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[winterumi]

Sometimes I wonder if I should've done a full animatic. More yapping below! (TLDR; I begin by contemplating the animatic and then I end up ranting about fingers and pencils.)

Almost 1k views (983 to be precise, 23/3/25). To be frank, I thought this would get more views than some of my other videos. But it just comes to tell how time spent is not necessarily time spent well; my most viewed video was a really scrappily animatic of Etho. I believe it was because that one was a bit 'quicker', as in, there were more drawings and shorter intervals between them at times. But don't quote me on that because I don't tend to rewatch my own videos!

I want to one day create something I'm truly, truly proud of. Something that I can watch over and over again, saying, woah, I did that, me, Rumi!

But alas, whenever I begin an animatic, I get bored.

It's as simple as that.

Drawing the same thing over and over again within the same chunk of time fatigues me. I feel like I could be spending my time better, doing something other than art. Something more productive, like, I don't know- reading a new non-fiction book, doing some work, sleeping, doing some recipe plans and cooking.

I love novelty. If I'm doing the same animatic for hours on end, I get a bit cranky and fed up and impatient. And I can't break it up into several time slots. I'm too busy to do that and need to get it all out in one or very few sessions.

Also, I detest being seated for long. If I'm not belted to my seat on a plane, I find myself drawing whilst lying on the floor, on a beanbag, couch, bed, in weird posture on a chair, sketchbook on my lap, table, pillow, laptop, chair (if I'm sitting on the floor). Either that, or I'm squinting on my small phone screen, drawing with my finger.

That's another thing- all my videos insofar, apart from 'Royal Emeralds' have been done on my phone with my finger. (RE was one on my laptop using a drawing tablet which does not connect to my laptop anymore. Though I have a touchscreen, I cannot configure the buttons on my stylus correctly and am not the greatest fan of FireAlpaca. My preference is Ibis Paint X but the windows version requires a subscription for more than an hours use a day.) Drawing with my finger is how I've drawn digitally since the very beginning- literally. I started drawing digitally with my pointer finger of my right hand, and I still do. I don't love it though but nor do I hate it. I have a slightly more limited dexterity, I have come to recently realize, when drawing with my finger, than with a pencil.

This has become ever more poignant to me when I say that I think I draw better with pencil than digital. Because that's quite true! Because when it is a stylus versus a finger, you get more accuracy out of a stylus. You are controlling that in several dimensions with a 3 fingers (or however many you hold a pencil with), control pressure and speed with greater accuracy. However with a finger, the dimensions you move in feel more limited. The dexterity of a single finger is hindered due to the way our fingers are build at a muscoskeletal level. As well as pressure control! 3 fingers controlling one pencil is better than one finger being the pencil, in my personal opinion.

I plan to make a mini short animatic to an audio where Poseidon says 'Ruthlessness is mercy upon ourselves' but he is sitting in a shower after 600 strike. I'm contemplating whether to draw on my laptop with my stylus or on my phone. Pros of laptop is the stylus. Cons is that I have to send the pictures to my phone for editing (not to mention send the traditional sketches from my phone to my laptop for reference in the first place anyways).

Same thinking for a future Epic Animatic/animation. I'd like to truly invest a good amount of time to make something genuinely good and satisfying to watch. Let's see where the road takes me.

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This has not gone the way I intended! I shall leave this here for future reference and come back to see if anything- mindset, thought process, opions has changed.

New video out! I did an animatic on part of Keep Your Friends Close since I really wanted to make some content for my Youtube Epic related.

Link:

I wish I had discovered that Ibis Paint X had a Windows version earlier so that I didn't have to be stuck with using my finger to draw on my phone screen. But oh well!

Enjoy this snippet here!

