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chiming-bluebells · 1 day ago
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SHIFTERS BURN BOOK.
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LEXI aka chiming-bluebells !!
NOTES IN THE MARGINS this page in the burn book is dedicated to the girl with charcoal smudged fingers and half-a-broken sketchbook. the one who goes by lexi. i’ve followed her for about a week. here are my observations:
MONDAY: today i saw her absolutely transfixed flipping through a picture book of john bauer’s artwork. and she keeps smiling whenever she spots a dragonfly, what’s up with that ????
WEDNESDAY: she either writes too much or nothing at all. once she does start writing however, she won’t stop until she’s finished. obsessive. crazy. has she ever heard of taking breaks?
THURSDAY: she yawns alot.
SUNDAY: she keeps going on and on about her realities. one look at her account, and it’s not hard to figure out which ones are her favourites. here is what i’ve gathered so far:
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THE MAZE RUNNER once upon a time — believe it or not — lexi didn’t share much about her life in her maze runner dr. it was all locked up in notion scripts and curated pinterest boards, spotify playlists and car-ride daydreams. but then, one fateful day, a curious soul on tumblr sent lexi an ask regarding her maze runner reality…. and the floodgates to hell opened all at once. she has now, if i were to guess, gained the reputation as ”that one crazy maze runner lady” on shiftblr. i mean, c’mon… she even has a masterlist.
legend has it that she was obsessed with the franchise as a freshly-turned 15 year old (this, as i’m now about to explain to you, was in her pre-shifting era,, and also deep into her wattpad phase. canon event, i fear). surprisingly, her craze for the trilogy waned right before finding out about shifting at age 16. she had another dr (now archived and covered in dust) for most of her initial shifting journey. but, years later, after she had almost given up on shifting for good: she suddenly remembered, re-watched, fell in love all over again…….and found her way back home, not only to the maze runner, but also to shifting.
when it comes to her tmr dr, lexi is soul-bonded to the crying girl from mean girls (2004); she just wants a cake made out of rainbows and smiles. the emotional attachment she has for her people has made her unable to even hear the word ”canon” being uttered. she is allergic to that word. canon doesn’t exist. it’s not real. it never happened. there’s no proof. shut up huh, what was that? must’ve been the wind……
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FANTASY / TERABITIA when she was a little sprout, lexi was emotionally and spiritually destroyed one humid summers day. she had just watched ”bridge to terabithia”, and she was never the same after that. desiring a better ending, and already in love with the chronicles of narnia and the fables told in her childhood, she wanted her own fairytale kingdom… so, she created one. together with her friends she spent her time outside of school in magical play-pretend (was it pretend? or was it a prelude?). but, time goes on and people grow up. she was no longer princess of terabitia anymore. at least not consciously.
now then, she finally found her own wardrobe (reality shifting) to her fantasy kingdom. and this time she won’t grow out of it. seems like the childhood play-pretend truly was a prelude, after all.
MOUNTAIN GETWAY no matter how much she tries, lexi will never be a city girl — her heart forever belongs to nature; far away from the hustle and bustle of the cities, the towering buildings blocking out the sun, and the crowds of stressed-out people. her mountain getaway dr includes everything she loves most: her favourite people, solitude and silence, cozy cabins, mountains, pine tree forests, nearby lakes and rivers, road trips, hiking, and a soft, pressure-free life.
FISHERMAN’S DAUGHTER remember how i said her heart belongs to nature? that includes the ocean. if she could live by the seashore she would (and she will). her fisherman’s daughter dr is an ode to fjords and fishing villages, to the sea and the salt in humid, ocean air. she is, as the name of this dr suggests, the daughter to a fisherman.
MARAUDERS / HOGWARTS when she turned 11, lexi anxiously awaited her hogwarts acceptance letter. it never came, at least not in this reality, and she was horribly disappointed. at 14 she was knees-deep in the marauders trench: tumblr headcanons, fanfiction, you know the deal. now, she would be lying if she said that she had a script for this dr. she doesn’t. not even a pinterest board. that doesn’t stop her from having ideas, however:
she always knew she’d be sorted into ravenclaw. she wants to be an animagus, specifically a parrot/cockatiel one (she relates perhaps a bit too well to them) nicknamed chatty or pompon. and she definitely wants to create mischief with the marauders. perhaps it’s finally time for her to create a script, or at the very least a pin board.
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thank you @rrezshifts for the tag!! <33 here are my (no pressure!!) tags for the shifters burn book event: @lolashifts , @salemisha & @lyraxnova !!! (and anyone else who wants to participate !!!!!!)
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fleuredelys · 17 days ago
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I can't tell 100% sure if 「Come to Light」 is supposed to be an hallucination provoked by Leviathan in order to have her succumb and eventually do its bidding or something else, but that video gave a really good insight of what Fleurdelys' must've gone through during those 20 years of confinements, fighting time and time again against Leviathan in order to stay in control. It is also very understandable that she'd reach to the point of believing firmly that the only way out of it all, as well as to stop being a threat to humanity is just ending her (this without the knowledge that Threnodians can't die so long as human civilization continues to exist).
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cryinggirlnamedhelen · 1 month ago
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the divorce was far messier than you would have ever expected it to be.
sae had been traveling for a match when you filed for a divorce, signing the papers with messy black ink and sleepless nights. sae didn't know about the divorce; not yet, at least. you could only hope that he responds as calmly to the situation as he usually does with any other scenario that he's ever gone through.
it was almost a shame. almost. you truly did love the itoshi last name, and you would miss having the short-tempered yet kind rin as your younger brother-in-law. but sae was not only almost never home, but when he was, he rarely ever spoke to you unless asking for a favor or question, though they were usually sentiments such as "is dinner ready?" or "i have a match in a few days."
those were the two sides of sae. completely uncaring or only caring about himself or his career. you knew that he had to love you to an extent if he was willing to stay with you for nearly six years and not divorce you or cheat on you a single time, though that was the bare minimum that one could do. you grew up with sae, and he wasn't the type to cheat on someone.
your darkly inked pen soon ran out of ink, and you sighed, staring down at the straining amount of documents you had signed. you wondered how the media would respond to this, respond to the famous itoshi sae's partner having divorced him, especially one that he's known since five years old. you were twenty-nine now. there would probably were even worse rumors about him, about how he treats others. you wanted to feel bad. you wanted to recycle each and every one of the papers you just signed.
fuck it. it's his problem for neglecting you.
it's not like you didn't even try confronting him about it. it's just that when you did, it's always the same plain excuse. "i'm busy." scribbling your name and sae's onto some more papers, you finally reached the final piece of white material. you had felt nothing this entire time, and yet suddenly, before you could even realize why or how, tears began to pool at your eyes.
disappointment is a funny thing. it's like a mix of anger, sadness, and even hints of grief. really just the recipe for disaster. and at that moment, you could feel nothing but the emptiness of disappointment and warm tears streaming down your now burning cheeks. people always used to joke that sae was both your first and last love, and you had always laughed along and eventually began to believe it when you got married. you don't think you'd ever be able to love anyone else after loving sae. you always believed this notion, this joke, to be true, but not in the bitter way that it turned out.
you had sent the documents to court the next day, and already the damage was done. you didn't want a particularly loud case; you despised media attention. but only a few hours after having sent the documents, a dreaded phone call had arrived. it was sae.
"if you think you're being funny, you're not."
you cringed at sae's voice. he was in an entirely different country, and they you could feel the shards of his icy voice slicing your heart open. "i'm not trying to be. i'm serious. we're getting a divorce, and that's final."
for a few moments, the other line was silent. before finally, sae's voice returned once more. "...why?"
and for a moment, you regretted divorcing sae. his voice itself didn't show too much emotion, but the pause from earlier and the slight crack of his voice in the beginning told you everything you needed to know. he didn't want this. he didn't want to divorce you.
"sae, you spend most of your time in another country. sometimes even in another continent. you don't even talk to me at home except for the smallest things that someone can talk to another person about. you earn hundreds of millions of yen every year for the both of us, and yet i don't feel rich."
you could practically hear sae tightening his grip on the phone. "fine. do what you want." he finally stammered, and he hung up.
it was almost as if a marble slid from your throat to your stomach, and it now lay there uncomfortably. the phone slid from your hands, and you felt tears at the brim of your lashes. no "i'm sorry"? no "i can change"? you knew that sae wasn't the type to say those sorts of things directly, but he would usually say a harsher variation of the words.
and suddenly, you remembered. you remembered that sae was the one that began to say "i'll be both your first and last love" to you. he only ever said it once, and that was from when you were kids.
he had kept that promise, but he had broken a million more.
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i had "back to friends" by sombr playing on repeat while writing this lmao
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satoblue · 4 months ago
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tw: 1.2k wc, yandere satoru, drugging tea, breaking and entering, sleeping beside his ex wife without her knowing (satoru core), no smut (he would never without your consent) but he does pop a boner :’) + satoru’s unhealthy obsession with you and your wedding rings, divider by @/cafekitsune
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some nights your ex husband satoru will break into your new house when you fall asleep, waiting for you to succumb entirely to the tea you made using the unknowingly laced milk in your fridge, the same brand you used to make it every night for the both of you before the divorce he had noticed. and of course he noticed, he notices everything if it involves you.
old habits die hard it appears, and the thought makes his heart flutter that some part deep inside you no matter how far down you try to push it yearns for him too. he’s happy to learn you brew it at the exact time right after dinner, so when he’s watching through the cameras and preparing his own at the house you abandoned, the house full of memories of the two of you, it’s as if the both of you are making it together, and you’re right by his side. it doesn’t taste the same though, he can never get it right, he could never make it like you do.
and now here he was watching you as you slept, eyes half-lidded in adoration as he stares up at you from the ground where he was kneeling, the look on his face the very definition of lovesick. the moment he was free he took advantage of the hours he finally has with you after being so busy this entire week. satoru sighs — he’s been a bad husband hasn’t he? neglecting you. he’ll make it up to you. with that, a hand slides into the pocket of his slacks, fishing out a shiny ring. more importantly, your ring. the very one you left behind the day you up and left, vanishing from your shared home, leaving him, your husband, your one and only in this life, and if he could make it so, every life.
with practiced ease, satoru gently takes your limp wrist and delicately slides the expensive band back onto your finger. and somehow, just like that, a heavy weight lifted off his chest. the scales felt as though they had shifted once more and now his life which once felt like a complete calamity since you served him those papers is all the more balanced, like the universe was telling him this ring had only one purpose and it was not to sit dormant in his pocket everywhere he went, but to be on your finger.
after the divorce was settled, satoru refrained from taking off his ring ever again even at your laughable demand request. why would he? it wasn’t a disposable piece of jewelry, it was there to let every woman know he was a married man. this wasn’t a simple ask on your part — it was never that simple. how could there be anything simple about the love he felt for you? this ring represented your and his union, that you are his and he is yours, and it was a reminder to the shameless women who dare to approach him still that he is off limits always. a part of him still couldn’t grasp that you had left behind the very symbol of your love.
he will only ever belong to you and only you — his wife. to all your mutual friends who you’ve told of your separation, he’ll simply laugh in their faces, showing off his ring. see? how could the two of you be split if he still wore it? the notion was absolutely absurd. he will show the whole world if he has to even if they can never hear or see how absolutely vibrant his love is for the one who thinks she got away. he doesn’t pretend, you’re just ..… confused. you may not understand it now or ever but he has marked you indefinitely with the way he stretched you open on his cock to the way he painted your insides white with his seed. some animals mate for life, and his dearest and darlingest wife is his.
satoru stands, kneeling off the ground, walking over to the other side of the bed. he does so quietly, as to not wake you even though he knows for certain you wouldn’t wake, not for many hours, he made sure of it. he couldn’t help creeping however — in the past, every night when he’d come home from work, you’d lay asleep in bed just like this, or at least, pretending to be because believe it or not there was a time where you could not sleep until he was home safe in your arms, and he’d slowly make his way around as to not alert you of his presence before sneaking into bed beside you and giving you a fright.
the memory brings a cheshire grin to his face and he wonders if you’d have the same reaction to seeing him now, smacking at his chest repeatedly in angry huffs before eventually giggling at the apologetic kisses he plants all over your face. maybe for a moment you’d forget he was your ex husband, that you were divorced. maybe the act would only bring nostalgia and confuse your brain into thinking it was normal for even just a second before realizing to your horror that he was in your home.
satoru doesn’t dwell on the thought any longer, slipping into the sheets beside you like a cat in the night, only, he was more like the monster under your bed in this scenario. shuffling closer and closer, he wraps his arms slowly around your frame beneath the soft blankets as if digging his claws into you, unable to let go, not ever. with your back to his chest, he squeezes you to him firmly, waiting for a protest that will never come. after a couple moments, he leans his head down to nose at your scalp, deeply inhaling the scent of your shampoo. coconut, the same one you and him always use, he thinks to himself with a smile.
feeling himself grow hard in his pants, he sighs in disappointment, more so at himself than anything. it was only natural, he couldn’t help it when he has you like this, so pliant — but he would never, not unless you asked him to (which you won’t, he thinks to himself with a frown). your husband would never hurt you, why couldn’t you understand this? he’ll deal with his big little problem later because right now was not the time. right now he shall spend sleeping beside his beautiful wife, his beautiful married wife, his beautiful married wife who is married to him, to satoru gojo.
your husband looks down at his bulge, berating it quietly for a few seconds before chuckling and whispering a sheepish apology in your ear. brushing it off, he takes your hand once more, holding the dainty thing inside his large palm, rubbing on the pricey jewel of your ring under his thumb in gentle back and forth swipes. he takes this moment to admire you, all of you, because it is the only occasion he gets to do it so up close with your body right up against his. he’ll peck it once, then twice, then three times again and again and again never once tiring of it.
how could he when being in your arms feels like home? when you had left, you had taken the warmth with you. but now he has you, even if it’s just for tonight, everything felt right again, everything was finally as it should be.
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vatelixx · 8 months ago
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The enormity of my desire (disgusts me),
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Early seasons (1 — start of 2) Spencer Reid x afab!BAU!reader
SMUT (and fluff, some angst in relation to Spencer’s past because it can never be too happy, we’re not allowed nice things here). first times & explorations of intimacy.
──── autistic spencer (it’s a central theme to the plot), reader is actually morally good (for once).
Warnings: sub spencer (what did u even expect?), heavy corruption kink, first time for Spencer (all i do is sit around and think about how i’d like to devirgin that genius), HEAAVY praise kink, very very inexperienced Spencer, slight? oral fixation, they’re both just rlly down bad (i told u i would write something light, i delivered), Reader is whipped, Spencer is sooo much worse. Biblical references, Religious imagery, i think i talk about math equations???? And random metaphors/complexes.
w.c: 4k
a/n: i rlly wanted to explore aspects of spencer that criminal minds swept under the rug (cough cough his undiagnosed autism, cough cough his social exclusion, cough cough his crippling fear of forever being alone).
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There’s a lot Spencer hasn’t done.
He knows he’s behind, that he never quite caught up when it came to the taboo of sex and intimacy. Everything, everything, he’s ever had has been centred around exclusion, alienation, he feels like he’s lived on pause. Frozen, never advancing, stuck on ‘go’. Touch isn’t easy for him, interpersonal relationships are worse. He’s different, god he’s heard that his entire life. ‘You’re not weird, you’re just… different’, but maybe he is weird. Maybe his whole existence is just one big cosmic fuck you, because he’s missed out on so much, so much that he can’t understand, comprehend, act out against. Falling behind; this is the only area of life where he continuously comes up short, inexperienced, naive, he’s not used to being incompetent.
He’s never experienced want the way others do. He could never just hook up, fall into the body of another, expose them to the vulnerable elements of his stature. Open himself up to scrutiny. He might be a genius, he might be intellectually advanced, accepted into a multitude of ivy leagues before he was old enough to vote, but there’s drawbacks to his success. Social awkwardness, an inability to blend, mould, be one of the crowd. Sometimes he wishes he was average, something grey and mundane, so far reduced from the person he is now— it would all be plainly simple.
But he’s not, he’s not. So, this is the weight he has to bare for the brain he never asked for.
Pyrrhic victory, he’ll always be renowned for his intelligence. ‘You’re going to change the world kid,’ maybe, but simultaneously, he’ll never get to experience said world. There’s a chance he’ll always be on the outside, watching normal people gravitate towards each other. Live dreary lives of domesticated simplicity. Stacked bills, arguments over money and parenting techniques. Going to bed angry, only to turn around, mid-night, and resolve it, to not sleep on bad blood. To take them off the couch, to settle into predestined sides of the mattress.
There’s not enough possessions in the world he’d sacrifice just to experience love.
Hedgehog dilemma, the challenges of human intimacy. The hedgehogs want to move closer, to preserve heat during cold. But, they are forced, biologically cursed to remain apart, in order to prevent themselves from harming each other. Spencer doesn’t want to be hurt, to hurt, it’s a morbid byproduct of his upbringing; all he ever endured was mockery.
He thought he’d never get to experience the physical, carnal aspects of existence. And sure, he made peace with the notion, accepted the consequences of being born atypical. Learnt to live without.
But then, oh then there was you. Pretty, intellectual you who quite literally tipped his world on it’s axis. Upheaved the most stable of routines. New to the BAU, he wanted you to last. To stay around, endure the worst of the job. If only for his selfish benefit of orbiting in your presence.
He remembers how it all started: Detroit, another case, more budget cuts, forced proximity that sent you spiralling into a shared bed for the night.
“You’re my favourite person in the team.” you admitted, “And I know that’s dumb, because we’ve spoken the least, but… you’re just, so you. That’s a good thing by the way, a really really good thing.”
He couldn’t quite believe you were talking about him. Spencer, who spilt coffee, and slipped into ceaseless tangents about obscure information. Spencer, who walked into walls when you were around, stumbling over his sentences before deftly, very astutely, giving up, walking away mid-conversation. He wore sweater-vests and colourful mismatched socks, it’s not like he was going to be crowned ‘white boy of the month’.
“Not dumb.” Spencer had responded, shifting closer to tangle further into the warm mess of this accidental situation. “That’s good. I like being me.” he mumbled. “Sometimes…. sometimes it sucks. But that’s okay. I think it’s okay?”
He moved to press his face into the crook of your neck, but you were faster, gathering him by tousled hair, forcing him to look you in the eye.
Oh.
“Please. Please.” he whispered, breaking apart, fracturing, “Please like me. And more than in a weird, ‘just friends or coworkers’ way.”
You did. You do. He should’ve kissed you then, but maybe he was scared, maybe he couldn’t quite discern his feelings, separate the logic from the emotional. So he waited, waited, waited until now. Your third date, you take him to an exhibition within a science centre: replica models of the solar system, filling rooms up, papier-mâché sculptures illuminated by light.
Best date ever. You listen, even when he’s rambling about planets, when he’s pointing out that yes, Jupiter’s density is less than water. That, technically, it would float in a bathtub, if one was built to accommodate its size. You don’t care that he’s not exactly the staple-piece for conventionally attractive males. That he’s nerdish, and awkward, and so so inexperienced when it comes to this.
In his apartment, later, much later, he looks at you, looks at you like you’re the one who just solved the fucking Riemann hypothesis.
“What do you want the most? Like,… if you could ask for one thing.” you say, and god, Spencer loves when you pose these deep, hypothetical questions. When you make him think, because you, you are the biggest challenge to his intellect yet.
You. He wants to say. But he settles for ‘Being remembered,’ instead. He works to untangle layers of fabric, your scarf, your jacket, letting out an exasperated laugh when he meets your amused gaze. “Right now though? I think I’d settle for kissing you.”
You cup his jaw, tracing your fingers along the sharp curve, and god he has perfect anatomy. “Settle huh? You should be more appreciative.”
He leans forward to press a chaste kiss against your lips. Drawing away for a moment, just to return because he’s never had this before. Because for the first time in his life, he gets it. He gets physical attraction, even if it took time. He’s kissed, been kissed, yes. But he could count those moments on one hand, and if you asked how many he truly enjoyed, he’d be left with no fingers raised.
“Believe me, i’m very appreciative…”
This isn’t like before, what he felt in the past; he expected something monotone, flighty, a brief fleeting moment of satisfaction. Means to an end. No, it’s actually the best thing he’s ever experienced, and he’s going to become so insufferable after this, because he’s just found out he is very very into kissing.
Correction: he’s very into kissing you.
In the moment between parting, and touching again, he assumes you to be divinity personified. Spencer has never been religious, but something of this magnitude should be canonised. He wants to ask you. Ask you when you became this beautiful. When you became the person he needs to kiss a second time, kiss a third time, kiss until his lips go numb.
A shaky inhale, a pause. “I hope… I hope that it was okay - I mean, it was good for me. Really, really good. Um—“ to be honest, he’s just glad he didn’t say thankyou.
“Yeah, Spence. That was… wow.” you draw your bottom lip between teeth, press into tissued flesh. Jesus Christ. “Wanna try again?”
Yes yes yes yes. He looks at you, pupils blown obscenely out of proportion. Part of him wants to say, ‘why didn’t we do this sooner?’ But that’s not fair; he’s only ready now. Now that he feels, now that he might be a little in love with you.
“Please,” is his answer, and then he’s catching your face in the palms of his hand, tugging your lips back to his, because admittedly, they have ached in the long, extensive period you were apart (53 seconds).
This time it deepens and Spencer sees stars. It’s an astronomical phenomenon, something interstellar— and god, he’s relating kissing to space. They should just tape the word ‘virgin’ to his back and call it a day.
There’s soft little breathy sighs escaping his mouth now, bleeding into yours. And yeah, spontaneous combustion might be a real threat. Actually no, it would hardly be spontaneous; there’s a clear, clear cause, and it just so happens to be your ruinous lips.
This is an entirely new facet of the human experience. The kiss is electric; he’s always been partial toward physics, and right now his veins carry an alternating current.
You know, he could probably write a thesis based on this.
You both stumble back back back until he’s hitting a wall, and yes, thankyou. He’s making all sorts of sounds he can’t justify, and it’s a supernova, an infinite black pool of— oh, he thinks he might die, ascend, transcend, when you press your thumb against his chin, hold your lips at just a little slant from his. Force him to wait there.
“Please,” he’s never been above begging. A worthy sacrifice, one he’ll certainly repeat again because you return to the kiss, and the world around him dissolves.
You’ve got one hand tangled in his hair. Tousled auburn, fingers sinking into strands, pushing all the way down to the root. The other is still cupping his face, keeping him close, keeping him selfishly close actually.
“Spence,” you murmur. And yes. Yes. He likes that. The way his name sounds rolling off your tongue, like it was destined to be there. Like he was destined to be yours.
His world is ending. So is yours. Fuck it, he presses himself against your thigh, and ohmygodohmygod. He’s being loud, he’s actually being so criminally loud right now because apparently he’s the most whorish virgin to ever exist.
“I lied, I lied,” he admits between messy kisses, “When you asked what I wanted the most? It’s not to be remembered, well it is, its on the list. But—“ he groans, kisses you again because talking interrupts matters that are more important. Like your lips.
“I wanna cum.”
Eloquent.
Spencer Reid being dirty? Oh, it’s hot, it’s so hot to reduce someone to such an obscene state. To reduce him, the boyish fumbling nerd (who just so happens to be the most beautiful person in existence) to such a degrading mess.
Still, there’s shock. Not because he said it (you greatly appreciate the indecent things falling from those pretty lips right now), but because—
“You’ve never? Haven’t even experienced it once? By yourself?”
He should be embarrassed, but his lips are red, his eyes are glassy, and the bulge in his pants is straining to be touched. “Never,” he sighs shakilly. “Never, and i’m— i’m starting to understand why it’s so popular.”
He whimpers, pushes himself against your thigh, because the friction, yes. “Is that weird? Please don’t think i’m weird. Because I’m really, really weird. Just maybe… not in that way?”
It’s never been enough. His body sometimes feels numb to the touch, and yet still so very overstimulated. Like he manually blocks himself from feeling, already prepared for the flinch. How does he explain that life hasn’t been kind to him? That he hates his body because of what people made it out to be when he was a child. Stripping him naked, tying him to a goalpost, always the underdog. The one to be targeted, tormented.
“It’s actually kinda hot,” you interrupt his thoughts, and just because you’re evil, corrupt, the worst, you press your thigh harder against his clothed cock, palm covering his mouth when a plethora of whiny sounds escape his mouth.
It’s performative, really. Alone in his apartment, there’s no need for noise control. So when your thumb slips between parted, swollen lips, he knows to suck. The average human hand has between 10,000 and 10 million bacteria, and Spencer does not actually give a fuck anymore.
“To think that you’ve never even felt what it’s like. That you’re gonna feel it with me for the first time. I get to see that shit— god, you’re going to look so fucking pretty for me.”
You draw your thumb out of his mouth, and he has the audacity to whine.
He’s never wanted anything more in his entire life. It’s all tertiary now. Only this matters.
“Please don’t praise me—“ he protests, “I’ll probably finish in my pants.”
“Praise kink, noted.”
You laugh, and he can only groan, curse existence for being this cruel to his overworked, undervalued body. “Don’t— don’t laugh. You’re not supposed to laugh, that can heighten performance anxiety. Increase insecurity, and…” he sighs, “You do not care. Sadistic tendencies, noted.”
“Shut up. Wanna see you.” you say, and he’s just muttering breathless mhm’s, too delirious to function; his body is betraying the last iota of self-control like the little whore it apparently is.
His sweater comes off first, then his top. Discarded fabric, his raised arms when you mutter a candid ‘up’, giving way to exposed skin. In response? Your pupils dilate. Spencer knows because he’s analysing, profiling. If you hate him like this, he’s fairly certain he’ll drag himself into a self-dug early grave. He wishes he was being melodramatic. That your approval didn’t have such a substantial impact on his carefully-constructed ego. But, oh, it does. It does.
Thin, with a long, defined torso, he blushes, rose blemished skin, when your hands drag across his stomach. He’d love to say he reacts sanely, suavely. Urbane to your touch. But that would be a total, discreditable lie. Instead, his back arches, seeking contact, following the path of your fingertips with pitiful desperation. He feels malleable, willing to bend and contort, if only to feel more.
“How can you not think you’re pretty, Spence?” His pants are gone next, then his stained boxers, fabric borderline sheer now, soaked through with pre-cum.
Spencer feels betrayed. His body never responds, not to his own hands, not to his own thoughts. And yet, the moment you’re on him, he’s a live-wire. It’s sick, heinous, double-crossing. Maybe it’s purposeful, done just to spite him. Figures.
“Holy shit, look at you. Look at how perfect you are.” Spencer wants to object, because he distinctly told you not to praise him. However,.. right now, the lights are on but nobody is home. Brain-death, he’s certainly in a vegetative state.
“Ohmygodohmygod,” he whimpers, because no amount of knowledge about human anatomy and physiology could prepare him for how he feels under your touch. No amount of education in the psychology of relationships could inform him of how viscerally wrong the way you look at him feels.
Because it’s not wrong, not all. It’s the most right he’s ever felt, and he’ll tell you that if you’ll just keep it up.
