps his reputation.

Agree! There was no strategic gain for him at all. It might nominally help his reputation with some working class voters, that he married within his class and not above it, but I don't know how that works if Lizzie's reputation as a prostitute was well known. Either way this nominal reputational boost with one demographic is not likely significant enough to be any part of his decision making. I feel there had to be some level of personal care for her in there, and a desire to do something for her, as well as his strong sense of family, because otherwise why would he marry her?

Based on cues in the canon, there's possible motivation including:

his strong cultural and personal sense of responsibility to family given Lizzie has his child - he's demonstrated this sense of family before with Grace, because as soon as he learned Grace was pregnant in S2, he went immediately to marriage. This was different to his conversations with S1 Grace where he was satisifed with a relationship and not marriage. (And even his S2 pre-pregnancy conversations with Grace, where he seemed satisifed with an affair. And the way he brought Duke into the picture.) His children are very important to him!

an acknowledment/respect for Lizzie's unashamed willingness to be a single mother to his child, and all the stigma that carries on top of her past; marrying her would be the least he could do to help erase that stigma for her. Noting no amount of money would erase the stigma of single motherhood given his and her class of origin. These social privileges to the mistresses of upper class men do not apply to the mistresses of working class men who've acquired money.

he was feeling really fucked up at the end of S4, and Lizzie's helped him with comfort/care through other times when he was feeling really fucked up. Apart from being his regular pre S1, when his war trauma would have been the worst, in S2 Lizzie features with this one observable sexual event where he was with her immediately after Polly told him to get over Grace, and immediately before he had to do an assassination he didn't want to. S3 he clearly articulates she stopped his heart from breaking. Lizzie (and sex with Lizzie) represents some kind of easy, accessible physical comfort/softness for him between slices of hell.

some kind of guilt at how he'd treated her in the past (John, Epsom) when here she was, prepared to be a single mother to his child with no shame.

he actually likes her - S2 he goes to a special effort to elevate her out of being a prostitute, even when she was probably barely capable of the role at that point, S3 features several elements suggesting he trusts her significantly, S4 they have relaxed conversations despite all the shit going on, even in S5 in the middle of the worst and cutting at each other verbally, they both mutually decide to still try to find some middle ground where they can stay together, which suggests they have a lot of non-sexual/conversational history not shown on screen. They also have several almost comedic moments of chemistry in S4 and S5 which ties back to liking, too.

I 100% feel Ruby was the trigger for the marriage, no matter any other motivation, I don't think he'd marry her if there was no child. But he had to have more than *just* the child to go so far as marriage, hence the above.

I think, given Lizzie was the one he took to the bridge which was his 'can I still do good things the way Greta and I used to speak about' moment, this sort of symbolic link carried through Ruby's conception, he might have also thought marrying Lizzie would be a gesture of 'doing a good thing.' There is a constant theme in the series, and Tommy even clearly and verbally articulates it in S5, that when Tommy tries to do a good thing, people get hurt. Hence the weight of his regret for marrying Lizzie as expressed in S6 -- marrying her, which he likely saw as a good act, resulted in Lizzie's anguish and exposed her to hurt by both Tommy personally in his emotional closed-off state, and via the acts Tommy was doing in trying to sabotage Mosley, which he would not deviate from even when conscious of the hurt it would cause Lizzie.

[suckishima]

man i love this sequence so much—and tbh their dynamic in general which i feel like we don't talk about enough

on paper they seem like such opposites—and they kind of are—with tanaka being a mood maker and morale stabilizer for the team, he's loud and boisterous and never holds back what he's feeling ("dial down my feelings?? what does that even mean??"), while tsukki barely speaks on the court, openly admits to disliking loud and excitable people, and seems to calculatedly hide his emotions away. you would think they wouldn't like each other and wouldn't work well together, but i think every interaction we see between them is a positive one

we see them kinda partner up to roast other teams or their own teammates, but also tanaka is one of the few senpai that tsukki seems comfortable openly making fun of directly. but then tanaka doesn't even ever seem mad by tsukki's taunts—occasionally he'll even pass judgement on how successful tsukki was with his comebacks. and tanaka will just throw a jab back easily, which tsukki doesn't really seem bothered by either—tanaka never gets under tsukki's skin the way kageyama does, for example

and then we get a great little sequence like this one that's deliberately pointing out their differences and then using them to emphasize something more, and it's just so effective??

