#bc hes significantly...idk how to say it

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Ok fine ill write more sinco fics lmao

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ok ok fuck it I'm gonna try to be brave and actually work on Sterling and Gale's whole uhhhh situation bc I started a new bg3 run with my friend so now they're back occupying my brain. Again. Sooo... *carefully opens document*

[yourenothingbutnottome]

A Court of Snakes and Vipers (Part 1?)

Mattheo Riddle x F!Potter

Word Count: 2.9k

Summary: At Platform 9 3/4 and the train ride to Hogwarts for the first day of 6th year, Slytherin bashing, friend bashing, tension with family over house and chosen friendships, establishing deep cemented loyalties to the Snake Gang, bestie Draco x OC, Mattheo/OC mutual pining but worried over the implications of the war, 1POV

Notes: AU, Potter parents alive, Harry!twin OC (Livina Rose Potter, NN Rose, Liv, Livvy), Slytherin, characters aged up, Draco in his bestie era, OC has secret power than can change the tide of the war, Snake crew bloodsworn to Rose TOG style; just a little scene that played in my brain while going to sleep one night, idk if anyone other than me will like it, might not continue but I just wanted to write this out for my own sanity bc I couldn't stop thinking about it, not beta read, bad writing, banner from @sweetmelodygraphics

“What did Malfoy say to you on the platform?” Harry interrogates as soon as the door to our compartments reaches its close. 

“Geez, how long were you holding that one in?” I laugh, taking a seat across from Hermione and Ron, leaving Harry’s spot open for him by the window.

“I’m serious, Liv.” He sits, body entirely facing me.

“Okay?” 

“What did he say?” His voice is harsh.

I roll my eyes and chuckle in disbelief at the way he instantly goes into what I call “Savior” mode.

“Nothing important.” I say with a finality, hoping he dismisses the conversation at that. But of course he doesn’t.

He turns so that he’s addressing the three of us. “I think he’s a Deatheater.” Before I can laugh or tell him how ridiculous he’s being, he continues. “I think he’s a Deatheater and I want to know what he said to you.”

I think back to the brief interaction, mere moments ago when we were saying goodbye to our parents for the upcoming term.

My arms are wrapped around my father in a final hug. He kisses the top of my head and pushes me out to an arms length. “Let me get a good look at you before you go,” he jokes. “Yup, two arms, two legs and oh look at that! A head attached to the rest of your body! I expect all of those things to be there when we see you for Christmas.”

“James, enough,” our mother scolds, humor light in her voice. She smooths Harry’s tie for the 100th time.

“What?! I don’t have to worry about Harry! But, you never know with these Slytherins,” he laughs.

“James.” Mom’s voice is edged and leaves no room for argument. 

“Sorry, honey” He lays a hand on my cheek. “You know I tease. Slytherin or not, I love you. You have a good heart, and you know right from wrong.” He affirms, as if these are traits that Slytherins are incapable of having.

“You know Slytherins aren’t monsters …” I say.

“Of course you aren’t. That’s what I was saying, darling.”

“No. You were saying I’m not a monster. Not Slytherins. Like there’s the rest of them, and then there’s me. A wayward Slytherin. Different.”

“Well, you are different.”

I step back. “No .. I’m not.” My voice hardens, as it always does when I’m forced to defend my house, to defend my friends.

“Let’s not do this now,” mom pleads. I’ve been having this argument the entirety of my academic career at Hogwarts, but it’s gotten significantly worse after the events of last year: the confirmation of Voldemort’s return and the murder of our Uncle Sirius. Harry’s vision had led us to the ministry under a ruse and ever since, dad has been extra tense. 

“No, let's.” Harry interjects. “You know who her ‘friends’ are.” He says the word ‘friends’ as if it's coated in poison. 

My mother attempts to lecture the two of them while I tune their voices out. It isn’t anything different than what I’d heard the entire summer. Instead, I look across the way, meeting Draco’s gaze.

His mother drops him off, rushing to evade the eyes of curious onlookers, but lingering to share the last few moments with her son. Lucius is absent, of course, which is why so many are looking. They know about what happened last year; the paper hasn’t stopped running articles on their family, all centered on his father’s stay in Azkaban. 

Draco hushes his mother’s worrying, and though I am not close enough to hear, I am sure he is reassuring her and putting on a strong face for her. His back is to me as he gives her a hug goodbye, whispering something softly to her that causes her eyes to flash and focus on mine. She gives me a tight smile before turning her attention back to her son. He gently grabs his trolley of luggage, steady hands leaving her shaking ones, giving her the opportunity to apparate away. 

His entire body is stiff, rigged with pressure and expectations that no one our age should carry. Eyes back to mine, I can see everything he’s hiding from the rest of the world. I can see beyond the mask, I can see to Draco. His pain. His mourning. His innocence. His fear. His desperation. His courage. I see him. My closest friend, my brother. I see a soldier, one like no other. 

“Livina Rosalie Potter, you listen to me.” My father scolds. “Stop zoning out. You’ve been doing that all summer.”

“Because you’ve been saying the same things and it’s a bunch of hogwash that I don’t care to listen to all summer.” I respond, full rebellion on display.

He flubbers for just a moment, temporarily speechless. “I don’t care what house you’re in. You are a Potter. You are a symbol in this war. You are a weapon. And you are naive to believe they don’t see that.” 

“Who are ‘they’?” I sass, knowing full well who he means.

His face is tense with a quiet rage. “I will pull you out of school if I have to. I have half a mind to ask Dumbledore a personal favor and have you switched to Gryffindor house so that your brother can watch over you because apparently of the two of you, he’s the only one who can use his brain.”

“James!” My mother gasps, shocked.

“No, Lily,” he hisses. “If Liv can’t take care of herself, then someone else will have to do it for her.” He looks to me again. “You aren’t making smart decisions. You’re putting yourself in incredible danger. They aren’t your friends and even if they aren’t active participants yet, they will be soon and they aren’t worth saving. Don’t you ever forget what a threat they pose to you or how dangerous and violent they can be.” 

My entire being vibrates with a rage so fierce that it feels as if I am boiling straight from my very core. My fingers twitch, clenching and unclenching around an object that isn’t there. I can feel that hidden, secret power within me screaming to be unleashed with my anger, begging to be let free, desperate to defend those it perceives to be threatened. 

Just as I open my mouth to release my outrage, fury coiling inside of me, a strong shoulder rams into mine, causing the trolley that the offending arm was pulling to go tumbling. Trunks scatter. An owl screeches as its cage topples to my feet. Ryu. (Pronounced Rue). Draco’s owl. 

“Sorry. I wasn’t looking where I was going,” he apologizes, terse and polite. He bends close to where I had fallen, gathering his discarded items. He looks to me as he feigns struggling with one trunk in particular, and speaks so that no other may hear. “Don’t. Control it. You are strong. Stifle it and wait. You hold the fate of the future within you and this is not our time to fight. You fight, we fight. But this is not that fight.” He stands straight, trolley re-packed and stacked neatly. “Sorry, again.” he says loud enough for my family to hear, standing straight and holding his hand out. 

I place my scarred hand into his, using his strength to both pull me to my feet and to ground me in a wave of calm and control.

“See you in class,” he dismisses and continues his walk to the train.

“Ugh, Harry, will you just drop it? Please?”

“Why? So he did say something to you?’ His eyes narrow as he glares at me. “You need to quit hanging out with him. With all of them. I don’t know why you aren’t taking this seriously. You need to listen to dad, and you need to listen to me.”

“Here we go,” Ron huffs, throwing his hands in the air and leaning back into his seat.

“You’re not the boss of me, Harry. Now why don’t you just piss off and leave my friends alone? Why are you like this?”

“Your friends?” he scoffs, unbelieving “They don’t care about anyone but themselves. They’re on the wrong side of this war and you know it! You’re absolutely stupid if you think any different.”

“I’m … stupid?” I question with the eerie calm that got me sorted into Slytherin to begin with. “Stupid because I won’t let my brother, my “Holier-Than-Thou,-Can-Do-No-Wrong” brother tell me who I can and can’t be friends with? I’m stupid ….” my voice rises as I stand in confrontation, “because I’m defending the people I care about? The people who, mind you, you know nothing about. Nothing other than your own prejudice and disgusting bigotry!”

