#how to handle work stress

[littlebellesmama]

What to Do When Work Gets Frustrating (Because It Will, Sometimes)

Let’s be honest—work isn’t always going to feel good. Even if you love what you do, even if you’ve landed your “dream job,” there are going to be days where it all feels like a bit too much. Maybe you’re tired of the meetings that could’ve been emails. Or your ideas aren’t being heard. Or you’re just feeling stuck, like you’re spinning your wheels and not getting anywhere. That kind of…

[wanologic]

always good to keep a screamhole handy

[yuhi-san]

i didn't put it in my live blog but..

murderbot is clearly frustrated with the distrust and their reaction to both him killing leebeebee and the fact it possibly, probably, killed all these miners. its understandable murderbot is frustrated and annoyed and kinda angry and hurt. it lets the frustration show and its understable it feels that way. but the same can be said about presaux.

and murderbot calls them selfish in its head. but the thing is, it know. it knows they are not. they may be weary and unsure if they can truly trust it but they are not selfish. not even gurathin who is the most against murderbot.

thats why it came up with this plan and didnt tell them. it lied. it knew graycris would probably drag it along to the launch site and it would get killed too. but it didn't tell them and it lied because it knew they arent selfish. that they care. that even if they are unsure just how much they can trust murderbot, they have come back for it. they fought combat sec units for it, with warying degrees of succses but they tried. mensah still tries advocating for it. ratthi currently annoys it more than anything but goddamn is he trying. bharadwaj reminds them over and over again that it did save them.

they are afraid and out of their depth and have to trust someone they really don't know much about. dont know how much of their human logic and experience they can apply to its motivs and thought process.

but they are not selfish. they care too much and that is one of the main problems (the other being that murderbot itself cares too much)

they are not selfish like the company. they are the best clients, after all.

[porcelainmaps]

chapter 5 of waiting for you to walk in (spy x university) is finally up! this one was a doozy to write lol. lots of drama and angst just like the latest manga chapter that shredded up my heart — hope you enjoy!

^ real footage of me last night trying to frantically edit and revise my draft

[spotaus]

New Age AU (A Diplomatic Visit Pt. 3)

Hello hello! I actually hadn't added this to the queue until just this morning (because I wasn't sure if I was going to go back and do edits, but I did not, haha!). As of last time, Reaper has a lot on his mind, Geno has plans to interrogate Night's royal mage, and Night is just hopeful that they get along!

(I will preface again, edit-less posting, so I aplogize for anything that doesn't make sense, typos, etc etc. I wrote this in a haze a few days ago and just don't have time to go check it over again <3)

@ancha-aus, @papiliovolens, @mutzelputz I summon thee again! (And as always, just lemee know if u want outta the torment nexus of tagging haha-)

It was a fine morning. 

Reaper had retreated to his room, exhausted by the effort of the day, and had barely convinced himself to change into his bed robes before collapsing to the soft bed. 

He did not dream. He woke after what felt like only a few, blissful, minutes of sleep, the morning sun beaming down on his face through the un-covered balcony window and the sheer canopies which drew around the sides of the large bed. He’d hardly noticed, but the room was decorated in shades of deep red, and the sheer fabric was draped across nearly every surface in the room. It was a nice look, though he did wonder exactly where they had collected the fabrics from. 

The sunrise meant that it was time for him to get up and start a new day. New meetings, new greetings, and new news. This would be fine. He could handle a bit more diplomacy before he was plunged back into meetings regarding the treaty. While he did want to hear everything through, Reaper had already resolved to sign the treaty with Nightmare. He was a young king, a worryingly kind king, but a smart king. A smart king with many assets in his hand, guarded by his poker-face. He seemed too productive in enacting his change to have no bite to match his bark. Reaper was sure of that. 

So, as long as the deals seemed reasonable and fair, he would be able to watch the back of this young King. 

Those were the thoughts which swirled through his head as he dressed himself and prepared for a new day. His cloaks were much the same as the day before, only a lighter shade of black, one less all devouring of the light than what he had worn before. Still showy, but now he had established himself. He could afford a bit more comfort. 

Though, after he exited to find the Panther Knight, Dust, still stood dutifully in the space between Geno’s and his own door, and knocked to awaken his Mage, he wondered something else. Would Geno get along with this other mage? 

That thought plagued him, all through the time in which he waited in the hall for his Mage to emerge, as well as waiting to collect Nimbus, and walking to the dining hall to have breakfast before they had their first meeting. The Meet ‘n Greet of sorts. 