what tanaka goes through in the first set of the inarizaki match of feeling like he's not doing enough and having it shoved in his face that he'll never be the best, is like a speedrun version of what tsukki has been going through since he was in middle school when he found out his brother was lying about being the ace. there are these little subtle callbacks too—with the dichotomy of being lame vs cool (yamaguchi calling tsukki lame for not trying and tsukki thinking yamaguchi is cool for saying so), and furudate even uses the same visual metaphor of a never-ending staircase

it took tsukki years to realize he might be looking at things in a destructive way, and then months more after that until he actually saw the merit of trying—and then even here we can see that he doesn't find any of this easy. and tanaka basically does all of that in thirty minutes or so.

and while tsukki seems perturbed by this, he isn't mad at all. you can feel the respect tsukki is veiling behind his words in the first panel of the page when he calls him "ridiculously mentally tough." it's "frightening" to him because it's something that doesn't come naturally to him personally, when it obviously does for tanaka

of course it's important to note that the situations are completely different in terms of the catalyst for those feelings, tanaka didn't have some world-shattering event he's been struggling with since he was a pre-teen (that we know of). he just had an off day. but what i like is that the emphasis here isn't really about the circumstances, it's about their attitudes, how they each react to feeling down about themselves

and i just love the way furudate put this page in here. we just had this awesome sequence of tanaka scoring a well earned set point by doing a move he's been practicing for months after he spent all match feeling inadequate—sounds a lot like tsukishima winning set 2 vs shiratorizawa with a stuff block that was preceded by months of extra practices from him, but the reader (rightfully) isn't thinking about tsukki at all. until furudate gives us this conversation and we're reminded (not specifically or directly of tsukki's moment but) that this feeling is something other players, other people go through too. like, furudate didn't have to put this page in here, the chapter and tanaka's moment would have been just as epic without it, but i feel like it just adds this extra little emotional grounding to it

it just, it feels so human. getting down, being hard on yourself, feeling or even knowing you'll never be the best, everyone can relate—it's a storyline we've seen in haikyuu before but furudate always manages to make it feel not only fresh but satisfying because of how they present it to us with a new lens every time. tanaka and tsukki are so opposing in their character and actions that it makes their moments feel different and new, so it's just as cathartic for the reader every time, even though the underlying message is the same

whether it's hard or not, it's always cooler to try

[throughthestarsweseek]

crazy-ass thought dump/theory/analysis/whatever-the-fuck-you-wanna-call-this-i-just-want-to-let-this-out:

rekindled my obsession again with undertale that led to this newfound obsession with deltarune. and maybe this is just my undertale-deltarune-txt-rotted brain but i cant help but see similarities? connections? between the game and the group's lore. hear me out

starting with the number 17, where entry number 17 of undertale comes with the famous line "dark, darker yet darker..." It pertains to the context of Gaster experimenting with the very essence and/or structure of the world, the very TRUTH of their world.

Adding the events of Deltarune with the recent chapters, we have learned that Darkners are fictional or fantastical characters based on real-life objects. There are then secret bosses among these Darkners, where the central theme is freedom, of realizing their existence (how they are not real) and somehow wanting to free themselves from such conception that controls the very existence of their being.

Then we go to the very meta-concept of Kris and their soul. How we control Kris' decisions and actions, and seems to hate that we are controlling them. It essentially explores freedom and control as well, which is why Kris was deeply disturbed after the Spamton fight.

Then we go to TXT, with room number 17. It might really just be coincidence that they are both numbers 17 but hear me out. That room symbolizes the truth, particularly as to how the Dragon Sect was controlling them this whole time to bring about the apocalypse, as well as the helplessness of needing to accomplish their destiny with the prophecy foretold. Deltarune has a terrible prophecy as well, that Ralsei was scared of coming to pass but develops to become hopeful that it may change as he becomes closer to Kris and Susie.

There are also strong clues and implications that Kris is working with the knight, to change the prophecy? maybe do something with it but end up accomplishing it over a "promise"? who knows for now, but it is very reminiscent of the deal that Eugene/Yeonjun had with the Cat with the promise of becoming stronger, which was essentially what was exploited by the Dragon Sect for the apocalypse to come about.

I have this idea that Kris is kind of like... TXT. "You" depicted as the fans in the lore, is similar to "You," the player. The power to be able to control them, and shape the directions of their life. And although Kris at some degree hated the players' control, there are a lot of significant instances where Kris relied on the player in making good choices. I guess the very notion of choosing the "better" ending could be one. There are certain dialogues too where it seems Kris wants to leave it to the player for the answer.

