#he’d have to hide them from LBH though

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I did the thing. I sketched a little comic based on the moshang brainrot idea of Mobei Jun giving Shang Qinghua a hairpin for courting, but Qinghua takes it as a hairpin of service to the Northern Kingdom.

I changed how I draw Mobei again 🤷🏻‍♀️ and check out that quality background hahahah

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||SQH dies one WIP oneshot 🔥||

1: He doesn’t remember//But the people around him do

He chokes, scarlet red splattering all over his hands and clothes, unable to hear anything beyond the ringing in his ears. His vision blurred in and out of focus, try as he might to shake away the dizzy feeling buzzing around his skull. Distantly, he hears himself laughing slightly, turning his bro, “C—Cooler than the noodles, r—right bro?”

A scowl pierced through his ears, though irritating the pounding in his head, it sounded fearful and full of despair. Strange.

“Is he hallucinating!?” Another panicked voice echoed from above him. Woah…. Above? When had he fallen over?

His vision focused for a moment and a light green filled his vision, though it was tainted by red. Cucumber—bro unfortunately understood what he was talking about.

“Airplane, please— stay awake—!”

Unfortunately, he wasn’t ever that good at listening to instructions, the system did have to punish him a lot after all.

—

“I’m Luo Meihua!” He nervously stuck his hand out to the tall icy figure, his sleeves hopefully covering the scars he gained from getting electrocuted. He really tried not to stare but it was really hard not to, the man’s looked like his protagonist and the icy guy really reminded him of his ideal man. Ah but… he did scrap the backstory of Mobei—Jun which was unfortunate…

The other guy in red seemed shocked to see him, which, was a little odd, but, hey, some people had similar faces..?

The icy blue shirt dude just intensely stared at him. It really made him want to cry and and beg for mercy. Please stop staring sir????

…

…

…

AHHH SCREW IT. He’s leaving!!!

If these two won’t stop staring he is just going to get away, they probably think he’s crazy or ugly or something!

“…You…” The blue man muttered, there was really something in his eye that made his stomach churn. “Study here?”

He shivered a little at that deep voice—definitely didn’t squeak when he replied and he definitely ignored the red man trying—and failing—to hide his snort.

“Uh—! Yes! Sir!” Shang (he really needed to stop roleplaying—) Luo Meihua cringed at the voice cracking

Red guy seemed to hold pity on him and elbowed the icy guy before introducing himself, “I’m Luo Binghe, what a coincidence right?” He smiled, baring his teeth which was very terrifying (he was really just trying to be friendly actually…)(He didn’t hate his Shang—shishu that much)(it’s just that, SQH is the epitome of misunderstanding every signal)

GUH! that’s an awful coincidence… he prayed to whatever there is above the skies that this guy will never EVER ever read his novel, the trashy Proud Immortal Demon Way that technically caused his coma/ temporary death—!

The tension really got to him and he runs away before hearing the icy guy’s name and not noticing the green guy approaching and in turn, resulted into them crashing to each other.

“Shit—! Sorry bro!” He fumbled, trying to pull up the other man with his weak arms and run to his class at the same time. He bowed again.

“Airplane?” The green guy muttered in surprise.

Meihua froze and stuttered out, “Nope! Airplane? There’s no airplane flying here! What airplane? Ah— I mean—!”

Bro flees again, not noticing the mournful look on the green guy’s face

—

“He doesn’t remember.”

“Mn…”

2: he does remember and they all live a happy ever after

Summary: SQH diees and everyone else who’s ageless does not, some ascended, some stayed around to see modern society, Shen Jiu reincarnates and YQY chooses to ascend and reincarnate too, so 79 is happy in modern society

SQQ/LBH and MBJ lived longer than everyone else, MBJ just desperately wanting to see SQH again, but not knowing if he will reincarnate or not, and he’d rather remember his husband than choosing to forget his memory at all

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A few questions for Sawtooth and Channing: What are their favourite things about each other?

And what are things they dislike about each other?

And how do they deal with conflict?

oooh!! Thank you!!

What are their favourite things about each other?

Sawtooth really admires how much Channing looks out for the pack. Like he’d never say it, but Sawtooth knows Channing drives himself near insane trying to be perfect for his pack. He takes his role as their Alpha incredibly seriously (and lbh he’s probably a tad more serious than the avg alpha, y’know?) Yeah, Sawtooth acknowledges that Channing can get incredibly set in his ways and, yeah, he can be an ass about tradition and takes on too much responsibility than he should but it’s all from a truly caring place. As much as Channing is frustrating, Sawtooth can be at least a little assured that it’s for a good, though misguided, reason.

Also, Channing has a really pretty face.

Channing loves Sawtooth’s unabashed stubbornness. It’s not necessarily that Sawtooth doesn’t give in easy (which he doesn’t). It’s more of an insistence on being themself, regardless of whoever or whatever is around them. You can’t intimidate him into hiding away parts of themself. His emotions are plain on his face and they rarely ever try to hide what they’re feeling. Channing sees himself in contrast to that: where Sawtooth is purely themself, Channing is so used to putting in a façade of a cool, undisturbed guy that at times Sawtooth seems to feel for the both of them. (<- i have more to say but this’ll suffice for now)

also sawtooth’s body is lean and toned and they’re always showing it off (not intentionally though, it drives Channing mad at times) <3

And what are things they dislike about each other?

OOH

okay

Sawtooth cannot stand how much Channing appoints himself leader. Yeah, yeah he’s the Alpha and whatever but, by gods, is it grating when Channing just. Decides stuff for the both of them because he can. For example, the first premium outfit in Alpha where Channing picks it out for MC does not fly with Sawtooth. It makes them intentionally act out almost as a matter of principle. I explain this a little better in [this] post

for Channing, im not sure if there’s anything in specific that he dislikes but something that does get to him is Sawtooth’s lack of affection. Channing is a huge romantic —he’s really Prince Charming once he’s dating someone and Sawtooth. Just. Isn’t. Like, Sawtooth does kisses and will hold his hand and cuddle but they don’t bring flowers or wait up after classes for him or plan special dates as surprises. It gets to Channing at times —especially if they haven’t fucked recently. But Channing doesn’t want to admit that because ‘cool, stoic alpha’ amirite?

And how do they deal with conflict?

Excellent question. As this couple is well versed in conflict, they do have a couple strategies:

Don’t get the rest of the pack involved. Since Channing is their Alpha, getting the rest of the wolves to pick a side can end up making Sawtooth feel alienated since most members will side with Channing.

Spend a couple hours apart. When they’re both seeing red, neither of them are thinking straight so if this fight is serious it’s better tackled when they’ve had a bit to calm down. If it’s not serious, they’ll probably make up once the couple of hours is over.

Alternatively, if the mood’s hot and heavy, fucking it out might actually be helpful. It’s a useful way to channel how they’re feeling and sometimes they’re more honest when Sawtooth’s fucking Channing silly.

Don’t avoid fights. (not that they needed to be told that tbh) if you e got a problem, it’s better to have a million tiny fights than one blowout-maybe-we’ll-break-up fight.

Corollary to 4, never ever suggest breaking up or taking a break mid fight. Like not even as a joke. Channing takes it seriously regardless and honestly, it’s a touchy subject for him.

thank you thank you for sending these in <3 as reward here’s a sawtooth picrew <3

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Ahahahah would love to see the SQQ pov draft bc from what you said it sounds like it'd be like why is he here he shouldn't be here at all it's WRONG that he's here I am IGNORING him and then the LQG pov is like ofc I'm here - SQQ got captured so I followed him to protect him and keep him safe. Very 理所当然. LBH pov would be very intensely focused on how SQQ reacts to his experiments on LQG until THOUGHTS start intruding and then he starts liking LQG against his will until he's just as obsessed...

HEHEH oh i like that very much. That sounds exactly how SQQ would handle a hostage situation skdjfnlsd "I cannot deal with your presence right now just know that I am very cross with you and the moment we are out i will yell." Valiant protector LQG, of course 1000% yes, and yeah, LBH, Demon Lord of the "I am stone cold and have no feelings except this very immense very raw one right here for LQG but other than that I'm indestructible"

FOUND MY DRAFTS. I thought I deleted them but turns out they were hiding in another desktop. Jesus christ you can literally see me testing different set-ups lolol. First is LQG & SQQ co-captives, then it's "oh hey what if LQG gets experimented on first," and then it's "ew this is too much set-up can we skip to the porn"

Draft One

Ever since being captured by the Demon Lord, Liu Qingge had not been able to put his hair up. That more than anything else—the shallow pool of water he was imprisoned within, the bland and fatty food scraps, the ricocheting between full-body paranoid alertness and complete boredom—annoyed Liu Qingge to no end. The pool wasn’t deep enough to submerge more than half his width laying down at a time, which for dignity’s sake, meant uncomfortable half-dryness whenever the Demon Lord or his minions were in the room. And as (the most annoying) consequence, Liu Qingge’s hair was in a constantly inconstant state of damp and sticky or dry and pokey at any given time.

