#im really trying to not give in to the haterism and i think ive done an ok job at at least not broadcasting my dislike for specific players

[rolandkaros]

by farrrr my most toxic trait is that the more popular something is the more i start to hate it even if i used to like it

[thatneoncrisis]

i would loooooove to hear more abt ur opinions on kpop demons... i will admit i didnt like the movie overmuch but the vibes of your idol (the final villain song) have me by the throat

also bird with a little hat =]

uuuh ok compliment sandwich. also spoilers if you havent seen it go do that

the only songs i didnt like outright were soda pop and the ballad between rumi and that boy, and even soda pop is an earworm so it was doing its job. i dont listen to kpop ever so as an outsider it was pretty good

i thought the autotune on the first song of the movie was way too harsh, i also didn't think golden was great as a This Is Our Magnum Opus song

however they topped it with This Is What It Sounds Like so i can excuse it

the humor felt really Really babyish, like young elementary school and i never really got adjusted to it. just a lot of yelling and "hey look its hot women doing gross things like eating a lot and. yelling" it felt like the worst of butch hartman at times

it never felt like the movie was Trying to purposely trick me or do a subversion but there were still moments where i was suprised. like i did not think this thing had the balls to kill the love interest permanently

i retched openly every time those damn boys were on screen. sorry for being a hater lesbian or something i could not pretend they were cute they were so nothing to me

that tiger was perfect my friend and i cheered every time he showed up

the manager bobby and the stepmom felt like the shriveling vestigal limbs from an earlier draft of the movie. its so odd that celine isn't physically there like 90 percent of the runtime what is she DOING. it felt like they were setting up an arc for bobby to properly betray the girls but it just collapsed and he just flips when everyone else does

the fight scenes were a treat to watch, i was never a winx club kid but it was giving a lot of that

im gonna be honest when my friend and i first saw the glimpse of lover boys past we thought immediately that rumi was his daughter. "that was 400 years ago" completely ignored that but also maybe they had a magic excuse idk. anyway the point was for the first 3rd of the movie we straight up thought a plotpoint was that this guy was trying to connect with his long lost daughter but fans keep shipping them bc hes a sexy hunk. so simagine my surprise when they not only play the romance straight but the little girl was his SISTER. HELLO. this isnt the movies fault my expectations were skewed

the tagalog version of how its done clears. go listen to it right now

there were non comedic moments where it hit me that this movie is in fact for babies, like when the girls are talking about their insecurities and it is the most tell dont show shit ive seen in life like if just feels like this movie never has Time for anything. "im a problem child you guys accept me" IN WHAT WAY. YOURE FUCKING NORMAL GOD AT LEAST GET A SHITTY VOICEMAIL ON THE PHONE FROM YOUR MEAN DAD OR SOMETHING. they kept Teasing me with characterization that barely exists in the film like rustling a bag of dry kinble telling me its fresh salmon

the third act of this movie got me hype in a lot of good ways. rumi begging her step mom to kill her. the boys singing be your idol. the girls singing their new song ugh it just all came together i love dance fighting i love baddies i love music i love art and animation i love that ugly boy dying i love the new outfits i love a crowd of people powering up ancient magic i really FUCKING love turning red

rumis face reminded me of those online free to play make up games where you put masks and cream on someone with a unibrow and yellow teeth and pimples and rashy dry skin and make them look like 30 insta filters. i know this is literally what kpop girls look like but since she was animated and also standing next to her bandmates with more inique faces it kept throwing me off

every though i wish some things got more time i felt like this movie moved at a pleasant brisk pace. i was never checking my watch during a scene something was always happening. even the tonic man sets up the whole thesis of the movie

[softhenrycavill]

And in the end of the day who the f cares if it's pr or not or what's her job or whatever? He's a stranger for God's sake, not a part of our close family and friends. You like them together? Great then you can go "they're cute", "look how adorable they are", "they're hot" etc. You don't like them together? Great the you can say once maybe twice "they look fake", "they don't look good" and then move on. You still like his acting? Fine then talk about that, that's his job anyway. You don't like it? Fine then move on to your current favorite. It's entertainment not real life. But four years hating someone, stalking them, trying to prove idk what is sick imo. A month? Six months? OK I can get it, then move on. It's for their own mental health. And even if someone is unemployed, unattractive, an escort etc etc etc they are still humans and deserve respect.

