#i... must. have. my.... TRAUMA!!!!!
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I've always wanted to make this crossover come to life (and am still in the process of creating it)... rottmnt and warriors cats (hear me out);
The brothers would be separated into the four clans during the era of "Crookedstar's Promise" and "Bluestar's Prophecy," changing the course of history for several characters in the books, as well as healing from their own trauma after the movie.
Raph would be a red Maine Coon (the biggest, but a huge softie) in RiverClan,
Leo would be a Russian Blue (like Bluestar, blue eyes included) in ThunderClan,
Donnie would be a Siamese Cat (smartest & blue eyes to match his twin) in ShadowClan,
and Mikey would be an orange Bengal (spotted and affectionate).
This would not be a fusion crossover, but rather, the turtles are fee-line not themselves, lol. 😆
In all seriousness, I've yet to come up with a reason as to how they traveled to this dimension, but changing their appearance was probably the best course of action for them to not be the elephants in the room, lmao 👀 😂
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Rottmnt fans! Gimme ideas for crossover art! Go!
#crossover#zee-rambles question#pinkjunepeanut answer#warriors#rottmnt#ik it sounds ridiculous#but i can't get enough of it!!! 🤩🤩🤩#i... must. have. my.... TRAUMA!!!!!#on a silver platter 😂#who knows#maybe the cats can learn a thing or two from the bois#and the bois can finally receive the help they so desperately need 🙏
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Thanks for listening to my sad backstory. Anyway, here's Wonderwall.
[First] Prev <–-> Next
#poorly drawn mdzs#mdzs#wei wuxian#lan xichen#lan wangji#madam lan#This normally would have been two separate comics but I felt like it was a far better joke to have them together.#Enjoy the rare double feature comic!#I was listening to this episode - scripting out and preparing for a longer and heartfelt comic on this scene.#And then Lan Xichen pulled out his flute and started playing unprompted.#I could not contain my laughter. I know it is trying to be emotionally resonate and the flute is pretty but...#It really does have the energy of “Okay thanks for listening to my tragedies and traumas. I don't know how to segue out of this.”#This madam lan design is inspired by Qourmet's design! Really good stuff that I was not able to do more with in this one panel.#Speaking of...I know it is ambiguous on purpose and we are only told what happened through LXC's POV but...#I always interpreted madam lan's passing as a suicide. I think LXC was told it was illness to soften the blow.#She was stuck in a house with maybe a servant coming by to give her food. One day a month she saw her children.#Of course she was warm and loving in their memories-#She was trying to give them a version of her that would be remembered as such. She wanted to protect them from the truth.#She did her best but she was already dead a long time ago. She must have felt like a ghost haunting a house.#Love to her was waiting. And both her boys inherited that view of love.
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The family's fighting again.
He's having a bit of a hard time with the double divorce
#I just like to think Lanino & Elnina helped him through it#They're second in command after all.. they must have seen Tenna at his lowest#AUUGH I'M SO SORRY TENNA#Poor Kris crying#Divorce so hard it gave trauma to the goddamn TV#am i going crazy#Spamtenna divorce#deltarune#mr ant tenna#mr tenna#spamtenna#spamton deltarune#spamton g spamton#deltarune chapter 3#my art#my post#lanino#lanino deltarune#elnina deltarune#elnina#weather duo#kris dreemurr#asgore deltarune#toriel deltarune#deltarune kris#deltarune chapter three
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thinking about not only the specific people lucanis pulls in to represent the 'locks' in his psyche, but the storytelling that happens in the structure/order of them. the underlying ideas are presented something like:
the lucanis who went into the ossuary never came back out again; he died down there (the boy caterina raised is gone forever) -> you're putting yourself in danger doing this (by being close to me), you should leave because I can't bear it if you get hurt because of me -> it doesn't matter even if we do try this, it won't work anyway (again because of me) ('you know what he's like, you can open the door but he won't walk through it' :'( oofie doofie) -> what if the real secret is that there was never anything but the monster in here from the beginning. you should leave, there was never anything here worth saving in the first place. (implicitly: what if I deserved what happened, all along.)
it runs pretty cleanly from outward-oriented attachment anxiety ('caterina won't even want me back like this, she won't recognize me (the same way I no longer recognize myself)) and gradually deeper inwards until we reach self-image and self worth. or you know, the harrowing basic lack of it lol.
