#i dont mind being called a woman tho like im used to it and it doesnt unnerve me - but id rather not be like trapped in having to be that

[thewhizzyhead]

you know when you get a friend that was even more "tomboyish" than you were in your teens and then as the both of you grow up and enter college, you see them explore expressing themselves more femininely and absolutely fall in love with it and with the concept of womanhood - while you on the other hand become all the more estranged with "being a woman" because good God you really don't fucking get it and that seeing your once-tomboyish friend find joy and an emotional connection to womanhood makes you really realize that you have no such connection whatsoever, hence making you feel left behind in actually "becoming a woman"? Anyways what I'm trying to say here is I'm definitely not fucking cis-

[ccuniculusmolestus]

day 130 of seeing the fandom say absolutely crazy shit about camilla. this is what happens when you consume media without any other lens except for this weird brand of uwu feminism where women can only be evil in a certain girlbossy way, never in a disgusting (and I mean TRULY disgusting, male-centric way), where they are only ever victims because of their “girlhood”. can you believe what I saw today? that apparently everyone in the group is a rapist because they raped her during the bacchanal! forget the fact that the entire group was high out of their minds, forget the fact that camilla is a smart enough girl to know what a bacchanal is and she’s strong enough to make her own decisions to participate (she would actually be more willing to participate in fucked up shit compared to charles!) i am just constantly disappointed and baffled by how they dumb her down in an attempt to make her seem more passive? pretending she’s above using her charm to manipulate the guys around her? apparently even bunny has done her wrong sexually because he didn’t “protect” her from charles’ incestous advances. why would he have?! it was consensual?????????? i am genuinely lost as to how the fandom has lost the plot with this one woman character. they keep claiming we’ll never know camilla because of richard. YOU ARE RICHARD! you are obsessed with victimizing her and then sexualizing this victimization! once I even saw someone claim JULIAN had victimized camilla?! they are obsessed with this narrative that every male who ever had contact with camilla raped her or sexually abused her and I’m beginning to think it’s because they can’t think of a fem character in any other way. she just HAS to be sexual or sexualized or a victim because she’s an uwu girl. no decision she takes is ever her own and no crime she commits is ever malicious because she’s ‘just a girl’ (and I hate this awful trend too). I’m sending this to you on anon because you’re the only one who won’t call me a misogynist rape apologizing male centrist (something I’ve been called before by this wonderful community for suggesting camilla was not the ‘ultimate’ victim. she is a victim don’t get me wrong but only of charles and ONLY after he’s blackout drunk.) anyway. I like your blog. I wish I’d found it before.

WHAT

aww thanku for the compliment

HOLD ON A MINUTE THOUGH. (cracks knuckles)

WHATTTT I AM SO GAD I AHVENT SEEN THIS THOERY BECUA E WHAT DO YOU MEAAAN WHAT DO YOU EMAN THEYRE ALL RAPOST!?!?!?!?!

OK wait let me chill Out for a sec and think abt thsi. Saur My brainneeds to section things so I'll just make a list ok

GANG SA? i,m assumign theyre going with the SA thing bcs she *was a deer* and they all remembered chasing one...? THO idk how that transglates into her being SA'd 🗿💔💔 i guess to each their own interpreatation.............Personally i think its so easy to get wrapped up in these weird ahh headcanons if u don't rlly gaf about the classical contextt behidn the story...? Let me begin with the deer: UNRELATED TO BACCHUS -> Deer are sacred to Artemis and as we all know she is aka the huntress. Deer, hunt.......Deer, huntress.....possible allusion to the Goddess? PERHAPS. U kno...I have a crazy theory abt purrhaps this being a sign that they were led to 'hunt' the farmer. That's crazy. Anyway. RELATED TO BACCHUS -> sauuurrr wild animals lowkey depict wilderness and dreedom and ecstasy for Bacchus and his folowers. The deer is not Dionysus' animal tho 💔 at least not from what i rember like its a panther or a tiger lowkey. HOWWWWWEVER DEER SKIN IS RELATED TO HIS FOLLOWERS!!!!!!!!!! DO YOU KNOW ABOUT "NEBRIS"? It meansa deer/fawn skin! And Bacchus' female followrs the maeneads use to wear this during the rituals! Also Bacchic rituals dont even sacrific deer 😭😭 they sacrifc liek goats i thin. It was eihter goats or rams but not deer. Also SA is literally never a part of Bacchic myths ew. Prersonally im my opinoin Donna used this imagery for classical reasons and not to depict fucking gan g rape. Bruh. Within a Bacchic fraework this probs js means she felt wild and animalistic in the ritual. ORRR LICHERALLY that she simply entered a trance-like state?? There is no textual or even contectual evidence that she was SAd.

CONSENSUAL INCEsT? The incest was consensual and i belueve this strongly. i think poeple just put it all on charles because he is eazy to overlook and hate bcs of his abuse at the end but i d dont think thats a fair analyss of anythng......Look. Incesy themes are cosndiered gothic or whatevr and Donna Tartt mother of literature wrote evrything very precisely. WHy I dont believe the incest wasone sided is because Donna shows us a balance nd equalty b/w the sibs. - POWER IMBALANCE? Firsty they are literally twins so u take that age gap power imbalance away ok - CAMILLAS AGENCY? Secondy Ccamillas masculinity puts her on a somewhat equal footing WHEN IT COMES TO CHARLES (to Charles! Other men obv wouldnt see it this way) i wih i coudl explain it better but they are mirror images of one other.... Camillas masculinty is subtle and also a counterpoint to the vulnerable femininity people try to project onto her..She actualy isnt portrayed as meek or helpless by Donna EVEN in Richads's observation! She's emotionally controlled and calculated, ESPCIALLYYYYYY compared to her fuckass brother who goes off the deep end at evey little thgn. Camilla is not someone who doesn’t know how to say NO. She's not someon who bends over backwards to please ANY man around her please gie let her have some agency .... nd we also kno Camilla is more capable of cold and brutal decisions when it comes down 2 it….I am not saying this makes it impssible for her to be a victim to him OFC but I just dont see her as having 0 say in what she and Charles do…….. - DONNA TARTT'S DEPICTION OF MORAL COLLAPSE Literally its just to show moral collpase. LMFAO. Donna wanted to shwo moral collapse and consensual incest is RIGHT UP THERE with MURDER! - NARRATUVE SILENCE IS FOR AMBIGUITYYYYY....NAWWTTT VICTIMHOOOD!!!!!!!!!!!!! ALOT of pople say ohhh we didnt hear Camilla say shit she was such a victim. WHAT. Miss Donna's entire NOVEL is abotu ambiguity girlfriend we actually dont hear a lot of them say anything except Miss Richard! And she's a liar! - Black and white Charles? many let Charles’s eventual abusiveness color their entire view of the relationship, instead of recognizing that his behaviour at the end is not the behavior he has normally BUT a literal breakdown in response to losing emotional access to her. Sheleaves his ass when he starts drinking anf this drinking makes him abusiev!!! HE LITERALLY BECAME AN ALCHOLOHIC AND YALL TALKNBG ABT "HE WAS ALWAYS LIKE THSI" LIKE WHaT????? - Projection of disgust obvi incest is fucking yuck because it is disturbing but disturbing doesnt mean nonconsensual. Morally wrong? Yes, but that doesnt automatically imply abuse.

Julian/Bnuy OH OH IVE SEEN THE JULIAN ONE! IDK WHAT IT MEANS. WHAT DID BRO DO (sorry nothing to addhere from my prepsective bcs i literally dont know what could have happened???) Maybe he asked her to read that poem once and she lowk has social anxity so he basically did a war crime (I am srs abt this tho profs who make u read shit out loud when they know u dont feel the vibe shoud be publicy executed kys) DONT EVEN GET ME FUCKING STARTED ON BUNNY??? TF HE DO??? Yes he sees two consenting adutls doing incest and freaks out and clams up abt it until they commit a fucking murde r bcs he couldnt snitch on them b4 bcs like it would mess up their whole group and honestly what tf would u do if u discovered two ppl in ur friend grp were investig...? LOL/ LEAVE HIM ALONE HE GETS ENOUGH SHIT AS IT IS

ARE YOU SEXIST MISOGYNIST EVIL BATSARD Im glad u aseked. Answer is:

No

and llike, dont worry gurl, I been called that once too for uhh...for analyzing bnnuy's relaitosnhip with marion..........anything gets u titled anything over here its fine.

I have acutally been meaning to discuss the issue with Camilla and Charles' depiction in this fandom but I was lowkey scared so....thanku for this ask anon! I get your frustration!

Ur totally right that some takes reduce Camilla to a passive object and Charles to a 1 dimensional predator. In a literary space these r lowkey ahistorical (bcs they dont take gothic + classical tropes into consid), anti-literary (they assume everything is a modern social allegory), and Im ngl theyre often condescending toward Camilla, who I admit is literally one of the most emotionally intelligent characters in the book

N I do belive that theories and headcanosn are, obvi, a to eahc their own kinda vibe. But if u take a theory that has no contextual evidence or smthn and start treatin it like canon u r bound to confuse and offend other readers maybe UBUT ALSO you will start getting offended when other readers dont take ur takes srsly. Bcs stuff like this is so charged (rape, incestual SA) that ppl just shut down and have visceral reactions (which is understabdale and normal). so i mean someone who believes in these theories might get mad at u for NOT believing in them or treating them as canon. At the end of the day bro we all jus gotta chill and ponder

[goemonbooty]

Looking through old lupin fanart and fan comics ive talked abt it with some friends but its kind of crazy how people would like. Woke their way into being misogynistic to fujiko😭 the struggle of having her as a favourite character and then theres like nothing ever of her interacting with anyone ever that isnt lupin (for the usual betrayal, usually for a joke) and occasionally goemon or jigen but thats sparingly (also usually for a joke)

What i mean by “wokeing into misogyny” is that i saw so much.. “they (the men) dont deserve her shes too beautiful” “shes too good to be around them” “she should be with a woman” “shes a lesbian” (crazy ass thing to say abt a canonically bisexual character😗)

Duh there should be more women in the series and fujiko should get to interact with them too but thats Not what people were doing👎 under the guise of thinking shes too good for the men or whatever All content would focus on the men anyway and shed just never be there.