This! It's not that deep. I don't care if people dislike them, go hate them if it makes you happy, i dont give a damn. But for Gods sake, move on if you loathe them so much. It's a big World, there are many Actors out there, choose someone new, can't be that hard can it? Why do people stalk and bully them daily since 4 years? It's beyond creepy and annoying. Do people really think that's what makes them good humans, makes them "better than Henry and Natalie"? How? in what world? It makes them the biggest Losers, they will always be wayyyyy below Henry and Natalie in Life. People like those haters are a big red flag for me. Maybe it's time they get a Life of their own!!! And they say Natalie is a Bully but Ive never seen proof of that but we have plently of proof of them being the bullies. I asked this before but will do it again. What has Natalie ever done to them? What has Henry ever done to them? The answer will always be the same....NOTHING. They can't name one thing but here they are acting like he personally offended them. It's crazy. Some of them should seek help in form of therapy. Im not joking, its that serious for some of those weirdos.

Exactly! Henry is an Actor, his Job is to entertain us via his Movies.....his private Life is nobodys Business. The fact that he shares some bits and pieces from his Life with us is great but hes not obligated to share anything. Demanding private stuff from him is totally out of place and creepy!

[tubbytarchia]

hi. im relatively new to the life series fandom and wanted to say that you're the first person ive seen actually criticize life series scott, which is actually really nice. i keep getting weird, slightly-icky vibes from him in a lot of interactions, but nothing concrete enough to give me a real actual valid reason to dislike him. i kinda thought i was just being a hater... so it's nice to know im not the only person who doesnt like. worship the ground he walks on.

I actually really like Scott's character, and although I'm not particularly fond of him outside of that within the Life series, like you, I don't think it's anything to warrant genuine dislike, rather it's just things about his editing and playstyle that peeve me personally. And at some point the deeply interesting way in which he skews people's perspectives stops being so interesting and more frustrating the more he keeps harping on Pearl being an "unreliable narrator" and referencing flower husbands for the 12th time this week and claiming himself to have the power to sway a "canon event" (he said he interrupted a canon event by discouraging Scar and Jimmy from teaming up in Secret Life, and when they did in Wild Life, he framed it as if HE let that happen instead of interrupting it again. That is a bit delusional lol) and telling Joel "you deserve it" as he kills him for the 5th time when Joel hasn't really done anything to him. however

Neg CC Scott talk

I do however not like CC Scott because of him threatening to drop a slur once on several people's streams and defending his ability to do so and to say "I hate gay people" whilst one of the other people there tried to rightfully reason with him that that would be very um unwise, lol. And the way he talks about women. Every woman is either mommy or queen to him, there is no other option. He's done the "mommy? Sorry, mommy? Sorry" joke like at least 5 times like by god someone help this guy find other ways to appreciate people. And I can never get over him making that "appreciating my female friends" thread in which his praise for Lizzie is for being an "unproblematic queen". Ok man whatever. The fandom also doesn't help me like him any more because of their very prominent gay bias. Scott gets away with so much like the aforementioned slur threat because he's gay. That was genuinely so hard to watch but what did the chat members on his and Jimmy's stream say? "iconic" and "slayyy". It irks me so much

Sucks to try and engage with a fandom that calls you homophobic for holding Scott the tiniest bit accountable or interpreting his character as having done anything wrong in a death game scenario where everyone has wronged someone anyway. And I know from experience that there is a significant portion of people who hold these similar sentiments, they just don't want to speak up in fear of being crucified in the name of toxic positivity, so it's no surprise that you haven't seen anyone doing so lol. People who do, like myself, also refrain from maintagging this stuff even if a lot of other people refuse to even when their posts are just bashing other people within the fandom for having opinions that they personally disagree with, because there is no discussion or nuance to be had about someone who's canonically gay I guess