Geno was a headstrong monster. Top of his graduating class, hard-working to a fault, a perfectionist, stubborn, and prideful. Geno had done plenty of petty things since arriving to Sanctuary. In fact, on his third day a member of Reaper’s court had questioned the effectiveness of Geno’s crystalized spells, and Geno had asked for permission to demonstrate just how precise they could be. Reaper, unaware of his Mage’s proclivity for malicious compliance, activated a crystal and dropped it into the man’s freshly poured morning tea. The splash froze into the perfect shape of a dolphin… and tangled directly into the man’s beard, freezing carefully around every curl and strand. He’d dropped his cup in surprise and had an iced-tea dolphin hanging from his bear for a few, hilarious, moments before he’d grabbed it with his hand and broken it to pieces. Geno had just sat there, sit-eating grin on his face, as the rest of his court tried, and failed, not to giggle and laugh at the proceedings. 

All things considered, Geno was usually pretty blunt, but not unkind. It was just that, if this other mage dared to even question Geno’s casting ability, they might begin a rivalry no one could put a stop to. Reaper just prayed to the stars that they got along. That Geno wouldn’t be making anyone’s shoe mend to the floor or floating them in circles just fast enough to get them airsick. That would not help him find his brother. 

He’d just barely finished the food on his plate, (Which happened to be deliciously cooked pancakes by the way. He’d been distracted, but not enough-so that he had missed the intent baked in. Someone back in the kitchen really had a kind soul and a knack for perfectly crisped pancake edges.) when Nightmare stood from his seat across the table. 

For meals, it had largely just been the three of them. Nightmare, Reaper, and Geno. Dust, the Panther Knight, stood in their shadow but did not eat, and Nimbus begged to be allowed to eat when the soldiers did, so that he wouldn’t embarrass them. Reaper had insisted he wouldn’t, but Nimbus could not be swayed, so instead he was rushing about the room with that other servant from the first day. Gem? They had apparently shown Nimbus the ropes, because he was running around flawlessly, refilling cups and taking plates away to the back. It made it a bit lonely, at such a long table, but that did mean they were free to leave whenever they saw fit. 

Reaper must’ve been the last one eating, as Geno’s plate was already gone, and Gem leaned around their King to scoop his plates away. 

“I believe it’s about time we introduce our Mages, Reaper. Mine should be awaiting us inside of my private study.” Nightmare suggested.

Reaper just nodded, trying to contain a yawn. Geno practically shot up from beside him, and when Reaper shot him a questioning look, Geno just shrugged. 

“I wanna meet this guy. Not everyday you meet an item-infusing specialty Mage.” He muttered, almost sounding… excited. 

Reaper had been formally trained in combat casting, though he hadn’t needed to use it much, and the methods were deeply outdated. His natural magic did more than enough to keep him safe throughout the years and the odd understanding he’s grown to love of its properties? It was untraditional at best, and incomprehensible at worst. Or so Geno said when he explained it briefly. Never trained in modern casting methods, Reaper wasn’t even quite sure how impressive ‘item-infusing’ was as a skill. Geno’s magic made sense to him. 

Reaper followed Nightmare into the hall, coming to float beside him as they had done yesterday during the initial tour. Nightmare didn’t flinch away at his presence, which was good. 

They moved in relative silence, through the halls Reaper was only slightly recognizing, until they came across the Royal Wing. Reaper thought he just barely caught sight of one of the the knights, or was that the Trainee? He waved shortly back into the hallway, then turned out the opposite way that they were approaching from. He disappeared behind a corner, then, and Reaper chose not to bring it up. 

Then, before he knew it, they were at the entrance to Nightmare’s private study. 

They’d passed it on the tour yesterday, but he hadn’t really been looking at it. Now he could see that the door itself had an intricately carved tree on its surface. Below the handle-height stretched roots, above stretched twisting branches with thick leaves. Its surface was gorgeous, and practically unmarred by wear of the years it had do doubt been present. Beautiful craftsmanship that reminded him of back home in his own palace. 

Nightmare raised his hand upwards, but didn’t knock on the door. Instead, he brushed at the air in a slight arc, just against its middle hinge. Reaper was confused for a moment, but the door opened, swinging inwards, revealing a dimly lit room beyond. No one there to greet them in the doorway. 

“Greetings, my Mage.” Nightmare said into the calm quiet as he slipped through the open door and started moving to the left side of the room. 