The sounds he’s making are phonographic, lewd, you’ve given up on trying to stifle them now. Where have you been hiding? Your eyes fall, and he wants to blush away from the exhibiting gaze, but he’s just…. too far gone; the thought of your touch outweighs any previous reticence. Then, oh then, you drop to your knees, and shit. He expected your thigh, maybe your hand if he was lucky, not—
This. Your mouth, your tongue, your pretty lips; god, god, is this a sin? Because if it is, he’ll take it.
“Please,” he whines, and he can’t look anymore because the sight alone is going to send him over the edge. He’s gripping the wall, scrambling scrambling for purchase, because he’s trying not to grip you, but how exactly does he keep this respectful?
He’s pretty sure they’re past that, considering your mouth is currently wrapped around his cock, and he’s debauched.
You want this, you want him, he feels like he’s transcended humanity, like he’s become someone, anyone and anything, that deserves the way you’re taking him apart, piece by piece. In the aftermath, he hopes you don’t leave a single ounce of him intact.
“Wanna kiss you. Oh— oh oh,” he’s sobbing now, “Come back here. Miss your mouth— even if it’s,” he looks down and that’s a mistake. “Please.”
Of course it would be Spencer to disrupt the best (and admittedly only) head of his life because he needs you closer.
You oblige, raising from your knees, and Spencer thinks it might be sacrilegious. But then again, he feels religion in your touch so it can’t be too profane. Maybe? He’s not sure, he’s not sure and it doesn’t matter. Ethics and morality have long since disintegrated, sins are engrained into humankind. He almost wants to thank Eve for tearing into the apple, because it’s allowed this irreverence to occur.
Spencer blindly follows you through the apartment, stumbling and muttering until he can collapse against the bed. Baring his pretty neck as his head hits the bedframe. Tangled in sheets, draped over his lap, his deft fingers run across your waist, mapping out the structure of your frame. If only to remember, recite this act of blasphemy.
“Spence,” you whisper, and then his lips are crashing into yours, stealing breath, stealing sanity. He whimpers, murmurs a protest when you draw back, and you can only laugh. “Lets get you off, yeah? You wanna feel an orgasm, pretty boy?”
“Yes, yes please. That would uh— yes.” he’s not even sure how he’s conscious right now. His body, god his body, has endured more pleasure in the last hour than it has for the majority of his life. Your hands scathe, and Spencer is willing to indefinitely burn, if just to feel them one more time.
You only stop to take off your clothes, and surely there needs to be prep? To reaffirm, he knows anatomy, the correct procedure, how the transgression is supposed to occur. And yet, that’s from a clinical, objective mindset. Do this, do that, etc etc. Nothing works out like that in practice.
You’re so wet, panties stained through, he spares a moment to run his fingers across your thighs, hand slipping beneath fabric to graze your clit. The moan that follows has him distracted, thumb tracing circlets, over and over until you’re pulling back to return the balance. The balance, which admittedly is skewed, tipped scales, you’re on top. He falls to the weight of your influence.
And yeah, he’s more than fine with that. Jesus, you drag your panties down, down your thighs, your legs, then they’re reaching your ankles, pooling there for a moment before they’re being discarded, tossed somewhere on his floor — leaving behind a souvenir that yes, yes this happened.
“I can’t,” he says, burying his face into your shoulder when you take him. It’s slow, sinking onto his cock like every inch of warmth will destroy him. Maybe it will. Maybe he doesn’t care, because he deserves this. He deserves to feel after so much repression.
Or maybe, maybe he’s just become the biggest slut known to mankind. Likely.
Your body presses against his, and he thinks he’s going to disintegrate, because he feels so good. He understands now, he understands why people do this. Why it’s integral to the function of most. This is the best day of his life. This. Is. The. Best. Day. Of. His. Life.
There’s this noise, this pathetically loud whimper when you start to roll your hips— and oh your body is wet against him, and you’re so tight, and it’s perfect because he doesn’t have to do anything.
He can just sit here, look pretty, and cry.
He knows he’s a giver, that he’d bleed himself dry for you. It’s a curse, he supposes: so willing to bend backwards for the satisfaction of the people he trusts. But, this is foreign, and he wants to watch you, aimlessly stare, dumb and empty-headed as you wield his body like a weapon. Turn him into something perniciously yours.
Spencer has no reference for what an orgasm is supposed to feel like, and yeah, he’s really good at guessing in these type of situations. Because he’s rolling his thumb over your clit again, and he wants to draw it into his mouth, to see you laid out across bedsheets, writhing, unable to do anything but suffocate him with your thighs.
You clench around him, back arched, releasing a series of strained moans. With one hand tangled in his dishevelled hair, the other pressed against his chest, your face contorts, your body stiffens. There’s no way his incessant whimpering just got you off?
Okay. So you like him desperate. Point taken.
“Please— please, wanna cum. Wanna feel it so bad,” he’s slurring over his words, sentences punctured by devastating whimpers. And look at him, asking for permission, waiting even though his body has been teetering on the edge for so long now.
“Shh, shh..” you press your forehead against his, and he melts. Reoccurring theme. His hand grips your jaw, thumb pushed firmly against your chin, keeping you close. “You wanna cum for me, baby? Gonna give me your first?”
“Mhm— mhm…” is all he can say. When you pick up your pace, he has to burrow his face into the crook of your neck, whimpers messy and broken off, suppressed against your warm skin.
“Oh. Oh…” he repeats, again. Like there’s anything else he could utter, because this is earth-shattering.
It’s the sun, and all eight planets combined, and the universe collapsing in on itself, and he’s bucking, squirming, releasing into you, spilling deep.
He sobs. Breaks down. Because it’s so so good, and he can’t believe he ever deprived his body of this.
Neediest whore to ever exist, apparently.
It takes him a while to come back. Longer to regain motor function, to sink into present day. Life, and expectations, and everything, everything, your touch eradicated.
“Just… just stay like this?” he asks, collapsing against your body after he’s drawn out of you. There’s mess, evidence of your ministrations, but cleanliness seems futile when he’s blissed out, caught in a post-orgasmic haze that yes yes yes he needed so badly.
You card your hands through his hair, watch the way he stares up at you, large, widened eyes, chin resting against your chest. “Hi,” he mutters dumbly.
“Spence,” Spence, Spence, Spence. He could drown himself in that nickname.
“Yeah?” he breathes out.
“You we’re so good—“
He rolls away from you, finding a home for his face in the pillow. “Stop. Stop.” he groans, “Don’t do that. You’re going to destroy me. I’m not… equipped for this, for you. Someone should just sedate me, put me out of my misery, a coma sounds like—“
He tilts his head to the side, relinquishing, “Okay. Sorry. Meltdown over. Can we shower? Then maybe do this again? Which will make the shower inconsequential, I suppose. There’s a new documentary I want to watch, and oh, you still haven’t seen the third Star Wars—“
He’s happy, content, over the fucking moon, to be silenced with your lips. “Yeah,” he murmurs, hand interlocking with yours as you both fall back against the mattress, “Let’s do this again.”
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Fate, Fortune and Jungkook's Misfortune.
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pairing: jeon jungkook x oc
genre: strangers to lovers au, fluff + slice of life + comedy
summary: hopelessly romantic, jungkook believed in all kinds of things—but mostly in fate. so when he stumbled upon what he thought was a sign from the universe, he took it seriously. maybe too seriously. but one way or another, he was determined to make her believe in fate too.
word count: 20K (one shot)
warnings: fem!reader, mentions of; astrology talk, fluff, fluff & fluff, and jungkook being jungkook (cute) ♡
playlist: sally when the wine runs out, goodnight n go, fallingforyou & you are the traffic
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Jeon Jungkook had heard plenty of things about himself over the years, but three remarks seemed to follow him everywhere.
The first was that he was dramatic—sometimes a little too much. Jungkook wasn’t the kind of person who simply told a story; he performed it.
His hands would move wildly, his voice rising and falling with exaggerated emotion, as if every minor event in his life were a grand cinematic moment. It didn’t matter if he was recounting a near-death experience (which, in reality, was just him almost tripping on a sidewalk) or the time he spotted an unusually fluffy cat on the street—his excitement was all-consuming. His big, expressive doe eyes would widen as he spoke, drawing people in, making them listen, even if they had no idea why finding a cute cat had him this worked up.
And the worst part? His enthusiasm was contagious. No matter how absurd the topic, his friends always found themselves leaning in, hanging onto every word, caught up in the sheer energy of his storytelling.
The second thing was that Jungkook was persistent—relentless, even. When he set his mind on something, there was no stopping him. Once an idea lodged itself in his brain, he would pursue it with single-minded determination, as if failure wasn’t an option. And by determination, that meant everything was fair game.
Like the time his high school held a massive sports tournament. Most people saw it as a casual event, something to participate in for fun. Not Jungkook. He trained for months, pushing himself like he was preparing for the Olympics. In the end, he placed first—not necessarily because he was the most skilled, but because everyone else simply didn’t care enough to try that hard. But to Jungkook, a win was a win, and he would take it, no matter what.
And then, there was the last thing—perhaps the one that defined him the most. Jungkook was a hopeless romantic. Not just the kind who believed in love, but the kind who believed in fate. In soulmates. In every ridiculous, unrealistic notion that most people would roll their eyes at. Horoscopes? He checked them more often than the weather. MBTI? Not only did he know his own personality type by heart, but he had memorized everyone else’s, convinced that compatibility was written in the stars.
He believed in love at first sight, in grand gestures, in the idea that somewhere, out there, was the one meant just for him.
And if he ever found her?
Well, knowing Jungkook, he would do everything in his power to make her believe in fate too.
Jungkook had always enjoyed taking Yeontan for walks. The little Pomeranian technically belonged to Taehyung—his best friend—but Jungkook might as well have been his honorary second owner. Taehyung was overprotective when it came to his beloved dog, rarely trusting anyone else to handle him. But Jungkook? He was the exception.
And today, Jungkook had never been happier to be out walking the tiny ball of fluff. The sun was shining, the air was crisp, and Yeontan—small but ridiculously stubborn—was leading him rather than the other way around. Jungkook barely had a say in where they went, not that he minded. Yeontan had a mind of his own, and considering Taehyung had raised him like a pampered little prince, he was more than a little spoiled.
So when Yeontan suddenly yanked him toward a small, unfamiliar café, Jungkook let himself be dragged along, more amused than anything. He had never been here before, but the place looked exactly like something out of one of his guilty-pleasure romance novels—warm lighting, large windows fogged slightly from the temperature difference, plants hanging from the ceiling, and the faint scent of coffee and vanilla drifting through the air.
It was cozy. Inviting. The kind of café where love stories began.
And Jungkook, hopeless romantic that he was, couldn’t help but wonder—was fate trying to tell him something today?
Jungkook immediately pulled out his phone, completely oblivious to the fact that he was standing right in front of the café’s entrance, probably blocking customers from coming and going. But he didn’t care. There were priorities in life, and checking his horoscope at a potentially fated moment like this was one of them.
His browser was already open to his favorite astrology site—it always was—so all he had to do was scroll down to his sign. Virgo. He barely had time to process the words before—
Yank.
His eyes widened as the leash suddenly tugged forward, nearly making him stumble. Before he could react, Yeontan had already charged straight into the café.
“Yah—Tannie!” Jungkook yelled, frantically shoving his phone into his back pocket as he took off after the tiny troublemaker. He pushed through the doorway, eyes darting around in search of the little fluff ball. Yeontan was small but fast, and knowing him, he was already causing chaos somewhere between the tables.
Jungkook weaved past a few customers, muttering rushed apologies, his head swiveling as he searched. “I swear, if you embarrassed me in front of strangers again—”
And then he saw him.
Or rather, he saw her.
Because Yeontan wasn’t just causing trouble—he was happily sitting at the feet of a girl Jungkook had never seen before. A girl who, at that moment, was peering down at the fluffy little traitor with an amused look, one hand resting on her coffee cup, the other scratching behind his ears like she had all the time in the world.
Jungkook came to an abrupt stop. His brain short-circuited for a second, and suddenly, he remembered something very, very important.
His horoscope.
He scrambled to pull his phone out again, nearly dropping it in the process. His eyes scanned the words quickly, his heart rate picking up as he found what he was looking for.
Virgo: Today, fate will lead you to an unexpected encounter. Pay attention—this person might change everything.
Jungkook swallowed hard, gaze flickering back to the girl.
No way.
Jungkook walked toward the table with slow, measured steps, unsure of how to proceed. The girl was so engrossed in petting Yeontan that she didn’t even notice him approach. She had a laptop in front of her, a large coffee cup beside it, and a soft smile on her face as she looked down at the dog. Yeontan, for once, was happily soaking up the attention, his little tail wagging furiously.
And Jungkook?
He never wanted more to be a dog than in that exact moment. At least then, he’d have her full, undivided attention.
A few more seconds passed before she finally glanced up, eyes briefly meeting his, before they flicked back down to Yeontan. She didn’t even seem phased by the random guy suddenly appearing at her table. Instead, she offered a soft, almost amused smile, glancing at him only for a moment.
“He’s so cute,” she commented, her voice light and warm.
“He may look like an angel, but he’s far from it.” Jungkook crouched down to Yeontan’s level, gently tugging the leash back into his hands, hoping the dog would finally acknowledge him for once. Now that they were at the same height, he couldn’t help but hope that she would finally look at him too, not just at the dog.
Yeontan, as expected, didn’t seem to care about Jungkook’s presence, too busy enjoying the scratch behind his ears. Jungkook shot the dog a glare, as if silently scolding him. Seriously, dude?
When her eyes finally flicked back to him, the smile she gave wasn’t judgmental, just amused.
“I can tell,” she said, her tone teasing, “He definitely looks like he’s got a little mischief in him.”
“I don’t know if ‘mischief’ is enough to describe his personality. He’s chaotic,” Jungkook replied, a small laugh escaping as he ruffled the dog’s fur. “But yeah, he’s definitely not as innocent as he looks.”
For a moment, there was a comfortable silence as both of them watched Yeontan enjoy his little moment of fame. Jungkook was still crouched down, hands resting on the leash, his heart racing.
She pulled her hand back from Yeontan, her fingers lingering for just a second before retreating to her lap. Then, she glanced around the café, her eyes briefly scanning the space. It was such a small, insignificant movement, but Jungkook was completely entranced.
The soft glow of the café’s warm lighting reflected off her glasses, her round, chocolate-brown eyes peering through the lenses with quiet curiosity. Strands of hair had fallen loose from the bun on top of her head, perfectly framing her delicate features. Her lips—plump and pink—were slightly parted, like she was lost in thought.
Jungkook was so busy memorizing her face that he almost didn’t notice when she turned back to him.
Panic.
He shot up from his crouch so fast that he almost lost his balance, awkwardly straightening his posture as if that would somehow make up for the fact that he had very obviously been staring.
And then she smiled. Not a flirty smile, not even an encouraging one—just a small, polite curve of her lips that almost felt like she was expecting him to leave now. Like the moment had run its course, and she was giving him an easy out.
Jungkook’s heart dropped.
“Oh—uh, I’m sorry,” he blurted out, looking down at Yeontan as if the dog could somehow save him from his embarrassment. His cheeks burned, and he hated that he was so bad at this. He didn’t want the moment to end, but he also didn’t want to overstay his welcome.
But then his horoscope flashed in his mind again.
Virgo: Today, fate will lead you to an unexpected encounter. Pay attention—this person might change everything.
His fingers tightened around Yeontan’s leash.
No. If this was fate—and Jungkook knew it was—then he had to do something.
“Uh…” He forced himself to look up at her again, ignoring the heat in his face. “Are you familiar with this place?”
She raised an eyebrow, a small hmm leaving her lips as if urging him to go on.
Jungkook swallowed. “Which drink is the best?”
For a second, she just blinked at him, like she wasn’t sure if he was serious or not. Then, slowly, a small, knowing smirk appeared on her lips.
“You’re just asking that to keep talking to me, aren’t you?”
Jungkook’s breath hitched.
Oh, she’s dangerous.
“I—” He cleared his throat, scrambling to regain his composure. “I mean… maybe?”
She chuckled, shaking her head slightly as she leaned back in her chair, tilting her head at him in amusement. “Alright, I’ll bite.”
Jungkook held his breath.
“The best drink here? Definitely the caramel macchiato,” she finally said, voice smooth, teasing. “Sweet, a little strong, and pretty addictive.”
Jungkook grinned, his confidence returning in an instant. “That does sound like my type.”
She raised a brow. “The drink?”
Jungkook met her gaze, the corner of his lips quirking up. “Maybe.”
For the first time since he’d walked in, she actually looked surprised. Just for a second—just a flicker of something in her expression before she composed herself again.
Yeontan was getting impatient. The tiny fluff ball kept tugging on his leash, huffing dramatically, clearly annoyed that he was no longer the center of attention. His little paws shuffled against the café floor, his determination unshaken.
Jungkook sighed. Okay, maybe walking the dog wasn’t fun anymore.
Each time Yeontan yanked harder, Jungkook’s arm jerked forward, nearly throwing him off balance. He knew it was time to leave—there was no point in fighting when Yeontan had already decided he wasn’t going to lose.
Jungkook let out a small laugh, looking back at the girl, reluctant to let the moment end.
“You heard the brat,” he said, nodding toward the demanding Pomeranian. “Guess that’s my cue.”
She smiled, watching the little dog’s antics with amusement.
“Thanks for the recommendation,” Jungkook added, dragging out his words just slightly, lingering for a response. A name. Anything to keep this from being just another fleeting interaction.
For a second, she hesitated, lips pressing together like she was debating something. But then—
She said it.
Her name.
And oh, Jungkook was not prepared.
It rolled off her tongue so effortlessly, so naturally, and yet it felt like it echoed in his mind, settling into a permanent place inside of him. It was pretty—too pretty. Almost unfair.
For a split second, he nearly lost his composure, his grip tightening on Yeontan’s leash as he processed the way it sounded.
He forced himself to keep his cool, offering a grin that (hopefully) didn’t expose just how much he was freaking out inside.
“Pretty name,” he said casually, though inside, his brain was already in overdrive.
Because tonight—without a doubt—he was going to a name compatibility site, typing her name next to his, and testing their fate.
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The day had been horrible. No amount of Hoseok’s usual sunshine-like energy, nor the comforting sight of his signature heart-shaped smile, could do anything to lift your mood. It was just one of those days—the kind where everything felt ten times heavier than it should.
The lecture was dragging on endlessly, your professor droning about legal cases and justice articles in a tone so monotonous that it almost felt like a personal attack. You fought to keep your eyes open, blinking rapidly every few minutes in a desperate attempt to stay focused.
Sometimes, you genuinely questioned your decision to pursue law. Why had you willingly subjected yourself to this? You could have been anywhere else—on a beach, running away to the mountains, maybe even opening a tiny coffee shop where you wouldn’t have to read through endless legal texts every night.
And yet…
No matter how often the thought of quitting crossed your mind, it never truly stuck. Because deep down, as exhausting as it was, as frustrating as some days could be, you had always loved it. The way logic, facts, and concrete evidence could build a path toward justice. It felt structured—rational. There was a process, a way to piece everything together, then the truth would always reveal itself. It wasn’t always easy, but at least it made sense.
That was more than you could say for Hoseok’s field of study.
You never quite understood how he could immerse himself so deeply in literature and poetry—worlds filled with metaphors, abstract emotions, and meanings that changed depending on who was reading them. Everything in his world felt so… out of place, detached from reality. There were no clear answers, no right or wrong, just endless interpretations.
While he found meaning in verses and prose, you found it in arguments and evidence.
And you were perfectly fine with that.
The moment you stepped into the small coffee shop, you let out a quiet sigh of relief. This place had always been your little escape. Today, it was a bit more crowded than usual, but you didn’t mind. You could wait.
Shuffling into place in the line, you let your thoughts drift to your usual order. Iced coffee. Large. No second-guessing. Caffeine had practically become your lifeline at this point, the only thing keeping you awake during long nights buried under case studies and legal articles.
The line moved painfully slow. You tapped your fingers lightly against your arm, eyes flicking toward the counter. The customer in front of you took forever, hesitating over their order like they were making a life-altering decision.
By the time they finally stepped aside to wait for their drink, you swore an entire hour had passed.
Suppressing a groan, you took a step forward, ready to place your order—when a voice beside you made you pause.
“Oh, what a funny coincidence! Didn’t know you were familiar with this place. It must be destiny.”
And there he was.
The boy from the other day, standing next to you with wide boba-like eyes, filled with excitement like he’d just stumbled upon something life-changing. His dark hair was messy, parted in the middle, and strands of it fell over his forehead like he had run here without a care. His thin lips curled around the straw of his drink, cheeks puffing slightly as he sipped.
You scoffed, shaking your head just as the barista handed you your iced coffee. “I knew this place before you,” you reminded him, fingers wrapping around your cup. “I was the one giving you a recommendation.”
You turned on your heels, making your way to your usual booth. You’d been looking forward to sitting alone, letting the familiar hum of the café settle your mind as you worked through another exhausting day.
But apparently, he had other plans.
He followed right behind you, still sipping on his drink, the straw stuck between his lips as he trailed after you like a lost puppy.
“Oh yeah, right,” he chuckled, sliding into the seat across from you without asking.
You stopped mid-motion, blinking at him. He had just… invited himself?
You always sat alone. That was the whole point of coming here. It was your time to work in peace.
“I forgot,” Jungkook continued casually, settling into the booth like he belonged there. “It’s been such a long time since I last saw you.”
“One week,” you corrected, raising an eyebrow as you took a sip from your coffee.
Jungkook grinned, unbothered. “One week too long.”
He placed his drink on the table, leaning forward so his mouth hovered just above the straw, refusing to use his hands as he took another sip.
You glanced under the table, half-expecting to see a familiar ball of fluff staring back at you. Instead, all you found were a pair of worn-out dark Converse, one foot lazily crossed over the other.
Your lips pursed slightly in disappointment before you looked back up. “Where’s the cute dog?”
As you spoke, you pulled your laptop from your bag, subtly hoping the boy would get the message—you had work to do.
“Oh, he’s got a hairstyle appointment,” he said, shrugging like this was a completely normal thing.
You blinked. “A what?”
He chuckled at your reaction before elaborating. “His owner treats him like a total brat, so he has to go to the groomer every month. Haircuts, fancy shampoo, the whole celebrity dog experience.”
You couldn’t help but laugh. Honestly, it made so much sense. From what you had seen, the dog had more attitude than most people you knew.
“So he’s not your dog?” you mused, arching an eyebrow.
“Hopefully not,” he scoffed, leaning back in his seat. “I love bigger dogs. Ones that don’t act like princesses.”
“What’s his name?” you asked absentmindedly, turning on your laptop.
You were trying to focus—you really were. But it was proving impossible when the person sitting across from you was sipping his drink obnoxiously loud, making a whole production out of it.
Though, if you were being honest, the real distraction was the way his big, boba-like eyes peeked at you from over your screen, watching you with far too much amusement.
Jungkook smirked. “You know, I’m a bit offended that you asked for the dog’s name before mine.”
You glanced up, unimpressed, as he leaned back in his chair, seemingly forgetting about his drink entirely now that he had a new source of entertainment.
“My name is Jungkook, by the way,” he added, like he was offering the most valuable piece of information in the world.
You rolled your eyes, but the corner of your lips betrayed you, curling into the beginnings of a grin.
“I didn’t ask for yours, did I?” you shot back, shutting your laptop halfway and placing it beside you, clearly accepting the fact that you weren’t getting any work done anytime soon.
Jungkook gasped dramatically, clutching his chest like you had personally wounded him. “Wow. That hurts.”
And just like that, you had a feeling you weren’t getting rid of Jungkook anytime soon.
And you were right.
Because every time you stepped into the coffee shop, he was already there.
Somehow, Jungkook always managed to arrive before you, sitting comfortably in your usual booth like he owned the place. And as if that wasn’t enough, he had the audacity to have your favorite drink already waiting on the table, like he had perfectly timed your arrival.
He’d wave at you the moment you walked in—enthusiastically, unashamed, completely oblivious to the way people turned to stare at you because of it. Your face would heat up every single time, a mix of embarrassment and exasperation, but Jungkook never seemed to care. If anything, he loved making a scene.
But, despite everything, you still made your way over to the table. Because, well—it was your table first. And Jungkook wasn’t about to scare you away from your favorite spot.
(Okay, and maybe because he was kind of nice. Just a little.)
Over time, you learned quite a few things about him. Mostly because Jungkook never shut up, and even if you hadn’t wanted to know, he would have told you anyway.
Like how he was obsessed—his words—with toe socks because he hated regular ones. Or how he was a hardcore astrology fan (again, his words).
That one, in particular, made you roll your eyes. And instead of working like you had planned, you found yourself in a full-blown debate with him about how horoscopes were absolute nonsense, a way for people to trick themselves into believing fate controlled their lives instead of taking responsibility for their own choices.
Jungkook had gasped, genuinely offended, and spent the next twenty minutes passionately explaining why he believed in them, rattling off birth charts and compatibility readings like he was reciting holy scripture.
And then, of course, there was this.
“What a coincidence,” Jungkook mused, voice dripping with fake innocence as he leaned back in his seat. His hands flew to his head in mock shock. “You coming here while your favorite drink is already on your favorite table? Fate really wants us together.”
You shot him a deadpan look, crossing your arms.
“I already told you,” you huffed, “fate is bullshit—a lazy excuse for naïve people who don’t want to take responsibility for their own choices.”
Jungkook grinned. “Exactly. And I’m choosing to sit here, waiting for you, every time. So really, it’s the same thing.”
You blinked, caught off guard. “That is not—”
But Jungkook was already sipping his drink again, looking far too smug for his own good.
And, annoyingly, you had no idea how to argue with that.
Jungkook cleared his throat, straightening in his chair with the kind of exaggerated seriousness that only he could pull off.
You sighed, already knowing what was coming as he pulled out his phone. Still, you sat down anyway, setting your laptop in front of you, pretending—really pretending—that you weren’t listening.
Jungkook, of course, wasn’t fazed.
He called your name, deepening his voice dramatically as he read aloud, “Today, your horoscope is telling you to take a deep breath, look at the grass, and let your heart talk while your mind relaxes.”
You raised an eyebrow, meeting his mischievous gaze over the top of your laptop screen. “Does it really?”
Jungkook grinned, nodding, but you weren’t convinced.
“What if you’re just bullshitting already bullshit facts?” you mused. “That would be defamation, and you could—”
Before you could get into any legal technicalities, Jungkook clicked his tongue, cutting you off. He wasn’t about to let logic ruin his fun.
He slid his phone across the table toward you. “It’s real, and I’m pleading non-guilty.” He lifted his hands in mock surrender.
You narrowed your eyes suspiciously before glancing at his phone, scanning the text quickly. To your surprise—and mild annoyance—he was actually telling the truth.
But then, your eyes landed on a line he had conveniently skipped.
“Oh, look,” you drawled, smirking as you pointed at the screen. “It also says I should be careful with who I’m interacting with today.”
Jungkook gasped, clutching his chest like you had stabbed him. “Are you implying I’m the bad influence here?”
You took a slow sip of your coffee. “I mean, if the stars say so…”
Jungkook scoffed, shaking his head as he dramatically took back his phone. “Unbelievable,” he muttered, typing something quickly before flashing the screen back at you. “Well, guess what? My horoscope says, ‘Don’t give up on people who challenge you—they may be the greatest blessing in disguise.’”