Ofc that is mixed with just genuine outward misogyny and double standard about fujiko being deceiving and evil but like. Hello! THEYRE ALL CRIMINALS!!! Lupin wouldnt have the life he has without her actions being that way. WHO GAF! Trying to play the morality card when it comes to the lupin crew is so stupid lmfao

Its kind of insane and crazy to me that the woman called fujiko mine as a show Exists. I swore nobody ever spoke about it when its so thematically dense and id say the most interesting use of the characters and their dynamics since Mamo. ITS INSANE. OT BOGGLES MY MIND HOW INTERESTING IT IS AND THAT ITS NEVER BROUGHT UP ANYWHERE😭

The way with which it navigates displaying all of the mens misogyny (which is varying in levels) where it manifests in their interactions with fujiko and how it comes to frame their view of her vs the way fujiko lives her life, her self assured nature about who she is and what she wants to do, where the show never ever demonises her or punishes her for her actions in some kind of comeuppance how some of the older stuff would frame her vs the men (cough part 2 when theyd make her seem stupid and just blindly betraying lupin and then everything blows up in her face and all the guys go heh.. thats what she gets!)

The show displaying just what about all five makes them so engaging and endearing, what ends up making their group function, what drives each of their lives on a level that actually gives the time to their individual thought processes. All while centring it around how Fujiko navigates the four of them (not Lupin!) WHILE ALSO BEING A PREQUEL TO PART 1 is insane. When women get to write and direct Lupin🤯🤯🤯🤯

Anyway. All that to say. Crazy how the blueprint on why fujiko is important and how good she can be when written with care and with a womans perspective in mind is Right There its crazay that it doesnt seem to influence alot of fanwork. My opinion is that fujiko should actually be included in everything ever forever and she makes everything infinitely more interesting (crazy how the official media somehow does this better😐 im working on something myself to display what i mean about this tho)

[justslightlymental]

Aren’t you curious, little one? Na’vi OC x reader

okay so i already did post this on ao3 like 2 years back but figured I could also post this here since i actually use tumblr now.

yeahhh surprise i also write tor Avatar yipiii (i forgot to add it in my introduction)

to give u a better image on wtf this guy looks like heres some old ass photos. (Im so much better now at art)

His name is Aakesh, age: 24 (i forgor if navi have diff age system but at least 24 in human years😔)

bro is 11ft tall, very buff for a navi (yeah bc bros half human half navi, dont ask me how it works)

anyway enough yappidy yap, get in on the ficcy, has like almost 5k words i think if not more idk

WARNINGS: This is just filthy smut with plot.

Breeding kink, knife play, choking, veryyyy slight dub-con bc woman is like noo get off even tho she wants it. Uhhh, obvious size difference, cervix fucking and past that. Biting, scratching, cringy writing, I FORGOT WHAT ELSE.

Pandora...

The beautiful planet, basically the opposite of the now dying earth. You had been one of the few lucky scientists that were chosen to travel to Pandora and help with the Avatar project, but things didn't really go as planned, after that guy named Jake Sully decided to fall in love with a native female.

A war soon broke out between the humans and the Na'vi, but of course the natives were victorious after Jake managed to gather all the tribes together to lead an attack against Miles. You had never been one to enjoy violence and didn't like how all the humans were doing the exact same thing here, that led to the death of our own Mother Earth. 

'It was fucking deserved for him, honestly.' You thought, taking a sip from your drink, while looking through your iPad.

Honestly, you just wanted to live your life as a Na'vi, everything just seemed so much more free and exciting. Imagine being able to ride your own Ikran, jump across the huge trees, and find your own life long mate. Sounds so much better than my current life, and to be honest. The natives here are quite attractive.... 

Sometimes you just look at them, whenever you visit Jake's tribes camp, the way their muscles basically shine against the sun, their slutty thin waists and broad shoulders, not to mention the lack of clothes~

'What the fuck am I thinking. Snap out of it dumbass, no Na'vi could ever love a human.' You groaned to yourself, already feeling so flustered and hot just from thinking about them.

Sigh

You were truly hopeless, weren't you? 

You made your way towards the main area, seeing some of the other people that were chosen to stay on Pandora, mostly those who were friends to Sully and helped him in the war, but some of them probably just begged their way into staying, who knows.

You talked with some of your co-workers about where some of you guys would be transported to for the following months. Lucky for you, you would be transported to work in the heart of the Omatikaya clan, Jake's clan to be exact.

Getting into a chopper or whatever the fuck these things are called, you couldn't care less and taking off towards the sky. The view was magnificent from up there, seeing all of the wild birds and Ikrans flying around, and the beautiful green forests blooming with life down there, you wouldn't trade this for anything. 

When you finally reached your location with the other people, you were greeted by Norm. He smiled and gave you a quick hug, returning that smile to him. He quickly said hello to the 2 other scientists that came with you, and led you all to the "human" area, it was just a medium sized research silo that could host up to probably 20 humans or so. 

While walking with Norm by your side and him talking about his research, you couldn't really focus on his words, as all you could think about was the feeling of being watched, like a prey to some predator.

Looking around you and finding no eyes on you however, that was weird? Perhaps It's just my mind playing tricks on me again. Humming to yourself and then focusing your attention on Norm.

"And this is your room." Norm opened a door to a small but comfortable looking room, it had pretty much everything you would need, even a personal bathroom.

"Thank you Norm. This is more than enough." You smiled and gave him a small nod.

"No worries, oh and when you feel like it, could you go outside and grab me a few samples?" He handed you some papers that had whatever he needed listed there, with precise instructions on how to handle the plant ect.

"Oh yes. You can count on me, don't worry." You smiled, sitting down on your bed and looking through them.

Norm gave you a nod and closed the door behind him, leaving you alone with your thoughts.

"Strange, I can't seem to shake off the feeling of being watched." You muttered to yourself and looked through the window in your room, and you SWEAR you saw something quickly hide into the bushes.

"What the fuck? Am I seeing things?" You asked yourself. "Oh whatever, let's just get this task over with."

Getting ready and heading outside towards your first destination which wasn't too far away from the camp, just far enough for all of the talking and sounds to be completely silent. You had to walk for a while until you finally found the first specimen of vegetation. Inspecting it, seeing it was a beautiful shade of purple and blue, it seemed to have some sort of berries hanging from it, but wouldn't try your luck at tasting it. You took out your sample kit, and got to work. 

When you were done, and about to get up there was a sudden loud thump behind you, like someone had just landed from high up. You turned around only to find an extremely tall Na'vi male, looking straight down at you, and oh my god he was handsome. You hardly reached his stomach, your face just about the same height as where his dick would be- 'and oh my god stop thinking like that you idiot!' Mentally scolding yourself.

"Uhh.. H-hello? D-Do you need something?" You asked, stuttering over your words purely from slight fear and nervousness.

"No. I just wanted to check you out 'closer'." He had a strong accent, his voice was deep with a rasp, it almost sounded like his voice had a natural filter on it.

"C-Check me out closer? Why?" You asked, feeling a little dumb founded, no other Na'vi had ever paid any attention to you, usually it was just a bunch of side eyes or dirty glances, they didn't really like your people.

"You caught my attention all those years ago, but I could never get close, or even talk to you, but now I have a chance." He said, crouching closer to your face, his fingers holding your cheeks. It was like he was inspecting every little detail your face offered.

"M-ME?!" You gasped, cheeks turning a little red from his attention on you.

"Yes you. Who else would I be talking about while touching you like this?" He asked with a chuckle, his eyes staring right into your own, they were beautiful, the orange / yellow-ish color almost shining, captivating your own eyes in a trance.

"W-well... I guess no one..." You chuckled awkwardly.

He then let go and stood up, looking down at you, seemingly deep in thought.

"Do you have a mate?" He asked, like it was the most casual thing to talk about.

"WHAT? W-We just met, is this really appropriate to talk about-" You quickly answered, shocked by his question.

"I asked you a question. Do you have a mate or not?" He seemed to be demanding an answer, his eyebrows furrowing a little, his eyes held a serious look in them.

"O-Of course I don't. I haven't dated anyone in a long time, guess I just don't really feel attracted to humans..." You muttered the last part pretty quietly.

"Why would you not think of your species as attractive? I think you are quite divine." He asked, his hands folded against his chest.

"O-Oh..." You blushed at his compliment, smiling to yourself like an idiot, before looking up at him again.

"I-I find your people more attractive than mine.. Guess it's because I've seen humans all my life." You confessed, looking away from his face.

He just stared at you for a while, both of you standing in silence, just the gentle hum of the breeze was heard around you. You started getting awfully anxious, what if he didn't like what you said? What if you really offended him? Okay that's impossible, you didn't say anything mean, at least you hope you didn't. You were about to ask him if you said anything wrong, when you felt his hands on your waist, your eyes widened as he lifted you up like a feather. 

"W-What!" "I've watched you for a long time. I have fallen for your charms, no Na'vi or other human has ever made me feel this way." He just straight up confessed, even if he just officially met you.

"B-But we barely know each other!" You yelped. 

"We Na'vi believe in what you would call 'love at first sight'. We choose our mate, but they must also choose us." He said, voice low as his ears twitched. 

You took a moment to admire his face, the way his cheekbones were slightly more defined, his jaw line was very sharp. Your eyes wandered down towards his body, he looked very buff, his biceps larger than an average Na'Vi would have. He had a good pair of tits on his chest, his stomach muscles were defined, and his thighs were very large. 

Honestly, this is probably the first actual buff Na'vi you have seen. Your eyes lingered on his bottom half for longer than they should have, and when the male in front of you cleared his throat, your eyes snapped back up again.

