#first dream post. wahoo

[junkmailmusubi]

Dream Log: The FRIDAY NIGHT 4-IN-1!!!

(mildly incomprehensible 'playlist dream' that was the aftermath of staying up Too Long)

Revelation Date: September 30, 2023

Part 1: Space Field Trip

-we were going on a field trip to some research station on another planet

-I was VERY excited about this. I could flaunt to all my internet friends that I'm In Space, Boy

-"it's just one window, how bad could it be?" immediately eviscerates everyone in the room

-first thing we did when we got there was start messing around on the weird architecture (which was perfectly fine, I guess?)

-our guide was explaining how this research center used to look just like a really basic apartment (but they did some really nice renovation recently!)

-dropped my pencil between the weird floorboard, when trying to retrieve it I discovered, "Uh Oh! Absolute Solver."

-as the floorboard is turning into a flesh carpet: "guys. guys please. run. actually, don't bother running. we aren't making it out of here anyway."

Part 2: The Grand Backyard Unfunny War

-started out as a thing between me + dad but quickly devolved into a full-on, literal Meme War

-see above, actual famous (dead) meme figures, like doge and the minions, were participating in this glorified food fight.

-I think the goal was to defeat enemies and be the funniest, but all we had were dead memes so it was pretty unfunny.

-I forgot a ton of this one but I remember the last thing I did before the next Part was make a distasteful penis joke.

Part 3: My Wretched Son. *dies*

-this Part was mostly some guy talking about this virtual raptor-possum-thingy he created + how much he hates him

-the possum-raptor had an account on some wiki forum for some reason??

-what's even stranger is that every post of his began with a header saying "I'm using your 2nd IP address!" (in bold like that too)

-later I was talking to some people on a Roblox knockoff about The Wretched Son

-conversation derails, eventually I say "one time I fell through the floor in Roblox."

-almost IMMEDIATELY after this I fall through the floor again. I thought this was the funniest thing in the dream. I still think it's kinda funny

Part 4: A Mad Filmmaker's Lab

-forgot a lot of this at the time of writing :(

-I was part of a. Very Strange theatre production, I think I was the main character?

-there were some uh. Characters. in the cast. such as: an abstract mad scientist guy + a floating, expressionless white mask

-forgot what the show was about, but I remember learning to freely zipline + that one of the props was a display case of gems and geodes

-"hey. quick question. why are we doing this again?"

-the crew explains the above through some freestyle rhymes explaining that if we don't do this, it will unleash L[???]rel (forgot the name), the Universe Destroyer

-understandably, I was very, very confused after that.

-looking back this dream might've been influenced by TADC.

[crispyjenkins]

mandalore the young cont.

original post/discussion here! it was just getting really long and i for one hate scrolling so far, so. here's this. have also added this au to my masterlist in my pinned post!

@malcontent-crow

#i had a whole wall of tags and it didnt save! lets try this again#i am loving this. the potential for world building and the consequences of knowing more than you should (literally)

#i had forgotten that DW wasnt in peoples thoughts as a threat during the Clan Wars#and the idea that Pre was so far underground with the movement is a very good thing to remember as well! #on one hand you have this driven and spirited young verd that is inspiring Clans to start reassessing who they are fighting and why#on the other you have this clanless outsider that knows waaaaay too much about all the potential major players and is saying#that this major threat isnt really as gone as everybody thought and hoped. sith parallels out the wahoo for ppor obi#and hes standing there watching them all argue over his head about this threat that he KNOWS needs to be dealt with#he is seeing himself as pretty on par or above with the Old Guard in terms of mental age or prowess or large scale battles#so he sees them doubt him maybe even to his face and knows he'll need to get things started on his own

#and becauae everything in the galaxay has at least one person watching it from the outside... how quickly does the news of a jedi padawan#going off the rails on this mission get out? whos keeping track and who points fingers at the jedi for attempting to control the outcome#of the war of their historical enemies in their favor? the senate (read sith) want mandalore defanged before their war but what does it look#like the jedi want? how does the council answer for his actions? do they condemn or condone him? do they try to stay out of it?

#the world building potential of the Manda and the Ka'ra is delicious.#what does it mean to be a mando or darmanda? can you walk around and have people look at you and know you have failed in your oaths?

#and ouch! Obi-Wan considering the fact that he has never been allowed to be his own person.#from padawan to knight/master and then a general and councilor and sheesh. hes really never had the chance to see who he is as a person#outside of his responsibilities to everybody around him and right now hes a war worn adult in a war worn teens body#hes always had somebody else there. as a battle companion a teacher a student as somebody to protect and guard and guide#and now he has this entire culture looking at him and waiting for his next move. and im guess it still feels like less than a burden than#the care and raising of an entire child on his own. sure he had the temple resources and other jedi to lean on but anakin always looked to#him first to solve any problem or teach him something new or cuddle him after nightmares as hes trying to hide his own dreams#and grief and flounding to find his footing as an independent adult

#so right now hes looking around at the entire mando population and realizing thats he might need to reshape himself again for somebody else#to make himself what others need and knowing he can and will do it if it means saving somebody else

#and when exactly did he come back from the war? did he have satine die in his arms and see the ruin that is madalore after a pacifist reign?#does he see the potential for that ruin to happen right now if he doesnt succeed? where does he see himself in regards to the jedi?#has he considered the consequences of stepping up to be the Mand'alor to this culture he has never seen as his own?#has he let himself think about the choices he needs to make and how some things you cant always come out the other side the same as before?

(following the trend of each of these getting longer, this has hit just under 5,000 words, so just a heads up lol? so much world building is happening in this one)

sorry you had to rewrite so much! that last exchange was cursed, it seems lmao

it's so easy to write Obi-Wan as prescient, or the route I'm going with in Dha Kar'ta, so i think it's a fun change-up to have him knowledgeable for completely different reasons! I'm actually going to avoid visions almost at all for this Obi, but everyone else certainly won't know the difference, and he doesn't tell them otherwise (though he won't encourage it either. I do actually have a Naruto time travel where Nart pretends to be psychic à la Shawn Spencer, so that isn't the route I wanna go for this Obi). the consequences of knowing too much, indeed

hmmm many of these questions depend on how deep into Jedi and galactic politics I wanna go, and I'm not sure it's very deep at all. or at least, not very dragged out. i'll explain in a mo

SO first: yes, this Obi is from after Satine dies, in 19 BBY, maybe a month or so after, but before the bombing of the Temple so before Ahsoka left the Order. He was back on the front, no time to properly mourn, though he was doing his best, and was meditating on the whole war, but especially the Sith and their hand in everything that happened on Mandalore. It went deeper than Maul, he knew, had been going on longer than Maul and even Dooku, and it occurred to Obi-Wan that the Sith either wanted a Mandalore that will side with them but not be too much a threat, or they wanted them not a threat at all. He realised his hand in that, in helping put the New Mandalorians on the throne that led to the demilitarisation of the entire sector. Obi-Wan had practically teed Mandalore up for Dooku and then Maul's interference, and if the Republic won the war, he could all too easily see them doing another excision. won't get too much into it to save it for the fic, but he is mediating with something beskar, and he gets a lil too deep into the Force, and of course this is post-Mortis so...... 👀

so this Obi-Wan, back in time, is helping Mandalore to prevent any more Sith machinations in the future, to change the future for the whole galaxy, but even before he's Chosen, he realises he's also doing all of this for Mandalore. for his own hand in its destruction, for the Jedi's hand in the Excision, for his personal connection to Satine drawing Maul to it. it's for atonement, for reparation, and also because Mandalore deserves to be saved, and Obi-Wan is in a place he can help do that. it isn't just about the health of the galaxy, anymore.

I usually shy away from having Obi-Wan leave the Order, no matter what AU I'm throwing him in because I believe in the fundamental goodness of the Order and the people in it, and Obi-Wan is fundamentally a Jedi, one of the best, one of the best. however, in this case, I don't think he can have his cake and eat it too. if Dooku had to leave the Order to accept his countship, then Obi-Wan would have to leave to become Mand'alor. Jedi are (supposed to be) politically neutral, and Obi-Wan is all too aware he'd nullified his own neutrality the moment he decided to go for Keldabe to find Jango.

one of my favorite... tropes? in time travel fic is Obi using his future fellow councilmembers' access codes to get into things he shouldn't, and he certainly knows how to work the Order's internal systems in his favor, so he

wait so i was gonna have him go in and tender his resignation from the Order directly into the systems, and backdate it for before the Mandalore mission, so that anything he's done on Mandalore so far cannot be blamed on the Jedi BUT WHAT IF he just. deletes himself. like completely. from admin to the Archives to the crèche's own internal systems to the Shadow's private servers, Obi-Wan Kenobi was never a Jedi, was never a Temple bastard, was never Qui-Gon Jinn's padawan. his mission records are all in Qui-Gon's name now, his medical file simply doesn't exist, his crècheling clan is listed as simply having been a person short compared to other clans that year. he goes so far as to delete comm histories with him or mentioning him, it's like Obi-Wan Kenobi just doesn't exist anymore.

he does this first thing after leaving Jango, he spends the entire week back to Mandalore ensuring he's been completely erased from absolutely anything relating to the Jedi, and then uses his future councilmember knowledge (and lessons from Quinlan) to erase himself from Republic systems, too. any planet he'd helped as a padawan will suddenly have no records of him as having been there with his master, so the senate or Order can't subpoena them for the info, though Obi-Wan knows he can't have gotten everything (such as any planet not in the Republic, or who don't have holonet access to their files, or both, like Melida/Daan), but he figures he's done enough to absolve the Order if anyone comes knocking about what he's doing.

he buries his lightsaber in the deserts of Mandalore, not knowing that in his old future, he'd have done the same on Tatooine.

so as far as the Jedi are aware: Obi-Wan went on a mission with Qui-Gon that (predictably) went to hell, got separated from his master for weeks to months, then suddenly changed, at the same time their Jedi with the highest prescience collapsed due to his visions, which have also changed. Obi-Wan left Qui-Gon behind to hightail it through the Mandalore sector, and Qui-Gon couldn't catch up or find him, and then Obi-Wan disappeared from anyone's radars for two weeks. then Qui-Gon senses him reenter the Mandalore system, right before breaking his training bond with him, and the Order wakes up to Obi-Wan completely erased from their systems like he never existed in the first place. everything is going so so wrong, and yet. and yet.

and yet the Force is telling them all that this is right, that this is the least Dark course of action, that whatever Obi-Wan is doing is indeed the Will of the Force

so the Order mourns one of their own, and tells Qui-Gon to let him go. and then the Order ups their cyber security because what.

i think he leaves an unsigned letter/comm message for a few people. Bant, Quinlan, Mace, Feemor, his old crèchemaster, Yoda, maybe Jocasta Nu. it's short, basically thanking them for their hand in his upbringing (Feemor hasn't even met him before so is very confused by this), apologising for leaving abruptly, but to follow the Will of the Force, he had to leave; the first part of the message is all the same, but ends with little individual notes. he apologises to Madam Nu for fucking with her archives and hopes she can one day forgive him; he asks her to keep her friends close and to mend the tension between her and Dooku, that Obi-Wan should not know about. He tells Yoda that the future is always in motion but they must move with it; he asks Yoda to meditate on his dwindling lineages and learn to accept all that he cannot control. He reminds Quinlan to wear his gloves and asks him to thank Tholme for looking out for him when Qui-Gon wouldn't or didn't; he thanks him for their years together, and asks him to check in on Feemor every now and then. He apologises to Mace for all the shatter-points he likely caused and will continue to cause, and suggests he put a permanent reminder in his comm to remember to refill his migraine prescription that sixteen year-old Obi should not know about. He asks Bant to look out for a young Togruta initiate that will join in seven years, and suggests Bant might like the healer track rather than the knight corps; he thanks her for being his longest and most dearly-held friend. He thanks his crèchemaster for realising his visions were more than dreams (which will inadvertently lend credence to that theory for why Obi-Wan changed so suddenly), for supporting him when Bruck was at his nastiest, and for always being someone he could turn to even after he became a padawan. For Feemor, Obi-Wan apologises that they hadn't had the chance to meet before then, and for the relationship they won't have anymore; Feemor has no idea who this message is from, until he starts hearing the gossip that Obi-Wan Kenobi has left the Order again. He too mourns never getting to know his padawan brother.

