#i shouldve been studying for my finals damn...

[crescenttm00n]

ah yes my favourite trio

Kris, Susie, and Ralsei the horse

[hearts4golbach]

Until You Graduate.

Pairing:

Teacher!Ray Toro x Student!Reader.

A/n:

this one SHOULDVE been titled 'oh my god here fucking take it damn ashlee'

proofread

Warnings:

pet names (sweetheart, honey, good girl, pretty girl, baby,) unrealistic sex, oral sex (m receiving), fingering, slapping (ass AND face), size kink, face fucking, cream pie, rough sex, no protection (wrap it before you tap it...)

Word count:

2.0k

The last period of the day. Music theory. College music theory was no joke, especially as a senior in college. You had been taking it all four years, what more could there be to learn? Although, throughout the past 4 years, you had gotten to know the teacher very well. His name was Mr. Toro, well, Ray Toro. You weren't quite sure how to describe your relationship with him. Of course, he looked at you as a student and you viewed him as a teacher. There was always something there though, a little tinge in your stomach when his eyes met yours and the soft blush on his face when you complimented the color of his tie. It made you want to rip his shirt off and-

"Good afternoon, Ms. L/n," he greeted cheerfully, waiting at the door to greet his students as he usually did.

He startled you out of your thoughts. You looked up from the floor and shot him a half smile. "Afternoon, Mr. Toro."

"Today is just a study hall day, catch up on your missing work in *this* class," he emphasized. He raised an eyebrow at you.

Okay, maybe you were failing his class. It's not like you didn't understand the material, but the homework wasn't for the weak. "I-," You began to protest or attempt to defend yourself but knew it would be pointless, "okay."

Another student approached, and he greeted them with a smile. Mr. Toro lowered his voice. "Why don't you come see me after class? We can talk about this later."

You nodded and made your way to your seat. Once the bell rang, he greeted the whole class before explaining that it was a catch-up day. Of course, you did your best to catch up. 3 agonizing assignments later (after spending half of the time daydreaming) the final bell of the day rang. It was Friday, and you were desperate to get back to your dorm, but you had your meeting with Mr. Toro.

Once everyone had left, Mr. Toro called to you. "Y/n, why don't you pull up a chair?"

You nodded, dragging a chair over to the front of his desk. He closed his laptop and locked his fingers together, leaning towards you. "Great job getting some assignments done," he praised. "Now, why have you been slacking off in my class?"

You sighed, resting your head in your hand. Your eyes scanned his curl-framed face for any sign of anger, but there proved to be none. "There's just been a lot on my plate, especially with midterms coming up I-"

You began to ramble before he cut you off. "I've heard that so many times, give me a real answer."

You swallowed, trying to get rid of the lump in your throat. You couldn't form words or any other excuse, you just haven't been doing the work.

He tsked under his breath, standing up and walking around the desk. "You're one of my best students, Y/n. It's disappointing to see you slack off."

"I'll do anything I can to make it up, Mr. Toro," you couldn't hide the suggestiveness of your tone. He was far from phased.

He hummed, "I'm sure you would." He stood behind you, placing his hands on your shoulders. "Do you think I don't see you staring at me during class?" His hands slid down slowly, moving to the first button on your blouse. "I may be younger than your other teachers, but I'm not naive."

"I know, Mr. Toro." You chewed your bottom lip, excitement bubbling in your stomach followed by heat pooling in your panties.

He leaned down to whisper in your ear. "If you want me to stop, tell me, okay?"

"No, no." You replied immediately. "Please, don't stop."

He smirked, placing a kiss on your cheek. "Good girl," he unbuttoned the first one, making his way to the second. "But you haven't been very good— zoning out in class, not doing what you're told, wearing those tiny fucking skirts that drive me crazy.."

You clenched your thighs together as he undid the next button. "I'll start being good, Mr. Toro. I promise.."

"Promising doesn't cut it. Someone needs to teach you a lesson, and I'm glad to be that someone. Get up." After he undid the third button, he moved his hands away from you. You did as he told, quickly standing up and turning to face him. He rested his hand on the nape of your neck. "The word is papers, okay?"

You nodded eagerly. He smirked and crossed his arms. "Please, Mr. Toro-" You weren't exactly sure what you were begging for.

"Turn around and bend over."

You bent over his desk, resting your cheek on a stack of papers. He groaned at the sight of you. He hiked your skirt up and pulled your panties down with one swift motion. His hand moved to where you needed him the most, running his calloused fingers through your wet folds.

"God, you're already so wet for me," he placed a hard slap on your ass, making you yelp. "Have you thought about this a lot?" He questioned, rubbing the red mark on your flesh. You nodded. "Words, honey."

"Y-yeah, all the time," your voice was breathy as you anticipated his next move.

"Tell me about it," He placed another slap on the opposite side, making you whine.

"I've thought about your hands all over me, especially-" another hard whack came down on your ass, "fuck.. especially late at night. I've thought about sucking your- ah!" Another hit on your sore skin. "S-sucking your dick under the table while you're trying to teach class..."

He cut you off by shoving two fingers deep inside of you. A loud moan slipped from your lips. You whined at the loss of contact whenever he immediately retracted his fingers. One hand gripped your hip while the other continued to smack your ass.

"I bet you'd like that, wouldn't you?" He hummed. "What else?"

