#and that isnt really a good thing when most of your products are made of wood 💀💀💀💀

[mushroom-winners-proof]

Ok 1 this has been in my mind rent free and is in a side rp of mine now 2 idk I’m being weird by kinda- being the only person that sends asks it seems 3 didn’t know if I should send it to this or your intern Riku blog so here it is and 4 I had to draw it I’m sorry

I present to you…

✨Terra accidentally setting fire to the office✨

Xehanort and Eraqus both aren’t happy but Riku sure is

1.) im glad the goofy tomfoolery of The Office AU can live on in your rps 2.) not weird at all !! hello :]] 3.) this blog's fine 👯‍♀️ 4.) fLVKJVLKAVJALKE

[nymph-ette111]

hiiiiiii!! (⁠≧⁠▽⁠≦⁠)(⁠≧⁠▽⁠≦⁠) could you do a simon cof x sweet, feminine reader headcannons? made my own headcannons to share with you because ily and i love this prompt(⁠*⁠´⁠ω⁠｀⁠*⁠)

♡ i imagine reader and simon would go out, hes wearing the same crusty ass grey hoodie while shes dressed up all cute and pretty >.<

♡ he reeks of nicotine while she smells like neapolitan marshmallows<3 hes obsessed with her scent. he literally loves using her bodycare/haircare products over his 3 in 1 men shampoo (if he even showers that is) because he'd smell more like her.

♡ she shares absolutely everything of her purchases. she'd do little mini hauls to Simon, showcasing her new pink ballerina flats, sugarbunnies plushie she had to fight a war for in mercari, too faced chocolate bar palette, cute japanese stationary, and a lot of new clothes. Simon loves it. he loves seeing her happy. (may even buy her things he thinks she would love if he didn't have a smoking addiction<3)

♡ she doesnt only share that though she also loves talking his ears off about anything and everything<3 at first he was annoyed with her constant talking but when he spoke of it, she stopped talking so much and he got guilty and missed her overtalking. he tried to bring her spark back in talking and it worked

♡ shes compassionate and kind, understanding his struggles (but not condoning his actions) and helping him to get better. (he really wants to be saved by her but feels that he just cannot.)

♡ he really doesn't get why she's with him. Hes depressed, miserable, and difficult to be with. His low self esteem sometimes gets the best of him and he starts believing that he's not worthy of her, often leaving her on read, missing her calls, and ignoring her. (im sensing attachment issues) reader clutches w communication though :3

♡ they'd explore abandoned buildings. Simon's there to smoke blunts while readers there to get awesome fit pictures<3 they would go a long way travelling and reader the most practical girl you know has her feet hurt from walking on platforms. they either take lots of breaks or Simon just carries her on his back (unlikely)

♡ talk about taking fit pictures, Simon's technically her photographer. She has a blog where she posts fashion and besides the mirror pics, Simon's always the one taking the pictures. He's quite good at it too.

some of these headcannons probably won't work in his time but who cares(⁠ㆁ⁠ω⁠ㆁ) hope this prompt isnt that hard to write for..(⁠ᗒ⁠ᗩ⁠ᗕ⁠)you can always ignore if you want!! thankkkkkk you x3 xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxooxxooxoxoxox

WARNINGS; MENTIONS OF SMOKING, MENTIONS OF DEPRESSION

AUTHOR'S NOTE; WHOEVER REQUESTED THIS JUST KNOW I LOVE YOU!!! probably inaccurate for both the character and the timeline... listen, I don't know what swedish people were up to in 2012 leave me alone. also not very happy with this, still trying to figure out how to write Simon :3

-he looks comically out of place in your room. just imagine a pastel pink room filled to the brim with cute plushies, shelves full of little trinkets and books, floral bedding and lace curtains. a wall full of movie posters, magazine pages, and little polaroids of your most treasured moments, and then there's a depressed smoke addict.

-you know those videos where it's a boyfriend sleeping in their girlfriend's girly room with a bunch of plushies on top of him? yeah, basically same situation.

-his sleep schedule is fucked up. either he pulls an all nighter or is passed out till 3 pm. when it's one of those times where Simon feels tired, you just let him sleep in your bed whilst you do whatever.

-it's also a great opportunity to gather the perfect pictures for black mailing.

-he just looks so stupid in your room I love him.

-doesn't care about your plushies but will learn to treat them nicely after you yelled at him for 15 minutes straight about how it's unacceptable to throw rilakkuma off the bed just so he could sit down.

-punches the plush when you aren't looking.

-he definitely gives you that pink hello kitty hoodie to wear. or he wears it instead so you two could match. that's probably your idea and he obliges because it's something you love and enjoy.

-really like the idea of him being your personal photographer. he's always the first to leave a like on whatever you post, especially if it's he who took the picture.

-doesn't know anyone besides you. his followings on social media just contain a bunch of his favorite bands and your account.

-a bit sad but I can see him borrowing your money (with permission) to buy cigarettes if his mother refuses to give him any. he wants to buy you stuff you might like but he's too busy spending it on his addiction :(

-he instead draws you your favorite characters so you can put it on the wall alongside your other pictures.

-has never been in the vicinity of a woman without being an awkward shit. moral of the story he doesn't know anything about girls. his knowledge of things is pretty vague, so please don't be surprised if you see him just poking around your vanity and asking a million different questions on what certain products do and why.

-his mother is very happy her son finally found a girlfriend. she approves of you and thinks you're an absolute sweetheart. always asks Simon when you will visit them again.

-you two definitely earn a few stares in public because how did such a sweet and pretty girl end up with a guy like Simon.

-it pisses him off endlessly but can't help his thoughts and feelings. thinks he doesn't deserve you or any of the kind shit you do for him.

-like nonnie said, he probably isn't the greatest boyfriend... there are times where he cancels your hang-outs without further explanation or simply doesn't acknowledge any of your calls and messages. he feels pretty shitty after it and apologizes for his behavior. you forgive him even though you both know he'll do it again.

-he is low-key obsessed with your smell, he smothers anything you have in the shower all over his body without caring what it's for, just simply reads the labels and puts it on... with big amounts. this man is making you go bankrupt. you could literally see the outline of his fingers left in the product..

-his camera is full of pictures of you, he likes looking at them when he feels down. which is pretty often.

-shows you all of his favorite places in Stockholm or even Kirkvile (where does this man live I don't get it) ones that aren't usually full of people, just overly adventurous teenagers from time to time. something tells you that you two have trespassed into private property multiple times but Simon doesn't want to answer that question clearly.

-ugh imagine clipping cute little hair clips into Simon's hair and he just lets you do whatever you want because if you're happy then he is happy and he wants to see you smile :(

-in exchange, you let him do corpse paint on your face.

[thewertsearch]

ERIDAN: for all that trainin you did ERIDAN: i wwouldnt be the incredible holy wwizard i am noww wwithout your help […] KANAYA: I Hope You Use Your Magnificent Powers Of Light And Hope For Goodness And Purity And Lets Not Forget Science

At this point. Kanaya is Human Sarcasming better than most actual humans.

ERIDAN: dont wworry im all ovver that shit you dont evven knoww KANAYA: Uh Oh I Hope That Didnt Come Off As Too Sarcastic […] KANAYA: Please Dont Take Too Much Offense ERIDAN: haha damn kan if thats your idea of offense bein made then i honestly gotta fuckin wworry for you ERIDAN: tell you wwhat ill givve you some lessons in dealin out the dark umbrage to repay you for your tutelage in the wwhite science

I think Dave taught Kanaya more about the art of trolling in a single conversation than Eridan could in an entire lifetime.

That guy can troll better than most actual trolls.

ERIDAN: wwhats that thing there KANAYA: The Matriorb KANAYA: I Was About To Go Hatch It In The Core To Restore Our Race ERIDAN: that sounds ERIDAN: hopeful […] ERIDAN: if theres goin to be any sort a hope for our race as the prince of hope i demand to be invvolvved ERIDAN: so dont go anywwhere wwithout me got it […] KANAYA: Fine

I’m all for the construction of neo-Alternia, but I really don't think Eridan should be on the planning committee, unless we also want a neo-hemospectrum.

Honestly, the only trolls I'd really trust to rebuild their society are the bottom half of the hemospectrum, and possibly Gamzee. The other highbloods can go sit in the corner.

ERIDAN: its not magic wwe talked about this kar KARKAT: RIGHT, IT'S POWERED BY SCIENCE, I FORGOT. KARKAT: OR HOPE. WHATEVER THE FUCK THAT MEANS

I don’t see how Hope translates to a robot-exploding beam, though.