"careful -- they'll know we're not right," spite says in one of their first scenes... but clearly, some very deep part of lucanis has feared or suspected for much longer than that that there's something inherently not right at the core of him, way before any demon entered the picture. and the voice he gives those lines to is the person who should know him better than anyone in the world, who he has loved more than anyone in the world -- and who deliberately chose to hurt him so horrifically anyway. 'It's better if I'm just a monster and deserved what happened than it is to allow for the idea that the brother I love doesn't really exist and maybe never did'. it's better if he's fundamentally flawed in some way that needed fixing to help him survive, and that's why caterina chose to hurt him again and again -- out of love. (this one I think he might have a very sad wakeup call on one day if he ever ends up with the responsibility and care of a child of his own in some way and realizes just how alien the idea of ever intentionally hurting them for any reason is to him. oh buddy. also interesting that he keeps caterina as the outermost lock -- there IS a distance he keeps there that he hasn't with illario. he doesn't resent her 'anymore' he says, but he also keeps her carefully further away from his deepest self.)
as far as I could tell the only note in the mind prison that's fully hidden and needs to be uncovered is the sad painful helpless stupid little truth that even after all this, even knowing what happened... he still loves his brother. is there anything illario could ever do that would make lucanis completely stop loving him, do you think? sometimes the trouble with unconditional love is that it is, well. unconditional, even when some terms and conditions probably would have been in order haha.
that's the pattern you see there again and again; he would rather destroy and abandon and imprison himself at every turn than let go of love, even when it's just scraps, even when there's only ever enough of it to hurt him. it's only when rook shows up and as it were takes his hand and walks along with him that he can entertain the idea of changing the story of what walking out the door might mean in the end.
#tl;dr the demon is a metaphor about dissociation and trauma and it's doing its job thematically fucking pitch perfectly that way the end#dragon age#dragon age: the veilguard#dragon age: the veilguard spoilers#dragon age spoilers#lucanis dellamorte#dragon age meta#this mission is like ds9 the wire in terms of episodes you really can examine from a thousand different angles#and find something new and soulcrushingly sad every time. exactly my kind of episode in other words#whenever people say there's nothing to him but coffee and spite jokes some small part of me goes 'oh I'm so incredibly sorry!#it must be really hard and so impractical to go through life without being able to read :'( get better soon'#is that very nice of me. perhaps not. is the writing here *perfect*? of course not. but some people are also dedicated to being#wilfully blind (presumably b/c they would have preferred to see something else?? idk man)#lucanis' reaction to taash going 'I'm sorry I'm such a bad crow :'('... he could NEVER do what caterina did with him no matter what#you just can't use him like that. he needs the clean family/enemy/contract distinction or you just break him!!!#caterina literally what are you thinking. every day I ask myself this. (probably 'the only other option that keeps the seat in the family#is illario. so that's right out of course' lmao)#god forbid it happen anytime soon if it should happen b/c there's Stuff that needs working through first lol but he'd be such a soft dad
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Bro… the best day of their lives and the worst night they ever experienced happening back to back… pain and beauty being so closely interlinked. The push that day, night, and the outcome gave Sammie to pursue music. Sammie having nightmares for the rest of his life, well into his graying years, but never regretting the day he had at the Juke Joint.
Stack and Mary finally being able to be happy together, at the cost of the freedom of their spirits. Joy and community that can be found within dreadful circumstances. I Lied to You, a song about the conflict and separation between father and son that is transformed into communal connection. The song sung at the catalyst night, and that cements Sammie’s path as a musician. Pain that is turned into art that turns into freedom.
Delta Slim transitioning from a traumatic recollection into an improvised song as he mourns a dear friend who was lynched. That maybe in a better world art shouldn’t have to be made out of suffering, nor suffering transformed into art, but with the history that exists and the world we live in, what other choice is there?
#these are kinda some disorganized thoughts that I had on the nature of art as it’s shown through the movie#but it’s a really incredible display of how pain can be twisted into a point of connection for a people#it’s a sign of resilience to do so—even though it’s awful that people have to do it#but in particular for me was Delta Slim turning from mourning to singing—because what else is there to do?#he’s already fallen to pieces. he drinks heavily (self medicating). what else can he do but use his pain?#mourn through his music and artwork. express it externally.#the only other option is to cry. and after years of an unresolved pain… still crying must be exhausting.#so. the day and night of joy and trauma. how one leads to the other which leads to the other#not everyone makes it out of the Juke. it’s only Sammie and Smoke#and Smoke dies soon after#so it’s not as though Coogler is saying that trauma is a unilateral good; no way#but it’s a recognition that pain in some people can be harnessed into something constructive. and that has the power for change#in other people though. pain leads to destruction. destruction of the self and others#seen in. nearly everyone. Delta. Smoke and Stack (in their own ways). Annie and Mary and Pearline and let’s be honest: Remmick#everyone else in the Juke.#it’s a tragic and incredible nuance provided to the role of trauma in forming and maintaining community#sinners#sinners spoilers#sinners 2025#sinners meta#sinners analysis#my post