and Obi-Wan sends Qui-Gon a message, of course, thanking him for his teachings, apologising for "leading him on" as an apprentice, leaving and coming back so many times only to permanently leave this time. he reminds Qui to reach out to his friends and his support system, asks him to at least consider talking to a mind or soul healer about Xanatos (knowing that once it gets out that Obi-Wan is a planetary leader, it will likely badly trigger Qui-Gon), and asks him to at least try and mend his relationship with Dooku, though understands if that's not something Qui-Gon is willing to do. asks him to keep Satine safe, but to deeply think about why the Republic is so intent on helping her faction, and why Qui-Gon had questioned so little of the New Mandalorian ethos.

so by the time Obi-Wan finds the Old Guard, he's broken from the Order completely, has buried his saber, has broken his training bond, has cut his braid. I think he shaves his head entirely to let it grow out at the same rate, because the padawan cut is *Eliot Spencer voice* Very Distinctive. he paints his armour white for, yes, his men, his vod'e, but also for cin vhetin. he can't be the man he was before, nor the teen he was before, neither are who Mandalore needs, and as long as he can stay true to his morals and upbringing, he will be what Mandalore needs him to be.

okay now onto the Manda vs. the Ka'ra vs. the Force. the Force is a scientific concept of an energy connecting absolutely everything in the universe, and the Jedi have a religious view on the scientific concept. for both purposes, the Force just is. I really like the idea of other non-Jedi ideas just being different aspects of the Force, different religions and cultures based on the same scientific concepts. for Mandalorians, their "aspect" of the Force is the Manda, the collective souls of every Mando'ade that's ever marched on. just what it means to be Mando'ade has varied greatly through history, and is varied between different groups even now, but none of that changes what the Manda is, which is an aspect of the Force only Mando'ade can touch. sort of like their beliefs of it being separate from the Force have made it so?

now I haven't really talked about this before, but from the beginning of me writing Mandalorian related things, i've separated Ka'ra from ka'ra, which was a little bit me misremembering there was another term for "stars", and then it became it's own thing. kar, meaning "star", with it's plural kar'e or kare, to me, means physical stars, the way we'd call our sun a star. ka'ra, uncapitalised, is the more poetic and/or spiritual "stars", the way we might say something is "written in the stars", which actually aligns with how jate'kara is spelled; for my writing, i've used this form for Mandalorian Force-sensitives being Star-touched ka'ra-touched. Ka'ra, capitalised, is that "ruling council of fallen kings", the Mandalorian myth and it, the way I've always interpreted it, is a separate part of the Manda made up of specifically the souls of every Mand'alor already marched on. So, Tor Vizsla could have joined the Manda after death, but not the Ka'ra; make sense? all that ka'ra vs Ka'ra worldbuilding was done very early in my writing for star wars, and has since expanded to include the idea of the Manda as something separate, and I would now actually consider Manda-touched over Star-touched to describe Force sensitive Mando'ade, because that's really what I think Mandalorians would consider causes their supernatural powers: ancestors rather than the stars.

so what does that mean for this fic? the Manda is directly influenced by all those that consider themselves Mandalorian, Force-sensitive or not. it is, however, not affected by New Mandalorians, unless they worship the Manda in some facsimile, and I think many, many, many do not, not the way they were raised to. this worship looks different for every clan and every individual, and I've always interpreted it as more of a broad spiritual practice across the whole culture rather than a religion, per se, the way a real-world broader culture might pray at shrines at New Years even if individuals themselves or their family aren't religious. this is what I'm referencing when I say the Will of the People: the alive Mando'ade and their choices and emotions affecting and influencing the Manda, the collective amalgamation of every passed-on Mando'ade, and it's when these two are in tandem that they "pick" a Mand'alor. HOWEVER, such a pick is also up to the Ka'ra, the Mand'alor'e that have all marched on; to one day enter the Ka'ra themselves, a Mand'alor must be "picked" by both the People/the Manda, and the Ka'ra. Tor would be "picked" by a significant part of the People and the Manda, and so would Jaster have been, but (according to me, myself, and i, obviously), only Jaster had been chosen by the Ka'ra. Pre is "Mand'alor" only in name, only in a tenuous loyalty existing in House Vizsla and Death Watch, not even by the Manda; just simple human (et al) loyalty. Jango had a weaker "pick" from the Manda than Jaster did, but was picked by the Ka'ra, meaning if he did not declare himself dar'manda (even just internally; I don't think he's ever said it out loud), he would have joined the Ka'ra after death; if he ever reconnects with himself as a Mandalorian, I like to think he'd have that chance again. Canon Jango, though, who went on to make the clones? Absolutely not.

what does this all mean for Obi-Wan? he'd spent weeks inadvertently drumming up support in the people and therefore the Manda, and maybe most haven't really looked at him and thought "sure I'd follow him as Mand'alor", but they have looked at him and thought "that one has mandokar, that one wants what's best for Mandalore, that one is touched by destiny". I dunno, man, like. Obi-Wan is their hope before he is their leader. That will make all the difference when he does end up uniting them. His searching out Jango had made Jango finally confront that he feels dar'manda, until then he hadn't really lost the Ka'ra's support, but that severs that connection. and now the Ka'ra are without a Mand'alor, but look at that, there's a mandokar'la little idiot right there, already strong in the Manda, already rallying hope and purpose, already so invested in the nurturing and the future of Mandalore, how could the Ka'ra not choose him?

I posed the question previously whether or not Mando'ade can tell who has been chosen to be Mand'alor, and I think I've ironed out what that'll mean for this fic. non-Force sensitive Mando'ade will have this sense when near their Mand'alor, a subconscious and inherent trust in them, and indeed, some will be disturbed by this and fight it. that's alright, that's their right. Some never clock this extra sense, some are aware of it always, some just chalk it up to "gut feelings" and the like. The more spiritual or religious Mandos maybe put a little more stock in this feelings, I think especially goran'e and other spiritual leaders, but the fact that the Manda can technically pick more than one person at a time (like Tor and Jaster, and then Jango), this extra sense isn't a perfect indicator of a properly chosen Manda'lor.

now. what about Force sensitive Mando'ade? Well, the Manda is an aspect of the Force, and is in fact how said Force sensitive Mando'ade connect to the Force, by going through the Manda, first. their relationship with sensitivity is inherently different from others in the galaxy, at least those that connect to it directly. they are the ones that can sense or see if someone is chosen by the Ka'ra, depending on their sensitivity. Some see the ghostly line of previous Mand'alor'e stretched out behind them (like the Avatar cycle lmao), some see a wavering crown of stars around their head, some just sense there is a duplicity (/neutral) to their Force presence that doesn't exist in anyone else. how common is Force sensitivity in Mandalorian space? not fuckin very. Jaster had three in his entire faction of aprox. 2 million (fanon number), at least that were aware they were sensitive. Jango only had a few more, and only because he had gained a couple hundred thousand more followers before Galidraan. so i'll make the nearly-arbitrary number that Force sensitive Mandos are 1 in 1,000,000, across the entire sector. by some calculations, in the whole galaxy at around the time of the Clone Wars the number of Force sensitives is 1 in 5,000,000 but these calculations do not generally include societies and species with a near or 100% chance of Force sensitivity, because we simply don't have the data for it. does this all make Mandos slightly more likely to be Force sensitive than others, by my own numbers? sorta. which i'm making an issue of underreporting, based on Mandalore not being a part of the Republic, and also contention with the Jedi and Sith; they don't consider those Manda-touched to be Force sensitive, and with the way I've built this, they aren't exactly wrong.

for the purposes of this story, there are maybe eight Manda-touched Mando'ade in the Mandalore system at this time, and all but one are goran'e. that single non-armorer is part of the Old Guard. I have the roster for the Old Guard decided, so I'm debating whether the Manda-touched one is Cort Davin (a journeyman protector), or one of the women. Instinct wants Vhonte Tervho, but I have plans for her to be related to the goran Obi-Wan got his armour done by, who I wanted to be one of the seven Force sensitive armorers, soooo. lmao how fucked would it be if Isabet Reau is the Force sensitive one? I like the angst of that, since I definitely do not plan on redeeming her, but I kind of want the only Old Guard that can sense Obi-Wan is Chosen by the Ka'ra to be really quiet and accepting of it, while everyone else is arguing. hmmm I have an unnamed Wren as part of the Guard, that I haven't fleshed anything out for yet; perhaps them?

okay I think I've solidified what it makes a Mandalorian, at least for the function of this fic. it is tied to the Resol'nare, and following it, which does allow those who had Chosen Tor Vizsla as their Mand'alor to technically still be following the Resol'nare, and are therefore not dar'manda. at least not for that. but part of the reason the Resol'nare is even able to determine who has a Mandalorian soul, is because they believe it does. Those alive and those dead influence the functionality and reality of the Manda, which also allows for those pre-Resol'nare to still exist in the Manda. What causes someone to become dar'manda, if they are technically following the Resol'nare?

maybe it's reductive, or over-simplified, or maybe even too broad, but it makes sense to me and allows for many many different types of people to still fail, and this is obviously not the only way to become dar'manda, but one thing that will always strip someone of their Mando soul? treatment of children. caring for children. not harming children. this allows many of Death Watch to still maintain their Mando souls, but still be fucked up awful people in other ways. It allows even True Mandalorians to have lost their souls and not realised it because they otherwise adhered to the Resol'nare, because they'd chosen to interpret "defending oneself and family" and "raising your children as Mandalorians" to not include other peoeple's children. Or maybe they were abusive in the belief they were caring for their children. This would also make every single one of the Cuy'val Dar dar'manda, which I think is a fascinating concept.

to answer your question directly, no, one cannot look at someone and know they're dar'manda, even the Force/Manda sensitive ones. one will only know in death, whether or not they have a place in the Manda.

NOW what does this mean for New Mandalorians?? well, by technicality and the way I've set the Manda up, one can interpret the Resol'nare in ways that could align with New Mandos. Perhaps they interpret "armour" as more than specifically "beskar'gam", maybe they wear armourweave or other protective fabrics. Maybe they interpret "defending one's family" as putting down arms instead of raising them, in order to create a peaceful future for their children. I think there are plenty of New Mandos that technically tick off all the boxes, and believe in themselves and their fellows so much that the Manda is like "yeah sure why not, we'll make that count". I think some tenants are more easily... bent, like swearing to the duchy in place of the Mand'alor, but I think an easy one New Mandos miss, is "speak Mando'a." I think many New Mandos were all too quick to switch to Basic for everything except religious and spiritual ceremonies, and I think those already in the Manda would find that very hard to forgive. I actually get into this a little in Dha Kar'ta very soon, but for this fic, i'll have Satine not outright outlawing Mando'a, but it is socially heavily discouraged. you're not allowed to speak it in the palace unless in aforementioned ceremonies, you cannot fill out paperwork in anything but Basic, you're not allowed to use Mando'a titles (including Mand'alor), you're not allowed to teach it to your children. no outright like. punishments for speaking it in public, but if your kids are caught, there are repercussions, including investigation into how else you're raising your kids, and if you're found to be doing anything else, they can take your kids from you. not every New Mando agrees with this, of course, and go about adhering to the Resol'nare as best they can in secret, but so many do give up the language by convincing themselves it's not as important as the other tenants and, well, the duchy hasn't steered them all wrong yet, has it?

okay so on the subject of what the outside galaxy is seeing. I like the headcanon/trope/idea of like. the one thing all factions of Mandalorians agreeing on is fuck everyone else. oh, the New Mandos will emulate the Core and the Republic, but they aren't the Republic nor want to be, and this animosity extends to keeping as many internal Mandlorian issues just that: internal. no faction can keep news from leaving the system or the sector, obviously, but there also isn't a lot of interest in Mandalorian news? "oh look all the Mandos are fighting again", except that's been the standard for like. actual thousands of years. I like when fic have people outside the sector not evening knowing there are different factions, so I'll be doing that here, too, and I like the idea of non-Republic sectors having their own holonets, separate from the Republic one. so like, if Obi-Wan happens to go a little viral during his mad dash to Keldabe, that would be on the Mandalorian holonet, not the Republic one, so even if Obi-Wan was visibly still a Jedi (and he wasn't), actual news of him wouldn't reach the Mid and Inner Rims until like. possible years after it happens.