"I've thought about you deep inside of me, fucking me so-" you whined as he slowly circled your clit before another loud smack rang through the room. "so hard I can't walk the next day.."

He let out a low chuckle. "You're so good for me," he rubbed the bright red handprint gently, "takin' it like a champ, sweetheart." He gripped your forearms and pulled you flush against him. You felt his clothed cock pressing into you, begging for release. His hands slid down to your waist, then your hips as he kissed your neck. "Get on your knees."

You whirled around and dropped to the floor. Your panties were tangled around your ankles and your skirt had fallen back into place as you reached up to unbuckle his belt. Before you could, his hand met your cheek. "Who's in charge here? You *always* ask for my permission."

"Can I, Mr. Toro?"

"Can you what?" He emphasized, rubbing your cheek before slapping you again.

"Can I please suck your dick?" You looked at him through your eyelashes.

"Go ahead, pretty girl," he let you pull down his dress pants and boxers, allowing his thick cock to spring free. His grip on your hair grew tighter as he guided you towards his aching cock.

He was bigger than you had imagined. You weren't sure if you could take it. Nonetheless, you took his throbbing tip into your mouth and began to suck as if your life depended on it. He pushed your head down, his tip hitting the back of your throat. You gagged, tears stinging your eyes as you held eye contact with him.

"You look so pretty like this," He grunted, "choking on my cock."

You hummed in response as he began to thrust into your mouth. He gripped your hair at the scalp, keeping your head in place as he began to fuck your mouth. You ran your tongue along the veins, closing your eyes as tears began to fall. Your mascara smeared, creating an even better sight for Ray. He placed another slap on your cheek, making you wince as the ache between your legs grew stronger.

"Shit," he mumbled, tossing his head back as he rocked his hips faster. The lewd, wet noises of you choking on his cock filled the room along with his moans and groans of pleasure. "Okay, okay," he pulled you off of him, a string of saliva connecting you to his dick. "That's enough."

You whined, wanting— no, needing him to finish in your mouth.

"Go sit on the desk." His curly hair was disheveled and sweat began to bead on his forehead. God, he looked sexy.

You followed orders, sitting on the desk. He stood between your legs, gripping your thighs tight. He pressed his tip against your tight hole, looking up at you for confirmation. You nodded eagerly, needing him inside of you. He wrapped his hand around the base and began to push into you. You squeezed around him, barely accommodating to his size.

You let out a cry, a mix of pain and pleasure washing over you as you propped yourself up on your elbows. He pushed deeper inside of you, making you scream and he wasn't even halfway in. "M-Mr. Toro, I-I can't.."

He shushed you, digging his fingers into your hips. You were sure there'd be bruises in the morning. "Come on, I know you can. Be my good girl, yeah?"

You whimpered, nodding. He shoved his thumb into your mouth, muffling the scream that threatened to fall from your lips as he bottomed out inside of you. You squeezed your eyes shut, focusing on how fucking good he felt inside of you.

"Fuck, baby. Look at *that*," he groaned.

You could *see* how deep he was inside of you, his tip bulging through your stomach. "Fucking shit," you cursed, which was only mumbling to him as the pad of his thumb pressed against your tongue.

He began to move, hitting your G-spot with every thrust. Lewd moans and squelching filled the room as you slowly adjusted to his size. Pleasure overruled the pain, making your eyes roll back as he kept his thumb in your mouth.

"You're so tight, god damn," he rested his head in the crook of your neck, biting the flesh softly before pulling away.

All you could do was nod as he quickened his pace. He laid another slap on your cheek before kissing it to get rid of the pain. He moved down to your neck, sucking and biting in an attempt to mark you up— claim you as his. He licked over the bite marks to soothe the pain.

His hand met your cheek once more. "You're perfect, fuck. 'Don't think i'll ever get enough of this pussy," he rubbed fast circled on your clit. His thrusts were punishing, his cock drilling into you. "Gonna fuck you dumb, sweetheart."

He wasn't lying. You couldn't form coherent sentences, overstimulated from his deep he was and how good he made you feel. "Yesyesyes-" You mumbled between cries and moans.

"You want me to fill you up, baby?" He groaned, his breathing ragged. His gaze met yours as you finally opened your eyes.

You felt a knot begin to form in your stomach. "Yes- yes, please, Mr. Toro."

He gripped the back of your head, bringing you forward to press a kiss to your forehead. "So, so perfect." He mumbled. His thrusts were sporadic as he began to reach his climax.

"'Gonna cum-" you whimpered, a loud moan following as he lifted your hips.

"That's it, cum on my cock. God, you're such a good girl," he praised as you came undone on his dick.

He fucked you through your high, not slowing down until he scooted his thick seed inside of you. He slowly rocked his hips, pumping you full until you were a limp, sweaty mess.

He pulled out, watching in awe as his seed dripped out of you. He peppered your face in kisses as you began to regain some strength, He wrapped his muscular arms around your back, pulling you closer to him.

"Fuck, I can't wait until you graduate."

[selfawarecobalt]

bro that fight was absolutely ridiculous! I love Gray but that was clearly main character syndrome. when Freed said that the rune won't cancel every magic to give Gray a chance I knew this was the first excuse to have the Raijinshuu lose. if serious, Freed could've just cancelled everything and the fight would've been over before it even began. then the Gray doesn't feel the torture rune excuse out of nowhere and the fact that Gray won against Evergreen Bickslow AND Freed with all ridiculous reasons and then struggled against an injured and exhausted Mirajane afterwards while Freed was holding up great against an emotional-overdrive, rage power Mira in the fight with her, it's all just so badly written. I would've given Gray the advantage of using devil slayer magic against people like Mira and Freed but at least make it a damn good and difficult fight because not only Mira is a power to be reckoned with, Freed has been set up to be too. then there are Ever and Bickslow qith their eye magics as well, and how they were knocked out was a joke too. I dont want this animated.

