#comphet is one hell of a drug

[snkgay]

Bertholdt likes the idea of Annie. She's pretty, she's strong, she's shorter than him (so is Reiner, pretty, strong, shorter than he, but that's not important, for now. Put a pin in that.)

Annie feels his yearning from a mile away and makes the first move to suss out what this is, out of curiosity.

The entire time on their first date, Bert talks about Reiner. Annie comes to the conclusions comphet has its clutches on him and goes along with the ruse (unbeknownst to Bert), with the plan of getting him to face reality, and his true feelings that lie in Reiner.

How long do ya'll think Annie keeps this going before she can't take hearing Bert monologue about Reiner in the comfort of only her presence?

[cursedyuri]

I thought I was bi but I'm being so serious when I say that Vi might have turned into a dull blown lesbian, like I will never look at a man again with desire

the bi to lesbian pipeline is still going strong i see!! men don’t deserve your looks of desire anyway.

[emilydickinsonsghost]

Me in high school: How’s it going, fellow heterosexuals? Yes, I love men, I love when they have manly long hair and wear eyeliner and nail polish, yea so sexy, I can’t wait to have a boyfriend!

Me now:

[therylez]

When i was 13 i wrote in my diary that i think i'm a lesbian and since then my life has been an endless cycle of me trying to date men anyways, realizing that i hate it, coming out as a lesbian to myself, then gaslighting myself into thinking 'hey but what if i am actually bi maybe i should try again just to be sure', dating men, absolutely fucking hating it, and rinse and repeat so essentially i have been traumatizing myself for 14 YEARS by being with people that i do not actually want to be with and FOR WHAT why do i keep making myself miserable when i could have been dating women the whole fucking time omfg

[likeaustralianotcrosby]

Where are all the other 30-year-olds out there who have identified as bi for, like, the past decade only to discover that they’ve probably just been drinking from the fountain of comphet their whole lives and they’re definitely gayer than previously assumed

[your-dads-filing-cabinet]

Straight women couldn't snag a ✨💅gbf💅✨ anymore because fags got tired of being treated like a favorite handbag so they moved on to being fujoshis and fetishizing us on Alan Turing's internet

[kiyomitakada]

ooh ooh !! for the pride thingg

🏳️‍🌈 misa amane and teru mikami

i would LOVEE to hear your take on misa's sexuality like for me, she is sooo comphet lesbian but like. GOD. yagamane is so real to me and misa is in LOVE with light frfr i constantly constantly juxtaposition on those two things

OOOH YAY THANK YOU

misa: [television static noise] Okay. okay. for some reason the first time i read death note i decided she was agender and that has just stuck with me ever since. i Cannot find the post i could swear i made about this but it was for the continuation-of-the-pronoun-comic fic

[on the awkward car ride back to the hotel after mock execution] misa: so like i still don't get it. how do you know you're a girl light: (sighing) i don't know how else to explain it. how do you know you're a girl? misa: of course i don't silly! i just perform being one! nobody actually FEELS deep down that they're anything other than what they do around other people light: soichiro: L, over the intercom: misa-san,

ANYWAY. yes. comphet agender femme lesbian of all time To Me. in my head this does not contradict yagamane at all because 1) light can be a girl and 2) i don't really think misa is attracted to light at all? the cynical interpretation is that she loves the idea of light and loves being in love. the slightly less cynical interpretation is that she loves light but the way you'd love a god. or a doll. like the most sincere i can see is that she really truly does love him but still isn't romantically or sexually attracted to him does this make sense. in any case. bpd favorite person fixation is a hell of a drug

mikami: cis gay man! i think he is probably somewhere on the aro spectrum but he has no idea where to start separating "this is my orientation" from "this is the result of being isolated from my peers and then deliberately distancing myself from the rest of the world" and he is Not Interested in knowing

[babygirlphil]

dude looking back at experiences from before you had the lesbian realization can be so fucking wild 😭 like shoutout to the school party when i was 15 where a guy asked to dance with me and was pretty flirty, and then as soon as it ended i ran into the bathroom to cry because i was so uncomfortable that i wanted my soul to escape my body, and i didn't know why. it took me two more years after that to realize i was a lesbian btw

awww that sounds awful :( im sorry anon. i had like 6 bfs before I realized I was a lesbian. None of the relationships lasted long bc I never felt comfortable when they touched me. yet somehow it just didnt occur to me that I might not be attracted to men. Comphet is one hell of a drug

[swifty-fox]

Send me a fic of mine and I'll answer...

A Kingdom for a Kiss?

THIS GOT SO LONG I AM SORRY

My favorite scene

oh god that is so hard to choose.

I think honestly chapter eighteen/the second sex scene is my favorite scene. It is the culmination of so many issues in Gale's psyche, especially around John and Gale's perception of their dynamic. Taking all that and flipping it right on its head.

Previously in the story Gale is so obsessed with the ways he is not like John in terms of his masculinity and terms of how he expects John to be in bed. Every fantasy of his is tinged with shame and twisted in terms of gender and role because Gale cannot picture himself as an active participant. It doesn't feel safe for him because it feels too unrealistic for John to ever want him as a man, so he pretends to be a woman in his fantasies to ground him (comphet is a hell of a drug)

We do see briefly in one fantasy that Gale does want to take charge in bed but it scares him, feels too close and too real so he shies away from it. Chapter Eighteen is all about him coming to terms with his own desires. And also John is a really fun bottom to write

My favorite chapter (if it's a multichapter)

Lmao the book fingering chapter. It was fun to just let loose and do something really unhinged. Plus any scene/chapter where I got to write Gale and John Sr. interacting was just really fun they had a ton of chemistry as characters and were just a blast to bounce off of each other.