Your lips parted slightly at that, but before you could respond, Jungkook leaned forward, resting his chin in his hand as he smirked.
“So really,” he teased, “we’re the perfect balance.”
You rolled your eyes—but you didn’t argue.
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Jungkook was absolutely ecstatic.
If he could, and if people wouldn’t look at him like he was a total weirdo, he would have definitely started dancing right there on the streets. With papers and colorful pens in hand, his movements would have been free and wild, just like his energy.
But instead, he grinned like an excited puppy as he made his way toward the coffee shop. And there you were, sitting in your usual booth, brows furrowed in intense concentration, typing away like a madman in the middle of a frenzy.
He couldn’t help but smile wider, his heart swelling with an odd kind of pride and joy.
He set his papers and pens on the table with a loud sigh, purposely making the sound dramatic as if to announce his grand entrance.
“It’s time for a break,” he declared, flopping down next to you with the flair of someone who was about to deliver the most important news of the century. “With the one and only Jeon Jungkook.”
You barely spared him a glance at first, but then you sighed, closing your laptop halfway with a sharp exhale. Your eyes were drawn to the chaos now sprawled on your table: a mess of papers, pens, and bright markers.
“Are you planning a drawing contest?” you asked, clearly unimpressed by the mess, already feeling the overwhelming urge to organize everything into neat piles. You hated working in a disorganized space. “Something the stars told you last night—something about you sucking at coloring?”
Jungkook scoffed loudly, leaning back in his chair like he was some kind of rebellious artist. He slid a sheet of paper toward you, the kind you’d get during an exam—multiple pages stuck together with nothing but your name scrawled on the front.
“It’s something I made,” he said, his voice oddly soft now, despite his playful tone. He quickly placed his hands over yours to stop you from reading it immediately. “For you.”
You blinked at him, confused. “You want me to take a break while doing something that looks like work?”
Jungkook shifted slightly, adjusting himself so that he was facing you more directly, his eyes wide with enthusiasm as he began explaining.
“It’s called an MBTI test,” he said, his voice bright with excitement, as if he were unveiling the secret to the universe itself. “It’s to see what your personality type is.”
You glanced at him skeptically, still unsure of where this was going. His face was utterly serious as he continued, the intensity in his eyes almost comical. “You have to answer the questions with what feels right to you—don’t overthink it, just go with your gut.”
You blinked at the stack of papers on the table, the colorful pens scattered around, and then back to him. The way he spoke—so intent, so dead serious—made it seem like he was about to launch into a criminal law exam or a high-stakes courtroom drama. But instead, it was… an MBTI test? Something Jungkook had created on a whim last night and printed out like it was some kind of official document?
It was absolutely ridiculous, and you couldn’t help but hide a grin. This was so Jungkook.
He was practically on the edge of his seat, as if waiting for a massive breakthrough in your psychological evolution. He tapped the paper a couple of times, as if he were an expert ready to reveal some deep, profound truth about you.
You stared at him, amused, eyes half-lidded, realizing that this was not the high-minded academic discussion you were expecting today. This was Jungkook at his finest. You tried not to laugh out loud, but his earnestness was too much.
“Right…” you drawled slowly, clearly entertained by how seriously he was treating this. “So this is like… a personality analysis? Just like that?”
“Exactly! This will tell you everything you need to know about who you really are.”
And there it was—another perfect example of Jungkook’s chaos, his unapologetic belief that everything, no matter how ridiculous, was important enough to be taken seriously. You shook your head in disbelief, but couldn’t help but feel entertained.
“Alright,” you finally said, eyes narrowing in mock suspicion. “What type are you then, Mr. Expert?”
Jungkook sat up a little straighter, tapping his chin thoughtfully before dramatically proclaiming, “I’m an ENFP. The campaigner—enthusiastic, creative, and full of ideas!”
You rolled your eyes. “Of course you are.”
He grinned proudly, unfazed by your skepticism, before nudging the test closer to you. “Now, your turn. Answer honestly!”
You sighed, knowing this was going to be a lot more entertaining than you had planned for your break.
You hated how focused you were on the test. Reading each question carefully as if it were one of the most important exams of your life, when, in reality, you should’ve been studying for something much more significant. But Jungkook had a way of pulling you into whatever chaos he created, and before you knew it, you were marking your answers like they actually mattered.
The only sound in the air was Jungkook’s rhythmic slurping through his straw, interrupted only by the occasional dramatic sigh that escaped his lips. He would never comment on your answers—probably terrified that if he did, it would somehow influence your responses and ruin the results of his serious experiment.
It took you almost twenty minutes to finish the entire thing. You handed him the test with a slight feeling of disbelief that you had actually gotten sucked into this. “Verdict, Mr. Jeon?” you asked, raising an eyebrow, half-tempted to make fun of him but curious at the same time.
Jungkook took the test from your hands and began reading your answers with the utmost seriousness. His brow furrowed deeply, as though he were an experienced psychologist analyzing a patient’s deepest fears and desires. He nodded at the answers with a distracted expression, as if processing your choices was a very complex task.
“Hmmm…” He nodded again, this time a little more dramatically, as if everything was starting to make sense. “Interesting… Very interesting…”
You waited for the reveal, feeling both a sense of dread and amusement as Jungkook continued his mock analysis, clearly savoring the moment. He rubbed his chin like an old-timey detective piecing together the clues.
Finally, after what felt like an eternity, he dropped the paper back on the table and leaned back in his chair with a confident smirk.
“Well,” Jungkook said, drawing out the word like he was preparing to make the grandest announcement of his life. “You, my dear friend, are… an INTP!” He paused dramatically for effect, before adding in a whisper, “The Thinker.”
You blinked at him, waiting for the punchline, but he just grinned, clearly satisfied with himself.
“INTP?” you repeated, not entirely sure whether to laugh or question his methods. “The Thinker? Really? That sounds like a terrible description.”
Jungkook shrugged with mock seriousness, crossing his arms over his chest. “It’s the best one! It’s all about being logical, analytical, and deeply curious. It says you tend to overthink everything and live in your own head—oh, and you’re probably the type to avoid emotional decisions, too.”
You stared at him, not sure whether to be offended or impressed by how well he seemed to have pegged you. “That sounds… vaguely accurate.”
“See? I told you this was legit.” Jungkook leaned forward, his excitement palpable. “I’ve been studying this stuff for weeks!”
You couldn’t help but roll your eyes at Jungkook’s theatrics. He was truly relentless. When he pulled out another sheet of paper from the mess and lowered his voice.
“And guess what,” he said, his voice dipping into a conspiratorial tone as that annoyingly adorable bunny smile appeared on his face. “INTP and ENFP are very, very much compatible.”
You let out an exasperated sigh, shaking your head as you pushed your foot against his ankle lightly, your patience starting to wear thin. “I should’ve known it would turn out like that.” You reached for your laptop, already preparing to tune him out.
Jungkook wasn’t deterred, of course. He was practically pouting now, his bottom lip sticking out in that way that always seemed to make his charm even more potent. “Everything is telling us to do something about that match the stars have made!” he whined loudly, his hands flailing dramatically in the air. “Come on, you can’t fake that!”
You gave him a long look, almost unimpressed but definitely entertained by his determination. “You really think just because the stars said so, we should… what, embrace the fate of this ‘match’?”
“Yes!” Jungkook’s eyes lit up like he’d just won the lottery. “I mean, come on—do you really want to deny the stars? The universe is practically begging us to be in sync!”
But you weren’t going to let him win that easily. “I don’t know, Jungkook. It sounds like a whole lot of nonsense to me.”
Jungkook pouted again, leaning toward you with his chin propped up on his hand. “Well, maybe you’re just too rational for this,” he said, teasingly. “Maybe you just need to believe a little bit more in… magic.”
You glanced at him, the corner of your lips tugging upward despite yourself. “I’ll believe in magic when you start acting like an actual gentleman,” you shot back with a playful smirk.
Jungkook raised his eyebrows dramatically. “I’m already a gentleman, thank you very much,” he said, half-mockingly, half-seriously. He leaned forward again, fixing you with a teasing gaze. “But if it’ll convince you to give this whole ‘fate’ thing a chance, I’ll do anything.”
“Oh, really?” you asked, eyes narrowing as you folded your arms on the table. “Anything, huh?”
“Anything,” he said, with complete sincerity. The way he said it almost made you believe he meant it, and that’s when you realized… Jungkook was a lot more convincing than he had any right to be.
But you weren’t going to let him off the hook that easily. Not this time.
“Alright then, Mr. Gentleman,” you said, raising an eyebrow. “First, get me a refill of my coffee. I’ll need it to survive this… soulmate talk.”
Jungkook’s face lit up immediately. “Anything! I’ll be back in a second!” he said, already jumping up from his seat like he had just been given the best mission of his life.
As you watched him rush to the counter, you couldn’t help but shake your head. Maybe you did secretly enjoy Jungkook’s chaotic, persistent antics more than you’d admit…
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When Jungkook promised he would do anything, you should have been more cautious.
You knew it came from a guy who believed in every whimsical, far-fetched thing under the sun and, more importantly, he was determined to get you to believe in it too. And maybe, just maybe, he was succeeding—just a little bit.
It was another ordinary day as you left your lecture, walking alongside Hoseok, who was happily recounting the poems he had just studied. He was going on and on about the beauty of love as described in each verse, the words almost spilling from him as you tried to tune him out, but as usual, his enthusiasm was contagious—still, you couldn’t help but roll your eyes at his idealistic notions of love.
You had no idea that the moment you stepped outside the lecture hall, your day would take yet another wild turn. The campus, full of people, should have made it impossible for you to spot someone. But there, amid the crowd, you saw him—the one and only Jeon Jungkook.
And no, it wasn’t because you’d gotten used to recognizing his face, his messy dark hair, his trademark bunny smile, or those absurdly bright boba-like eyes.
It wasn’t only you who noticed him, either. Hoseok, ever the curious one, immediately turned to you with a puzzled expression, clearly caught off guard by the spectacle in front of him.
“Why is there a guy holding a giant sign with your name written on it, standing next to a cute dog?” he asked, his voice a mix of confusion and amusement.
You were frozen, your feet rooted to the spot, unable to fully process what was happening. There he was, Jungkook, right in front of you, with a massive banner bearing your name in bold letters and Yeontan by his side. The crowd around him parted like the sea, but it was clear: Jungkook was waiting for you.
And you? You were speechless. You couldn’t move, couldn’t form a coherent thought. You were stuck there, watching him scan the crowd, eyes darting back and forth, until they locked on you, his expression lighting up.
Jungkook practically sprinted toward you, but his momentum was cut short when Yeontan decided he had no intention of moving. The tiny dog sat stubbornly in place, tail flicking like he was some kind of royalty, completely unbothered by the fact that his leash was still in Jungkook’s grip.
Jungkook let out a dramatic sigh, tapping his foot impatiently. “Stupid dog, just stand up,” he muttered under his breath. When Yeontan remained firmly seated, looking up at him with a level of indifference that only Taehyung’s dog could master, Jungkook resorted to threats. “If you don’t, I swear I’ll tell Taehyung to make you sleep on the floor tonight.”
Yeontan, predictably, didn’t budge. Worse, he let out a small, high-pitched bark—almost as if he was mocking Jungkook.
You couldn’t hold back your laugh. “Can’t handle a tiny dog, Jungkook? How do you expect to handle a bigger one, then?” you teased, stepping closer and standing on your tiptoes to peek over his shoulder. Your eyes lit up as you turned your attention to the spoiled little dog. “Yeontan, hi!”
And just like that, as if he had only been waiting for the right person to acknowledge him, Yeontan immediately stood up and strutted toward you, his fluffy body practically wiggling with excitement.
Jungkook let out an exaggerated groan, rolling his eyes as he watched you crouch down to greet the dog like he was the most important being on earth. “Unbelievable,” he muttered.
“Maybe he was just angry,” he said after a beat, crouching down beside you, watching as Yeontan happily accepted your affection. “He doesn’t like seeing men. Yeontan hates guys who aren’t me or Taehyung.”
You scoffed, turning your gaze from the dog to Jungkook, who was wearing the smuggest grin imaginable. “Oh, really?” you said, raising an eyebrow. “Yeontan or Jungkook?”
“Both,” he admitted without an ounce of shame.
Jungkook shot a glare at Hoseok as he walked off, a little annoyed at how casually he had brushed past him, clearly unfazed by Jungkook’s grand gesture. He was about to ask who he was when you spoke again, your voice teasing.
“So, what’s with the ridiculously large sign?”
Jungkook straightened up, feeling the weight of the oversized cardboard sign hanging awkwardly from his hands. “I needed to make sure you would see me,” he said with a sheepish grin.
You tilted your head, smirking. “Fate couldn’t do it for me?”
Jungkook chuckled, lifting the sign a little higher as if to prove a point. “Sometimes you need to take matters into your own hands.”
You rolled your eyes, but a small grin tugged at the corners of your lips. Without saying anything further, you stood up, stretching a bit, and started walking beside him. Neither of you had said where you were headed, but for once, it didn’t matter.
It was Tuesday, and usually, you would’ve been heading home by now—because it was 7 PM, and you had your usual routine of getting some rest and preparing for the next day. But tonight, for reasons you couldn’t quite pinpoint, you found yourself letting your feet carry you wherever Jungkook was going. Something about his presence had a way of making you forget about your usual need for structure, leaving you open to the idea of spontaneity.
You walked in silence for a while, the evening air crisp, but there was a sense of comfort in it. Something that felt easy. Even though it wasn’t part of your plan, you didn’t mind.
Jungkook beamed, motioning toward the arcade entrance as if it were some grand discovery. “Look where fate has brought us,” he said, excitement lacing his voice.
You raised an eyebrow, crossing your arms as you watched Yeontan enthusiastically tug at his leash, barking at the door as if demanding to be let inside. “So, fate is Yeontan now?” you teased, shaking your head with a small smile.
Jungkook followed your gaze to the tiny dog at his feet, and though he hated to admit it, maybe—just maybe—the little troublemaker had actually led them here. But there was no way he was going to let Yeontan think he was in charge.
“Are you up for some arcade games?” he asked instead, his voice casual, but there was a hopeful glint in his eyes.
You hesitated. You had an early start tomorrow. A long, exhausting day filled with classes, readings, and responsibilities you couldn’t afford to neglect. And you knew yourself well—without at least eight hours of sleep, you’d be miserable.
But then you looked at Jungkook. His wide, expectant eyes darting everywhere except at you, as if afraid of your answer. The way he fidgeted slightly, like he was already bracing for rejection. And then there was Yeontan, tongue out, tail wagging, practically vibrating with anticipation.
And somehow, against all logic, you found yourself sighing in defeat.
“Fine,” you muttered, already regretting it and yet… not really.
Jungkook’s face instantly lit up, as if you’d just agreed to something life-changing. “Really?”
You rolled your eyes, already stepping toward the entrance. “Don’t make me change my mind, Jeon.”
And just like that, you let yourself be pulled into another one of his ridiculous, impulsive adventures.
“Alright, buddy. Stay with the nice man, okay? And please—please—don’t make a scene.”
Jungkook crouched down to Yeontan’s level, placing both hands on his tiny, fluffy face as he spoke in a hushed but serious tone.
Jungkook sighed, reluctantly handing the leash to the bodyguard stationed at the entrance. The man arched a brow, clearly questioning why he was suddenly assigned dog-sitting duties, but before he could refuse, Jungkook flashed him a bright, pleading smile—eyes wide, all innocence and desperation.
And just like that, the bodyguard gave in with a resigned sigh. No one could say no to Jeon Jungkook’s puppy eyes.
“Good choice, sir,” Jungkook said with a dramatic bow before turning on his heel and striding into the arcade, Yeontan’s protests ringing behind him.
“You are literally the worst dogsitter,” you said, shaking your head as you followed. “You just abandoned him with a total stranger for some arcade games.”
Jungkook glanced over his shoulder at the entrance, watching as the bodyguard—who initially looked reluctant—was now gently scratching Yeontan’s head, looking far too soft for his intimidating size.
“He’ll be fine,” Jungkook shrugged, stuffing his hands into his pockets. “Honestly, it’s better this way. If Yeontan could talk, I’d be dead. Taehyung would bury me alive for this betrayal.”
You rolled your eyes. “And yet, you’re still so proud of yourself.”
“Of course I am,” he said, grinning as he came to a stop in front of the claw machine. He rubbed his hands together, cracking his knuckles as if preparing for battle. “Because—I’m about to win you a plushie.”
Jungkook bounced on the balls of his feet, rolling his shoulders like an athlete preparing for a high-stakes match. His fingers flexed in anticipation before gripping the joystick with the confidence of someone who had spent far too many hours mastering the art of claw machines.
“Alright, tell me—which one’s coming home with you?” he asked, his eyes gleaming with excitement.
You scanned the collection of plushies crammed inside the machine, your gaze immediately settling on one in particular.
“The bunny,” you said without hesitation.
Jungkook followed your line of sight, nodding in approval. The plushie was soft-looking, slightly lopsided, with tiny front teeth peeking out in a way that made it seem both mischievous and endearing. Unknowingly, a small smile tugged at your lips—it reminded you of someone.
Jungkook didn’t miss the way your expression softened, but instead of commenting, he shot you a wink, his usual playful confidence dialed up to maximum.
“Consider it yours,” he declared, cracking his knuckles dramatically before gripping the joystick like he was about to defuse a bomb.
“You do know that claw machines are scams, right?” you say, crossing your arms as you lean over the machine.
“Nothing is a scam if you’re skilled enough,”
You roll your eyes. “Right. And let me guess—fate is on your side?”
Jungkook grins. “Fate, skill, and pure determination.” He pushes the button.
The claw descends. Grabs the bunny. Lifts it.
And then—drops it right before the prize slot.
Jungkook’s jaw drops. His hands go to his head like he’s just witnessed the betrayal of a lifetime. “No way,” he whispers.
You snort. “I told you. Scams.”
But Jungkook isn’t one to admit defeat. Oh no. He pulls out more coins, inserting them like a man with a mission. “I will not lose to a machine,” he declares.
Attempt #2—fail.
Attempt #3—even worse.
Attempt #7—Jungkook is full-on yelling at the machine now. “You're rigged. Just admit it!”
By now, a small crowd has gathered to witness the absolute tragedy of Jeon Jungkook vs. the Claw Machine.
You sigh, shaking your head. “Let me try.”
Jungkook, looking utterly defeated, steps aside with a pout. “Fine. But if you win on your first try, I might actually cry.”
You take his spot, glance at the plushie you want, and move the claw with ease. One button press later, the claw grabs onto a cute little bunny plushie, lifts it, and—
Drops it perfectly into the prize slot.
Jungkook screams. “No way. No. Way.”
You bend down, grab the plushie, and hand it to him with a smirk. “For you, since you clearly can’t win one yourself.”
Jungkook clutches the plushie to his chest, looking at you with something close to awe. “I think I might be in love with you.”
You snort. “Shut up.”
You tugged at Jungkook’s sleeve, pulling him along with a surprising sense of urgency. You had a goal in mind, and there was no way you were going to let him chicken out. The moment you spotted it, the shooter laser game stood out like a beacon—something you used to love as a kid. Your dad used to take you there, and you’d always win, no matter how many times you played.
You hadn’t planned on telling Jungkook that, though. You wanted to see how determined he would be first, how seriously he would take this. It wasn’t just about winning—it was about making it fun, and seeing if he could keep up with your competitive side.
“Let’s do that,” you said, pointing at the brightly lit, futuristic shooter zone. Jungkook barely hesitated before his eyes lit up with excitement.
“Ready for some action?” he asked, almost too eager, as he handed his plushie bunny to the girl at the counter, his grin never fading. He slid on the neon vest with practiced ease, strapping the plastic gun around his waist with an exaggerated flourish.
“Okay, let me protect you,” he teased with a wink, stepping in front of you and walking toward the entrance of the game area, shoulders straight, as if he was about to face down a villain in a movie.
The mission was clear—this was going to be your game, and Jungkook was about to find out what it meant to face off against a determined opponent.
The moment the game started, you immediately fell into the zone, your eyes locked on your targets, fingers steady as you aimed and shot. But then, there was Jungkook, totally living his own action-movie fantasy. As you focused on picking off other players, he started yelling, “Cover me!” and then, with no hesitation, he dropped to the floor and did a full-on combat roll—completely unnecessary, but so Jungkook.
While you were racking up points, carefully picking off your targets, Jungkook seemed determined to make this game a one-man mission. He wasn’t playing it safe like the others, crouching behind barriers and taking strategic shots. Instead, he would rush directly into the fray, charging at his opponents with a reckless abandon, all while you watched in disbelief as he kept getting shot down, over and over again. It was like he was playing a completely different game.
The arena was dimly lit, the flashing lights of the game casting shadows and colors everywhere. But every time you caught sight of Jungkook, your attention was momentarily pulled away from the game. His face would light up with an almost childlike joy, his eyes locked in concentration, and his lips pressed tightly in a determined grimace as he aimed, his brow furrowed. Despite the madness of it all, you couldn’t help but grin at his antics.
As you watched him get shot again you leaned closer and whispered, “You’re not doing it right.” You quickly reached out, guiding his hands to hold the gun correctly, adjusting his stance so he’d be able to actually aim and shoot properly.
“It was right,” he muttered, a stubborn edge to his voice, but he didn’t protest as he immediately followed your correction, the gun now resting more naturally in his grip.
“You keep dying,” you pointed out, trying not to get distracted by the ridiculousness of the situation. “And you’re losing points because—”
Suddenly, he spun around, eyes wide as he shouted, “Behind you!” into your ear, as he shot at an enemy who had snuck up on you. His face lit up as he made the shot, turning back to you with a cheeky grin. “Call me if you need help,” he winked, clearly pleased with himself, and then, with zero regard for the other players, he dropped to the floor and started crawling across the arena like it was some kind of military operation.
You blinked, stunned for a moment. Literally no one else was crawling on the floor like him. But Jungkook? He was on his hands and knees, dragging himself across the ground as if there were some kind of tactical advantage to it. You couldn’t stop yourself from laughing, shaking your head at how ridiculously serious he was taking it all.
As the final seconds of the game ticked down, you caught sight of Jungkook once more. He had, once again, gotten himself shot for what felt like the thousandth time. He was lying dramatically on the floor, his body limp and still, as if he had been mortally wounded. But then, just as you were about to walk past, he reached out, grabbing your shoulder for support, and whispered in a voice that was way too serious for the situation.
“You must go on without me,” he said, gripping your hand with exaggerated intensity, his voice shaking as if he were facing his last moments.
He fell back dramatically, playing up his ‘dying’ act. But you weren’t about to fall for it.
You rolled your eyes, barely able to hide your smirk as you shoved him off. “You’re so annoying.”
And when the final scores flashed across the screen, your name was on top with a higher score than his. You couldn’t resist the small, victorious smirk that tugged at your lips. “Guess I don’t need your protection after all.”
Despite his over-the-top drama, he still grinned, following you like a lost puppy, not missing a beat. “Alright, alright, you may have won this round,” he said with a playful huff. “But the night is young. Let’s see who comes out on top in the next game.”
Jungkook knew he had to play this one smart. He had strategized this moment down to the last detail, carefully guiding you toward the dance battle game. This was his domain. If there was one game he could dominate, it was this one.
So, with all the confidence in the world, he turned to you and declared, “Fate says if I win, you owe me a wish.”
You scoffed, arms crossed. “When did fate ever say that?”
Jungkook waved a hand dismissively. “Just now. She whispered it to me.”
You rolled your eyes but stepped onto the dance pad anyway, letting him have his moment.
The game started, and that’s when you realized you were in trouble. Jungkook wasn’t just playing—he was performing. He was jumping, spinning, and moving like he was on a concert stage, while you were desperately trying to keep up with the arrows flashing across the screen. It was clear within seconds that he wasn’t holding back.
And then, as if he needed to rub it in, he ended the routine with a dramatic knee slide, stopping just in front of you. With a cocky smirk, he pointed at you like he had just finished a world tour concert.
“You must grant my wish now,” he said, completely out of breath but grinning like he had just won the lottery.
You, still panting, narrowed your eyes. “And what exactly is this wish?”
Jungkook didn’t hesitate. He leaned in slightly, eyes twinkling with mischief. “A date.”
Your breath hitched. You scoffed, trying to play it cool even as you felt warmth creeping up your neck. “You just embarrassed yourself in front of a bunch of strangers for a date?”
Jungkook only grinned wider. “I’d embarrass myself anywhere if it gets me one with you.”
Yeah. That shut you up real quick.
That night, sleep was impossible. You tossed and turned, flipping your pillow to the cooler side, only to sigh in frustration when it didn’t help. At some point, you kicked off your sheets, but even the newfound freedom didn’t stop the restlessness creeping through your body.
And then there was the bunny plushie. Sitting there. Staring at you.
It was ridiculous how something so small could feel so significant. But it wasn’t just any plushie—it was the one you had won and gave to Jungkook, the one you had picked without really thinking, the one he had insisted you keep.
“You won it. You chose this one for a reason.”
His words played in your mind, looping like a song you couldn’t turn off. And what irritated you the most was that he wasn’t wrong. You had picked it instinctively, drawn to its slightly reckless charm—the little front teeth peeking out, the way its ears flopped in different directions. It reminded you of something. Of someone.
But that was the part you hated. Because you couldn’t explain it. There was no rational reason, no evidence, no logical conclusion to why this plushie—why he—was suddenly taking up so much space in your thoughts. It was an unsolved case, an unfinished puzzle, and that alone should have been enough to frustrate you.
And yet… somehow, it felt right.
And that? That was the most confusing part of all.
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The first thing Jungkook did when he woke up was check his messages, his heart momentarily freezing in his chest before he sighed in relief.
Taehyung had only sent him a picture—an ugly close-up of himself mid-yawn, Yeontan happily licking his cheek. That was it. Nothing unusual. Nothing suspicious. Which meant… he didn’t know about his betrayal.
Shaking off the thought, he did what he always did—instinctively opened his favorite astrology website, scrolling straight to his sign.
Virgo: Don’t let yourself get down because of your poor love life!
Jungkook nearly threw his phone across the room.
He bolted upright, staring at the screen like it had personally offended him.
“Poor love life?!” he scoffed, running a hand through his messy hair.
He read it again. And again. As if, by some miracle, the words might shift and correct themselves.
“My love life isn’t poor,” he muttered defensively, brows furrowed. “It’s… just slow. A slow burn. Romantic. Building suspense.”
But then his expression faltered.
Three days.
It had been three whole days since that night at the arcade. Since he walked you home. Since you laughed at his dumb jokes and promised to text him.
And yet, his phone remained silent.
At first, he told himself you were just busy. No big deal. Then, by the second day, he convinced himself you were doing it on purpose, making him wait—a power move. But now? Now, as the third day stretched on, he was starting to wonder if… if maybe the website was right.
Maybe his love life wasn’t just slow.
Maybe it was dead on arrival.
With a dramatic groan, he flopped onto his back again, phone resting on his chest. His mind was racing, spiraling into increasingly dramatic scenarios.