EXACTLY. I’ll be the first to admit gray would be powerful enough to defeat individual members of the thunder legion (that main character power boost) but that was an utter piss take. gray still struggled against just bixlow during their first fight, even if he couldve beaten him. that “um actually gray cant feel pain in this form” was completely stupid. ive seen a lot of awful things from modern fairy tail but that was undoubtedly the worst. also that “omg of course i feel pain i was hitting my comewades :((((“ INFURIATED me. didnt have that energy during what i assume was meant to be a “comedic” scene of him just beating the shit out of freed when he was already down. also the whole “lets rip the clothes off the only girl!” thing made me want to barf. i genuinely believe it would’ve been better for their characters if the thunder legion had been killed in the tartaros arc.

also YEAH THE WHOLE “struggled against an exhausted and injured mira” genuinely gave me vertigo after i finally escaped from having it shoved down my eyeholes. like yeah mira was rusty during her fight with freed but she was absolutely rage filled, and it was really emphasised just how powerful she was, and it was STILL a tough fight. against just freed. the whole thunder legion vs gray shouldve been a sweep in the other direction. weve seen they can all work together, using their unique magics to complicate things for enemies.

cant think where else to put this so im slapping this in here. EVEN THOUGH GRAY HAS DEMON SLAYER MAGIC NOW FREED HAS A FUCKING SWORD. also that stupid “gray teleports behind evergreen and bixlow” thing? WHAT KIND OF DEMON SLAYER MAGIC IS THAT. all fairy tail main characters are the worst type of mary sue. and i LIKE mary sues.

evergreen can turn people to stone and fire hundreds of BULLETS and explosions. bixlow can use his babies to beat the shit out of long distance targets and take control of their bodies (NOT TURN THEM CHIBI. HIRO.). FREED CAN FUCKING TURN INTO A DEMON AND ALMOST INSTANTLY TRAP PEOPLE AND DEPRIVE THEM OF OXYGEN, AND CUT A GODDAMN TORNADO IN HALF. THESE ARE VETERAN FIGHTERS WHO WERE ONCE ABLE TO DAMN NEAR TAKE DOWN THE ENTIRE GUILD. now theyre just a joke. their personalities have been completely erased and replaced with “omg laxus!!”. im going to hurl

if you HAD to make up an excuse to weaken them, sure you could make up some shit about “oh the barrier particles damaged their magic containers” BUT EVEN THEN THEYRE STILL SMART ENOUGH TO WORK TOGETHER.

seriously. this was the most blatant case of main character nepotism ive literally ever seen. i genuinely despise 100yq, it always felt so lazy and uncreative. uhh yeah actually surprise theres four more acnologias but more powerful. yeah theyre were never mentioned before so what. every character looks the same now. the lucyification of the fairy tail girls needs to be studied. this infection is taking away every single character and the only reactions im seeing to it are “omg glow up!!”

(also i HATE seeing people talk about the spinoff characters like “omg so cute its like an alternate universe” NO ITS JUST LAZY. HE ONLY KNOWS LIKE 4 CHARACTER TYPES AS MAIN CHARACTERS AND IM SICK OF NOONE ACKNOWLEDGING IT)

[gaylonelydyke]

if it’s not too late, 12 for episodes and ships, and 17!

its never too late! thankyou for the ask 🥰 oo damn this is gonna be a hefty one, just to prepare you this is gonna be long 😅😅😅

spoiler alert for my friends who are finishing up season 2 rn, be careful if you look at my top five episodes, pay attention the the episode numbers, i will put [ ] in bold at the beginning and end of spoilers!

12. Top 5 ships

5. faith x myself because have you seen faith? shes such a babe! spare consensual kiss maam?

4. willow x oz, i dont know if this is an unpopular or not but i feel like if the 90s had been more accepting of term then willow wouldve been bisexual, but like even now tv shows will rarely let characters say that word :( but anyway i love them! theyre both quirky and kinda awkward but its such a sweet relationship and you really see how they go from awkward crushes to an actual deep relationship, oz is one of my favourite characters too what a dude!

3. giles x jenny, mlmxwlw solidarity in this bisexual couple! there is no an ounce of straight between them and i love it, i love their dynamic, i love that giles *respects women* (im staring daggers at xander rn), also the original girlboss x malewife couple askdjaksjhd

2. drusilla x spike, these two!!!!!! once again a bisexual couple with zero straight between them, the vibes are off the charts. sexy vampires, goth x punk love, i just love them man, and their relationship is so interesting to delve into. like theyre vampires, theyre soulless and yet they have a capacity for love, they care deeply for eachother, theyre so tender towards eachother in season 2 in the way they take turns to care for one another, also drusilla picking spike up with one hand made me gay and thats on that

