#and the concept of total control like that does scare me

[illyrian-teahouse]

Sometimes I wonder what it would be like if I used my Ability to cause chaos for the hell of it and played a more antagonistic role in this reality

And then I realize Atsu and Arata would probably hate me for it and I'm normal again

[valeisaslut]

i don't know how to put thoughts and concepts into words written out, verbally goes easier but typed out you're gna have to bear with me: ellie has a very demanding presence and is very loud and unapologetic about it, that's the way she's always been. her loving reader so loudly and unapologetically even before she was sure what they had was real and that her feelings were reciprocated doesn't stem from her rebeliousness but from the fact that she wants to give her what she wishes she got. right? or am i just like yapping here? like now for the first time ever she found someone who does it back, and who treats her that way in return for the first time ever. however she was still scared bc she wasn't sure if it was for the cameras or not. idk if that's wrong tho. i do want to know why she has such a rebelious nature or if that's wrong and i just like misinterpreted that and assumed it bc of the stereotype and if she isn't like that at all

nooo you’re not yapping at all—this is actually such a beautiful and dead-on take i’m gonna cry a little actually. I FUCKING LOVE YOU.

LETS BREAK IT DOWN:

you’re totally right about the fact that ellie’s loudness and demanding energy isn’t just rebellion. she is loud, yeah. she is magnetic and unapologetic. but when it comes to the reader—when it comes to love—that intensity isn’t about defiance. it’s about longing. it’s about giving someone else the kind of love she always craved and never got.

i think a lot of people look at her attitude and chalk it up to “classic rockstar behavior”—and sure, there’s some truth to that. ellie has built a persona around being untouchable, the cool girl with the guitar, the one who always walks out first. but underneath it? that persona was built to protect herself. that “rebelliousness” is less about anarchy and more about survival. it’s her way of staying in control when the world around her feels chaotic and unpredictable.

when you grow up not being seen the way you wanted—not being loved the way you needed—you learn to take up space in other ways.

she’s loud because she’s scared of being ignored. she’s bold because she doesn’t want to be invisible. she’s hard to reach because deep down she doesn’t believe anyone would stay if they really saw her.

and you NAILED it with the reader being the first person to match that energy. the first person who gives as much as they take. and that’s so fucking overwhelming for ellie. like, imagine spending your whole life performing a version of yourself just to be tolerated, and then suddenly someone sees the real version—and loves her. not just publicly, not just for the cameras. but quietly, intimately, truly.

so yeah, of course she was terrified. of course she couldn’t trust it at first. because for her, vulnerability has always come with consequences. that’s why she was always trying to stay one step ahead.

that’s why even when she was fake-dating the reader, she was still loving her real.

because for the first time, she was giving someone everything she ever wanted to receive—and it was the scariest and bravest thing she’s ever done.

anyway. yeah. she’s not just a rebel. she’s a girl with a cracked-open heart and no instruction manual for how to let someone take care of it.

[dioslesbianwife]

Hallo I loved how you wrote the jofoes with the partner that had the stand wonder of you can I please request it for the characters part 4

How would the characters of part 4 react to there partner having the stand wonder of you and how would they react to to what it can do

(exept kira he was already written for )

hii im glad you enjoyed!! sure, thank you for being patient and for requesting!!! <3 (also THANK YOU for giving me an excuse to write for tonio and mikitaka lol they deserve more attention)

Josuke Higashikata

At first, he thinks your Stand looks kind of cool.

“Hey, he looks like some kinda… businessman?”

Then he realizes what it actually does- people who try to harm you suffer instant, unavoidable misfortune.

“Wait, wait—so if someone just thinks about attacking you, they get, like… final destination’d?!”

Shocked, horrified, and a little scared.

But also kind of relieved that no one could ever hurt you.

Hates seeing people suffer gruesome deaths, though, so he begs you to never abuse it.

Despite his fear, he trusts you to control it.

Okuyasu Nijimura

Dumbfounded.

“HUUUUH?! What do ya mean, my bad luck’s gonna kill me?!”

He gets way too close to you after hearing about your ability and immediately trips over nothing, slamming into a wall.

You literally have to warn him not to even think about testing it.

“S-So… like, if I tried to punch ya, my own fist might just break, right?”

Develops an instinctive fear of your Stand but tries to act cool about it.

Despite this, he still adores you, but he’s just extra careful not to piss you off.

“Hey, I—uh—I did the dishes! Love you, bro! Don’t kill me!”

Rohan Kishibe

Immediately intrigued.

“Hmph. This ability is… godly.”

Wants to research and document everything about it.

Even if it means risking his life, he’s tempted to test its limits.

“Would it react to something as simple as me drawing you? Or does it require hostility?”

You have to physically stop him from putting himself in danger.

The idea that no one can touch you without suffering divine misfortune? He finds it cool.

“Tsk. Serves them right.”

Koichi Hirose

Absolutely horrified.

“W-Wait… so if someone tries to hurt you, they just… die?”

Cannot process how terrifying your Stand is.

Immediately starts overthinking everything- 

Even though he’s scared, he’s too sweet to stop being with you.

But he does get visibly nervous every time your Stand activates.

He’s also hyper-aware of how it could affect innocent people- like what if someone chases you for a totally harmless reason??

“You promise you won’t use it unless you have to, right?”

Jotaro Kujo (Part 4)

At first? Completely unfazed.

“Hmph. Not the weirdest Stand I’ve seen.”

But when he realizes it literally warps fate itself to protect you, he takes it very seriously.

“Tch. That ability is dangerous. Even to you.”

He isn’t scared of it, but he knows how bad it could be if misused.

Keeps an eye on you, making sure you don’t attract unnecessary attention.

However, he trusts you completely.

If anything? He’s relieved you have an ability this strong.

“No one’s ever gonna touch you with that thing watching your back.”

Tonio Trussardi

Worried. A lot.

“That ability… is unlike anything I’ve ever seen.”

He’s fascinated by the concept of fate-based misfortune, but also terrified that you might accidentally cause harm.

“What if an innocent person just… trips near you? Would it still activate?”

Despite his fear, he’s still devoted to your relationship.

“If nothing else, let me make sure you stay healthy. This Stand may protect you… but I want to protect you in my own way.”

Yuya Fungami

Half-terrified, half-impressed.

“Okay, that thing? That’s nightmare fuel.”

Super paranoid about ever making you mad.

“You wouldn’t… y’know, use it on me, right? Right??”

Still flirts with you, but way more carefully now.

He’ll absolutely use the fact that you’re untouchable to his advantage, though.

“Hey, if anyone ever messes with us? Just walk a little closer to ‘em. Heh.”

Shigechi (platonic of course)

At first, he’s excited to hear you have a Stand.

But when he learns what it does, he freaks out.

“H-Hey, wait- so if someone even tries to touch you, they DIEE??”

He becomes extra polite around you.

But he still thinks you’re awesome- just scary.

“I-It’s cool! Just… remind me to never run too fast around ya…”

Mikitaka

Not scared at all.

Actually finds it fascinating- even more than Rohan.

“Ah, what a marvelous ability! I have never seen such a Stand in my home planet.”

Asks way too many questions.

“Do you think it would work on me? If I shape-shift?”

Honestly? He doesn’t treat you any differently.

He’s just happy to be with you, no matter what.

[anti-terf-posts]

Three things that I've learned at the philosophy class today (14th/03):

I am a fuckin coward who does not know how to communicate their ideas n is afraid of embarrassin themselves if they try to do so.

This generation is way more conservative than we may think (which is ironic, considerin we're known as the “least conservative generation” n “the rad leftists”) an' no one around me ever noticed that.

Nobody at my class would survive any idea or concept of any of the non cishetero-amatonormative relationships dynamics that exists everywhere on the arospec, queerplatonic n the polyamorous communities. None of them. Not at all.

My teacher asked us to watch the movie The Matrix, since it was inspired by Plato's ideas, more specifically the cave story, so we could bring n discuss. Cause that was the subject of the class.

Surprisingly, the premise of the movie does not seem bad, n it's probably the red pill movement that ruined the experience, cause, as a classmate explained, is about a random guy who takes a red pill n discovers that the entire humanity is controlled by half a world of robots. Seems fun, I think I'm gon watch it if there is no gore or disturbin scenes. The whole problem started when my teacher touched on the red pill movement, omg...

Long, long story short, my teacher jus repackaged a whole lot of conservative bullshit that is shoved down our throats 24/7 since we were born until the school coordinator entered the classroom to talk to our teacher about somethin until she got angry at another student for askin her to go away, because it got her offended (lookin at this last part now, this is funny as shit, cause bro was tryin his best to be military style polite, as we study on a civic military school, n she still scolded the shit outta him, lmfao).