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good morning tetro community
@jubileedeeznuts-posting dragged me into this because he's a dastardly awful terrible unforgivable wretch and i HATE her
#my art#tetro danganronpa pink#hiroaki nakamigawa#ojima takeshi#hama ran#that's right ... it's me .... jubilee “mate” who was dragged in for the third trial .....#im just gonna yap in the ensuing tags don't mind that#hama's such a cutie i actually love him so bad thats all abt that#“that's all” no it's not i just wanted to draw him smiling bc he deserves it#what a sweetie bro has done nothing wrong ever#and hiroaki and takeshi .... wait shoudl i tag#hirojima#anyways aside from shipping i just think their dynamic is really really good#hiroaki is so clearly bothered by takeshi zoning out but vehemently doesn't blame HIM for it#and defends him against other people getting mad at him for it AND their accusations because he TRUSTS takeshi more than anyone#that trust and that bond means so much in a setting like this#andit must mean so much to takeshi who feels so unsafe in his life. in this place. in his own head. but he has SOMEONE he can feel safe wit#the way he calls for nakamigawa when he's in such a vulnerable state and sounds so close to tears#that bond is something so special. i'm not even talking about shipping it's just so SPECIAL. this is so MEANINGFUL#having someone to rely on even if you're not ready to tell them your deepest traumas#but still knowing that they'd be there for you when you need or want them#not being in your right mind but calling out for someone and they're THERE and they keep reassuring you of that fact#holy mother of god#i really like takeshi and hiroaki but especially takeshi he's my number 1#tetro danganronpa
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putting this game on the high shelf ‘til you folks unlearn fandom misogyny
#my art#mouthwashing#anya mouthwashing#i have.. a LOT of opinions regarding this game. namely opinions about how people here are engaging with it#generally though. amazing game. like it’s a really fucking good game. i love it#um uhh. yeah. i have no neon and i must evangelion or something.#still haven’t quite gotten the hang of drawinf anya (or any of the crew for that matter) but such is life#cw gore#cw eye trauma
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Mabel in s3 like ‘my old men best friends are distracted by trying to put on a broadway play in approximately two weeks. They clearly hate me and want to abandon me, I am all alone in this world my besties hate me I was never important to them and-’
Charles and Oliver: sweetheart we have been gone for Five Minutes
#It’s so funny to watch s3 sometimes cause like#Mabel they are putting on a whole ass broadway production do you know how hard that is#They are not abandoning you they’re just dealing with trauma AND trying to put on a musical#But poor Mabel is like :( my best friends don’t wanna hang out with me anymore :( I must make this podcast and solve murders on my own :(#She doesn’t even have fun with the mystery solving anymore without them#Mabel i love you but pls RELAX#Mabel mora#murder trio#only murders in the building#omitb#omitb s3#charles haden savage#oliver putnam
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Catharsis
This was imagined as a spin-off of @codenamesazanka ‘s beautiful AU, but I guess it could be read as some kind of continuation to my own “A gift”. After all, the theme is kinda the same. What? I’m really fascinated by those hands.
A brief summary of the AU: All Might manages to kill Afo on the first try, and Tomura and Kurogiri are captured. After the 15 yo boy spends months in Tartarus, finally Toshinori decides to take action and get the boy out to reform him himself, even though at the cost of gradual retirement. It’s a rough path. But wounds heal, with time and patience.










#I really needed tomura to have a cathartic moment when he can finally process the death of his family#Toshinori is still figuring out how to handle tomura#he’s awkward as hell though#but he’s trying his best#if you’re wondering why tomura’s so cooperative it’s because the months in tartarus were pretty traumatic#he knows he must use this chance#even tho he hates it#he’s not an idiot#changes in personality are a consequence of trauma and since forced isolation is traumatic and horrible#even though hori would want us to believe otherwise#15 yo tomura is going to be a little less feral#I can’t believe these two barely interacted in canon#shigaraki tomura#shimura tenko#fanart#tomura shigaraki#tenko shimura#all for one#yagi toshinori#mha toshinori#mha#bnha#toshinori yagi#all might#mini comic#my art#lov#league of villains#paranormal liberation front
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Lost princess of a shadow broken kingdom.
#kingdom hearts#kh#kh kairi#kingdom hearts kairi#kairi kingdom hearts#kairi kh#blue boi draws#was messing around with a lineless style#I love her so so much#gah Kairi my girl Kairi she needs therapy#Princess of a place which is not home. forever cursed to feel a little out of place.#it must have taken a long time to adjust to the islands. I like to think her family is very supportive.#even besides that she was a weird kid. a good kid! but a weird kid. I think that’s part of the reason she ended up with Sora & Riku#they were all just a little bit weird. in different and similar ways (neurodivergence).#she’s well liked but unignorably different. she struggles with the culture and expectations of the island in ways others didn’t.#the people around her understood why and were sympathetic (I hope) but that doesn’t stop it from making her feel out of place.#also the long turn ramifications of childhood trauma is always… fun. it’s gonna take her a loooooonnng time to figure that shit out#I love her
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(Warnings for this chapter are at the bottom of the page to keep from giving away spoilers.)
CHAPTER 9 - Dreams of the Haunted
Raphael watched as Lotus finally stilled in Leo’s arms, her stuttered breaths and sniffles slowly descending into silence. Her panicked words twisted and pulled at his mind, deepening his growing concern for her. Frustration began building in his heart as he watched someone so frail and scared fight a horrific, inner battle.