If it was wizards he was blowing up, I’d understand, because it would be consistent with my theory that he's weaponizing his hatred of FRAUDULENT MAGIC. If anything, his Science Wand should strengthen a robot, since it's a product of the TRUEST SCIENCES.

ERIDAN: i had a harder time than anybody wwith this game ERIDAN: it wwas really fuckin unfair wwhat challenges i got saddled wwith ERIDAN: i wwoulda fuckin MURDERED for a land full of a lot a harmless brains and fire ERIDAN: but no ERIDAN: it wwas so lonely ERIDAN: hey guys anybody wwant to come hang out wwith me in the land a wwrath and angels

That sounds cool, though. Angels, I assume, are how Hope is represented in his Land, and I’m sure Eridan synergized well with its wrath. I wonder what physical form it took?

ERIDAN: anybody at all i knoww it isnt anythin like one of your flippin land picnics ERIDAN: anybody please ill evven settle for the kittycat shipper cavve girl

You can't complain about loneliness and then insult your ‘friend’ in the same breath. That's not how any of this works, and the fact that you're unaware of this should tell you everything you need to know about why you're lonely.

So Karkat does know about Nepeta’s little crush. He is a relationship aficionado, after all.

Poor Nepeta.

I sort of figured Karkat didn't reciprocate her feelings. He's preoccupied with plenty of other redrom prospects, and he basically never mentions her.

Karkat’s honestly a little too nice to Eridan. He’s being such a bro here, but what Eridan actually needs is to be brought down to size a little.

Granted, I think Eridan needs a bigger shock to the system than an angry tirade from Karkat. I feel like Terezi could tear him to pieces - but since it's unfair to expect her to put up with him alone, I'd put both the Scourge Sisters on this assignment. >:)

What Karkat is aptly demonstrating here is that there’s a difference between an Eridan kind of asshole and a Karkat kind of asshole.

Let's be real, here - Karkat's a dick. But he's a dick who holds no true malice, knows when he's crossed a line, and is willing to sincerely apologize for his past actions, and make amends.

Eridan possesses none of these qualities, which is why he sat alone in his house for a month while Karkat befriended the entire cast.

[somedayslater]

in the future when haejoon comes back from work...

He helps eunyung memorizing his lines for his next show. its in a little theater from the neighborhood and eunyung likes it.

Eunyung was scouted and tried to be famous but it wasnt for him ; too much exploitation and humiliation, he was not respected. He couldnt keep his mouth shut while witnessing the unfair treatment of his comrades. The world of entertainment is cruel, especially in south korea.

Eunyung began to hate theater. He realized that being rich and famous just to make his parents regret abandoning him was not really productive, if it made him consider abandoning the only thing he managed to keep liking.

So he stopped, took an alimentary job (it pays better than being a rookie actor anyway). Now he plays in an associative theater as a hobby. they do unknown and strange plays that most people dont find interesting -but they have some success thanks to eunyung's previous popularity.

~~~~~~

Haejoon didnt understand why eunyung was throwing away his ticket at being famous at first. he was good at it, people were excepting him to do it, he could earn a lot of money. Just because of his horrible personality, eunyung was abandoning his dream ? he'll really never change.

But then haejoon went to see his shows in this little theater and he understood ; eunyung was having fun here. Haejoon did see how eunyung was miserable working in the entertainment industry. He thought it was normal, because everybody was miserable at work. Life is about finding its place, not about being happy. Happiness, it comes after, if youre lucky.

But here eunyung was shining. He enjoyed being here. That's what eunyung wanted. Haejoon couldnt really grasp that at first, but he began to enjoy going to his shows too.

Really thinking about what you want to do, not conforming to what you think people want you to do or say... eunyung could do that now. haejoon was a little envious.

He studied a lot because he didnt have anything else to do ; he went to a good university because he studied a lot ; he got a good-paying job at a reputable company because he went to a good university. What was the point of it ? he didnt know and he actually didnt care to not know. His mother would be proud, and that was the important thing.

But haejoon was happy when he went to see eunyung playing and that was good. he didnt always understand the plays, and eunyung would spent hours explaining to him the reason behind this light, this silence, this character's action. Haejoon tried to be interested in it ; he didnt always suceed. but he enjoyed seeing eunyung talking, and eunyung seemed to like explaining things to him anyway. Plus, he would often cook while talking, so if haejoon listened diligently he'll have a really nice meal after.

~~~~~~

( i think in the future haejoon wont really have an exciting life but a stable one, with good pay and a nice apartment. he goes by day after day without really knowing the purpose of it all but it is how it is.

eunyung will be the contrary. he's so happy to finally enjoy being alive that he wont loose his time in a place where he's miserable. he'll get by with shitty jobs, and he will find a purpose in doing as many fun things as he can.

I would really like it if they find a balance between them and live together. haejoon provides material comfort, eunyung provides excitement. haejoon is happy to witness the fun in eunyung's life and participate in it in his own way (helping him rehearse, lend a hand during the week-ends to set up the show scene). eunyung is grateful for haejoon to be here, to help during the months he's outta jobs and the rent is harder to pay.

they're not fairy-tale happy, but it's enough. the world isnt so menacing when they're together)

(id also love love it if both get involved in activism, so others in the future dont have to know whats it like to grow poor and ostracized. i really cant see haejoon doing that but eunyung i definitely can)

(im thinking and the dynamic will be something like, haejoon pays for most of the groceries and eunyung cooks. is it a somewhat sexist setup where long-haired eunyung is the wife and buff haejoon the husband then lol ? i also definitely see eunyung as dominant, choosing most of their mutual projects and the direction of their relationship. he also tops haejoon in bed and he enjoys making him cry. fortunately, haejoon loves to cry. outside sex, they hate hurting the other now though ! surprisingly, its a dynamic thats convenient for both of them.)

[kx0e]

*cocks gun* tell us your honest thoughts on strikers

N O W

erm oh man

i think of all the things that can follow up what happens in persona 5 this was the easiest and most uninteresting choice to do a game on.

dont get me wrong, seeing the characters go on a roadtrip is really fun and i liked it a lot but its what happens thats just boring as hell to me, this whole game is just persona 5 but its only during summer and its hack n slash.

prisons are just palaces but oh maybe the bad guy isnt so bad and tbh the only interesting one to me was akane's and the dead guy's.

the new characters are the only thing that made me finish this game, zenkichi is great, sophia is also good and i disagree with whoever calls her aigis 2.0, ichinose is probably the most interesting character in this game even if they were NOT subtle at all (its a persona game) and i wish we saw more during the game.

the gameplay is fun, the graphics are ok tier, the story sucks, the PTs spending time together moments were great, over all a 5/10 game for me.

i also wonder why they started production for it so soon when they already planned to make royal, idk how altus plans their games but i feel like they could have waited until p5r was in prod to start p5r preprod so they can have more options to go with ? idk

i dont regret playing it but im also glad i didnt spend money on this game lmao

if someone is a dead hard p5r fan please let me know your thoughts im curious to hear about it !

[spaciebabie]

any advice 4 when u want to keep drawing 2 improve but u cant get over perfectionism ? like when u just dont care how its gonna turn out, if its bad its bad yknow?

ahh yes lowkey ive struggled with this a lot. not as much now as in the past tho, and honestly its beecuz ive developed a more neutral view on myself/my art in general. its going to take time to get to this state of mind, so dont be too hard on yourself when you find yourself falling into bad habits.

advice under the cut (kind of long winded) ⬇️⬇️⬇️

the first thing ive done to overcome perfectionism is focus less on details and more about overall shape and form. when i sketch im trying to get roughly what i want, and i limit the strokes i do in certain parts of my sketch to like 1-3 depending on what im drawing (im ngl i also am very impatient and have created a workflow that makes it so i am able to start and finish pieces as fast as possible LOLOLOL. shrugs. i just like drawing fast).

a good example would be this thing i just drew:

in all of my sketches i tend to use as few strokes as possible and just get the basic idea down. good for not overly focusing on teeny tiny details and worrying about them later (i also use the same technique for lineart, but just end up connecting the lines. thats another tip i have, if you like your sketches more than your fully lined pieces, just line the same way you sketch! or you could also use your sketch as your lineart :P)

another tip i have is to draw from references, and once again, focus mostly on shape/form/the big picture of your subject before going into details (do you know how many planes there are on the human face....i still dont know howta draw faces properly but im not mad at myself anymore about it, i just open up a reference and try to learn). i also recommend having a drawing session where the goal is to draw awfully. draw something you want to draw, but that you're not sure if you'll draw it right, and draw it. dont try to correct it, acknowledge that what you made isnt perfect, and then draw something else. you're learning! of course its not gonna be perfect. but inevitably, you're going to get frustrated. just remember if its something you really want to go back to, you will be able to revisit it in the future. feel your anger and frustration, but do your best to not direct it inward.