Was this karma? Was this because he let Yeontan stay with a stranger at the arcade?
Jungkook sat up, eyes wide with realization.
It was the dog. It had to be.
He gasped, sitting up. “Shit. Is the universe punishing me?!”
Panic surged through him as he hovered over your contact.
(not) my crush.
His fingers twitched, itching to type something—anything. But what was he even supposed to say?
hey, did u forget about me? No, too desperate.
hey, are you mad at me? No, too pathetic.
hey, my horoscope just wrecked my entire self-esteem, please respond so I can prove it wrong? …Okay, maybe that one was the closest to the truth.
But instead of texting, he groaned and shoved a pillow over his face, muffling his frustration.
He was losing his mind.
And the worst part?
He was starting to think the stupid website was right.
Jungkook grabbed his phone with newfound determination, scrolling down urgently until he found your horoscope. If there was anything in this world that could give him an answer, it was this.
His eyes darted over the words, his heart pounding as he read: Today, you may feel a little more anxious than usual… maybe it’s time to open your heart?
Jungkook exhaled, a slow breath of relief washing over him.
Finally. Something to work with.
If you were feeling anxious, he could fix that. If you needed comfort, he could be there. And if there was even the smallest chance that you were truly considering opening your heart—like the blog suggested—then he would make damn sure that heart was opening for him.
That was all the confirmation he needed.
Jungkook barely took the time to breathe as he rushed through his morning routine.
Shirt—on. Shoes—on. Teeth—brushed, face—washed. Hair? A mess. But he didn’t care. He had bigger things to focus on.
Your horoscope had given him an opening, a chance—an actual sign from the universe. And if there was one thing Jungkook believed in, it was signs.
As he ran, Jungkook quickly glanced at his phone. Saturday, 10 AM. Which meant you were probably at the coffee shop by now.
He could already picture it perfectly—your usual spot by the window, an oversized cup of iced coffee sitting beside you. You once told him you liked it because you could leave it untouched for hours and it would still be the same temperature. He had laughed at the logic, but the way your eyes had lit up when you explained it had made it seem like the most brilliant thing in the world.
Then there was your laptop, decorated with colorful stickers—each one telling a small story. Jungkook loved those stickers. Loved watching you focus so intensely on your screen, completely lost in thought, before he inevitably interrupted with a question about one of them. You’d roll your eyes, sighing in mock annoyance.
“You’re distracting me,” you would say, but you’d always answer anyway. The thought made him grin.
Yeah. You were definitely at the café.
And Jungkook was going to be there too.
By the time Jungkook reached the café, he was out of breath. He couldn’t remember the last time he had run this fast—maybe during the high school tournament when he had spent months training for the final match.
He slowed his pace as he reached the front of the café, his eyes scanning the window. And there you were. Your face was pressed against the table, looking exhausted or maybe just lost in your own thoughts. Your usual large iced coffee was nowhere to be seen—replaced by a small cup, barely touched. But your laptop, with all its little stickers, was still there. You were still there.
Jungkook felt a rush of relief, but also a tightening in his chest. Something was off, and it was clear now. His horoscope had said you were feeling anxious, and everything about the way you were sitting, slumped over your table, told him his hunch was right. You weren’t just having a bad day; it seemed like something more. And he wasn’t going to let that slide.
With one last deep breath, Jungkook pushed open the door to the café, his focus sharp. He wasn’t here for some grand gesture today. No, this time, his mission was clear: he had to make your day feel better. Because if your horoscope was even half right, you needed someone to help. Someone to show up.
And that someone, he decided, would be him.
“Weather’s good, the sky’s blue, and I think we should go for a little bit of a run,” Jungkook said with a smile, his voice light but full of purpose as he approached your table. He tucked his hands into the pockets of his joggers, giving you an amused look.
Your head jerked up at the sound of his voice, and before you could even process it, you found yourself screaming, your face flushing bright red. The sound was involuntary, escaping you before you could stop it. In a panic, you slammed your laptop shut, suddenly feeling self-conscious, though you couldn’t even pinpoint why.
“Why? Am I that ugly?” he muttered under his breath. But it wasn’t that at all—it was the opposite. Jungkook stood there in front of you, and suddenly, you couldn’t breathe right.
For the past three days, it had been hard to even focus on anything other than him. Ever since the arcade, you couldn’t stop thinking about him. Your mind was constantly drawn back to the things he did, the things he said, his mannerisms, and the way he made you feel. There was something about him—something undeniable and confusing that stirred your emotions.
It wasn’t love, you were sure of that… but it wasn’t just attraction either. It was something in between, something you couldn’t wrap your head around. And that only made it worse. You hated not being able to define what you were feeling. You were used to rational thoughts, to clear explanations, and this? This wasn’t it. And that made you anxious.
He stood there, dressed in a full oversized Nike tracksuit that was beige and blue. His hair was messier than usual, like he hadn’t bothered to fix it before rushing out the door. It seemed to have grown a bit longer since the last time you saw him, though you couldn’t even believe it had only been three days. He looked out of breath, cheeks flushed from his little sprint to the café, and somehow, that only made him more irresistible.
“So, how about that run?” he asked, voice light, but his gaze never leaving yours. It was almost like he was waiting for you to say something—anything—that would break the tension.
“You know I can’t go running, Jungkook. My finals are in two weeks, and—”
Before you can finish, he flops down onto the couch beside you. Not just beside you—right beside you. Close enough that you can see the curve of his eyelashes, the way his round eyes widen with innocent pleading. Close enough to notice a faint scar on his cheek, one you’ve never noticed before.
“Please?” He blinks up at you, fluttering his lashes in an exaggerated attempt to be cute.
You narrow your eyes. “That’s not gonna work on me.”
“Okay, fine,” he huffs, crossing his arms. “Then let’s talk logic. You owe me a date. I won the dance battle, fair and square.” He frowns, eyebrows scrunching like he’s personally offended that you’d forget such an important event.
“You seriously want our date to be… running?” you ask, raising an eyebrow.
Jungkook beams, but you don’t miss the way his eyes flicker to your hands—how you’re already packing your stuff despite your protests. “It’s not what I originally had in mind,” he admits, standing up and—without hesitation—grabbing your backpack for you. “But if it’s the only way to get you to spend time with me, then sure. Let’s make it a date.”
“You really can’t take no for an answer, can you?”
At that, he simply shrugs, tilting his head in a way that makes him look entirely too smug. “Maybe I should become a lawyer too. I clearly know how to argue my way to a win.”
You roll your eyes, following him out of the café as he leads the way toward your apartment, two blocks away.
“Yeah, well, cases can’t be solved with astrology or whatever,” you tease, nudging his shoulder playfully.
Jungkook gasps, dramatically clutching his chest. “Excuse me? Are you suggesting the stars don’t have all the answers?”
You roll your eyes. “I’m implying that the stars didn’t predict you annoying me into a run today.”
Jungkook clicks his tongue, shaking his head. “Oh, but they did,” he says, reaching for his phone. “Your horoscope literally said you should open your heart today. And what better way to open your heart than a little bit of cardio?”
“You have a serious problem,” you mumble, but you don’t stop walking beside him.
He grins, triumphant. “And yet, here you are, willingly going on our first official date. Running,” he emphasizes, like it’s the most romantic thing in the world.
“You really think this is a date?” you ask, raising an eyebrow.
Jungkook stops in his tracks, turning to face you with the biggest, most innocent puppy-eyed look you’ve ever seen. “Of course it is,” he says, completely serious. “Spending time together, getting our hearts racing, maybe even falling dramatically into each other’s arms if one of us trips—”
“That’s just you being clumsy.”
“—And afterward, we get smoothies, because every date needs a cute ending,” he finishes, ignoring your interruption.
After making a quick stop at your apartment to change into something more comfortable, you step outside to find Jungkook already waiting for you. He’s stretching, his arms reaching up toward the sky, head tilted back slightly as he loosens his muscles. The sight is almost too much—like he walked straight out of a Nike ad.
“You know, I’m very competitive,” he warns, rolling his shoulders as you step beside him. “So you’d better be ready to keep up.”
Without hesitation, you mirror his movements, stretching your arms as well. “Please,” you scoff. “I was in track when I was thirteen. You should be the one worried.”
Jungkook raises an eyebrow, clearly amused. “Oh? Guess we’ll see about that.”
And just like that, the two of you are standing there in the middle of the street, stretching like absolute idiots. But somehow, you don’t care. Because at least you’re two idiots together.
And you should have known—Jungkook was a fitness guy. The kind of person who could run for hours, barely breaking a sweat, and still have enough energy to challenge you to a push-up contest afterward. His stamina was unreal, almost unfair.
You had always been pretty confident in yours, but something about this run was different. Maybe it was the way he decided to casually shrug off his jacket, leaving him in just a fitted white shirt that clung to him way too well. Or maybe it was the way your breath hitched—not just from running, but from realizing you were definitely staring.
Jungkook was always ahead, glancing back every now and then with that ridiculously bright smile of his, teasing you, daring you to catch up. And when you did—because, of course, he slowed down just enough to let you—he only grinned wider, as if this was exactly where he wanted you to be.
And for the first time today, you weren’t thinking about finals. Or stress. Or anything else weighing you down.
Because that’s the thing about Jungkook. He’s this endless ball of energy, always smiling, always pulling you into moments that feel lighter, better—like today. And maybe that’s exactly why you—wait, like! Like. That’s why you like Jungkook.
You wonder how he knew today was a terrible day. Maybe his horoscope nonsense wasn’t so much nonsense after all. The thought makes you laugh—only to immediately regret it when you realize laughing while running is a terrible idea.
Your breath catches, and within seconds, you’re doubling over, coughing like an idiot. Great.
Jungkook stops instantly, his teasing grin replaced with concern as he jogs back to you.
“Are you okay?” he asks, his voice softer now as he gently pats your back. You barely manage to throw a thumbs-up between coughs, and he sighs in relief.
“Let’s take a break, okay? You’re doing so well.”
And just like that, your heart does something weird. Because suddenly, it’s not the run making it race—it’s him. His voice, his touch, his stupidly sweet encouragement.
Honestly? You think you could run for another hour now. Maybe even two.
The two of you sit in silence for a moment, watching as other joggers pass by, their rhythmic footsteps blending into the sound of the wind rustling through the trees.
“It’s so pretty,” Jungkook murmurs, his voice softer than usual, his eyes fixed on the river. “I love running.”
For once, there’s no teasing lilt in his voice, no mischievous glint in his doe eyes. Just quiet admiration. Peace. Relief.
It’s a side of him you haven’t seen before. A side you—unknowingly, unconsciously—want to know more about.
“You know,” you say after a moment, your breath finally evening out, “I don’t actually know anything about you.”
Jungkook turns to you, his usual grin creeping back onto his face. “You know my name is Jungkook,” he starts, tilting his head slightly. “I have a best friend named Taehyung, who has a terrible dog.”
You huff out a laugh, shaking your head as he continues.
“You also know I’m a Virgo. And an ENFP.” He lifts a finger, as if he’s listing off important facts. “You know I’m a dance machine, and a—”
“Okay, okay, I get it,” you interrupt, rolling your eyes before he can spiral into one of his dramatic monologues.
Jungkook just chuckles, nudging your knee with his. And as you sit there, catching your breath beside him, you realize something—maybe knowing Jungkook isn’t about the big things. Maybe it’s about the small moments like this.
Jungkook exhales slowly, his gaze dropping to his feet. “I just don’t feel like there’s a lot to know about me,” he finally admits, voice quieter than before. “I’m not doing anything prestigious like law school. Or, well… anything at all.” He lets out a small scoff, but you can hear it—that vulnerability laced beneath his usual playfulness.
You frown slightly. “You don’t have to do something like that to be worthy.”
He doesn’t look up, just keeps staring at his shoes. His toes wiggle inside them, like some kind of nervous habit, and he lets out a small chuckle—but you know it’s not real.
“You probably think I’m an idiot for believing in stupid stuff like this,” he mutters, scratching at the back of his neck. “I mean, you’re a law student. You obviously like solid facts. Things that aren’t based on some random website.”
You don’t say anything, just let him keep talking.
“Today, my horoscope said I was gonna have a bad day,” he continues, exhaling sharply through his nose. “And every time I read something like that, I do everything in my power to prove it wrong.”
For the first time, you really listen. You’ve always thought horoscopes were just an excuse—something people used to justify things happening to them instead of taking control of their own lives.
But maybe Jungkook sees it differently. Maybe, for him, it’s not about letting the universe decide his fate. Maybe it’s about fighting against it—choosing to seek out the good, even when the bad feels inevitable.
And maybe… that’s not so stupid after all.
After what felt like a long minute of silence—a silence that, surprisingly, wasn’t uncomfortable at all—you both finally start walking home. Conversation with Jungkook is always effortless, flowing like a river with no real destination, just moving naturally from one topic to another. He never lets the quiet stretch too long before filling it with something, whether it’s an observation, a joke, or a random thought that pops into his head.
And you love that.
By the time you arrive in front of your apartment, smoothies in hand just like he promised, you almost wish you could go for another round—just to spend more time with him.
You hesitate for a moment, watching as he sips on his drink, seemingly in no rush to leave either.
Then, just as you turn to head inside, you stop. “By the way—”
Jungkook instantly turns around at the sound of your voice, eyes wide, like he’s afraid he missed something important.
“I’m still waiting for the real date,” you say with a teasing smile, tilting your head slightly.
And before he can respond, before you can see whatever stunned expression is on his face, you finally step inside.
Jungkook stares at your closed door for a long second, then looks down at his smoothie, shaking his head with a laugh.
Yeah. He’s never been happier than right now.
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If Jungkook had to describe what he was feeling right now in one word, it would be: terrible.
He was a walking disaster, pacing around his room, running a frustrated hand through his already-messy hair as he stared at the absolute war zone that was now his bed. Clothes were scattered everywhere—shirts he had tried on and tossed aside, jeans that didn’t feel quite right, shoes lined up in pairs as if they were about to be judged in a runway competition.
And still, nothing felt good enough.
The worst part? He had to swallow his pride and FaceTime Taehyung for advice. And that was truly, truly humiliating.
Because now, instead of being helpful, Taehyung was leaning into the camera, squinting like he was examining a piece of evidence.
“Bro,” Taehyung finally said, exasperated, “you look good in everything. Just wear clothes and leave the house.”
Jungkook groaned, rubbing his face. That should have been reassuring, but it wasn’t.
Still, after much internal debate (and Taehyung threatening to hang up if he didn’t stop whining), Jungkook finally decided: he just had to be himself.
And if that meant showing up in his usual slightly-effortless-but-still-cool style, then so be it.
Honestly? You weren’t doing any better.
Jungkook hadn’t even told you what the plan was. Instead, he had sent a series of texts that were so Jungkook that you almost regretted asking for clarification in the first place.
jk sexy virgo boy [4:32 PM] :
at least have something on u!
not that i would mind if not!!! :00
ewwww no!!! i know i shouldnt ask fucking taehyung for advice when it comes to that
you know what? just put on sneakers
oh and something you don’t mind really
…Yeah. That helped absolutely nothing.
You stared at your wardrobe for a moment, trying to make a decision that wouldn’t be too much, but also wouldn’t look like you were just casually hanging out with him as if you were old friends. You considered a dress, but it felt like overkill. Jeans were too laid back, too easygoing.
You finally decided on a pair of pants that were comfortable, but not too casual, and paired them with a simple t-shirt. You hoped that, by whatever weird cosmic force Jungkook believed in—maybe fate, or whatever the universe was trying to tell him—he would see that you weren’t trying to look good, but maybe just trying to survive this. You just hoped he wouldn’t see it as you dressing to impress. After all, you were definitely worried about looking like complete shit.
Jungkook was still a mess by the time he pulled up in front of your building.
Today was supposed to be his chance to impress you, so he had taken Taehyung’s advice—again—and took his car. Apparently, girls liked cars. Especially sleek, black ones like his. Jungkook had been skeptical at first, but Taehyung had said it with such confidence that he figured, why not?
Now? He deeply regretted listening to him.
At first, he had done his best to look smooth—one hand confidently gripping the steering wheel, the other resting lazily on the passenger seat like he was starring in some kind of car commercial. But the moment he actually arrived, all that supposed confidence vanished.
Because now, there was no avoiding it. In just a few minutes, he’d see you again.
His pulse picked up, thoughts racing faster than they should. It wasn’t even a big deal—just a date. A casual date. A hangout, even. So why did it feel like his brain was short-circuiting? Why did his palms feel clammy against the leather of the wheel?
And why, for the love of everything holy, had he decided this was the perfect time to struggle with parallel parking?
Five minutes. That’s how long he had been at this. Five whole minutes of inching forward, reversing, adjusting, reversing again, somehow making it worse every time. There were other parking spots, easier ones, but he had stubbornly chosen this one—the one closest to your front door. It made sense. It would make things smoother when you got in the car.
Except nothing about this was smooth.
He exhaled sharply, gripping the wheel. Alright. One more time. Just a few small movements, and—
A sudden knock on his window made him jump.
A noise—something between a squeak and a gasp—escaped him before he could stop it. His heart slammed against his ribs as he turned his head in pure panic, only to find you standing outside, arms crossed, amusement dancing in your eyes.
Jungkook froze. His mind blanked.
For a second, all he could do was stare at you, caught like a deer in headlights. Then, in a desperate attempt to salvage his dignity, he quickly shifted—one arm thrown back over the seat, posture adjusting into what he hoped was a nonchalant pose. With exaggerated ease, he rolled down the window, schooling his expression into something cool.
“Hey,” he said, voice only slightly strained. “What’s up?”
You raise an eyebrow, arms crossed as you peer down at him through the open window. “Having some trouble there, Fast & Furious?” your voice is light, teasing—but not unkind.
Jungkook visibly tenses, his grip on the steering wheel tightening for a split second before he clears his throat. “Uh, yeah… just, you know, making sure I’m not blocking anyone.” He runs a hand through his already-messy hair, a nervous habit you’ve started to pick up on. “Gotta be considerate of others.”
Your eyes flick toward his car—angled awkwardly, one wheel nearly kissing the curb while the other juts out into the street in a way that is definitely not considerate of anyone. You raise an eyebrow, amused.
“Right,” you drawl, nodding slowly. “Super considerate. I’m sure the other drivers will really appreciate the creative use of space.”
At that, Jungkook groans dramatically and throws his head back against the seat. “Okay, fine, I suck at parking. Happy?”
You laugh, leaning against the door. “A little.”
His head snaps toward you, scandalized. “Wow. You’re supposed to be on my side.”
“I don’t remember signing up for that.”
Jungkook narrows his eyes, but there’s no real bite to it. He’s fighting a smile, the tension in his shoulders finally loosening. With a sigh, he shifts the car into reverse. “Alright, one more time. If I don’t get it this time, we’re Ubering.”
You smirk. “Deal.”
Jungkook straightens up, hands gripping the wheel with newfound determination. You step back, watching with amusement as he very slowly attempts to correct his angle, his bottom lip caught between his teeth in deep concentration.
And, to his credit—he does manage to park properly on the next try.
You make a show of clapping as he steps out of the car, locking it behind him. “Wow. Look at you. A functional adult.”
Jungkook rolls his eyes, but he’s grinning now, stuffing his hands into his pockets as he falls into step beside you. “Ha ha. Let’s just go before you hurt my ego even more.”
Still smiling, you nudge him playfully. “No promises.”
Jungkook, ever the gentleman (when he wants to be), holds the passenger door open for you before settling into his own seat. He’s still keeping up this air of mystery, refusing to spill any details about where exactly he’s taking you. It’s your date—still such a weird thing to call it—but apparently, you’re not allowed to know a single thing about it.
You try everything. Nudging his shoulder lightly, poking at his arm, even giving him your best puppy eyes. But all you get in response is a dramatic sigh and a warning.
“If you keep that up, I swear I’m gonna crash this car,” he mutters, gripping the wheel like it personally offended him.
“You’re so dramatic,” you huff, leaning back into your seat with an exaggerated whine when it becomes obvious he won’t budge. “At least give me a hint.”
“Nope.”
“You could literally be kidnapping me right now.” You glance out the window, as if hoping that alone will make him talk. “Hoseok asked me to send my location, by the way.”
Jungkook scoffs, barely sparing you a glance as he switches lanes. “Well, tell that Hoseok guy that tonight, you won’t be giving him any updates. You’ll be way too busy with me.” He grins proudly, wiggling his eyebrows like he just said something outrageously smooth.
You give him a long, unimpressed look before deadpanning, “You sure are taking my time. Five minutes to park? Yeah.”
His smile immediately drops. “Oh my God, let it go!”
“Never.”
You were glad you hadn’t pressed Jungkook for more details because, as soon as you saw where he had taken you, excitement bubbled up in your chest so fast you practically bounced in your seat.
“Karaoke?” you exclaimed, eyes lighting up as you took in the neon sign above the entrance.
Before Jungkook even had the chance to step out and open the door for you like he had originally planned—because he was, in fact, on his best gentleman behavior tonight—you were already scrambling out of the car, clapping your hands together like a little kid who just got the biggest candy bar in the store.
Jungkook, now standing on the other side of the car, stuffed his hands into the pockets of his trousers, willing himself to stay cool and collected. But inside? He was screaming. You loved the idea just as much as he had hoped, and that was enough to make his heart do a full-on gymnastics routine.
Still, he played it off like it was no big deal. Running a hand through his hair, he shrugged, forcing a casual expression onto his face. “Yeah,” he said, voice dripping with feigned nonchalance. “I think it’s time for you to witness my legendary singing skills.” His tone was cocky, the kind that made you roll your eyes and laugh at the same time.
“Oh, legendary, huh?” You raised an eyebrow, crossing your arms. “I hope you know I take karaoke very seriously.”
Jungkook only smirked, stepping ahead of you as he pulled open the door. “Then you better bring your A-game, because I don’t lose.”
As you both made your way toward the entrance, Jungkook suddenly picked up his pace, clearly determined to be the first one inside. But you weren’t about to let him win that easily. You mirrored his steps, speeding up just as fast, the two of you now locked in a completely unnecessary—and yet highly competitive—race to the door.
Unsurprisingly, Jungkook reached the counter first, flashing a triumphant smirk as he leaned against it, effortlessly slipping into his “bad boy” act. He gave his name to the staff with an air of cool indifference, as if he hadn’t just practically sprinted to get there first. You rolled your eyes at his theatrics but followed along as the employee led you both toward the private booth he had booked.
The moment you stepped inside, the dimly lit karaoke room came to life with glowing neon lights, casting streaks of pink and blue across the walls. Jungkook took one look around, nodding in satisfaction before turning to you with a cocky grin.
“Alright,” he announced, completely serious. “This is the place where you’ll fall in love with me.”
The words left his lips so casually, so matter-of-fact, that it took you a second to process them. When you did, you let out a scoff, but no sarcastic remark came to mind—because the truth was, you had already fallen.
And if you let yourself think about it any longer, you knew you’d realize something even worse.
That no matter how much you fought it, no matter how ridiculous he could be… you were probably going to fall even more.
It was nearly impossible not to laugh at Jungkook’s antics. The way he threw himself into every song—whether it was an intense rock performance, complete with dramatic jumps and exaggerated guitar riffs made with his mouth, or a heartbreaking ballad where he closed his eyes and poured his entire soul into each lyric—was something out of a fever dream. He wasn’t just a good singer, he was a great one. And beyond that, he was a performer. Every move, every exaggerated gesture, was so unapologetically him that you couldn’t even think about taking the mic away.
By the time he finished his latest emotional masterpiece, a song so devastating that you half-expected him to drop to his knees in despair, he turned to you with a mischievous glint in his eyes.
“Come on,” he said, slightly out of breath but grinning. “I’ll show you how good we work together.”
Before you could protest, he grabbed your hand, effortlessly pulling you up from the couch. The warmth of his touch sent an embarrassing flutter through your stomach, and as he handed you a microphone, you caught sight of the song selection. A duet.
“Seriously, Jungkook?” You groaned, but the smile on your face betrayed you.
He didn’t even answer, too busy scrolling through the lyrics like he was preparing for the most important performance of his life. And when the music started, he went all in—grabbing your hand and twirling you in place before you could even sing a single note.
You tried to be serious. Really, you did. But how could you when Jungkook was dramatically belting out the lyrics, jumping around like a five-year-old who’d had too much sugar? It was ridiculous, and absolutely unfair, because the moment he pulled you close and started singing like you were the only person in the world, you completely lost it.
Laughter bubbled out of you, your voice cracking as you tried—and failed—to get through your lines. “Jungkook, I can’t—” you gasped between giggles, clutching your stomach as he twirled you again, this time nearly making you stumble.
“Oh, come on,” he teased, his own laughter mixing with yours as he tightened his grip on your hand. “At least try to keep up!”
You didn’t stand a chance. By the time the song ended, you were breathless—not from singing, but from laughing so much. And as Jungkook stood there, hands on his hips, chest heaving like he’d just finished a full-blown concert, you realized something.
This was the most fun you’d had in a long, long time.
“How was I?” Jungkook asked, his bunny smile stretching wide across his face, eyes gleaming with excitement. He was practically bouncing on his feet, ready to soak in every compliment you had to offer.
You opened your mouth, ready to tease him, but the way he looked at you—so expectant, so earnest—made you pause. His eyes were shining, round and full of innocent anticipation, like he truly needed to hear what you thought.
You smiled softly, tilting your head. “I think that not even the stars could have predicted how happy I am right now.”
Jungkook’s breath hitched. He hadn’t expected that. His confidence wavered for half a second before he let out a choked laugh, quickly turning his head away. “Aish, what is that?” he mumbled, rubbing the back of his neck as a faint pink dusted his cheeks.
But you saw the way his fingers curled slightly, the way he ducked his head just enough to try and hide his flustered expression. And you knew, without a doubt, that it was the best answer he could have possibly hoped for.
Jungkook continued to sing, each performance just as energetic as the last. It was almost exhausting just watching him, yet somehow, he never seemed to run out of energy. His voice never wavered, his movements never slowed—he was a force of nature, completely in his element.
You leaned back against the couch, watching in amusement as he jumped onto the small table in the middle of the room, using it as a makeshift stage. The neon lights reflected in his eyes as he belted out the chorus, dramatically pointing at you like he was dedicating the song to you and only you.
It was refreshing, really. How someone could be so alive, so unapologetically himself. While you often felt drained and stressed, weighed down by responsibilities and expectations, Jungkook was the complete opposite. He carried an energy so contagious that it made you forget about everything else—your finals, your worries, the anxiety that had settled in your chest all day.
Jungkook had a way of making the world feel a little lighter. And tonight, you let yourself enjoy that feeling, completely and without hesitation.
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Just like every morning, Jungkook checked his horoscope the moment he woke up. It had become a ritual at this point—his little way of preparing for the day ahead. He checked yours too.
So, still half-asleep, he grabbed his phone, scrolling through the daily horoscope predictions. Everything seemed fine at first, but then… an idea struck him.
What if he checked your full zodiac chart?
It was stupid, probably. But Jungkook never did things halfway. If he was going to believe in astrology, he was going to do it right. So he sat up in bed, grabbed his laptop, and started searching. He input your birth details, cross-checking them with what little information he had gathered from your conversations. He even went down a rabbit hole of different astrology sites, just to be sure.
