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ā¦.burning spice and dreamweaver y/n but he just keeps staring at them menacingly (can I be banana anon? - yeah Iām new)
This staring contest is a little insane
#cookie run kingdom#crk#dreamweaver au#crk au#my art#cookie run au#my artwork#crk dreamweaver au#cookie run x reader#burning spice cookie#burning spice#burning spice cookie x reader#burning spice x reader#crk x reader#cr x reader#cr au#cookie run kingdom au#cookie run kingdom x reader#cr kingdom#y/n here is either worried about their safety since thats THE LORD OF DESTRUCTION staring them down#Or they're BAFFLED by his size (or a secret 3rd thought that they're trying so hard to ignore š)#shit i just realized i messed up the pattern on their wing....#PRETEND ITS THE PATTERN I USUALLY GIVE THEM
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Understanding the Manipulative Behavior of Pathological Liars and Enablers
Pathological liars and enablers can engage in behavior that is not only socially harmful but can also have physical and emotional consequences. One of the tactics they often employ is triangulation, a manipulative strategy that involves deceiving others for their own advantage in social dynamics. In this blog post, we will delve into the reasons behind their resorting to such tactics and exploreā¦

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#addiction#breaking free#control#coping mechanism#deceit#destructive patterns#detrimental effects#dominance#emotional abuse#emotional consequences#emotional detachment#Empathy#enablers#harmful dynamics#Healing#lack of emotional intelligence#manipulation support#manipulative behavior#motivation#narcissism#pathological lying#pathological lying support#perpetuating#personal growth#power#psychological driving forces#regaining control#restoration#self-discovery#self-reflection
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Marvel making familiars for his loved ones
So I was thinking about Tawky Tawny (again). The thing about him is that he got so many different backstories or explanations on what he might be, but a common enough theme that we see is that he is a stuffed toy when he wants to be.
So here me out.
Tawky Tawny is Billyās familiar and helps him adjust to his magic when he wants to use it in his small form. He was originally a toy given to Billy by his parents and later given life by The Wizard.
It came with more benefits. Tawny would eat his nightmares, be able to teleport to Billyās location so that he could never get stolen or lost, protect Billy by going into his tiger form and all around be a constant warmth on his life.
So imagine Billy doing the same as The Wizard.
A lot of his friends arenāt magic users and donāt have the same magical protection he does, so maybe he gives them some enchanted clothing or pendants. A semi familiar (because without magic you canāt make a magical familiar pact with a living animal) where he just makes them familiars.
He would create stuffed animals, and weave in some magic to make them sentient. Maybe it would start with younger heroes, but when he realises his coworkers in the JL need the help as well, he absolutely would make some for them. They, like Tawny prefer to stay in stuffed toy mode, but will sometimes would want to stretch their paws and go into animal form once they feel like they are in a suitable environment.
Just picture it.
It all started with Raven, and the constant stress she might feel with having to constantly guard over Trigon. She canāt have a familiar because most creatures would suffer if give a link to her because her magic is not compatible like that. Captain Marvel decided to make her a companion. He makes her a little leopard wearing an elegant pink suit with a little top hat.
Raven: Is that a plush?
Cap: I heard you have trouble sleeping, so I got you a friend. I havenāt given them a name or pronouns, so thatās up to you.
Raven: ⦠why
Cap: Trust me, they are for nightmares! Tawny *holds up his tiger plush* tells me they are fun to hunt and makes quite the sweet treat.
Raven: *holding the handmade gift* thank you š„ŗ
Cue shenanigans where she thinks heās just trying to be a great den mother, and is a tad naive thinking stuffed animals actually work. Not that she isnāt holding little Ebony Darkness every night and is getting the best sleep she has in years.
Another thing to add is that insomnia and PTSD is a common sight within the caped community. And of course Billy notices that. So, after seeing more and more positive results of his plushies, he makes more and more. It becomes a trend. Younger heroes receive a small teddy of an animal and proceed to get attached to it almost immediately.