The first thing Liu Qingge was going to do when he got his hands on a blade was gut one of his captors and use their intestines as a fucking hair tie. Then he’d exact his full vengeance.

Thirteen days and fifteen failed escape attempts later though, vengeance remained out of reach. Liu Qingge wasn’t ever punished or tortured beyond whatever beating and blast of spiritual energy was required to trap him back in his pool. Instead, the Demon Lord decided to bring in another captive. They dragged him in dry, though wrapped from head to toe in wetted down cloth to keep him alive. The Demon Lord personally unwrapped him, taking him by the hair and murmuring all sorts of unsavory things gleefully in his face before dumping him into the warded shallow pool one away from Liu Qingge’s.

Blood blossomed like a cloud of algae the moment the other mer hit the water. Liu Qingge stared at the waft of black hair floating at the surface and clenched his hands into fists.

Before leaving, the Demon Lord strolled over and smiled benevolently down at Liu Qingge.

“Apologies for our failings in hospitality for Immortal Liu. Unfortunately there are some days still before preparations are complete, so this Lord figures that in the meantime, we may as well acquaint Immortal Liu to his future partner in the project. I trust that no introductions are necessary.”

Of course not. Liu Qingge recognized Shen Qingqiu by his glare the moment his face had been uncovered.

“What project? What preparations?” Liu Qingge asked coolly. In the other pool, Shen Qingqiu had submerged himself as much as possible against a corner, his long pale tail kept unnervingly still like a frozen prey animal. There was no love lost between Liu Qingge and Shen Qingqiu but a sense of solidarity was hard to avoid, captured in enemy territory like this, so Liu Qingge even made a point of splashing his tail to keep the Demon Lord’s attention on him. The Demon Lord, annoyingly, just looked amused and knowing.

“That would be the surprise, Immortal Liu. So perhaps you would like to relax for a few days, wait and see what’s in store for you and your friend.”

Friend, hah. Liu Qingge would fight tooth and claw to get both himself and Shen Qingqiu out of this prison but Shen Qingqiu was no friend of his.

“Never.”

The Demon Lord laughed and shrugged before leaving like Liu Qingge’s defiance made no difference to him. And the annoying truth was that it probably didn’t at all.

//

“Spare me your condescension. At least I made it two weeks longer than you.”

“Hmph.”

//

“You haven’t just been sitting here useless, have you? Surely a bone-headed creature of your calibre has tried escaping.”

“What do you think?”

“Well?”

“It’s a labyrinth out of the water prison, and when you take the minions captive, they’re spelled to self-destruct.”

“Isn’t knocking down walls your specialty?”

“Try it yourself if you’re so keen.”

//

“You don’t know what they want.”

“…”

“All this time, what, you never tried? Or is asking questions too lowly for the great Immortal—”

“I’ve asked.”

“…”

“…”

“You’ve asked.”

//

Ever since Shen Qingqiu’s arrival, minions had stopped bringing cold squid or half-rotted fish to toss into the pools. So on the fifth day, when the sound of live fish splashing in water came from the halls over the rattling of cart wheels, both starving mers went on high alert. Live fish meant food, but the sudden arrival of mercy after a period of drought was potentially concerning.

Draft Two

“You know Shizun, the mating adaptations of your species are truly wondrous.”

Shen Qingqiu, chained to the bottom of his glass prison, didn’t respond. He was too busy staring in shock at the other tank that was being wheeled out. To call it a tank was generous, actually. For creatures of their size, this was more akin to a teacup—too shallow for their tails to stretch out fully and leaving some handspan parts of them exposed to air at all times. In Luo Binghe’s captivity, Shen Qingqiu had hissed and complained heartily about the size of his own tank, but it was only now that he realized Luo Binghe’s playacting at don’t I treat you well, Shizun? generosity hadn’t all been for show. For the creature similarly chained to the bottom of that other “tank,” Shen Qingqiu felt nothing but horror and pity.

And he wasn’t used to feeling pity for the mer across from him, who stared back through the glass with bared teeth and bloodshot eyes.

“I trust introductions aren’t necessary?”

Liu Qingge’s fists slammed into the glass, and even through the multiple layers of insulating water and air, Shen Qingqiu could hear his furious roar. Luo Binghe turned an impenetrable gaze on him, and for the first time in his life, Shen Qingqiu felt the panic of protective instinct toward the other mer.

Because Liu Qingge had gone missing five years ago after a thoroughly displeasing hunting trip with Shen Qingqiu. All they’d found of him was his blade and torn-off scales. For a long ugly while, Shen Qingqiu had even been the primary suspect of his presumed death. For Luo Binghe to bring him out now, five years later, at such a facility—it invited all sorts of horrifying implications Shen Qingqiu didn’t want to think about.

Shen Qingqiu slammed his palm up against the glass and drew Luo Binghe’s deadly attention back to himself.

What is the meaning of this?

Mer like Liu Qingge, born and raised in their holy city far underwater, did not speak. They had never needed to learn how. That was why mer like Shen Qingqiu, who’d clawed and dragged themselves back into the water from human captivity, also did not speak. Not verbally at any rate; spiritual links between mer allowed for mental communication, a process typically facilitated by water (hence the lack of exchange between him and Liu Qingge, though Shen Qingqiu doubted they’d have anything helpful to say to each other even if Luo Binghe dumped them in the same pool) but one that Luo Binghe had somehow hacked. Despite walking on two feet, Luo Binghe could hear every thought in Shen Qingqiu’s mind and made no secret of the fact that he was always listening.

So Luo Binghe, looking back over his shoulder, knew exactly what Shen Qingqiu intended. He tsked and shook his head in chastisement.

“Shizun ah Shizun, don’t you know by now to keep your pity to yourself? It’s not like I brought you here for Liu-shishu.”

Water poured unheedingly out of the smaller tank as Liu Qingge thrashed, and the minions who didn’t react quickly enough had their throats mercilessly slit by the splashes. Luo Binghe didn’t even blink, putting up a ward with the lazy wave of a hand.

“Though I must really thank Liu-shishu for helping me so much for the past five years. The project really couldn’t have progressed without him. He’s the reason I could finally bring Shizun onboard.”

Shen Qingqiu wished upon the oceans that Liu Qingge had betrayed him, that it hadn’t been nonconsensual experimentation but schemes and participation that had brought the two of them to this point. That would bode better for himself, Shen Qingqiu thought, no matter how unlikely it was.

But the moment Luo Binghe lifted two vials of liquid from his sleeve, the last of Shen Qingqiu’s hope was washed clean away.

“We did as much of the development as we could on fish, but ultimately, we needed a mer to figure out the proper dosage. All of Liu-shishu’s suffering was for a good cause though. Isn’t Shizun going to ask me what the cause is?”

Shen Qingqiu only watched him, lips white and pressed tightly together. Seeing his unwillingness to speak, Luo Binghe just shrugged before uncorking the vials and approaching.

“I suppose Shizun will find out soon enough.”

//

After pouring the milky concoction into their tanks and letting them soak in it for one helpless hour, Luo Binghe waved for Liu Qingge’s tank to be brought over. Additional constriction wards had been added to Liu Qingge’s arms and neck and tail, keeping his furious thrashing to a minimum as he was transported. Cuffed by the waist to his own tank, Shen Qingqiu could only watch as Liu Qingge was wheeled past him to a deeper pool of water. By this point, Shen Qingqiu more than understood the purpose of the concoction, and hated that he could not bring himself to meet Liu Qingge’s eyes.

Digging his fingers futilely into the smooth glass, Shen Qingqiu refused to touch the building coil of heat low in his belly. Luo Binge dismissed the minions once Liu Qingge’s tank was by the edge of the pool and pushed Shen Qingqiu’s tank over himself.