I still don't think that the very end game of Deltarune is JUST to get rid of the player as the ultimate villain of the game, but to be able to find that middle ground, living in this type of reality where the player has this immense power over these characters, this world, but to also recognize these characters' autonomy, that this is an existing separate world that one must respect.

And it ties with txt and "You" and why notions of romance is coming back, without the themes of desperation, one-sidedness and toxicity. It is to recognize MOAs power to carry txt and control their lives to some extent (given the structure of the fan-idol dynamic), while also recognizing that txt are artists and is expanding their musicality, their artistry, and their overall directions in life. Tying up with their TXT lore, they have come to realize that they don't have to follow the destiny set up for them, but change it and make their own.

That the world is not just the dark and the light, but its shades of gray.

[blackjackkent]

Ooh, Aylin has more to say!

"There you are. I have awaited your arrival with great anticipation. Come closer."

Step closer.

"Feel my voice rattle your bones as I proclaim our victory!" She raises her hands towards the sky, and he does indeed feel it resonate through his whole body as she speaks, crying out into the heavens.

"Moonmaiden! Selune! Hear me! Ketheric Thorm, traitor, apostle of Myrkul, is dead at last! My mate most high, darling Isobel, is safe and well. Safe and well and returned to my embrace!"

She drops her eyes to Hector, the intensity of her mother's moonlight radiating out of her gaze. "Blessings upon the slayer of the wicked one!"

He is starting, very slowly, to grow used to speaking with her, to the strange balance she strikes between god and mortal. To the fact that her mother is Selune herself, and that nevertheless she treats Hector as an equal, someone to be respected and fought alongside. But it still, on some level, punches him in the gut anew every time.

"I couldn't have done it without you," he murmurs humbly, his eyes dropping to the ground in front of her.

"We are a powerful party indeed," she says, with a sort of otherworldly approximation of cheeriness. "Faerun trembles at our touch! My darling Isobel says we will stay allied at your side. I am pleased to hear it."

He nods vigorously. The Guardian said he must find allies, and he could certainly do a lot worse than Aylin and Isobel.

"There's... still a great deal about you I don't know," he says cautiously.

"Pray, ask, and I will tell," she says, and waits expectantly, her eyebrows slightly raised.

Might as well address the elephant in the room. "Are you really Selune's daughter?" he asks.

"Do I not radiate with my mother's brightness? Her glory?" Aylin says with overwhelming gravitas. "There can be no doubt. I am of her silvered flesh, her celestial womb."

Hector blinks rapidly. I'll take that as a yes.

"Would...your mother be willing to aid us in the fight against the Dead Three?" he asks, and his voice cracks only slightly at the enormity of the request.

"Why, she already has. She has brought her sword to your side! Dame Aylin! So mighty are her wonders, her great wisdom. Together, we will set this fair land free of tyranny and murder."

Hector raises an eyebrow very briefly at that. It seems less a gift from Selune to have Aylin, and more random chance - but who is he to dispute the assertion?

"How did you come to be trapped in the Shadowfell?" he asks instead.

Her jaw works and she looks away from him, staring into the middle distance with a baleful gaze. "Hm. Ketheric Thorm. Father of my one and only love. Enslaver of Dame Aylin. Ketheric Thorm never did trust me, even when he worshipped the Moonmaiden. He was threatened by my love for Isobel. By her love for me."

Her expression twists with sudden pain, and she looks towards Isobel, standing nearby, as if to reassure herself of the other woman's presence. "When she died - curse the day, the hour! - we each of us mourned bitterly. But Ketheric's pain could be touched by no aid, no boundary. He turned to wretched Shar, the Lady of Loss, for relief. And she whispered into his ear, poisoning his mind."

Rage begins to overtake any other expression as she looks back on her imprisonment. "He and his loathsome advisor Balthazar lured me into the Shadowfell, claimed they'd found someone in need of my aid. There they trapped me in their infernal cage. I was killed, murdered, made dead, over and over by Justiciars of every make and kind! I was reborn, for it is my nature. And Ketheric fed upon my immortality all the while!"

Her voice has lifted to a shout, drawing the attention of all those standing around the camp. And she raises a fist into the air, crashes the other against the chest of her armor, and her voice rings out over them all.

"But lo! The brute is dead! And we, we live!"

[ethicallysourcedhumanmeat]

I think a thing I've never really considered, as an ND person, when it comes to masking and maintaining close friendships is like there's sometimes a selfishness to being completely myself.

That's not necessarily a bad thing, we all deserve the safety and freedom to be ourselves! I think that there is maybe still like a level of conderation that, for myself at least, I need to be aware of.