Jungkook stared at the screen, completely frozen. His heart, which had been doing happy little flips since last night, suddenly felt like it had plummeted straight into his stomach.
INCOMPATIBLE.
A big, glaring red warning taunted him from the astrology website, as if the universe itself was shaking him by the shoulders, screaming ABORT MISSION. His hand twitched toward the laptop, fingers hovering over the trackpad like he was contemplating slamming it shut and pretending he had never seen this. Maybe if he refreshed the page, the result would change. Maybe the website was wrong.
But no. There it was. The hard, cold truth.
Your rising sign? Disastrous.
Your moon placements? A ticking time bomb.
Your Venus signs? Literally the worst possible match.
Jungkook let out a strangled noise of distress, running his hands through his already-messy hair. This was bad. So bad.
He had been so sure—so sure—that the stars had aligned perfectly when he met you. But now? Now it felt like the universe was playing some kind of cruel joke on him. What if this meant something? What if this was a sign that things would go wrong?
He groaned, rolling onto his stomach to scream into his pillow.
And so, in true Jungkook fashion, he did the only logical thing: he decided to avoid you.
Just for a little while. Just until he could figure out what to do. Because what if he was leading you both into disaster? What if, despite how good everything felt, you were destined for heartbreak? He wasn’t ready to test fate like that.
He already missed you.
It didn’t help that the first thing Jungkook saw when he checked his phone was a message from you.
(not) my crush [9:54 AM] :
i went to the same website as you and my horoscope told me i would have really bad news!!! can u believe that? ahahaha!!!
Jungkook stared at the text, his brain short-circuiting.
Oh.
Without thinking, he flipped his phone face-down on the bed as if it had personally offended him. Then, after exactly three seconds of trying to process what he’d just read, he groaned dramatically and kicked his feet against the mattress, his frustration spilling out in the most childish way possible.
Why hadn’t he thought to check that sooner?!
Here he was, spiraling into an identity crisis, convinced the universe had doomed him to a tragic love story before it even began.
You hated it. Hated how Jungkook still hadn’t answered your text, even though it had been almost two hours.
Two whole hours.
It wasn’t like him. Jungkook always answered, even if it was just to send a ridiculous meme or a dramatic voice note about whatever chaos he’d gotten himself into. But now? Nothing.
You found yourself checking your phone every two minutes, staring at your last message, hoping—praying—that he’d at least open it. But he didn’t.
No read receipt. No typing bubble.
The more you thought about it, the worse it got. You couldn’t even focus on your lecture anymore, your professor’s words fading into white noise as your mind spiraled. Had you done something wrong last night? Had you said something that made him want to avoid you? You replayed every interaction, every joke, every single moment—but nothing stood out.
And yet, the silence felt like an answer in itself.
You didn’t want to be this kind of person. The kind who overanalyzed a single text, who let a tiny thing ruin their entire morning. But Jungkook’s weird antics had apparently rubbed off on you, because before you even realized what you were doing, your fingers were already typing into his favorite horoscope website.
Maybe, if Jungkook wouldn’t give you an answer, his precious astrology nonsense would.
The second the page loaded, you groaned, already hating yourself. How had it come to this? How had Jungkook managed to pull you into his ridiculous superstitions? You swore you weren’t like this. You swore you didn’t believe in this stuff. And yet, here you were, scrolling through planetary alignments like they held the key to your entire existence.
Just as you were about to give up, a familiar voice interrupted your crisis.
“Since when do you check horoscopes?”
You nearly jumped out of your seat as Hoseok dropped into the chair across from you, cracking open a can of Sprite. His brows were raised, eyes filled with pure amusement. “You always make fun of me for this,” he added, taking a sip.
Before you could even attempt to defend yourself, he leaned forward and glanced at your phone screen. His eyes widened.
“…You’re not even a Virgo.”
You tried desperately to hide your screen, quickly swiping the phone away from Hoseok’s curious gaze. “I’m trying to find answers,” you muttered, feeling the shame creep up your neck as you admitted the ridiculousness of what you were doing.
Hoseok raised an eyebrow, clearly amused. “I didn’t think you were the type to believe in that stuff. You always said it was stupid.”
And you still thought it was stupid.
Virgo: It’s a wonderful day for you! You will feel happier than ever.
You couldn’t contain the scoff that escaped your lips. Happier than ever? Yeah, sure. If ignoring your texts and leaving you hanging was his version of a “wonderful day.”
Frustration bubbled up in your chest, and you quickly locked your phone, trying to push the whole situation out of your mind.
“And I still think it’s bullshit,” you muttered, half to yourself, half to Hoseok.
The hours dragged on as you sat at the coffee shop, staring out the window and occasionally glancing at your phone, hoping for some sign, some message, or at least a glimpse of Jungkook’s bright smile. But nothing.
The words from the horoscope kept playing in your head, an incessant loop. And all you could imagine was Jungkook, carefree and happy, doing exactly what he wanted, while you sat there, feeling like an idiot waiting for a message that wasn’t coming. It was infuriating.
You hated this feeling—the irritation, the frustration that bubbled up in your chest every time you thought about how he could be living his best day while you were left waiting, wondering what went wrong.
You had always admired Jungkook’s happiness. It was contagious, that energy of his. But today, for some reason, it felt like he was hiding it from you. You wanted to see it, feel it, share it with him. Why couldn’t he just reach out?
The sun began to set, casting long shadows across the coffee shop, but there was still no sign of him. The usual excitement in your chest slowly faded, replaced with a gnawing emptiness. He wasn’t coming.
As you walked home, the weight of your frustration grew heavier with every step. Your fingers hovered over your phone, unsure, but the pull to send something—to send anything—was too strong to ignore. You didn’t know if you were really that type of girl, the one who couldn’t handle being ignored, the one who overthought every message or lack thereof. But the truth was, you couldn’t be cool about it. You couldn’t just let it slide. The silence, the waiting, the unanswered texts—it was eating away at you, minute by minute, as if every second without a reply was slowly driving you insane.
You knew you should probably wait longer. You knew you should probably play it cool, pretend you were unaffected. But you couldn't.
So you did it. You sent the message.
You stared at the screen after sending it, the nerve-racking weight of regret hitting you. Was it dramatic? Yes. Was it over the top? Absolutely. But it felt like the only way to break through the silence, the only way to make your presence known in this strange waiting game you were playing.
As soon as Jungkook received your text, his heart skipped a beat. His phone had been sitting in front of him all day, and he had been checking it every few minutes, hoping for something from you. So when he saw your message light up the screen, he reached for it almost instantly, nearly leaping off the couch.
His eyes scanned the words, and then it hit him:
(not) my crush [7:03 PM] :
the stars have spoken, and they predict that if i dont get a reply from u soon, i will accidentally manifest a series of very very very weird, unexplainable events in your life this week!!! hope ur ready for it jeon. </3333
He froze. The audacity. The way you used his own horoscope—his stars—as a weapon against him had him laughing and groaning at the same time. He couldn’t help it. You were threatening him, but in the most playful, ridiculous way.
His heart was racing, but he immediately turned off his phone, swiping the screen as if that would somehow protect him from the impending doom of your horoscope wrath.
He slumped back into the couch, shaking his head. “Why did I even get into this?” he mumbled to himself, feeling both entertained and somewhat panicked.
But the more he thought about it, the more he realized: He didn’t really mind at all.
Turns out it was much harder than Jungkook had anticipated to ignore you.
First of all, his heart was screaming at him to see you. It had been four days without any interaction, and it felt like an eternity. He missed you more than he was willing to admit.
And second, you seemed to be everywhere. Or maybe it was just him. Jungkook swore that wherever he went, there you were. Walking down the same aisles at the grocery store, standing in line at the coffee shop, laughing with friends just a few feet away. It was like the universe was playing a prank on him, throwing you in his path at the most inconvenient times.
Like right now, for instance.
He’d been casually strolling through the grocery store, his mind distracted by the mundane task of picking out produce. When he turned a corner, he froze. There you were, casually walking through the aisle, completely oblivious to him standing just a few feet away. He blinked, his heart racing, not prepared for this sudden encounter.
He cursed under his breath, looking for a quick escape. His eyes darted around the store, and in the split second that followed, he spotted a shelf of canned beans directly behind him. Without thinking, he quickly ducked behind it, crouching down and trying to steady his breath. What the hell is wrong with me?
From behind the shelf, he peeked over the top, trying to gauge whether you had seen him. But you were still strolling along, picking out items, completely unaware of the mess he was making of himself. Jungkook felt both relieved and utterly embarrassed. He let out a breath he didn’t even realize he was holding, shaking his head at his own ridiculousness.
Jungkook cautiously peered around the corner, his heart pounding as he tried to check if you were still nearby. His plan was simple—sneak out of the store without you noticing. Without thinking twice, he started to move swiftly toward the exit, hoping to escape unnoticed.
But fate, as usual, had other plans.
As he rushed past one of the aisles, a shopping cart suddenly came out of nowhere, rolling in his direction. Jungkook, not expecting it, collided with the cart full force. It sent him sprawling across the smooth floor, his feet flying out from under him and sending him into an awkward slide, his arms flailing like a windmill trying to regain some kind of balance.
“Oof,” he groaned, but before he could even recover from the fall, he heard a familiar voice, smooth and teasing.
“Oops,” you said, barely trying to hold back a laugh as you casually strolled by with your shopping cart in tow. The mischievous grin on your face made it clear that you were enjoying the sight of him on the floor more than you probably should have.
Jungkook watched you walk away, his heart sinking as you didn’t even spare him a glance. He had wanted to explain everything—about the horoscope, about his stupid overthinking, about how he’d been going crazy trying to figure things out in his head—but now it was too late. You were already too far away, leaving him standing there in the same spot on the floor.
The next few days were a blur for him. He couldn’t focus on anything. It didn’t help that he couldn’t stay away from you. No matter how much he tried to distract himself, his thoughts always circled back to you. He found himself at the coffee shop, the one he knew you frequented, even though he had no real reason to be there.
He threw on his black bucket hat, sunglasses, and a big, oversized hoodie, trying to make himself as unnoticeable as possible. It was hot as hell, but he didn’t care. He was desperate to catch a glimpse of you, just a fleeting moment to see if you were okay.
As he hid behind the tree, peeking out just enough to watch you, Jungkook’s heart ached. There you were, sitting in your usual spot with your laptop in front of you, a steaming cup of coffee by your side. You looked so peaceful, so engrossed in whatever you were doing, and it only made him miss you more. He had been a fool, hadn’t he? He should’ve never let things get this weird, should’ve never let his insecurities get in the way.
He stayed there, trying not to make a scene, wishing he could just walk up to you and fix everything. But no, he was too scared to make the first move. So, he remained in the shadows, watching from afar, longing for a chance to make things right.
Jungkook’s heart skipped a beat when a voice suddenly snapped him out of his nervous thoughts.
“What are you doing, you freak?” The words hit him like a bucket of cold water, and he nearly jumped out of his skin as he spun around to face the source. A man stood a few feet away, eyebrow raised in confusion, a can of Sprite casually dangling from his hand. The stranger’s gaze flicked between Jungkook and the tree, clearly puzzled by the odd sight of someone trying to hide behind it.
“You should probably leave before I call the cops for stalking,” the man added, his voice dripping with sarcasm.
Jungkook’s face flushed a deep shade of red. He didn’t know whether to be embarrassed or to just make a run for it. He quickly reached up and pulled off his sunglasses, hoping to defuse the situation.
“I swear it’s not like that! I’m not a freak, I—” Jungkook stammered, his nerves now in overdrive.
The guy squinted at him, his expression shifting from confusion to realization. “Wait, you’re the guy with the cute dog, right?” He pointed at Jungkook, then made a show of lifting his finger to Jungkook’s bucket hat as if trying to get a better look. The recognition hit Jungkook like a ton of bricks. Of all the people in the world to see him in this ridiculous state, it had to be your friend.
“Seriously, man?” the guy called out again, clearly still amused, but not pressing the issue further. “You’re just gonna hide behind a tree like a creep?”
Jungkook winced, wishing the earth would swallow him whole. He could already feel his cheeks burning with embarrassment, and the last thing he wanted was for you to turn around and see him there, looking like a complete idiot. He couldn’t even face the guy properly, so he just mumbled something inaudible, turning around quickly and starting to back away.
“Alright, alright,” the man muttered, taking a sip of his Sprite. “But, hey, next time, try not to stalk people in broad daylight.”
As soon as Hoseok came to your table, he couldn’t hold back the grin on his face as he told you about Jungkook’s little hide-and-seek stunt behind the tree. You couldn’t help it. The sound of his description hit you like a wave, and you burst into laughter, the kind of laugh that makes your stomach hurt.
“He really hid behind a tree?” you asked, still chuckling as you wiped tears from the corners of your eyes. “That’s a new level of awkward.”
You weren’t angry at him anymore, not after hearing that. In fact, you were kind of amused. It seemed like Jungkook had finally realized how ridiculous his avoidance had been.
Still, you couldn’t let your guard down too much. Your chest ached with how much you missed him. The silence between the two of you had become unbearable, but your pride kept you from reaching out first. You needed him to make the first move, to come to you and explain why he had been acting so distant.
And just as you were starting to feel like maybe he’d never reach out, your phone buzzed with a message.
jk sexy virgo boy [4:37 PM] :
i failed the mission. meet me at the park pls pls pls? :(
It was like a breath of fresh air after holding your breath for days. The urge to jump out of your seat and run to the park was overwhelming. You didn’t even think twice. Your ego might have tried to hold you back, but the excitement in your chest was stronger. You were already putting on your shoes before your mind even caught up with what was happening.
You couldn’t say no. Not when he sounded so… genuine. Plus, how could you resist seeing him again, after all this time?
As you walked into the park, you couldn’t help but feel a smile tugging at the corners of your lips as you saw him. Jungkook was sitting on a bench, his gaze fixed on the river. There was something oddly calming about seeing him like that, lost in thought, but it only made you more aware of how much you missed him.
His hair was longer than you remembered, the strands falling gently over his forehead. He looked even more beautiful than before—if that was even possible. Maybe it was the time and distance, but you found him even more striking now. He was still the same boba-eyed boy, the one you’d been both frustrated with and drawn to. It was hard to be mad at him when everything about him still made your heart race, even though you’d spent the past few days fuming over his silence.
What caught your eye, though, was the little fluffball sitting next to him. Yeontan was there too, his tiny tail wagging excitedly at your arrival.
“Hi, Yeontan,” you said, your voice soft as you crouched down to greet the dog. You purposely ignored Jungkook for the moment, focusing your attention on the little puppy as you gave him a gentle pat. Yeontan, ever the social one, eagerly licked your hand, wagging his tail even faster as if he knew he was the bridge between you and Jungkook.
Jungkook sighed, his voice low but tinged with a playful frustration as he watched you focus entirely on Yeontan. “The little brat always gets more attention than me whenever he’s around,” he muttered, tugging gently on the leash, trying to get you to turn your attention back to him.
You feigned confusion, looking around dramatically. “Who is speaking? Can you hear that, Yeontan?” you teased, purposefully ignoring him. You had told yourself you’d eventually listen, but that didn’t mean you were going to make it easy for him. You were enjoying the moment a little too much, watching him squirm just a bit.
Jungkook let out a soft sigh, shoulders slumping. “Guess I deserve that,” he muttered, but he didn’t let the silence linger for too long. Reaching behind him, he pulled out a sheet of paper and handed it over to you.
“Here,” he said, a little nervous now.
You raised an eyebrow, inspecting the piece of paper as you took it. “What is this? Is this a picture of me you took while hiding behind the tree?” you teased, your voice dripping with amusement. Jungkook’s cheeks flushed a deep shade of red as he stammered.
“It wasn’t like that, I swear. Don’t make it worse than it was!” he quickly protested, reaching for your hand to pull you up beside him on the bench.
You snickered, shaking your head as you glanced at the sheets in your hand. “You had a bucket hat and sunglasses, Hoseok told me everything,” you said, practically bursting with laughter. “What was the plan? Hide from me like a secret agent?”
Jungkook groaned, sinking his head into his hands. “It wasn’t that bad,” he mumbled, but his voice was laced with embarrassment.
You finally looked down at the sheets in your hands, the title at the top reading: Reason Why Jeon Jungkook Was Ignoring You And Why You Should Forgive Him.
“Oh wow,” you said, your voice laced with mock intrigue. “Okay, this is gonna be interesting.” You began flipping through the pages, smirking to yourself as you saw the first point listed:
1. You know how I always trust the universe’s timing, right? Well, I checked our zodiac compatibility, and it was a red flag—like, flashing neon lights red. I had to listen to the stars, or else the consequences would have been disastrous. It’s really not personal, I swear.
You couldn’t help but burst into laughter, your eyes scanning the screenshots that Jungkook had sent you, his so-called proof of why he had been avoiding you. Your complete zodiac chart, one that you didn’t even know existed, was now paired with his, glaring back at you with all its astrological implications.
“Really?” you said, still chuckling. “You’re basing all of this on a website and the stars?”
Jungkook bit his cheek, clearly trying to hold back a smile but failing miserably. “It’s not funny. I had multiple mental breakdowns because of that,” he insisted, his voice barely hiding the frustration. But the way his eyes flicked back to the screen made it clear he was invested in this whole thing far more than he was letting on.
You continued reading, curious about the next part of his dramatic saga. When you got to the second reason, your laughter intensified. You could barely keep it together as you read:
2. Yeontan gave me some tough love advice. He said, ‘Jungkook, the stars have spoken, and sometimes love can be as confusing as a game of fetch.’ I think he’s onto something, but I’m still unsure whether it’s me or the cosmos making me do this.
“Jungkook, are you for real?” You couldn’t stop laughing now, your hand pressed to your mouth to stifle the sound of your amusement.
Jungkook looked at you, his face serious despite the ridiculousness of the situation. “Yeontan gives great advice,” he said earnestly, his voice filled with mock sincerity.
You raised an eyebrow. “Yeontan, huh? You mean the same Yeontan who doesn’t have the ability to speak?”
“Well, yeah,” Jungkook started, then hesitated. “It’s actually Taehyung who told me that, but… you know what, let’s just say it was Yeontan.” He gave you a sheepish grin, clearly trying to make up for the fact that the whole story was a bit far-fetched.
You shook your head, still smiling despite yourself. “A little lie to make me forgive you, huh?”
“Exactly.” He nodded seriously, though you could see the glint of amusement in his eyes. “A little white lie can’t hurt, right? Especially when it involves the world’s wisest dog.”
“Fine,” you said with a dramatic sigh, though you couldn’t suppress your smile. “But next time, just ask Yeontan for relationship advice before we end up in a cosmic catastrophe.”
Jungkook’s hand wrapped around your wrist, his grip firm but trembling slightly. His wide eyes locked onto yours, a mix of fear and urgency swimming in them. He looked terrified—like he had just thrown himself off a cliff and was bracing for the fall.
“Wait. Please,” he pleaded, voice softer than you’d ever heard it. “Read the next page.”
Something about the way he said it made your breath catch. His fingers didn’t loosen around you, like he was afraid you’d let go before you saw what he needed you to see.
With a small, reassuring smile, you finally lowered your gaze to the page in your hands.
It was a mess. Words were scribbled over, sentences scratched out so violently they nearly tore through the paper. His handwriting, usually neat and precise, looked frantic—like he had rewritten the same thought a hundred times, fighting with himself over the words before finally settling on the one line that remained untouched.
3. I decided I didn’t care about all of that because I love you, and I don’t think zodiac charts (as terrible as they look) can change what I feel for you.
Your fingers tightened around the edges of the paper as your heart did something strange—something impossible to ignore.
Slowly, you lifted your eyes back to him.
Jungkook was watching you like his entire world depended on what you’d say next. His jaw was tight, his chest rising and falling a little too quickly, his free hand clenching into the fabric of his jeans.
Your heart was pounding. You swallowed, trying to find the right words, but your mind was blank. He loved you. Jungkook loved you.
“Jungkook…” You looked up at him, and for the first time, the usual confidence in his gaze wavered.
“I know it’s dumb,” he rushed to say, his free hand rubbing the back of his neck. “I just—I got in my head about it, and then I panicked, and I thought maybe the universe was trying to tell me something, and then I realized—” He took a shaky breath. “I realized I didn’t care. Because none of it matters if it means losing you.”
Your fingers curled around the page, gripping it tightly like it was the only thing keeping you grounded.
“You… really love me?” The words left your lips softer than you intended, but they hung in the air between you, heavy and real.
Jungkook nodded, his throat bobbing as he swallowed. “Yeah. I do.” His voice was quiet, but there was no hesitation.
You blinked, feeling the sting of tears you hadn’t expected. And then—because it was Jungkook, and because you had been waiting for this moment without even realizing it—you smiled.
“So… are you saying the stars were wrong?” you teased, holding back a laugh.
Jungkook groaned, dropping his forehead against your shoulder dramatically. “God, don’t start.”
But his arms wrapped around you anyway, pulling you in close, and you could feel the way his heart was racing against yours.
“You know,” you murmured, gently pulling his head away from your shoulder so you could look him in the eyes. “Now more than ever, I think astrology is bullshit.”
Jungkook didn’t argue this time. He just looked at you, his eyes soft, almost embarrassed. Because you were right. He had let some random website tell him you weren’t meant for each other—when everything about you, about this, felt exactly right.
He exhaled a small laugh, shaking his head. “Yeah… I think I might have overreacted a little.”
“A little?” you raised an eyebrow, hands settling firmly on his shoulders. Yeontan whined between you, attempting to wriggle into your lap, but you ignored him. Your focus was solely on Jungkook. “But,” you continued, tilting your head slightly, “I do believe in one thing now.”
Jungkook blinked, leaning in unconsciously. “What’s that?”
“Fate,” you said simply, your fingers moving up to cup his round cheeks, brushing against the warm skin.
His lips parted slightly, his breath fanning against your face as he searched your gaze. “You really think that?” he asked, and when he smiled, it was his bunny one—the one that made your heart ache and your stomach flip all at once.
And oh, how you wanted to kiss him right then and there. But first, you needed to say it.
“Because I met you,” you whispered, your thumbs tracing over his cheekbones, “and I love you.”
Jungkook didn’t let you finish another word. Before you could even blink, his hands had found your face, his lips pressing against yours in a way that stole the breath right out of your lungs.
It wasn’t just an apology, and it wasn’t just relief. It was Jungkook—stubborn, overthinking, hopelessly romantic Jungkook—showing you exactly what he felt without needing any more words.
And as you kissed him back, fingers curling into his hoodie, you knew.
The stars might have been wrong, but this?
This was written in the universe just for you.
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Sylus x reader
Content: After discovering your past life with Sylus and his promise to restore your memories, you find yourself eager to hear the stories of your past from him.
A/N: Sylus’s myth has been weighing on my mind, it’s absolutely heartbreaking. Forbidden love?? Like?? Ugh. I had to write something to make it hurt less :’).
Wanings: slight angst if you squint your eyes
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      After discovering the truth about your past life, a storm of emotions had raged within you. Anger, betrayal, disbelief. How could Sylus have kept something so monumental from you? How could he have known and simply chosen not to tell you? The argument that followed had been fierce, but in the end, he relented, promising to restore your lost memories tomorrow morning. Now, the fire had dimmed, replaced by a quiet restlessness you couldn't shake.
      “Won’t you at least come to bed, darling?” Sylus murmured, his voice softer than usual, his sharp eyes now wide and pleading. You exhaled, exasperated yet unable to deny him. With a tired sigh, you crawled over, settling on top of him, feeling the steady rise and fall of his breath beneath you.
      "Sylus?"
      "Hm?"
      "Tell me about our past," you whispered. He had promised to return your memories tomorrow, but waiting felt unbearable. The unknown loomed too heavily over you, making it impossible to sleep.
      He chuckled, the sound deep and warm. "Impatient, aren’t you? Can’t even wait until tomorrow?"
      "You’re one to talk about being greedy," you huffed, shifting slightly against him.
      “I know,” he admitted, the grin that spread across his lips filled with something more than amusement, something nostalgic, as if the weight of the past he had once tried to forget was now something he wanted to remember.
      He studied you for a moment before continuing, “Did you know you were a princess, princess?” His smirk widened at his own joke, reveling in the play on words.
      You rolled your eyes, but your curiosity overpowered your exasperation. "A princess?"
      "Ivory City," he said, watching for recognition in your gaze. "They accused you of being a sorcerror because you took pity and sympathy on my kind, so they cast you out."
      "How primitive," you muttered, unimpressed by the cruelty of a kingdom you barely remembered.
      "Indeed," he agreed, his tone laced with a quiet sort of amusement. "They feared what they couldn't understand."
      A brief silence stretched between you before he added, “You also gave me my name, but I already told you that.”
      You sighed, tilting your head slightly. "You still haven’t taught me how to pronounce your actual name." It was something you had discovered earlier, before the argument, before the flood of fragmented memories revealed pieces of his dragon life with you in Philos.
      Sylus hummed, clearly unbothered by the notion. “It’s irrelevant,” he murmured, fingers tracing lazy circles against your back. “I like your version of my name better. Your claim on me.” His grin returned, sharper now, something possessive glinting behind his eyes. A name you gave him that he’s used ever since. Your lips parted slightly, heart skipping a beat at the weight of his words. You had claimed him once before, long ago, in another life. And now, in this one, you were beginning to do it all over again.
      Sylus smirked, his voice dropping into something teasing. “Did you also know that once, back when we still held nothing but disdain for each other, I wrapped my hand around your throat, and you—” He let out a short laugh, eyes gleaming with mischief. “You moaned.”
      You jolted upright, eyes wide. “I did what?!” you shrieked, horrified.
      His laughter only deepened, rich and unbothered. “It was certainly… unique,” he mused, tilting his head as if replaying the memory in his mind. “I’ve threatened plenty of people before, but never had anyone react quite like that.”
      Heat flared across your face as you groaned, burying yourself against his chest in embarrassment. “I hate you.”
      “No, you don’t,” he chuckled, pressing a lazy kiss against the top of your head.
      A moment of silence passed, the air between you settling into something softer, something steeped in nostalgia. “Most nights,” Sylus murmured, “we spent our time together under the moonlight.”
      You closed your eyes, letting his voice guide you through the fragments of a past you desperately wished to reclaim. “I can’t wait to get my memories back,” you hummed. “I can’t wait to fall in love with you all over again.”
      His fingers curled gently around your waist, holding you close. “There were times,” he continued, voice quieter now, “when you would see my true form, and I expected you to be afraid. I thought you’d run, that you’d look at me like I was a monster.” He paused, as if caught in the memory. “But you didn’t. Instead, you traced your much smaller hand over my scales and horns. You—” He swallowed. “You still loved me.”
      “How couldn’t I?” you whispered, pressing closer.
      Sylus exhaled, the tension in his body unraveling. “Back then, I didn’t know what love was,” he admitted. “You introduced me to that.”
      You lifted your head slightly, gazing up at him. “Really?”
      His lips curled into something almost reverent, something achingly fond. “Really.
      “That’s beautiful,” you murmured, voice soft with drowsiness.
