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writer-freak · 1 day ago

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hii! im having suchh kpop demon hunters brainrot rn omg, could you do sfw & nsfw headcanons for baby saja please? he's my saja boys bias lol, ty!!

A/N: Baby's also my bias, and I actually wanted to write these first but I kept going back and forth on how I see him😭. So if these seem a bit messy or all over the place, that's the reason (maybe I will rewrite them in the future). Thank you though and hope you enjoy

Casually flirty in the most annoying way. Like leaning against a doorframe while you're ranting and going, “You look so hot when you're mad at me.” He says it just to fluster you and walk off before you can react.

In general he will purposefully say the most inappropriate things at the worst possible times ,whispers“Wearing that again, huh? You trying to get punished?” right as you're about to leave the house.

Calls you a very inappropriate nickname even in public one day he just called you "my lil earthquake.” You asked him what that even meant and he just smirked and went, “Cause you shake when I—” Hand over his mouth. Immediately.

Back hugs but like he’ll wrap his arms around you real sweet, then suddenly whisper the filthiest shit in your ear just to make you choke on your coffee.

His hand is either in your back pocket or riding way too high on your thigh. Doesn’t care who might see, he likes the attention. "They should know who you belong to."

His favorite thing in the world? Annoying you for fun. He hides your stuff just to watch you lose your mind over it. “You sure you checked everywhere?” he says, absolutely knowing your phone is in his pocket.

Bored easily. If he's stuck somewhere, he’ll start texting you the wildest out-of-pocket things just to pass the time. “Do you think I’d look hot in a maid costume or should I make you wear it?”

Sometimes just pokes your cheek in public until you react, or slides his cold hands under your shirt just to hear you squeal.

Doesn't help right away when you struggle with something (like reaching a high shelf or carrying a box) because he likes watching you struggle. “Oh I know you got it” he teases from the doorway. Only helps after you call him a jerk (and even then he's grinning while doing it).

He acts innocent in front of others a bit more polite, wearing a smile, quiet. But the second you're alone, his expression changes just enough for you to realize: You're in danger. The fun kind.

Cocky. So cocky. Constantly smug about how much you love him. “You’re obsessed with me, y’know that?” If you deny it, he’ll raise a brow. “Mhm. Keep lying. See what happens later.”

Lowkey possessive. If you’re giving someone else too much attention? He’ll silently pull you onto his lap and whisper, “You’re being real loud for someone who wants to walk tomorrow.” All while sipping his drink like nothing happened.

Instead of “I love you,” he says “You’d be lost without me.” But if you say it first? He’ll blink slow and go, “Yeah. I love you too” Like it was obvious.

Surprisingly affectionate. He’ll play with your hair when you’re sitting together, doodle your name on the sides of his lyric pages, send you blurry animal memes captioned “us.”

He won’t say much, but he knows when your mood drops. Doesn’t make a big deal of it, just puts on your comfort show and hands you your favorite drink without a word.

Secretly protective. He’ll tease you mercilessly, but the moment someone else even thinks about doing the same, he switches up completely. “That’s cute, but they didn’t ask for your opinion.” Cold eyes. Tight jaw. Suddenly very serious.

He can change his tone so fast. Can go from deadpan and chill to teasing in 0.2 seconds. “You really thought you were gonna win that argument?”

NSFW

Talks. So. Much. Shit. Half of it makes you want to slap him, the other half has your legs shaking. “You get like this just from my fingers? You sure you’re ready for my cock?”

Whispers the filthiest things while he’s holding you like you’re fragile. Face buried in his chest, blanket pulled up to your chin, and he’s like, “You looked so pretty choking on my cock earlier. Gonna dream about it tonight.”

Power trips like crazy when you’re a mess for him. Will literally say things like, “Look at you can’t even think straight. I did that. That’s all me.”

WANTS you to squirm. The more flustered and needy you get, the calmer and cockier he becomes. “Aww, look at you. You can’t even talk. What happened to all that attitude, hm?”

His tone of voice drops so low when he's serious. No more playful teasing, just a sharp, commanding, almost cruel tone that makes your knees go weak. “You think I’m gonna be gentle with you after the way you acted today?”

Big on control. Likes manhandling you, pinning your wrists above your head with one hand while the other is between your legs

Doesn’t let you win unless he wants you to. If you try to tease him, he’ll raise a brow like, “Cute.” And then absolutely rail you until your legs give out.

Definitely a neck-grabber. Not hard enough to hurt, just enough to make you squirm. Especially when you talk back. “Watch your mouth. Or I’ll find better ways to keep it busy.”

Obsessed with your thighs. Bites them. Slaps them. Sleeps with his head between them like they’re his personal comfort zone. “Best pillow I’ve ever had.”

Favorite thing? When you ride him. Claims he’s letting you take control but ends up grabbing your hips and slamming you down harder, just to watch your reaction

Calls you things like “pretty thing” and “baby” in the most degrading way possible.

Possessive in the hottest way. Leaves bite marks just below where clothes cover. Grips your jaw and makes you look at him when you’re close. “Eyes on me, babe.”

Loves to drag things out. Kisses up your thighs and just stops before touching where you need him. Smirks while you beg. “Patience, sweetheart. You’ll thank me later.”

Loves hearing you beg. The more whiny and desperate, the better. He’ll edge you for hours just to hear you plead. “Say please real sweet for me and maybe I’ll let you cum.”

Gets off on making you cry from pleasure. Not sad tears the broken, shaking, can’t-take-it-anymore kind. He’ll wipe them with his thumb and chuckle. “Tears already? We just started.”

He’ll intentionally overstimulate himself just to keep up with you. Like if you're still needy after he finishes, he'll mutter, “So fuckin' greedy,” and keep going anyway, groaning while you squirm. He lives for it.

He’s mean in the moment, but afterward? You’re immediately getting cuddled, praised, fed snacks, and hes putting you into one of his shirts. “You did so good for me. C’mere, lemme hold you.”

But if you ever use your safeword? His demeanor changes instantly. “Okay, okay. You good? Talk to me, baby.” Holds your hand, kisses your forehead. Doing anything that you ask of him

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mona-risms · 3 days ago

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Huntrix girls x big tittied reader like they cannot control themselvew they swear it looked at them first and reader kind of just doesn't say anything about it but teases them by wearing low cut shirts n push up bras n stuff

They're REALLY really trying not to stare, they swear!! But it's always Looking at them and like it'd be So Impolite not to stare right??? Especially when you're out here making it worse by wearing things that ABSOLUTELY provoke their attention. See realistically it's Your fault for wearing clothes that accentuate your tits bc honestly!! You know how much they adore every inch of you, INCLUDING your boobs

Zoey would be the most shameless about it 😭. She'd want to know your actual bra size which honestly helps bc she'll be getting you bras that not only fit you properly bc she wants you to be as comfy as possible, but also accentuate your tits and your cleavage.....stylistically Obviously! She's wanna get close to them you and honestly just lay over them like a pillow to sleep on

Mira would tease you a bit, asking if you need those help up; those being your tits obviously. Bc she's like really tall she might also stare down a lot at your cleavage asw before trying to tear it away. Like oh no she's just looking at your eyes (yeah right) what are you talking about???? She also gives you fashion recs like Zoey except not just bras but like clothes in general—she's quite fond of recommending you push-up corsets....I wonder why...........

Rumi. Lmfao. Oh my god. This woman will CLING. Especially when her half-demon thing gets revealed OHHHH she is using everything she can. I've hced Rumi as a biter before, and this is ESPECIALLY the case ahahahahaha the way she'd wanna just. See how soft your tits are when she bites down and marks them up. She might even switch up her hands w her claws (making sure the actual pointy bits are sheathed obvs) just to get a larger, firmer grip on your boobs

Either way NONE of them are ever gonna go "nooooo I'm NOT interested in it" 😨😨😨😨. I mean they'll try their hardest not to stare in public duh but like that's very hard task!!! AND YOU'RE MAKING IT HARDER FOR THEM STOP MAKING IT HARDER THEY HAVE AN IMAGE TO UPHOLD (they're actually not complaining but they can't even launch themselves at you in public which is honestly really sad)

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rotagnus · 1 day ago

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pick a pile; general...extended. [messages and more!!]

this doesn't have a specific theme other than i'll try to channel things u need to here, as well as whatever the cards say. it's quite possible that the piles will all focus on different themes, so choose wisely!!! credits to @selysie for the dividers.

pile 1; teacup. pile 2; pink rose. pile 3; glasses girl.

pile 1.