Reaper followed, passing through the entrance easily, and continuing forward in an effort to trail Nightmare’s steps. 

“My King.” Greeted back the voice of who Reaper assumed to be the mage they would be meeting, though something about their tone sent Reaper a bit off-kilter. 

The room itself was fairly large for a study. A hearth sat stationed beside a low, wide table. Around that, were cushioned seats and couches. Just opposite the entrance was a display case, full of empty-eyed animals masks sitting untouched. He was pretty sure there were bookshelves lining the walls behind him and beyond the shadows cast by the hearth’s dim glow, and perhaps a desk to his back as well, but his gaze was drawn back to those near the hearth when he heard a sound that made his soul leap in his chest. Just behind him. 

A choking noise, one that sent a chill down his spine. Was geno-

“Error?” Oh, that was Geno alright, but-

“Geno?!” The other mage exclaimed.

It all happened so fast. Almost in an instant. 

Reaper felt as Geno rushed past his side, saw the blur of white, red, and black. Hot on his tail, however, was the Panther Knight. That static charge filled the room. Was he-

Reaper reached out before he could think, snagging the metallic back of the Knight’s breastplate where it peeked from under his short cloak. He isn’t sure how he reacted so fast. The thought of Geno in danger just-

Shit! 

Reaper lost his grip as a zap echoed through the room and registered in his head, just barely before the pain struck him. A ring of liquid fire burned at his wrist, where his protective glove met his bone. He retracted his arm quickly to his chest, watching a bit stunned as the Panther Knight vaulted over the back of the couch, and one of the tables, only to finally stop as he cut Geno off from his path. His path… right to the Royal Mage of Orchard. 

There was a silence. When Geno stopped in his tracks. Everyone had to be feeling that. The way the air itself seemed to buzz with that electric charge, and now Reaper could smell that dampness. It actually was manifesting into the room. A powerful storm magic. Much more powerful than Reaper had initially clocked this monster to have. How had he…?

Nightmare seemed startled. He’d just barely sat down before the flurry of movement. Reaper noticed his thin eyelight, and the way he grasped the sleeve of his mage. He was afraid. He wasn’t calling off Dust. not this time. 

And the Royal Mage…

He was a skeleton, not unlike the rest of the inhabitants of the room. His bones, though, seemed to be a naturally deep obsidian color. His sockets glowed with mismatched eyelights, both small in surprise, yellow and blue and white, set against a deep red socket. Blue markings traced down their face, almost resembling tears. His outfit was made up of dark clothes with vibrants blues, yellows, and reds. The red was so familiar. Reaper just couldn’t place it. 

He was tense, pushed up against the seat as though he might attempt to scramble over the back in a hasty retreat from the onslaught of the High Mage’s advance. The Panther Knight’s blockade. 

Geno’s hands shook. He was clutching at his scarf, as though debating if he should throw a crystal at the Knight. 

Reaper wasn’t sure what to do. If everything was adding up as he was processing it, then-

“Sir Dust, I-i-it’s alright. He’s not gonna hurt me.” The Mage’s voice came out low, and cautious, and with a little stutter to one of the words. It was just as Geno had described it to him, all those nights ago. 

The Panther Knight seemed hesitant. Much like he had been before with Nightmare. 

“I- I would never hurt him. I would never hurt you Error. My baby brother…” Geno voiced, in a voice that felt so wrong. Much too small. Fragile. Wavering and uneven.

Dust glanced back. A moment of unsaid words moved between him and Error. Error seemed reproachful, but nodded. The knight took a step back. Then another. Then he moved so he was stood beside the hearth, entirely out of the way of Geno’s path. 

Reaper thought he had never seen his Mage move so quickly. He practically lunged over the corner of the table, arms outstretched, and collapsed into the couch as he wrapped Orchard’s Mage in his arms. Both of their hats were knocked loose in the process. Error, Geno’s youngest brother, was truly right there in front of them. 

It only took a few more seconds for the crying to start. In all his years of knowing Geno, he had seen him shed a few tears. He’d been a shoulder to cry on when the pain of his injuries grew too much to hold in. Yet he had never heard the man break out into sobs before. Loud, long sobs, only muffled by the fact that he had shoved his skull against Error’s. 

The young mage seemed startled by this behavior, and though he didn’t pull away from the hug, Reaper noticed that he didn’t raise his arms to return the gesture either. He seemed upset. 