small side tangent about shading- I AM SO SHIT AT SHADING SKFHSAFDJHS. people dont tend to notice (surprising), since ig my shading style is considered "beautiful" or something, but if you looked at it on a technical level, there are mistakes everywhere. i havent really tried to improve it. i dont really care most of the time b/c i just like shading for fun. and especially when im shading my sketches, i already have it in my mind that its not supposed to be perfect. its a sketch. this is where im supposed to make all of my mistakes. once i start making my way to the final product is when i start worrying more about if i did the lighting correctly (even then ik im not good at it im not trying to be a god im just trying to draw things that make me happy).

additionally, i really rec u dont try and fudge a sketch until its better if you're deep in a Perfectionist moment. keep the old sketch and start over on a new sketch taking bits and pieces you liked from the original, and improving on those that you dont (shitty thumbnails are also good if you have a vague idea in mind but need ta figure out howta place subjects in your scene). honestly drawing the same thing/idea over and over gets me a better understanding of my subject each time, so naturally each iteration looks better. it doesnt take me that long to sketch tho, so if sketching takes you forever (sometimes if sketching takes you forever its b/c you're a perfectionist skjfskdjf) just think about how much time you're willing to spend on something. remember☝️ its okay to give up/take a break on something and try again later. sometimes you just needta stop looking at your art and like. look at a tree or something lmfao.

i will also say that im not looking to go into a career in art, im more of a hobbyist. ik school environments dont exactly.....help with perfectionism lol. there are certain expectations put on people who go into the art field that are inescapable. if this is the case for you, i still think what ive discussed before can help you, but i also think that you may need to lean more on the mental tips i have also provided below.

alright! mental health tips in regard to art:

so, i have c-ptsd, and with that comes a lot of self image issues that ive had to work on. my feelings about myself extended to the way i felt about my art. it was shit, it was awful, i cant draw like this other person can so why bother, if its not perfect i shouldnt draw at all, etc. and honestly, something thats helped is affirmations. my affirmations are c-ptsd related, but ive noticed a shift in the way i view myself, and by extent, my art since ive started repeating them to myself daily. and honestly, i think a requirement of overcoming perfectionism is telling yourself that your art doesnt hafta be perfect, A LOT. LOL. LIKE YOU ACTUALLY HAFTA ACTIVELY TELL YOURSELF YOU'RE NOT AWFUL LMAOOOO. its funny, we dont think much about how we naturally are self critical about ourselves, and we dont realize that we are basically repeating negative affirmations about ourselves over and over and thats why we're not improving (mentally).

even when you're not drawing, i think it would benefit some people to have some kind of notification on their phone to remind them to tell themselves that their art doesnt hafta be perfect daily/however often you feel you might need it. and then with that affirmation, practice Shitty Drawing. one of the best tips ive ever gotten for this was from one of my friends monnie. get out your sketchbook or some printer paper, take out a shitty pen, and DRAW. and then any mistakes you make are permanent and you cant just endlessly try and fix them. it forces you ta sit with this uncomfortable feeling that something you made isnt perfect. eventually your brain will realize that when your art isnt perfect, you can still draw and you're ALLOWED to continue to draw even if what you make isnt spectacular. if you dont want to repeat an affirmation daily, try to remember to at least repeat it before you sit down to draw. something along the lines of "my art doesnt hafta be perfect in order for me to want to draw. im allowed to draw even if its not perfect" or something else. it depends on what you most struggle with in regards to your perfectionism. im ngl its probably going to feel cringe at first, but i promise you, it really works if you put it into practice longterm.

shoot for neutrality instead of positivity first. let me tell you thats where i am now and its so much less exhausting drawing lmfaooo. i make something that looks like shit and im just like. i dont fucking careee i dont give a fuccckkkkk

those are my tips :] i hope this was helpful!

[study-core-101]

Hii your blog is so inspiring and helpful ❤

I don't know if you already posted about this but I want advice :D

I'm studying the equivalent to High School in my country (two years only) and I'm trying to strive more. Lately I have realised that I never have free time. I spend the afternoons studying, then I have dinner with my parents, watch something on TV, go to sleep and at those hours I'm so tired that I don't have the energy to do anything else I enjoy. Meanwhile, I see my friends and others at my class going out, going to extracurriculars, getting things done faster...

I've always had the feeling that I only do the things I like during summer break.

I can't help but wonder how am I gonna do when I'm in collage (if I actually get there)!

I would like to ask you if you had any advice, or tips about managing time etc

Pd: sorry if this was too long, personal or if I made any gramatical mistakes lol

Hii, sorry it took me so long to answer! From what I heard, it sounds like so kind of burnout. I'm no expert on this topic, so I'm going to leave the links of the sources just in case! (x) (x)

One of main components it's exhaustation. Feeling tired all the time and having no energy. Not only it impacts the mental and physicial health, but the perfomance. This usually stems of being always "on", overwork culture/mentality, pressure (whether internal or external) and the dislike of the tasks. What I recommend is:

Actually rest. Do activities that make mentally rest or dont do any activity, just take some time for yourself. Listen to your favourite music, take a bath, do some breathing exercise. Relax. Here are some more mental rest activities.

Dont beat yourself for resting. A lot of times, we "rest" but it isnt actually rest, because instead of focusing on yourself you are worrying about not doing anything productive 24/7. That looks like rest, but it isnt, it is just more tiring. All the toxic productivity mentality has to go.

Schedule time to do nothing. Establish clear moments for resting.

Take breaks.

Prioritaze tasks. Yes, we all want to have everything done perfectly and complete, but sometimes that is just impossible. The best way to classify them in order is 1) urgent and important; 2) not urgent but important; 3) urgent but no important; and 4) not urgent not important.

Have a good sleep schedule.

Drink water and eat all your meals

Find a hobbie or something you are passionate or at least midly interested on. Something that fills you with joy and seek to. At the beggining it will feel like a waste of time, but once you find something, well, let's just say, try it.

Another thing is the mindset. Negative thinking is unmotivating and tiring. Switching to a more possitive mentality does wonders.There are a lot of ways to reframe negative thoughts, I'm not familiar with most of them so I cant really explain, but here is an article that explains on detail how to do it.

Even though exhaustation and mentality are key to feeling burn out, inefficiency also has an important role. There are millions of study methods, but not a single one works for every person. Maybe you use a "good" study technique, but it isnt the right one for you. I'd recommend trying new ways of studying you havent tried before, see if at least one works for you. I'm going to honest with you, I dont know a lot of methods, since i found the one that works with me I havent tried new ways, here is a list of study methods with explanations that I'm using to draft future posts. Here are the links for the posts are posted about blurting, feynman and pq4r, if any of those sound helpful.

SELF CARE!!!!! Self-care is so important. It's been a common theme in this post, but I will repeat it once more, take care of yourself.

If these are also helpful, I'll leave the links for previous posts about motivation to start, motivation in general, and a reward system for motivation. Not all the tips in those posts will work, actually, some of them may contradict with what I just said, but I posted them with a different situation in mind. Take the tips that will help you and ignore the ones you think will just make it worse.

Hope this helps and good luck!

