#totheidiot

[kiyomitakada]

ooh ooh !! for the pride thingg

🏳️‍🌈 misa amane and teru mikami

i would LOVEE to hear your take on misa's sexuality like for me, she is sooo comphet lesbian but like. GOD. yagamane is so real to me and misa is in LOVE with light frfr i constantly constantly juxtaposition on those two things

OOOH YAY THANK YOU

misa: [television static noise] Okay. okay. for some reason the first time i read death note i decided she was agender and that has just stuck with me ever since. i Cannot find the post i could swear i made about this but it was for the continuation-of-the-pronoun-comic fic

[on the awkward car ride back to the hotel after mock execution] misa: so like i still don't get it. how do you know you're a girl light: (sighing) i don't know how else to explain it. how do you know you're a girl? misa: of course i don't silly! i just perform being one! nobody actually FEELS deep down that they're anything other than what they do around other people light: soichiro: L, over the intercom: misa-san,

ANYWAY. yes. comphet agender femme lesbian of all time To Me. in my head this does not contradict yagamane at all because 1) light can be a girl and 2) i don't really think misa is attracted to light at all? the cynical interpretation is that she loves the idea of light and loves being in love. the slightly less cynical interpretation is that she loves light but the way you'd love a god. or a doll. like the most sincere i can see is that she really truly does love him but still isn't romantically or sexually attracted to him does this make sense. in any case. bpd favorite person fixation is a hell of a drug

mikami: cis gay man! i think he is probably somewhere on the aro spectrum but he has no idea where to start separating "this is my orientation" from "this is the result of being isolated from my peers and then deliberately distancing myself from the rest of the world" and he is Not Interested in knowing

[timetravellingkitty]

i think you should start killing the white people now. for all of our sake, please.

I am so close to choosing violence the next white person to fuck around on that post is getting maimed

[dnrarepairweek]

hihihi !! i have a question that might be a little stupid – i was wondering if we could still do polyam ships if it has a popular ship in it? like for example, i want to do a mikalawlight for this and i am wondering if it'll be allowed since it still has lawlight, the most popular dn ship, in it

Not a stupid question at all! This would be absolutely fine :-)

[dailyverse-smash-or-pass]

are you ever going to be doing millie :]] the one who started it all

of course I am!

[tag-that-oc]

sometimes a family is just a fifteen year old girl who is the headmaster of a school and just happens to hold the school's power within herself (she's the school. think the monster house movie but she looks human. species is school though.), her fourteen year old friend from school who knows Everything and plays therapist to a group of fifteen teenagers who really hate her, two otherwise normal girls except they control ponds and the streets, a lemon and a sharpener who are cousins and hate each other, albert einstein and his happy-go-lucky producer, and a genuinely normal girl who just has a vibrant red forehead.

she IS the school.... i love that. thats a really cool collection of powers!

[mlm-blues]

faerie and ogre !!!

ogre: do you prefer a boyfriend who is taller than you or shorter?

i dont knowww both have their perks... taller bf can tower over you and smaller bf you can pick them up and swing them around like a ragdoll or some shit like that.

[kristsune]

excuse me do you have a moment to talk about our lord and savior dickonzo?

god bless you're the first person to write about this ship and it is truly an honor !! it has grown slightly, total of four fics written, including yours, there's some art !! we shall all together to expand this toxic co-depended monster/human little thing.

HEEEEHEHE yesss YESSS. god its so GOOD, and thank you SO much, i had not seen the ship name dickonzo and that is delightful. i have hopes to write more if i can get my brain to agree, but either way, im so glad there are other followers to the wonderful and toxic relationship that is dickonzo. We are all in this together <3

[poems-of-the-anentomologist]

Without the sun there is no moon

Without me there is no you

Yet it feels wrong to me for that to be true

Light shone down from your skies

They were so much brighter than mine

I reached out to make my place in your arms

But my wings burned with your touch

I was just another Icarus

I fell back into my night. I had no light to dream of

It wasn’t your fault

My place is among the dark, where the stars shine far and cold. empty and stark

You should have never put me in your heart

So why do you return? Why do you come into the night where the horrors lie

Why do you want to pull me out of what should be my life

Why wont you just say goodbye?