i feel like this pile is full of loners. many of you are very talkative and can be the friendliest people ever...but by yourself? you dwell in your insecurities, although sometimes the darker aspects of life give you peace. i think that the universe wants you to turn your solitude into something sweeter. you use it as a defense mechanism because that makes it something controlled. it's not sadness that comes randomly; if you're in it all the time, and you choose that, it's predictable. in your opinion it won't fracture your life more. the problem is that you guys can change your life so easily, and guess what? other bad things will happen anyway. you guys will only actually get out of solitude if you choose to save yourself. i know that many of you do actually crave deep relationships, you crave the stability provided by one. you want to have things, to have people, and for them to be just yours, or at least mainly yours. this is a pattern that will take you guys a while to learn. for some, weeks. for some, months. years. but you all have it in you to pass this by. this solitude that you never get out of is what makes your insecurities appear worse. you cannot keep breaking yourself just because you want to avoid others breaking you, honey. you guys may have grown up alone and seen everyone fly by you, while you stayed stuck on people, places, long-after they were gone. but your avoidance of true love, true people, is what makes you ache deep inside. you guys are some of the most hopeful people i know, despite what you put yourselves through. and listen, you have a darn good sense of what life can be like if you let go of that vision that you stick so deeply into yourself as a dagger. this genuineness that you crave is out there, sweetheart. it's out there and it's coming. some of you deal with imposter syndrome and you truly have a detachment from your own life and accomplishments, and you always give credit to other people but never yourself. you find countless ways to ebb away this emptiness, but the truth is that you can heal, bit by bit. give yourself the same sweetness and love you want from other people. give it. many will read this then completely forget what i said, but right now, i want you to wrap your arms around yourself and tell yourself that you will make it out, and that you love yourself. yeah it sounds corny, but you have to do these steps in order to genuinely move forward. you want this thin line of such raw moments in your life, and honey, those aren't always beautiful. people come from pain, people come from breakage and those people are always the ones that either carve lives full of softness and lullabies or the most bitter lines that end in doom. you are powerful, and you have so much love to give. first, give it to yourself. ask your guides for it. sit with your feelings instead of creating a controlled environment in order to mask this feeling of pain.

pile 2.

ooouu so offers are coming in. let me read more into this. recently a lot of you have finished something. many have finished stories with people and are now in this little in-between space, which is boring and honestly for those of you with good intuition scary, because you know that the next phase is gonna be SOMETHING. many of you have your eyes set on greatness; you will not settle for less. and perhaps, sometime not too long ago, it felt like you had it all. like those sequences in movies where a person is so deeply in love, and then it all breaks away. you guys do see the beauty in things that are not so conventionally seen as that. you are very honest with your words, too. you create a stable world for other people, and you're always working hard (partially to not think about things when there's nothing to do ahahaa...not so funny). anyways, let's see what u got ahead of ya, sweetheart. okay so the world popped out, and i interpret this is many new opportunities, not something that's necessarily set in stone. this will be a time in which you try to kill anything that reminds you of your past; you'll look at it and see all of the ridges and scars that were caused by painful experiences, and many of you will attempt to wash this away by changing up your surroundings or your physical appearance. people may tell you that you've changed. another important thing for you to know is that in this period of your life you cannot let others decide what is going to be in your own story. this is something that is up to YOU and the universe, however if you nod and let others decide what happens, the universe is gonna give you exactly that until you realize that others may not always want the best for you. many of you are innocent and hold a certain naivete that makes you let others in again and again after they disrespected you, after one moment of peace, even though the rest of your relationship was a storm. many of you struggle with boundaries, but really, the universe uses your boundaries as paths of elimination for things that are below you. the moment you realize that you deserve better is the moment that better things are available to you. you cannot keep falling into old patterns. many of you are the type of person to be like 'ohh i crave a situationship' and you believe that's all you're good for but in reality you want a deep relationship focused on honesty, vulnerability, and genuine love. stop saying things you don't mean and believing that you're only good enough for shit. we all know that's not true!! deep down, you have this sense of greatness. you know that you're destined for peace and love, so stop exposing yourself to areas of pain because you think that you deserve it, or because you feel bad for a person. you guys are genuine, loving people, but people can take advantage of that in this world. never doubt ur beauty and your spark. much love, pile 2.

pile 3.

okay okay so great era is coming in for you! similar to pile 2 so you may wanna go check that out. you guys are my firecrackers. i can tell that people love you already. i think that your ability to just be so vulnerable with people makes them reallyyy fall in love with you (platonically and romantically). you're unique and everyone can see that. don't dull your spark. OKAY SO LETS SEE WHAT ELSEE. yahh so you're giving. you got full cups and you're always pouring into other people and hobbies...many people do take advantage of that. while some of the messages in other piles called for them to connect w others, with this pile it's more important for you to focus on yourself. of course you'll meet people in this era of your life, but i think that while that's going, you're going to get a more bountiful harvest by taking care of yourself. i am so sorry to say this but a lot of you need to realize you are the SHYTTT. you are so unbelievably cool and awesome and whatever standards you're trying to reach may be impossible because you're literally already awesome. yeah, you may stick out like a sore thumb. you may be expressive and bubbly and some will see you as 'annoying'. but...you're literally you for a reason. you carry this beauty with you that people reminisce on for YEARS, sweetheart. YEARS. you're missed everywhere you leave, and you're like a good song. many of you struggle in this world; maybe neurodivergent or just felt like you're different, your whole life. you didn't come here to have it easy. you came to have it REAL. to experience ups and downs! you really do view life as a privilege and you will be rewarded for that and your persistence IMMENSELY. you don't back down, you don't give up! but you really do need to view yourself as ALL THAT because that's what you are. and i'm sorry if some shitheads ruined that for you, but you ARE SOOO amazing, and there will be all that love for you out there. this is a journey that doesn't end here, pile 3. don't give up. you haven't felt everything you will yet, and you've met SOO little people in the grand scheme of things. strangers, lovers, children, whatever that's out there...most of it hasn't come to you. it's okay to mourn what has left you or is leaving you. but keep your chin up. the best is ahead, and i'm not saying this because it'll get me more clicks on this platform. you may be sad now but that ain't for long. you guys are going to get everything you ever wanted as long as you realize that the center of your life should be YOU, not a hobby, not another person, not other people. this is your life and it's important that you see it that way, that you live vicariously through YOURSELF and not others. it's okay to feel so deeply. it's okay to cry easily and love easily and spend time thinking and missing things and people. it's a sign that your heart and soul are big. that's a good thing. don't give up on yourself.

#love reading #pac reading #tarotblr #pick a picture #divine guidance #intuitive reading #pick a pile #tarot reading #pick a card #rotagnus

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patheticpoems · 3 days ago

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STOP STRESSING

you're getting wrinkles

some of you are stress addicts. you'll spend more time stressing about manifestation than you do actually committing to your desires. Aren't you sick of it? You've been nonstop overthinking, you're having doubts and even though you try to correct them they just won't won't away?

Well, I'm gonna tell you how to shut out all that stress; How to make it go away.

IDENTIFYING STRESS

Let's start here. Yes, you may already know what stress is but I didn't ask, I'm covering it regardless! Stress is that feeling you may get when your circumstances are clamping in on you, whether it be due to difficult treatment, responsibilities, time crunches, or perceiving the opposite occurring to you, it can cause you to start worrying, "am I doing this right?", "why isn't it working?" You wonder and you anxiously correct it because ack! God forbid you have a bad thought! You can't waver even though you only assume it's a thing because some blogger was sharing their own personal opinion!!!

I listed some causes for stress and maybe yours are different, however, what is important for us to do now is to identify where it stems from.

TREATING YOUR STRESS

METHOD I.

Knowing the cause of our stress means we can deal with the solution head-on. So, let us begin. Whenever you start stressing, I want you to STAR! Stop, Think, Act, Reaffirm! You will pause, ask yourself why do you think/feel the way you do? From one question ask another, keep digging deeper.

"I feel nervous > why? > because I don't know if things will work out > why wouldn't they? > because what if it just doesn't work for me specifically?"

And then, act accordingly! "

"> why wouldn't it work for me specifically if its a law? > maybe I'm exempt- > its a universal law, I can't be. I'm just stressing because I'm scared, there isn't any logic to it!"

Reaffirm that what you think doesn't hold power over you and doesn't hold any water. Remind yourself who you are.

"I'm the sole operant power and there is no such thing as not working because I already have it!"

Once you start getting used to treating your stress that way it helps you see the doubts you have as less serious.

METHOD II.

Now, another way to deal with stress is always remembering to think in despite (of). When you're having trouble with hard circumstances that you just can't ignore and are too overwhelming, this is a way to not let them get you down - a way to remind yourself you aren't tied to these circumstances and this life.

"Despite what I see in my circumstances, I'm still all powerful!"

"Despite how I overthink, everything stems from self!"

It helps to remind yourself that regardless of what you see it doesn't change that you're in power. Remember, everything is a reflection of you, it stems from you, there is no separation.

I'd like to say, it is also good to take a look at ways to cope with anxiety/stress, whether that be a specific activity that calms you down, music, or breathing exercises. It is always important to regulate your own emotions for YOUR well-being. Life is about fulfilling the egos desires and we need to be alright enough to do that!

Stress can be a difficult thing to handle that's why we need to remind ourselves that we have nothing to stress over, that by the end of the day it is our perception. I know that may not be appealing to some people or very difficult to do, but that's why you have to start somewhere to get comfortable with it.

#poems asks 🐈‍⬛️#loassblog #manifesting #manifesation #loa tumblr #loa blog #loassumption #law of assumption #loablr #loass

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friend-crow · 1 day ago

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Inspired by the advanced magic post - how/what do you define as 'advanced'? do you use it as a term in your practise at all?

We've seen so many different definitions - topics, ages/length of practise, etc, and it often seems like its closer to regurgitated fearmongering and elitism than actual considered thought, so we figured we'd ask someone that we know does more of the latter than the former XD.

I really don't have a specific definition. I think it's not that difficult to become advanced at specific types of magic if you work at them, but there's always other things that you won't really be advanced at.

Like if every spell you do is a candle spell, and you do a lot of candle spells, then you can pretty quickly become fairly advanced at doing candle magic. But if you then start telling people you're an advanced witch and present as a teacher or authority figure on the subject, that perception of you is gonna fall apart pretty quickly when people start asking you about subjects other than candle magic. Then again, if you can achieve everything you need to via candle spells, then on a personal level, that's perfectly fine.