"Are you curious, little one?" He asked with a chuckle.

"M-me? N-no..." You tried to deny yourself.

"I know what you want, and I can give it to you, if you just choose me as well." He said, bringing his face closer to yours.

"W-Well. It would be nice at first to know your name... And if you could put me down..." You were seriously getting too hot and bothered, the way he just held you in air and lifted you up stirred something in you, perhaps its the MASSIVE size difference between you both.

"Oh right, my apologies." He smiled, and placed you down, this time crouching in front of you.

"My name is Aakesh." He bowed his head a little.

"That's a lovely name, does it mean something? Oh and mine is (Name)." You smiled.

"It means Lord of the sky, and your name sounds rather beautiful too." He answered, very proud of his designation.

"Woah! You truly must be a great Ikran rider then?" You sounded so excited to be actually having a decent conversation with him, this isn't everyday you know?

"The best of the best."

"... About your other thing, even if we just met... I'd like to choose you too." You told him very shyly, it felt so weird to confess to early, but maybe its how they roll over here in Pandora.

"Really? Oh! This is great, thank you ma (Name). I promise to love and cherish you until my last breath." He let out a breath of relief, taking your hands into his and kissing them.

"A-As do I..." You blushed more.

"May I kiss you?" He almost purred, his lips so close to yours, feeling his hot breath on your skin.

"O-Of course." And in an instant his lips attacked yours, his tongue slipping inside your mouth as left hand traveled behind your head to hold onto your hair, tilting your head for a better angle.

 Groaning into the kiss, feeling the heat build up between your legs, he pulled you closer to his body. His other arm sneaking around your back, his hand taking hold of your ass, squeezing it and giving it a few firm smacks.

(3rd pov)

Her legs latched around his waist as his hands traveled up to her chest, squeezing her breasts through her shirt. He took a firm grip of the shirt and ripped it open, her bare chest exposed to his eyes. He leaned closer, his tongue licking her collarbones and traveling downwards between her tits.

"One thing I've grown curious about, is the way your species is naturally so much more curvy." He chuckled, his hands tearing the bra away, her nipples becoming harder against the cool air.

"A-Aakesh!" (Name) yelped, trying to cover her breasts out of pure shyness, only to have her hands yanked away.

"Do not cover yourself. I want to see everything you offer, you are mine after all." He hissed softly, his possessive side making its appearance.

He looked around at the trees and cliffs near them, carrying her and pushing her up against the rough texture of a nearby tree. His lips attacked her neck, sucking and licking, leaving marks. (Name) moaned out his name, moving her head to the side to give his lips even more access to her neck. His hands again around her chest, groping and squeezing them, obsessed with the fat between his fingers, this is something you could never enjoy with Na'vi females.

"You are a gift sent down to me, by Eywa." He muttered, biting into her neck, hard. He wanted everyone to know she was claimed, and only his to ravish.

"A-Ah. I'm y-yours Aakesh. P-Please take me." Her fingers ran through his dark hair, taking a firm grip and pulling whenever he kissed a sensitive spot.

"Careful, you are pushing every fiber of my being not to slam you onto the ground and pound into you until your vision blacks out." He said in a warning tone.

"If that's... what it takes... then so be it." She said between breaths, looking straight into his eyes and kissing his neck.

"Uh- Ngghh..." He whined out, feeling her sweet plump lips sucking on his skin left him breathless, his fingers digging into her skin, not too harshly but enough to leave a mark.

"You are... really naughty aren't you? Perhaps I should teach you a lesson, pet." He spat, turning them around and placing her on the ground, his left hand on her throat, while the other pulled down her pants.

She was soaked by now, pushing her thighs open as he stared at her underwear, she felt her face heat up from being so exposed. His right hand softly traveled upwards her inner thigh, closer and closer to her covered intimate parts. His  hand pushed against her pussy, feeling the warmth through the thin fabric separating their skins, she let out a loud yelp, arching her back off the ground.

"Someone seems excited huh?" He teased, his index and middle finger rubbing her slit, slowly and painfully, like he wasn't even going to remove her underwear to begin with.

"S-Stop teasing me! Please-!" She moaned, trying to grind against his hand, anything to get rid of the almost painful heat between her legs.

"Hmm... Since my little pet asked so nicely." He chuckled, and moved his hand to retrieve a knife from his small weapon case placed upon his right thigh. 

Her breath caught up in her throat as he hovered the knife in between her breasts, before slowly moving down, slightly touching her skin, but not breaking any. The knife traveled all the way to her underwear, before hooking it under it and cutting it off completely. He just stared with a huge smirk, his eyes seemed to darken, his tail swaying slightly, like some cat who is ready to pounce on their prey. He threw the knife somewhere nearby, and crawled on top of her, seeing her small body completely covered by him, driving him mad.

His hands took hold of her waist, as he scooted back with his body, lifting her lower half off the ground. His face was now basically in front of her exposed pussy, she kept trying to trash out of his grip, not wanting him to stare, but he wouldn't move a muscle. 

"W-What are you doing!? S-stop staring, it's embarrass- AH!" She couldn't even finish her sentence, feeling his mouth around her pussy.

His rough tongue pushed against her sweet opening, before pushing in. He was eating her up like a starved man, his mouth did wonders and it almost had her thinking if this was really his first time. She couldn't keep quiet, not when he kept hitting her sweet spot, just with his tongue, and not to mention the way he sucked her clit, the way he kept her in such a vulnerable position, it made her come closer and closer to her climax. 

"S-STOP! N-No more, Ahh- T-Too much~" She moaned out, her hands trying to grip anything on the ground to pull herself away, but any attempt had him pull her closer to his mouth, he wouldn't give her any chance for escape.

And there it was. He finally hit that sweet spot for the last time, before her strings snapped, cumming all around his tongue, he separated and swallowed everything. He hummed, licking his lips, placing her on the floor as her body kept twitching slightly from the intense orgasm she just felt.

"My dear, you taste divine, I can't wait to have your sweetness around my dick." He laughed, groaning as his hard-on was painfully pushing against his cloth.

"Haaa.... S-so good..." She said quietly, panting, trying to get as much air as she could.

"Don't think that we are done yet, this is merely the beginning." He said, removing his cloth quickly and swiftly.

Her eyes almost popped out of their sockets as she stared at his massive cock, at least massive for her. No human could achieve those inches naturally, oh hell no. She slapped her thighs closed, feeling her core heat up once again, becoming even more horny and needy. His cock was probably around 13-15 inches, if not more, and considering Aakesh is actually one of the tallest Na'vi she was seen at around 11' ft

"Scared? Don't worry, I won't hurt you." He chuckled, crawling near her again.

"T-That thing is going to rip me apart!" She quivered, trying to fight the rising neediness, honestly she just wanted that fucking alien dick in her, right now.

"It won't. But  I can try if you really want me to." He smiled, a hint of insane need in his eyes.

'Should I play with fire? Or should I play it safe?' (Name) thought for a moment, looking into his eyes, while his dick was dangerously close to her needy hole. A little bit of fuel to the fire won't cause a huge explosion right? It will just make the flames bigger and hotter.

"I was expecting better, is that the smallest your species has to offer?" She teased with a smirk, her hands in front of her chest in a sassy manner.

"I bet a human could fuck me better than you." She finished with a laugh. 

That was it.

It felt like actual fire burned in his eyes, as he leaned closer to her face with a very threatening aura. He chuckled dryly right in her face, taking hold of her hair and pulling her face backwards so he could bite her neck again. 

"Is that so? I am glad to tell you I am close to the biggest our species has to offer. And I won't hesitate to fuck your cervix open if it means I'll get that bratty mouth of yours to scream my name." He said. He picked up his knife he had tossed earlier and brought it near her face.

"Tell me... Do you wish for a... temporary reminder?" He asked, caressing her skin with his fingers.

"...N-No Master...I'm..I'm sorry-" She was cut short with his hand in front of her mouth, pressing the knife closer to her throat. She couldn’t lie that the fact he could end her right then and there aroused her.

"Don't apologize to me dear... Apologize to yourself once I'm done with you." And with that he lifted her legs over his shoulders, the knife long gone as his fingers traveled to her slit, rubbing up and down before inserting his middle finger in her pussy.

"Nnnh- Aahh- Y-Your finger is s-so big!" She tried to mutter out words, feeling how even his fingers could literally match up against a human's cock, at least length wise, oh what had she gotten herself into??

"I have to be so kind and prepare your tiny needy hole, otherwise you wouldn't be able to handle even an inch of me." He hissed, picking up the speed, inserting another finger into her sloppy hole, rubbing her clit with his thumb.

With all the moans and whines coming from her, it only fed his huge ego further, his fingers were going at an awful fast pace, she felt like exploding all over again, the way his fingers slid in and out so easily because of all her leaking wetness, it was honestly embarrassing how horny she had become. When she was getting closer her moans also grew louder by the moment, grabbing anything she could, his biceps, hair, the ground. 

And then he stopped.

She stared up at him with a shocked expression, all that built up pleasure almost completely gone in a single motion. She groaned out, begging for release, she did not like being edged like this at all.

"W-Why did you.. stop?" She asked, breathing heavily, hair sticking into her forehead from sweat.

"I want you to cum on my cock, not my fingers, no matter how tempting your reactions are." He muttered, aligning his cock in front of her pulsing opening.

"W-Wait!-" She yelped, the air leaving her lungs as the tip of his huge cock squeezed inside of her.

The way her walls were forced open around his cock as he sunk in more and more, she was gasping for air, trying to push him away, it was too much. She moaned and whined, scratching his thighs with her nails, back arching off of the floor. He was only half way in when the walls of her  cervix stopped him, he groaned, the way her pussy squeezed around his shaft, pulsing, not letting him move out. He laughed loudly, a little out of breath, trying to control his instincts.

"You're sucking me in like no tomorrow." He panted, his dick twitching inside her.

"A-AH- So big~" She mumbled, eyes rolling back.