could this maybe be expedited by Sith machinations? absolutely, though I'm not sure I want to go that route, since I don't think the Sith are overmuch interested in Mandalore at this point, at least not in any hands-on capacity. I'm unclear on whether them funding Death Watch is fanon or not, but it is a headcanon I subscribe to, and I think they'd have stopped funding DW after Galidraan, to cause worse infighting and prevent DW from gaining enough power to actually restart their imperial conquering days. Palpatine has been senator for about ten years by this point, but has very little political power overall, and Demask would be looking basically anywhere but Mandalore at this point in time, both of them having written it off until they actively need something from the sector. if anyone had clocked Obi-Wan as a Jedi, this all would have gone very differently, news would have spread much further and quicker and I think undoubtedly would have reached Palpatine, but since I have Obi-Wan just... cutting ties to anything Jedi, news of him remains in-sector. is this perhaps unrealistic? maybe, but I kind of want to focus on Mandalore and not worry about galactic-wide politics for once, lmao, actually very much like Obi-Wan is doing. however, he will clock a lack of Sith interference and thinks That's Very Weird.

haven't decided how he finds Palpatine out yet, but I think it'll have to do with his Manda senses being different than his Force ones, maybe the Ka'ra even gives him a few tips or gifts to sense Sith since they've allied and fought with them so much in the past. regardless, that'll be after he's become Mand'alor and united the clans.

now to actual plot progression! Obi-Wan meets up with the Old Guard, they don't know what to make of him other than "he's kriffing weird. and young. and creepy. and probably Manda-touched." whatever other verd is Manda-touched will see him blessed by the Ka'ra, which causes them to look inwards more closely and realise they trust Obi-Wan inexplicably, which means they're blessed by the Manda and the Will of the People, too. they wonder if Obi-Wan has noticed, if any of the other Old Guard have noticed. they are one of a few that notice Obi-Wan sneaking back out while everyone is arguing.

Vhonte Tervho is another. She's at this lil summit to represent clan Tervho, tho isn't the clan head, because her ba'vodu, a Manda-touched goran, had sensed she needed to be at the summit. said ba'vodu is of course the armorer who reforged Obi-Wan's armour (need to find a name for them hmm), who had told their clan they were to cease fighting until their new Mand'alor called on them. Vhonte sees Obi-Wan, realises at the same time as everyone that he's the Kih'Manda, the Mand'ika that the entire system had been gossiping about for weeks, and she thinks of what her ba'vodu said. she looks inwards, like they had taught her to, and finds, yes, she trusts Obi-Wan, just like she used to trust Jango. And, well, her Mand'alor is obviously leaving to go do something, and she isn't going to let him go it alone.

the Manda-touched verd doesn't go with them, wanting to see what comes of this, but they already know Obi-wan is Ka'ra Chosen. they will come when he calls.

[whayjhey]

masterlist!!

Hello! I'm whayjhey. I now mostly write Anidala fics [and by write, I mean that I have a few stories posted while the others sit on my drafts]. Feel free to check out my works. Find me here: AO3 | Fanfiction Anakin Skywalker / Padmé Amidala [Anidala / Vaderala]

you make me wanna make you fall in love [rated E / complete] Padmé is a sheltered actress falling in love for the first time, and Anakin is a lead guitarist with a huge crush and a buttload of patience. Also known as: a famous Anidala AU wahoo more from this universe: mood board | tag | art by aleksandriel | anakin!!! by aleksandriel | anakin pov

got sunshine on a cloudy day [rated E / in progress ] Anakin is a single dad, Padmé is their new neighbor, and Luke really wants a mom. Also known as: dilf Anakin AU more from this universe: mood board | og tumblr post | tag

could be the story of another us [rated M / in progress] When young actor Anakin Skywalker hits rock bottom, his manager forces him to audition for a romantic comedy in a last-ditch attempt to save his career. Also known as: an actor Anidala AU told in screenplay more from this universe: mood board | tag

Of Angels and Pick-Up lines [rated G / one-shot] In an alternate universe where there are no burnt bodies and Death Stars, Luke Skywalker consults his family about the lovely world of romance and dating.

in the film i never made [rated T / collection] Basically a compilation of all my tumblr works on ao3, mostly (maybe exclusively) anidala

More of my short anidala stuff here on tumblr:

Across the Hall [rated G / short] | Modern AU where Anakin is a single dad and Luke wants to play Cupid.

Padmé survives AU [rated G / short] | Luke has a strange dream about his dad.

would you love me 4ever | how rots went down (aka something stupid)

Actor Anakin AU | Anakin does a screen test for the role of Hayden (lmao)

some kind of wonderful [rated G / short] | skywalker parent trap au!!!

declarations in desert planets

Skybabies / Happy Skywalker Family AU [tag]

Skywalker twins + the floor is lava

Bedtoimeee

cats?

Death's proximity

Over the Garden Wall au

At the mall

Other works:

Luke as Glinda the Good Witch lol

Art for Soft, Dreamy, Doomed by aleksandriel

ao3 sillies: tpm | aotc | rots | anh | empire | rotj | anidala

Let's hope this list grows :3 Any feedback is appreciated!

I used to write Percy Jackson fics, see them here.

[karticatyt]

we have nitw au noelle now!!! wahoo!!

this version of noelle takes inspiration from both angus and lori m. she is the quiet one of the group who keeps to herself, but she also has a fascination with horror movies (which is both from dr canon and nitw so i’m winning)

she is highly fascinated by the paranormal and generally spooky things to combat her anxiety. especially once dess disappeared, she began watching more content about the paranormal, particularly ghost documentaries and witchcraft. she isn’t sure that she believes in it, but entertains the idea as a means of contacting her sister again. she is the first to agree to search for evidence of strange phenomena in town once asriel and kris start having these weird dreams… even though kris dismisses these strange dreams as just that, noelle manages to convince them and susie to join along in this pursuit.

i wonder what’s going on… 👀

also trying to think of a name for this au. thinking maybe Fountain in the Woods or Roaring Knight in the Woods. something like that.

Asriel’s post

Dess’ post

Kris’ post

Susie’s post

[anotherfcknschlattsimp]

baby brother!Charlie getting wood late at night and coming to wake you up for help because hes just so horny for you its pathetic and he doesnt know what else to do with himself

oh how i love you brother!Charlie

im french kissing your brain pookie <3

hey, ignore that it's mid-november, here's a halloween post

genderfucked reader, im indecisive

cw: somno, incest (WAHOO), dubcon but everyone's fine with everything, of course one of my first works back is part of the sibcon charlie au (as far as i know, created by @moistcl1tikal-ao3 )

he couldnt stop looking at you all night, your cute little whore-for-halloween costume hugging you just perfectly. but he had to save those thoughts and memories for later!

except later did not happen, he crashed as soon as he laid down on his bed after the parties and events you dragged him to so you could show off your cute, nerdy lil bro

so, naturally, he woke up about 2 hours later with the hardest boner of his life the month. all because he kept dreaming of getting to touch you under your booty shorts

poor boy was still too tired to wanna deal with it though! so he tried to go back to sleep, deal with it in the morning, but he couldnt get comfy or stop thinking about your head between his legs

plan a failed, time for plan b: choke the chicken

he tried so hard, looked up all his favorite pornos, his favorite pictures of you, a pair of stolen panties, he pulled out all the stops :/ and it just made him ache and throb more for you

so final plan, the riskiest plan, wake you up and beg on his goddamn knees that you aren't too grumpy

he knew you werent the nicest person ever when you got woken up, especially when somewhat hungover, so he tread with caution

even got a towel, pillow, snack, and bottle of water for you :(

busts out every petname in the book when he tries to shake you awake

"sissy.. sis? brother?? dearest sibling??? bubba???? 🤨 you alive motherfucker???" the shaking picked up speed and intensity, no longer worried about you being mad, just half convinced you passed away in your sleep

"geddafuqouddaherecharlee" you mutter, smacking him away but still rolling over for him to join you, thinking he had a nightmare or something

charlie slid into bed behind you, careful to not make any sudden moves, worried he'd say or do the wrong thing and ruin his chances of getting some tonight

he talked to you sweetly, gently, with purpose, he was making amazing points

"i dunno if i'm allowed to ask or if only you get to initiate but i'll do all your chores for a month if you help me out here..."

he waited

nothing happened

you were out COLD

so time for his impromptu new final plan: beg for forgiveness not permission. he tries to rationalize it! you've never rejected his advances before, you're insatiable, this is probably something your into! maybe just being in your bed and surrounded by the smell of you can help him get there

so he stole some lube from your bedside table

it was so absurdly cold that he of course made a very manly sound (screamed like a mouse would) and jumped a bit, enough to wake you up again

so you turn to charlie, terrified because what the fuck was your little brother possibly experiencing to shatter everyone's eardrums at 2:33am

and you catch him, cock in one hand, other hand covering his mouth to avoid making more noise, but you already caught him slick-handed. and if you weren't so exhausted you would absolutely jump his bones in an instant, but the hangover was already kicking in so while seeing your younger brother trying to jerk off to you in your own bed would usually light a bonfire in your gut, this was more like a backyard fire pit sized one

so, being the amazing older sibling you are, you chuckle and coo at him, inching your hand towards the one on his cock

"awww my poor baby brother cant get off without me?" you fake a pout as your hand finds its way to cupping his balls, massaging gently

"pleasepleaseplease, need you so bad, needed you-needed you all night" he begs and involuntarily bucks his hips into your hand, eyes glued shut and hands fisted in your sheets, overcome with pleasure

he doesn't see or i guess hear or feel you shifting to be closer to his dick, or he just doesn't acknowledge it

but he sure notices when you grab the base and flick your tongue over the tip

"you're too cute" is the last thing he hears before being overrun by pure ecstasy as he finally cums when you take him fully down your throat, thank yous pouring out of his pink, bitten lips

his hands fly to hold your head in place, you let him until you start gagging

he lets go and starts profusely apologizing and thanking you

"you can make it up to me if you want.." you say seductively as you lay on your back and spread your knees just enough to get the point across

@th3-circus @xoxoave @jschladderall @manticore-fangs

im not dead which is shocking to everyone im pretty sure.. anyway here ya go <3

[ink-casket]

hai !! would you be willing to do a ghostbur [DSMP] pack? thank you, and no rush !!

Requested pack ᯓ★

Ghostbur

// keep in mind headmates may not form exactly like the pack! //

Names: Ghostbur, Ghost, Bur, Ghosty, Blue, Bluey

Titles: The Ghost, (Prn) who likes sheep, Casper the Friendly Ghost, (prn) who bleeds blue, Ghost in yellow

Source: Dream SMP

Age: 30(ish)

Pronouns: he/him, They/Them, Hx/Hxm, Ghost/Ghosts, Ghosty/Ghosts, other/others, se/syr, xi/xem, ?/?s, hi/him, abstra/abstras, voi/void, sleep/sleeps, 👻/👻s, 🐑/🐑s,

Genders: Male, Nonbinary, Agender, Starryghostic, Hauntedthing, Friendlyghostic, Ghostjoyical, Unawareghostgender, Bluepresentic, Friendcharic

Sexualities: Aromatic, Asexual, Cupioromantic, Cupiosexual, Asexual spectrum

Roles: reliever, therapist, Internal Self Helper, Absorber therapist, babysitter, emotional guardian, journal keeper, pain holder, panic holder, contrarian advisor

Likes: Sheep, blue, Friend, Eret, Fundy, Philza, Ranboo, Technoblade, Yellow, flowers, Tommyinnit, Tubbo,

Dislikes: Alivebur, Wilbur, Dream

Extra appearances: Scars over their whole body, white or blue wings, Sharp teeth, Blue liquid dripping from their mouth, elf looking ears, Little bits of him floating away, floating body parts, melting face, Blue bandage over his nose, Black shirt under his sweeter, Glasses hanging on his sweeter, gray or Blue beanie, Always with Friend, stitches on his face, Blue flowers in hair

Extra info: They like to dress the body in yellow, They like to make the body look dead/tired, A Pacifist and try to calm down everyone / anyone who is upset or mad, Write with either blue markers/crayons/colored pencils, Speaks slower out in front, Likes to wear more comfy outfits for relaxation, Usually tries to front to rest or sleep, Only really talk to close close friends

Faceclaims:

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Wahoo! First post after a few months!! Happy welcome back I guess 0 _0

This post was made by our irl boyfriend!! Yaaayyy!! I just helped with a lil tiny bit at the end -3- he did awesome n I love him sm 4 helping out with the blog <33

HEH ! I'm glad I could help ! We enjoy this type of stuff so this was very fun to do !

