#him and lived experiences and etc. but it doesn’t feel like a code he has to abide by or a list of commandments for himself

[designernishiki]

I will maybe make a bigger post at some point about other characters’ dnd classes but. thought about it. kiryu would be a battlemaster fighter multiclassed into oath of vengeance paladin. end of statement

[ecoterrorist-katara]

Zutara, romance novels, and the female gaze

Okay so I’ve been thinking about the female gaze a LOT so I checked out a subreddit about romance novels, despite never having read one. I came across this meme (which was initially a Tumblr post and then got posted to Instagram and then to Reddit and I’m now bringing back to Tumblr — Internet telephone, pls never change):

And…what is The Southern Raiders, if not a platonic grovel? Katara’s pain is central to the episode. It’s central to Zuko. Zuko asks Katara what he can do to make up for his betrayal; she demands the impossible. He reads between the lines, cockblocks her brother to get the necessary information, and then waits outside her door overnight (which he also did for Iroh, the one person we know for sure he loves). He basically makes himself a receptacle for her rage, and he holds space for her by coming with her on her revenge quest and carrying their bags and not saying a damn thing about what she should and should not do beyond like…asking her to rest. And obviously the grovel works! She forgives him and then they’re thick as thieves, bantering and fighting and saving each other’s lives, etc.

On a different note, I’ve been told that enemies to lovers is one of the biggest tropes in romance novels, similar to YA lit and fanfic. Here’s something else I found in the romance novel discourse:

And…yeah. In TSR, Katara really does show Zuko her worst self, because she doesn’t feel the need to perform for him. She doesn’t feel the need to perform moral perfection OR cold blooded vengeance. She bloodbends in front of him and he just goes with it. She doesn’t kill Yon Rha and he just goes with it. He doesn’t treat her any differently afterwards. Maybe they talk about it off screen, but I kind of like the idea that they don’t, because Katara doesn’t need to explain anything. And it’s so interesting, because some people in the ATLA fandom have a totally different read on TSR. They think Zuko was encouraging Katara to get revenge (by what, keeping his mouth shut?), and that Aang is the one who acts as her moral compass. I believe that either Bryan or Mike said in the DVD commentary that Aang is the angel on her shoulder the entire time. And this interpretation does make sense if you see it from the male gaze, where Katara as an object of affection is acting in an angry, irrational, threatening way. But if you see it from the female gaze, you recognize that actually it’s probably the most emotionally taxing experience Katara has to go through, and she doesn’t owe it to be nice or perfect to anybody. Katara’s formative trauma literally comes to a head, and she has to make a decision — no, a discovery — about who she is in relation to the tragedy that defines her life and even her identity (as a waterbender, as a parentified child who becomes the mom friend, as a genocide victim), and she’s accompanied by someone who trusts her judgement and validates her feelings.

I’m not saying TSR is explicitly romantically coded, but when it conforms so well to romance novel tropes…is it any wonder that so many people thought “yes this is her man?” And then he takes lightning in the heart for her and reaches for her when he’s literally dying, I will never be normal about that either

[libraryofjaspermoore]

Introductions

Hello! I am Jasper Moore, Head Librarian at the Usher Foundation in Washington, D.C. For nearly 26 years, I have had the honor of maintaining the Foundation’s vast Special Collections and making the history they hold available to the public. This blog is a place for me to share my interests, both pertaining to academia and personal. Feel free to ask me any questions! I am very friendly.

However, I do have two rules and a disclaimer that I ask you read before sending any mail my way.

1.) Please do not ask me about my former employer. I was not involved with his library nor did I conduct any of the experiments which led to....unforeseen consequences for any assistants involved. I was simply his in-house bookbinder, and sometimes did mending, if the book needing mending didn't try to eat me first. 

2.) If you are a student, a member of the public, or coworker who has interacted with me personally, please do not ask about my throat. No, I do not have a skin condition. No, I was not caught in buckshot spray. They are not scars, the holes. They are doors. They are part of me. Do not ask. It is rude to yell into open windows.

3.) I am not affiliated with the Magnus Institute. I made a statement back in the 90s regarding the circumstances of my former employer and that's the extent of it.

If those three rules are respected, I guarantee we will get along just fine!

Supplemental information under the cut!

About Me/Blog Info:

hi hello my name is bones (they/them) and this is an in-character blog for my old man TMA oc! he literally wouldn't leave me alone until I made this so!!! here it is!!!

this is...kinda sorta an rp blog in the sense the asks will be answered in character as Jasper. probably won't do much actual structured roleplaying

IMPORTANT! I am unfortunately american and prone to rushing responses without researching british-isms. please forgive me thx

Asks: This blog is open to asks of any nature! You can be horny (within reason) about this old man with bugs living inside him but he will not reciprocate srry

Jasper does have prior experience dealing with the institute but doesn’t know anybody personally. Though canon characters and ocs that work there/are affiliated are welcome to send asks.

Please just use common sense when interacting. 

Universe:

I imagine this universe is vaguely around s1-2. The shit has not yet hit the fan in the way we all know it eventually will so everything is uncomfortably ok

OC Information Speedrun:

55 

he/him

queer

faceclaim: alfred molina (specifically his appearance as the bishop in the da vinci code)

worked under jurgen leitner in his 20s; gave a statement about the library going up in flames to the institute and his employment

touched by the corruption; started seeing dead bugs in his flat and no matter how many times he cleaned or put traps down or used products they kept turning up. just one or two in the same spot every morning. started losing sleep thinking he had an infestation, knew they were alive and scuttling around somewhere in the dark; talked to coworkers who said they just exist in the home, a seasonal thing etc etc; everyone kept saying he just had to accept them.; so he did. by becoming a human vacuum cleaner. 

kept eating bugs; feeling the corpses reanimate inside him, stick to his esophagus (he sounds he’s smoked twenty packs a day since he was born), ribs, and stomach; has concentrated clusters of holes in those areas

literally ate the entire infestation before being able to leave his flat; immediately moved out of the country and began working at the usher foundation

hasn’t…lost himself. he has accepted the insects inside him and they are really chill for some reason and is able to live his life with only the teeniest tiniest urge to get on all fours and graze the carpet like a cow

[sntafe]

i want to know more about your davey. what makes him tick! what music do you think he’d listen to! what are his pastimes and hobbies and what makes him like them so much!! PLEASEEE rant about your davey i love him!!

- @we-are-inevitable ✨

OH MY GOD. YES. OKAY. you just opened pandora’s box you have no clue. (btw most of this is based on my tattoo au although a lot of this stuff is just stuff i have connected to davey no matter the au)

okay. so. my davey is a high school english teacher and i think something that makes him really upset is when he sees his good students start skipping, not paying attention, etc. while i don’t think this would make him tick per say, i do think it would def make him anxious and on edge. he would absolutely come home and rant to jack about how he doesn’t know what he’s doing wrong and how he’s worried about them and how he wishes he can do more but all he is an english teacher. (and jack would assure him that he’s doing more than enough and just being there and noticing these things is all some kids need) (but davey would def pull them aside in class and just talk to them like they’re humans bc he knows some teachers treat their students as children and they hate that. so he will just talk and try to pick their brains and help them in literally whatever way he can)