[dailyheavymedic]

day 55

TWO strawpages requests cause I thought it was funny they were next to each other, someone just really wanted them to cuddle

[sky--phantom]

Lucanis and Emmrich about immortality

[vulcanette]

[hilacopter]

[mutopians]

love maomao being like maybe the reason that i never understood social interactions is because i wasn't comforted enough as a child. when, little does she know, she's part of the trio of most autistic-coded protagonists the winter anime seasons have ever seen

[frobby]

"isekais are all about wish fufillment" WRONG isekais are all about the mc aquiring as many children as possible

[nyxowl16]

what is up with queer depressed men adopting kids and actually doing a good job of parenting??????

and bonus ofc: Stolas and Lucifer!

[dreadark]

so why is Luka obsessed with Hyuna anyway?

(mostly just trying to get my thoughts on Luka down before blink gone rewires my brain)

every pet human is extremely limited in freedom, but Luka's case is definitely the worst literally even his birth was by Heperu's design... he can't control any aspect of his own life, from his participation of ALNST (twice!) to what he eats on a daily basis

*translations all by whatafruit

humans have no power over segyein, and Luka doesn't even have any power over own his own body so what can he have power over, then?

other humans, of course

most obvious in round 5: Luka would've had an easy win even if he barely tried, but he goes out of his way to provoke Mizi anyway until she finally snaps... and he smiles as he's beaten

because this is his "power." he successfully manipulated Mizi into reacting, proving he has some control over the situation no matter how pointless it is in the grand scheme of things, this is all he can influence, so he makes the absolute most of it and this control is so important to him he doesn't care about his own physical injuries

it's Hyuna talking in this comic, but clearly reflecting Luka's own mentality

while for Hyuna it's likely just her love for singing and performing (whatever happens, they can't take this away from her) for Luka I imagine it's the ability to influence others from the stage (crushing his opponents, but also shaping his fanbase?)

...so back to Luka -> Hyuna

it’s mentioned more than a few times that Hyuna’s a really talented performer, but seeing their respective stat pages really drives it in

(think the “superiority test” Hyuna was put through relates to this also)

Hyuna doesn't seem to have been created in any special way like Luka was… she just has a natural affinity to performing. and that's enough that she’s considered a real rival to Luka—Luka, who was literally made for this, and put through constant hellish training on top (the pain of having your heart stopped...) to mold him into the perfect idol

to Luka�� if he can’t dominate Hyuna, he can't even take pride in his own ability (that everything he's forced to go through amounts to something?). and power over other humans is all he has, so he needs to overpower Hyuna (also he likely admires Hyuna’s talents at the same time, which just adds to his twisted feelings)

so since his ability isn't enough... by making someone think of you, only you… that’s another way of having power over someone, isn’t it

“your life is mine” “I told you I only wanted one thing”

whatever exactly happened with Hyunwoo… well that certainly worked. both removing Hyuna's most important person and making Luka someone she can't not think of (oh and he doesn't seem particularly interested in Hyunwoo despite how similar the siblings are in personality? Hyunwoo was even the first to approach Luka, not Hyuna so it's likely because he doesn't have his sister's talents)

but you know how his intimacy(?) value for her is only 70% I figure that's because she escaped, so they could never actually face off onstage... maybe he's disappointed in her "wasting" her ability

what all this amounts to is that she did end up escaping his control, and he never even got to compete against her. so until he can somehow completely overpower her, he'll be obsessed with her

I wonder if this represents his final effort to that... ultimately, he values control over his own well-being, so if he can goad Hyuna into killing him, then doesn't that cement his power over her?

and maybe "saves" him from this hellish life too

kind of a tangent, but I really like how their designs contrast this dynamic Luka looks really angelic and androgynous, so from appearance he seems fragile and like someone to be protected (which even Hyuna seemed to be tricked by when they were younger) and Hyuna obviously looks the stronger one in comparison (very #girlboss (lol...))

but their relationship is one where Luka's trying to control her and Hyuna's trying to escape it... that "beautiful lady" line of ruler of my heart always felt somewhat uncomfortable, and then learning it's actually pitiful (가련한) instead of beautiful is... ...it's a very gendered dynamic, if you get what I mean. despite their surface-level appearances going against what's considered typical

[saltedbirdcat]

Bro “Your the only friend I’ve ever had…” is such a funny line when you think about it cause it erases every other person who was an ally to Elphaba like Fiyero? Not a friend. Chistery? Merely a work associate. Elphaba has a one track mind and that track is Glinda 😭

[hubba1892]

Robbo, Virg and The Seven Year Itch

[hipsternumbertwo]

Smosh @ 20 [insp]

[episodes-without-incident]

In the past Drawfee year (July 4, 2023–July 4, 2024):

There have been 99 Drawfee episodes.