Reaper found himself, awkwardly, making eye-contact with Nightmare from across the room. The King had not yet released his Mage’s sleeve, though now it seemed Error had a fistful of Nightmare’s own sleeve in his grasp as well. Error doesn’t like to be touched. He remembered briefly. It seemed both rulers were at a loss for words about what to do about this situation. It was obvious that neither of them had expected to be experiencing the reunion of brothers this morning. Especially not… one in which the older of the two had broken down into sobs. 

“Error… Error, I’m sorry- I’m so sorry-” Geno finally managed to mumble between his hiccups and gasps. His tears were still flowing, but he seemed to be coming to his senses again. Reaper could only imagine the weight that had taken from his shoulders. Blind, inimaginable relief. “We- Fresh was looking for you and- and I didn’t know you- I-” He gasped for air again. 

Reaper finally remembered that he was allowed to move, and gently eased himself closer so he could stand at the back of one of the cushioned chairs surrounding the low table. Now he could see the ceiling, only briefly illuminated by flickering firelight. Blue strings, strung like a spider’s web, covering the space past the rafters into the high roof. That was Error’s magic. The blue strings. 

“Why would you think that- that we didn’t want you, Error?” Geno, after a bit more worrisome apologies and half-stumbled sentences, finally came through with a full question. In Reaper’s understanding, the damning question. 

It seemed Error thought so too. 

All at once, his expression seemed to shift into one of frustration rather than confusion and discomfort. 

“Why? WHY?!” He asked, voice raising an octave as he yanked his one hand out of Nightmare’s grip. Was he trying to push away from Geno? “Because-!” 

What happened next was… a little strange. Reaper had been warned about this, too. This reaction, Error’s magic had when it encountered a foreign magic source that unsettled him, or he became too stressed. Geno had technical terms for it, ones that Reaper had forgotten. What he did know, however, was what he could see. What he could see, was the shiver that wracked through Error’s bones, and then the loud noise to follow, which sounded like a swarm of bugs had just invaded his ears. 

Reaper winced at the sound. Error shouted in what sounded like pain. 

The next thing he knew, Geno had thrown himself away. Back towards where Reaper was stationing himself. Error had pressed himself back against the couch and clasped his arms to his chest wearily. Dust had already taken the initiative to move back to Error’s side, evidently regretting letting geno so close in the first place. 

“I left, because you left! Whe-e-e-en I came home from school, F-F-Fresh was already gone! No food, no-no note, nothing! You ditched us first chance you-u-u-u-u got to go be a big shot. Fresh didn’t want to- to take care of me! Wasn’t e-even home when I got there! Again! Couldn’t go back-ack to school either!” Error practically shouted the words, glaring harshly at Geno. “No one came looking! You guys didn’t- didn’t want to- to- to deal with me anymore! Of course I left!” 

Error was left panting for air after his words. Geno stood there beside the table, a little hunched and a little disheveled. Tears were still trailing down his skull in little bouts, his hands clung now to the part of the scarf which wrapped around his neck. That scarf. Reaper recognized it now, Geno had told him once, when they first met, that his little brother had made it for him. 

“Error… please, you know that’s not true. I- I left so I could earn enough to afford a new house, in Sanctuary, for the three of us.” Geno seemed to plea to his brother, visibly deflating when Error didn’t seem to loosen up at all. “Fresh followed your magic trace all the way to that city with the colosseum. He’s been scouring for you everywhere, Error. He- he thinks you’re dead.” he added, which only seemed to make Error’s face contort further. 

Reaper wished he had any idea of what to do here. This was all that Geno had been begging for, for months, and yet it was not going the way either of them had hoped. 

To Reaper, it seemed like Error was about to launch into another hurt tirade, when another jarring noise quietly hit above the ambient crackle of the fire playing witness to all of this chaos. 

Hrgh-

Geno quickly raised a hand to his mouth. 

Shit, shit shit. Reaper caught sight of the bright red that Geno caught in his palm as he began to cough. 

He was hardly able to float forward fast enough to stop his Mage from keeling over onto the floor. Instead, he managed to wrap his arms at the taller skeleton’s waist as he curled forward and his legs seemed to give out. He was shaking. He’d overexerted himself. Reaper lowered him carefully backwards to sit on the couch opposite of his brother and gently extracted himself again, careful not to let his bare skull touch any part of Geno’s exposed bones. He was panicked, and didn’t want to risk anything. 

“Reaper, is he- is he alright? Should I call for a medic?” Nightmare’s worried voice rang out from behind him. 