“Bigotry?!” Harry, also standing now, exclaims in shock. “That’s rich coming from the girl defending someone who called Hermione a Mudblood, defending someone who is the literal spawn of the man responsible for this war? All of their parents were in that room last year, hunting us! Hunting you! They killed Sirius! Does that mean nothing to you?!” He huffs again in the pretentious way that only Harry can scoff. “So yes, you’re stupid to continue to associate with people trying to hunt you and your family. You’re stupid for thinking that when the time comes, they won’t hand you over to Voldemort and betray you. You’re stupid if you think they haven’t thought of doing the killing curse themselves! No better way to impress your father than by personally killing his enemies, right?!”

My brows are lifted in disbelief, in complete awe at his ignorance and cruelty. “I’ve known them for years, Harry.” I say softly. “I know them in ways you never will. None of you will. I trust them and I love them. You’re wrong.” I turn to Hermione, “Tell him,” I rush, pleading. Desperate for him to understand. For someone to be on my side. “Tell him how Draco apologized to you! Tell him how Enzo walked you to your dorm after that Ravenclaw was a little too grabby, tell him how the next day that same Ravenclaw was in the hospital wing!”

Hermione glances between Harry and I, uncomfortable and distressed. “Those things only happened because of you. You made them do those things.” Her voice is soft, almost a whisper, as if she didn’t want us to hear, didn’t want to participate in this fight between siblings. She looks at me, eyes soft and shy, but stern. “He’s right, Liv … they’re bad just the same as their parents. They’re dangerous. Being friendly inside of the school walls is one thing …  it’s not going to be the same.” She moves her eyes to look at her hands, hiding from my anger as if in shame of admitting her bias against my friend group. 

I shake my head, looking up so as to restrain the tears that so desperately want to fall. “I’ve never been more disappointed in you .. both of you,” I look to Harry whose face has that smug vindicated look to it. “You don’t know a damn thing. And neither does dad.” I turn, leaving him gaping at me.

I don’t see him rush to reach for his cloak, nor do I notice his unseen presence following me afterwards, lingering distantly enough so as to remain undetected but close enough to not lose me in my fleeing.

I don’t know where I’m going. Anywhere but here. Anywhere that I don’t have to see his face, don’t have to listen to the “Great” Harry Potter spew hate in front of me. He doesn’t know them like I do. He doesn’t know anything. He’s blinded by hatred.

“There you are, beautiful,” a voice wraps around me at the same time a hand grabs my wrist, pulling me in for a hug. “We’ve been looking for you.”

“Well, here I am.” I shrug, falling in step beside him.

His eyes turn to me harshly, “What happened?”

“It’s nothing, Enzo,” I sigh.

“My favorite snake is upset and we haven’t even gotten to school yet. Something happened.”

“You’re sweet to be protective,” I pat the hand still holding on to me, guiding me through the train.

“After everything we’ve been through?” his hand moves to grab at mine. “Always.”

I look into his eyes, steadfast, strong, and loyal. Like all of theirs. A fierceness we all hold connected to each other. “I know,” I soften, “It’s the same thing it always is. The great, ‘open-minded’ Potters. Same thing my dad’s been on and just Harry being, well, Harry.”

Enzo’s face contorts with sympathy. “I’m sorry, dear.” 

We stop at the door to a compartment that I assume holds the rest of our ragtag group. “You ready for the chaos?”

“Always,” I respond, mimicking him, as he slides the door open, using an arm around my shoulder to pull me in alongside him. “Look who I found wandering about all melancholy like!” Enzo announces. I let out a small laugh as I gently slap his arm off of me.

“What’s wrong?” Mattheo asks, eyes flicking to mine with a somber sincerity. I flop ungracefully in the open seat next to Draco, throwing my legs up across the way to rest in Mattheo’s lap. He immediately wraps his fingers around my ankles.

“Just annoying family shit.”

“Been there,” Theo jokes. We all just stare blankly at him. “What?” he defends, “We aren’t making jokes about this mess yet?” He looks at each of us, desperate for just one of us to laugh with him. Draco and I lock eyes and that’s all it takes for the two of us to bust into laughter. The others join in and we all laugh at Theo rather than his poorly timed, crappy joke. 

After the laughter dies down, the mood sobers again as we think on Theo’s words. “How are you guys? Really?” I ask gently.

“We’ll get through it, Bella.” Theo whispers, laughter gone from his eyes.

“Together,” Draco confirms, nodding his head once and gripping my hand on the seat next to him. The others nod in agreement. All but Mattheo. 

“And you, Matty?” I hold his gaze. All of them seem to have lost the light in their eyes over the summer, but him especially. It’s like there's no one home, no fight left. But I know better. I know him better. He feels everything, he feels too much. He’s the strongest and most ruthless fighter of us all. A true warrior.

His grip on my ankles tightens. “We’ll be okay,” he reassures me, but the sentiment dies there, it doesn’t reach the rest of his face. "Stop flirting with her with your stupid accent." He glares sideways at Theo who throws his hands up in surrender.

“Let’s talk about Harry,” he says, eyes hardening. “What did he say to you?”

“Oh you know, that I’m stupid, have to pick my side, tried to ban me from speaking to you lot, called you all bigots who only think of yourselves, and …” I trail off, hesitant to upset Mattheo further.

“And?” Draco prompts, face stiff, contorted with a silent rage.

“And,” I take a steadying breath, “And he said that you’re only pretending to be my friend until the time is right for you to kill me to impress him.” I roll my eyes at his dramatics in an attempt to lighten the mood. “He’s just pissy because his little crush Ginny is bumping uglies with Dean Thomas and here I am with all you pretty boys fawning over me, desperate for my love.”

The trunks overhead thud around, probably in response to the train vibrating over a particular rough patch of track.

Together, we share an unfiltered laugh at the recurring joke. There have been rumors at school that we’re in some kind of reverse Harem and we think it’s bloody hysterical to push the rumors on. Because what other reason would the toughest guys in school have for wanting to be friends with a Potter? Obviously because we’re fucking. 

“She thinks we’re pretty, awwww” Blaise teases while pinching Enzo’s cheek.

“The prettiest,” I compliment with a giggle.

“But one of us is prettier than the rest, right?” Draco teases from my right, knowing of my affections for one Mr. Mattheo Riddle, who I am proud to say I did not glance to when Draco said that. 

“Oh piss off, Draco. You’re horrid!” I shove him into the wall, as he chuckles at my misfortune.

Mattheo hides a small grin, eyes downcast in an attempt to hide his barely visible blush.

I’ve always been his girl, just the same as he’s been mine. Anyone who matters knows it. But it’s never been said, never truly been claimed or acted upon. At first it was just a youthful bashfulness, a fear of rejection and the potential loss of a sincere friendship. But then as the war grew closer and times became more tense, it became an unspoken but uniformly understood agreement that our connection is already a threat and dangerous enough without adding labels and romance to it. But still, our claim to each other lingers in the air around us, a living thing, the same as the oxygen we breathe: unseen but existing nonetheless.

In fact, each of the boys had tried to push Pansy and I away from them at the very start. But we’re family. We’re loyal and headstrong in our support to one another. They are mine and I am theirs. To the very end. Potter, Malfoy, Riddle, Order, Death Eater. None of it matters. We don’t belong to our names, to our parents or their agendas. We belong to each other and that’s it. A third invisible “side” in this war. Perhaps the most dangerous any of us could be in. Outwardly linked to one, but realistically and eternally, truthfully, bonded to each other. To me. Pansy Parkinson. Lorenzo Berkshire. Theodore Nott. Blaise Zabini. Draco Malfoy. Mattheo Riddle. 

My bloodsworn.

A court of snakes and vipers. 

