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Maybe it's a good thing that your springtime allergies stop you from smoking, my love.
Life has returned to this side of the earth. I don't wanna see you lose yours.
The world is growing, and so are we.
Yet you reject it. You reject us. You shelter away, time and time again, as I have done and will do since time immemorial. You submerge deep within the earth, pulling the covers of black smoke tight around your supple throat as you bury yourself in a grim prognosis.
I can't hear you breathe if I can smell your death.
You're still so young, lamb. Fresh and pure. An angel waiting among the lilies. A lost soul plucked from farmland fields and the Garden of Eden, placed in a concrete jungle filled with cracked dreams and fragile hopes for the next train, arriving precisely at nine o' clock sharp, Monday to Friday. Shuttle buses will run.
I was a demonic denizen, inheriting shame and grief and trauma, lost forever to manmade machinations and the hands of the clock. And then you saved me. You reminded me that I was a human being, with thoughts and feelings and solid opportunity waiting on the other side of the door. You made me feel young again, hopeful and pristine, for the first time in centuries.
I am terrified of ruining that picture-perfect joy that you hold in your heart. Your body and mind may be spent, but your heart is as pure and good as any religious prayer. I long to be pure of heart and mind, but knowledgable enough to save myself from complete annihilation.
And so it breaks my heart to see you callously fade behind those deer eyes. Don't you see, my darling? I'm the damned soul seeking asylum within a slow suicide! I should be protecting you while I destroy myself! I would do ANYTHING to keep you safe and healthy from this disgusting world!
If I can't keep you safe, then I have truly lost.
I am nothing.
So please,
Stay with me a little while longer.
Let me wipe that tar off your tricky little fingers.
Let me hold you just a little bit more, until I am comforted by the warmth of your bones.
This isn't going to be your end, because you've given me a new beginning. I hope this new chapter together will last a long time throughout our lives.
I don't know if I can last another long, gruelling winter alone.
There's no spring without you.
#shower thoughts#ash rambling#poetry#shitty poetry#prose#i wrote this bc i hate the fact that my bf used to smoke#he said he would quit (and isn't addicted or anything...yet)#but he fucked up and had a durb when he was drunk#goddammit#i just want him to survive#if not for me than for himself#i might have written this during a mental breakdown#looks like pure psychosis on paper#weird...because i am not good at writing#AT ALL#but hey#at least it was worth it if i got to write again#going insane is worth it if you manage to feel creative at least once#it's been years okay?#i really needed this#even if we break up i'll still remember this fondly as an effort to be creative#didn't even need drugs or alcohol for this one#or cigarettes#just came out of pure anxiety and crazy thoughts#i am very sorry for this
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My Deltarune theory: The secret bosses in the game are all of Gaster’s weed smoking girlfriends (gender neutral)
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I have no excuse
#john soap mactavish#simon ghost riley#soapghost#i am very sorry for this#but also not#let the silly buff men be in love#god i hope they smooch in mw3
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auuughhh oooowww oofy the rot..... owwww........
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till death do us shart
#deltarune#spamtenna#spamton#tenna#mr ant tenna#doodles#fanart#my art#i got very lazy with this and am bad at writing dialogue#sorry if its ooc idc LOL i honestly. just wanted to draw spamton saying his first line#comic
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You're just not toxic enough.
#the apothecary diaries#maomao#jinshi#When she loves poison as much as she does...this really isn't as big of an insult as it may seem.#'I'd rather poison myself' from a girl who genuinely wants to eat the poison? Not bad!#This was a thank you gift for a friend who helped me out of a tough situation. I hope you enjoy this!#I am so sorry I still haven't finished season one yet. I promise I'll get to it eventually.#Maomao is a really fun protagonist and as a mystery lover - the detective plots she finds herself in are very enjoyable.#Even if she doesn't want to be part of them. Girl who just wants to mind her own business but keeps getting hired to snoop around.#Jinshi is a great character in his own right. He is also a wet little clown that I want to wring out and leave in the sun to dry.#Man...now I want to finish season one...I miss them...