1. willow x tara!!!!! lesbians man lesbians! they have a beautiful relationship, until a certain point wink wink, they feel like a perfect match, willows become more outgoing due to buffy and xander snd having a proper group of friends, so its cool to see her as the more outgoing independant one in the relationship, and tara is such a honey 🥺 the biggest sweetheart in the world what a babe!!!! also like how groundbreaking was their relationship? as a queer couple, they had p much the dame amount of screentime as a aueer relationship today! and willow says the word lesbian so many times and is always making gay jokes which is something shows today are too scared to do, its honestly refreshing which is weird for a show in the 90/00s

12. Top 5 episodes

this is so hard because its such a damn good show so i had to rlly be picky about this but here we go

5. 6x22 ‘grave’- i watched buffy for the first time last year at work coz i worked with one other person just packing shit, and THIS was the episode that made us cry infront of eachother. the scene with willow and xander at the end is one of my all time favourite scenes and like legit we were watching and we starting going like ha.. this is so sad Q_Q and we looked at eachother and we were both crying akdjdjsjdhs its SO GOOD, like this is a friendship ive been so invested in and [seeing xander be able to pull her back from that dark place was so heart wrenching and amazing god its so good]

4. 3x12 ‘helpless’ - im finishing up s2 in my rewatch rn so i havent rewatched this one to double check but i remember loving it man. buffys father daughter relationship with giles is my favourite of the whole show they make my heart ache, so i love that this is an episode that really shows you how dedicated giles is to her, [its the breaking point where he finally disregards the fact that hes a watcher and acts as her father once and for all, its a turning point for their relationship where he is finally embracing the fact that shes like a daughter to him and i just love to see it Q_Q get you a dad who will leave his lifes calling for you]

3. 4x22 ‘restless’ - season 4 is interesting coz it has really good episodes and them some gd awful ones 😂😂 but this one just blew me away, i love a good character study episode and this is THE SHIT! its so weird and creepy but in the most perfect way, its not on the nose its so subtle, it feels like an uncanny valley version of buffy almost, i like that they finished the season first and then took this episode to do something out of the box and different i feel like it lets them fully explore this idea without the pressure of needing plot included. [also the cheese man is iconic. dont however like xander being all nasty with willow and tara but whats new there man]

2. 1x12 ‘The Prophecy Girl’ - for my first watch of buffy i wasnt that into the first season, like i enjoyed it but i didnt think it was anything super special? but this episode changed EVERYTHING for me. up until now buffy had been fun, witty, charming, but not anything new atleast for me, maybe in the 90s it was but right now its your average teen supernatural show. but this episode!!!! the emotion! buffy facing her death, her speech about how shes just 16 and shes scared and she doesnt want to die, that is what i wanna see!! its heartbreaking and it made me cry, and then it gives us the wonderful moment of giles trying to take her place and buffy realising that she has to be the one to do it, man its so good! basically anything with buffy and giles being a duo is gonna make it an automatic yes from me and this is indeed the case for this episode, i just love that the show remembers that shes a child! shes not brave all the time, shes not strong all the time, shes just doing her best and sometimes its overwhelming, 🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼 i bow to this episode

1. 2x17 ‘passion’ - i know i just sang praises about prophecy girl but THIS EPISODE IS THE SHIT, the best episode full stop. i wont accept any argument. angel is probably my favourite big bad, its so funny to see plain bread, mopey brooding angel become this charismatic, funny, poetic, blood thirsty angelus, hes everything i want in a villain and in this episode he delivers! rip jenny tho love her. i think the tension built around angel is so good, because of his drawings and notes left around, every scene youre worrying like is he here now? are they safe or what? its so tense! and also it is me and im a slag for buffy x giles father daughter moments and this episode fucking delivers! giles discovering jennys dead body is probably one of the best scenes on the show, the dramatic irony is heAVY, we know jenny is dead, we know that these flowers arent from her, but giles is so so happy, and i want to see him happy but you just know somehing horrific is about to happen and damn does it. its a masterpiece! i love jenny and giles so much it is so sad, but also the fact that it gave us that scene makes me almmmoost ok with it? i also love the moment where giles breaks down in buffys arms, hes been there for her and now shes returning the favour and hes accepting it i just 😭😭😭 also on a different note, angels narration of this episode is amazing! it gives us great insight to who he is as “evil angel” and like even though hes awful i was also kind of rooting for him coz hes just such a great villain

sorry this is so long lmao, last question!

17. Which characer do you wish had less of a focus on them in the show?

i dont wanna get yelled at butttttt i dont like the amount of focus on dawn. i think it makes sense for the her first season considering the story arc but that season really does double down its focus onto dawn and buffy and it barely leaves room for anyone else to have a storyline, it keeps the episodes super depressing too its like a constant level of just sadness the whole time because we’re so stuck in THEIR arc, theres no room to balance it out and have a breather, some people might like that its more serious but i really really didnt like, i love episodes like prophecy girl where it is campy and brings the more emotional notes in when the time comes, but dawns whole arc is just constantly depressing the whole time i just hate it, and also just shes not a character i felt i could connect to because of how suddenly shes introduced, so its weird to have her SO focused on in the first half of that season coz we dont know her yet so i feel like the emotional moments dont land the way that they should? basically they shouldve eased us into dawn or introduced her differently and maybe i would like her enough to want the focus on her but i really just dont

adksjakjshd apologies for the essay this is, thanks for the ask!

[kdyc0re]

Sit with you?

a short kim doyoung imagine

!! CONTAINS STRONG LANGUAGE !!

