#because I'm not physically capable of reading that either

[zorostitties]

Intertwined; 1

⤕ Luffy and you were like two sides of the same coin: opposites in every way, but similar in what mattered the most. Tied by a vow made with the purity of a child's heart, life keeps trying to tear you apart - but the vow that intertwined your destinies would not be broken so easily. Or, Luffy promised to marry you someday when you were kids. This is how he keeps his promise.

pairing: monkey d. luffy x (f) reader

genre: childhood friends to lovers, slow burn, arranged marriage, fluff, angst, eventual smut

warnings: violence/blood, explicit language, toxic family relationships, death/grief, when i say slow burn i mean it

rating: 18+

word count: 6k

A/N: I've had this fic in mind for ages but finally managed to squeeze the words out of my brain thanks to the encouragement of my followers 🥹 This fic is an attempt to write Luffy in love in the most beliavable/close to canon way possible. Let's hope I'll succeed :D - This is a afab!reader insert, so no physical traits will be described EXCEPT that I'm giving you reading glasses because Luffy needs to give you a silly nickname based on your appearance like he does to everybody. - If you like the fic, PLEASE interact with it so I can keep motivated to write the next parts 🥹 And per usual, English is not my first language. Enjoy!!

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- PART 1 -

"A secret shared by us alone, a smile the wind would carry. In the yard, just you and I knew how the world was merry."

- Cecilia Meireles

➛ 8

Heavy rain fell over the Goa Kingdom the night you killed that man.

Alex Husquid was his name. A small nobleman, heir to the Husquid fortune and businesses. Born and raised at the Dawn Island, probably never left the East Blue and probably never would have wanted to, since his source of power and prestige was located here. Married to a woman called Frida. Father of three healthy boys, all around your age.

Just a common, law-abiding citizen in this god forsaken corner of the world.

But his successful whiskey business pissed someone bigger than him, which meant he had to die.

You didn’t know who your contractors were – you never did. They hid behind Den Den Mushis with voice distortion or faceless messengers. Discretion and secrecy was the soul of the business; that went both ways. The contractors didn’t know who you were either. Didn’t know your face, or your brothers’ faces, or your mother’s, or your father’s, or your grandfather’s…

No one should see the face of a Scarpia family member and live to tell the next day.

Your breathing echoed inside the mask made especially to hide your small face. Your grandfather threw the runes made of bones the day you were born, and the runes said that your animal – the one that would represent your soul the most – was the wolf. And so, your mask was the image of a wolf’s face. Eerily white, contrasting with the black raincoat you wore.

The wolf is an auspicious animal, your grandfather said. Lone. Smart. Ferocious. Good to business.

The entire family expected you to honor this mask that night.

It was your first trial – the first time an assassination was assigned to you, the first time you’d have to take a commission on your own. Up until then, you’d only assist your brothers or watch them work from far. But you were eight years old now, and that was the right age to be initiated. You had trained enough. You were ready.

Just a small commission. Alex Husquid was a nobleman, but not that noble. This little and humid archipelago in the East Blue was far from being important. Not a death that would cause a stir. It honestly even felt that your father was belittling your capabilities with this commission. Why were you assigned to kill a short ugly nobleman at the end of the world, while Crowley who was only one year older got commissioned with Marines or troublesome pirates in the New World?

Because I’m the girl, you thought with resigned anger.

Well. Whatever.

It’s not like you wanted to impress them anyway. This was boring. The travel to the East Blue was boring, this commission was boring, having to stare at Landon’s ugly mustache the entire travel was boring. The only good thing that came from this initiation is that it also happened to be your birthday. The only day in the year where you had permission to do whatever you wanted.

So you just had to get this over with.

Alex Husquid was alone in his office, scribbling something on his desk. You watched him intently from the roof of the nearest house. Heavy rain fell over your head, lightnings illuminated the night sky from time to time, thunders roared. This storm would be your perfect ally.

Alex had left a breach on his window, probably to let some fresh air enter the room despite the rain.

That mistake would cost his life.

It wasn’t hard to jump from the roof into his room. Your feet made no noise when they touched the carpet. Your presence, barely a breeze from outside. But despite your best efforts, it called Alex’s attention.

Your father and grandfather had talked about it many times – and you had seen it from far, too, observing your brothers work. Humans have a weird sixth sense. They somehow always know death is near.

And death, to him, came in the form of a child.

Alex got a bit startled, but sat down again on his leather chair. All he saw was a kid wearing a white wolf mask. All he thought was that one of his sons put a funny costume to spook him.

A smile was beginning to take form on his chapped lips.

He didn’t have time to complete it.

You focused on your right hand. Your nails grew, sharpened like blades. When you launched yourself towards him, you made no noise – no disturbance in the room despite your inhumane speed, no wrinkles on the carpet. Silent. Fast. Unnoticeable. Like it should be.

Your nails slit his throat faster than his mind could comprehend. A deep cut, deep enough so he wouldn’t be able to scream. His eyes widened. He gagged in silent despair. He looked at the figure of a child standing over his desk, their face hidden behind a white wolf mask, and tears welled up his eyes.

He would be dead in a minute.

You knew it’d take a long time for anyone to find his body. The entire house was asleep. So you decided to stand there and watch until life completely left his body – until he stopped trembling, until he was soaked with his own blood, until his eyes were empty.

Just an uninhabited corpse.

Boring.

You flew out the same window you used to enter.

While landing on the nearest roof, you looked down at your right hand. Your nails were back to normal; your fingertips were bloody. You frowned. That wasn’t a clean cut. You’d have to work on that.

“Congratulations on your first solo commission, Young Mistress.”

An instinctive huff emerged from your chest. Of course, you knew he’d be around – he was always around, this boring old man. You turned around to face Landon and his annoying mustache.

The butler wore his usual boring black suit and boring white gloves and boring umbrella to protect him from the rain. Despite his words, he had the same blank expression over his features. Hell, was he boring.

“I should note, however, that you were sloppy. Your target noticed your presence. You also caused unnecessary mass bleeding. A good assassin is always–“

“Clean.” You concluded for him with annoyance.

Landon didn’t seem to care. He never seemed to care about anything.

“It’s past midnight. It is now your birthday. What do you wish to do?”

“I wish to be left alone.” You didn’t bother looking back at him as you took off your mask and shoved it inside the bag crossed around your chest. “Do not follow me.”

Landon wasn’t surprised. You spent most of your time trying to run away from him, his lessons, his unstoppable and overwhelming watch. Sometimes you managed to get some time alone. Most times you didn’t.

But it was your birthday, so today he had to obey.

Not that you’d have much to do in this boring island at this boring kingdom at the least interesting part of the ocean.

At least, you’d be truly alone for the next 24 hours.

You jumped from roof to roof away from Landon, satisfied to know that he wasn’t following you for once – and wondering if this island could entertain you in the only day of freedom you had.

The town was boring. As expected.

Small. The buildings weren’t very tall, there weren’t many nice stores or restaurants. It was even funny how the people living at this part of the island walked around with high chins and chests full of pride… their city, their properties and titles were nothing compared to the magnificent islands of the New World. But they were just simple minded creatures, you knew; they never planned to leave this place. They would never understand that the world was vast and that they didn’t matter on the grand scheme of things.

So you didn’t waste much time there.

Then there was the giant junkyard at the other side of the city, separated from it by a high wall. Mountains and mountains of trash, rubble and junk extended for maybe two or three kilometers. It smelled as bad as you’d expect and a strange gray fog hovered in the air. Gray Terminal was a suitable name, indeed.

Surprisingly, that place was a bit more interesting than the town.

Poor people gathered like vermin over meat around the junk mountains. Scavengers looking for anything valuable. In the span of maybe thirty minutes, you saw a few fights popping here and there. It was a bit entertaining to sit and watch how normal people fought. But you decided to leave not only because the place really smelled bad, but because your good clothes and your neat pigtails would probably draw unwanted attention.

So you walked into the woods nearby – and finally, things got interesting.

One or two hours of walking took you deep into the forest. It was very obviously a rainforest with the heat and humidity expected from it, which made you take your raincoat and jacket off, shoving them inside your backpack. You quickly realized you were, in fact, climbing a mountain. The human sounds were replaced with the sounds of nature – leaves shuffling, birds chirping, and the noises of many other unknown animals.

What caught your attention at first was the sheer size of the trees – the deeper you got into the mountain, the bigger they got. Some seemed to be taller than thirty meters. Some branches were thicker than actual tree trunks.

But you soon found out that the trees weren’t the only giant things there.

The floor shook beneath your feet in regular intervals. Steps of something extremely heavy.

You expanded your perception to a wider radius than what your eyes could see and your ears could hear – and came to a conclusion. Immediate danger.

You swiftly jumped up to the nearest tree, standing on its lower branch – which was still pretty high, probably eight meters away from the ground, and waited in complete silence.

What came from between the trees made your eyes widen.

A bear. But not just any brown bear. That thing was colossal. Ridiculously big. Its claws seemed to be as tall as you.

And finally, you were excited about something.

You immediately took the small notebook from your backpack and started sketching the beast, silently regretting not bringing a Den Den Mushi to take a picture of it (you knew Landon would put a tracking device on it if you brought one with you, so you decided not to). You sketched the creature as fast as you could before it could disappear inside the forest again, making quick annotations around the drawing.

You knew that many islands had strange and unique fauna and flora, though you’d only read about it in books. You’d never seen abnormal animals like that, and honestly didn’t expect to find anything like this out of the Grand Line.

A small smile grew on your lips.

Your birthday wouldn’t be that boring, after all.

You looked down at the notebook and tightened your eyes. Oh… the bear came and went so quickly that you didn’t have time to put your round reading glasses on. After taking them from the backpack, you could see with clarity that you missed many details. You sat down on the branch and made the finishing touches.

It was time to move on.

You began to feel a little hungry past noon.

Not that you weren’t used to not eating for long periods of time. A good assassin must be in control of all of their physiological necessities at all times. What if a commission takes place at a critical environment? What if you need to be undercover for long periods of time to study your target? Things like hunger should be brushed aside. You’d only eat when your body begged for it.

But you were so entertained that your rumbling belly was just an afterthought.

Only a day wouldn’t be enough to catalog all of what you’ve found. Who would’ve thought this insignificant island would have so much to offer?

Going deeper into the mountain, you saw even more strange animals. Giant tigers and more bears and alligators in a river nearby. Why did the fauna at this island became so gigantic? What must’ve happened in their evolutionary process? In the span of only a few hours, you filled more than twenty pages with sketches and notes.

Morpho menelaus, you scribbled at the top of the page while checking your Insect Encyclopedia to be completely sure. It was pretty unmistakable: the beautiful blue wings of the butterfly resting in front of your eyes couldn’t be replicated by any other species. You held your breath, made sure to not produce any sound as to not scare the butterfly away. Why didn’t I bring a Den Den Mushi?, you scolded yourself for the hundredth time. It would’ve made your life so much easier.

You were almost finishing the sketch. This butterfly had a very specific black pattern at the tip of its wings and you wanted to convey it perfectly. You rushed to catch its details before it would go away–

“What are you doing?”

You gasped and turned around in a jump.

Of course, you knew there was something approaching – but it didn’t exude immediate danger, so you assumed it was just a squirrel or something.

It definitely wasn’t a squirrel.

It was a… boy.

The stranger looked at you with round, curious dark brown eyes – so dark that they almost looked completely black. A bit shorter than you, but definitely your age; his hair was a mess of black, almost completely hidden under a straw hat that was too big for his head. His olive skin was covered with dirt, just like the rest of his clothes – a red tank top and battered jeans shorts. He had a thin curvy scar under his left eye and a bandaid over the bridge of his nose.

He blinked.

You blinked.

But slowly, your surprise dissipated. A frown set on your face.

...Boring.

You turned around. The butterfly had obviously flown away. An annoyed sigh went past your lips.

You started to walk away.

“Hey! I’m talking to you!” He whined. His voice was annoyingly high pitched. You heard the tap tap of his sandals fast approaching. “What are you doing here? Are you lost?”

“Do I look lost?” You groaned between gritted teeth. Why did you even answer him?

“Well, then, are you stupid?”

This made you turn to look at him.

He didn’t seem bothered by your angry face.

“Why the hell would you want to climb Mt. Colubo alone?” The boy continued. “Never seen you ‘round Foosha or downtown. You’re from High Town, aren’t you? With those fancy clothes and all?”

You went back to walking.

He followed.

“This forest is pretty dangerous, did you know that? It’s not a place for the weak.” Then what are you doing here, too?, is what you wanted to ask, but you resigned to stay silent. “It’s full of monsters and poisonous snakes and bandits. They’ll want to steal you.” More silence. “By the way, my name is–“

“Shhhh!” You shushed him angrily before jumping to the branch of a tree.

You immediately opened your notebook again and started scribbling while crouching down.

To your distaste, you heard him jump after you. “What are you–?”

“Shhhh!” You shushed more aggressively this time. “You’ll scare it away!”

The boy tilted his head to the side and finally found what you were looking at while sketching rapidly.

“Ooooh,” he was surprisingly quiet this time.

Onychocerus albitarsis, you wrote at the top of the page. Commonly known as Scorpion Beetle. The brown, black and white insect moved slowly, its long antennae scooping the wood beneath it.

“This one’s pretty poisonous, did you know that?” He said. You didn’t need to turn your head to know he was looking from over your shoulder.

“Hmm.”

“I learned it the worst way.” He hissed as if remembering the pain of the sting. “You ain’t never seen one before? There are plenty of these here.” Silence. “None at the High Town, I guess? Yeah, I don’t think these stuck up people like insects.” More silence. “Is this why you’re here? To see insects?” He leaned away slightly. “Are you some sort of insect hunter?”

You paused for a second.

Shit. He definitely saw the family crest embroidered on the back of your shirt: the red symbol of a scorpion. You were sloppy once more. No one was supposed to see that family crest.

At the same time, there was no way this boy would know what it meant, so you decided to brush it aside.

“Well, I’m a pirate.” He seemed proud of himself, a sonorous smile in his voice. “Huh, not yet, but I’ll be one day. I’m gonna be the King of Pirates!” Silence. The boy hummed after a few seconds. “You’re pretty boring, did you know that, Four Eyes?”

You whipped your head at him for the first time.

“What did you just call me?”

“Four Eyes.” He was, once again, unbothered by your ferocious glare. His eyes fell over your notebook. “But you draw pretty well. Not better than me, though. Oh! It’s gone.”

You turned back in time to see the beetle flying away.

You sighed deeply and got up again while looking at him angrily. The boy got up, too. He either didn’t understand why you were angry or simply didn’t care.

“...I only wear glasses when I need to read,” you said between gritted teeth.

He blinked.

“And?”

You rolled your eyes and jumped to the floor again.

“Where are you going now?”

“Why are you following me?” You retorted. From the corner of your eye, you saw him rest both hands behind his head in a relaxed position.

“I got nothing better to do and I don’t see other kids here often.” Then, he opened a wide grin – you could probably see all his teeth with that smile. “Let’s be friends!”

You looked ahead again, feeling your stomach twirl.

Your father’s deep voice echoed inside your mind.

A Scarpia family member does not have friends.

Friends are weaknesses. A Scarpia only needs another Scarpia.

You tightened your fists.

No one should see the face of a Scarpia family member and live to tell the next day.

If you followed these rules to a ten, you’d have killed that boy already.

It’s what your father would have wanted. It’s what your brothers would have done. You’d seen them doing that before. This weird straw hat kid had already seen your face unmasked and the family crest on your back. If Landon were here, he would even have finished him for you.

It wouldn’t be hard to kill him. He wouldn’t even notice you slicing his throat with your nails.

But…

He wasn’t a commission. You didn’t want to dirt your fingertips with blood if you didn’t need to. There was no way this boy even knew what the Scarpia family was.

So you quickened your pace without looking back.

He followed.

You started running.

He followed.

You sprinted.

“Hey!” He yelled…

And followed.

You ran in zigzag in between the trees, climbing thick vines and jumping down cliffs, trying to mislead him – but damn, that boy actually seemed to know where he was going, differently from you. He was slower, but that was definitely an advantage. Shit, stop following me! Leave me alone! Why are you following me anyway?! How are you keeping up?!

Why– why are you laughing?!

Actually laughing. Not in a mocking way. He laughed at the top of his lungs, that huge grin never leaving his face.

“I’m gonna catch you!” He yelled.

“No, you won’t!” You yelled back. Why were you yelling?

“Just you wait!” And he laughed again.

That stirred something inside you.

You focused all of your strength in your legs; you visualized the energy in your body gathering there like white lines. The burst of adrenaline. A technique to be used in an escape situation.

When you got impulse to step forward, the floor cracked beneath your feet.

You sprinted away – so fast that it almost felt like flying. The world around you went by in a confusing blur, wind howled on your ears with the speed. As you didn’t know the area, you didn’t know exactly how many meters you ran – five hundred meters? Seven hundred? Your record was nine hundred meters, and you hoped to reach a kilometer soon, preferably before Crowley could do it.

It took a lot of effort to stop.

You rested both hands over your knees, panting. That was the disadvantage of this technique: it was too tiring. You couldn’t do it more than once a day and you still didn’t know how to take turns, always sprinting on a beeline. Your father could do it as many times as he wanted and change directions in the blink of an eye. You hoped to reach his level someday.

Well. That was enough to mislead that weirdo, at least.

You straightened your back and dried your sweaty forehead with the back of your hand. You had aimed north, which meant you went higher into the mountain… you’d have to find your compass inside the backpack to be sure. Luckily, you had been marking the trees as to find the way out easily–

And that’s when someone slapped the back of your neck.

You turned around in a jump, already taking a fight stance–

It was that boy.

He grinned so wide that it looked like his cheeks would rip apart.

“Tag! You’re it!” He announced before turning around and– and–

And running away.

You stood there, completely shocked, following him with your eyes.

How… how…?

Did he reach you in a minute and half?

He ran over five hundred meters in a minute and half?

Who the hell was that boy?!

He realized you weren’t following after a while. He turned around, still smiling – but confusion covered his features.

“You’re it!” He yelled from there as if reminding you.

He was distancing himself from you. You should take that opportunity to run in the opposite direction and finally get rid of him. But something made you stop – something that completely silenced the voice of reason, the voice of your father.

Curiosity.

“How did you do that?” You asked. He frowned.

“Huhhhh??” He put his hand in a shell near his ear. Oh. He was quite far.

“How–“ You cleaned your throat. Screaming was not something you were used to do. “How did you do that?!”

“Do what?!”

“Reached me so fast?!”

“Oh!” He grinned again – but there was something a bit mischievous about it this time.

You watched, confused, as the boy spun his right arm around many times.

You watched, shocked, when he threw his arm after taking impulse and it stretched.

It stretched and stretched and stretched to a tree standing by your side. He entangled his stretched arm around the trunk; his arm distended as if it was a rubber band and he came flying towards you.

You watched, jaw dropped, when he landed in front of you. His arm untangled from around the trunk and went back to normal with a very sonorous snap.

He grinned proudly.

“Like that!”

It took you a few seconds to recover.

“...You ate a Devil Fruit.”

He nodded.

“The Gomu Gomu no Mi. I became the rubber man!” He pinched his own cheek and it stretched too, before releasing it with, again, a sonorous snap. As if he needed to demonstrate it even more.

That was definitely a surprise.

You didn’t even think someone from this small island, so far from the Grand Line, would even know what a Devil Fruit is – let alone eat one.

You frowned slightly.

“My father says Devil Fruits are for the weak. Someone should be strong based on their inherent body capabilities alone.” That was hammered into your head over and over again… and you noticed with some distaste that you kind of sounded like Landon.

The boy crossed his arms. The smile never left his lips.

“Well, your father’s an idiot!”

Your jaw dropped again.

That scrawny dirty looking boy just called Scarpia Drachen an idiot.

And at that moment – something very very strange and very very unusual happened inside of you, something you couldn’t control, and it was like you could hear Landon’s annoying husky voice echoing in your ears that you should always be in control of your body and your reactions–

But you couldn’t help it.

You laughed.

You covered your mouth and bent over slightly, the other hand gripping the fabric of the shirt over your stomach. I shouldn’t laugh! This is so so so disrespectful! I will be scolded for sure!

But– But Landon wasn’t there. Or your father. Or any of your brothers.

Just the weird stretchy boy.

And he thought that was funny, too. He giggled as if proud of himself.

“By the way, how did you do that?” He asked, crossing his arms. “You ran so fast that the ground cracked! That was faster than Ace! Is that an insect hunter ability or something?”

You didn’t know who the hell Ace was and you didn’t feel like asking. You straightened your back after swallowing the laughter. “Yeah. We… we train to be faster than everybody.”

Why were you talking to him? Why did you answer his question? Why hadn’t you mislead him yet? What was wrong with you? No no no– that was wrong. You needed to get away from him as fast as possible.

But, for some reason, you didn’t move.

The straw hat boy grinned mischievously again and rubbed his hands.

“But I bet you’re not faster than me! I already know your technique, it won’t surprise me anymore!” He started walking on his back at a fast pace while still grinning at you. “C’mon, you’re it!”

But you still didn’t move.

“Do you… want me to chase you?”

“Duuuuh, that’s how it works, Four Eyes!”

You still didn’t understand.

“Why? Is this some sort of training?”

He finally stopped running.

“How come, why?” Now he looked confused. “Because it’s fun!”

The boy grinned.

It… seemed so easy for him. So obvious. Like you were the stupid one there.

...Fun?

Fun was the opposite of boring.

You weren’t bored searching for animals and cataloging them. You liked to draw, you liked to be left alone. You knew that the right thing to do would be to distance yourself.

But he was jigging from side to side excitedly and that made your heart beat faster for some reason. The same way it was beating faster when you were trying to mislead him. Because of adrenaline, you knew – that was the obvious answer. But maybe… maybe…

It was because it was fun.

You started to walk towards him. He laughed excitedly and turned around.

Then you were running.

Then you were sprinting.

He changed directions either with his legs or gripping tree trunks with his abnormal ability to drastically take turns. You ran after him, unable to use that burst of adrenaline again, but that wasn’t necessary… if you did it, you’d reach him quicker and it would all be over too soon. It wouldn’t be fun.

So you caught him without cheating. But he wasn’t angry or disappointed when you did – he just laughed at the top of his lungs and yelled, my turn!

And then you were being chased.

And then you were laughing.

And then he caught you and it was your turn to yell you’re it!

And then you were breathless and your stomach hurt from laughing but you didn’t want to stop.

Because… because it was fun.

“I wanted meat!” He whined unhappily.

You side eyed him while munching your slice of watermelon. Even though he kept complaining, he was eating his anyway – and it was a bit scary how fast he ate and how big his bites were. He was finishing his… second? Third watermelon? You weren’t counting.

When both of you got way too tired – and that took a lot: the sun was starting to set – you decided to rest for a bit and eat something. A clearing nearby had a plantation of watermelons. It was obviously cultivated by someone, but turns out he had no idea who it was or if they would mind if you’d take some. You certainly didn’t mind taking them.

You’d been sitting side by side, facing a cliff with a gorgeous view of the forest and sunset ever since.

“And how would you find meat?” You asked absentmindedly while munching.

“Isn’t it obvious? I’d hunt! There are tons of weird animals here!” He took another big bite and tilted his head at you. “You’re kind of slow, aren’t you, Four Eyes?”

“My name’s not Four Eyes,” you said between gritted teeth. You didn’t even realize you were still wearing the glasses… you took them off and shoved them inside the backpack.

“What’s your name, then?”

You froze.

You hadn’t given him a name. He hadn’t told his either, even though you’d been playing for the past few hours.

But you couldn’t give him your real name. That was a basic rule: no one should see your face. No one should know your name. Every interaction with an outsider had to be calculated and well-thought out for the safety of the family.

The straw hat boy had already seen your face and the family crest.

But… it’s not like he had any idea what the Scarpia family was, right? So giving him a fake name would suffice.

“...Wolfie,” you lied after the first thing that came to mind. You immediately regretted it, realizing how silly it sounded after the made up name left your mouth, but it was too late to correct it now.

He nodded and swallowed a big bite before grinning. His mouth was all dirty with watermelon juice. “My name’s Monkey D. Luffy and I’m gonna be the King of Pirates!”

He didn’t seem to notice how stupid your “name” sounded… great. “...You already said that.” You looked ahead again. The sky had pretty hues of pink and orange as the sun disappeared slowly behind the horizon line. The treetops swayed softly with the wind, resembling sea waves of green. “Why do you wanna be a pirate?”

Why were you asking?

You had no idea. You weren’t supposed to find more about this Luffy boy. You weren’t supposed to be interested. But at the same time – you’d never see him again anyway, so what was wrong with making a question?

Right?

“Is it for the treasures?” It should be, you remarked, given how ragged his clothes were. Well, there was nothing wrong with wanting a fortune.

Luffy’s eyes gleamed with excitement.

“Pirates are the coolest people in the world!” He declared, gesticulating widely and setting the half eaten watermelon aside for the first time. “They go anywhere they want, do whatever they want and take what they want! They are free!” The more he talked, the more excited he looked. “My friend Shanks– he’s a pirate, too, and he goes on all sorts of adventures. He told me about it, all the islands and people and enemies he faced!” Luffy held the brim of his straw hat softly. “I made a promise that I’d become a great pirate like him so we can meet again in the sea someday!”

You hummed quietly.

The watermelon tasted sweet, way too sweet. You took another bite and munched it slowly.

“Freedom, huh?” Your voice was just a little bit louder than the wind. “Must be nice.”

“Right?” Luffy elbowed your arm excitedly. “The world is so much bigger than Mt. Colubo or Foosha Village or the Gray Terminal. There are so many islands out there! So many weird monsters and strong guys to fight!” He tightened his hands in fists and punched an invisible enemy. “That’s why me and Ace train everyday. To get even stronger!”