[changanomaly]

some old twitter requests from around late December 2023! they're definitely rough but idk they took like like 10 minutes each so I think that's fine. there's a Brott comic I made for fun from these requests but I'll post it a bit later

Aleduncan

Geoff and Emma (TD2023) being siblings (it's one of my fave hcs)

An (older) Duncan knowing Zee before the competition starts

First Canon Queer Couples Double Date (I know Mkulia isn't canon but sigh I can dream and the person rqing did too)

Scary Girl!

Manitoba wahoo

Courtney broken violin scene :(

[tomodailii]

day 39 of tomodachi posting every day until living the dream releases

RESPECTABLE SIZE FUNNY LITTLE TOY THING FOR THE WINNER!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WAHOO!!!!!!!

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[kalisseo]

BLEACHER CREATURES

last night i finally finished the designs!! wahoo!!

(heights might not be accurate, I didn't know very well how to fit them into the template)

(also warning for long text post)

as in the show, they are a group of outcasts who torment the popular kids and enjoy causing chaos, and they only become a group until s3

in the show it's never stated how they became friends, but I have two ideas, one is that topher created the bleacher creatures as a club, and the other one is that jill and vlad are the ones who do that (or maybe just jill)

either way, topher is their self proclaimed leader and the rest have assigned roles, that doesn't mean he's a real authority to them, or that he thinks they're below him, after all they are a group of friends and they see each other as equals (except for Ivan who's an asshole and it's still not used to women)

topher is the leader and the one that usually makes the final decisions, ivan is kind of his right hand or second in command, Mary is the voice of reason and usually the one that finds a way to make their plans work, both jill and vlad are more like henchmen? I guess, they both propose ideas and are the ones who add more to the plan, and usually the ones to do "the work" because they enjoy that, but vlad is the sentimental or romantic one in the group

this is an established dynamic they're okay with, this doesn't mean it can't change, sometimes one of them can be the leader of the day, usually jill and mary are the ones to take that place when topher doesn't, and ivan tries to but no one listens to him

at first, it was a really awkward friendship, but soon they all got to know each other and bond over being outcasts, and together they all embrace being freaks and being cloned from horrible people in history

vlad, jill and mary usually bond over fashion and do their nails together, or some "girly" stuff, like sometimes doing make up or skin care, Vlad usually only likes having his nails done but makes company to the girls, Topher joins too, to me he would join to the skin care part, but it's mostly there doing company like vlad

Vlad and jill embrace their clone parents legacy in their own way, something they have in common and it's a base of their friendship, and also they both enjoy dressing like their clone parents in their own personal modern way, also they share having niche interests I think, but different ones, jill of course loves every jack the reaper piece of media she can find and horror gory movies, like I said vlad is more romantic and sentimental, and enjoys goth literature, vampires and reading/writing poems

both jill and vlad teach mary how to embrace her clone mother in her own way

but, mary also lived her whole life trying to be her own person, something topher can relate to, she fantasizes a lot with being some kind of main character, and like in the show she has this manic pixie dream girl attitude, but being in the bcreatures made her embrace her more horrible side. she and topher get along because of this, and I think they have similar experiences

ivan and vlad bond over videogames I think, they have a more brothers dynamic, ivan makes fun of him a lot for his "feminine" interests, but that doesn't mean he doesn't try to help him, especially when vlad has a crush (on joan, mind you, that's another whole posts) , he usually thinks Ivan is dumb and doesn't agree with him in a lot of stuff, but appreciates the advice

in general ivan head butts a lot with the rest of the bcreatures, especially jill who tends to talk back in an aggressive way, and he was this close )( to being kicked out if it wasn't because topher wanted to give him a second chance, after all they only have each other. this doesn't mean topher and ivan never argued, they did, and they had a lot of disgraments, but topher is the one who keeps ivan at line, and ivan is trying to have his approval so they get to have a dynamic that works for them and for the rest of the group

ivan doesn't really like the girls that much, specially mary, who jill and vlad consider as the actual second in command, they have some kind of one sided rivalry, one sided because mary doesn't really care about being a leader or being seen as the one in command

topher is closer to ivan and mary, but he still sees jill and vlad as his friends, he admires how they can embrace their clone parents as a part of their identity, and enjoys their company, and likes their spirit for their plans.

so yeah, this is them as a group, in really short words their dynamic is that topher is their dumb leader and the rest his henchmen I guess

i still have to flesh them out individually, so if anyone is interested in one of them feel free to ask!

[beatcroc]

a year!!! as of today i have now been drawing these funny little pizza freaks, to the exclusion of almost everything else, for!!! an entire year!!! i wanted to do a nice group shot/lineup of everybody to compare to when i first started trying to draw them because oh boy were they bad. i never even posted most of them anywhere because they were so bad. but im posting them here, now, to see how everything's changed/evolved.

this is probably the hardest time i've ever had trying to figure out how to work with a style, but we got there eventually; i'm pretty happy with the handle i've got on everybody now...dont let ur memes be dreams. lots of unimportant journaling and idle thoughts abt it below.

older pics

the first one is the VERY first time i drew them, before i thought i was going to actually have any interest in drawing them [lmao]; it was just the one isolated image, for my friendserver, to illustrate the funney message, so there was no attempt to make it Good or actually understand anything going on w/ the designs or style.

second is the original run of practices sketches to start trying to figure them out for real; done after i started having ideas for the comics and such and realized oh god maybe i am actually gonna draw fanart for this. [again, lol, and lmao.]

third one is the first pt art thing i posted on here. there were a couple weeks of sprite studies between this one and the previous image. the one on the top right wasn't part of that post i just threw it on as space filler; i'd intended to shift to doing Sprite Redraws But Stylized to explore tings more, but that was the only one i did. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

individual characters

peppino: by far the hardest dear god. bro what ARE your shapes how DOES your face work. jesus christ. everything i have trouble with this style for, peppino has it in excess. i draw in polygons! i need consistency! and that is the last thing this kind of style is concerned with. they are made of squarshy clay and i do not understand how to mold them. i was really hoping trying to learn this game's style would GIVE me that kind of flexibility for fun exaggerated facial expression but i don't think much came of it in the end 😔. anyway on the bright side all this means once i got peppino figured out a little bit everybody else clicked way easier.

fake peppino: honestly i never did anything with him on purpose except for how his eyes work + the perma-smile thing. i figured ok hes supposed to look weird and off model so whatever happens with him happens. and it did. and it kept happening. it is still, in fact, happening.

noise/ette: somehow, for every bit that peppino was the least natural thing i've ever tried, these two worked pretty much right off the bat. i still don't understand it, seeing as pretty much all the things at play for peppino are also at work for them. i think the new sketches are actually a little worse than older ones but not enough that i care.

gustavo: really funny bc i drew him on model twice and just went 'okay, cool nice, easy, um. he doesn't have any fucking legs?' fortunately he was the only one i had a strong idea for how to stylize him [square] and it worked exactly as i was hoping so wahoo.

brick: is an animal and therefore 5000x easier and more natural for me to draw/stylize than anything else in the cast. that is Just a rat bro. i can draw a rat.

gerome: i think the funniest one here. the most drastic and least necessary change imo. i was gonna have him be really small at first, like smaller than the noises, but then i just... didn't. he's just peppino-sized now. also i gave him like. actual human facial structure, which is funny bc in most cases i'd do anything to avoid, but it works well for his being A Rock to give him some angles and definition like that+ to differentiate his vibe from the rest of the cast who are all very squishy. also since he is essentially Just A Head it's good to emphasize that too ig.

john: i only drew john a couple times but he gets to be here because i like him. and because most of the stuff i applied to gerome was readily applicable to john, though i did try to keep him a little more uncanny because he is a Huge And Lanky Freak. i hate that he is barefoot btw but idk how to make his color balance look right with shoes.

pizzahead: i did not want to put him on here honestly but i Have drawn him a handful of times and more importantly i didn't know what i was gonna do with john's pose if i didn't have him there to be glared at. the only thing that's different with him is giving him wider-bottomed pants, which i got from when i tried to draw these guys in clone high style [i never posted that one either][i will eventually]

snick: he gets to be here because 1. he's like 6 lines 2. i like him and 3. ive scribbled him a few times offhand and it went pretty well

misc

there are some guys missing because those are guys i didn't draw enough [or at all] to have gotten comfortable with them. sorry

i would have Liked to shade these but for the time being i have accepted that my grasp of light/shadow has decayed to the point im not going to be happy with anything i try there, so For Now i am working on my presentation with flats i guess. gerome has a shadow only because he's shaded like that ingame and looks naked without it

anyway if you are still reading [hi?] i get to shamelessly plug now. i'm over the hill of my pizza run now, and while i still have plenty of things i want to make here, most of the bigger more in-depth ones have passed. pizza tower was the first thing in THREE YEARS to get me out of my oc groove to doing fanart, and once i am done with my ideas here i will be going right back to it. if you like my art or how i write characters/interactions you should check out my oc/webcomic blog @jamverse . i can't promise people who like pizza stuff will be terribly into my designs, but i can guarantee i treat my guys with the exact same sort of tone i handle the pt guys with. and hell, i've mentioned it a few times before, but like 70% of my characterization for fake pep is just copied off one of my characters, so if u are going to miss him... he will still be there in spirit >;p

and if you dont care about any of that and are still reading thank you anyway. actually making these comics + seeing how shockingly well-received they've been has done a lot for my confidence, and for seeing that my kind of stuff IS something people enjoy :')

[bug-decal-kissing]

Hey friends!

Prison Cube, by Fluffyerflame, was updated today, with 4/? Chapters released! It has a rating of Teen And Up Audiences and No Archive Warnings Apply, with additional tags "Alternate Universe - Personality Swap, Grief/Mourning, Emotional Hurt/Comfort, hurt/delayed comfort, Angst, Slow Burn, Threats of Violence, Action & Romance, Psychological Trauma, long term imprisonment, Other Additional Tags to Be Added, Lawful joke (Alternate Universe), Unreliable Narrator, POV Third Person Limited, Prism thinks he knows more than he really does, Scrabby knows WAY more than he lets on, Scrabby is a smug asshole, Prism Has Anger Issues, Orbo Is NOT An Asshole In This, Theres Too Much Orbo Slander, Hurt/Comfort, Trigger Warnings Will Be In Notes If There Is Any, Emotionally Repressed, Author has no clue what theyre doing, Cosmic Owl is Chill as Hell"

You can read it here:

COSMIC OWL TIME YESSSSSSSS <33 Scarab's slow horror as Cosmic pulls out more and more games is so funny; God forbid a man have a hobby/j AND MORE PRISM LORE WAHOO !!/pos

NSFW works are below the cut :].

A new work, Let Me Love You, Just Say You Want It by BoneySecrets, was published today, with 1/1 Chapters released! It has a rating of Explicit and No Archive Warnings Apply, with additional tags "Comfort No Hurt, Comfort Sex, Masturbation, Mating Cycles/In Heat, Emotional Hurt/Comfort, Emotional Sex, Voyeurism, Accidental Voyeurism, a bit of breeding kink, Scarab hating on his body, Prismo is a sweetheart, post cannon, Dildos, Masturbation in Bathroom, Wet Dream, Intersex Scarab, Caring Prismo, Kinda sub-space, New forms, Exploring bodies intimately, Cuddling & Snuggling, Sleepy Cuddles, First Kiss, Blooming Love, Vaginal Fingering,Rough Oral Sex, forming trust, Cock Warming, Alien Biology, Gift Giving, Hormones, Multiple Orgasms, Multiple Sex Positions"

You can read it here:

HAHA SCARAB IS IN LOOOOOOVE AND HE HATES IT >:]/silly I love when Prismo is like 'If you won't love yourself I'll do it for you :]' He's so real for that <3

[sssammich]

fanfic writer questions

Thanks for the tag, @foibles-fables

1- How many works do you have on AO3?

i'm at 122 right now (wahoo!)

