#but I also think they did hate her? and I don't think they can use “I hate HER” as an excuse without to some extent beginning to believe it

[quartztwst]

NEW TWSTsona design/better lore

What do you do when your Yuu keeps dying on the daily? You send a guardian angel to protect them obviously bro 💪💪💪

This Quartz is NOT a guardian angel 😭🙏

Story

After many retries, this Yuu can't seem to avoid dying 🤷‍♀️🤷‍♀️ It seems like every single thing ends up in death which prevents this Yuu's story to end properly so why not send something to help Yuu from DYING??

Yeah theres this girl named Quartz and she said she can do it bc "its ez LMAOO just don't let them die" im kidding she didn't say that. she had no say.

Quartz was specifically put to prevent Yuu from dying constantly however, the Yuu still keeps on dying despite her efforts 😭 but she won't give up <- she did multiple times

As Yuu's "guardian angel," Quartz tries her best to drag Yuu away from death and as she spends more time with Yuu, she learns to feel fond of them lol which motivates her more to save Yuu.

Personality (or what the basics are lollll)

Quartz from the outside is a very quiet and collected girl. She doesn't interact with a lot of people due to her focusing on her mission. Her first interactions with others are polite but distant. She becomes hostile and aggressive if you're looking to harm Yuu though

As you get to know her, she's actually quite crude and blunt. She's very unpredictable with her attitude changing from time to time but she is consistently affectionate and friendly to Yuu. But she gets REALLY intense when she warns Yuu of certain things.

Small Trivia

Quartz had a more laid back and positive personality in the beginning but throughout the traumatic events, she started to mature.

Quartz's and Yuu's first meeting varies a lot depending on what strategy Quartz is using

Quartz's long hair actually killed Yuu once so she cut it.

Quartz remembers every retry and her physical appearance doesn't change back every retry.

She works at the Mostro Lounge to support Yuu because she doesn't trust Yuu to have a job 😭😭😭

She also hates Octavinelle (wrong she has a certain fondness for Azul bc they talk sometimes but Quartz doesn't want to realize it)

Quartz is attached to Yuu's hip at all times

Quartz does care for Grim but she doesn't want to realize it either because that's not her duty. She's not supposed to grow friendships and shit for NPCs....

Quartz was never a child because she was specifically created for a purpose. She feels kinda weird about it loll

Her expressions are softer and less cold around Yuu and Grim.

Her Ramshackle clothes was a gift from Yuu i don't know how they got the money tho

Also Quartz does not have any reproductive organs and stuff so she can't shit or have sex sorry guys. There's literally nothing there.

Yuu and Quartz actually sleep together like fucking freaks and Yuu is unable to admit it due to embarrassment but Grim yaps about it all the time because Grim and Quartz fight over the spot next to Yuu

The 1st years constantly distract Quartz so they can hang out with Yuu and give them a break from Quartz (they also think Quartz is mean looking and they get tense when talking to her 😭😭😭😭)

The 2nd and 3rd years genuinely idgaf about her but Malleus thinks she's funny

Quartz's strength is around Azul's because she can easily drag people by the collar (she does this to Yuu a lot)

Possibly gay for Yuu

[lemonsourfawn]

MIRA HEAD CANONONS PART 1

You guys did ask that I share some head canons of mine so here we go

PREFERENCES/OTHER

- Likes spicy too much says it makes her cold black heart feel something

- Not a big sweets person

- Eats dark chocolate and actually goes feral for dark chocolate with chili in it

-Drinks her coffee black, but her green tea with honey, she occasionally drinks energy drinks but only to pull all nighters or to force herself to get through projects if she's tired. When Mira drinks caffeinated beverages all it does is make her more alert

-Actually a huge bookworm, prefers murder mysteries, horror and sci-fi

-Was an honor roll student, Mira is incredibly intelligent

-Very emotionally intellegent and part of this is due to years of therapy

-Despite the fact she is really intellegent Mira swears she loses brain cells around Zoey and Rumi at times until all of them are sharing one

-Likes to draw and using sketching as an outlet

-Models for big clothing brand names on the side

-Donates often to charities out of her own pocket

-A bit of a gym rat

-Loves reptiles a lot, thinks there cool, but freaks out whenever she sees a cockroach or spider

-Is a phenomenal cook, she makes 95% of their meals

-Actually has terrible vision, she is near sighted, needs her glasses, she wears contacts during photoshoots and performances

-When she was young her parents enrolled her in ballet starting her dancing career (though for her parents it was a side hobby to keep her active when their main objective was to have her apart of the family business)

-In terms of music of course Mira likes rock and kpop but she also likes classical music, she enjoys the fact you don't need lyrics to feel the emotions. Genuinely loves the sound of violins and pianos

-Can play the piano

-Likes to watch pro wrestling

-Despite her looks Mira actually isn't the bad influence of the trio, it's the exact opposite

-The one who mostly drives them everywhere, absolutely does not trust Zoey behind the wheel

-Animal magnet. She doesn't understand why and she tries to act like she wouldn't burn the world down a cute creature

-Hates the feeling of fake velvet and she will visibly recoil in disgust

-Hates fast food and whenever the girls suggest it she will try to offer any other suggestion under the sun to avoid it and usually ends up dragging them home to cook something adjacent but obviously it's better because it's Mira's

-Acts indifferent towards Derpy when others are watching but when it's just them alone, she's basically all over him, sometimes using him as a couch or table (Zoey and Rumi caught her sleeping on top of him once)

-Despite not speaking to her parents, she still speaks to her grandparents who love her unconditionally, she's really close with her grandfather and he is so so proud of his granddaughter. Even though Mira comes from old money, her grandparents still send her birthday cards with cash in them even though she has high income from Huntr/x, her grandfather's excuse is always "you never know when you need some spare change for a cup of yuja tea, good for the heart and good for the soul"

-Can pound back a bottle of soju like it's nothing (she has a very high alcohol tolerance)

-Mira's scent is a mixture of spiced wine and sandalwood, spicy, warm and rich

-Is a human lie detector. She can smell your bullshit from a mile away

-Sussie love love LOVES Mira, whenever Derpy and Sussie visit, the bird immediately perches on Mira's shoulders/head

-Reality TV is a guilty pleasure for her (she'd never let Zoey or Rumi know that)

-Mira has a burner account where she likes to shit post and cause arguments within the hunter/x fandom and she LIVES for the utter chaos of it all

HURT

-When she's stressed she locks herself in the dance studio and dances until she physically cannot move anymore

-Cut contact with her family, she wants absolutely nothing to do with them and was a teenage runaway, Celine actually found Mira camped out under a bridge

-Has PTSD from her abusive father, when people raise their hands around her, she doesn't flinch but her whole body visibly gets tense and like shes preparing. This doesn't happen often as she has slowly been working through her trauma.

-Has intense abandonment issues but won't talk about them

-Deathly afraid of heights after that one incident.....

-Occasionally has nightmares of an alternate world where Celine said yes

-Because Mira comes from an unstable house hold is why she's so good at reading body language, tone and between the lines. Zoey and Rumi can't keep things hidden from Mira for long before she eventually finds out

SPICY

-Thinks Rumi's fangs and claws are hot as hell and will do anything to get Rumi to scratch her or bite her

-Is a top and takes immeasurable pleasure in making her girlfriends feel good

-Goes low key feral when Rumi or Zoey try to top her, she makes them fight for it and she enjoys every second of it, she's one hell of a power bottom

-Rarely submits but when she does the sight is enough to bring Zoey and Rumi to the edge

-Loves being marked tf up, hickies, bruises, scratchmarks and bites. She doesn't care she wants it all. She wants her skin physically ruined by her lovers

-Also loves marking up Rumi and Zoey

-BIG into body worship, when she makes love to her girls, no part goes untouched by her hands or mouth, she'll make it known how beautiful she thinks are and also how much she wants to ruin them

-She has a giant basket filled with... You know. She keeps it in her closet

-Filthiest dirty talker of them all, she knows exactly what to say and how to say it to pull the most ungodly sounds out of Rumi and Zoey

FLUFF

-Cannot resist her girlfriends puppy dog eyes. She tries extremely hard not to but caves every time

-Acts of service/physical touch is her love language (physical touch only applies to Zoey and Rumi)

-Sometimes waters Rumi's plants for her as a thank you for helping her keep her plant alive or just to give Rumi less to worry about. One time she nearly cried when she accidentally knocked a pot over and bought two replacements even though Rumi said the plant was fine "Mira one of the stems bended the others are fine" "I caused irreversible damage to your child" "Mira..."

