#i need to change my bedding too..

[carbonateddelusion]

sits here. my mood has been swinging back and forth like a pendulum lately

[cometblaster2070]

ranting for a bit because the entire scene where elphaba tells glinda her secret makes me go rabid and actually makes me want to chew concrete because not only is it actually absolutely heartbreaking to see just how deeply elphaba believes all the horrible things her father reinforces; how she thinks she's responsible for her mother's death and is the reason for nessarose's disability even when it's literally not her fault in any way and is actually DIRECTLY her father's fault.

and just the fact that elphaba tells glinda all this and tells glinda her father hates her and that everything's her fault and glinda looks at her and she's absolutely heartbroken to hear elphaba saying all these things and she becomes the first person in elphaba's life to look her in the eyes and tell her that none of that is true and that it is NOT her fault, it was NEVER her fault despite whatever anyone said.

ik a lot of ppl see glinda's "it was the milkflower's fault" line as a very sort of shallow take by glinda (I'm explaining it poorly but ik some ppl wonder why she didn't just call out governor thropp directly) but I've got to disagree with that take because personally I think glinda heard elphaba talking, heard her describe her secret and heard how her father forced her mother to chew milkflowers constantly during her pregnancy all because he was afraid the baby would come out green like elphaba and she heard all this and she hears how elphaba thinks this is all her fault.

and yk they're roommates. glinda sees the way elphaba talks about her father and how even though she says that he hates her in an almost casual manner despite how she says he's justified for hating her, elphaba still loves her father and she still wants to do right by him and she still wants him to love her.

so glinda knows that elphaba will not listen to her if she straight up tells her that her father's fucking mental and completely wrong and that it was all his fault and that she's probably going to bludgeon him to death. she knows that elphaba will never accept this and she knows that right now it won't do any good for anyone.

so instead she tells elphaba it was the milkflower's fault. and she looks her in the eyes and she tells her this was never your fault you shouldn't think this was ever your fault and anyone who ever told you that it was your fault was completely and totally wrong and I need you to know this.

because the primary concern isn't about telling elphaba she's got a shitty dad the primary concern is telling elphaba that it is not her fault for simply existing. and to let her know that there is nothing wrong with her and that there is someone here, right now, who loves and cares for her so so much and wants her to know that. that there is someone who will hold her hand and who will tell her that they are there for her and that she is fine the way she is. that she is loved.

[elderwisp]

Hai! Thank you to everyone who reached out during my little break! I’m slowly getting caught up on things as well as queuing up gp posts I had on pause. I do have a medical update but I’ll slap that under the cut! I hope everyone is doing well and taking care of themselves <3

Oke so. Lore drop. Over the last year or so, I’ve lost about 30 pounds without having to try. I’ve had issues with digestion in the past so I assumed this was just a flare up but then it started getting to the point where I’m in a lot of pain coupled with a bunch of other symptoms. As of right now, I’m being tested for different autoimmune diseases and I have a few procedures I’m a bit nervous for but yea! Hopefully I’m able to find some answers because dealing with this has truly halted my life in ways I couldn’t have imagined. Again thank you if you have read this far, here is a picture:

[hballegro]

the clock is here. all hail.

i forgot to turn antialiasing to the right settings with my pen so it is. the little numbers are chunky. thats life sometimes. just dont zoom in too hard. if i fix it, i wont make a new post abt it ill just edit it on to this one or something [and state that i did so in the post]

prev post with noclock version

and as promised here is also progress pics, harvested from when i sent screenshots to friends as i worked. as a bonus ive also included various layer names and the 5 different names the file went thru. the parts i [very lazily] painted over with dark blue had not been done yet, ergo anything with dark blue over it is just the picture itself so do not regard it

i will now be nice to myself and work on my fanfic and smaller drawings for a while. i will do eye posts sometimes still when i get a slow day and wanna do some peepers for 3 hours, i have collected many eyes [klinger, fr mulcahy, trapper, margaret, charles, hawkeye, bj. ive been busy stealing eyeballs to paint on. theyre all on one document its pretty funny]. i will be doing my best to force the cast into my style so i can do quick stuff.

i also WILL do more paintings of full shots again, but. fellas. ive done 3 back to back full paintings with no other digital art projects in between.

this has been NOT good planning lol

not sure if i should tag everything again so i will just. do so? idk i have not been on tumblr hardcore since like 2018 and have never regularly posted so idk proper etiquette. im gonna leave off characters for this one ig

[thatfriendlyanon]

i think part of my problem is i lived with my best friend for two years of my life and have been searching for the same feeling of joy & acceptance & support ever since