And then some people have a great deal of knowledge about a lot of different types of magic, but very little working experience with most of it. There can be a huge gap between theory and experience, so I don't really consider having a lot of theoretical knowledge to be the same as being advanced at doing magic.

I don't feel that time is a good measure of advancedness, either. Some people will dabble a bit when they're 12, and a bit when they're 26, and then when they start dabbling again at age 40 they can say "I've been doing witchcraft for almost 30 years!" Time is gonna elapse whether you're actively working at a skill or not, but you have to actually be doing the thing to become experienced at it.

Honestly I'm not sure what the point of the "advanced" label even is. A lot of us are very experienced and knowledgeable in some areas and know fuck-all about others, and that's fine.

I figure if somebody is working as an artist, they'll just tell you they're an artist, and not an advanced artist. In fact, when I was studying art, most of the classes were set up so that there was a class for beginners in whatever subject (drawing, sculpture, painting, etc.), and after you'd taken the beginners' course, the classes were more about the specific media/application they focused on (sculpture classes on mold making, bronze casting, welding, soft metals, installation, etc.). You could repeat these classes for additional credit, but you didn't move on to an "advanced" version of the class -- you just gained more experience by practicing the technical skills and making different pieces.

So yeah, I don't think there's any particular curriculum or milestone that makes you advanced. I do understand that people want to be able to pinpoint a moment at which they've made it, but really I think it's more important to figure out what works for you, and then run with it. And if that means you end up being the world's foremost expert on candle magic but have never astral traveled in your life, I don't think there's anything wrong with that.

#ask #wishiwasfiction #apparently I had a lot to say about that

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friedcheesemogu · 1 day ago

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I was summoned, and so I appear.

It's no secret that I'm an absolutely shameless whore for William Brandt. Much of the time when I look at the "William Brandt" tag most of the recent posts I see are mine, and I get it. He's been gone three movies now, and a lot of people on tumblr.com really don't like him for some reason. But if he has many defenders, I am one of them. If he has one defender, it's me. If he has no defenders, I'm dead.

I wrote a whole little TED talk about this little bitch.

What I haven't written so far is my immense feelings about his relationship to/with Ethan, and believe me, if you thought that sub in "Final Reckoning" was down deep, you're gonna need a high pressure submersible to find the bottom of my emotions here.

(Also I'm sorry, I can't call him "Brandt" for the duration of this post, he's tattooed way too close to my crotch for me to not use his first name.)

Let's talk about Will and Ethan. I'll break this into two parts:

AS A GENERAL WORKING RELATIONSHIP

Yes, they should have explored this relationship more, because it's *fascinating.* Ethan ruined this man's life. He needs to own that, probably more than he does. BUT. If Will reminds Ethan of how his marriage failed, that is on Ethan. It was Ethan's choice to try to have his cake and eat it too, and Ethan's fault that he couldn't. The fact that he left Will behind to take the fall is one of the cruelest, most selfish things Ethan does in the entire series, but he is entirely forgiven for it, while Will gets treated as an asshole for maybe not having the best day ever after being dragged into another Ethan-based mess.

I think the idea that Will is a symbol of what Ethan hates about the IMF is not entirely true, because obviously Ethan has relied on that bureaucracy in the form of the GP Secretary to have freedom to do what he wants (stage a cover-up, let him dick around in Russian prison). If anything, Will is a symbol of what Ethan *can't* do for IMF. Because as we see, you can take the agent out of the field, but you can't take the agent out of the man. Will can do something Ethan can't other than in pretend: Will can walk in two worlds. Will can play the nice bureaucrat while subverting the system. Will can speak to the top and seem genuine while actually giving Ethan protection and information. And he's so good at it that even Ethan, whose hobby is reading people, can't initially clock him. That he does at all is only because Will drops the mask -and does it for Ethan's benefit.

One of the things I see a lot on here is how much Ethan dislikes Will, and to that I can't help but say, you think Will wants to be there? He has every right to not cooperate, to drag his feet and change from little bitch into actual raging giant bitch, and he doesn't. He helps. He is the only person who could have caught Ethan when he was falling. He's also completely valid in thinking that what he's being asked to do is difficult, scary, and pretty insane.For some reason, that gets him cast as "everyone's least favorite coworker." I don't think the fact that he's the only person on any team willing to say "your ideas are bad and you should feel bad" is a terrible thing, because frankly someone has to. The team needs a little bitch to round out the "yes, and!!" improv nature of everyone else. It's cute and funny when Benji is nervous, when he nearly blows it in the Kremlin, but when Will is hesitant, well fuck that guy.

Ethan *does* trust him with his life, and he should, because one of the things I harp on endlessly is that WILLIAM BRANDT ALONE guards Ethan at the beginning of RN. Luther quit, Benjis played Halo. Will was sending Ethan tips and in the room with Hunley, aware of plays on both sides, and keeping the balance. That is his ultimate strength, and he does it knowing that he owes Ethan nothing -if anything, Ethan owes him several times over. That's dedication to his team and to the job, and something worth admiring; instead he gets Luther's derision and the fandom's dislike.

Why is that? Like @prahelika says, Ethan of all people knows what it's like to be a little bitch and try to do the right thing while everyone yells at you. Is it because he's not sweet like Benji? Because he's not cool like Luther and Ilsa? Because he can't slay a green dress like Jane? Will is the person most like Ethan in terms of skill, strength, and intelligence, and yes they "inherited" him but had they not, they would have been screwed and Ethan would be a Dubai pancake. He's as essential as anyone else.

I believe Ethan sees that Will is his foil, what could happen to him if he couldn't "walk it off," and that he comes to appreciate and respect that. We have no idea what goes on between them from GP to RN, but I can't believe they never talk, I can't believe never checks in with the only other person who knows that Julia is alive (aside from Luther, but who knows when Ethan told him).

I wish Will was in Fallout, and not just to be killed. I think his position in the team is so unique and interesting and I will crave more of it forever.

Now here's the part that will make me unpopular with the MI fandom on tumblr.com.

AS A PERSONAL RELATIONSHIP

I love Will/Ethan, Ethan/Will, Brandt/Ethan, Bundt, whatever you want to call it. They are one of my all-time ride-or-die pairings. I will go down with this ship and I will live at the bottom of the ocean eating dead whales and partying with the tube worms, evolving into something eldritch and teethy. And then I will rise... but anyway.

I think they work in this life, but since all shipping is technically AU, well, I think they work in other lives too.

I think they're fascinating to each other: the man who was destroyed by the job and the man who won't let himself be destroyed. I think Ethan is very surprised by this person who is suddenly revealed to be his mirror, and because he's naturally curious, he'd want to know more, observe more. As for Will, Ethan is a nearly mythical figure in his life, and for him to suddenly have him real, in front of him, to be forced to deal with the person who turned his world upside down... well Will is obviously an analytical slut, so of course Ethan is going to get his wheels turning (in all ways). A long time ago I read a comment or author note, I can't remember, where someone said they thought Jeremy Renner played Will as already being somewhat in love with Ethan and I can absolutely see that (I can point you to some good fics on that theme if you're interested. No? Okay).

I think they both inherently understand that they each provide something the other lacks: for Will, Ethan's drive and willingness to face the unknown. For Ethan, Will's grounded pragmatism. That they're both stubborn is difficult, yes, but it's not necessarily a roadblock - I've talked to friends about how arguing is probably a kind of foreplay to them, because no one is going to match their little bitch energy (or enjoy it) in the same way as the other.

I also think they're beautiful together. When they're in sync they're seamless. Ethan's heat and Will's coldness; Ethan's tendency toward action and Will's toward thought. Maybe it's better if Will isn't there in later movies because they'd be too powerful together.

I get that I'm one voice in an already small pairing. I think I know everyone on the site that currently loves/d them and they're all in my DMs (although if I'm wrong, feel free to let me know!). Believe me I see Bethan. I see Ethan/Ilsa. I adore Julia. They're all good ships and they all deserve love! But they'll never draw me in like the way Ethan and Will look at each other like they want to fight each other with their mouths.

And I mean, there's literally no reason for them to look each other up and down and then Ethan to give "you tell me yours, I'll tell you mine" the sultriest line delivery until the horny sub.

I have a whole fic about what Will thinks of/about Ethan and how he deals (or doesn't deal) with it.

But yeah.

TL;DR I love William Brandt, I love Ethan Hunt, and I love their relationship, however you define it. I wish we had more of it. Just don't try to tell me there's nothing but acrimony between them.

Oh right and I have a huge thigh tattoo for them, so I'm in this for life.

they really should have explored the brandt/ethan relationship more. like, hey, i probably ruined your career with a murder that wasn't even real so you got traumatised for nothing. also you remind me of how i couldn't save my marriage. you're also currently a bureaucrat, symbolising everything i hate about my organisation. but i know you've got my back. you try your best to deal with unfair situations where everyone yells at you, and you're a little bitch about it. don't i know how that feels. i trust you with my life. i don't think we'll ever be close. in another life we'd have worked well together. but. anyway. this conversation never happened, brandt. see you in 6 months.