You side eyed Luffy again. He had an interesting ability, you had to admit, even though you were taught to despise Devil Fruit users. And yeah, he was definitely faster and stronger than the average kid your age. But… he was far from being strong. He was very killable, in fact. If he actually wanted to go to the seas someday, he had a long way to go.

Whatever. It was none of your business.

But even so – his speech about how vast the world is was kind of… touching, in a way. You knew about that, too. You’d been to many places, following your brothers in commissions or being taken to harsh environments to train. But you’d never… paid attention to anything. Everything was just training or business. Everything was boring.

But you thought Dawn Island was boring at first too – until you had the time and freedom to explore it and find all these giant animals and insects. Until you could look closely.

Maybe he had a point.

You swallowed another bite before speaking.

“There is an island I’d like to visit someday, you know.” You started slowly. Hesitantly. Luffy was paying attention, which somehow made you nervous. You weren’t used to that – someone actually listening to you. “I mean… an archipelago on the Grand Line. The islands are full of giant insects.”

“Giant insects?!” Luffy widened his eyes. “Do you think there are giant beetles there too?!”

“From what I’ve read, yeah. Beetles larger than houses. Spiders taller than giraffes. And carnivorous plants, too, big enough to eat a person.”

The straw hat boy giggled excitedly and bounced a bit while still sitting. He seemed unable to not move for a long time, you noticed. “You could fill entire notebooks with your drawings there!” Luffy eyed you up and down with somewhat of a smug expression. “Why haven’t you been there yet, though? You don’t look broke. I bet you have enough money to travel wherever you want.”

Your shoulder dropped a bit. “The Boin Islands are far. Very very far. And… I don’t think my parents would let me.”

Because it’d be useless. A waste of money and time. It wouldn’t make you a better assassin in their opinion… so what was the point?

Luffy filled his chest and pointed at himself with his thumb proudly. “No problem. I’ll take you there when I become a pirate! My ship will be huuuge with, like, two masts and a big crew. No storms will sink us. We’ll get there and see all the giant bugs!”

For the hundredth time that day, you had the strange, instinctive reaction to giggle. You had the even stranger thought that, yeah, traveling with him would be fun.

The straw hat boy stretched his arms and cleaned his mouth with the back of his hand.

“Hah… the sun’s setting, I should get back before Ace gets worried.” Luffy got up and looked down at you excitedly. “Come with me, Wolfie! The forest’s even more dangerous at night, but our place is safe. We got meat for dinner, too.”

It was a bit insane how he could think of eating more after chomping so many watermelons.

But… his reminder that the sun was setting filled you with sudden sadness.

It took you hours to get to the top of the mountain… it’d take more hours to get down. If you didn’t leave now, Landon would climb it to find you – he always found you somehow – and to see you with this boy would put you in serious trouble.

It would put him in serious trouble, actually. In danger.

So you sighed and got up, too, taking the backpack from the floor and putting it on your back.

“Sorry, I have to go now.”

Luffy quirked one eyebrow. “You sure? Ain’t you gonna get lost? Is someone coming to pick you up?” He put his hands on each side of his waist. “I’m serious, the forest is really dangerous at night! Not even us go around when it’s dark!”

“I’ll be fine.” It was a bit interesting how this boy, much weaker than you, seemed so worried for your safety. That was also unusual.

You stood there awkwardly, not knowing exactly what to do. You also weren’t used to goodbyes.

“Hm… I’ll… get going then.” You started to walk backwards while gripping the trap of the backpack nervously. “It was… it was nice meeting you.”

Luffy smiled and nodded. “See ya!”

You hesitated before turning around.

See ya. He probably thought he’d see you again soon. That was funny.

No. That was a bit sad.

Your eyes kept glued to the floor, shoulders dropped, as you made your way down the hill slowly. Maybe you could go back and spend a little more time with him… maybe meet this Ace he kept talking about. You could play a little more. Sketch a few more insects.

No no no. Landon was nearby. He’d kill Luffy on the spot. He had permission to kill anyone he deemed a threat to your safety or your education – and he’d do it without consulting your opinion.

It was better for Luffy to never see you again.

...Your steps slowed even more.

For the first time, you remember Alex Husquid – the man you killed as soon it turned midnight. How you stood there and watched as his eyes emptied. How it made you feel nothing but boredom. Just a commission, after all, like any other.

But why the idea of seeing that same thing happen to Luffy bothered you so much?

This… this weird short boy you met just a few hours ago?

Why did the fact that you’d never see him again made your heart tighten like that?

You suddenly stopped on your tracks.

Wait.

Maybe… maybe you could. Maybe you could see him again.

You turned around, ready to run up the hill again to find Luffy– but turns out he was still standing there, watching you go.

Your heart throbbed loudly. Your hands were sweating. That was wrong wrong wrong. But even so–

“Luffy!” You called. He smiled from far and waved. “Can I… Can I see you again next year?”

Luffy narrowed his eyes and put his hands over his knees. “Huuhhh?!”

Oh– right. You were already too far.

You tightened your hands into fists, feeling a mix of anxiety and embarrassment, before screaming:

“Can I see you again next year?!”

This time, your voice echoed through the woods.

Luffy widened his eyes in surprise. “Next year?! That’s too long!”

You were immediately taken aback. Was he brushing you aside?

“I… I live very far!” That wasn’t a lie. “Can I come or not?!”

Luffy straightened his back.

He grinned again – one of his big, big grins, so big that his eyes closed tight, so large that you felt your own lips curving up, too.

“Of course! I’ll be waiting for you!”

Why were you bouncing a bit? Why did a light weird squeal went past your lips?

“Okay! Let’s meet right here!”

“Okay!”

“Let’s play even more next time!”

“I’ll be even faster than you!” He giggled smugly.

“No, you won’t!” Oh no– you still had to leave. You turned around slowly and waved him a last goodbye. “Bye!”

Luffy waved back excitedly.

Finally, you turned completely and walked down the hill.

Then you were running.

Then you were laughing.

It was probably because of the adrenaline, you knew, but you also knew that it was because you had fun. Because you had something to look forward to – someone to look forward to.

And that was far from being boring.

No rain fell over the Goa Kingdom the day you made your first friend.

[fafodill]

The exact wording of the ask I got was: 'what if someone was asking deprived!Snape (read my whole essay about him) to "break them off a piece of that KitKat bar?" How would they go about it?'

So today we're going to discuss this. Buckle up people.✨

SO his reaction will largely depend on the context and their current relationship but one thing that will happen FOR SURE every time before anything else is that he's going to think they're messing with him.

What else could it be? This man had been so heavily bullied as a teen his self-esteem is buried and has its own tombstone.

"Here lies Snape's self-image. Spit to pay your respect."

We don't have any canon proof of it happening but many people headcanon that some of the bullying might have been people being dared to come up to him and fake attraction or compliment him (so funny omg) only for him to realize they were just messing with him. It's totally the kind of immature stupid shit kids will come up with (speaking from personal experience here). Not funny but deeply scarring for one's self-image. So being told he's attractive would trigger him in his adult life. Any potential suitor asking him out would be welcomed with him immediately closing up and getting angry at them. They'd need to find a way for him to believe them first.

If you're thinking "this already sounds like a pain", yes it is. Welcome to deprived!Snape. Welcome to Snape, basically. If they want a piece of him, they have to brace themselves for the long run.

He will get angry and leave a lot. Fleeing the situation - since it's a very vulnerable subject for him - will be his go-to move. The whole ordeal will require patience. So what should this person do?

Friend or Stranger?

If it comes from a DE he'll think it's an angle. If it's from a member of the Order, he'll think it's a joke. If it's from a colleague at Hogwarts, he maaaay be a tad less suspicious? In any case, it will depend on how close they are. The more time they have spent together, the closer he'll be to not flip out... too much.

I'm a bit torn about his reaction if it was coming from a stranger. Either it's easier because he can lean into the idea that maybe they're lying about their attraction and he doesn't care (and if he's horny then why the fuck not, it won't affect him as much since they both now they're here for physical release) OR he might not be into it at all because he actually needs a real connection (and I think this is more realistic). Severus is a feral cat, he needs time to trust people.

What else? He could also maybe open up faster with someone not from his usual inner circles (a foreigner or a muggle) as the interactions wouldn't be charged with the same deep-rooted habits and expectations.

I also believe he'd unconsciously feel way more at ease with someone coming from a modest background. A pureblood aristocrat hitting on him would have little chance of getting past his natural distrust of them (unless he knows them very well).

So what should they do?

Build trust

The quality of their interactions and conversations will have a huge impact. Do they have an interesting personality? He needs someone capable of taking him on and keeping up intellectually. Can they keep up with him and challenge him?

Severus has a temper. Can they deal with his bullshit and not give up on him at the first scowl? Argue with him? It doesn't mean they can't be nice, but I don't see him get worked up over someone cowering under his gaze.

They need to be stubborn. He's a Capricorn and he's got the horns. He's hard-headed. They need to not back down when he bites or dismisses their attempts at flirting. One of Severus's classic tactic is to hurt people so they leave him alone, so they need to be able to dodge the attack, make fun of him or retaliate.

If they manage to deal with his temper, they will start to see what's on the other side of the snarky exterior. Then, they'll be able to start kneading the dough (Severus is the dough).

Convince him the attraction is real

That person could go the gentle/honest way, assuring him they're not kidding and explaining what they find attractive about him (he'd be super wary and need days to digest it - if he can). Genuine compliments could work quite well as he's good at reading people but it would be a process and it shouldn't be too much at once. He's NOT USED to compliments so if the person goes too hard, he's going to get overwhelmed, distance himself and reject it. A good trick would be to compliment his intelligence and magical skills alongside physical traits. A 2/3-1/3 ratio would be a good start. He would trust compliments about his big brain way more than anything regarding his cute butt.

Complimenting his presence, aura, voice might be good too as it's not directly related to physical traits. Else, physical starters could include hands and eyes. But I also love the idea of taking him by surprise and complimenting his nose. Might weird him out in a good way.

Or they could go the blunt way (or what I now refer to in my mind as the @maxdibert way) and be like "dude, I really think you're hot, deal with it" and leave him to sort his feelings out like a big boy.

The two strategies can be mixed of course. But at the end of the day, the real problem is that Severus as approximately a thousand confirmation bias in his mind telling him this is not happening. So what could they do to help ease this process?

Make him horny

Less overthinking = more chances to get this piece of ass.

Severus Snape needs to be warmed up. And as stated in my previous essay, he's plagued with the core beliefs that he's ugly, ridicule and undeserving. These beliefs need to be kneaded and challenged enough (not healed, this would take decades and it's not their job), so that he can relax and open up to the idea of intimacy.

Here are a few strategies to do so.

First, de-dramatize the subject. Making the topic less taboo by talking about it in a lighthearted way (no flaunting! certainly not!). A good move would be to joke about it. Deprived!Snape isn't comfortable with the subject but it's because it's evaded him and then he convinced himself he wasn't concerned or interested.

-> Here are some of the things he could benefit from hearing: that sex is not a big deal at all and we can laugh about it. It should be fun, a shared moment, trials and errors are part of it and there should no be judgment about experiences and preferences. People with a high 'body count' aren't necessarily good lovers, it's all about presence and intent etc.

His potential partner could share funny mishaps that happened to them and - when there's an opening - ask him what he would expect from a pleasant intimate moment (that's a very advanced move, don't forget he's bad with words)(it would only work in my opinion if they're both drunk and have been going at it for a while).

Also sharing experiences is a great way to build trust and intimacy (and arousal). He thrives on knowledge so learning more about his potential partner might ease his mind in some way (and give him some free intrusive thoughts). See it as added ingredients to make him simmer.

Though they shouldn't talk too much about the number of partners they had and said partner's skills. This might make him retreat. Again: low self-esteem and always on the lookout for an excuse to sabotage it.

Wait what about drunk!Snape you say? That's a trope we enjoy around here. Although I headcanon him as not being a heavy drinker (if a drinker at all because of his father) it would be a great way to lower a bit his inhibition. A DE would have a hard time sharing a drink with him, same for an Order member (he never stays after meetings but could be coerced), but a colleague could maybe drag him to the Three Broomsticks with other members of the staff and then leave early with him. wink wink Come on, rub his foot under the table and look at him choke on his ale. He'll skin you alive with his eyes and you can just raise a suggestive eyebrow back.

Persistence, persistence.

Of course a bit of physical baiting could help with his dusty libido. After all, they'd kinda be dealing with an teenager, experience-wise. Nothing too bold (though I headcanon that his sooty Cokeworth self would get way more worked up over unabashed desire than delicate courting but he's buried a bit too deep at the moment) but a nice cleavage, some leg showing, a fitting pair of pants or robes might not be a bad move. Since he might be uncomfortable with words, they could flaunt the goods in his face! The man has eyes, let him look and scold himself for looking. Also a few heavy looks, biting a lip and lingering fingers could go a long way for such a deprived man, especially if it's directed at him.

At the end of the day, the trick is to make him able to put his worry aside (or snap, if you find the word sexier).

They could go the provocative way, being insufferable and making him want to shut them up.

They could try some endless teasing until he's a lost hot mess, unable to express what he wants except by going 'fuck it' and going for it.

They could go slower and create a safe space with a weekly ritual (every Friday night meeting for a drink/to grade essays/to hang out) which can lead to a late night snog (floating candles optional).

They could be blunt and go 'I want to kiss you so bad right now' as they leave Hogsmeade together and are walking on the dirt path towards the castle. A gust of wind will prevent him from hiding himself behind his hair and they'll see the flush creeping on his face.

They could hammer the compliments and validation, because Severus craves recognition (is there a praise kink in there? yes). So first it could be his mind, his work, his skills... then the way his cape suits his frame so well, his silky voice... and then bam, hitting the nail on the head with complimenting his mouth. Blabbering mess guaranteed. Might flee but blush deliciously. Or might stop dead in his track and then it's time for them to claim these lips.

Kissing

Clumsy. Tentative. Awkward.

But earnest.

He might freeze at first. Wait, these lips knew how to do that once upon a time... how does it go again? He'll need a bit of time to remember but the best way to (re)learn is practice.

It will be a lot for him. As he's extremely touch-deprived he'd be literally rediscovering human contact. So much to feel, the supple of the lips, their shape, the softness, the wetness.

Honestly, deprived!Snape could get really worked up just from kissing.

(They could honestly make him cum just from this and some grinding. Amen. If he does he'd need reassurance after and still might flee and hide and snarl for a few days because male performance blahblahblah. Hopefully they'd be able to skip this step at this point in the relation.)

But I believe he'd enjoy it greatly and this might be a step he'd want to stay at for some time before going further.

Undressing

I headcanon deprived!Snape as being very self-conscious about revealing his body so it might only be possible with someone he really trusts. It might be painfully difficult for him (might require dimmed light if not obscurity but I mean come on, they're here to look at him and it'd be better for him to rip the bandaid... but giving him the option might help).

Either he'll be too aroused to care (or act as if he doesn't) or he'll feel very self-conscious and look for cues to confirm his belief that his partner will find him disgusting. It's the right moment for them to express their desire.

If for some reason he gets too triggered and leave, they wouldn't be back to square one but again, patience is key. He needs time. Or maybe they could convince him to stay and try to resolve the situation by stopping the intimacy and just talk about something else. It could be good practice to show him this isn't a big deal and that everything is fine.

But at this stage, complimenting him sincerely (no coddling) whilst not hiding their arousal could work nicely. Sprinkling some of the fantasies they had about him as well. ('I've been dreaming about these hands on me', 'You have no idea how much I've been wanting to kiss these lips to make you shut up', 'I laid awake at night thinking about touching this part of you'). Showing appreciation with touch could convince him more though and it has the advantage of preventing him to think too much.

But really, he won't like to focus on his appearance as it's something he has no control over so they should -unfortunately- bite their tongue and keep the flood of horny compliments to themselves at first. A new one might be fed to him once every two weeks to slowly build his confidence.

In Bed

Deprived!Snape is: prideful, yearning for control and very sensitive.

Now honestly I could make a whole other post with the different scenarios where he'd be more top or bottom. Instead, I will focus more on what would happen either way.

He'll want to learn. Because Severus is nothing if not a scholar. He's got a very curious nature regarding topics that interest him so if his partner is showing him how they like something, he'll get super serious about it. He will try to touch them in the exact same way at first and he's a fast learner so once it's mastered, he'll experiment. And he's going to be good at it.

That man got dexterity and an inventive mind. And that's canon.

But his focus on his partner might also be a way to keep control during this highly new situation. Depending on how self-conscious he is about his inexperience, shifting the focus on him might be a challenge. Maybe letting him take the lead could be a good idea. But maybe shoving him against the mattress and seizing control is the way to go here.

Now, he will be very sensitive, won't he?

Yes, he might. He might be a whimpering mess in no time. His partner should be cautious and gentle with him. Severus letting his guard down and letting them touch him is a very big effort coming from him so they should savor it and be sure to make it feel safe if they want this to happen again. Help him relax, let him breathe, don't hesitate to pause if he gets nervous. The walls will be destroyed, moan after moan.

But what if he isn't sensitive?

That's a possibility as well. He's been by himself for years and his wariness of intimacy and people is wired in his cells at this point. He's disconnected from his own body and never pays attention to it. He might also tense heavily once in bed with his partner, the vulnerability of it accentuating the disconnection. He might not feel pleasure, might get frustrated and feel angry or inadequate.

This situation - which I find very interesting and seems like a realistic follow-up to him wanting to kiss for a long time and struggling with undressing - is tricky and will require diplomacy and more patience.

But maybe this could be a dealbreaker for him. If the payoff isn't worth the discomfort, he could easily take it as a confirmation bias that intimacy isn't for the likes of him. The best course of action could be to focus on non-sexual aspect of intimacy.

But this essay is way too long already so I'm going to stop here.

What should I write about next? Is there something you wish I had addressed here? Is there something you'd like me to discuss next?

UPDATE: so a few people seem to be mad at me, demanding I keep on elaborating SO. Let's say I'm done here for the 'how to bed him' part (which was the premise of this essay) and I'll do another one following thoughts and possibly... focusing on the different roles in bed (top/bottom/switch) for our dear Severus. See you there.

TLDR: He's gonna be a pain, his partner needs to have calming draught for their nerves but in the end it will be very rewarding because he's starved and inventive.

[thedivinetarot]

Summer is meant for lovin' and leavin'

Who wants to be your valentine?

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☆Note:

This reading is suitable for someone on your mind or a future person.

Also, I'm so sorry I couldn't upload this on Valentines day.

Lots of love

Arya

Pile 1 - Cupid

☆ Energy check:

Pls note that this is a general energy check and it doesn't have to resonate but take it as a confirmation. If the energy check didn't resonate you can either skip to the next portion or chose another pile, thank you.

Okay, right of the bat I felt very excited, someone here is up to something new, perhaps a new perosn, crush or business venture and if none applies then inner transformation. I see that this pile have worked so hard on their wounds and other are seeing the fruits of their efforts towards healing. Someone here is a witch and a wizard lol. Anyways, I see that in this pile your energy is being portrayed as something luxurious, maybe you are someone who is physically attractive or work on your overall aesthetic. Someone here is very committed and serious about relationships, you give no time for losers lol. I see that you have shifted something, perhaps a mindset, something inner here. I feel distracted a little bit. Pile 1 do you have ADHD? because I felt excited them I felt distracted. I see also that someone here finally found the joy within themselves without relying on others. You probably reading this out of boredom and not because you are interested in someone that's what I'm sensing. Someone here ended a period or self doubt and insecurity, it is like you put a full stop and started something new. I see also that you tend to get anxious and worried about the slightest things or still struggling with it. Someone here have cultivated self love and understood that real love comes from within yourself and not outside also shadow work, someonehere is doing shadow work regularly which helped them understand where the insecurity come from. I kept singing "now my life is sweet like cinnamon" something here is fresh, like you have shifted your focus inside and now you feel very happy and joyful, I felt happy all of sudden. Also, you understood that betraying yourself won't get you anywhere and when you prioritized self love you felt a huge shift and it made you feel at peace and more emotionally fulfilled. People in this pile are probably singles and reading this for a future person. You are abundant pile 1 and you are capable, I got emotional and proud all of sudden, you have absolutely all the right to be like that after all of this work. Love you pile 1, I'm proud of you too🤍.

Placements for you:

Taurus, Sagittarius, Scorpio and Aquarius, Cancer, Pisces, Virgo. Dominant planets: jupiter, moon, mercury. 2nd, 9th, 8th, 11th, 12th, 4th, 6t house sun or moon.

☆Who?

Ugh, this person is so emotionally desperate. And you know them, unfortunately you know this person. They probably study with you in an official organization like school, college or somewhere you are in either working or studying but studying is more accurate and relevant. I see that this person is emotional and practical at the same time. They are giving off ESFJ, ISFJ, ESFP vibe. Like they are empathetic and kind but practical and think money at the same time. This person is very calm and collected, you see them as a friend or a colleague. They look detached and have this uncertainty to them. They seem unfocused or clumsy at the same time especially around you. This person and you probably meet outside your home town or are far from you. You either work away from home (you travel from a city to another) or they travel for work. I see that this person is very obvious about their feelings to you and they don't even bother hiding them. This person is intuitively drawn to you. They spy on you or take quick glances or you feel that they look at you more than intended. They like you honestly and is very direct with their feelings lol.

☆How do they see you?

Okay, they see that you are very intimidating and you give off the vibe of lone wolf. They might be someone who is popular and recognized by people and unlike them you are a lone wolf, charismatic and confident. Your confidence intimidate them and you make them speechless. They probably stutter or feel anxious around you. I kept laughing, you probably enjoy this aren't you pile 1? That's hilarious, you enjoy making them nervous and they are literally a nerve ball when it comes to you lol. You don't look for validation from people like they do and it make them super confused. I mean they might be someone who is all about societal standards and you are not. You don't seek this validation from society and you make fun out of it. You don't care about last trends, you don't aim to look like a model. Because simply you think this is stupid and useless.

☆ Their intentions:

The bottom of the deck tell me that this person still yearns for you. Like they want something emotionally fulfilling with you. And don't worry they are very honest about their feelings, they don't play around. They want to come in and change the situation with you. They want to act diplomatically and come in and talk to you. They want to take care of you and have emotional bond with you. They want an committed emotional connection. They want to offer their heart and unlock a new chapter in their life with you. They want something nurturing and balanced, they want both of you to take care of one another. They want something drama free and simply equal. That's what I'm getting so good luck with your valentine pile 1. Enjoy💕.

☆ Placements for them:

Cancer, Aquarius, virgo, Pisces, Scorpio. Dominant planets in their chart: Uranus, Neptune, Venus, 4th, 11th, 6th, 12th, 8th house sun or moon.

Pile 2 - Heart

☆Energy check:

The energy check doesn't have to resonates 100% with you, if you feel like none of what I'm writing resonated then skip to the next portion or chose another pile.

Hello pile 2, right of the bat I felt my front lower teeth started to hurt me, something here related to teeth. I feel like this pile are wearing orthodontics and the Dr have pulled them tightly in uncomfortable way. Also, you may be listening to music as a way to cope with pain in your life. I see that someone here invested in a relationship and was very committed the relationship was disturbed then and that bond broke down. I see that you are now in a stagnant contemplative energy. You are trying to isolate yourself from everyone to understand what went wrong. I see that a man or a masculine here will text you very soon. They have news for you. I see that people here have been doubting their intuition and feeling like their head or logic is the only thing that matter, the universe want me to tell you that your intuition is right, you are not gaslighting yourself and you need to listen to it. I see that this pile are actively manifesting abundance, I see someone here is manifesting money and a comfortable lifestyle while you are living your life freely and enjoying the process. My back got tensed all of sudden, pile 2 are you working or studying on a desk? Please consider a more comfortable position because your safety come first. I see that you are overwhelmed and above all disappointed. Someone here is going through a spiritual awakening, they are trying to make sense of things in their life, someone here is feeling confused and overwhelmed by the shift that is happening in their life. I see also that you are resisting change, someone here is going through spiritual awakening and resisting change, why? What make you afraid? Losing people who never cared about you? Or losing your personality (the old version) who was disrespected over and over again? Why? A shift in your mindset is required to maintain a healthy approach to your spiritual awakening.

Placements for you:

Taurus, Virgo, Gemini, Scorpio, Leo, Cancer, Sagittarius. Planets in your: 2nd, 6th, 3rd, 8th, 5th, 4th,9th in your chart. Dominant planet in sun, mercury, Venus. I'm sensing a very strong mercurial energy or mercury in a strong aspects in your chart.

☆Who?

Okay, this person wants to keep themselves hidden from you. They don't want you to know that they are in for you. They hide their feelings from you. I'm sensing a secret admirer here. Someone who is aware of you but you are not aware of them at all. This person has a very fiery and decisive energy. They set their eyes on something and they get it. I'm not getting anything about how do know them but what is most obvious to me is that they are within your social circle. Someone you don't usually pay a lot of attention to. This person is very committed and stable but they are not revealing themselves to me. This person have gone through a lot of back breaking labor. Maybe their job requires them to be active physically? Someone here work in a field of physical labor. Maybe an engineer? Or civil engineer? Someone here in a very good shape, they have muscles and a little bit on the taller side that is admiring you but they keep themselves hidden. I'm getting "you look at me but you don't see me" someone here is within your day to day life... who you look at but never SEE and they know you won't accept them. I see that they refuse making themselves seen to you because they are afraid of rejection. They hope that one day you'll see them and see how much they might be loyal or faithful to you. I'm picking up on enneagram 6,1,9. Someone here is very soft and sweet but appear to be stoic or tired. They don't know a lot of people, they are lonely. They barely have friends too. I'm also getting the mbti ISFP, INFP, ISFJ and ISTJ. This person have a very dynamic and youthful appearance. They might just got the job in your neighborhood or within your community.