-When Rumi bought Mira's plant she almost cried because Rumi picked out a plant she thought matched Mira's personality and vibe. Rumi got Mira a pink Baellara orchid, because "well the colour matches you but look at it, these things are resilient and tough, like you, it smells spicy, like you and it's just pretty" (Rumi was flirting with Mira through plants before she even realized she was flirting with Mira)

-Is pretty much the reason why Zoey and Rumi are still alive as they often forget to feed themselves or take care of themselves in general

-Always needs to have a point of contact with Zoey or Rumi, whenever she moves around them or is sitting by them or standing by them, she always has a part of her touching them

-The frantic caring type of girlfriend in which if Zoey or Rumi are sick of injured she is on them like a hawk 24/7 to take care of them

-Zoey often gifts Rumi and Mira things like little trinkets or things going "it made me think of you" Mira keeps all of them in a box under her nightstand

-Great with kids and often finds herself healing her inner child when interacting with them

-Whenever she finds anything sea creature related she buys it for Zoey, Mira also buys the most rare plants she can find for Rumi

-Secretly let's Zoey beat her in video games but acts the part of a loser quiet well

-Get jealous very very easily, whenever people flirt with Rumi or Zoey publicly/online she makes her presence very very known and gets possessive. Will punch a man for touching her girls

-So protective of Zoey and Rumi, to the point where she is willing to risk jail time for their safety and well being

I might post a part two for Mira idk but I'm getting Zoey and Rumi's lists together!!

OH all of this will be in my fanfic btw

Anyway toodles

[simmerianne93]

[Simmerianne93]Horse_poses_01 - 3 Versions

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Hello everyone!! How are you doing??

They are finally here!!!

I have these poses in my wip folder since 2 years ago... a little after Horse Ranch EP came out...

Why didn't I released them until now?... 'cause i was frustrated...

Reins don't work as expected with custom poses and I tried and tried to make them work... but with no succed... that made me angry and i kept putting them away and away... but some weeks ago i finally decided it was time to let them go... so I ended up making three versions of a pack that was going to be just 1... hahaha

Why are there 3 versions? Well... i decided to adjust few element for the poses to work without needing reins... but then i also made a version kind of "native american" centered with wild horses that doesn't need reins nor saddles... and a third version is the original package i made... with hands posing as the sim is holding the reins... but the sad part is, that 3rd version need you to add the saddles with an image editor... they won't work with EA nor CC reins... they are messed up.... but i think some people would love to have that version and edit them after with an image editor...

I have to thanks so so so much my lovely @fallincloversims and her loooovely (AND HOT) sim Teddy, because If it weren't for them, I wouldn't still be sharing these poses. I'm kind of neglecting these poses from my life hahaha xD I really hate that they didn't work as intended in the first place... but I'm trying to move on and she agreed to made the pics for me... and what incredible shots!!! I had a really hard time to choose the one for the cover... Thank you so so so much!!

These poses started as a little conversion for some previous poses i made for camels a while ago, but then I added few more centered around horse movements... and I really love those poses... I think i did a good job with the horse movements for a first time posing horses.... and even if they ended with a lil problem that made me insane for a long time, I'm thinking on releasing the other pack with a "couple" of sims in the future... 'cause i think they can look pretty good...

Any way, I hope you enjoy this pack more than me hahaha xD....

HAVE FUN!!

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What is on it?

3 versions:

V1 with NO REINS but with saddles.

V2 with no reins AND no saddles. Mean to be use as wild horses.

V3 meant to be use with saddles and edit the reins with an IMAGE EDITOR.

9 Duo poses (Made with a male rig and a HORSE rig) + 2 all in one.

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What do you need?

Andrew's poses player 

Teleport any sim by Scumbumbo.

HORSE RANCH EP.

in-game SADDLES (the american ones) for V1 and V2.

OPTIONAL: Cowboy hat

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Instructions in the original post.

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TOU

Do not claim my creations as your own.

Do not re-upload or modify my creations.

Do not make money of my creations.

Do not include my creations in Mods folders to download.

Please follow my Term Of Use.

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Download it now here — [EARLY ACCESS until September 10th, 2025]

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If you want to support me:  Patreon | Ko-fi

All my poses overview: Pinterest |  Wix | Tumblr

More in-game preview pics of all my poses: Instagram

My socials: Twitter | BlueSky | Instagram | Tumblr

Lives and videos: Youtube

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I really hope you like them and I will say in advance: Thank you so much for using them.

@ts4-poses

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[dashingorion]

We have a imposter in yanblr . Originally this account in the ss was used to harass minors and one of the things I saw this account do is tell a minor (lunarticsama) in their ask that they are gonna assault them irl .

(PS: I suggest to reblog to your yan moots and etc) This person literally copies everything I do. Just to note by the way, I do not own copyrights to the topics of my post of course* and there are multiple cases of coincidence and stuff but I have sufficient proof overall to believe that this person is not a yandere* but just a account that was original created solely to attack minors specifically @lunarticsama but switched to imitating me because I called out that blog in unrelated purposes. These account till date has posted nothing outside some of the stuff I posted. I also have suspicions that this account is affiliated someway to Savannah(Harasses people with false r*pe and gr**m threads and impersonates others) and or olderguydomk1dd0s (I don't have to explain given username and also impersonation) given the timeframe that all this is occurring in. Both Savannah and the second user is connected btw as proven in a past post* unless of course they both are the same person with alts which is a possibility. Let's look at some of the proof:

First off, if you observe the tags of my current and previous yandere focused posts till like last 2 month cause I copy paste it, you can already see that not only is it word for word the same with this user who created this account recently, but what the post this user talks about "coincidentally" is exactly the last two solely yanblr focused post I made calling out people for trying to relate yandere to radqueer and using wrong tags. Proof :

Again this account was a non pfp with the same username and the first thing this account did was tell a random minor that they are gonna assault them? (Again Luna deleted this ask a few days ago for some reason but you might be able to find in archive or ask her directly for it) I just want ya'll to remember that this user said "Remember to send hate to Lunaarticsama" Here is proof of illogical behavior from the same user:

And then two posts later (Same anon):

SO you are telling me that you are her friend and 3 days later you are telling people to send her hate because she made a misandrist statement? Again this is why I think there is a high chance this person is related with those two, both of them have a habit of lying and impersonating as different people and in character it follows them to do stuff like this where you are lying about friendship and basically tried to make me feel bad which is also things Savannah have done in the past by telling people they are supporting bad people or people that "r*ped" her (False allegation) and that pedo person clearly had signs of instigating between us. PS: It would be helpful if anyone wants to make a tip to the FBI or (Child protection agency in the UK) or a intergovernmental organization about these people. Alot of the times it can be done anonymously so if anyone has the time then I will highly advice it (Just pinging people who I think might be interested with this info): @thesillyzo @hi-bunnie @babybatnotcat @max-wanna-die @cutesy-jellyfish @goobfeels

[isi567]

As I already said Athena is in love with Optimus and gave Megatron a spark attack but the twins also have very weird relationships with their lovers too. So having a family dinner with the whole family went very unexpected.

*Megatron looking around, Athena is with Optimus, his son is with Airachnid and His youngest daughter is with Ultra Magnus*

Starscream: I see the pattern.

Ultra Magnus: Huh?

Agna: what pattern?

Megatron: Yeah explain.

Starscream: The "falling in love with your assassin" pattern.

Optimus: That is a weird way to put it.

Megatron: Shut up I'm still mad at you!

Athena: Oh for Primu's sake!?

Megatron: I can handle Agna railing Ultra Magnus, I can handle Agnos and his angry spider looking girlfriend who wants to kill him and I can handle Starscream but Athena for Primu's sake YOU ARE BEING OF DARK ENERGON AND CHAOS!?