But somethin that caught me at the immediate time, but doesn't surprise me, now that I think about it was that my entire class shared heteronormative bioessentialist ideals. Our teacher, sure, it's expected, he's a grown ass adult, but it was my classmates that got to me.

I am 17 years old. Most of us are about to turn 18 n that's our last year of school. All of us were around 12/13 durin the pandemic, so I'm pretty sure many of us got to see the end or the leftovers of the “Quebrando Tabu” era. (For context, it was a left wing movement that was overall mainstream anti racism, iceberg tip lgbt rights activism n liberal feminism.) Since it was a very superficial left movement, I wouldn' expect radical leftists, anarchists or communists to come out of it, but the bare minimum I expected was for the girls at my class to not be indignated when men didn' perform traditional masculinity.

Bruh, they got angry over boys knowin names of hairstyles n complementin them on it, or knowin about makeup more than them. Like girl, if you're so insecure about a guy knowin make up more than you, go search more about make up, dammit!

Y'all, my eyes got wide when I heard people mentionin the fuckin bible to justify that the red pill movement was somewhat right, because “all relationships have a more masculine protective force n a more carin feminine force”. Totally not hetero-amatonormative discourse that reinforces gender roles on everybody, guys, I am definitely not scared. /sarcasm

An' it gets worse, cause then my teacher said: “even in homosexual relationships we observe this”. He said that even is relationship between two women, there was someone who did the role of The Man™ in the relationship. A thing that lesbians had been tryin to debunk. For. Years. N another fuck head commented on butches to support that. If that wasn' the most butchphobic thing I've ever heard, idk what it is.

An' I'm honestly not proud of myself for not standin up against it. As I said before, I am a coward n ion know how to stand up for myself or my ideals, n I'm jealous of those who know how to do so, kapakapakapa.

But moral of the story, the matrix has an interestin plot of the surface, we have never got over conservatism, no matter how much queers are visible right now, I need to do better, n people are disturbingly easy to think that they're goin against a system by spreadin logic of the fuckin system, jus because minorities are visible. The end.

Hey i don't think you should blame yourself for not standing up :( It's scary to share more leftist opinions, especially if you live in a more right-wing/conservative area. So you did nothing wrong, and I think you're already brave by sitting through that.

Also I'm going to have to agree with you on gen z being more conservative than we think :[ I live in a really left and progressive area, but I still hear kids yelling the r word and making homophobic/racist jokes. It's also really common to get weird looks whenever you talk about an opinion you have that's more liberal.

[ckret2]

ok this is maybe kinda dumb. but what if we read aku coming from a chaos entity and becoming a tyrannical dictator as similar to a response to overly laid back parenting to the point where it's just straight up neglect. like someone so desperate to avoid becoming their parents they go in the total opposite direction. not as in that's literally what's happening and more it's comparable/some kind of equivalent.

very funny concept.

Chaos blob: *gets a bit of itself cut off that becomes a person without the blob ever finding out about it*

Aku: "I'm going to be different from my stupid deadbeat dad who was never there for me."

Aku: *drips a bit of himself into a cup that gets drunk and becomes seven people without Aku ever find out about it*

Aku: "... What have I become..."

okay joking aside,

Aside from goofy shitposts, I personally don't headcanon Aku as a different person from the chaos entity—rather that the chaos entity was never a person at all and Aku vaguely semi-remembers it as "the thing I was before I was born." BUT, all the same, you COULD still build up a headcanon that Aku ended up a control freak as a reaction to the experiences as a chaos entity (whether you choose to frame that as "Aku chose to be different from his parent" or as "Aku himself had that experience and now wants the opposite").

Maybe the experience of being hunted by the gods makes him scared of the thought of wandering around space and he wants to surround himself with a fortress and an army and an entire empire as a defense mechanism.

Maybe being a floating chaos blob is characterized by being consumed by everlasting insatiable need to devour all of existence and when the blob achieved personhood Aku subconsciously went "well wandering aimlessly swallowing stars didn't satisfy my hunger so maybe it's time to systematically seize ownership of Everything and see if that finally satisfies me."

Or, heck, maybe he does define himself as Something Different from the chaos blob, something split off and new, and he feels driven to assert his Difference and Newness by being the exact opposite of what the blob was.

[chasedeys]

......do you have any thoughts about omega ja'marr in an a/b/o setting 🧍‍♂️🏃‍♂️

your hand in marriage. right now. idc idccccc how do you want to do this. /jk hehe i do love and appreciate you though!!! so beware this goes on and on and also has koc/jj in the end because now that screams traditional alpha/omega couple

a/b/o joemarr 😔 are you really truly down bad for a ship if you aren't thinking violently persistent thoughts of them in an a/b/o au.

i am Horrendously down bad so. i fuck so heavily with alpha/alpha joemarr because hello.....alpha pairings.......god...........'battling for control' bullshit except no they actually give it so willingly.............

BUT OMEGA JA'MARRRRRRR that's literally my shit 😭😭🫶🫶🫶🫶 literally everything about him is my shit i fear. call that Obsessive.

him being not of the standard beauty looks wise or traditional omega wise because!! he's brash, he talks his shit, he works his shit, he's big and strong, he chooses his tattoos big and bold, he laughs too loud and unapologetically, he makes crude jokes, he punches alphas in the dick, he flirts with all omegas and betas and steers clear from alphas, okay well no he does flirt with alphas but only to leave them high and dry because he finds it funny (and inside hes terrified and uncertain of being with any kind of alpha) and then just laughs over it bc he's untouchable they can't bring him down at all because he's the exact opposite of traditional subservient omegas he Can and Will kick your ass if you try anything messy with him.

but he also likes the idea of being that kind of omega!! not completely bc if anyone tries to take his rights away or order him around just because they're of a 'higher hierarchy' than him he'll kill them the fuck but!! he loves nesting! loves cooking! completely and utterly shit at it at first but he obsessively pursued it bc someone put it in his head that all good omegas know how to cook and he thinks its crock shit now but back then he stuck with it because he's suchhhh a romantic at heart. he loves the idea of providing and caring a home and nest for anyone he cares for and KIDS ugh we all know how much he loves kids. joe looks at him playing with a kid and his brain melts out of his ears fearfully getting into a knothead headspace he has to reel it back in heavily.

(also something abt me even if i KNOW this person Cannot Cook For Shit in some universe i will make them A Good Cook. it doesn’t even have to be because of plot or anything literally no correlation whatsoever but i'd love to drop in a ‘ja’marr hisses at him to take his spoon away from his cooking pot of gumbo what is he an animal’ or a ‘joe pokes at his side so he’d scoot away, pouring the pancake batter in then smearing the laddle on a distracted ja'marr's hand and laughing when ja’marr yells at him’ or whatever. like i answered a bit here!! learning how to cook together so they wouldn't die of scurvy ❤️ i know they can hire private chefs damn it but who the fuck cares think of the Domesticity)

but back to the omega ja'marr he isnt always like this!! before he grew into the steel spined take-no-shit omega he is now he was a whole lot more shyer and idk uncertain during college!! sure he'd still brawl and flirt his way through etc etc but when people try to deck him down a notch because of his omega status he'd still freeze up at first! it takes time especially in this shit show of a testosterone high alpha centered sport for him to steel his spine to downright indestructible.

totally sleeps around with omegas and betas, tells alphas to fuck off liberally he’s not getting a pregnancy scare (mpreg is such a hilariously fun concept to me i completely blank out on any technical aspect of it. literally the what the hell sure lady meme.) when he’s this close to achieving his nfl dreams and fuck off okay he loves kids he knows everyone knows this but fuck offfff he hems and haws to think of anyone who would he would actually stand and also treat him right for him to want a kid with them (fuck the image of joe in his head offffff).

joemarr, specifically alpha!joe/omega!ja'marr

from college!! where they're still trying to settle into their roles the way they're comfortable with and fighting stereotypes and class expectations!! and also the year where they're all starting to be unapologetically slutty!! and joe being their star qb high alpha or some shit and ja'mar being the new freshie to sopho omega wr

ja'marr chock full of insecurities and hang ups over not being the 'ideal omega' even when he's projecting and shouting clearly that he doesn't give a shit about being the perfect traditional omega in the first place but!! doesn't joe deserve that? joe is such a good alpha that he thought was only possible in fantasy books and movies he watches obsessively when he was a kid (still do but whatever) and getting kind of blinded by this image of joe that he himself built up when joe's anything but perfect ->

he’s awkward, zero smoothness at flirting when he really cares for it, 'flirts' by staring intensely edward-cullen-esque but without the excuse of trying to read your thoughts (well no he’s trying to reach into ja’marrs head and pick him apart to get to know him better in a ‘date me’ aspect instead of just asking like a normal person but anyway), he likes spongebob and has nerdy ass interests that amuses and endears himself to ja’marr to no end, he can be pissy and foul mouthed and sure he can be such a gentleman but he’s also completely down and dirty matches all the alpha crude humor that ja’marr himself delights on, that cocky alpha full-of-himself schtick that joe is absolutely not an exception to, etc etc so basically the thing isn’t that joe is the perfect alpha, he’s the perfect alpha for ja’marr. but ja’marr doesn’t see this at first! and he doesn’t see himself as anything of worth to joe other than a wide receiver and an epically close friend! can’t even begin to think of a future involving anything of requited love with him. all because of his own head.

