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I’ve always thought about this show as taking the road less traveled. What happened with Langdon is…not that.
Full disclaimer, I am biased. I saw a character I knew I was going to love and proceeded to write over 15k words about him in the span of less than ten days. So don’t come at me for that.
I feel this has been done before and the thing I like about the pitt is that they show a lot of things that haven’t been been widely addressed by medical dramas, or that haven’t been addressed particularly well.
But an impaired physician? It’s been done to death. You know what hasn’t? A disabled physician with chronic pain who takes prescription medication to function and does not become an addict, who throws himself back into doing what he loves because he can’t imagine doing anything else and continues working in a physically demanding specialization, with all hurdles and challenges that come with it.
#the pitt#the pitt spoilers#the pitt 1x10#frank langdon#the pitt hbo#guess I’ll have to write it myself#see y’all on ao3#don’t even get me started about santos#she was right and now what? will she start consulting collins or will somebody die because of her arrogance?#really hoping the show won’t abandon that can of worms
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Still so iconic of Matt fraction to start his run like anyways off screen Clint and Kate who have met a few times before this run have become besties and are fundamentally now intertwined characters. Like and that’s just canon now. I think more comic writers should be willing to kinda just decide a new status quo like that especially with characters that have been under utilized
#and now it’s part of their characters that would seem really weird if changed#like they were on okay terms Clint and Kate were like we can both be Hawkeye that’s cool#but like that was it really unless I’ve misremembered#idk it’s just something I think about alot and like#that’s the fun of comics sometimes a run comes out of nowhere with new stuff that comes to define a character#it’s cool to see the medium like change and move and like be alive#having characters that get passed around to different writers over like decades and like almost a hundred year is so cool#and something you don’t see really that much out side of comics#like old folklore story cycles yes but like modern stuff#though with the obsessions with reboots that is changing but it’s still different#I’m just obsessed with that sort of shared cultural story telling I guess it#sound be surprising in retrospect I was obsessrd with comic books folklore mythology and fairytales as a kid#bc in a way they are the same#that’s all#maybe when I’m not taking a break getting distracted from writing a paper I’ll come back to these thoughts#and put them together in a more coherent way or expand on it more#but who knows man I feel like that doesn’t really happen but also I e been in law school hell for 3 years maybe things will change once#I graduate#anyways gotta go write#Hawkeye#hawkeye squared#kate bishop#clint barton#marvel#sometimes I feel bad about tagging my like stream of consciousness thoughts but also I want my blog to be functional for me to be able to#find stuff and like I tell myself people can scroll past it or use the block button fi I annoy them
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Pillow talk
TW: implied sex.
“You’re feeling alright? Not too sore?” Chuuya asked as he held his husband, one hand trancing alone his spine, the other threading through his hair.
“A little,” Dazai admitted, nuzzling into the ginger’s neck. “But I’m fine.”
A fond smile comes to Chuuya face at the show of affection, and he lets a hum.
A comfortable silence falls over the two, and if they weren’t both akin to the others stared at all time, they would have assumed the other asleep.
“I wish we could stay here forever,” Dazai whisper softly against the smaller man’s skin.
“Yeah?” Chuuya can’t but find his husband adorable.
“Yeah, I just feel so… happy, like this,” he quietly admits, tightening his hold around Chuuya’s waist, if only slightly.
The ginger’s throat feels suddenly tight, so he presses a kiss to Dazai’s head in reply.
They fall back into silence again, the brunette’s head tucked under Chuuya’s chin.
“I love you,” Chuuya murmurs.
“I love you too.”