There is also the incident he had with an nsfw artist who debatably ended up getting doxxed and presumably attempted the deed at least partially because of Scott's engagement with them because it allowed the larger fandom to also see their nsfw work, but that is a long complicated story that you'd really have to come to your own conclusions to as to whether or not Scott is to blame or to what degree

[izzyshandz]

I swear if i see one more mf say izzy has been 'redeemed' or needed a 'redemption arc' im literally going to scream into my pillow until i lose my voice.

redeem is such a black and white way of looking at his entire character and dismisses everything hes gone through and yall (izzy haters and others) are just so fucking snob nosed and ignorant to sit there and think hes a villain because of how he acted. theyre fucking pirates. theyre not perfect, none of them are. eds a villain, stedes a villain, if youre doing it like that. ed has killed so many people, stede literally left his wife and kids and also had a hand in killing people; it may be easier for them to change because of the perspective the show gives them and they had love but izzy did not. everyone hated him, ed, his own crew, stedes crew.

normalizing peoples reactions to things as something other than villainy and heroism is so god damn important in a show that's trying to accurately involve our perspectives in this day and age. its a tale as old as time, making someone 'completely in the wrong' because their perspective isnt the one you aligned with as much.

like the rest of the crew izzy had his own bad things hes done, he didnt need this 'redemption' everyones blabbering on about. he needed to be fucking heard, to be seen, and acknowledged-- not thrown aside and abandoned because of a whim. you all can ride up blackbeards ass because oh hes so hot, hes so pretty omg wow; but that wont ever change the fact his character is a fucked up person... youre allowed to love him anyways, why not izzy? we didnt see blackbeard before screen but how hes mentioned it shows he was a shit awful person, the only reason no one cares is because on hes fuckin gay for stede or whatever so the main characters get a free ride. ( i agree they all get a free ride, im just tired of this izzy isolation man )

why does he need to be redeemed in your eyes? just because youve seen what hes done? he was literally a product of his environment in season one he was a product of blackbeard's leadership. only with the loyalty and solidarity of the crew did he really begin to find himself, thats fucking hard to do that late in life. instead of calling it some bullshit black and white redemption arc, lets just celebrate izzy being himself and being fucking loved for once in his god damn life.

hes also way more fucking mature and put together than people give him credit for. love you izzy.

edit: thank you all for the reblogs and insights in every single one, i read them i promise i do. im just so mf heartbroken we have to tag things as discourse when its really just about people not being compassionate. (as a couple people have pointed out) i will said id reblog and comment on every single tag but this is my side </3 EVERYONE PLEASE READ THE REBLOGGED TAGS TOO / / theyre so real ! ive also opened up that ask box thingy i havent been on tumblr in yrs and have 0 clue how any of that works if anyone wants my perspective on anything izzy related. *or otherwise ofmd related

[magnuspanoptes]

my goat all your posts hit the nail on the head and im thoroughly obsessed witj them so ive come to recommend the locked tomb series its got the exact flavor of fucked up that jonelias has got. the first book gideon the ninth has SOME juicy bits with dulcinea grooming gideon into the role she wants her to play (trying not to spoil too bad but) but then the second book harrow the ninth goes CRAZYY with it. what if you were an 18 year old deeply traumatized and confused girl and god himself is desperate to have crazy unhealthy daddaughter shit going on with you thats like so obvious in a way much of the fandom glosses over but they SHOULDNT!!! ITS SO GOOD AHH!!!!! and theres a bajillion very obvious lolita parallels between the two. plus add that to the magicians apprentice which is a short story written by the author (tamsyn muir) that REALLY ties in their whole dynamic with lolita. im pushing my john/harrow agenda so bad sorry. head from a girl you wish was your daughter. shuffles away

its worth noting that the cover and advertising and frankly much of the fandom itself has done the books SUPER dirty i believe the tagline is “lesbian necromancers in space!” its not about lesbian necromancers in space. its about how this guy ended the world and rebuilt it and became god and then proceeded to lock himself up in a spaceship and groom one of his teenaged nuns about it to perpetuate the exact cycle of violence and imperialism he used to end the world in the first place. ITS JONELIAS

damn okay that's the best locked tomb pitch i've seen so far. i have read and liked muir's magician's apprentice and floralinda & the fourty something (?) flight of stairs and i did read like 40 pages of gideon the ninth years ago but wasn't deeply compelled by it to finish reading (weird comic prose narration that i did not find funny) but thank you for sending this!! definitely a lot more willing to give it a second try now.