Cats (2019) was referenced 17 times (in 17.2% of episodes)

6 references were made by Karina

5 references were made by Jacob

3 references were made by Julia

2 references were made by the episode's editor

1 reference was made by Nathan

Cascada (2005) was referenced 14 times (in 14.1% of episodes), after counting began August 15, 2023. I do not have individual data for these references.

Thank you Drawfee and thank you Drawfreaks for a great year! To many more (and to the two million creep)!

[anglerflsh]

hold. I'm curious about this now

*chosen/proper name, not necessarily a dead/legal name

edit if you have more than one name and aren't attached to any of them pick the fourth option thank you love and light second edit if your view of your name is neutral or you feel like you'd respond to anything. fourth option too

[stealingyourbones]

Demon Twins AU that focuses on the discrimination and bullying that Danny faces from being a kid who appeared out of nowhere, evidently adopted, and is impacted from his reactions to the world as a former League Assassin and the culture shock that would come from it forever imprinted on the minds of his peers and fellow Amity Parkers.

[rivetgoth]

I know I keep saying it and other people keep saying it but what’s so unbelievably frustrating is that MENA people, Palestinians, Iraqis, Persians, Muslims, Arabs… are just people. Like they’re literally just people. They drink, they party, they have sex, they like the same fandoms as you, they can be gay, they can be trans, they can have all the same existential fears, the same mental illnesses, the same infinitely nuanced and complex opinions and frustrations about topics like religion, morality, politics. They’re doctors, lawyers, teachers, actors, scientists, musicians, artists. And because people can’t process this, MENA people are left having to fucking spell out their humanity to people who consider themselves otherwise bleeding heart liberals. It’s insanity.

One of the best indicators of the lack of knowledge people have of Arab people to me is the existence of arak. It’s the Middle Eastern liquor. It’s produced across the region. It’s considered the national drink of Lebanon. Production of arak in Palestine is internationally recognized and has won awards. This seems like a tiny thing, but it’s actually crazy how many westerners truly believe Arab people don’t drink, that they follow religious law with such strict adherence that their behavior is just unrecognizably foreign, and they live in some state of austere repression beyond which the average westerner could even imagine. They have no idea this even exists.

Shortly after the onslaught post-Oct 7 I remember following updates from a Palestinian girl on Twitter who, in between sharing fundraisers for herself and her family (who, thankfully, did manage to evacuate safely, although not without needing serious medical attention) and updates about the broader situation, logged online after a few weeks of silence to lament the fact that she had missed her favorite anime character’s birthday and was sad she hadn’t been able to celebrate it with her mutuals. Her friends drew pictures of him for her.

And like, I truly believe that people are deserving of life even when they are quite different from us. Nobody deserves to be murdered en masse by the imperialistic machine as a display of power, over land, over resources, etc. But people aren’t even able to NOT dehumanize MENA people and realize that they AREN’T that different!! You’ve been fed propaganda your entire life that has convinced you that MENA people are just so deeply foreign that you couldn’t possibly understand or relate to them. Steve Jobs is Syrian. Shakira is Lebanese. Rami Malek is Egyptian. Salma Hayek is Lebanese. DJ Khaled is Palestinian. Freddie Mercury was Persian.

I honestly think at this point it’s partly a coping mechanism—If many westerners were actually to conceptualize the literal millions of human beings, people just like them, their friends, their loved ones, their heroes, their family, as burning unrecognizable bodies left charred in their homes they would just fall apart. So the only option is to insist until you’re red in the face that they couldn’t possibly be the same as you.