Athena: I know, THAT'S WHY AM TOP!

*Everyone gets silent*

*Megatron spitting out his energon while Airachind dropped her spoon*

Starscream: Expected.

Megatron: STARSCREAM!

*Glares over at twins whose mouths are wide open from the shock*

Megatron: Is there anyone in this family that won't give me spark attack!?

Agna: Does Prime count?

Megatron:NO HE DOESN'T!

Athena: seriously you have to admit that I did a better job at overpowering Optimus than you.

Agnos:This place is about to blow.

Ultra Magnus:Uhhhh...

Agna: Just watch darling, just watch.

Megatron:How Athena, how? He literally threw you on the wall first fight?

Athena:So what!? He threw some good punches at you but you don't seem to budge.

Megatron: I'm the one who actually defeated him in a fight!

Athena: SO DID I BUT UNLIKE WITH YOU HE BEGGED FOR MORE!

Magnus choking on the food: WHAT THE !?

Ratchet from the outside: OPTIMUS PRIIIIIME!!!

*Optimus sank down in his chair*

*Megatron just stared blankly*

Starscream: Well looks like the kinks are inherited traits too.

Athena: What -!

Starscream: Yeah, yeah we do the same stuff like you two but I suggest massages too cuz they are both old and won't last much.

Airachnid: Seriously Starscream, this is what you have to say.

Starscream:Eh could have been worse, I mean she found Unicron attractive.

*Optimus sinking more in his chair*

Megatron: Anything else before I faint.

Agnos:Not the right time to tell but, there's a tiny chance that Airachnid mixed cups with someone else so if anyone feels dizzy you should better go to med bay.

Athena:so that's why my energon had a crunchy taste.

*continues drinking*

Megatron: Anything else?

Agna: I might have an infection on my left shoulder because Knockout reused needle.

Megatron on a verge of anger: Anything else?

Starscream while sipping energon: I broke your favorite cup.

Megatron angry: IT SURVIVED BOMBS HOW DID YOU DO IT?!

Starscream: Eh forgot how, it was ugly anyway.

*Megatron inhaling aggressively*

Megatron: Excuse me for a moment.

*Outside, in the hallway loud screaming can be heard*

Knockout from the other table: You seriously have infection?

Agna: I think, I just know that it hurts.

Starscream: check it out later I still have to tell Megzy that I also broke his favorite pen.

Megatron on the entrance: Keep doing it Starscream and you will break my heart!

Starscream: I ALREADY BROKE THAT TOO WHEN YOU THOUGH I WAS CHEATING WITH AIRACHNID!?

Agnos spitting energon: WHAT!?

Starscream: we bicker because we hate each other and he thought I liked her, nothing serious.

Megatron: You know what.... Just give me some sedatives and tell me the rest of the things.

Starscream: Already did that while you were away.

Megatron: Right I forgot you are my spouse now*drinks the rest of the sedated drink* anything else?

Airachind: I think that's about it but you should definitely talk more with the Pink Starscream over there.

Athena: Call me that one more time and use your dead body as my punching bag.

Megatron: Yeah, yeah, crazy daughter, another Starscream yeah don't worry she'll be nice.

Ultra Magnus whispering to Agna:Your family is crazy.

Agna: I know, and this is just Wednesday.

Megatron feeling dizzy:hey Starscream how much you put in my drink.

Starscream: a whole bottle? Sorry I don't know.

Megatron:good to know, and if I die write "It's Starscream's fault" on my grave.

*collapses on the floor*

Knockout: OH SCRAP!?

Starscream: Hell be fine!

Ultra Magnus: Wednesday?

Kids: Wednesday!

Later Megatron woke up with kids holding candles and Athena pretending to chant death prayers as a prank. Safe to say he didn't find it funny.

[stockimageofapotato]

Back with ANOTHER TALK about our girl Ragatha bc ✨️Why not?✨️

Hey y'all, I've crawled out from my cave with another little ramble of mine. ( ´∀｀ )b

I wanna rant about that scene from episode 6 at the beginning, where Pomni asks ragatha if she wants to team up. Again, I don't wanna claim a perfect understanding of her character, just rant about a particular moment.

I mean, don't think this was a scenario where she didn't actually want to pair with pomni but didn't want to state it directly. I think this was self sabotaging. She's so used to being the group caretaker that she sacrifices her own wants and needs for the good of others. Like she said before, she doesn't even know what she wants, likely because she's centered her identity around caretaking. She was in survival mode at the moment. She wasn't thinking. She may be calibrated to avoid what it sees as danger (i.e., conflict) even against her best interests. They're almost automatic. Though, not completely so. 

At the beginning, we did see her real, unfiltered response. But then, her defenses kicked in, as well as her tendency to maintain what she believes to be group cohesion.

Also, notice how her voice was strained and low when she talked about how she didn't want Kinger to be stuck with Jax. Almost as if she was A. terrified to voice it in too loud a voice in case others heard, and B. Actively going against what she wanted, and C. Felt scared to voice even that to pomni because she was afraid she might see through her. Likely that and out of fear of vulnerability, she pushed Pomni away. What if she isn't good enough? What if she does it wrong? What if Pomni sees through her? She looked legitimately scared here, like, almost paralyzed, as if she couldn't bring herself to speak.Then, when Pomni offers to be on Kinger's team, she looks super uncomfortable. she's unable to say "I don't feel comfortable with being on Jax's team," instead saying "and have... me? On..." unable to even say his name, but leaving what she meant up through implication, so Pomni can drop the idea without her having to explicitly voice it. So, yet again, conflict avoidance and guilt for assertinf her needs. Even when she is uncomfortable with something, she can't bring herself to voice it. This says a lot about her, IMO. At the same time, she probably wanted the option for her to team up with Pomni to still be open and was indirectly communicating that, but IDK. Seems like overthinking on my part. 

When she did speak, with "Wait!" It was already too late. She recognized what was happening there and tried to salvage it, but when Pomni looked back at her, that anxiety creeped back in. She recoiled a bit, causing her to go back into a freeze response.

She may have wanted to stop it, but didn't know how or what to say to her. I think it was kinda like, "Oh no, now the attention's on me— but i look kinda desperate, dont I? And oh, geez, what do I even say to her? Admit to lying? What if she doesn't like me anymore? What's that look? Is she annoyed with me? God, what do I do? What do I say? I'm gonna look needy. I'll end up being too much, and then—" Before she knew it, Pomni repeated what Ragatha had told her. She already gave a reason, and if she were to say anything, then that could just cause mote conflict and push her away further, so she defaulted to appeasement instead. I mean, what could she have said then, anyway? She already dug her own grave at that point.

She may have it in her mind that people are eventually going to end up hating her and inadvertently reinforce that belief by pushing others away in a sort of self-fulfilling prophecy.

And her little dialogue at the end, she sounded so uncomfortable, like she was terrified to assert herself or voice that she wanted this, so she showed affection in the only way she knew how: caretaking. It was kind of a non-apology that screamed,'I know I just pushed you away, but please don't leave.' She was fighting against her own defenses. Also, notice how she sounded kinda... unsure..? At the end? I think in her mindset was: 'How could I make that promise that I'll be there when I just pushed her away?' Almost as if she was hoping it'd work but not entirely sure of herself, not entirely sure if pomni would see through her tricks. Or what she perceives at tricks, though they're really survival mechanisms over anything. Though she does have a low opinion of herself and may frame it as malicious when it really isn't. It is almost as if she recognizes it as a performance or deception but doesn't have a full grasp on it or why she does it. But she doesn't know how else to function. So she beats herself up about it and labels them as 'tricks.'' It's not 'I've put on a false mask if optimism to ensure the survival of myself and others, it's maladaptive, but it isn't inherently malicious' but 'I'm actively deceiving other people and it's only a matter of time before they see through me, the real me, and walk away.' So, as she implied in episode 6, she hates herself for it. That push-pull dynamic of being terrified of vulnerability but desperately wanting it.