Nightwing almost cried when he got an elephant wearing a bow tie . Cap said that he seemed like the type to like them. Now Dick has given Zitka a little sibling to sleep at night with. But then that plush becomes fond of Zitka and gave the og elephant plush sentience.
Starfire absolutely adores her shrimp plush. Said something about being able to see colours together. Wally doesnāt know what to think about getting a turtle, but quickly gets attached, even putting little designs in the shell.
Jason also likes to put in patterns in his sting-ray, which Roy doesnāt get cause he thinks his jelly fish is perfect just the way she is. Lian gets a smaller jellyfish, which makes her happy because all the Outlaws get a sea animal.
All the members of YJ, even the retired ones, get a reindeer. They suspect he knows.
It gets back to the JL that Caps giving stuffed toys to their protoges.
Flash: Hey, Cap, how come we donāt get any stuffed animals?
Captain, exited his work is wanted: You want one!!!
Flash, canāt say no to that face: ⦠yes I do
He gets all exited and makes plushies for all of his coworkers, that he pours a bit of extra magic in his work.
CM, fidgeting infringe if the door:
Batman: what is it Captain
CM: I made you something but then I realised that you wouldnāt really want it but then it could be cool if you did and I didnāt want to overthink-
Batman, stopping Billyās rant: go ahead
CM, hands him a plush snake wearing spectacles: I thought you would like them. I havenāt named them so thatās up to you
Batman, not knowing where to go from here: ⦠is the name important
CM, offended: Itās the MOST important
Batman sighs and keeps the snake. Naturally he does a billion different tests but finds itās a snake plush. One thatās handmade. That must have taken a lot of time and effort. Batman keeps George Snaking. No he will not admit that having the snake wrapped around his shoulders is soothing.
And it just spirals from there. Hal gets a Sparrow in a poncho, Plastic man gets a kangaroo wearing the nicest boots, Wonder Woman gets a duck in a fancy dress, Aquaman gets a penguin in swim shorts, Jāonn gets a lion in a toga ⦠Guy gets a clown fish.
It has no rhyme or reason. The only common thread is that itās an animal with some sort of clothing. Cap just says that of course they have clothing, they are distinguished and perfectly civilised individuals.
It all come to a head when the League faces some threat, and they are weakened, only for their plushies to fucking teleport and turn into massive version of their respective animals and saves the day.
Hawkwoman, starring at her bear: I- Mrs Snuggles?
Mrs Snuggles: *shrugs*
Shayera: ⦠I could have been getting bear hugs this whole time
Guy: *looks down* Flippers?
Flippers: *flops on the floor*
Guy: ā¦.
Guy: how come the others get bigger version of their animals
The League of Superpets arenāt that worried about competition. They tried to recruit the plushās, but turns out they are just lazy. Like, they will beat a butch if necessary, but wonāt actively go looking for crime to solve. They act more of a home dĆ©fense.
The only ones who knew about the sentient plushies where Ma and Pa Kent (their Octopus is extent helpful around the farm), Alfred Pennyworth (heās the one who actually requested hamsters to help keep the manor clean and keep an eye on his family) and Damian whoās instinct immediacy told him his fennec fox is alive.
Oracle got a capybara. The Capybara is the most powerful one Billy has made, second to Tawny. I donāt make the rules.
Constantine is the only one who never got one. Billy is still salty about him trying to steal his powers. Plus he would prolly sell it.
#billy batson#shazam#dc captain marvel#dc#tawky tawny#just Billy making his friends plushies#Constantine is wondering why tf heās just handing out weapons of mass destruction#itās why he wonāt be getting any :(#dad marvel au#of you squint you can see it#Raven deserves to have a mentor in her life#thereās so many characters im not going to tag them all#itās midnight rn and I promised myself I would be healthy in my sleep patterns#i lied#sorry me from this morning the day did not go as planned
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DAREDEVIL: BORN AGAIN | 1.01, 1.02 & 1.03
I'm not him anymore. And, I won't let myself be.