MUSIC. okay so davey definitely tries a TON of different genres simply because he is curious and he wants to hear it all. (he wants to experience every bit of life that he can and that includes different genres of music.) at the end of the day tho he’s a slut for sad queer indie pop: hozier, lucy dacus, and kevin atwater are his favs. (i could go on a whole different rant about how davey coded some of kevin atwater’s songs are but i’ll refrain for now.) he grew up listening to billy joel and still listens to him when he’s feeling particularly nostalgic or homesick. the album “the stranger” is one of his favorites in the entire world. his parents had it on record, and one year in middle school for his birthday he was gifted a record player, so he was playing that shit NONSTOP. to read to, to study to, to hangout to, etc. les used to come and sit in davey's room while he was doing domestic tasks, like cleaning or homework, so les now has attached that album to davey. (they get a tattoo for vienna, their fav song on the album—davey gets “slow down, you’re doing fine” on his left forearm and les gets “you can’t be everything you wanna be before your time” on his right forearm) (done by jack of course)

jack listens to more alternative stuff, and although it’s not something davey listens to on his own, he finds himself humming along to the pierce the veil and green day songs on jack’s playlist 

as far as hobbies and stuff, obviously he reads. he’s always been an avid reader because he loves to get lost in other worlds and he likes to learn about things that he otherwise wouldn’t have had the opportunity to. he gets into reading slumps around midterms and finals because he’s grading sooooo many papers but like as SOON as that’s over he falls back into finishing a novel in a couple days and he absolutely loves it. it’s just so… refreshing in a way. (sometimes, when he’s particularly missing jack, he’ll go and just sit at the tattoo shop and read. he’s content to simply be in the same space with jack and he also loves sneaking glimpses of jack working.)

he also absolutely loves to cook. he grew up often helping his mother in the kitchen, so he’s sort of always loved it. once he moved out and began living by himself he found a whole new appreciation for it. it’s his way to decompress at the end of the day and … in a way food is his language?? like he will make meals based on what he’s feeling. if he’s really happy he doesn’t mind making something that takes a while. it’ll be bright and fresh. if he’s had a particularly rough day though, he’ll throw something frozen in the oven and call it a day. (over time, jack slowly realizes this, and can gauge what davey needs based on what he says they’re having for dinner. for example; if davey’s just making something frozen, jack will give him an extra long hug and force him to take a hot shower in order to relax. jack often takes over “cooking” on these days)

don’t even play on his animal crossing island. he likes the domestic video games with goals that he can take at any speed simply because they’re relaxing and cozy. he loves making his island all organized and pretty 

meanwhile jack is like begging for the switch to play mario kart 

thank you for letting me rant GOD I LOVE DAVID JACOBS if there’s anything else you want me to yap about PLEASE ask!!!

@we-are-inevitable :)

[cataschism-moving]

What is Beth’s sense of justice? Just what is her moral compass like? And where does that come from? Does she see the world fairly or unfairly? Can she see shades of grey? Or do things come in black and white (is or is not)?

And random, but what does she think of the Butterfly Effect? Does she even like butterflies?

@pavlovianpanic          /           character development questions, unprompted. Let’s break these down individually.

What is Beth’s sense of justice?

Beth’s sense of justice revolves around two key factors: that you are obligated to others to always be honest, and you must always stand up for them, within the bounds of honesty. For example, if by some odd turn of events Beth and Nathan were friends, she would defend him to others. But never to the extent of saying he didn’t assault girls, because he did, and doing so would be dishonest. That’s why she was so angry with Mike, partially.

Beth believes that all moral compasses and such like are best kept simple, straightforward and blunt, with as little room for interpretation as possible. Honesty and integrity (or loyalty). That’s what she believes in.

Just what is her moral compass like?

Firm. I think Beth has some sociopathic traits like a lack of empathy or a very seriously limited pool of empathy, anger issues and some recklessness. (More like starting fights than sensory-seeking self harm traits—I think part of this is due to the fact that her siblings are her world and if they hurt themselves, she’d be destroyed. Totally inconsolable.)

So I think because of that it’s very important to Beth that she stay incredibly steadfast in her worldview and the codes within. It’s kind of impossible for Beth that, once she finds a loophole, she can’t not take it. I feel like she’s similar to Josh in that way. Like if something doesn’t make sense, she won’t do it, which is why she’s so cookie cutter in her morals and refuses to bypass them by making them succinct.

I think it’s why she wants to go into research, where she finds the theories, experiments, and writes her own dissertations. Beth is very “If you do x, Y happens.” even if Y doesn’t happen all the time, Y happens every time for Beth, either because of a placebo effect, her own doing, or natural consequence. “If I don’t check on Hannah, nobody will.” “If I don’t see Josh today, I’ll cry.” You know. So I think her moral compass is: succinct, pure, basic and clear. I think if you do anything that harms your honesty or integrity, she basically hates you. 

And where does that come from?

Opposite of her dad, I think. From what you’ve analyzed and wrote about Bob, I think she pretty much loathes their dad for even reasons she doesn’t fully comprehend. I think it’s a total gut instinct, uncanny valley situation she’s got with Bob. You have another question about their parents in another ask, so I’ll save a full ramble for then.

This is getting long, so the rest will be under the cut.

Does she see the world fairly or unfairly?

Fairly, I think, for the most part. I think Beth knows she’s pretty abnormal due to her sociopathic tendencies, and so tries to see the world pragmatically and optimistically to avoid dulling herself even more. But then it also depends on her AU, if she’s the sole survivor, if they all live, etc. But I think Beth pre-all that wants to see the world fairly. And so abides by strict rules to see it that way as well as make herself behave a way she views as “fair.” 

An additional reason she thinks Bob is slimy, if just for associating in an industry where integrity is basically nonexistent. Even cohabitating with people who break her honesty and integrity rules mean you break them in her head, so she’s pretty mad at him a lot.

She’d probably hate Nate if she knew details. She’d definitely hate Sean.

Can she see shades of grey? Or do things come in black and white (is or is not)? 

She tries not to. As above, if there’s loopholes or room for rules to be broken, they’re not rules and she won’t follow them. Expectations of behavior do nothing; guidelines of behavior mean nothing either. She can if you hold a gun to her head, but she hates it.

Truthfully, if she saw Josh’s game in UD, she’d probably be so furious that he broke the rules of honesty and integrity by lying and faking his death etc, that she’d. I don’t know. I was gonna say hate him? But I don’t think she could. She’d just simmer. Very similarly to how she does with their father. Because how could you? In Beth’s eyes, those are the only two rules. Hannah was good at them; sincere and truthful, believing everyone at face value. She’s naive, sure, but she had integrity.

Josh lost that integrity after they die, and if Beth knew, she wouldn’t know how or what to feel. I think she’d be pretty betrayed, but beyond that, it’d feel like she was looking at a stranger possessing her brother’s body.

And random, but what does she think of the Butterfly Effect? 

I don’t think Beth totally accurately understands what the butterfly effect is, truthful with you. “A butterfly’s wing flapping turns into a tornado a city over,” is like. She’s like, no? What the fuck? Are you dumb?? I think if she heard the actual explanation, a small change can have big consequences, yes. Absolutely. But usually she just thinks it’s dumb. 

Does she even like butterflies?

She does, she probably thought they were like, okay? And then Hannah got a tattoo of one of them and she liked them a lot more due to them being related to Hannah, but probably didn’t care much prior. 

And I think in her survivor aus except for everyone lives, she pins them and puts up on the wall. Why? Some amount of “never again,” as in she’ll never let what happened to Hannah happen again and she will not let herself turn into a monster, dually; as well as having some morbid fascination with dead butterflies knowing her sister with her tattoo is also dead. I think on her social media pages she usually has a butterfly profile picture of one of her pinned butterflies, or had one artistically painted of a butterfly dying in a kind of explosive, struck by golden light way. I think in her survivor aus, she definitely holds the sun as some kind of gift. After all, in those, she did survive……………………………….until dawn, badum tss.