☆How do they see you?

Well, that's heartbreaking... they think that you don't see them. They see that you won't even notice them. This person's self-esteem is very low. They don't think you'll ever look at them or want to get to know them. Probably your interactions with them are Far away, like they listen to you talking to your friends but they don't bother to come in or talk to you because they are afraid of rejection. They think you are very smart and fair and you hate seeing injustice. They think you are witty and funny too. And they think you can be imbalanced and stupid at times. They think you are beautiful and no not in a lusty way. They think you are imbalanced and anxious most of the time. They probably watch you over or talk to people around you and you appear anxious or tensed. But they think you'd make a great companion because you are very smart and loyal. Ugh this person is rooting for you and doesn't want you to know their feelings. They are definitely a sweetheart, if you are open to them. Their personality is fiery too, they have prominent mars or fire placements in their chart especially Aries or sagittarius.

☆Their intentions:

First and as I mentioned above they know that their self-esteem is low so they took a promise to be more confident and fix themselves to be able to come and offer you something. This cutie here think that in order for them to get to a Goddess like you (that's what they said they are cheesy idc) they need to be better themselves. I'm sensing that this person is very dedicated to their job or career and they want to earn more money in order for them to have enough confidence and come to whisk you away. When they come they want to appear that confident, financially capable man who can provide for you. Their thoughts are quite interesting, they know the importance of money when it comes to relationships, they won't complain about money to you because they will have enough to spoil you and themselves. They are practical honestly, they know well that him (as a provider) need to be financially capable in order for them to come into your life. They want also to work on their anger, they might have a tendency to blow on people when tired. They also want to have a glow up before coming in and take care of you, offering your emotional fulfillment. Awww this person is a literal sweetheart, they want to have enough confident in themselves in order for them to make you satisfied emotionally. Thank you for reading pile 2, hope this reading resonated with you💕.

☆Placements for them:

Sagittarius, mars in Aries, Cancer, Aries, Mars, Pluto, Saturn dominant in their chart. Planets in their 1st, 4th, 9th and 10th house in their chart.

Pile 3 - Tunnel of love

☆Energy check:

This is a general energy check, if you have read it and it did not resonates then skip to the next portion or chose another pile.

Hello pile 3, I hope you are doing well. I see someone here just got a job opportunity and they are waiting for the job interview or have already gone through it and waiting for their reply. I see that someone here have a very helpless and disappointed energy, someone's energy here is heavy and stagnant. Like you guys don't want to get out of your comfort zone, now I'm not saying that you should because I struggle with that too I'm just describing your energy. Someone here doesn't want to go out of do anything, why are you guys so frustrated... it feels like you expected something but it didn't turn out as you hoped. I see that for the people who expected to be asked out by their crush or someone in their mind is either got asked or will be asked. I see also that this person is very grounded, very smart and social. They like their friend group or it could be you sense the energy can go both ways. I'm picking up also that you are trying to act cool or confident but lately self doubt has consumed you to the point were you feel like the slightest comment could turn offensive to you. Someone here is feeling low and bored, your life is not lifing anymore lol. I see that you feel isolated or lonely, someone here is single for soo long and they feel very disappointed for being overlooked and skipped. It's like you are protecting your peace but get mad and jealous when no one give you attention (I'm sorry if that seemed rude). Someone here got a divorce too, and they are trying to take the child or win the child in court (it doesn't have to be you). But there will be a message that is concerning and whether you can afford raising the child or not, okay now I got it! Someone here is old and about to break their engagement or marriage and you are looking for a job to be able to help raise your child, is that so? (This portion is for someone specific). Anyways, Placements for you:

Capricorn, Sagittarius, Scorpio, Leo, Cancer, strong solar energy especially leo and sun dominant or 5th house dominant in your chart.

☆Who?

Okay, you didn't saw this person coming because the way they arrived is quite sudden and surprise. I'm talking something like cheesy romantic series where someone bumps into the other and an electric current shock them both lol. I see that this person is your spouse, they are coming to you. This is either a soulmate or twin flame coming in your life. This person as traits is very similar to you. You both look very alike and have the same vibe and stuff. When you look at them it feels like you are looking at yourself which can be good or bad depending on your personality and overall vibe and frequency. Anyways, this person value communication, they are straight forward and doesn't like to avoid serious discussions. They are very mental... their personality and brain... I mean they are logical and indecisive... also I'm picking something unexpected or can't be tamed... this person is unpredictable and you don't know how to respond to some things they say or do. If you are quite emotional or sensitive it won't be so good to you but if you value logic over anything else then go ahead dear. This person lives away from you, possibly states or countries. This person have gone through a lot of difficulties and tensions in their life which made them more cold from the outside. They give off ENTP, INTP, and for a very few of you this person is an INTJ with soft enneagram like 9 or 6. Anyways, this person is very assertive and dedicated to their own things (could be a job, hobby, friend group, or anything). They are protective and practical, and above all I see financial stability. I see that they have money but NOT that money, something that is enough and a little more to spare on their loved ones. Anyways, also I'm getting that this person have XSTX mbti, especially (ISTJ and ESTJ) someone logical and practical. They are also (for a few of you) are extroverted.

☆How does they see you?

Okay, this person will sense that you are very anxious and defensive when it comes to your emotions. I mean you may click with him mentally but won't open up to him emotionally because you'll see that he is not the type to contain someone's vulnerability. I see that they'll see that you enjoy your solitude and doesn't mind staying alone and above all you don't give a damn about people's opinions. I see that they'll see that you are emotionally mature, assertive and you'll help them be at peace and open their heart to you. This person will open their heart to you but when it comes to you; you won't be as open to them emotionally which will make them feel uncomfortable. There's a lot of struggle here especially about opening up, I mean you might show this person empathy and kindness but you won't be open to receive anything like that from them you'll be like "no sir, save your love to yourself I'm not opening up to you". There's this sense that you are so closed off and ambiguous. You will try to be as secretive as possible and you won't talk too much about yourself which will make them even more curious to get to know you. I see also that you may be someone who have the tendency to avoid confrontation and don't like to be confronted too which will make them even more curious. Also they sense that you are super guarded and won't open up to them easily. And they hate it and love it at the same time. It is like (the reason why you won't open up) is that you have a specific version or standard in your head about love and relationships and this person doesn't fit any... which will make you feel super secretive and ambiguous about your private life in front of them, especially your own feelings and vulnerability.

☆Their intentions:

Hmmm, Okay... this person want to shift your views on love. I see that they'll have a crush on you for sooo long until they come in and say the three words because you are guarded. They want to take from from your responsibilities and help you with them. They want you to be more relaxed and open with them. And they want to be very clear with you. They might tend to be blunt with people but with your specifically they'll be extra blunt and straightforward with their thoughts so you don't doubt their intentions. They want to keep their intentions hidden from you (not in a bad way it is just they feel that you are not as open to talk about their feelings to you). They will be the typical lover in the relationship. But mainly a crush. I see that they'll tell you that they have a crush on you but when you start to loosen up a little. I see that they want to work as a team with you and divide responsibilities and burdens with you, this person want to show you that they are serious and won't deceive you. They are super straightforward and obvious, no games or manipulation and they freaking hate it. They want you to open up to them, they want to melt the ice on your heart and they want to see you clearly without masks. They want your mask to fall off, they want to see you deeply for who you are.

☆Placements for them:

Gemini, Aquarius, Aries, Virgo, Libra, Dominant planets are mercury, Saturn, Uranus. Sun or moon in the 1st, 3rd, 11th, 6th, 7th house in their chart. They may be air and earth as the most dominant elements in their chart because they are super logical and practical.

Pile 4 - Angelic ceiling

☆ Energy check:

Okay, this is a general energy check so if you felt like none of what you reading resonates then skip to the next portion or chose another pile. Thank you🤍....

I see someone here is finally out of a very bad period or phase in their life. I see that someone here was very overwhelmed and falling in despair. Someone here faced a lot of financial difficulties and setbacks. Someone here is healing using crystals and reiki or going to a professional therapist. I see also that someone here is getting out or moving on from a heartbreak, perhaps it was the reason why you felt super unfocused or like something here is ambiguous. But I do see that in this period you are healing and embracing self-love. Someone here started to recognize their own worth within their community and trying to move on from whatever that caused them disappointed and heartbreak especially within your group or community like your friends, family or colleagues. I see also that someone here is super tired, I started to feel sleepy or drowsy all of sudden. Perhaps your sleeping schedule is messy right now and you need a healthier approach for that. Anyways, I see that alot of you are breaking free and healing their attachment style. Perhaps, you have never had healthy relationships because you were anxious or avoidant but anyways. Someone here also have a close birthday, they want me to tell you "happy birthday, your name" and they wish you the best. Also, I kept have emphasis on new born, your brother had a baby? Someone here was just born. Anyways, I see also that you'll have a fresh start that will help you open up to life. It is like you are telling yourself that this is a new Era of me and I won't back off. Good luck pile 4 I hope you get what you aim for🤍.

☆Placements for you:

Libra, Aquarius, Virgo, Capricorn, Cancer, strong Uranus in big 3. Sun or moon in the 7th, 11th, 6th, 10th, 4th house in your chart. We have also Uranus, Saturn, Mars dominant in your chart.

☆Who?

Okay, I don't think you'll be open to that person much because they might not be your typical go to. Anyways, this person is someone who is boring and pessimistic. They don't have any idea what fun is like. They are very chill, very calm or they used to be like that but I don't think they have a very rich inner world. They give me nerd vibes, someone who knows a lot of stuff and have knowledge. They might surprise you with information that you had no idea about. This person have a problem opening up to people, because someone here rejected them or broke their heart. Also, I see that this person didn't have a lot of relationships and probably is a virgin too. Anyways, this person and despite what they went through they have this confidence to them that make them stand out. There might not be a flashy "look at me" type of confidence, no they display it calmly, they don't pose for the audience, they do that for themselves. I see also that they look very attractive or beautiful but not in the way you might go for. Like... if you usually go for blondes then they may have dark features that stand out and make them super attractive. Anyways, you'll meet this person by a messenge. Also, someone old here will be the reason for your interaction. So maybe someone old will set you up together or something like that. I see that this older person sees that you need a little spice in your life right now and want to help you get in with someone. That's what I'm seeing. Also, this person is very charismatic and cooperative, they like charming people. This person is straightforward and obvious about their intentions, they don't hide stuff because they see that there's no use of playing games. That's what I'm seeing. Also, this person have gone through a lot of problems to settle down by themselves, and they had a lot of money problems, but right now I see thr they are in a more stable phase than before

☆ How will they see you?

I see that at first they might take an impression about you that is not quite what you are but as they get to know you, they'll understand and see you. This person at first will see that you are super ambiguous and unclear. Like you are hiding something. They'll also think that you are very indecisive and cocky. But as they get to know you, they'll see you as someone who is confident and very intuitive. There's this fire and sensuality to you that will draw them in. I see that you might appear to rely on your intuition alot and also they'll see that you are a very cozy person. Someone who make them feel safe and emotionally fulfilled which will make them super happy. I see also that you'll wake up the desire in them. Because as I said that they might be a virgin and haven't had any intimate experiences, they'll see that you are something so sexy and confident in themselves. They see also that you are very content and happy on your own and you don't need people's validation to feel important. I see also that after getting to know you they'll be quite afraid of disappointing you or letting you down because you cut people easily out of your life. They'll think also that you are very idealistic in your approach to relationship and that nothing is always perfect. They'll feel like you in their life is a very fresh start for them to unlock something new. Especially in their romantic life. They'll see also that you are quite funny and extroverted or someone who is talkative. They might struggle to talk about themselves because of their personality but anyways.

☆ Their intentions:

I see that this person will get a tower moment when they get to know you and they'll know that you are the one they want something long term with. They might have been in their solitude or loneliness for a prolonged period of time and when they met you something felt right and clicked immediately. They also hope that you'll be open to be with them long-term because they don't play around at all. First, they'll want to get to know you. Perhaps, romance you up a lot and then they want to rush you into commitment. If you are okay with that then it's fine but if you feel like this is lovebombing then you can step aside and talk to them to slow down. Tell them that long-term relationship need time to develop and that they cannot rush things. Also, because they don't have experiences then they might think that this is love or deep emotional connection. I see that they might not know how to deal with that but they are open to guidance though. They don't want to play around and break hearts, no they want something stable and they hope they can find it with someone who is serious and stable.

☆Placements for them:

Taurus, Leo, Libra, Cancer, Sagittarius. Strong solar energy, sun, mars, Saturn, Venus, jupiter dominant in their chart. 2nd, 4th, 5th, 9th house stallium in their chart.

Post date: 17th Feb-2025 /Mon

*Feedback is appreciated

[thebibliosphere]

Am I reading this right? You have been beating yourself up for not 'working more' and not 'doing enough', but, the mere act of being AT YOUR DESK is extremely painful? Sitting at your work station, just SITTING THERE, caused you PHYSICAL PAIN, but you were still under the impression that you should be able to just 'power through that' to do, what? How much more are you expecting out of yourself? A book a month? Its not like you've STOPPED WORKING. What time table were you holding yourself to???

Here's the thing, my body has always hurt.

Even when I was a child, I was in a lot of pain that was dismissed as either "growing pains" despite the fact that I never got past 5 feet tall at the age of 11 or "attention seeking." So, I learned to stop talking about it. (The trick is now getting me to shut up about it.)

And for most of my teens and twenties, the pain didn't really stop me too much. It was bad, and it sucked, but for the longest time, everyone kept telling me that "everyone" felt that way, so I just sort of learned to power through and hide it under the assumption that "everyone" feels this way.

Well, turns out that was a mistake because my body hit its breaking point, and what might have been a mild genetic disability that could have flown under the radar is now a severe one that greatly impacts my daily life to the point where sitting at my desk causes me pain (because everything causes me pain).

Couple that with some new-age religious trauma about willpower, positive thinking, and whatever the fuck else my parents thought I was capable of as an 'indigo starseed' and the fact that I was trained to mask my ADHD by being a hyper-competent workaholic-- I really don't know what a healthy baseline is.

(I mean, heck, I wrote the first book of Hunger Pangs while literally dying. I assumed it would be edited and published posthumously. Jokes on me because now I've got to edit the rest of the fucking thing.)

I didn't, obviously, and ever since then, I've been trying to learn what a healthy baseline looks like for me post-recovery, and I think I'm doing quite well at it and enforcing my boundaries when people ask too much of me.

But none of that makes up for the shrieking frustration I feel that I can't do the things I want.

I want to be creative and do fun things, but I can't because my body won't let me. I want to write more, but I can't because I'm swimming in brain fog most of the time. Yes it hurts to sit at my desk, but I also need to earn money so the financial burden of everything isn't solely on my partner. (Something which he argues I shouldn't even be worrying about right now, but it's hard not to worry as I watch him work himself to the bone taking care of everything because I can't.)

I promise you, I'm not hustling my ass into an early grave. There is, in fact, zero hustle about how I work. I am very, very slow these days compared to how I used to be. There's no timetable for one thing. I get done what I get done, and that's it.

I'm just perpetually frustrated that my hyperactive brain is trapped in a malfunctioning meat suit. And my blog is where I talk about it and work through my emotions because, well, that's what I've always done long before Tumblr was even a thing. It just so happens now I've got an audience.

[clericofgale]

The stars will be our bed

I'm seeing a very popular narrative that asking for physical sex during Gale's act 2 scene is better for his character development, and the astral scene is bad for him. Or at least not as good. While I do prefer the astral version more, I disagree with the notion that either one is better for Gale's plot development. I've done both options depending on the what felt right for that specific Tav at the time. As always, if that's the narrative you want to build, there's nothing wrong with it.

For me personally I think both are narratively sound for his character development. Yes Gale needs to know he doesn't need magic to be loved, but Gale also loves magic. It's his life, his passion and his artistic medium of choice. What he needs is balance, not total rejection. You want the man, and the magic.

"Tactful, Bowing to the player's desires"

If you insist on regular sex, that's the devnote that's attached to it. Gale is acquiescing to what you, the player wants. Gale wanted to share his magic with you, but you refused. He doesn't care either way, as long as he's spending the night with you. The approval numbers are the same. He obviously prefers the astral sex because it's what he's used to and confident in, but either is fine.

One thing we have to remember is Gale also uses magic to find connection. In the act 1 weave scene, Gale and you share thoughts over the weave. It's exactly what he's trying to do in Act 2 as well. It's a mind meld sequence using the weave. I don't think Gale is trying to use magic to as a front in this scene, despite the "I can wow you" sentence if you refuse. I think he's trying to share his inner self with magic as the canvas, and connect with you in this most intimate way. It's akin to Fane's scene in DOS2 where you share Source with each other and also mind meld.

Gale wants to distill a lifetime's worth of affection into one night because he feels he will die soon. The scene is his "Last Night Alive". Gale, the artist of the weave puts on his final and private show for his beloved. He weaves stars and invites light to the land of shadows. He's prepared for days for this whole sequence, and you only need to trust him.

If you do he leads you into his innermost world. First, where he feels safest, and the balcony that brings him comfort. Then the book of a thousand days and nights filled with his love for you. The amount of time he wishes he had left to show you his affection, physical or emotional.

But he only has one night.

"There are endless worlds out there. Countless ways to declare love. Infinite ways to express it. Too much for one night.. but we shall try."

The astral scene is him trying. He multiplies as he refuses to let go your hand. He caresses every part of your mind, body, and soul. Gale tries desperately to sear every fiber of your being, of the one he loves onto his own soul. He wants to feel everything you do, and the weave is capable of that.

"Your bodies and minds weave together in a masterpiece of intimacy. Never have you felt such wonder, such love - as vast as the universe itself, and just as heavenly. "

You are one and the same that night. Where Gale ends and you begin is a mystery; he is lost in you and you in him.

"We are all sensual vessels. Illusory magic lets us sail farther, and feel more deeply."

The scene is beautiful, both narratively and visually. This is not a man trying to use magic to demonstrate his worth so you won't leave him. This is a man trying to use magic to weave a tapestry from two spools of thread in one night. It's ok to let him do so. It's also ok to remind him he doesn't need to. Whichever feels right in that moment is the right choice.

They all end in giving Gale renewed hope. Magic was merely the medium on which it blossomed and thrived. Whether from a bed of stars or a bed conjured under it, your love is what gave it life.

Thanks for reading this way too long cold take.

[hpgal]

DC X DP: VACATION TO A DIFFERENT UNIVERSE Pt. 1

CW: mentions of death

TLDR: Danny is stressed and depressed feeling like despite all the changes in his life, he feels like he is still the same.

Word Count: 1310

a/n: I plan on making multiple parts to this one but it will take some time. This is more a draft to part 1 than anything else and will most likely end up on AO3 in the future as a more completed version of itself once it is done here on Tumblr. Any feedback and suggestions (or even if you want to continue this plot with your own spin on it as long as I am credited/ tagged so I can read it too!) is very much welcomed!!

Danny wanted a change.

Not just for fun either. Though fun would be nice between all these Ghost King responsibilities he had been forced to start learning for when he comes of age, or well not, technically?

He doesn't know! It's complicated! He was 17 now, but his ghost age was only 3! The Observants said to fully assume the throne his ghost age was supposed to be 18 at the youngest but they'd make an exception for when he was 18 in the living realm.

Ghee, thanks you weirdos, because I totally wanted my adult life to already be over so I can manage my undead life.

Anyways, between trying to graduate and learn his forever job, he had been going to therapy now that he isn't the only ghost fighter in town. He has breaks! A support system! 14 year old Danny would never believe his parents accepted him for his ghostly side!!

His friends learned to fight and trap so well over the years that they don't even need him by their side anymore for every fight. The GIW was chased out of town and supposedly disbanded by the government because "it was a scam and ghosts don't actually exist." Even his parent's business was booming in town.

They started leaving the field work to others and focused on research. They hold ghost defense classes 3 times a week for any and all citizens. They build home defense gadgets and other anti ghost equipment to sell to the town, too. There are even kids from his class who want to get into the field now and intern at FentonWorks.

Over the years, everyone in town has grown incredibly capable of handling ghosts themselves that there is a city funded ghost protection task force. And that is all to deal with the ghosts that are more on the unruly side.

The reality is that it is not exactly necessary anymore to always be prepared for the next daily ghost attack. Since it became public knowledge for the Ghost Zone that he'd be assuming the throne, most ghosts have opted to leave Amity Park alone since it was his haunt. However, he has opened it up to any ghost who wants to visit as long as they do not leave Amity Park. And so, ghosts and the living live in harmony in the town.

In his senior year, the town has become so open to ghosts that when a ghost whose obsession is teaching, they hired him at Casper High! Danny is even in the class. He teaches an elective on astronomy, something the school could never afford. Ghosts didn't want to be paid in cash, so it helped! All Dr. Denver wants was to teach and to be allowed to claim the observatory for his research.

But while all this was great, Danny felt depressed. Which leads him back to why he was in therapy. It felt like all these amazing things have happened. That everyone has changed, except him. Thanks to his halfa status, his physical state isn't changing as much either. He discovered he is aging much, much slower.

Talking to his therapist, she helped him realize that what he craved was for a change for himself. Sure, he IS going to become The Infinite Realms king and that'll be a big change but it isn't what he wants.

He doesn't know what he wants, really. Which meant his therapist has given him an assignment to figure it out. So he talked to Clockwork, naturally hoping for some help. And Clockwork told him something surprising instead.

"Yeah, I'm ready for a change, but I don't know what to change." Danny told him in hopes the wording would draw Clockwork to give him an answer instead of something cryptic. He really didn't want to do the legwork to figure it out while he had midterms to study for and more ghost king lessons with The Observants later.

Clockwork paused as if in thought, "You could take a vacation to your universe of origin," he suggests. "That may help give clarity in what you need to change to be happy."

Danny floated next to him. He couldn't bring himself to be frustrated with the being of time for knowing exactly why Danny was here. Instead, he stared at him in confusion, distracted by what he just said, "What do you mean? I am not from here?"

He grins, his form flickering from old to young, "When you became a halfa, you changed universes from the complicated process you went through to become one."

Danny contemplated for a moment, confused but intrigued. A different universe? I wonder how different it would be from here. Without a second thought, Danny grins eager.

"I wanna go!" He exclaims like a young puppy who discovered a new toy for the first time.

"That would not be a problem, time runs differently between there and here. A week there will be an hour here so you won't need a time medallion." Clockwork simply looks off into the space surrounding them before continuing, "I have a friend who will act as your guardian while there. Head through the star shaped door near the Yetis whenever you are ready and he will be standing by, waiting for you" He shifts back into an older version of himself, pleased with himself for already knowing Danny would be taking this chance to go and made the preparations for this moment weeks ago.

Danny does a small dance in midair without a second thought and starts to drift off in that direction, "Oh, and Danny?" Clockwork calls out, "Legally, you are dead in that universe and.. well, much is different from what you know, so do be careful. Due to how time and the laws of that dimension for being such as myself, I am not the main ruler of time there, so the protection spells I placed on you are not guaranteed to save you this time." Clockwork grins knowingly towards Danny as Danny speeds off, oblivious to how serious his warning was.

---

Danny flies like the wind through the vastness of The Ghost Zone until he arrives at the door Clockwork described. His thoughts start to sour at the thought of this universe where he is considered dead despite it being his origin.

The door he arrives at is huge. Like he was not sure how to open the door huge. But wow, was it beautiful. It was like staring into space itself. It sparkled unlike any night sky he has even gazed upon. As he approached the beautiful door, he hesitated.

He was technically returning home, but he didn't feel any attachment to the universe in front of him. To him, nothing seemed different. Everything was exactly the same when he woke up after the accident, so he never noticed. The entire idea that he abandoned his family and friends by dying here was a horrible thought, but it wasn't his fault. He didn't know what happened here.

Wait, did that mean Vlad wasn't from that universe either? Danny shakes his head at the thought. It was pointless to fall down that particular rabbit hole now.

Maybe he should've asked Clockwork more before flying off without a thought. Clockworks words echoed inside him for fear of what he might find. Was this really a good idea? To return to the place he no longer existed? Could he handle seeing what the grief of his passing had done to those he loved?

A moment passes, and Danny shakes his head and steels himself. He needs to know how much changes, if he really did make an impact. Was he important?

With his decision made, the door seems to open itself. A bright beam of a soft white light floods through the threshold, and Danny steps through.