“Don’t look so worried, Shizun,” Luo Binghe said

Draft Three

When Luo Binghe’s thumb brushed against the edges of his slit, Shen Qingqiu couldn’t help but flinch. His hands flew to brace against the narrow walls of his water prison, and the sound of his handcuff chains slowly clanking against each other was low and grating under the muffling water.

Luo Binghe eyed Shen Qingqiu before shaking his head in slow disappointment. He did not remove his hand, however, thumbing instead at the opening in coaxing swipes up and down, up and down. He opened his mouth to sigh, but spoke to Shen Qingqiu through his mind.

How many weeks has it been—does Shizun still believe I mean him harm?

Shen Qingqiu gritted his teeth and tried to move away. Luo Binghe’s palm spread across the small of his back prevented him from getting far, and that damn thumb kept pushing, kept massaging gently over the unpleasant stuffiness low in his stomach.

You told me, he reminded Luo Binghe, mental voice as icy as he could make it, that you brought me here for revenge.

And I also told you, Luo Binghe reminded back, the best revenge is a life well-lived.

Under his insistent touch and the influence of the drug in the water, Shen Qingqiu’s slit was beginning to sensitize and swell with blood. The light pink flesh between the scales of his tail split like lips on either side of an opening.

A life well-loved, rich with beings who will love this Lord and allow this Lord to love them in return.

Nothing will ever love you, Beast, Shen Qingqiu sneered. It sounded hollow even to his own ears, and Luo Binghe smiled at him with pity for his caged dinner.

Shizun raised me to despise him, but this Lord will prove that love is stronger. I will raise Shizun’s child with all the regard you never showed me.

The declaration of intent slammed into Shen Qingqiu with dull impact, because he’d known, he had. He’d suspected it hours ago, after the drug Luo Binghe poured into the water had soaked thoroughly into his skin. He’d confirmed it after that, once his aching reproductive organs had begun to ovulate.

But it was still different to hear it. Different all the more to have his once-disciple place a hand on his tummy, now packed with eggs and rounded for it, and tease his opening apart.

Luo Binghe flattened his thumb against Shen Qingqiu’s slit and pushed, a little harder than before. Shen Qingqiu’s muscles first cramped beneath the pressure but soon, all too soon, began to give. The mass that had built up in Shen Qingqiu’s abdomen shifted like fluid, and suddenly, with a faint sense of nausea choking its way up his throat, Shen Qingqiu felt something undulate, then spill out of him.

The pressure immediately eased, and Shen Qingqiu felt his vent close back up. He stared down blankly at the quickly dispersing cloud of white in the water between him and Luo Binghe though, trying to parse what had happened.

Shizun is quite fecund, Luo Binghe praised, eyes half-lidded with pleasure as he examined the white liquid too, running his hands gently through it as if stroking through hair. The eggs seem to be ready. All we need now is to fertilize them.

You—!

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A while ago, it was Kinktober, and I got a day with bloodplay and humiliation as prompts, and in my attempts to do something not too overdone, I ended up with an AU where SQQ subbed for everyone who fed him blood. The thing is, even as I was writing it, I had no idea how that ended up happening, and many, many months later, I made up a backstory. It’s a bad backstory, because it’s super McGuffiny, but it’s there if you want it.

My starting idea is that since PIDW was supposed to be porny trash, we’re going to use porny trash plot devices. Here, the blood works by slowing creating a desire to obey the owner of the blood in whoever drank it. You know, to make them more malleable and shit. Because this was PIDW, that desire did manifest itself via sexual attraction. Also, for plot reasons, there’s no blood removal here.

LBH knew about that when he fed SQQ his blood, but hey, it was a feature, not a bug. Plus, it wasn’t the most thought-out decision he’d ever taken.

I suspect that for demons like TLJ and ZZL, it wan’t something they gave much thought to? Why would they care if someone ended up really wanting to submit to them? It creates no obligation on their part. Plus, you know, it was kind of spur of the moment for them.

So in this AU, TLJ, ZZL and LBH kind of made up toward the end of the story, so TLJ and ZZL hangs around. They’re not exactly good friends, but they can all stand each other, and it’s not like TLJ has places to go.

So SQQ and LBH are together, they get married, things are going fine, until they don’t? SQQ having read the book, he would know about this particular side effect, but SQQ being SQQ, he would be in total denial that anything like that could happen to him. I’m thinking that since he’s with LBH all the time anyway, it doesn’t affect him as much? He wants LBH, they have sex, he’s fine. No escalation needed here.

That’s not what happens with the other two though. At first, SQQ doesn’t realise why he’s randomly losing focus, why he’s so distracted, why he keeps looking for TLJ and ZZL unconsciously, but it starts becoming obvious enough that something is wrong that LBH starts getting worried, but I think that at this point, LBH would also be in denial.

So the one that figures it out first is TLJ, who is like... oops. He goes to LBH, being all like, sorry about that, but what can I do about it? LBH obviously takes it about as well as LBH would, telling his father to take his snake pet and GTFO as soon as possible. Which they do, because why not.

Sadly, it doesn’t really help SQQ, who, by now, has caught on and is feeling very guilty for being this distracted by people who aren’t his husband. So he’s trying to hide from LBH how out of it he is, and how much he’s been craving other people’s not so gentle touch.

It takes him a little while, but as some point LBH can’t stand to see SQQ suffer like that, so he leaves to find TLJ and is like fine, okay, I have no choice so go take care of my husband, but if you don’t treat him like he’s the most precious and delicate pretty little thing in this whole fucking universe I will fucking end you, that’ll take care of it, and that goes for ZZL too, so better be fucking careful.

TLJ nods and shuts the fuck up because he knows careful handling is going to be the last thing SQQ will want. He return to the palace with what, let’s be honest, has to be a pretty eager ZZL, and *insert what your imagination wants here*.

It helps a whole lot, SQQ finally feels like he can think again, and the instant change soothes some of LBH’s reservation.

TLJ and ZZL stick around because that’s the easiest way of handling that issue, encounters as necessary, and with time needing three heavenly demons in his bed just becomes another aspect of SQQ’s weird transmigrator life.

LBH never becomes a fan, but he gets used to it.

He never ever finds out the truth about SQH because if he did, SQH would be so, so dead.

(It’s too bad, because there probably exists a way to remove the blood that only SQH knows about, but since SQQ is never going to tell him about that aspect of his life, he’ll never be free from it.)

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Lucifer post-ep ramble 5x01

Hi there, long time fangirl, first time Lucifan. After devouring all 4.5 seasons of this magnificent show in an impressive/alarming (all a matter of perspective) amount of time, I have very quickly found myself well and truly obsessed dedicated to all things Lucifer. And when a show grabs me like this one has, I tend to have a lot of thoughts and feelings that I can’t help but share, and so the post-ep ramble was born. It will probably contain many words, it may or may not be particularly coherent, there will definitely be over-analysing, but I thought I might indulge in re-capping the season 5 eps as I re-watch, so this is the first ramble off the rank. 

‘Really Sad Devil Guy’ (A+ ep name btw) kicks off as we’re still scrambling to pick up all our heart pieces after the season 4 finale, which is why Mr. Said Out Bitch (aka Lee Garner) being in Hell is such a cracker of an opening. Lucifer just waiting below deck on Fishizzle II (wth happened to Fishizzle I??) to greet him with his trademark ‘hello’ made me disproportionately happy, mostly because he was on my screen but also because his encounters with Mr. SOB are always great and this was no exception. Getting an insight into ‘life in Hell’, the way the characters in the Hell loops are played by Demons and Lucifer in action as the King was fab at this point in the series. And does anyone else have a visceral reaction to Lucifer stopping that bullet? I know it’s brief, I cannot explain it, it might be the command he has, the fact it’s awesome, but it makes me FEEL things. Just me? Cool.

I think what really strikes me in the way Lucifer just has to pop in on Mr. SOB upon hearing of his arrival, is the fact that he is a link to Lucifer’s life on Earth. They’ve existed in the same places there, breathed the same air, it’s a way for Lucifer to make that connection to his home more tangible. And when he realises where Mr. SOB’s hell loop has them moored, at Marina Del Ray, the way Lucifer says 'Los Angeles' with such yearning makes those heart pieces I had started cobbling back together really begin to ache. What this episode pulls off so brilliantly is the way Chloe and Lucifer remain connected despite being apart, and it’s all set up when Lucifer tells Mr. SOB, ‘You know, there's a good chance I know who's on your case. To them it's only been a few months, a blink of an eye, but here it's been much much longer’.