[izzyfishie]

IZZY'S SG3 TRAILER THOUGHTS

it's time. FUCKKKKKKKKk

SPOILERS below.

the jump rope game is based off a train track/station. i find this interesting, considering trains are used for transportation and movement of people + cargo, but also frequently used in media as suicide/death methods. people being tied to train tracks and stuff. that's kinda a weird comparison but that's what i thought of. also. the subway train is where the recruiter found most of the players.

the fuckass square guard is back. why is he always here i cant.

gi-hun is questioning why he's still alive because he knows it's not fair. he FUCK he's now the one given the unfair treatment and he doesnt want it. he doesnt want to be seen as a martyr because its common sense to him. not to mention, earlier the games were literally changed for him (the new voting). he doesn't want to be special.

ugh my poor babies :( dae-ho isn't beating the suicide allegations. neither is gi-hun, why did he grab the gun like that?? i fear he was about to blow his head off right then and there. (maybe not, but it's still concerning)

zero sympathy for you btw.

the blues indeed have keys. keys must open doors. reds must kill blues to get the doors.

which means we might actually see gi-hun kill somebody. but at the same time, gi-hun might intentionally throw. tbh idk how any of this is going to work yet, but we know he survives to the end, and is red (assumedly the team with weapons) so that leads me to think smth like that may happen.

BUT don't fear. i think gihun being forced to kill someone wouldnt be a sign of him losing his humanity, but rather him better understanding the struggles of those are in the games and therefore having MORE empathy for the victims. we know he doesnt blame himself for the games, rather the system.

not to mention.. heh.. i think he'd finally be able to better understand sang-woo and why he did the things he did IF that were to happen. #sangihun

NOTABLE BLUES: dae-ho, 440, 18(9?)7, 172, seon-nyeo and her cult, the rest are too blurry for me.

calling this the scratch n' sniff room. uh i think myung-gi is gonna have to do some bad things here!! im not really sure, we aren't given much here to work off of. but i swear i saw someone else in that room so

no literally. what are these rooms. stop. i'm starting to think these are more like torture chambers 😭

that blood is fresh. she absolutely had to kill somebody. im thinking it might be the guy she's seen throwing to the ground later (who i've debunked may be kim yeong-sam, 226).

SEONHWA! toxic yuri! i love how seon-nyeo's followers are all gathered together. they really do see her as a god or saint of sorts.

holy shit can i say this set design is so good??

whose hand is this? it's covered in blood. it could be a random, but it looks awfully familiar someone aid me

this persons ankles have me concerned bc why are they vibrating???? someone is probably having some form of panic attack. minsu, maybe?

once again, likely a random person. but theyre FUCKED. the entire train theme is crazy to me

this scene mad me sick first watch btw. it's actually genuinely so sickening to meeee because ???? the flowers too, serving as their grave, like this is genuinely just mortality symbolism at its finest. i thought that was seon-nyeo on the floor, but it might actually be just player 400.

this is the jump rope game. the blood looks fresher, which makes me think JR is first? who is he talking to? there's also blood dripping down his neck.

bro who tf even are you get out irrelevant ass /j

i don't think those two scenes are spliced together, i think they're separate.

oh wow in-ho is STILL watching the games. what a little prick.

look behind geum-ja. 3 / 5 ???? come on you IDIOTSSSS

that's gi-hun, i think. he's being wildly monitored. but also that guard is significantly short, could that possibly POSSIBLY be no-eul?

fuck you bitches idc i hope you die

hyun-ju and yeong-sam. she GIRLHANDLES HIM. like holy fuck hes FUCKED. maybe he tries to attack her and she fights back?

myung-gi and jun-hee talking during the JR game. does jun-hee attempt to sit it out? that would make sense.

ive run out of image spaces so. reblog time!!!!

[tboyquackity]

ok let me say smthing rq ☝️ the reason i'm insane and often v focused on cpumpkins on this blog is bcs. well. first off, cschlatt is my favorite most special little princess and i adore spreading love/cute things with her to a fanbase that largely misunderstands and villanizes her. (as well that art of her is also significantly easier fr me to draw than others spoon wise sorry for thinking with my. heart. ♡)

and secondly, being around and int-ing with what i have many times called a word of mouth ass fanbase, a fanbase tht often doesn't int w the source material at all, that purposely ignores or discards or lets their biases make their opinions for them, it makes me want to shine a light even harder on a dynamic that i find v textually rich and compelling!! as a true obnoxious lorehead!! i don't often see very many cpumpkinheads, and i've seen even less that analyze and lay out the scenes, or go to bat for what their relationship is and represents. they're a great great duo and i'd be so happy for more ppl to pick up what i'm putting down and i can only hope i'm making a lil dent in this cruel cruel world :'] for smthing tht means v much to me.

that said, despite this being a deeply important dynamic i'm v passionate abt and smthing i v often focus on, i never want to be confused w smone who reduces characters to like... ship mush. who strips characters of their hopes and dreams and aspirations and wider connections in sm thin veiled attempt t idk. legitimize? is that what it is? and you know exactly what i'm talking abt so 👎 long ass analysis + talk abt their relationships to others under the cut bcs i got carried away

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starting w my princess, cschlatt's connections to other characters is like....the stuff he has with cclingy is CRAZY!! they both admired him so much, they parallel him directly! when he first joined the server, he was taking selfies w them, indulging them and riffing with them, and i've seen ppl argue abt this but the actual reason he built the cuck shed in the dsmp was FOR cclingy, to make them laugh! he talked to them for hours after he was banned off the server in just earnest connection.

and while ofc he made mistakes w tubbo, those mistakes are not uniquely evil as they're ones characters (like cwilbur) KEPT MAKING both DURING the pogtopia-manburg war and then long after it ended. he sees tubbo as smone who was also slighted by cwilbur, and it's not a coincidence everyone is his cabinet was. he wanted to toughen him up so he wouldn't go through the same things he has! that want to make him stronger vs the self hate he feels for himself and how that leaks into the ints he has w smone he sees as similar vs the earnestly seeing him as a pal and feeling deep betrayal at the ctubbo feeding pog information. (cschlatt actually Knew ctubbo was sneaking off, that he was talking to ctommy, and he was fine w that + he actively let him!! 😭 it was only when he found out ctubbo was a traitor did he start crumbling.)

he pawned off hurting him to ctech, the same way cwilbur did to ctommy in the pit, two deeply psychotic dudes being used as playthings, with their backs against the wall, hurting their little guy in the process but not being able to bring themselves to do it so they get smone else in hopes that'll put a stop to it, only for the guy to values HIS OWN SELF above anyone else and do it anyways. and then they both kill themselves with guilt forever about it. cschlatt loses a LIFE during the festival, that's how much this was weighing on him, and then when he revives he's still so delusional he forgets what happened and calls for tubbo. like. ofc, that's not an awesome thing to have happened, but the rest of the factors are unignorable.

and tubbo to him...despite how ctubbo compartmentalizes those who hurt him, (grinning and bearing ctech n cphil for safety but throwing them under the bus to cwilbur for safety), the way he ints w schlatt is noticeably... different. he takes and agrees w his policies, keeps most of them as new lmanberg and admits they were good, he feels guilty about going against him, doesn't think he's all that bad and he gets punished for that! he goes as far to point out and realize cschlatt is being scapegoated for the situation in the first place, same as he was as president! (ofc to a different extent)

with ctommy, he would actively join calls w the kid and hang out DURING MANBURG!! 😭 ctommy would mildly snipe at him At Most and cschlatt would go ehhh you suck too buddy. and then they'd just chill together. he invited ctommy to manburg, for god's sake. ctommy is also one of the characters who continues to bring up cschlatt in a positive light, even up to his final streams saying things like cschlatt was his hero and it's CWILBUR'S FAULT that everything went to shit surrounding that.. they have sm in common, their relationships to others their posturing the way they joke around, the struggles with addiction and having their control and personhood ripped away URWGH

and with wilbur....like v v point blank one of the reasons they spiral so bad (aside frm being sabotaged by bigger forces than themselves + being deeply sick and mentally ill), was THE BETRAYAL OF EACHOTHER!!! look at the stuff i wrote for them above!!! they die on the same day, they directly fling shit at eachother constantly personally spitefully they Know eachother and it's all coming frm a place of hurt. he broke my heart how could he do this to me how could he use me as a prop how could he let me down my loverboy my pretty princess are you SERIOUS? glatt n ghostbur were hanging out together and glatt is seen reminiscing on him with fondness and nostalgia like can we get real. and they have textual sauce in smplive too don't start w me.