I've been sort of overanalyzing a friendship after a kind of situation arose because I noticed a pattern. I always like to address situations and be aware of what is causing an issue and like how to correct it from either end.

It's a really dear friendship and we have struggled a few times in different but similar ways and I think in the end it comes down to me and being totally unmasked and as a result there’s a sort of selfishness that happens that I need to be more accountable for.

I don't know really if I have exact words for it but I think like, yes masking is self preservation but I know when I mask there’s a level of awareness I dont possess otherwise and I started thinking that rather than thinking of it like putting on a mask its more layering for cold weather.

So perhaps instead of removing all my layers just because I am safe with someone I think maybe I should consider that person and if it's respectful of Them or their situation to remover all my outside layers.

like I vocal stim, but I mask that with most people. If I'm with a safe person who may have a sensory issue with a sound I should leave that layer on because thats respectful.

I think in a childish way, and without intending to, I've left responsibility on friends I'm comfortable to be with unmasked that's unfair to them. Like an unconscious expectation to be reminded of plans. With work or school or other things I'm more likely to immediately set reminders but I think with close friends i relax/don't rush because 'they'll remind me if i forget the reminder' and that's not super fair if forgetting is happening 50% of the time.

I guess the catalyst to this thought process was thinking about the 'mental load' conversion around wives and husbands and weaponized incompetence bc sometimes the symptoms of my adhd will mirror that and I think there is a bearing of a mental load associated with caring for someone with executive dysfunction at the very least and like what's the solution to that.

because its seems unfair to just expect that from a person you care about but the reverse seems unfair also so what's the happy medium and I think personally its less thinking of my ND as 1 mask i put on and take off and rather each trait is a separate layer, and paybe something things come in pairs like boots and gloves.

So I started to think, if I'm safe with this person and I can take off all those layers with them, they've even said so. Maybe they've even offered to turn the heat up if Im cold so i can take my sweater off.

But maybe I notice they're uncomfortable with the heat turned up, even tho they offered so next time i just keep my sweater on and maybe some days i make an excuse to keep my hat on you know?

Because yeah it's nice to pull all the layers off but it's not always respectful or necessary (or even fair) to expect people to take on that version of me 100% of the time. Even if they say its ok.

I guess all that to say I think as a neurodivergent person that the key to maintaining friendships is the ability to be completely yourself with someone but being respectful of the middle ground and trying to find the balance between them.

[j-morgan-fly]

(Show)Daenerys and Odysseus

[ODYSSEUS] How has everything been turned against us? How did suffering become so endless? How am I to reunite with my estranged? Do I need to change?

(This makes me think of Daenerys after arriving in Westeros, and more specifically the cold welcome she receives in Winterfell)

I'm surrounded by the souls of those I've lost I'm the only whose line I haven't crossed What if the greatest threat we'll find across the sea Is me? (Losing Jorah, Missandei and Viserion being used against her)

What if I'm the monster? What if I'm in the wrong? What if I'm the problem that's been hiding all along? What if I'm the one who killed you Every time I caved to guilt? What if I've been far too kind to foes But a monster to ourselves? What if I'm the monster

(Again, Viserion being used by the Night King, the death of the Dothraki on the frontlines. Jorah dying protecting her.)

Is the cyclops struck with guilt when he kills? Is he up in the middle of the night? Or does he end my men to avenge his friend And then sleep knowing he has done him right?

When the witch turns men to pigs to protect her nymphs Is she going insane? Or did she learn to be colder when she got older and now she saves them the pain? When a god comes down and makes a fleet drown Is he scared that he's doing something wrong? Or does he keep us in check so we must respect him And now no one dares to piss him off? Does a soldier use a wooden horse to kill sleeping Trojans cause he is vile? Or does he throw away his remorse and save more lives with guile

(Sansa could be Cerce in this case, doing what she has to protect her family and people from the threat that Daenerys presents. The Trojan Horse. Now this made me think of Daenerys burning down Kings Landing. But this is where things are different between her and Odyseus in this narrative. Daenerys did what she did out of rage, not tactic, not to spare more lives than they take.)

If I became the monster, and threw that guilt away Would that make us stronger? Would it keep our foes at bay? If I became the monster to everyone but us And made sure we got home again Who would care if we're unjust If I became the

[SOLDIERS] Monster

[ODYSSEUS] Oh, ruthlessness is mercy upon ourselves (We once more can think about Daenerys burning her enemies in battle, the burning of Kings Landing. But my point in this break down is to delve into the difference in what motivates these characters. Daenerys actions can be seen as similiar, but are her motives?)