#Daredevil Born Again#Karen Page#Matt Murdock#Daredeviledit#Karedevil#ddba spoilers#Daredevil Spoilers#Not Revolution#GIF set#Mine#I'm aware the show's called Daredevil: Born Again and Matt Murdock is Daredevil. But he's not my fav character by a long shot.#I like Matt. His MO is a push-pull relationship. He doesn't trust easily. He's very self involved and he's naturally self destructive.#But currently there is too much Matt and not enough Other People. I'm missing my warm fuzzys. I'm missing the emotional element.#(I do not miss the ninjas. Do not bring back the ninjas.) I'm cautiously interested in the idea of Frank having#a f**ked up fanclub - who he has no interaction with and who are co-opting his symbol for bad. If that's what's even happening?#I'm curious about Matt and Fisk both falling into old patterns and mirroring each other. I like the tense undercurrent between Fisk and#Vanessa. I don't know where that's going but I'm happy to wait and see. I just need something to care about? I'm not sure what the goal is#Matt's life is too easy. He became a successful lawyer with a proper office with no effort and barely an inconvenience.#He now has the perfect law partner who keeps the office running and has no personal issues and never questions him. She even found him a gf#Now it's a little messed up that his gf is a therapist coz boy does he need some therapy but she is also not very interesting.#I want to see Karen's apartment in San Francisco. I want her to have a cat. I want her to be a reporter or an#investigator? Maybe she just comes back to NY on her own. Matt screws up BIG and she shows up. Because he needs family and#she's all the family he has left. I want bickering. I want laughter. I want tears. And glaring and eye rolls.#I did not sign up for a show where Matt pretends he wants to be a lawyer for 9 episodes.#If the original version of this show was 'Matt pretends he wants to be a lawyer for 18 episodes' I can see why they changed it.#(This is the least spoilery post ever... but better to be safe than sorry)
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āWait no not like that.ā
OR: Results? To MY own self-sabotage? More likely than youād think!
OR: I donāt CARE that the prophecy was self-fulfilling, Iām still angry about it! š¤
OR: BlitzĆø sweetie pie please go to therapy I know this great lady with a hotel where you do trust falls and talk about your feelings sheās like a block away from your office just pop in for thirty seconds please Iām begging you š„ŗ
#helluva boss#helluva boss meme#blitzo#blitzĆø#stolas#stolas goetia#stolitz#hellverse#vivziepop#let me be perfectly clear I do not mean this in a way that is disparaging to BlitzĆø#I mean yeah the whole point of the meme is pointing out his pattern of self-destructive behavior#and how he ruins his own relationships due to his trauma making him feel unworthy#but if he NOTICES & ACKNOWLEDGES THE PATTERN#THEN HE CAN MAKE STEPS TO FIX IT#AND KISS THAT NERDY GOTH BIRDMAN#so yeah very Pro BlitzĆø in the way I am also Pro BlitzĆø Getting Therapy
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The Perfect Court AU #2
Riko & Nathaniel'sĀ relationship
This was initially meant to be a post about different character dynamics, but I've written so much about just Nathaniel and Riko I figured it could be a post itself  ̄\( ̄ā½ļæ£)ļ¼ļæ£
Again, I am not a book/fic writer especially in English, so don't expect it to be much of a literary experience. I just express ideas and maybe get a little too emotional while writing sometimes. No actual sketches this time, I didn't draw em yet ( Ā“ ā½ ` )
Riko,
initially obsessive about suppressing Nathaniel, saw him as a threat at first. When the three of them ā Riko, Kevin and Nathaniel, grew up from being childhood friends to being Perfect Court, Riko constantly felt pushed back. Kevin was better, a wonderful striker, who surpassed him as a player. Nathaniel was considered higher than Jean, his should-have-been number ātwoā, in their hierarchy, despite numbers, kept provoking the Master and got Ichirouās attention, surpassed him as a part of Moriyama crime family, surpassed him by being someone Riko couldnāt be.Ā
But where Kevin tried to hold his progress slightly back for Riko to keep up, where Kevin was submissive and suppressed, Nathaniel pushed twice as hard. Where upperclassmen stopped behaving as an actual people as soon as they saw him approaching, Nathaniel kept his attitude unbothered, he fought back, he insulted Riko and would purposefully get on his nerves.Ā