[44-lost-at-sea-ucjau-44]

So I have a new CCCC AU that I know I will be autismposting about so here is the general everything about it……:

-This is apart of my “Lost at Sea” AU canon, and the AU is called Highest Honour (…which is a crossover AU. I just can’t help myself dudes)

-Heart spends a lot of time in his room due to being compromised in a lot of his body (he has underdeveloped bones/muscles + recovering atrophied muscle) and the fact that time is weird in the Mindscape

-The Mindscape is actually a physical place in the Mortal Plane; it’s an island far off the coast of Long Island where a bunch of humans decided to vibe in and live in because it’s a nice cosy little urban-with-the-odd-whimsical-rural space and it’s just a nice place

-There is no supernatural besides the only three instances of halves in this universe (Heart and Mind obv being the only fully notable ones) and the Mindscape (mostly)

-Disincluding the afterlives but that’s more just me adding that into the canon for comfort than it actually being relevant. It’s basically just Frutiger Aero for people who tried their best and reincarnation (with dharma) if you’re a bad person

-The Mindscape is run by Soul primarily but Heart and Mind have some influence of it due to essentially just being segments of Soul’s consciousness taking humanoid forms, and all three of them are in-charge of keeping things running

-Literally no one cares that there is blatantly obvious extreme supernatural going on right here. Like you’d think there’d be scientists and experiments going on? Nah it’s chill

-In this AU there’s a character that’s an anthropomorphic fox and they have a fully human family they’re just a fox for literally no reason and it’s never explained and no one cares. That’s kinda the vibes of this AU tbh

-Heart is highly adept in woodworking, as well as clay-sculpting/ceramics, coding, sewing, and photography, all of which he uses to assist in his personal stuffy self-playtime. More on that here

-Heart is NOT an innocent little cutesy child in this AU. He had no childhood. He just exists. At one point, he was a cluster of neurons that only existed to feel emotions, and that’s all he did. At now point, he’s a living breathing creature in a situation he’d give anything not to be in. He never got to be a kid; and yet everyone still downplays him for being childish. Being a kid for himself in his own company helps him reclaim that part of him that is seriously lost

-Also pssssst Mind’s the same way but he hides it from Soul 🤫 he secretly plays with Heart in Heart’s room with him together (see: same fic as before)

-Also this is still a “Heart and Mind hate each other” AU they’re just brothers both in a bad situation they never asked to be in and they do care about each other deep down as much as they struggle with participating in genuine affection for one another, but it’s hard bc in so many of the loops they have a powerful instinct to hate one another due to Soul’s own self-hatred.

-Naturally, when you hate yourself, your halves would hate themselves and each other, too. After all, they ARE your consciousness, just blown into the shapes of people and forming individual consciousness and separate souls. Heart and Mind have strong instincts rooted into them based off of Soul’s subconscious, for example: Having intrusive thoughts based off of odd dreams Soul doesn’t remember, having motivation to do things that Soul daydreams about, having the same muscle memory as Soul (even for things that they have literally never even done nor heard of before], referring to Soul’s parents as “[(mum)]” and “[(dad)]” reflexively (dw, Soul’s parents accept Heart and Mind as if they were Soul’s littler brothers and do not mind their existence at all, Soul has good parents in this AU!], when Soul is especially confident Heart and Mind get easily flustered and blushy around things that remind them of Soul (self-love!], etc.

-Soul is NOT traumatised in this AU, well at least not in-terms of his childhood. He had good loving parents, went to a good school, had good family, good friends, good community, he’s just always struggled with mental illness and dissonance. Love Interest leaving after he finally thought his life had purpose after struggling relentlessly in adulthood broke his consciousness so hard that he split into three, created a magical brain island, and got trapped in a time loop, forced to relive the pain of that moment and its long aftermath forever and ever, for all of eternity. It’s unknown if something can break the loops, becoming “Whole” doesn’t actually work and actually just resets the loop as soon as it crumbles (HMS2 can’t die permanently) and starts right back up again. They’ve been at this at MINIMUM a few thousand times.

-Soul can retain certain objects and consistencies between loops but it tanks a lot of energy from him and he fears if he tries to hold on to too much at once, it may severely damage him for the loop; so he tries to limit what he brings between loops.

-Heart and Mind are EXTREMELY creature in this AU. Like so creature. They have very good senses of smell, extremely good senses of taste, don’t properly fall asleep, have globs of accumulated blood functioning as “[(organs)]”, their nails are extremely durable and sharpen under stress or adrenaline, are composed ENTIRELY out of nerve cells, Mind is an AI and has all kinds of odd rob-iology [a fan that activates when he’s feverish, USB ports in his neck, clockwork for a heart, etc.], acidic blood that digests whatever it touches, animal-like hands, etc. There is literally no reason for them to be such creature they just. Are. Cos why not?

-Also they really really really REALLY enjoy raw meat…… mmmmmm……

-Soul Two is canon to this AU btw. They’re Soul’s reflection that sprouted to life after longing conversations with the mirror that Soul kept having. Soul Two crawled out ring style and Soul probably would’ve needed a new pair of pants, but as it turns out Soul Two’s actually a really chill dude and, being the complete antithesis to Soul, just a regular, mundane, fully stable and unremarkable guy. They and Soul had a few drinks and played some Smash Bros, sang some bad karaoke and then Soul Two went on their merry way to become a Target manager. During the loops, Soul Two came back, and now assists Soul in managing the Mindscape. They are also the only person who has a similar amount of power to Soul.

-In-terms of the Mindscape’s aesthetic, picture a cold, humid, cosy moonlit city with black-sanded beaches and dark grass, a big downtown area with the occasional more-urban-than-sub suburban regions. Some odd segments here and there, like a medicine-based forest (IV drip trees, syringe weeds, saline solution ponds, etc.), a colossal room almost looking like something out a fairytale with gargantuan shelves, bookcases, furniture, etc., grassy hills by a moonlit field where sleepless cows graze all day, never reproducing, never being hunted, etc. HMS2 live in a lighthouse by the bay and do typical lighthouse duties on-top of everything else, tho usually Two handles those as Two just can’t get enough of selling their soul to labour for the public.

-And more!

Stay tuned…… mweheheheheh……

[nalyra-dreaming]

Different anon, but I think it depends on the case. Some people really feel the need the assign feminine and masculine roles to them, who is the husband, wife, mother, father etc and I do think that's problematic. I also see some people calling their relationship patriarchal and I still don't get the thought process? But calling characters mother or babygirl, for example, those are technically feminine terms, but people use it in a neutral way and as a meme. It doesn't necessarily mean treating them as women. Also, gender is a spectrum and it doesn't always match people's ideas of how someone looks, dresses, behaves etc. I think vampires are all above these stereotypes, they live forever, gender roles change over time and they'll embrace and reject some of it based on how they feel. They'll never fully reproduce entirely masculine/feminine traits, but it will vary according to the moment. And maybe some would indeed identify as trans, something under the non-binary umbrella or just overall refuse labels. I see Lestat as an androgynous man, or an androgynous person, I don't see him as someone who really cares about labels, I think he just is. But he would probably admit he's mostly masc-aligned and yet has some strong feminine interests/traits too? Anyway, people has different takes on it, including queer people. I believe it's okay if people make HCs to feel better, because representation sucks, so if that warms their heart in a way, be it. I'm gender-fluid and personally don't think it makes a difference unless the character is really coded that way (like, apparently Gabrielle is, but they don't use any labels?), and I see Lestat mostly as an androgynous/gender nonconforming/fluid/fuck the rules I'll do what I want and I love defying the norms kind of dude, but a woman is unrealistic to me. But we know HCs aren't actual canon either, I guess. /lh /nm

Headcanons are totally fine and valid, and it is also just natural that we being our own experiences to the cases, and that we want to see ourselves reflected, too.

I just find the need for shoving them into boxes and then hating on whoever doesn’t align with those boxes a bit ludicrous.