ponk being a quack doctor cat murderer but she tried as cschlatt's medic, she even shows remorce abt not being better for him,,,and he likes her right back, he's like extremely nice to her and even offers to make her a floor of emeralds for what he's done for him. THE GUY WHO USES EMRALDS TO MARK THINGS OF VALUE? cnikis letter to him, saying she wishes him well, that she hopes he's resting smwhere smhow....tch. TCH.

starting w cq...like i've gone over this before and iwill again. his relationship with cclingy helps define his entire shit he LOVES those kids he does RIDICULOUS things for them in mind.

the reason cq even joins is bcs of a tommy invite, his first appearance is actually a vc where he and tommy are chattering and stealing...they already know eachother, they're already fond of eachother! and alongside the good times, cq's there for every horrible thing tht ctommy is subjected to, he visits him in exile he's there on the grid when cdrm shows his ass abt what he's doing to him, why he's doing it, he finds out ctommy died the day it happened and goes numb and then CRAZY and when he sees him revived, he's practically crying with joy.

one of the reasons for butcher army even existed was the being able to help ctommy! he wants to kill cdrm and to do that he needs to kill ctech, an active threat and accomplice to cdrm! he failed ofc, but the intent was blatantly there. and later in the custody stream, when ctommy confronts him bcs of it, not knowing why the butcher army didn't just go get him when they couldn't, when the killing of figures putting him in danger was FOR that, he'd RATHER LET CTOMMY BELIEVE HE DIDN'T TRY AT ALL THAN WEAPONIZE EXILE FOR HIM. he wanted to kill cdrm outright for what he did to ctommy, he was a seconds away from it, and then when other forces push him into the torture, he's seen using a potato as a blunt weapon to drive his points home. like what do you think that means. he pulls himself frm ccharlie's death and disappearance and the first thing he does is go tell ctommy he'll protect him, that he can always come to lnv....killing myse. self. and ctommy cares abt cq too, he relies in him, he trusts him, he gave him one of the only slash hugs he's ever given he deduces that cq is a torturer by pure chance and still rocks w him and even like actively encourages it bro does NOT care abt his crimes 😭 that's his buddy i fear

and ctubbo... if anything that relationship parallels cschlatts to ctubbos, the being harsh on a kid so the same things that happened to you don't happen to him, so you can toughen him up b4 the world crushes him in it's teeth. and even when they argue, even when they don't see eye to eye, they care about eachother they matter to eachother,,,post doomsday, saying they wanted to move forward, stay working together the want to run a business together, q apologizing for his harsher actions and making it clear how he cares abt him.

and with the cookie outpost...ctubbo is the kind of person who can't confront ppl he's actually afraid of or angry at often, like the syndicate, and instead he has "safe" targets of ppl he can lash out at and redirect it at bcs he knows they won't hurt him back. AND CQ IS ONE OF THOSE PPL! IF NOT THE MOST CONSISTENT ONE!! he knows he can posture he knows he can go so far as to outright threaten cq and he won't ever lay a hand on him. the fact they can even talk it out so easily, the fact cq hated cdrm fr what he did to ctubbo too! saying so explicitly! getting furious when others threaten or put him in danger to the point of trying to physically beat their asses like brother

cbbh's decent into being egged like fucked up cq so badddd dude....the way cq didn't understand the full extent of being possessed since he was able to pull away frm it (barely and screaming the whole time but yget it.) the being brought to the egg in the first place by smone he cared so much, by smone he considered truly good and trustworthy,,,the fact the first person cbbh truly opened up abt the further reaches of the egg was cq...the fact cq went to bat against it over and over, putting himself in danger multiple times bcs thts all he could think of to get through to bad...them cooing and laughing and having fun together so so often and one of the few times cq indulges in femininity is wearing a cute pink little bride's outfit to go on a date w bad like 😭

sam is his FATHER dont argue w me they say it explicitly. he took care of him over and over, he looked out for him always the REASON cq is able to manipulate him as much as he can is bcs that's his DAD. ossium meant so much to him BCS he got him w csam and cgeorge. i won't go on abt this one too bad bcs scarduoisms like kill me dead w grief but trust that i understand trust trust.

his stuff with foolish i just talked abt so i wont retread but be aware he's always been his buddy and understood where he was coming from as smone who was once IN cq's shoes, and chose to be by his side in shitty moments idc if that was retconned. and i won't linger or touch on ctnt bcs like respectfully you've seen it already, ppl talk abt it all the time unignorably so. yes, a lot of it is straight up misrepresented or lies but DW thts not wht this post is ABT!!! ☝️

but what it IS about is. idk. the thing that makes the dsmp so special in the first place is...connections, it's hope it's love it's choosing eachother. how on days where everything was the bleakest and worst ppl still found a way to care, to show support, that in this terrible server that chews ppl up and spits them out with scars and wounds and sharp edges and terrible mistakes, ppl will STILL love them and want them in their life. bcs thts what it's like to live ♡

so yes. cpumpkins is v v v v v good, of course they are, i'll always be the cpumpkins guy but DO NOT GET IT TWISTED ☝️ they can love eachother while having their wider connections not only enrich themselves but the narrative they inhabit. the dsmp is abt love of every kind don't you forget it

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*also let it be known i use cwilb as my example a lot cuz 1. he's the fanon darling that gets at least half his streams watched so everybody will know wht im talking + 2. if you can have empathy for his actions when they're worse than others you can have empathy for those 😭 thanks

[wanderingblindly]

okay okay okay so first of all prospective aspect has completely fried my brain like I'm gonna need 6-8 workdays to recover at LEAST jesus h fucking christttt.

I know, logically the future past and prospective aspect universes are and must be separate because otherwise older lando and oscar not knowing about their respective time loops makes no sense but. BUT. the universe, ominescent and clairvoyant as she may be, is perhaps not infallible. what I'm saying is, to me, the possibility and potential of future past younger lando and prospective aspect younger oscar getting, by some glitch in the matrix, spat back in time in the same reality (actually somewhere around the same time if I don't have their age gap horribly mixed up) is too mind-blowing to ignore.

like, imagine, both of them are well aware and actively driven insane by what they experienced. while also being completely unaware of the other's situation (younger lando also kinda unaware of oscar's existence lmao) because, obviously, their older selves had not mentioned anything about the double-timeloop to them. aka they're both individually trying to navigate life with their respectively insane knowledge (and aftermath of their frankly violent sexual awakenings) while believing that the other doesn't and cannot know about the time-loop.

so, if ex: younger future past lando would've been going insane trying to find "his oscar" imagine how freaked out he would be upon meeting younger prospective aspect oscar and realising how WEIRD he's acting, and vice-versa. lowkey this scenario would be weirder for oscar because (at least in my brain) he'd subsciously be trying to like figure out how and when and why lando turns out like THAT compared to the not-quite-virginial but still blushing mess lando is at 23 while probably having several breakdowns of his own.

the main question floating in my mind is: how and when do they figure out they've both been in a time loop? is it before they even confess? after? during? is it before they've had regular-non-time-loopy sex? after??? during????? (I'd imagine due to some freudian slips or objectively Strange behaviour or some good ol' accidental voyeurism) what do they DO with that information???? (apart from being likely even freakier than their non-double-looped counterparts. like idk if it makes sense but I for some reason can't imagine single-loop landoscar would be the exact same as double-loop landoscar.)

anyways. yeah. head full many many many thoughts I'll be stewing boiling simmering for the next. eternity. love u please don't break your brain like I just did 💖

(prospective aspect)

Oh my god N E B how the fuck did you both read that so fast AND craft and entire mindfuck about the intricacies of a dual time loop,,,,,, I fear ur powers,,,,,

But you’re actually making a point I hadn’t even realized: rookie lando from future past and f3 oscar from prospective aspect DO almost come from the same year? 2019 vs 2020? I have no clue how I didn’t realize that. All I would have to do is lightly fudge some timelines, mix up their returns back to “their world” and. Bam. The ultimate freak for freak collision. What the fuck.

“Frankly violent sexual awakenings” wasn’t the point of this ask, but I did make me wonder like…. Did I traumatize these guys? Like. Wait. Wait no did I actually traumatize them because that WASNT the goal wait —

In regards to how would they find out they’re in a time loop:

It would depend significantly on which reality they both landed back in, right? Because unless they found a dimension that broke their respective time loops, one of their experiences is gonna have to come back up. Either landoscar is gonna run into rookie lando in Japan again, or married landoscar is gonna find F3 Oscar during the off season. In which case, I’d imagine the non-affected party would… confess?