[melancholicstation]

SECRETARY (2002) INSPIRED BOSS!BOBBY KENNEDY AND SECRETARY!READER: a collection of headcanons!

tags: @rocker-chick-7 @ultr4v1ol3nt @violetharmonsfavgf @strip-weather-forecast @darcyspirits @fortheloveofjos @h-l-v-kennedy-blog @h-l-vlovesvintage @bluelancergirl @snowsgames @salvatoresablondie @dulcegal @kennedyism @bloxholden35 @kimcrystal123 @absurdlyvintage @jackiesgirl @remotewatch @stargiirl27 @strryhaze @bluevelvetsunset @recentremreports

warnings: reference to erotica, boss employee dynamic, secretary (2002), dominant and submissive dynamics,

authors note: in memoriam of secretary (2002) release date, 29th of may, here's some nice and clean good old freakum fun! and i tried something new with adding outfit formulas to the end of the hc's let me know if you like them and i'll continue, or you can ignore them completely! whatever you decide. much love, melancholistation ❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹 also this is not proof read hope it's legible! muah

for context i'm imagining this au to be in the timeframe of his time as new york senator!

secretary!reader definitely had no idea who bobby was prior to applying for the job listing she found in the new york times

bobby's definitely initially sceptical as reader's resume could get her a much better job that transcribing his crinkled coffee bruised notes, and re-arranging his insomnia-inducing schedule

he basically tries to make the job sound unbearably unpleasant, in a pseudo effort to encourage her towards a greater, more enlightened path with more of a future (this definitely has something to do with bobby's inferiority complex, always believing that everyone has something better to do than spend their days with him etc. etc...)

yet, reader persists. and he's a weak man... so you know how that ended up!

i'm picturing bobby really trying to be a good man and be on his best boss behaviour for at least a month but after sensing the reader's clear penchant for incessant praise and the way she stares at the sliver of arm hair peeking out of the cuff of his favoured and hallowed oxford shirt, he's a man burdened with a deep sense of yearn so profound he feels physically ill

hot take: the "courtship" era of reader and his relationship literally causes him to stress lose 2 pounds just from sheer anxiety of scaring reader off

he'll literally think reader is mad at him because she only brought him his coffee with one chocolate covered almond instead of her status-quo two... (he's literally sick in the head)

reader is literally terrible at all the transcription to the point where bobby had to bring in a second secretary that looms in the background to fill in the gaps of what you missed (which is a lot!)

your "office hours" are mostly spent picking handfuls of wildflowers that grow on the windowsill of bobby's main office (a planter box he specifically had installed upon learning about your botanist inclined natural back in preschool) and reading trashy erotica and highlighting the funny passages to read back to bobby as he drives you home from the office (you insist of your capability to get home in one piece, yet he adamantly protests that!)

notable mention that this is definitely readers choice of a type writer: either this one, or this one.

on those days where bobby is kept in the office until the sun rises on a new day you bring through a manic assortment of his most treasured delicacies (you make it a point to feed him because let's be honest that man will not take the initiative himself) which consist of: noam beer and a baker bleu baguette stuffed with an bliblical level greed amount of smoked ham and smooth dijon mustard from a local moutardier in brooklyn

literally just like this, except assorted on an old nickel-plated cloche:

readers style imagining to be quite eclectic yet refined yet haute couture... it contains multitudes

this is the exact coat (it's 100% wool with satin cupro lining and 3 bands... i need it in my armoire yesterday so this is me projecting) reader wears on all of the late night strolls she accompanies bobby on to clear his mind after a long day of being pushed from location a. to b. and being needed everywhere. reader's most definitely a calming presence, primarily for the fact that he feels she doesn't need more from him than how he comes naturally

reader would definitely pair that coat with gloves of some sort (or rather bobby would threaten to leave without her unless she was adequately dressed for the weather since he would literally never forgive himself if you contracted the slightest whiff of a cold. no mind that's he's literally only dressed in a cotton poplin shirt with a boucle knit overtop: exhibit a and exhibit b the merino mittens for the city's winter and the rick waved calfskin gloves for the everyday autumn chill that befalls midtown after ten pm.

reader definitely smells like harvest mouse by zoologist

i feel that in this relationship bobby really is the submissive (lee) in all non-sexual situations, he enjoys needing instead of being needed for once (in his whole life actually... but let's not talk about that...)

and i really think that bobby personally had a lot of bad habits (not specifically self-harm but he definitely subconsciously seemed things that were not always the healthiest for him) that could be solved with a girl matching his freak...

calling him a "good man" would definitely change his brain chemistry and heal some deep seeded issues inside of him... just something about him needing that validation that he is "masculine" in many ways, especially after being repeatedly emasculated by his family members, and believed to be less of a "man" (or at least not fitting into the societal and cultural standards of what is considered masculine at that time!). he would get all the way off on that...

but back to secretary!reader style (authors note: got a bit of topic there didn't i!)

her day-to-day work style is either this sweater or this sweater (there is no deviation she has a personal style and she's sticking to it. she was doing capsule wardrobes before they were even a hashtag on tiktok...) paired with either a cute pinafore: this one, or that one or a trusty pair of wool trousers

the shoes will, and will always be: rain or shine, tabi t-bar pumps in black patent

and bobby on more than one occasion fantasies about her pressing her pumps against the prominent bludge in his pants until he severely embarrassed himself in a government building and earned his new pants a much needed trip to the dry cleaners... and this is the way he's sitting while it happens by the way:

bobby definitely loves a good "care taker" role (or has been groomed by his parents to always love cleaning up other peoples messes... but lets not get into that!) so he'd definitely be a part of reader's "self-care routine"

he'd get so into french pharmacy's and always bring back the niche, hard to find skincare when he goes on international tours...

definitely loves a good bath routine and he takes such care when bathing you that your hands are always crinkled.

he's definitely humming while he washes your hair... and it's most likely some song he hears playing from your record player during office hours

and it's routine for both of you, no matter the circumstances, no matter if bobby almost got into a screaming match with a republican souther senator he still comes back in the night to repeat the routine once again. basically, your self-care is his.

he invites himself into reader's apartment one of the days where he personally drives her home and is sort of horrified yet unbearably turned on that she has acquired a left-over poster from his ny senate run and hung it on the same wall as some very suggestive if not down right erotica prints...

but that's not even the number one thing that disturbs him during that visit... ever the nepotism baby he's horrified at the lack of square footage of reader's apartment

and efficiently sets reader up in a nice townhouse in the upper east side that's coincidentally a 10 minute (chauffeured) drive to his penthouse facing the east river (true story alert: i found this nyt 1965 article which detailed him buying east river suite immediately north of the UN HQ, it's a nice short read for anyone interest in his niche realestate acquirements)

reader definitely feel guilty from him spending so much unnecessary money on her but later discovers he definitely has a thing for women using him for money... like gets off on it sort of vibe...

it's a delicate give and take... reader goes into niche grocery stores and forages for the perfect assortment of treats to greet bobby's desk and bobby buys her $28 million dollar investment property! it evens out eventually!

to be honest i don't see reader being a secretary for long after a relationship has been established between her and bobby... cause one thing about #that man is that he knows when to lock it down...

in short they have a courthouse wedding that nearly sent rose and joe sr into a grand mal seizure (they definitely loathe you but are afraid of bobby, as they should be cause he's literally a pit bull for you)

and you two live your freak lives happily ever after!

the end.

outfit formula 1: day at the office

outfit formula 2: errands running day

[leakyrocktarot]

Current Energy: BTS & FS

DISCLAIMER: It's all for fun, take it with a metric fuck ton of salt or don't - Idk I just work here... This reading is going to be long, dead ass did not intend for it to be that way but well- here we are i guess.

Never thought I'd be doing this again lmao, enjoy! Damn I'm rusty also, this post is 17,732 words and 96,943 characters, I'm not proofreading omg.

Jimin:

The Fool rx, 4oS, 4oP, PoC rx, AoP rx, 6oS, 9oP.

It seems as though, he is currently uninterested in any new ventures. It could be that the universe, his guides, god, whomst ever the fuck you want to call the powers at be are trying to encourage him to take a leap of blind faith, to follow the whim of nature however, he does not feel ready at this point in time. He'd much rather focus his energy in recovery, getting back to himself than to take on something new at the moment. Conversely he might be resisting this change, causing friction within himself because there is something he is holding onto, coveting if you will, that he may be aware that he needs to release it but- is again not yet ready for that. Picture a dragon hoarding emeralds going "NO! my preciouses" in a gollum voice and there you have it. This friction he is causing himself is preventing new people to enter his life, be it life long friendships, partnerships, business relations or- romance. He may also be experiencing a lull in communication with those close to him, and with the ace of pentacles reversed, it could be that he is in need of these connections and advice but doesn't want to overstep on the chance of being told "you need to let go dude". Thankfully, all though it is slow and arduous, he is making his way out of this energy, slowly but surely "returning to safer waters". All in all, even though he is in his lil gremlin era, he is still thriving, still reaping the benefits and fruits of his labor. He knows he's still the shit.

2oP rx, PoS rx, KnoP rx, 8oW rx, Chariot, Devil rx, 3oW, 4oS, KoC rx.

Oof, we got an over thinker over here folks. So, towards Chimmy, this guy is overthinking central. Have you ever wondered where your overthunk thoughts went? Well, it's here lmao just kidding. He feels confused, unbalanced, out of alignment, really really missing the communication here- I fear bad news may be involved or- OR- because of the lack of communication, signs, the silence has him overthinking that something wrong happened. Either he did something wrong that affected this connection or that something happened to Chimmy seems to be his chief worry. He might be overthinking about the "delay" he's causing with the friction he has in the first part, probably over worrying himself sick thinking that it's something he's currently doing that led to this radio silence. Unbeknownst to him, it's actually the opposite. The energy is exactly where it needs to be right now and they are making strides in their life, physically but mostly spiritually. What they are both doing is taking themselves forward without really knowing it, literally purging and healing without being aware of it. It seems as though he is, through this "cleaning up his act" in a sense. All he has to do at this very moment is to look towards the sun, what's on the horizon, know that his "ships" are on it's way and the act of him resting, taking care of his vessel and putting more focus on that is what is aligning him to that energy. At the bottom of the deck is the king of cups reversed which is more indicative of his mindset and how he feels about himself than anything. He is really overthinking his self worth and his place in Chimmy's life, whether or not he is the right one or if he's capable of handling something like this. Perhaps he's thinking he has to become a "family man" instantaneously but- that is not what the energy dictates or requires lmao he just needs to take a chill pill and juh lih vihbe.

Camel, Griffin, Eagle, Salamander, Cardinal, Kangaroo

The straw that broke the camels back, *insert uncle rukus theme song here*. Lmaooo anywho, the camel is regarded for its ability to take on long, long, journeys, storing water in their humps, their robust physiology and their ability to raw dog cacti. Whereas griffin is about the superconcious. To ME, this reads as the long process and journey to becoming more aware of oneself and the world around them. It is as though, he is a straw away from that back getting cracked and epiphanies come spewing out of him. He is in a moment where he has to find the balance between the dark and the light, the dark being over thinking, anxious thoughts, and the light being literal enlightenment and mindfulness. The eagle is regarded for it's ability to soar so high and view everything from that great vantage point. They are great important spiritual symbols in almost all sects which, is why they are broadly considered messages of the divine, protectors and a sign to look at the bigger image. The salamander is about alchemy and harnessing your inner flame. It's so fun when the intuitive ping gets confirmed by the cards lmao. He, like I said, is on his way to alchemizing this current energy and turning it into something wildly in his favor. It is possible that through this, he will connect with his spiritual team, mainly ancestors to gain a broader view of things that will then allow him to set his soul ablaze. While it is important to notice and keep on eye on the dead pixel on the screen, it is equally important to zoom out and look at the broader picture lest you get consumed by the darkness. Cardinals are a regarded as divine messengers as well, more notably as a sign that you have a visitor from above, while kangaroos are regarded for their raw power and vitality. I couldn't even make this up if I wanted to. It's more of a confirmation that opening himself up to the other side of things, letting his walls come down gives him a boost in vital energy that will fuel his next cycle. Good for him.

His songs are Bug Like an Angel by Mitski, Kid & Leveret by Yaeklore, RUNNING OUT OF TIME by Tyler, The Creator

Chimmy:

7oS rx, 7oC, KoP rx, Death, AoC, Fool rx, KnoW, QoC, 8oC, Judgement, Magician, 6oS, QoP, QoS rx, KnoS.

You got caught with your hand in the cookie jar didntcha? Lmao so, it seems as though, Chimmy got caught in some schemes. To me, it reads as though there was something they were trying to get away with doing something, possibly was trying to get away with not making a decision but- you can't have your cake and eat it too. They are in need to withdraw themselves, focus this unfocused and untethered energy into themselves. They may be looking for the answer or solution to their problem outside of themselves but the problem is, with it being outside of themselves, it seems much bigger and more innumerable than it truly is. If they can withdraw this energy within themselves, focus it onto themselves, they will be fine. It seems as though this problem may be work related, they could either be the boss with a ton of workers that are stressing them out for whatever reason or have a boss that is practically incompetent at their job with the iq of a molded mushroom. It feels more like the latter to be honest as there is a slight stench in the air that smells like power imbalance and manipulation. It's not for long though, with the death card here, it indicates that there is something ended soon within their energy that will make way for something new, its so funny that the card immediately after the death card is an ace card which also marks the start of a journey. With the card specifically being of the cups suit, this may be something that is highly emotional, self serving and possibly romantic. However, funnily enough the two cards are followed by the fool card in the reverse which leads me to believe that they are currently mirroring the same energy that Jimin is in. Either the fear or inability to take that leap of faith into a brand new cycle. It seems like the both of them has a specific step they need to take to round this energy out to a complete close so something new can take it's place. The energy for Chimmy however is interesting and rather funny because even though there is something stopping them from taking that full leap of faith, they still want to "do it for the plot". It seems like that "yolo" energy is clashing with the energy that their spiritual team wants or needs them to be in. It seems like- rather than an impulsive daredevil kind of energy, a more calculated and intentional energy is required. Other than that, they have all of what they need to step forward. They are in tune with their emotions, ready to take that next step and leave behind their house of cards if that is what's needed but, it seems like they need to judge themselves, their progress, their readiness, their growth, their healing before the door can be opened. Do they deem themselves prepared for whats next or do they need a wrap around? Spiritually, their spirit team do deem them as ready and capable. They have mastered the energy of the suits and are in a massively creative energy, they have what it takes and are willing to give what is needed to make that move to calmer things, they are stable and in touch with their feminine energy (everyone has divine feminine and masculine energy, it does not relate to gender, it just means one is receiving and one is go getting) the only blockage that can be seen here is their mindset. Unable to see themselves as they are and might be in a totally soured mood, enough to cloud their view of things. Regardless, they are going to tear the walls off with how dummy fast they're gonna peel off towards the things they want when that energy clears. Side note, it seems as though they are aware of Jimin and his current state too which is interesting hehe.

PoC rx, World, Chariot, AoS, 8oP, Star, 5oP rc, 10oP.

Okurrr, pop awf. It seems as though- they're hiding whatever this energy is from others hehe. The page of cups here is giving more of a bashful "hehe, don't tell anyone" SO I won't hehe. Other than that, it seems as though they are indeed working on closing out these cycles, so that they can make proper and swift moves towards something that they were made aware of- it's possible that they got a message from the divine or an intuitive ping to work in this specific area of life. They are working really hard to achieve their hopes and dreams and doing all that they can to retain hope while also getting that bread up. It seems as though their end goal is material and generational wealth that they can share, it also feels as though there is a focus on having human things like- a house, family, etc.

World, Lion, Okapi, Giraffe, Swallow, Skunk.

Wow, double confirmation with two different world cards. However, this card is, in fact, different from the tarot meaning SO- The world is about shadow work and unearthing ones true potential, the lion is regarded as the divine masculine, pride, and the father. What they might be unearthing is their divine masculine energy, the energy that is active, the one that goes out and achieves what the feminine directs. They may be feeling as though they are in a pressure chamber in the core of earth having to excavate this energy from themselves and for themselves but, because it is lion, pride, and the father, it will be a relatively easy feat. All they must do is literally take pride in who they are. The shadow aspect of the card may indicate that their disconnect to this energy comes from an uncomfortable relationship with a father figure, perhaps this energy reminds them of their fraternal parental figure and it's something they avoid or feel uncomfortable in. Once they realize that their fathers fire can be used to keep them warm, they'll be on easy street. The interesting part is Okapi and Giraffe! Okapi is heralded as a fated event, meeting, or the higher meaning behind things while the Giraffe has an interesting view with it's head in the clouds and it's feel firmly planted on the ground. It's giving delulu is the solulu. They have what they want to happen in mind and they're making it happen by staying grounded while in their manic pixie dream person era. The swallow gives us hope as to sailors they are the first sign that they are at the end of their journey, while the skunk reminds us that we have alternate solutions to the problems we may face. To draw this reading to a close, it seems as though Chimmy has finally reached the end of their journey, they are filled with hope and optimism for what is next as they can see what is on the horizon, knowing that they are never truly stuck, that they have many, many solutions available to them at all times. It seems as though they've come to realize or are going to realize their tried and true methods aren't the right tool for the job. Good on them!

Their songs are Breathin by Ariana Grande, bellyache by Billie Eilish, Animal by Noah Kahan.

Songs they want to send to each other

Jimin: Neath the grove is a heart by Yaeklore, I THINK by Tyler, The Creator, Lost in Time and Space by Lord Huron, Glue Myself Shut by Noah Kahan, Working for the Knife by Mitski, Revival by Zach Bryan.

Chimmy: bellyache by Billie Eilish, Maine by Noah Kahan, When She Smiles by Gigi Perez, In the Night by The Weeknd, The Only Heartbreaker by Mitski, ARE WE STILL FRIENDS? by Tyler, The Creator

V:

9oC, KoP rx, 4oP, KoS, 7oS rx, 3oW, 7oW, 6oP, 2oW.

He wants it to be known that he is doing well, so well in fact that he's let himself go. He's let himself be less uptight and anal in a way. He's not too focused on being overly stable, he deems himself to be fiscally stable and responsible, not the type to gamble or squander. He's incredibly perceptive as he is now, he stands on both authority and business, you cannot lie, hide, or get away with or pull one over on him for shit. It's like he went from caring too much of what people thought of him, to being utterly free and not caring at all while being this composed person. He has his eyes set on something, he seems to be rather excited and looking towards the future here, it reads as though he is setting the stage to house someting that he is protective over. It definitely feels as though he has had an upgrade recently mentally wise. It also feels as though he has something he wants to share, something that he wants to give freely. I do see here that he may have an eye on the past here, perhaps reminiscing on some past experiences that he’s had before. I have a feeling that he might have some sort of surprise that he is aware will change the directory of his life in terms of how people view him. 

Wheel of fortune, 6oP rx, KoP rx, 10oW, QoW rx, Devil, KnoS, 6oC rx, 10oS, 3oS

When the wheel came out I could’ve sworn that it was the world because I heard “we’re done” so- to me that reads as though our boi might be in a defeatist attitude even though things are still up for debate, the wheel has yet to turn and it is still within their favor. It seems as though he holds some guilt over not being giving or generous enough, pentacles are earth energy and are usually related to money, and finances but it is also heavily related to earthly matters especially time. What I’m reading feels more like a channeled message and story line so I’ll try my best to convey it. He feels guilty for hoarding his resources, his time, his effort, he feels- no, he knows he could’ve done better, could’ve been a more grounded and stable person for Tata but, because of the heaps of weight on his shoulders, his responsibilities at the time as well as his own emotional baggage he couldn’t really give Tata what they needed from him. He feels remorse because he felt like in a way he forced their hand for him to rely on them, it feels as though he felt like he sapped their energy and personality being so caught up in his own world, unable to see out of his own ass. It seems as though, with the devil he might’ve feel into addictive and unhealthy behaviours to cope. He recognized that it was slowly becoming, in his eyes, something close to being toxic and made the “logical” choice to separate, however I feel as though there is something that he has yet to see within this energy. I hope there is more information on Tata’s side. The absence of Tata however, forced him to remove the rose coloured glasses, to face reality instead of living in a dream like state. It for sure hurt, quite a bit, and he did try to distract himself from it as there is this avoidant energy here but, unfortunately you can’t run from yourself. He’s currently going through the healing process, I suspect that this is what spurred on the mental upgrade. 

Friend, Elephant, Rabbit, Hawk, Snail, Wolf.

A friend can show us the truth, the mirrors and offer sound advice, the elephant shows us the obstacles we face, the strength they require, enhance our wisdome and endurance all while being majestic. It seems to me that currently he has the help of a valuable friend, someone that he can gain insight from, one that tells him the truth as is and offers advice to the best of their abilities, as well as someone whos life currently mirrors his own. People are often a mirror for ourselves and this friend is no different, they might be experiencing something similar to what V is experiencing which allows himself to view his situation from a different pov. Even so, the obstacle that he is facing is surely as large as an elephant and frustrating to navigate around however, as with the wheel of fortune, elephants symbolize good luck. Rabbits are masters of fast paced changes, decision making, and knowing when to act, while the hawk guides us with intelligence, independence, adaptability and clarity. There is an energy around him where he needs to make swift decisions, taking fast action towards something, with the help of his hawk buddy this is made possible by the knowledge that is shared. Conversely, he might be making decisions way to quickly to discern whether or not he has viewed whichever situation as accurately and clearly as possible. Snails are all about slow and steady progress, especially on the right path, and wolves awaken our intuition, remind us of our silent observation of the shadows. Currently he is on the right path, there is no doubt about that, it’s just slow and full of effort however, there is still something here that isn’t as it seems with the wolf being present, he is being asked to really reconsider the way he walks his path, it doesn’t have to be this hard. This sneaky lil bastard lodged two cards under my desk so,bonus cards: Unicorn and Kangaroo. There is something special coming his way, something that he is unable to see considering the cards before and where these cards fell. This is something that will definitely strengthen him, add more steam to his boat.

His songs are When She Smiles by Gigi Perez, Bug Like an Angel by Mitski, Wait by the River by Lord Huron “Baby, I don’t mean the things I said” and TV by Billie Eilish “All my friends are missing again, that’s what happens when you fall in love. You don’t have the time, you leave them behind, You tell yourself it’s fine you’re just in love”

Tata:

PoP, 3oW rx, AoW rx, 6oS rx, KoS, Star rx, QoP, 4oW rx, 9oC, 4oS rx, Tower rx, 10oP.

Another rather heavy energy here. It seems as though they have decided to embark on a journey of self discovery, perhaps they have enrolled in classes and are taking this time to rediscover their passions, their hopes and dreams and the career life they want. It feels as though they have recently returned from a trip and are no longer in an energy of wanting yet there is hesitation and a blockage here preventing them from fully moving forward with any plans. It seems as though they might have some trouble in coming as there is something they have yet to face. They've reach the point of having no where else to run and must face the leviathan in the sea. The problem is- because they are in a stubborn and refusing energy, not wanting to face their problems, they've become someone that is a bit too logical and emotionally detached from themselves possibly others as the other cards indicate a not so warm welcome home. It feels here that they are really, really questioning their life, their hope, their faith, and their place in it all. It seems as though they have a bad knack for focussing on the negative, amplifying situations in their mind to be worse that it is. Sort of like- already being depressed but engaging in thoughts and behaviours that you know make you depressed because you've found solace and comfort in being depressed. Other than that though, they do have this energy that they are exploring this nurturing side to them. Perhaps they have a pet or recently got a new pet and are spending a lot of time with them, redecorating their home to feel better and lighten the rooms, or enjoying their own presence and being home. With the four of wands in the reversed position being a direct just from the three of wands in the reversed position, I have the feeling that they expected a warm welcoming upon their arrival home- but they faced hostility instead. It seems as though there were some ties cut, be it familial or platonic. They aren't going to let this bring them further down as to me it reads as though who ever this was made comments about their success in a negative light but, they know better than to let that get to them because they are the most successful and achieved person in their family with many notable accolades possibly having a level of fame to their name. It seems as though here, with the four of swords and tower both in the reversed position, they are keeping themselves busy and moving in efforts to avoid the inner work needed which is going to cause the event of the tower falling more violent and devastating than needed almost exactly mirroring V in his own tower moment of realizations. Nevertheless, this tower moment is meant to till the land and make way for new fertile soil so that the new seeds that they plant do not rot in the ground. They are experiencing the setting of the stage to experience an ancestral pay out, they are going to receive something truly generational as it does seem some massive generational curses are being broken through this time.

Justice, 9oW rx, PoC, 4oW, 7oW, PoP rx, 9oS, 6oP, Everything is fine rx, Devil rx, 3ow.

As I was pulling the cards, someone drove past my window very obviously yelling into their phone so- I think that is an accurate description of what this energy is like, it's like a quiet anger, a disagreement here. Starting off with justice, it seems as though Tata is doing their best to judge this situation as fair as possible. If it were the queen of swords per say, it would indicate a level of jadedness however, the justice card is the more judicially fair card in the deck. If they do harbor an air of jadedness or resentment, they are able to put it aside and call out their own faults fairly. I get the feeling that, because of whatever went down between the two of them, Tata might want to surrender this connection, to let it go in hopes that someone else will come along with better prospects, more to offer and connect over however- it does feel like they may be at war with themselves over this as they're not yet willing to call it quits. It seems as though they worry that if they were to let this go, it would affect their journey and earthly life in ways they can't comprehend. The thought keeps them up at night but, that's because it's a cycle of overthinking, a way to avoid facing the issues at hand. They seem to have this very avoidant type of energy, one that does not want to face their own shadows because it's too scary. They try really hard to be the sweetest of buns but, that can only be possible if and when they face their own internal issues. I get the feeling that the recurrent thought that they have is "if only he'd be more thoughtful everything would be fine" which- to me is a loaded statement. Mainly because the cards here indicate miscommunications, misunderstandings, and a heavy lack of communication. Everything would, in fact, not be fine, because they are both gripped by their own vices, their own minds, their own addictions and binds to things that they believe make them feel good but actually hurt them more. What Tata doesn't see however, is that there is something, someone, off in the distance rebuilding the land.

Crow, Camel, Doe, Friend, Eagle, Tapir, Hen.