and if you want something else with a central theme of consumption/cannibalism as a metaphor for colonial expansion with two guys that have a jonelias thing going on between them stream ravenous 1999 now. and prometheus and alien: covenant have a relationship between the android david 8 and the scientist elizabeth shaw which is hitting all the jonelias bullet points: violation of bodily autonomy with biblical themes! simultaneously worshiping and objectifying the other as an anatomical specimen in pursuit of your scientific endeavours! committing a massive atrocity and saying i did it as a GIFT for the beloved! "it must feel like your god abandoned you"! except to be honest those movies are on a screenplay level kind of mid... bad even (like i think they would've really benefited from not restricting themselves to alien 1979's narrative structure, they were more mystery than horror anyway and they kept deleting good scenes from the final cut for i don't know what reason) but ridley scott was doing some momentarily insane things in them like there are two fassbenders in covenant and they are [redacted] and I LOVE DAVID he's my deranged blonde boy he's a genocidal hater he was in love—i loved her of course! and they need to make another one where he continues his silly experiments in space which will probably also have an atrocious screenplay i guess but i'll have a blast every time michael fassbender is on screen so it all works out for me.

okay right got a bit carried away there but thank u <33 i'm putting gideon back on my speculative fic backlog

[nyxi-pixie]

I am always ashamed of bringing up men to you, you deserve only the best and most toxic yuri.

That being said, WHY DID NOBODY ASK FOR SKK?!?!? OR SSKK??!?!

I always wanna hear more about your thoughts on literally everyone and everything, please please, at least Chuuya or Dazai? 🥺

cackling i cant judge too harshly given my skk addiction. in a kinder world i would just be yuribrained but those two are just too catered to my tastes😔😔😔

and i SUPPOSE since you asked nicely. ill do skk but im too tired of looking at longposts so. no one open this except prime haters bc asking me abt skk and notps is just not going to go well.

okay now we are alone😍😍😍

CHUUYA!

favourite thing about them: i think ive made a post abt chuuya self contradictions before but !!! so fascinating. obsessed w him forever. yes be a million things at once that outright oppose eo 💞💞💞

least favourite thing about them: i genuinely cant think of anything😭😭 like even stuff thats like boyyy thats fucked upp it doesnt even make me sad about him like picture me hand against my window staring out like that sickos comic. YES... HAHAHA YES!!!

favourite line: i really like the 'obviously im never gonna give in. i can keep this up forever. but for what purpose?' in stormbringer while hes being tortured. it really encapsulates what asgr talks abt in the afterword about chuuya being an inexhaustible spring. like this is the closest he gets to breaking and its with this blind assurance that he CAN take anything that is done to him, and he only needs to find a reason why thats worth it. which he then does ofc!!! idk theres so many chuuya lines i lovelovelove but that one is just! i dont see anyone talk abt it but it feels Important to me

brOTP: kouyou chuuya are always gonna be dear to me but ive also been on a bit of an albachuu kick recently. so both of those‼‼‼

OTP: skk obviously

nOTP: i have many that i dislike just bc theyre boring to me personally. biting into sandwich and the only filling is bread like okay girl. im not usually a crazed only-er about what i ship but literally most of the dynamics skk have with other characters arent interesting to me in a 'they fuck about it' capacity. but im boring abt mlm shipping i need canon to give it to me on a silver platter otherwise im just not interested. i also find most shippers annoying but i find skkers annoying too so i guess that doesnt say much.