[planet4546b]

HIIIII benji i hope u are doing well this ask is apropros of nothing except i've wanted to send it for a while but keep forgetting. anyway i know work is killing you slowly (i am sending hate vibes to ur shitty coworkers) so feel free not to answer this ask if you are not feeling it but. i'm sooo curious as to what you would want ppl who write bakery AUs to know (i'm not personally writing one but have just been pondering AUs/fandom tropes recently) <3 anyway hope you are having a nice day!!

oooo this is a very fun question krow!!!!! ive actually been thinking about this a lot while walking around work so thank you hgjdlsag. important disclaimer on this is that i work with large scale cafeteria dessert production, with very little bread production but occassional catering/cake decorating/plated desserts. so this is likely not all universally applicable but heres my big things!!!

the average baker is an absolute neurotic mess. most ppl who work in kitchens have some combination of high strung + extreme adhd which is also true of bakers but bakers are also often INSANE perfectionists and generally pretty prideful?? so when choosing your baker character for a bakery au dont go with the soft kind hearted one, go with the asshole who has to be right, is always working, and is a high strung perfectionist. like when the fiona and cake series made prince bubblegum be a baker that was the right choice. correct statement

its a sort of weirdly solitary job??? like you work in close quarters with people, but in general everyone does Their Own Projects with very little overlap with each other. does not make one particularly team oriented

not particularly surprising, but it Is a very physically demanding job and you get pretty good at tossing around 50+ bags of flour or lifting up absurdly heavy 60qt bowls. i heart putting a 30lb box on my shoulder and walkin around

despite the aforementioned perfectionism things do just sort of go wrong in baking, and its usually not that big a deal. the more of it you do, the more you realize baking isnt Really a science and its fine to sort of fudge stuff, and even if you make something the exact same way 100 times probably 20 of those times itll turn out like crap for literally no reason at all. it happens. also literally all of us burn stuff at one time or another

its Very, Very repetetive. you got a lot of time to think about whatever the hell you want while youre like scooping 800 cookies or whatever. great news for the bakery au fic: this is a perfect time for a character to stew in whatever relationship drama theyre in

yes, you do have to go in that early. getting out at like 12 or 1 is GREAT but it puts your schedule CRAZY at odds with everyone else in the world

handful of really small things that i think would be fun to include in a fic: you always come home smelling like whatever you baked last, you get small burns on your arms pretty damn often, you have to spend just as much time cleaning as you do actually making product, you loose your sweet tooth REALLY fast (i used to have a crazy sweet tooth and when my coworker told me this i was like haha yeah right! she was right.), baking things at small scale becomes weirdly difficult (wdym 4 tblsp butter not 16lbs???? what???), you get weirdly good at being able to weigh amounts by feel alone (ive become that onionguesser guy at the grocery store)

cake decorating is REALLY GODDAMN HARD.

anyways yay!!!!! i will admit i dont read Too too many modern au type fics so im not sure what tropes are out there and arent, but youre right and its really interesting to think about!!!!! if you ever see anyone with questions about a bakery au feel free to send em my way :salute:

i hope youre having a nice day too!!! ty againnnnn <3

[yourpeskyfriend]

tff rewatch, thoughts on ep 11 (take care of yourself | im always here)

spoilers

prologue. high school. wen yi fan's been hard at work practicing ballet for the art exam. sang yan notices a bruise on her arm and draws butterfly wings around it. "so the scars fly away." (high school boys should not be allowed to be this swoony)

present. day 77 of living together. sang yan serves wen yi fan a warm bowl of noodles a hot pile of teasing for breakfast.

(alsooo did y'all notice?? where sang yan is sitting at the table.. he's literally sunlit. again, these tiny production choices in this drama. coz he's her sun.)

sang yan tells her she did something really inappropriate last night while sleepwalking, but wouldn't give her the details. because he's sweet and forgiving this morning... he's sparing her the embarrassment. but!! when the time comes, he's going to make her pay. little by little (in what wayyssss, sang yan? hihi).

at the station. mu chengyun, i call him spikey (from ep 9) has wormed his way into wen yi fan's workplace. as an intern. he's still very annoying, so lets just skip him again this time.

sang yan has a LOOOOOOTTT of time on his hands today. day drinking at overtime AND teasing wen yi fan non-stop on wechat. (so wait, wasn't he just hired for a job? why isnt he there? has he not started yet? or.. is it the weekend? why is he being a bum again?)

YOUR SANITY WAS OVERCOME BY DESIRE LAST NIGHT, AND YOU ATTEMPTED TO POSSESS ME. how does he come up with these things???

wen yi fan is so distracted by sang yan in the office, she (not so thoughtfully) says yes to a potentially triggering news assignment ("pathetic mother searches for daughter who disappeared").

but wait. back to wen yi fan's sleepwalking dilemma.. she asks qiao qiao to stay with her tonight, in case she "victimizes" sang yan again. lol.

but sang yan has a friend over too! jiaxu and sang yan.. emerging out of sang yan's bedroom late at night.. in bathrobes? why? why.

breakfast is another awkward affair. made more awkward because wen yi fan mentions yihe (she needs to go there for work... to interview the mother searching for her daughter. see #5).

her colleagues get a lead on the daughter's whereabouts. wen yi fan now has to fly to hong kong.

she calls sang yan to tell him this, and he hears spikey in the background. he's green jello, but can't do anything about it right now (don't worry, though, he'll think of something nefarious in a moment. let's not underestimate sang yan's scheming ways lol).

in hong kong, wen yi fan finds the daughter working at a ballet studio. she tells wen yi fan she doesn't want to be found, and wen yi fan completely empathizes with her. mothers and daughters, amiright? (assignment wrapped up neatly and without too much drama, thank god!)

wen yi fan also has a cute moment with a little dancer at the studio... ballet is both a sweet and bitter memory for wen yi fan. but today, wen yi fan chooses to draw from the good, and ends up helping out the girl figure out her dance moves. 🩰

back to nanwu. guess who's there at the airport? sang yan. in his aggressively hot manly leather motorcycle jacket. doing the most boyfriend-y thing of all --- picking up his lady from the airport.

sang yan grabs wen yi fan's travel bag without explanation, and spikey's jaws are on the floor.

in the car. they have an actual conversation (no games, no taunting, no lies). wen yi fan: i wonder if as a journalist, i should be more calm and objective when it comes to my work. sang yan: you're a human being, not an interviewing machine... just be yourself. (can't it be normal like this all the time, mom and dad?! lol.)

sang yan then asks wen yi fan if she saw any of her college classmates, or simply hung out in yihe? she shakes her head. it's a place with no memories for wen yi fan.

she asks him back, didn't you say you flew to yihe not too long ago? why? he answers, to see an old friend. (sighh. sang yan's back to lying to wen yi fan again).

conclusion: yihe is not a topic to be brought up between these two. 🤐🤐🤐

epilogue. immediately after wen yi fan's call (#13, telling him she's in HK), sang yan declares jiaxu as officially kicked out of the apartment. sang yan's now booking a flight for him for tomorrow, conveniently timed to wen yi fan's arrival (nefarious, i told you, haha).

[disjenyamembra]

So, first of all this isnt going to be about albums that released this year. It's just going to be about what I listened to this year, so kind of all over the place. I wanted to do this for quite some time and thought no one would care and then decided, shit, I care. So I'm doing this odd personal thing anyway. This is ordered chronologically and in general this isn't a ranking of any sort.

With that being said

SZA - SOS

Absolutely loved this album and was in the exaxt right state of mind to listen to this (aka being in a very straining push and pull situationship). Favorites include Kill Bill, Blind (still gets me all misty eyed), Special, Open Arm, I Hate U, F2F. If it's not on the list it doesn't mean I didn't love it, just means the others got looped more in some kind of depressed daze I was in. I have BPD and I remember splitting HEAVY listening to some of those songs. Vocals are incredible as usual and the variety in genres SZA takles makes it feel very fresh. I mostly value emotion and storytelling when it comes to music and this delivered in spades.

TV Girl - Who Really Cares

Bouncy, fun and energetic break up music. Great to listen to if you're feeling bitter and holding a grudge, but want to be a bit playful about it. I originally heard it as a teenager all the way back in 2016, but it found me again in early 2024 and this time I really listened. Faves: Taking What's Not Yours, Song About Me, (Do The) Act Like You Never Met Me. Carried me when I got all in my feelings but didn't want to listen to really depressing stuff. Speaking of...

Frank Ocean - Blonde

Really depressing stuff, not in general necessarily but for me personally. Also absolutely beautiful and stunning, as expected of Frank Ocean. One of the most inspiring albums for me maybe ever. Great for ugly crying to. Favorites - Ivy (my first Frank Ocean song and also very resonant), Pink + White, Solo, Self-Control, Seigfried (kicks me in the gut every time). Also Channel gets a spot here even though it's technically not on Blonde because I'm bisexual. Sounds like going to heaven.

Black Dresses - Peaceful as Hell

I LOVE THIS ALBUM. I, in fact, love it so much that I got a tattoo of the album cover. Excellent copium for like everything in life. At some point I will do an album review for it specifically, but at the moment it just gets a highlight here. Love the production to bits, love the message and just in general love everything about it. Favorites - Literally every song. It's a ten for me. Kept me going during a really hard time in my life. Full of grounded optimism and immense love of the world.

charli xcx - brat

Yeah yeah yeah. Everyone and their mother listened to brat, but what can I say, the album is genuinely really good. I've been a fan of Charli for years and years at this point and I genuinely think this release is a life changing masterpiece. There's not much I can say that orher people haven't before, so I'll skip straight to the personal stuff. Favorites - Sympathy is a knife ("why i wanna buy a gun? why i wanna shoot myself?" i was at a low, low point), Everything is romantic (so pretty, feels like if a scrapbook was a song), b2b (song that made me leave my situationship), think about it all the time (a look at charlis vulnerable side).