What’s happening ‘below deck’ in Hell (sorry...or am I?) is of course mirrored at the crime scene, where Maze is still calling Ella Ellen (never change Maze ILY) and Ella is banging on about Lucifer not responding to her DM’s and texts and it’s all so on brand and the thought of her sending Lucifer a clip of a parrot dancing to techno and him finding it funny is just too perf. Maze having Chloe’s back from the get-go and telling Ella to ‘read the room’ just shows how far this Demon has come. And of course Chloe saying that she hasn’t even really thought about Lucifer since he left...(spoiler alert: she has).

Seeing Maze and Chloe out drinking and dancing, somehow they're kinda dorky together and I love it, but it’s also really clear that they’re both leaning on each other pretty heavily and being there for one another and honestly, I love literally every combination of characters on Lucifer, you put any two together and the dynamic is 100% their own and these two are up there. It’s so weird seeing Amandiel running Lux, I big L LOVE Amenadiel but it’s just...wrong. Plus hats off to D.B. because his delivery of ‘No one sells drugs in my place...without me getting a piece of the action’, not gonna lie, I was THROWN.

So are we assuming that the number of months Lucifer has been gone = the number of times Chloe has rocked up to work with a hangover? Lol at the sunglasses but also, you do you Chloe, whatever you gotta do babe. Just like Amenadiel running Lux is like watching a slightly off AU version of the show, so is seeing Maze and Chloe as partners at work. Don’t get me wrong, Maze clearly supporting her and when they’re interrogating a lead, seeing Chloe and Maze have such a groove that they’re finishing each other's sentences and communicating without talking, I dig it. But I love that while it’s great, it still doesn’t feel right. Because that there is why this show is so clever, as an audience we crave the return to the way things were just as the characters we are watching do.

Linda being a completely OTT mum is so fab. I could write an entire essay about my Linda love. Her adamance that ‘Charlie’s special’ and Ella’s ‘every child is special in their mum’s eyes, huh?’ sums it up perfectly. Did I mention I adore Ella? I definitely get the distinct impression Ella is doing a bit of self-reflection, her comment about being drawn to the bad boys for some reason clearly foreshadowing, but also her reflecting that she deserves a good guy for once (just not this ep when there is a bad boy/potential suspect to be hooked up with). I am curious to see the ‘darkness’ Ella has alluded to in earlier seasons being explored further and feel like this is sowing the seeds and I’m also waiting for a significant Linda/Ella D&M at some point. But clearly not this point, because 'science lesson Wednesdays...I checked your schedule and that's your day off' Linda is NOT about deep and meaningfuls (or anyone who isn’t a 2 month old baby), you need to DIAL IT DOWN friend.  I love that it takes Trixie pulling some funny faces and Dan offering some sage parenting advice as he returns the self-help books (love the irony there) for Linda to begin to chill a bit.          

So Dan has gone all new age with his oils and self improvement and you know what? I love it. And then of course we have Amenadiel needing to help make the world a safer place, he just needs to make sure for Charlie ya know and ugh my ovaries. I must say, I was relieved to realise that the club life had not in fact corrupted the delightful warrior we all love after all - it’s all a ploy to catch a REAL BIG TIME drug dealer (nooooo I can feel the second hand embarrassment already...)! Amenadiel setting up the ‘drug bust’, telling the dealer, ‘looks like gooood drugs’, oh you dear sweet naïve Angel you. We of course discover that the bust is, well, a bust, because the ‘drug lord’ is actually a kid trying to offload his mum’s pain meds *insert facepalm emoii here*. But rather than ridicule or be angry, Dan is so understanding and supportive of Amenadiel and once again offers up advice and I really am so into this friendship on every level and the care and openness it models.

Meanwhile, the genius parallel between what is happening on Earth and in Hell really takes effect as Chloe and Maze go undercover (I mean, they are a glam couple lbh) to the poker game while Lucifer is at a game hosted by the same suspect in Mr. SOB’s ‘exquisite’ Hell loop. His exclamation that it’s exquisite reflects that Lucifer and Mr. SOB are not that different, that it’s the kind of place Lucifer might manifest as well, but I also feel that Lucifer could be admiring his own Kingdom’s handiwork at creating LA with such accuracy from someone’s subconscious. He allows himself to be absorbed in it, ‘City of Angels, I’ve missed you’, and I can’t help but get the impression that hearing Lucifer call LA this for the first time is confirmation that his Heaven, or place of Angels, is in fact there with Chloe.

Chloe remains firmly in the forefront of Lucifer’s mind this entire episode, with him asking ‘what would she do?’ and wanting to replicate the life he had with her at the precinct. But of course he is soon reminded of his reality, as he tries to get more information from Mr. SOB who is being useless. Lucifer incorrectly calling him ’Detective’ shatters the illusion that he is any closer to Chloe, and this is impressively emphasised as he erases the LA cityscape to reveal the Hellscape. For a moment he’d let himself believe he was back there. Back home. His, ‘you’re not her’ making some of my heart pieces fall out once again.

But then the messenger arrives, ‘Lord Morningstar, there’s someone you should meet’ and lo and behold it’s guy who just got hit by car up on the Earth-side of this investigation and I.am. loving. it. Also, did Lucifer put out a Hell-wide memo that if ANYONE arrives from LA they are to be bought to him so he can send messages to Chloe through their bodies??? NO REALLY I'M FINE. Having a Demon possess the dead dude’s body to pass on the tip from Lucifer was just TOO MUCH. His, ‘hey is that Mazikeen?’ made me actually lol but also, look how far we’ve come! Chloe doesn’t even flinch when the dead guy wakes up possessed to pass on Lucifer’s message. I’m so proud. 

'It's safe where you stored it' caused me way more amusement than was perhaps intended, but Ella, Maze and Chloe together, trying to figure out what it meant, it's such a great moment and the comedic timing is gold. Also, the fact it actually helps the case, ugh, Chloe and Lucifer are still connected and working together even though they are not on the same plane of existence and I’m just going to need to curl up for a minute because feelings.

You know who else is having a lot of feelings in this ep? The Devil himself. After he is satisfied he has passed on the message, he’s done with Mr. SOB, sending him, ‘back to your torture. And me to mine’. Any remnants of my heart are now once again shattered all over the floor in case you’re wondering. Lucifer doesn’t even try to hide the fact that being away from Chloe is so painful, almost revealing more than he ever usually would when Mr. SOB asks if she’s ‘somebody important?' to which he replies, 'more than you could ever know'. 

He only just stops himself before telling Mr. SOB her name, when he realises he's trying to manipulate him. And I'm so glad, Lucifer so sparingly uses Chloe’s name, it's always significant when he does and I feel like he reserves those moments for only between them. But Mr. SOB really does sum it up when he observes, ‘you just seem like a really sad Devil guy’, BECAUSE HE IS A REALLY SAD DEVIL GUY (can we just take a moment to appreciate how not at all scared of Lucifer Mr. SOB is, he doesn’t even refer to him as THE Devil, just ‘Devil guy’. It’s kind of nice that he sees and accepts him as both Devil and human without really questioning it). 

The parallel continues as Chloe and Lucifer are talking to a sister and brother  and the way this highlights the place they're both in. It's just brilliant writing and execution. Chloe is talking to Meg about her brother’s death and both her and Lucifer's yearning for one another is palpable. At the same time, Maze telling Chloe that they don’t need Lucifer and kissing Chloe highlights Maze’s desire for connection and love. She wants it so badly and the way she shuts down when Chloe suggests they stop working together breaks my heart.

When Lucifer takes Mr. SOB to the root of his Hell loop, yes, it’s about Lucifer projecting his own guilt and lack of self worth onto him, but his assertion that, 'it is inevitable sooner or later you're going to disappoint them all over again. So you'd rather stay away for all eternity’, really feels as though it carries multiple meanings. As a self-referential comment, is Lucifer talking about Heaven or Earth? Is it his fear of disappointing and letting down Chloe and the other humans or is it his belief that he disappointed his family? And if Angels self-actualise does that mean he was never 'stuck' in Hell at all and could have returned to Heaven? I certainly feel there is some sort of realisation occurring here. Or could be completely over-analysing it. Why not have both 🤷‍♀️

You know the line that just up and got me though? ‘Whose hell is this anyway? Are you sure this is my hell? You just here torturing yourself’- Mr. SOB calling Lucifer out is A MOMENT. And I can’t help but wonder if a part of it is Lucifer wanting Mr. SOB to come to terms with his own guilt, wanting to help him because he knows he’s not evil and he is trying to reconcile his own guilt too. If he can help Mr. SOB face and let go of the guilt then he has a chance of it too. And that’s when Mr. SOB challenges Lucifer, pointing out that he missed his chance, ‘but what about you?’ 'The self-centred simplicity of you humans never ceases to amaze me...I am here out of responsibility, I had to protect humanity, I had to protect HER', the delivery of this line, the frustration of being misunderstood, of ppl thinking that he acts for himself when his very reason for being back in Hell is for others, I can feel it through the screen.