"Give me more." She slurred out, dragging his face down and kissing him hungrily, her actions driven by lust and need.

He took that as a hint and started moving himself, thrusting in and out slowly at first, gradually speeding up his movements. (Name) felt the tip of his cock kissing the opening of her cervix with every single thrust, feeling like he was all the way up in her stomach. He almost folded her, holding her legs against her shoulders, keeping her in a mating press, drilling his cock into her pussy. He let out loud pleased sighs, his ears picking up all the lewd sounds of their skin slapping together, the sounds of his dick going in and out of her lewd opening and most importantly her begging and pleading for more.

"M-More More! Give me all you have, USE me as you w-wish!" She screamed out, tongue rolling out of her mouth, her body sticky with sweat and the smell of sex strong around them.

It felt like he got even harder at her words, squeezing her legs together as he pounded into her harsher, forcing more of him inside her, even if it should be logically impossible to do so. His hands held her breasts squeezing them while kissing her mouth hungrily, his tongue exploring every inch of her mouth. His thrusting was growing animalistic and uneven, his dick swelling and twitching, indicating he was nearing his peak. She could feel how her walls squeezed around him more, seeing one of his fingers travel to her clit and rubbing it to give her more pleasure, she was starting to see black dots in her vision, yelling out his name. Both of them came at the same time, his cum flooding into her welcoming hole, feeling her walls being painted white as her own fluids mixed with his.

"I have so much more to give you.. little one~" He whispered into her ear as he pulled his cock out, her pussy was leaking of his juices, smearing her thighs and staining the ground below.

"What a lovely sight. You are mine now, pet." He purred, lifting her legs up to stare at her abused hole.

He used his fingers to push any leaking cum back into her, not wanting anything to go to waste, he wanted to see her bloated and full of his cum, he would keep filling her up until even Eywa herself cannot deny pregnancy. Her body was still so sensitive, her legs shook as his fingers pushed back into her gummy walls, she couldn't speak or focus on anything else but the almost painful pleasure and over sensitivity she felt.

She yelped quietly as she was turned around on her stomach, his hands on her waist as he pulled her to his body, her ass rubbing against his lower stomach. She could feel his growing hard-on against her stomach, the pre cum staining her, she bit her lip just thinking about having all of him inside her again, this time literally.

"FUCK! Just take me a-already! BREED ME, MAKE ME FULL!" She demanded, pushing against his dick, feeling him rubbing along her slit.

"... Be careful what you wish for" He let out an almost feral growl.

Before she could even mutter out a reply he had invaded her lower regions in one single thrust, not giving her a single warning nor a moment to adjust to his massive length all over again. His hands holding her head into the ground, while the other was attacking her clit, all the while thrusting into her harshly. He bit into her neck, leaving such a deep mark it started bleeding, licking up all of her blood and letting out satisfied grunts and sighs. She didn't even register anything else he was doing, only focusing on how his dick was forcefully digging deeper and deeper into her uterus, forcing more and more of him inside.

She moaned out, pushing against him to meet his thrusts.

"Aren't.. you such a dirty one... I'll make sure.. to fill you to the brim... nggh..~" He groaned, taking hold of her hair and pulling her up.

Her back against his chest, both of them on their knees, he thrusted upwards into her, his other hand pulling her towards him, until he was completely in her. She yelled out his name as he kept hitting her spot deep and rough already past her cervix. His cock shape would surely be engraved into her after this. She kept scratching his arms that were around her and his thighs as she neared her climax, feeling like she would explode any moment now. When he finally reached his last thrust, he stopped, his cum filling her womb completely, she came hard at the feeling of being filled, her pussy clenching around him, her essence mixed with his. 

"Are you okay?" He asks finally, after a long pause.

"Mmm... mm... Y-yeah..." She mumbles, forcing herself to stay awake, her whole body still recovering.

He finally separated his body from her, pulling himself from inside her, seeing all of that cum sweeping out. He chuckled, staring at her fucked up body, he quickly placed his cloth back on and used her jacket to cover her body up. He lifted her up bridal style and walked towards the camp, she was fast asleep in his arms.

"I will make sure to treat you well princess."

-

YAS

[thewardenisonthecase]

the calling chapter 4 thoughts

maric pov. amazing.

im fucking dying that genevieve caught duncan mid fuck and now both of them are like maker dont talk about it

i am audibly groaning at maric and his fucking "Oh i was a trusting fool". i mean, he was, but he was also a big fuckingg idiot who was thinking with his dick instead of his head, and the narration seems more like oh he ust trusted too easily instead of he literally met a pretty girl and then decided he wouldnt question her at all.

"in fact, he survived by luck on a number of occasions back then." is this gaider's way of acknowledging how much blacking out maric does in TST

"Still, his mind inevitably was drawn to the two women who had accompanied him into those dark depths. One had become his wife and the mother of his son, while the other . . ." stop talking about rowan and katriel

Im glad at least Maric is admitting that he is a shitty dad. now, acting like going away was a good idea because he was a shitty dad is like. what the fuck are you on about

Oh shit Bregan was the previous commander. interesting.

I love Utha

"Duncan had already explained to him how the Grey Wardens drank darkspawn blood in a ritual they called the Joining, taking the taint into their own bodies in order to effectively combat the creatures. (...)This information was not something many people knew, and Genevieve had only grudgingly allowed the lad to impart it to him." BRO WHAT-

RIP Jory, i guess

interesting that the blight in these books is describing as like a black fungus but in games its very often depicted with red colors (tho the black is more represent in vg i think)

Ok so Maric theorizes if Rowan caught blight sickness, since no one truly knew what did she die of. but she died when cailan was like. 2 years old, so it was a long time before she got sick which means. could somone potentially get blight sickness and only years later do they get sick for real?

"Rowan had been a vital woman, and the slow sapping of her strength had galled her. Toward the end she had become a shadow, wanting nothing more than for the pain to simply stop. Maric had held her skeletal hand and felt his heart break as she had" hi i hate this

gotta love how they describe fiona having dark eyes and then make her have green eyes in the freaking game.

"Place and time are far less important than are concepts and symbols. The spirits shape their realm to resemble the things they see in the minds of dreamers because that is what they believe our world is like, and they want desperately to be part of it. So they emulate a landscape that is based more on our perceptions and our feelings than on reality, drawing us in." god i love fiona because she's explaining it in a much easier way to understand

"You dream of those you love because there is a bond between you. The spirits recognize this. That bond has power in the Fade.” I LOVE THIS QUOTE

"The dreams that are not dreams are visions, (...) “Because the Fade is a reflection of our reality as the spirits see it, it may be used to interpret that reality. We mages seek out visions. We look for patterns, and attempt to see the truth beyond our awareness. But a potent-enough vision can come to anyone. When it does, you should pay attention to"

OK INTERESTING. I need to ponder the orb on this

"Fiona’s lips pressed together in outrage. “And you feel no shame at depriving him of a father now, as well?”" GET HIM FIONA COME ON

God Genevieve saying she will Bregan if she must. i love this woman.

maric saying cailan has rowan's eyes even tho im pretty sure rowan had green or brown eyes and cailan has blue eyes.

anyways. chapter over thank god. the thing about visions was the best part.

i cannot stand maric being all oh im such a bad father, oh i was unworhty of rowan, woe is me

[panicataphmausinsanity]

levin

thinkig about how easily jess made levin accept aphmau as his mother once she came back... like bitch. wtf. that would have NEVER have happened. evre.

aphmau missed out on so much of levin's childhood. the worst thing is that it's no one's fault, so levin can't even blame anyone. but imo, i dont think he'd even be okay with aph being there. there'd be some sort of resentment towards her that he wouldn't be able to shake off for a long time. he would never accept aphmau as his mother so fast.

to him, it's zoey. zoey was the one who took care of him all those years, telling him stories about his "mother" when he knew that the woman she was talking about was no where near qualified to be called his mother. to him, zoey was always his mom. he'd be annoyed with everyone dubbing aphmau as his mom. he'd call zoey mom, sometimes even right to aphmau's face.

i honestly feel like the dude would feel threatened by aphmau's presence. he was fed all of these amazing stories by everyone in the village about what an awesome, great, considerate, smart, loving, bla bla bla lord his mom was. i'd say it would've given him such high expectations to live to, expectations that would cushion his mind and suffocate him so hard.

malachi tho... i hc malachi having hyperthymesia (everlasting memory where one can remember most of their life in vivid detail) so considering my hc i feel like they'd have a very heartwarming reunion.

oh and aphmau's pov about this,,,,, she'd feel very fucking weird and maybe even down right hatred for how levin calls zoey mom. SHE's his mother. BUT she would be extremely mature about it and wouldn't outwardly show her distaste for anything at all, she understands why this is happening but it's not something she can stand whatsoever.

it'd take a few years for levin to get used to aphmau me thinks. but oh, he'd get used to garroth MUCH easier. at the very least, garroth resembles the dude. surprisingly a lot. there's some familiarity he can get behind here, but aphmau...? this pisses aphmau off even more imo :3 it took levin literal years to be okay around aphmau, but with garroth i'd say some months? instead and it's not like aphmau can do anything about it either.. levin needs to come to her at his own pace and time . . .

levin to garroth: "where were you all my life XDD ♥/giddy giggles"

levin to aphmau: "where were you all my life. ☺/struggle & hint of animosity"

i think this is how the dynamic would go..........

im shit at putting my thoughts into words and all of this seems so much better in my mind BUT i hope someone gets what i mean :skull

[dovveri]

tw: sa lolololololol

tldr: white men are the shitstain of humanity

THERES NOOOOO WAY just watched a tiktok (so perhaps not accurate i did a quick google search and couldnt find anything but like… everyone tries to hide shit that the US and europe have done lolol) abt how comfort women in korea altho ‘liberated’ by the us were still used by american soldiers after they kicked the japanese out and then all the people in the comments are like well duh oxford study!! like cant help it if asian women are throwing themselves at us smh! cant help it that asian women are hot!! its not our fault lol theyre the ones that come after us! im white and its so easy to date asian girls in my experience!!