[SOLDIERS] Monster

[ODYSSEUS] And deep down I know this well I lost my best friend I lost my mentor, my mom 500 men gone, this can't go on I must get to see Penelope and Telemachus So if we must sail through dangerous oceans and beaches I'll go where Poseidon won't reach us And if I gotta drop another infant from a wall In an instant so we all don't die (She's lost Missandei, Jorah, Tyrion, Jon her Dothraki. She had to take the Iron Throne, it's all she has left. And she would burn the world to the ground to get it.)

[ODYSSEUS, ALL] Then I'll become the Monster I will deal the blow And I'll become the Monster Like none they've ever known So what if I'm the Monster Lurking deep below I must become the Monster And then we'll make it home

[SOLDIERS] Monster (She burns kings landing, she defeats the last enemy in her way, she finally makes it home, but in doing so she becomes what she said she wouldn't be. Queen of the ashes. Was it really worth it, alone, one dragon, no friends, just a throne and a city of bones and ash to make her kingdom on?)

[supernovaa-remnant]

humans are really really complicated. so are interpersonal relationships. they're really messy, too.

and, I know this. of course I know this. and it's such a fun topic to explore in literature and fiction. to write and read about. the little nuances and sharp edges to people and their connections.

but, it's really really messy in real life. it's something I love to explore in narratives (I love to explore many things in narratives, to be honest), but when it comes to reality, I find myself more.. confounded.

there's a purpose to messy relationships in fiction. there's a purpose to everything in a story, and that gives it a sense of order. in reality, though, it just.. happens. it's just a fact of life.

people are unique individuals who have their own sets of morals and beliefs and will, inevitably, have their own moments of hypocrisy. and this will mean that they will never perfectly wholly agree with every aspect of another's beliefs, I think. sometimes it's simpler—little disagreements of food or other preferences. sometimes it's bigger.

and people clash. and people all have their own reality. their own perceptions of the world. their own perceptions of each other. and everyone has their own wants and needs and desires and ideas of how the future should be how they want their future to be. and that clashes. sometimes it clashes with people they love.

what do you do? what if it's something big? do you use an act of hypocrisy and go against your own morals? do you drop the friend all together? do you try to find middle ground? and your answer to these questions would change depending on the circumstance. which friend? what was the disagreement? which morals are brought into question? what if they don't agree to the middle ground?

I've softblocked people for putting neg posts abt my interests on my fyp on instagram. but I wasn't that close to them. I used to be, but years upon years stretch in between. so much can change. another person put that same kind of neg on my fyp. she's a new connection. less close, but still tangible in my real life. she lives in the same building as me. I scroll past the posts she's liked and do nothing about it.

I have friends who dislike people I like. if they were practically strangers who followed me on instagram, maybe I'd softblock them, too. but they're not. I love them. I've loved them for years. I will continue to love them. some random youtuber I've never met won't change that.

and they also respect my interest. respect my view point. their reasons for dislike aren't that harsh, anyway. but even if they were, I love them. I'd stay friends. it's normal to have disagreements like that. it's easy. it's part of being human.

if you had a friend who continually cheated on their partners, what would you do? that's far more extreme than a difference in opinion about some person neither of you know. cheating is a serious thing. it's a hurtful thing. what do you do? do you bite your tongue? do you warn their future partners of their tendencies? do you cut them out of your life?

that seems specific. it's not something applied to me. it's something I'm.. observing, you could say. I used to know her well. as really young children. again as middle schoolers. we grew apart in our high school years and went to separate universities.

she wished me happy birthday on instagram.

my sister has gotten closer to her again. it baffles me, a bit, how easily my sister talks about this once-mutual friend cheating on her most recent boyfriend. maybe I'm not involved enough to understand. maybe I don't quite grasp humanity to understand. why not bring it up? why not talk about it? why not do something about it? especially if it goes against your own morals so clearly.

people are confusing. confounding. muddled and messy and imperfect. and I think sometimes I get too stuck in viewing things as a narrative. narratives are easy, you see. they're easy to craft easy to understand. they exist adjacent to reality, and that's a space I find myself inhabiting quite a lot.

my close friends are good people. they wouldn't cheat. they wouldn't kill. one has stolen from a big corporation once (tentatively on accident?) but, to be fair, it was very funny and led to an inside joke between the entire group.