You’ve been waiting for this day to come. One of your favorite artist was doing a live concert during a small festival. Luckily there weren’t too many people so you easily got tickets for you and your friend.

It was starting in 10 mintues and your friend still hasn’t arrived, you decided to give her a call.

“where the hell are you? you better be dying for you to be this late. Its starting in 5 minutes the fawk are you doing??” you said through your phone screen

“damn no need to scream, and yeah i’m practically dying i guess? my stomach really said this aint it hun. sorry i can’t go with you today...” she sadly said

“well what am i supposed to do? its your fault for eating 15 spicy chicken wings the night before..” you laughed at her then continued

“get well soon i guess? i’ll go to your apartment when im done, do you want me to get you anything?”

“chocolate please” she whispered as you scoff “hoe, are you trying to diarrhea more?” you said

“oh and i gave my ticket to my cousin who visted this week, he also likes [insert artist name] so i decided to give it to him. i don’t know if he’ll be going or not but i just wanted to give you a heads up” she said

You both said your goodbyes and dropped the call.

You were kinda sad that she couldn’t join you since both of you have been waiting so long but you decided to be optimistic and enjoy the day.

Everyone cheered when [insert artist name] stepped on stage. You clapped you hands excitedly, finally seeing them perform live was one of your biggest life goals.

As you were about to take a bite from the burger you bought you felt someone sit close to you.

You saw a boy, probably your age, setting up his blanket on the ground and sat on it. You didn’t notice you were staring until he stared back.

“Would you mind if i sit with you?”

He said, breaking your piercing stare at him as he awkwardly smiled

“No, not at all”

You returned the awkward smile and bowed your head in embarrassment until you heard a soft giggle, you looked up to see him smiling at you as he turned his gaze to the stage.

Your heart fluttered.

You tried so hard focusing on the stage but your mind kept drifting off to the boy next to you.

And then you heard your favorite song being played and your focus turned to the artist singing in the front. But it was soon broken when you heard singing right next to you.

It was him.

You stared at him, In awe of his angelic voice. His voice was music to your ears.

He was your new favorite song.

It then broke when he stopped to look at you, giving you a quite questioning smile, raising both of his eyebrows.

You then rapidly turned your head to face front, whispering to yourself

“Holy fuck his voice. god really took his time making him” not knowing he heard

He started laughing, damn even his laugh was beautiful.

“I often hear compliments about me but never in the way you put it. Yours is by far my favorite” he continued laughing.

You awkwardly laughed with him to ease the embarrassment you felt

“Well, while we’re at it, let me introduce myself—” he then patted his hands on his jeans and proceeded to extend them in front of you, indicating a handshake

“Kim Doyoung”

You awkwardly extended your hand to shake his

“Y/F/N”

You both got along quite easily, learning you both came to the festival to see the same artist.

You learned quite a bit about him.

He’s currently in university, Studying music because he said he loves singing, obviously from his immaculate voice, and he just came to visit family.

You both continued to bond over music on how you both liked to listen to music, him showing you song lyrics he wrote and even exchanged playlists.

You decided to take a video of the stage where the artist was still currently performing and you thought you were slick as fuck when you slowly turned the camera to him and record him.

He caught on and suffed his face in front of your camera.

You both laughed and continued enjoying the performace.

The festival ended, you were just about to bid goodbye until he tapped your shoulder

“Do you want me to bring you home? Its pretty dangerous for you to go home alone considering the suns already down” he smiled at you

that damned smile.

You nod your head, not being able to form words.

He led you to his car and you both drove off. You texted you friend saying that you’ll be over in 3 mins.

Once you arrived in front of you friends house you thanked him

“I really appreciate you dropping me off, also thank you for keeping me company earlier.. my friend was supposed to come with me but she couldn’t make it” you shyly said

“No big deal. I also enjoyed your company earlier, I wasn’t even supposed to go, my cousin just gave me the ticket so i decided not to waste it.” he said as he smiled, flashing his beautiful bunny like smile that you grew to adore.

until you realize...

“ Wait, Cousin—?” you were interupped

“BITCH WHAT TOOK YOU SO LONG?? I WAS WAITING FOR YOU! YOU SHOULDVE SEEN MY SHIT—” your friend suddenly busted out of the door to the front of her house, seeing you and doyoung

“Doyoung?” your friend said while you stood there processing the situation

“Oh hey! I didn’t know you were friends?” Doyoung waved to your friend who waved back

“She was the one who bought the ticket i gave you! I assume you already met?” she said as she red the situation, both you and doyoung getting out of his car, talking and smiling.

She realized what was happening and smiled to herself

“Y/n’s single” your friend suddenly said as your mouth gaped ready to scream

“I know. Im working on it” Doyoung said

You stood there frozen.

“Could you hand me your phone” he asked and you just gave it to him

“My number. I’ll see you soon” he winked as he waved goodbye to both you and your friend.

You looked at your phone screen seeing his saved number and his contact name saved as “🐰”

you smiled to yourself as you turned to you friend looking at you

“so yall fucking or not—?” you didn’t let her finish as you slapped her arm.

-end-

[jhaymyneutron]

6 years ago, I experienced my biggest failure, or what I thought to be the biggest. I failed a subject that wouldnt let me stay in the course that I was in during that time. I was so depressed that things werent going the way i wanted it to be. It wasnt how i planned it in my mind.