#mission impossible #william brandt #ethan hunt #ethan hunt x william brandt #william brandt x ethan hunt #ghost protcol #I'm always looking for fellow Will enthusiasts #please come talk to me

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buurmanuitwien · 2 days ago

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the one

gn!reader x joost

description: it would’ve been fun, if you would’ve been the one

tags: // angst, songfic

wc: 1.2k

WARNING: RPF AHEAD

(only tagged with rpf tags, so if you're seeing this, you searched for it)

I'm doing good, I'm on some new shit

Been saying "yes" instead of "no"

In the six months since May 11, you had, in your mind, gotten your life the fuck together. You’d graduated college, and gotten your dream job at the local university. You’d moved across town. You’d gotten a boyfriend, and broken up with him two weeks later without explanation (maybe that one was more of a sign, though you refused to acknowledge it.) You’d actually let your friends force you into going to some clubs, decided they weren’t quite as bad as you’d previously given them credit for, and had more one-night stands than in the entire rest of your life put together.

I thought I saw you at the bus stop, I didn't though

You had to be there. Why weren’t you coming?

You had never been the type to stand up your dates - although, this obviously wasn’t a date. This was at a bus stop, for one. This was an opportunity to apologize, and, hopefully, repair some broken bridges.

Joost couldn’t pretend he wasn’t hoping that maybe he would get a date out of this, in the end. But you still weren't showing up.

I hit the ground running each night

I hit the Sunday matinée

You know the greatest films of all time were never made

You didn’t mean to cry in the movie theater. You really didn’t. Crying in public is one of the things you really, truly hate. But when you showed up, and that movie was playing…

When you came to the movie theater and Joost’s favorite movie - the one you used to watch together on Friday nights, snuggled up on the couch - you couldn’t deal with the memories that came flooding back. You couldn’t.

You ended up having to leave the theater early and go get ice cream, and it was only then when you realised you were supposed to be meeting Joost at the bus stop.

Fuck.

I guess you never know, never know

And if you wanted me, you really should've showed

What could this prove, except that you didn’t care about Joost anymore? You, again, would never just purposely stand up a date. Or a definitely, not at all, absolutely not date. Unless you hadn’t done it on purpose - maybe you’d gotten caught in traffic or something. But if you had, you would at least have called, right?

Right?

And if you never bleed, you're never gonna grow

And it's alright now

You knew you really should have at least called, to let Joost know you weren't going to make it to the bus stop, or at least be very late. But you couldn’t bring yourself to do it. Couldn’t force yourself to hear Joost’ voice again. Couldn’t stand to hear what Joost would say when you tried to apologize.

It was fine. It was all right. You would just have to keep telling yourself you were over it, and that really, Joost should have been too.

But we were something, don't you think so?

Roaring twenties, tossing pennies in the pool

Sitting on a bench in the bus stop, Joost promised himself he would leave in another half an hour. That was still plenty of time for you to show up.

Joost remembers that fountain, there. That was your fountain, the one you’d always stop at to throw in loose change and make wishes.

You almost never told Joost what you had wished, but Joost usually did. The last time you were there, your relationship had been on the rocks and, Joost remembers, he’d wished that he and you could be forever.

That one he hadn’t told you.

I have this dream you're doing cool shit

Having adventures on your own

You meet some woman on the internet and take her home

There were rumors, as there would always be. Rumors that you had found someone else. Rumors that you’d met through a dating app a few months ago. Rumors that you loved each other.

Joost refused to believe that. You weren't that kind of person - although, according to Joost, you weren't the kind of person to stand up a date either, and look how that had turned out.

Maybe you were that kind of person. Maybe you had changed.

Joost couldn’t bear to think about that.

We never painted by the numbers, baby

But we were making it count

You know the greatest loves of all time are over now

One of your favorite memories of you and Joost, although there were a lot, was from when you were 18, just adults and before you went to college. You were in Joost’s garage, painting a huge canvas you’d found outside an art supply store’s dumpster , and even though it had delved into chaos (like so many other memories) it had ended up beautifully abstract, and right after that was when you first told Joost you loved him.

I guess you never know, never know

And it's another day waking up alone

No matter how much alcohol he drank and how many clubs he went to, Joost would still always dream of you. And in the morning, when he woke up hungover and drunk on dreams, he would reach out across the bed expecting to find another body there to hold.

He surprised himself every time.

I, I, I, persist and resist the temptation to ask you

If one thing had been different

Would everything be different today?

Maybe it was the fact that he was always home late and traveled often. Maybe it was the fact that Joost had accused you of cheating on him with that bartender from that club you sometimes went to, although you couldn’t even imagine cheating on Joost, or even being with anyone else at all once your relationship with that other man had failed. Maybe it was the fact the man didn’t like the same morning cereal Joost did.

Whatever it was, You knew you could have done something better. And you hated yourself for that.

We were something, don’t you think so?

Rosé flowing with your chosen family

And it would've been sweet

If it could've been me

Joost’s friends were furious, rightfully furious, when they found out what had happened. Really, Joost would say in the beginning, attempting humor, nothing happened. “We just kind of grew apart.”

They refused to believe that, instead telling each other that something always happened, something that was the tipping point. And that it was always both people’s fault.

Your parents were just disappointed. Disappointed, and indescribably sad, when they realized that the one boy who had made you happy was gone, just like that.

But it really would have been fun.

In my defense, I have none

For digging up the grave another time

But it would've been fun

If you would've been the one

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a/n: uh… fic of doom and despair anyone??

#joost fanfic #joost klein fanfic #joost smut #joost klein x reader #joost fluff #joost klein x y/n #joost klein x you #joost angst

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manifestingitgurlll · 4 hours ago

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you don't have to change ego. just observe it.

i'm sure many of us have been in this situation:

you have a desire that you feel so strongly connected to. you have it on such a high pedestal that you think if you don't have it, your life will basically be ruined. and because of this, you feel like you have to do a perfect manifestation. you have to keep your thoughts in check 24/7, robotically affirm all the time, visualize whenever you close your eyes, flip every single thought...

you feel like you HAVE to do this, and if you don't, then you'll slip back into the old story, and it won't manifest. but bcs of this mindset, you hoping something will happen, nothing does, which frustrates you. so you research.

you hear people talk about letting go. you're a bit scared but you try it anyways. you realize you can't do it. you try to stop thinking about it, but that obsession continues to invade your mind.

how do you just stop thinking about trying to get something that's so important to you??

then you feel even worse, bcs if letting go isn't working, then how are you going to get your desire? you end up spiraling and the cycle continues.

this can be so painful, truly 😭 but here's how to stop the cycle.

we sometimes think ego is just the doubting contradicting thoughts, but this situation is also just ego!! the one who wants to feel in control, the one who has it on such a high pedestal, the one who feels if they don't manifest perfectly then it won't happen. but remember, you're consciousness. NOT ego!! so any of it's thoughts, feelings, and experiences have nothing to do with you.

i used to think that trying to change the egos thoughts or fighting it was a good solution. and although it CAN help make it quieter, the very best thing you can do is simply just observe. watch.

let it go off and obsess. let it think that it has to be perfect. let it affirm until it passes out. even let it think that it's not gonna work. why? bcs ITS NOT YOU!! so everything it does is meaningless!

i always think about it like acting. when actors act, do they internalize or try to control what their character does? NO! they act, do all the things, say all the things, but at the end of the day...they know it's not real. if a rich actor plays a poor character, do they start thinking "no, i'm not poor, i'm actually rich 😡" ?? NO! again, they know they're rich, so them acting as a poor character who thinks, feels, and experiences the scenes like a poor person doesn't affect them!! it's nothing to them!!!

this is the same way you should view ego. anything it does, literally ANYTHING, has nothing to do with you. you don't have to change it. why would you if it means nothing?

so while ego does whatever it wants, just sit back and observe. know that you already have your desire, that it's already done.

that is TRUE knowing and being.

#nondualism #nonduality #law of assumption #consciousness #loassumption #loa tumblr #loa #loablr #void state #loass #loa blog #manifestation #manifesting #self concept #reality shifting #pure consciousness

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thebadwritingofvivziepop · 10 hours ago

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Empathy is about being nice to those who are 100% like you, according to Vivziepop

Ok, it's a stretch, but I feel a pattern here about her characters who are "good people on the inside"…or like Vivziepop would joke: "Have good…inside of them" (ok, now that the cringy joke is done we can move to the point)

Angel "I only care about you if Valentino is here" Dust

I haven't noticed it until someone pointed this problem out in a review that I was watching on Hazbin Hotel.

But in episode 6, the episode where Charlie wants to prove to the Heavens that the Hotel work, has a…let's just say something questionable.

Ok, the episode is full of questionable scenes, but I wanna focus on a certain scene that many people pointed out.

The rape of Sir Penteius.

Everyone pointed out the obvious problem: we had episode 4 that wanted us to take Angel Dust problem with Valentino very seriously, but then in this episode we have to watch Sir Penteius getting gang raped and we're supposed to laugh at it (which is one of the reasons why morality in hell doesn't make sense).

Charlie literally doesn't look like she gives a crap about seeing one of her clients getting gang raped in her hotel, she doesn't even ask him how he feels once she's back in hell or finding those who did this to him. Why? Because it's a "funny scene" and we're supposed to laugh at watching a guy getting raped.

It's kind of funny when we consider that in the exact same episode Angel comes back at the hotel hurt because Val made him "work" for 16 hours straight and is treated as something funny.

And remember: Angel still is with Val because Charlie doesn't want to punish Valentino because it would have been mean, and yet she has no problem at fighting angels… (have I told you how much I hate Charlie in this show? Charlie from the pilot would have never let Angel still be with Valentino).

But then something else happens. Angel sees Nifty running towards Val and stops her (even if technically Val wasn't doing anything to her).