but the thing is: closet romantic soft-hearted ja’marr growing up loving to watch disney (think lion king lol. 'can't you feel the love tonight' starts playing and he's gone.) and cute one dimensional hallmark alpha/omega movies where the alpha is of a certain sort. but like hell ja’marr can stand a perfect gentleman who treats him like a single minded worshipper, like he's made of glass to put on a pedestal displayed and never to be touched. he needs someone who matches him fire for fire, relentless and shamelessly ambitious, doesn't flinch away from his sharp angles or make him into something he's not, and not just disgustingly bland like those in hallmark movies bland you know?? which is one of the reasons why he’s so reluctant of being with an alpha!! he doesn’t want to be treated that way. no alpha would want someone who doesn’t want to be treated that way. so he backs off completely from alphas no matter the type and finds delight in betas and omegas who are like him! having fun!! breaking norms!!

but then he meets joe and gets to know him past his initial impression of the previous points and oh no holy shit oh noooo, he sees nothing of this alpha sort he's steered clear of in joe!! he's nothing like the basic romcoms on the perfect alphas he grew up loving and idealizing and then growing to feel revolted of!! and that just fucks him up even more because damn. there’s no way that alpha is for him.

and then there's joe who looks like the perfect alpha and tries his absolute best to be the perfect gentleman except he's also such a jock and a frat boy extraordinaire, mixing in his intense chip-on-his-shoulder redshirt qb with a whole new team, his intense focus on winning a cup and proving himself, and also. absolute distraction in the form of one omega wide receiver who's so fucking loud and distractingly pretty and keeps smiling at him like that and sorry okay for staring dead eyed at you you get freaked and defensive but come. on. really? like he's struggling here and he's not saying its ja'marr's fault he's literally just breathing but fuck does joe really not come across as anyone he'd consider as someone to spend the rest of his life with?? as a partner. as a bonded pair.

joe, who doesn’t give a shit what his partner's designation is, he knows what he likes he knows what he wants but right now he’s just trying to focus on this sport he's given his all in. sure he's all down for any love coming his way he's not really planning on actively searching for it but. well. and wow okay he’s all for that ofc but he didn’t think that it would come in the form of his newest teammate who’s kind of fucked up over the whole alpha thing huh okay.

'he knows what he likes what he wants' and ja'marr? ticks every fucking box. -> he sees ja'marr being so free with who he is (later learning the hidden bits! the insecurities! the vulnerable parts ja'marr finally unclenches to let him see and joe's just on his knees for him at that point no way or want to turn back), unapologetically fiery and unbending, but also so so sweet. who enthusiastically busses the cheeks of all the little siblings who hang around the training field. who’s picky with his affections on certain things but completely incapable of not fretting over anyone with a hurt knee or shoulder or skinned elbows. who once yelled at him from across the field to quit throwing it so short the fuck is wrong with him use your fucking biceps right before running leaping laughing to him yelling good shit jay-beeeee the next minute after he catches an absolute beautiful deep ball and brings it home during a walkthrough of a new scheme. literally smitten is what I'm saying.

and on the other side ja'marr is all acting haughty and bristly at joe over his own insecurities 😔 absolutely unknowing how taken joe is with him in spite of all his own hang ups over not being 'an accommodating omega' while somewhat emotionally stunted joe of the 'incapable of showing his true feelings so he's just staring' variety struggles to court him through his own hang ups of not being a good enough alpha over ja'marr's loud exclamations of 'never fucking an alpha' and the looming and inescapable Insane Ambition and self-given sword of damocles over his head of playing perfectly and winning a natty (the ambition which ja'marr matched beat for beat btw. and that's just soooo sooo compelling to joe it kills him and fires him up inside when he sees ja'marr's eyes get as piercing as his when he runs routes and slams away dbs).

basically BOTH dumbly thinking the other is unattainable because of their own issues and they won't fucking TALK about it ugh.

also: the idea of going through their heats/ruts with the other no strings attached (but also not no strings attached bc they really do want to be attached in literally every way possible so the thought of them offering it in a casual 'just scratching an itch' thing would possibly end their life as they know it) is always in their minds but they've never once brought this up with the other because for the ACTUAL important real life shit they've never been good at communicating with each other like at all. why take the risk. why try to break their own hearts even worse than they already are doing.

BUT they're soooooo close to the point of having each other's ruts/heats on each of their calendar 🤗 casually mentioning ‘fuck my pelvis is killing me.’ ‘its the 24th isn’t it? your heats near. i got a heating pack in my locker. wait it's charged just let me grab it for you.’ and ‘im taking the week off.’ ‘oh your rut right? ready holed up good?’ ‘yeah just by myself again.’

like there’s services for heat/rut partners right. that they've recommended to each other 😭 and while it helped with the physical and animalistic levels of their heats/ruts it doesn’t completely help at all and makes it worse when it's all over. it feels wrong because the alpha/omega part of their brain knows exactly what it wants but their dumbassery is stopping them from claiming what’s theirs or some shit idk.

lending each other their used jerseys/undershirts/tees to help through the other's ruts/heats for comfort 😀 a concerning collection of it in their homes and given back with literally no mention of it because they’re STUPID okay they’re stupid men with stupid hang ups pulling themselves back from being with each other.

ALSO OKAY SO one of my favoriteeeee things about omegaverse is the scentssssssss ARGHHH love that shit to death. i have no idea what type of cologne they wear can't think of making anything up rn :(( i think ja'marr said his favorite scent was mahogany no?? non traditional omega scent etc etc. just thinking of ja’marr learning film study with joe from their little ipad and tucking closer together to see the little people in the screen better only to be hit with each other’s scent and unconsciously breathing in deep before freezing bc wait no is that weird except nobody notices the other doing the same thing bc they’re stupid.

feel free to decide how they get together lmao probably on accident tbh

i wanted to add a bit of omegas!bayou trio :)

right. so. imagine omega!bayou trio breaking records left and right (and also breaking HEARTS left and right) where people have been absolutely belittling them bc of their omega status and that burns them except they're so fucking GOOD so they spit right back at all these entitled pricks calling them all kinds of stupid shit.

joeeee beautiful perfect princess joe with the snaggletooth and chubby cheeks who's slowly building into his joe ice persona and bulldozing through with his cocky exterior! people think he's the perfect southern belle of an omega until clips of his qb training comes out and they reel back because he's literally throwing down with the o-line d-line guys, all his shit talk, all his stomping around, all his scrambling forcefully through defenses, etc etc (lsu purposefully releasing this to get the pushier traditional 'fans' to back the fuck up from him).

justin and ja'marr peacocking to the cameras (shamelessly when theyre together, but weirdly shy as hell when theyre alone. people eat this shit uppppp). (more on this below)

the rest of the oline and roster being overly protective of their trio of star omegas (not to say that there arent omegas in the o or d line!! oh my god imagineeeeee my brains melting BUT like. hierarchically. those three the big dogs. if i were more knowledgeable of the rest of their roster like terrace or clyde or pq or delpit i would totally add shit but :( idk them :(()

if it were alpha!joe with omegas!jjmarr!!!

everyone and their thrice removed foreign cousins burning in jealousy over any part of the trio 😭

how dare these two omegas bag THE hottest cfb quarterback alpha currently. what the fuck is this perfect fucker of an alpha who's all look at me i have luscious flowing hair and gorgeous blue eyes and perfect winning record and insane football iq doing with not just one but TWO gorgeous talented omegas?? fuck right offfff

no they aren't together really BUT jjmarr laughingly jokingly playing into the images the media and public force upon them because they know joe and they trust him so this piece of casual close comfort between these three that people seethe over jealously is literally because joe has proven to them that he isn't like any other pea size dick brained alphas.

joe backing them up when these two are acting up (like a little wear whatever you want babe i can fight thing you know) and they let him 'fight for their virtue' or some shit bc they love him and literally him and a select few of their lsu teammates are the only ones who can even begin to act like 'traditional alpha protectors' for them because they know they aren't condescending about it!!

pretty perfect omega justin who knows when and what to say the perfect things, flirts outrageously with everyone but also ruthlessly tells pushy alphas to fuck off and then punches their throat when they get uppity. pretty unconventional omega ja’marr who flashes wide smiles with squinty brown eyes and people fall over themselves trying to make him laugh and then stumble back in fear when they get too overly familiar with him etc etc.