In any case I have the feeling that Gabrielle will be a whole different kind of discourse 😩

[merasiph]

[runs up to you and holds a microphone terrifyingly close to your face] HELLLO HI YES HEY HOWDY HELLO COULD YOU SPARE SOME THOUGHTS ON THE STREAM TONIGHT BECAUSE IM SCROLLING THROUGH YOUR REBLOGS AND YOUR TAGS ARE SO INCREDIBLY BASED

HOWDY i know you from one of my sideblogs and you are very cool very based too. i’m not gonna lie this was the first charlie stream i’ve ever caught live simply because of timezones and MAN the experience is so different with a live chat, knowing i’m losing my shit along with everyone else.

i’m sure it’s been said but charlie’s just. the perfect target for the code. he’s already kinda isolated and is only just getting used to growing close to others again. wasn’t around for the gegg arc but i assume charlie still has yet to feel accepted for himself and not as gegg, so there’s that too. and on a meta level, he’s missed a lot of stuff esp to do with the federation and all (me too tho), so he definitely doesn’t know what he’s getting into with all the code stuff even if he was around for code chayanne and tallulah. and. like. his willingness to do absolutely anything to get flippa back, to just be around her is gonna play likely a huge role in not only isolating him from others but maybe also turning him against them, or at least getting charlie to be willing to do harm to other qsmpers. the code has something up its little ones-and-zeroes sleeves and i do not like it one bit.

also apart from the lore progression itself, charlie’s acting was SO good. like i did know prior that he can cry on demand but it doesn’t make the impact any less. i’m quite sure he was crying towards the end of the stream and. man. me when emotions. he also built up the suspense really well, like when the lights first started going off and all i got genuinely scared. his character’s cluelessness really played up the audience’s fear of the unknown i do think.

and just. oughg. slimey goopy guy feelings. it was a really good stream and quite a solid one to be my first ever live charlie stream, but it did leave me very much distraught and desolate. my heart is in pieces, crying sobbing etc. seeing the chat live was wonderful though, and the rest of the stream was really sweet. i hope charlie has the best birthday after putting on an insane performance for all of us at an even insaner hour.

[youre-scaring-the-kids]

still thinking about Sinners

Warning for Spoilers>>>

I’ve watched that movie four times now and have been watching so many commentary videos on how and why this movie is soooo good, but something I feel hasn’t been discussed is how this movie affirms vampire lore.

We as a society have such a morbid fascination with the human monster which you can see in our horror movies. Vampires, ghosts, zombies, etc - monsters that look like us, that were us, or copy us. There is a lot of narrative potential in these monsters, and I do not at all blame people who romanticise them. But by doing so, you elevate them to a fetish and whitewash their nature to justify breaking all the rules. They are interesting, but they are originally evil monsters that people had real fear for.

Ryan Coogler brings back those old vampire rules in his narrative through the context of race. When white people intrude on black spaces, it is no longer a space for black people. When a vampire intrudes on human spaces, it is no longer a space for humans. When Remmick shows up to the white couples door, they don’t recognise him for the monster he is because he looks just like them. And Remmick being a manipulative parasite, knows this. He code-switches in this movie constantly, and it seems to serve him well. If he’s been around long enough to remember when the Christians showed up to Ireland, he is over a thousand years old. Who’s to say this is the first time he’s invaded a minority space to take advantage of their oppression. He’s a human monster not only in his appearance but in his yearning too. He wants to return to his people and his culture, but at the expense of the cultural integrity of others. The Choctaw pursued him in the beginning - and paired with Annie’s opening monologue of storytellers in the beginning, I think it’s relevant that she mentions the firekeepers of Choctaw culture. They probably clocked his ass just as Smoke did when he showed up at the juke joint.

Coogler is reminding us the significance of opening your door and letting someone in, no matter how much they claim to be your ally. Remmick offered unity and family, but because of the efforts of the Smokestack twins, Sammie, Annie, and all the other partygoers just trying to put the joint together, he doesn’t realise that they already had that. They built it themselves. They had more to offer than he did, and they were all aware of it. His bribes died at the door. That Remmick’s persuasion tugged at so many audience members sympathies should be a sign that we are no better than the white couple who fell for his pleas. I’ve heard so many people comment that Remmick was right, or that he’s doing atrocious things but for understandable reasons, but none have considered that Sammie’s ardently black voice would only be able to reach out to HIS people and not Remmick’s. Is the sympathy justified then? How much does he have to take before people realise he was doing no one any favors? How many cultures do you think Remmick appropriated that ultimately lead to more erasure? Culture is closed thing to immortality that humans got. The vampire has nothing to offer that the living don’t already have.

And what masterful storytelling, Ryan Coogler using his experience as a black man and the history of black erasure in America to demonstrate what’s at stake if you welcome strangers into your house over cheap gifts and false smiles. Are you ready to lose your home because you let the wrong one in? He’s reminding us why we should fear the vampire, no matter how familiar or friendly. No matter how much that monster misses home, you can’t let him take yours.

[queats]

So. Mcog Colour analysis:

Esteban - white:

* purity, innocence: lived hidden from the world in religious setting + he’s a child so yeah purity. Untainted by life. And innocence cause he’s got no experience of the outside world and He’s young

* Simplicity and minimalism: lived with monks, simple life, doesn’t ask for much, doesn’t take up much space, can barely tell he’s there

* Symbol of truth: wants to know what’s real, what’s the truth, searches for answers

* too perfect, or too artificial: made into mythological figure, needs to be perfect, seen as different from everyone else

* knowledge, learning: spends quest learning about himself and the world, where he comes from, learns about Mu and Atlantis heritage, wanting to know more is what led him to go on the adventure

* morality: has strong moral code, values human life, understands good from bad, acts as mendoza’s moral compass

* freedom: leaves monastery in search for answers, gains freedom to do what he wants, no one decides for him, golden condor gives certain freedom of going anywhere, without being restrained by natural forces; gravity, time, etc

Zia - orange:

* passion, power: passionate about certain causes, like helping people, is very powerful/strong emotionally, also has many magical powers (mental ones)

* Joy, confidence: has fun often, laughs a lot, very confident even though the circumstances, is confident enough to call Mendoza out for his lies, also easily lies herself to salvage a situation

* Adventure: eager to follow her friends to different countries, enjoys the thrill of adventure (like in that scene with Mendoza)

* Sociability, positivity, optimistic: very social, gets along with everyone, tries to include everyone (ex: Isabella), makes friends, tries to understand everyone’s motivations, notices when someone’s upset (ex: Mendoza), reads people easily, sees things on bright side, doesn’t get discouraged easily

* Spirituality, meditation, compassion: gets wisdom from father, is seen praying/meditating to the night sky, spiritual connection is important to her, traditions and beliefs, very compassionate to most people

* Courageous: believes the prophecy won’t let her down, not afraid of the cities being destroyed because she knows she won’t be harmed, can stand up for what’s right, helps other people overcome fears (ex: Esteban)

* Unique: has certain powers/abilities no one has, thinks she’s strange and weird, is the only inca wherever she goes, also only girl in team

Tao - yellow:

* Betrayal, deceit, dishonesty: feels betrayed by closest people (Esteban, Mendoza, Ambrosius), overly suspicious at times, hates being lied to

* Idealism: puts his ancestors on high pedestal, idealizes them, which is why he sees Esteban as his enemy (because he’s from Atlantis )

* Imagination, creativity: makes new inventions to solve problems, sees things in different ways, comes up with solutions to riddles

* Philosophy, intellect: very smart, sees things from analytical point of view, can get absorbed in work or carried away, understands world is not black and white

* Jealousy: jealous of Esteban and Zia, doesn’t understand why he’s not chosen despite being Mu, feels left out, wants to be useful and belong

* Hope, friendship: cares deeply about his friends, turns them into new family, wants to spend time with them and teach them about Mu, hopes that he can spread his knowledge, hope in future; builds new order

* Energy: moves a lot, energetic, athletic due to living in trees

* Self-esteem: Was tricked, does not believe in himself, feels like he needs to attain certain standards, needs to be useful or else he does not belong, thinks he’s a failure

Mendoza - blue:

* Ocean, sky: sea captain, wishes for adventure on the ocean, navigation relies on night sky and stars, is at home on the sea

* Serenity, stability, reliability: keeps calm composure, shows that his friends can rely on him

* Wisdom: often teaches Esteban how to deal with difficult emotions, like anxiety, also teaches the children about navigation and the places they visit