Especially when you consider that Lando and Oscar both didn’t tell the other about their experiences. Lando didn’t share bc he didn’t know when it would happen, and Oscar didn’t share bc he thought it wasn’t real — so they can’t find out they were both time looped until the event repeats!!!!!!!

Thank u for the morning brain teaser you absolute menace, I’m glad you enjoyed the (literal and metaphorical) fuckery 💖💖💖💖

[mydearestbeloved]

Remember when I compared tp!reader’s situation to Fate fairies with the whole purpose/identity thing? After reading some of your answers and seeing how almost nothing in the story changed significantly, I was definitely wrong back then to think that aiding jinwoo is her purpose.

Meeting and helping him is just part of a requirement in this long ass chain quest to her true purpose. We know she has something to do with the absolute being, we know the majority of canon won’t change much, and there’s still no clue about her role in this whole thing so far so I’m gonna take a wild guess and say her role is smth related to meta? Like ORV? That one anon def had the right idea tbh. I like that you keep reminding us that tp!reader IS a SL reader and it makes sense if you want to make the life of the protagonist better in her shoes like KDJ. Also smth smth the absolute being created rulers and monarchs and made them fight while he watched on the sideline to sate his boredom, like a creator/author smth smth tp!reader is a reader who isekai’d into the sl world to direct involve in things smth smth.

Idk Im just throwing random bullshit at the wall to see which one fits here but I have to share bc my thoughts are killing meeeeeeeeeeeeee.

also your exam week will be here in like what? one or two days? I wish you luck 🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀

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“Is her role related to meta?”

I haven’t caught up with ORV, aside from a few spoilers (which just made me more confused, ngl), so I’m also guessing what exactly you’re referring to here. Do you mean she could have a purpose that goes beyond just participating in the world of Solo Leveling and instead connects to the story itself as a construct?

Since I’m still confused, I’ll just add the thoughts that crossed my mind while reading this ask here:

TP!Reader’s true purpose/role lies within the story of SL. She was isekai’d as a backup to something. However! She was discarded. (Related post here.)

Now, her existence depends on the story of SL. The system directs her to not interfere too much in the story. Why? It’s not for the story’s sake—it’s for her.

TP!Reader being an SL reader once played a part in why she was isekai’d. Now, it’s helping her survive.

Is there going to be an “Author” playing a part in Trial Player AU? No.

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This is shorter compared to the other ask-posts since I can only mention some things that have already been stated/implied before (can’t explain them more, or else they’d become spoilers) and give some clarifications.

I apologize for answering this late, since I could only post this now that I have free time. Thank you for the well-wishes anyway. 💕

[codacheetah]

AGREE WITH YOUR PREVIOUS POST. I like mean Loop as a facade only, but we know they still care and love...

Now I have a question, what's your favorite Loop takes/headcanon

Oh my god I'm so sorry I took like two weeks to answer this one I prommy it's not bc I'm exclusively a hater or whatever. I just straight up forgot to answer Oopsie. I'm putting this under cut bc it got long enough that you all would shoot arrows at me for putting it on your dash

Anyways there's a lot of Loop Thangs I like frankly. A big one that I enjoy is when fic authors in postcanon make the transition of Loop into the party structure kind of rocky. Usually bc Loop's neuroses creating a level 12 psychic barrier between them and the party + the inherent awkwardness of meeting somebody who's apparently super close in a way (that you'll never fully understand) to one of your friends. Who let's be real I feel like half the party (coughIsabeauandMirabelle) would catch the aura of "oh they do not like us at all" from Loop. I want Loop to be happy and with their family but you just know this bitch is going to make it as difficult for themself on purpose. The Siffrin Special.

I also just generally like when they keep Loop as a star postcanon. I'm not at all a hater towards Human Loop (in fact I think it can be itself an interesting setup for a Loop fic) but I do like Loop as a star more thematically. Something about having to accept that things have changed and moving on from it regardless. Also bc Loop being dysphoric about their body scratches a very transgender projection itch in my brain Yessss little star you're stuck in a body that draws unwanted attention and which you have no control over how it looks and functions in a way that feels fundamentally wrong to you. (Pointing at canonically transgender character) Yooooo this guy is such a cool trans allegory omg

Hmm what else. This is more of a sloops thing but I always enjoy in fics when they lean into the fact it's selfcest frankly. I've become a selfcest enjoyer bc of this ship I'll never get over that act 5 dialogue abt the cautionary tale where Siffrin says he never understood the moral of the story bc the idea of having somebody just like him who understands him. Oh my gyoooooooooooooooood. I want them to melt into sludge I'm always thinking of that analogy from superflyghtheart on discord comparing Loop and Siffrin to endlings of an endangered species. 💥💥💥It's like. This is less sloopy now but I'm caught between the intersection in my head of "Loop would probably benefit from developing their own identity as a person separate from Siffrin bc they need Something they have control over" and "Loop is of the Siffrin Species and they are significantly too sentimental to let go of the shreds of what they used to have, especially after having lost all of it once already". Both of these things are yummy as fuck when ppl smarter than me explore them and they're kinda the main Story Paths for postcanon Loop anyways so I'm always winning. So like idk tldr I like it both when ppl have Loop diverge a lot as a person and when they have Loop try their best to stay as much of a Siffrin as possible!

I'm limiting myself to four paragraphs so you don't all want to hit me with hammers but I do have Loop Biology Headcanons. I've explained mythoughts on their guts before and don't feel like recounting them but whatever True #codacheetahwarriors remember my deranged rambling. ANYWAYS I kind of mentally run on the assumption of Loop's body as like. The Universe couldn't keep Loop in Siffrin's body, bc they needed Siffrin to be in it (and I guess a system situation introduces too many factors of its own? idk). The Universe operates with the goal of fulfilling wishes with the least intervention possible, so The Universe makes a body out of cheap inorganic material (star-scrap basically). Miniature star for a head fueling the body with Craft energy (I'm not going to get into my conspiracy that all Craft is the same here). Molds the star scrap into a vaguely Siffrin-shaped/sized vessel and plonks Loop's conscious into it and calls it a day. So Loop's body as a poor simulacrum of a human body is like. They're capable of breathing but they only really benefit from doing it on a psychological level. They can't eat or drink and don't have a mouth because it would require a significant level of added effort to make a digestive system, when they can just derive energy from their star. They don't have reproductive organs because they're not made from organic material anymore anyways. They don't need to sleep bc their body never gets tired but they still do it because it's not really a great idea to leave your brain on running for too long anyways.

I fucking lied I'm on paragraph five bc the block of text is annoying me. To continue that's all a preface to say I think it's super fun when Loop has body functions that are weird and unpredictable. Their little frizzles on their body are reactive to their emotions the same way their headstar is, and feel like static if you touch them. Their head has a vague boundary so their eyes have something to be rooted to but the function by which their optic nerves work is unclear to everybody including themself. They glow based on intensity of emotion and the temperature of their star changes via specific mood. Bc I think it would be fun if the battlefield in twohats when from ice cold to boiling hot frankly. Ok these are all just my headcanons (temperature one very loose though I'm not a hard subscriber to it) but they're not uniquely mine it's just examples of what I mean. One I don't have as a personal headcanon but I do enjoy is when Loop feels the same physical sensations as Siffrin bc it's funny and I like inflicting misery on the star.

I'm going to shut up now like actually . Loop for your troubles

[fictionfixations]

bridon arc ep 3 reaction

...did anyone see the ep 4 preview im going to scream

my reaction is significantly less like coherent compared to the others i fhdsuifhsu i was like 'im gonna scream at you in all caps what happened when i come back in half an hour' to my friend so now here.