Reaper was more focused on pulling a handkerchief from his robe pocket and placing it in Geno’s hand than he was on acknowledging the other king through sight. Instead he spoke with his back turned, very rude, but very necessary. 

“As far as I am aware, he will be fine in a few minutes. This affliction of his cannot be treated by healers, I’m afraid.” He informed easily, trying to keep his voice soothing. Geno had shut his one good socket, likely when he collapsed. His entire body was shaking, though it seemed he wasn’t coughing up any more marrow. That was a relief. 

“Yeah. He’s fine.” Error chimed in, his tone hostile and short. Though. “Put pressure on his sternum. Above the wound.” He added before falling silent. 

Reaper hummed, gently moving one of his hands away from where it supported Geno’s own, and instead he pressed down lightly in the location that Error had suggested. Then, when it didn’t seem to cause any immediate pain, a bit more firmly. And… Strangely enough, Geno’s breathing seemed to clear up. He wondered how that worked… 

“Thank you, Mage Error.” Reaper spoke, still not turning around. “I apologize that this meeting turned out to be so stressful for the both of you. I don’t believe that I had any clue as to you being my Mage’s missing sibling.” 

If nothing else, he could try to be diplomatic until Geno’s wave of pain had left him. 

Error only replied via a loud huff. 

“I was unaware as well. Error, I didn’t realize that you had living relatives.” It seemed Nightmare had some thoughts on the situation. 

That was fine. Reaper could just focus on making sure Geno was comfortable. He only had these black-outs every once in a while, Reaper knew they could end poorly if not treated with the utmost focus and care. 

“W-well I didn’t. I don’t. They didn’t want me, so I have no family.” Error seemed to stutter through his response to Nightmare. “I didn’t lie to you.” He insisted. 

Nightmare was quiet for a breath. 

“I know you didn’t. I would have felt it if you had. I just… I’m so sorry I didn’t know.” Nightmare was so quiet as he said so. 

“I-it’s fine. Not your fault, Night.” Error stammered quickly in response. Reaper hardly registered it. “Geno’s stubborn. If- If he really did want to find me, he would’ve no matter what. I just… I don’t know why he would. After all this time.” 

Reaper would’ve thrown in his two scents. All of the worry and fear and sleepless nights he’d witnessed from Geno over these past months? It was obvious to Reaper that Error was his entire world outside of his profession. He’d heard nothing but good things about this little, talented, reckless monster. Geno loved him. That… wasn’t his place, though. It seemed they had a more complicated relationship than he had initially thought, and he couldn’t in good conscious vouch for his Mage if he didn’t have the full story to pair. 

So instead he just continued to watch his Mage. Keep an eye on him until the spell had moved on. 

“I’m not sure, Error. It- it sounds like he didn’t know you were missing. Not until recently.” Nightmare attempted to explain, gently. Though he seemed hesitant. Who knew if Geno’s story were the truth, right? “Supposedly your- your other brother? He tried to find you. For some reason he didn’t reach out to Geno until recently to be honest about your whereabouts.” 

Error was quiet. 

Nightmare fell silent as well. 

Once again, for the third time in such a short period, the parlor fell silent aside from the crackling fire smouldering in the hearth’s stone frame. 

Geno’s breathing, much less labored than it tended to be in the midst of one of the spells slowly, so slowly, returned to normal. His bones stopped shivering under Reaper’s touch. He grew still. Groaned. Then slowly opened his socket, squinting against the dull light in the room. 

“Urgh. I did not mean to do that…” He rasped, staring at Reaper with a half-awake expression. Clearly he was still groggy from his little black-out period. 

Reaper only grinned gently down upon him. Even in such a disheveled state, Reaper loved to see his Mage well. “Glad to see you have made a safe return from your trip, my Mage. I assumed I will see you off again next fall?” Reaper greeted, eyelights turning to crescents as he watched his Mage process his words. 

“Mm, you know gravity always gets me down.” He mumbled halfheartedly, already moving to shift the handkerchief clutched loosely between his fingers so he could clean up his palm. 

Reaper seemed satisfied by that, finally floating off to the side, grasping Geno’s dirtied hand and snatching the handkerchief away so that he could wipe down the mage’s palm for him. He was still going to be uncoordinated for a while. 