And all he could do was watch.
It brought him no comfort that he was the one that possibly sparked such awful memories in the frightened girl. How she looked at him… It was as if he was the ghost inhabiting all of her nightmares. As if it were him that caused her to flail out of bed in sporadic jolts, wearing beads of sweat on her trembling brow.
The familiar, sticky tentacles of guilt quickly slithered around his heart, constricting the limited air in his lungs, and filling his mind with useless reprimands.
You shoulda just left her to Leo.
It’s your fault she’s afraid all the time.
She’s scared of you.
Raph shook his head in an attempt to focus back to the matter at hand.
The “matter” that now laid limp in his oldest brother’s arms, softly sighing and nestling into his plastron. The fiery brother watched in silent adoration as Leo stroked the young girl’s shell, successfully calming her enough to make her fall back to sleep. Raph remembered seeing Leo do the same calming motion when they were kids, using it to settle a frightened youngest brother surrounded by darkness, or steady a stressed nerd with too much homework, or simmer down a heated temper with nowhere to go but out.
Raph had used it once or twice as well. The faint memory passed through his mind like a soft breeze as he remembered Leo’s shuttering body hidden fully in his shell after another nightmare. However awkward that night had begun, Raph still recalled it with a warm endearment, remembering all of his brothers combining forces to bring comfort to their newly titled “leader”. Yeah, it was cramped and full of mushy feelings and tears; Three things Raph himself normally hated more than Math homework, but it was all worth it to be there for Leo.
It was all worth it to bring comfort to their comforter.
As Lotus let out one final, heavy exhale, Leo skillfully weaved out of her embrace, laying her down gently onto the pillow and carefully draping the blanket over her. She didn’t stir the slightest, seemingly sinking deeper and deeper into the cushion of the mattress and the grounding weight of the blanket. Leo sighed as he looked down at her, his shoulders and body falling as if another weight had landed atop them. Tenderly, he reached out and wiped away the last of her tears speckling her cheeks.
And he wonders why he was the best pick for Team Medic. Stinkin’ show off.
As Leo pushed himself off the floor with a winced grunt, he patted the dirt and grime off his knees and legs. Raph’s eyes involuntarily widened at the dark patches of dirt littering his oldest brother’s body. Normally the brothers kept their room a bit more tidy than that, but…
…a lot had happened. And some things carried more priority than household chores.
“Raph, come on!” Leo shout-whispered, knocking the fiery brother’s train of thought clean off its tracks. “She’s asleep. Let’s go.”
Raph gave a slight nod and followed his brother into the hallway, the two siblings being as silent and swift as wind sweeping across snow.
They walked side by side in the hall, remaining quiet even after they were far past the brothers’ bedroom. Raph couldn’t help but subtly peer his eyes across to Leo, gauging what was going through the leader’s head. It wasn’t abnormal for the eldest to go silent, far from it in fact. Especially after something big happening, Leo would normally not speak as he contemplated the next best course of action. This had actually formed into a problem when they were younger, with Raph and Don’s impatience being stretched to their limits as they had to just wait for their leader to find a solution without a single conversation being had. That had sparked many unneeded forest fires of fury between the twins and their leader.
Raph couldn’t help but snicker to himself as he remembered how ticked off Don had gotten, spouting off facts and insults in tandem when he wasn’t kept in the know-how.
“Raph- What was that?” Leo asked suspiciously as he turned his gaze towards the fiery brother. “... Why… are you laughing??” He asked with a slight tint of incredulous confusion in his tone.
With Leo’s frosty irises now locked onto him, Raph found it a little hard to open his mouth and make words come out.
“Uh… I was…”
Just speak, it ain’t that hard!!
“...Um…”
Leo’s Mom Glare™ suddenly shot up to a “should I be worried??” expression.
JUST. FRIGGIN. TALK.
Raph forcefully rolled his shoulders to release some of the energy building in his body.
“Heheh I was… rememberin’ how ticked off Don got when you went quiet on our missions. You remember the crazy insults he called you?”
Leo’s interrogative gaze flickered and dissipated as he turned his face to the ceiling and sighed with a smile.
“Ahhh yes…” The eldest huffed as his grin grew in nostalgic amusement. “Dad caught him swearing so many times so he just decided to make up new insults…Ah man, which one had you and me cracking up that one time?”
“Ooof, dude. How could ya pick? There’s too many good ones HA!”
“... Was it “Lint Licker”? Or maybe “Shiitake Mushroom head”, HAHA!!!”

Hearing the past substituted insults ignited a warm, soothing flame to ignite in Raph’s heart, leaving him clutching his stomach with how hard he was now laughing alongside his brother.
“WAIT WAIT- HAHAHEEE- Do you remember the time he called you a “Mother Clucker”?! BROOO I couldn’t even breathe I was laughin’ so hard!!!”