She might associate conflict with danger, as she is quoted as being brought up by a yelling, guilt tripping, and berating mother, so she almost automatically placates, again, even against her best interests. She also might have a fear that Pomni might abandon her for Jax and is subconsciously, inadvertently creating situations that only reinforce that cycle. She also blames herself for failing pomni, which could mean she regrets not taking the fall for Pomni and not forcing herself to be on Jax's team. Even though that was a totally valid thing, Jax openly torments Ragatha constantly. But, no. Her perception could be that her needs are inherently selfish and she's a failure for asserting them. She also probably feels really guilty for pushing Pomni away, so that could have contributed to her sense of failure. It's evident that she does truly care, and deeply, about others. Too much, so much that she's willing to sacrifice her legitimate needs for others. In her eyes, she might not see it as sacrifice, but the right thing to do, perhaps.

In fact, she probably views prioritizing herself as selfish. Which is why she viewed it as a failing.

Or could be. I dunno. But, who am I to say anything? This is just a rant, lol. I'm not really sure what I'm saying.

but, if YOU have any opinions, then voice 'em. I and know what you think of this scene. Am I completely, utterly off the mark? Do you agree? Do you partially agree but have your own input? Lmk, if you'd like.

also thank u guys for all of the support on my last post! <3 I'm really glad you guys took the time to read what I had to say, so thank you! I'm not very good at the whole social thing, so sorry for not responding as much :)

But I was honestly really blown away, yall!

[edwardallenpoe]

I'm not fully engaged with this discussion, I just jumped in and lurked the last few days, but. I have to say something, JUST about the response that aroacesafeplaceforall gave to blkaroculture.

First of all, you say "I genuinely enjoy learning though, so teaching me / explaining will always be welcome!" Then immediately after say "I disagree with the term racist, as I am not." That. That isn't you learning, aroacesafeplaceforall. That's you seeing the examples of WHY YOU ARE BEING RACIST, and outright disagreeing. You don't just disagree when you are told your actions are racist. They're racist. That makes you racist. This is how that works. It didn't just "affect people" it was racist. It wasn't just "poorly worded" it was racist! And, yeah, you count as racist even when it was "one event that was misunderstood". It only takes one time. Black people shouldn't have to wait for you to continuously mess up for us to be upset with you.

Then, you continue to DOUBLE DOWN on why you dislike rap music, you even gave the example of WAP, but you can't give an example for pop music? You think just saying "this goes for all musicians" will make the emphasis on black music go away? That's like me saying "I hate German shepherds as a breed because they are violent. But I think most dogs are violent anyway!" You're still putting the messaging that "German shepherd IN PARTICULAR are violent" in the heads of your readers even tho you clarified that you view "most" dogs as violent. You do not enjoy learning or being explained to, because IF YOU DID, you would have never said that shit. We already know how you feel on rap and hip hop, and that is the problem. It's not even "worded poorly" anymore YOU SAID THE SAME SHIT TWICE??????? Your views on rap have NOT changed since that screenshot, and it shows.

Also, when blkaroculture asks you to learn more about the culture of and foster a better community for black Americans and Britain's, your first and only statement on that is "I'm not from Britain and America" then you bring up aboriginal's/black australians. This heavily implies that because you are physically distant from those cultures that excuses the fact that you have done a piss poor job of fostering a community for us. And that it excuses you if you decide NOT to try. Or to read a fucking book. Which, blkaroculture told you, if you do genuinely enjoy learning more about us and our culture, you should read a book. Are you gonna? No, probs not. As expected.

And, god. This shit cannot be excused by being "poorly worded" anymore. When you imagine black men, they wear chains (as in the jewelry) and when you imagine black women, they have braids and/or afros. You do know that there's a whole diaspora of us, right? That there are all types of black people across the world? You say that you aren't British or American and that's why you don't fully engage with or understand our cultures, but then your first thought for black people is, undeniably, black american/British centric stereotypes? You do get that those are still stereotypes, right? Even though they're not racist or offensive inherently? "I genuinely enjoy learning" my ass.

And, lastly, continuously calling black-ace-culture-is "aggressive" is a micro aggression in and of itself. You did racist shit. She called you out for it. She wasn't holding your hand and baby stepping you through not disrespecting her identity, her culture, her being, and she was upset, JUSTIFIABLY SO, and she's aggressive? She's the aggressive one? You don't get to do racist shit and expect black people to dote on you hand and foot. That's also fucking racist.

Blkaroculture did a great job in explaining your behavior, and asking for you to not even bring up black music when discussing sexual music was a good idea, because people just can't seem to act right when black music is involved (whites of Tumblr can go into gory detail about why black music is too sexual or uncomfortable but make blanket statements about other genres, it's givingggg black people are overly scrutinized by non-blacks because we're seen as inherently deviant and need to be put down a notch every chance we get. But I digress)

Black-ace-culture-is does NOT deserve the shit you called her, or the way you blatantly ignored her. She deserves a fucking apology. Jesus Christ. And at this point, just accept that you're on the block list and move on. You ain't gonna change, so stop engaging in the black aspec community and expect us to NOT want to block you.

I'm being accused of being an antiblack racist again, and again:

I am not.

I just said I didn't like music that was sexual, that includes some pop and some rap that I used as examples. (Assuming this is what it's in references to, which is always is. That is the only time race seems to have come up on this blog.)

I am sorry if I have made you feel this way. Genuinely. I am anti exclusion for people who mean no harm. (Pissing on the poor website this means if you're going to be an asshole, you aren't welcome.)

Let me know how I can improve if I am doing something that is racist. I am not doing it intentionally, and I will take any advice to improve.

If I can do anything to help you believe me in the fact I do not mean any harm, let me know.

Please don't make a 3 paragraph long, 600+ word post shit talking me, calling me racist, telling people to block me and my “antiblack followers”, and to “call out them and their antiblack followers”, then block me, so I can't respond. That's just an asshole move.

[myshollow]

as Pam's#1 hater.. I LOVE YOUR PAM. I LOVE HER SO MUCH, BIG MUSCULAR GIRL WHO IS NOT TOXIC👅

for some reason I DID NOT see this ask for a while in my inbox thanks tumblr lol. Thank you tho!! It's actually hella vindicating to see people love the big beefy crazy scientist lady cause back when I was developing her design I was scared that people were going to hate it (cause women with different bodies aren't usually welcomed. Especially since Regular Show can have..that sort of audience). Pam #1 hater LOL Tbh I used to hate on how she was presented in the show a lot (though it's moreso the writing I think her character is intersting in a vacumn as a fun scientist lady), and that translated to hating her specifically a lot. I don't blame anyone who hates on characters it can be fun/rejuvinating LOL but honestly now I just feel bad for her (and most of the other female characters because I dislike how most of them are potrayed. Even Eileen in later seasons) because Regular Show writes women sooooo ass I don't know why it's built like that. Like yeah I wouldn't say most of the girls are good characters but they never stood a chance. The misery. Though people in the fandom definitely do the girls a lot more justice. But obviously you're allowed to hate/have negative feelings on a character like if people can say how much they love a character then people can share the opposite. But small rant aside I appreciate people liking reimagined Pam and it's nice to use Pam's blueprint to make her into a character that more people can enjoy. Like ,despite me actually being a huge Benskips shipper, I feel Pamson is worth working with. The power of fandom is that you can just tweak it into something you can enjoy lol. A lot of people tend to just pretend Pam in the show doesn't exist. And I do get it, but at the same time I feel that sort of attitude can undermine the female characters in general. I feel like a lot of the RS girls are erased from fandom content because of that. One of the biggest goals with Reimagined Show is to demonstrate how the female characters and their romances with the guys can be retained while also making the stuff unique, varied, and interesting. It's something that means a lot to me, and I hope I can continue to demonstrate it well! (I feel like I was put on this planet to make the fruitiest "straight" ships ever. Behold my powers...)

[physics-of-one-piece]

Good evening, Physics!

This idea popped into my head and it won't go away! 🫣🤭

What if Doffy found reader months before Rosi and Law took off for 6 months? Before Law became ill?

He wanted to surprise his brother for Rosi's birthday 🎂 by bringing his wife aboard. Much to Rosi's shock and anger he can't leave his wife alone now.