(and i know i said they aren’t actually together!! BUT IF THEY WERE GRAH jjmarr tag teaming joe 😔 putting him on his back and fucking him themselves and joe being completely pliant about it 😔😔😔 completely at their mercy on the sheets and happy about it 😔😔😔😔😔 a little insane power trip for ja’marr and jj)

a bit of koc/jj omegaverse too hehe bc how could i not - (tw - mentions of sa)

perfect omega jj whos downright fucking smitten with his alpha coach who's as touchy with him as he is with everyone else so he can't tell if koc actually likes likes him that way or if he's just. like that. justin as flirty as he is and all pretty eyes and pretty smiles and pretty laughs and absolutely blooming like a sunflower right to the direction of a can't-take-his-eyes-away koc.

one random new teammate acquired on waiver or whatever leering too heavily at justin during practice and maybe he's a cornerback literally plastering himself all over justin and grabbing at his ass during walkthroughs and justin just fucking slams his elbow back to his face and breaks his nose and cheekbones and koc is instantly there flinging them away from each other. the rest of the vikings converging over the guy while koc is on justin fretting hands all over him frantic alpha brain protective haze and when justin grabs his hands by the sides of his face staring wide eyed back, their eyes right on each others' the only thing calming both of them down. justin breathily says he's fine. koc then hauls himself back towards the guy and the rest of the players automatically part away for him and boom koc rips him apart and the only one who can calm him is justin ARHGHHHH i wanna write koc/jj so badly 😭😭

in the end justin's getting his elbow tended but he’s dead quiet thinking fuck fuck fuck that just happened and then focusing more on what koc did. he knows what that means. what koc reacting like that means. a teammate (jordan?? i have no idea what the vikings player’s roster and dynamics are like :() comes to sit by him when left to themselves by the medical team. says that that wasn't justin's fault at all obviously but it had to be said, what would happen to the guy (gone forever never to be seen again), that practice is being cut short but the rest of the guys won't leave until they see him physically all right so they're holed up in the locker rooms antsily waiting to see him, and that koc is on the other side of that door unable to leave but also unable to enter the room at all. and then silence. before a cautious ‘about koc’ and justin tells him to shut up he can’t do this he's shaking he can't do this.

struggling to keep their bond (not to be confused as Bond which would be. Scandalous.) exactly as it is but something calls them towards one another like crazyyyy

and there’s more that could be explored!! beta ja’marr with a chip on his shoulder and beta joe screaming fuck you to the rigid norm of alpha or omega quarterbacks (but i fear alpha/omega is sooo it for me so). tee whom i adore to death -> maybe non traditional alpha teeeeee argrhrghhh doting the ever living shit out of omega ja’marr and joe, or omega tee who literally has the entire locker room wrapped around his finger etc etc

[bluestarjay]

After being on Tumblr for I think nearly a year, and making a fuck ton of posts and gaining mild popularity on certain posts and gaining a whopping 21 followers, I've never made a Hinata Harem post. So yall are finally lucky enough to hear my takes on it ❤️❤️❤️

So first of all, I kinda love the hinata harem thing bc it's actually so funny, but strangely, in a way, it's realistic. Not very well written most of the time, but realistic as a concept.

Bc like he gets along with basically the entire cast, and he sometimes compliments characters who are not used to being complimented, and that character may blush of embarrassment, and then the fandom takes that as shipping material, like with Goshihina. And it makes sense! Imagine you're rarely complimented, and you strive for validation from your peers, especially upperclassmen, and then suddenly, the cutest boy you've ever seen compliments you like you're the only person on the planet. And so then you purposely try as hard as you possibly can to make said boy continue to compliment you. Take this, then multiply it by 100, because I think that's how the harem trope, in Hinata's case, works.

This isn't meant to be in the way that he can be shipped with every single character because truly, he can't. Shipping Hinata with 3rd years, in a typical high school setting, is, at least imo (and not bc of the age gap itself), weird bc of the maturity difference. You shouldn't date a senior as a freshman bc you're on two separate maturity levels. And regarding all of the many 3rd years (tendou, daichi, suga, bokuto, etc), it's really the same exact thing just platonically. Bokuto is literally Hinata's older brother!! He adopted him as a student *and* sibling, bc he felt the same things everybody does, just in a *different* way.

The hinata harem, to me, is the display of hinata's character in reference to every other character, yk? To me, these select few people are actually in love with him, and these people have a "crush," which is more so a platonic feeling, and these people find a true, deep *friendship* with him, one that they've probably never experienced before, and therefore may look like a crush or love to an outside viewer. And, in these different relationships between hinata and other characters, they all love him. They all feel a loving connection with him, like how people would think in a harem, but it's not quite so because all of the people who love hinata love him in different ways.

Now, with how this harem is portrayed in fanfiction actually scares me bc half the people there are much older and mature than him (gen question why do ppl ship him with 3rd years /in high school/, like, I love Brazil Oihina sooooo much but hs Oihina is 😧😧😧) , and tbh it just gets out of control.

And alot of times I see Hinata reciprocate?? With multiple people?? Which is fine to an extent, imo like I love poly ships, I've seen a lot of really cute ones and some more interesting ones, and it's totally normal to have a crush on a few people at once but istg some people make him a goddamn player,,,

I recently read a harem-ish fic, which was much more similar to how I personally find it to be like, it was essentially people having a crush on hinata, or realizing it, and it was cute, but at the same time, Hinata asked one of them on a date, cuddled with like two other guys (which, normalize cuddling platonically but in the context of the fic it wasn't suuuuper platonic but wasn't suuuuuper romantic either iykwim), and the part of that that kinda icked me was just that he was getting on with so many people at once (the fic took place in the span of like a week, and there were like 5 people i think??). And a lot of other fics that are post time skip are just Hinata hooking up with the entire cast at some point???

Idk tbh but I do really like fics where everybody LOVES hinata, but only a few people are IN love with him. Just the balance of like ~5 people having a crush on him, half of the rest of them have adopted him in one way or another, and the other half have just found their new bff.

Btw I think that second to last paragraph is worded a bit poorly I just don't really know else to describe the fic so sorry if it offends anyone I'm free to edit it n if anyone wants more ship related stuff I got you (ALSO GIVE ME GOOD "HAREM" FIC RECS AS LONG AS THEYRE SFW AND COMPLETED!!) 💪💪💪

[smartspo]

As someone who's looking to pursue engineering, is there anything you would have told your younger self before applying for engineering?

Hi, thanks for the ask! I could go on the whole day about this. There are a lot of things I would say to my younger self, but I think one or two things are at the top of the list. First, I feel like you should always try to remember what you're there for, why you chose this path, because it does get tough. It's hard to romanticize the study when you are knee-deep into abstract derivations and concepts.

I feel like I lost myself a bit at the start due to that, and I let procrastination and self-doubt take control of my actions. In order to avoid it, find side projects you are passionate about, participate as much as you can in lectures, work sessions, etc. Ask questions, read into the material, don't be a passive student. Stay involved, disciplined, up to date. Not only this will help you have good results, but will help you keep motivated. Cramming sometimes is needed, but should be avoided. Furthermore, extracurricular projects will help you apply the concepts you are learning in class into something fun and tangible. It will help you remind yourself why you are there!

Finally, everyone there is doubting themselves. Trust me. A lot of - if not most - of engineering students suffer at some point from imposter syndrome. I was a bit victim of that at some point. I could pass my classes and understand the concepts, but I was always scared of not being able to properly apply them in a real-life situation, or a project. But trust me, you are not the only one. Trust your skills, don't feel ashamed to take a bit more time to understand certain things. There will be math and physics geniuses at your classes, but that's not a good representation of what most engineers are like. Most just rely on hard work and repetition to understand things, and that's totally fine.

Like I say, I could go on about this all day. So if you have any other specific questions, please let me know! I am happy to help. And good luck!

[itgomyway]

(you)r sp and you ♡

i have already made a post about how you should love yourself and your sp will love you almost as much (bc they actually are you!) but lets go into more detail

a lot of you guys, including me, wanted to get into a relationship. and with that, youve discovered the law of assumption. the basics start off with whatever you assume will be. but after months of arguing, harassment, and bullying on twitter, you’re probably confused and too scared to ask.