2. What's your total AO3 word count?

794,634 (i am on a mission to 1 million in the next couple of years)

3. What fandoms do you write for?

well i've been around many a fandom block, but i'd say for current brainrot:

supergirl (mostly supercorp, but i have a smattering of rare pairs because women, amirite?)

swan queen

bumbleby (i also still have so many rosebird dreams i'll get there someday)

makayuro (with a smattering of rare pairs also because women, amirite?)

4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

well unsurprisingly, ever since plopping down on supercorp fandom, the numbers have been from there. but shoutout to my victorious fic from 2012 holding strong lol

evergreen, closest i get, not for nothing, you've got mail, and one way or another

5. Do you respond to comments?

yes yes absolutely!! sometimes i am late and sometimes i just leave it in there so i can have it stay unread but anyway i try to respond and i appreciate everyone who sends them to me. i have historically been a oneshot writer so it's been nice also to get comments on wips!

6. What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

oh shoot angstiest ending?? well i think i would say my supercorptober ficlet about memory loss of sorts might tick that (it ends kinda idk open but not bad, i will say)

but then there's also this one old soccer RPF i wrote that's more, idk, poetry than any real fic about one of them leaving lmao

7. What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

the happiest ending? i mean all of them, i reckon. if they end up together or have a promise of together then they count lmao

8. Do you get hate on fics?

uhhh none that i've seen? i mean if it's in the comments, no? but if it's elsewhere, then also no? i have been fortunate in that way

9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

OMG YES I AM FINALLY IN MY SMUT ERA

uh i reckon comedy smut for now (read DickFic here) but the day is young and my doc is empty so who's to say

but i have dreams for some sad smut because i'd like to develop the range LMAO

10. Do you write crossovers? What's the craziest one you've written?

surprisingly, i do not. what i instead do is just little spin through five fandoms at any given time and just confuse myself that way

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

unfortunately yes. twice now. once was for my victorious fic that was used for a 5th harmony RPF lmaooo

and then on thanksgiving weekend, the first chapter of Crepe AU was posted by an anonymous for a The Wilds ship (but my friends rallied to get it taken down so i didn't have to send a takedown form to ao3 while i was traveling home)

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

nope but that would be totally rad

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

i love fic writing group work so yes! i have a series of sad angsty women that i have with my best friend in my revue starlight fandom, and then, of course, @sideguitars and i have 'humans in the storeroom' (that reminds me it's my turn to write the next part smh)

i also like jumping into writing sprints or writing exercises with folks (like a round robin)

14. What's your all time favorite ship?

let's not do this, i shan't pick amongst my children

15. What's a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

so far all my wips are things i wanna finish and will do my best to finish. i have a couple of retired wips that will just sit in my ao3 forever and i have made peace with them, though.

16. What are your writing strengths?

i wanna say characterization, pacing, emotional resonance, and a simple and natural writing style maybe

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

action?? plot??? proper AUs lmao

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fic?

i do not because i find i butcher it and also then i cringe lmao

19. First fandom you wrote for?

oh written for but never posted? hermione/ginny

posted for? god probably All My Children (bianca and maggie) when i was like a teenager hahahahaha

20. Favorite fic you've written?

sorry no can do i love them all because i wrote them and there are so many things i enjoy about them. but i will say that the writing events circuit i've done this past year (supercorp bigbang, bumbleby big bang, and swan queen winter solstice) are born out of a lot of labor of love and i'm really proud of the work i've done for them.

and not for a writing event, but i am also extremely proud of re:live for mayakuro fandom-- that one makes me think that if i never wrote for that fandom again, that that's a really good fic to end on)

No-pressure tags, of course: @sideguitars, @eqt-95, @fazedlight, @luthordamnvers, @vox-ex, and @waytooinvested

(yall have probably done this before but here it just in case!)

[stop-saying-tootsie]

anyways figured i should give a life update bc im not sure i ever explained why exactly im in ireland and im hoping to use this app slightly more so let’s get to it!!

when i first created this account, i was 18, had just started college, and was so deep in the closet that i wasn’t even out to myself. i don’t want to dwell too much on those times because i was so truly unhappy with myself it’s a miracle i stuck it out, but i am obviously very grateful that i did :)

- i’m now 21, have had my name legally changed, had top surgery almost a year ago, been on testosterone for over 2 years, and am currently working on getting my gender marker changed (expediting it for. no reason in particular)

- my family calls me by my name! mostly! something i wouldn’t have ever ever dreamed of, and still feels surreal every time

- i’m just over a month shy of graduating and being a certified teacher, which also feels very strange considering i am in fact 17 in my head

- i passed my certification exams first try and actually did very well (thank fuck because it was about $400 worth of tests)

- to finish my degree, i’m teaching in ireland!! i’ve been here for a month now, working at a local primary school and traveling during my free time, and it is GRAND (i do get very homesick so i’m not sure moving abroad for a prolonged period of time will ever be in the cards for me but again for. no reason in particular i am still considering). i work with 4th class and every single kid tries to give me a high five in the hall its a traffic nightmare and the teachers hate me for it

- i saw glass animals in dublin and got barricade??? so drew and i are basically married

- i met a long time internet friend (nearly 7 years) in manchester last week and it was truly marvelous. he, his girlfriend, and i have all transitioned during that time, so it felt very profound to sit on their carpet and carve fruit and drink wine and realize how much we’ve overcome and how truly happy we are despite everything

- my niece turned 1 today and has brought so much joy to everyone’s lives (gutted i’m not there but i had a donut in her honor)

- got the ghosts brought to life book wahoo

- once i’m back in the states ill be moving home and close to family for the foreseeable future, and will get to chill until i start teaching in july-ish!! i look forward to feeling like a normal human briefly

i think that’s all i can think up for now! of course i’m worried about the state of my country and my future but right now i feel loved and important to the people i care about and that’s enough

hopefully it’s not a year before i actually post again, love u lot

[peninkwrites]

trick or treat!!

Oh do I have a treat for you!! (maybe idk)

This is a bunch of snippets from a fic I started and never finished way back in. idk, December 2020?? January 2021?? Long time ago lmao. It was basically gonna be a fic about Tommy torturing Connor and the aftermath of that working title "Violence for Violence's Sake is the Rule of Beasts." you know. from the tumblr post abt a dream someone had about obama? yeah. working title bc i couldn't decide if it was silly or not lmao.

(this is quite a bit so it's goin under a read more wahoo)

“What do we do with him?” Tommy looked to Techno for guidance, for instruction.  That was different too.  Tommy always had a plan, one he would run into without hesitation. “I think we’re gonna have to take him with us.” Perhaps even worse, Tommy’s one hesitation hadn’t been concern for Connor, for the damage he might cause, but instead he worried about what Dream might think.  Technoblade wasn’t worried, exactly. It was more so just an observation. A curious thing to show just how much Tommy had changed.  Tommy wasn’t free of blame or violence before all of this, he wasn’t afraid to get his hands dirty, to prank and threaten and go perhaps too far, but this was something different. Connor was inconsolable, utterly at a loss for how he got into these circumstances, to the point that he didn’t even try and run away anymore.  He could only plead for mercy.  “Don’t hurt me– I-I don’t want to die!” “You’re not gonna die, Connor. Come with us and we won’t kill you,” Tommy all calming and kind. Techno can see it in his eyes, Tommy reveling in the power that came with showing mercy because he knows he can take it away, because he knows Connor is entirely in his hands. It wasn’t just the physical torture, it was the humiliation. It was the cruel demands, the dragging Connor along by a rope, treating him like something less than human.  That was enough to make Techno hesitate. He got over it, perhaps a little too easily. Tommy forces Connor into the pit thinking about Dream’s calm words “how about you get in the hole, Tommy?” -The hypocrisy of Tommy calling Tubbo a monster -Later- “we didn’t go too far, did we?” If Technoblade were anyone else he would’ve intervened more harshly right then. But he wasn’t. And Techno didn’t see the problem with what they were doing. Techno could maybe understand Connor.  He was all but a stranger to Tommy, a stranger who was living in his old house. That dissonance explained Tommy’s lack of empathy to an extent, but Fundy?  Fundy was an old friend, an ally in the first revolution, one of the people who was angered by Tommy’s exile, and yet Tommy showed no mercy.

Techno realizes the problem isn’t what they’re doing, it’s the fact that Tommy is the one doing this. It’s just not him. And his reasons are clearly warped. “You’re pushing somewhere I don’t think you want to go, Tommy.” “Is that so?” Tommy snapped.  “You’re the one who said nothing good happens to heroes, so, guess I decided I’m not gonna be the hero anymore,” he froze, different words coming to mind, let’s be the bad guys.  “Not like it matters.” “You’re becoming like Dream” Tommy snaps, gets in his face “shut the fuck up you don’t know anything about me how dare you say that-“ “How did it feel? When you told Connor things would be okay as long as he obeyed you?” “What?” “Because I don’t think you were concerned.  I don’t think you were trying to make him feel better. How’d that feel, Tommy? That rush of power? Did you feel like you were in control?” “What if I say it did, huh?!  What then?” Tommy dares him to keep arguing, even as he looks terrified, like he expects Techno to retaliate with something worse. "Means there's probably something wrong with you. Maybe Dream did something to your head worse than... than you calling him your friend." Tommy looks crestfallen. "Don't say that. Please. Please, don't say that to me."

[nojean42]

TXT - The Dream Chapter: STAR

wahoo the first (and at this point only) group i started stanning before debut!

idk why the image quality of the album cover is so low,, i copied it from spotify exactly like all the other album covers i've used...

I remember really wanting to make a fanart for this album but i never got the sketch to look how i wanted and gave up lmao

I'm gonna add a couple bonuses to the review cuz i wanna talk about other versions of the songs that aren't on the album

Blue Orangeade its so goddamn groovy i love it so much!!! prob my fave on the album but its a hard choice cuz i love them allll

CROWN I remember trying to teach myself the dance hiding in a room at church and i have no idea why and when i had an oppotunity to be in a room alone like that lol,, anyway epic debut!! kinda off topic but its weird hearing the japanese versions cuz their voices grew up so much between recordings lol

Our Summer chill vibes yeah :) i think i've heard the sample they use in the instrumental breaks in other songs and every time i'm like "omg its that txt song!!"

Cat & Dog remind me to make a furry playlist,, FEEL LIKE CINDERELLA 내가 변해!!!!!!!!!! anyway i remember trying to make a "things you didn't notice in the mv" type video for this song, but unfortunately it was lost along with those dancing videos i talked about in earlier posts 😔 editing that video made me notice all the background noises, and theres sooo many of them lmao

Nap of a star ballad but with lore this time! they have really nice voices :3

BONUS: Cat & Dog (English Version) the lyrics are so unserious lmao i love it,, if i do make that furry playlist idk which version of the song i should use.. find it really funny that in the promotions they had everryone be represented by either a cat or a dog, except soobin cuz he can't not be a bunny lol

BONUS: Our Summer (Acoustic Mix) i really like the acoustic version, fits the vibes of the song very well!!