JPEGMAFIA - I LAY DOWN MY LIFE FOR YOU

Over the last two years I got way more into Jpegmafia to the point where he is one of my favorites of all time. I skipped out on the release cycle for this album, I wasn't doing great and it just kind of passed me by. When I got better I finally gave it a shot and I loved it. It's hard for me to pick favorites here because for me Peggy's albums are more of a united listening experience start to finish. I don't know how to describe it, but it mesmerized me. The production is incredible as always, the whole album has kind of an introspective tone to it. Great for dancing, working and looking inwards.

Princess Chelsea - Everything is going to be alright

This album feels like it's holding my hand and reassuring me very gently, the title is appropriate. The whole experience is very sensitive and soft, Chelsea's vocals are soothing and ethereal and the instrumental has a magical feeing to it. Favorites - The Forest, Time, I Don't Know You, Forever is a Charm and most of all Everything is Going to Be Alright (pt.2). This album says time heals and urges one to be patient and to find beauty all around you.

The Dears - No Cites Left

My current go to album. In truth I listened to it first a year ago or so and fell in love with it instantly, but this year it feels a bit different. It was recommended to me by a dear (haha) person who is no longer in my life of my own volition, and even though things turned out sour I still very much wanted to keep this album to myself. Despite being made in the early zeros to me it has an almost contemporary feel. Gets me emotional in all the right ways. I'm not a music reviewer so I dont have in me all that lingo to describe so many albums in interesting ways. I just recommend everyone go and give it a listen.

Favorites - We Can Have It, Lost in the Plot, Don't Lose Faith, Warm and Sunny Days, 22: The Death of All Romance (kind of an obvious pick for me, really), No Citites Left

That's all, folks! I listened to much more than that in 2024, but that's all I felt like writing about. Honorable mentions: chromakopia (didnt do this stuff because I already did brat and didnt feel like adding two very popular current releases to the list), overgrowth by cj the x (i loved it but its short and also painful to relisten), laughingfish (still need to spend more time with it), ghost hippies - призраки тоже плачут and kё - если я не смогу (two russian releases that i feel like should maybe be on a seprate list)

It's not a very efficient way to recommend music to other people, but that's not the point, I just wanted to talk about it all means to me.

Thank you for reading and I hope you enjoyed :)

[okthatsgreat]

lee im curious. i know many of them don't have names (or at least names that you remember off the top of your head) but are there any of the characters from the dr50th lineup that you've never talked about that you'd want to talk about at all.... i love all of their designs and im so curious about them .. who Are these people.......

hi lily :) im gonna let you in on a little secret i can basically talk about all of these guys. now do they all have solid names? not exactly. but do i have ideas about their personalities/arcs/how they die? oh babey you know it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 😁

ILL BE TALKING A LOT UNDER THE CUTTT!!!!! and i mean A LOT! LMFAO!

ANOTHER fun fact was that they were standing in the formation they died in with that lineup i did (everybody past ryobe at least, starting with the ultimate dj) !!!! if that helps visualise how the game progresses.............. grins!

ultimate dj (reiko): okay her first name is definitely reiko HOWEVER in regards to her surname..... i've been going back and forth between whether or not i want to make her an amami. because i really feel like team dr would keep up the amami throughline for a long while and we keep getting treated to characters with green hair who are all related to rantaro in some way or another LMFAO. but her name is reiko for nowwwwww >:) stagename is probably some play on deadmau5 like gone8unny or something like that... ran away from home to pursue a career in djing, became very famous in the electronic music scene but is almost never seen without her mask on so nobody really recognises her at first. she is a party girl through and through who really wants to venture into music production but is having a difficult time and also is very terrified of losing her fleeting spotlight, especially since she is growing out of electronic music. real zany and goofy, so when she dies first it hits a lot of people hard!! team dr really wanted that sayaka/musician leon/athlete parallel lol

ultimate snowboarder: don't have a solid name for this guy however i DO know that he is essentially shaped up to be the support for the entire first chapter (since mika isnt all that talkative yet). quiet and a bit strange in social circumstances, grew up very isolated in the snowy mountains and always looks freezing cold with a red nose despite him saying No this is a normal temperature. A bit humid, even. he has a horrific freeze response to most situations which yoshito recognises and its definitely what draws the two together at first. this freeze response prevented him from getting help for reiko when he accidentally shoved her way too hard during a fight over the motive and killed her slowly lol #athlete

ultimate drum major (riria "riri" umezaki): chapter two begins with a very clear divide in the group as two leaders start to take over, one of them being riri. she is QUITE the intimidating presence and had to develop this intimidation in order to succeed in her field, considering the people she was leading were often far older than her. not to mention she was a BAND KID in high school which also impacted the way she present herself to others so that she would be taken seriously lmfao. she is very schedule-oriented, wants everything "in rhythm", and can get quite frightened and paranoid when things fall out of line. nevertheless she has started making bonds with others during chapter one and by chapter two insists on being made leader so that she can implement a stricter regiment (she feels guilt for reiko and the ult snowboarder but states it was lack of discipline that got them there). befriends the ult barrister (very important in trials + intelligent) and ult cheerleader (strong + good with words) and they become her squad basically up until she gets MURDERED!

ultimate general (shuzo??): most of the time yoshito spends one on one time with this guy he asks how the hell anybody would let a kid become a general and he never gets an answer... shuzo is very uncharismatic and unlike riri doesn't believe he needs to threaten people as "he isn't kind enough to give people a warning like that". straightforward, only says what needs to be said and nothing more, will always give you the honest answer. he actually does have quite strong opinions about leadership and believes it takes respect in order to become one, and he just straight up doesnt think riri has done anything to prove herself beyond intimidate others lol. riri leads one half of the class while he takes the other half (most of whom are stragglers), ALSO gets very paranoid about the whole thing despite riri showing it way more. becomes clear down the line he is clearly struggling with ptsd, starts shouting way more, straight up pulls a gun on naomi at one point. he's awesome. and also partially lost his hearing in one ear

ultimate barrister: first of all i have something to admit i accidentally wrote bailiff on the ref sheet LMFAOOOOO she's a BARRISTER!!!! and ooooooo she's crafty. she's crafty this one. initially comes off as somebody who wants justice for all and whatnot, but the truth of the matter is she is paid to represent her client and her client only and tends to apply this logic to class trials. becomes close with the ult drum major/that whole side of the class way early on, meaning she usually takes their side in a very biased manner. so not only is she extremely intelligent, used to trials such as this, and knows how to fight a case properly, she is also very usually against yoshito and makes plenty of accusations against his allies. a bit conceited in a way (VERY subtle franziska von karma vibes lmfao), goes about trials in a rather logical manner which often makes it appear as if she doesnt care much for emotions (which isnt necessarily true, shes just very used to tuning them out for her work at this point). makes friends with riri and the ult cheerleader but her friendship with the ult cheerleader is what is most important

ultimate mortician (eizo azumamoro???): he's always been a very very strange kid and he embraces this wholeheartedly, has a distinct style to him and finds comfort in death in a way that often unnerves other people. grew up in a rural town and has a southern drawl, family ran a funeral home and he started working there very early. often speaks like hes from an old black and white horror movie. VERY useful in trials as he provides extensive autopsies, but goes above and beyond to point out details that are unnecessary (such as reiko's death not being instant, riri taking anxiety medication). see team dr would definitely make THIS guy the strange serial killer of the season but i just cant do that to him i just kinda think he's a freak for unrelated reasons

ult competitive cheerleader (chika): makes a point to distinctly say COMPETITIVE cheerleading as she is far more into the athletic/gymnastics/competition side of cheerleading than the standing on the sides cheering for the football team kinda thing!! she never really seemed to grow out of the high school power dynamics in this killing game, and while she doesn't try to be CRUEL she's just a bit ignorant in how she treats others sometimes and comes off as a bit catty and childish. but she is INTENSELY loyal, and the tragedy of her character is that she doesnt really get much of that loyalty back and just kinda gets used over and over, even in her final moments. dont have the specifics of the case superrrr laid out but its something along the lines of because of a prank ryobe pulls she presumes she has just slowly poisoned the ult barrister (her closest friend) to death, and the ult barrister (who is fully convinced she is dying) practically strongarms chika and goes Hey. I didn't get to carry out this plan so you have to carry it out For Me because you killed me okay. and chika is in so much distress that she goes Okaayyyyyy... and then follows a series of instructions one of which is to murder the ult mortician so that he cant discern the true cause of the ult barristers death who, in one last kinda awful move to be proven right (its also likely she knew she wasnt actually poisoned at that point and just sent chika to kill a man), takes her own life ""before the poison does"" so that that true cause of death is suicide and the class will vote chika incorrectly. however, they discover the ULT MORTICIANS body first, somebody chika DEFINITELY killed. so even when they do discover that the ult barrister offed herself and that she wasnt even poisoned it was LITERALLY just ryobe pulling a joke it doesnt matter because chika killed him so she gets executed