FUCK THAT. let me be the one to tell you that none of it matters. you very much can and WILL manifest your sp. others false opinions (false because theyre not real) mean nothing. this isnt a loass post though im talking about non dualism (which is not the same).

“but wait… i want my sp and non dualism isnt about getting so why would i-“ because your sp shouldnt be someone that brings you happiness. they should be someone who adds to your quality of life. why does that sound like loass vs non dualism? because it is.

people use the law of assumption to manifest desires for their physical world. theres nothing wrong with that! that is how i manifested my current relationship. however, when we speak about non dualism, it goes beyond trying to get anything. youre just being. and “getting” into a relationship can very much help or make your false sense of self feel better. you as consciousness know relationships themselves dont exist because it is you but your ego, the false sense of self doesnt know that. it wants to experience love as part of the human condition. but youre still not getting anything. lemme explain.

you were trying to “get” something that was never outside of you TO make you happy. that doesnt make sense when not only are they you, but they are apart of you. everything your awareness is on “reflects” how you feel about yourself because all there is is you.

lets go back to non dualism’s basics. everything is consciousness = you creation is brought on by your awareness = you. “but back when x happened-“ the past and the future do not exist. the only thing that exist is now. you cant “apply” this way of thinking to something that doesnt exist. that makes no sense. youre just going to confuse yourself. i am telling you RIGHT NOW the only truly real thing is YOU. that is all there is and will ever be. you can control your awareness through observations meaning youre in total control. read that again.

so when it comes to your sp, romantic or not, they are never not yours. they were never not you or not a part of you. every thought, feeling, affirmation, or word you wrote down, they have received. because its you. think about it. are you ever aware of anything youre unaware of? (no). because things only exist the moment youre aware of them!

and remember, if something can come to our awareness like a relationship and leave our awareness it is not real. but you, as consciousness are infinite and are always here and always consciousness. so you are real!

after discovering non dualism i have thought about the feelings my boyfriend has presented to me and how they currently match the feelings i have for myself. i have always loved myself and will always love myself. if i didnt, how could i expect my creation, which is a projection of my own self image, to have different feelings than me? your sp isnt a separate person. Your relationships will always show how you feel about yourself, romantic or platonic. they’re not real because they come and go through your awareness but your ego as the false self believes they are. and thats okay. thats its job. let it be and observe them as consciousness.

nothing can happen outside of your awareness because the moment you are aware/conscious of something, it exist instantly. so if your sp is treating you the way you dont want to be treated then reflect on your own feelings about yourself. this DOES NOT necessarily mean work on your self concept. ask yourself if “you” think youre worthy of what it is your ego desires. a lot of my blockage came from that. i had to fall in love with myself so my ego could comprehend how i could be loved. because its still me.

lets talk about “free will”.

“free will” doesn’t exist. lemme tell you why. the idea of free will is a person outside of you having a say in their own life. the basic principle of non dualism means theres only one being, consciousness (you). so tell me how can “another person” “outside” of you have a say in their “own lives” when none of that exist in the first place?

your sp having or not having free will shouldn’t effect how you feel about them unless you see them as a separate entity outside of you. they’re not an “object” you control theyre your creation and another form of consciousness so of course you have control over your creations you have control over EVERYTHING.

your sp feels the same way you feel about yourself. always. if you dont feel good about yourself then i do suggest working on your self concept. not to “get” anything but for YOURSELF! why not love yourself? why cart that responsibility off to your creation?

at the end of the day, itll just be you surrounded by your creations. you can pick and choose what they are specifically BUT THE ONLY REAL THING IS YOU

© itgomyway

[rafessecret]

PLS MAKE THE SHERRIF RAFE ONE PLSSSS

stop I wanna but idk if its a good idea

. . . so its basically

She’s always doing the most glitter on her chest, heels too high for the gravel roads, showing up to the station like it’s a runway. calls him sheriff all slow and teasing, leans on his desk just to make him look. steals his damn hat, puts it on with that smug little smile, and says it suits her better. And it does, somehow. She touches the rookies’ arms when she laughs, plays dumb so they’ll help her fill out forms, and giggles when Rafe’s jaw tightens. She lives to piss him off, and god, he lets her.

says he’s going to write her up for wasting department time, but she knows he won’t. He never does. He lectures her like he’s mad, like he’s in control, but his hands shake when she leans in close. She’s chaos wrapped in lip gloss and low-rise jeans, and he’s supposed to be the one keeping order, but she walks into his office, and suddenly he’s not a sheriff he’s just a man trying really hard not to fall apart in front of her.

But then there are nights where she doesn’t say much. sits quietly, eyes on the floor. sleeves too long. voice soft. and that? That scares him more than the wild stuff ever did. She doesn’t want to go home, and he doesn’t ask why. just lets her sleep at his place. pretends it’s no big deal. sleeps on the couch, doesn’t sleep at all. hears her crying in the next room and just… breaks.

The next day, he pulls her address. starts checking the reports. Something’s not right. never was. And now he can’t stop thinking about it — who’s hurting her? what she’s hiding. tells himself he’s just doing his job.

But he’s not. He’s watching. waiting. ready.

Because if someone’s touching her like that?

They’re not walking away from it.

idk. I don’t really have the details figured out yet, fr, except for, like, the last part where it gets all vulnerable or whatever. Somehow that part’s easier for me?? Probably because I'm literally delirious right now, angels, and I'm reading loads tonight. Anyway, I tried to scribble some of it down.

I want it to be some smut, but it’s not really giving that atm?? Like maybe I could make it smut while they’re still teasing each other and she’s just driving him actually insane, but also idk. it’s not clicking. I don’t even think this is a good concept, tbh lol.

alsooo gonna do an officer¡rafe au too but that one’s totally diff like it’s just straight up officer smut no real plot or anything, just uniforms n nasty vibes lmao not like this one that’s got all the emotions n whatever

let me know what you think <3

[lionqueenie2-blog]

Hazbin Hotel Fans will Hate Season 2, and it's because of headcannons

Right so, I watched Hazbin Hotel for the first time in January and, well, I've noticed a little bit of a thing about Alastor. So, a lot of fans keep adding all these little headcanons, which is fine, but, they keep acting like it's canon to the point of criticizing (or straight up dumbing on) Viv for "changing" Alastor from pilot, when he had a total of five minutes of screentime? Guys? Huh? I mean, I get it, no content for years, five minutes to work with, lots of fake stuff is bound to be headcanoned but, you know it's not canon, right?

Like, they're saying they made Alastor edgier. ??? He's always been edgy? You know he was manipulating Charlie the entire time so that's not even an accurate version of his personality?

I predict fans will hate season 2, because of their headcanons.

Guys. We need to face the music, Fanon Alastor and Canon Alastor are not the same.

Fanon facts:

Alastor is a mommy's boy

Alastor enjoys only black coffee and jumbulaya

Alastor is an insomniac

Alastor cares about the Hotel

Alastor is.... less powerful because of a deal he made with Charlie's mom?

Alastor is being forced to protect Charlie

Alastor is super mysterious and powerful who topples any foes.

Alastor cares about Husk/Nifty

Alastor hates being touched.

Alastor is scared of sex

Alastor gets awkward if sex is brought up.

He's besties with Rosie

I could go on, but I won't. None of these things are proven by the show. Or in the show. At all.. they are just assumptions or completely made up by the fandom. Which is fine, but, let's not pretend Viv wrote him that way on the actual show.

Here are some things that ACTUALLY are things about Alastor, with the facts presented on the show:

Alastor enjoys eating raw deer (Seen in show)

Alastor hates when people are stronger than him (Lucifer)

Alastor has a fragile ego and will flip out or get pissy/irritated whenever anyone challenges him. (He butts into songs, got mad when Lucifer existed, got mad when Carmilla didn't care why he was gone, got very upset when Husk implied he was under someone else's control, had the delusional gull to fight an actual archangel, and not take that guy seriously during said fight while not even bothering to use angelic weapons he was so cocky, acted surprised when he almost died, also freaked out about his ass being kicked)

He is using Charlie to get power. We see him trying to get a deal with her in pilot, and then finally he strikes when she is vulnerable like he has no doubt been waiting for months. He's probably gotten a lot of souls that way.

Rosie is implied to be an ally, that does not mean bestie. I was suspicious of their relationship based on the way she just handles him and then the face she makes when she says "never done me wrong before" like somebody who is in control. They could literally just be lunch buddies for all we know.

I don't know where people get the Lilith thing from. It's reaching for me, and would kinda suck actually, demonizing Lilith is a bit of an overused concept in media. Alastor does not have a deal with Lilith that we know.

Asexual does not mean scared of sex. Stop stereotyping.