Law is both happy to see her and shocked.

Doffy watches in the shadows as Reader interacts with Law, Baby 5 and Dellinger, then with Rosi.

Then embers of jealousy coiling red hot within his veins. Wanting her to smile at him. Praise him. Give him headpats. Caressing his cheek with her fingers and tangling in his hair.

The yearning. Possessive and obsessive growling beast rattling within Doflamingo.

Also, have you listened to "Belle" from Notre Dame de Paris? Or "Tango de Roxanne" from Moulin Rouge? They are both my go two while writing messy love triangles 🤭

Ah, it's good evening to you and good morning to me haha!

Oh I love this. Poor Rosi probably gets a heart attack on the spot. Poor Reader having to play nice with Doffy and everyone so she doesn't mess up Rosi's cover. You're TERRIFIED. ROSI IS TERRIFIED.

DOFLAMINGO IS DELIGHTED. 🥰😊😁

Oh, yes, the jealousy, the yearning. At first Doffy loves seeing how affectionate you are with Rosinante, how you brush the rice from his cheek with a napkin, how you start stopping him from falling by grabbing onto his hand. You're so in sync with his brother. He can see you love him dearly.

But then it becomes a want for you to be like that with him, too. You're polite with him, but he feels like there is a border you've put up that Doffy isn't allowed in. Which, he figures it's because he's a pirate, so okay, you'll get used to it. It's not like you hate him. You just don't know him well, so of course you're a bit shaken and sticking to his brother.

You and Law get along, too, even though Law fights it every step of the way, he likes you.

Ugh, the JEALOUSY, the yearning, the possessiveness, the "I want a headpat too 🥺" and "I want her to smile at me too!" "I want her to caress my face and hair, too!"

Oh the slowly boiling jealousy as he watches from the shadows... DELICIOUS. And becoming possessive and obsessive over you... without you ever knowing.

Mmmm. Delicious.

I can just imagine the convo of you & Rosi after dinner in Rosi's bedroom in Silent Bubble and the panicked talk you two have and Rosi pacing and panicking like HELL.

Meanwhile Doffy is just like "She'll be safer with all of us than alone! Seriously, Corazon, why didn't you tell me you were married? Why didn't you introduce her? I missed the wedding! I need to get you two a wedding gift! You know what, we're redoing your wedding!"

Doffy is so happy at first but then that "she should be mine" thing comes eventually bcs of his first-born-son tendencies.

God, I love this idea.

Rosi probably takes you with him when he takes Law away.

And then hides you both in the treasure chest. Imagine Doffy yelling: "Where's (Y/N)? Where's Law?!”

Ugh 😫😩

I think Rosi would lie and say you don't know he's a marine, to keep Doffy from trying to kill you too.

But then there is the option of it just being a threesome with the DQ Brothers, and you getting two husbands... So like... 👀👀👀

I haven't listened to Belle but I did Tango de Roxanne. And agreed.

I think Rosi will figure out Doffy is in love with you maybe exactly when Doffy asks where you are. I don't know but Doffy might lose his composure then. Because he hates that you're Cora's.

Here is a snippet of Minion but it ends happily and it's Cora x Reader. Don't ask me how it happened, it just did.

Mini-fic below

“You...” Rosinante muttered through wheezes for breath, staring wide-eyed at his brother. A small, bitter chuckle slipped out of his bloodied mouth. “You like her.”

Doflamingo tensed. Fully. Overwhelmingly. Like he did when their mother caught him stealing candy from the candy jar when he was six. When he got caught doing something he shouldn’t, something he was aware was wrong.

He actually looked guilty.

Rosinante chuckled bitterly, but there was hurt in his chest, and he felt his eyes sting. There was something deep inside him that was hurt by the fact his brother couldn’t let him have one good thing for himself.

“You always did like stealing my things...” muttered Rosinante. “I never had anything that was mine. You either took it, or I had to share it with you. But... it’s different now.”

The cold, heartless look returned to Doflamingo’s face.

“Law and my wife are gone,” said Rosinante, voice hoarse. “They managed to get out of the cage, and have been taken into protective custody by a look-out ship from the Navy HQ by now.”

He smirked as Doflamingo bared his teeth at him, growling. He looked seconds away from strangling Rosinante.

Rosinante met his brother’s gaze, victorious. “You can’t touch them now!”

Rosinante smiled, big and wide.

Doflamingo’s jaw clenched harder, his neck bulging with veins, more veins emerging on his forehead. His breaths were low and wheezing growls, like a bear keeping himself from tearing his prey to shreds. He glared at Rosinante with immense hatred and rage, and he leaned his body forward, about to kill —

“Young Master!” Buffalo's shout got his attention.

“We heard the Navy said on the radio earlier they took a boy and a woman under their care!” shouted Baby 5.

Doflamingo turned his head to the sky. “Why didn't you report that sooner?!” he shouted angrily.

“I rushed here even if I don’t look like it, dasuyan!” said Buffalo.

“We’re sorry!”

Rosinante’s eyes were wide. A boy and a woman? He blinked. What a strange coincidence!

His eyes glanced behind him, in the chest, where you and Law were huddled in. Law and (Y/N) are right here.

Doflamingo turned back forward, and shouted to the sky. “Check into that quickly! I’ll undo the Birdcage!”

Rosinante’s eyes widened. He couldn’t believe his luck. He smiled. You and Law were going to get away. You two were going to be free. Relief rushed through him, filling his heart and body. It was going to work. You and Law were going to be free! Fate was on his side now.

For the first time in his life, luck was on Rosinante’s side.

“Prepare to set sail!” Doflamingo ordered his crew. “If what he said was true, we’ll sink the Navy’s look-out ship and get Law and (Y/N) back!”

The crew headed back to the ship, leaving Doflamingo and Rosinante alone among the falling snow.

“Stop,” said Rosinante loudly. “Why do you want to go after them?”

“Why do I want to go after them?”

“If Law ate the Op-Op Fruit, I need to educate him to die for me!”

Law wrenched back from the keyhole in fear, trembling in your arms. Your eyes widened in horror.

“If you’re dead, then (Y/N) is mine.” said Doflamingo, smile big, wide and demonic. Rosinante’s blood went cold. “I’ll affirm my birthright as your older brother, and take her as my wife.”

Doflamingo continued smiling at him, chilling and cruel. “That's our law, right, Rosinante?”

“You really went and did so many unecessary things,” said Doflamingo, pulling the gun out of the inner pocket of his suit. “I would have been happy with sharing her with you. I would have been happy with being her second husband.” Doflamingo sneered at Rosinante in disapproval and anger. “You idiot. Now you've left me a mess to clean up!”

He’s fucking insane. you thought, your eyes shaking while you hugged Law tight. You wished you could keep Law away from what he was about to see, what was about to happen, but you were breaking, tears running down your eyes, your heart slamming in your ribcage.

Doflamingo aimed the gun at Rosinante. Law yelled mutely, surging forward, taking you with him. Law stared through the keyhole of the chest, his body shaking, much like yours.

“Why did you have to get in my way?” asked Doflamingo. “Why do I have to kill another member of my biological family?!”

Please stop. you wanted to scream, tears running down your eyes. Please stop, Doflamingo. Don’t shoot him. Don’t shoot Rosinante.

Law started slamming his palms against the wood of the chest. You knew what he was trying to do. He was telling Rosi to let you two out. To let all three of you run. To let you two help him.

Doflamingo’s face was cold. “I know you can't shoot me.” He frowned. “You’re too much like father.”

I’ll shoot you. you thought, full of rage and hurt. I'll shoot you, you monster. You slammed your body against the chest, but Rosi's massive body held firm, not letting the chest budge. Let me out! Rosinante, I’ll shoot him! You can't do it! Let me shoot him!

Rosinante exhaled. He rested the back of his head against the chest, where you were. Your breath caught, your eyes widened.

“You know I love you, right?” Rosinante said to you.

I know! you sobbed, crying and sobbing against the wood of the chest, tears running down your cheeks, wishing you could hold him, hug him to your chest, protect him, get away from here. I love you, Rosinante! Please! Please don't die! Don’t let him shoot you! I love you! I love you! DON'T DIE!