The dead guy we saw get shot in the kitchen appearing at that moment with news about ‘the Detective’ and then cutting straight back to the shoot up in the house, file under: how to brilliantly edit. “Lucifer” appearing; the whistle, the casually strolling in, the ‘hello bad guys’ = I was FOOLED. I mean you have to admit, the ‘thought I'd give you a hand' pun was well played, classic Lucifer, very convincing.  My shipper heart was SO FULL for the split second Lucifer and the Detective kissed, until Chloe realised that something was off and her open eyes told us something was up. The cut back to Hell and seeing Lucifer still standing there with Mr. SOB...you may have heard my ‘noooooooo’ from wherever you are. ‘She’ll be just fine without me’...said every Devil who has a dick twin brother who’s going to try and destroy, nay STEAL, his life and love of his life ever.

Michael, you're an evil bastard but damn you nailed that villainous smirk over-the-shoulder pose in the final shot. Whatever you have in store, I will no doubt revel in your awfulness and be confused about whether or not I hate you. 

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hello im the moshang anon!! ur headcanons r too cute im soft ;;;; pls tell us more if u have any (angsty or fluffy or otherwise) i am All Ears 👀 hope you enjoyed your holidays!!!

owo anon thank you, I try to deliver the fluff haha. My holidays were good and I hope everyone else had a wonderful time as well as we prepare to enter the new year :)

I don’t really have any angsty ones though… orz I’ll leave that up to the experts hehe I just think if that was your thing, idk maybe it would be easier to write??? SINCE ALL OF THE SCUM VILLAIN COUPLES ARE LIKE WHAT??IS??A???TAAALK???? MISUNDERSTANDINGS CENTRAL!!!!

Anyways, continuing on to our regularly scheduled fluff:

Mobei Jun was told about the concept of couple’s clothing from SQQ (who, of course, desperately tried this hide this very same concept from Bingbing uwu) and immediately gifted Shang Qinghua black robes that match his own. SQH doesn’t really understand why at first and just puts them on because MBJ insists. He gets really excited because, omg, he could try to look like a demon lord now!!!! But, uh… it doesn’t work. SQH just looks cute. MBJ is very pleased.

Only a bit later does SQH realize that the robes match MBJ’s, and he’s like all excited like “Hey, look we match!”

“Is that not the point?”

“Oh…” OH HE JUST WANTS EVERYONE TO KNOW I’M HIS SERVANT ahaljfslfjlsjd

Shang Qinghua has a child of the internet type of humor. He sometimes jokes about dying and those sorts of things. It really baffles Mobei Jun, who often sees SQH clinging to his thighs as he begs for MBJ to save him… Eventually he begins to think it’s just a human quirk since SQQ does it, too.

I could really imagine SQH cutting himself while cooking, getting frustrated, and just kind of going “Wow, I could really fucking die right now!” and MBJ is like ??? Do I need to protect him from everything??? EvEn CoOkInG???? (but if anyone is bad at cooking, it’s definitely MBJ so he can’t really help there)

I want a jealous MBJ who, when SQH talks to someone else (who seems a little too interested), he’ll just PICK UP SQH and move him to the side lightly. Like, please remember that I, his extremely powerful and extremely handsome demon lord boyfriend am here, and you must go through me to talk to him! His overbearing demon lord aura really comes out in these moments uwu MOBEI JUN IS THE FINAL BOSS IF YOU WANT TO TALK TO SHANG QINGHUA AND THIS ISN’T EVEN HIS FINAL FORM

But I also want a jealous SQH, so probably around the time he realizes all of his children somehow fell for SQQ, he starts to wonder if MBJ did as well??? It gets even worse when he realizes that MBJ has been visiting LBH and SQQ a lot recently…

Of course, out of everyone Shen Yuan has ever met, I think he’d want the least to do with MBJ!!! Please keep your demon lord to yourself, I have my own thank you very much!!!

To make matters worse, when MBJ was trying to gift wonderful and rare items to woo SQH, he obtained a large amount of ornate and beautiful fans. MBJ was under the impression that humans were fond of fans. SQH is certain that MBJ has actually fallen for SQQ… especially since he spent so much time carefully inspecting them…

I COULD REALLY IMAGINE SQH CONSTANTLY TRYING TO COVER UP MBJ’S CHEST!!! “Your Majesty, please cover up your chest properly. Some people may get the wrong idea.” and of course, I just want MBJ to misunderstand this and wonder if SQH thinks it’s ugly/unattractive???

Speaking of MBJ’s exposed chest… I could really see SQH, whenever he gets hot, just rests his head on MBJ’s chest with no warning. MBJ is too embarrassed to push SQH away.

Shang Qinghua finds out that Mobei Jun is weak to him acting cute uwu. Whenever SQH catches the demon lord staring at him, he’ll make finger hearts (OF COURSE HE HAD TO EXPLAIN WHAT IT WAS IN THE FIRST PLACE AND COME UP WITH FAKE ORIGIN afterwards of course MBJ says it’s stupid but is absolutely weak to it)

I’m weak to couples feeding each other, so SQH will oftentimes feed MBJ delicious foods and THAT’S FINAL

MBJ gets really used to this and will sometimes just open his mouth, expecting SQH to feed him. It’s awkward when SQH isn’t paying attention…

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/cracks knuckles

Let’s really dig into this shall we?

Signs Airplane was a victim of abuse in his first life:

All of the above; but also:

Airplane’s serve others philosophy/Cowardly approach to life/casual approach to violence:

He explicitly states that he believes success comes through subservience and doing what other, stronger, more powerful people want him to.

He explicitly states that he had long lived his life like this

He often begs others for forgiveness or understanding, often while literally clinging to their thighs

He avoids fights and physical confrontations at almost all costs.

He treats the daily beatings from MBJ as ‘not that bad’ in the long run and ‘could be worse’

He wrote a physically violent and abusive tendency as a social norm for the species of his favorite character who he says he wishes he was more like

Despite the constant abuse, he accepts that things are just like that and hides it from those who objectively have the power to help

He doesn’t react to the deaths of his fellow disciples at MBJs hand beyond a quick ‘scary!’ - extreme violence is not surprising or out of the norm for his lived experience even just a scant 17 years out from ‘starting over’ (specifically as opposed to SY’s reaction when seeing a real dead body for the first time and having to fight with himself a bit to not react outwardly)

While played for laughs as him being a coward and letting others walk all over him (sometimes literally), the extremism that he takes this to could easily be read as a way of coping with an abusive home life that he is long used to and sees as perfectly normal. It’s very likely he was abused before the divorce and if so, it may have been a part of the cause.

While organizing these thoughts, I had another one:

The Abyss Arc is the divorce, his going to live with his father, and his going off to college.

The divorce: being violently pushed into a living hell by someone he trusted (his father getting custody); happened when LBH was 17 + the divorce happened sometime before he was a legal adult

Living with his father: The time in the Abyss that blackened the protagonist (self-insert); lasted for 5 years and the life-line out was finding a legendary sword

Going off to College: Getting away from the Abyss but not entirely from the abuser that put him there; LBH didn’t immediately take revenge on Cang Qiong and his Shizun, he spent time pushing buttons and getting others to help build a social campaign against him first; 22 is a perfectly acceptable time to move out to his own apartment after getting into college/university, might even have taken time to get to that point because his father is still legally responsible for his education expenses - but has to be reminded that they’re there. He keeps having to beg and plead and return to his abuser’s life, thus putting his abuser in his live but not being able to do anything about it really for a few years.