But overtime, the sole existence of Nathaniel stopped feeling as a threat. Because every time Riko lashed out on him, he came back the same. He talked with him the same way he would talk yesterday, and after Riko stopped reacting to every single āwrongā phrase with blood and pain, even Kevin acted almost comfortably. It was as close to being back in time as it could be, three of them, talking about exy, watching movies and banter. Nathaniel couldnāt actually threaten him more than it was silently allowed by the Master and Ichirou, because Riko still was Moriyama, and Nathaniel could never leave, sold, and thus he is stuck in here forever (and maybe, just maybe, Ichirou can go fuck himself for taking his younger brotherās property back). Nathaniel keeps looking Riko in the eyes when they talk, and suddenly Riko starts feeling connection instead of rage, even if he wouldnāt admit it to himself. He felt comfort without actual full domination for the first time since when Master began to discipline them with pain.Ā
Nathaniel
felt lonely. Kevin closed in himself, desperate to balance perfectionism with Rikoās insecurities. Riko acted like Nathaniel was always a property for him, just as Jean. When Nathaniel was sarcastic and witty, instead of eye rolling and smirk Kevin answered with frightened look and Riko answered with violence, like Nathaniel was living in his Fatherās house again. The upperclassmen were too guarding of him while couldnāt actually do anything.Ā Jean was comforting, his partner. But Jean wasnāt there for as long as he was, for him Rikoās smile was always bad news, and Kevin was always restraining himself to be the number 2. Andrew was even more recent part of his life than Jean. Nathaniel looked in mirrors, into Ichirouās eyes and every time he saw his father, a Wesninski, a Butcher Junior.Ā Ā
Everyone else saw his nonobedient behavior as a performance, as to show his pride couldnāt contain itself to stay alive, or as a way to keep Rikoās rage where he could control it, and it was, in some ways, but at his heart it was an expression of frustration he had. He pushed Riko, he pushed Kevin.Ā
āI want our good old days backā He cried and āYou know, I get itā¦ā would come out loud instead.
āI want my fake freedom backā He pleaded and let out everything he got from his father on Riko.Ā
He helplessly tried to beat the old Riko back into the new one, and he almost felt free, and the smile of Wesninski covered his face, and he felt in control enough that it almost became his own, like there was never some Butcher of Baltimore who wore it first.Ā
And Riko smiled back.
And it felt like going home, and it wasnāt Nathanās.Ā
Thoughts on fighting style
Ā Riko and Nathaniel have polar opposites in how they fight with each other.
Under pressure Nathaniel frequently becomes primordial in his violence, his Instincts scream Ā«survival survival survival break out runĀ», he scratches, bites, growls and kicks if he feels like he's losing, but it's still somehow thought through and strategic.Ā
Riko on the other side gets collected and technical when Nathaniel gains an advantage during the fight. Concentrated, aiming to carefully get his dominance back, but it's something still very impatient.
Riko in his disadvantage is technically better but impatient, like he's trying to get his throne back and can't wait to reign again.Ā
Nathaniel in disadvantage is practical and strategic but primordial, like he's a child again and needs to survive by any means necessary.
When getting an advantage with a knife, on the other side, Nathaniel is methodical and almost dissociative. He may not feel that much of a passion for violence as his father, but he was taught to see through the human body. In the heat of a battle, advantage means looking at someone and seeing veins and muscles and organs, like a map of vitals. How to cut to leave a scar, making up a plan like his father did (Ā«first your ankles, thenā¦Ā») And having an end result in mind. It's work, and it must be done (Ā«That's what Ichirou will soon expect from me, that's my dutyĀ»).
Riko doesn't like when Nathaniel gets in that state because then it's not about him but about Nathan and Ichirou's shadows over Nathaniel's mind. If Nathaniel starts overpowering him in a fight, Riko has a decision to make ā Throw his knife somewhere out of reach, dealing without it if he manages to fight back today, or keep it and having a possibility of Nathaniel taking it and not be fully concentrated on Riko.