[smokingcitrus]

as unkempt as he always was, i'd like to think that birkin at least tried to look put together in his early days. the middle part was him trying to look professional past the hairs sticking in every direction and the back of his haircut never looking quite right.

his mother's nagging about his appearance seemed to linger in the back of his mind even after he moved out, going days, weeks, years without talking to her. any real meaning or even importance behind the self-grooming was lost, boiled down to habit. taking a minute to pick through his matted hair with a broken comb in the morning was a ritual that kept him sane. it grounded him.

the evential side part was him letting go of the half-cobbled man that he used to be, relinquishing what little identity he had in pursuit of finishing his life's work. even until his final moments, golgotha had always come first.

[sluckythewizard]

'I wont cry for you, I wont crucify the things you do. I wont cry for you, see, when you're gone, I'll still be BLOODY MARY'

[microwavetoaster-selfships]

I think I need that "Wow, I haven't stubbed my toe in five months! I was then shot fifty-seven times." Audio again

[blackbatofel]

SuperBat but they're 2 complete strangers stuck sitting next to each other on a 16-hour long flight ✈️

This is a really fun idea! I imagine it would go similarly to what we see in Superman/Batman annual 1, which is, of course, the precious annual that gave us the wonderful "there's only one bed" situation.

But back to why I think it would be similar. The thing is, if they're forced to share space for so long while they're still strangers, I'm sure they wouldn't stand each other in the beginning. In this annual they only share a room (and a bed he he) for a few hours because of a booking mistake, but that's enough to have Brucie Wayne and Clark Kent throwing pointed comments at each other and bantering like they're the worst of rivals (and they don't even know they're Batman and Superman yet!!)

So yeah, those first hours of the flight would be... interesting, to say the least. But of course, they would eventually come to (reluctantly) enjoy each other's company. I believe that in the course of those 16 hours they would end up showing more of who they truly are and, well, things would go from there. By the end of the flight Bruce would for sure find himself infatuated with the smart and stronger than it seems reporter from Kansas who refuses to take any of Brucie's shit, and Clark would realize that this rich boy from Gotham isn't as bad as he tries to appear.

After all, the annual ends like this, so I don't see a 16-hour long flight ending any different:

[jesterwaffle2]

discovered this little crevice in my dream a few weeks ago. I like how it looks like a little passageway. This and a few other images I have are much older than the first ones I shared. I decided I should share them here 'cause it's interesting to see how many different ways the mountains form.

Nightopians really like hanging out on the side of the mountain for some reason.

A good look at the trees. I always assumed these trees come from Helen's dream, the crystal castle one. I could possibly be wrong though, but if i recall correctly, crystal castle is the only dream I can think of that has trees like this. The bark sorta reminds me of different colored crystals or something similar to what crystal castle has in its stage design/aesthetic. could be wrong, and they could possibly be just random trees for my dream though. lol. Just in case though, I do play Helen's dream, mostly that dream in particular often next to will's desert and mountain dreams.

also, two little bonus pics of the nightopians and what my dream looked like when it snows. Interestngly enough, the mountains look a little different during winter weather. maybe it's to give it the look as if it's covered in ice? I guess that makes sense. I always saw the other mountains with a sand and gravel-like design to them. They kinda remind me of desert mountains, but I'm pretty sure they are supposed to be valley mountains. *insert thinking emoji here*

I like how the nightopians like to hang out next to these mountains a lot. lol.

also, if anyone has any idea as to how to get that one harp medal/badge let me know. I'm sorta thinking that maybe you have to play the forest of memory dream in helen's campaign for lots and lots of hours, but this is just me making a wild guess since that dreams theme is heavily related to music. love the design for that dream though. i like the little windows on the trees and the tulips, and the way it looks when you turn the dials.

unless you get the badge from the nightopians. i think they also play instruments sometimes? i haven't seen this when playing the game myself, but I have seen pictures of it floating around the internet. I think they will sometimes play the violin? maybe it depends on what time of the year it is probably. im not sure if they can play instruments though. I have been playing this game since around the time or a bit after its release, but I was like 9 or 10 or so when it first came out, and I wasn't very good at the game and didn't know how to play it, so i didn't play my dream long enough to notice that the pians do different things depending on what season it is. my brothers and I also rented the game from gamefly back then through mail, so we only had about a month i think to play it 'til we had to return it. lol.

luckily, due to me remembering how much fun I had with it back when i was younger, I decided to get it again. got back into NiGHTS thanks to me remembering this game and wanting to play it again.