Now, the both of them could see how the Nightmare and Error were doing. Nightmare was perched on the edge of the couch, his posture almost like that of a cat ready to pounce, only he was leaned every so slightly in front of Error. Meanwhile, said mage was still pressed to the back of the couch, though now he had pulled his legs up so he could hug his knees and hide his chin behind them. They both looked so small and young. And the knight, Dust, was standing ever vigilant at their side. The pain at his wrist still throbbed. 

Geno must’ve caught sight of them again, because he flexed his hand a bit, where Reaper had it cradled between his own gloves. 

“Error…” he muttered. Error stared at him. “I love you. More than you know.” he continued, despite Error’s incredulous expression. “I want to make it up to you. Anything we did to hurt you. Please.” At least it seemed he’d gained a more level-head after his stress got to him. That was good. 

Error still seemed hesitant though. He scrunched his nose and glanced over to Nightmare. His King didn’t seem to give him any guidance, only a worried look. Error looked back to them. 

“You found me. I’m alive. Find something else your boss wants so that N- King Nightmare’s fancy paperwork gets signed.” Error demanded. Reaper was a bit surprised at the demand, especially since Reaper was right there to hear it made. “And give me some space. It’s been two years since I left. Long time for a kid to go missing.”

That… would be a difficult demand to follow-through with.

[dollopheadedmerlin]

I'm so worried about my cat. The vet said I'm doing everything right and that he just needs his meda adjusted but he is so tired and isn't really eating and I know he is old but I can't help but feel like he could live a few more years if he just never got constipated. But it keeps happening and it keeps stressing him out and none of the meds work long term. And I'm just so tired and sad and he is napping on the opposite end of the room because he wants to be alone and that's gotta be the scariest part. He still purs when I brush him but his heart is not in it and it's killing me

[fictionadventurer]

Apparently I've lost all ability to watch movies/TV where I don't already know the plot. I watch very little TV and movies to start with, and the little that I do watch tends to be things I've seen before, or very low-stakes genres like sitcoms. With books, you can rush through tense sections, and you aren't at the mercy of the pacing and sound design and all the other emotionally manipulative techniques that a show can use.

So now when I'm watching things with any kind of tension whatsoever, my nerves are stretched to the breaking point, and I don't know if I can take this.

[betterbemeta]

Non-Bullshit Self-Affirmation Exercise

I'm nobody's therapist and I shouldn't be. But the world we're in is mentally damaging. Any world would be to some extent, and I understand different people have different experiences of the world. But whoever you are I think we can agree most environments we're in don't promote a good relationship with 'the self.'

I can't say 'you should like who you are' or 'you should think you have all these great virtues.' That isn't up to me. But whether you already 'like yourself' or 'are building yourself' or 'want to like a future self more' you can't do that easily if 'who you currently are' is passively eroded without relief.

And this can happen a lot of ways I think. Our responsibilities (school, job, etc.) don't value our authentic experiences but instead our 'performance' within a system. Our bodily needs and logistical realities can frame the practical steps to our care like a burden for ourselves or for others. We are constantly assaulted with external appeals to desire that disrespect our own effort to navigate those desires ourselves. And so much stuff can feel 'more important than ourselves' like, why is it relevant you're a person when immense choices jeopardize the future and the lives of collective humanity???

A lot of talk about 'self-care' is bastardized into like... 'giving yourself special treats' which often can tie in to a highly consumerist culture or self-destructive habits. And 'special treats' may feel irresponsible or like a waste of time in the face of our practical human problems. But the important part is not actually the 'treat', but that the context of the treat is yours. This is YOUR unique treat, that represents you, showing up for you.

And looking at yourself can feel embarrassing. But it's not a coincidence that the 'least cringe' position, least vulnerable position, is to erase yourself. But you're not superficial. And stating 'yourself' is not egotistical. It's the foundation for everything else that matters, and could matter about you to another person.

So like. Some self-affirmations. Not the type that's like, "I'm brave, I'm smart, I'm good, I'm worthy, I'm flexible," etc. I mean:

My favorite color is...

My favorite food is...

I remember a time when I felt, 'wow'...

When I speak, I am [loud, soft, wordy, brief, etc.]...

I am interested in...

People who are [X] inspire me...

I wish I was more...

I wish I was less...

When people meet me, I want them to feel...

My favorite animal is...

I like to spend a free afternoon doing...

I like my spaces to be...

The smell of [x] reminds me of...

When I daydream, the story is usually this type...

I think about these on-purpose maybe once a week.