      Sylus smiled faintly, fingers tracing idle patterns against your waist and thighs. “My favorite memory might be when I took you to that flower field,” he mused, pausing expectantly for your response.
      But you said nothing. He frowned slightly, tilting his head to glance down at you.
“Kitten, are you asleep?” he asked after a long stretch of silence, broken only by the soft sound of your breathing. A quiet snore escaped you. You weren’t asleep, but he didn’t have to know that.
      His chest rose and fell with a slow inhale before he continued anyway, his voice dipping into something raw.
      “The reason why…” he started, then hesitated. For once, the words didn’t come so easily. “The reason why I withheld these memories and this information from you was because I knew it would break you.”
      A heavy silence settled between you, thick and suffocating.
      “I’m sorry, my love,” he whispered. “I’m sorry I didn’t tell you earlier that we have half of our souls in each other.” His fingers curled slightly against your skin. That much, you had already discovered. The truth that the two of you were irreversibly connected, bound by something ancient and inescapable.
      His next words came quieter, almost as if he didn’t want to admit them out loud. “But I just… I couldn’t let you know that we were destined for death.” He swallowed hard, his Adam’s apple bobbing with the effort. “It was greedy of me. I wanted you all to myself, even if it meant keeping the truth from you. But the curse of a dragon’s beloved is to die. And you—” His voice wavered, the weight of his confession nearly unbearable. “You were destined to kill me, as my archenemy.”
      His breath hitched, and he let his eyes fall shut. “I didn’t want you to know that,” he admitted, voice barely above a whisper. “But I realized… it’s not just my story. It’s yours too. And you deserve to know.”
      The words hung in the air between you, fragile and aching. His throat worked as he tried to steady himself, but his voice still cracked, betraying the turmoil he had tried so hard to suppress. Still, you didn’t move, didn’t respond. But your fingers twitched ever so slightly against his chest.
      You hadn’t even realized you were crying until the warm tears spilled onto Sylus’s chest. They fell silently, one after another, pooling against his skin like echoes of a grief you weren’t prepared to feel.
      “Sweetheart?” Sylus called out, his voice laced with concern. His arms tightened slightly around you. “Are you alright?”
      “It hurts,” you whispered, your voice small, fragile. “Why was our story so sad?”
      He exhaled, his fingers threading gently through your hair. “I don’t know, my love,” he admitted, his voice quieter now. “This is why I didn’t want you to know.”
      A shuddering breath left you as you stared at the space between you, the past pressing in on your chest like an unbearable weight. “Did I hurt you?” you asked, barely above a whisper.
      Sylus stilled for a moment before letting out a small, knowing sigh. He tilted your chin up, thumb brushing away the tears clinging to your lashes. “Sweetie, that’s all in the past for a reason,” he murmured. “None of that destiny, archnemesis, dragons-destroying-cities, royalty-and-war bullshit matters here.” He smirked slightly, attempting to lighten the mood. “Well, maybe the part about our souls being tied for eternity, but I’m not complaining about that part.”
      You sniffled, staring up at him with a wobbly frown.
      “Oh, and wanderers,” he added, scowling. “That part I do complain about.”
      You huffed a small laugh despite yourself, but your expression quickly turned serious again. “You didn’t answer my question, though,” you said, eyes searching his. “Did I hurt you?”
      Sylus hesitated. “Well…”
      “Stop it. Just tell me.”
      A sigh, followed by a lopsided, almost sheepish grin. “Maybe you stabbed me.”
      Your mouth fell open. “Maybe?”
      “But it wasn’t entirely on purpose,” he continued hastily. “Not out of your own volition. In fact, you didn’t want to kill me at all. That’s why you chose to tie our souls together instead.” He pulled your leg up to wrap around him tighter. “You chose to save me instead of killing me. Our souls became bound, incapable of betraying each other.”
      “Incapable of betraying each other?” you echoed, brows furrowing before your expression morphed into something accusatory. “Oh, really? Then what about that time you ate my sandwich I was saving for later?”
      Sylus blinked. “Uh—”
      “Actually, no. You didn’t even eat it yourself,” you fumed. “You gave it to Mephisto. A mechanical bird. I don’t even know if he can digest organic material!”
      “So feisty,” Sylus murmured, his voice dripping with amusement. “Lifetimes of love, and yet, you’re still a brat.”
      “Hey!” You gasped, feigning offense, though the smile tugging at your lips betrayed you.
      He only chuckled, shaking his head. Then, his expression turned mischievous as he pointed a finger at you accusingly. “But, you do realize—I can never die unless you’re the one who kills me.”
      You smirked, crossing your arms. “Oh, I was so smart for doing that.”
      Sylus let out a full-bodied laugh, the sound warm and rich with something inexplicably fond.
      “What?” You tilted your head, watching the way his grin widened.
      “Isn’t it crazy?” he said, voice quieter now, as if he was still wrapping his mind around it himself. “Lifetimes of love… You’ve always been my girl.”
      Something about the way he said it made your chest ache in the most bittersweet way. This love of yours, it felt like it was something you’re not allowed to have. You swallowed hard, voice softening. “I still can’t believe you’re a dragon.”
      “What?” He snorted. “You thought the horns were just for decoration?”
      You groaned sleepily. “In my defense, you don’t always make them visible.”
      Sylus smirked. “Would you like me to keep them out more often, then? Just for you?”
      “Sylus.” You whimpered, burying your face against him.
      His amusement faded as concern flickered across his features. “You’re still upset?”
      “I don’t want to kill you.” Your voice was barely above a whisper.
      Sylus exhaled, his fingers tracing slow, soothing lines against your back. “Love,” he murmured, “like I said, you won’t. This is our timeline.”
      “But I want you in every timeline,” you confessed, curling closer, as if holding onto him tighter could somehow tether your souls together even more. “Every life.”
      Sylus stilled. His fingers stopped their tracing. His breath hitched just slightly. Then, with a heavy sigh, he picked up your hand, pressing a lingering kiss to your palm. His lips were warm, his touch reverent.
      “I…” He hesitated.
      Sylus never made promises lightly. He didn’t want to promise you something he couldn’t keep. But then, he thought about it. About how he had already overturned fate before. How he and you both had defied instinct, rewritten the path carved for each other. Yet, it wasn’t enough. He didn’t just want your soul. You didn’t just want his eye. You were both greedy, greedy creatures. You wanted to consume each other, bones and all. In love. In deep, all-consuming love.
      And maybe he could make that happen.
      He would need a powerful enough sorcerer. Someone who still wielded magic strong enough to rewrite the very laws of existence. He could find one. He would find one. He would make sure it was just you and him, forever. Not killing each other. Not dying. That would make you immortal, too.
      He could have you forever.
      Now, wasn’t that greedy?
      “I promise,” he finally whispered, sealing his vow with another kiss against your palm, not noticing the soft glow that wrapped itself around you both as you involuntarily resonated.
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diz-eaze · 2 months ago
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albedo and his alternative to baby trap you :(
; soft yandere, parent trap 2.0 but is it really babytrap if you lowkey told him you wouldn't mind a child (yes it still is), low-key delusional albedo, not proofread, throwback to fontaine's quest and albedo teaser #og,
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the concept of breathing life into what was once an illustration is ludicrous. blasphemous, even. if the original hydro archon was punished for turning her familiars into a new race of humans, then is it not fair for an alchemist to be smithed down for a similar sin?
but the silence of the heavens has been going on for numerous centuries; it's hard for albedo to feel even a smidgen of fear, nevermind finding a speck of regret.
being born with special capabilities is rare. training under a great sinner of khaenri'ah is even rarer - it leaves him with skills that far surpasses even the average vision bearer. it grants him the power to tamper and play with the very notion of life itself.
a memory plays at the back of his mind as he settles down his painting materials, for once away from the frigid winters of dragonspine in favor of the fresh breeze found in windrise.
"the traveler told me of what happened in fontaine," albedo begins, gently taking the test tube you pass onto him. "of what became of their prophecy."
"oh?" you muse, now idly playing with the microscope lenses. "pray tell."
albedo settles his canvas down on the stable easel stand, taking out his paints and brushes in preparation. the ever-present wind blows through his messy hair, and he welcomes it.
"it would seem that fontainians were originally oceanids, only transformed into humans by the previous hydro archon." his eyes are trained upon the drops of sweet flower extract falling into the narrow test tube. "the prophecy was punishment for their sin."
"huh," you breathe out, placing down the lenses to look at him. he fights the urge to look away from his materials. "i can't tell if the arrogant one in this situation is the hydro archon or the heavenly principles themselves."
he swatches out each paint on his person, and he lines up the needed brushes for this personal project of his. the first brush, a round brush, is used to prime the canvas.
albedo finishes extracting the sweet flower and takes out a damp cloth to wipe his table's surface with. "why so?"
"think about it," you saunter up to him, leaning in unbearably close to survey his work. in this proximity, he can smell traces of cecilia flowers and windwheel asters on you. his grip on the damp cloth tightens subtly.
"the heavens think of themselves to be the absolute rulers of this world," you puff your cheeks out childishly. "yet they are more akin to tyrants. celestial nails, sins, punishments, the cataclysm... a creation of life is much tamer compared to the heinous acts they've committed!"
albedo mixes and matches his paints - a tint of red, a dollop of brown, tiny amounts yellow, and white added in moderation - in order to emulate the shade closest to your skin tone. his second brush, a flat brush, is used to lay down the overall shape of what he envisions.
"you think so?" he questions, relocating the test tube on its designated rack. he makes no move to inch away from you - not that he wants to, never. "but 'humans' who are not born from breeding are considered to be an anomaly. they are considered an outlier, are they not?"
not that he cares, may it be sinful or otherwise. he merely tells this to get a feel of you, to take a dive into your mind.
"i care little of how a human is produced," you huff out, leaning even more to disrupt his orderly workflow. he wonders how you'd react if he told you he wouldn't care should you trash his camp, so long as you continue to be shoulder to shoulder with him like this. "if it's sentient, it has life. i think all life should be valued, regardless of the creation method. the creations themselves didn't ask to be brought to this world, either."
his deft fingers scrapes paints together to match his hair next. only little tufts of hair for now. the brush dips into the water to be rid of its previous color, reborn anew into a clean slate. he pats it down with a spare cloth and goes back to painting once again.
"you're not wrong," albedo comments, eyes trailing after the flutter of your lashes. the body heat that emanates from you causes his synthetic one to gradually warm up, too.
he hesitates, then. licking his lips as if to buy time before he voices out the question stuck in his throat. you must have noticed his pause, for you peer at him in silent questioning. you nudge him slightly, and his body sways from the motion.
there is little he fears in this world. not when he was raised in the aftermath of the cataclysm, horrors unknown to normal people are found there. but the thought of your opinion of him souring slightly has his heart palpating in dread.
albedo leans closer to the canvas, intent on detailing the cherubic face as much as possible. focused on creating the perfect specimen that earns your adoration.
a beat passes.
"then," he looks down at his workspace, unable to find the strength to look you straight in the eyes. "what do you think of creating life artificially, from the likeness of your image?"
you blink once and tilt your head, though he does not see it. you crowd closer to him, now nearly chest to chest. if you inch even closer, he fears you'll fear the loud thumps resounding deep within his chest.
"a life... with my likeness?" you parrot back, still not comprehending him fully. then, your eyes widen, as if struck with realization. "oh! you mean your magical drawings, right? i still remember that vishap you created! i am dismayed at the poor thing's lower half, however."
his masterpiece is almost finished. sunset is near, and the wind is starting to pick up. it feels as if barbatos himself is advising albedo to stop with his actions. but not even the divine nail from celestia would tear him apart from this painting.
his mind was lingering more on the alchemical method. though, if this is the method that you prefer, then it will be what he goes through with.
"perhaps," still, he nods, "so, what do you think of it?"
you smile, a gleaming, precious one that surpasses crystalflies. "since it's a hypothetical, i suppose the idea would be cute."
the verbal 'hypothetical' is blocked out from his illusioned mind, for he locks onto your explicit agreement, even going as far as to call his idea cute.
he smiles, clearly pleased with your answer.
"i am glad to see you so enthusiastic about this," he parts away from you and begins to tidy up his workspace with renewed vigor, moving with a sense of purpose.
you confusedly look at his back, "about what?"
but you're met with no reply.
albedo finishes his painting with the last brushstroke being an eyelash of the infant. he steps back to observe for any errors made, but he finds none. excitement courses through his body, eager to bring life to this illustration. his mind is already running amok with all the domesticity he will soon witness you do.
his gloves hands reach into the canvas, surpassing the physical barrier as he reaches for the finished painting. it's similar to reaching into a void, but he knows how to navigate this power of his. when he tugs his hands back into reality, he is not empty handed.
in his hands is a crying infant, not just any infant, but his baby with you. within a few seconds after giving it life, the infant opens its mouth and wails.
he kisses the top of its head, endeared at the sight of pale blond strands.
"shhh, your father is here now."
he understands the original hydro archon now. even he would endanger the lives of others for the creation of life.
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chrollohearttags · 3 months ago
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mini part 2 of love thy neighbor
something something..plug!sukuna finally getting comfortable enough to fuck his pretty little neighbor turned girlfriend like he means it (really wants to without holding back). He’s always pictured you as the daintiest, softest thing to ever exist. From the first day you guys met, there’s been this innate sense to protect you from any sort of danger. Especially the ones associated with his line of work…he knows you're cut from an entirely separate cloth than he is yet, you always try your best to fit into his world. Because of that, he tries his damndest to shield you from it. He never wants you to worry yourself with his problems or what he may be doing. Hell, he’d hate himself if you ever caught a glimpse of one of his transactions or got caught in a heated situation. Ryo has such a terrible habit of trying to soften things, despite the fact that you’ve told him how much his infantilizing bothered you.
“I’m just going to the store, I forgot flour..”
“That was just the delivery guy, had to meet him downstairs.”
dressing it up in flowery and honestly nauseating language. Make no mistake, you weren’t thrilled about his lifestyle by any stretch of the imagination. The violence and drugs wasn’t some turn on like portrayed on social media and trust, Jesus would come back before you ever partook. But you weren’t some exalted being that needed divine protection. You had been through so much already, this paled in comparison.Hence why one night, as the two of you were standing in the kitchen of your apartment..you’d confront him on it!
“What are you talking about? I don’t treat you like a kid, (y/n). I’m just tryna’ look out for you..damn.”
“I know that, Ryo. But you act like you can't even talk to me. Shit, you even speak in code. I’m not asking you to tell me all your business but don’t talk to me like I don’t know anything.”
perhaps, it would’ve been wise to stop the sentiments there but alas..you’d open up a can of worms you weren’t prepared for.
“I mean..you literally fuck me soft. Like you don’t want me to break or something.” And in that moment, something just clicked. As if everything you had said finally resonated and he understood. Mainly because you were suggesting that he couldn’t please you where it counted. Ryomen Sukuna was many things and being a prideful, snarky bastard was at the top of that list! And any notion challenging that had to be dispelled!
“I what? Did you just—“
“Look Ryo, just forget I said anything. It’s cool, I appreciate you looking out for me—“
but just as you went to turn heel in your silky robe, wine glass in hand..he’d spin you around until you were well in his clutches. That towering frame hulking over you with those toned muscles coiling you like a snake. You’d never felt smaller before in your life..
“Nah..you obviously had a lot on your mind, sweetheart. Speak up.” That once calm demeanor had obviously shifted to one that was seconds from coming unhinged and there truthfully wasn’t anything you could do to sate it.
without so much as breaking eye contact or that deviant smile that had crept upon his face, he’d plant a heavy smack against you before tugging you closer. It was apparent that he wasn’t going to back down nor did you want him to..to even admit something like that, you wanted more of him. And who was he to deny his beloved’s request?
“I said..speak up, sweetheart…”
muttering before he’d position you against the countertop and slide those tattooed fingers into the seat of your pantries. Stroking that clit before nipping at your neck, even bringing his opposite hand up to clutch it.
“I can’t hear you over how wet she is f’r me.” that menacing cackle rang out in your ear and caused your entire body to shudder in the process. It wasn’t long before he had you writhing around, whimpering and begging for him to stop teasing you. All the while, he was too busy ravaging every inch of that delicate skin. Leaving hickies where they shouldn’t have even been visible, hungrily lapping at your stiffened nipples and pumping two of those thick digits in and out of that tight cunt. You were a dripping, insatiable mess in a matter of no time!
“Y’know..I only held back because I thought you couldn’t handle it. But you’ve been holding out on me. Huh, sweet girl..look at you, about to come and I haven’t gotten started.”
“Okay, Ryoooo..fuck. I’m sorry, baby.”
he could sense that you were close but he wasn’t feeling nearly as generous tonight. You were going to eat those little words of yours. As you began slamming down on his hand, hoping to reach that orgasm; perfect tits bouncing and drool gliding down your chin from the sloppy, nasty kisses, it was snatched away in a matter of seconds. Your body reacted with a sudden jolt as if all the air had escaped your lungs. “Nah, you ain’t sorry yet, sweet girl. Turn that pretty ass around and bend over.” His instructions were very clear and yet it hadn’t registered that he was being aggressive. That was until he grasped the back of that curly hair, shoving you face down on the countertop and taking a fistful of that silky material into his palm. He’d pop your asscheeks once more, demanding that you spread them wider.
“Soft? I was being nice, baby..tryna be respectful..” seconds later, Ryo had slipped those sweats down to his ankles and his aching cock in his hand..stroking it before smacking it against your sensitive slit.
“But if you want me to treat you like one of my sluts, that’s no problem.”
Already seconds from coming undone, (y/n) nearly flew up from your spot when you’d feel that heavy shaft glide in and split you open. And how he’d normally begin with just the tip, you were met with three inches off the bat and you’d better be prepared to take all eight! Medium sporadic strokes turned to fast paced thrusting that led to you being jolted around as if you were weightless. A steady hand gripped your throat and fish hooked those same fingers that had gotten you warmed up into your jaw. Forcing you to balance on your tiptoes whilst that hard cock pounded you. His pace was rough, his movements were harsh but surprisingly…
“And look at you, you like that shit, don’t you? Like being called a slut…felt that pussy squeeze me when I said it.”
that was all but confirmed by the uncontrollable smiling and soft giggles emitted from your mouth. It may have been unbecoming of someone with your background but it felt too damn good! So much so, you had made a creamy mess of him and he craved it all. Bucking and snapping his hips, Ryo crossed his arms against the perimeter of your plump backside, wrangling that ass in whilst marking it with plenty of slaps. Each one makes you cry out for the next and scream his name.
“The fuck you waiting for..come on this dick, bitch. Don’t hold back now. Make a fucking mess. That’s what I make my whores do.” Having awoken something in him that had lied dormant since you came into his life. That veil had lifted and Ryo wasn't interested in playing it safe. He was going to make sure you’d be hooked just like one of his addicts.
“Oh my God—shit! I’m coming..” reaching back to rub your swollen clit until you exploded into a squirting mess all over the floor and you guys’ feet. “Goddamn..that fucking pussy feels good.” Yet, you weren’t getting a break anytime soon. It was right after that orgasm that he’d hastily spin you around, hoisting you into his grasp as he propelled you on his cock once more. At this point, that little hole was nothing more than a glorified flesh light..sucking him in and squelching all for his pleasure. Tears had begun to stream down to your face but that satisfied grin remained and he’d continue fucking his little doll brainless and utterly stupid until he felt himself pulsating.
“Cum in my pussy, daddy. Please!”
“Fuck that, I’m nutting in all these holes tonight. I got a lot to make up for.”
safe to say, you had awoken a monster!
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croquettish · 19 days ago
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A Hans Capon Character Analysis
Part 1: Hans' Disillusionment with the Nobility
I went into this wanting to write one thing and then instead ended up writing something different entirely which, after watching it get stupidly long, I decided to split in two. So you can consider this an analysis triptych (they other two are already drafted and ready to go). It's still stupidly long, so I apologize for that.
We know that Hans learned what the platonic ideal of a noble looked like and from that point on did his very best to live up to that ideal. He saw what he was supposed to be even while realizing that he could never live up to that ideal. Hans spends all his time trying to reach for perfection only to find his best only ever being at best shy of where he wants to be. More often, his best is far removed from where he thinks he's meant to be / supposed to be.
This is a theme that comes up several times throughout the game. First, when they're at the inn in Troskowitz where Hans pulls the "excuse" about why he can't do work:
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I say "excuse" in quotes because the more time you spend talking to Hans the more it becomes obvious that he actually believes what he's saying. All that stuff about the three states of man is 100% something that he was either taught directly or overheard. It's entirely possible that he once tried to help out the castle staff and was told he wasn't allowed to do that because it went against the will of God. Like I fucking love AUs where Hans and Henry met as kids, but there's a non-zero chance that any attempt to do so, if not simply preempted, would have been shut down by Hanush and the others around him. This is what it means to be a noble, Hans. You're not allowed to do any of these fun things. You have a job to do. You're going to rule Rattay someday and that comes with certain responsibilities.
Here are some choice excerpts from that conversation:
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I want to draw special attention here to the role that Hans places himself in, the role of the Bellator, a protector of others. This is what he's allowed to do. Remember that for later.
The other thing I want to draw attention to is this bit:
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This isn't just about losing face. This is about the fact that he grew up hearing how wrong it would be for him to do peasant work. This is about the fact that he was told that if he did this, he'd be going against God, and everyone would think less of him for not acting as he's supposed to / required to. Not just in the eyes of God, but in the eyes of society.
Remember how I said that Hans has an idealized notion of nobility? That applies here as well. As the codex entry on the Three States of Man tells us, this is the ideal medieval society, one that is meant to be conducive to peace. That lack of social mobility and freedom that Hans has been chained by his whole life has a purpose: to ensure harmony.
But the script he's so used to, that he clings to so desperately, fails him. Harmony could not be further from his reality. Case in point, at the beginning he tells Henry that he can protect him with his name and therefore his own noble status:
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But then, that doesn't turn out to be true. He does everything in his power to declare his noble status, to invoke his name, even places his arm behind his back and attempts to bow in order to properly present himself as nobility to the guards at the Trosky Castle gates—all for naught. No one cares. Hans tries so fucking hard to stick to the script he's been taught his whole life, and no one gives a shit. Svatya makes fun of him, refuses to apologize, and then physically assaults him. Instead of seeing Svatya getting clapped in the pillory, he is.
During the divorce era, he once again tries to grasp for any amount of familiarity from his old life by turning to hunting. It's a noble sport and something he's good at. Camping and going out to hunt, being out in nature over an extended period of time, these are all things he's done before. Things he can comfortably fall back on. If he forgets about the fact that he's alone—no Henry, no horse, no hunting dogs—he can almost pretend he's back in his old life.
Even his attempt at romancing Enneleyn at the wedding fits into this desperate attempt to cleave to his understanding of his noble title. (This is a point that also crops up in this fantastic analysis of Hans' character by @codeword-art, that Hans knows what people think nobles should be like, this including a love for women. This post and the one that preceded it are analyzed in greater depth in part two of this analysis.)
And then even that is torn from him when he's told he'll hang for poaching. Nobility was the one thing that was supposed to act as a get-out-of-jail-free card for him, his guaranteed fallback. Nobility was meant to remove the noose from around his neck... and then failed to do so. What's the point of being a noble if no one believes that you are one? What's the point of being a noble if it only comes with a lack of social skills, a lack of relationships, and a lack of freedom? What's the point of sticking to a script if everyone refuses to play their parts? Growing up, nobility always acted as a panopticon for him, surrounded by people's judgments of him. His character, his aptitude, was always everybody's business. But that pain, that judgment, always came with benefits before.
This illustrates for Hans, quite clearly, how quickly those benefits can be stripped for him and made meaningless. Nobility can't save him. Nobility has only ever taken from him, and then, when he needed it most, it wasn't there for him as a parachute.
At the end of Next to Godliness we can talk to Hans about what he's going to do with Arse-n-balls. And if Henry advises Hans to punish him, first Hans tries to defend him.
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At which point Henry invokes his noble status and suggests that letting this transgression go unpunished would lead to people questioning him in his position:
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At which point Hans folds quite quickly:
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How much do you reckon Hans' worldview was shaken in hindsight, upon realizing the reality of the punishments he might have subjected people to. A day in the stocks or pillory? Being hanged for poaching? Suddenly he's seeing these things from the perspective of a peasant and what that might feel like.
Nobles are meant to protect people and dole out punishments only when necessary. But this whole system is so easily upended the second corruption gets involved.
He's next confronted with this issue in a big way if you decide to sell out Olda and go to Semine with Hashek. Despite von Bergow's wishes, Hashek wants to burn the place down to the ground along with all the people in it. Everyone is to die. This isn't what von Bergow wanted (and if you do agree to Hashek's plan, he is appropriately outraged after) and while Hans questions if the two of you did the right thing if you decide to go against Hashek's wishes, he's quite distressed if you don't go against his wishes and kill everyone. It puts him into a funk for quite a while after and leaves him viewing himself as inherently tainted by the experience.
Horrified as he is that Olda, as a nobleman, would side with Zizka and co (and expresses this right after the possible torturing if the truth is discovered), he's just as horrified that Hashek, a nobleman, would order the slaughter of innocents. He objects on several occasions but mostly goes along with what Henry says, only questioning what the right decision was after.
Nobles are supposed to be better than this. If he was expected to do better, to be better, to live up to all these unachievable ideals, why does no one else give a shit?
The next time this crops up in a big way is after the Maleshov rescue when Hans become quite upset at the sight of a destroyed village. A conversation with Brabant follows that showcase a number of Hans' feelings on the matter:
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This is unjust, he says. Because in his eyes, the nobility should be above such dirty, underhanded tricks to get what they want. Brabant insists that the village will be resettled before long ("people die, it's what they do" etc etc) and that this is just how war is.
Hans, however, is unsatisfied:
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Here too we see his idea of the Bellator and what that means for him as a noble. In Hans' eyes, their job is to protect the common people. To do everything in his power to make sure that these atrocities don't happen.
If Henry then agrees with him, Hans says something else telling (regardless of what happens with Semine):
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These things happen because of his failure. He's a Bellator, a noble who should be capable of protecting people. Instead they failed at Nebakov and he was captured. The death of these people, to Hans, is on his own head.
We know that our boy Luke lost rizz points with pretty much everyone because he decided to burn down the village near Maleshov during the siege, but this too is a moment that's worth remarking on. In the moment, Hans defers to Henry and insists that well, they're in a war, aren't they? But after von Bergow's interrogation, he has quite a few things to say to Henry:
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On the flipside, if Henry goes against Dry Devil, Hans praises his actions while simultaneously acknowledging that he wouldn't have been strong enough to do the same:
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It's interesting that at this point in the story he trusts Henry (not a noble) with ethical judgments far more than either himself or other noblemen. Deferring to Henry isn't entirely new for him, but that's another post entirely. What matters here is that we're witnessing the wool being pulled from Hans' eyes in real time here: the inherent superiority of nobles is rapidly evaporating.
In addition to that, the fact that he's constantly put into the position of damsel in distress means that he's frequently saved or protected by Henry. He's not the Bellator of his own life. Henry is. Henry is more noble in Hans' eyes than any noble he's ever met. This even comes up at one point early in the game, following their first romance option:
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I'm sure I don't need to point out how this means that Henry effectively dismantles Hans' sense of self only to build it up again. All his self-esteem was rooted in the fact that he's a capable Bellator, a defender of the people and worthy of his position as a noble. Then Henry comes in, does it all better despite his peasant upbringing, and then shows Hans that he has value in spite of what he perceived all his faults to be.