we have differences of opinion on the death penalty, I think. prison, too. those are pretty big moral standings. and, yet, there's still an air of separation. what will us talking through it in the late hours of the night in our friend's media room really impact? going back and forth with all sorts of deep philosophical and moral debates is just something we do.

but what if they hurt someone? well, everyone hurts someone. everyone hurts people. it's inevitable. it's part of being human. we're all just accidentally stepping on toes and apologizing and doing our best to navigate it all.

what if they hurt someone on purpose? they wouldn't. I know them. they wouldn't.

but that's not the point. the point is to question how far can my own morality can stretch for the people I love. it's messy. it's confusing. maybe it's hypocritical.

humans are messy. and we like to place clean cut blame when we get hurt. but we also hurt others. and sometimes it's viscous and the anger is a defense from the pain.

we played a game. truth or dare. is there anyone you'd stop being friends with if it wouldn't cause drama within a friend group? no. sometimes they feel like they don't want to be friends with someone at that moment, but not permanently. it's interesting. it's fascinating. it's something I want to reach out to grab, to examine.

I'm not sure I fully understand it. I think I do. some days. sometimes. maybe I've felt it myself.

humans are really really messy. we hurt and get hurt and we're all just trying to make it through this okay and with connections. it's easy to exist in a vacuum. it's more complicated when other people come into play. but it's so so important, I think. it's just part of being human.

[pvbby-b1ush]

what happened between you and your ex?

Idk you just seemed obsessed (/pos, /nsrs) over him and would constantly gush about him (assuming this is your former best friend)?

again totally /nf because it’s totally none of my business but I found it kinda jarring how you went from all loving to saying he manipulated you! mwah take care of yourself

yea yea feel free to ask. i dont mind sharing

to start, i was obsessed and i loved him and i would gush over him because i was blissfuly unaware. at the time i did not know he was homophobic, transphobic and anti-furry and he wasn't about to reveal himself as such cause he obviously knew where my views were on those topics (and didnt care) and was having a great time manipulating me. he only started saying stuff after he had lost interest in me and that's what made me lose interest in him. /gen /srs

we used to formerly be best friends and he used to talk to me every day and all i knew about him basically was that he was a really fun guy who was rlly into art (like we would both talk about how we hated nfts and i assumed he was ok with furries. i think he knew i drew furries too so we were okay)

though i wasnt aware at the time he would manipulate me for his own benefit in ways i rlly didnt realize; he would do something flirty with me and brag about it to his friends (in front of me) and i didnt know how to process and understand it and i assumed that he liked me, because he was very flirty around me and he did things that would make me assume that he really liked me. we were basically in a situationship so i consider him my ex even though i never announced it (my homophobic parents dont believe in relationships before college! shocker. so that would have gotten me in massive trouble.)

he figured me out easy. he would do really sweet and flirty things and a lot of physical touch, he would text me and ask how i was doing, i could vent to him and he would vent to me and he would take the time to sit down with me and help me or talk with me. since forever nobody really cared about because i was the social outcast and since there were only 3 girls, everybody flocked around my 2 friends because they were pretty and they were overtly "girly" (and remember this is a christian community. though most of my friends are very respectful, i'm an alt tomboy so you can see how this goes) and my ex gravitated towards talking with me instead of them. and i don't get social cues and i couldn't figure out he was manipulating me the entire time

so we were in the same fandoms, talked about lotr and art and animation a lot. i thought we shared the same views on lgbtq and furries and everything cause there were times he would talk about his lgbtq+ friends and defend them and he was planning to be apart of the twitter art community when he could get a tablet

well he entered his last year of middle school (1 year younger than me) and more and more stuff started to happen. he would ignore me, he would kind of push me out of his life, then he said stuff that really made me raise an eyebrow and i completely lost feelings for him. basically i found out over time he was a bigoted manipulator who played a part to kind of befriend me and use me and make me happy until he got bored of me. literally after i started to finally process this, we had a fight cause he said something nasty about me and that fight basically announced i was done with him.

and to top it off, he started going to my cousin and doing the same thing he did to me. talking about her favorite topics, finding common ground, acting all flirty with her. he lost interest quick when he found out she didn't feel that way about him and now he's just kind of dormant. i still see him every week and i'm good friends with his brother (and his entire family). he basically ignores me

my parents know about this to an extent. i told them we liked each other and he would text me but nothing about flirting or physical touch or any of that. i also told them he manipulated me but they refuse to believe me and instead they believe him! shocker

so yeah. thats what happened

[bruciemilf]

bestie how do u think the batfam reacts to wonderbat

- quinsly

*INHALES AGRESSIVELY* WONDER MOM WONDER MOM WONDER MOM-

Dick:

SO HAPPY for Bruce but constantly teases; " If his crippling control issues aren't a deal breaker, his music taste will be" and Diana just kinda tilts her head like a puppy in her MCR shirt and is like " I love them! They sound tragic"

Absolutely gives Diana tips and advice on how to woo Bruce; He's not sure how you can improve WONDER WOMAN, but he's flattered she thinks he's the man for the job

Just excited to brag to the titans, " Well, she's not KORI but you know; Not everyone's as lucky as me"

Jason:

HELLO?! HELLOOOOO? Jason is losing his mind obvi. He has no idea how Bruce pulled it off (He does know; His father is honest, quietly kind, brave in a way thats terrifying and stupid, and infuriatingly endearing. Plus he's big on justified violence, which women always find attractive)

Is. So so so shy around Diana at the beginning. Hiding behind Bruce or Alfred (even Dami, one time), not exchanging more than a few words (usually very quick and unintelligible) before running off

This leads to Diana thinking Jason doesn't like her and she wants to talk about this, because, young warrior my heart is with your father; I don't need your permission, but I'd like to know why you dislike me :(

Jason just pulls up his sleeve, shows his wonder woman tattoo with a blank face, says " I love you so much I had a crush on you since I was 6, but I want you to be my mom. Not mommy. That'd be weird." and power walks away, looking for the nearest highway

Finds his childhood slingshot and points it directly between Bruce's eyes " Make like Beyonce and put a ring on it"

Damian:

Respects Diana a lot but will always prefer Talia; Diana isn't bothered by that and finds Damians loyalty to his mama so adorable, " Good sons make good men ^_^ good job" "... please don't do that. You're giving me positive emotions and I'm not build for those."

Demands a duel for " The privilege to court my father. Woman or Goddess, you must prove your worth" but it's the equivalent of a puppy playing tag with an angry kitten

She takes him out for ice cream and he spills about Bruce being a sappy bastard when talking about her sjsjsjs

Tim, Cass,Duke, and Steph

Tim and Steph making " you can do better" jokes @ Diana but no one's allowed to agree; I feel like Steph is just as much of a fangirl as Jason is and she fainted when she found Diana in their kitchen, watching Bruce make pancakes, OBVIOUSLY a " we spent the night together" breakfast

Tim and Diana bond over sharing embarassing Bruce stories and I NEED Diana to be the old lady who can't figure out technology

Can she punch a crater in the middle of new York and make you sweat with merely dissaproving look? Yes. Does she need to call Tim everytime to change her profile picture and look for stuff on YouTube? Yes

Diana and Duke PUPPY FRIENDSHIP! Diana reassuring Duke that she knows what alienation and loneliness feels like, and it's not a pain he has to deal with on his own

" You're enough; You've always been enough. And your father and family love you dearly, - you're the light that keeps us out of darkness. Be proud of that"

Cass and Diana but it's the " when you're a queen and you meet another queen and you talk about battle strategies" meme <333 legends recognise legends

Cass thinks she's the coolest ever, but, " What you do to him? I do to you." Without a hint of fear; There's a collective agreement around the ground. Diana smiles. She'll fit in just okay

[yandere-kittee]

How would the yanderes react to a darling that's very calm and nice just get angry and aggressive for the very first time not towards them but someone else

Ahhh This is a very good question, How will they react? Let's find out♪ ♬ ヾ(´︶`♡)ﾉ ♬ ♪ Thank you for this ask, anon!

Looks like a cinnamon roll, could kill you.

Nathan

The two of you actually met in an alleyway but officially got to know each other at school.

You met during high school, you were the new kid and the first person you met was Nathan, you had asked him how to get to class and he guided you there.

You knew from then on that you were going to be best friends.

When the two of you grew closer, you were nothing but gentle towards him, you treated him nicely like how you did everyone else, he was just happy to not be scorned.

Imagine his surprise when he came looking for you because you were late for your usual meeting in the library.

While he was out in the hallway, he saw a large crowd surrounded in the middle of the hallway, signifying that there was a fight, so her turned around to go somewhere else to look for you, but stopped when he heard your voice.

It wasn't the usual kind voice he always heard, it was loud and angry, he turned around and got closer to the crowd, when he was able to push past people he saw you there in the middle.

Your hair was a mess, your clothes were disarray and your knuckles looked bruised, you stood over Derrick, the boy stared up at you in horror as you wiped your bloody nose with your sleeve.