Without the moon the sun gets lonely

Without you there is no me

That is the truth so why won’t you let it be

You eclipsed my path

You were new, you made me laugh

I let you rest in my arms

But you couldn’t stay, not like this anyways

I saw you fall but couldn’t find what to say

Without you I managed fine, but you never left my mind

It wasn’t your fault

You had never seen light so bright

But I feared you’d lose what made you special if you and me were tied so tight

Yes I am scared. The night is not a place for me

But it also fair for this to be your life while I bathe in light

Because I care about you, that’s why I won’t say goodbye

I don’t want to lose you.

And I don’t want to loose you too.

Good morning

Good night

yay more star metaphors!

[4urum-4rgentum]

✨Babel fanart with Bangla song lyrics✨

(some times you just have to make the fanart you want to see in the world)

"We are but Lilliputians in your eyes. Utterly awkward aliens in your organized city"

(lyrics from "khelna bati ranna" by Anupam Roy)

Listen to the whole damn song and think about them to give yourself psychic damage. They can't just give me a Bangali queer character and expect me to not go apeshit about it.

Taglist: @thevagabondexpress @chaosandtwo @lesbocrocker @caterpillarinacave @faithfromanewperspective @quantummeep ( @totheidiot @nashoe @cutetrilobite2 @cult-of-the-eye )

(the handful of babel tumblrinas I saw these two days. God this fandom can fit in a minibus. Sorry for the unprompted tagging)

@archiveofliterature @tlajtollirambles @jokrrouttfynn @i-wish-i-were-softer

[catboymettaton]

for @dnrarepairweek prompts "fate" (day one) and "firsts" (day three) beyond/mikami, rated T, 3k words. in which mikami's routine is disrupted, bringing him face to face with a stranger who already knows his name. read on ao3

Teru Mikami was a man of routine.

Every morning, he woke up at 6am. He took the train to work at 8am, took his lunch at 1pm, and came home at 5pm. On Sundays and Thursdays, he went to the gym. On Mondays and Fridays, he practiced piano. On Tuesdays and Saturdays, he purchased groceries. On Wednesdays, he cleaned his apartment. Afterwards, he watched the news, read a book, wrote in his journal, and then went to bed.

It was Thursday evening. He finished dinner, washed each dish, and headed down to the 24 hour hotel where he held a gym membership. He liked that it was open every day, never risking a disruption to his routine from inconvenient holidays.

He could have chosen to go in the morning, or midday on weekends. But he preferred the emptiness of the period between evening and night. The gym became his own private sanctuary, free of the inconveniences that came from social interaction.

It was a brief walk from his apartment; only about ten minutes. He frowned as he approached. There was an unusual slip of paper stuck to the door. 

His heart sank as he read it, then began to beat faster. Closed for Emergency Maintenance. Sorry for the inconvenience!

@korrororo @totheidiot

[leafgorge]

okay so mutuals list for future reference:

irl friends:

@rayis-psychotic - ray (inactive but still) (also my first follower)

@0star-boy0 - nyx (inactive but still)

@dollettebambi - kaden

@geepygeeper - charlie

qpr:

@poemsofanentomologist / @onetimemacaroni / @onetimemacareblogs - OMG VICTORIA HI!! (one of) MY FAVOURITE PEOPLE ALERT!!!

daily blog people:

@sylvayex - good & evil

@jonesy-squish - forgor which daily you run but we’re still mutuals and you’re still pretty cool (EDIT: THEY ARE JAMFACE DAILY AMONG A COUPLE OTHERS)

@saturnmortis - gothic whore (also just a cool person i’m happy to be moots with)

@mystical-cinnamoon - not a daily but still on the server

@pokethedude - spirit phone

@apollosunshineisdead - chnt!! hi!!