Even before the siege on Maleshov, Hans is slowly starting to build up an increasingly robust view of himself as a Laborator. I talked about this in more detail here, where we see Hans volunteer himself for manual labor that we see no one else in the game do other than Henry. In fact, it's something that is often (and jokingly at that) offloaded onto Henry. But here, Hans presents the far more noble position (in this case, dealing with the hunted game) to Henry while taking the manual labor task for himself.
With what noblesse oblige is Hans left with then? Stripped of all the artifice, what remains?
Just his word. The word of a nobleman.
Hans and Henry both get into an argument with Hanush at the end of KCD1 when he gives Toth his word that his safety will be ensured if he lets Radzig and Lady Stephanie go. Henry is (understandably) upset that Hanush will just let Toth go, but Hanush insists that his word as a nobleman is his bond. At which point Hans steps in to argue that they may as well not honor that bond:
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Henry also argues, but Hanush ultimately comes back with this:
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It's a point that sticks with Hans, and we see it invoked fairly early on in the game:
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It's also challenged right toward the beginning as well. Henry responds to what Hans says with something that makes no sense, invoking the idea of one's word but here in the name of him being a blacksmith:
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@antivanwine14 recently made a spectacular post about precisely this. There's no such thing as the word of a blacksmith. It doesn't carry the same weight whatsoever. But Hans decides to take it that way regardless:
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No pretension, no posturing about the importance of a noble's words over those of a peasant. Either Henry has been elevated in Hans' mind (no doubt) or nobility is losing the special, unique lustre that it might have once held for him (almost certainly true as well).
We fast-forward a bit. His next encounter with the word of a nobleman is at Raborsch, where his word is given... for him, when he's engaged against his will. If you ask me, this changes things. In a big way. Hans has very little, but the one thing that he thought he had was his word to give. Every thing he swears by from that point forward serves as a reclamation.
And the first thing he does with that reclamation is swear that he'll be there for Henry just as Henry was there for him:
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(and then he did, etc etc)
I do find it curious here that he doesn't invoke the word of a nobleman here in this promise to Henry. Instead, he swears by God, their mutual belief system. Giving Henry his word isn't enough anymore. As if Henry has outranked it in his eyes. I wonder if he thought back to the moment when Henry responded to Hans' word as a noble with the word of a blacksmith here. Unlike social stratification, this is a place where they are on equal footing.
The next time that Hans does give his word is at Maleshov during the siege: von Bergow's safety in exchange for both Rosa's safety and von Bergow's agreement to switch sides.
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This makes sense. He's speaking to another nobleman here, someone who would understand what it means if the word of a noble is given.
And it is, of course, then immediately put in danger by Sam:
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If Sam kills von Bergow here, he takes the last remaining vestiges of any sort of sense of self or identity from Hans. Nobility is losing its lustre, he's not a worthy Bellator and instead always has to have Henry saving his ass, and this is all that remains. What is a noble without his word? As Hanush told him very clearly at the end of the first game, his word is his honor. And without honor, he's nothing.
What's left if the artifice is stripped away? If all he has left to him is his word, if that too is rendered meaningless, Hans, in his mind, will be left as nothing.
It should also be noted here that Sam is not held back by the rules of this society that Hans is so solidly part of. Much like queerness, he exists well outside of it, as both Jews and sodomites were considered heretics. Sam has that freedom that Hans so badly longs for, but it comes at a considerable cost, that of oppression. It's risky to exist at the fringes of society.
As @hallowedlore perfectly put it (in private conversation), when Sam attacks von Bergow, a statement throwing into question why he should care about the rules of their fancy nobility, the only thing that stop him is the threat of violence from Zizka. Death, not social decorum.
Hans is clinging on to this bit of identity with all his might here as though it's a life-raft. And Godwin immediately backs him up, reminding him that what he did there mattered.
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But it doesn't get him very far. And certainly not with Sam, who couldn't care less about pleasing a Christian god. It strikes me as curious (and topical) here that he comes away from the big roundtable discussion with von Bergow and the other nobles feeling like insignificant shit while their talk at the Devil's Den did not leave him feeling that way.
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Being a nobleman was meaningless here too. His nobility didn't matter one bit, all that mattered was being the strongest personality in the room. And Hans is anything but that. That boy is made of insecurities, his outward facing personality all a mask behind which is only hot air.
Only his jealousy regarding Sam's inbuilt relationship with Henry makes him turn back to old patterns:
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See, Henry? He's different from us. But the argument doesn't work on Henry and barely even works on himself.
Increasingly, Hans realizes that the nobility isn't where he feels like he belongs the most. This worldview of his is fucked and all wrong. Who went and decided that he should be a Bellator while someone like Henry isn't?
Because he does associate Henry with nobility in a big way. When Henry goes to ask Hans what he should do about Erik's offer of a duel, Hans thinks it over and then comes back with this:
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These are different times. Are they? Or is it just Hans' heart that has changed here? Because right after this, he asks Henry to stay. To forgo honor and nobility and not put himself in unnecessary danger.
The aftermath of the silver heist likewise serves as a painful reminder of what is waiting for him on the other side of all this: a marriage that he doesn't want to a woman he doesn't know. What benefits remain of nobility? All he'd see by this point is obligations. No one listens to him, no one cares what he has to say except for Henry. All the bluster is ultimately meaningless. He doesn't belong with the other nobles, and all his best attempts at fitting into the mold fail him. All his life he's spent his time trying to be like those around him, trying to be someone he isn't, and it's never good enough.
The people he feels most comfortable around, Henry and Godwin, are both people with ties to nobility while wanting as little to do with titles and related obligations as possible. They both have social mobility to a certain extent. The opposite of nobility, to Hans, is freedom.
Shorty after the attack by the Praguers, Hans goes to wait for Henry in front of his room. When Henry asks him how he's doing, because he's clearly got experience leading troops, Hans laughs it off:
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If there was any doubt left that he views himself as an incapable Bellator, this is excellent proof, backed up even more later on following the suicide mission:
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This is what being a noble has gotten him. People's judgments and expectations, obligation to marry and carry on a family line, and the ability to play God and decide who gets to live and who dies. All he wanted was to protect people. Instead he gets to send them to their deaths.
This will come up again in part two, but it bears mentioning here as well. After getting laid, Hans vents to Godwin about how much he hates that no one ever treats him like an adult. He's a noble and an adult, and none of it ever seems to matter:
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Who's "they"? Because the rest of what he says mentions that he thought the Trosky delivery would make "them" take him seriously. This isn't just about Hanush. This is about all nobles. That he'd finally fit in.
But he doesn't, and he won't.
When Hanush arrives at Suchdol, he highlights that everyone there is a hero for their deeds there, but it doesn't matter. Hans once more has his noble obligations shoved down his throat, which effectively feels like the last straw in this disillusionment. Nobility has granted him nothing but pain and any child of his would suffer the same fate. There's even some easily missed idle dialogue you can walk in on where they're arguing about precisely that. It doesn't matter what he does, how heroic he is, how many good deeds he performs, at the end of the day none of it ever mattered (read left to right):
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It always strikes me in that conversation how unbelievably bitchy Hans sounds here. The "I'm glad you noticed" could not be cuntier. He is not happy. And even then, Hanush barely offers him any guarantees.
Effectively, this leaves Hans open to questioning the harmony of society as it was taught to him and, in questioning it, realizing that that harmony never existed to begin with. He spends the whole game realizing that the social order he's been subjected to and thought he fit into perfectly is not only illogical but also something he has despised his whole life. This is discovered not only because he was shown an alternative in his own shift into more of a Laborator beside Henry (who to him embodies the qualities of a Bellator far better than he), but also in his own queerness.
It doesn't escape me that there's something to be said about Suchdol here. During the siege, Henry and Hans effectively live outside of the bounds of nobility or social stratification. Everyone is equal in the face of Hunger and Despair. And it's only in this space, this place outside of what is and isn't deemed acceptable by society, that Hans finds it in himself to kiss Henry. To breach every code of conduct he's ever known. Because they're already in the space outside of social acceptability. Hell, the entire Devil's Band is situated in precisely this space just by going against Sigismund. You couldn't ask for a more perfect environment for Hans to step outside of the bounds that have held him since birth.
This is even shown even more starkly with this anon's point in mind about how it goes if you don't romance Hans:
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This is unjust. Henry is only in danger because he's not a noble. There's something to be said about agency here, but that discussion has to wait for part three of this analysis triptych. Nothing about this social stratification serves him any longer, all the more so when he romances Henry. It's also why he seems so uncertain about the two of them when Henry returns, and they are meant to return to reality and the expected social order.
This social order that was meant to bring with it harmony for all is the same social order that would demand that he marry and beget an heir. Why should he try to fit himself into this cookie cutter mold if he never fit to begin with? As we see with Barnaby especially, being discovered as queer spells an existence at the fringes of society if not outside of it entirely. Queerness is inherently and by definition at odds with social order, thus returning us to the nobility vs. freedom dialectic. And regardless of which of the two Hans ultimately chooses, obligation or what his heart wants, that disillusionment can never be undone.
Part 2, Part 3
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nyoomerr · 1 year ago
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Shen Yuan entered Luo Binghe’s life like any other good thing he’s ever had: with great difficulty, and accompanied by copious amounts of sex.
The difficult parts don’t bear talking about. Luo Binghe still feels his stomach drop at the reminders of those first few mercurial months of knowing Shen Yuan, at the way Shen Yuan had unintentionally dismantled most notions of what Luo Binghe thought a happy ending should be like. He doesn’t think he’ll ever quite enjoy thinking about that time: it had been, in some ways, a more miserable challenge to overcome than his time in the Abyss had been. 
(It had been, in many ways, the only challenge Luo Binghe had ever had to face that was directed inwards. There was no straightforward evil to banish or monster to slay. There was hardly even a wife to seduce, given the fact that Shen Yuan had let himself be seduced by Luo Binghe’s image long before Luo Binghe himself had ever arrived in Shen Yuan’s world to begin with. 
There was only this: in order to grasp the incandescent happiness that Shen Yuan presented - that Luo Binghe deserved - he had to admit that every moment of so-called happiness he had experienced for the last century had been a fool’s imitation of it. In order to be happy with Shen Yuan, he had to admit to being miserable without him. 
It was humiliating, and it was nauseating, and it had even made Luo Binghe cry once, where he thought Shen Yuan wouldn’t be able to see him. 
He’d been so, so glad when it turned out Shen Yuan wouldn’t even look away from that - from Luo Binghe at his least lovable.)
No, the difficult parts of Luo Binghe’s conquest of Shen Yuan are best kept carefully out of mind. The other, better parts of that conquest - the parts involving hot skin against skin, as close as Luo Binghe could get to fitting Shen Yuan within his own flesh where he could never part from him - those parts are far more pleasant to remember, and Luo Binghe works to make new memories of that sort every day. 
Despite its pleasantness, however, the sex is not Luo Binghe’s favorite part of his courtship with Shen Yuan. 
“Bing-ge,” Shen Yuan calls, voice just an octave shy of a proper whine, “surely we can spend summers in my world? You can’t really think this heat is more pleasant than modern AC, ah?”
Luo Binghe hums, leaning in to run his mouth across the plane of Shen Yuan’s neck, savoring the smell of Shen Yuan’s sweat. His skin is tacky from the heat; Luo Binghe briefly fantasizes about being able to stick himself to it permanently. 
“Wasn’t it Yuan-er who begged to see the Fire-Driven Herons’ migration? It only happens once every decade, after all.”
“I know that,” Shen Yuan says, scowling. “I was the one who told you that.”
“Yuan-er is the most knowledgeable about this world,” Luo Binghe agrees. 
Shen Yuan sighs, squirming half-heartedly in Luo Binghe’s lap - a wordless threat to get up. Obediently, Luo Binghe waves the fan in his free hand a bit quicker in Shen Yuan’s direction, threading delicate veins of qi into the generated wind to ensure it’s pleasantly cool. Satisfied, Shen Yuan settles back in, starting up one of his charming lectures about the fauna of Luo Binghe’s world. 
Luo Binghe listens more to the cadence of Shen Yuan’s voice than to the words themselves. He doesn’t often find it necessary to know the ecological features of a beast in order to slay it, or to capture it for Shen Yuan’s zoo, or to cook it into a proper meal. 
Still, this is what Luo Binghe likes best - what he likes even more than sex, which he’d thought to be his favorite activity from the ages of 17 to 132. 
Lounging on the ground, Shen Yuan sat snugly in his lap and held close by Luo Binghe’s free arm, allowing himself to be pet and cuddled as if it were a natural part of a trip to see some ugly birds migrate - 
Pressing his nose into the nape of Shen Yuan’s neck, left bare by Luo Binghe’s own hands that had been responsible for putting Shen Yuan’s hair up in its current complicated hairstyle - 
Idly fanning Shen Yuan to keep him cool even even while Luo Binghe himself is the greatest source of heat when pressed so close in the summer sun like this -
Over a century into his so-called happy ending, Luo Binghe has rediscovered his greatest pleasure to be physical affection of a non-sexual sort, and Shen Yuan gives it as freely as he breathes.
Oh, he fusses and complains and acts as if he must be coaxed into loving Luo Binghe, but it is such a poor act that Luo Binghe can’t help feeling nothing but warm indulgence towards it. 
“Don’t be so bold,” Shen Yuan will scold when Luo Binghe buys lube without hiding his identity, and yet in the next moment he’ll casually thread his fingers between Luo Binghe’s to hold his hand all the way through their walk down the main street of town.
“Who taught you to act like this, ah?!” Shen Yuan will complain when Luo Binghe ensures his subordinates know what an honor it is to be allowed to look at Shen Yuan, but then it will be Shen Yuan himself who will seat himself directly at Luo Binghe’s side instead of any more appropriate location for a Lord’s wife.
“There’s no need to be so sticky,” Shen Yuan will sigh when he catches Luo Binghe practically running back from the kitchens with breakfast, eager to return to his sweetheart’s side, but then Shen Yuan will happily eat from Luo Binghe’s own chopsticks, even during meals taken in the main dining hall.
Despite all his aired grievances, Shen Yuan himself breaks countless social boundaries a day without even blinking. He truly thinks nothing of it, believing these gifts he presses into Luo Binghe’s heart to be nothing but normal for a couple. Normal! As if Luo Binghe has not heard tavern songs about the Demon Emperor’s shameless new male wife, spun by every servant and enemy alike that has visited the palace and been struck to flustered embarrassment at the way Shen Yuan acts!
Luo Binghe wants to roll Shen Yuan up in one hand and eat him. He dared to say as much to Shen Yuan, once; Shen Yuan had merely rolled his eyes and told him that he wasn’t into “vore.”
(Luo Binghe had made a note to research this “vore” when they next returned to Shen Yuan’s world. He’s learned that he can coax Shen Yuan into a great many number of things, if he does it slowly and lovingly enough. The delay will give Luo Binghe time to figure out a way to both take Shen Yuan’s flesh and blood into his own without then being left without a Shen Yuan to hold in his arms.)
Certainly, some part of Luo Binghe knows this quirk in Shen Yuan’s behavior to be a byproduct of the world Luo Binghe had stolen him from. The standards for modesty are warped in that place, and Shen Yuan had been gently raised by the hand of that world to not notice anything odd about it. 
A god is no less sacred for having come from the heavens where more gods reside, though. Nor does a man feel faith to any of those supposed unseen gods when one presently sits in their lap, free to worship with prayer and touch alike. None of the other people of Shen Yuan’s world had offered Luo Binghe something so precious as the free flowing love that Shen Yuan shows him. None of them had been so foolish, and so sweet, and so carelessly thoughtful despite a cute mean streak hidden within, and -
“Bing-ge,” Shen Yuan calls, and Luo Binghe bites at Shen Yuan’s neck to prove he’s listening. Shen Yuan sighs. “Bing-ge, you aren’t listening to a word I say.”
“I am,” Luo Binghe says, “I just bit you to prove it.”
“Wha - how does that prove - oh, you’re hopeless!” Shen Yuan cries, squirming again, this time with a stronger intention.
Displeased, Luo Binghe casts aside the fan he’d been using to cool Shen Yuan, moving instead to curl both arms around Shen Yuan’s middle. When Shen Yuan keeps squirming, he trails one hand down to rub at Shen Yuan’s thigh, listening for Shen Yuan’s indignant protests. Luo Binghe may have grown drunk on the simple act of holding Shen Yuan without the need for it to be sexually pleasurable, but he isn’t above using sex to keep Shen Yuan close if he must. He refuses to give up even a millimeter of contact with this precious person unless there is no other option. 
“You’re insufferable,” Shen Yuan complains, slapping at Luo Binghe’s creeping hand several times. “We’ll miss the migration we came all this way to see if you keep this up!”
“I’ll miss Yuan-er’s closeness the most,” Luo Binghe says gravely, and Shen Yuan snorts.
“Insufferable,” he repeats, and then gives his most put-upon sigh. “Can’t you just settle for holding my hand for at least until the birds leave?”
Happily, Luo Binghe stops feeling Shen Yuan up and intertwines their hands instead. Shen Yuan praises him for his patience, as if the simple feeling of their palms pressed together isn’t more pleasurable than the greatest heights of ecstasy found in any bed. 
One day, Luo Binghe will confess this to Shen Yuan: that he’s truly deviated far too much from the erotic character Shen Yuan had read all about in that other world. That somehow, when it’s Shen Yuan, Luo Binghe feels so overwhelmed with simple affection that his greatest desires are as chaste as a young boy’s. Oh, he still enjoys the sex, but -
But ah, what he really loves most is this.
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maddamoiselle · 3 months ago
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Tied Souls
Pairing: Sylus x NonMC!Reader, Xavier x MC
Summary; You didn't think being a dragon would ever be a problem. And yet, with your childhood friend Sylus and yourself as the last hunted dragons, you wondered how you would be able to live.
Words: a. 4.300
Author's nonsense; I’m wondering, where you kissed better when you were sick? I hope you will enjoy this chapter, I do not know why I’m so attached to this story but I was so excited to write those scene today. Please, let’s enjoy the… feast!
<- Chapter II Chapter IV ->
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You were perched on a tree, staring toward the city lights that were so far away from your home.
Philos.
You turned your head away, looking down toward the child that was trying to climb the tree, not caring that he was blind. He was panting , lifting his head toward the sound of your tail against the branches he could use to climb.
Little Mephisto…
You smiled, amused as you watched your… little human child trying to reach you. Since You and Sylus rescued the boy, a few months had passed by.
He had a smart mouth, always moaning when you wanted to sing something with your music box. The poor boy would shriek while blocking his ears, begging for you to stop.
Of course, as soon as you turned toward him, he would bore a mocking smile before running away, knowing you would chase after him to entertain him. You felt pride bloom in your chest when you realized that Mephisto wasn’t stumbling anymore against your treasures on the floor. The boy was used to being with you and Sylus, and he knew where every single piece of gold was.
Mephisto was getting used to being carried around when you and your dragon decided to move away for a while from your den. The first time you changed into your dragon form, he shouted in fear when he touched you, expecting your human form.
Sylus was also enjoying teasing the human. He would order Mephisto to go into a human village and come back with something useful.The boy would obey and would usually come back with food; and that’s how he discovered that nor you or Sylus ate food.
”What do you eat then?”
”Souls.”
You remembered Sylus had laughed as Mephisto dropped the food he had, his face turning pale a bit. You had chuckled before patting his head, reassuring him that you wouldn’t eat him. His soul wasn’t something you wished to eat.
Back to the present, you smiled when Mephisto finally managed to sit next to you, holding onto the branches before turning his face toward you with a big smile. You patted his back while observing his red eyes, incapable of seeing things anymore. He had told you it was intruders that had come into his house and murdered his parents that turned him blind…
But you could feel he wasn’t telling the whole story.
The little boy gave you some fruits he had in his pockets. Even if you couldn’t taste anything, you made a habit of eating what he was giving you. Even if, from your point of view, it was meaningless, it always seemed to bring a smile on the child’s face.
“So, how does a soul taste ?” Mephisto asked while chewing on his blueberry. You bite the fruit, looking toward the city lights once more.
” It’s an experience…I don’t think you could understand.” You mocked the boy fondly. How could he understand the taste of a soul… It was just like you, you don’t think you would ever understand the taste of food…
”Like you will never understand the notion of love?”
You snapped your head toward him, and you growled, without any real anger, when you saw his teasing smile. Sometimes, Mephisto could be as infuriating as Sylus…
You flicked his forehead, minding your claws, and smirked when he cried out.
”What! You said dragons can’t feel love.”
”I don’t know… That’s what Sylus told me.” You turned your head away, your tail hanging loose in the air, behind you. You always wondered how Sylus knew about this and not you. Your parents never said that to you… and yet, in the few memories you had, you remember your parents being… caring for each other..?
You frowned as your brain started to think about it.
You didn’t know what love was. You didn’t know how it felt like… You have read a lot of human books, always focusing on the ‘love’ part.
Being caring to each other, protecting each other, wishing to stay with your partner…
You were doing all of that with Sylus.
But you weren’t human. Maybe dragons do love, but in different ways? While a human would press their lips against their loved one, a dragon would.. bite..? How many times did Sylus chomped on your cheeks so you could turn your eyes on him…
How many times did you bit his finger when he was stroking your cheek because he looked so…
”I think of going into another village today.”
You turned your attention back to Mephisto, who was kicking his legs in the air. You tilted your head, your eyes glinting with suspicion.
” Why? Where?”
The boy laughed at your questions, his body dangerously tilting backward. Your tail was already ready to catch him if he were to fall, but he didn’t. He turned his face toward you with a happy smile.
”You’re really worried about me? I’m just going to the ruins of an old village, it is said it’s a place of desolation. No need to worry, I’m not scared.” He said before shouting in fear, holding onto you as the tree’s branch shook violently.
You turned your head toward Sylus, who landed on the tree, making sure the branches were shaking strongly as the boy clung to you, unsure of what was going on.
“Well, Mephisto, I thought you weren’t scared?” Sylus mocked, amused by the boy’s behavior. Mephisto shouted nonsense at the dragon, pointing toward his direction while keeping a strong grip on you.
After a few minutes, you both watched Mephisto climb down the tree. He turned toward you and waved before running off. You clumsily waved back at you, hearing Sylus laughed at you.
”He can’t see you, you know?”
You stuck your tongue to him, your tail slapping his back while he chuckled at you. When you couldn’t see Mephisto anymore, you turned your body toward Sylus with a serious face. He raised an eyebrow with a smirk, waiting for you to speak your mind.
”Sylus. Why can't dragons love?”
Sylus sighed before adjusting himself on the branch, his back leaning against the tree trunk. He looked toward the sky with a frown that made you smile. He almost looked like he was pouting, which made him … cute…
Cute..?
”Dragons… want to kill their loved ones. It’s about violence, about—“
Sylus stopped talking when he felt your lips on his cheek. His eyes widened when he felt your little fangs munching on his cheek. You were between his legs ,on all four, one hand on his chest, and the other was on his shoulder.
You were purring as you kept giving him gentle bites before letting his cheek go. He turned his eyes toward you, his mouth opened, but no words were coming out of it.
You chuckled, nuzzling against him.
” Was it violent..?” You asked him in a whisper that made him shiver. You looked up at him, staring at him, wanting his answers.
Sylus always told you he was a weapon. He was dangerous, a fighter, a killer. Even when you were training, you could feel he was holding himself back while you were jumping on him with all your strength.
But for you, even if he was a weapon, a fighter, and a killer, he was your protector, your most beloved person in the whole world. When he would cup your face with his hands dirty from someone else’s person’s blood, you would purr.
Focusing your attention back on Sylus, you went on his other cheek and bit on it, purring loudly against him. You felt his hands on your back, caressing your skin. You turned your face toward him, asking once again.
” Was it violent?”
” No.”
”Then your turn, show me what ‘violent’ is.”
Sylus chuckled at your demand before looking away for a second. Your eyes followed his face as he turned back toward you. His hand came closer to your neck, using the golden necklace he gave you as a leash as he tugged you close to his face.
”You want me to be violent?”
”Well, you say dragon’s love is violent. Then show me. How do you love?”
Sylus’s eyes shined as he stared at you. You let him do it, not understanding why he needed to watch your inner desire. You rolled your eyes at him, a soft smile on your lips before you felt his hand on your cheek.
You closed your eyes, sighing in bliss as you felt his skin against yours. You could feel his hesitation. It seemed like he didn’t trust himself while touching you.
Sylus’s hand creeped around your waist before pressing you against his body. You felt his tail intertwining with your own, squeezing it until you let a little gasp. You opened your eyes, falling into his ruby gaze.
His hand slid from your cheek toward your neck, to your collarbones and your shoulders. You blushed, the touching seemed… too intimate… and yet you craved it. His gaze was observing carefully. Each part of you, his hand, was caressing; his eyes were staring at it.
”How do I love…? I do not know, but what I’m sure is… I want to touch you… I want you in my arms, I want to bite you… softly and strongly…” He whispered, his hand brushing against your breast before touching your waist and belly. “Sometimes, I imagine that you were killed alongside your parents… and I can’t breathe.”
Your eyes widened with concern at his confession. You leaned toward him until your forehead bumped into his, making his eyes look up at you. He licked his lips, trying to find the will to share more of his thoughts.
”If you were to disappear… I don’t know what I would do with myself. That’s why…”
You grazed his lips, making him shudder. His claws dug into your skin in a comfortable way, making you wish he would stop trying to control himself. His breath was mixing with yours, both of your eyes locking into each other.
Your hands were on his shoulder, trying to have some kind of material anchor on this storm of feeling that was swirling inside you. You closed your eyes as you saw him approach your face.
“ I can’t love you.”
You felt him kiss the corner of your lips, making you turn your head toward his mouth. You tried to catch his lips with yours while he kept kissing your face, torturing you with the feeling of his lips on your skin but never on where you needed it the most.
”I must not love you.”
He whispered as he kissed your neck, his hand holding your hair up so he could nip at your skin, marking it with marks that were making you lightheaded. You felt feverish. Your whole body was burning with a need to…
To what?
“I must not crave you.”
You moaned as his teeth dug into your neck, making you arch instinctively against him. Your hand tugged his hair as he kept you against him, between his legs, caging you with his limbs.
“ I must not… I must not…” He almost begged to himself, trying not to lose himself in you.
” Sylus..” You breathed as his face dipped toward your cleverage. You moaned louder this time as he bit near your breast, your eyes getting teary with need. “ Sy—“
”Don’t… Don’t say my name like this…” He growled, facing you once more. You whined, staring at his eyes, which seemed so primal, feral, and wild… And yet, you didn't feel any fear. You just wanted more…
You approached your lips toward him, feeling elated where you saw him approaching too. You couldn’t wait, you needed to—
You both snapped toward the loud sound you heard. Sylus immediately put you behind him as his eyes scanned the area. You did the same thing and grabbed his shoulder when you saw smoke coming out of the old village, the one your father had destroyed the first time you went there as a kid.