* Intuition: understands situations immediately, can see where event is heading, gut feeling often helps him, strong instincts, can feel when something is strange/off, understands people’s hidden intentions

* Sadness, depression, loneliness: pushes others away, fends for himself, can feel deep sadness but keep it to himself, closed off to world, few friends and no family (season 1), has to focus on gold to keep his mind off the sadness (?), survival mechanism

* Contentment, spiritual development: starts off only caring about gold, slowly opens up to children, learns to love, able to ask himself questions to understand what he want wants in life, content with his actions, knows he made right decision, finds and fulfills purpose

* Icy, distant, cold: detached, does not want to connect to others, shows little empathy or emotion, hides true feelings, does not share personal details about life

* Truth: never lies to children even when it might benefit him (seasons 2-3-4), answers Esteban’s questions truthfully, gives Esteban the opportunity to find out for himself what happened to his father

* Responsibility, fidelity, trust, security: takes responsibility for actions, responsible for group, acts as leader, even when his intentions aren’t clear, shows that he’s still on the children’s side, wants children to trust him and slowly gains their trust, always loyal to his team even when betraying them could give him personal gain, children feel safe around him, trusts children as well

* Dedication, bravery: dedicated to cause (ex: freeing workers in India, stopping the meteor from hitting the earth), still fights Zarès knowing he won’t win, puts life in danger to save others

[miss-oranje-disco-dancer]

nsfw alphabet with chris

A is for aftercare - Chris is big into cuddling. He wants to wrap you up in his arms and fall asleep with you like that. However, he would insist on carrying you to the bathroom first because you should always pee after sex!

B is for body part - His dick is big, but he’s kind of shy about it. He's worried it will hurt you (and it might - but if it did, he’d stop or insist on going slower). As for you, he likes an ass that’s smackable (aka all asses!). 

C is for cum - Chris wants his partner to cum first, but there’s a secret trick to making him cum first if you want that to happen - tell him you want him to cum inside you and it exponentially speeds things up. It’s literally a cheat code. If he did cum first (I feel like he has a somewhat longer refractory period, especially when he gets older), he would still make sure you cum. Maybe his dick is soft now and he can’t fuck you for a bit, but that means it’s the perfect time to go down on you!

D is for dirty secret -  I’ve said this before and I’ll say it again: when Chris was younger, they didn’t have the internet at home and he couldn’t just go out and rent videotapes or buy playboys because he was living with his parents growing up, so he used to jerk off to hot ladies in infomercials (and also the Sears catalog). If Flo from Progressive was around at the time, he would’ve been beating off to her. 

E is for experience - Chris does not have as much experience as you’d think. He can fuck, so you might expect that he’s experienced, but actually he’s only gotten it on with a few girls and a few guys over the years.

F is for favorite position - He thinks he likes to fuck from you behind until he’s introduced to the mating press and he becomes addicted to it. That’s not to say that you would never end up pressed face-first into the mattress because he would be into that too.

G is for goofy (serious or silly during sex) - Chris doesn’t joke around during sex, at least, not intentionally. But occasionally, something stupid will happen (ex. he’ll knock something over by accident in the heat of the moment) and you’ll end up laughing with him (or maybe a little bit at him).

H is for hair - Naturally, he is a hairy guy, but he trims - and not only down there, he also trims his chest hair.

I is for intimacy - He needs intimacy, and that’s one of the reasons that he doesn’t get around as much. He has a hard time having meaningless sex, and would rather wait to be in a relationship or at least go on a couple dates before sleeping with someone.

J is for jack off - He does it more than you'd think. But, he doesn’t always do it out of horniness. He’d do it to destress (and sometimes even out of boredom).

K is for kink - As I mentioned before, serious breeding kink. If you let him cum inside you, he’d fall in love. He’d also really like to watch you touch yourself - whether that be in person or over the phone.

L is for location - When he’s younger (STARS era), he would do it at work (in the office or in the cop car, in the supply closet). When he’s older, he would probably be less likely to do that - however, if he happened to be taking an important phone call, and you happened to be sucking him off…

M is for motivation - I think he gets angry boners. We know he can be hot-headed, and I think if he got stressed out about work/got into an argument, he would benefit highly from taking out that frustration sexually. If he came home from a rough mission, he would be all over you - kissing you, touching you, etc.

N is for no (what he wouldn't do) - I don’t think that he’d be into being submissive (or bottoming, if we’re talking about men). I think he prefers to be dominant and is 100% a top.

O is for oral - He likes giving, but loves receiving. He would be very gentle with you, always getting you a pillow for your knees or taking you to the bedroom, and he would not facefuck you - he’d let you set the pace. But, he loves looking down into your eyes while you’re going down on him. Also, he would be praising you the entire time. Telling you how you’re taking him so well, etc.

P is for pace -  He likes it slow, but deep. He would enjoy the intimacy of slower sex and he likes to savor the moment rather than getting it over with quickly.

Q is for quickie - He doesn't really like quickies. If his partner wanted one, he probably wouldn’t refuse, but if they had time to slow it down, he’d much prefer that. 

R is for risk - In terms of the risk of getting caught, he’s definitely willing to push some limits. When he’s younger and his sex drive is higher, he’d be down to fuck wherever and whenever (the office, the car, the bar bathroom, the park, etc). When he’s older, if you asked him hypothetically if he’s into semi-public sex, he’d say no. But, if you get him all hot and bothered, especially while he’s driving, he’d be like “if you don’t stop that I’m going to pull over” because he can’t focus otherwise. 

S is for stamina - He has high stamina. That man has been smoking cigarettes for decades and can still run with ease? He can fuck!

T is for toys - He probably wouldn't own toys because he just wouldn’t think to? He’d be like “my hand works, so if it ain’t broke don’t fix it” in terms of self-pleasure, but if you asked to bring a vibrator into the bedroom, he’d be down for it.

U is for unfair (how much he teases) - Teases until you beg him to stop. Wants to make you get all whiny before he actually fucks you. He would make you sit in his lap and grind on him or he might finger you.

V is for volume - He’s pretty quiet for the most part. Would definitely swear but wouldn’t moan super loudly. When he gets close, though, he probably says things (that are super hot) without even thinking, like he doesn’t dirty talk on purpose, but he loses himself in the moment and ends up doing it. 

W is for wild card (random headcanon) - Wants to tie you up (either tying you to the headboard or having you sit with your arms tied behind your back). Also, he’s a headboard grabber (and a headboard breaker).

X is for x-ray (what's he packin') - Big dick. That’s all I need to say. Statistically speaking, since he’s American, he’s probably circumcised. 

Y is for yearning - He’s kinda sappy so if he has a partner, he does miss them. In many ways. Another reason for him to have phone sex.

Z is for zzz - He will not fall asleep until you fall asleep. Due to his trauma, I honestly think he probably has trouble sleeping in general.