I also own a copy of the Japanese release of this game which I got as a gift during the holidays.

[aayakashii]

you ever get so tired and stressed you literally could cry because of how tired and stressed you are

[hauntingblue]

ARCANE DAY

Episode 4 and 5 in the tags and:

SALO BEING A VIKTOS FOLLOWER??? CRAZY. ALSO BOTH VIKTOR MISSING JAYCE AJDHSKSJ also cait has kinda calmed down... and I am sure she misses vi so I KNOW this is going to happen to her soon.... we aren't getting much of her feelings yet... she's still too onto Jinx to catch up on where ambessa is going...

DID JAYCE JUST KILL SALO??? WHAT HAPPENED IN THERE

Also vander not recognizing vi at first until she gives up fighting.... incredible ALSO vander and silco being miners and vi wearing her gauntlets that were initially thought out for miners.... damn

This is my favourite episode so far....

Episode 6 here:

Sky really being there..... of course she is....

Ambessa training caitlyn.... of course thats her new daughter akdjskms Tunnels in your eyes.... GIRL!!!!!!! THAT'S WHAT YOU DON'T NEED RIGHT NOW also the guy outside is a mage... ambessa is such a hypocrite

Vi and Jinx vs ambessa and cait.... this was always about class war don't get it twisted SINGED!!! TRAITOR!!!!

ARE THEY GOING TO SEE VIKTOR???? I looove how viktors touch on their faces leave "scars" so recognizable

Did isha just take the gem from vi's gauntlets??? Omg I wasn't expecting viktor to build a hippie commune to be honest omg he looks so good.... with the blonde underhairs.... and I do believe that's the same blanket....

And of course viktor knows who vander is.... nvm he diesnt know omg viktor asking for Powder.....

We are getting viktor horsegirl montage.... omg the vander momtage I can't..... omg they wanna stay.... singed is gonna fuck all this up NOOOOO 😭😭😭 they are already there I am going to kms

CAITLYN STOP THIS MADESSS!!! ✋️ CAITLYN!!!!! VI KILL THIS MAN!!! OMG CAITLYN...... mongoose... yeah.... and fuck you too.... CUPCAKE!!!! ABOUT TIME!!!! CAITLYN I SAID STOP THIS MADNESS WHAT THE HELL WAS THAT!!! And jayce too 😭😭😭 we're never making it out of the fissures

It's such a shame the spit on here won't work like on challengers.... one can only pray I guess

Jinx experiencing the "there's nothing more undoing as a daughter" moment.... incredible

"Your absence provided a vacuum I was able to fill" TO VI???? I KNEW THAT HAND HOLDING IN THE COMMANDER SCENE WAS SUS AKDHKASJ maddie exists and ambessa knows that and still.... it was not filling her mother's void...

YES CAITLYN!!! YES!!!!! VI is so hot I am distracted... ambessa was right.... now what the fuck will jayce fuck up??? Thats the question... NOT ANOTHER CHILD!!! jayce is a menace... the guys smiling at jayce are viktor... maybe the child even....

JINX KILL THAT MAN!!! NVM VANDER KILL THAT MAN!!! JAYCE YOU FUCKING MORON!!!!! JAYCEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE WHEN I GET YOU JAAAYCEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

Isha what are you going to do omg 😭😭 did she kill vander... another powder... my god another week...

That was such a good fucking episode too.... and caitlyn didn't go insane when finding Jinx that is a step forwards but viktor can't be dead... no fucking way... he was giving himself away for the people and he was going to finally die by saving vander and look at what we got... no wonder viktor hates his guts. Jayce you were so good in act one.... what happened..... alright. Christ.... another week....

[luv-again]

gonna catch up on reading ppls shadamy week pieces then i might potentially go back to writing my pirate au. i still have a world's worth or work to do for it

[kwamiwayzz]

actually after some digging i just found out the creator of c09 is an asshole so nicole going to therapy and healthy!jeckole is back oN

I don't really know where to start with this, but taking ideas from an older fic idea from a previous fandom (and a few ideas from other Jeckole fics and headcanons I've read), I imagine that after graduating high school, Jecka knows she wants to go to college, and Nicole (not wanting to admit missing her best friend) decides to go with her because she, "has nothing else going on for her here".

So things are good, maybe not great, but it's good enough. The apartment is dingy, there's a roaches in the hallways every other day, and the hot water is off after 8pm. Both Nicole and Jecka hate it, but it was the best they could do with $5 and a dream (and California is really expensive let's be real--yes, I'm taking the idea that they decide to go to LA based off one of the endings in the game).