Angel Dust gets punched by Val for trying to stand up and protecting Nifty and this for Charlie is enough to say to the angels "see? He can be redeemed!"

Now, I'm gonna break this down to you.

Adam shouldn't have responded with, "Then why isn't he in Heaven, then?" He should have responded with, "Why didn't he help the other guy who got dragged into a gang rape?!"

Because remember, Angel Dust saw that!

He saw Sir Penteius getting dragged into a room and getting gang raped. He saw him getting out after spending a nightmare there. And in all this he didn't care because the writing wanted to make the Sir Penteius scene funny.

This makes Angel Dust looking bad actually, because it makes you think that for him rape is fine until Val is involved.

He only helped Nifty because he saw her getting close to Val, if she got close to another predator, he wouldn't give a damn.

He could have saved Sir Penteius anytime because he knows what is like being a sexual object, but he didn't only because none of the perpetrators was Val.

Verosika "I have a hate-boner for my ex" Mayday

I already pointed out in this post, but I'll bring this up, anyway.

The Apology Tour episode is the one that made Verosika look even more of a sociopath that she already is (while also making Stolas a total hypocrite)

Verosika throws a party every year, inviting all Blitzo's exes to "help" them heal from the breakup by making them remember how much they hate Blitzo.

This doesn't make her look like a good person, but like someone who didn't moved on from her breakup that she wants to make her ex be miserable as possible.

She could have made a party to everyone who went through a breakup, instead she chooses only Blitzo exes.

I have no words to describe shortly how twisted that is.

Like, imagine if she has a friend or a fan who went through a breakup and her answer is "was it Blitzo? No? Then you're on your own"

This is why in my post about her I pointed out that if Vivziepop wanted to make her look good, she should have invited anyone who went through a breakup.

Also, I wonder how she met those exes, I wouldn't be surprised if unironically it turns out that she actually stalked Blitzo since the breakup and is told as a joke.

Blitzo "cheating is ok if you're gay"

Well, we all know that would have happened.

The Sinsmas episode.

In this episode a sinner tells to Blitzo to kill her ex because he cheated on her and he was ready and happy to do that…but he doesn't because he realizes that the man cheated with another man and the two have two daughters.

Because he sees them as him and Stolas and their daughters, aww…so disgusting.

A lot of people rightfully called this hypocrisy out.

In episode one from season one, he had no problem at killing a family because the mother was the woman who had sex with the husband of their client.

Sure, some people defend this by saying "oh, but it turned out that this was a cannibal family who worshipped Satan"

Ok, but explain then the HB short where Blitzo and Loona brutally kill an innocent man who was just a good person…

He could have a second thought because, as he saw the man taking care of the orphans, he saw himself with Loona.

But no, this makes Blitzo look like a total hypocrite

If his client in Sinsmas said "he cheated on me with another man" and Blitzo still accepted the request but stopped once he saw the two daughters, that would have made him look a bit better.

If the cheater was with another woman but Blitzo still notices how happy they are together with their daughters and still sees himself with Stolas, it would have been better.

But alas, as I was taking my notes and the short came out, we just notice that Blitzo didn't have an evolution at all.

He only kills everyone unless it's a gay couple with two daughters.

Vivziepop, let me give you a lesson about what empathy actually is.

You don't feel empathy just because the other people are 100% like you, empathy is when you put yourself on another person's shoes and understand them.

It doesn't matter if they are just like you, it doesn't matter if they went through your exact same struggle.

But in your show, your characters have the same empathy of Anton Chigurh.

#anti vivziepop #anti hazbin hotel #vivziepop criticism #hazbin hotel criticism #helluva boss criticism #anti helluva boss #vivziepop critical #vivziepop rant #fuck vivziepop

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every1swifey · 2 days ago

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──★ ˙ REQUEST !! ࣪ 「 SBG MAIN SIX X MOM FRIEND!READER」

GERNE: Drabble, request

WARNINGS: English is not my first language (don't underestimate my writing though!)

SETTING: /

LIKELY UNKNOWN VOCABULARY: /

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a13xandri4 asked:

I'm back for seconds 🙏

I loved what you did with my last request so much so I was gonna fire off another one and see if you'd be willing to do it!

So, I was thinking of the Main Six x a Reader (implied to be female, but doesn't have to be) who is very much a mom friend? Like- just has absolutely everything at any time in their backpack- Glasses cleaner for Logan? Reader has it. Snacks and drink mix-ins? Reader's got it. a spare Rubik's cube for Aiden? Reader's already scrambling it for him to solve. Extra chargers, gum, cash, hair ties, cologne, perfume, dry shampoo, a pair of folding scissors-

This proves to be overwhelmingly useful for honestly the entirety of the main six whether it's at outings, the phantom dimension, get togethers, etc.

You get the gist lol! However you'd like to format it is up to you! Don't rush to this if you have other requests in the queue! I just thought I'd get this idea out before it completely slipped my head!

Make sure to drink lots of water, take tons of breaks, and eats lots of yummy food after or during your writing!! Have a good day/night!

XOXO, Sashaa<33

I LOVE THE IDEA WHAT. Also thank you for the sweet message <33 I'll give my best to deliver ;) Hope you like it and have great night/day too!!

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AIDEN CLARK:

It's been a minute of silence since you two kind of ran out of conversations so you two decide to just lay down on the floor.

It’s been a while since either of you said anything. The silence isn't awkward, just… quiet. Eventually, you both give up trying to talk and lay out on the floor, staring at the ceiling.

" Aw man. " He groans as he brings a hand up to his face to rubs his eyes.

" What's wrong? " You turn towards him.

" I forgot to the off my contacts last night and they've been itching all day. " He whines as he leans closer to you still rubbing his eyes.

" Why don't you put in some eye drops? " You ask him.

" I ran out like a week ago. "

You sit up, already reaching into your bag," I got some, if you want. "

" Really? Yes please! "

You pull out a tiny case and pass it to him. He opens it, fumbles with the cap, squeezes couple of drops into his dry eyes, then blinks rapidly.

" Thanks, you're a lifesaver. I didn't know you use eye drops too. " He hands them back.

" I don't, not regularly at least. I actually just bought them for you. " You put them back in the tiny bag from before zipping it close.

He pauses, mid blinking, " Wait- for me? "

You shrug, smiling, " Well… for everyone. But mostly you. "

He stares at you, trying to understand why you'd buy them just for him. Eventually he smiles back, slow and surprised, his ears turning red.

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BEN CLARK

Fuck. That's all Ben thinks when he notices his earphones aren't in his bag. He must've forgot them home... Oh well, nothing he can do know can he? Nope, but you can ;). You walk over to him, one earphone in, after noticing his distressed expression.

" Are you okay? " You ask quietly.

He types into his phone, [" I forgot my earphones at home "]

" I see... You can have mine. " You take the remaining head out of your ear and hand them to him.

He hesitates, eyes flicking between the earbud and your face.

" I don’t mind, " you say, guessing his thoughts, " really. "

[" Are you sure? "] You nod smiling reassuring.

He takes them, no, he takes one of the earbuds and again types into his phone.

He finally takes it, not both, just one and then types again, a little slower this time, [" Let’s share? "]

You nod again, slipping the other bud into your ear.

" Here, " you say, holding out your phone. " You pick the song. I bet your taste is way better than mine anyway. "

He smiles, already scrolling.

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LOGAN FIELDS

Logan was desperately trying to clean his glasses with his sweater, since he ran out of those special cleaning tissues.

" Here. " You slide one of those packets over the table to him.

" Hm? " He looks up, scrunching his face trying to identify the object.

" For your glasses. " You open the packet handing the wet tissue to him.

" Oh. Thank you. " He blinks wiping his glasses, now with the tissue you gave him.

" How come you have these? " He asks putting on his glasses again.

" Last week, when you got your glasses done, I asked for some for you. " You shrug and he hums.

" Thank you, that's very considering of you. " He smiles shyly, blushing slightly.

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TYLER HERNANDES

Tyler grumbles as he tries rub off the sweat of his palms, he got from the baseball training earlier.

You notice this and you pull out a damp wipe and gently reach for his hand.

" What are you...? " His brows furrow in confusion.

You don't say anything and just wipe his hand gently, after you are done you reach out for the other one, also wiping it.

" There you go. " You smile satisfied.

He clears his throat, glancing away. " …Thanks, I guess. "

" Anytime. "

" You're so weird. " He blurts making you laugh.

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TAYLOR HERNANDES

" Uh [Name] do you have a spare hair tie? "

" Yeah of course, there, pick one. " you say, pulling out a small bag from your backpack.

" Great thanks! " She grabs one, quickly tying her hair into a ponytail. As she does, she glances over at you.

" You know, you're really practical. Like you always have everything anyone needs. Bandages, snacks, hair ties... I could go on and on! " She tells you.

" Well, I just like being prepared for everything. Never know when you’ll need a granola bar or a random band-aid. " You shrug chuckling.

She laughs, but her eyes linger on you for a moment. " I swear, you're like a walking first-aid kit and convenience store at the same time. I bet you’ve got like, emergency supplies for just about anything. "

" You’d be surprised. " You reply with a sly grin.

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ASHLYN BANNER

" Wow, it's so hot! " You huff, wiping your forehead.

" Hot, indeed, " Ashlyn mutters, retreating into the shade, her pale skin already starting to turn pink. " I feel like I’m gonna fry out here. "

You pull out a bottle of sunscreen, shaking it. " I think it’s best if you cream yourself in. "

She takes it, applying some to her arms and face. " Thanks. "

" Want me to help with your back? Only if you want, of course. " You offer.