#implied smut#dazai#osamu#osamu dazai#dazai osamu#chuuya#chuuya nakahara#nakahara chuuya#skk#soukoku#established skk#established soukoku#married skk#Married soukoku#I’m not really a big fan of this one#It’s been one of those weeks where#I haven’t felt like writing#I don’t know why#it’s a pretty bad week for it to happen#Since I have the end of the skk mixtape#Coming up#and I’m not done#So I’ve been forcing myself to write it#But it’s not very good I don’t think#I’ve just been down on myself I guess#I feel like I’m getting worse at drawing#And I’m not all that good at guitar#I know I just started#Sigh#maybe I’ll feel better after dnd
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Listen, I am not a picky shipper, but it’s so wild to me that Nora gave us service top Jeremy on a silver platter, and I feel like barely any fics make use of that 🥹
#the foxhole court#all for the game#jerejean#I guess I’ll just have to write it myself 😤#the sunshine court#but also#if anyone has recs would you wanna share 👀
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I wonder how different the ending of the dlc would be if Miquella hadn’t abandoned his love, if he hadn’t abandoned Trina. Would we still be able to reason with him? Appeal to his better nature? Just imagining being able to bring Trina in with us as a way to defuse the situation, being able to not fight and just talk, makes me feel insane.
What if we could show Miquella just how much of a monster he had become, that all this isn’t right, by bringing Trina back to him. How can you bring an age of compassion without your love, Miquella?
God I am mourning the story we could’ve had for this dlc.
#I’m not justifying miquella’s actions but I hate what they did to him with a passion#there’s so much potential to make the story we got so much better#guess I’ll just have to write it for myself and live in delusion#elden ring#shadow of the erdtree#shadow of the erdtree spoilers#sote spoilers#miquella#st trina#just my ramblings
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it feels so…… weird… seeing a cishet dude be so chill with queer themes lmao your soda-in-drag moment, the stevepop of it all, even guys with queers in their friend circles can’t bring themselves to partake sometimes lmao 😭 but it’s cool !! refreshing even sjksksndks this is a /pos statement I promise
Thanks lol! I think it’s cos I’m fairly secure. Sorta. (I’m still prone to compensating for things and being a stupid teen boy, but like, I’m aware of it, at least when I stop to think. Yk I’ll still join in on dick measuring contests, but deep down I’ll know it’s dumb and performative.)
I guess I feel a kinship to queerness. I go to art school where I’m sometimes the only guy in a class of girls, and I’ve been the token straight guy in every friend group I’ve been in since freshman year of high school. Beyond that, growing up I was frequently mistook for a girl- I had long-ish hair (post bowl-cut era 😭) and I’m part Asian, I was pretty androgynous lol. People irl have thought I’m gay, or a trans man on testosterone (I mean fine, I guess I am pretty short and hang with a lot of trans guys.) Hell, I did drag on a dare once, back when I was even more secure. (And I was hot asf in drag lemme tell ya. It felt lousy and it’s definitely not my thing, but man if I had a clone who was a girl-) All this to say, I say I’m straight, but honestly I don’t really know. I like girls a lot, but I have seen a buddy of mine in drag, and lemme tell ya I felt something but I’m not gonna examine that rn lol. Straight just feels comfortable, safe, and it’s good for interacting with folks who ain’t so progressive, so it’s what I’m sticking with…but I’ll admit there’s a gray area.
I relate a lot to the guys in the Outsiders, and irl I like to present myself as a tough, cool, Very Masculine guy. Hell, sometimes I play dumb about stuff because it’s “feminine” and a guy like me shouldn’t know about it. I act a lot like how I write Steve Randle, he’s my guy I like to project on lol. Honestly, I’ve got a fair amount of internalized toxic masculinity. But I think because I know how silly it all is deep down, I can interact with queer themes in art without feeling like I’m not “man enough”. Idk, I suppose it’s an outlet in some ways. Who knows maybe in 2027 I’ll come out as bi or something, but don’t wait up.
idk, I guess what I’m trying to say is that I like exploring queer themes, not because they’re queer necessarily, but because they’re human and I relate to them. And that’s hard not to partake in, y’know?