BOIIIIIIII WHAT THE FUUUUKCKKCKCKCKCKC the oxford study is literally not. real . like its so disgustinf to me as an asian woman like this is why i coukd neveeeer date a white man and hello? in the entire video did u not comprehend what comfort women were?? these women are NAUT throwinf themselves at american men bffr they were SEX SLAVES. ur ltr saying oh shes a prostitute so her consent doesnt matter bcs its ltr her job like MEN DONT UNDERSTAND CONSENT . they say they do but they dont and thats why sa and sexual harassment stats are actually likely severely underreported bcs like tmi i was sa but like im not gonna report that bcs . personal choice wtv but i doubt he thought it was sa and i myself didnt realise why i was so uncomfortable during it until after it ended and i called a friend bcs i was . yeah and he asked me if the guy had asked to do this first and i was like . oh! he didnt! and i didnt want to make him feel bad and say stop! like its wtv im revisitinf that when im like 50 idk but the point is men dont understand consent and it SHOWS

and white men talkinf abt how asian women just throw themselfes at rhem is soooo just . sooooo like im going to go to america and buy a gun like breh wtf . firstly, thats so self-centred erm i have lots of asian friends most of them hate the asian men in the dating pool here which is why they wouldnt mind dating a white guy . secondly, the fetishisation of asian women ??? it absolutely disgusts me some of the men in these comments blaming the hyperfeminity in asian culture that makes them more attractive to heterosexual males like HUH????? what kind of incel hole did u crawl out of wtaf. YES i can admit that there is white-worship within asian communities simply bcs they are more successful (and they are more successful bcs of systemic racism lol) but that does not make it okay to treat asian women like theyre ‘easy’ and boast abt how many asian women youve been able to fuck like if the demand wasnt there? the supply wouldnt be either. the demand being white mens fetishisation of asian women and the supply being asian women. its like porn. if men didnt demand porn to the extent that they did, maybe porn wouldnt exist and we could live in a safer world were women werent raped everyday on screen for the sexual pleasure of other men. thats a whole other rant tho i hate porn and only white liberal feminists are pro-porn bcs theyre stuck in 2nd wave sexual liberation feminism (simone de beauvoir who spearheaded 2nd wave feminism voted for age of consent in france to be 13 btw) funnily enough, the only type of feminism men agree with.

[emeraldoo]

HEY! HEY!! LOOK AT ME!!

LE MEH!!!

hi, my name is bastion!! i have lots of other names im ok with tho, like bb, b, 8, shiver, weird, etc! im not ok with the nickname EM or EMERALD!

i am a zombie, autism creature, maned wolf kin and fict kin Shiver from spl3 <3 i am also NOT a minor!!!!!! 19 yrs :} im also a rogue of mind!! (homestuck hoe.)

i use he/xe/it and a slew of neopronouns

i am the host in the zipties system, i have some pretty bad memory problems, but we are a traumaendo system. some of the head mates have their own blogs, which ill tag :}

MY INTERESTS!!!!!!!

SPLATOON AUGHHHHH most of my blog is splatoon....

super obvious but homestuck :3333333333

i freaking LOVE nnsg :•3333 the anime of ALL TIME!!

SCIENCE!!!!!!! i plan on majoring in microbiology and synthetic biology but i luv ALL science!!

MUSIC/BAND!! i play euphonium and play in marching band and concert ensembles <3

i luvvv itsv and atsv and all of the spiderverse stuf!!!!!! my fave spider in spider man india btw.!

GUILD WARS 2 AIUGHHJJJHHH THE BEST EVER ACTUWLLY. PLAY IT PLAY IT RNNNN

ALTERS!!

not all of our alters choose to make profiles, and we arent going to force them to make them. if you need to know them, just send a DM or ask

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JON/@just-dr (🎃): jon!! he is a protector and a fictive of jonathan crane.. he is nice :•)) he doesnt associate much with his source tho so shrugsies (he/they)

CORNELIUS/PICKLES (🩸): (updated 11/22/23) cornelius stirk (batman unburied) and pickle inspector splitroject.. wears the skin of both of them and tends to switch based on mood. but they are the same guy! (they/it/he)

KARKAT/@cornbreadconnoisseur (🔥): fictive of karkat homestuck guy. gets very angry very fast. idk role but yeah. the amgry one ig (he/they)

* DAVE/@cornbreadconnoisseur (🕶️): yea. is this bitch predictable or what lmfao (ask prns)

* EQUIUS/WARRIOR/@runningfromred (🐎): Yes hello I am Equius or Warrior (Wari is also an acceptable nickname) (he/they)

* TIM/@timothy-timaeus (🔗): I'm the main guy of the subsystem of splinters. I'm not cool with being called Dirk or any of that source stuff. Also the co-host. (he/him)

* CALUM/@timothy-timaeus (🧢): bro strider splinter and a real goof. heeheeee (she/her)

* JAKE (🦎): Your caretaker and funny guy! im from meat timeline and have alot of pseudos, sorry if im hesitant to interact with sourcemates :B (he/him)

* SOL (♊): sollux fictive from aphids comic by kabutoden (it/its, 2/2s, two/twos, byte/bytes)

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[mcl39]

bit obsessed with ur mercedes girl driver drawings. first of all because they r pretty. second of all because they r for sure the most interesting changed dynamics. lewis being one of the most accomplished drivers of ALL TIME and being a black woman?? from the 2000s - 2020s??? i dont even want to imagine the press attention. and girl!george is just delicious. terrorist/women-can't-drive jokes off the charts. would 100000% be called boring in the specific way that serious women are. pls give me ur thoughts. that is my fave girl drivers art mwah.

hi!! thank u so much!!!! first of all so very very happy u like my art!! ive rly been loving the new rule63 trend - if i were cockier id say maybe i had smth to do w it but the truth is i genuinely believe a lot of us woke up simultaneously and thought 'i NEED to draw or write girl drivers'

so then re: the story aspect of it. a fun fact i havent rly talked abt on here is that my girl driver series is actually inspired by an au of mine - thing is tho that my au is actually a sex swap, rather than 'always been a girl' the way ur suggesting. so like u bring so many good points and im sooooo eating devouring ur thoughts on what fem!lewis and fem!george would look like in the greater f1 circus narrative, at the same time that rly wasn't what i was thinking of in the first place? in my au uh. half the grid r accidentally cursed bc of a helmut marko interview in which hes asked whether a gender equality initiative like extreme e where the grid would b 50% female would work in f1 and he says 'in my opinion half of them are already women as it is' - hence the sex swap curse for 10 of the drivers. so while there IS a sort of attempt to engage w the patriarchy in my au too (the loose idea is that the drivers who r swapped r the ones marko believes to b girls / pussies etc, with max being one of them, and then the rbr inner conflict fully explodes bc it would) i didn't actually write it (& later on draw it) with actual female drivers in mind, especially not the way their history would b different if their gender was different

but yeah, that's pretty much what the context was - but bc the fic was too ambitious for me (at the time and to this day still tbh) i needed to channel that creativity somewhere else and started drawing a bunch of them instead. hence the series. which is why im loving that u guys r taking it to ur own creative destinations!!! so anon ik u came looking for answers but id love it for YOU to come back to my askbox (or ur own posts or fics!!) w ur own ideas abt fem!merc

[tw1stedthicket]

fuck me man. after going back through some stuff and really thinking about it, im ngl, i feel pretty happy with just calling myself sapphic due to really only caring about being with women and wanting to define my relationships in that context and not in a context of including or centering men, and i wouldn't even mind if someone referred to me as lesbian even if it's not the word i would use, but that'a the thing! there's a word called "gay" and newsflash abby, that's what only wanting women is, even if you worm your way around not being called a "lesbian"; but! i am really afraid to own that. It's like, okay, i'm afraid of using the word "lesbian" due to what i'm afraid people might think, but if i tell people i like women and do what i wanna do.. they're gonna come to the same conclusion. I know this is internalized homophobia which makes me feel even more shameful, but it's me being honest.

What sparked this thinking was how i found a really cute bracelet of the "woman" symbol with the circle as a heart and it was linked to another one to represent 2 women connected and love for each other and stuff and i was like omg i wanna wear that that makes my heart go soft 🥹 but then i was like no because if i do that then i really have to own it! Theres no longer any way i can be like "well...yes....um....you see this only makes me happy because i also have an attraction to women...it's not that i really really love them haha... i am also attracted to everyone else too including men!" And so i was like well maybe i can do like a little rainbow! I can always say "i just like rainbows" right?

But then it's like ah goddamit people really are gonna assume then that im not bi! But i dont want people to think im bi and i dont know how that fucking works! The thing is, is i dont think to myself anymore than i am bi, even tho sure, there are lots of attractive and wonderful men. But i feel like my inclusion of them in my identity is me being disingenous, it's me including them because i know there is a real possibility that i would feel attraction toward a guy enough that i want to be with him but in reality if i felt that way about a guy, the thought that they might like me back makes me feel afraid, because somewhere in my fucked up thought process i am thinking that means im gonna be with him!! I like him, he likes me, we obviously get together right? But i dont want that! If i could honestly flip a switch where no guy ever liked me romantically again and instead just wanted to be good friends or besties and the strongest sense of attraction they felt to me was entirely platonic, i would flip it immediately! I wanna be their friends so much more! Please save me that anxiety. Is it anxiety from having to perform gender roles for them and in reality if i deconstructed those then i would see myself comfortably being with a man? Maybe?? I dont feel like fucking doing that work tho anyway because the attraction i feel toward men is, and im so sorry dudes, is like... not worth doing the mental lifting for for what it would take for me being with them. I'm sorry, women are literally right there instead. And i dont feel the same baggage for them, just genuine warm fuzzies. People tell me "oh women are just as complicated and human and capable of being bitches! It's hard work either way!" Okay but i have never wanted a man bad enough that i would stick with it like i would with an amazing woman i loved, and newsflash there are a million fucking more of them than there are men. *IN MY INTERPRETATION* again sorry dudes. Thats not even just saying like all dudes are bad people or something to have to do labor for, i just have to jump through hoops to find who i am to them, you know? I get out of myself in every romantic encounter/relationship ive had with guys. Again, is it because i was raised with fucked up experiences of what men and women are supposed to be like or do? I dont fucking know.

