#depressionpost

[blood-orange-juice]

so...thoughts on the 5.6 trailer??

Ifa's hair is so fluffy

Albedo's arc seems to be something like Dottore's fake sky "reveal", it's there for the people who didn't get to do Dragonspine events. Hoyo need to introduce all the Sinners, Rhinedottir is next. So we'll get existing lore reiterated, yet another "Albedo sus but innocent" arc and a nice cinematic

The chess boss gives me hope but not too much of it. I want to hope that Alice will comment on the Sinners, Khaenri'ahn tech and the world being upside down but, honestly, what are the chances

Varka's voice is a pleasant surprise, I didn't expect him until the summer event. This also gives me hope for Nod-Krai crumbs

I love that Natlan cast is getting to travel the world, and are they tying secret source automatons to Remuria/Fontaine now (they are already tied to Nod-Krai)? I feel like that's where lorecrumbs will happen this patch. I can't understand whether it's an event or if they are a part of Escoffier's story quest

Dahlia's reveal is very lovely. I wonder why is he there

[taldigi]

i uh read kind of a nasty post but um

ai chatbots are not a real and arent a replacement for actual therepists or actual people

if you arent feeling good, and you think you're going to hurt yourself, dont feel like you are evil or betraying anyone for reaching out to an artifical voice

just understand the risks of AI and dont share personal information, ok?

[swordbisexual]

“Why do I feel a deep soul crushing loneliness” I ask myself as I engage in more alienating and isolating behaviors

[renny-mayflower]

Oh god

I was told so much by my mom that I'm more easily influenced because of my autism. Specifically when I was suspecting I was trans and experimenting with pronouns (For the record I'm not trans but it still would've helped to find that out on my own instead of my mom making me feel shitty about my autism)

And now I doubt myself about LITERALLY everything and don't fucking know if my identity is actually my real identity or something I made up with autism

Oh my fucking GODDDD get me out of this HELL

Everytime I think "Hey that sounds like me" I immediately suppress it cause I'm scared I'll be WRONG AGAIN

[goth-automaton]

Wiecie co, najgorsze w obecnej sytuacji jest to, że gówno wiadomo, zwłaszcza w kwestii czasowej. Kiedy pojawi się informacja zwrotna? Chuj wie! Co w tym czasie możemy zrobić? Też chuj wie! Może jakieś update'y co do sytuacji? A takiego chuja, możemy się wypchać, jak dadzą znać, to dadzą znać.

I w środku tego burdelu ja i moje szukanie pracy.

[sillimancer]

I don't really know what else to do. I'm finishing up my Merit America job training program. I'm applying to jobs in my field with no luck. I'm applying to retail jobs with no luck. I'm reaching out to local mutual aid groups (too soon to tell if that'll be any help). I'm waiting for a $100 microgrant I earned through Merit to come in. I've talked to my therapist, I've talked to my job coach, I'm doing everything I'm supposed to be doing and none of it is bearing fruit.

I have enough to pay my bills in November but nothing else. I'm rationing shampoo. My bank account will be empty by December 1st. At this rate I'll be getting my car repossessed for Christmas. I have no other support. If my mom hadn't paid her house off years ago I'd be living in my car right now. My parents live on a fixed income; they have nothing left to give.

So if you have money to burn and this silly blog has brought you any delight at all, could you toss some spare change my way?

[mosswolf]

ugh, this is definitely the worst winter i've had for seasonal depression in a long time now. i shouldnt be suprised really as we had a really shitty autumn, particularly with losing celena, but still...

ive also just been really struggling with motivating myself to work on uni stuff as it all just feels like i work really hard and yet make zero progress to being any closer to being done, even though i literally graduate at the start of june. finding it a lot harder with my new supervisor since my last one MOVED TO AUSTRALIA because this guy is fine but i dunno i never really feel like he gets what my struggles are. you know the people who see you being quiet in class and getting generally good marks and go ah! so you're one of the okay ones <3 and then never interrogate further,,, and i had 4 different deadlines in january on top of lectures, work, supporting family, doing household jobs.... i was fucking dyingggg

BUT it's feburary!!! we survived!!!! it's starting to noticeably get lighter! i submitted all my january work! i turn twenty two on the 17th and wills going to make me a cheesecake! the worst is OVER. the only way out is through, but that IS a way out!!!

[reitziluz]

"what's up with me. i know this will make everything worse. why am i like this?"

it's as if someone is having symptoms. a major episode first time in a while, even.

[krownest]

becoming delusional to cope

[that-wildwolf]

More and more often I find myself wondering what I'm gonna do after/if the mass effect tv show comes out. I mean I guess I could go back to the Fallout or Undertale fandoms???? Idk does anyone have recommendations for any media I could obsess about after the one I'm into now goes out?

[cruzifin]

queen moo deng is such a diva. i wish i could refuse to take showers and have a temper tantrum whenever im forced to bathe, like her. this is a different flavour of envy.

[ardentpoop]

and my new laundry detergent smells great. life isn’t so bad lmfao

[major-fukkup]

How am I supposed to go on living when I KNOW they would be better off without me?

[broilmage]

[disasterhimbo]

Having depression, ADHD, and ME/CFS is really fun bc I’m constantly questioning whether I’m just lazy or whether it’s executive dysfunction or fatigue or what, but regardless, I haven’t been able to get anything done lately (even the most basic cooking and cleaning)

[goth-automaton]

The worst thing about this all is, I genuinely don't see a future for myself. At all. For many, many reasons...