Failing that subject means that I will be having a hard time shifting to the course that i really wanted to be in. (i was in nursing that time, and I planned to shift to PT in the same university) No one will take a Transcript with a singko. Well, atleast that college in the university that i was in. I had zero idea on what to do with my life, I had nothing for myself. I can no longer stay in nursing because I cant proceed with the cut off system because i had 1 singko (also i really didnt want to lol) I only had 2 choices, either I shift to another course that is not PT or leave my dream university and pursue PT in a different school. I didnt like both so I didnt do anything. I was a mess.

Some would say, if you dont want to leave that university then you shouldve just shifted in another course.

My 2 cents:

Nursing wasnt my cup of tea and I failed because no matter how hard i try to study, things werent just working out for me. It isnt just for me exactly.

Therefore, if i chose to go to another one that i didnt like to be in, in the first place, then I wouldve just repeated the same story but im just in a different uniform.

and so I told my parents, I needed a break. I wanted to find myself and think about what i really want to do. I stopped attending college for a year. But i never heard anything dull from my parents. They just smiled at me and said “go ahead. Do what you need to do”

For a year, I did things for myself. Things happened. I had a roller coaster ride of unexpected scenarios, that luckily I was present and I was able to cover for it because I was on a hiatus. A lot of times i felt useless and “patapon” in that 365 days but there are days that I suddenly realize, aside from trying to find myself, I took a hiatus for some unknown reasons and it was already showing up one by one.

Failing and reflecting was new to me, I realized i felt so entitled even when i dont deserve it. Ive been living as a “what i see is what i get” and it wasnt healthy for me, not even for everyone.

The thing is, UST is my dream school and I dont want to leave UST, but also I couldnt stay. Ive been so stubborn, and it only gave me heartaches because what i want wont always work. I’ve reflected so much, and I asked myself a hundred times, will I really just let myself have this heartache, randomly cry at night and think that im not good enough? When I already have the answer in front of my face and all i have to do is explore new environment and have the courage to take it? And so i left.

I went to a school that i never saw, in a place that i was trying to avoid my whole life because it is damn far. But what kept me going? I started with a boring and uninteresting days, weeks and months in this school. But eventually, i met the most welcoming and undesrtanding people in my life. I had this genuine happiness that I wasnt able to get in my former school, in here, I felt that I belong. Professors were accomodating and remembers our name, even asks us how were doing everyday in the hallways. It was more than a community.

After 4 years, I never failed saying “buti nalang lumipat ako” “i went through all those sad times, to get this super saya experience with the realest barkada”. I met people who accepted me not because they were just simply open but because they feel the same. I even met someone who gave me so much to remember, crazy. Funny twists of fate.

Exactly a year ago. I failed a subject. For the first time in 4 years. One subject that held me in becoming an intern. One subject that separated me from my friends. I cried upon getting the results of my exams. The first time my friends saw me cry, i was bawling my eyes and pouring my heart out in the quiet halls of UG. I was crying, not because I failed, but because i cannot picture myself telling my parents that I failed one subject. I am ashamed to be giving them another burden, when im already at the age of giving them the life they deserve.

I cried and cried, until i finally gave my mom a call. I was nervous, but I had to do it.

“Hello?” My mom answered. I was crying silently and cannot utter a word. “Hello? Jhaymy?” i sniffed a of couple times and my mom figured out i wasnt okay. “Bakit ka umiiyak?” I was biting my tongue while i was sitting in the corner of an empty hallway. I couldnt talk but my mom didnt forced me, she was just at the other line listening silently while im crying. Finally, I told my mom “ma.... sorry. Bumagsak ako ng isang subject” i started letting my mom hear my cry. I kept saying sorry that i couldnt count it anymore. I heard my mom telling my dad why i was crying. My dad simply shouted for me to hear. “Okay lang yon!!!! Isa lang yon!” My mom got mad at, because i kept saying sorry “tigilan mo yang kaka sorry mo. Okay lang yon!!! Wag ka na umiyak jan. Okay lang yon, umuwi ka na wag ka na umiyak jan”, my sisters overseas called me and said “its okay, its normal” “but ate, i want to help you in providing already” “jhaymy, its okay. Kaya pa namin. Dalawa kami. Mag aral ka muna mabuti at okay lang yan. Okay lang kami”.

Months passed, i bid goodbye to my friends and sent them to internship, i felt sad but I realized I wasnt ready. I dont know anything. My supposed to be patients doesnt deserve me. I know nothing. And when I repeated another year, I understood everything. I asked myself where I was the whole time the other year. Totally absent minded.

When i went for another year, i met different people. People whom i never thought Id vibe with. My 4th year season 2, gave me so much learnings, and gave me a chance to build new friendships. This year, I met someone who gave me a different vibe. You know who you are, and if youre reading this im probably gonna be shy, but oh well im just stating facts. Never had the chance to say this to you but, thank you. You made me think that im not always the wrong one and that i was patient. Thanks for letting me have a crush on you hahahahahaha i dont know how long this will take but youre really hard to forget hahahahahahah. Bye. And so if i didnt take another year, I wouldnt have met this great person and i have never been more thankful.

My last cent, whatever happens, it happens for a reason. You may not instantly know why it had to, but one day you will be able to say why it did. And you will smile like a fool for realizing that you took a different way somewhere over the years. but finally, you came in to the perfect place.