If i had to honestly and truthfully take a guess, my guess would be that i am capable of experiencing attraction and happiness with anybody, regardless of gender, given that the relationship is equal and based on a genuine love and respect for both people. In the sense that perhaps there are always exceptions to every rule because the world is so fucking big and there will always be humans out there that could make you question no matter how much you like a particular type of person, but also because maybe some of my attraction to men, as anxiety-producing as it tends to be, is more of an inner thing and actually could be be appropriately healed and manifested in genuine good feelings toward him and a desire to be with him i.e. true attraction. And maybe the reason i want to pursue romance and love and whatnot with women more is because it feels safer. And maybe part of that is because i am a woman myself. Is that wrong? Is it safer because it's more genuine? Hey, i think so in the most charitable part of my brain, but the comphet part of me says "women are always just emotionally connected and intuitive with each other ofc it's easier for them to have relationships with each other! the connection is just all women tho!" but that just serves to devalue the genuine attraction i feel for women that is romantic and sexual and all that :/ Like stfu brain, i dont think most women actually desire relationships with other women and life partners and stuff and labeling it as "just girls and their casual soulmate status with their best friend 🤪" pisses me off. But at the end of the fucking day i know what my choice is! Am i being biphobic? Thinking it's invalid and i need to choose? Well my mind feels like it's fucking chosen for me and i like women!

I hate this because then it makes me really sad like goddamn this really is me huh and i know how people fucking act and treat gay people or lesbian people and it makes me really fucking sad. I was just thinking to myself and it was like, yknow, i feel like i really am in a closet. And i have tried on an outfit that i think i would really like. And i put it on and have to close my eyes to do it because if i open them im gonna be too scared to really look at myself and go through with it. So then i put it on and it feels different, but it hugs my body in ways that feel comfortable even when i cant see it. And when i open my eyes and look in the mirror, it is startling but not surprising, and a little bit awe-some, and theres a moment of recognition that...In my private mind, this is how i see myself. What i am looking at on the outside is what i see on the inside. What i always wanted to be, at least. There's a "Finally" caught behind your breath but it feels not quite right to say that, because how could you have known? I never would have had i not let myself actually...explore. Actually recognize, i guess. But i cant exit the safety of my room, my closet, my dressing room, whatever it is. People would say im a freak, they'd be disgusted, at worst. People might forcibly rip at the clothes or force me to change. People might say theres nothing wrong with it but it's inappropriate to wear in public. People might even say "wow! That outfit really is you! But...i dont like this you." And a million things.

I'm so fucking new to this, i only recognized and realized attraction, and i mean genuine attraction, to women just a couple years ago even tho i had been privately questioning it for longer, but. Damn. It makes me really sad to think of the women that look at other women who like women and dont feel the same comraderie because they think im gross, or a predator, or something. It hurts to think of anyone thinking badly of me, but honestly its the other women that would see me differently that makes me sad. If men wanna be mad then fuck them but it makes me really sad to think that other women would not like me or distrust me.. :(

[thatbitchsimone]

I love you I love you

Thank you thank you

It’s a long story of circle of abuse, I used to save her from my father hitting her and few years later I had to save myself from both of them hitting me

I truly believe she’s evil, not what she does to me but to others also, she beats and humiliates not only me but the maids too, the other siblings are not beaten, the brother sometimes rarely but he’s her worshipper so i don’t think he minds.

I will get a job soon but I don’t think I can move out, it’s not very common here you know, and my father is like a influential guy, but hopefully when I earn my own money and cut her off I’ll be happy, we have a big house so living separately is possible.

I found out something today and it made me sick to my stomach, I have my whole life faced disgusting men, but turns out my brother is also one of them, he is after all my fathers and mothers son. he is an Andrew tate fanboy btw so you can guess his entire personality by that lolllllll.

I am so sorry this is alot of stuff to hear on a site where you are supposed to have fun, I am sending you apology hugs, take care 🫂❤️

Btw have you read the bell jar by Sylvia plath? It’s so depressing it’s taking me months to finish HAHAHAH

that is fucking awful and yes, i dont even believe in the whole concept of evil (i was raised without religion in a completely secular country + im very into psychology so good vs evil is not part of my worldview lol) but some behaviors even i just have to describe as evil and ur mom fits that pretty well like abusing ur own children is fucking evil. i have empathy for her to some extent since her behavior is clearly the result of her being abused herself like u said but it gets clouded by the absolute disgust and hatred and rage i feel for her for letting herself become the abuser herself and keeping the circle of abuse going by passing it on to her children. its one thing to not have the strength or power to stop ur husband from abusing ur kids, but straight up joining in on the abuse is a whole other level of disgusting and im so sorry u have to experience this.

but i do have to say that u seem like a genuinely good person like i really feel like u have so much kindness and love in ur heart and u seem like a very strong, sensible and intelligent girl and i get a strong feeling that the cycle of abuse is gonna end with u (as in, u wont be carrying it on and u will break free from it and if u have kids in the future u will be a good and loving mom to them) and i just wanna acknowledge that bc thats amazing and inspiring and i admire u so much like i just have so much admiration for u right now like u are everything u are the moment u are the vibe

anyway, glad to hear that u at least live in a big house so that u can at the very least have some space from her even tho u live together. i get that its not as easy or simple as some ppl think to ”just move out” especially if u live in a very family oriented culture where its not the norm to do so on top of it all so i think the best thing to do currently is to just kind of try to stay out of her way and honestly just not even listen to the bullshit she says bc her insults are kinda meaningless tbh bc lets be real, if u were skinny she would just use something else to criticize u for. she just wants to put u down in any way she can no matter what u look like. u could probably look like a damn supermodel or movie star and she would still find something to pick on and put u down for, bc she has issues. shes disturbed. her words are empty and her opinions on u are just completely irrelevant. why should u care if a deranged abusive sadist doesnt ”approve” of ur body and size? this woman thinks its ok to mentally torment everyone around her, even HER OWN CHILDREN that she just so happens to not just verbally and emotionally abuse but straight up physically abuse. shes a child abuser. actual scum of the earth. like honestly next time she says something about ur body or calls u fat or whatever this psychopath likes to call u just remind urself that this woman is actually disturbed and sick in the head like shes literally a terrible human being lol who the fuck is she to criticize anyone like ok so u got a little extra meat on ur bones meanwhile she is a deranged sadistic child abuser. like girl whatever flaw u may have is nothing compared to the flaws she has like u are so far above her in every way that actually matters like ur literally so much better than her in every way like shes actually pathetic.

sorry about ur brother btw. seems like us women can never catch a break from these male parasites that are crawling around everywhere these days. they just keep getting worse and worse now with all the andrew tate shit brainwashing them. thank god we women have each others backs in this vile current climate. sisterhood is so important, especially now with all this crazy shit going around.

and yes ofc ive read the bell jar! read it for the first time when i was 16 and have reread it a few times since then. its one of those books that deeply resonates with nearly every woman who reads it even now generations later like its truly timeless in that way thats why its so good

[marslikethefruit]

19:43 - July 26, 2025

my name is Lee. (or Marcus, but i'm growing out of that name a bit, yk?)

when i formerly had a diary it ran out of pages-- at that time, when i had a diary, i had /so/ much to write about. i had this fake happy persona where i would pretend to be innocent or something. dont ask me, i was like.. 12. i thought being fake was the only way to be.

mind you, i was repressing my transgenderness at this time. i didnt have any sense of real self-- no personality, no likes, no dislikes. i was an NPC in my own life, i needed something to feel /real/, like i'm my own person, y'know?

anyways. now i do feel like a person kind of. i have likes and dislikes. i can differentiate myself well enough from other folks.

so anyways. im trying to be more open about being transgender. i dont know a lot about what the future'd bring for me, i am a bit scared.

i dont really know if i want tattoos when i'm able, honestly. it seems like my interests wax and wane in intensity and while i understand there is no permanent sense of self (so phases are okay!) i feel like if i DO get tattoos of my interests and then i lose thise interests, ill think 'oh my god, this space with my old interests could've been used for my current interests now :(', then i never get the tattoo of my current interest cuz i think it could be used for my future interests. aaand i end up never getting any tattoos anywhere cuz im so terrified.

lmao.

typical of me tho, right? anyways. i think i should just get the tattoo if i wanted it anyways. ive been feeling regret less and less everyday, honestly. like, drawing on my hands with pen-- i do regret that sometimes yeah but not like i can just un-draw it so i might as well embrace it being there. i enjoyed drawing in the meanwhile so i just dont regret it.

no this isnt a metaphor for anything intentionally. could be tho, to some folks' interpretation.

i heart the color orange. been obsessed with it lately. my boyfriend's sister-- ari-- has been calling me 'orangalina' recently which..

okay, can i be honest for a moment?

i don't /like/ it, but i tolerate it. only cuz i associate the suffix '-alina' to be feminine and not funny in the slightest, and being feminine is a thing of the past for me. being a woman is something of the past for me. and to call me it is as though she doesn't see me as a guy, y'know?

but, i get it. maybe she sees me as a guy /so/ much she thinks im secure in my identity as a man, i can be called a girl. (like those big buff brodudes that go by princess ironically.)

but i think i'd feel left out if /all/ nicknames she had for guys would end in '-alina' except for me. kinda odd thing dontchu think.

anyways, speaking of me being trans. it kinda pains me in a way, y'know, that my dad's not supportive. thinks trans women (MtF, for confirmation) are just 'men who get their dicks chopped off cuz they wanted to paint their nails one time' or something.