#rambling#ask#personal stuff#idk if all that’s like…ok for me to say and all but like…it’s just how I see the world at this point yk?#idk if you’ve seen derry girls but the character james maguire is me fr lol#(well i think I’m tougher than him but yk. he’s a guy who’s only friends are girls/queer people)#I worry sometimes about representing things poorly…#but like ig it’s not about representation to me. It’s not about anything. It’s just…expression i reckon#lord I dunno if I’m explaining this very well#For the record I find it interesting that I’m so chill too. There’s definitely a part of my brain that’s confused about that#like- I can’t wear a pink shirt cos that’s girly but I CAN try on heels because I’m bored???#I won’t pierce my ears even tho I wanna cos that’s “feminine” but I’ll write a 40k word fanfic about stevepop?? where’s the consistency??#I have to be the strongest in the room or I get pissy…but I want a girl to hold me?? that doesn’t make sense!#why am I a walking contradiction??#For all I’ve tried to explain it here at the end of the day idk why I am the way I am#I just…am. I wish it made sense but it doesn’t and I guess I gotta live with that lol.#talking about myself#srry ik this is long#ig it’s something I’ve avoided thinking abt much but now that you bring it up I’m…thinking. A lot.#(that’s a /pos thing I like thinking) (usually)
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Why are all the shaunamari fics on ao3 just hardcore smut one-shots 😔
Like yes I get they are a rarepair (and kinda a crackship) but come on no one has written any kind of haters to lovers slowburn fics for them? Does no one see their potential the way I do?
#I guess I’ll just have to do it myself ig#no one else is going to read it but I have to push the shaunamari agenda somehow#so many yellowjackets fic ideas and so little motivation to write any of them#yellowjackets#shauna yellowjackets#mari yellowjackets#marishauna#shaunamari#mari x shauna
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On one hand, I love dsmp lore. On the other hand, I am so deeply sad about how tragic c!rivals duo are… god why are all of c!Dream’s relationships so broken…
#quick! to the fanfiction to make everything better#and suddenly I remember why I’m writing a wanted trio fic lol….#to be fair it probably doesn’t help that most of my friend have moved away recently :/….#guess I’ll go cry now… thanks a lot anons I blame you :’(#c!dream#dreblr#c!rivals duo#I solved a plot hole and have made myself sad 🤦♀️ oof
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i’m sorry what do you mean there are no ellis/mel fics?
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putting the goal out into the universe that i get at least the masterlist for the series i’m working on up before the year ends (i need the good vibes i have horrible executive dysfunction)
#i dont want to spoil much but. former emos i hope you’re excited hehe#i really hope i can get myself to write more this upcoming year#cause this is a big project and i have been planning it hardcore for a good while now#hoping that once i get myself medicated again i’ll have the motivation sigh#but i guess we shall see#judah.txt
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Do you guys now that thing where people make lwj immortal so he can wait for wwx’s return and it ends up being centuries later, in a modern with magic world?
Ive also read some intergalactic era novels (most about mecha ngl) and I gathered that most of them are set eons after earth…
Lwj immortal waiting for wwx until the intergalactic era
At first he might be trying not to cultivate immortality, he was grieving after all, but he puts a lot of his still long lifespan into studying souls and how to help hurt ones, once he realizes that wwx soul won’t go back to the reincarnation cicle organically all bets are off and he does cultivate to immortality with the goal of finding a way to mend his soul back together
And while he does find a how, it’s slow but he can be patient if it’s for Wei Ying yknow? Except is so slow the world changes and changes and changes and that ok, he can wait but them the world keeps changing and everything is dying and by the way things are going even when wwx is back he may be coming to a wasteland so he goes on to do what he can to fix things and it’s hard because he was never this kind of genius yk? The one who creates stuff but he does have a lot of sway in the world since he existence was never a secret
Man has lived for centuries in a purified burial ground, there are a lot of stationed researchers and cultivators around there who he has interacted with before but now he has to actually work with people to solve the world dying thing but it’s ok bc even if he’s not really good at the politics thing he is almost ascending and needs to put energy somewhere
They end up with a wall-e plan, everyone goes away while a lot of cultivation powered technology helps the planet heal from all the human abuse
Of course the energy comes mostly from lwj who just sinks a lot of power there, he ends up in seclusion alone in a world healing vc he’s afraid wwx soul would show up alone
There more poser them he can passively generate so he was cultivating again, he entered a meditation so deep centuries passed, the humans have stabilized themselves in more them one planet and are out there spreading but they do come back bc earth just has something that is better for cultivators and they end up waking up hgj but wy’s soul is still not whole again… he can’t bear to live for centuries more but he will wait, so he sets up an alarm spell thing and goes into a deep meditation again
It’s past another huge amount of time, there’s all the mecha and virtual reality stuff that happen in those novels, wwx comes back!!! His soul is whole but lwj who set up an alarm made a mistake… instead of waking him up the spell locked his consciousness…
So there is a ghost wwx who sees a clearly stuck lwj and a completely different world and!!! Ofc the answer is my favorite most beloved intergalactic era trope: ve game that heals someone
Yes, I made you read my tabling just to say
Ghost time traveler wwx who turns into a game developer to free sleeping beauty lwj
If you don’t know this trope: usually a mc creates a game (eg farming game) as a way to collect power (eg farming god need faith in farming) and helps others by the way (eg curing a stress induced beastly rage)
In this au ghost wwx creates a game to try to contact lwj consciousness and it works but in the game lwj can’t remember everything and he goes on to remember things slowly and it’s very angst but it’s also ok bc he has the support yk?