“OH DANG- HAHA!!! I can’t believe I forgot that one!!!” Leo was now clutching at his side too, leaning his shell against the wall of the hallway for support as he cackled and sniffed away tears from his eyes. “Don was so mad his face was as red as your mask!!!”
Now Raph could barely breathe with how hard he was laughing.
“Heee… He just sat there- HAHA- With his arms crossed holdin’ his breath- HAHAHA!!! You were afraid he was gonna pass out!!”
“He almost did!!! You had to catch him!!!” Leo’s voice cracked and broke with the laughter erupting out of his throat. Without meaning to, some of his words shot to an extremely high pitch, only worsening Raph’s guffaws to the point where he collapsed to the floor, splayed out and pressing down onto his torso.
There the two brothers were, one propped against a wall, the other laying flat on the ground, laughing.
Despite all that they had been through.
Here they were.
Laughing.
As their chuckles petered out to sniffs and snickers, Leo pushed himself off the wall and walked up to Raph’s prone body. The eldest reached out his hand with a big, real smile gracing every inch of his face. Raph couldn’t help but return Leo’s kindness with his own grin, gratefully accepting his big brother’s hand and allowing himself to be helped off the floor.
“Come on…” Leo laughed again, gasping for air, “Let’s go check on the Clean Up Crew.”
Raph nodded with a knowing smile as the two continued down to the living room.
“MIKEY!!! DON!!” Raph called out with his hand cupping the side of his face. “WHERE YOU GUYS AT??”
After being answered with silence, Leo and Raph ventured into the kitchen. Walking past the doorway, the first thing Raph noticed was the “used” trash bin propped near the sink. The second thing he noticed, or rather was SMACKED ACROSS THE FACE WITH, was the pungent smell of lavender fumes filling up the entire room. Both his and Leo’s eyes immediately sprung up with more tears as they began to flap their arms to wave out some of the potent aroma. It didn’t do much, and unfortunately, living in the sewers, there were no windows to open and let out the powerful scent. So they just stood there for a bit, waving their arms, until finally both of them gave up in between hacks and coughs and simply retreated to the couch instead.
Comparatively, hacking and choking on fumes was apparently a much more effective way to beckon for their little brother instead of just casually calling to him.
“What the shell happened to you guys??” Mikey yelled as he ran through the lair’s entrance into the living room. He was out of breath and wearing far-too-big gloves on his hands.
“Us?? *COUGH COUGH*- What- a-about you?? WHY were you *HACK* up top?!” Leo sputtered indignantly as he turned his head to look at his thirteen year old brother that was apparently alone in the big, scary world that towered above them.
Raph chuckled as he watched Mikey roll his eyes and tsk at the eldest’s obvious concern.
“Leooo I’m fineeee. I literally just took out the trash, CHILL.” Mikey grumbled as he pulled off the oversized gloves from his fingers.
“I will NOT CHILL.” Leo retorted right back, now wearing his patented Mom Glare™ and speaking as if he were Mikey’s parent rather than his oldest sibling, “You, young mutant, are thirteen. You aren’t allowed up top by yourself, you know that.”
“Yeah~ I’m fully aware, Mom-o-nardo. But Don was busy trying to hold in his lunch, so I took care of it.” Mikey sluggishly declared, his words dripping with nonchalance. “You’re welcome~.” He flicked his hands with the dramatic flair of a magician, tossing the gloves onto a nearby side table, effectively making them ‘disappear’ from his person.
Raph let out a silent “Ooooh~” as he turned to see how Leo would react. And as always, the eldest did not disappoint.
“Do I need to tell Master Splinter of your little solo errand?” Leo asked in a tone that was as cold and sharp as an icicle’s tip.
The youngest’s face fell immediately as Leo played his highest card:
“I’M GONNA TELL DAD.”
Classic oldest sib move, Raph thought to himself. Game set match.
With an offended pout only a youngest sibling could pull off, Mikey growled and stomped his way into the kitchen.
He quickly regretted his decision.
Raph and Leo couldn’t help the satisfied grins crawling up their faces as they heard Mikey begin to cough violently, clapping his hands over his snout and hightailing it back into the living room. He unceremoniously crumpled to the floor in a hacking heap.
Raph leaned further into the couch cushions and rested his head over his crossed arms, while he watched his little brother writhe dramatically on the floor. With a quick glance, he saw that Leo was subtly checking if Mikey was actually okay or if he was just being dramatic. He obviously came to the same conclusion Raph did as the two oldest siblings sat back and watched, the smiles on their faces never leaving for a second.
“Yeah… seems Don did one shell of a job “decontaminating” the trash bin, huh lil bro?”
Mikey’s head lifted from the ground long enough for him to spit out, “I BET ASTRONAUTS COULD SMELL THAT.”
Leo shook his head as he rolled his eyes, allowing a faint smile to grow on his face. Raph couldn’t help but ask himself how long it had been since so much laughter and smiles had graced the rooms of his home.
In order to keep the bright composure he was carrying on his face, he pushed aside that thought and just sat as he watched his brothers just be kids again.