IT ENDS THERE?? wRHAST/a? WHAT HTE UFCK WHAT THE FUCK WAHDIUAHJ!?!?!?!?!?!?!??!?!?!? okay ij i jneed a moemtn to rpocessjiofjsfjsfsf there tehre re hte re WILD of them to start off with a nightmare scene but to be fair the frist episoed started with xiaoshi dying so like idk man lmfao lmao a little girl walked up to lu guang and said mommy look its a kitty bc lu guang was wearing a cat ear hat also what the fuck vein is owner of a modeling agency?!?#EJ@IQJE!?!?! ALSO WHAT THE FUCK I CANT BELIEVE VEIN APPEARS, LU GUANG IS IN SHOCK oR SOME SHIT IDFK MAN HES HAVING A BAD TIME REMEMBERING BCVEIN KILLED XIAOSHI LAST TIMELINE AND HTEN IT ENED THERe WHAt ALSO NO END CREDIT SCENE?? im so fuckngiwshfusehfudjifksf also we got blush face on xiaoshi and lu guang and xia fei(? ithink thats his name i forgor) cause they were drunk but also WHAT THE FUCK XIAOSHI CALLED XIA FEI A HOTTIE😭(i get it cause xia fei is a model so no duh hes attractive but PLEASE NOT IN FRONT OF LU GUANG💀) lu guang looking so jealous like xiaoshi pay attention to your bf 😭💀 also there was chinese text at the beginning but there was no translation given and i cant read hchinese so i have no idea what the fuck it says but im stressed also not someone going lu guang getting jumpscared by ronald mcdonald💀💀💀bruh saw red hair and immediately got scared like to be fair i would too cause a redhaired man killed xiaoshi but like 😭 also wtf theyre getting chased after because these guys r salty that the team they were cheering on lost while the team xiaoshi lu guang dna xia fei were chjeering on won ?? ???????????????????

like jesus fuck why are you throwing wine bottles (WHO LET YOU KEEP THOSE WINE BOTTLES WTF) and also WHY DO YOU HAVE A BAT

a part of me wants to root for them but also theyre fucking cornered and vein is RIGHT THERE 😭 but them dying at the end would imply theres a time where they DID survive and then its like so how did they survive? so they. should. survive.

but also the endings of the seasons have always been plot twist-y with shock and im fjsofj we still dont know how xiaoshis dad is related to all this😭

im so stressed like logically stuff changes when time travel but lu guang is seeing these changes and stressing and IM stressing because its like what the fuck what the fuck

also yippee xiaoshi saving lu guang from trouble again by grabbing him and pulling him back from getting hit by a fucking bat WHY DOES THAT DUDE HAVE A BAT IM ASSUMING HE GOT DURNK BUT WHY DOES HE HAVE IT AND WHY IS HE SWINGING BECAUSE THE TEAM HE WAS CHEERING ON LOST IM SO CONFUSED

3 more episodes.. how the fuck does it conclude in that time what the fuck also im scared for season 3, its been confirmed to be in the works so like what the fuck is gonna happen there later too continuing off s2 ??? but also bridon arc has me in a fucking chokehold im😭 ALSL FUCK I FORGOT XIAOSHI GOT HIS PHONE STOLEN AND THEY RAN INTO LIU XIAO AND IIM JFUS(CSICHEUFHUIFSHEUIFHSEIFSSEHJFS AND LIU XIAO WANTS TO FIND XIAOSHI??? SOMETHING SOMETHING WITH HIS DAD???? AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA HE GAVE THEM HIS CARD DOES LU GUANG KNOW HES EVIL???????

LIU XIAO WAS LIKE I CAN GIVE YOU A RIDE (WHICH IS ALSO HOW EMMA OF S1 EP1 DIED BTW) AND LU GUANG INTERRUPTED LIKE XIAOSHI WE HAVE PLANS

BUT LIKE WHAT THE FUCK WOULD HAPPEN IF THEY DID

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😭😭😭😭???

[shitswiftiessay]

Swifties have found ANOTHER female co-star of Joe’s to harass

I know, I know, I said I was taking a break. I AM going to be significantly less active in the next month-ish because of exams. So if you tag me or message me and I don’t respond, don’t be shocked by that. Also, I don’t see myself being active when the Whinging Narcissist Department drops because I just need to protect my mental health bc you know the swifties (and their cult leader) make me genuinely angry with the way they act.

BUT, I also need to do a little dump of posts because UNFORTUNATELY, swifties do not ever take a break from being HORRIBLE little fuckshits. And I saw this so I have to talk about it.

So here are swifties attacking Alison Oliver, Joe’s CWF co-star, calling her a demon and a whore, quoting Taylor’s slutshaming Better Than Revenge lyrics at her. All because of a rumor that THEY FUCKING MADE UP.

They did the same shit to Emma Laird last year, because s posted a photo dump of all her co stars (including Joe) and now they’ve made up rumors about Alison being Joe’s “mistress” to justify attacking her.

They even used a clip of a sex scene as PROOF that Joe was cheating on Taylor, because apparently he “moaned her name”. 1) He said “ah shit” but swifties twisted things as they always do. 2) Having a sex scene, with an intimacy coordinator and camera crew, IS NOT THE SAME AS CHEATING. And 3) even if Joe accidentally moaned Alison’s name how the fuck would that be HER fault? If he actually moaned the wrong name they would have to reshoot the scene, but that would be HIS mess up, not Alison’s.

Anyway… idk if it’s because Alison and Joe recently reunited and took a picture, and that made swifties feel INSECURE on Taylor’s behalf, because they’re extremely parasocial about her and see her exes as THEIR exes. So I’m wondering if seeing Joe next to a pretty woman triggered them, and poor Alison who has committed the crime of BREATHING too close to Joe has become the new target of their wrath.

All of this is once again, why I keep saying, that swifties are one of the most misogynistic fandoms, CERTAINLY the most misogynistic popstar fandom, that I have ever come across. Swifties aww always pulling the misogyny card anytime Taylor gets criticism for ANYTHING but then they will go and be misogynistic towards any woman who isn’t Taylor.

[my-pjo-stuff]

I can't go beyond the idea itself so...

Reverse AU, where 14-year-old Annabeth and 12-year-old Thalia find 7-year-old Luke and take him under their wing.

Ok so first off, THANKS for sharing with me. Second off, LET'S GET INTO IT.

So this AU has two ways it can play out. With either Luke being the one to take Annabeth's role (becoming friends with Percy, going on the quest) and Annabeth being the one to betray camp. Or Luke still being the one to betray camp with the ages simply being diffrent. Now I'm not gonna lie I think both versions have MAD potential. My personal favorite is the one where Luke STILL BETRAYS CAMP. (Mostly bc I think that in the other version all would stay the relative same, just with Annabeth and Luke switching roles) Just imagine how much worse the angst would be. Like, just imagine Annabeth. Imagine Annabeth watching Luke grow, trying to take care of him. Imagine Annabeth being the one who Luke came to with all his troubles and issues, promising Luke family. How she would never end up like his own mother or their families. And now imagine Annabeth when Luke leaves camp. Like, let's say Luke went with Percy on the quest instead of Annabeth at 12, but the betrayal still happens at the same time as it did in canon. Think about how she must feel hearing that Luke, at 12 years old, went off and ran from camp to revive Kronos. Just IMAGINE how Annabeth must blame herself. Luke was so, so young still. She promised she'd be his family- yet how come she never noticed this? She knew that Luke had his issues with the gods, but she'd never expected it to get like this. I think that, due to the fact that Luke is SIGNIFICANTLY younger in this AU, we'd lean a lot more into him being manipulated or "brainwashed" by Kronos. Certainly that's also the stories most people at camp and Annabeth would believe- thus instead of "hunting Luke down" being talked about at the very end of TLT it's "rescuing Luke". That only makes it so much worse SOM rolls around and Annabeth will have to inevitably realize that no. Luke isn't brainwashed or manipulated. He is doing this out of his free will. I think Annabeth, being much older, would really take up a sort of caretaker role for Percy. Luke on his end may react pretty badly to it, as he perceives Annabeth as "already having replaced him". He'd also be taken less seriously by other campers due to his age and being less of a caretaker. I think in that case Luke would appeal to many of them as a peer as he plays more on frustration than he already did in canon.