You said we’d see the world together! you thought, crying against the wood as Law slammed his body again and again against the surface, trying to break out. You said we'd raise Law together! Rosinante! Don’t die!

“Law won’t obey you, Doffy...” said Rosinante. “And no offense, but you’re not my wife’s type. At all.”

If you weren’t crying, you would have laughed.

Slowly, Rosinante started standing up. “Affected by the White Lead Disease, Law was doomed to die in three years. But,” Rosinante grunted, standing up. “He got over it.”

Rosinante stared right at Doflamingo. “He’s not the same Law who lost track of himself and came to visit a crazy pirate that day. There is nothing he can gain from you since you’re a child of destruction!”

Doflamingo stared at Rosinante coldly.

“Leave him alone now.”

The two brothers faced off among the falling snow, their guns pointed at each other.

“He is free!” yelled Rosinante.

Doflamingo pressed the trigger. The gunshot split the snow and air. Law screamed. You screamed.

Then... Blue.

Blue light. Straight from — Law.

Then...

Snow.

You were kneeling on the snow. Law fell forward with a muted cry. You caught him, holding him carefully. Rosinante was still standing. Did he get shot? Where did he get shot?

But your husband didn't stumble backward. Didn't even fall.

“What?” asked Rosinante, blinking at the trees in front of him. He spun around, gun ready. When all he found were trees, he blinked again. “Where... What?”

You and Law cried out in relief, and hugged Rosinante. Since you both went at his legs, he ended up falling to the snow again.

You two were talking, but no sounds were coming out. Rosinante snapped his fingers, undoing his power.

Law’s yells reached him first. “Stupid, idiot, moron, asshole, jerk -”

“Maybe I should put Silent back on you,” said Rosinante, chuckling fondly. He looked down at the boy in surprise and wonder. “Law... Was that... You?”

Law sniffled. He wiped at his eyes. “I don’t know. I just... Wanted us to get far, far away... All three of us... And I felt something clench in my chest... And then there was blue coming out of me... And then... Poof.”

You let out a disbelieving laugh. You pulled Law into your arms, hugging him in gratitude and joy, your tears landing atop his hat. “Poof.”

Law giggled with you.

“Poof.” he repeated. Then, he smirked. “I’ve got magic powers like Cora-san now.”

You smiled through your tears. “Yes, you do.”

Rosinante laughed, then cursed. “I shouldn't laugh.”

“That’s weird,” said Rosinante, frowning. He reached to touch his wounds. “It doesn’t hurt anymore... The bleeding’s stopped, too...”

The two of you turned to Law. The boy frowned down at his still clenched fist. He unwound his fingers, and bullets fell out of his small, pale hand.

Law blinked. Looked up at Rosinante, his eyes a mix of emotions, especially confusion. He looked uncertain, scared of what his new power could do.

Rosinante smiled comfortingly at the boy.

“It’s alright,” he said. He reached out, and put his hand on Law’s hat. “I’m okay. Thank you, Law.”

Law stared at Rosinante. Your husband smiled at him again, that goofy, silly smile you fell in love with.

Law's lips started trembling. His eyes filled with tears. And then...

Law smiled.

The next moment, Law broke out crying, bawling openly. In relief. He launched himself at Rosinante, hugging him around the neck, continuing to bawl into his neck.

“Cora-san!” Law cried happily.

Your own eyes filled with tears. You were seconds away from starting to bawl, too.

Rosinante hugged you and Law close. Once your head was resting on his chest, on his heart, beating and alive, you broke. You wrapped your arms around his back, clutching onto his pink dress shirt, and started to bawl too, nearly as loudly as Law.

“It’s okay,” whispered Rosinante. He looked up at the sky free of any strings. He smiled, and took another breath into his lungs. Slowly, carefully. His arms held you and Law close to him.

From far away, he could hear the cannon fire. Maybe even hear Doffy yelling orders. Or maybe cursing him and his existence.

None of that mattered. Not Doffy, not the Navy.

All that mattered to Rosinante now was his family. You and Law, healthy, safe and sound, in his arms.

“We’re free.”

[burins]

finished gl 1990! (at least the Kyle parts. I didn't read before emerald twilight.) overall thoughts:

- I really do love Kyle as a protagonist he's a lot of fun. floundering artist gets unimaginable power and has to figure it out is an old trope but I love to see it. the supporting cast are also great, although they don't all transition from writer to writer (Li and Lee I miss you... they should have gotten to meet Terry, Kyle's gay teen assistant who ALSO gets gaybashed and whose gaybashing almost makes Kyle go full Parallax. he asks Wally to use the cosmic treadmill to turn back time and Wally looks at him like "Buddy. is this a joke? I didn't use that when superman DIED." it's sweet. it's very Baby's First PFLAG Meeting which is hilarious because Kyle has lived in Greenwich Village for several years and also, as previously mentioned, Lee got kidnapped by a homophobic serial killer on Halloween so it shouldn't be news to Kyle that sometimes gay people get beat up by homophobes?)

- for a run that's mostly written by the same guy (marz did issues 48-125 and 176-181) there's not as much character development/larger arcs as I'd expect? there obviously is some, Kyle isn't the same hopeless shmuck we meet in #50 at the end of the run. but it does meander for sure. winick crammed a lot more Character Arc into his 35 issues.

- Raab's portion of the run writes Jen and Merayn (former Darkstar, John's blue girlfriend) in ways I honestly like but otherwise is... not very good. you can really stop reading after 164. I continued because I wanted to see how Marz wrapped things up and the answer is: badly. could have lived my whole life without seeing a fridge callback/fakeout but it's an oven this time with Kyle's mom.

- because of the person I am I would like to see more of Kyle's deep-seated hangups about older men and less of his inability to be serious about the women in his life. Kyle make a female friend and don't end up dating her challenge! maybe this happens in JLA? I continue to lose at chess to a dog (expect women to be treated well in comics. I'm not even discussing the Liana plotline.)

- because I'm me I had Complicated Feelings about John Stewart being paralyzed, magically healed, re-paralyzed, and then it turned out the paralysis was just in his head for the last part and he just needed hypnosis. (I am not making this up and I hated every moment of that issue.) I'm genuinely deeply curious what is up with DC Comics and wheelchair users in the 90s-early 2000s. it's like spinal cord injury is the only disability they can imagine, and also they will not ever commit to it. I get that it's a shitty move to take your One Black Green Lantern out of commission but like... he has a power ring. you don't need working legs with a power ring. (I know he doesn't have a power ring for large portions of this run but that is also a writing choice!)

- I did love his and Kyle's friendship/mentorship. they are such different people and also very similar in certain ways!

- Merayn/Jen. is this anything? it could be. Donna/Jen also. the issue where they get coffee is a lot of fun.

- Kyle will never stop making stupid shit with the most powerful weapon in the universe. and I love him for it

- oh right. I did love the Ion plotline where Kyle gets the powers of a god basically. man who is absolutely not equipped to be able to fix everything, ever. watching Clark say "hey kyle. I know you're really proud of existing in five places at once and improving soil fertility but you are not God so maybe let's clam down" was simply delightful. I think there's an Ion run which I hear is good? perhaps that's my next project. I do want to read more parallax Hal unfortunately that's a character concept that (pre-retcon, I'm ignoring the retcon) is extremely juicy to me.

- art thoughts: at some point in the 90s we started rendering everything in 3d instead of doing flat inks/colors. I miss the flats. they were better.

(issue 50, with pencils by Darryl Banks, inks by Romeo Tanghal, and colors by Steve Mattson)

(issue 124, with pencils by Darryl Banks, inks by Andy Smith, and colors by Moose Baumann)

now it isn't ENTIRELY fair to compare people to Romeo Tanghal one of the best inkers to ever do it but Andy Smith's inks are fine here it's the coloring I dislike! sometimes things that are more rendered are worse. granted it was the late 90s early 2000s and I assume we had just developed digital coloring? (would love to know, it's not just limited to this book but an industry-wide shift.)