[thelifetimechannel]

The Dave and Dirk log, for obvious reasons, was something I wanted to try very hard to get right. That meant although we drafted it together via msparp, as was our custom, I ended up overhauling it way more than any of our other combo walkaround logs. A few chunks did survive the transfer, though.

In other news, we’ve made a solemn pact to finish TLC over winter break, which is good because I’m running out of bonus content. Hopefully we’ll have some assets to show off soon. I’ve already seen a few; they’re very nice.  

DIRK: Hey, dude. You did pretty well out there. DIRK: Didn't even die once. DAVE: twice in a day is my max im satisfied with keeping that record DAVE: even if getting machinegunned is rapidly becoming my "thing" DIRK: Seems we each have our respective "signature deaths". DIRK: Or at least it ain't a party until I get decapitated. That sure was something we needed to do again. DIRK: Just once, for old time's sake. DAVE: well that puts the nail in the meme coffin DAVE: any time you panic someones gonna tell you to keep your head on DAVE: like keeping your hair on except you know that shit aint going anywhere its probably shellaced DIRK: That shit is bolted to the floor. Did you know I walked around with a girly-ass pink tiara on my head this whole day and had no idea? DIRK: I had no idea. Couldn't feel a thing. DIRK: And people let me do that. DIRK: Can't fuckin' believe it. DAVE: oh DAVE: i figured you knew DIRK: I am less than pleased with my Skaia-ordained divine color scheme. DIRK: But I guess I have to live with it. It's part of the team aesthetic. DAVE: you could always change DIRK: Nah, with the tiara and tights ditched I have at least mitigated the enforced flamboyance. It's bearable. DIRK: I can't be the one dude out of uniform. Couldn't bear the shame. DAVE: my outfit is pretty sick ngl DAVE: sburb knows everyones secret desire is to have a cape DIRK: Unfortunately, mine isn't long enough to also make for a good tactical maneuver. DIRK: Not gonna lie, that was pretty funny. DAVE: if nothing else my attempts at combat can provide a source of humor in our lives DAVE: but honestly id be fine if my fighting days were over DAVE: i was never into it DAVE: rose on the other hand was obviously itching to beat people up DAVE: one of those 12 year olds who wants to get jumped in an alley to work out her suppressed anger DIRK: Maybe Skaia did make a few miscalculations in dumping your asses with your respective guardians. I think you'd get along well with Roxy and her cats, make her budget her time away from the alcohol. DIRK: ...in theory. DIRK: Rose can go a few rounds with me if she wants, we still need to sort out who has the rights to document our legendary journies. DAVE: ill plan your funeral DAVE: what kind of flowers do you want DIRK: ...there's different kinds? DAVE: damn thats right you grew up in waterworld DAVE: these choices matter DAVE: allegedly theres a thing called "flower language" DAVE: whether you can actually send someone a boquet telling them to meet you in the pit i dont know DIRK: Like, I get that, in theory, different kinds of flowers exist. But I fully anticipate any attempt on my part to conjugate in the language of said plants would end in my coffin declaring my hovercraft was indeed full of eels. DIRK: Maybe it'll have thorns on it. Or it'll be like the sixteen millions tons of green bullshit covering my land and making my nose itch. DAVE: probably DIRK: Worst case scenario, I'll pick out something orange and present to a prospective love interest and it'll mean something like "my brotherly passion for you knows no boundaries, and also no homo". DAVE: my bro wouldnt go for flower arranging DAVE: or pink tiaras DAVE: he was pretty uptight about the whole rah rah macho act DAVE: probably subscribed to alpha males weekly DAVE: which is weird considering DAVE: well DAVE: youre gay right DIRK: Uh. DIRK: Well. DIRK: My symbolic quest land is not covered in green bullshit, but I. DIRK: Happen to like watching birds, if you know what I mean. DIRK: Fuck, you probably don't know what that means. Jake and his goddamn thousand euphemisms. DAVE: cant say i do no DIRK: Nobody knows what it means but Jake. It's an old time epithet for being into dudes. DIRK: He knows all the old epithets, including some I suspect he made up. DAVE: so DAVE: thats a yes DAVE: in a roundabout way that includes birds DIRK: I've never denied it. DIRK: I'm just. DIRK: Not a huge fan of the word. Why, in this world post-society, do we need to confine ourselves to labels like "gay"? Such constraints were washed away from my world with the rest of the human race. DAVE: holy shit that was such a pretentious dodge DAVE: dont let rose hear you say that DIRK: Rose can hear all she likes. DAVE: but anyway DAVE: i wasnt asking to get up all in your business like SOME PEOPLE DAVE: who are so into getting into other peoples businesses theyre basically the fucking mafia or the irs DAVE: but DAVE: it explains some stuff DAVE: but on the other hand it doesnt DAVE: the way you raised me was kinda aggressively mainstream masculine enough that it wasnt something that ever seemed to come up as an option DAVE: [describe that type of culture and mindset better later, I KNOW what i mean but im tired rn lmao] DAVE: and anything outside of that id just brush off because it couldnt apply to me DAVE: and that went for pretty much everything that went against what you wanted for me DAVE: including that DIRK: And yet, here the man was, subconsciously shrieking his desire for floppy felt dong through, DIRK: What I guess you could call his art, for want of any other applicable word at all. God, the mental images are crawling up the insides of my skull like the Exorcist child, do I want to know? DAVE: probably not DAVE: guess trying to act peak male has its drawbacks DAVE: weirdly enough troll culture is obsessively hyperviolent but doesnt give a