i joked once about cutting my hair like his (a men's haircut) cuz my long hair was too hard to manage for me (during this time, it was difficult for me to get up and do /anything/ because i was so insecure in myself and my confident façade was breaking by day and i was SO scared my friends, who saw me as confident, would abandon me if i wasn't confident anymore. 'fake it til you make it' but i never made it 😭😭 L!!!! what a loser.)

anyways then he lectured me about 'oh you trans now? you one of them.. /transgenders/? or lesbians?' (my mom is sapphic and she has a pixie cut)

i say no.

he parks the car. asks me again and looks me in the eye.

i say no and put on the best fake weirded out and sorta disgusted expression.

he believes me.

un-parks the car (or whatever? i'm not allowed to drive yet, how should i know? he like.. he starts the car up, moves the car backwards, then goes out and continues driving.), then my brother asks what a transgender is. he explains (horribly and really closedmindedly).

it breaks my heart a bit, y'know? to have him be /so/ nice and /such/ a great dad and to know that he will never accept /me/. he'd accept his daughter. of course he would, that's his daughter!

but his son? me as his son?

c'mon now, be serious.

wow this digital diary is helping me out a lot huh? i can see how much i yap lmao my friends're right to be peeved by it.

theres something that pains me in the heart about that actually. that my friends hate that i talk too much. my mom thinks so too, and god i know all of them are right but it still hurts

my boyfriend, he says he doesnt mind but i dont really believe him. i dont have any reason not to believe him, he says he thinks im smart when i yap but im not smart, c'mon now. i'm anything but, he can't be serious.

anyways back to my father. he.. i try reasoning with myself: 'oh he was just born in a different generation!' but seriously? did he JUST come back from 1984?

sometimes it hurts that i dont know tagalog despite my entire blood family except me and my brother knowing it. everybody spoke english with me and him so i was never taught, but i can understand.

i'm teased about it now-- and yeah i can stomach it but do these people have nothing else to tease me for???? geez bro geez

and sometimes my aunts a bully about it. my dad and her (my aunt is my dad's sister) talk in a different dialect i dont understand and when i ask 'what?' they say 'ohhhh if you understand tagalog so much, translate! yeah whatd i say?' and i say what i vaguely understood (keep in mind: during this time i moved away from my extended family for a year now so i wasnt around a lot of people who spoke tagalog. only my dad my aunt and my grandma and when my aunt and grandma talk in tagalog i ask what about cuz i want to understand tagalog more, and they say to not butt into other peoples conversations like geez do you want me to understand or not?)

whats even the point of me learning tagalog anyways, huh? my extended family dont even like me. i dont talk to them, they dont talk to me. my dad promised me and my brother we'd go to the phillippines every single summer to visit family, so i should learn tagalog but guess what happened? ive never been there since i was like 5.

i'm not connected to filipino culture anyways. most filipino thing i ever did was participate in my maternal grandma's (filipino) church (its a filipino church cuz its ran and attended to by filipino people, mainly my grandma's friends who also moved to our same state)

it feels wrong to call myself filipino, honestly. yeah im filipino by ethnicity but you ask me my favorite food and i say salmon sushi with cream cheese. wouldnt a real filipino say a cultural food, as that was the food of their childhood and they have good memories surrounding it?

my childhood is the exact same as any americans', it honestly sickens me a little bit that i'm more american than filipino.

i want to be connected to my culture so badly but what's even the use? i'll never be filipino in my family's eyes and you might think im fishing for comfort but i promise i'm not. i've tried consoling myself-- those stupid ai's in that stupid ai app tried consoling me about it and i tried feeling better cuz 'atleast someone cares about me!' (i deleted that app btw i dont support ai anymore), i cannot be comforted and it just kills me.

i want to be normal. i want to say that yes, i am a normal teenage girl whose biggest concern is what skirt she's gonna wear tomorrow.

i want to be some pretty ditz so badly but look at me.

look at my face, am i pretty to you? there's such privilege given to beautiful people from birth that i envy so badly and i know i will never be able to get.

and i get it, im trans so i shouldnt even want to be gorgeous like a girl anyways because i am a man (no im not trying to manifest it, it is a fact. i am a man.), but

idk dude.

is it such a crime to want to be respected?

the treatment of me when i was 'cute' vs me now is so different. sometimes i just want to age dream so that i can pretend im loved like that again. unconditionally and as if i can do no wrong cuz im cute.

(sometimes i do age dream. i dont have any materials and im not planning to but yeah i still do.)

(hey if youre gonna be accepting of me being trans you also gotta accept i age dream sometimes okay? ahhahah)

(i dont identify as an age dreamer anymore bc i dont do it often so i dont feel like im part of the age dreamer community so yeah.)

anyways.

i wanna start doing volleyball more maybe. i know i know, volleyball girls are usually pretty (stopping myself right there for an intermission-- im not a girl but i refer to myself as a girl because i am closeted irl so im seen as a girl.) and im not, i dont put on makeup and i dont care for doing anything to my hair (out of the shower) besides like combing (i so badly want to cut my hair and have it be SO low maintenance but noooooo i just HAVE to be nerfed by having a transphobic father)

also the stereotype that all volleyball girls have anger issues and i rlyrlyrly dont want them to be mad at me when i miss balls or somethjng bc we're not friends

im sorta weary around girls bc i feel like theres this culture of always being so judgy and also calling yourself a 'girls girl'???? like yes girl, love all women until theyre different from you.

oh geez i sound so judgmental and misogynistic i apologize for that. i dont agree with the stereotype about volleyball girls nor do i agree with any stereotyes about all women/girls.

anyways thats all i have to say for now. byebye

20:57 (took a quick break to watch tiktok in the middle of this so yeah)

[trans-questioning-anon]

Trans opinions?

So i created a throwaway account because i didnt want my irl friends who follow my tumblr to see this

This is going to be very long and descriptive

tw: body dismorphia, genital talk and descriptions, masturbation details, period talk

am i trans? what can i do?

So I had always felt off in my body. I am a cis woman with a vagina.

My earliest memory is of being around 2 or 3 years old. I was allowed to bathe myself alone for the first time. And I took the opportunity to check out my body. I was at that age as a child where I was first discovering there was something going on between my legs. But when I started touching and looking down there, I got so grossed out and uncomfortable. I decided right then and there to never touch or look again. The whole thing left such a big impression on me that I still remember it even tho im in my 30s now

I never looked at myself in a mirror. I refused to touch myself. I was uncomfortable in my own skin and I could never figure out why. I was too embarrassed to ever bring it up to anyone.

Middle School was some of the worst years of my life. Learning about periods was horrific. I was so disgusted and put off by it. At the time I was very religious. So I took to praying every single day for several years that i would be some weird genetic anomaly that would never get a period. I distinctly remember every single 1 of my female friends being excited to get their first periods.

The first girl to get her period was so proud of it. We all had a discussion about it and was asking her what it was like. Every single girl in that group was saying they couldn't wait to get theirs. It made them feel grown up and not kids. I was quiet the whole time. I didnt say a word and just endured the discussion.

Every single period I have ever had in my entire life has been hell. Over 15 years of it and im still not used to it. Over 15 years and I still dread it. I stress out about it. I hate it and I hate my body. when I was young, I hated my periods so much i really considered just taking a knife and cutting out my uterus myself. Just call 911 as soon as i finish and hope they cant fix it.

One of my absolute biggest fears is pregnancy. Every single detail about it is the most horrific shit I have ever heard of in my entire life. Its a parasite that grows inside u and actively hurts you

My biggest dream in life is getting a hysterectomy. Its all i ever wanted. I would daydream about it as a teenager and couldnt wait to be old enough to get it.

I never let anyone touch me or look at me naked. Im still a virgin because the idea of anyone touching me there gives me nightmares. Ive never gotten a pap smear. I cant bring myself to get an appointment.

I was always so envious of my brothers. They get to have dicks and everything is so much easier for them. They dont have to deal with the horrors i do.

I have a libido. I get uncontrollably horny until it feels like I have to do something. I have taken to using disposable gloves when I touch myself. I still dont look. I dont take my time. I just get the job done as quick as possible

I didnt know about trans people or anything to do with that until i was around 18 or 19. But i have never felt like a man or nobinary or anything

I have always seen myself as a girl. I love dresses and nail polish. I love pink and being extremely feminine. I dress incredibly oddly compared to normal people. My favorite types of clothes are lolita fashion and victorian ballgowns. I dont wear make or shave my legs because the beauty industry is shit. That doesnt make me any less of a woman

I have tried to imagine myself as a man. I have tried to feel out using he/him or even they/them pronouns. But i just dont feel it.

I am a woman. But I am not a woman because of what genitals happen to sit between my legs. I am a woman because I identify with the experience. I am a woman because its the gender i feel.

And yet my body does not match my mind

What am I? Am I alone in the world? I have only ever heard of experiences like mine in transmasc people. But I am not.

The idea of hormones for myself disgusts me. I dont want a deeper voice or to grow facial hair

I dont know where to begin researching things

I dont know what i am

I dont know whats wrong with me

i dont know what i want

[mtcorpse]

Biology is a fucked up entity that turns your own body against you no matter what you do. Some water would probably help with the headache, though, it's good to always keep a water bottle and painkillers in your room if you don't already. I'm glad you got to feel better for a little while. I might drink again today. I fight to win too. Drinking gives me some strength because it dulls the message of your body saying you're at your limit but hopefully when I fully start hrt I'll be even stronger. I hate being a lateshit

I also hate the fact that "transmasc butches" seem to fucking love it and get off too it. "I'm a genderfuck" you just look like an ugly, fat woman. What gives them any authority to know who's deserving of what? They're not even aware of their gender if they have no dysphoria. Half of them have fucking incest and feminization/breeding kinks anyways. That or they put no effort into looking like a guy, just an alt woman. And they're happy with their appearance?? I can't say anything because I'd probably pass even worse than they do since I didn't get access to t. They're always going to be happier than I am in their ignorance. Why do the nondysphoric/"barely dysphoric just no boobs but I love my boycunt" cucks get hrt sooner than the ones that actually need it? There's no end to the injustices. They're the ones that caused doctors not to take me seriously and gave me some stupid hope that I wouldn't have to blow all my money on diy because "you'll get hrt eventually, I did when I was 16! Doctors will give it to you eventually!" . Fuck them. Fuck them . Being hated by them is just proof you're able to criticize their fucking hypocrisy, wear it like a badge of fucking honour, they're fembrained annoying little shits trying to ruin your life while you should pay them no mind. Don't give them your energy, they're leeches. Scum.