[thetablestspoon]

(Spoilers ahead for svsss, mdzs, and tgcf)

I'm about halfway through the second book in MDZS and somehow this series is managing to emotionally wreck me more than TGCF and SVSSS combined.

I was thinking about what exactly makes MXTX novels so insanely good at this cause like. Holy fuck. Who hurt this woman? Did she study this? Or did she just wake up one day and thought "Hey, I think the most soul-crushing pain I can put into a book operates on utter helplessness and guilt."?

Cause she uses that a lot, be it with Xie Lian as he's helpless to stop his kingdom from ruin and later lets himself be hurt repeatedly because he feels guilty, or with how Yue Qingyuan let's Shen Qingqiu do whatever he wants and refuses to communicate like a human being cause he's entirely eaten by guilt, even though he did everything in his power to get to Shen Jiu as soon as he could, and it just wasn't in his power to be there on time.

(And there is also of course the terrifying burden of KNOWING THE TRUTH. Like Shen Yuan knowing that Shen Jiu died never knowing the truth but Yue Qingyuan doesn't know and he can never ever tell him, or how Song Lan, dying, desperately didn't want Xiao Xingchen to know who he just killed, because that knowledge would crush him. But generally the horror usually comes down to doing everything you can, making the best possible choice each time and in the end failing so miserably.)

I was thinking about it cause it's not like it's a new concept, it's been here since ancient tragedies, but it's just that MXTX doesn't just traumatise her characters, she also traumatises her audience. In every series of hers there is at least one moment where we meet the consequences first, and then she brings us to the cause, so we don't just know that it's gonna end badly, we know EXACTLY how it's going to end and yet we can only helplessly watch, as these characters we grow attached to get their hopes and dreams crushed as their every effort only makes everything worse until nothing remains. We know how it will end. They don't know. Theu are still fighting, still trying, still hoping, but WE KNOW. (There is something really terrifying about the helplessness of only being able to watch, and I think it's very ironic that just once Wei Wuxian got put in the exact same spot as the audience, because he also met the consequences first and knew exactly how it was going to end.)

And also because we know how it ends and we can see it all go to hell in real time we can see just how close they all were to being happy and how despite that it's clear that they were doomed from the very beginning and no matter what they would have done, there was no option that lead to a happy ending.

I think MXTX might genuinely be my favourite author ever, because I really almost never see additional steps being taken to shake the audience, using more than just throwing trauma at characters, and she not only does take those extra steps, but delivers it SO WELL, while also managing to package it into a story about people being stupid in love with each other and going on silly dates and giving each other kindness and comfort and stability they are starved for. It's like an insanely well prepared, really well balanced salad.

I love it and I hate it and I want to bang my head against the wall and I'm not even halfway through mdzs yet, so I'm gonna go back to getting my soul crushed now.

[holxpyre]

Kiara  considers  his  words.  And  she  is  inclined  to  agree.  No.  She  wants  to  agree.  But  the  frightened  and  the  reluctant  and  the  distrusting  part  of  her  is  stronger.  It  overrides  any  rational  rebuttal.  It  kills  and  scorches  all  the  ideas  and  possibilities  that  might  make  those  words  ring  true.  "I  don't  know,  Julian.  I've  grown  rather  used  to  being  alone.  Keeping  things  simple  and,  easy."  it  kept  her  lonely,  perhaps.  But  it  also  kept  her  safe,  and  protected.  Surely,  there  was  value  in  that  too.  "I  don't  think  distrust  closes  doors  to  all  the  good  things  life  has  to  offer.  Maybe...maybe  it  closes  them  for  the  best  of  it,  but  not  all  of  the  good.  And,  I  don't  know,  I  think...I  think  I  might  be  okay  with  that."  only  when  she  says  those  words,  does  she  realise  she  is  actually  not.  She  longs  for  that  sort  of  trust,  for  friendship,  for  love,  for  companionship.  And  she  pushes  that  longing,  once  again,  deep  deep  down  where  it  belongs.  Hidden,  and  drowned.  "D'you...d'you  think  people  can  change?" 

She  notices  the  way  his  mood  suddenly  changes.  And  she  realises  she'd  said  something  wrong.  It  is  not  surprising.  She  always  says  something  wrong.  "I'm  sorry."  it's  instinctive.  "I  didn't  mean..."  the  sentence  is  left  unfinished.  But  she  hopes  he  will  get  the  gist.  For  a  while  she  enjoys  his  silence,  a  polite  smile  still  laying  on  her  lips  as  a  sort  of  anchor.  Why  is  she  feeling  bad?  He's  just  a  stranger.  This  is  not  supposed  to  feel  bad.

His  words  don't  do  much  in  lighting  the  mood  either,  but  she  nods  in  agreement.  "Yeah."  it's  light,  accepting.  "Yeah  I  know."  she  could  not  help  it.  She  could  not  help  the  hate,  any  more  than  she  could  help  the  distrust.  Or  the  anxiety.  Or  the  hiding  and  the  lying  and  the  fear.  It  was  all  one  big,  aching  hole  that  consumed  the  entirety  of  her  life.  "I  wish  I  could  tell  you  I'm  trying  to  change  that  but,  honestly,  I  think...I  think  it's  changing  me  instead.  I  don't  exactly  know..."  who  she  is  without  all  of  that.  Without  the  hate  and  the  anger  and  the  fear,  what  was  even  left?  "There's  a  whole  lot  of  stuff  wrong  with  me,  Julian.  Stuff  that  cannot  be...healed."

His  tone  is  more  at  ease  now,  more  amused,  and  she  eases  into  it  too.  "Well  I  guess  you're  not  the  best  judge  of  character,  then."  there's  a  laugh  that  follows  those  words.  It's  a  friendly  taunt.  And  instead  of  focusing  on  dead  families,  she  reveals  a  more  upbeat  memory  in  its  place.  "I  may  not  have  a  crazy  ex  but,  I  did  have  a  crush  once."  truth,  at  least  as  truthful  as  she  can  recall.  "His  name  was  Dominic.  He  played  drums  in  this  small  band  him  and  his  friends  started  up.  His  friend,  Alec  was  my  neighbour,  you  see.  So  they  usually  gathered  at  Alec's  house  to  practice  in  his  garage. 'Ts how I met him. Alec  had  a  younger  sister,  my  age,  her  name  was  Nancy.  So  Nancy  and  I  used  to  hang  out.  We  watched  them  play,  smoked  weed  with  them  sometimes.  It  was  fun."  she  giggles  at  the  memory  of  it.  Then  she  shakes  her  head.  "I  told  Nancy  I  liked  Dominic.  Him  and  I  got  along,  we  were...friends,  I  guess.  But  I  never  told  him I liked him  because,  I  mean,  I  don't  know,  relationships  never  felt  like  a  priority  and  he,  he  did  not  seem  to  like  me  like  that  anyway.  So, anyway,  Nancy  went  for  it  and,  they  got  together  and..."  she  hated  her  for  it.  Naturally.  "Anyways,  years  later  he  told  me  he  did  actually  like  me  at  the  time,  he  just  didn't  know  how  to  go  about  it  either.  And  Nancy  just  always...knew  how  to  get  what  she  wants.  Even  if  what  she  wanted  was  usually  just  what  others  wanted  first."  she  shrugs,  uncertain  why  she  was  saying  all  of  this.  "I  had  crushes  after  that,  never  told  a  soul  again.  Never  did  anything  about  them,  either."

