#evaline

[marilynsweet]

Evaline my beloved you need to do so much violence

Trying to get back into the swing of things

[crimsonlovebartylus]

and if I say that evan and barty are codependent bestfriends, platonic soulmates THAT tried to date but they never worked out because they were different AND also were inlove with other people aka Regulus and James (or Edgar Bones, or Emmeline)

[pembrokewkorgi]

Evaline Cygnet

Been wanting to draw @badluckcrow.bsky.social's swan mage, Evaline Cygnet, for quite some time. It was finally the time to do so!

[theinvisiblemuseum]

evaline. for those with eyes to see.

[bad-luck-crow-revengeance]

Evaline!

[uwmspeccoll]

🧀✨ Happy National Cheese Day! ✨🧀

June 4 is National Cheese Day, so let’s take a moment to honor the cheddar, the brie, the gouda, the goat, the grilled, and the smoked. Whether you're into classic American slices or artisanal wedges, today is for the cheese lovers!

In Special Collections, we’re celebrating by sharing Some Cheese for Charles by Helen E. Buckley (1918-2001), a preschool and elementary school teacher. It was illustrated by Evaline Ness (1911-1986), a commercial artist, illustrator, and author of children's books. The book was published in New York by Lothrop, Lee & Shepard Co. in 1963.

Here’s a little cheesy knowledge for you:

Wisconsin produces more than 3 billion pounds of cheese a year. The oldest known cheese dates back 3,600 years (found in a Chinese tomb!) There’s an entire field of study called fromology — the science of cheese. 

-View more from our Historical Curriculum Collection

-Melissa (thinks cheese is grate), Distinctive Collections Library Assistant

[acourtofquestions]

Don't mind me, just crying cause I'm re-browsing through the books & realized in Heir of Fire when Aelin/Celaena says:

"Because I am lost," she whispered onto the earth. "And I do not know the way."

It was what she had never been able to tell Nehemia--that for ten years, she had been unsure how to find the way home, because there was no home left.

Her mother does not reply. That decades silent voice, calling her “Fireheart” asking why? Why does she cry? Suddenly just… stops?.. as Rowan enters.

Right after those words, Rowan enters.

Rowan, who calls her Fireheart (same as her mothers voice did when it began speaking to her).

Rowan, whose eyes are pine green, whose hair is silver; same as Terrasen (her homes) colors.

Storm winds and ice crackled against her skin before she registered Rowan sitting down beside her, legs out, palms braced behind him in the moss.

Rowan, who smells like snow; the very smell she recognizes as home.

She raised her head, but didn't bother to wipe her face as she stared across the glittering lake.

Rowan, who she immediately recognizes, who she knows without sight or sound (much like the voice); who she finds in the dark, like a star (a constellation) a compass (like the Lord of the North that always points home) & one that she recognizes just as easily, knowing where to find it in the sky even beyond her blurred tears.

Rowan, who is the embodiment of her home; even then. Soon to be in the Queen of Shadows days (before he even reaches her) she’s reaching for him in the night. And as called in Kingdom of Ash when she is “safe”, when she is finally “home”; in Terrasen or not. Her person that is described as “her way back to the light”… so she is no longer lost. — No, voice answered, because Rowan was the answer.

[plantyl-m]

cozy and witchy 🍂🔮

[heartblobs]

1890s Lookbook — Evaline Mendoza 📜

Starting off this revival with a lookbook for Evaline! I tried to convey that although Evaline has grown up wealthy, she left all of that behind when she married Walter. When she ran away to elope, she of course took a few of her belongings with her. The jewelry she didn't pawn off would be worn only with her formal attired, and the dress itself is a remnant from her past. The rest of her clothing would be semi-new; dresses that are new to her but not newly made. They're gifts from Walter's family, dresses his mother and sisters would have worn.

Although she doesn't have all of that money anymore, Evaline still likes to dress herself nicely. She keeps her long, black hair up in a bun according to the trends of the time, and the sleeves are still big and the hems long. I think she will be much more hesitant to change with the times once the 1910s come along, as she cherishes the 1890s and all they offer her.

If you'd like to know where any piece of cc came from, send me an ask!

[banal-nadas]

I will always find you in every lifetime

[marilynsweet]

Been working on a new pathfinder campaign and I’ve fallen in love with my new character so we keep putting her through The Horrors

Meet Evaline! My resident exemplar who is definitely normal and not at all vengeful

[guttedeggs]

Resident Evil 7 au where they're actors on a television show and the actors are encouraged to become friends to feel more comfortable with the intensity of it

Behind the scenes interviews take place and all the Resident Evil games are television shows and movies. A lot of bloopers are accidentally throwing things or hitting one another on accident. The grandma Evaline is a puppet/special effects doll that gets carried around set a lot.