Also ofc the game is a cozy game, the yilling patriarch would make some game with stardew valley vibes for sure except it’s also have cool creatures to fight bc I think the eventual date hunting some monsters is just his idea of slice of life yk?
#this is very messy don’t mind me#at first those where like 172728 separeta ideas#but I started to write and my extra wait immortal hgj got stuck with#the wasteland only survivor immortals thing#plus the game developer wwx and them sleeping beauty hgj#and them the vr gaming together wangxian too#all of those could be better done alone tbh I’m just sleepy#wangxian#mdzs#also this one lacks everyone else for maximum angst#I’m so sorry hgj#I guess that thing about the other mxtx gongs having to wait while hgj had to grieve got me yk?#so I gave him hope and made him suffer even longer instead#at first I thought this would go in a mech direction… I let myself down#mech mechanic wwx my beloved#I’ll make another one for him
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Is there a corner of the Ace Attorney fandom with amicably divorced and coparenting Wrightworth? Because as fun as it is to play with the gay lawyer tension I personally struggle to see Edgeworth in particular putting up with Phoenix’s chaotic disaster bi energy long enough for a stable long-term relationship.
But as amicably divorced co-parents and courtroom rivals?? Yes please. Give me that drama. Let Trucy spend weekends with her second dad and let Edgeworth gossip freely about all the reasons it didn’t work out between them. There’s at least like 10k+ Wrightworth fics surely I’m not the only one with this vision.
#ace attorney#narumitsu#Wrightworth#I’m so sorry shippers for the tag I’m not an anti I just have a very specific vision and I’m trying to find my people#If I can’t find it then I guess I’ll have to write it myself huh
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sharing some thoughts about deactivating here because it’s been difficult pondering idk.
#god i really really don’t want to do this. but i have to but i don’t want to but i have to but i don’t want to. and so on. you get the gist#though i guess i am more not wanting to let go of an idea or fantasy rather than reality#like i always wanted to be an active participant in fun oc art fandom writing etc etc communities#but all i really did was make way too many people uncomfortable with my worthless stuff.#like it and me are just not built for interacting with people lmao. especially when it comes to stuff like my characters or uh.#i don’t know you can’t call it art or writing just uh. creations i guess.#and like i knew that before i made this blog but then people started interacting with me and i thought hey maybe this’ll work out maybe i#can be better and then i so wasn’t. and for that i am very sorry.#(and i mean this is not the main reason why i feel like i have to do this but i can’t just go back like nothing happened on here lmao.#i deleted 90% of my shana posts i had/am having a crashout i gotta at least follow through after being so embarrassing#after being even more insufferable than usual haha. and if i stayed there would be even more people who feel obligated to stay around#i feel. and i so don’t want that. so just one more reason why i gotta be brave and just fucking do it.)#also i do realise that there’s the possibility of not deactivating and just logging off and leaving but every time i took a break like that#i always like felt a bit ‘better’/delusional & thought it’d be ok to return. sure that’ll happen again.which is why i have to be so drastic#like even if i made a new blog i know myself well enough to know that i’ll be too embarrassed to reach out to anyone again.#so it would really be a working solution to this problem. i really should just do it.#romeo’s wretched rambles#also a message to everyone telling me that they like shana and that he’s not a shit character to obsess over & more importantly share#with folks: appreciate the sentiment but there’s a lot of his evil you don’t know about.#i was implying some stuff here and there and some people i’ve told more privately but even they are missing like 25% of the shana.