. . .
Images flashed past Raphael’s eyes as his body was forcefully shoved through a long, grey hallway. Echoes of horrified and pained screams blared into his skull. Shadows peeled from the walls and engulfed him, slithering their arms into tight bands around his biceps and ankles. Despite the fear penetrating every cell of his body, his mind remained completely hollow, as if he didn’t carry enough strength to create a simple thought.
The only voice that could be heard in his mind wasn’t his own.
It promised safety and warmth; an easy way out of this trap. Its gravely whispers poked and scratched inside his head, trying to tangle and pull apart any chords of willpower he had left. He could sense the bristling flame of his determination and spirit continue to flicker into nothing. With each seductive, hushed word, a vital part of his identity was extinguished, replaced with an empty husk of compliance.
He wanted to scream, to run, to fight. He longed to beat the shell out of the siren that continued to whisper and enchant his body to bend to its will.
His mouth stayed shut.
His legs remained still.
His hands hung limp at his sides, bristling the tipped edges of his sais.
Now watching as if a spectator in his own body, Raph’s legs began to move. They pressed forward with an unnatural uniformity, pulling him closer to a pair of doors leading into a frighteningly familiar room. Raph watched as a pair of crimson-tipped fingers unlocked the door, beckoning him to continue on his way inside. No matter how much Raph’s spirit bit and snarled and yanked, his body complied with the voice’s wishes.
His form climbed into a cushioned chair surrounded by heavy machinery littering every surface. The haunting shine of scalpels and saws glistened on trays set up near his head. His wrists and ankles were slid into metal cuffs as his body unnaturally relaxed into the reclining chair. Lights began flashing as the machinery around him began to glow in a sickly neon green.
“LET ME GO!!!”
Raph’s spirit froze at the sound of the new voice screeching at the doorway. It was a voice he could never forget; A voice of someone who drove him crazy, and pushed him to always do his best in everything he ever did. A scratchy tone that would sometimes pop into a high-pitched crack, leaving him dying laughing on the floor and dodging random office supplies being hurled at him.
His best friend.
“I SAID LET ME GO!!! WHERE’S MY BROTHER?” Don snarled as he was dragged into the room by two hulking jerks, twisting and yanking at the freckled mutant’s chains. He winced as they threw him into the similar chair positioned beside Raph.
NO!! PLEASE NO!!!
Raph’s pleads and screams never left his body’s lips. He could only watch as his twin was forced down into the chair, the two men not being gentle in the slightest as they tugged Don’s limbs through the cuffs with a loud *CLANG*.
“RAPH!!” Don yelled to the hollow husk of his twin in both concern and relief at the same time,”RAPH WAKE UP!! WE NEED TO GET OUT OF HERE!!!”
The fiery brother couldn’t look away as Don’s face fell when his twin didn’t even acknowledge his existence, nevermind his words.
“...R-Raph?... What did they do to you?!- WHAT DID YOU DO TO HIM!!!” Don ignited in a furious explosion of raw, protective instincts as masked doctors began filling the room.
Even with Don’s kicking and screaming, clawing and biting, and choice vocabulary that would send his father into a coma, the doctors still swiftly worked around him, preparing the machine that menacingly hovered above the two twins. Nurses began attaching small, metal nodes onto the sides of the brothers’ temples; Don’s on the left, and Raph’s on the right. The freckled brother didn’t stop squirming and fighting for one second, using all his energy to somehow escape his binds. But Raph remained still, his mind fully possessed by the siren that dwelled inside.
With a small *click* the machine began to operate. Raph watched as his twin began to scream, not in protest, but in pain. His body twisted and jolted as if he were being impaled by a lightning bolt.
NO!
Raphael’s spirit began to burn.
NO…
His anger blazed in an uncontrollable pyre.
I… WILL NOT…
His body’s hand twitched.
..LET…
His placid face began to sneer and snarl.
YOU…
His eyes burst open.
HURT HIM!!!!!
His spirit lunged through its prison, disintegrating the coils of control the siren once possessed. The chords of his identity and soul found their purchase in the core of his mind, planting themselves deeply, and never allowing such intrusion again. With the fury of a lion and the love of a protector he screamed,
“GET AWAY FROM HIM!”
Electricity sparked and stuttered through him in an instant, coursing through every muscle and fiber. It pulled his limbs taut, causing a deep ache to ignite in his bones. His skull rang with loud static, and his body twitched uncontrollably.
His body.
He fought against his binds, shattering the metal into pieces.
The lights on the machine flashed and popped, spraying the surrounding doctors with shards of glass. The panels of the contraption began to shake, as the device rapidly began to overload.
The room was swallowed by the following explosion, bathed in an iridescent, blinding white.

Raphael and Donatello gasped simultaneously as they shot up, flinging their blankets off their chests.