There's a lot of different drinks like tea, coffee or water around set because all the shouting hurts the throat. There's a lot of set props that need repair or replacement often

The food is all edible, it's mostly like...marshmallow, food coloring, gelatin etc to make it look realistic.

I love the idea of this au it brings me joy

[system-of-a-feather]

So what's up with the Feathers anyways?

Hey all, I just wanted to make a formal post that I can attach to my pinned post explaining a few things that we - as a collective and system - are doing lately as part of our recovery since it's something I know might be weird in the standard CDD / system experiences found online.

For those that don't know, we are a diagnosed DID system that has fully fused (we personally dislike Final Fusion as a term the word "Final" implies stuff that doesn't suit us nor do we like the idea of any sort of finality). This just means that probably about 90% of the time, we operate as a fused whole of all parts of our system that we call Feathers, Fei, [irl name], or "the collective" depending on the setting and/or what flows better in text / conversation. This fused whole / collective is what you probably close to what you think of when you think of final fusion and us operating as a "singlet".

The remaining 10% or so are times when we actively choose to operate as individual parts / a specific part separate from the collective; most often this is either to 1) enjoy something in a specific way that a specific part does 2) explore a concept, topic, situation, interaction, event, etc from a specific lens or a diversity of lenses and engage in discourse with ourselves because we find that fun and 3) to assist in trauma processing. (See FAQ 1 below)

And so we've spent the past year? two? three? in a state of functional multiplicity then this weird hybrid of alternating between functional multiplicity and fully fused, and then almost a year of being a fused whole most of our time. We've become extremely resilient and very stable and most of our trauma processing and therapy goals have been explicitly about self improvement and reclaiming the last tight knots of trauma that we still struggle with. We have gained a shit ton of coping skills, self sufficiency, and honestly most of our days are a 8/10 if not better.

That said, even though we are fully fused, that doesn't mean we are perfectly integrated. While we have very very low dissociation / dissociative symptoms and access to all parts of ourselves without experiencing much dissociation, not all parts of ourselves has been fully processed and not all of our parts have found their niche in our fused whole. This also makes it so those parts are MUCH more prone to both being interested in and actively presenting as independent parts from the collective. (See FAQ 2 below)

Historically, our system that is polyfragmented has had one half / side of our overall system that has explicitly refused to engage with life which we respect through our recovery. (No I will not explain any questions on that being unhealthy, its not your place to judge.) We actually managed to reach full fusion without interacting much with those parts beyond through a liason (ie Lin). Because those part had a minimal role in our recovery and development of a fused self, those parts are unevenly integrated and repressented in our fused whole.

Thus, while Feathers / the collective is a fused whole of our entire system, Feathers / the collective is EXTREMELY biased in favor of the "main system" that has been running this blog since like 2018. By all means this is absolutely a sustainable place for us to be in; however, as we've been working in EMDR we've been hitting stuck points rooted in parts in the other side of the system that are harder to navigate and challenge because those parts are not as well integrated as the other parts and thus are less open to discussion and are more rigid. Those parts still operate more as explicit ANPs and EPs (think primary stuctural dissociation) when approached about trauma associated with those parts and it's been a challenge.

Adding on that those parts have been made more aware more often of life continuing forward, we've actually heard expressed interest in potentially "trying again" and exploring themselves as parts, which is an AMAZING win and step for our system. Those parts struggle a lot more than parts of the main system and have much less positive experiences than even some of the "most traumatized" parts in the main system, so even the most ANP part we consider to need a lot of trauma sensitive support.

Lin, who has worked with these parts the longest, has his Method of Doing Things with Heavily Traumatized Children in our system and a lot of that starts with letting those traumatized parts explore the world a their own pace and get used to being Not Triggered AND present and after thinking about it we decided the best way to let those parts explore themselves, explore their world, explore themselves in relation to other versions of themselves, would be to allow that whole side system to do EVERYTHING our side did, but in their own way.

And so we are doing what we jokingly call DID NG+ or DID Season 2, where we are letting all those parts - whenever prominent or present - express and engage in the world as themselves, independent of the collective but not without the collective there. (See FAQ 3 below)

And so our system is fully fused, frequently operates as a fused whole still about 85-90% of our day, AND has a bunch of parts showing up and posting on this blog as independent selves / parts because online spaces is their first place to explore and adjust to existing once again.