For TLT.....idk how Thalia would react tbh. On one had, she'd probably still see Luke as a traitor. On the other, he's like, 14 in this. And I do think his age would change a lot in terms of him being seen less as evil traitor, and more misguided and used kid. Annabeth would be especially quick to take the sky from him, considering that she's the caretaker of Luke in the AU. Percy may start to resent him though, as he wouldn't have that "oh he's just a kid" mindset with Luke due to their same age. Thalia would probably still join the hunters. The fact that she pushed Luke off the cliff at the end of TCC would probably not paint her in a very good light to Annabeth though (also would be a lot more fucked considering Luke is 14 instead of 21 here.) The only good thing I think could come from this is the fact that Annabeth would probably help Luke should he come to her and ask to run in the time skip between TCC and BotL. I don't think she'd have the heart to drive the kid away she had promised to take care off. Meaning Luke probably wouldn't have gone off and become Kronos' vessel. The gods too might be inclined to mercy at Hermes' urging, considering that Luke in that case would be viewed as a manipulated child. Someone who couldn't know any better and was used by Kronos.

Especially with Luke running away on his own it could work. Should that not happen, and should Luke do end up as a vessel for Kronos...man Annabeth would cry. Because that would mean she failed Luke. She couldn't protect him like she promised. When it get's to the throne room I think Annabeth would apologize. Genuinly apologize for "failing" him. Which is what I think would bring Luke back enough for him to kill himself. At the end of it all having Luke die at 16 would really hammer home the Percy parallel, but it would also hit the 23 year old Annabeth MUCH harder since she sees herself to be directly at fault for what happened.

[pstelwitchcraft]

Listen, I am happy to see Brennan take the DM seat, and I hope I've understood this incorrectly and we'll still get the main cast, but after seeing that guest list I believe there is simply no way they could fit all 8 main campaign characters + all of these people (amazing ppl by the way, truly nothing but love for them) at the table. And idk... I've started to get disappointed. Bc the thing is I love these characters, I love the Bells Hells, I love Sam's new character he JUST introduced, I love having Dorian with us again and cannot wait to see him deal with the repercussions of Cyrus' death. I love the Imogen and Laudna drama. I love whatever Fearne and Ashton got going on, I love Orym and his weird fey pact. I LOVE them.

And just... recently, I cannot shake the feeling that this is not their campaign. We JUST got them back from the Crownkeepers special episode. Before that, they've gotten separated for a pretty extensive period of time on opposite sides of Exandria. FCG just DIED. Yes, they have communication issues but I feel like that has to do, also, with the fact that every time it seems like they're finding some sort of groove, something like this happens. I get wanting to do something different and a trip to the past before Aeor collapsed IS really exciting, but it straight up feels lame and like they're trying to shove as many people into the table as possible when a major arc like this doesn't have the presence of the LITERAL main characters without them at least being separated again.

Also, don't think I don't see the bias from ya'll. Aabria had ONE episode that was significantly more important and related to the actual plot of the campaign and ya'll were clawing at her neck saying "this should have been a one shot!!!". If Brennan gets 3 freaking special calamity episodes only slightly related to the main plot and ya'll don't let out a peep I am literally fighting you in a parking lot. If this pans out the way I think it will then this absolutely should not be in the main campaign and could stand alone just like Calamity. I could totally be wrong, and I hope I am and they somehow found a way to fit 15 people at the table, but right now it's not looking too good and I cannot understate how sad I am. We just got them back! I want to meet Braius! 😫 Please, PLEASE, let them have their proper moment for us to know him 🙏

[liedownquisition]

The real villain in Roy's characterization & backstory & relationship with Ollie getting butchered is something Lobdell wrote around but had no control over: the compressed timeline & the fact that DC execs decided to Significantly Shrink the gap between the ages of the Titans to their mentors. People mention this sometimes with Dick and Bruce but their relationship holds up a lot better with the shift from "pseudo-parental mentor figure" to "pseudo-sibling mentor figure" than Ollie & Roy's does, in particular when you include Roy's addiction & their falling out.

I don't know what was going on in n52's Green Arrow run and I'm scared to read it (Ollie's naked face feels wrong), but at least within RHATO itself, Tynion writes a far crueler rendition of their relationship and it falling apart than Lobdell, who at the very least did have a moment when it looks like Ollie really realized how badly he'd screwed up with Roy & had harmfully perpetuated his alcoholism. He does seem like he means to help, but Roy already felt betrayed by him and refused it. This is not portrayed as a moral failing on either of their parts, but rather a conflict between people who love each other and hurt each other and don't entirely know how to fix it.

Contrast to Tynion's depiction where Ollie pretty much... picked him up for techy utility reasons only. Constantly abandoned him and refused to listen to his council despite literally being entirely what he kept the kid around for. Roy was Ollie's Q (& comms guy, technically) if Q was a literal child who received absolutely no respect and was constantly denigrated.

Tynion's relationship for them was (largely) unpaid child labor, arguably even borderline slavery itself. The... space where he was depicted working from felt like it was... just a trailer. Cramped and isolated feeling. Don't even get me started on the "therapy with Hugo Strange" bit. (<- that's a tangent for a different post, that plotline gives me a headache)

Lobdell re-spun that into opportunity: an internship with someone that Roy admired, a workspace with unlimited resources and free reign to make anything he wanted, a friend to rely on, and took him along to parties so he wasn't always cooped up.

Of course, the biggest issue for me with Lobdell's re-spinning of the re-spun relationship is... well. It doesn't really explain how Roy became a vigilante himself. He didn't know Ollie was Green Arrow & that revelation is how they fell out. How does that lead to his own costume & the Titans?

And, with Tynion's the biggest gap of information (note I'm not saying it's my biggest issue bcs I hate every fucking thing about it) is... well. Roy is depicted much younger in Tynion's version then Lobdell's, but still retains the idea that "Ollie picked him out of a drunk tank to be his tech guy." Set aside the issue of "How did Ollie even know he was CAPABLE of being a tech guy," I want to know what the fuck a child that looks anywhere between like... 10-14 is doing in a police drunk tank. Is he homeless?

Lobdell's implies Roy's living in Star for education purposes (mildly horrifying to me in a "I know he's actually white but especially considering they didn't entirely retcon his Native roots, despite not talking about them much, I have some concerns on the relevance of boarding schools to this matter") & idk, I think his dad might not have been dead? or at the very least died later. Which could be a catalyst for the drinking.

[dogboyklug]

redeisnged......them....

not sure how many others i'll do but i did have a lot of fun w this. will prolly redesign team dark at least. Probably. not omega tho he needs no changing

some notes under the cut :] mentions of ED tho

blaaaaaze

after that one idw issue she visits sonic & the gang pretty frequently

shes got like 7 of those bead string things... they make rlly nice sounds when she walks

she had rlly terrible anorexia for years. she's recovering, together, with amy, who had similar issues w her body for a long time

she's a trans woman yayyyy she was able to transition at a v v young age due to her status and when she rose to the throne she started pushing more laws to protect trans people especially

idk if anythings disproved this and idc. she fucking loves spicy food. she used to say it was bc it made her feel mature but rlly she just likes it.

she doesnt like stuff thats just spicy for the sake of spicy all the time though. she WILL eat the stupid hot sauce chili pepper ice cream shit sonic gourges himself on tho

silber

he fucking love apples

without his stabilizer rings his telekenisis is incredibly powerful but significantly harder to control

i saw a hc that he cleans himself by just using his telekenisis to get the dirt off and ive stolen it. sorry to whoever made it

he's like. kinda nonbinary? there isnt much information abt gender but the little he knows he doesnt really care for. hes very serious abt respecting other's pronouns though

he uses his telekenisis as a mobility aid bc all the broken bones n twisted joints he's got makes it hard for him to walk sometimes

he wouldve named himself venice but he still doesnt know where hes from in our au so he just goes by silver lmao

he loves apple pastas

[puckpocketed]

get ready for avs essays, babeyyyyyyy!!! 

so i’m actually completely fine with it if you don’t find nate compelling but since you bring him up, i will start with him. 

the thing about fortnite gamergirl nathan mackinnon is that he is like. very talented and reasonably conventionally attractive and also soooooooo cringefail. he’s the league mvp and a stanley cup champion and he has a gorgeous fiancée and he’s rich and he’s smashing through joe sakic’s franchise records left and right.... and he’s succchhhhhh a loser (affectionate). he’s uncomfortable all the time. he doesn’t know how to act. he’s pretty private but also he’ll just Say Things that are way too personal with the exact same tone he’d use to. i dunno. tell you what brand of sneakers he wears. he’ll also reveal things about the most private man in sports, squidney crocsby, that are way too personal—and sid apparently is fine with this because he continues to be boybestfriends and next door neighbors with the guy.