Sweat beads trickled down Raph’s face as he shuddered and snatched onto his blanket. His fingers pressed deeply into the fibers, cushioning his nails instead of allowing them to penetrate skin. The thick, warm feel of the fabric pulled him back from fantasy, and planted him firmly in reality.
I’m home…
I’m safe…
I’m okay…
He chanted these words over and over in his mind until a cool, slurring voice broke his concentration.
“Raph?... You a’right, man?” Leo groggily whispered from his place on the spare mattress in the middle of the room. In the darkness the eldest’s frosty irises glowed as they locked onto Raph.
Before the fiery brother could turn away from his sibling’s concerned gaze, Leo was already pulling away his sheets and blanket, tidily folding them over the edge of his bed, before silently crossing the room to Raph’s bedside.
CRUD CRUD CRUD-
NO- SHOO- GO AWAY- NOT NOW-
Raph immediately turned over, flopping to face the wall of his nook away from Leo.
“-I-I’m fine, Leo. Go back ta bed.” He subtly hissed through his fangs, hoping and praying that he was not about to get a big ol’ talk about feelings from the oldest.
“Yeahhh, I’m not gonna buy that.” Leo yawned as he sat down on the floor beside Raph’s mattress. “A fighter you are. An actor you’re not. Now what’s going on?”
“I said I’m fine.” Raph curtly mumbled into his blanket.
“Still don’t believe you, try again.” Leo sighed as he rubbed at his eyes.
“I SAID I’M FINE.” Raph finally snapped a little too loudly, twisting his body to face his oldest brother.
Leo winced at the volume of his brother’s expected outburst, then simply shook his head with an unimpressed frown. But before he could say another word, his expression changed as he noticed something about his fiery brother’s face. His mouth parted minisculely as he reached out his hand.
Raph’s temper and pride demanded he swat it away, but his curiosity and love for his brother won out against his stubbornness. He remained still as Leo’s hand softly landed on the side of Raphael’s face, rubbing something wet off it.
Oh crap I’m crying.
DANG IT NOW HE’S NEVER GONNA LEAVE…
The concern over Leo’s face softened slightly, as he asked again, in a firmer “I am the oldest but I’m also your leader” tone,
“What’s going on?”
Once again, Raph was completely trapped. Not by a psycho scientist, or by some evil, government organization, but by his perfectionistic, calm, and deeply concerned oldest brother.
There was no way he was going to get out of this one…
And that's it for this chapter! :) You all have been begging to see more of what happened to Don and Raph at the labs, so I present to you a nightmare~. This chapter was certainly tricky to figure out at first- with so many different scenes compiled together, it was hard to keep a steady flow for my reader, but I'm really happy with how it turned out! :) AAAAnd yes, I did say that I would only draw one panel for each chapter, but I COULDN'T HELP ITTTTTT!!!
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(CW- Nightmares, past medical trauma, being held down, and mind control!!)
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#tmnt#the strength in weakness#SIW Leo#SIW Don#SIW Raph#SIW Mikey#SIW Lotus#I finally got some FLUFF IN#Leo and Raph needed to just laugh it out#I have had so many times with my own sibs when we made each other snort and fall to the floor with how seemingly hilarious a joke was#So you absolutely MUST understand why I had to place such a scene ;)#Mikey is a drama queen in this story#But his bros still love him#They just gotta gauge if the youngest is actually dying or if he's being dramatic#cw nightmares#cw being held down#cw imprisonment#cw capture#cw mind control#cw past medical trauma
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Sometimes I see people theorize why Hong Lu's ids seem to split into 2 in terms of personality and some of them are really cool theories but I'm pretty sure the actual answer is just his response to his trauma. For ids like dieci and liu (and I'm pretty confident r corp is in this group too, contrary to what some people may think) he represses his emotions to deal with his trauma. Meanwhile for ids like tingtang, fanghunt and kurokumo, he acts violent so he feels like he's in control of what happened to him or something along those lines
#honestly kind of sick of the narrative that hong lu must have someone else in his body for him to act differently#yes hong lu is an inherently kind person and some of his ids like tingtang have him acting ooc#but trauma changes people#the only problem with my take is how the id timelines add up since changes between mirror worlds occur between 2 to 3 years#but if you put someone like hong lu where he's actively encouraged to be violent then it's not out of the question that he'll end up violen#of course it could end up being a case of two people being in one body kind of situation but for hong lu in particular i feel like that's j#here you have the opportunity to further explore mental health in a series that's focused so heavily on it already#but instead of doing that you go “its actually this other person in this character's body that is being evil”#like it would be one thing if this was because hong lu has did (which is a very cool concept that should be explored theory or not) but nop#gotta wait for his seasonal id to drop to say anything for sure though#sorry for the rant in tags but i've been holding onto this for far too long#as apology i have a fullstop hong lu oneshot coming up#also did anyone else realize that his fullstop id is the one version where he's the most well adjusted or is that me#limbus#lcb hong lu#hong lu#yappervi
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THE MUSKETEERS 10TH ANNIVERSARY REWATCH / fave episodes [5/?] ↳ SEASON 2, EPISODE 5 / the return
#themusketeersedit#the musketeers#perioddrama#perioddramasource#the musketeers bbc#athos#aramis#d'artagnan#porthos#tmrewatch*#edits#at this point you must have noticed all my faves eps involve#angst + hurt/comfort + the gang being supportive of each other#and that's why they basically all align with every canon divergence fic i've ever read#anyway love athos being an absolute menace#the ugly side of his trauma humanizes him so much more to my eyes honestly#especially next to d'artagnan youthful idealism#and you know i can't resist aramis being worried about his friends hip popping out and everything
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it’s nowhere near the worst interpretation and i do understand how it could be assumed or even be compelling if you’re very interested in the lords in black but one of my biggest pet peeves is the interpretation that the lords in black are manipulating grace and deliberately driving her to where she ends up the entire play. such a big part of what makes grace work is her role as the driving force in the play, an active agent who’s actions directly lead to all the calamity and tragedy that occurs later through sheer religious guilt, desperation and neuroticism. taking even some of that autonomy away from her makes her significantly less compelling.