Crows are often a symbol of death as well as psychic abilities. They are the loyal companions to a plethora of gods and goddesses, namely Hekate and Odin. Camels are regarded for their survival through rough and impossible to pass terrains thanks to the adaptation of their physical being. It seems as though our dear friend Tata is currently being guided by Hekate and Odin through the process of death and rebirth, and the treacherous landscape of it all. When we speak of death in a metaphysical sense, we mean it metaphorically, not a corporeal death. Death in spirituality is transformation, it is letting the parts of ourselves, the shadow, the ego, fall away to make room for enlightenment. It is important to note that this process is a transformation, and alchemical step in our journey, not a complete and total death as the ego and shadow are still very much important to our physical lives. Tata is on a journey to learn what that means for them, to tackle their people pleasing tendencies and other vices. Consider it the hero's journey, like Hercules and his trials. The doe guides us to being receptive, through birth and new beginnings while a friend gives us needed and helpful advice, serving as a mirror for us to view ourselves through. As mentioned before, Tata is definitely on a healing journey, to become their most highest vibrational self, learning to be more receptive to the energy they're given, learning to allow those around them to give to them and to help fill their cup. Just as V, Tata may have a friend around them that is going through similar struggles that they are learning from. The eagle is a trusted messenger, bringing us both protection and guidance towards the bigger picture, the picture being charity and selfishness, acting in service to others as noted by the tapir, coupled with the warning of being overly submissive told to us by the hen. Tata has a bad habit of possibly submitting too much to others, forgetting themselves in the process. It seems as though this is a childhood wound. perhaps incurred by having to micromanage the world around them for the sake of peace. They are learning that, while being of service and selfishness is a good and necessary trait, that in excess can be detrimental to us in the end. Good luck to them.

Their songs are CHIHIRO by Billie Eilish, BIRDS OF A FEATHER by Billie Eilish, and Normalcy by Gigi Perez.

Songs they want to send to each other

V: Slow Down by Laufey, Lookalike by Conan Gray, Us Without Me by grentperez, rises the moon by Liana Flores, I Know You by Faye Webster (hello?), Drive by SZA.

Tata: WILDFLOWER by Billie Eilish, CHIHIRO by Billie Eilish, Real Man by Beabadoobee, Jonny by Faye Webster, Kaleidoscope by rhyu, Second Time by Bruno Major.

Jungkook:

Tower, 7oP rx, 3oP rx, Death, 10oC rx, 9oS, Empress, 7oC rx, 2oS rx, 5oC rx, 4oC, 9oW rx, 6oC

Off rip, this energy is vastly different than the other members, probably why he was more hesitant to be first when he usually wants to be first read. Secondly, because of the song, I have a huge inkling that Cooky smells like a light floral yet sweet peach scent, nothing too overwhelming but still noticeable because it compliments their aura. This man is sick, I'm talking sliding down the wall, crying beaucoup boohoo tears, pissin shittin and fartin and throwing up and all that lmao. There seems to be a lot of endings, massive things crashing down upon him, seemingly out of no where. It could be because he, or someone close to him, likely Cooky decided that something within their reality is not worth the amount of effort it takes for something. It seems like some sort of collaborative efforts have been nixed, again forcing this ending and new beginning. It doesn't feel good for him because it involves heavy, heavy grief akin to if someone close to him had died. It's as though this dream, this happy, healthy, bountiful and harmonious life he had envisioned for himself came crashing down around him. It feels as though this is heavily energetically, his physical life seems to be as is, as to be expected but internally and spiritually, boi is going through it through it. It's like he is being kept up at night, possibly experiencing nightmares or night terrors, heavy overthinking, heavy spiraling, heavy worrying. The empress here seems to be an outward energy, possibly Cooky. I get the feeling that he feels abandoned? Let go of? It feels as though the act of facing reality and having a decision be made for him on behalf of him. He feels almost insulted that he's expected to "get over it" and accept something new. This is not something that he wants but he's currently lost his will to fight for it, preferring to reminisce on what was in hopes that it'll be again.

Extended: 10oP rx, 9oS, Magician, 5oS rx, PoS rx, 2oP, KnoS rx, QoS rx, 7oS rx, Temperance rx, QoW, 6oW, KnoC rx, Hermit, Judgment, KnoW, PoC, Sun rx, Hanged man rx.

I wanted to look into this a bit more because it felt to open ended to leave it that way. He is really stressed out about his idea of an earthly life not being the way he wanted it to. He has the hope, the power to manifest and create his own reality, but, he- gosh he has no more fight in him for it. He seems to want to accept this bad news as he feels as though there was a rightful loss of opportunity and would rather go with the flow, even though he will have a heavily jaded attitude going forward that he will struggle to hide. He feels as though he is lacking perspective on this situation but, he doesn't possess the ability to think it through and see it for what it is at this current moment. He is heavily imbalanced spiritually and may potentially be indulging in self pity and other vices. He does wish for whoever this queen of wands energy is, possibly Cooky, to have success, even if it is not with him because he knows he needs time to go within himself as well as them to traverse their inner world and face their shadow selves. He does have slight hope that eventually he will be deemed as worthy, given the green light for him to start making his way back into their life. Coming forth with this childlike glee, and swift passionate energy to knock them off their feet. It feels as though he knows this outcome hinges solely on his ability to see from a new perspective, and have a healthy level of detachment.

5oC rx, AoP rx, Death, PoC, 9oC rx, 10oC rx, Emperor, Wheel of Fortune rx, Temperence rx, 7oC rx, 3oW, Hanged man rx, 8oC rx, 8oP, 6oS, 4oS, Strength, 10oP rx, 9oS, 7oW, 3oC rx, Magician, AoC, Empress, AoS.

Well fuck me... Alright so, damn. So he is trying to accept the loss, trying to accept and release the grief but, a huge part that is causing him more grief is the fear that something like this won't ever reach his physical life. He has seen this grow, falter and then die right before his eyes and now he has to let it go and let something or someone new come in and he is- not yet ready to accept it. It was something he put a lot of effort towards, something he dreamt of so much and to see it fizzle out in this way is a grief that is incomparable. I heard "What's the use of having this castle if I have no one to share it with?". It feels like- he feels as though this is just his luck, his destiny. This is all that he is worth and gets, this is how the story goes regardless of what he does in any life. He is really indulging in this grief, like- he doesn't know what to do, where to go, who to turn to. If you've seen Billie Eilish's HIT ME HARD AND SOFT album cover, that is the exact energy I'm getting. He knows he has to come to terms with the fact that he cannot further indulge in this spiritual connection, he has to return to reality, he has to look towards what is in his actually life but- he can't, he just can't, he cannot bring himself to do so. You could hang him upside down as long as you want but, this is not something that he can truly let go of. It's something he feels is so integral to him, something that he will keep chasing until the end of time. He wants to put in the time and effort into this but- he also knows that he needs to move on, that there is no future in this on his terms. He needs to rest, he needs a deep, deep mental and physical rest and break, just enough to get his strength back, enough to get the energy to start rebuilding his idea of his future life again. There is a great aversion to that idea though, it's like my heart is gripped with the grief he feels typing this out. It's like he can't let go, not yet. I saw a plastic bag rolling in the wind and honestly, it was how his energy feels, being tossed around like a ragdoll by the powers that be without much of a say or fight, like a jellyfish in the harsh currents of the ocean. The image I get with the seven of wands and the three of cups reversed is, if it were in his power he would have turned the card up himself, so that he can experience the community, the togetherness, the celebration of union but, instead its all broken engagements he faces. Despite the heavy grief that he faces, he still uses what little energy he has left to hope for and manifest for Cooky to have the love that they deserve, even if he selfishly hopes that it is home. He hopes that they do come across a new love, one that can fill their cup until it over flows, and value them as much as he does, but he also homes that they somehow become aware of this, that they- as he says "can see me spill my guts and know that this is true, I know you feel it intuitively". Throughout this reading there was a fly that was harassing me, like it had no fear of being squished, yet it never got close or stayed long enough for me to squish it. I think that is significant as it feels like part of the reason why this connection has broken is because of interference from those that do not belong within it, trying to get in and peer through.

Salamander, Wolf, Kangaroo, Hen, Okapi, Eagle, Giraffe, Alligator, Tapir, Cardnial.

Salamander teaches us to alchemize our woes, our pains, and experiences while the wolf guides us to our intuition, to silently observe. It may be that all is not what it seems. I'm getting High Priestess and Sphinx energy here, where the answer lies deeply hidden within the riddles. His task is to feel what he feels, learn to alchemize it to power through intention, and reconnect with his intuition. Perhaps this needs a second look. The Kangaroo gives us raw energy, vitality and optimism while the hen teaches us the warnings of submission. I have a feeling that the powers at be want him to find his optimism, and fight with all he has. Funnily enough I'm getting the visual of Kangaroo jack. The universe doesn't want him to give up too easily or else he'll miss out on the okapi energy. I want to note how insane this is because in the deck, Okapi and Eagle are right next to each other so for them to come out together in the same position in a reading is highly auspicious. The Okapi gives us a message of fated meetings, events, or a situation directly tied to the higher meaning of things while eagle is the one who carries this message as the designated spiritual messenger, the protector of the bigger meaning. The most important spiritual saying to remember is, if it is meant for you then it will not pass you and here we are seeing that directly. This is bound to be, it is a fated meeting and it is highly protected, the only ones who can alter that course is Jungkook and Cooky if they give in to the flies around them that is. The giraffe guides jk to have a stable and grounded "delulu is the solulu" energy. The height of the giraffe gives us the ability to see the alligator, a hidden enemy, the need for survival. He must know that someone or something is not what it seems, I have a feeling that this is the other energy trying to butt in. His intuition knows what is right, so does Cooky's, they just have to trust and follow that guidance. To close off this part of the reading, with Tapir and Cardinal, it seems as though his spiritual team wants him to step out there, they want him to act in service of others, sharing the messages and knowledge he has as it helps him to connect more to his intuition and to the spiritual visitors. This is a good note to end the reading on

His songs are First love/Late spring by Mitski, Go Solo by Tom Rosenthal, Meet Me in the City by Lord Huron, When the Night is Over by Lord Huron, The Wisps Sings by Winter Aid, Life in the City by The Lumineers, Male Fantasy by Billie Eilish heavily, The Beach by The Neighbourhood, Sally by Gigi Perez, Your Best American Girl by Mitski insanely heavily, Chest Pain (I Love) by Malcolm Todd.

Cooky:

2oP, 3oP rx, 8oC rx, AoP rx, KnoS rx, 7oS rx, 4oP, KnoP, 6oS, KnoC rx, KnoW, 4oS, 3oS rx, 6oP, 7oP rx, AoW, Everything is fine rx, QoP rx, 6oC, QoC, 5oC Rx, Strength, Fool rx, 10oW rx, KoP, 9oC rx, Hermit, PoC, 8oW rx, QoW, KoC, 9oS, Death, 2oS rx, 10oS rx, 10oP rx, 10oC rx, PoP rx, Chariot, 2oC rx, AoC, 9oW rx, Empress, 4oW, Tower.

Damn near half the muhfuggin deck came out omfg if you wanted a private feature you could've asked??? Okay... Let's get this bread my god. So holy fuck ok I'm overwhelmed lmao. So they are currently doing their absolute best to manage, balance, and juggle everything that is currently going on in there life. They were close to dropping some balls (hehe) but they've got everything handled as of right now, they could've have chosen to purposefully let go of one of the balls (hehe) as it was something that did not align with them and caused more stress and dissconnection. However, it seems as though they are still terrified of and refusing to let go of the things that do not serve them entirely. It's giving an dependent attachment to someone, something, or an energy. It feels as though, them not being able to overcome their fears of abandonment, commitment, moving on, as well as not faking their happiness is preventing a major opportunity from coming in for them. It's like they are their own worse enemy here. I get the feeling that there is something in their energy that wants to come in but, they can't really accept or grasp it which is causing this impatient energy within them. They're missing out on a lot of opportunities here because they are too scared, cowardly. It's as though they don't trust this thing that- is genuinely very trusting, open and honest because they are white knuckling things that are meant to keep them grounded. It's giving preferring to hold onto the cinder blocks the mafia gave them to sleep with the fishes than to let go and swim away because they were friends before. It's like they'd rather hold onto what they know rather than experiencing something new because they don't want to experience being hurt again but in a way are hurting themselves and limiting themselves even more. They are making slow, slow progress regardless, making their way into calmer waters, healing very, very slowly however, they are still closing their heart off to this emotional journey. They want to rush forward, overcome the humps, but without going through the journey. It's like wanting to pick and choose what they experience but life isn't about choices or control, it's about flow.

They for sure need to rest themselves, it seems here that they have been over thinking about a lot of things, especially what it means to heal. To them it kind of feels like a betrayal to those who have given to them before, those who have "selflessly" poured into them, as though they are turning their backs on those people which makes them feel as though healing and and of itself is not worth it funnily enough. It's like- this raw energy, this passion, this creative energy that has been with them and in them, innate since the day they were born is trying to make itself clear to them, as if wanting them to take up the mantle but- there is an avoidance, a hesitation because of prior loyalty. It reads as thought they are trying to convince themselves that they are fine, that they don't need this thing and are okay without it but- they are not, it leaves them so unbalanced and disconnected to their grounded earth energy. They really need to know that it is okay to let go, it is okay to move on, it is okay to let the house you spent months building crumble down only leaving you with two support beams left because there is something waiting for them. If they claim to not care about jk or what's going on with him, they are either lying or very very good at hiding it. I see here that they thought they had left this all behind but they catch themselves thinking back to it, back to what it was and how they felt, back to who they say themselves as during then. It's as though, they saw themselves truly for who they are without the shadows but- they believe that that is something that just can't happen, that it is something that they must let go of.

That they are strong enough to or that they will be stronger for it but- that is foolish. Instead it's just them avoiding taking that leap of faith, them avoiding the new energy, avoiding unleashing these heavy ass burdens from themselves. I get the image of them carrying the bundle of wands and the bundle of wands being so heavy it digs into their shoulders, tearing the skin and impaling them with splinters over and over again. They won't let go even if their shoulders are wore down to the bone. They feel as though this is the way to be stable, productive, a functioning member of society but, this is not the way. It is not what fulfills them, it's what traps them like Sisyphus. They need to go within themselves, I see that sometimes they do, and sometimes they do see a glimmer, a glimpse of Jk but they get spooked and run away. They need their time to take it slow, to come back to who they are and to let him in again but- again the thought of this scares them beyond belief, enough to cause them to over think about having to let go of things, about having to let what does not serve them truly die, having to over come the betrayal and realize that this is not the life that they deserved or hoped for since a young age. They fear that they will have to stop the current journey they are on but, wrong. This journey takes them to where they are meant to be, however the energy becomes free and untangled, capable of speeding up once they integrate this part of their journey and life with themselves and who they truly are. It opens a new doorway, it brings forth a bright new loving beginning, only if they can surrender to being the empress, surrender to being the one in power rather than the one being taking advantage of. Their idea of a happy home and happy life needs to be dismantled all the way to the ground and rebuilt and it seems as though the longer they wait, the more painful it is.

QoS rx, Judgement, 3oC rx, 8oP, Tower, 6oS, Everything is fine rx, 7oC Rx, KoS, KoC, PoS rx, Wheel of Fortune rx, Emperor, 9oP, 7oW, Temperance rx, 9oS, PoC, KoP, Hermit, Fool rx, PoW rx, Hierophant, Star.

Girl, bffr. So, they are jaded, they are unable to view this situation as clearly as possible because they cannot look past the hurt that they've faced in relation to Jk but not by Jk. It seems as they need a self evaluation, rather than judging the situation, they should judge themselves honestly and truthfully, they'd see that something is not what it seems. It seems here that they don't want to work with others, they'd rather solo this mission but- that leads to the tower. Isolation never helps, it hurts more, we as humans are social creatures, we are animals that will go mad without connection. It's funny to see the tower and the six of swords together as in tarot it is widely believed that the six of swords follows the tower and depicts us getting out of dodge after fleeing the crumbling tower. I have a feeling that if they don't make the choice to flee the tower will crumble around them. I wonder if they realize that all is not fine, that there is something in their reality that is begging for their attention, their choice, from a mature and non judgmental or jaded position. From a place of intuition and love, as well as emotional maturity. They must face the lack of communication, they will have to turn the wheel themselves to favor their journey if they want to. It seems as though the emperor here is an outside energy, possibly Jk sitting and waiting, letting the garden grow and prosper in preparation for the empress's arrival however, it seems here that the empress is hellbent on being imbalanced. They seem to be hellbent on indulging in their own shadows because they cannot for the life of them envision a reality where someone comes into their life with pure intentions and stable offerings as well as the ability to reflect and change their wrong doings. They'd rather cling to the edge of a crumbling cliff, to eventually fall off said cliff into abyss than to make a leap of faith to the other side. They must address within themselves why they are preventing a passionate journey full of creation and joy for themselves. The key lays with the Hierophant, the Hierophant inside of them. This would be a wish come true if only they'd accept it. It feels as though they want someone to get mad at them, yell at them, force them to do this but- no one is going to do that, it is their choice whether they choose this or not. The universe, their gods are loving and will never be mad at them for not doing something and force them to repent. It is in their hands.

World, Moose, Lizard, Crab, Shadow Person, Mallard, Cardinal, Swallow.

In this deck, the world encourages us traverse the shadow realm, to do our shadow work, and unearth our power while the moose warns us of incoming obstacles and giving something too much power. When you see a moose in real life, their massive size is something that you cannot forget, they are formidable and to Cooky, the act of doing shadow work is akin to staring a moose in the eye. They are giving their fears, their worries, their oppressors too much power over them. The lizard forces us to realize the cycles we are repeating and the lessons we are learning while the crab tells us the lesson. The lesson being self protection, boundaries, teaching others how to treat us. Cooky needs to learn this lesson or else they are doomed to repeat it until they get it, in bigger and bigger ways. It seems to be a pattern in their life currently. They need to stand up and teach themselves what their boundaries truly are, and to teach others how to properly treat them. The shadow person is our unrecognized self that the mallard shows us in our dreams. I wouldn't be surprised if Cooky still gets dreams about their current challenges. These things will seep into our dreams if we ignore our subconscious. The cardinal brings the final message along with the swallow, that they are being watched over lovingly, guided through the last steps on their journey, to have hope and be optimistic, to trust that everything will be alright, that if they take that leap of faith, the hands of their ancestors and spirit guides will rise to catch their feet and carry them to the other side.

Their songs are, Northern Attitude by Noah Kahan and Hozier, See You Again by Tyler, The Creater ft Kali Uchis "Can I get a kiss, and can you make it last for ever? I said I'm about to go to war and I don't know if Imma see you again", Love Like Ghosts by Lord Huron "You don't want me baby please dont lie, oh but if you're leaving then I gotta know why", would've been you by sombr, I know it won't work by Gracie Abrams, ocean eyes by Billie Eilish, Wildest Dreams by Taylor Swift, The Man by Gigi Perez, Me and My Husband by Mitski, Noid Tyler, The Creator.

Songs they want to send to each other

Jungkook: Washing Machine Heart by Mitski, Yonkers by Tyler, The Creator, Fool For Love by Lord Huron, I Hate U by SZA, We Fell in Love in October by girl in red, Dust to Dust by The Civil Wars.

Cooky: The Man by Gigi Perez, I DON'T LOVE YOU ANYMORE by Tyler, The Creator, Thnks fr th Mmrs by Fall Out Boy, July by Noah Cyrus, Cursed Lord Huron, MILK OF THE SIREN by Melanie Martinez.

Suga:

3oP rx, 10oP, 10oW rx, 2oW rx, 6oS, KnoS, 9oS, PoW rx, 5oP rx, KnoC rx, KoW, KoS, AoC, PoP rx, 4oC, 7oP, 5oW rx, Strength, Death.

So, a fly flew past me and flies are associated with having eyes on you so he might have a bunch of flies around him, people too much in his energy and his grill. Hmm, it feels like he himself has no idea whats going on in his life it's like he's just happy to be here lmao. On a good note, it seems like he is both happy but sad about this lull in work. It seems as though he has somewhat elevated to "grandpa" status a bit early, finding little things to do, little projects around the house but nothing really towards his career. He feels rather accomplished with what he has but it does feel like he kind of misses the work, the action, the schedule. He doesn't however miss the burdens that come with it. He seems to be enjoying the peace and quiet. However, because he's given this ample time to fuck around, he's wondering when the find out is gonna happen. It seems as though, in the midsts of this "not a thought behind those eyes" energy, there are, in fact, thoughts. Many of them. He might be confused, unsure of where he is going, possibly having a bit too much focus or attention on either what went on in his life in the past, or what will be coming to his life in the future, while he is trying to draw his attention to the present to be present. Regardless of that, he is moving forward, but with all this swords energy here, he's so entirely in his head- it's like "i'm just here for the ride" is more like "I have to be here for the ride because I'm too in my head to take myself there" for him. Have you ever seen a video of him staring off into space like he forgot he exist? Yeah, that is him but that lil ol noggin of his is filled with worries, anxieties, and what ifs. Because of this, he might be experiencing creative blocks, perhaps he might be mentally trying to rush himself to come out of this energy, not wanting to feel somewhat destitute anymore but- in order to do that he kind of- has to reach out to someone and explain to them whats going on. I think, partially, one of the things that is bothering him is the direction he's taking regarding Shooky. I'm interested in seeing what Shooky has going on to get a better feel for this energy. It feels like he's aware of the possibilities but doesn't know who it'll be. It feels like he wants to have authority over this, as- it is his life. He feels as though he knows what would be best, that he is fair and logical in his judgements but- he has yet to realize it's not just about him. Especially with the four of cups depicting a person being given the ace of cups but refusing to take it because it's not what they wanted. It's this slightly stubborn energy here. It's like he feels as though he spent a lot of energy, a lot of work pouring into one avenue and now he's having to decide whether it's worth it to continue to gamble on this horse or to call it quits. In the end, he doesn't want conflict, he just hopes he can be strong enough to draw whatever this is to a close.

World rx, 10oC, AoS rx, 5oS, Magician rx, 10oP rx, Moon rx, 9oS rx, 7oC rx, KnoW rx, PoP, 9oW rx, 3oW rx, Star rx, 7oP rx, Death rx, 4oS rx, Hanged man.

Me: Trouble in paradise? Him: NO :< lmao. So, he wants to make it abundantly clear that, despite whatever he may be facing, it is all a part of the journey to a stable and healthy emotional connection with his counterpart. Even though he isn't exactly clear on whatever is going on, he is surrendering to the energy and the process. Even though in this instance he has no exact power over the circumstances at hand, even if the energy is unstable and he is uncertain of whether or not this will result in the future he hopes for, he is aware that it is mostly his fears and insecurities speaking here. He is aware that, for the most part, it is mainly anxiety creating illusion. He is aware that, with time this too shall past, and he'll be able to see clearer, that reality will hit him and he will know what to do and be able to make that choice. He has accepted though, that as of right now his feelings are mostly anxiety, possibly jealousy. I'm seeing the "is this a butterfly?" meme. As of right now though, he is focusing on the good things in his reality such as the time he has to himself, letting himself surrender to being jostled about in the energy. He seems to be stably unstable lmao, he's just enjoying his time being home, not yet ready to return to city girl life as of yet. He is still worried, still afraid that this is something he is going to have to release, let go of, that he has done everything he could in regards to the energy but it is proving unfruitful. He's not quite ready to let go yet, so he is hoping he doesn't have to, that he can rise to the occasion soon. It seems as though, he still has a lot to consider, the position of the hanged man is a rough one, being strung upside down until a new perspective is found is harsh. Good luck to him.

Unicorn, Tiger, Snake, Hawk, Swallow, Skunk, Kangaroo.

Unicorns are about synchronicities, magic, special things while tigers exude opulence and carnal desires. It seems as though something super special, super important, something that has him spellbound is on its way to him. Something that feeds his hunger and carnal desires, something that encourages him to revel in the luxuries he's created himself. The snake is associated with the divine feminine and kundalini, spiritual awakenings and healing while the hawk gives us intelligence, independence, adaptability and clarity. It feels as though, because he is going through some sort of awakening, he might not be seeing things as clearly as he wants to and our boi is fully aware of that. He's allowing himself to shed his skin and old beliefs so that his eyes are no longer covered in scaly dead skin. As said before, swallow is a sign that the journey is coming to an end, skunk is to remind us that there are alternative solutions, and kangaroo is regarded for it's vitality. It to me, reads as though he might be on the shore of this new phase, new cycle in his life, one that is going to need an alternative solution to land, but once it lands, he'll feel as though he's gotten his life back.

His song is When the Night is Over by Lord Huron

Shooky:

PoS, KoP, 7oS, Judgment rx, 5oC, 2oC, 8oS rx, KnoP, 7oP rx, 9oW, 10oS rx, Empress, 6oP rx, 6oS rx, 2oP, 10oC, Emperor, 3oC, 10oP rx, Everything is fine.

Hmmm, for them, they might be experiencing a lot of technical issues, possibly affecting their communication. Either their email got hacked or they were locked out, forgot the password, it's been storming in their area and it's affecting the power, their mail being intercepted or going undelivered. Other than that, they could also be experiencing halts in other things, perhaps they are trying to cook a meal but they have to handle something family related first, that kind of delay. Regardless of that, they seem to be in a very grounded and stable energy, one that is rather secure, and perhaps a bit sneaky and strategic. Considering that judgement in the reversed is here, they may be sneaking out at night if you catch my drift. Not that they are living like a teenager and sneaking out to meet their friends literally, just the energy of possibly doing something they know they aren't supposed to be doing. The five transitioning to the two of pentacles to me is very interesting because in traditional tarot the five of cups is depicted as someone overlooking three of there cups that have fallen over while only two remain, and the two of cups is- well two cups lmao. To me it reads as though they are going through a period of a lot of loss, a lot of releasing, a lot of letting go in order to call in this exchanging of cups. They must free themselves of whatever mental and emotional prison they have locked themselves up in, take a chance on themselves and let themself make the slow burn progress they need without rushing themself. It seems as though there is something that they decided is not worth being in their energy anymore, that they are going to take the final stand and see this energy through and out the door. They are no longer standing for betrayal or people who intentionally build up their trust only to stab them in their back. They've learned their worth and who they are and they are going to properly express it. They are no longer over giving, no longer draining themselves of much needed assets for others who clearly do not deserve it. It is a difficult thing to do but they are managing themselves well, taking their time without being so harsh. They are balancing out their energy, juggling as much as they can without over doing it, focussing on having and creating a harmonious life and future for themselves with someone that is in the same energy as them. They want to celebrate and work with their equal on creating that long lasting generational wealth so that they may share it or pass it on to possible future children. This wealth could be financial or, that deep unshakable stability that can provide comfort and stable new beginnings and life for generations. Although things may suck for the both of them at the moment, everything is and will be fine.