Hardest scene to write

Honestly the whole story flowed relatively easy. I think my biggest struggles were the James chapters just because I wanted to get the tone/intention and dynamic exactly right between Gale and James. I needed to make it clear that Gale was willingly putting himself in a situation that was going to trigger/mentally harm him. He was committing an act of self harm, just with sex instead of some sort of physical wounding. And that while James was not a great guy he was as far as he could tell, receiving full consent from Gale. So that chapter went through a couple revisions and was sent to a lot of people for review

Favorite character to write in the fic

John Sr.!!!! I think he's a delightful foil to Gale and John. I think he can be very easy to hate and be angry at because we care so much about John, but when you get into his head a bit you see a man who was making harmful choices but was doing what he thought was best because he is also deeply traumatized and hurting. He Is John and Gale, in essence. He's them twenty/thirty years in the future and he's them if they were not able to find community and safe space to talk about their experiences in the war. His brothers were killed, his parents died/killed themselves he left for war with a full family and came home to just a wife and a young son who didn't recognize him.

I have so much love and empathy for him and it was totally unexpected. Does he make great decisions? no. Is he trying his best to not just be a father to John but also to Edie and a good husband to his wife? Absolutely he is.

Favorite dynamic to write in the fic

Aside from Clegan obviously, It's Gale and John Sr.

I think like John says in the opening theme they're very similar men deep down. I think they're able to communicate in ways the more emotional Bucky is not able to with his father. While they always loved each other I think there was always this slight issue of communication between them where they just don't quite get one another.

Gale, with his observational ability and honestly, some level of fear of John Sr. (older fatherly men etc.) he's very attuned and attentive not just what John Sr. is saying out loud but also what he is not saying. There's a lot of nonverbal communication between them that is fun to write between the lines.

Why I chose that title

My body turns

And yearns for a sleep that won't ever come

It's never over

My kingdom for a kiss upon her shoulder

It's never over

All my riches for her smiles

When I've slept so soft against her

obviously pronouns changed, but this is the part of the song I pulled the title from. The song is just all about yearning and a missed opportunity which is I think a very central theme to Kfak. Obviously it works out for them too but god it took a second to get there!

A fun fact about the fic

Fun fact ooo lets see...

John calls his dad Pops because it's time period appropriate but also that's what I called my grandfather! It feels like a nice little hello to him every time I write it and it's a fun way of keeping my memory of him alive and fresh. John Sr. is not like my pops at all but either way it makes me smile to type

[blushedfemmes]

saw your previous post about thinking of being straight and honestly i get it. before realising i prefer to be masc i would force myself to be as feminine as possible, just assuming one day i'd have to hook up with a guy whenever i liked it or not because "it's what all teenage girls my age do". now ofc i realise that's literally not true at all and you shouldn't feel forced to do anything but it's incredibly hard to live as a lesbian when the entire world shows you that you either like men as a woman or you have to be a man to like women, it truly fucks with your head. the only thing i miss about being fem presenting though was all the older women complimenting me lmao

-💫

!!! yeah. so true. comphet is a hell of a drug! thank you for sharing <33

[tonysopranosfeverdreams]

Who are some of your favorite lesbians?

like of all time? ok so most of my actual favorites are people i know irl but as far as well-known lesbians, i LOVE adrienne rich, audre lorde, alison bechdel, judith butler (i wrote my senior thesis on their writings on gender in conversation with virginia woolf's writings. i'd include woolf as my very very favorite, but from what i gather it seems more likely she sincerely swung both ways although it's not like we can ask her and comphet is a hell of a drug, especially in the victorian and edwarian era. but she is actually my favorite person to exist of all time. ) adele haenel is one of my favorite actresses and i believe a lesbian.

[castlebyersafterdark]

ooooh reddit receipts here we go

One of my favorite Mileven comments said something like: Byler is made-up fetish material, akin to imagining Billy and Steve sucking on a tentacle together.

I love that this person's mind went there. I don't know how it did, but I love it.

..........

🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣

It's a strange, strange world out in the wilds of this bizarre expanded fandom...

Us: Mike and Eleven simply lack romantic chemistry and comphet is a hell of a drug

Them: GAY MEN ARE FETISHISTIC AND IMPOSSIBLE TO IMAGINE OUTSIDE HARDCORE NICHE PORN

[vulpixelates]

it is so bizarre to see bc looking back, ik i could convince myself that i liked fictional men but any time a real man even glanced at me irlmy hackles were raised and when i actually tried dating irl instead of latching onto anyone who paid attention to me online i felt disgusted by the idea of being around them. but ah yes i was totally attracted to them

comphet is one hell of a drug

oh god it's such a jumpscare seeing comphet era posts in my notes. i never delete posts as fast as i do in this situation lmao wdym i was being thirsty about sagacious zu 😭😭😭 i don't even remember this

[chocobosdungeon2]

Sexuality is so weird like how can you be wrong about yourself your whole life like the signs were there I just couldnt pick up on them like I DONT LIVE HERE. IN THIS BODY. WHERE THE SIGNS ARE PLASTERED EVERYWHERE.

[e-102]

does anylesbian wanna share their horrible comphet crushes b4 realizing they were dykes to make me feel better about mine

[lesbiantiana]

my teen years were just: haha what if i was a lesbian....nah just kidding.....unless?