They hesitate before turning around. " Uh, yeah, sure. " They pull their hair up, exposing their back.

You rub the sunscreen in, " There, all done! "

You wipe your hands, not noticing Ashlyn is already getting red, just not from the sun.

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I kind of like how this one turned out, I'm really proud of myself :)) Hope you guys like it as much as I do!

@a13xandri4 BREAKFAST/LUNCH/DINNER IS READY!!

#sbg main six x reader #sbg requests #sbg x reader #sbg (webtoon)#school bus graveyard #aiden clark #ben clark #logan fields #tyler hernandez #taylor hernandez #ashlyn banner #request

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theheartsickdevil · 3 days ago

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It is important to let go

{Ronin x reader that can't let go of their groomer}

Tw's: grooming, kind of my personal experience, implied murder

A/n: I couldn't finish this in one sitting lmao. If you're the person who requested the high school au I'm sorry but you've got to wait a little because I don't really want to think about school rn. In this fic there are some actual messages that we exchanged. If you or your friends are being groomed, please, I beg you to reach for help because these are the results. Please remember that grooming can also be your best friend's 24 years old boyfriend who's with a 16 years old. Also I'm sorry if this fic is shorter than the others lmao

*.• ☆ •.*

"Hey, sorry to disturb you, but since I did apologize for the way I blocked you so randomly, now I want an apology too. Why? Well maybe because of you and the fact that you kept trying to ""apologize"" for what you did using different numbers, I got so stressed I almost killed myself.

And about everything else, whether you did it “ironically” or just forgot about it, just know that it really hurt me back then. I can laugh about it now, but at the time, it seriously messed me up. I still remember crying near my parents, and it wasn’t just because of you, believe me, you weren’t the only one "who was hurt".

That said, the only thing I’m asking for is an apology for what happened between us. And since I was able to apologize- even though I was the acrual victim, I think you can take a moment to reflect and say sorry too.

I was 12 years old, almost 13. Now I'm literally the age YOU. were when this all happened. Don’t forget that."

You hit send. You couldn't believe it. After years you finally had the courage of asking him to apologize. But was it actually worth it? Maybe not.. guilt was literally eating you out, and before you could've hit the delete button, too late. He already readed that.

"Tf"

Was the only answer

Y/n: "please try to understand my feelings, just this once.."

"Yeah yeah I'm sorry I hurt you it hurts me seeing you like this I hope we're fine now"

Y/n: "I'm glad you apologised"

You felt like shit. What the hell was actually happening, why did you do this to yourself? This wouldn't have happened if you didn't accept that friend request last week, and now there you are, many years later, still feeling bad for this bastard. Tears started rolling on your cheeks as you got up and plopped down on your bed, sobbing as you hugged the plushie Ronin gifted you a few weeks ago for your birthday. That's when you heard someone calling you on your pc, and guess what? It was your amazing boyfriend Ronin. You immediately got up and waked back to the desk and sat down on your gaming chair before accepting the call. Before you could even say 'hi', Ronin hit you with a

"What are those tears on your cheeks for?"

In a kind of worried yet still teasing tone. You just sighed as you tried to explain what happened, and you heard Ronin take a deep sigh.

"Can you give me their @?"

"Why? What do you wanna do?.. If you try to say something about me he's gonna come for me.. he's going to.. ruin me.."

"If he dares to do something like that he's going to have a taste of my crowbar."

He said, in a more stern tone, you knew he was pissed, but he wasn't pissed with you, he was pissed with that bastard. How could he ask a 12 year old to touch themselves with him on vc and force them to watch anime games porn? That was absolutely disgusting. Ronin wanted to fucking ruin him. He was really sad he couldn't have helped you before.

"..fine, but don't try anything too extreme he's.. kinda chill now.."

"Darling let me take care of it, do you trust me?"

"Yes, of course I trust you."

After that, Ronin hung up the call. He looked more than pissed.. you've never seen him like that..

After some days, you noticed your groomer didn't upload or text you anything.. yet he was online and he read all your messages. It was strange.. you lowkey felt like something was off. Before you could send him another message, you felt a knock on your room's window. It was Ronin, and for the first time in ages he didn't come all bloody. You closed the chat and went to open the window.

"Missed me?"

"Mhhmm.. I was just about to call you.."

"Well good thing I'm here now"

He said, as he climbed in and sat on your bed. Your room was messy as fuck but he didn't mind, it was not like his room was better anyway. You straddled him and hugged him, as you laid your head on his chest.

"I made sure that bastard learnt his lesson.. and don't worry darling, you're safe now.."

You remained a little speechless as he said that.. you were happy he wasn't going to bother you no more but at the same time you were kinda sad.. you just nodded as a "thank you" and then you let yourself drown in his embrace.. you were safe.. he was finally gone from your life..

#ronin x reader #killer chat x reader #ronin beaufort #fanfiction #killer chat #killer chat ronin #visual novel #vent post #tw grooming

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riteliso · 1 day ago

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ALRIGHT jumping back in here, uh, yesterday got a little weird so I'm late to return but you don't mind because there's like 2 people reading this as I post it and maybe 8 people reading it total

Y'see, Catra looks very pensive here. I don't remember ENTIRELY what I was gonna say for this bit yesterday, but I remember I was gonna say that Catra is always mad so she's lying. I can't remember if I was saying that as a bit or not, though.

Probably a half bit, like most of the things I say

Either way, her insistence that she isn't mad is what draws Entrapta in, and Entrapta's inability to tell when Catra is mad is what gets her thrown on Beast Island in the end. Entrapta's inability to understand emotion and push past it actually assists her in becoming friends with Hordak, and makes it more difficult to become friends with Catra.

Do with that information what you will, feel free to read it as Catra being more evil, I don't particularly care

I will, however, give MY hypothesis to why this exactly is.

I think Catra doesn't really see any of her relationships as, like, real. Especially not friendships.

So when her friends aren't doing exactly as she says exactly how she wants it done, it's not a disagreement, it's insubordination. And I don't think that's exclusive to work.

I mean, Catra hates herself and still thinks she's above everyone, you know?

When her bubble gets popped, when she gets called a bad friend, that's the reason why it hits her so hard. Someone she saw as an inferior fuck-up just stepped up to her level and told her to her face something she can't really disagree with.

There's a lot of different kinds of intelligence. Sometimes we don't value the right ones. Yes, Catra is a scheming little villain who loves to ride out a good plan, and Scorpia is completely incapable of that, but Scorpia and Bow are really the only members of our cast with a notable amount of emotional intelligence.

Adora and Catra very much lack emotional intelligence. So does Glimmer, and so does Entrapta, but those both become more relevant MUCH later on.

I do appreciate that she's pensively planning, here, pacing back and forth. It's clear she's not quite yet figured out what she wants to do here.

I'm sure someone else could have a lot more to say about this note of the character-- I just think it's very nice. She likes to take evil robots, make them more powerful, and make them nicer.

She lives in her own little world, but the show doesn't treat that as a flaw. It's how she is. If you need her help, you need to wrestle her away from herself like it's nobody's business, but that doesn't stop her from being a good person and a wonderful friend.

I don't know how to use language properly here-- you're ALLOWED to be inconvenient. We all are. We're human beings. We're messy and scared and none of us REALLY know what we're doing. Flaws are subjective, and if your flaws make you happy and don't hurt you, you shouldn't need to change them.

Like, I have plenty of flaws that I DON'T like, and you can't prove I just typed all of them out and then deleted them after I realized that wasn't the point of what I was saying.

But as far as flaws I DO like go, I am a SUCKER for mania. I love getting absorbed in something and finding out every little detail about it and writing until I'm starving myself and the people around me get WORRIED. Okay I should probably tone that aspect of it down a bit but the point I'm making is I wouldn't be a better person without that. I'd just be more-- palatable. I'd lose more than I'd gain.

Entrapta is wonderful. She's a handful, but she knows what she loves and she absorbs herself in it. It really doesn't matter what situation you put her in, because she'll always find something to do and a way to love what she's doing.

I need what she has

How do I login to catjerk@yahoo which of my passwords did I use was it [email protected] or SWbl0ws or 1.r34lly.m155.h3r.s0m371m35.

Nvm it was an autogen or someth cos idk what else dyg11ly14h5pj705 could be

We've been over this, after force captain is "Shadow Weaver." It doesn't have a title that's just what it is

I'll help you out here, the LEFT goes in your LEFT and the RIGHT goes in your RIGHT

idiot

This is a fair play honestly if my children didn't put away their toys I would make them enemies of the state

You can't actually hide being a good person. You'll always slip up. You'll always show, accidentally, that you care.

But no good deed goes unpunished. Even once Hordak finds some amount of goodness inside of him he's torn to pieces.

Catra's always been a good person deep down, but here we see her finally bring some amount of it to the surface.

Shadow Weaver doesn't deserve her kindness, but sometimes that just can't matter.

She's seeing someone in pain, and for the first time she's had the time to herself and the space to think that she's willing to use some of her words to communicate.

Like I said earlier, she's of the opinion that her and Shadow Weaver are equals in the ways that she values. It's why she tries to hold onto that feeling, and why she's willing to extend an olive branch.

Good people don't belong in the fright zone. Good people don't belong in the Horde. She's practically told that to her face countless times later by prime, as she continues to insist that she's not good. That she's everything she says she is. A conqueror. Someone who seeks to destroy and control.