He is an absolute bastard who enjoys people's suffering greatly. All evidence suggests this.

Conclusion: Stop making Alastor Harley Quinn.

[classyruinsbarbarian]

Hiiii

If your still doing headcanons, what headcanons do you have for The Coach and/or Leslie?

I had no ideas for this until I had the biggest boost of energy at 11:30 pm why. (also the headcanons are always open and if you want to ask even for a background character like Exposition Guy go right ahead!)

Leslie

She knows quadrobics as in ‘Truth, Revision, and the Lexicon Way’ before she starts fighting Huggy she was on all fours.

Trans woman, pronouns are she/her. (If you are wondering why I didn’t do this with other characters it’s because I forgot)

I saw a headcanon that Leslie never actually wanted to be a villain which I want to expand on: it’s just she was forced to go to the biggest company by her family and because she thought that Mr Big Industries was not as evil as she once thought it was.

Also she cannot properly leave as she really doesn’t want to go through the hell that is getting people to not be scared of you and not treating like shit because of being a villain, former or not.

Also she does enjoy villainy; it's just how she was exposed to it/got into it really wasn’t the best.

She did built an immunity to Mr Big’s mind control even without the bunny pin (Mr Big, Leslie, and any other employee have a pin that looks like a squishy bunny that blocks mind control)

Popular headcanon but she and Claire are friends.

They often chat about things they are interested in (For Claire it’s photography and Leslie it’s drawing and PPATMPPH)

When Leslie was younger she wasn’t liked because of her flat affect and for her like for kids shows (cough cough autism)

Her full name is Leslie Holly Best. (I searched up what IHB stands for and it apparently stands for several sports terms, a bicep muscle, and long haired butch)

Leslie used to be furry (totally not projecting /lying)

The Coach

Trans man, he/him

achillean (The reason I didn’t put one for Leslie is because I have no clue what to hc for her) (edit: changed headcanons)

Polyamous

He has Acromesomelic Dysplasia (note: more research needed, this headcanon may be subject to change)

He has two kids because Crazy wolf’s headcanons have taken over my brain

He was friends with Miss Power before the whole RoMP (once again something I nabbed from Wolf, but also because it’s an interesting concept)

The Coach had to rotate between some other villains houses after the events of The Robot Problem before the apartment was rebuilt (The Robot Problem - A Questionable Pair)

The Coach is surprisingly good at apologizing (I want to do an arc where he regains the trust of Ms Question and some of the other villains because of him and Ms Question talking to each other in the background of The Power of Whamship, but I am not good with character’s arcs which involve a proper apology and such)

If yall have tips please give it to me

He was an actual life coach with a degree in financing, but he had his degree revoked for manipulation of his students (The Whammer) and being the mastermind behind a massive crime spree.

He spiraled pretty bad because of this and was the one of the reasons he opened The Coach’s Villain School. It was also a big reason why he revoked Ms Question’s graduation certificate, he was lashing out from his own degree being taken away.

He doesn’t lash out towards the kids, but he needed someone to look after them during this time so the Botsfords (Mostly just Bampy), Exposition Guy, and Uncle Larry helped out look for them while Coach took a break.

The Coach is aware that Learnerer is interested in his villain school, but can tell from how he looks at him that he heard what the other villain schoolers said about him (I am adding Learnerer to villain school after the series finale not after the apology arc because Learnerer knows that Coach needs a break right now)

[crowlore]

personal thoughts idk you may not want this insight on me but writing it down helps knock the cobwebs out

reflecting on life in general and thinking how odd it is that in about a year i’ll have lived as long after that assault as i had before it. doesn’t feel like it’s been that long but also feels like it’s been far longer. idk. i like to think there’s more days that i don’t think about it than i do. but honestly it probably creeps up on me any time someone touches me or even stands too close. it’s why people have told me about the paranoid breakdowns i’ve had while drunk or hell even that uber driver that was scared to drive off before seeing me get inside my house. i dont like to think of myself as someone who has obviously gone through what happened to me but part of me knows people can see it in everyday conversation. it’s part of why im such a control freak about people touching my stuff and why i bring my own water everywhere and never do anything more than alcohol outside my home and even then i don’t drink outside my inner circle.

it sucks bc i like sex a lot and it’s fun when i can stay out of my head about it but there’s a lot of stuff i just can’t do bc i get too in my head and i wind up places im not..some of the most embarrassing moments of my life are from dissociating during sex and totally ruining the mood bc i freak the fuck out and either shut down completely or start attacking people. and i hate having to set these boundaries and hard no’s on things that aren’t being ruled out for reasons i can control about myself. i know when i think “i’m too old for this” im giving myself too hard a time and that it’s unfair to myself and i would never think that way about someone else in my position. i know i’ve made really good progress ever since i started working through what i’d repressed. i know im in a much better place at going on 27 than i was at 19, 17, 13.. it’s easier to feel clean now than it used to be. still difficult yeah but i’m not leaving the shower scrubbed bloody anymore.

i do still mourn the concept of the person i could have been today if things had gone differently but i like to think ive come to accept and enjoy who i am now to a degree i never would have thought possible a decade ago. i try not to linger too much on the unknown and what ifs and i attempt to define myself outside of things that were done to me and instead focus on what has been in my control to define about myself. the fact that i was even able to remember and come to terms with what happened in the first place still impresses me. that ive been able to admit it to the people closest to me, or later mention it on a public platform where thousands of strangers follow me is kind of crazy. it’s a little self centered to think maybe doing that could help somebody else, but thinking that does make it easier to process in the open.

[zvtara-was-never-canon]

https://www.tumblr.com/im-a-hoping-beetch/730354203465285632

What do you think about it?

Again, I'll ignore the Korra bits because I don't remember much about how anyone in the Gaang other than Toph was written.

"Bloodbending is Katara's dark side" has always been a HUGE stretch. Even before Hama used it on her and her friends, even before she realized Hama had used it to torture people instead of jus tin self-defense, Katara was visibly uncomfortable with the very concept of, in her own words, reaching inside someone and controling them.

The very name of the episode shows us why Katara would NEVER seen bloodbending as empowering or in any way part of her identity - the PUPPET master.

Hama was someone Katara thought she could trust. A wise mentor, a friend, a kind old lady that just wanted to help her and her friends protect themselves.

And then she found out all that bonding, all those teachings, we a facade. It was the mask Hama wore to get close to her and ABUSE her. Because let's not kid ourselves, that's what that scene was about: an adult physically abusing three vulnerable children, and even forcing them to fight each other.

Even when she wasn't the one Hama was using her bloodbending on, Katara still felt terrified and POWERLESS. Because he friends were basically trapped in flesh prisons, unable to control their own actions. And Hama forced Katara to watch them nearly kill each other.

Then, finally, Katara uses bloodbending in a desperate attempt to save those she cares about. And Hama is HAPPY because she accomplished what she wanted: FORCING Katara to SUBMIT to her will.

And before anyone says "Oh but Hama wanted her to FIGHT! She wanted a student to pass on her legacy to! So it totally counts as it being a kind of dark power she wanted to pass onto Katara" let me remind you that, right before burning his son's face, Fire Lord Ozai said "Rise and fight!" and "You will learn respect and suffering will be your teacher."

An adult unleashing hell on a vulnerable child like that IS ABUSE, no matter their supposed "good" intention, and Katara using bloodbending on Hama is basically no different than if a panicked 13-year-old Zuko had blasted some fire at his father in a desperate attemtp to save himself.

Just because something looked cool it does NOT mean the character was empowered by it. The episode makes it very clear that the whole bloodbending thing made Katara feel scared, powerless, and TAKEN ADVANTAGE OF by an adult she thought would protect her!

It makes perfect sense that she was horrified at her own action in The Southern Raiders when she used bloodbending on someone but not at all the times she used regular waterbending to fight in self-defense is perfectly logical. It's just like Zuko using his firebending to fight, but NOT to disfigure people like his father did to him (see his Agni Kai with Zhao).

A character saying "I went through something horrible that I wouldn't wish on my worst enemy" is not them "denying their own dark side and agency", it's a sign that said character DOESN'T WANT TO USE THE DIRTY TACTICS OF THE VERY PEOPLE THAT TRAUMATIZED THEM!

[alexissara]

Fire Emblem Engage: One Year Later An Anniversary Of Mid

Fire Emblem Engage is now a year old and as a massive Fire Emblem fan I want to talk about it. Engage is a game I don't like and I am nothing if not a hater so I want to talk about it more about a year out since I think being a hater that goes beyond a boring critique of hair or anime bad is more valuable.

First let's talk about where I place it in the overall series.