@reinagony - are we there yet (and just a good friend)

@ctrl-alt-deleting-yr-face - los campesinos! (and just a good friend)

@the3leafedclover - i’m like 80% sure you’re a daily but i can’t remember which sorry 😭

@amorphousprimordia - the normal album (cool person alert!!)

@1-kora-baraca - sketches 3d

@thecountandtheraven - self-ish

@sillygoofyart - not a trampoline

@totheidiot - icimi and 16 04 16 (banger albums great choices)

@arsonstick - ave and surgery

@pixlelixr - pretty sure we’re mutuals? hpii

@mossify - janthf

@ardenishere - eial

@therewillbenoromance - cccc

@3guineapigsinatrenchcoat - foxlore (grayhamster)

@soggytapeworm - not a daily but still a very cool person, i followed you a bit before you followed me back and was delighted to learn we were moots

@onetimemacaroni - hi again you are also a daily friend

@stqrryluka - o my heart :)

poem friends:

@thecrazyalchemist

@whyshouldilistentoyou

@must-have-been-thewind

@daggerhobbit

@four-leafed-queer-gal

@poemsofanentomologist you are also a poem friend

followed you back because you seemed pretty cool, although we don’t interact much:

@intrinsically-inclined

@casualmrboyenjoyer

@sillygoofyart

@sarosthewizarddude

@ohmanareyoucereal69 (girlblogger friend hi hello)

@despairdoodlesreal

@chaotic-so3k

@frogskeleton222

@subconscious-deactivated20230229

@mr-capgrass-stole-my-spine

and finally,

@official-bread-posts

@marylandaccountx3

and

@rat-detector

if you don’t want to be tagged i can untag you, sorry haha

[shadow-the-crow]

The Distortion didn’t like Michael as a who.

I mean, it says itself that it doesn’t want to be Michael. But the who and what thing actually brings us farther than that. It shows us his whole arc.

We all know the quote "i am not a who, archivist, i am a what." When i first heard it, i thought: Makes sense, it’s an inhuman creature, not a person, it just can’t have enough identity to be a who. Like it says itself.

But in Michael’s statement, it talks about having your who torn from your what, and replaced with another who. So it actually did have a who before becoming Michael. And it even admits that Michael also was a who, a who that became part of its being.

I think… it could just never accept being Michael. As it said, Michael Shelley was a constant reminder of its failure – the embodiment of it. The Distortion was forced to become the embodiment of its failure. To think with its mind. Of course it could never accept that. Imagine how horrible that must be – despising your own mind. (I think some people can relate to that, actually. I’m sorry if you can. I can.)

So it tried to disassociate itself completely from being Michael. To pretend it was only a what. I mean, we see that it’s comfortable with it/its pronouns as Michael, but not as Helen. As Michael, it embraced its inhumanity – not because it wasn’t comfortable with being a person in general, but with being that specific person it was forced to become. A person whose mind wasn’t made for the Spiral. Its failure incarnate.

But just before the Distortion in its Michael form dies, he ends his statement with "that is who i am". WHO. (thanks @totheidiot for pointing that out to me ^^) Michael finally got to talk about everything he had to endure. For the first time, he said the cruel truths out loud: How much it always hated being Michael Shelley. He told Jon everything, which also forced him to face the truth himself. And i think facing it finally allowed him to accept it. Accepting how shitty something is is the first step towards learning to live with it and maybe even learning not to hate it.

He could finally accept his mind. His who. Every part of himself.

And not even two minutes later, he died.

(Of course, the Distortion itself didn’t die. But its current state of existence died. It finally accepted its who, only to get it painfully torn from its what again.)

Because he got too lost in his who. Talking to Jon allowed him to be more human. But the cruel world he lived in doesn't reward humanity. It exploits the weakness that comes with it.