[ghost-town-story]

Hi I'm a few days late (by my own standards) with this but in my defense every single day of December so far I've either been working or in school so I feel I'm justified lol

Anyways to explain what's going on here, another November has passed, and with it another of my NaNo stories turns heckin 10 years old. Who the fuck gave it the right, huh? So, in the spirit of nostalgia and cringe I'mma reread it, and since I'm now an adult with adult money who can buy herself some gotdamned alcohol, I'm also making drinking rules to deal with the inevitable cringe lmao

(Obligatory disclaimer that NaNo the org is fuckin trash and I do not endorse them, but NaNo as an event will always have a special place in my heart and I'm basically kidnapping it from the org now)

The rules are simple: 1. Drink whenever I cringe 2. Drink whenever there's a blatant case of me padding the fuckin word count (in this case, dream sequences lol)

And with that, I once again have my kitty, I have my snaccs, I unfortunately do not have my emotional support wine but I do have peach wine which'll have to do, so let's go

Time to reread Nova draft 1 for the first time since........ whenever I reread it last and sparked the eternal rewrite hell I'm in now lmao

Okay so this intro is like....... not great but also hella?? Like the whole "showing Will missing James" is *chef's kiss* but the execution is..... needs work lmao

Ah yes, the days when Aydan was hella fuckin traumatized before the events of Nova ever happened lol

Liam's gf is named after my tenor buddy from high school aaaaaah <3

LMAOOOOOO fuckin perspective change mid paragraph hell yeah *cries* we're doing so great y'all

............................. well I'm gonna take a huge ass drink bc oh lord, things that shoulda tipped me off that my brain is some form of neurospicy a long ass time ago

But also hell yeah, cute Summer Aydan moment. for fuckin once they are so mildly catty to each other now lol (Summer is overprotective and smothering and Aydan gets sassy in response and Summer gets catty back lol)

I thought he wore colored contacts in this draft. I THOUGHT HE WORE COLORED CONTACTS IN THIS DRAFT. WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK

Yeah amnesiac Jay was the best fucking decision I ever made for this story bc oh lord Jay's motivations for why Will can't know his identity are tissue paper fuckin thin anyways if you need me I'll be singing Frozen bc that's the association my brain is making rn lol

CONCEAL DON'T FEEL DON'T LET THEM KNOOOOOOOOW

*ahem* anyhoot

I......... I'm fairly certain that's not vertigo, that's just shitty fuckin depth perception from having shit vision in one eye my dude

Ah yes, when Lai was an important character cause he was one of the only ones XD

Oh yeah and nobody tells Jay shit lmaoooo "oh btw she's Summer's cousin" "SERIOUSLY????" (this also happens later. something about their uncles dating. i think i've posted it before lol. we'll get there soon enough) lmaooooo and Lai calls Jay out for his lack of knowledge anyways cause he's supposed to know this shit XD

Lai isn't being an absolute gotdamned asshole and somehow this is worse

(also one of my classmates texted me for unrelated reasons anybody wanna take bets on how long before that conversation devolves because i'm already half a glass of wine in XD)

Jay being stalkery! Wahoo!!

oh antisocial bb Aydan <333 who's also a smartass <33333 and a bb <3333333

And meanwhile Jay is continuing to be creeper stalkery :P

oh bb yeah. yeah. I used to be snappy about my height lol. sorry bb that's where you're getting your snappiness from XD

fuckin Will lmao

And now is when the tissue paper motivations piss me off even more!!!!

"They never found his body" correction! y'all's mom never found his body. Baz did ;)

JAY. JAY NO. READ THE FUCKING ROOM MY BOY. ABSOFUCKINLUTELY NOT LMAO

"oh jeez i didn't mean to cause problems" says the boy who is knowingly causing problems by keeping his identity a secret

"I'm not going to make it personal" says the boy who complicates everything by making it personal i think we need to add a tally/drinking rule for every time Jay says a blatant lie XD

Oh god once again I have been smacked with the knowledge that originally Heron, Gray, and Owl were supposed to be teenagers, like barely older than Jay

And I have also been smacked with the knowledge that Seanna, Starlight-now-Sora, and Cal were always a part of the group in this version! forgot the fuck about that!

Wait. wait wait wait wait wait. Is Basil older than Heron Gray and Owl????????

WHY ARE THESE MUTUALLY EXCLUSIVE JAY????? WHY ARE YOUR DAMN MOTIVATIONS LIKE GOTDAMN NEWSPAPER IN THE RAIN

bb aydan <3333333

Jay now is not the time to be flirting ffs

lmaoooooo this was based off my fucking high school geometry class. fuck that weird ass project.

Aydan my darling with an Ed Elric-sized temper <333333333

"If you're going to be taking junior classes [as a freshman] try not to act your age so much" damn Summer what the fuck "Geometry isn't even a junior class it's a sophomore one" yeah mood lmao

Jay "sit here and look pretty" Miles you have not changed in that regard <3

Imma be honest, this scene is very what the fuck. Like, even understanding the subtext that I was trying to bury, I Do Not Get this scene. It's so fuckin disjointed and just. Will's parents have nothing to do with the unnamed past trauma. Why are they basically being equated here???? I don't fucking know!!!!! this, my friends, is why I drink when rereading ~decade old writing now XD

"I'm not stupid," says the boy who, historically, has made a lot of stupid decisions XD

LMAO "philosophy's a bitch" FUCKIN PREACH WILL I HATED THAT CLASS SO MUCH AND I ONLY TOOK IT CUZ OF A BITCH I CUT CONTACT WITH ALMOST IMMEDIATELY AFTER HIGH SCHOOL (she has a name in my storytime series. I do Not Remember it rn. nor do I care. She was a gotdamned bitch lol)

"Fuck philosphy" again gotdamn PREACH Will

HI WILLOW WHO IS FRESHLY STOLEN FROM COFAS AT THIS POINT :DDDD

Ah yes "I didn't know Summer and Aydan were related until River told me they were his nieces." "Is everybody related and I just don't know about it?" "BTW River is your uncle's ex-boyfriend" XDDDDD (ex only bc said uncle (Hayden) fuckin DIED rip in pieces Hayden you're officially ded for realsies in Nova canon nowadays)

Ah back in the ol' days when cellphones weren't ubiquitous and forgetting yours wouldn't be a gotdamn death sentence lol

THE FUCK PHILOSOPHY AGENDA CONTINUES

Jay. My dude. My buddy. Considering you know (i think) about the Past Traumas. you really shoulda maybe TOLD HER THE FUCKING TRUTH EARLIER. like i know this is rushed bc of outside circumstances (probs i was tired of writing high school shenanigans) but ma dude. pls.

Jay out here writing the "how to make your gf's cousin hate you forever" manual lol

Oh Lai now is NOT the time lmao Hell yeah Willow bitchin out Lai for being a bitch lol

oh good fucking lord i did not have the antagonists planned out well in this AT ALL

KAI!! I thought that was Baz at first and I was gonna cry bc I was confused at how old Baz is in this draft lol

Oh lord the exposition I was so terrible at it lol

"What do you want? A dramatic reunion scene where we admit our feelings to each other and shit?" lmaoooooo jokes on you Jay y'all are hella gay for each other now XDDDD (he's talking to Baz here)

Baz is 19. Jay is 17. So are Heron Gray and Owl meant to be 18 or are they even younger than Jay????? That's..... noooooo

"I left Aydan with River." "Oh yeah, they are related" "Goddammit why does everybody know this but me"

Lol this dynamic has flipflopped. Baz is now the one who freaks out when things don't go the way he plans and Jay's the one like "Babe. pls. not your fault. pls chill."

god they're so gay but like i don't even think they're exes here! it's just a bunch of homorerotic subtext that I never do shit with!!!!

OH MY GOD. HE IS WEARING COLORED CONTACTS. BUT JUST TO HIDE THE NOVA RINGS. WHAT THE FUUUUUCK DUDE SO MUCH EFFORT WOULDA BEEN AVOIDED IF YOU JUST WORE BROWN CONTACTS NOT YOUR HETEROCHROMATIC ASS

Ah yes the inability to sleep on his own. He still kinda has that trait. But more in the crossover from hell bc he's spent ages sleeping next to Baz and/or Aydan

And we come upon our first dream-sequence-added-for-word-padding folks! 15/83 pages in!!

*ahem* I accidentally fell asleep XD Day 2 shenanigans commence here

I still have no idea how old Heron Gray and Owl are supposed to be here smh

*hissssss* this is not my Basil *throws tomatoes*

But also Catnip <333333

The bones are there. The bones are so there. If they weren't I wouldn't've resurrected this from the dead and into eternal WIP hell. but gotdamn is this so painfully disjointed and cliche and aaaaaaaah

Wait does this make me a WIP necromancer? lmao ............................. GODDAMMIT I DON'T NEED ANOTHER WIP IDEA AAAAAAAAH

*ahem* anyhoot

Jay ya dramatic mothafluffa lol

Also Jay you are no doctor and those symptoms are vague enough that it might not mean shit about her nova (it does, but I'm still gonna rag on him bc it's so nonspecific lol)

Anyways bb snuggle times!!! :D

Aydan: is very blatantly told not to bring anything with her, and very clearly does not bring anything with her Also Aydan: has a book she brought with her in this scene. bc why not

Oh I thought we never went into the backstory trauma explicitly! Guess I fuckin forgot!!!! Never mind it's like bare ass bones detail lmao

God I can't believe I posted this on Figment Once again, rip Figment and also it's probably for the best since I'm a gotdamn digital packrat

Ah yes, hello Molly. I only semi-recently-ish added you back into Nova Also lmao Jay you are being so gotdamn unsubtle right now :P

Okay this is more like the Basil I know and love :D Sassing Jay and kicking his ass when he's sick <3

Awwww gay bbs <3

JAAAAAAAAY <33333333333333 I know I've been sassing this version of him hard but THAT'S MY BB RIGHT THERE

lol oh Basil jealousy never looks good on you XD (It's not even jealousy it's just. sir you've been introduced to her. Jay's probably waxing poetic in his free time. you should know her gotdamn name)

lmao still so true Jay really doesn't like making people worry about him

DREAM SEQUENCE TWO BAYBE actually this one might not've been to pad the word count, I think it was a strategically placed flashback due to Jay being sick as fuck right now

Yup, strategically placed (aka the following chapter actually acknowledges the gotdamn dream sequence)

Damn, low blow there Jay lmao

heh. heheheh. there's absolutely nothing you can imply about me from this scene. absolutely nothing regarding my love of sick-fics lmao

BASIL KICKING DOWN THE DOOR WITH THE FLIRTING LMAOOO but also yeah baz stop acting like Jay sheesh this is too damn weird lol

lolllllll Heron and Owl being gayyyyyyyyy

also lmao @ me writing fucking fight scenes :P

Basil you absolute shithead lmao

Damn Will being gotdamn sassy as shit

Ah yes, the part of Will's characterization that I eventually cut bc I was not.......... it's a sensitive topic and I did not handle it the way that i shoulda. So ultimately it got cut and it may have been slightly before this but this was def in the transition stage of me going "actually, I think I should not give Will this characterization in part bc i've been fucking it up bad" but he still had some parts of it Had to get mildly called out by somebody in a writing workshop to really start having that realization, but eh, you live n you learn and you do better the next time you create a character like that, because 15-ish-year-olds are notoriously stupid even if they think they're doing good research

Anyways moving on from that tangent

Time to silently scream about Jay's tissue paper thin motivations again!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

lol i'm not sure if this was to pad the word count or not, but we're having a Heron-Gray-Owl intermission now!

Was Gray a Nova at this point? Or did I add that later? I def didn't have the specialties at this point so her clockwork shenanigans are just calling back to the book series I stole her from, but is she a Nova?????

LMAO Heron's upset about a book character dying whatta fuckin MOOD

lmao I'm laughing so hard that my cat just looked over at me and meowed so indignantly. sorry bb I must die over the fact I gave Heron my high-school overdramaticness about character deaths

dawwwww and now a Sora-Seanna-Cal intermission ft the best momma Cassandra!

Lol Summer you are waaaaaaaaay too late for the protective older sister/cousin talk you're trying to do here

Damn Summer really just always goes for the throat when arguing with Aydan gotdamn

lmao "I'm almost sixteen!" bb you're still just a bb <3

Will: *walks in, sees argument, immediately tries to nope outta this shit*

But hey, now we get snuggle time!!

Yeah I don't know why Jay was supposed to be a secret Nova. It's something that held on from the 0.5 draft, but even that I'm like....... why???? 0.5 draft was a fucking wild ass ride that is basically only 5 scenes long on paper and mostly lives on in my fuckin brain lol

Lmao snuggle time getting interrupted by Aydan somehow recognizing Jay's scars despite not ever actually knowing him before his nova

Lol despite it all, and despite me describing him as 2 steps from emo several times, Will's favorite color is in fact, still dark/navy blue, not black XD This is why his mask color in the Band AU is dark blue (+grey cuz of his eyes)

TISSUE! PAPER! MOTIVATIONS! FUCK YOU!!!