Tellingly, it took at least another 50 years after dying in his first life for him to confront his current abuser and tell them ‘that’s not okay!’ It can take a long time for victims of abuse, especially from a parent or spouse, to come to the decision to try and leave or confront their abusers. A lot of them have to unlearn the thinking that they ‘deserve’ the abuse in the first place. Fortunately, Airplane had pretty much understood by that point that he didn’t deserve it from Mobei-jun (though he had excused MBJ doing it early in their relationship because of course MBJ would want to threaten him and keep him, a lowly human not to be trusted, ‘in his place’)

And with MBJ, he didn’t want to hurt him back, not really. He wanted MBJ to understand that he’d been hurting Airplane and to stop. One abuse victim to another coming to an understanding that they can stop the cycles they’ve both been trapped in, but they have to make an effort to do so.

I'm fucking stupid

The reason PIDW Binghe has a gazillion wives is the same reason Shen Qingqiu goes to brothels etc

Poor abused young Binghe only found safety and comfort in the company of women and abuse at the hands of men just like young Xiao Jiu

They both distrust men and see themselves as monsters except when in the company of women

It's such an obvious comparison and I didn't see it until now and now I'm mad at myself

Also makes you question Shang Qinghua's relationship with his dad who he went to live with after the divorce as opposed to his relationship to his mom

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So what do you think are anders best traits (other than him worrying about mage rights and him being a compassive healer?) I really love him and I love the way you write about him so I'm just curious.

There’s a lot I love about him :0

I mean, on a personal level, he’s a really relatable character for me, so that’s part of why I like him so much.

But I also like him as a character in general. (I’ll put this post under a cut bc it got long.) 

Him being a compassionate healer and being incredibly passionate about mage rights are huge parts of his character and they’re honestly two of the biggest things that make me like him so much. 

Like, here’s a person who was subject to systemic abuse for most of his life, who knows full well the repercussions of rebelling against the status quo, but does it anyway, because his convictions are just that strong. He knows that the Circle and the Chantry are fundamentally wrong. He’s experienced and witnessed firsthand what happens to people who fight back. Hell, when we meet him Awakening, he’s only just recently been released from a year of solitary confinement for running away - he just got out and as soon as he was able to, he ran again. If he gets caught and sent back to the Circle again, he’s going back into solitary confinement at the very least, and by the time he’s in Kirkwall, he’s also possessed by a spirit, so he’s risking just being killed outright. He’s risking everything by fighting back so openly and actively, but he does it anyway. 

And it’s not just Justice’s presence that makes him so willing to fight. Even when he was running, he was fighting back, because by constantly running away, he was refusing to submit. But in Awakening, Anders did feel like he couldn’t have any impact on the status quo - he believed that things would change eventually, he believed that the way mages are treated is inherently and fundamentally wrong and one day things would be different, but he didn’t think he’d ever see it in his lifetime, and he didn’t believe he of all people could do anything to enact change. Justice helped him realize that he could be an agent of change, but that fire and that strong sense of right and wrong were already there - it just needed to be validated and encouraged, which Justice did for him. 

And I do like that Anders needed support to be able to get to that point, bc I feel like that’s... realistic, y’know? I don’t like the idea that everyone should have to fend for themselves and not have to rely on others to stand up and fight. He couldn’t do it alone, and there’s nothing wrong with that. He hasn’t gotten much support from others throughout his life, so I like that in this instance, he had someone to lean on. (And I still wish there were more opportunities to support him more actively in DA2.)  

Like, it was difficult for Anders to admit to those feelings of powerlessness - which is entirely understandable, because in his experience, showing that kind of vulnerability could get him killed or worse (if the templars considered a mage to be weak-willed, they might not even give them a chance at the Harrowing and just make them Tranquil outright - and Anders is canonically mentally ill, which I imagine added an extra burden in terms of hiding his vulnerability). So, outwardly, he talked a big talk about only being concerned with his own freedom and pretends to be more apathetic and careless than he actually is. 

This also shows a lot in terms of his sense of humor - it’s a lot of morbid sarcasm, irreverent joking, gallows humor even - because he uses it as a shield and a coping mechanism. Ngl, I love that aspect of him, it’s one of the things that started endearing him to me in Awakening first. I play my Hawke as having a similar sense of irreverent, snarky humor, so they play well off of one another. Humor as a coping mechanism is a character trait I tend to appreciate and relate to a lot, haha. 

Anyway, I think in actuality he cares so much it hurts. It might not seem like it when we first meet him in Awakening, but I think it’s just that it’s easier and psychologically safer for him to pretend he doesn’t care than it is to admit that he does care but feels powerless to change things. It takes a lot of strength (and also support from others, which again, is something that Anders hasn’t had much of throughout most of his life) to be able to confront your own vulnerability and try to channel it into something that benefits others. 

But even in Awakening, his actions often contradicted the “I don’t care about anyone but myself” talk - if you tell him to run away in the beginning of the game, he’ll do so, but he shows back up like five minutes later because he felt like he couldn’t leave the Warden to fight the darkspawn alone (he jokes about being “bad at the whole ‘fugitive from justice’ thing”, which... turns out to be way more accurate than he may even realize in that moment). In the endgame, he’s not eager to go along with the Warden to Amaranthine, but if you do bring him, he’s one of the companions who will argue against leaving Amaranthine to burn - his instincts might tell him to run, but he cares too much about the survivors in Amaranthine to leave them to their fate. 

Not to mention, canonically, spirit healers are kinda rare. They derive a lot of their power from spirits of compassion, which means earning spirits’ trust and cooperation. A person who isn’t compassionate probably wouldn’t be able to earn that cooperation of a spirit of compassion in the first place. Not to mention his interest in being a healer in general - it’s a big part of his identity, to the point where in DA2, one of the things he worries most about is not being able to heal anymore because he’s so afraid that he or Justice will accidentally hurt one of his patients.

I think a lot of his attachment to the healer role is also tied up in his own internalized belief that he has to be a Good Mage in order to deserve freedom - it seems contradictory, it’s something that goes against his stated principles, mages shouldn’t have to prove themselves and be ‘good’ mages according to the Chantry’s fucked up doctrine to deserve freedom and life and love, but he lived in the Circle for at least half his life and he definitely internalized a lot of the hateful messages they taught about mages. Fighting against those teachings is a constant battle for him - which also ties into his occasional crises of faith, because he’s an Andrastian and all the spiritual authorities in his life have taught him that he’s a non-person, that he’s inherently sinful and cursed and deserving of subjugation because he’s a mage. 

So, he has a lot of moments of self-doubt. He has a lifetime of trauma and abuse that affect his present well-being. He has a lot of self-loathing and a lot of fear of himself (the latter esp after merging with Justice). He doesn’t see himself as worthy of love or care, even if he talks passionately about how mages deserve those things - he often doesn’t give himself the same consideration that he’s willing to give others. He has an incredibly complicated relationship with his own anger - because his anger is totally and completely justifiable, but it scares him, because he associates rage and anger with demons and loss of control. (I think a big source of the conflict btwn he and Justice is how they differ re: embracing and accepting anger. For Justice, that anger is righteous fury, it’s justified, it’s a source of passion and change. For Anders, it’s a source of fear and insecurity a lot of the time. I think a lot of their miscommunication is rooted in that fear.)

But Anders works himself half to death trying to help as many people as he can for as long as he can, and even though he’s barely making a dent in all the suffering he sees in the world, even though he’s risking everything, he just keeps going, because that’s how strongly he believes and that’s how much he cares. Every mage he helps escape the Gallows, every patient he helps in his clinic is worth it to him. That kind of perseverance in the face of hopelessness and doubt and a world set against you is really admirable to me.

And I also like how clear it is that it doesn’t come easy to him. It’s not just some inspiration porn “you can do anything you set your mind to if you just try :)” thing. He stumbles a lot. He fails a lot. He spends most of DA2 in a constant state of anxiety and desperation (esp since he really doesn’t get much support from the people closest to him, except like… Justice and Hawke, if you play Hawke in a supportive role). He’s idealistic, but he can’t help but dip into periods of hopelessness and depression and doubt - partly because he has a mood disorder, partly because that’s just… expected for someone who’s seen as much shit as he has. His life is messy and he’s tired and it shows. But even when he’s running, he’s fighting. Sometimes, survival is in itself a form of rebellion and he’s a walking example of that. He is stubborn and although sometimes it’s a negative, it also has its perks. And that passion doesn’t just manifest as rage - it’s also love, because lbh, he is a hopeless romantic (in a dorky, endearing way at times) and in his romance route he loves Hawke fiercely.  

It’s a shame that he didn’t get more positive character development in DA2 (it’s no secret how resentful I am toward the writers, he and Justice really deserved better). I headcanon him over time learning how to communicate and coexist with Justice; learning to practice self-care and be kinder to himself; more fully accepting that he has a right to be angry and he doesn’t have to prove that he’s deserving of personhood or love.