2oP rx, PoP rx, KoP rx, 2oW, 2oS rx, 9oS, Devil rx, PoW rx, 10oC rx, 8oW rx, Moon, KoW, Judgement, Emperor rx, 3oC rx, PoC rx, 9oC, AoS, Strength.

So... They too are really unbalanced about this, perhaps they feel overwhelmed and over flowing in some areas related to Suga. The pentacles cards being reversed feels like a confirmation of said instability, as well as potential blockages here. However, the two of wands here suggest that Shooky is well aware of it, that they are capable of deducing what is wrong based on the past and by peering into the potentiality of the future. It is possible that they are a reader as well. Despite this though, they are still experiencing some anxious thoughts, perhaps struggling to sleep at night because of this. The devil reversed indicates that they may succumb to their own demons from time to time, perhaps being in that head of theres is more appealing than being present in their life. Perhaps they think being kept up in that head of theres, on autopilot is a faster way to come out of the energy they are experiencing. They might want to make hasty decisions in hopes of attaining this connection but all that does is put them in this energy of lack and force themselves to slow down. They must decide if the moons reflection in the pond is real or if the one in the sky is. It's all about perspective yes, and both comes with it's dangers, but one is a primordial being that can guide you anywhere you go with it's light. It seems here that they might agree with me that Suga needs to stand up and remember who the fuck he is lmao. It's like they are very conscious of the problems he is facing, more conscious than their own. It's a cute dynamic of support and encouragement but- in the effort of doing so they forget themselves and forget that this path is one of collaborative efforts. Together, they achieve more than apart. They have a great dynamic that works really well with each other, true ebb and flow, yin and yang, Tui and La. They'll be alright.

Cub, Lizard, Hermit Crab, Rooster, Jellyfish, Goose, Cardinal.

Awwww, poor thing, this is some terribly rough energy to be in. The cub is in response to this decks Bear card which is mother energy, the lizard is repeating cycles and unlearned lessons. The hermit crab reminds us of the necessity to withdraw, introspect, explore ones inner landscape and grow whereas rooster is a dominant and oppressive energy. The jellyfish reminds us of the importance of flow, where the goose warns us of upcoming dangers and territorial nature. Lastly the cardinal is a companion from beyond the veil. My heart goes out to them. I'll try to keep it as vague as possible but, what I'm getting from this reading and later confirmed through the song is that, Shooky has a tumultuous relationship with a maternal figure. So much so that they've felt abandoned and uncared for, having to both parent and reparent themselves. These types of wounds don't disappear overnight, they pick at you from time to time which leads us into the lizard energy, the energy of repeating cycles and lessons, unlearning lessons. It seems as though they've been caught in a cycle, having to sacrifice a limb to break free each time. With hermit crab, it is painfully obvious that this is an energy that they need to break free from once and for all. It is absolutely imperative that they withdraw and seek solace somewhere else, lest they allow their only protection to be chipped away in an environment where that could be a death sentence. Flowing into the rooster energy, in this deck, the hen is in response to the rooster. TMI but, hens are so detrimentally submissive that if a rooster comes by they will assume mating position so much so that it can actually be damaging to their health. With the added dynamic of a clearly oppressive maternal figure, it is possible that this is a dynamic that one does not want to be in. It seems here, with the jellyfish, rather than being submissive they've adapted to be akin to a jellyfish, allowing the ocean currents to guide them wherever so it may. It seems as though this false sense of security and truce is now coming to an end. With goose being known for their ferocity and hostility, it's best to get out of dodge before the goose decides to attack. Lastly is cardinal, they are not alone in this, constantly being guided by their spirit team, ancestors and possibly even the energy of Suga as well. Good luck to them.

Their song is Glue by Gigi Perez.

Songs they want to send to each other

Suga: Kill for Your Love by Labrinth, Feels like by Gracie Abrams, Believe by Caamp, Castle on the Hill by Ed Sheeran, Halley's Comet by Billie Eilish, Homesick by Noah Kahan

Shooky: Wait by the River by Lord Huron, CHIHIRO by Billie Eilish (I'm noticing a theme here, gonna do another in depth on them), Afraid by The Neighbourhood, Royals by Lorde, All the Pretty Girls by KALEO, Drive by SZA.

Jin:

PoP rx, 9oP, 4oS, 2oW, KnoC rx, 5oC rx, Hanged man rx, KoP, 9oS, 5oP, Emperor, 8oW rx, 10oW rx, Star.

He seems to be doing really good! He's taking a break from doing anything work wise, learning wise, journey wise, and really enjoying the fruits of his labor and his time off. He's resting as much as he can currently because he has plans on being busy in the future- I got the strongest craving for Trinidadian macaroni pie mid reading so perhaps he's exploring and indulging in foods, I'm envious. It seems as though he has decided to walk away or step away from anything romantic for the time being, I heard "I've seen the light" which leads me to believe he has seen whoever he was with for their true colors and decided that that is not what he wants and is taking a break to be himself, to stabilizing himself. I do see he does have a bit of a fear and anxious thoughts about not having anyone around if he is ever in need but, he is showing up as the emperor, someone who is highly capable and often is surrounded by a good support system. He seems to be taking things slow, taking his time, wanting to be with himself and within himself

6oW, Death, KnoP rx, 10oC rx, 4oP rx, QoS rx, Star, 8oS rx, 6oP.

Fucking love this for him. He successfully put an end to a third party energy that did not align with him or what he wanted. It seemed as though this energy did try to force things to fit where they did not, so did he, but he has successfully nipped it in the bud. That person is probably having a hard time accepting it, and he himself is a little jaded but man, he feels a whole lot better after it. He's very much in a healing and releasing energy, spending more time with friends and actually giving and caring to those around him. He's in a "protecting my energy" sort of mood!

Shadow Person, Swallow, Goat, Squirrel, Swan, Pigeon

The shadow person is our unrecognized self, the swallow is a sign to weary sailors that they are almost home. This to me reads as though he is almost to the bottom of the deepest darkest parts of himself and that is genuinely amazing. He is healing, loving himself, learning himself and apparently, almost home! The goat is a sign of untapped potential, fertility, virility and stubbornness while the squirrel prepares us for the future, encouraging work life balances. Goodness this is such good energy, probably the only one having a good time atm lmao. He's in a preparation stage, he is setting himself up and his life up for the future, creating a good work life balance while tapping into the deepest parts of himself and awakening abilities he never knew he had. The swan is the ultimate visage of soulmates and connections, the pigeon reminds us to have situational awareness, to know our way back home and to be in the present moment. I have no other way to say this but this man knows where his home is, he knows where his heart and his soulmate is and he is not going to get caught up in situationships that he knows won't last. He is staying in the present so that he does not miss this moment.

His songs are Mean It by Gracie Abrams, Love by Lana Del Rey, I Lied by Lord Huron and Allison Ponthier, I Has Some Help by Post Malone and Morgan Wallen, party favor by Billie Eilish, Call Your Mom by Noah Kahan, Billie Bossa Nova by Billie Eilish.

Rj:

2oS rx, PoS rx, 6oS, QoW, 8oC rx, PoW rx, 10oW rx, 7oW, 2oP, AoS, KnoC rx, Star, 4oC, Justice.

They seem to have recently made a choice, for better or worse, not letting themselves me blinded by indecision or fear. They've been facing the anxiety that they feel in a somewhat defensive energy. Perhaps they are dealing with a bit of gossip by being super blunt and cut throat about it. This is helping them move away from something that has been troubling them for quite some time, allowing them to step in their power, their passion, their verve and creativity, allowing themselves to be the hottie they are. They've let that house of cards fall, they have willingly let go and walked away from a path that does not serve them, one that brought them more trouble than what it was worth. They're released the burden and are now spending their energy defending and believing in something they know is for them and that they know is worth it. They may be feeling a bit of doubt or opposition though, hence the seven of wands present. They will get some sort of divine message, divine confirmation, something that they literally cannot ignore or deny as much as they try to. This is a manifestation of all their hopes and dreams as much as they don't want to believe it. It seems as though they are the type of person that when they get what they want, they become afraid to take it but, this is their justice, their reward for going through what they did.

PoS rx, 6oP, 4oS, Hanged man rx, Lovers rx, 3oW, 2oP, 10oP rx, KoW, Devil rx, 8oS rx, 6oW, 7oW, Hierophant, 10oW rx, QoC, 6oC, Justice.

"I don't wanna say too much" proceeds to drop 25% of my deck... So, I'll keep this as brief as possible. This is incredibly healing, incredibly rejuvenating, forcing them to see things from all kinds of perspectives, causing them to come to complete stops and check in with themselves. It seems as though either they too have left a relationship not meant for them or they are aware of Jin leaving his and are in this active waiting energy, preparing for their ships to dock or to travel themselves. They are and are seeking balance and reciprocal energy, the ability to build from the bottom up, not on the foundations set by others. They are definitely heading towards each other with such speed, dropping their vices and unhealed energy along the way. They have spent a lot and I mean a lot of time releasing themselves from this mental prison they've enforced on their self and they are so ready to experience this victory, this moment of recognition they've been waiting for. This is something that they deem important to protect as it was revealed unto them by someone of high spiritual standing. They are still releasing their binds, releasing their burdens and worries, letting themselves open up and be vulnerable and loving. They're healing their inner child, letting themselves fall deeply in love with life again. This is so utterly deserved, definitely after all they've been through.

Hawk, Cub, Mallard, Squirrel, Lion.

The hawk gives us intelligence, independence, clarity and allows us to adapt while the cub is all about the inner child. It seems as though they may harbor some resentments about having to grow up faster than their peers which is a valid feeling but, the hawk warns us that all is not what it seems. I have a feeling that they should definitely have a talk with their parents especially since there were two songs in Jin's part of the reading that mentioned talking to their partners parents and somehow seamlessly transitions into each other. The mallards call awakens our subconscious and our dreams while the squirrel encourages us to prepare for the future with a healthy work life balance, while the lion shows us pride through the divine masculine and father. To me it reads as though they have been having a lot of dreams about this, innumerable dreams about Jin, their connection, and their relationship with their parents and growing up. They may have to address what the divine masculine and what fatherhood means to them in order to properly prepare for their future. Good luck to them.

Their songs are Figurines by Gigi Perez, Fireworks by Mitski, The A Team by Ed Sheeran, Ancient Names, Pt. I by Lord Huron, Bird cage blue and yellow by Yaeklore, Lets Fall in Love for the Night by FINNEAS.

Songs they want to send to each other

Jin: When She Smiles by Gigi Perez, A Pearl by Mitski, Kid & Leveret by Yaeklore (the fly is back), Sun to Me by Zach Bryan, WHAT'S GOOD by Tyler the Creator, Third of May/ Ōdaigahara by Fleet Foxes

Rj: Flowers by Faye Webster ft Father, Loving Is Easy by Rex Orange County ft Benny Sings, My Vine by Wasia Project, Home by Bruno Major, rises the moon by Liana Flores

J-Hope:

PoP rx, Hermit, Star, 5oP, AoP rx, 10oW rx, World, 8oS, 4oC, 9oC, KnoS, 8oP.

So, ha, he's in a good but longing energy. Anytime I do a reading and a Hozier song is involved, it instantly takes the yearning to a level catastrophic- specifically this one. There might have been something in his physical life that is drawing more of his attention, away from something or someone he cares about which to him, is bad news bears. Thankfully though, it is giving him time to turn within the self, possibly meditating more often, focusing on things that give him hope, his northern star. I get a tired energy from him, possibly from the touring and traveling. He could be in a position where he may be needing some help, but those around him are unable to help him in the way he needs. Those around him can help him financially if so be it but- in reality he wants to release the "burden of his passions" so to speak... I get the feeling that if he is able to have this... releasing energy... it might actually cause him to spiral so he's being- pent up... on purpose lmfao. He knows what he wants and he is refusing and also is unaccepting of anything unlike it. He may be experiencing a but of doubt but, he knows where his pride and contentment lay, where his achievements will reside so he is taking great stride to work hard, doubly hard for it. Man is on a mission. Considering how private he is, this is a shock lmao.

2oP rx, 10oS, 2oW, KoP rx, 4oP, Wheel of Fortune rx, 8oP, 7oC, 4oC, QoS rx, KoC rx, 10oC rx, 3oS rx, Strength.

Alright, I heard "mah angel, mon cherie (≧▽≦)" how cute lol. It may seem that he feels currently that him and Mang may be at odds in the sense that they might be juggling with a lot at the moment which isn't really allowing them to connect which then turns him into somewhat of this lovesick puppy that whines until their human comes home lmao. He may be victim to the accursed doomscrolling on social sites when in this energy. When it comes to Mang though, even though he may experience some doubt, his pathway is clear. Even if it doesn't make sense, is unstable, or he loses all his money he chooses to hold in, kind of like Jimin and hoarding his treasures. It's as though, even if the wheel changes and fate has another plan, he will work to the bone to realign to the current energy of Mang. He could be offered many different options, choices, pathways in life, but if it is not what and who he wants, he is simply not doing it. The universe could cry blood asking him to shift and he would not care, he is a man that knows exactly what he wants. He wants to be the one that holds and heals their heart, and gives them the strength to continue.

Whitetail, Turkey, Bear, Hippo, Mallard.

OOF this is strong lmao. The whitetail heralds a rebirth, walking us through the process while turkey encourages us to dive into our primal instincts. It seems as though our boi is going through a deep rebirth, taking on a new form of himself that has always been there but wrapped up in the frond of others expectations of him. This rebirth is intrinsically tied to his wild and primal side. The bear is the mother, reparenting oneself while hippo is the abundance, reaping of rewards and indulgence, It seems as though this rebirth was spurred on by him either reconnecting or connecting deeper to a maternal person in his life and sequentially the maternal energy within him. This is allowing him to indulge and enjoy more than what he has before with this broader view. Lastly, the mallard guides us into the subconscious mind, into the dream state. His dreams must be wild as all hell, expansive and exploratory. It is possible he is getting his signs through the dreams he has.

His song is First Time by Hozier. Cheeky little thing snuck in Adore You by Harry Styles

Mang:

Hierophant, 10oC rx, QoS rx, World, 10oW rx, 2oS rx, 9oS, QoW.

It seems as though they are in both the student and the teacher position here. They seem to be someone that has answers that come from both experience and a divine place, to which they are always learning and sharing what they learn. I'm more specifically drawn to the keys at the feet of the Hierophant and the scepter as well as positioning of the Hierophants hands. In traditional tarot, the scepter is a symbol reserved for the pope which indicates spiritual authority. The keys unlock spiritual enlightenment and the consciousness of the subconscious. The two fingers are related to the magicians posture, encouraging one to live practically through ideals as well as acknowledging divide and union. It seems as though Mang is a highly spiritual force of nature. Someone who knows their shit and is not one to be trifled with. It seems as though they may be experiencing some misfortune in familial life, something that left them feeling disempowered, as though they were being heavily scrutinized, over criticized. This is an energy that they have personally closed out and moved away from, they have released the burdens placed onto them by others and refuse to pick them back up. The wool has been removed from their eyes and they see as clear as the new telescope NASA launched. That doesn't mean that they are immune to doubt, anxiety and general low times, but they are someone who can and will bounce back with the force of ten million suns.

4oC, QoS rx, Sun rx, 10oS, 5oS rx, KoW, 5oC rx, 8oC, AoP rx, 8oW rx.

This energy is giving me the feeling of post concert blues a little bit. It to me reads as though they are also very clear about what they want both in regards to J-Hope and in life in general. While they may be open to experiencing new things, there are some things that are near and dear to their heart that they refuse to accept a lesser version of it. This gives me the feeling of someone who'd fully curse out their spirit team for "playing in their face" so to speak. They too seem to be experiencing a serious lull, some heavy doubt about this, as well as a terrible sense of longing- as though their heart is being pulled by an invisible string. They may currently be feeling as though they are bogged down by a lot of things in live, however they are surrendering to the notion because while they are aware that that is the natural due process and order of things. They are aware that, ultimately in the end, they are in charge of their path and their journey, and that their passion for this and for him is what keeps it going, They've already over come so much throughout their journey, they're not going to let a small hiccup slow them down. They are ready, willing and capable of walking away from all that they've built if it no longer serves them, but in this case, they are more than ready to take that next step. It's just a matter of divine timing of when that door opens up and that opportunity comes rolling in. Until then, they are forced to take it slow, to focus on the mundane and be present in their life.

Frog, Swan, Turtle, Penguin, Tapir, Goat.

The frog reminds us of the importance of our spiritual hygeine, how important it is to cleanse the space around us and ourself as well as our energy, and swan is an auspicious symbol of soulmates, a divine connection within another. At this current moment, Mang is being encouraged to and is cleansing their spiritual space and practice, resetting their altars, cleansing their cards, and most importantly cleansing their mind and their spirit, they are releasing the old and what no longer serves to make space for the new that the swan heralds. It may be important for them at this time to have a good cry in the shower, one that is ugly yet releasing and empowering, one that you fall into a deep ass nap after words and wake up like you got transported to the year 3005. Have I said this before? No? Then I'm gonna say it again, I fucking love it when the cards confirm intuitive pings :) The turtle is about patience, allowing divine timing to take its place, while the penguin connects us to family, close relationships and our social life. They are being reminded once again that patience is a virtue, and that they should reach out to their support system for comfort and- well support lol. Suffering in silence gets one nothing but silent pain. The tapir reminds us the value of acting in service to others, curbing our selfishness while the goat reminds us of our untapped potential, our fertility (creativity), virility as well as stubbornness. To me, this reads as Mang already being a rather giving person, someone who would donate to charity when they can, someone who strongly supports moral causes, however, with the addition of the goat, it seems to me that they have barely tapped the surface of their greatness. Perhaps they are trapped in the mindset of being of service to others, stubbornly avoiding the service of themselves. I get the feeling that this untapped potential within them has something to do with things being readily available within their reach but this stubborn energy of the goat preventing them from reaching out. Good luck to them

Their song is Please be Rude by Gigi Perez

Songs they want to send to each other

J-Hope: WILDFLOWER by Billie Eilish, U Deserve by Wasia Project, Nomad by Clairo, She Won't Go Away by Faye Webster, Feels Like a Dream by Rocco, Sign by Liana Flores.

Mang: Landslide (Remastered) by Fleetwood Mac, Sun to Me by Zach Bryan, my future by Billie Eilish, The View Between Villages by Noah Kahan, Sunlight by Hozier, Chemistry by Gigi Perez.

Rm:

Everything is fine, 3oW rx, 9oS, 8oS rx, 6oP rx, 9oC rx, PoS rx, KNoP, 3oP, 4oP rx, KnoC, 4oS rx, PoC, PoP rx, 6oS, 10oS, 2oS, 10oW, KoP rx.

So, everything is definitely not fine. It is giving defeatist, "I'll just lay here and hurt thank you". There is an air of feeling as though there isn't much of anything worth waiting for anymore, guy really wants to go home. He is not enjoying his time, he barely gets much sleep if he even sleeps, if his mind gives him a break from the constant cycle of over thinking and thinking about all the worst case scenarios. It feels as though he is trying to battle that by being more selfish with his energy and himself but it doesn't feel like himself, he doesn't feel as though he is achieving anything worth noting where he is currently physically and emotionally. I get the feeling with the page of swords reversed, he might've gotten some news that really upset him, but theres this acceptance energy? "I can't force it/you"? Regardless of that, he is taking his time day by day, the knight of pentacles is slow moving grounded energy. With the three of pentacles, he could be working alongside a group of people or specific person. Perhaps seeking counseling to overcome and let go of these things that took more precedent in his life than himself. It reads as though these are the practical steps he's taking to be able to offer a romantic proposition to someone or to better connect with himself and emotions. Honestly with the four of swords in the reversed position as the energy of coming out of inactivity and a restful period and going into an action based one it does seem like it is towards a person, possibly Koya. It feels as though this is a new energy, someone he has yet to meet? It seems as though the blockage to this is rooted in a lack of groundwork, a lack of following through and not seizing opportunities, perhaps a lot of bad news in earthly matters such as finances or health as well. He is trying his best to get the hell outta dodge, to heal slowly but- he is still overcome with grief and sadness at some sort of betrayal he felt. It seems as though this is something locked away deep inside of him that he is too afraid? to let out? He'd rather bare the weight of the burden as though it is his sacred duty. Even though it is actively working against his innate grounded and stable persona and aura.

4oS rx, 4oP rx, 6oP rx (clarified by 7oC, KnoS, 4oS rx, 9oS rx, Fool, KnoC), PoP, PoC rx, Hanged man rx, 6oC rx, Death, 8oC rx, 9oP, 9oC, 10oP rx, QoC rx, PoS rx, 9oS rx, AoS, QoS rx, 10oC, 2oC, 4oW, KoS rx, Empress rx, AoW rx, 7oS, Magician, Moon, Strength, Justice rx.

As I said before, it feels as though this energy is coming out of stagnancy, it is coming out of storage. It seems that something here is mending, there is a lot of releasing, of oneself and especially the control of the self or imposed by another. It's like this expectation they had of themselves, Koya and Rm, are being released, purposefully, selfishly and somewhat violently purged from themselves. Their are many options afford to them, but it takes too much time and effort to choose? So they're going buckwild and trying to seize every opportunity afforded to them, again coming out of inaction, diving straight into action, releasing the anxiety, the fear, they had to break down in order to build back up I suppose. It's a new era for them both and they are taking massive leaps of faith towards each other. There is a lot of effort being made in earthly matters, it feels like some sort of teamwork but on opposite poles. It seems as though for either one or both of them, their childhood traumas are causing them significant delays, possibly causing one of them to stall quite a bit. Thankfully they are both letting go of the past, resolving their childhood issues and maturing further in these aspects. One or both of them might be leaving from their home soon. There is a lot of new energy here waiting to come through the door but, you can't fit anything new in a closet full of junk so they're clearing out all of that energy for these new things. It isn't easy, there is a lot of attachment to these things as suggested in the eight of cups in the reversed position, there is some fears of moving on and fears of commitment to certain things on both sides. Regardless, he is hoping for the both of them, mainly Koya to prosper, to profit, to elevate themselves and social status for their own wellbeing. I get the feeling that he has come to terms with the fact that he cannot create a new generation by himself which- nvm...

He wants for someone to be emotionally mature enough to not be shaken by whatever might be said in the press, someone who can use their intuition to tell when something is wrong. However it seems that he is aware that is a bit unreasonable as that person would be akin to an unhealed queen of wands, someone who is very harsh in their punishments and jaded as all hell from past pains. He really wants a happy ending, a happy home life, the ability to cross the ocean and offer this proposal, to celebrate a successful union but- he feels like he is being too imposing, coming off too strong and controlling? I feel as though he might be scared of scaring off Koya, making them feel insecure anxious, and unstable which throws them off balance and off their game. He fears that it affects them to the point of it causing delays, creative blocks, kind of like spooking a turtle back in their shell. However, he knows that this is mostly his anxious thoughts overstepping, kind of like getting carried away within the thralls of an intrusive thought storm. He's doing what he can, with what he has practiced and mastered to go within and illuminate the shadows, mustering up as much strength as he can because he feels as though this isn't over and was possibly unfairly judged?

Cardinal, Bear, Swan, Jellyfish, Elephant, Kangaroo, Penguin, Goat.

The cardinal is a sign that we have divine visitors, angelic presences, love, divination, empathy, devotion and passion while the bear is mother energy, reparenting oneself. It seem as though he is healing himself and reparenting himself through connecting to important spiritual figures in his life and beyond. I have the feeling he could be mainly connecting with a grandmother spirit that really helps him especially in his connection to Koya. Funnily enough to get swan in a reading is to be made aware of your soulmate connections, whereas the jellyfish remind us to release our expectations and go with the flow. It seems as though he has a specified focus on a divine connection with someone, highly likely Koya as there are two cards pointing towards spiritual soulmate connections. He currently is and needs to work with his spiritual team to learn how to go with the flow, to minimize damage to his sensitive parts by minimizing the friction created when trying to go against the flow of the ocean currents. The elephant warns us of obstacles yet reminds us of our strength, wisdom and endurance where as kangaroos revive our raw energy, vitality and optimism. To overcome the obstacle at hand, he must remember his own strength, tap into his raw energy and vitality, tackle the obstacle head on and regain his sense of optimism. The penguin reminds us of our family and close relationships while the goat awakens our untapped potential, virility, fertility, and sometimes stubbornness. Now is a time for him to spend as much time as he can with those who replenish him for there is yet parts of himself to be unlocked to reach the true peak of who he is.

His songs are deja vu by Olivia Rodrigo, Getting Older by Billie Eilish, Still by Noah Kahan, Kill For You by Gigi Perez, Use Somebody by Kings of Leon, My Love Mine All Mine by Mitski, DOGTOOTH by Tyler, The Creator, Kid & Leveret by Yaeklore, I Will Be Back One Day by Lord Huron, Earned It (Fifty Shades of Grey) by The Weeknd, Congratulations by Post Malone ft Quavo, Good Days by SZA, watch by Billie Eilish, Why by Sabrina Carpenter, When She Smiles by Gigi Perez.

Koya:

AoS rx, 5oC, 7oP rx, 10oP rx, PoP, KoS, 9oP rx, Emperor rx, AoC, AoP rx, 7oS, 6oC, 5oP rx, Star, PoS rx, Tower rx, KnoC, 3oP, Wheel of Fortune, Chariot rx, Fool, 10oC, 4oC, Hermit, 6oW, 5oW rx, 8oW.