ult accountant: i know so little about this guy but i do know that his whole bit is that he is strikingly boring and unremarkable except for the fact he is ripped as all hell. really into math and working out. does all of his work at a standing desk while walking on a treadmill. hes fascinated by so many of these ultimates with out there talents, especially pippy and ryobe who make it their goal to get him to have fun a little bit.... gets poisoned about it </3

ult preschool teacher (haru???): used to help out his late mother all of the time as she was a preschool teacher up until she passed, and he was just so damn good at the job that the school kept him lol. sweet guy who is sooooo not used to talking with other people his age, very hard working and knows when to put his foot down at times (hes one of the first people to tell ryobe hes acting like a toddler and needs to knock that shit off NOWWW!!!). he forms an immediate bond with pippy because he INSTANTLY recognises her and would often play episodes of hers for his kids, they bond even further upon realising they got into teaching/childrens entertainment for strikingly similar reasons, that being their parents and money. he is far more reserved and timid compared to her though LMFAO. and also his ability to recognise ryobes behaviour as being seriously detrimental allows him to stay more grounded while erin reaches for escapism and gets swayed over to his side, which lends to a lot of friction between them at times

ult translator: also dont know a ton about this guy but hes really into travelling and adores exploring different cultures!! extremely intelligent when it comes to languages and is able to pick them up very quickly, but with his personality you kinda wouldnt expect this lol. hes sorta like peter pan in a way with his carefree explorer energy yknow... youd never expect that this guy has sat in countless important government meetings as their official translator and knows a lot of secret intel that he is sworn to protect

[system-of-a-feather]

Honestly, I was talking to my sister who was a teacher in the Bronx about some cultural respect / nuanced discourse topics from a multicultural and intersectional lens since I had questions that I felt really was out of my range of experiences as it pertained to afrolatine individuals from the inner city and low socioeconomic status and I will be 100% honest, the amount of individuals I have in my "regular talking group" that are of african descent, latine descent and of more lower-economic status inner city backgrounds are pretty low - really only having one individual from the "lower-economic status inner city background" in the people I talk to regularly and it was a really interesting and insightful conversation that helped me develop and see further depth and complexity into topics that - as an outsider that has just been told how to not be racist - always thought of in a very simple single faceted lens.

And me and my sister like to just talk about these things and she called it "theory" when we were closing up cause she was like "Yeah during summer I absolutely do not want to talk about kids and children in any regard cause its trauma (/hj, worker rights is garbo but she likes what she does)" and it made me think today

A lot of people look at discussions around "internet topics" as some sort of "not productive, too online" sort of conversation, a waste of time more or less because you aren't "really going to change much"

And to some level I agree (and to some level I also disagree), but I think one of the perspectives that might be a large difference between the rhetoric and aggression I see in #syscourse VS the atmosphere of the people i talk to in and around #sysconversation and just people I like to actually talk to is a LARGE perspective and intent change between "I want to make a difference and change how things are" and "I want to understand and learn more about the human condition because I either enjoy it, it makes me a better person, it helps me understand the world, and/or it helps me understand myself and others better"

Because as much as I like the intent and sentiment of the first (and I was also very much there), I find that it is 1) not really congruent with the method of delivery as it is often not the right target and the online environment is not a really good depiction of the real off-line environment and 2) it is focused on trying to control and dictate behavior and experiences of others without spending much time to actually reflect on your place and role in all of everything that is going on.

It's good to want to make a difference and change how things are, but its really important to know that the only person you can realistically control is yourself and trying to exert that energy onto others is throwing your energy into a void; most importantly, I find that for every topic that needs improvement, there is not a single person who is completely innocent in being a COMPLETELY uninvolved in the system that keeps it up. And that ISNT bad, it's just a statement of realistic, honest, cultural humility. Every social issue, every social topic, is multilayered and multifaceted involving multiple people with multiple traits that are undeniably intertwined to the point that you can't really say "okay but this is ONLY about this" - and in every social issue, with how many layers there are to it, there is always going to be something you have relative privileged over others with; and that's something very important and helpful to analyze and reflect upon because you can control how that privileged affects your views, your actions and the way you handle these complex discussions.

If we are talking on an explicitly online environment, then one of the best ways you can make an ACTIVE change that you can ACTIVELY see in the world, it is to look at yourself and see what you can do to make a productive change towards your goal

((And its also helpful to actually sit and think about the change you want to see and reflect upon what your stances / arguments that are the 'hills you will die on' and see if the core values and changes you'd like to see are in line with those values))

[a-court-of-moonlight-and-ire]

Hey! I feel like Ive been at this for a goddamn eternity so in an attempt to speed things up I shall read 3 chapters today, how exciting. Im motivating myself by telling me that Im gonna get to watch the 2007 Takarazuka Snow Troupe Production of Elisabeth when Im done, specifically my favorite song because. okay so, when I talk about watching any Takarazuka production of Elisabeth what I actually mean is, I have pretty much all the proshots and a bunch of english subtitle files, but theres not a subtitle file for every existing proshot, so for example, theres a subtitle file for the 1996 Star Troupe Production but not the 1996 Snow Troupe Production which isnt a big deal since the diaogue and lyrics are all the same, but you cant just put the Star subtitle file over the Snow video because itll be completely out of sync, so what I do is, I put the Star subtitles into my subtitle editor with the Snow video and I manually re-sync every line to create Snow subtitles, and while I do that Im effectively just watching my favorite musical over and over again except very slowly. So yeah, in case you were wondering what your favorite acotar complainer does for fun, now you know

Anyway, enough of my life, now its time for my liveblog, last time Feyre and Rhysand got ambushed by some of Hyberns soldiers and Rhys got shot atleast 7 times and kidnapped and tortured, but Feyre was fine and she saved him and she pulled all the arrows out of him and now hes probably gonna be perfectly fine. I know this isnt gonna affect him in any meaningful way, like his wings are gonna bd fine and his back isnt gonna hurt, but I do hope that he atleast suffers for the duration of the 3 chapters im gonna read because otherwise whats the point

Chapter 50

Rhysands wounds are only healing very slowly and hes got a fever, we're off to a good start

idk why but I really hate Feyre kissing him on the forehead. the narrative has not earned such a tender gesture

THE SURIEL 🎉🎉

Oh, i hadnt noticed this before but I like the alliteration we get with the german translation of Feyre Cursebreaker, Feyre Fluchbrecher. 10/10 very fun to say

its been ONE year since Feyre first came to Prythian, Sarah im begging you, please stop pointing out the passage of time youre activel making it harder for me to get invested in this stupid romange

They translate 'Mate' as 'Seelengefährte' ['Soulmate'] and oh, you have no idea how happy I am about that, this and the fact that they dont say male and female but just man and woman/masculine and feminine makes this series about a million times better, once again, thank you Alexandra Ernst

I dont understand why Feyre being Rhysands mate is such a big deal anyway, she didnt grow up in this culture, and pretty much all she has at this point is Tamlin's vague explanation of it being a bond that goes beyond marriage and the fact that his and Rhysand's parents, both infamously horrible couples, were mates

'"He is the most powerful High Lord to have ever walked the earth. You are... new. You were created by all seven High Lords. Different than anything that existed before you. Does that not make you the same? Equal?"' ewww i hate that. If this is supposed to be romantic somehow why would you make it all about power, why wouldnt the Suriel say smth like "You both suffered in the same ways. He is the is the only one to ever truly understand you"

But also. Rhysand and Feyre are not even the same though ? Like yeah, Rhys is powerful, but wasnt Feyre special because shes capital-m Made, which he is not? If the logic behind mates is the two people being 'the same' in some way, then Feyre should really be Amren's mate methinks

Im not gonna lie, Feyre angrily forcing Rhys to drink her blood is pretty hot

'Deep down I hated myself for speaking to him like this.' No girl dont hate yourself, this is the first time in over 600 pages Ive found the feysand dynamic even remotely compelling

'I stared at him, this Illyrian half-blood whose soul was bound to mine.' what the hell? Top Ten Feyre Archeron Racist Moments