And he has a fair amount of flaws for sure - he has a tendency to project his insecurities onto others (e.g. Merrill), he’s not a good ally to other marginalized groups (e.g. elves), he sometimes lashes out at others when they don’t deserve it (which, although I understand why he behaves that way, it still isn’t fair to others who are on the receiving end), he was manipulative in the ‘Justice’ quest (I understand his motivations but despite his intentions it wasn’t acceptable behavior) - but I think he has an ability to better himself in those areas and I like to headcanon that personal growth for him. (That’s not to say I want him to be a flawless character - nobody’s perfect, and a flawless character would be pretty flat and unrealistic, but I also like when characters are allowed to have personal growth in a positive direction.)

I guess, in all, he’s an interesting, likable, and relatable character for me - I wish the writers treated him better, I have a lot of criticisms wrt how he (and Justice) were written (including how Anders was treated as a bipolar character), and I’m also willing to criticize him where it’s deserved (I have a whole tag full of meta w/ my criticisms of him) - but overall he’s one of my faves.

 Tbh the reason why DA2 is my fave game in the series (despite all of my criticisms of the writing in it, esp Act 3) is the characters. Hawke is my favorite protag and DA2 has probably my favorite companion group - like, Anders, Merrill, Fenris, Isabela, and Varric are some of my fave characters in the whole series - so the characters are ultimately what make me like that game.  

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Have some weird, very dub-con fic featuring some AU version of canon!SQQ is SY and some version of LBH, whichever he is.

Shen Qingqiu breathes, still as the mountains hosting Qing Jing Peak. For now. “You heard me.”

Luo Binghe’s yes on him are scorching. “Are you certain? I won’t allow you to take it back.”

Shen Qingqiu doesn’t let himself be moved. “Yes.” It’ll be worth it. Luo Binghe has made what he wants very clear. Shen Qingqiu won’t risk his sect just to preserve his dignity.

“Then prove it.”

Shen Qingqiu steels himself before he climbs the step to Luo Binghe’s throne and seals his fate with a bloody kiss, chaining himself to the king of the demon realm but hopefully freeing his disciples in the process.

The lord’s red eyes burn into his when he pushes back.

It takes all he has not to shudder.

Luo Binghe’s fingers on his face are searing as they trail from his hair to his still bloody lips. He wipes a drop of blood and holds his fingers to Shen Qingqiu, expectant.

Shen Qingqiu’s can’t believe he’s surviving the humiliation as his tongue extends to lick the blood off like Luo Binghe demanded.

A few moments later, the blood lights every single nerve of his body on fire. His legs give under him, and only Luo Binghe’s quick reflexes stop him from ending up sprawled on the floor. Instead, he ends up sitting in Luo Binghe’s lap, trying to regain control as the pleasure fades into pleasant embers.

Luo Binghe’s smile could almost be described as nice if it wasn’t for the intensity of his expression. “You’re mine now.”

Shen Qingqiu stays silent as a statue.

Luo Binghe digs his fingers into Shen Qingqiu’s hair, disturbing his hairstyle and pulling a strand of it to his lips.

Shen Qingqiu focuses on keeping his breathing regular and blocks everything else.

“Shen Qingqiu doesn’t have to be so worried. I always take care of what’s mine.”

Shen Qingqiu can’t help himself. “You don’t have to pretend. I know why I’m here for.” He doesn’t claim to understand why he of all people struck Luo Binghe’s fancy when people like Liu Qingge, Liu Mingyan and Qi Qingqi are around, but he can guess. Luo Binghe is probably looking forward to put a high and mighty cultivator like him in his place. He heard Luo Binghe doesn’t have the best track record with their kind.

Luo Binghe frowns. “Whatever you’re imagining, put it out of your mind. I won’t mistreat you.”

“Of course not.” If he can’t hide his disdain at this blatant lie, so be it. Luo Binghe can’t really believe him this naïve.

Luo Binghe sighs. “I suppose I will have your heart in time. For now, your body will do nicely.” He stops the rebuke that was going to fly off Shen Qingqiu’s lips at the notion that he’d ever give his heart to a demon with his own lips.

Once he’s done kissing Shen Qingqiu’s breath away, he caresses his lips with his thumb, eyes glued to his mouth so intently Shen Qingqiu almost can’t stand it. “I can’t wait to see those lips wrapped around my cock.”

Shen Qingqiu feels his blood rush to his cheeks at this comment. As hard as he’s trying to keep his composure, he’s not used to being treated this way. No one would dare to disrespect the lord of Qing Jing Peak by ordering him to… do this to them.

He’ll have to handle it. Shen Qingqiu gave himself to Luo Binghe. This much is to be expected.

He inhales deeply before he starts lifting himself from Luo Binghe’s lap, steadily ignoring the frightening bulge under him.

The floor is startlingly cold under his knees.

He can hear Luo Binghe’s breath catch. “I dreamed of seeing you like this at my feet.”

Shen Qingqiu bites his tongue hard enough to chase the lingering taste of Luo Binghe’s blood with his own, unmindful of the sting that is sure to follow, and empties his mind as he pulls Luo Binghe free from his clothes.

He falters when he sees what he’s supposed to serve. He can’t possibly… Not even a woman could take this without pain.

Then again, Luo Binghe probably doesn’t care if he’s in pain.

The embers start burning again when he puts his hand on Luo Binghe’s cock. Even if he knows the arousal isn’t natural, it feels like it is. It feels like wrapping his hands around that ridiculously large length fills him with desire. He can see how easy it would be to lose himself in this, to let Luo Binghe feed him lust until it becomes unnecessary.

Luo Binghe gasps at the feeling of Shen Qingqiu's warm flesh on him. Shen Qingqiu ignores how lewd the sound is. He keeps moving his hands, barely big enough for the task. Maybe if he closes his eyes, he can pretend this is someone else. A man he wouldn’t mind kneeling for.

Not that there is one. Even if there was, he wouldn’t dare risk provoking Luo Binghe’s anger. He bets the demon king doesn’t share.

For the moment, he needs to keep his mind on what he has to do now if he wants Luo Binghe to keep his end of the bargain. It’s just that there’s no way his cock is going to fit into his mouth without choking. He doesn’t think anyone could.

He starts by licking along the length before pressing light kisses on it. He can’t help feeling lost. He’s never done this before. If Luo Binghe wanted a talented partner, he should have chosen someone else. Shen Qingqiu would have happily passed.

Though from the moans coming from over him and the hand petting his face, he’s not doing too bad.

Shen Qingqiu tries to take the head in his mouth and immediately chokes.

Luo Binghe’s voice rings into the room, consoling tone so insulting Shen Qingqiu wants to bite him off. “I’m sorry about this. I know you’re doing your best. Let me help you with this.”

When Shen Qingqiu tries again, he can tell Luo Binghe did something to him. When he pushes into his throat, Shen Qingqiu feels nothing but more unnatural pleasure at the drag of his cock inside him. Somehow, this feels more perverse than Luo Binghe using his blood to make him feel good. This is him modifying his body to make it easier for him to use Shen Qingqiu as he wishes. It’s obscene. Still, there’s nothing he can do but go along with it. No amount of desire he doesn’t understand will make him okay with what he’s doing at the moment anyway.

Luo Binghe pushes him off gently. Shen Qingqiu blinks, confused. It can’t be over already? This would be too easy, wouldn’t it? Luo Binghe didn’t even come once.

As if he could guess what Shen Qingqiu is thinking, and he sure hopes he can’t, Luo Binghe answers him. “You’re just as beautiful like this as I imagined, but I would be a poor partner if I didn’t make sure you came before I did.”

Shen Qingqiu ignores how rough he sounds when he answers. “You don’t have to trouble yourself.” He would much rather get this over with.

“Nonsense. It’s no bother.” As if he cared for Shen Qingqiu’s well-being besides making his point.

Shen Qingqiu shuts up. He lets Luo Binghe helps him up and doesn’t protest when he leads him to his bedroom through a portal he can seemingly open at will, courtesy of the malevolent sword he’s never seen without. He even cooperates when Luo Binghe undresses him slowly, probably revelling in Shen Qingqiu’s embarrassment and humiliation at the spectacle he makes.

“You really are stunning. Getting familiar with your body will be a privilege.”