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If only things could stay like this forever…
#the magnus archives#tma podcast#jonathan sims#martin blackwood#elias bouchard#tim stoker#sasha james#artists on tumblr#gif#to the people who got into magnus thinking it was like a romcom#i am so sorry#i mean it still kinda is if you think about it very hard#indigoniteart
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workin on a lizzie design for @crownpastelyellow's starkissed au <3
#my art#eydidraws#ldshadowlady#she's technically an alien here for the au but she is very much inspired from ocean queen lizzie#hi im trying to remember how to draw !! i am very out of shape#thanks to jam for letting me draw his lizzie from his au <33 she's everything to me#mcyt#trafficblr#<- sorry i dont have an empires tag (I STILL HAVENT WATCHED IT)
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🙏Please donate a small amount that may save my father's life, only 52€ left to buy my father's treatment, his doctor's appointment is tomorrow, please do not ignore my message and do not hesitate to help me❤️🩹
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My feelings about queernormative worlds in SFF is that I can often enjoy it, but I rarely believe it.
Almost everything surrounding gender, sex, and sexuality, and all the different social norms and expectations that different cultures build up around them, derive ultimately from the various realities of sexual activity and pregnancy: who can have it, who can’t, for how long, who does have it, who doesn’t, and what that means for society. I’m not being bioessentialist here, because human bodies are all quite different and different cultures develop different ways to react to that, and rates of and reactions to fertility can be different, and what different sexual and gender roles mean in different cultures and who can and can’t embody them can get extremely different. (Hell, how pregnancy itself even works can be different depending on where you live, what your lifestyle is like, and what your diet consists of!) But like, the reason gender even matters, historically, has been because of reproduction. And the reason reproduction matters, in agricultural societies anyway, has very often been because of property ownership and the need to work on farms.
So I’m totally here for queernormative worlds. But to interest me you have to answer the questions of: okay, but how does your culture work though, and how is kinship structured, and how is reproduction seen, and how is property inheritance understood, and how does gender fit into all this, for me to feel like you’ve actually tried. (And don’t say that there ARE no norms, so no one falls outside of them. There’s no culture where that’s true.)
Sci-fi worlds can get away with this easier than fantasy worlds, imo. Partially because they can posit that it is our future but we’ve gone through all of the Social Justice Struggles already and solved them, but also because technology can really alter all of these topics. The Vorkosigan Saga, for instance, makes it clear that Beta Colony is as gender-egalitarian and free-love as it is because of contraception and uterine replicators, which FULLY decouple “the ability to have children” from “the need for anyone to be pregnant.” This is huge, and the Vorkosigan Saga treats it as appropriately so! Ancillary Justice is another one that thinks a lot about how the genderless culture that decenters romance as a core social organizing principle works. But I read so many low-ish-tech fantasy worlds that are happily queernormative and gender doesn’t matter and they just feel shallow. I don’t believe this world. I don’t dislike it, exactly, I just don’t believe it, I don’t believe people would be like this because you’ve put no effort into imagining a world that works like this makes any sense.
Which is totally fine for people’s D&D games and cute oneshot comics and personal works and such, but when you want me to take your worldbuilding seriously, you’re going to have to convince me! And a lot of it is not convincing.
#adding my two cents. Sorry for contributing to The Discourse but I don’t completely agree with any Takes I’ve seen so far#It’s a failure of imagination is what it is!#Also Nate astriifomes is right that it’s so often suuuuuper allonornative and amatonormarive#In a way that is not satisfyingly addressed at all#Yes I am very anthropologist brained about this#worldbuilding
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[ assigned filipino at birth ]
Hey there, I don't know if you are still active online (I've been watching your OC animatics since Ship in a bottle), but I just now decided to check out your tumblr page, and I was wondering what he top flag means, I know about the lipstick lesbian flag, but my best bet for the top one is bi, and that doesn't seem to go with "lesbian" :)
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chill out season 2 jon... it's all in your head...
#ah yes season 2 famously very relaxing season#jonathan sims#the magnus archives#tma#fan art#really enjoyed making this one#the archivist#idk the colors aren't my fave but I'm ok with them#hopefully they r enjoyed#magpod#yeah maybe he’s too hot here. I’m not that sorry about it tbh#oh noooo jon’s too hot. oh nooo#I’m just doing it for the gays and bisexuals. you’re welcome man lovers#fuck I forgot his glasses. SORRY I feel like that’s important to his look but the drawing technology is powered down.#I’ve banned myself from anymore drawing until I sleep. it is 5 am and the birds are chirping#that’s all
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But that's dessert!