#she is so funny and tragic and i love her so much but i also hate her#she’s all ive been able to think about for the last week#grace chasity#npmd#nerdy prudes must die#starkid#in a similar vein i really dislike the concept that grace would have done what she does at the end at any point in the play bc she’s Evil#undeniably she is unstable and violent at times but like if you read the lyrics#‘if i break the rules i will finally know my worth’ and ‘darkness will spare my soul’ make it clear this is coming as a result of trauma#she feels trapped by her religion and is so desperate to break out of it but she also thinks that makes her evil and dirty#she hates herself and part of her hates god and she has to externalise that hate to shield herself. To redeem herself#after losing her virginity. It all makes me so sad. oh grace :(#also interesting is that some of it does come from a built up resentment from social isolation and bullying as a “nerdy prude”#and while Yeah a lot of that isolation is her own fault there is no way to express how insane having no friends in high school makes u#she wants to be normal and have friends and sex and swear and let go for once in her life. But she won’t let herself have it
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tiktok hunger games fans are like the fucking worst. half of them are so desperate to let people know that there's a Message to the book and that they understood the Morals and Themes and Messages of the book that cant look past book canon or have some fun and the other half is making ocs and slapping katniss and peeta's name on them while making the most outlandish conspiracy theories. you cant fucking do anything on there
#this is brought to you by the 50 bajillion ppl in every hayffie edit going 'b-b-but what about lenore dove!!! he would never love another!!'#literally who gives a fuck!!!! porque no los dos!!!!#WHY NOT BOTH!!! why does it have to be only one????#also the mockingjay came out in 2010. it's been 2 and half decades of ppl making hayffie hcs#the movie came out in 2015. it's been a fucking decade of ppl making hayffie hc#do you really think a 2-week old book is going to change that????#and also why would it!!!! why can he not love lenore dove and effie trinket????#and the 'geese mate for life' shit??? that is not true!!!#they're monogamous for the duration of their partners life after which they find a new partner!!!!#also some1 made a ranking of effie's outfits and one of the top comments was 'i fear you missed the point of the books'#can we not have any fun in this fandom???? must we continuously talk about how horrifying the children dying are????#like can we not make silly little posts about haymitch accidentally tripping off his front porch????#or must we preface it with a 6k word essay about haymitch's trauma and his fears and why he is the way he is??????#im sorry. maybe it's bc i just stick to my corner of the internet but have we truly lost sight of shipping culture???#[old man voice] back in my day we shipped characters that had never even met!!! uphill and downhill!!! through a river and through snow!!#also sotr killed me. hayffie have known each other for 25 years.....#twenty five..... the big 2-5..... 2 and a half decades.......they've been watching children die together for twenty five years......#rocking myself back and forth....#the hunger games#thg series#sunrise on the reaping#thg
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Do you ever think about the fact that the ONE time Sanji let himself be comfortable and enjoy dresses and makeup with cigarettes, Ace died and Luffy almost died all alone and so far away. Will Sanji ever forgive himself for daring to relax and explore himself a bit while catastrophic things were happening? (Jk he'll never do so again, just in case)
#will he ever stop feeling like its his fault#it obviously wasn't but the feeling of guilt#and the feeling that the one time he explored himself it led to this#and the association#and he can never let himself be so weak again (thank you Judge for this nonsense)#add in the fact that Ace might've been his awakening#and they did get along quite well and he had a crush on Ace#it would be DEVASTATING#losing Ace#not even mentioning what Luffy must have gone through#the guilt of not being there with his captain of being split away from Saboady even#i love transfem sanji#but crossdressing sanji too my beloved#mayhaps the egg was beginning to crack but trauma closed it shut#and he spent two years not dealing with it well apart from gettung stronger and finding ways to help his crew get stronger#sanji#one piece#one piece headcanons#black leg sanji#blackleg sanji#portgas d ace#acesan#just a bit
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