And nobody will ever believe her

Because between all the biting and the torment and the theatrics

whenever she takes a single breath

there she is.

One thing she very much got from shadow weaver was a sensitivity to pity. I've certainly got that too, and I'm not spectacular at hiding it either. I don't really have anything much to say on it, though. It's hard to accept warmth when your blanket is so chewed and thin.

I wonder if any of this is true. Like, at ALL. Shadow Weaver is constantly lying, but she seems to drop SOMETHING before she speaks here.

I don't know if Catra is just incidental to her, or if she actually values her as a weapon and a tool. We know they were both her wards, but she clearly always valued the powers that Adora would hold a lot more than whatever Catra would grow to be capable of.

So was Catra just there so Adora would actually pay attention and enjoy her time training, or did Shadow Weaver actually have any hopes for Catra?

Sometimes when someone hurts you you're desperate to know that at least they value you. At least they care.

But you almost never get to know.

Something we don't see a TON of from Bow outside of super joke-y contexts, here he's fretting and spiraling and believing things outside of his control were his own fault. Also you like how crusty that image is? I probably coulda found a better version of it but I didn't

This is the sharpest fucking sword she drags it so gingerly across the surface

chalk would have hardly left a mark

I don't know anything about parenting but I have no clue how to raise a kid who feels like they can talk to you

I hear about people who have, like, ACTIVELY good relationships with their parents where they actively enjoy doing things together and it feels so alien to me

I think this is a good thing to brush on because it's something most people brush against. It's hard to talk to a figure of authority at be best of times, and it's even harder if it's someone you can't escape and someone you love.

An interesting parallel we have here is Catra opening a dialogue with Shadow Weaver, attempting to be open, and being called a disappointment, vs Glimmer refusing to open up a dialogue, digging her heels in, and getting reassured that she isn't one.

As time goes on, we see how resistant Glimmer is to change. How unwilling she is to become a different person. In comparison, we see how much Catra fights for things to change, but can only change so fast, and not always for the best. Neither of them wants to change themselves, but Glimmer is happy with her environment and Catra isn't. In trying to change her situation, Catra changes herself slowly, while Glimmer is majorly static until she can't possibly stay the same. This isn't a failing on Glimmer's part, I'm not one of those insane fans who says "uhm, if you're looking or a problematic member of the group, maybe look inward, sweaty," or anything like that, it's just something she struggles with.

Meanwhile Bow and Adora are great with change. They don't always enjoy it the most, but throw anything their way and they'll manage. They don't get stuck in their ways-- Bow is much healthier with his approach, but Adora is adaptable. Catra's good with small changes as long as they better her specific situation, and Glimmer can't really handle change much at all.

Anyway

Good character beat, but I don't like its presentation. Maybe it could have been helped with more voice direction, or more work with Angella trying to get a word in edgewise, but the sudden blurting of this twist is just kinda trope-y in a way that the series tends to be better at navigating. I'm a snob so the first time I heard this I probably snorted like an asshole or something

The scene is capable of making me plenty emotional NOW, but the first line is the low point, which isn't ideal.

Also I never remember how Glimmer gets healed if I'm honest but hey I'll remember when I see it

ALRIGHT SO

Here's how we're doing things, right? We're gonna go one episode at a time, and I'm gonna give my thoughts whenever they come up. This is a train of thought type beat, alright? Unlike my usual grandstanding authorial and analytical self, this re-watch is purely for the rant factor. If you don't know me, and you just happened upon this thread because you like reading she-ra rewatches, hello. I'm a writer from Canada who found she-ra in 2025 and is currently on her sixth watch through. From that, hopefully you can discern that I like this show, even if I'm likely gonna criticize parts of it. We good to go? Good. We start with S01 E01.

RIGHT, THE SWORD PART 1! A zoom in, with an angelic singing being drowned out by digital bloopy fright zone vibes, and then Adora being a fuckin dweeb as her leitmotif plays in a decidedly crystiline synth-y tone.

Now, what do we learn from this? This, aside from one gripe I'll have more to speak on later, is an excellent introduction. With the music alone we're essentially taken from the beauty of the planet, the overwhelming dread of the fright zone, and then into a hopeful tune that isn't FREE from these sort of digital themes in the music, but is very defined and separate FROM them.

This isn't gonna be one of those things where I praise literally every single fuckin thing so keep your panties on, I'm not gonna full-on overanalyzing avatar this shit, but the most important parts of a story are the beginning and the ending.

Now, when I say that, I am speaking pragmatically. Every part of every story is important-- but when it comes to what people remember, what they love, what they never shut up about-- it's the start and the end. You need to nail the take-off and the landing, people will forget the turbulence from the rest of the trip.

Now, what does THIS bitch's intro tell us about her? Well, a lot, honestly. Most of what we know about Adora at this point is she plays by the rules, but she is a notably goofy person. She's goofy, but she's unwilling to goof-OFF too much.

And while we get a taste of the rivalry they have instantly, with "That's low, even for you." "You know nothing's too low for me~"

We instantly see that that is not the CORE of their relationship.

I'd like to praise the voice direction in this show for the first of many times here. The voice actors do amazing work in this, and the direction can be felt throughout.

"Come on, you look stupid hanging there" can obviously be a seen as a strange first line to show the warmth these two share, but the inflection from Catra's voice actor, AJ Mikalcha, makes it read as downright sweet.

Also don't get used to me using names of the crew besides ND Stevenson because I'm so awful with names I was still calling Catra Katara half the time on my second re-watch and I was like 90% of the way to realizing I kinned her at that point

Also don't make fun of me for kinning Catra there's no RESPONSE to people making fun of you for kinning Catra THAT DOESN'T MAKE YOU SEEM MORE LIKE FUCKING CATRA OKAY

Anyway, the following scene makes it clear that this is not a one-way dynamic. The two banter, and it's clear Adora knows how to get under Catra's skin and annoy her as well. This is notable in a few places MUCH further on, but it is a difference worth highlighting NOW.

Once Adora leaves, Catra's primary goal is still to get under her skin. She's angry about it, she's mean about it, but she's still just doing what she's always done. The relationship between the two doesn't actually change as much as the context does. I'd say the relationship itself doesn't change much until the final season, at a scene I'm sure I'll have a lot to say about.

On the flip-side, Adora's goal when it comes to Catra is simply to fight her off. But that's not all there is. At points, it's clear that Adora holds some sort of REVERENCE for Catra, and while Catra is very capable of very mean things, don't get me wrong, Adora sees Catra as more of a threat than she realistically is.

At a few moments I'll point out she also relishes in getting under Catra's skin, but admittedly those are few and far between.

People have gone over this introduction billions of times, so I won't BORE you to death with it, but Shadow weaver's introduction does hint at a lot of what we'll learn later. I think it's very notable that while Shadow weaver brings a dark gloom that encompasses both our leads, her vile tendrils only dare to touch Catra. We learn the specifics of the dynamic these three have later, but it is a very unique and terrible situation to be the least favourite of an abusive guardian. Especially if you are repeatedly reminded of that fact.

I'm not gonna go over all the body language shit I've seen other text posts about it there's plenty of them a lot of focus in this show goes into tiny details where characters are constantly reacting to the world around them, and very rarely do we get lame stretches where anyone's face is just frozen and unflinching while they listen to someone else.

with all due respect to the setting at this point in time the bright moon rebellion is so pathetically anemic it's the two teens, some movie night lesbians, an immortal princess queen, and a bunch of fucking trees.

And you'd think the one carrying the team would be THE IMMORTAL PRINCESS QUEEN, BUT NO, ITS THE FUCKING TREES DOING ALL THE GOD DAMNED WORK

This introduction is fine. I don't particularly like it, nor have any strong feelings about it. It establishes the relationship between glimmer and her mother, but besides that it doesn't honestly do much. And don't come at me with "Uh, all it needs to do is establish that relationship?" Yeah, no shit, but we just had a better introduction to our other lead characters. And yes, those are the MAIN leads, the sort of heart of the show, but that doesn't mean that the other characters are unimportant. Glimmer's development later on is truly interesting, and Bow becomes a massively inspiring character. Fun jokey times are fine or whatever to show that they're immature and don't know the first thing about war, in contrast to our full-blown child soldiers raised from birth in the fright zone, but we really don't learn anything particularly INTERESTING about our best friend squad compadres in their intro, nor do we really see any of it until episode 2, to be frank.

This is something we don't actually see much of-- Catra has this ideal of being a conqueror, but it's very clear that she doesn't want that. Her threats are vapid and aimless-- She can enjoy some chaos, sure, but a shit-stirrer isn't gonna use that feces to build brick shithouses that they never intend to fall.

I think this should have been elaborated on more, personally. Catra is comically terrible with authority, and her plan, as stated later, is to wait it out until her and Adora are the ones calling the shots. But we don't really see what she thinks conquering even looks like, and it's not clear whether that's that she hasn't even imagined it and just likes evil words, or if she genuinely wants to rule with Adora as her Queen.

I gravitate towards the first, but that's partially because I wake up and post shit like "I want to destroy the world and rule its dust" and then forget I posted it when someone likes it 5 minutes later. If she do, in fact, as studies point toward, "be just like me fr," then I fully understand. If not, then I'd like to understand.

aw :(

Fuckin dweeb pulling the "my mom doesn't want me hanging out with you anymore" card

HA! Ah, what a bitch. Anyway, she's lashing out, but it's also quite tragic. A lot of people seem to think Adora IS, in some way, a people pleaser, but in reality she just has such an ingrained and violent sense of justice that she wants to right every wrong she has ever and will ever come across. She believes her validity is tied to what she can provide to the world, and she's got a natural sense of charisma, so it's natural for someone who refuses to blend in and naturally tends to put people off like Catra to have this view of her.