[wistfulcynic]

to mark the anniversary of the historical Stede Bonnet’s birth I'd like to talk a bit about OFMD and age, specifically Stede and Ed’s ages. 

a lot has been made about this, and rightly so. The show gives us a beautiful love story, between two men in their 40s who have never been loved or in love before in their lives, who find their perfect matches in each other, who are so different but similar in key ways and who each idolise things the other sees as his flaws. It’s gorgeous, and it’s heartbreaking when they don’t see themselves as the other does, when they don’t communicate their feelings or even recognise them, and absolutely none of this would be as touching or, arguably, even possible if one or both of them were younger. It certainly wouldn’t be as impactful. 

yet we are clearly shown Stede’s gravestone, with the date of his birth. 29 July 1688, the actual date of the historical Stede Bonnet’s birth, which makes him 29 in 1717 when the story starts. This--showing the audience the grave and thereby making the birthdate canon--is such an interesting choice. For all that the show glories in anachronisms, its plot beats actually adhere pretty closely to the main historical events. Stede Bonnet did leave his wife and kids in 1717 to become a pirate, he did say he was uncomfortable in a married state. He did meet and form some sort of partnership with Blackbeard despite being a pretty useless pirate. The two sailed together for a time and then had a falling out, at which point Blackbeard did maroon some of Bonnet’s crew on a spit of sand. All of that is actual history, all OFMD did was say “okay but what if gay.” 

there is also a reasonably solid canon argument for Stede actually being 29. We see that his marriage is arranged, a thing that generally happened to younger people. His kids are young. It’s unlikely he’s been married longer than 10 years. His hair is blond, with no grey--in contrast to Ed’s salt-and-pepperbeard--and he has an exuberance that you could argue codes as relatively youthful, as well as his general naïveté, though of course that’s also a function of his sheltered life and privilege as a rich white man. 

if Stede is actually in his 40s then the timeline the show gives him simply doesn’t make sense. (What, for example, was he doing with his life in the 10+ years he’d have had to live as a full-fledged adult before being arranged into marriage?) Yet they choose to make an explicit point of it, while at the same time doing nothing to age down Rhys Darby other than dye his hair. Not only that but the character isn’t played as younger, not even a little bit, and that’s what makes this all super interesting for me. 

I'm a longtime reader of romance novels, and one of the most popular tropes especially in historical romances is the rake and the ingenue. The basic premise of this trope is that you have a man (in het romance it’s always the man) who’s world-weary, cynical, closed-off, emotionally cold (or stunted, or constipated, etc). He’s experienced in life but for some reason or other his experiences have been bad and that’s turned him into a dark, brooding sort of person who's miserable in a deeply dramatic way until the bright, sunshine-y heroine appears in his life and breaks through his shell to melt his icy heart. This heroine, the ingenue, is invariably young and innocent, frequently stubborn or hardheaded in a naive sort of way. She’s bright and optimistic or at least determined to do something highly impractical, which requires the rake to involve himself in order to “save” her from the consequences of her lack of worldly knowledge and experience. 

any of this sounding familiar? 

when done well the rake and the ingenue can be a compelling story but it is inherently unequal. The rake always has more money, experience, power, social capital than the ingenue. In OFMD of course Stede has more money and capital in certain social situations than Ed, but within the framework of the pirate world, Ed is vastly more experienced, more respected, more powerful and worldly. He knows how to pirate better than anyone, but he’s weary of it, grown bored and cynical. Until Stede shows up with his mad ideas and unique way of doing things and charms Ed, gives him a new perspective on things and a fresh breath of air in his stale life. It would be very easy to cast Ed in the role of rake and Stede as ingenue, but--and this is SUCH an interesting but--the show doesn’t do that. 

instead, they are portrayed as equals, very different but each in possession of something the other wants. Though they both idolise things about the other, there’s no imbalance in the way they approach each other, which is both absolutely a key factor in what makes their relationship so good but also something that wouldn’t work if there were a large age gap between them. 

historical Blackbeard was 8 years older than Bonnet, a biggish but not hugely significant gap. However we’re not shown his age in the show the way we are Stede’s, and Ed is quite clearly coded as mid-40s at least. Not just with the colour of his hair but also the reputation he’d need time first to build and then to grow bored by. A 29-year-old Stede and a 45-year-old Ed would look very different to an Ed and a Stede more or less of an age. It would look a lot more like a rake/ingenue scenario than the partnership of equals the show actually portrays. I’m very, very glad they chose the route they did. It was without question the correct decision. It just makes the decision to show Stede’s age while at the same time telling quite a different story a very, very interesting one. 

so happy birthday to OFMD Stede Bonnet and OFMD Stede Bonnet only (historical one please burn in hell) and his 45-is-the-new-29 vibe. Canon-typical paying-only-as-much-attention-to-history-as-we-decide-we-want-to, you love to see it.

[solarlotus]

Anakin

We rewatched The Phantom Menace last night and I tried to very objectively assess Anakin’s character, or rather his character flaws. We hear so much about how Anakin is full of existing character defects, such fear, anger etc. Watching TPM it’s pretty hard to see this. He’s a lovely kid, even more so considering his circumstances. 

Anakin is boastful to Padme, but I read this as he’s trying to impress her, given she’s beautiful, a straneger and he’s low station in life, plus he’s had a sudden sexual awakening! Even if he doesn’t understand that yet, he knows he likes her, even if he doesn’t know why. My son is almost the same age and is the same about a TV cake maker!

Anakin is generous, open, friendly and doesn’t show any fear until he’s in Coruscant and missing his mom in a strange environment. He shows no fear in inviting Qui Gon, Jar Jar and Padme home, he stands up to Sebulba when Jar Jar is is trouble, he has no hestitation in putting himself in harm’s way to help Qui Gon, he’s not afraid of the pod race. So this idea that Anakin is innately fearful I don’t buy. 

Anakin finds it hard to leave his mom as he loves her, this is the most normal thing in the world, most kids would be considerably more upset. I also think given he’s only 9, he does pretty well with the council, 12 adult strangers testing him, he has no parents with him, no experience of anything other than life as a slave on Tatooine. Of course he fears for his mom, they left her in slavery. It would be more worrying if he didn’t miss her. 

I think this is an example of the Jedi confusing not being attached with not having normal emotions, it’s part of the Jedi’s fall from grace and their undoing. They fail to recognise they have drifted into lack of emotion and coldness, rather than compassion without attachment. Anakin’s view on this is clear in AOTC. 

So, they took a sweet, kind boy, who wasn’t riddled with fear and hatred and ended up with AOTC Anakin, who the moment he’s let loose breaks every Jedi rule going and ends up having a murder sprey and getting married. WTF did they do to him in those 10 years?

I do think he’d have been a lot better off with movie Qui Gon, I love Obi Wan, but he was too young and too attached to the code to give Anakin the leeway he needed and too inexperienced in life outside the temple to understand how normal people live and feel. I think Obi Wan is at his best when he loves, when he loves Anakin, Luke and Leia and I think Anakin was great for him, but Anakin needed to be allowed to love and miss his mother. I think Qui Gon would have rescued her, we (my husband and I) think that Qui Gon was getting his feet under the table and quite fancied Shmi anyway! We think he probably has a woman in every port (which Obi Wan disapproves of). 

Anyway, I suppose my rambling is basically wtf did the Jedi do to poor little Anakin? I think my empathy for him is increased as he looks more than a bit like my boy and has that chatterbox mischief about him. Anakin of TPM should have been an engineer and racer, he’d have been brilliant. The Jedi is a monastic order he was totally unsuitable for and nobody except Qui Gon was prepared to bend for Anakin. And Qui Gon’s motivation wasn’t to rescue Anakin for his own good, but because he believed he was the Chosen One, if he was acting in Anakin’s interests he wouldn’t have pushed him to the order. 

[miss-kittyy]

Rewriting Briarlight and Longtail’s Deaths

So I am disabled, like very disabled, I am %50 of the teenagers ever diagnosed with my special combination of pain disorders, and I also unfortunately hyper fixated on warrior cats, which is bad news for me because warrior cats is super ableist, and to add insult to injury, the fandom can also be pretty ableist.

My biggest problem with the majority of “anti-ableist” AUs is that they “fix” the ableism stemming from the narrative and able bodied characters by making the disabled character less disabled, this so bad for many reasons. I’ve talked more about in other posts. The justification that real life disabled cats are less doesn’t make it not ableist, since when was warrior cats meant to be realistic? If you’re making an au where the disabled cats function like actual disabled cats you also have to make all the cats genetically accurate, and retcon Lionblaze lifting a tree.

My problem with warrior cats is not that the disabled characters cannot become full conventional warriors, I’d like it if they got to choose what duties the perform instead of being crammed into the medicine den, but I don’t care about Cinderpelt not being able to complete a marathon. Most of the fandom seems to think the issue is that the disabled character are not useful enough, instead of the way that able bodied characters deny of them agency and make remarks like “you wouldn’t want to return to a life like her’s would you?”. Disabled people do not need to be “useful” to be worthy and empowering.