“Sylus, Mephisto went there!” You urged him before jumping from the tree and transforming into your dragon form. You flew toward the smoke, hoping your little human was okay.
In less than two minutes, you landed on the ground, roaring at any threat. You snarled as a Wanderer was standing in front of you, moving like he was just a puppet whose limbs weren't completely his own.
Sylus dove toward it, crushing it into the ground. You looked around, freezing when you saw Mephisto’s unconscious body on the ground, not too far. You changed into your human form and ran toward him, making sure he was alive.
He had some cuts but nothing life threatening. You turned your face toward Sylus, who had already taken down the Wanderer. He then walked toward the two of you, lowering a wing so you could climb on him.
Once you were sitting on his back, you hugged Mephisto as he flew away from there. But as you looked at the ruins, you had to do a double check as you were sure you saw someone with a white uniform.
But as soon as you thought you saw it, it disappeared.
Once inside your den, you laid Mephisto on his bed, making sure his injuries didn’t get worse during the flight. You almost collapsed in relief when he opened his eyes, wincing in pain.
”It’s okay, it’s just us.”
Mephisto relaxed as soon as he heard your voice. You were still feeling hot, sweating from all those last emotions, but seeing the little boy’s face gave you some relief.
Unfortunately, the relief was brief.
Mephisto was sick for almost five days. He was burning, a strong fever you didn't know how to heal. You and Sylus never got sick. You didn't know how humans healed themselves.
You were cuddling the little human who he was shivering, his teeth chattering as he clung on you and the covers. You looked up at Sylus, concern written all over your face. Your dragon stared at the human before leaving the den with a powerful jump.
You stroke Mephisto’s sweaty forehead. What were you supposed to do..?
“ Mephisto, look at me. You’re going to be okay… What do you need?” You whispered against his soaked hair. The boy opened his eyes, delirious from the fever, he didn't recognize you.
”Mom… ? Kiss it better…” He voiced softly. Your eyes fell on him, watching as his eyes closed once more.
A kiss could heal?
You kissed his forehead gently. You kept your lips against his skin until his body relaxed completely. You tilted your head, staring at the sleeping boy.
Did it work?
You snapped your head toward the den’s entrance. You stood up and stared as Sylus came in, holding a human by the throat. You frowned before the poor man was pushed inside the den by your dragon.
”He is a doctor.”
Your eyes widened before looking at the man who seemed horrified to be near two dragons. Your tail wagged in frustration, but what other choice did you have? You crouched in front of the man, your eyes shining with promise of threats if the man didn’t do his job.
”If the boy dies… You’ll be able to apologize to him in the afterlife.”
The man nodded furiously before walking toward Mephisto. He had needles and other tools you couldn’t understand. As you started to growled when you saw him looking at Mephisto’s eyes, he turned toward you, shaking.
”I’m sorry but… W-would you mind leaving me alone with the patient?”
You almost snarled, your body feeling so hot you felt like you needed to take it on someone. And if that so-called doctor thought you would let Mephisto alone with him, he was very wrong.
But Sylus held your wrist with his hand, staring at the doctor.
”Don’t worry. If he fails and runs away, I’ll just go for his family. Right, doctor?”
The doctor nodded. You could almost feel his soul shaking with fear, but before you could say anything, Sylus tugged you out of the den, flying to your usual spot.
As you both landed, you couldn’t stop moving. you were feeling so hot, you felt reckless… You were sweating so much. Did you catch Mephisto’s illness?
”Calm down.”
You growled at Sylus, daring him to say another word. He seemed shocked, but soon an amused smile appeared on his lips. He walked toward you, staring at your tail that was moving behind you in an agitated way.
”Are you angry? Want to work out a bit?”
You didn’t even wait before rushing toward him, your fist hitting him in the jaw. He stumbled back with a proud smile before coming for you.
You were using your legs, your fist, fangs… You couldn’t even feel his hits on you as your whole body was burning. You felt like it was harder and harder to breathe. Your vision was starting to get dizzy…
You fell on the floor, your back hitting the ground as you whined. Sylus immediately went to your side before freezing. You shook your head from side to side, trying to clear the fog from your mind.
”Sy-Sylus..”
You couldn’t see, but Sylus was staring at you like you were his prey. His parents had explained how a dragon could change depending on their age. He was older than you, not being more experienced, but he had more knowledge than you on certain subjects. After all, he knew a dragon would kill his most beloved.
But right now, he knew what was happening to you.
You were having your first heat.
He swallowed loudly, his body frozen. He needed to bring you somewhere safe. He needed to get away from you. He needed to make sure nobody would try to come to you.
Yet, his body stayed where he was.
He watched as your back arched, your claws digging in the mud under you, panting hardly as you asked for him again and again and again and again…
He shook his head, tearing his eyes from your body.
” S-sylus… It hurts…”
He closed his eyes, his body leaning toward you until his forehead touched your belly. Your body relaxed a bit as you felt him against you. He whispered against your skin, his claws digging in the ground, trying to keep himself sane.
Dragons couldn’t taste, and yet how he wished he could eat you up…
” Where… Where does it hurt… Tell me, I’m here…” he breathed hardly. He needed to protect you. He was your only ally… He couldn’t let himself be swayed by your sweet whimpers… If there were another dragon, maybe you wouldn’t call for him.
”Here… It hurts here…”
Sylus opened his eyes and looked as you moved your hand against your lower belly. He nodded slightly. What could help you ? What could he do? He wasn’t even sure he would be able to tear himself off you.
” What do you want me to do?”
”Kiss it better…”
Sylus growled darkly, his claws tearing into the ground under you. He shook his head, trying so desperately to hang on to his sanity. Were you doing this on purpose? Were you torturing him on purpose?
”You.. You aren’t thinking clearly… If another dragon was here…You..” He bit his lips, not being able to voice his thoughts out. He didn’t want to think about another dragon seeing you in this state? He didn’t want to imagine you choosing someone else than him.
”I would choose you…Always..” You cried out as another sharp pain echoed in your belly. You couldn’t see Sylus’s face as he kept his forehead against your belly. Was he disgusted by you? Was your current state pathetic for him?
You always carry yourself with pride and power, but right now, imagining that Sylus looked at you with pity or disgust made you whimper. You could feel fat hot tears dripping from your eyes.
”You… You don’t have to stay… I’ll be okay alone…”
You almost moaned when Sylus kissed your belly, his growl resonated inside your guts. You felt his fangs graze your skin as he whispered a question.
”Do you want me to…kiss the pain away?”
You gasped when he caught his gaze. You closed your eyes, nodding shyly. You didn’t truly understand what was happening to your body, but you trusted Sylus to make it all better.
”Don’t hesitate to hit me if I hurt you.” He said before kissing your belly in multiple places. Your body arched, your delirious mind wishing for something else. You opened your eyes to see Sylus laying flat on the ground between your legs, giving kisses and bites on your stomach.
Your hands trembled as they reached for his horns. He looked up at you as you pushed him slowly lower and lower…
Sylus’s eyes widened, letting you place him where you needed him. He was growling, his fangs bared as he tried to control himself. His claws dug into your thighs, trying not to dive between your legs to lap at the scent that was coming from you.
” K-Kiss it better…” you begged, your chest heaving with want and need. “ Sylus… Please…”
He closed his eyes, trying to keep his eyes from rolling back in his skull. You would indeed be the one to kill. He was sure of that. He wasn’t even sure he would be able to function with his tongue on you.
He leaned toward your clothes, ripping it without meaning to.
Fuck, he was losing his sanity.
He looked at his hands shaking as he gripped your thighs once more. He could control himself. He knew he could, he would, he…
You gasped as you felt his tongue against your soaked slit. Your eyes rolled back as your legs caged his head between his thighs. You tightened your grip on his horns as he growled louder as he tasted you for the first time.
Dragon couldn’t taste anything, yet Sylus felt like he was blessed to feel your taste on his tongue.He didn’t truly know how to bring you pleasure, yet his body moved by itself, controlled by instincts. You were putting a spell on him with your cries, your tastes, your body…
How would he be able to live without you?
You kept calling for his name as he thrust his tongue inside you. You arched your back as you felt his tail wrapped itself around your waist, bringing you closer to his starving mouth.
Your body was shaking from the pleasure you were feeling. How could you feel so good? How come you didn’t know such pleasure existed? You could hear Sylus growled as his mouth never left your most intimate part.
Your hips started to rock against his mouth, making Sylus purred, encouraging you to keep using him for your pleasure. You blindly reached for his hand that was on your thighs and squeezed it hard. All those feelings were scary…but then, you felt Sylus grabbed your hand and squeezed back.
You closed your eyes with a happy smile before moaning again. No matter what, no matter how deep Sylus was lost to his instincts, he would always be aware when you needed reassuring.
You felt something coming from inside your lower belly. You tried to push Sylus away, not completely sure what was going on. You felt like you were going to pee, and there was no way you would live the embarrassment.
But to your surprise, Sylus nipped at your fingers, his lips and chin soaked with your juices that he tried to capture with his tongue.
”Don’t… Please…Don’t take this away from me…” He breathed, his pupils dilated as he stared at you with desperation before diving back between your legs.
You didn’t know you could make such a scream as you came on his face. Your whole body tensed, your body arched as Sylus kept his grip on you, like a prey he didn’t want to escape.
Your back fell against the ground once more, your ears ringing so loudly you couldn’t hear what Sylus was saying. You panted as your dragon crawled on you, making sure you were okay.
You gave him a blissful smile that made him shake his head with a fond smile. You would have been embarrassed to death if you cared enough when you saw his soaked chin and lips. You would have been mortified if you were not still buzzing from the aftershock of your orgsam when you saw him wipe his chin with his hand before sucking it clean.
Sylus stared at you, stroking your cheek as you closed your eyes. He could feel his cock straining against his trousers but it didn’t matter. You were sated, you were happy and you were asking for his arms around you.
You were purring loudly, which made Sylus chuckled as he purred in a deeper voice. You felt so happy and sated that you nuzzled against him, like a thank you.
You didn’t feel like you were a walking flame anymore , you felt… better… Even if your instincts were telling you there was more that could be done, you were happy enough with what happened.
Sylus stroked you back, watching your tail wagging behind you with an amused smile. You could be so cute… Who would have guessed such a terrible dragon like yourself could turn into such an adorable kitten in those moments…
As you both laid there, his strong arms wrapped your body, and you both had one thought.
I’m scared to realize I love you.
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gay-dorito-dust · 2 months ago
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‘I always make everything worse. I always do.’
You were quick to look at Bob the moment those words left his mouth, seeing his downtrodden expression and the smile that barely reached his eyes, or the way his eyes seemed to convey the flurry of emotions and memories he was bringing up when essentially calling himself useless. You hated how a man as sweet, kindhearted, intelligent, caring, loyal and amazing as Bob was treated throughout his entire life; so much pain and struggling to the point he thought that Project Sentry would somehow change all that.
‘No you don’t.’ You replied immediately. ‘You don’t make everything worse, you’ve never have and I don’t like how you’re treating yourself with words others have used against you as if they hold some truth. They don’t.’ You held his hands tightly in yours as you looked him dead in the eye, letting him know that your words were true and spoken from the heart, as you continued. ‘Just because something doesn’t go right doesn’t mean you should blame yourself for it going tits up, we accept the failure and move on without having to put ourselves down for not knowing any better or just failing in general. We’re human, we’re not meant to be perfect.’ You punctuated the last part by kissing the furrow in Bob’s brow, pulling away to watch his facial features relax.
‘But-‘ you were swift with the second kiss that you planted on his nose.
‘No bugs.’ You reprimanded Bob softly. ‘I know that me saying all theses things won’t help get ride of those thoughts and feelings that have been festering for a long, long time for true change begins when you stop withholding notions of yourself made by other people as truth about you, when the only notion you should withhold is your own. Nobody else’s should matter, nor should you live by them either.’ You added as you watched Bob’s expressions carefully, taking in the way his eyes would never leave you, how his jaw unclenched and how his entire posture told you he was listening and listening intently to every word. He wanted to ingrain every last word word you said within his mind for future reference, for when he needed grounding and you weren’t nearby to do so, a memory for him to reply upon to soothe the darkest corners of his mind to cease their poisonous words.
‘What if I end up letting you down? End up hurting you becuase I couldn’t control it?’ Bob let loose the questions he had harboured within his own head now that he had been allowed to join you and the rest of the team on missions after having got a decent grasp upon his powers, having developed a more easier grasp on keeping the Void at bay so that the incident from months prior doesn’t repeat itself. Bob didn’t exactly trust himself to have full control of his powers, especially not if you were to be hurt on a mission together, thus giving Void the golden opportunity to take over and wreak havoc. He didn’t trust himself to not loose the only bit of control he had, not without causing a much bigger problem to unfold in the process of doing so, and so in his mind the second he lets up his grip; everyone was at risk of being grievously hurt.
You smiled softly as you continued to hold his hands as though it was the most important thing for you to do right now, give him something to hold on to, something to squeeze and bring himself out of his own head as you caress his knuckles with your thumbs. ‘I’m not going to hold it against you for not being in complete control of your powers Bob. I’m not going to hold you to any expectation at all because it’s unfair and I don’t want you to think that one little slip up will ever have me doubting you, questioning you if you should have joined us on missions in the first place.’ You kissed his brow again when you saw it begin to furrow once more out of worry. ‘I could never hate you, not even a single bit because all of you is good, too good to be real as if your a dream come true because I get to be able to see you shine that golden glow of yours, my golden guardian. I couldn’t hate you or resent you even if i was forced to.’ You added in barely above a whisper as you rest your head against his, hearing his breath hitch in his throat before relaxing.
Bob had his eyes closed as he allowed your presence to wash over him, to comfort him and bring himself to memories where neither of you could sleep in the Watchtower, and how you developed the tradition of creating random things from the starry skies above and remembering your smile when he told you that the brightest shining star reminded him of you. You had called him sappy but made his heart work that little faster, skip a couple of beats when you told him that he was your entire galaxy in response, rendering him speechless as he looked down to his hands to where he found the little crochet kitten with the wonky tail that he had made for you staring back up at him.
During this time where he was relegated to the Watchtower while you and the rest of the new Avengers went on missions, Bob had picked up a multitude of hobbies and crocheting was one of them. He was good at his as it gave his hands something to do other then fidget and pick at his nail beds as you had shown concern over it, despite knowing his power set first hand; And so he remembered vividly why he had crochet you a kitten with a crocked tail as it was based on the softy of how a kitten had followed you home once, a kitten with a crooked tail. Bob remembered you telling him how much you loved that kitten before it ran away, presumably to pass on without worrying you as you had read about later on, and having made peace but still mourned for the kitten with the crooked tail regardless as an selfless act of love even if it was a brief stint.
‘For no matter how long you’ve known someone or something, even if it’s for a day or a week or even a month, they’re worth mourning when they’re gone no matter what capacity that might be.’ You had told him and it was in that moment that Bob knew he would be inconsolable should anything happen to you, leaving him to mourn for the rest of his life with the loss of his guiding light, his northern star that always pointed the way ahead for him when he was lost and in need of a reminder that within the dark there will always be a light to guide those seeking redemption or a better life. Even now you were still guiding him gently but not in a cautious way but in one where you wanted to treat him as gently as you possibly could, sorting out his hair or even making sure there was no invisible dust on him, you touched him with a gentleness that he could only hope was the same whenever he touched you.
‘Then I hope to make you proud of me instead.’ He said softly.
‘Honey, you already do that by simply breathing, by showing me just how strong you are to still keep being kind despite it all. Bob I’ve never been more proud of anyone than I have of you.’ Was your response and Bob couldn’t help but shed a few tears as a wave of emotions washed over him, though not to crush or drown him, but instead to carry his body and soul to your open arms where he could feel like this forever; all the while as the crocheted kitten with the crooked tail watched over you both from your shelf.
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halfway-happyyy · 3 months ago
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fair warning, y'all, this is about to be shamelessly self-serving. if periods or blood make you squeamish, then this isn't the one for you 💔
tw's: mentions of periods, period sex, blood, unprotected p-in-v,
this string of consciousness brought to you by my day 1 cycle shenanigans - think the elevator scene à la The Shining.
i'm probably reaching when I hc that there's a correlation between frank being totally at home covered in blood and period sex. in fact, i would go so far as to say the mere notion of it makes him absolutely feral for you.
and it required a bit of gentle coaxing at first, but frank castle is nothing, if not annoyingly persistent.
somehow the topic comes up over dinner one evening. most likely a result of the terrible cramps you'd been experiencing, and he had casually mentioned something about fucking the pain away.
"you don't hate the idea of being covered in blood?" you narrow your gaze at him across the table. "don't mind the fact that it literally gets everywhere?"
frank clears his throat and adjusts the erection growing steadily in the crotch of his jeans.
"uh, nope. on the contrary, actually."
he takes a swig from the chilled bottle of beer before him and shrugs, a wry smile in place on his features.
"kid, you've known me long enough now, to know i ain't scared of a little bit of mess."
and you don't think you'll ever get over the candlelit sight of him, painted with your blood and reveling in every single second of it. the sensation of his stubble against the shell of your ear, and his hoarse groan as he tells you how amazing you feel. how he's never considered himself to be a religious man, but he does sometimes think that god intervened on his behalf when he met you.
yeah, he had told you it would be good, but he had understated the word good in every single way.
he doesn't allow himself the pleasure of his release until he's certain you've come undone as many times as you can. and even then, he stays inside of you a little longer than normal, marveling at how wet, and warm, and utterly familiar you feel to him. like coming home after a long day.
he hasn't admitted it out loud - you have your doubts that he ever will, but you've known him long enough now to know that part of the experience for him is the cleanup and the aftercare. it's leading you by the hand to the shower and rinsing the gore from your skin, only to take you up against the slick tiles once more.
it's crawling back into bed with him later on and drifting off to the sound of his heartbeat, the pulsing ache in the pit of your stomach nearly unnoticeable now. but even more than that, it's sharing aspects of yourself with frank that had always remained hidden before. it's him choosing you regardless of everything.
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irishmammonagenda · 1 year ago
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MC's magic going wrong 😱😰
or right depending on ur outlook on life ig
warnings: swearing, mentions of death (extremely brief and only notioned towards), physical affection
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You hadn´t thought much of it at first when you got back to the human realm. Everything went back to normal. Or as normal as it could be.
Your mother and father sobbed when they saw you, stating how they though´t you were lying in a ditch somewhere in the stretching countryside. You´d lied, told them you were away on a residency based apprenticeship, that you were sorry for worrying them. Your siblings showed signs of worry you never thought they were able to feel for you. Thus you were being babied for a month or so.
That´s when it started.
At first, it was more corvids at the bird feeder in your garden than usual. Then it was stray cats. Then inexplicable black and white feathers dusting your clothing and hair.
Your mother smiled picking out the ivory feather from the confines of your unbrushed hair, "Oh! Your guardian angel´s been watching over you!" she says playfully, an old wives´ tale, nothing too serious.
You tense for a moment, before laughing with her. "Well I´ll take it as a good sign." Stupid old wives being the smartest people.
At first it was easy to brush off.
Then your father started getting lucky, he hadn't been one to gamble persay, putting a few coins in on a bet for the horse racing or the football was a regular occurrence, sometimes he won,sometimes he didn't. The difference of a few silvers, a share bag of sweets basically, made no real strain on your belts. But now, he was winning left right and center. Winning amounts that shouldnt be possible based on the amount he input.
Though, after you woke up to cats and corvids staring at you unblinkingly, in your room, with a few flies and insects on the walls, and your bedsheets covered in feathers and scales of all colours and sizes, enough was enough.
You were going to give those nerds a piece of your mind.
After shooing the animals out, (making sure to pet the cats), you picked up a lipstick, and channeled your pact magic before drawing a circle with various symbols on the floor,
You stilled, "Ah, shit. I dunno how to do this, i mean half of those symbols are angry faces and squiggles...." but ever the theatre nerd, you improved.
"I, MC, call upon the power of my pacts with the Avatars of Hell! and, using their power; a portal to the Devildom shall open for me!"
And a portal did open for you. Unfortunately, not to the best place. As you travelled through the time pocket you ended up stumbling once you made it to the other side, the stumble turnt into a tumble turnt into a fall. Unluckily for you, the thing you fell on was toned flesh and chuckling heartily, you were in Diavolo's lap.
"It's great of you to drop by MC!" He says, his massive hands pulling you further into his frame.
You cover your face with your hands, now noticing the various other nobles in the council room who are staring at their Prince, attempting to mask the fact their jaws are going to hit the floor.
Atleast the Brothers weren't there, but Barbatos' half polite smile half smirk and Diavolo whispering various playful musings of, "Did you miss me that much little human, we missed you too.", and "Summoning a portal illegally into the Demon Lord's castle and onto the Demon Princes lap...tututut." almost made the brothers seem like a mercy....
...almost.
You couldn't tell if this was a win or a lose.
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velouriaris · 2 months ago
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In the Arms of a Devil
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TW: Psychological Horror, Obsessive Love, Slow Burn, Mental Collapse, Dark Fantasy, Demon x human relationship, Dark, death-related
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You first met him on a rainy afternoon in London—just another mundane day that began with fog thick as wool and the scent of wet cobblestone in the air, but one that would mark the quiet end of your normal life; it started with a glance, nothing more, as you carried a tray of tea and biscuits into the parlor where your husband, Leo, sat being questioned by a certain Earl of Phantomhive regarding a string of mysterious arsons in your neighborhood, and while you didn't know much about politics or nobility, you did know the rules of hospitality, so you offered the young Earl's butler—tall, poised, and graceful in a way that made your spine tingle—a small smile and asked if he, too, would like something to drink, and his crimson eyes met yours for the first time; in that moment, Sebastian Michaelis felt something shift.
You were nothing special—plain, modest, kind in a way that most people forgot how to be—but you had smiled at him, a demon, as if he were human; you had looked into his eyes and didn't flinch, and that meant something, even if it shouldn't have, because demons don’t fall in love, and Sebastian certainly did not "feel" in the human sense—but that didn't stop the growing fixation, the urge to watch you, to learn your schedule, the way you brushed your hair behind your ear, the way you laughed softly at Leo’s poor jokes, the way your voice always had that slight tremble when speaking to strangers, and something about that timidity awakened a hunger in him that went far beyond the taste of souls.
He told himself it was curiosity, no more; he was a perfect butler, after all, and perfect butlers did not indulge in human distractions—but he began taking missions near your area more often, suggesting to Ciel that the criminal underworld in your district warranted attention, and though the boy may have been sharp, he didn’t see through the subtle manipulations behind those suggestions; Sebastian’s every step was calculated, from the moment he started arriving just as you walked to the market, to the day he ‘accidentally’ brushed fingers with yours as you both reached for the same jam jar, and you apologized, so sweetly, like it had been your fault.
"Clumsy of me," you whispered, and the demon nearly smiled—not the polite, professional curve of his lips that he offered the world, but a real smile, one that twisted deep inside his chest and threatened to turn his centuries of control into ash.
He began dreaming—an absurd notion, given his nature—of what it would be like to speak with you without the weight of false identities and polite roles, of what your voice would sound like in private moments, gasping his name in reverence, of how easily he could make you his, if only morality weren't a concept you still clung to like a drowning woman to driftwood.
You were in love with Leo, though. Sebastian watched with narrowed eyes as you touched your husband's arm, laughed at his stories, smiled at him as if he were your entire world, and something inside him cracked.
Demons don't feel jealousy. That was what he told himself, again and again.
But the bitter taste on his tongue as Leo kissed your cheek suggested otherwise.
He observed Leo carefully. The man was foolish, trusting, weak where it mattered; he didn't deserve you.
You deserved better.
You deserved someone who could protect you, someone who understood your silence and your softness, who wouldn’t be afraid to sink into the darkest parts of the world for you, who would kill for you.
And Sebastian would.
When Leo was called in for questioning again, this time regarding the disappearance of a merchant he had once quarreled with, you welcomed Sebastian and Ciel with tea and warm words, and when your hands trembled ever so slightly from the cold, Sebastian noted the chill with a glance before vanishing for two minutes and returning with a shawl, claiming it had been lying around—but it hadn’t. He had taken it from a vendor three blocks away in less than a second, all for the pleasure of wrapping it around your shoulders himself.
“Humans are fragile things,” he murmured, brushing a gloved finger across your knuckle as he handed you the teacup, and you looked up, startled, meeting his gaze again.
“Th-thank you, Mr. Michaelis.”
“Sebastian,” he corrected smoothly, voice as smooth as the velvet he wore.
You blushed.
He memorized the exact hue of that color in your cheeks. The descent was slow, like silk unraveling.
He began appearing in your dreams, though you didn’t know why; always watching, always near—sometimes holding you, sometimes soaked in blood, whispering things you couldn’t recall upon waking. You told Leo about the strange dreams. He laughed, called them silly.
Sebastian heard.
And he hated that laugh.
He began planting seeds—small rumors in the underworld about Leo’s dealings, hints that would lead to questions, questions that would lead to suspicion.
All the while, he continued to serve Ciel with unerring perfection, masking his obsession with grace, with elegance, with that ever-present smile that now concealed far more than secrets of the Phantomhive household.
You were beginning to suspect something, though. One night, you swore you saw a figure outside your window—tall, dark, and impossibly still. When you blinked, it was gone.
You asked Leo to check. He said it was probably just a cat.
Sebastian had left a flower on your windowsill. A lily. White. Innocent. Poisonous.
The day Leo went missing, there was no trace.
The authorities suspected nothing; people vanished all the time. You cried inconsolably. Your heart shattered, and Sebastian stood beside Ciel in the drawing room, watching you break, his expression unreadable.
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That night, as you sat alone in your cold bedroom, a letter arrived under your door.
No seal. No signature. Just one sentence.
“I can give you a life with no pain, no fear—only devotion.”
And a name: Sebastian.
When you looked up, he was there—in the shadows, in the moonlight, his eyes glowing faintly red.
“I would never let harm touch you,” he said softly.
You stood, trembling. “Where’s Leo?”
Silence. Then a gentle smile, sinister in its tenderness. “Where he cannot hurt you anymore.”
“I—he never—he was good to me—”
“But not good enough,” Sebastian whispered, stepping closer, gloved fingers brushing your cheek. “He did not deserve you. No one does.”
“Y-You’re a demon.”
He chuckled, low and velvety. “Fufu, Indeed. And yet, I would worship the ground you walk on.”
You backed away. “I-I love him.”
“You’ll forget,” he murmured. “You’ll forget him. I’ll make sure of it.” And then he kissed you—not with heat, not with lust, but with a terrifying devotion that consumed, like ink spreading through water, staining everything it touched.
You tried to fight. You tried to scream. But his arms were gentle, unyielding.
“I can give you eternity,” he breathed against your neck. “Say the word, and I’ll bind your soul to mine—not as a contract, but as something... deeper.”
Your tears fell, and he licked one from your cheek with terrifying reverence.
“Even your pain is beautiful,” he said. “But I will take it all away.”
Outside, the moon bore witness to the beginning of a love not born of light, but of darkness so complete it drowned everything.
And deep within the shadows, the demon whispered your name like a prayer, again and again, until even the night began to shudder.
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