everyone thinks he is soooooo serious alllll the time (in spite of the fact that he is goofy and silly when he’s out with the boys) but it’s just a combination of a) his face just looks like that b) he’s just intense in general. he’s equally unchill about how much he fucking loves the boys and how much he loves his tiny dog. and c) mostly we see him when he is at his fucking job? and when he’s at work it’s All Business. don’t make him do dumb social media shit or ask him stupid questions about whether or not he thinks preseason is too long, he’s! busy! come back when it’s puppy day. 

he’s so focused on being working harder and being better and improving everything about his game and yet!!! he cannot win a faceoff 💖 he trains with squidney all summer! every year!! you would think he could learn something from the guy. but no, he doesn’t even seem to try to win faceoffs sometimes. he’s also. not ? defensively responsible? i do not exactly expect him to play like kopitar, here. i don’t even think he should waste all his energy backchecking; like, that’s not the thing we need him for. but idk from a guy who is sooooo fucking smart about hockey, a little more situational awareness would be nice. just a thought! like, if he wanted to be better at things, maybe he could get better at the things he’s terrible at? (but whatever, this gives me more of an excuse to push my ondřej pavel -> big boys’ club agenda). like. nate is an elite 1C—except that he doesn’t forecheck and doesn’t defend and one of his wingers (jonathan drouin) is actually the playmaker and the other winger (mikko rantanen) has to take all his faceoffs for him 🥰 

his one and only love language is trying to convince the boys to come play with him (jo, jack eichel, mitch marner, jo again). he doesn’t like late games, because he doesn’t nap. and he doesn’t nap because he can’t sleep during the day. and he can’t sleep during the day because he drinks too much water, so he has to piss too much. babygirl, why would you volunteer this information 💕 he tells people to call him “the dogg” and then they do. he says awkward sentences that rewire my brain. he should be cool, but he isn’t!!!!! he extremely fucking isn’t.

this is my natemac thesis, you can take it or leave it (said with love!!!!! there are other players i am significantly more invested in getting people on board with). i think many other people can speak more eloquently than i can about everything impressive he does on the ice. but he’s one of my special little guys bc of everything else

i have no idea what to do with all this <3 I'm here because he just bonked my ducks into oblivion - im hoping this cures his dogboy depression (it was becoming so wretched that it had started leaking into my curated feeds) - and it made me think of this ask which i've been marinating. hello!!

fortnite legend natemack is the exact age to have grown up in the heyday of COD xbox lobbies, do u ever think about that . i think about that now. do u think natedogg is his gamertag. rpf people are you writing gamergirl natemack AUs yet? has that happened yet? (sorry i don't. i don't have any clue what tropes are popular. im just throwing stuff at the wall <3)

nate is an elite 1C—except that he doesn’t forecheck and doesn’t defend and one of his wingers (jonathan drouin) is actually the playmaker and the other winger (mikko rantanen) has to take all his faceoffs for him 🥰

^craziest description of a 1C i've ever heard AND the most compelling he has ever been.

also thank u for not makin some kind of eating disorder joke amongst all this. it IS that serious (to ME) and people do this so much and i think they're not as funny as they think they are <3 (<- WHO SAID THAT!!!)

MYE two cents looking thru a writer/narrative lens: just, like, skimming whatever the hell comes up about him, he strikes me as someone who is very sincere. i get that everyone calls it "intensity" but i think sincerity has its own power. idk. i think he's very brave for wanting what he wants so transparently and wholly. <3 fortnite legend nathan mackinnon you are in my crosshairs......

[ajastu]

ohhhhhh dragon age 2 the game that you ARE.........

where do i even fucking begin.

this game was the first one i ever played in the series, actually. I honestly dont remember how i ended up starting it, but boy am i glad i did!

Really enjoyed the replay, especially all these years later. Kind of hits different now that i, too, am basically a different person compared to when i first played it...

Anyway. some Thoughts in random order under the cut

First of all. i remember why i was obsessed with my Hawke back then...theres just SOOO much to work with, here....started writing out a document of just the main Points about her just so i dont forget anything. almost at 1k words rn. well. me, obsessed with my ocs? the shock. truly unexpected.

Bethany. I love you. but it really does hit way different if u play a mage hawke.

I still think all the companions were banger (except sebastian im sorry to say. i just. cannot bring myself to care about him much. but that might just be bcs i do not vibe with the chantry's whole deal), BUT! i do view them a bit differently now. For example. Aveline girl yuo are so so bad at ur job sometimes actually. And anders...........gaslight girlboss gatekeep etc etc. the levels of toxicity he reaches in act 3 if u question him honestly took me off guard.

I installed a poly mod just so i dont have to like....replay 4 times in a row. and the Canon Tm romance for my hawke is isabela (maybe fenris too? idk im Thunking abt it), and i never actually romanced him before. BUT OH MY GODDDDDDD he really goes full toxic bf on you if you try to ask why exactly he wants you to distract the grand cleric. Honestly wish we could punch him. Like, its irrelevant if hawke agrees with his actions ultimately or not. That behavior alone is enough to drop his ass over.

Wish merrill's story was...given more thought/attention to. felt kind of...incomplete in places? idk. she deserved better, but i also know that the development for da2 was a nightmare, so i do not fault the devs for most of the things that i think could have been done better.

SPEAKING OF. Really really really funny to me that most of the criticism that is being thrown at veilguard could be word for word applied to DA2. Like, what the fuck was with the ghasts 😭

and the combat was just SOOO FUCKING BORINGGGGGGG spawning in basically the same enemies over n over n over n over- im so fucking glad for the mods. what would i do with no mods. Say what u will abt veilguard but at least they dont spawn shit in over n over in EVERY DAMN BATTLE.

Which leads me to. Playtime.

Obviously, comparing da2 and datv is kind of....like. the times are different. There is 13 years in between the two games. The AAA gamedev industry changed a WHOLE lot, and so most of the things that were possible in DAO/DA2 are just not gonna be possible in current times. Most of the standards for AAA games changed.

That said. Da2 felt significantly shorter than DATV, even with the DLC's. And i do realize i skipped a lot of the DA2 Experience Tm by skipping combat, but i think padding the playtime with fighting thru an absolute slog of enemy wave after enemy wave is...less than ideal. so id subtract that anyway.

THAT IS TO SAY. Both games went thru dev hell, but i think there was kind of...more pressure/expectations placed on datv devs in the aspect of playtime length/visual design. So it makes absolute sense to me why they had to simplify the narrative, and why da2 devs were able to make more options available in the narrative by sacrificing map design and the like.

DA2's story is more malleable, but shorter. DATV's story is less malleable, but it's longer. Both games, however, did an excellent job with (most) sidequests. the games did not feel bloated for no reason (khm khm dai khm khm), almost all the sidequests contributed something to the overall narrative, and overall it felt like a very streamlined experience, in the best way possible.

And the stories in both of these games end up being a banger, Despite It All. Honestly. the devs have my undying respect for persevering thru the horrors.

I dont know. overall, i....really fucking loved da2. Even more than before. I have a new appreciation for the tragedy of hawke's story. They lose so much, even if you do your best. There are just people you CANNOT save. And back when i was younger i kind of went I Do Not See at some of these things, being like 'well, in MY head leandra doesnt die 🙄'

But god, that death especially is so integral to everything. also. definitely something to be said about a kind hawke being much more interesting than an uncaring hawke. I know that maybe im biased on this one but like. it takes much much more to stay kind thru it all. the cruelty is easy.

also, a brief aside? while i appreciate the tangled mess of the da2 story, some slavery/racism moments were really like...............trying too hard. like. To the point of caricature. I'm glad datv took a more subtle approach bcs it would have just felt.......idk. cartoonish otherwise. in my personal opinion.

I'm looking at my tier list of DA games n i just. keep trying to deny the fact that dao+da2+datv feel about on the same level now 😭 I dont want to be so rude to DAI. i need to give it another chance. but it really is just. outside of the club rn. well...................ill replay that next. in the name of fairness. and also bcs i just havent done it in a while. please lord tell me theres a skip combat mod for dai-