I FINALLY FINISHED THIS THING LET'S GOOO
I hope u all like it
#I love this song#I've been wanting to do something about this AU with this song for MONTHS#I am so happy I got the chance to do it as my final for class <33#I may post some wips for this on my main account if any of you guys are interested in that...#This was fun#please consider this my apology for no comic updates lately😞art school really is kicking my ass#Let me know what you think about this animation!!#I LOVE THESE GUYS I LOVE THIS AU AND I LOVE THIS SONG AND HOW IT FITS WITH THIS AU#I drew Asgore in like#one frame#and I think that's very funny#I swear he's there for a reason#technically all the characters that are important to this AU appeared here in some way or the other#except Flowey#I'm sorry flowey#If this animation was just a few seconds longer I would have added him but I had a 30 second limit#I'm slowly understanding how to animate......#forgettable-au#undertale au#undertale#papyrus#gaster#sans#papyrus!gaster#papyrus is gaster#alphys#gaster followers#undertale animation
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don't think I'm not still obsessing over 7-12
#art#twisted wonderland#twisted wonderland spoilers#twisted wonderland episode 7 spoilers#twisted wonderland book 7 spoilers#twisted wonderland episode 7 part 12 spoilers#twisted wonderland book 7 part 12 spoilers#sorry it's even scribblier than usual :') hopefully my chickenscratch is legible#anyway come here and join me in the corner where we go to be embarrassing about anime characters#just. between riddle and trey's dreams i've been thinking a lot about how#trey knew this kid for like two months when he was nine and then never really got over him or how their friendship ended#which. honestly. understandable given the circumstances#and then when they finally met again riddle acted like they'd never met before and neither he nor trey ever intended trey to be his vice#but every time riddle talks about his childhood post-incident it's basically#'oh yeah i constantly thought about trey and che'nya and fantasized about still being friends with them! this is fine and normal'#(there's a bit in one of his birthday cards where he talks about crossword puzzles and shit man that one got me)#idk. i can't put this into words very well#just...the implications that riddle was actively resisting trey's friendship#(presumably because it ended SUPER badly last time and he's learned that if he shows he wants something it gets taken away from him)#and trey had to work REALLY hard to just to get to the point they were at by the time canon starts#that was progress somehow#y'all can call him boring all you want but trey's defining feature really is that he keeps being like#'everything's fine :) this isn't a big deal :) i don't care that much'#(trey on the inside: THIS IS THE BIGGEST DEAL THAT I CARE SO MUCH ABOUT AND I WILL NEVER LET IT GO)#anyway i continue to be absolutely murdered by the timing of riddlepunzel directly after this#riddle's line about not wanting to keep standing in front of a door that's never going to open...#hey. hey silly gacha game about anime disney boys.#you are not actually allowed to do this to me#oh shit oh damn i'm out of tags and i haven't even talked about cater yet. NO BUT I HAVE LOTS OF FEELINGS THERE TOO --#(i am crushed under a falling safe looney tunes style)
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*chews Hidan and spits him out*
#hidan#kakuzu#kisame hoshigaki#naruto#naruto fanart#doodles#i was watching deadpool 2 and thought that one scene was very funny i am not sorry#kakuzu is not amused#a friend suggested the tiniest blush and i left it like that bc it looks funny haha#your honor i will put that man thru the wringer#kakuhida#almost forgot to add that tag lol#narutito
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Company Mandated Fancy Fits on the Tulpar 😏
Also had to include the REAL star of the show (and a bonus)


Based off of this and this. Thank you very much joetastic for being inspirational 👍
The REAL reason this is late

#just pretend I posted this like 6 days ago 😁👍#<-got distracted#sorry I’m Afflicted with The Curse and everything just takes me a long time#also right now I’m just kind of being experimental with my workflow and style right now so stuff is just naturally taking a bit longer#mouthwashing#mouthwashing fanart#anya mouthwashing#mouthwashing anya#nurse anya#curly mouthwashing#captain curly#mouthwashing curly#swansea mouthwashing#daisuke mouthwashing#jimmy mouthwashing#myart#anyway my new years resolution is to put more WOMEN in SUITS and MEN in DRESSES#had fun drawing this but still not too sure about the rendering style just yet. probably just gonna keep playing around with shit#IM DOING IT SCARED but im DOING IT#im also still trying to figure out how to Social Media#am i doing it right#GRAAAHHHHHHH I NEED TO BETTER UNDERSTAND FORMATTING POSTS#i have a more serious mouthwashing piece in the works but wanted to get this done first lol#honestly I have a buncha sketches I should post too#i like them but they’re not really composited very well if you catch my drift. been having trouble with sketch page layout recently#which is kind of antithetical to the idea of a sketch page but you know how it is with spaghetti#i doodled the others on the side and liked how they looked so i just put some color and basic shading on them#edit: realized i forgot to change the color of the ‘lapel’ on jims shirt lol
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