They  finally  reach  town.  And  her  pace  picks  up  just  slightly  towards  the  shawarma  stand.  It's  only  five  minutes  away  now,  just  around  the  first  corner.  "The  truth  is  definitely  going  to  be  better  than  sex.  Especially  if  you're  a  fan  of  spicy  mayo."

julian knows that he's lucky . he remembers it each and every single someone invites him to a house party with horrible music , because they really want him there . he remembers it when someone checks in on him , because he's too tired from work to respond to texts . he remembers it whenever someone gives him that look , the one that says ' i'm here , whether you want to talk or not ' . there is so much love in his life and sometimes he hates himself for waiting for the moment they decide he's no longer worth it . ❛ you never know . ❜ jules agrees quietly . it's impossible to control people , let alone dynamics . ❛ but if you never trust someone , you miss out on all the good that life has to offer . ❜ hazel eyes find her face , but he cannot give her a smile or something to reassure her this time . he promised honesty and gods , this life could be a shitshow . ❛ it's safer not to let anyone in , but . . . what if that's the one person that could change everything ? ❜

the words that follow are enough to knock the air out of his lungs . love is not enough . a sentiment he shares , one he confessed to his sister in the past . a part of him held onto this idea that pain planted it in his mind . now that someone else uttered the very same words ? it feels all too real . his heart pounds against his chest , loud enough to make it hard to focus . would it ever go away again ? or is this what it means to live your life with eyes wide open ? julian tries to take a deep breath , but it barely helps . ❛ i'm sorry you do . ❜ he whispers instead . if one thing is clear , it's that she does understand , after all . he fails to return her smile , fails to find humor in her joke , but that's not kiara's fault . how could she possibly know what would happen after the use of a simple truth ? jules inhales and when he manages to smile , it looks more like a grimace . ❛ not healthy . hating just about everything . ❜ she probably knows it , but he felt the need to say it anyway . from what he's seen tonight , it's difficult to picture the young woman as the crazy one in a relationship , but . . . ❛ definitely don't ask me , i never thought my ex would be the shitty ex either . ❜ there is slightly more amusement in his voice now , but it stays faint . her remark catches his interest and he watches her for a moment . ❛ i can't imagine . i still think of my grandparents . very often . ❜ but kie mentioned that her mother died when she was little . were the memories already hazy , making it easier to forget ? ❛ i see . i hope it's going to be a good one . even if surfing's not going well . ❜ a chuckle escapes his lips just then and he nods his head . ❛ alright . we just let them assume whatever they want to assume . pretty sure the truth is going to be better than sex anyway . ❜ he couldn't remember the last time he went out to get a shawarma .

[isnt-that-wizardd]

if you like langdon but hate santos or vice versa then i believe that you simply do not understand the characters

[grillingbutter]

In your own words, what does polymind mean?

It's assigning names and personalities to different emotions or aspects of your personality!

How is polymind different from a system?

It's different from a system because the thoughts are still those of one person, they are just being categorized as being from a different person.

How is polymind different from egostates?

Dunno what egostates are :p

Do your minds have names or do you just call them "the mom," "the worker," "the lover," and that sorta stuff like is referenced on the carrd?

Yes! Robin is our mind who just likes to collect litter while we go on walks and Webber is our mind for when any of us are age regressing! I'm the mind for our body image issues and I'm here rn cuz we were just in a clothing store 😭

Was your polymind existence voluntary or involuntary?

Both. We first started noticing us doing it during some internet drama we got involved in, though we thought it was delusions or a system at first. We only realized it was likely some mixture of polymindedness and copingkin when the Starstruck system taught us what polymindedness was! After that we realized it was something we've been doing since at least grade 8 lmao.

Why are you polymind if it was voluntary, or what is your understanding/theory on why you're polymind if it's involuntary?

Because of abuse from our dad and because of online drama/harassment. Mainly we started noticing it because of the internet drama but we were experiencing it before likely because of our dad.

Is it a positive, negative, or neutral experience?

Neutral I'd say. There's a lot of hate towards polyminds from all syscourse stances and there are also a lot of people who feel uncomfortable about it because they don't understand it. It's really helpful for us in terms of coping with day-to-day life though. It's also really euphoric when we find those who don't treat us differently for it or even think we're cool for it!

How did you learn about being polymind?

Already talked about this briefly but me and Starstruck did an experiment where we join servers of our opposing syscourse stance to try to understand eachothers syscourse stances. One of the servers I got invited to was a polymind server and I didn't know what that was so they explained it to me and gave me the carrd!

What is your opinion on systems (both traumagenic and endogenic)?

We find them really fascinating! Especially Wilson. He loves learning about others experiences with systemhood. We are actually studying phycology and hoping to specialize in disassociative disorders! Our goal is to eventually study endogenic plurality if it's still under researched by then (which it probably will be).

How do you express this identity in your day to day life?

We just drop little hits about us being different people from time to time. Like Wilson will say something like "I really enjoy learning about science" or "oh this reminds me of my childhood." Stupid little comments that can easily just be ignored. Usually we only do this with our mom and her boyfriend though since our mom is the only family member who knows we're a polymind. (Even if she refuses to acknowledge it most of the time we did sit her down and tell her about it.) We also sometimes dress up how we looked in source since it gives us a lot of euphoria!

Anything else ya wanna say?

Nope!

-Nancy Wheeler

Questions for Polymind Folks!!

Hello hello hello! My name is Rowan or Pleo. I'm a traumagenic DID system called The Orchard System. I've seen a post or two referencing polymind people and I would love to learn more!!

In your own words, what does polymind mean?

How is polymind different from a system?

How is polymind different from egostates?

Do your minds have names or do you just call them "the mom," "the worker," "the lover," and that sorta stuff like is referenced on the carrd?

Was your polymind existence voluntary or involuntary?

Why are you polymind if it was voluntary, or what is your understanding/theory on why you're polymind if it's involuntary?

Is it a positive, negative, or neutral experience?

How did you learn about being polymind?

What is your opinion on systems (both traumagenic and endogenic)?

How do you express this identity in your day to day life?

Anything else ya wanna say?

Y'all can answer in my asks or by reblogging. Thank you so much, and have great day!!

[summergoodwife]

Thinking about how our current understanding is that Pyrrha and John are the last ones around who know Alecto from before.

And I keep wondering: what would Mercy and Augustine be feeling now if they had survived? What would Cytherea be feeling? How would they interact with her? They hated her so much, we know at least that Mercy and Augustine were the two who pushed hardest for her entombment, but 10,000 years have passed, and as hard as they all try to pretend that radical emotion renewal begins at the point of soul absorption, they have changed. Cytherea seemed to imply that she was planning to wake Alecto using Gideon. Sure, it seems that was about using her rather than becoming her friend.

But just how much can someone use Alecto before coming to the inevitable conclusion that her rage is justified? That she isn't a monster, or that her monstrosity doesn't make her lesser than humans? I feel like this is what soul permeability, as described in "The Unwanted Guest," was about. You can't choose to be unaffected by someone. To a very real extent, you can't choose how they affect you.

Maybe God's lyctors would find themselves, 10,000 years later, much closer to the monster than to the man. Who knows if this would breed forgiveness, further hatred, or something else entirely?

[valzhangism]

i know i said i was happy about how mel's story went, but the more i think about it the less i'm sure about that. this is very much connected to how the themes of classism and wealth disappeared in s2, but mel in the beginning was the epitome of piltover. she wanted to advance piltover to prove herself to her mother. to "put piltover—" and by extension herself, "—on the map."

she wanted wealth just to have it. and i'm not blaming her for anything that happened, especially with hextech! she, just like jayce and viktor, could not have known what it would lead to. i mean yeah heimerdinger said so but who the hell listens to heimerdinger? but anyway i think mel changed throughout s1, much in thanks to jayce. by the end she's become more cognisant of the mistreatment of zaunites. she's the first to vote for their peace. she was a good person all along but now she knows how to act on it. it's also seen more in s2 act 1. when she covers her painting with gold, it's symbolic—she won't act according to what her mother might think. she won't let her desire for approval dictate her anymore.

so somehow i wish those themes were. continued, somehow? like again they were dropped not just with mel but the whole show and it makes her story a off to me. there's no meaningful commentary on war or classism or how her ideology stands opposite to her mother's. like some people have said, it feels like she doesn't have much agency, even if she is really cool. and that to me is a shame because agency felt like her thing. "to shape your own destiny" as she says to jayce in s1. i know her collaborating with the black rose (but not fully joining them) and learning magic is supposed to represent becoming independent from her mother, taking her own path, but some other aspects of her character were thrown away... the more i think about it the more i'm thinking they kind of #girlboss-ed her a little bit. maybe to sell another champion. i can't help but feel like even though i enjoyed seeing her on screen, the payoff didn't feel proportionally satisfying compared to her setup in s1.