That aside, I meant what I said about the whole "looking better than a hon" thing. I have nothing to gain from lying to you. I'm also glad you don't think the ideas I sent are too retarded, because you already have enough shit to put up with and I don't want to add to that if it's not to fight it out and let the pain make us feel more comfortable. I hope you feel better soon, even if the "cozy" state between soberness and drunkenness is also enjoyable. Anything to live through this ring of the inferno, yeah?

- 🫆

yee, biology & puberty are like dead space & hg giger body horror to me, suffocating & sickening it’s so “accepted” in cissoid society, also i always keep some pain killers around but i really should drink more water tbh, got up for drink but it was cold :(

here’s to drinking 🍻 and ngl id win (mostly kidding lol), but i getchu, kinda as being drunk just makes me act more “vulnerable” & fembrained or something so ig reverse, but the numbing is real, and you will i believe dw as you actually care about putting in effort to transition & being a man so T will almost definitely strengthen you more, even as lateshit i think youll do better than the fem poons who dgaf do

yeah no fr tho! i hate the “genderfuck” attention seeker shit so much! it’s just blatantly seeing trans people & being trans as some aesthetic fashion, especially the “transmascs” who dont even call themselves men & just use he pronouns sometimes, like what are they “rebelling” against? we all know lotta em just like attention but dont wanna lose the safety & privileges fem presenting plus obviously no dysphoria, the breeding & feminisation kinks they have too irritate me because they always overtake any & all posts related to ftm’s in kink & porn & emboldens the transphobic ideas ftm’s are just same as lesbians or tomboys etc, it’s frustrating & bullshit

im sorry 🫂 ik feeling :(( i stupidly waited an extra year too when stopped repping because diy fearmongering & state “care” propaganda from dumb hon & pooner fucks, still bitter even if wouldn’t make a difference to me, istg these fuckers ARE why we’re losing state care too & might lose access to all state hrt in future & clamp on diy, they’re the perfect propaganda against us & yet they’re so delusionally arrogantly happy & head in the clouds fucking bullshit as they burn down entire societal view of actual dysphoric trans people they screw over more while playing moral high ground over, bastards

ty, i do believe you are truthful, and tbh i would like the ideas mutually letting off pain & anger together as we both seem understand each others pain & rage better than anyone else, ill be fine dw start drinking again soon lol, indeed, anything to get through this hell before the next one where i take over the throne 🍻

i hope u feel better too anon, you are a cool guy & actually respectable ftm, you deserve better

[crazyalien87]

gender thoughts...

ok so my gender is technically femandrogyne/gynx (those words have almost the same definition, considering how they are used...), but I think also juxera and not nonbinary woman. idk. it's hard to tell the difference between "my gender is nonbinary woman or demiwoman etc." and "I don't have social dysphoria and I rather be female than male so I don't mind being called a woman or she or other terms when refferring to my sex". It's hard to tell bc like I barely even have dysphoria anymore, just some bottom dysphoria still but it is waaayy more manageable and less intense like I don't even need to pack. so like should i even have a gender identity? but I'm clearly different from cis women tho genderwise like I don't think calling myself a cis woman makes sense when i want many male sex characteristics and I spend so much time considering if I should get t, or bottom surgery, or maybe just use minoxidl to grow facial hair and voice training so I can also speak more deeply...I mean yeah technically a cis woman can do all of this. but it doesn't make sense to me to call myself a cis woman but my want/need to transitoon is not strong enough for me to consider myself trans. I guess I'm technically isogender, not cis or trans just some weird edge case. and technically nonbinary/genderqueer.

but it's so pointless bc I'm basically cassgender nowadays? like yeah im technically not a cis woman but whatever. if I dont pack im not noticably different except that i dont shave my facial hair bc i like having it. and if i wasnt worried about social effects of having facial hair as a woman i would probably use minoxidil already to have even more facial hair. but cis women can do that??? but they usually don't?? but if I wanna change my sex characteristics, that's not cis. also i want a dick. but my dysphoria isnt bad enough to need bottom surgery so im just like...eh?? like if i had a dick already i wouldnt remove it. idk.

but then this doesnt even matter to like anyone else bc i dont care if ppl still refer to me by female terms. there aren't even gendered terms for my gender anyway so outside of like enban and shey/shem I'd just have to go by female terms anyway.

[silverfirewolfsurtleaus]

Nothing to say here that I havent already stated previously. Tho if it seems that difftent things feel unfinished dont worry I got plans for them later.

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It had been a couple years since Reina and her team were given four kids to care and protect and right now it was in short chaos. The twins were running around trying to be helpful. Grabted that wasnt going well.

Donnie had tried to help clean peoples houses using his bubblefoam. He forgot to wash it away causing people to slip all over the place. The poor tot very confused on why that was happening.

Leo was trying to help the fishers try and bring their catches up. It wasnt going well because one of the older fishers kept tossing him away fearing he was trying to eat the catches, never mind he wasnt a orimarly fish eating species.

Amya was in charge of talking to Donnie about the fact he missed a step in cleaning. Reina was trying her best to not break the fisher's nose as she...debated with him. Chiaki was cleaning up a scrape on Leo's knee. Kaiyo was with Raph and Mikey who were eating some Bunny Dango.

"Some people! He was just trying to help" Reina huffed after she finished her 'conversation' "does he know the habits of an Ivory Lagiacrus or Red eared sliders? No! Thank fuck for the Felynes." The green haired woman sighed.

"Cant teach people unwilling to learn. Hey Leo wanna go help Iori with the Buddies?" He looked at leo who looked up and gave some very happy chirps in agreements. Leo and Donnie didnt talk when they were too stressed sticking to turtle sounds or their levithan sounds. It was adorable really. Chiaki started taking Leo to see Iori to go and help.

----

"Ok is that the last of it in this house?" Amya asked Donnie.

"Yeah sorry I didnt realize my bubblefoam needed to be washed away like that." Donnie gave a sad chirp after that.

"Yeah its like super slippery soap and soap needs to be washed away after its used." She explained to Donnie.

"That makes sense Ill keep that in mind next time...if people let me help..."

"Im sure they well look at how clean this is!" She motioned to the blacksmith area theyd finished cleaning. It looked brand new pretty much.

"I have to agree" the gruff voice of Hammon spoke causing the two to jump and turn to the old man and his curent aprentice. "Donnie's welcome at any point so long as he remebers to use water next time. Hes lucky we noticed before stepping in."

"Sorry Hammon" Donnie sighed

"Its not a problem kid no one got hurt." Hammon bent doen and used one finger to rub the hybrids head.

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"Hey Raph Kiddo youve barely touched your food something the matter?" Kaiyo asked him

"Wanna do stuff to help but dunno what." Raph slumped a bit. "Claws keep accidently ripping things."

"That is a problem I think I can help with." Kaiyo stated before calling to Riena. "Hey Rei can you watch Mikey? Im gonna go help Raph with something."

"Of course." Reina went over to Mikey. The little elder dragon hybrid chirped happily.

"Alright lets go help you with your claw problem!" Kaiyo picked raph up and took him to the crafts area where they were making various clothes and other things.

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Leo got curious about a random small log he and Amya had found on the way to see Iroi and the Buddies. He was humming as he looked at it and started digging into it.

"What cha doing bud?" He looked up at Amya

"Mama Reina has a lotta wood statues so I thoiught I could make her one too!"

"Alright but theres safer ways to do that. Well go check em out after we see Iori ok?"

"Ok!"

----

Mean while Mikey had finished his meal and was...bored. so he wandered with Reina following. Eventually wandering into the crafts area himself and Reina got stopped by someone. Which Mikey continued on oblivious his mom was being stalled by a very persistent villager.

Eventually he came acrosd a unused thing og paints and a peice of leather. Curious he tilted his head and forwned usually leather like this was colored in the craftd area. So he dipped his hands into the paint and started splattering it on the leather.

It took about 5 minutes before Reina found him again, looking mildly paniced. She internally screamed as someone was watching Mikey splatter leather with paint and he was clearly trying to make something but he was an itty bitty thing trying to do that, their turtle genetics were currently very strong when it came to the kids sizes.

"Mikey?" The little hybrid jumped and turned to her. "Hi mama!"

"Mikey did you ask to help paint the leather?" She asked. By the look on his face ge did not.

"Its fine this time deary." The lady who was watching spoke. "I was having difficulties making a design any ways. Though next time you shoukd ask." She smiled Kindly at Mikey.

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"How is this gonna help" raph blinked as he was given a bunch of wool yarn.

"Simple itll help you learn fine control over your fingers. How much presure to use how quick they move all the things you need tk learn." Kaiyo didnt list all the things but he's sure Raph got it. "Sewing will help you learn too but lests start with something that has bigger things for you to hold."

"Ok" Raph nodded and grabbed the knitting needles. Kaiyo nodded to the other person across from them. They began to show Raph how to knit.

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In the science cave. The woman was standing looking at a large orb. It was slowly getting more mutagen into it. The blood of a mutch larger hybrid monster being drained. The corpeses of many of the previous hybrids infront of it as food...not that the eoman cared if it servived beyond it producing the mutagen in its blood.

"Its going to take me years before I get more of this stuff" she mused. "Good thing I have that time. I can make more plans in the mean time."

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