Affirmations like these may seem childish, basic, frivolous compared to building 'successful habits' and routines. And those are useful, but they can only keep you moving forward through a harsh environment; relying fully on 'discipline' to carry on will put you on paths where an external default is affirmed and your authenticity will be overwritten.

Whether you are trying to become more confident, or trying to work on your self awareness, trying to 'hang in there,' trying to reconcile who you have to be at different parts of your life, trying to unblock your creativity, or if you're entering a new part of your life... even if you think you have yourself all figured out, I believe purposefully sitting down to think about these things will help you.

[butts-bouncing-on-the-beltway]

I need to get the potatoes going so I can make sure supper is ready in time and also so I can get my head off the idea of making a BAD fucking decision

[team5ds]

going thru the old screencaps and it is still comical the way the writers sold us "aki izayoi wants to be a doctor, no REALLY" is just:

she saved a little girl from falling off the building that one time in the hospital. for the record: i still do not believe this was intentional foreshadowing to her career.

crow saying "maybe being psychic is the power to heal people" after what really saved them is her making her big ass dragon real, preventing debris from falling and crushing them. she did not use her psychic powers to heal them at ALL, it was literally just saving them

saying "i don't know what i want to do" after graduating from duel academy, a school for duelists then seeing the little girl she saved (again, not medically or through any actual use of medicine, just stopped from falling off a building) is enough to go "i want to be a doctor"

like. there is no other build up. oh and also the ones that are legit foreshadowing occur in the final 10 episodes, so it really does feel like a hack rush job trying to convince us she wants to do this. it feels like they went "we have to make aki leave neo domino. i know - we'll ship her off to germany to do medicine" and then someone rightfully pointed out that she's literally never expressed an interest in medicine in her life, so they had to come up with the final two bullet points to try to sell it.

could it have been sold better? sure. but since i think the plot point is stupid and ultimately inconsequential (because nothing about changing aki's career even causes any issues to the plot - you can pick a new one out of a hat & claim she has to move for it no problem), it just pisses me the fuck off.

not only that, it's paired with such fun writing choices as "lua and luka forgive their estranged parents to move to england", "jack gets factory reset to his season one self in that he rejects the idea of love wholesale in favor of obsessing over beating yusei", "crow hogan becomes a cop", and "yusei is forced into his father's career path because Sins Of The Father (that didn't actually happen)" so like. it's not like aki is wholly unique in having a randomly generated reason to leave neo domino city that doesn't fully make any sense if you examine it too closely. i think they just wanted the plot beat of "everyone except yusei leaves neo domino to live their own lives" without really putting much thought into what each of these characters would DO with their lives post wrgp.

[riacte]

so hey guys i finished dungeon meshi yesterday and i'm still thinking about it

[zestyzigzagoon]

If any non-writers want to have a glimpse into what it's actually like to write, then here. I've been stuck on this lame half-sentence for approximately thirteen days now.

[astrobei]

your post about karma has me lol-ing like i have no idea the context but i'm so excited for you

HELPP thank you so much i have been on cloud 9 all week 🥳🥳🥳 the context is just a lot of irl work drama but to summarize: i’ve worked in my current lab for the last 2.5 years and back in may a spot opened up for the role above me and i was encouraged to apply bc i had just graduated a couple months prior but they went w someone else instead bc he had a master’s and more experience. and i was offered a temporary full time position through mid october which i’m currently at and it turns out the new guy (who started mid july) is a mega condescending category 10 idiot and i immediately didn’t like him and i was getting really pissed off bc i was the one training him on everything and he was keeping me from doing my work by asking one million concerningly stupid questions but i was like oh maybe im just subconsciously petty bc he got the job and not me. BUT!! it turns out he literally flat out lied on his resume ??? and he has been catastrophically messing up every experiment he has been assigned for the last month so no one else is happy w him either (sweet vindication) so now they’re firing him and offering me his job and i am extremely happy about it. LOL and TEEHEE also

[im-smart-i-swear]

Ik i talk a lot abt how fucked up these guys relationships are but i think only focusing on that aspect all the time defeats the point a little bit. bc they DO love each other and DO have the capability to work together effectively as a trio (they wouldnt have survived this long if they didnt). Its importrant.