I smelled mothballs as soon as I started to shuffle, they might have mothballs around or they've been seeing a lot of moths around them and their home, possible a child of Hekate. What I'm reading from this is that they had a heavy bout of doubt, it seems as though there was a message that was trying to get through to them that they could not receive as they were too lost within the fog of their own mind. Heavily dealing with creative blocks and failures, falling for misinformation, possibly making several wrong decisions along the way. Damn poonks :/ Anywho, they experienced a really heavy loss- to them but it was basically them sobbing and crashing out over spilt milk but it was still something that was serious to them. It left them feeling as though all of the work that they put in wasn't worth it, all those long hours and late nights amounted to nothing seemingly, leading them to feel like their future was in jeopardy... seemingly. Everything turned out somewhat fine, they dusted themselves off and kept it pushing. You know that tiktok sound of female rage? Yeah, that was them except only screaming that slows down to jelly fish jam from Spongebob. They restarted their journey from where it left off but with more intention, using their past experiences as stepping stools and guide marks of where not to step. It seems as thought this crash out was part of a rift between Koya and Rm, one where they were being way more logical than emotional, trying to be fair to Rm but forgetting themselves in the mix. They felt as though they couldn't compare in some ways, they still feel less accomplished, not attached to the masculine energy within them enough to work towards what they want. They have the love, the full cup, but they've missed a lot of the physical and material opportunities to push themselves forward. The reason of them missing these opportunities is this deep engrained need to hide and shelter themselves, to be sneaky and strategic with their energy and presence due to childhood trauma related to being harmed due to simply being perceived. The are healing, receiving help and are coming out of a bad financial spot though, thankfully. They are trying to stay positive, to keep the hope and keep wishing, but they are probably one more bad news away from another more severe crashout. It's like they are trying to hold themselves together with a kindergarteners arts and craft project. I love when the cards confirm each other because it does seem like they've both made this pact to work with each other to take all steps necessary towards each other, including I'm hearing promising to send specific signs to each other?

The wheel of fate is in their favor here, I'm also hearing "fortune favors the bold" so perhaps they have to do something bold and out of the box that they would never think to do in a million years. It feels as though, currently, they are powerless against stopping themselves from making these leaps of faith, the only problem being is that they lack direction, could be making a leap of faith and land on the same exact spot honestly. Regardless, they are working towards and will achieve this harmonious reunification that they are looking for, unfortunately they will have to go within themselves and clear out the weeds, dust off the old books to find the keys they are missing, which, they don't want to do. They just have to grit their teeth and bear it because their success is right around the corner. They could possibly be an up and coming star/celebrity, about to put themselves on the line for the first time. It may happen in a place where there is no competition though, only camaraderie or, them having to submit to the energy and let it slingshot them forward.

Sun rx, 9oP rx, PoC rx, Magician rx, Moon rx, 8oW rx, High Priestess, 10oS, 9oS rx, 9oW rx, PoW rx, Hierophant, Star, Chariot.

So... things are not good... Thankfully the high priestess is here, indicating that they know exactly what is wrong and how to fix it. It seems like the rift that happened has yet to be healed, it seems as though Koya is still somewhat worried? They feel incredibly sad, theres this heavy energy so possibly oppressed as well. It seems as though they did not want to be financially dependent on their partner. It definitely seems as though this rift was caused by unrealistic expectations or fears from Koya, possibly worrying about their place in Rm's life and what it'd mean for them, it seems like this was definitely spurred on by childhood trauma wounds reopening. They did not feel all that in control, they felt as though they were manipulated by something in there personal life, tricked, or lacking mental clarity about something due to this heavy "weight of the world" energy that bled over into their connection with Rm. It's as though they deceived themselves by diving into places they knew they shouldn't go, spurring anxiety and causing their own intuition to be blocked. It slowed down the progress a whole lot and as I mentioned before, they had some sort of divine messages that wanted to come in but couldn't because of their mental state. They are aware of this, I mean, became aware of this after some time, after solving the riddles the Sphinx left behind, Now they're left feeling rather- like a pin cushion if you will. They need some time to heal as it seems as though their trust is still shaky here. They're thankfully no longer spiraling, rather going with the flow, not putting up a resistance to the change that needs to happen. They are painfully aware of how gullible they were though. It seems as though with the hierophant that they are slowly overcoming this through reconnecting with the divine. They could be a reader or someone who is spiritual and has access to the keys at the feet of the hierophant to unlock the necessary doors. They just have to focus on their hopes, dreams and wishes while they are being rushed forward.

Skunk, Salamander, Moose, Boar, Kangaroo, Lion, Lizard, Squirrel.

The skunk reminds us that there are alternative solutions, to rely on our resourcefulness while the salamander encourages us to partake in the alchemical process. It seems to me our dear Koya needs to turn to their resourcefulness to find an alternate solution to the blockages their facing, perhaps the solution is to simply turn their woes into their power. The imposing moose shows us the obstacles at hand, and the possibility of giving something too much power over us, while the boar is the destroyer, our self sabotage. OOf that felt like a call out to myself lmfao anywho, Koya might be giving their fears way too much power over them, making them seem bigger than they appear which feeds into this cycle of sabotaging their own efforts. The kangaroo gives us raw energy, vitality, and optimism while the lion rekindles our relationship with the divine masculine and father. It reads to me that Koya is needing to really tap into their optimism here to heal their relationship with the idea of the father as well as their divine masculine energy of action. The lizard warns us the repetition of cycles and unlearned lessons, the squirrel encourages us to build proper work life balances and prepare for the future. It seems as though Koya is in a pivotal moment in their life. They're needing to recognize the patterns in their life and put an end to the repetition, create a better work life schedule in order to prepare for their future. Good luck to them!

Their songs are Crybaby by SZA, Liquid Smooth by Mitski, I Carrion (Icarian) by Hozier, I'm Right Here by Young Spirit, 911/ Mr. Lonely by Tyler, The Creator Ft Frank Ocean and Steve Lacy, Kid & Leveret by Yaeklore (again???), Son of a Gun by Lord Huron, Way Down We Go by KALEO, San Luis by Gregory Alan Isakov, Photograph by Ed Sheeran, Six Feet Under by Billie Eilish, Daylight by Harry styles, Please Be Rude by Gigi Perez.

Songs they want to send to each other

Rm: Chemicals by Gregory Alan Isakov, Let It Go by James Bay, Sun to Me by Zach Bryan, come out and play by Billie Eilish (help?), Georgia by Vance Joy, It Will Come Back by Hozier (HELP? HELLO?)

Koya: I Carrion (Icarian) by Hozier, To Be Alone by Hozier, SWEET/I THOUGHT YOU WANTED TO DANCE by Tyler, The Creator ft Brent Faiyaz & Fana Hues, Billie Bossa Nova by Billie Eilish (chile- so anyways), Washing Machine Heart by Mitski, First Time by Hozier.

[tryingahandinholdingapen]

I've read several fics in which KRS, instead of ending up as Cale, instead ends up as a child (sometimes specifically a Korean child) in Roan and yk what that makes me really want?

I want a fic where KRS (small Korean child, much older than he looks) and Choi Han (only other Korean person the people of TCF have ever seen, ALSO much older than he looks) are having a bit of a disagreement or argument, and for whatever reason Choi Han tries to pull the age card. Says something like kid I am a hundred years older than you respect your elders, except not exactly that because that wouldnt be IC at all, but something along those lines yk. This does NOT work because KRS is like hello?? you are LESS than a century older than me (if you want to add extra effect let's say for whatever reason KRS is older than usual here (maybe this isn't the first time he's transmigrated?) so KRS himself is like, 70 or smth minimum) most of which doesn't even count because you have JACKSHIT real life experience. also you're not fully grown either! (Choi Han is still physically like 17 which means if his aging wasn't weird he'd probably still have at least one growth spurt ahead of him) stop trying to pull the age card!!! you're not a Real AdultTM either!!!

and whoever is listening/eavesdropping promptly adds 2 and 2 and gets 5 (completely understandably to be fair, with the information they have) because like

okay

as far as I can tell, opinions seem to vary on if/to what extent different ethnicities exist on Nameless? But certainly less than on Earth, and certainly Korean isn't one of the ethnicities they'd recognise, plus there's generally a pretty solid belief that theres the Western Continent and the Eastern Continent and That's It. BUT what they do have are an absolute shit ton of different sapient SPECIES, a lot of whom the average person may never meet or even heard of, either because they're rare as fuck (e.g. dragons) or because they're in hiding (e.g. dark elves). And a lot of the non-human species age completely differently

So what I'm saying is

If someone saw Choi Han and child!KRS, the only Korean people they've ever seen, having an argument that includes reference to Choi Han being 'only' about a century older than KRS, and therefore still a child, which is more likely for them to believe?

Option a) Choi Han + KRS are an ethnicity they've never seen before, either from a place they've never heard of before or from an entire other world, and the age thing is either a lie or a running joke that these two for....some reason...decided to treat seriously even in the middle of an argument <- this option requires breaking several of the character's existing beliefs about the world and requires the assumption that Choi Han + KRS are treating the lie/joke as way more important than whatever argument they're having

Option b) KRS + Choi Han are being serious about the ages, and are some species the character(s) have never heard of that ages differently to humans. specifically one where reaching actual adulthood takes Ages but the children are still fairly mature+capable <- this option doesn't create the weird question of "why would these two treat a joke about age more seriously than their argument" and also doesn't really challenge the character(s)'s understanding of the world. like yes, it does require the assumption that there's a species in the world that the character(s) didn't yet know about/recognise BUT depending on where this is in the timeline and/or which character(s) is doing the eavesdropping (.....and on the assumption that I'm not just getting dark elves + necromancers confused, which I might be, in which case, oope) then they've already had the "well I thought x species/profession was extinct but it turns out they're not" realisation, and could reasonably go "...maybe these two are like that?" Or they could assume that like dragons, whatever species this is is just very rare and tends to isolate themselves. Either way! Wouldn't challenge their perception of the world nearly as much. It'd be fine on the age front as well - Raon is definitely a child at 4 years old but there was also like, zero hesitation on KRS!Cale's part in believing that the kid was mature+capable enough to manage/live on his own, so there's precedent for people at least believing that some of the species that age slower may have children that are nevertheless quite mature, kind of thing

This got really long and I have no idea how coherent I'm being but the short version is I want a fic wherein someone(s) assume that Choi Han and child!KRS are an unknown long living species, and I want this assumption to happen right near the beginning of it all and for that misunderstanding to then snowball/affect a shit ton of other things as time + plot proceeds

[genderqueerdykes]

hello! Question! so from this post:

https://www.tumblr.com/genderqueerdykes/772796354687909888/on-the-topic-of-mobility-aids-i-just-want-to-throw?source=share

this section kinda threw me off

if you struggle to walk for extended periods of time (30+ minutes uninterrupted) you probably need some type of aid.

because I? can barely walk around my house for even a minute without my legs hurting and becoming out of breath/dizzy? I mean, it varies day-to-day and it seems to be worse in the winter but generally speaking I always struggle a lot with walking. I figured I was just, unfit or smth. it's what has been suggested to me by family at least? I mean, I have some other physical conditions but nothing leg-pain/walking related. and I was under the assumption this was relatively normal? for more info I'm a young teenager, so there's also been "you're just young/growing/going through puberty" and such. and I was just curious if

A) this is normal

and

B) if not, should I? look into canes/some other form of mobility aid?? how would I even go about this really I guess

thanks sm for all you do by the way! :]

this is not normal, or rather, healthy/abled, i suppose

most able bodied people are able to stand on their feet easily for an hour or more, especially if the standing does not require much extra exertion. a lot of able bodied people are capable of taking multihour hikes, or taking long walks through their neighborhood or city. many abled people are capable of going on long walks with their dogs, or jogs. 30 minutes is a very short amount of time. if one starts getting dizzy and has difficulty breathing during this time, that's especially alarming. there may be an issue with your blood volume when transitioning from sitting to standing

have you ever been tested for POTS (postural orthostatic tachycardia syndrome) or looked into it?

i really don't like it when people dismiss these things due to someone's age. it doesn't matter how young or old you are, that's highly concerning. that is not normal for adults to experience let alone children. I'm so sorry you're being brushed off like this. that can potentially be very dangerous for you to live with unchecked

preventative care really should be what's prioritized here. I'm so sorry your issues are being dismissed like that. that's no small thing to deal with. that's a huge problem. nobody should brush that off as growing pains

you can definitely look into getting a cane if you'd like, though something like a rollator walker may be more ideal for you if you're dealing with lightheadedness after standing for short periods of time. those aren't easy to get though so i understand wanting to start with a cane. keep in mind that if you are dealing with POTS, you're going to experience that dizziness when you transition into standing regardless of whether or not you have an aid to improve your balance

you're more than welcome to research canes, walkers, and whatever other mobility aids you think could help! i would honestly start by reading about different aids and learning about what conditions they benefit and what cons they might have. you can either search things like "mobility aids" on here or google things like "benefits of using a walker" or something to that effect. with you being young it'll be hard to buy any kind of aid other than a cane, as canes are cheap and sold at almost any place that has a pharmacy including Walmart, Target, Kroger, and so on

[hwnglx]

this man is a complex person, i tried my best to explain it with my limited english heh 🥹 hope it's still an enjoyable read

mingyu's ideal type

based on tarot. i do not know these idols personally. energies are always changing. what i say is NOT straight fact. pls take it with a grain of salt!

physical traits

youthful facial features. big, bright and expressive eyes. (i can see him liking glittery and sparkly eye make up on girls) fair complexion. athletic and firm build. fairy like but intense. strong air and fire influences. i keep seeing taeyeon from snsd.

personality traits

mingyu wants a person who's unconditionally loyal to him. i remember for my svt love reading, i got lethargic energy from him, and i think a lot of that might come from mingyu feeling misunderstood. his birth chart is so interesting, with that sun and venus in aries plus virgo mars, he can come off strong to people. but that pisces moon softens him up a lot. he is much more sensitive than one would think.

there is this big reluctance in him when it comes to being open about his inner conflicts or self doubts, because it feels like people either won't take it very seriously, or believe he'll get over it anyway, since he usually presents himself in such a confident manner. (he can also just get embarrassed about being such an emotional man) this reading surprised me, actually. mingyu seems to really want and need a person who's patient and understanding with him. who's willing to invest their time and effort into the relationship, who's okay with the relationship probably requiring more work than others, just because he seems to not be a guy who's overly comfortable or familiar with more longterm connections.

mingyu wants a lover, who can change his perception of love. who can make him believe that love is legit, and he is a person worth trying for, a person who is capable of a committed connection. i'm in his energy, and can truly feel this inner sadness. there is this feeling of being burnt out, like no one will in fact care enough about him to put in the effort.

mingyu wants a person who can open his eyes to the better version of himself. and in his eyes, that is the version of him, that is capable of loving someone boundlessly. i keep hearing “change my mind”. i also thought of the song change me by justin bieber (again lol), which hits home to an almost scary extent, for the way mingyu seems to feel. it appears to be at this almost delusional level, of sincerely hoping there is that one person out there who will help him change. he wants to be able to let go of his ego, and show his lover his more vulnerable side, without shame. yet again, i keep feeling embarrassed for him, like it's just uncomfortable. he's deep in this perception of “men shouldn't be like this.”

mingyu likes generous and selfless people, he wants someone who will display how much they care for him in an open manner. whether that is through their words, or their actions. he seems to really love the idea of this more “traditional” wife material (the empress!), someone who will know how to nurture someone's emotional needs. he wants someone capable of intimate and deep emotional connections. he's (as many pisces moons are) someone who sees himself in other people. he subconsciously tends to mirror people, so it's an essential need for him to have someone by his side, who is more comfortable with the things he still struggles with.

he also likes people who are protective over their own territory, who look after their responsibilities and obligations in a reliable manner. mingyu wants his lover to have a clear idea of what they want in life. someone who just aligns perfectly with what he wants as well. however, he finds it very charming when they can get more shy and almost childlike and 🤭🥰 all cute and giggly when in love. he likes getting a reaction out of the person he likes.

him as a boyfriend

+ this keeps coming up again and again, but mingyu will really want to let go of his insecurities when with his lover. they tend to weigh on him so much (someone check on this man ㅠ). most of his insecurity seems to be based on his actions, which makes sense with his perfectionistic virgo mars. so, in a ❤️ connection, he feels like he needs to step up his game, and do everything in his power to satisfy his lover.

he's very giving. once mingyu is in love with someone, he'll be open and expressive about his affection towards them. there is this profound desire in him to showcase his love in a direct manner, he's very passionate. his love language is mostly based on physical touch, words of affirmation and giving gifts. he has so much aries energy, which can make him come off as very self-centered, but he's at his most generous when he starts a romantic bond. i can see him buying you the most extraordinary gifts, he'll really want to impress you, and be immensely proud if you show him the happiest reaction. like he fulfilled his mission. he truly wants to be a good boyfriend.

he's also very private when it comes to his relationships. he believes it's an intimate, and special thing, that only the two of them should be involved in. mingyu will put much value into keeping the details of the relationship a secret. i can see him loving this idea of sneaking out with his lover at night, or doing things they shouldn't be doing, at inappropriate times, with no one knowing. he loves the thrill of it. the mile high club popped into my mind, so.. do with that what you want, lol.

- well, a lot of this passion can be a short-lived sensation. mingyu will be extremely invested in the beginning stages of the relationship, feel a lot of enthusiasm and drive (“you're the love of my life”), but i can see him growing tired quickly because of all the effort and patience a relationship requires. there is this vibe of, expecting you to do a lot to keep the relationship going, but not seeing himself able to remain patient enough to do the same. blaming you for not doing the things he himself isn't even doing.

there seems to be regret, and the realization that he was the main problem in many of his failed relationships. he is now realizing, that relationships shouldn't be based on passion and emotion only, but require the ability to continuously remain committed and dedicated, which is a struggle for him. so, he wants and needs his lover to do what he can't do, and teach him a less thrilling, but more consistent way to love someone.

“i know i can often mess things up and suck at relationships, but if you believe in me and don't give up on me, i know i can turn into a better man.” is what it's giving.

[uramakimochi]

PLAYING TOGETHER

|Leclerc sister drabble| (See for more here)

Charles & Arthur Leclerc x (sister)Reader + mom Pascale

Warnings: fluff, use of Y/n, fem!R, physical fight (between children lol), R is the little sister of the Leclerc siblings because i said so, cameo of Hervé and Lorenzo.

Translated english because it's not my first language so feel free to correct me.

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The sun was shining on Monte Carlo that day and the Leclerc family, made up at that moment only of mom Pascale and her children Charles, Arthur and little Y/n, had gone to the park to play. Lorenzo was spending the afternoon at his friend's house and in reality Charles hadn't been to the playground for some time either, but under Y/n's pleas he had decided to join in too, having nothing better to do. Hervé, however, was away, leaving his wife alone to keep an eye on the 3 children, of which the two youngest were full of energy and 'complicated' to keep under control. Not to mention their arguments, promptly resolved by the older brother.

"I want to play with you too! Me too!" Y/n exclaimed as she jumped on the spot, making Charles chuckle.

But Arthur didn't seem so happy.

“Charles and i are doing grown-up things, Y/n” he retorted, rolling his eyes slightly.

Y/n pouted her lips, clutching onto his arm.

"But i'm a big girl too 'Thur. You're only two years older than me"

Arthur shrugged her off, huffing.

"You're too little! And you're a girl, Charles and i want to do boys things"

"But-"

"Go away!" Arthur interrupted her.

Y/n stomped her foot on the grass, now annoyed by her brother's attitude.

"It's not fair!"

Charles lightly tapped Arthur on the shoulder.

“'Thur stop it, Y/n can play with us, no need to chase her away” he said, alternating his gaze from Arthur to Y/n.

"But she's always stuck to us! It annoys me!" replied the youngest.

Charles noticed Y/n clench her fists at her sides, but before he could calm her down he saw her turn and run towards their mother, who was calmly sitting on a bench reading a book, alone.

"Mommyyy!"

Arthur opened his arms in exasperation.

"See?! Now she's going to snitch and cry like she always does, saying it's my fault and blah blah blah"

Charles looked at him out of the corner of his eye.

"Well... After all, it is your fault, isn't it?"

Arthur glared at him.

Meanwhile, Y/n ran to sit on the bench, next to her mother. She sat down and crossed her arms, glaring murderously at Arthur, who had just started playing football with Charles. Pascale placed the still open book on her lap and turned, shooting a small smile at her daughter.

“He’s so obnoxious” Y/n muttered. "I can't stand him when he does that"

Pascale giggled lightly, reaching out to gently pet her daughter's head.

"You're right darling. Arthur was wrong in the way he treated you, but you also have to think about the fact that he is a boy and boys are like that, they believe that girls are not capable of doing things the way they do them and so they don't want us around. Let them play a bit on their own and then you can join them"

Y/n still looked at her slightly sulkily, sad that she couldn't have fun with her brothers.

"What if 'Thur still doesn't want me?"

"Charles and i will force him to play with you, don't worry"

Y/n nodded and got up on her knees so she could give her a kiss on the cheek, making the woman smile.

"Mommy will you come with me on the swing?" Y/n asked, pointing with a finger at the empty swing.

Pascale shook her head gently.

"Darling, i'm too old and big to go on it. You go, i'll watch you from here ok?"

"Okay..."

Although still slightly sad, Y/n got off the bench, heading towards the swing. Charles glanced at her to see what she was going to do, until he was called back by Arthur.

Y/n got on the swing, starting to swing back and forth and when she saw her mother waving at her in the distance, she waved back.

A few minutes passed until suddenly, the swing suddenly stopped moving and little Y/n almost fell to the ground, taken aback, but thanks to her reflexes she managed to hold on to the chains of the swing.

"H-Hey!" she exclaimed, turning around, thinking she would find Arthur behind her, but was surprised when she saw a boy she didn't know.

The boy, you could see at a glance that he was older than her in terms of age, moved in front of her, crossing his arms.

"Move over, it's my turn now" he said.

Y/n shook her head.

"Right now i am here. I'm sorry, but if you don't ask me nicely, i won't give you my place"

One second before, Y/n was sitting on the swing and a second later, the little girl found herself pushed backwards, falling with a squeal on her back onto the grass. A small pang of pain shot through her back, causing her eyes to widen and immediately become shiny.

"Not anymore" the boy said simply, looking down at her.

The little girl's lower lip began to tremble, but before she could stand up and protest, another figure from behind her threw the boy off the swing.

"Leave my sister alone!"

The boy fell to the ground and Y/n's eyes widened again when she saw that Arthur himself had thrown himself at him, pushing him off the swing in the same way he had done with her. The boy looked at him in surprise, seeing Arthur clench his fists in anger.

"Apologize to her. Now" Arthur ordered.

But the boy, instead of answering, got up and threw himself against Arthur's body, causing them both to fall to the ground. So the two started a fight, under the frightened gaze of the younger sister.

"Arthur!" she cried in a trembling voice.

Y/n wanted to get up to help him, but it was difficult since she still felt pain from the fall. And then, before she could even get up, she saw Charles and Pascale running towards her.

“Y/n!” “Are you okay sweetie??”

The two immediately knelt next to the little girl's body, asking her questions one after the other, while the older brother's light eyes scanned his sister's body from head to toe, looking for injuries.

As soon as Y/n saw Charles, she obviously didn't miss an opportunity to hug him, seeking comfort.

“Charlieee” she whimpered.

A couple of tears came out of her little eyes, but she tried to keep herself from crying as much as possible, not wanting to look like a crybaby in front of her family. Charles looked at his mother, gently stroking his sister's back.

"HEY! ENOUGH! STOP IT YOU TWO!"

Pascale saw that while Arthur was still busy fighting with the other boy, a man was trying to get between the two of them to make them stop. She hadn't understood whether it was someone who had witnessed the scene or a relative of the other boy, yet.

"Charles, can you stay with her?" Pascale asked Charles, nodding towards Y/n.

Charles nodded without hesitation and so the mother walked away, leaving brother and sister alone.

“Hey, Y/n. Look at me, look at Charlie”

Y/n lifted her head from Charles' shoulder so she could look him in the eyes, sniffling. Charles couldn't help but smile, because even though his sister had gotten hurt, he always found her cute, even in tears.

"Are you okay? Did that guy hurt you?"

Y/n nodded, biting her lip to try to hold back the sobs and slowly showed Charles the palms of her small hands, red, dirty with dirt and blades of grass and decorated with a couple of simple scratches.

Charles made a small pout at her and quickly, but gently, tried to clean her hands as much as possible. When he finished he left a couple of kisses on both her palms, a gesture he always did with her since he learned it from mom Pascale.

“That's it, better now?” he then asked her softly.

Y/n nodded with a smile, sniffing again.

"It didn't hurt before either" she murmured.

"No? It means you're very brave, then. My sister is the bravest little girl in all Monaco, hm?" Charles said in turn, reaching up to her face to wipe away the tears.

And when he heard her giggle, Charles knew the worst was over.

Now things just needed to be resolved between Arthur and the boy who had started it all.

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When Hervé and Lorenzo returned to the house together, they certainly didn't expect to see Charles trying to console the Leclercs' youngest daughter, sitting together on the sofa.

"What happened??" Hervé asked worriedly, while Lorenzo approached his siblings, kneeling in front of Y/n, who was sitting between Charles' legs.

"Enzo..." Y/n called him, stretching out her arms to hug him.

Lorenzo wasted no time wrapping his arms around his little sister's body, as he looked over her head at Charles.

"Where are mum and Arthur?" he asked.