It’s very obvious that most of the fandom just wants the disabled cats to be more palatable to abled bodied people, so I’ve decided to make my own rewrite instead to hopefully make myself feel better. A lot of these things are inspired by my own experiences and not every disabled person is looking for the same things in representation, this is totally self indulgent.

The goal of this AU is to highlight the many unique and valuable aspects disability and how being disabled does not infringe upon anyone’s worth, ever.

- Longtail doesn’t die in the storm, Briarpaw is still injured, but he’s found besides her, trying his best to help her cling to life.

- after Briarpaw begins to recover he stands up to Millie and other cats insulting her quality of life, he says her journey will be hard, but it is one worth taking.

- She asks him why he’s an elder, and he decides to request to have his warrior ship restored as Briarpaw is dreading the life of an elder.

- On his first patrol the cats accompanying him insist on speaking to him in an incredibly infantilism tone, and whispering amongst themselves over what he can or can’t do, without consulting him,

- He initially gives up on patrolling after that insufferable experience.

- Briarlight begins to create marks and blobs on the wall of the medicine den using crushed up dead herbs she asks him to retrieve some berries for her, and he complies.

- Jayfeather shows him how he navigates the territory with the help of some of the sighted cats, and Mousefur is quick to volunteer as his guide. He finds her company surprisingly empowering. He realizes that it was not his blindness which was limiting his abilities, but the other cats attitudes.

- Mousefur and Longtail return with mouthful of berries and herbs, Briarlight describes to him what she’s drawing on the side of the den and he helps he mound the materials into paint.

- The cats begin to pop into the medicine den to see Briarlights painting and soon Jayfeather has to kick her out occasionally so they’d stop crowding him, she’s given the walls of camp to decorate instead.

- She begins to illustrate Longtails stories of the old territory and Bloodclan, and this new form of storytelling becomes a tradition amongst Thunderclan.

- because more young cats are aware of the clans history it becomes harder for the dark forest to recruit them, unfortunately, Blossomfall’s resentment towards her sister means she never cared to listen.

- Ivypool is still recruited and trained like in canon, given her relationship with the dark forest was much more emotionally charged and manipulative than just plain lies.

- at a gathering Longtail meets Grasspelt who inquires about Briarlight, Longtail is surprised about how little he knows as the she-cat had mentioned how well they got along as apprentices. Despite Millie nagging him not to tell him the truth about her daughter he does anyways, but puts much more emphasis on how well she’s doing than Millie expected. Grasspelt thinks this sounds really cool and decides that he is going to see her and her paintings, and that nobody can stop him. Longtail makes sure to put any opposing cat in their place, but Briarlight is a very respected Clanmate, so most warriors don’t say anything.

- Briarlight is nervous and doesn’t want to come out of the medicine den at first, but when Grassheart darts into the den holding berries and flowers for her to paint with she quickly warms up to her visitor.

- Grassheart is happy to tell Briarlight that he’s never been able to be a “functioning” warrior, and that he has always imagined that his spirit is shaped different, the medicine cat says his body is normal, but he’s never been able to keep focus in a fight or react as quickly as he should be able to while hunting. (He’s autistic because I say so)

- As dusk nears he’s visually hesitant to return to Riverclan and when Longtail inquires on why he says that he hasn’t felt so “here” for a long time. On the way back he wanders off and comes back with a chipmunk, when returning to Riverclan territory his father, Mintfur, is shocked to see his catch. After talking with his family a bit he realizes that it was the noise from the river that was making him so tense and dissociated, Brackenfur, who was escorting him, notices that he keeps rubbing himself on the ground and wincing.

- For the next couple moons Grasspelt returned to Thunderclan to bring Briarlight plants that only grow in Riverclan territory, he begins trying to fish from the quite lazy stream in their territory and soon both him and Briarlight have got it down.

- Longtail notices the sadness present whenever Grasspelt left and exclaims that it’s rather stupid that he’s living somewhere so unsuited for him just because of words long repeated.

- Grasspelt confesses that he feels the same, but knew he wasn’t supposed to say anything. Briarlight tells Longtail that her and the Riverclan warrior had been thinking of each other as mates for moons.

- Longtail accompanies Jayfeather to the next half moon meeting where he proposes his addition to the warrior code, “no cat should be confined to laws which harm them due to an inherent physical or spiritual difference.” (Cats don’t really know how brains work, so they see mental disabilities as a difference within a cats spirit)

- A moon later the leaders meet to discuss this proposition, it is accepted and Grasspelt makes the journey to Thunderclan for the final time.

- Grasspelt is renamed Grassspirit when becoming a Thunderclan warrior, unlike prior renaming of disabled cats this is a celebration.

- Grassspirit spends most of his time taking care of the elders and kits, he’s incredibly compassionate especially with kits and is able to solve many problems within the nursery.

- When twigkit and Violetkit arrive in Thunderclan Briarlight and Grassspirit help raise them, after Violetkit is taken Briarlight and Twigkit paint her on the side of Thunderclan camp.

- Briarlight still gets sick and her illness progresses without any treatment, Grassspirit notices her trying to hide it and when Longtail finds out he’s very upset. Jayfeather frantically treats her, expressing his frustration that she didn’t tell them sooner, the second Millie steps out she breaks down and explains that she just wanted to deal with it herself, and perhaps if she were successful Millie would finally treat her like an adult.

- Longtail gives Millie a stern talking to, he tells her that Briarlight is a warrior of Thunderclan and as her clanmate she should show her some respect.

- Millie is inherently very reactionary, as she had not realized the full extent of her suffocation, but eventually after a couple moons her and Briarlight begin to rekindle their relationship, like adults.

- Blossomfall sees how Brairlight wasn’t basking in their mother’s attention like she imagined, and feels the urge to seek out an actual sisterhood after ignoring Briarlight for moons and moons.

- Briarlight isn’t really mad at her sister, and understands why she felt the way she did. Jayfeather suggests that Blossomfall help Briarlight with her painting, Blossomfall seems put off with the suggestion of being her sister’s assistant.

- The interactions that follow are less than ideal, Blossomfall commends Briarlight’s able friends (Thornclaw, Poppyfrost, Alderheart, etc) for being so nice to her, as if that’s not what friends do. She seems very sad the entire time, sighing when her sister dragged her legs around with her mouth to sit more comfortably, even though she was completely fine. When watching her paint she comments that it’s good she has “something to keep her busy”, and finally she expresses her view, of Briarlight’s injury and her (Blossomfall’s) suffering being all worth it because of her talents, as if her life was not worth living to begin with.

- Briarlight tells her that if that’s truly what she wants she’s going to have to put more effort into understanding and respecting her way of life, and that she won’t apologize for their mother’s actions.

- When Blossomfall has her kits they take a liking to Auntie Briarlight, and Blossomfall seems to have reflected on their past interactions, trusting her sister to watch her kits. Briarlight teases a bit, a subtle way of telling her not to rush things, but they do begin to feel like something close to sisters.

- Right before Briarlight’s Nieces and Nephews are made warriors Longtail dies of Greencough. Throughout the entirety of his sickness he kept his sense of humour, his mean streak, and his immense love for what he had made of his clan.

- At his vigil Grassspirit began whaling like a bird in new-leaf, he insists that the vigil is too sad, and that Longtail wouldn’t want everyone moping around, for Starclan’s sake, his life was good. Standing amongst them, Longtail’s spirit can feel every cat in Thunderclan standing around him, singing the song of a life well lived.

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Arnav Singh Raizada MBTI Typing ISTJ

Arnav is all Introverted Sensing (Si) , he’s stuck in the past! His personality and mindset is influenced strongly from past events, any present occurrence is first processed and then referenced to what he’s already experienced, he recognises patterns of behaviours and relies on predictability (which isn’t always reliable as people are complex beings), these experiences shape his view on people (I.e he initially views Khushi as a money-hungry. saboteur who has lose morals ).