I am going to dive into things in a lot of detail down below. Obviously everything is subjective, blah, blah, your reading my opinions, I don't really care about being "objective" so take what you want out of this. The TLDR though is that Engage is a game that fails in every single way, there is not one thing that it is particular amazing at but it is not the worst at any particular thing either. It's a text book mid game but in some ways I like it less then things I think are worse because the squandering of some decent concepts.

Designs

Mika is an extremally talented artist with a wonderful sense of design but even she questioned why they were hiring her to do a Fire Emblem game. While I like some of the designs of the characters as general characters designs but their almost all bad character designs for story telling, for explaining a deeper sense of character, for fitting into a war setting, for fitting a diverse range of ages or bodies, etc. I don't mind Alear's hair, I think red and blue hair makes sense, that's the enemy phase and ally phase colors, it's not terrible but the outfit is a bit too white. The designs in general are simply great designs for a silly little person but not great for the wider depth of characters not creating characters you could see doing a war. If the tone was different I could see these working but it need to lean far more into comedy or cheese then it does. I really don't have a lot to say here but it kinda just had to be the first thing to address. I like them more than the average person but I still don't love them. Like Etie is supposed to like be buff and stuff but she is a twig. Saphir is supposed to be pretty old but she looks fairly young. Mika's style simply doesn't blend well with Fire Emblem despite me loving Mika's work prior to this.

Story

This is the most often critiqued part of the Fire Emblem Engage experience that even people who love it typically concede and for good reason. The story of this game is a fairly simple and basic story structure. Hero awakes and must do their fate, mother dies, protag cries, they go on a journey to collect the plot items, they collect plot items but OH NO THE ENEMY HAS PUT A WRENCH IN IT! Then they build themselves back up, collect the items and murder the big bad. Along the way you get some angsty zombie stuff but it's cheap emotions, kids complicated relationships to their parents, a theme which you'd think maybe is one of the grander themes but really isn't touched on with Sombron and Alear/Vayel despite Sombron being the main baddy.

Alear has a minor story arc, Alear is scared but then Alear isn't scared only Alear basically always stepped up so the gameplay and the story don't intgrate well here, if Alear even had one map of running away when she shoulda fought and that is why they lost emblem rings or something it would have more solidly locked in "oh Alears character flaw is that she runs away but now she knows to stay and fight" or it could have been a contrast and been like "it's a good thing that Alear knows when to run" and separate Alear from other lords in the series.

The games plot is deeply uncurious aiming for the most simple solutions down to the point where Vayel doesn't have an evil second personality [which I mean is ableist but they still make you think that] it's actually mind control evil second personality. It turns out Vayle and Alear is just goddy good Fell Dragons and all the other ones were totally naturally evil and okay to kill I guess. Vayel could have had an edge to her, there could have been redemption for the "evil" part of Vayel that would be a far more complicated set of emotions and more interesting then no one needs to forgive her because actually every bad thing she did to everyone was evil mind control and every good thing is the real her.

Then there is the DLCs plot which almost makes Engages main plot look good taking you to an everyone is dead AU where everyone is fucked up cuz their zombies I guess or they just are like this in this world but also it only is interested in exploring the lords and the "good" versions of the bad quad with an addition of two new characters. Theirs an obvious twist villain but they try and just red herring you to think it's the girl twin instead of the boy twin who is more clearly evil by showing Nel do some things that seem evil out of context. It's fairly boring, it doesn't engage what it wants to hard enough, it presents it in some fucking awful map designs and it's place in the plot being able to show up before you met the vast majority of the characters actual selves means it's possible you come in with both an army that isn't fun to do the maps with and without a good set of emblem rings but you also have no idea why it should be shocking to see a character like this. It mostly makes me wish that they had instead of making this all DLC worked some of the complicated relationships between characters into the actual plot of the game and had some more fell dragons that were a bit more complicated but redeemable potential party members.

Thematically and politically I am at a loss at what it wants to say, it doesn't even seem to want to say like war is bad or something basic like that. The only recurring theme is like parent dies and that's sad and that is like true for most people and their parents but it's not a particularly well done version of that theme. It's not really about the bounds of friendship and love because like idk there is so few scenes where people overcome things with the power of friendship of love. Like there is some tension between evil coded country and the others but like those are resolved by the future queen having a divine dragon kink and will be good because she worships the good god.

Characters

Fire Emblems cast is kind of like the cast of a Disegea game, which I typically enjoy only not over the top enough nor in a game with a tone consistently silly enough to justify the wild over the top energy of the characters. Characters all have bits and this is true of many fire emblem games but it is more rare for basically every single character to have a bit that is pretty definitive to them rather than a character trait. They are designed and written like a vtuber in a lot of ways, their meant to be cute, for you to find your fav and for you to hyper focus on that one. Only unlike a Vtuber you can't hop on and invested dozens of hours a week watching Yunaka shout Zappy as she murders someone in a video game and banters with chat.

There is a layer of depth to the characters that explain why a character is like this TM but these things typically come at the end of an A rank support which leaves you to assume "This girl sure does talk a lot about tea" if your not rushing to A with someone or if you RNG into one where ya she's mostly just talking about Tea. Again there are characters that are like this in other Fire Emblem games but few characters get the cool join situations, the cool moments in the story to really make you invest that deeply into them since the game is really focused on these lords and doesn't have a lot of interesting recruiting given every character is a lord or a servant of a lord. Not to mention that depth is usually not that deep like it's more like finding a foot bath in what you found thought was just someone spilling water rather then going into a hot tub of complex lore, character drama, and passion.

I did enjoy the characters for my time with them like a light hearted kids animated show where I go "aww these guys are fun" but like one of those I don't really think about the characters after. I enjoy when I see art of Yuanaka or the Racket of Solm fan art, I go "Oh I like those girls, their neat" but I never feel like "OMG Yes, let's fucking go!!!!!" like I do for many other characters in many other pieces of art.

Then in terms of the villains Sombron is paper then with a random new motive at the very end that is utterly uninteresting. The four hounds are fun enough characters since their allowed to be a little complicated but their also as an enemy on a map over staying their welcome for the amount of times you put swords into their bodies lealthy. The four hounds then feel under cut by the "good" versions of them that exist in the DLC which are basically what if they were boring, they are the good versions. Evil Vayel as mentioned earlier is boring because she's just mind control evil and not a real person. There is very few enemy of the map type enemies to think about and the ones that do exist are paper thin, your not going to get a stand off with a commander that you feel complicated feels about having to kill here.

Then we got to get into the endings, the lack of paired supports give everyone a static boring ending unless Alear wanted to give them a special friendship bracelet which totally doesn't mean romance HAHAHA alear doesn't want to date children or married men HAHAHA pay no attention to the man behind the mirror. It strips agency from the player, the translation no romos several romances with Alear that should be totally fine anyway, their just extremely poor at creating a sense of what you did to the world after you saved it because the world was perfect basically except Sombron was a dick. The characters don't feel like they grew in their little ending bits for the most part it's kidna like they went on to do what you'd expct them to do.

Then there is the emblem rings which are given fairly shallow interactions that range to them being pretty out of character to them saying a one line joke to them saying "remember that thing from my game." The shallow level of interaction with the rings is really unfortunate but also fortunate because it meant they didn't write a ton of these characters. They still feel like they should have beena bigger deal and been a bit more involved in the plot as well as having some deeper relationships with characters.

Also you get two fucking dragons on your team both of whom can't turn into dragons, there are these hot older women who are capable in battle but can't get recruited for the cause because I guess their not young and fuckable, there is so little interest in the world of this game outside of lords and their servants [which is a flaw in a lot of modern FE], why the literal child soldiers like Anna, there is a lot of frustrating character choices that could have been done better.

Presentation

I think the graphics are good, I think they look pretty, I like bright colors in my eyeballs and it works for me. I think graphically it's a clear step up from houses, the places look very beautiful. They make a fairly uninspired choice of diving the game into 5 themed regions with a kinda similar design principle across the maps Flower, Mountainy, Evily snow, Sand, really evil. This does take away from a kinda unquie feeling to each place you go but they don't look bad.

Music wise, the opening theme is dumb, I like it but it's corny and clearly gonna be divisive but it suits the game that it is for. As music in the game goes though it's fine, it's a fine soundtrack of fine songs that are fine. Only a few songs are really bangers though and a lot of the music doesn't stand out to me a year later I can basically just think the opening theme and the engaging an emblem remix. I am actively trying to recall another song as I write this and I end up just getting the Three Houses Monastery music in my head instead.

The animations I will simply give full marks too, the animations after many years after the GBA finally don't look bad. Crits look cool, the engage attacks look cool, there is some coolness to be had there where the more real and grounded animations since Gamecube were never my favorite. Great job engage, I hope the series keeps it up.