#those being the absolute worst parts of him. i am still absolutely obsessed with him but that’s my error to fix and i can’t subject#people to that anymore in good conscience. seeing people say they like him actively feels like i’m pulling a shana myself and deceiving#people with lies of omission sometimes. remember that lol. obviously ik that there r big differences but sometimes it just feels awful stil#so maybe he’s better contained in a separate private blog that i can torch once i get over this rot and just be done with this fucking char#again i don’t mean to say that i don’t appreciate the support but i’m sure many of your guys’ opinions would change If You Knew. you know.#(god. with the lies of omission thing. every day i learn more abt how i subconsciously write things that make me deeply uncomfortable lol)#(and that i fear. like. that wasn’t even intentional when i gave him that trait. i just realised that while typing this pointless mess lmao#anyways. thanks for readin if you made it this far. send me anon hate or something. hit me with an anvil and spit on my corpse if you will#i hope that at least by the end of this week i will have put my brave pants on and decided on what to do. sorry for being so annoying.
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Me, about long, well written, reminiscent-of-Crimson-Rivers-and-Just-Lovers-and-AHB-in-popularity, Rosekiller centric fics:
“It’s not a want, it’s a need”
#whoops guess I’ll just have to write it myself#not actually cuz i’m not a writer 😔#but that mindset is the reason why I started a Rosekiller blog tho#fun facts with Bri#rosekiller#evan rosier#barty crouch jr#slytherin skittles#marauders era#marauders fandom#people’s who otp is jegulus have it so nice sometimes#you guys have no clue how hard it is to find a Rosekiller fic where Rosekiller isn’t the background ship to Jegulus#it’s so sad sometimes ngl
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crash out narrowly avoided, i think. hopefully
#i have been working on this paper outline for THREE DAYS STRAIGHT#and i have a whole other layer to the paper that didn’t even make it into this outline#because i straight up do not have enough time before this deadline to get all of that research and writing done#so it is flat out just not happening when i turn this in#hopefully prof will see the documents i’ve left on my document to remind myself to add stuff in later#so shell at least know i have more planned ESP because i have more secondary sources that i HAVE TO USE#that i haven’t used yet because they’re part of that second layer of research that i haven’t gotten to#like IM GONNA USE THEM I SWEAR PLS DONT THINK I PUT THEM IN THE LAST ASSIGNMENT JUST TO GET A GRADE IM GONNA USE THEM!!!! AAHHH#and i STILL need to do a conclusion but brother i just cannot fucking do it tonight#i’m super busy tuesdays but i’ll have to cram tomorrow and try to make one up even though it’s going to inevitably be a fucking fraction#of what my full conclusion will be like because again I STILL HAVE TO ADD THE OTHER LAYER OF RESEARCH#Academia moments i guess 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭#i am so narrowly avoiding crashing tf out right now my stress levels are fighting for their lives#cherry speaks#EDIT. THE COMMENTS. THE COMMENTS I LEFT ON MY DOCUMENT. CHRIST ALIVE#i’m COOKED my brain is FRIED
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What if Frankenstein was a doomed romance. Like creating someone to love you but realizing any love you artificially create won’t last and is broken because it’s not real. What twisted love you’ve created. What do you do if that creature starts loving you? What do you do when that creature learns how to be someone outside of you? How to be more than what you created? More than your purpose?
Doomed both ways. Frankenstein desperate for love and so so toxic to any growth outside of the box he created. The so called monster growing outside the limits, learning to love more than Frankenstein but not wanting to leave. Every kind of growth there could be, killed.
What if they were lesbians.
#frankenstein#frankenstein’s monster#frankenstein’s creature#writing inspiration#writing ideas#guess I’ll have to do it myself#all this but it all devolves into#what if they were lesbians#Frankenstein but gay#doomed romance#doomed yuri#or#doomed yaoi#doomed relationship
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