He ruminates intensely, analysing and brooding upon situations for long periods of time. He takes actions based on how he predicts a person is relying on his personal lived experience (Si-Te) so when he impulsively marries Khushi, it’s rooted from what he’s witnessed with his mother and he doesn’t want a repeat of events, not stopping to think that things might play out differently. A lighter show of his Si is when he uses it to try and win over Khushi, like when he begins to recreate their old moments and memories together! It’s also observed, that he likes to keep her momentos (like her anklet or pompom) which is very Si!.He remembers details about Khushi (her likes and dislikes) and he buys her personal gifts based on the knowledge he’s accumulated (she likes bangles so he buys her bangles, all the presents he buys her during her birthday are personal like the pearl necklace and Salman Khan poster, a little cute example is when he buys her channay because likes them etc). Once again , it’s highlighted that he doesn’t forget (and is hard to forgive) when it comes to other people’s past actions, he was one of the only people in the family to be disgusted and vocally against Shyam being allowed back into the home (Even moreso than Khushi who was a direct victim of Shyam!). He doesn’t trust Shyam not to try anything malicious again based on his past behaviour.

Arnav’s second function is Extroverted Thinking (Te), this is how he communicates to the world in direct, straightforward statements. Even when he questions, there’s a hidden command in his tone.His language is full of orders and demands ( “GET OUT! Shut up Khushi Kumari Gupta! …even his famous “what the…!”) He sees things for what they are it’s either black or white, right or wrong. A fact is a fact. He doesn’t further question or investigate when he sees Khushi and Shyam on the terrace, he accepts it as the brutal truth, a fact that his eyes and ears have witnessed (if he was an introverted thinker, he would have investigated or questioned this more) so he goes straight into reactionary behaviour, he comes up with a plan to marry Khushi and he implements it. When Khushi refuses to take their relationship further due to the lack of phere (a ceremonial Hindu marriage ritual) he picks her up and starts conducting the ritual there and then! A lot of his actions are like this ; there’s a crisis, here’s the soloution, problem solved. His Te shows through his work ethic, he’s the boss of a very successful fashion industry, he is methodical and organised and very good leader. His leadership qualities are very much present in his home life, as he is the patriarch of the Raizada family, his word is law and no one can go against him. Sure, they question and challenge him but at the end of the day it’s his way or the highway.

Arnav’s third function is Introverted Feeling (Fi), Arnav is intensely private about his emotions and inner turmoil, but his Fi start bleeding out when he realises how damaging his behaviour has been towards Khushi when she was under his employment; and then when he is rude to her, not knowing she’s also an orphan like himself, he is burdened with the need to apologise for his unjust behaviour. It’s his Fi that compels him to pay Khushi’s father’s hospital bill, to protect her and care for her, he has a strong moral code and sense of how he should be in his various relationships, for example he takes his role Khushi’s husband very seriously, he protects Khushi in public because that’s his duty as a husband regardless of the private conflict between him and his wife (but also because internally, he still deeply loves her) or when he stays at the Gupta house and he behaves accordingly as their son in law despite his differences with Khushi (his Fi shines during his stay there, another example being, when he stands up for Khushi’s friend at her wedding because he is against the discrimination and ridicule the in laws are inflicting, it’s against his personal values), his sense of duty and responsibility also extends itself into his relationship with his sister, Anjali, and the rest of his family, he is fiercely loyal and protective. He rarely says I love you especially in the beginning but his behaviour conveys his love, his actions reveal his heart. His Fi is more immature than Khushi’s , it’s one of his weaker functions but it beautifully develops and strengthens throughout the show.

Lastly, Arnav’s inferior function is Extroverted intuition (Ne) which is his spontaneity, his ability to see intuitive possibilities in his present environment and to pick up on things…Arnav isn’t the one who comes up with fun schemes and ideas, he’s more stuck in his routine and logic. He struggles being out of the box but this is something that draws him to Khushi, she’s full of Ne! It’s a quality that greatly charms and endears her to him. 💗

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Interestingly, Khushi and Arnav are complete opposites, each of their weaknesses is the other’s strength…Arnav lacks Ne, Khushi is overflowing with it (this is especially evident when they team up to set Payal and Akash up! Khushi is the one who comes up with the idea and Arnav implements it ..not without poking holes in the plan first, of course!) and Arnav is the voice of reason, he offers the practical and rational angle. Arnav’s realism (Si-Te) grounds Khushi’s idealism (Ne-Fi), they are complete mirrors to one another, each bringing a light to the other’s dark side.

Oooh and one last side note! I believe Arnav is stuck in a Si- Fi loop and his character development occurs when he finally gets out of it, which would be the pivotal moment during the remarriage, when he returns and finally steps out of his personal trauma.

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Nothing to see here folks!! Just a completely normal moody, rebellious, deadpan, snarky and sarcastic teenager with a totally not mysterious and very shady past he escaped from and not made a deal with a phantom he lives with.

Anywho here’s a quick doodle of Fred Casey Jones!  Lore Tidbits Down Below: 

Best way too describe him is a combo of Louie Duck, Fred and Casey Jones (heh pun) mixed with L and Donatello. (where did ya think I got his hairstyle from? And the bag eyes poor teen needs some proper sleep 💤)

Rumors say he’s was a delinquent who has worked underneath a certain mobster gang overlord as a delivery/errand boy after being taken in from the streets, he wore a mask (which I’ll draw later) and prefer to use his spiked baseball bat or hockey sticks packed with exploding smokebombs pucks that he made and decorated himself. 

A hacker and video game expert 🎮 and lover, has once accidentally hacked into the government. In his defense how was he suppose to know that the coding looked like a video game (his boss 100% approves and supports his interests growing up after staying for a while)later the spirits and the narrow gauge support him as well

 Ended up going in Sodor in order to help prepare for a plan and finds out about the supernatural after a encounter with a certain zero spirit made him realize that even though he’s super grateful for being rescued, he didn’t wish to live a life of crime especially after discovering what exactly his boss does(he was never told, they were hidden away, the details were lightened up to him, etc) his boss isn’t searching for him 

Ends up being sorta raised by the spirits after this (cough Tino and Lucy cough) while also being quite independent and wants to help them in return as a favor, feels a great deal of depth towards them and attempts to try and find  gold dust or anything on tino’s demise

Is secretly very torn about trying to help them move on since he fears about being left alone again, feels guilt over helping a crime boss but pushes on after witnessing how much pain they were in

Lies about his age and other parts(excellent at pretending and lying, years of experience) in order to work on the SKR later on, manages to keep up the act and get away with it cause he was taught many things, is a night owl so tends to work at night (which is good for him cause now he can get more of his plans done) and thus getting more sleeping in 

Rusty slightly suspicious of him for multiple reasons while Fred is suspicious of Kyle (after he’s separated from the lamp) since Zero mentions a bloke called Proteus many times and say he preferred to call Kyle, plus Kyle’s appearance, Fred puts two together very quickly  and is currently trying to get Kyle to wish his spiritual family or get gold dust 

Has a notebook containing multiple information on the supernatural occurrence thanks to Tino including things about the other ghosts and gods Tino and Lucy know, is extermely protective of it 

Speaking of Alfred hates him for extermely petty reasons but can’t do much cause one Fred doesn’t care and can snark back and two, Tino and Lucy will have his head while destroying his body apart (Alfred still uses it to riled up Tino though and this leads to squabbling something that distresses Fred)

Personality and outfits slightly remain the same, dresses punk-fessional, is nice underneath his cool prickly exterior yet is a tiny bit reckless determined (something that makes Tino feel a twinge on..memories on someone he once knew?) tends to speak out his mind, is very secretive and occasional moments of grumbling laziness, jerk with a heart of gold