Gameplay

People talk about Fire Emblem Engage's gameplay being the best in the series but it really isn't and it's not like stunning SRPG design in general. Perhaps if your looking for a challenge the maddening experience is some sort of revolution but the average player of any video game will be playing on the "normal" mode which is by default the intended mode. The game features mechanics that one might think is for grinding but utterly fail at that, the loading screens between managing things make the act of building characters tedious and annoying, the mini game gameplay that optimize maps is awful, the way you can spend resources for cosmetics that you can't use in battle is awful, the lack of little touches to the smithing system like being able to alter or name your weapons is bad. These are all gameplay, these aren't the maps but there part of playing the game and while you can in future runs maybe ignore most of these things you will likely experience some of these and some things were stream lined with patches but these patches will go away and eventually getting supports between characters will go back to being fairly annoying.

Then we can talk about the beloved maps and engaging. The gameplay using the skill system is utterly flawed with the SP being so poorly distributed makes building characters utterly prone to accidently wasting SP and not being able to get a build on that character that will feel good for the rest of the run. This effects gameplay in maps as does the fact you only have two slots for said skills making for fairly small amounts of build possibilities for the wide swath of options you get especially if you get the DLC. The map design doesn't present the fun diverse set of objectives an SRPG is capable of with most maps being kill the boss or kill all the things. They do present different little map gimmicks and they do make some of the maps good but the maps fail in the biggest way that a map can in an SRPG which is to be narratively uninteresting.

I could make a whole article about the sin to the world that is Xenologue 5 which is a top contender for worst map in all of Fire Emblem. In general the Xenolouge maps really are a perfect exercise and exposing the magic of the pretty lights of Engage and going "Oh this game is awful".

It's boring to fight the same 4 dudes. Your so rarely put up against someone new and neat and the characters you are fighting don't grow much until their about to actually die. The repeating four hounds fights creates a dissonance where your people permanently die if they lose in battle but you can't get the kill on these people your doing 1000 flashy attacks on. If you can enjoy a map in isolation perhaps these maps are good, great even but it doesn't fix the issues.

The Bonus Content TM

I talked about the stuff in gameplay but I want to reiterate that the bonus parts of the game are in fact a part of the gameplay.

First off we got costumes which are utterly frustrating even outside of being locked to the hub world. The clothes are gender locked where boys where boy clothes and girls where girl clothes expect Rosado who is a special femboy and in no way a dirty tranny we make fem boys not dirty transgenders in Fire Emblem [this is sarcasm, I am trans] who gets to wear girl clothes. Never mind Jade wearing more masculine clothes in her casual outfits if she had to chose between a butler or a maid outfit clearly she'd pick to be a kawaii maid. The only kind of gender deviation being allowed in the random costumes even for Alear being the femboy fetishist at IS's pet project is pretty pathetic. Also pathetic is the gender lock applying to the amiibo lord costumes which in addition are also even more limited only being wearable by lord characters and only lords of the right gender even if Lucina clothes are mens wear their only for women and very special bloodline women. Then all of this taking resources simply damages the game further.

The mini games include a Rhythm game with no Rhythm as if Fire Emblem has no amazing songs to be playing a work out mini game to. We have a flight sim on rails shooter thing but no enemies or added depth. A fishing game that is a fishing mini game. These are boring to passable but they all give you benefits from doing them so if you wanted to truly optimize you'd need to do them between every map.

Then there is the "interactive" bonus elements talking to people at Somnel and post map, inviting people to dinner, sending people to do an activity together. I've avoided comparing this game to Three Houses until this point but I have to here, Three Houses and Engage started development at roughly the same time so Engage had many more years in development but each and every one of these things are far less in depth then in Houses. There is no voice acting for these sections, unlike houses where every map you have new voiced interactions with every character some of which are dynamically tied to choices you made you get mostly rotating lines with a few people interjecting a text box of almost nothing of value. There is no special bonus conversations for sending people to work together who might have something to say to each other. The meals and creepy bed time interactions are voiced but the interaction between characters is very limited and the lines are pretty repetitive only working with an RNG system of if the food is shit or not which is only annoying. The bedtime interactions of someone waking you up are totally RNG based meaning a character you hate might come wake you up and you have to here about the Alpaca hero and they change when you raise up supports with them meaning each special voiced interaction with sleeping requires you to go out of your way to do something of no value to hope you RNG into the character you like saying a few words less you accidently support them and miss a piece of dialogue. It feels cheap, it feels bargain basement, it feels undercooked.

The grinding here kinda feels like it wishes it was Scared Stones but the pay off for climbing the grind in this game isn't exclusive post game characters, exciting special weapons but some orbs for an optional upgrade system randomly given to you so maybe you can upgrade the weapon you want but maybe not. The bound rings gacha is not an indepth system that is fun to play with. It's just another place where things feel super under cooked despite the long development cycle on this game.

Final Thoughts

Talking about the game I actually feel a lot more negative on it then when I put together the little list at the top or when I wrote an Anniversary of mid, I kinda just feel like actually it's just bad but like it's probably mid and not bad and I am just impassioned writing all my complaints. This is a game that had a ton of potential but I feel squandered it at every opportunity.

I wish I liked Engage, I Wish I liked Fates, but if this is the direction that IS is taking their games when their the primary devs of Fire Emblem I am just not gonna buy IS developed Fire Emblem games because ultimately I got way more physic damage playing these games then I got joy. Fire Emblem is my favorite game series, the one I would say I am actually part of the fandom of and I want to love every new entry, to be hype, to fall in love, to gamble on my phone for little jpegs but I'm just not here with this.

I think Engage presented cool new ideas like the Break System which I think is great and should return but in general I fear this direction. I'd love to see something akin to Engage skills with some flashy over powered stuff. I like how these these interact with the core mechanics and I think their fun additions to the formula.

I just hope this one year anniversary set of thoughts is enough to free me of my Engage demons and I can just never think about it again and go onto playing fan games, rom hacks and replaying older games I enjoy along with new Indie SRPGs leaving this behind to simply exist for the people who love it.

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i'm well aware this is divorced from the original purpose of zombies but as they exist in modern pop culture and general knowledge i'd like to talk about my personal, emotional experience with them. the idea that is. never met a zombie in real life that i know of

okay so i do not like the walking dead, zombieland, apocalyptic horror (just taste based, not my thing, more anxiety/despair inducing than scary) but flicks like night of the living dead, RETURN OF THE LIVING DEAD (!!), general concepts of zombies always terrify and enthrall me. the things that have always terrified me abt zombies have been

the degredation of your own humanity and loss of control over ur body and

the kind of suffocating inevitability of the real monster being the virus, because you can kill a zombie but you cant really kill a virus.

this of course has been obviously effected by the current pandemic, which has shown me how inescapable the need for human spaces and contact is, and how many people can be capable of infecting you at once. like just hordes of other human beings. werewolves are wolves and vampires are vampires but zombies are (often) dead people without the capacity for reason. just the loss of yourself not thru death but thru zombification and the lack of humanity in the enemy. there is only so much you can do to keep from being sick, and i fear and dread societal collapse in media, i hate loss i hate it when people don't have their things and i hate when they can't be with each other. as a child i developed a mild agoraphobia until i reasoned that zombies can't climb stairs so any elevated location is safe because people are all over this planet. theyre everywhere! zoo wee mama!

when i say scared i mean my kind of primal childhood fear reactions, because i had a really very bad fear of zombies when i was a smalltime. in terms of now, my conscious view of them, yall know i love izombie and i love in the flesh too, when it comes to classic monsters i pick zombies over vampires and werewolves. this is because i

always feel the need to pay attention to whatever or whoever is getting the least attention. it makes me sad that nobody wants to be a zombie because what if zombies saw that wouldnt they be sad. they dont have any powers they're the underdog here and that's my archetype

generally develop fixations on or fetishes for the things that scare me the most. i feel like me and zombies have been through a lot, they're the monster i grew up thinking about because i was scared of them, and there's this belief i have that monsters won't hurt you if you're kind to them instead of afraid, so it's sort of a coping thing i suppose

i think decay rot and disease and grossness and corruption of the flesh and dead bodies are sick + awesome + cool. totally rules. i LOVE the idea of conscious zombies because to experience the degredation and destruction of your body, but not through pain (werewolves) and to experience your own death but not in the sense of living beyond death alone, stretching into immortality (vampires) but like, being a corpse watching those around you treat you like one but feeling and thinking everything a human does is crazy. eating brains is crazy, thats thoughts, you cant feed on someone you love like a vampire that is permanently destructive and repulsive and messy. awesome

and so ends my catechism (i am going to keep talking about this)