"In the bathroom" Charles replied, looking at both him and his father. "Arthur and another boy fought"

"What?!" "Why??" the two newcomers asked in chorus.

"Because that idiot treated Y/n badly" another voice replied in Charles' place, making everyone present turn towards it. "I saw him. He pushed her off the swing and he hurt her. He didn't even want to apologize"

Lorenzo and Hervé opened their eyes wide when they saw Arthur appear in the living room, followed by Pascale, with a bandaid on his cheek, his face dirty with dirt and one nostril of his nose covered in caked blood.

"But luckily the other boy's parents came to us and were deeply apologetic on his behalf" Pascale interjected, stroking Arthur's head with a smile. "Nobody got hurt too much and now it's all solved"

Hervé let out a small sigh.

"Thur!"

Arthur was taken slightly aback when he felt Y/n's body wrap around his, squeezing him as tight as she could in her arms. Normally Arthur would have made her move away, feeling disgusted (jokingly of course), by his sister's affection, but at that moment he just didn't feel like doing it.

Because even though among the three older brothers, Arthur was the one Y/n tended to argue with the most, their parents knew perfectly well how fond and protective he was of his little sister, in the same way Lorenzo and Charles were. He was the kind of brother that "Only i can bully and make fun of my sister, if YOU do that i'll punch you." In fact, that was exactly what happened that day.

Arthur returned the hug with a small smile, patting Y/n's head.

"I'm sorry if i made you go away today" he muttered, even though everyone in the room could hear what he was saying. "If i hadn't done it, you wouldn't have gotten hurt"

Y/n shook her head frantically.

"I-I don't care 'Thur! But are you okay?? Does it hurt a lot??" she asked back, pointing to the band-aid on his face.

Arthur shook his head, touched by the fact that she was still worried about him, despite everything.

"No, i'm fine now, don't worry" he replied, taking her hand with his. "I promise you that i'll let you play with us more often, even if it's boys' things. So you won't be alone anymore"

Arthur and Charles exchanged a quick look and the former saw the satisfied smile of the other, who nodded.

Y/n also seemed even happier than him upon hearing her brother's words, hugging him again and more tightly.

"Thank you Arthur, thank you! I love you so much you know that?"

Arthur rolled his eyes with a smile.

"Me too... Hey! But i don't want you around all the time. You have to leave us alone sometimes, and i mean just us brothers, okay?" he asked back, making everyone else, including Y/n, giggle.

She nodded, continuing to hug him with her eyes closed and rubbing her cheek on his shirt.

"Okay~"

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It's so late and i should go to sleep, hope i didn't make a lot of mistakes lol hope u still like it

[astromancy-divinare]

Luigi Mangione's 2024 Tropical & Sidereal Solar Return Charts

According to British writer and blogger G. S. Bhogal, Luigi told him via email last spring that he would be in Japan for the start of May 2024. Luigi's birthday is May 6, so for his 2024 solar return chart I used the location Nara-shi, Japan. I read in an article that Luigi mentioned hiking there on Reddit. Luckily the entirety of Japan is under one time zone so it doesn't matter which city I use, it produces the same ascendant.

I used 9PM as his time of birth. You can read how I narrowed down his birth time via chart rectification here.

Luigi's tropical and sidereal solar return charts from 2024 are incredibly interesting. After analyzing these charts I am even more convinced that his birth time must be close to 9PM and that he is indeed a Scorpio rising.

💥12th house lord, Saturn, is in the 1st house:

This placement indicates that Luigi strongly felt the need to retreat from his family and friends to spend time in isolation.

💥Saturn is conjunct the ascendant in the 1st house:

This placement can indicate losing weight during the solar return year. It's obvious from the photos and footage of Luigi after his arrest compared to photos of him living in Hawaii that he lost quite a bit of weight. Luigi also physically appears to be much more serious during this solar return year.

💥Ketu (South Node) in the 8th house:

This placement indicates intense sudden changes happening in Luigi's life that revolve around death.

💥Moon is in the 3rd house:

This placement indicates that Luigi's actions and words will become much more noticeable during this solar return year. Due to this placement he's capable of making a lasting impression on the general public and even becoming a role model, both of which has happened.

💥6th house lord, Moon, is in the 3rd house:

This placement indicates that Luigi wants to help under privileged people during this solar return year. His mind is emotionally inclined towards performing acts of service and taking initiatives but since the Moon is in Aries, the initiatives he takes can be aggressive. *I'm not saying Luigi is guilty, I'm saying it's a possibility that he's willingly taking the fall for a crime that he saw merit in.

💥Sun is in a Cadent house (3rd house):

This placement indicates that the most activity, productivity and change will occur in Luigi's life during the last 4 months of his current solar return year: January 2025, February 2025, March 2025, April 2025.

💥Uranus is in the 8th house:

This placement indicates sudden and profound revolutionary change in Luigi's life. This change is amplified ten fold by Uranus being conjunct Jupiter, which also happens to be the 6th house lord, indicating litigation being part of the major change happening in Luigi's life.

💥Mars is in the 7th house:

This placement indicates that someone has inspired and energized Luigi to do something that he wouldn't or couldn't do alone. That can be interpreted as either him agreeing to take the fall for Brian Thompson's death or Luigi getting strength from all of his supporters while he goes through this troubling experience.

💥6th house lord, Jupiter, is in the 8th house:

This placement can indicate Luigi being involved in illegal activities and being in danger of death via capital punishment. *Being involved in illegal activities doesn't necessarily mean that he's guilty of the crime he's being accused of. He could be willingly taking the fall or is being used as a patsy, but either way Luigi was believed by authorities to be involved in "illegal activities" and is now facing the death penalty because of it.

💥Jupiter in the 8th house:

This placement indicates Luigi benefitting financially from other people's money, such as the money donated to his legal fund and jail canteen.

💥8th house lord, Venus, in the 8th house:

This placement has blessed Luigi with the ability to remain calm and confident whilst facing a sudden and intense transformative event in his life.

💥11th house lord, Sun, in the 8th house:

This placement can indicate Luigi becoming very popular, especially on the internet, due to a sudden and intense transformative event in his life that revolves around death.

💥Moon is in the 7th house conjunct the 12th house lord, Mercury:

This placement indicates that Luigi has felt like he needed to put his own needs on hold in order to take care of or help someone else. The Moon is conjunct the 12th house lord, Mercury. The 12th house rules hidden enemies, which are people we would never suspect of being our enemy. Perhaps this is connected to whatever actually happened in December 2024.

💥Sun is in a Succedent house (8th house):

This placement indicates that the most activity, productivity and change will occur in Luigi's life during the middle part of his current solar return year: September 2024, October 2024, November 2024, December 2024.

I'm working on Luigi's 2025 tropical and sidereal solar return charts, that post will be up next.

[hopelessoptimisttea]

You know, both Eggsy and Harry tend to react violently without understanding the situation. Galahad lashes out at Professor Arnold, not understanding why he's on the loose while his colleague is presumed dead. Eggsy pounces on Harry, thinking he blew up Professor Arnold's head.

But there are some notable moments in their reactions as well. Right now, I'd like to talk about Harry.

Harry criticizes those around him, usually without getting personal or insulting them. Even when he calls Chester King a snob, he immediately softens it with the phrase “with respect.” He doesn't respond to the bandits' insults at the bar in either TSS or TGC. He makes a suggestion as to why Whiskey is working against them, but doesn't rank him on either team.

And his relationship with Eggsy demonstrates the same dynamic. During their first meeting after the time jump, Harry says, “ Your father was a brave man. A good man. And having read your files, I'd think he'd be bitterly disappointed in the choices you've made.” And this is an important detail, too: he could have said “your father would have been disappointed in you,” but he separates Eggsy's personality from the path he had to choose.

Their fight in the hut. Again, Harry could have been acting rougher as a senior agent (though it was certainly awful), but he doesn't. 

You know, I think this is partly because Harry strives to be a gentleman. It's not an image, but rather a pattern of behavior that helps him communicate. And it's also evidenced by his behavior during the amnesia.

At the same time, we should not forget that Harry is still very hot-tempered and can use force in case of anything. Yes, his anger is usually directed at negative characters, but it's still an outburst of immense rage. Harry is capable of violence, as shown at the beginning of TSS when he shoots a bound man in the knees. He's still the one who shot his dog. And Agent Whiskey. And it's pretty hard to give a definite answer here whether this is a severe necessity of his job or part of his personality. I'm a proponent that spy work affects his personality, and often in a negative way, leaving each agent with a lot of both physical and mental trauma.

[batmanfruitloops]

I gotta know about the Drcrane au, is it only inspired by Frankenstein in the sense of reanimating/making a person from the dead or are there other elements?

Like does Jonathan hate Ed like Victor hates the creature after making him? If so that’s so tragic. :(

Or is it like one of the au’s where Victor loves his creature?

Does Jervis take the place of Clerval? Or does Ed take the place of Clerval?

Why does Jon create Ed? Did he know Ed before hand and reanimate him or did he create him fully from scratch? If he created him fully from scratch what was the reason?

LASTLY is Ed similar to the creature in being somewhat of a mess of parts or is Ed “perfect”? Basically what I’m asking is does Ed only have his head recognizable as Ed or? 

Sorry I know this a lot I just really love Frankenstein and wanted to know about the au.

@quackerzzz

I haven't actually read the book, so it's just based on bits and pieces of themes and concepts that I like about the story, as well as inspiration from Frankenstien-related media. Things like Tim Burton's Frankenweenie and Young Frankenstein but it's been a while since I've watched either movie. However, I was mostly inspired by seeing someone else make a Frankenstein au with Jonathan and Ed. Unfortunately, I never saved it or anything and I'm not sure if I could find the post again, especially since it was someone else drawing pictures for the person's au. If I do find it again, or if someone knows what post I'm talking about, I'd love to credit them. I'll leave a description of what I saw in the post at the end of this one in case someone recognizes the description.

Anyway, I'm fascinated by medicine and love all things biology, so I'm more fixated on that aspect of Frankenstein's story than the themes of human hubris. I'm just curious what would happen if you brought someone back to life in such a way? In the world of medicine now, we can technically bring people back to life with resuscitation. People can be dead for hours and be brought back. We can also reattach limbs and transplant organs. So like, conceptually, you could make a Frankenstein. So what better way to explore that idea than with the blorbos, they are my little Muppets to put into whatever situation I want.

Jonathan wouldn't create Ed for the same reason Victor creates the monster but it's still a similar theme. Jo would still be very interested in psychology but based on the time Frankenstein takes place, it wouldn't be an established discipline. I'm pretty sure it wouldn't even have a name to it yet. So he'd be trying to explore psychology and his peers wouldn't really understand what he was doing and look at him like a dog chasing his own tail. Psychology is notorious for not being taken seriously, even among academics. Since you can't really measure anything. So Jonathan would be pretty frustrated. Because of this, he'd become proficient in things like physiology and neurology. Knowing how the human body physically works, especially the brain can get him closer to unlocking the secrets of the mind.

So Jonathan creates Ed to further his understanding of the human body and its relation to the brain. He wouldn't be doing it for the sole purpose of bringing Ed back to life but would be curious if it's possible (maybe even subconsciously hoping it would happen, it would be nice to not be alone). He wants to see what the brain is capable of. It's mostly an intense version of using electricity to move the muscles of a frog. If the brain suddenly has power, what will it decide to do? Would it truly be alive?

Ed isn't someone Jonathan knew, he's pretty much made from scratch. He was Ed when he died but he is still Ed after he's reanimated, he just can't remember. His body was in pretty poor condition when he died (I'm not entirely set on the details), he at least had gotten ill and likely was mutilated in some way. Ed's body is essentially a base for Jonathan to work off of. He keeps his head and then other bits and pieces from there. Ed is an unclaimed cadaver when Jonathan goes looking for parts. Jonathan feels he's technically free to use those parts for his experiments. Ed is just what he needs.

Ed is perfect after he is reanimated in a medical sense. With minimal issues, his brain accepts everything that didn't originally belong to his body. The blood type is the same, it's in the correct place, and all the blood vessels and nerves are connected as they should be. It all acts as one body. Eventually, he'd look like a normal person with only the scars from the operation, but he'd look horrific before his body healed—like a walking piece of sad jerky.

Jonathan doesn't hate Ed but he's not really sure how to handle him at first. He didn't expect Ed to be fully alive and he wouldn't expect Ed to live very long. He'd be scared to get attached for this reason. So there's a lot of strain on their friendship at first. Jonathan hardly has positive interactions with anyone and still grew up in a horrible environment. So to be thrown into a situation where he suddenly has to care about someone is very stressful. Ed is also a very clingy and affectionate person so that makes it a billion times worse. They do still become best friends as they normally do, it just takes a lot more work than usual. Before then Jo does try his best to take care of Ed even if he's being distant.

Jervis I don't think would be an equivalent to Cerval. I didn't know about this character. Instead, he is a tailor/hatter. He knew Jonathan before Ed was created but is not friends with him yet, they are good acquaintances. Jervis is one of the few people Jonathan has had a positive experience with but he's still shy and has a hard time getting close to people. Jo appreciates Jervis a lot even if he's not close with him, Jervis actually treats him like a person and doesn't guak at him. Jo especially appreciates Jervis's kindness because he is a tailor. Jervis has to get so physically close to Jonathan to tailor his clothes properly and yet he makes no comments on Jonathan's appearance or demeanor and just makes friendly conversation. He's very happy to go see Jervis any time he needs his clothes mended or something (even though he could mend it himself;)). Jo is able to fully become friends with Jervis after Ed's creation and the Dork Squad is together yet again.

-Fluffy

(Post description I was talking about undercut)

There are two drawings I'm pretty sure, In the first one Jonathan is saying something along the lines of "I need to work so don't bother me" and Ed replies with "No problem" Then the next drawing is Jonathan sitting at a table with a pencil and Ed pushing him out of the way reaching for Jonathan's pencil and saying "my turn!" and there's an arrow pointing at Ed that says "learning to write."

[twistedteatime]

Flowers

Pairing: Bucky Barnes x Fem!Scorpio!Reader

A/N: So, this one took a while. This one has some sexy time in it. Full warning. Might not seem like it but it does. MDNI 18+. There will be an extra ******* break before it. You can read up to that point and skip it if you really want to. I'm not warning any more than this and the content tag.

Warnings: LANGUAGE (really you should be expecting this from me by now). Violence. Threats. Implications of a degree of Dark!Bucky (level for you to decide). Smut. Descriptions of consensual sexual acts. 18+ ONLY. You are responsible for your own media consumption.

Word Count: 2.4k

Summary: All you wanted were some freaking flowers and a record for your boyfriend, not to get tied up in a chair in a basement. At least you get some fun out of it afterwards, though...

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AO3 Link: Flowers

*******

A geriatric, tied to a chair Irish man laughing at them was not how any one not tied up in that room expected this to go. Looking at his son just shaking his head silently laughing wasn’t a good sign either. Looking at you, seeing you weren’t laughing but just annoyed even after they hit you only confused them even more.

You were annoyed because you knew what was coming. Bucky was possibly the most protective boyfriend you’d ever had. You loved it, you really did, because it made you feel safe, cherished, and adored. He never let a day go by that he didn’t tell you in some way that he appreciated everything you did, that he cared for you, found you the most beautiful woman on Earth, the sexiest woman on Earth, and once you two became physically intimate he never let you feel unwanted in anyway.

After the HYDRA incident he took you to dinner. Properly. A nice, quiet, intimate dinner that had been the most romantic and respectful date you’d ever been on.

He even gave you flowers. From the O’Malley’s shop and explained he had talked with Mister Mickey. It was sweet and so was he, but he made it very clear he was tired of the secrets about what you were capable of doing.

So you told him over the course of a week. It relieved him to know you were capable of taking care of yourself in multiple unusual ways. So you knew what was coming.

Questions about how you wound up tied to a chair in a vintage store’s basement. Questions about why your lip was bleeding. Statements about how the panic button he had you carry around now was a good idea. Statements about how he knew your source now.

All you wanted to do was go get flowers for your sick neighbor and pop down to your secret source of records for a bit on your day off.

Simple. Quick. No drama.

Drama decided differently.

You ran into Katherine at the flower shop. She was visiting, pregnant, and you got to talking for a bit before inviting them along with you. Well, technically you invited Katherine. Mister Mickey and Mickey Junior invited themselves to keep you ladies “safe”. “Safe” wasn’t code for actual safety but code for keeping Katherine from buying the entire store out. You knew this and accepted it without revealing their actual intentions when Katherine protested that you were enough to keep her safe.

“I’m retired, besides…you can cry and con them into buying you more stuff.” You reminded her quietly causing her to laugh and agree.

It was nice. At least until a bunch of balaclava wearing assholes decided to rob the store. You hit the panic button immediately and got Katherine out the back door as quickly and safely as possible, handing her your phone to answer Bucky’s questions while you distracted them away from her. Ten seconds after that you were held up at gunpoint and directed down into the basement with the other patrons and the owner.

You tried to warn them not to do it. Instead of listening to your sage advice they slapped you across the face and busted your lip. You just licked the blood off and shook your head.

Then Mister Mickey started to laugh. Hard. Like Warwick Davis in the Leprechaun horror movie.

“What the fuck’s so funny old timer?! You get a rise out of me slapping the shit out of this bitch?!” one shouted at him and Mister Mickey just laughed again.

You knew why he was laughing. You knew why his son was laughing even though your lip was still bleeding. The debate on telling them why they were laughing raged in your head but ultimately Mickey Junior decided to speak first.

“Y’know…” Mickey Junior started as he stopped himself laughing, “I get it. Yer new to this, wanna make a name, cause fear, stake some territory…but…boys…you really shouldn’ta hit the lady. You shoulda listened to her. She was tryin’ ta save you from what’s comin’. That is why my Pa’s laughin’ like that. He knows what’s comin’.”

“And it’s why I’m annoyed. After the HYDRA incident it took me a month to convince him I didn’t need to carry a knife, a gun, and a panic button connected straight to him everywhere. Though being trapped in his apartment for a week was quite entertaining.”

“We don’t need the details.” Mickey Junior sighed and you looked at him.

“Mister O’Malley, get your mind out of the gutter. I mean watching his cat be his living alarm clock and workout partner. She sits on his back while he does pushups and meows at him like a coach.” You retorted, hearing the creak of a door overhead again, “Now…now I’m going to have to hear about how right he was about the button.”

“You…” Mister Mickey wheezed and coughed a bit, the sound covering a footstep overhead he likely knew about because his hearing aid was turned all the way up, “You really shouldn’ta hurt her. You have no idea what’s comin’…and yeah…that…that’s why I’m laughin’.”

“Oh we’ll do more than hurt her after we’re done with you!” another one snarled and you sighed.

“You really shouldn’t have said that.” you said as you glanced at Mister Mickey who nodded then braced yourself as the door behind your captors was kicked clear off its hinges.

Mister Mickey just laughed. So did his son. You just did your best not to at the look on their faces when Bucky walked in. Especially as Bucky looked absolutely furious to begin with, then his blue eyes landed on your lip before locking on your eyes ice cold.

“Which one?” he asked you and you looked at the one that did it then pointed, having slipped your hands out of the restraints and the guy looked at you.

“Your knots are shit. I warned you. You hit me. I didn’t know he’d be here this fast, but now that he is…you have one more chance to stop all this and rethink your lives.” You said as Bucky pulled off his gloves nodding, angry, removing any padding they provided, “You though…you’re about to lose a hand. He’s right-handed by the way, baby.”

“Who the fuck are you?!” one of them asked but the other ones just dropped their guns and put their hands in the air, terrified, “Oh c’mon! He’s one guy!”

“Afternoon, Barnes!” Mister Mickey greeted and Bucky sighed with an irritated growl, shaking his head at you and pointed out the door while glancing at the ones that had surrendered.

“Out. Now.” He said and they all took off, leaving just the one standing there that had hit you, “Y’know, doll, I love you an’ everythin’ but…you’re gonna have to work real hard to convince me to let you out of my sight again after this.”

“I have several ideas but I’ll spare Mister O’Malley.” You replied and Mickey Junior just shook his head as various screams were heard outside.

The one remaining assailant made a move for you. Bucky didn’t hesitate. Neither did you and another scream was added to the others with a loud crunch.

The screaming didn’t stop as Bucky dragged him up the stairs by his ankle as he held his now crushed hand. It was a circus afterwards. Police. Questions. EMTs. Spiderman. Bucky’s scowls. Your scowls.

“Go on. Get it over with.” You sighed after getting your phone back from Katherine and walking down the sidewalk with him.

“The button was a good idea.” He said and you nodded, “I know you can handle yourself, sweetie, but this…”

“This was strange. It’s a dingy little vintage shop. What the fuck did they actually want? They didn’t even touch the register. They just wanted to know where some dog statue was.” You said and he nodded.

“I know. It’s weird. That’s what I was gonna say. I know you can handle yourself and you know when to call for help, which you did right away. This was strange.” Bucky agreed and you nodded and leaned into him when he wrapped his arm around you, the vibranium one, a.k.a the one you weren’t getting away from, “I want you to start carryin’ the gun again though.”

“And there it is. The gun would not have helped in this situation.” You protested but nodded when he looked at you pointedly, “The knife might have, or the tranq pistol, but that’s Stark’s and is single shot only unless he develops one with a clip…and he doesn’t do weapons development for the masses anymore. Only his own stuff.”

“I’ll talk to him about it.”

“WHY were you here so fast?” you asked him, blinking, “With Spiderman?”

“We were in the area with Strange lookin’ for something that turned out to be a weird lookin’ dog statue. Spiderman said he’d seen somethin’ like it in a shop so we were on our way there anyway.” He answered and you shook your head.

“Strange’s level of things is above my paygrade. I do not want to get involved in the mystic stuff.” You sighed and he shook his head as you neared his motorcycle.

“Neither do I and I’ll pretend I didn’t see the collection of records in there.” He said and smirked a bit, “If you think you can convince me to.”

“Hmm…maybe.”

*******

He had reports to make. You did, too, just for being there when everything happened. So, you were responsible and did your report and made sure he did his as well.

Then you began your plan of convincing him. Not that you needed an excuse to make him melt underneath you. It was just a bonus.

You loved how he looked at you when you sat in his lap and let him run his hands over you as you worked your hips against his. You loved the way his blue eyes would lock on yours while lowering yourself onto him slowly, letting him fill you inch by inch. You loved either way it could go from there.

It didn’t matter if he took control and set the pace, his hands guiding you up and down, whispering praises into your ear as you moaned, overwhelmed with how perfectly he fit inside of you. You loved it. Especially when his hips would push up into yours, swiftly, hands holding you still or pulling you into each thrust firmly until you burst. At least once. Bucky insisted on you having at least one orgasm before he would allow himself the same.

Even if you were in charge. Even if you were setting the pace, your hands on his chest or in his, fingers laced, bouncing up and down. He insisted and he refused to cum until you did.

Every time.

Sometimes it turned into a battle. You hadn’t won yet, but you didn’t care if you hadn’t won yet. Feeling him holding himself back as he plunged in and out of you, rubbing your clit in sweet, tight circles, a determined glint in his eyes was worth losing every time. The orgasm itself was worth it every time and so was feeling him hold your hips down as he filled you right after.

The first time you told him he could he had asked if you were sure. Explaining modern birth control you assured him you were very sure; besides, you wanted to feel him. Which you did. Several times.

You loved that, too. He always made sure you were happy and comfortable every time. Naturally, you did the same, and even if he was determined to make it difficult to walk later, you never let the nights end until you made him explode. At least once.

That was a battle he hadn’t won. You didn’t let him even if he said a night was all about you. No. He was going to cum at least once before you were done. Preferably inside. Though you’d let him get away with cumming on your clit on occasion.

So you didn’t really care much about convincing him to forget about the records in the shop. You just wanted to show him how grateful you were for him and how much you adored him.

So you did.

Bucky didn’t need an excuse, and he knew he didn’t need an excuse to ask you for it. He just liked teasing you. Feeling you wrapped around him, walls drenched, clenching, fluttering and his was a dream come true.

He loved your body, every curve, every dip, valley, rise, and muscle. Most of the time he wished he had more hands. That way he could hold your hips, squeeze your breasts, rub your clit, and caress the rest of you all at the same time.

Still, Bucky tried his best, always trying his best to give you what you deserved. You were so good to him, so sweet, understanding, loving, loyal, and his. He hated to think about anything happening to you. He knew he could get a bit protective, but he couldn’t help it.

Really he didn’t need to be convinced about anything, he just wanted an excuse he didn’t need to put you on your back halfway through and start thrusting in and out slow and deep. Every inch buried in you before pulling every inch out just to bury it in you again as his lips found yours and pressed kiss after kiss to them. He knew you loved this the most. Nothing made you feel better, or him better, than making love to you.

So he did.

Not just once, either.

He wasn’t content with only once. As much as he had teased you about convincing him to forget about something he was more intent on making you forget.

Kissing your lips tenderly he sunk himself in and out as many times as it took until you could barely remember what had happened earlier. You didn’t forget it entirely. You knew it happened. You just couldn’t think of any feeling other than the pleasure, love, and safety Bucky was giving you.

Moaning his name you neared yet another climax as his bed creaked, your depths so soaked in slick and your combined pleasure you could hear each thrust just as much as you could feel it. You knew there was no one else that could ever make you feel like this, so good and so loved.

The moment his lips met yours again, his tongue tenderly slipping against the cut on your lip before sliding along yours, your orgasm hit, and so did his. It wasn’t the last.

Far from it.

*******

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A/N: It's been a while since I've done smut or sexy time for the reading of others, but there. I can't keep stringing you all along forever. (Well I could but that'd be mean).

I'm still plugging away on my other fics. Howling Witch is currently up to 90k and it's not edited or done yet.

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