Riko feels physical dominance and being in control as comforting and relaxing. He doesn't care that much about leaving a scar, he is instinctive and structureless, and it's all about him and Nathaniel in his head in some unconscious way.Ā
They kind of switch places about name carving. For Riko it obviously was something planned and what he concentrated on, but Nathaniel was driven by an impulsive feeling of anger and craving for revenge, he didn't even think about how it should look like when it's done, and some lines weren't even deep enough (partially because Riko wasn't cooperative).Ā
About handcuff scenes from canonĀ
Nathaniel temporarily suppresses his survival instincts of primal aggression for Riko sometimes, letting Riko to āblow off steamā. Nathaniel doesn't fully understand how Riko's possessiveness and aggressiveness involves him in particular and is afraid that if Riko won't be able to āwinā for too long, he'll just go and hurt someone else.
It works for Riko, even tho he knows Nathaniel just lets him do it. It does actually calm his down in a way, but despite Nathanielās beliefs, he wouldnāt express his disappointment to someone else (at least not in the same way) and wouldāve kept pushing in instead. What those handcuff sessions actually do is prevent Riko from unconsciously going too far.Ā
One time during their fight he accidentally hurt Nathaniel so much it took a call to Ichirou and a couple of paid surgeons to save him, when Riko noticed how bad it was. And at that moment he knew, even if there was no punishment, he wouldnāt want Nathaniel dead.
The next time he saw Nathaniel restrain himself before Ichirou, Riko almost thought he wouldnāt want to have Nathaniel suppressed either.
#aftg#all for the game#nathaniel wesninski#neil josten#riko moriyama#the perfect court#the perfect cort au#neilko#they're like#wow i really like to punch him in the face#maybe i like it too much#well at least I'm not gay for him#Or am i?#wow what a pull of destructive patterns i wrote here#you may even ask why do I call this AU fluff#its because noone dies
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A question for the Pen & Ink AU (since I find it so very facsinating)! How do you think Thespius interacts with both Sweater and Ink Click respectively? Is it any different to how he normally is around Click Clack? How does Sweater Click's arrogance and Ink Click's self-isolation affect their dynamic? That kind of thing!
Overall, Thespius does interact with Sweater and Ink Click different than he does Click normally, though initially that isn't due to their split nature, but rather because Thespius understands what he is essentially dealing with is Click Clack in the middle of a mental health crisis. In the same way that you might act differently around a loved one who is having a breakdown or going through a hard time, Thespius is being very patient and cautious as to what he says and does around both Clicks. Especially at first, when they're all just trying to figure out what even happened, and all they can tell is that Click Clack is clearly distressed.
That being said, as the situation stretches on, the differences between the two halves settle in a bit more, it gets a lot harder for Thespius to treat these two parts of Click Clack as just... Click Clack. This is, in part, because most of his interactions are with Sweater Click, whose stubbornness, self-negativity, and complete refusal to listen to reason push the limits of Thespius's patience. Sweater Click embodies a lot of the hard-headed behaviors that hurt Thespius the worst during his over-a-century of pining for the fellow god, and so soon after their confession to each other, its increasingly difficult for Thespius to continue holding back his negative emotions. And keep in mind, those negative emotions are something Click Clack was previously helping hold back with his overzealous editing, preventing any potential conflict from breaking out between them before.
Feelings only get further muddled when he gets the chance to interact with Ink Click too. Ink Click is... difficult for him to wrap his head around, in many ways. He's still Click Clack, but disconnected from much of the personality quirks that make him recognizable as such. Less capable of communicating properly as well, as he can't speak directly, and the narrative he desires to tell is gradually buried by the cacophony of the world's story. Thespius can tell he's gripped by an existential guilt he can't even begin to fathom, and the primary feeling he evokes in Thespius is pity, which is not a great thing to feel about someone you're supposed to love. In many ways, he's a reminder to Thesp that, despite knowing and loving Click Clack for so long, there's still aspects of his partner he has yet to learn about, let alone understand.