This mf really told his cousin and his weird freaky eldritch creatures whose apartment he pays for that he and Feyre are mates before he told Feyre

I just zoned out thinking about a version of Feysand where Feyre is basically constantly telling Rhys stuff like 'youre just a burden' or whatever she said during that one argument because shes starting to figure out his weak spots the more time she spends with him and she wants to like, break him emotionally as revenge for UTM and Rhysand doesnt do anything about it because he just represses all his emotions and he cant just stop spending time with her because theyre mates and he feels like he needs to be close to her all the time. Idk, abusive relationships have been my favorite angst fanfic premise lately

Its so wild how Feyre is super angry with Rhys for keeping the mating bond from her when literally everyone else already knew and not only is he gonna do the exact same thing with the baby in acosf, Feyre is just gonna be fine with it then even though its arguably much much worse

Chapter 51

Okay so I guess Cassian, Azriel and Mor have just been hanging out in Rhysand's warcamp house, do they not have anything better to do

god i wish being all pathetic laying in the dirt was Rhysand's default state instead of him always being the manliest man to ever man

Oh, so I guess Mor used to get locked up in this cabin in the middle of nowhere whenever she 'misbehaved'. you would think she'd have more sympathy for Nesta in acosf but from everything ive seen.....

this chapter was extremely short

I completely forgot that this book was split into parts, i guess its The House of Mist time now

Chapter 52

god the anachronistic clothing in this series is gonna be the death of me, why is feyre always wearing leggings and a cremecolored swester istg

Full offense, but if the mating bond is soooooo much stronger than marriage, Rhysand should not have been earnestly worried about Feylin getting married

This part where Feyre is relieved because it turned out that her relationship with Tamlin was always doomed to fail because she had a soulmate is pretty interesting, but it also feels like complete bullshit for reasons that Im struggling to articulate

I would just like to reiterate that I am so relieved that they just call it soulmates in the german version, I cannot imagine how insufferable this must be to read in english

Feyre started painting again hoorayyyyyyy. i feel like this wouldve been more impactful if she wasnt constantly thinking about wanting to paint whatever she sees, but hey

I actually think this part where Mor comes in and just goes around complimenting all the stuff Feyre painted everywhere is quite nice, I think i would enjoy it more if this whole story wasnt pissing me off rn

waiiiiiit ive never seen people talk about Mor's mother even though shes apparently alive and well, whats their relationship? Whats her role at the CoN if Mor is supposed to be the queen of the Hewn City??

Mor being like "Rhysand gave me his permission to kill my abusers but I dont do it even though I have pretty much no reason not to, but Cassian and Azriel really want to do it and would do it without hesitation so maybe I'll let them do it" is somehow a perfect summary of SJM's shallow wannabe feminism

Feyre still barely understands the relationships between individual members of the inner circle but sure, theyre the family she never had

[tigerdrop]

Honestly was not expecting this sim fic to have such a cliff hanger that it had me gripping my keys. Seriously, your characterization is incredible and I love the back and forth dialogue you write. Insane about the mental image you painted of Benrey watching from above and through the windows, so large hes the horizon itself.. making the doll version of himself he made just to be with Gordon finally get to touch and feel him. Even that itself is a simulation, a game, and yet he can't get enough of it because its the best hes gonna get with the distance they have between each other. Meanwhile Gordon's about to fucking burst through his pants about it. He's just enraptured by the sheer dedication. Thanks. I can't go on anymore.

thank u : ) ive been really chewing on this one. like an embarrassing amount of concern being poured into making these guys sound good + funny + horny. this is my craft . so im very glad to hear it

i love playing with benrey and digging into his feelings and making him hurt a little. (sorry . its true.) and i wanted him to feel what its like from gordons end, even if he isnt consciously aware that these are representative of the struggles that gordon has when interacting with him

benreys not reachable. communication between them feels impenetrable. hes trying to interface with something that straight up does not (and cannot) exist in the same plane of reality as him........but by god hes going to try anyway, b/c he is so boycrazy about gordon. and vice versa. its also a metaphor for a long distance relationships but . when isnt it

writing gordon is so much fun here b/c i get to give him everything he wants. he loves being the center of attention! if he didnt, he wouldnt be a fucking streamer. and he very clearly cares about the gnome a lot by the end of the stream.......therefore benrey, too. so being the center of a dangerous sentient AIs attention (and having him tend to gordon and take care of him and build him whatever he wants to make his game good) is basically the most intense thing he could experience. emotionally, sexually, psychologically, etc etc etc

its like. a bdsm thing. dont worry about it

anyway.um. THank You. for liking my product

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You mentioned gastroparesis in a recent post.

Any tips for someone suspecting it?

(maybe gross: tw vomit)

I literally vomited up food somewhat in tact the other morning that I ate over twelve hours beforehand, and I know that's not normal. Smaller meals help greatly, and the PPI I was on made it worse. Off that one now. Sulfasalazine has also made it worse. Have to keep that one.

I've also noticed high water content meals (like soup) digest much easier.

Is there a point at which you should definitely go to the doctor about this issue? What is it?

Thank you for your time!

If you're vomiting more than once a month, it's recommended to see a doctor. Tho honestly I'd recommend going if you see a pattern too. It's always better to be safe then sorry.

I definitely understand vomiting up food hours after I ate it. It is definitely a big sign you might have gastroparesis (tho there are other reasons and sometimes gastroparesis develops because of something else and is therefore temporary).

Soup is definitely a good food to eat. Any meat or vegetable in it will be soft and tender and soft and tender means it's easier to digest. The same goes for things like noodles vs bread. Noodles will be easier to digest then bread. Liquid fruits and vegetables are easier to eat then solid.

One suggestion I'd give is limit intake of high fiber foods. Fiber is super hard to digest and sits in the stomach longer than most foods. Boiling vegetables makes them easier to digest tho tbh mine is bad enough I usually drink my vegetables (buy the expensive produce aisle stuff and drink like half a glass a day). I believe corn and I think cherries are also supposed to be avoided because they often form a bezoar in the stomach which makes it even harder to digest food.

Avoid high fat content and greasy foods. Go for fat free or 1% milk products when you can. Anything higher is harder to digest. Use margarine instead of butter. Don't eat cold pizza (I miss it smh lol). Air fry things or throw them in the oven, don't use an oil fryer.

Avoid tough meat. Chew meat thoroughly. Really, chew everything thoroughly. Lean meat is also easier to digest. I honestly probably don't get enough protein and should get those fancy protein drinks or replacement bars. Give em a try if you want.

I don't eat spicy food much but it does irritate the stomach and can make nausea worse so it's recommended you avoid it.

Also try to avoid eating skins on fruits (apples, grapes, cherries, etc). These are also tough to digest.

Listen to your stomach. If you're feeling bloated and nauseous and a meal is coming up, don't try to force regular food down. I usually eat a small serving of 1% cottage cheese and/or slow drink a breakfast essential for a meal if I need to. You can always snack later if you feel like it.

Make sure you're not eating and then going to bed immediately after. Give your body a few hours to digest it first. As someone who sometimes naps after meals, it's not fun to wake up nauseous and that's just an hour or 3 hour nap. Doing a whole night isnt a good idea. Sleeping slows digestion down even more.

Drink water after you eat. Water aids in digestion. You can still drink too much water and make things worse obviously but drinking after a meal even just a little bit often makes my stomach feel better and often will even make me feel a little less bloated if I was dumb and ate too much too fast.

Good luck with everything. Hopefully you can get some control over this issue.