What privilege? A privilege isn’t taken. And it’s not like all he would have to do is decide Shen Qingqiu will feel good for it to happen. He can have him pant with uncontrollable lust with a thought.

Not that he hasn’t. Shen Qingqiu can do nothing to hide how hard he already is, the blood now running through him having made sure he would be receptive to Luo Binghe’s touch. It takes but a few strokes of his hands and a few brushes of his lips on his skin for Shen Qingqiu to bite his lips and did his nails into his palm, all to try and keep his reason.

His mind is in chaos when Luo Binghe finally slips a finger inside him.

It won’t hurt, had said Luo Binghe. Shen Qingqiu had believed it. It wouldn’t, as long as Luo Binghe didn’t want it to. Which meant Shen Qingqiu had better be amiable or risk being torn apart from the inside. Shen Qingqiu wouldn’t put it pass him.

But for now, it felt good. Too good. Those fingers rubbing inside of him gave birth to a hunger he had never felt before, a desire to be filled completely alien to his nature. His only response to Luo Binghe adding a finger is an urge for more, now, please. He watches with horror as his legs spread open, seemingly of their own accord, to make room for Luo Binghe, who can’t seem to stop staring where his fingers disappear inside Shen Qingqiu.

No amount of pleasure can’t stop him from trembling in fear when Luo Binghe finally stops teasing him and presses the head of his cock against his entrance. There’s no way it will fit. It just won’t.

His muscles relax all at once, leaving him limp on the bed, once more courtesy of Luo Binghe’s blood. If his body is more ready to receive Luo Binghe, his mind is only more nervous at this demonstration of how much power over himself he surrendered to a demon.

Those thoughts are wiped right off when Luo Binghe finally pushes in, finding no resistance. It’s so good Shen Qingqiu screams and arches into it. He can’t comprehend whatever Luo Binghe is whispering to him, or anything he himself is saying, too busy being overwhelmed by Luo Binghe’s everything. His cock hits him right where it counts each time. Luo Binghe’s hands feel delicious everywhere they touch. Luo Binghe’s lips ignite a passion in him he didn’t think himself capable of. All he can do is let him have him however he wants, even long after Shen Qingqiu himself came. This too should hurt, but no. Luo Binghe’s cock is still perfect inside him even after he’s coated his insides with his essence. Shen Qingqiu could let Luo Binghe do this all night without issue. He might even ask for more after.

Luo Binghe kisses him constantly, smothering his cries and licking off the tears leaking from his eyes.

When Luo Binghe comes for a fourth time, he pulls out of Shen Qingqiu, soiling the sheets beyond repairs in the process.

The pleasure recedes. Shen Qingqiu comes back to himself.

If he weren’t so deeply, profoundly exhausted, he would tense up all over. This is worse than he even thought possible. Like this, Luo Binghe could take anything from him and Shen Qingqiu would thank him for it. There’s nothing he can do to protect himself from this assault from within himself.

“Better than I even imagined. You’re worth giving up Cang Qiong for.”

Those words should calm him, but they’re only a chilling reminder of why he’s doing this. “Will I be allowed to return then?” Luo Binghe had said yes, but if he changed the terms, there isn’t much Shen Qingqiu could do to stop him.

“Would you prefer to stay? I would love to keep you here.”

“No.” That’s all he’s going to say. He can’t undo all the work he did by telling him the prospect of being with him a second longer terrifies him.

“Too bad. Sleep then. I will bring you back tomorrow morning.”

It won’t end like this. It would be too easy. “When will I see you again?”

“Whenever I feel like it. I expect it won’t be too long before I have you again.”

Shen Qingqiu won’t be sleeping tonight, not with this threat looming over him.

Or he wouldn’t if odd fatigue wasn’t coming over him, pulling his eyelids closed and his limbs down both into the bed and into Luo Binghe’s embrace.

His last conscious thought is that Luo Binghe is very warm.

[jin-guang-ow]

/bangs on your door tell us more about moshang 🌟

Anon, I don’t even know what to tell you???

oR WHERE TO BEGIN???? ahahahahahahahahahaahahaha

Listen, I just like my two lonely boys and I want them to be soft and happy… uwu

Here’s some MoShang headcanons, but I always wonder if some of them are too fluffy??? haha

Shang QingHua is a morning person while MoBei Jun is a night person. SQH often times has to help MBJ wake up and get ready, and MBJ often times has to carry a sleepy SQH to bed.

It doesn’t matter what au/time/etc., MBJ always gives his coat/outer layer/scarf/gloves/undying love to SQH to warm him up.

MoBei Jun secretly loves dogs (they’re loyal, listen to orders, etc.) and keeps a fair amount in the north with him. At first, Shang QingHua is super put off by them. The dogs are all large and generally quite aggressive towards him! Needless to say, SQH hides from them, even to the point of climbing on MBJ! This goes on for quite a while, until SQH finds the adorable puppies that are currently being trained. He can’t help but spoil the puppies!!! They’re really too cute!!! He uses this time to make sure the dogs will love him when they grow up, and even trains them to give him kisses. Of course, the next time he comes to visit the dogs are much bigger and rush to greet him first. MBJ prepares himself to “protect” SQH, but SQH rushes ahead first to hug all the good boys.

“Dawang!! Come here!! Kisses!!!”

“…”

“Ah, no, not you Dawang�� this guy here. See he kind of looks like you, so I called him ‘Dawang’… but don’t take it the wrong way! It’s just because he’s the handsomest of the bunch! See, look at him! Such a handsome boy!”

SQH tries to show MBJ the dog’s face, but he’d already left. The shock was too much. The embarrassment was too much. For the rest the of day SQH tried to explain his thinking behind it, but everytime he does, MBJ’s face darkens and he leaves… MBJ later lets him know that the dog’s real name is Xiao Hei. SQH only feels guilt that he passed his terrible naming skills on to MBJ.

Xiao Hei is super protective over SQH, and follows him around everywhere. It’s even to the point where they sleep together, and, of course, SQH welcomes it since the north is so cold. MBJ is utterly jealous, but won’t admit it to himself yet. He only allows it because SQH is so happy…

MBJ actually likes all types of animals (a true “animals are better than humans” type person), but only keeps dogs because he was betrayed by cats… The old showing-the-belly trap got him as a child, and he could never forgive cats for the rest of his life (at least enough to keep them as pets…)

SQH quite likes cats. He later starts to think MBJ is actually kind of resembles a cat…

I hc a mutual pining between the two. They just both feel that the other couldn’t like them? Right? Right??? RIGHT?????? So it takes them a while to get together even if they realize their strong they have strong feelings for the other…

There definitely has to be a point where MBJ really thinks SQH likes LBH. There’s just a way that SQH gets lost staring at LBH, and whenever LBH helps him his face lights up in a way MBJ doesn’t see often… or at all… orz This leads to a really long and drawn out phase of jealous MBJ trying to prove he’s better than LBH to SQH!!!

MBJ would really take SQH to all these really awesome and beautiful places so can battle all these extremely strong and rare creatures to show how powerful he is. Whenever MBJ presents SQH their dead bodies, he really can’t help but think this demon lord is too much like a cat… ah, do you really need to rub in how weak I am? Yes, my king, you really are such a good hunter! Should I also pet your head?! (SQH is all snarky, but we all know he clung to MBJ, crying, whenever something truly scary showed up.)

Plan A kind of worked??? But didn’t??? So MBJ decides to instead give him tons of lavish and rare gifts… mostly in the form of clothes as human customs would dictate… according to LBH (I really need that anime scene of the character doing orz with a spotlight on them, but it’s Mobei Jun crying about having to ask BingBing, his ‘rival’, for help haha). SQH really… doesn’t care about them so much, though. It isn’t until he’s gifted a cloak made from the fur of some xx creature that has the property of keeping the wearer really warm! He’s really touched, “My king, you really do care for me???”… of course he doesn’t say that! What, is he an idiot? But, maybe, he just so happens to have a small tear escape his eyes. 

DOES HE HATE IT THAT MUCH??? MBJ is destroyed and doesn’t appear in front of SQH for a while…

SQH finds out much later what caused all these events from an angry SQQ who doesn’t want to see MBJ again. He can’t exactly explain that he was just touched his son, LBH, would still help him out, or that he really wants to know how LBH got lead astray from being the perfect Stallion novel hero to a sad puppy dog seme???

My last one that I will share today is that Mobei Jun will very softly call out “Qinghua” whenever he feels completely in love with SQH uwu