So here are some doodles of these three idiots getting along n working together n being silly bc i love em<3 and a small infographic explaining how they felt about each other VERY early on bc i think that era of their relationships is so funny.... They dont even like each other yet<333

[quigzahhutt]

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Put "📓" or some other version of a book emoji into my inbox and I'll explain the plot of a fanfiction that I haven't written but daydream about!

mmmmmm this one is a little different. still sargebon, but if u aren't a fan of omegaverse, this will not be for u !

me and a buddy of mine have been cooking up like. a relatively complex omegaverse concept bcuz I LOVEEE overthinking tropes and making them like. concrete and realistic (ish), but this is my own little concept that kind of eats me alive every night when I'm trying so sleep

so my own personal headcanon is that Alex is a very just. non-instinctual alpha. he doesn't really get the whole super alpha-y alphas who growl and rumble for their omegas and whatnot; Alex, for the most part, is just kinda normal. a lot of people assume he's a beta at first because he's just so subdued

because of this, a lot of omegas and pups don't really pay attention to him because there's just not a lot of instinctual drive to. it's not necessarily Alex's fault, and plus he doesn't really care. he has his friends and his family who all care about him and that's really all he needs; hes actually relatively comfortable like this. if anything, Alex would probably lose his mind if he was as instinct ridden and wild as other alphas tend to be

but then Logan rolls around, and Logan is an omega and that's like. whatever. Alex doesn't even think twice of it, and neither does Logan despite what everyone else is thinking. alpha-omega teammates have never really gone down well in the past and so a lot of people are talking about it; especially because Logan is so competent on his own, very much the opposite of Alex, who kind of just stays in his own lane

if people assume that Alex is a beta, then everyone assumes that Logan is an alpha, simply just because of how he looks and acts and how feisty he is. so, although the media is worried about them as a pairing, they're also excited because they're sort of peculiar. nobody really knows what to expect

and Alex is included in that, because he really doesn't understand what anyone means when they say that Logan is more like an alpha in his behavior, because to be honest, Logan has been nothing but a polite in every interaction they've had together. kind, even. funny, maybe. Alex doesn't know what to think

and then, well. turns out Logan is excited to be Alex's teammate, because maybe he can rile him up, get Alex acting like the alpha he is. and Alex knows that it's just a joke, that's just how Logan plays around and it's like, totally fine. it doesn't make Alex feel a little insane. especially not after he learns that Logan has always preferred hanging out with betas and other omegas because he doesn't like how overbearing alphas can be, always snarling and whatnot

and it gets worse when George points out that he's never seen Logan act this way around an alpha. y'know, comfortable, easy going. usually alphas would make him kind of anxious, a little bit on his toes. but around Alex, hes... normal. relaxed and joking around and hanging close to Alex totally fine

George waves it off like thats completely fine and not insane, chalking it up to the fact that oh, you're just not all that instinctual, is all and Alex tries to accept it but he just Can't

and then shit starts going downnn. because he starts feeling very different around Logan now. like... anxious, but not because of Logan. but it kind of is because of Logan? Alex then realizes with horror that the thing he's feeling is a protective instinct. for Logan

and Alex has never felt more humiliated in his life, but he also feels bad, because the reason Logan likes him so much is because Alex isn't so instinct-y, that he's not like other alphas, or whatever. and it sucks because Alex is really starting to cherish the dynamic they have going on

but on the flipside, you have Logan who is dealing with his own freak out about y'know, being so fond of an alpha, which is something he's never really had to deal with before. he doesn't know how to cope with that, or how to cope with the fact that Logan can feel his chest unfurl and his scent preen whenever Alex says something positive about him, or compliments him, or says something funny or assertive or affectionate or. oh god Logan is so fucked. his cool, unbothered persona is being totally destroyed as we speak

but of course, in very typical sargebon fashion, neither of them talk about this at all, and so they wind up stewing in these new feelings all on their own. and it starts kind of ruining their relationship, and Alex starts feeling awkward around Logan, and Logan starts feeling uncomfortable around Alex, but it's funny because both of them are so strongly desiring each other. and so now they're stuck

the turning point is sort of when someone points out that Alex's scent is sort of different now, or that Logan seems a lot more relaxed when he's around Alex, or that they both kind of lean into each other when they're together. and it forces them to realize like. oh. maybe I'm not the only one who's feeling this. they then also realize that oh, I'm not the only one being stupid about this, either

and so they do the typical romcon thing where they both try to talk at the same time and then interrupt each other and then argue about who talks first. and they both finally realize oh. I am so much more at ease right now than I've ever been. and it's because of you

[nuuralshams]

currently trying to rest guilt free before I start working again at 8pm to perhaps pull an all nighter to prepare two reports for two review meetings tomorrow morning