Jecka goes to college to study med (Memeframe's fic), and Nicole does...whatever she decides to do. After hopping from job to job, she decides to be an indie musician (also from Memeframe's fic).

All is well and good. LA is full of pretentious people (lmao don't kill me LA-ers), but did they really expect any other place would be devoid of gross men and creeps? Jecka and Nicole get used to the place, and suddenly it's like life doesn't seem all too bad. Sure, Nicole hopes her intrusive thoughts would let her walk into traffic, but then she'd get an earful from Jecka about leaving her with the expensive rent. So...she stops herself, most of the time. Her relief in the noise in her head is still a bottle of booze or a razor blade she sometimes hides from Jecka.

Oh yeah, she also tries to stop cutting too (Inscriptions by Kayleen 756894 on AO3) after she and Jecka try going out. She knows it's a relief for Nicole, but hates seeing the aftermath of the silent pain.

anyway yadda yadda skip the detailed padding and fluff i usually do in all my writing, but there's a particular day where Nicole is just alone in their apartment and she hears gunshots outside (typical for the area), but something about it felt different this time. She shrugs it off like usual, but it still nags at her, and eventually all that trauma she hides with humor, sarcasm, and snark just can't be ignored anymore.

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also I'm still catching up on several fics on AO3 so if that long/future fic (aka our present time) is out there...

[talkorsomething]

I've been like "damn my bed is squeakibg more than usual, maybe something's finally wrong with the frame" but then just now i moved something close to the bottom frame & it's magically less noisy. Idk how that happened but. Ok.

[milkmynk]

Munto, small HC

Continuation of this, quick sketch

Yumemi wakes up the next morning with a stiff neck and muscle ache in her shoulders

Munto is still holding her, his arms looped loosely around her; he doesn't seem to have moved an inch from when he'd dropped dead asleep last night

She spares a moment to blush, before realizing there was an unhealthy flush to his cheeks and a slightly labored quality to his breathing

She presses her hands to his forehead and the pulse of his neck, and he's alarmingly hot

Calling his name only elicits a frown, and his arms tightening like a vice around her

Somehow, she coaxes and wriggles until she manages to slide off his lap. His frown deepens and a dissatisfied noise rumbles in his chest, but he still seems to be deep in slumber.

Yumemi bumps into Rui as she exits the throne-room in a hurry, he calls for Shuza as he checks on Munto, and they carry him to his room as she hovers worriedly

Shuza diagnoses him with exhaustion, and to let him rest

Rui comments that he has never seen Munto sick, except for when they were children... Jokes that the last time he was ill, he was still a whiny crybaby who insisted on being cajoled by the previous Qu-

He stops abruptly

They all fall silent, understanding that perhaps Munto had never allowed himself the luxury of being ill since his parents returned to Akuto

Rui coughs, and turns the topic to Yumemi

"So, why was Yumemi-hime together with Munto in the throne-room this early?"

His demeanor was as respectful as ever, but there was a knowing sort of amusement in his eyes

She went deep red

The amusement was evident in his voice. "Ah, I see."

Wait, what did you mean by 'you see'??

"It's not like that, it's just... Munto wanted some company... That's all!!"

Rui held up his hands placatingly, his expression virtuous. "No, no, I apologize. It was untoward of me to query you on your... private matters."

Before she could find the words to refute / explain, though, there was a soft groan from beside them

They all turned to see Munto stirring, his golden eyes opening. He looked dazedly at the ceiling for a moment before his eyes swiveled towards the others in his room

There was a chorus of his name as they hurried to his side, and he squinted at them in fevered confusion. "What... Why are you all... Yumemi?"

She took the seat by his side. "Munto, how are you feeling? You were unconscious from your fever..."

Instead of replying though, he looked aggrieved, almost petulant. "... You left. You said you'd stay, but you left."

"I... What? When did I leave?"

As though fatigued, he lay back on his pillows and closed his eyes. His hand, however, shot out with surprising speed and grabbed hers. "I tried to... hold onto you, but you disappeared... Stay."

She heard what sounded suspiciously like a smothered chuckle from behind her, and her face sizzled. Way to not beat the allegations...

Rui whispers something gleefully to Shuza along the lines of "I need to prepare my congratulations to Munto" and Shuza murmurs something reproachfully back

Yumemi decides to be selectively deaf. Swallowing her embarrassment for the time being, she squeezes his hand back. "I won't leave. Don't worry, sleep..."

Munto gradually relaxes and his breathing deepens