Our main system / overall collective honestly doesn't have too much to say on this blog much anymore because plurality and DID just isn't that interesting, relevant, or something we really experience too much anymore; however some of our parts are going to be exploring the DID experience somewhat again and a lot of those parts have a more genuine and personal interest in the topic as it is relevant to them.

Thus, for the most part, we are kind of passing the torch of DID related topics and discussion to those parts. Feathers and the collective and all those parts that have run this blog are 100% here, but its very likely the amount of DID/plurality related posts we make as a collective will likely be SWAMPED out by the more-motivated to talk about DID stuff side system. (See FAQ 4)

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FAQs beneath the cut.

FAQ 1: Wait so are you intentionally dissociating? Isn't that harmful? Aren't you just splitting? Do you switch? Are you really at final fusion / fully fused if you still identify as individual parts?

No. No. No. No. Yes.

No #1. Firstly, this is something we actually practice as something adjacent to our Buddhist exploration and our active practices with mindfulness and meditation and it is partially a meditation on ourselves, a practice of observation of our raw and innate self, and a practice of non-attachment to the concept and sense of self. As a result, our experience of selves come from a method of mindfulness and meditation; as a result we have some of the LEAST amount of dissociative symptoms when we do this and actually function with a lot more awareness of + connection to ourselves and surroundings. It is explicitly the opposite of dissociation in experience and I would know, because I used to chronically dissociate.

No #2, 3, 4. It is not splitting or harmful because there is literally no dissociation. (We heavily disagree that identifying different parts of yourself is inherently dissociative and find that claim to be very White / Western centric and culturally insensitive + blind to systemic white bias in research + clinical spaces) We can choose to divide ourselves, but no part is ever actually separate from the whole / collective beyond self expression and internal representation. Also no, we don't switch nor do we ever feel inclinded to use that word anymore because it really doesn't express our experiences anywhere near accurately. We present, we appear, we show up, we MIGHT consider using the word "front" but at no part does any part ever leave anymore, so switching and implying that places have changed just doesn't make sense. At most a part fades into the background, but that is less them being "gone" or "not front" and more of them just not being prominent, much like water receding from the shore isn't "gone".

Yes #5. Because our base line is fused and every part is actually connected 24/7 and present 24/7, so yes.

FAQ #2: Okay but are you REALLY fused with that side system if you didn't interact with them much? Okay but do THOSE parts have dissociation / switch / everything in FAQ #1?

To the first, yes; to the second, no. I really can't elaborate more in a way that I think isn't a waste of words. All I can say is "you are allowed to be skeptical, but I know myself and my experiences and I think its very weird for that to be questioned"

FAQ #3: So how does this look irl?

We appear and act as a fused whole most of the day, most of the time, and basically in all spaces that are not theraputic or just us on our own. This is likely going to change over time because all the parts from those side are very adverse to being around people irl, so as that likely changes for the better, so will this presentation probably. We aren't too sure exactly how it'll present then, but we are pretty excited to find out. Most of this happens in our own head and in private spaces; online spaces are just the spaces where we practice moving it beyond just our private spaces as it's the next step for parts that are ready.

FAQ #4: So is Feathers / the Collective an alter?

Uhhh.... not really but also kind of? We honestly don't really... identify, like Feathers / the Collective isn't really a person or thing; it's a concept. We don't really consider ourselves a person or a part or an alter in any solid way because we're not really this tangible thing. We just kind of Are. Feathers is just Feathers.

That said, when we do operate with these parts who are exploring themselves in something of a traditional DID process, we kind of operate with them something like an alter / part. I wouldn't say its exactly the same as they still have a very strong and clear connection and access to Feathers / the collective, but we largely do still maintain our mostly fused whole while those parts operate independently and use that lens to mostly observe and every so often assist / debrief about things going on with those parts. We are more so a mentor than anything else? Those parts also aren't seperate from Feathers / the collective literally ever so.... *shrugs*

Honestly, I can't really say a firm "yes or no" to this because I think its really just depends on a lot of a philosophy of "self" and what concepts and philosophies you subscribe to. So I guess my answer is "do you think they are?" cause really, I think either answer could be right and I don't really care too much to label it one or the other.

[applescoven]

Arguing with June haters biggest waste of my time just say you’re transmisogynistic and go

[theinvisiblemuseum]

ok slight thoughts over here

evan rosier x emmeline vance? something about introvert evan and knows-your-mom's-hair-stylist emmeline just dating. like i can see emmeline being so unhinged and then stoned evan chilling right next to her.

there's a vision here.

yeah no. yeah. you ignited a vision in me. i combined their drawings and it all came into focus…

[bad-luck-crow-revengeance]

Jealousy