All this to say, both halves of Click Clack are a bit of a confusing and upsetting mess for him to be around, and this really puts a strain on their relationship! He tries to act calm and collected around both of them, FOR their sake, but even a god of love can only keep face for so long.
#great god grove#click clack#thespius green#Pen and Ink au#while a lot of this au is occupied with click clack's internal struggle#there is definitely an element of how his relationships have been strained with the other gods by this situation as well#and just the general struggles of trying to help a loved one who is acting in self-destructive and concerning ways#this might ring a bell vis-a-vis inspekta/hector and the way the gods responded to HIS breakdown#and you'd be correct in drawing that connection#for most of the other gods this situation with clicky feels like an event that should have been a one-off is suddenly a pattern repeating#and thats scary
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Aw, he made new friends. :)

Apparently small, harmless (to him), yet very loud friends.
#and theyāll make for a nice batch of energon too š#somehow anyway :P#idk i just like how these comics sometimes bring attention to#the animals being impacted by...all this:#*gestures to constant warfare and destruction*#e.g. the doe + the whales + the cat#until i realize that oh yeah thereās a pattern hereā¦#that cat's gonna die is it? ā(“d_d`)#also kinda bummed that megs got his sight back but it can be taken away again#so#i say this not to still bully him lol#but itās just a very interesting idea that i donāt think weāve seen before (wait...)#jetfire is blind too and i hope he gets to beat megsā aft#in a fight as equal as it's gonna get š#at least as of now he has rainbows danglin' from his optic sockets#so fraggin' cool and easier to draw#maccadam#transformers#megatron#tf skybound#tf skybound spoilers#energon universe#energon universe spoilers#coyotes#my art#maccadams
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the cyclical nature of charlie slimecicle characters
#something something being trapped in a cycle you dont know how to escape from.#being trapped in it for so long you dont even realize theres a pattern to your destruction.#being trapped in it for so long youve grown to accept that this is just the way your life is#something about. 90% of the time the cycle relates to the tragic loss of identity the character in question didnt even know they had.#charlie slimecicle#slimecicle#qsmp charlie slimecicle#c!slimecicle#slimecicle cinematic universe#gillion tidestrider#william wisp#peter sqloint#goobleck#finn tidestrider#etc etc
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If Morgoth is a Thought of Eru IlĆŗvatar, and Morgoth is the original corruption of Arda, then I donāt think Eru is as omnibenevolent as Tolkien would want us to think.
#tolkien#silmarillion#morgoth#the fallacy of divinity#something interesting is that the ainur are fragments of divinity#different aspects of the greater divine#they reflect certain tendencies of their creator#choosing evil does not mean that your source was evil#but it certainly means the source had the capability#this stands directly in opposition to the christian god#who is innately and diametrically opposed to evil and can no more choose evil than he can change himself#to many people this may feel like slicing hairs#but questions of free will and evil and the Fall are central to the legendarium#and if Morgoth was the first fall but his capacity for it came from Eru?#well#maybe the fall started one more link up the chain#btw#this all came from an idle thought experiment#about how a lot of the Silm would make sense if eru was actually a sadistic overlord who made morgoth#and set him loose to fuck up everything in the world through an echoing pattern of corruption and greed and destruction
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uuuuh yeah, iām a little sick of romance being treated as the only type of love that matters, so yeah, get headcanoned as aro/ace
#Sorry this is largely a reaction to the whole āu canāt hc viktor as aro/ace bc disabled peopleā#Cus itās treating the actual problem like a monolith#Thereās FOR SURE a pattern of disabled characters getting hcāed as aro/ace#And one should def look deeper into where that hc comes from and if it may or may not be rooted in ableism#THAT BEING SAID if arcane didnāt teach you anything else it shouldāve taught you that all types of love are important#And can fuck u up#Love between sisters#Love between a child and their parent#Love between lovers#love between situationships#love between whatever the fuck vik and jayce got going#All of them are equally constructive and destructive#So when i say ājayce and vik have smthn going on besides romanceā#I fuckin mean it#Is it friendship? Is it romance? It doesnāt fuckin matter#It was so strong it transcended TIME AND SPACE#It fucks WAY harder than regular romance#So yeah fuck you#My boys can in fact be aro/ace AND have a bond that exploded into stars#Without it being labled as ableism without any nuance whatsoever#Arcane#jayvik