Nathan looked at you in awe, How can someone who looks like a mess and has a bloody nose looks so beautiful?

"I better not hear you talk about Nathan that way, or his sister, you should at least have some respect towards someone older than you." You said, looking down at Derrick with no expression on your face.

But your eyes showed that you were disgusted at him.

"You have no right to judge her based on her job, you think you'll even end up getting a job when you're older?" You looked to the crowd and saw Nathan in it, gasping and walking over him, the crowd around him getting away from you.

"I'm sorry I'm late, Let's go?" Despite your messy appearance you still managed how to smile for him

Ah..You're so good to him.

Emilia

Emilia is beautiful, you know it, she knows it and the whole campus knows it! She uses her beauty to her advantage to get whatever she wants, though, there was always the disadvantage of pests hanging around her even though all she did was just look at them for 3 seconds.

They were all so delusional without knowing she was already married (unofficially) to you!

The persistent ones are always the most difficult ones because they like to follow her around even if she's said no.

So one day, a guy and his friend were with Emilia, trying to convince her to go on a date with her, but politely as she can, she declined them, just wanting to head to the cafeteria to eat lunch with you, but one of them grabbed her arms and stopped her.

He was going on about how he was a nice guy and he'll treat her to anything she wanted as long as she went on that date with him, she really didn't want to since that guy has had a history with harassing his dates.

"Come on! I know you want to." He smirked, Emilia sighed as her blue eyes glared at him.

"She's not going with you, since she's already going on a date with me." A hand grabs the guys and gets him to let go of her arm, her eyes turn to your figure as you glare at him, "Y/n!" Emilia beamed up at you as you stood between her and the two guys.

"Then I'll just go on a date with her in a later time." He had reasoned, annoyed that you stepped in and stopped him, you don't know how much Emilia is very into him and is only playing hard to get.

"Are you dumb?" You asked him as you pushed him roughly, "She doesn't like you, get over it." You crossed your arms over you chest as you stood your ground.

"What's a professor's assistant like you gonna do to me?" He glared back at you with a smirk, his hand curled up at the collar of your shirt, "I could report you for not only harassing with a student but also a professor's assistant." You smiled.

Who were they going to believe anyways? The guy with history of harassing students or the Professor's assistant whose been nothing but behaved and kind.

Emilia watched as you butt heads with the guy in admiration.

Her hero ♥

Aiko

Aiko doesn't like being bothered, like, at all, though she does like it when you sing to her while she studies, it's something in your voice that calms her and makes her focused.

So imagine her annoyance when someone had approached her in the library while she was studying.

"Good thing I found you, Miku!" A random student exclaimed as they looked down at Aiko, "It's Aiko." She corrected them, which had already started to annoy the student.

"Okay whatever, Anyways. I need help with Math and since you're the smartest student in school.." They started as they pulled out their homework.

Aiko glared up at them as they placed the piece of paper in front of her and on top of her study notes, "I was hoping you could help me do it." They admitted shamelessly.

"Why can't you do it?" She crossed her arms over her chest as she raised her eyebrow in question, the student stared down at her before answering her question.

"Well, I wouldn't be approaching someone so unlikeable as you if I couldn't."

"Well, what's in it for me if I did it?"

"Well, you can hang around me! I'm quite popular you know? And you could use it since your such a smarty pants and a teachers pet." They chuckle.

....

"No thanks."

"Oh come on!" The student went to grab at Aiko but was stopped by a hand grabbing theirs, "You heard what she said, 'No thanks'." You appeared, sweat dripped down your forehead as you just came back from sports practice and rushed to the library as soon as you did.

"And who the hell are you?" Theyvpulled back their hand and glared at you.

"You don't need to know, all you need to know is to leave Aiko alone and do your own goddamn work." You said through gritted teeth.

You didn't know why you were angry but you didn't like it when he didn't listen to Aiko and just leave her alone.

What happened next had exceeded Aiko's expectations because it had involved you, there was some back talk, some insults and a ton curses thrown at each other, but all Aiko did was stare at your angry face.

She's never seen you so angry because you were always so laid back and calm, but to see you getting angry for her, it awoke something in her that she wanted to see more of the faces you make.

Aiko sat there next to you on the bed as she bandaged your wounds, the fight had gotten out of hand and you had to be stopped when you were about to throw a chair at them in your fit of anger.

"You're so cute when you get angry<3"

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That is all everyone! This took a bit longer to make than the others but it was fun to write! As always, my ask box is open and let me know about your thoughts!

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