In reality, Adora is just-- a good person. And people LIKE good people. She's not a good person with an asterisk-- a good person with terms and conditions-- someone who falls into the definition of a good person while feeling and being treated like something else. Catra is the "a tomato is a fruit" of good people. Adora is just, like, a 1 dollar costco hotdog of a woman. An inarguable good treading water on this earth, no matter how hard it tries to pull her under.

Imagine falling for a brat with mad hops, like a fucking 50 foot vertical, you say you're too tired to play their favourite board game and they go hang out on your neighbour's roof, couldn't be me. Get fucked I guess

Yeah this is sad. Empathy is very much a learned skill, and people who don't learn empathy don't GET happy FOR people. Catra's not a complete person yet. She's not ready to be. That doesn't happen for a really long time, during an exceptionally long manic spiral. We'll get there, calm down, don't think about how far away that is and how much I've already yammered on.

Anyway, if you find yourself getting jealous or annoyed instead of getting happy for people, consider empathy isn't what you thought it was, and that you might still need to work on yourself.

fucking porno framing. Immensely sexual image, really. These bitches violently gay I suppose, I think I'm picking up on that during this sixth re-watch.

Buddy you got no idea how many problems those two already have you literally lose your little tiara at some point I think it ends up in the middle of a tree in space or something it's kinda unclear

Adora elbows her square in the nose during this so to everyone accusing Catra of physical abuse I just want it to be clear that Adora started it :/

Actually I'd like to retract that joke immediately because I know how people get about these two

My feelings are that they are literally child soldiers who were likely raised sparring each-other.

I was raised sparring other children and I ended up fine! Not for war, for Karate. And I didn't end up fine. And neither did they. Anyway, my point isn't even specifically that because this is sci-fi fantasy it's ridiculous to hold real life standards to it, it's more-so that because it's sci-fi fantasy there's extenuating circumstances that are going to affect how these two characters treat each-other. I'll go into hotter takes later, I'm sure, and get people to send me plenty of death-threats, but I'm gonna go into the nuances of exactly what forms Catra's abuse takes, and how it differs given by the separate circumstances we're shown the two in throughout the show.

my girl when I'm tryna live my best life playing as blue toad in mario 3d world

also holy shit we're only like halfway through this I am an AGONIZING yapper jesus fuck

Okay, what to say about lighthope-- well, their first words are "balance must be restored," far before they say Adora's name, so it somewhat lays out their secret priorities for us there. Besides that, I dunno, they got circuits on them? I don't have particularly strong feelings about lighthope, nor their introduction. I think they serve the setting and are written well, I just subjectively am not a sucker for the way they be. Their friendship with Mara is cute tho

I was gonna point out this is cute and how often I do this exact brat tactic but instead we data moshin, nothin wrong with a little data moshin, I'm down

This is the only reason she even wears a ponytail I'd stake my fuckin life on it

Once she leaves the fright zone that thing's fucking vestigial like a tailbone or having "any pronouns" in your bio when it's pretty clear you're very much a "she/they" type of bitch by now

glimmer why don't your windows have glass

or alternatively

how the fuck do you open and close that window

you can absolutely fucking hear her from this distance what on earth are you trying to pull

you a pillow princess tho how many of those arrows are just hitatchi magic wands attatched to a stick with duct-tape after the series ends do you think

The fuck you mean BOTTOM drawer we lookin at left and right here

or is this similar to my pillow princess comment and she's just addressing him and giving him an order

"Bottom; drawer."

It's established later on that he's a tech wiz but at this point in time they don't really give us much to lead us to the fact that he made that fucking thing

she's a freak

yes it's very sweet that she sleeps this way but I don't think it's some bdsm powerplay thing or anything like that, which would honestly be more tolerable, I think she's just like that

like how the way I'd sit in high school was to get two chairs and face them toward each-other then sit cross-legged across both

even if there weren't enough chairs to go around

people would sit on the FLOOR because I wanted to sit criss-cross-applesauce across two chairs, they wouldn't even ask for one of my chairs

also since I was sitting, again, cross-legged, it would have made more sense for ME to sit on the floor

I mean I think I got asked ONCE for one of the chairs and I just said "fine" but besides that people just let me sit on my fuckin throne

She really is kinda dumb, though. Like I ain't complaining, it's a character trait, but like obviously even if just you get in trouble Catra's gonna get blamed, you've seen it like at least once a month for your whole entire life

Mind you, can't really have Catra for the next part, because Catra's reaction to Bow and Glimmer wouldn't be "just let me have the sword" it'd be murder

oh wow we hit the image limit looks like we're doing TWO SEPARATE POSTS FOR THE VERY FIRST EPISODE YEE-HAW!!!!! THIS IS GOING TO TAKE ME FUCKING FOREVER

#spop #she-ra rewatch #she ra and the princesses of power #live watch #she-ra

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I know we all memed about "Valtteri, it's James" back in the day, but at least Mercedes knew how to execute team orders as efficiently as possible unlike whatever McLaren are doing rn

#not saying I agree with every use of team orders BUT #if you're gonna say you want to use them... ACTUALLY use them #f1 liveblog #brazilian gp 2024 #sprint race edition #(EDIT: Since this is getting a surprising number of notes. I just wanna clarify that I made this post #purely as a critique of McLaren's management style. I'm just constantly annoyed by it as a bystander)

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Nobody had ever looked at his connection to Deshawn and seen anything worth admiring before. Most people in his world would call it a weakness, a liability. But she got it somehow. "Kid draws stick figures better than most artists draw real people," he said, managing a small smile. "Got one on my fridge right now where I'm wearing a hard hat and everything." When she talked about writing herself into different worlds, into someone softer who didn't have to disappear to survive, Duke found himself really listening. Not just waiting for his turn to talk, but actually hearing what she was saying. She carried stories around like he carried muscle and scars, used them to build something better than what life had handed her. "You write on receipts?" he asked, curious. There was something about that image—her scribbling down pieces of other worlds on whatever scraps she could find—that got to him. "That's not strange at all. Hell, maybe it's the sanest thing anyone's doing in this city." The part about writing herself as someone whole, someone who could become that better version someday, made him think about Deshawn's drawings again. How the kid drew him as just Uncle Duke, no complications or blood on his hands. Maybe that wasn't so different from what she was doing with her stories. Both of them trying to find versions of themselves worth keeping around.

Her comment about never writing in a brooding mob enforcer made him laugh, actually laugh, in a way that surprised them both. "Brooding? That what you think I am?" He turned his hand so their palms were properly touching now, skin against skin. "Well, if you're gonna write me into one of those stories, maybe don't make me too much of a disaster. Kid needs heroes who aren't completely screwed up." When she said she might want to start, Duke felt something shift between them. Like maybe they were both tired of pretending this thing between them didn't exist. "Yeah? What would that story look like?" he asked, voice dropping lower. "The one where we both get to be the good versions of ourselves?" He wasn't sure he was ready for that answer, but he found himself wanting to know anyway. What did she see when she looked at them together? What kind of ending did someone like her write for people like them?

For a moment, Rhea said nothing. The elevator faded away. The flickering lights, the uncomfortable metal walls, even Boyd's very obvious efforts to pretend he wasn't listening—it all receded as she looked at Duke, really looked at him. His words sank in slow and deep, surprising her in a way nothing about him usually did anymore. She hadn’t expected that kind of tenderness from him. Vulnerability, unguarded and unperformed, laid bare in just a few sentences about a kid who thought the world of a man the world would probably write off.

“That’s not stupid,” she said quietly, her voice softer than it had been all night. “That’s...beautiful, actually.” And it was. There was something achingly pure about it, this hardened man being held together not by power or money or fear—but by the fact that a kid with crayons thought he was someone worth loving. “You know how rare it is to want to be the good version of yourself for someone who doesn’t even know the bad?” Her hand gave his a small squeeze. “That kid doesn’t know it, but he picked one hell of a hero.” The question he threw back at her had her eyes darting away for a beat. What kept her going?

It wasn’t a simple answer, not for someone who’d built her life on surviving and staying small enough to avoid being noticed—but striking enough to be remembered when it served her. Finally, she took a breath and turned her gaze back to him. “Stories,” she said, the word quiet but steady. “I know it sounds strange, but...whenever everything feels like it’s falling apart, I write. In my head, on receipts, in that ratty little journal I pretend I don’t carry. I build worlds that don’t have rules like ours, where people don’t have to be criminals or survivors just to get by.” She let out a small, dry laugh. “In some of them, I’m not even me. I’m someone softer. Someone who didn’t have to learn how to disappear to stay safe.”

Her thumb brushed over the side of his hand now, mirroring the comfort he'd been giving her. “I guess it’s a way to remind myself there’s still something good left. That no matter how messed up things get...there’s a version of me somewhere that’s whole. And if I can write her, maybe I can still become her someday.” She paused, lips lifting in a wistful sort of smile. “Though I gotta admit, I never wrote in a brooding mob enforcer with a protective streak and a kid he sends secret crayon money to. That’s a new one.” Her gaze met his again, softer now. “But I think I might want to start.”

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