"I miss my parents" lol keep thinking that kid your mom gets so much worse in the rewrite <3

Okay back to the snuggles lol

And another dream sequence, this one definitely just for padding out that word count!!

pffft the "are we dating" convo got swapped over to Baz and Jay bc with Baz Jay is so fuckin clueless but by the time he n Ay are serious he actually knows fuckin words (bc words are very important when you're trying to do poly shit lol)

(side note my entire life is covered in glitter rn cuz i'm adding edible glitter to my wine :DDDDDDD)

Okay Jay that's goin straight to 1000% right there gotdamn my dude

Again, Summer, you are way too late to this party to be playing the overprotective card

And again she's going for the gotdamn throat jesus fuck Summer have a bit of chill huh?

Why the fuck is Will on Aydan's side in this??? I don't understand......

Baz seriously stop stealing Jay's personality I don't fluffin like it (tbh I think it was just a bit of the writer's version of same-face-syndrome where I only really knew how to write one sort of character. Maybe)

Ah yes the at-the-time reasonless "I want Jay to go nova first so dramatic powers explosion" scene (current reasoning for Jay going nova first despite Baz being older/a Nova for longer is that he uses too much magic closing the time rift at Almaraz) (sometimes it takes close to a decade to fix a plot hole lmao)

oh Baz <3333

Jay going nova in a safe environment cuz he knows he doesn't have much time left? *yawn* boring Jay sacrificing himself for Baz and Aydan cuz he knows he doesn't have much time left, then using his nova to hopefully hurt his mother/the government? motha fluffin *chef's kiss* right there (Especially with the added trauma to Baz of being the one to cause Jay's nova lol)

Group hug poly shenanigans! :DDDD

Oh I coulda made that hit so much harder if I had any sorta fuckin restraint and knew about/properly appreciated the trope of "one person says ily first and the other can't say it back but feels it so much" (I may have actually first encountered that in an OTGW/GF fic.......... lmao. The Mystery Best Friends is a great series. Go read it if anything about this ramble interests you. It's on AO3. I've seen 1 ep of GF and none of OTGW and I still love it with such a gotdamn passion)

Anyhoot lmao can you tell I've had a full ass glass of wine yet? :P My blood is turning to glitter as we speak <3

Oh my god I can't believe this is the first time Bay is getting some gotdamn real ass mention. he's gonna get his asshole characterization real fuckin soon tho!!

Oh I don't even describe his nova fuckin laaaaaaaaaaaaaaame (to be fair the only one i think I describe is in the Time Travel "AU" which is....... not the canon timeline in a way of speaking lmao) (TTAU my gotdamn beloved <333333)

This detail has stayed! The fact that Jay's goggles are so gotdamned attuned to him due to the initial nova lmao

WHY IS THAT TECHNICALLY A PART OF THE PREVIOUS PARAGRAPH JESUS FUCK okay context. I write in wall of text style. Still do. It's an awful habit i should break lmao. anyhoot. So I do full on paragraph breaks for scene changes

ya know like this, and lil shift enters like this for things that are like "continuation of the previous but but also i want a paragraph break in here for reasons" And for some fuckass reason I did the lil shift enter between a paragraph focused on Baz and Aydan and Jay's goggles and Jay waking up absofluffinlutely confused by everything and not even with his goggles yet which woulda been a very good mothafluffin transition jesus fuck my wine is too full otherwise i would drain my glass for this

Dream sequence no. I've lost count! 3?? maybe 4????? I can't math even when I'm sober lmao (which is absolutely hilarious bc I'm the best at math in my class. how. how did this happen. (engineering college is the answer tbh) my math major friend is absolutely shooketh that this is happening lol)

lollllll you can tell this was written in................... after my jaw surgery. wait was it after my jaw surgery? it's real fuckin accurate to that feeling of waking up after surgery but also was it really over a decade ago? jesus fuck i'm old (and don't remember how old/what grade i was in in 2014) Anyways mothafluffin accuracy all i wanted was some fuckin water when I was waking up after surgery and all they'd give me was gotdamn ice chips which did barely nothin (that surgery is also what gave me the knowledge that fruit punch gatorade is tasty af) (and baby food is very........ overly fruity)

Also a fuckin mood about trying to wake up and being hella unable to

Oh! by that point i'd definitely gotten my wisdom teeth out! which was probably at least part of the basis for this scene if I hadn't had the jaw surgery yet

Ah yes, back in ye olde days when Jay had fucked up eyesight (which magically got fixed after his nova bc let's be real, i kept forgetting to write that and Aydan's asthma)

Hey Bay! First time seeing you, 32 pages in! And you're immediately asserting yourself as an asshole!!!!!!

Good fucking LORD I basically swapped Jay and Basil's personalities didn't I????? Well, to be fair, maybe not really. I just... hol up lemme give you the line for context cuz I'm lazy lmao

“I never would have thought you would go nova before Basil,” Bay said, entering the room properly. “He always used his power a bit frivolously, while you… You never used your powers unless you had to, did you?”

so, in current Nova canon: 1. Baz in no way uses his power frivolously, although to Bay (who is very "no powers ever") it probably is 2. Jay is worse than Baz about using his powers. He doesn't like people healing him, but he won't fuckin hesitate to use his powers and shorten his own lifespan to protect/heal/save the people he loves 3. Bay is an asshole to Jay bc he thinks he's a liability and gonna drive Basil off the deep end into life-ending shenanigans (not entirely wrong, to be fair) 4. Basil is still probably more conservative in power usage than Jay, but that's more cuz he thinks more and can figure out ways of solving situations with minimal/no power usage, as opposed to Jay who basically goes nuclear if he has no other plan/guidance lmao

anyhoot tangent done lmao

Bay is being friendly to Jay and I am so weirded out this is worse than Baz acting like Jay

Yeah it's definitely better when Baz has the whole smackdown of his dad for running away, when his dad has been pushing him to fight his whole life vs Jay who's just a "friend" of Baz in this version I do appreciate Jay giving Bay the gotdamn snark for ditching Baz lol

Oh this is some bullshit lmao

Reunion time! <3333333

God my romance writing was Not Great back then lmao I think this was also before I ever dated somebody.................. yeah checks out (I may have had Cyrus flirting at me nonstop by this point tho) No wait I definitely did cuz Seanna is named after him! oh jeez

BRB just need to stare at the wall for a few moments contemplating what choices led to me deciding that Aydan needed this traumatic backstory (I would also say what choices led to me deciding a near sex-scene was necessary at this particular time, but let's be real I was a Cassandra Clare bitch so the reason behind the near sex-scene is the least confusing part of this)

Molly and Oliver intermission!!! Oliver is forever just a lil sweetheart <3333333

"A few weeks" YOU MEAN TO TELL ME JAY SNAGGED ANOTHER NOVA, WENT NOVA, GUILT TRIPPED BAY INTO COMING BACK, AND NEARLY BONKED AYDAN ON SCREEN WITHIN THE SPAN OF A FEW GOTDAMN WEEKS??????? BITCH TRY A FEW GOTDAMN MONTHS, MAYBE OVER HALF A GOTDAMN YEAR WHAT THE GOTDAMN FUCK?????? (not even mentioning the sick-fic arc and everything else that happened between that and Jay's explodey accident/subsequent nova)

"Jay only cares about Basil and Aydan" yeah basically lmao

Oh yeah. Definitely while Will still had the characterization I did badly. Cuz he's not in this dream sequence when he should be for plot reasons I really don't feel like explaining bc we'd be here for way too fuckin long

James the chocolate fiend has stayed! I've kept that much consistent!

(also if the typos get worse from here on out i apologize but damn my fingers are not wanting to hit the right keys and at some point i'll get too lazy to keep correcting my mistakes. the lack of capitalization should be a tipoff lmao)

This is totally not the point but the story mentions that James is the oldest son which. Is true in some universes. Not in current Nova and not in Band AU, which is where the tangent is coming from, but. that fuckin line just reminded me of the HPM AU of Band AU, where Will was the third oldest, and yet he became the oldest child and it fuckin sucks. The middle child who was never meant to be the oldest, even when his oldest brother died bc he still had his slightly older triplet brother, who then also died and absofuckinlutely ruined Will bc he was never meant to be the oldest.

Half Past Midnight is an AU that makes me cry onthe regular when I think about it!

Moving on!!

Jay you're a fucking shithead lmaooo

Oh dear. I just realized we're not even halfway through yet D: (to be fair this is 53000 words. and some of them may be notes for the rewrite/an attempt at it. but still. DDDDD:)

Ah Jay, being overly concerned with Aydan's health <3 (and overly concerned with his for the circumstances *stare*)

oh bb Oliver <3333333

Lol Molly's crush on Jay is kinda still a thing at least. or at the very least her ignoring the fuck outta Oliver following her around like a smitten puppy lol

"I'll make sure he takes care of you" I'm sorry do you actually get the opportunity to talk to Baz or are you fuckin bullshittin my dear Jay????

It is honestly so fascinating to see some of the character choices that I made. Like Boss is an active participant and not just the guy moving all the chess pieces around from his office. huh

Anyways back to the fuckin Frozen internal soundtrack lol which is funny cuz this wip definitely wasn't written to the Frozen soundtrack, unlike gotdamn CoFaS (that's a lie, when I was rewriting Nova in 2019 it was partially to the Frozen 2 soundtrack, but this is 2014 goddammit, the sequel is still 5 ish years off!!!!!!)

god this fight scene is bad *cringe*

OH THIS IS WHERE HERON DIED OMG Oh that is blatantly a quote from the series I stole them from oop

yup my love for whump definitely isn't shining through here *sarcasm*

oh poor Owl DDDD:

oh everybody is having a rough ass time rn

Ah I fuckin shared this scene with the writing club me and my selo started. aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah

oh that's a reference to a figment exclusive story that never got published oop lmao

OH HI HAYDEN ENJOY LIVING IN THIS DRAFT :DDDDDD

god everything was so black and white when i was a kid huh

"I don't think I'm qualified to tell you" says one of the most qualified mothafluffas on the planet lol

Yeah there is absolutely no logic for me bringing Hayden and Remus back, but ya know what? Let Kai be happy in this version at least. He gets that much still

Yeah my romance still sucks at this point in the story lol

LMAO everybody is chirping Kai for making out with Hayden first thing

feckin ;) KAI JESUS FUCK

Jay: I was trying to protect your innocence (re walking in on Kay and Hayden makin out) Aydan: what innocence?

Yup, my romance is trash lmao

Lol Jay is still a clingy ass shit <3

Goooooooooooooooooood Jay and Basil are so gay for each other in this draft they fuckin need to kiss about it already

Why is Will included? for the fuckin drama I guess lol

Oh yeah for the fuckin drama. Will's trying to dig into Jay's identity lmao

Which Jay is not helping by fucking suggesting he and Will pretend to be siblings lmaooooo

god the gotdamn age gap shenanigans smh (not as bad as CoFaS but I still made a fucking Point outta it here)

Ah yes the gotdamn mid-scene POV shifts smh

Oh I finally have an age for Gray, she's around Aydan's age here (so 15/16 ish)

BB LILY <33333333333

Ah yes, and back in the days where HP was still popular bc the author hadn't revealed herself as a piece of shit yet

BUT NEVER MIND THAT BB LILY IS BB <333333333333333

God Jay isn't supposed to be this much of a rules boi aaaaaaaaaaah

awwwww fuckin Lily and Aydan is the cutest gotdamn thing ever <3333333

[Will] followed Jay and Aydan regardless, not because he wanted to mind you, but because he had no other freaking choice.

lol fuckin classic Will XD

......... I FELL ASLEEP AGAIN GODDAMMIT I WILL FINISH THIS TONIGHT I SWEAR WE'RE LIKE 2/3 DONE I THINK

Ah Jay, why the fuck must this be your shitty person arc?

Don't mind me if you need me I'll be over here smacking this version of Jay with a newspaper for being so gotdamn shitty Like, ma dude! This is absolutely not how you're supposed to be acting! Stop being a dipshit!!

BB LILY <33333333

Lol perfectly reasonable reaction to getting attacked: "I'm gonna fuckin kill Jay the next time I see him" (To be fair, it is bc Jay's been a shithead that Aydan's even in this position in the first place. but still. Funny train of thought there babe lol)

Summer now is not the time for your gotdamn agenda lol

Okay at least now Jay's apologizing for being a shithead lol

Fuckin romance ugh lol

staaaaaaaaaaaaaaare I think the Seanna-Sora-Cal intermission ft Cassandra might've been added later. and by later i mean around when I was writing this scene. So not quite padding the word count last minute but definitely not preplanned lol Which would also make the Heron-Gray-Owl intermission also not preplanned, but added bc eh why not since I'm having a Seanna-Sora-Cal intermission

Heckin nerds

God why did I feel the need to bring up the fuckin age gap again????