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finally the other topic thats been on my mind. the food. oohhh the food. enormous post warning. i hope to god the read more works.

ok for starters. its good. i cant complain. variety and spread were pretty great (goes so hard to have diaspora from all over the world in your country you literally can get anything if you know where to look), quality was good, portions are INCREDIBLY generous even considering price most of the time, and price is....fine. i hated it bc again exchange rates fucked me over but i didnt see anything... outrageous anywhere we went to OTHER than the baseball game but that i expected and was prepared for so i didnt like, insta vomit when i saw the menu. i didnt try nearly everything i wanted to but, well, i have limited space in my tummy.

there were... some questionable items. at the store. like, ham with cheese inside it that looked like it had some kind of pox. all sorts of um. wrong looking. gooey cheese products. all very yellow and with a scary toxic look to them. i did eat the cheetos tho they were fine and acceptably orange.

like... im sorry. this isnt ok. this shouldnt exist. this is wrong.

there were also all sorts of what id consider, niche? not very high circulation? products. that looked interesting. also cheeses, this time delicious and amazing (im still so pissed i left the horseradish cheddar i wanted to bring home in ks fridge), great great snacks, treats of all sorts (some good some eh?), all kinds of baking ingredients and cooking ingredients, so many dry spices and powders and seasonings. asian ingredients and mexican ingredients seemed greatly favored which tbh was appreciated bc there was stuff id never seen before that got me very curious + i found my fav mexican candy which i missed. also, chicken is p cheap over there, i was surprised its basically as cheap as it is here, maybe slightly cheaper even. all in all, tbh, you can eat pretty well buying fairly cheap and healthy items with...not many problems. like...a big big bag of kale was like...4 usd. thats so good. chicken and tuna and sardines were cheap. pasta is cheap as hell as it is everywhere. veggies and fruit are kind of hit or miss but i think thats somewhat seasonal as it is everywhere. canned food is cheaper there too?? not bad at all. next time i want to go to a costco and see how it goes to buy stuff in bulk, it looks promising.

idk where im going w this post so now im just gonna list the memorable meals or treats or ingredients i sampled/had over there (inconsistent list bc some are homemade meals made by moi + k but whatever) and rate them. i cant put these on a normal list bc im breaking the character limit so please bear with my horrible formatting.

baseball game hotdog: 7/10 disappointingly small for the...10? 11? usd it cost. nice mustard and onions on top. NO MAYO. ketchup and relish were Fine. at least 2-3 points of the score are just the fact it was a true baseball hotdog and my first one at that. the experience is very important for this one. i cherished that more than most other things in this "meal" so id feel bad rating it lower.

baseball garlicky fries: 8/10. again 3 points for the experience and novelty of it being baseball food. i think they were 9 dollars. ok portion. CRAZY AMNTS OF GARLIC YUM. pretty tasty. NO MAYO THO!!

double cheese burger + fries + onion rings + peanut butter milkshake: 10/10. true american meal. enormous burger. couldnt finish anything other than the milkshake and k helped w that + i was about to genuinely frow up by the time i tried the last spoonful of it. the whole thing i think was about 25-30? usd each? i dont even care. it was delicious, i think the mayo was made by the restaurant itself, it was so good. beef patties were great. vegetables were great. pickles were really good. gooey ass american cheese was great. fries were crazy. onion rings were perfect. just delicious. will go again next time im there.

pho + spring rolls: 5.5/10. not bad at all. but i think pho was greatly overhyped. i ordered it w tendon and tripe which was nice to have in the us bc i know they dont like organ meats at all. it was ok. its one of those soups that i guess gets better kinda by the end when its all gotten mixed up and nicely flavored. ive had better soups though. sorry i fumbled the tip.

sushi: 8/10. nice! didnt try even close to all the options but the eel was DELICIOUS + the maki sushi was good and, honestly, very well portioned. i dont like when the maki sushi is huge esp when im trying to sample many types. and some of the salads and soups....hell yes. good price! comparable to nice sushi places here, i didnt feel it was scandalous. im giving it an 8 bc it was tasty as fuck, but i do have a comment on this. i think the us does the same thing we do which is, they shove a bunch of ingredients into maki sushi to make new ones with a lot of shit in them and im not the biggest fan of that so i didnt order those. i like simple sushi. the ones i ordered were really good tho. 8/10 for those, i dont think ill order the other ones unless i was feeling suuuper experimental. same as it ever was.

deluxe kraft mac and cheese, orig cheddar: 5/10 without adding anything to it, solid 6 with better cheese + bbq sauced hot dog in it. see we had just watched the jerma reviews mac and cheese video and we happened to find this at the store so obviously we had to try it. it was just normal mac and cheese. i think american kraft has a stronger and kinda. nastier. cheese flavor in it. so we added real cheese and other things and it was better. solid dinner.

mcdonalds: mcdonalds/mcdonalds. its mcds. it tastes the same everywhere apparently. it was fine. fresh fries were nice tho.

taco bell chicken quesadilla: 2/10. i dont really like taco bell and i kind of objected to this meal and only had a little bit. flavorful in weirdly wrong ways. not Offensive but, yknow, a strong I Would Prefer Not To. also, made me a little bloated even with lactaid to help me cope.

various food items at family meeting: 7/10. im not rating them individually there were too many, this is an average. the ones that stood out were: crispy crispy bacon for brekky. biscuits and gravy. funeral potatos? thats what they called it i think? the yogurt + fruit + maple syrup granola bowl and the smoked trout. i think this is because it was a family thing, but if not i guess it still applies? homemade american dishes are so fucking rich. im not sure i could stand eating like that every day. i know by the end of the weekend i was like.. i need normal salad. i need some rice. this cant go on forever. still, i enjoyed every dish i tried. tasty stuff!

sweet corn we roasted in a fire: 10/10 brother i love sweet corn and oonnhh hhn the butter on it. yea man. its good.

special coffee drink + bagel w cream cheese: 7/10. very generous bagel for like...under 3 usd. 3rd worlder ass price for the crazy amnt of cheese it had imho and like, i shared it with k and i was still very satisfied with the portion i got. the coffee drink was very nice. i have no idea what that woman put in it other than the 2 large espresso shots and ice i saw she added. tasty tho! and she was nice. sorry i was very bad at understanding your accent. i realized im still not at all used to that.

espresso + chocolate truffle: 9/10 just what i needed after the fish and chips feast. beautifully smooth coffee, good crema, smelled good, tasted good. great texture, good price. 8 usd for...2 espressos and 2 truffles. i think thats more than acceptable, esp in the highly touristy area we were in. the truffle itself i think was a little ordinary but paired so well w the coffee the whole thing was a win. lovely to have it next to the sea w my love after stuffing ourselves full w fish and chips. speaking of which.

fish (cod and calamari and shrimp) and chips + cider: 10/10 my god. my god. this rivals peruvian jalea. i never believed it would be possible. but it is. it was great. fresh out the fryer, pleasantly greasy but not excessively so. great flavor. great fish. nice portion. amazingggg cider and really nice tartar sauce. just what i needed after walking around for a couple hours. just a great fucking meal. will def go again if i can.

glazed? powdered? donuts? we got at the store? i dont remember the brand or name but i was curious so i grabbed a thing and k said they were pretty good: 2/10 meh. they were... whatever. i think i had one w breakfast and then i sort of gave up on them. kind of dry and too dense for a donut. maybe they were cake donuts? i dont know. i shouldnt have strayed from dunkin, im sorry dunkin. ill never let you down again.

salt vinegar chips: 10/10 one of those snacks i just. would compulsively buy if i lived there. like this would be my go to snack. they hurt the roof of my mouth but its worth it also i like the sourness bc it makes me pace myself a little.

normal ruffles: ruffles/ruffles. i like a good wavy potato chip. what can i say. i enjoyed them.

american bacon: 8/10. i understand why the us has crazy rates of cardiovascular disease. i get it. maybe its worth it. it gets one whole point solely bc of the crazy amnt of fat you can render out of it, bacon fat was Not Lacking while we cooked and i thank the bacon for this, because thats a great ingredient to have around imho.

tap water: 10/10. preddy good!

mexican limes: 2/10. im actively racist against these citrus fruits. so much flesh, no juice. they did their job and tasted Fine I Guess but they were still lame. peruvian lime or nothing baby.

fuji apples: 8/10. im fujiapplepilled. theyre nice. crispy. go well with peanut butter. yum! nice that they are grown there.

cheetos: 5/10. i had the puffs and the normal..crispy ones? non spicy bc i dont like the spicy ones. i was satisfied. theyre better than ours. still not the best snack but i was curious. bigger portion than im used to. i think i would simply not let children have them though.

beef hot dogs, from the store. in and without bun: 9/10 broooo americans are just good at these. they put like actual meat in them. theyre dense. theyre large. delicious stuff. versatile enough, reasonably priced. if this isnt their national pride it should be. wish i could have brought a pack home. my fam would love these.

some kind of mexican chorizo thing: 4/10. it was ok. k had this in the fridge when i got there? its like salchicha huachana but less good, less fresh, less colourful and less flavorful. it did what we needed it to do, i didnt dislike it. it was just. fine.

ranier beer: 7/10. yum! pleasant. slightly sweet. a fine drink for a warm sunny day. great with snacks or other treats.

pabst blue ribbon: 6/10. yum also! i liked rainier a little better tho.

the 2 ipas i had: 0/10. the only thing i had that i actively disliked. yuck. just nasty stuff.

wait i forgot

jeppsons malort: -1/10. @worldlytutor why the fuck did you buy that. that shit tasted like rat poison fr. throw that shit away rn if you still have it.