[iamtheoneandonlyever]

Another day of me and @totheidiot cracking codes frfr

Ignore the lemon boy equals racism part

[mybedroomceilingsbored]

hey y'all!

you can call me Mouse-i'm a nerdy, artsy-craftsy, music-loving GEEK

i love chatting with people, always feel free to shoot me an ask/dm

☼ she/her pronouns are great! ☼ i'm a dancer and i play a few instruments ☼ pisces sun/moon, scorpio rising ☼ one (1) beach completed, on my way to becoming an Official Certified Ken (credit: my very dear @green-binder) ☼ i love interacting with people, but i do sometimes burn out. sometimes i just don't have the energy to reply to something or continue a conversation, please don't take it personally!

not doing chain asks atm

i've got a lil tma sideblog @consumedbywhatlovesme if you're interested, hyperfixation going STRONG 💪

things i love

☼ the magnus archives ☼ fiction podcasts ☼ coraline ☼ hozier ☼ gardening ☼ ancient greek mythology and culture ☼ neuroscience, slime molds, microbiology, and biochemistry ☼ baking ☼ crochet/knitting ☼ long bike rides ☼ sketching and painting

and moots!

@15millionfireflies, @a-dam-heartstopper-fan, @bleep-bloop-boo, @brains-out-rn, @fairyycoffin, @finleyforevermore, @galaxys-universe, @ghosts-starrstuf, @green-binder, @hugallurfriends, @mossy-stormcloud, @nyyx-xoxx, @remithegayshoebill, @sad-girl-shit11, @scatteredraysofhope, @snuggle-bug, @stargazinghorror, @the-chaotic-snek, @thestrawberryapologist, @totheidiot, @trans-lobotomy, @urlocalsadkid-l, @wistfulenchantress, @yelenapines

comfort books

☼ the goldfinch, a psalm for the wild built/a prayer for the crown-shy, coraline, the electric kingdom, the song of achilles, truly devious, a wrinkle in time, they, the secret history, the answers

movies, tv, and podcasts

☼ the magnus archives, portrait de la jeune fille en feu, stranger things, over the garden wall, welcome to night vale, wolf 359, the truman project

and foods

☼ hot cocoa, peach tea, lemon cookies, asparagus, fresh sourdough, grapefruit, chocolate chip cookie dough

currently listening to

favorite artists

☼ hozier, fleetwood mac, luz, wallows, the arctic monkeys, billie eilish, coin, tv girl, fuvk, the beach cowboys, boygenius (+ solo work), pomme, cigarettes after sex, autoheart, milky chance, cage the elephant, the talking heads, dominic fike

moodboard by @wistfulenchantress <3

(dividers by @/saradika-graphics, their stuff is absolutely gorgeous)

[dailyverse-smash-or-pass]

For today's contestant on our Show we have: Dr. Adrian B! (@16-04-16-daily)

For anyone unfamiliar with or forgotten what he looks like! This is what he looks like!:

[onetimemacaroni]

my full moot list (buckle in):

@unstableunicornsofasgard @idekrnyall @pocketspades @gay--gh0st

@transguyasher @glitchyycatt @url0calcrvckhead @sploon-fic-fan

@darkstalkers-scroll @gaywitchshowfan @intrinsically-inclined @leafgorge

@ineffable-ezra @amorphousprimordia @xsam0813x @djmankiewics1996

@sunsetsands @small-giggle @girlidi0t777 @thecrazyalchemist

@apollosunshineisdead @bisexualmostlylol89 @the-cryptid-finch @alchemicalwerewolf

@reinagony @sylvayex @saturnmortis @mrpocketofthewoods

@totheidiot @enbyofthegods @criticallyacclaimedclipboard @four-leafed-queer-gal

@therewillbenoromance @sillygoofyart @basileatsorgans @thecountandtheraven

@daggerhobbit @cult-of-the-lamb-fan @cthulhuismywife @must-have-been-thewind

I bet this isn't all of them...

but anyway I love all of you, keep on living all you wonderful people!!!!!!