shit about sexuality DAVE: they dont see the difference most of the time i guess DAVE: and so like DAVE: maybe it rubs off on you because in some ways that kind of makes sense DAVE: but after so long its hard to know what i feel and what it means because i spent so long ignoring it DAVE: so i guess i was wondering DAVE: if you had anything that might help with that DAVE: or if youre also trapped in this whirling screaming maelstrom of bullshit DAVE: while kinsey sits in the eye of the storm laughing DIRK: Wait, wait, wait. DIRK: You're coming to me. DIRK: For advice. DIRK: Do you know what a laughable hurricane of disaster my interpersonal life has been? DIRK: Like, in a weird way, I'm kind of honored, especially since about five hours ago you were scared shitless to be around me, but. DIRK: I'm standing here and waving my credentials in the air just to display how I don't fucking have any. My degree is a sham and my hands are empty except for a crudely scribbled on piece of construction paper. DAVE: are you suggesting theres a gay university DAVE: where you study bird watching DIRK: Do I look like a man who's been to college? DAVE: fair DAVE: but like DAVE: your friends know DAVE: how did you broach the subject there DIRK: I might as well have been dating a Yoko Ono for the devastation it wreaked on our friend group, so yeah, it was a little hard to ignore. DIRK: Compounded by the fact some smartass from Gay University was using my social circle for romance geometry homework. DIRK: It wasn't even a love triangle so much as a love roundabout. DAVE: ok but thats just because you were a dipshit not a gay dipshit DAVE: they were chill about the first part right DIRK: Thanks. DIRK: I mean... Roxy always seemed disappointed. DAVE: luckily i dont think anyones waiting in line for me DAVE: i guess im blowing it out of proportion DAVE: i dont think anyone will MIND DAVE: no one did about rose and kanaya DAVE: didnt even question the vampire bit which goes to show what our lives are like these days DAVE: like ok our outfit has vampires now DAVE: thats a thing that we have DAVE: if i say oh hey i might be bisexual theyll just say sure pull up a chair at the acronym table DAVE: the only one who might be weird about it is john DAVE: but hed be just as weird if i told him id changed my favorite color hes just like that DAVE: the only person its really a big deal for is me DIRK: Jane was a little bit like that. I'm pretty sure the only reason she had to object was because she found out the day I made a move on her crush. DIRK: It might just be growing up in a household where you're not regularly fighting for your life, and thus what genders are kissing whom has the space to be higher on your priority list. DAVE: that aint anyones priority these days DAVE: im prepared to acknowledge the concept that hey maybe everyone elses lives dont revolve around me and my personal drama or self revelations might have some merit at least as a hypothesis DAVE: when i met kid english he kept going on about how i was the most important person and everyone else was side characters DAVE: and maybe ive acted like that sometimes DIRK: Yeah, like you alone are the one responsible for everyone around you. DAVE: and maybe ive acted like i think that way too sometimes DAVE: ive been wrong about people DAVE: people i care about people i shouldve known better DAVE: i was wrong because i wanted to believe things that matched how i wanted the world to be DAVE: things that made it easier for the story i was telling myself DAVE: i dont think kid english meant to call me on it but damn DIRK: Reality is, after all, something we construct for ourselves. DIRK: I think maybe I knew that all along when I surfaced for air inbetween shoving my head as far up my ass as it would go. DIRK: Or maybe that's just what I try to tell myself in hindsight. DAVE: well if it takes a hyperactive 12 year old version of the final bosss creepy hero worship of me to make a point i guess thats not the least subtle way the universe has sent me a message lately DIRK: You want unsubtle? Let me tell you about my damn planet quest. DAVE: haha DAVE: i didnt have to do much of my quest because im invisible DAVE: thanks mom DIRK: My denizen practically sat me down like it was my life coach and growled in my ear about improving my communication skills with a guy I told to go fuck himself not eighteen hours prior. DIRK: So while I'm glad SBURB has a vested interest in me repairing my friendships, playing electroshock death DDR with him was a little on the nose. DAVE: maybe getting shot again wasnt that bad DAVE: so weve all learned our life lessons good job team DIRK: Exactly. Can we wrap this up now? Can we please go rest? DIRK: I'm so exhausted I haven't even noticed I'm still hungover. DAVE: sure thing DAVE: but if i need tips on leaping out of a closet to intimidate passerby i might text you DIRK: I mean, I can try. As long as you don't ask me for dating tips. That, I definitely shouldn't be helping you with. DIRK: Go talk to your sister for that. DIRK: ...wouldn't she, by the transitive property of siblings, also be my sister? DAVE: yeah i guess DAVE: but theres no way in hell im asking rose for dating advice DAVE: on her first date which she refused to admit was romantically oriented she got wasted in anticipation forgot to show up and then fell down the stairs DIRK: Oh my god. DAVE: she tries to look like shes got her shit together but its a lie DAVE: if you find my corpse floating on lolar in the next few hours dont let the truth die with me DIRK: Why are we like this? DIRK: Is there actually something hardwired into our DNA that predisposes us to being disasters? DIRK: But, that aside. DIRK: I won't object if it's me you come to talk to. DAVE: ill hold you to it DAVE: and if you ever want to publicly you admit you DAVE: "enjoy birdwatching" DAVE: in less vague and evasive terms DAVE: ill have your back DIRK: Thanks.