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theyāre just so completely opposite to my experience in dating which has involved a vulnerable 16 yo me on her jr prom night sitting in a mcdonaldās embarrassed with her head down after she just described her ātypeā to her friends as basically her current gf and said gf started with traits that were not only nothing like her but also included a whole other ethnicity about it. so
#and more recently just getting really pathetically let down. and itās like well girl why did we do this#abby talks#obviously i cling to sort of strange intense but unavailable energy.#and really itās like well. once i get over this somewhat self destructive pattern i will need someone to be obsessed with me#like sorryā¦. but iām not#iām just a very particular person. i have to be ok with this#i worded this very strangely iām sorry
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two questions
how do you make all those fancy graphs and stats about your writing progress
how do you write sci-fi without any science nerds jumping at you
thank you :>
i made an estimate of how many words i thought the second part would be, assuming the average word length would be 10k per chapter, then set up "=CONCATENATE((TRUNC((T24/T26)*100, 0)),"%")" in excel 2 make it pretty for me. the bar on my blog is just some ascii characters
i just write what i find funny and appealing, and try not to worry if its complete dog shit, or if others will like it . art is fundamentally about indulging and brother do i indulge . i'd break the habit of being afraid of an imaginary audience who could be potentially cruel -- you will encounter cruel, bad faith takes about your art the more you create . it'll feel bad and it'll suck a bit, but just block and ignore, and let yourself process those emotions without guilt . the joy of creation is absolutely worth it! :D
#stump asks#i highly recommend the tactic of just not engaging with shitty people online#i get shitty asks . i just delete them#it's about fostering appropriate patterns of communications in your private spaces#people want to start fights . there's no reason to engage with that#don't give people power they don't have in the first place#one other thing that helps: when you've actually made something it's a lot harder to be bothered by those who are overly critical#because they've not made a thing. they're being purely destructive#there's ways of dissecting and critiquing art that is constructive and you become better at recognizing those patterns the more you create#because ultimately all art is collaborative . we take and build upon each other . it's really cool and fun and energizing
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Shira
Watercolor and gouache on paper 2002
#shira#mugen no juunin#blade of the immortal#boti#boti fanart#fanart#illustration#traditional art#art#artists on tumblr#old fanart#so the last time I tried to look up shira fanart on Pinterest#someone had pinned an image that was just text saying:#(āsomething along the lines of)#donāt sexualize fetishize or romanticize people with emotional or personality disorders#and I think thatās really smart and important to include in spaces like this#but as we all know itās a complex issue#when is it an exercise in letting ourselves indulge our desires in these blorbos#and when is it just perpetuating self-destructive attachment patterns
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My mom: *psychologically makes me feel worthless and invalidated of my existence unintentionally by not letting me have autonomy and independence I've been wanting and asking for the last 4 years*
Also my mom: WHY AREN'T YOU TAKING CARE OF YOURSELF!!!!!! OMG YOU ARE SO LAZY!!!! š¤¬š¤¬š¤¬š¤¬š¤¬š¤¬
Asian parents istg man like gee I wonder why I feel worthless and act worthless, it couldn't be because I was told I wasn't important, but had to keep earning for the family! Jesus fucking christ
#ziku's insane rambles#personal rant#These backwards thinking that asian parents seem to have is just.... Pain#I WISH she can see why I'm like this. I WISH she'd know what made me this way.#Because it's sure as hell NOT laziness#I feel my daily needs. I just don't feel like doing it because I've been conditioned to think I'm not worth doing all that#And yes I am self-destructive with my atrocious hours of the day spent drawing and shit#But I wonder what lead to this pattern of thinking HMMMMMMMMMM#IT COULDN'T HAVE BEEN THE FACT HER OWN ACTIONS SUBCONSCIOUSLY MADE ME FEEL LESS OF A PERSON! :D
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when will the #depression and suffering end? wHEN?
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