#cvutblr

[mentally-ill-loser-rants]

Venting to people?? ❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌

Cutting myself?? ✅✅✅✅✅✅✅✅✅✅✅

[nuclearbombrrdisarmament]

i love feeling the bumps of my scars

[banana-slit]

What the fuck was I cooking... ?? (╥ᆺ╥；)

[maybeiamamist4ke]

as someone who’s been around the whole self harm and scars thing, let me tell you this in the kindest way possible. do NOT fucking self harm. it’s stupid!! if you haven’t started, don’t do it! if you already do, start trying to recover! if you really need some pain, get a rubber elastic band and snap it on your wrist over and over and over and over and over. the pain may not be as good but at least it’s not gonna leave scars forever. and i KNOW a lot of you will go “oh but the scars are the point”, “scars prove my suffering”, “if i don’t scar my pain meant nothing”, but that’s just not true!!! they don’t. when you heal (and don’t go “hashtag anti-recovery bc i’m never gonna heal, i’m trapped in darkness forever and there’s no escape” no you’re not you are under SPELLLSSSSS you’re mentally ill of course you think that!) when you heal, because you WILL, it comes free with the passage of time, you’re gonna have these scars on your body as a constant reminder and you’re gonna sit there miserable and it’s gonna be another thing that could potentially drag you back and drag you down and you don’t NEED that risk!!!! i promise you WILL regret it if you continue. they’ll make you miserable and embarrassed and angry and full of this mix of shame and pity for who you used to be. and you won’t be able to do jack shit about it then! (except use scar cream like this on your (healed) scars, which is actually really helpful). so stop it NOW! best time to stop would’ve been before you started. second best time is now. scars are the “gift” that just keeps giving, draining you, keeping you trapped in your misery. it’s one of the hardest things in the world to stop or even feel like you want to, but knowing that you DO want to stop, regardless of what your brain says, is the place to start. trying to kill the shame and stigma is so important… but stopping before you have even more scars to heal is the very first step. don’t give yourself more reason to hate yourself, bc that’s stupid. that’s counterproductive. focus your energy on healing, on getting better for your future self who deserves to be happy. idc if you don’t believe it now idc if it doesn’t matter to you now, if you can’t see a future for yourself, if you don’t care what happens to you. the logical answer is right there, the logical thing to do. so go through the motions and do that until you get to a place where you actually wanna live, where you actually wanna be happy and you actually care. bc you WILL get there eventually. i promise. don’t continuously shoot yourself in the foot and prevent yourself from reaching that point. bc everybody wants to be happy, even if they don’t feel like they do anymore, even if they feel lost without their suffering and their sickness. we all wanna be happy. so actually do something about it.

[doqqyy]

I wish there was something actually wrong with me so I would have an excuse to act like this

[romancecutting]

i luv cutting so so much :3 need to get worse it makes me feel so good inside hehe ^-^

[bloodiedpawzz]

me when I hurt myself and it ACTUALLY HURTS😱😱😨😨😨

[aspdstalker0]

thinking about subs that only cut where it can't be seen: under their boxer shorts, over their hip bones and under their pretty tits. not because they're ashamed, but because they don't want anyone but their dom to see the pretty wounds they made, just for them.

[mentally-ill-loser-rants]

love when I have an actual have a reason for cutting and it's not for no reason

[nuclearbombrrdisarmament]

i keep dreaming about cutting

[banana-slit]

Every time I log into Tumblr and have zero notes I die a little more on the inside .·´¯`(>▂<)´¯`·.

[ddxsatanick]

When bpd isnt Beautiful Princess Disorder and actually stands for Bad Person Disorder and you end up overreacting and making a year long drama that ruins your friend group and your at fault for it and feel like you don't deserve a moments of peace and that you should be literally hung for it. Being guilty is not enough I need to eternally suffer to prove how sorry I am.

[adumbpoet]

I finally hit a really deep styr0 and it was dr1pping a lot. Sadly, I couldn’t get a picture of it since my phone wasn’t on me :( But this is the damage

⚠️ All sfx ⚠️

Sfx warning ‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️

Last warning ‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️

[orphiccrowns]

i just want to cvt myself and take cute photos of it for them as they tell me how pretty the blood loooooovks >_< ^^

[nuclearbombrrdisarmament]

"you're cutting to deal with emotions!" actually, i punch myself in the face to deal with emotions. cutting is my hobby

[ddxsatanick]

Wife is coming over today, we're gonna get all sorts of freaky!!! I'm going to try and cvt to beans on her again heetee.. maybe I'll even lick it ! I want her to try hitting me too... ngh...