"Your morals do not exist" lmao

also way too much shit has happened for it to only have been a year what the gotdamn fuck

Catnip!!! Catnip and Lily!!!!! Absolute chaos besties!!!!!!!!!!

I should add Lily back into Nova. Somehow. She's too adorable to cut completely lol

Oh hi Molly from (quite literally) left field!!!

Oh Oliver <33333333

Everything about this is outta fuckin nowhere lmao I think there was like 1.5 scenes of setup about 20 pages back and that was it lol

but anyways, poor bb Oliver <3

Lol that's the Jay I know and love (doesn't want Aydan healing him (even tho by this point he knows it ain't a death sentence))

oh bb Oliver <333333

DREAM SEQUENCE NO. I'VE MOST DEFINITELY LOST COUNT BY THIS POINT!!!!

Oh shit we're already at the reveal. I thought there was another scene of Will and Jay having a conversation but now that I think about it I think that was earlier when I was hella tipsy last night XD

Oh Will, this is such a conversation

"I was trying to protect you" Jay that was a shitty way of doing it and you fuckin know it!!!!! gotdamn tissue paper motivation bitch!!!!

damn practically back to back dream sequences :P

How the fuck are we practically at the end????? Like i know the last couple pages are dedicated to my first attempt at rewriting this but we're only at page 57/83????????? (to be fair the ending is long I'm just. shooketh lmao)

god now more than ever you can really tell I had no idea what the fuck I was doing re: climax of an urban fantasy story. This is like attempting to do the whole climatic end of LOTR battle but in urban fantasy and it just. does not fuckin work that way

Anyways lmao Will now is not the time to make Jay face his past

There had always been too much insomnia in this house.

I like this line.

Lexi!!! my darling <3

Oh this is so gotdamn awkward lmao

MID SCENE POV SHIFT ALARM

“Stay safe,” [his mother] whispered in his ear. “I will Mom,” Jay promised, lying through his teeth. “I promise.”

STILL A GOTDAMN MOOD

Lmao great pep talk Boss XD

OH I REMEMBER WHAT SCENE IS COMING UP ITS BAD LMAO

but hey, this is the basis for "mind controlled government Novas" that I have in the current draft lol

Y'ALL NOW IS NOT THE FUCKIN TIME TO BE MAKING OUT LMAO the Cassandra Clare influence is really showing here smh

oh bbs <3

KAI AND HAYDEN :DDDDDD

Oh we're checking in with everybody lol got some Gray and Owl battle shenanigans happening <3

Oh Seanna and Cal are such bbs lol <333333

OH RIGHT I FORGOT SORA FUCKS SHIT UP IN A GOOD WAY LOL

And here we have the bad scene So for context, last year I lol'd and cringed at the fact that none of my uwu blorbos actually ever killed people. Only unconsciousness for my uwu precious beans! And that aspect of my writing apparently did not change much between 2013 and 2014. We've had mentions of characters knocking out their opponents earlier (such as the Gray and Owl battle shenanigans just a few moments ago), but none like, explicit deaths Until now. Cuz Jay has a gun :DDDDDDDD

Jk he's being super duper fuckin angsty about using it and it's like ma dude! This should not be where the line is drawn! It should not! You either draw it way back before using your magic to potentially fatally wound people (but it's okay bc they won't die in front of him!) or you be okay with using that gun the same way you use your magic and draw your line..... somewhere else idk lol

The lines between magic pew pews and guns is very thin and covered in jellyfish (no i will not apologize for my brain forever being altered by WTNV lol)

Aydan you're very calm in this situation considering Jay literally just got knocked out in front of you lmao

SORA BB <3333333333

Oh poor Cal and Seanna. More Cal bc he's bb and also may or may not have had a crush on Sora. Idk. It just seems the type of thing my romance-obssessed-mildly-trashy-YA-novel-reading ass woulda done lol

Oh Jay you absolute dumbass lmao he just woke up from unconsciousness and his dumb ass is going back out to fight bc he's a DUMBASS

Wow you're all shook up by shooting a random unnamed dude but when it comes to Molly it's all "gotta take care of her before she hurts us" goddamn Jay okay

POOR SEANNA AND CAL DDDDDDDDDDDD:

Oh this is so stupidly cheesy :P

OLIVER <3333333

Fuckin midscene POV shift again AAAAAH

At least Oliver get his happy ending lol

oh poor Owl and Gray :(((( You're right Heron deserved better

Now the important question bc I don't remember and we didn't immediately check in on them: Did I kill off Hayden, Kai, or Remus? Or did i let them have their happy ending for once dammit? We'll hopefully find out soon enough! And if not, I'll count it as a win for them lol

Eepy bbs <3

ehehehe sick fic Jay time again :DDDDDD

Lol i love the implication that Aydan is the reason Jay stopped sleeping with a knife under his pillow. If anything Aydan is the reason there are so many knives under the pillows now XD

You know, I thought there was some aside about Baz going nova long before this, but maybe I missed it in the tipsy drunk haze

Lol grumpy ol' Will <3

lollllll so this was from the original 3rd gen story that has now been scrapped to high hell (mostly due to the Will characterization things mentioned previously)

Oh I had forgotten about that! The fact that it was canon that Liam kinda forced James into coming out to their families!!! That got scrapped so long ago omg Liam: still a pushy dork. but not the kind that pushes his cousin into coming out in front of y'alls entire extended families when he still hasn't admitted it to you/the friend group yet

LMAO WILL SASSING JAY FOR HIS PREVIOUS CHOICES IN PARTNERS

Also fun fact, I think this was the first story I wrote with bi James. Before now he was just straight up gay lol. And now he has joined my crew of bi boys with heterochromatic eyes (him, Alec, and Jake, off the top of my head) (oh and Nymar. I forgot about the non OG characters for a minute XD)

Poor stressy Jay lol Something something zombie conversation lol

FUCKIN MID SCENE POV SHIFT AGAIN AAAAAAH

Oh god they're all so baby here what the fuck. Aydan is like. 17. aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

Lolllll oh Baz <3

Lol oh the petty high school drama XD

I regret the fact that my glass is so full bc I am very tempted to drain it considering how much cringe I know is coming up bc I'm bad at endings and it's so dragged the fuck out

Okay despite the cringe, I do still love the color of Sora's eyes here (insert do you love the color of the sky here) (omg that just gave me an idea for another character) (nooooooo) (before anybody says anything yes I've had that idea for hair before) (mothafluffin magical hair dye yo) (I don't remember what blog I posted that one on tho) (maybe my main)

TIME SKIPS GALORE HOLY FUCKIN SHIT

It's so fuckin weird seeing Basil so committed to his dad. Like no Bay is a piece of shit and you end up cutting ties with him bc of how shit he is (Basil and his parents are a fun tangent I may go on one day. bc oh lord. Jay gets smacked by both of them for very different reasons lol)

Anyways Lily! is back!! and as adorable as ever even though she's older now!

Side note why the fuck is my cat so zoomy?! lmao

BBS <33333333

*incomprehensible babbling* how the fuck did Lily not notice ever that Aydan was pregnant ffs??????

Anyways bb Alec is bb and I love him <33333333

"Uncle Basil" lmao no that man is your dad nowadays Alec XD

Oh I forgot Katie was a very quiet child. Checks out still considering she takes more after her dad aka the silent watchful type as opposed to her hurricane papa and wildfire mother

Nova trio is such a fun dynamic especially when they become parents <33333333

Lol Alec has his momma's last name nowadays. Makes it easier since no way in hell Jay is using his birth last name, he doesn't have much attachment to Miles, and Baz has about the same levels of attachment to his own

Lol Alec definitely still takes after his papa though XD gotdamn disaster of a child

Hello Ryder! You are Gray's kid nowadays but this was when you were Oliver and Molly's! And I specifically changed their hair/eye colors to make yours genetically possible!

Also fun fact I asked Cyrus whether I should have 2 or 3 kids in this scene and I don't remember what he said but I remember deciding 2.5 kids was the right way to go XD Pity I didn't go 3, then maybe the two youngest coulda had their names figured out a decade ago

(It's just 2 in Nova canon now. 4 in Band AU. And I think those are the only places the kids/4th gen show up nowadays) (other than random AUs lol)

78/83 and we're done with draft 1. Oh lord would i like to finish my glass but alas it is still too full lol

To be fair, I still don't think I can do endings for shit. I haven't ended a project lately enough to know for sure (the only one is Stars. And that one is the only one I know is good lol)

Bc they're funny, here's my notes for the rewrite (written around...... 2017-18 ish?)

You know what. YOU KNOW WHAT. I just reread this. And goddammit there are so many things that I could do to make this better. So idk if I’m gonna do this for nanowrimo this year or continue with the astral chronicles but in case I ever get around to redoing it here are the ideas I have (so I don’t forget lol)

Make Jay and Basil hella more gay. Like HELLA. Maybe even have them date and shit for a while idk

Also amnesiac Jay is a glorious idea XD

More time between James’s death and Jay finding Aydan

Jay taking way more time to gain Aydan’s trust like omg he actually has a normal teenager life and he falls in love with Aydan so when she goes nova he’s like “I’ll fucking protect you with my life dammit”

Oh my god if Jay could sense where Novas were then he would basically track them down and bring them back to Base

Summer and Will only come to Base after they investigate Aydan’s “death” too much

There’s not as much betrayal by Jay because “why didn’t you tell me??” “I had no fucking idea?!?!”

Jay’s sickness is way more prominent like oh man trauma lol

Maybe some poly relationship between Jay Basil and Aydan because Jay loves them both and they’re both like “welp the other person isn’t bad and we love you too so okie”

Oh man make the enemy something more than just a faceless mass lol

Patch notes as of 2024:

Jay and Basil are indeed, hella more gay XD

Amnesiac Jay is in fact, the best fuckin idea i've had for this project

I did add in that more time. It does the job lol

Jay's just oblivious so he falls in love with Aydan without realizing she's a Nova XD

He can sense Novas! It's just very itchy bc I can't let this boy have one good thing other than his relationships XD

Summer and Will and Percy! Sora's got a brother now!

No betrayal at all. Just sadness and resignation and "Why didn't you tell me?" "I only just remembered. Barely."

Jay's sickness has turned into him losing his grip on his place in the fabric of time :DDDDD

HELL YEAH POLY NOVA TRIOOOOOOO

Enemy is now the government. And also Jay's mother XD

Jay picked up smoking from somewhere lol

Novas now have specializations! Jay's is time manipulation, Baz's is sniper shit, Aydan is fire babe :D, Bay is water manip, so on so forth

Alex got added, they're a Nova healer :D

Gray is now for sure a Nova

Heron-Gray-Owl got aged the fuck up

Sora had a name change and also is no longer a part of the org from the beginning

Almaraz was named and subsequently turned from a nuclear power plant into time travel experimentation facility

Jay is more dramatic

Basil is more subdued

Aydan is more nosy

Birds of Prey got added (and Nat's heart got broken by Falcon :3)

Hayden and Remus got deaded for goods :(

That's all I got off the top of my head lol

I'm gonna reread the last 4 pages of rewrite then call it lol

Lollll immediatetly starting out with sick fic Jay, I can't really blame myself tho

Ah yes, back when Boss still knew who Jay was but nobody else did

Heh, asshole Lai is back :D

Lol I was wondering about that. Yeah I basically have two attempts at a start here bc it was very aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah

Lol Baz is immediately so fuckin gay for Jay <3

Ah yes, the bones of current day Nova are so much clearer here lol

And that's it! 3 days, 53k words, and 2 bottles of wine later, we've finally finished the end of the Nova reread. And good fuckin lord lmao. I'm a gotdamned WIP necromancer lol

Goodnight, don't die, don't get kidnapped, hopefully I'll actually get some more Wrapped prompts done soonish. If not, see y'all in February cuz ain't no way I'm missing my baby (FebruarOC lol)

TTFN!