random headcanon: vastly overestimated his alcohol tolerance the first time he went drinking w the pm. not just out of his usual arrogance nono i think he just thought bc he could swing back 8 cups no problem with the sheep, it would go the same elsewhere. only the sheep were always trying to stretch it bc theres tons of them and they have to at least pretend theyre being careful w how often they stole it. and he was basically drinking alcohol flavoured soda. which is very different to a 10-15% bottle of dry wine.

unpopular opinion: i dont want him to leave the pm lawl. i know people talk abt the beast afterword mentioning ada skk and im sure there could be an interesting story there but chuuya would need a REASON to leave the pm. its not like. bad for him the way a lot of people write it to be - or it hasnt been since post stormbringer. not an ideal situation for anyone but like. hes not got an ideal life. like hey the built weapon who spent his formative years hammering it into his bones that he needs to be useful for his existence to be justified is never going to be satisfied with a 'good' life. even if the pm WAS bad for him the way it was for dazai, hes a hell of a lot more loyal to it conceptually than dazai was, so he'd still need an Event to lead him to leaving. anyway. i know lots of people just dont like seeing the pm as anything but a horrid environment causing their blorbo to have a terrible awful time but yk😭😭 thats just not whats going on

song i associate with them: leash on my neck by susannah joffe occasionally makes me think of chuuya//the sheep if im in a particularly insane mood. youve gotta be willing to bend it conceptually but trust it works

favourite picture of them: any version of bugchuu. fifteen bugskk are so important

DAZAI!

favourite thing about them: hes soooo tied to the people he loves. and this would be easy to say about a lot of characters in bsd but dazai is unique in that hes soooo present in canon but only ever as an extension of the people he loves. like a story can have him be as main a character as it likes but the movement of his plot is reliant on other people always!!!

least favourite thing about them: LEAVE THE CAFE WOMAN BEEEEEEE I BEGGGGGG😭😭😭 he actually hasnt said anything annoying abt women in a while bc he only does that to be a cunt when hes bored i think but come on girl

favourite line: kind of obsessed with his endless 'you know i would do this that and the other' and 'i know your breathing pattern your heart rate the decibels of your moans when u cum' etc type lines that he spits out rapid fire in both the first skk reunion and then the lovecraft fight. hes such a loser.

brOTP: said this on the atsushi post already but dazatsu is sooo dear to me. alsoooo bc ive been thinking abt it recently, i am kind of fond of dazai and kouyous dynamic. idk theres such a quiet little history communicated in the bits they have tgthr while shes being held hostage by the ada.

OTP: skk. again! nothing to say!

nOTP: every day i grit my teeth when i see a fy0zai take. also i have several different versions of kn/dz tags blocked LMAOOOO. enjoyers of the latter soooo often state their hatred for skk and then hc the kn/dz dynamic to be things that skk is already doing that kn/dz just isnt like in canon. and im not huuugely invested in their dynamic regardless but as w all of bsd i am exposed to shippers making the absolute worst of posts so it goes from smthn id just find boring to something im an active hater for. 2023 made me a sg/dz hater as well but i barely see posts abt that now so im safe. i just get bored of fandom bicycling i think. which is an issue bc bsd has a major disease about it w dazai😭😭😭

random headcanon: for a guy w basically zero possessions, hes horridly sentimental. the lupin matchbox, keeping his mafia phone, etc. so i think he has a little box of keepsakes that is shoved in a corner gathering dust and a lot of it he meant to burn the same night he did moris coat but he didnt and he still has them. just random bits and pieces of a life he should have been content to leave behind, but never really could.

unpopular opinion: i dont give a fuck about redemption arguments or 'he was too awful to turn good'. literally are you 8 yrs old. the change is possible and no one is irredeemable and morality is ambiguous manga is literally nawtttt for you. also he's always been saving his friends brained. oda just directed him to do that elsewhere. be on the side that saves people so he can do it more easily but he was very much already saving people. like. thats not new for him it was just much more concentrated. lots to be said about bsd maintaining character traits that manifest differently depending on circumstance and will. every part of a person can look good or bad depending on how it is executed etcetc. loyalty is valuable until its to the wrong people, manipulation is despicable until it saves people. etcetc.

song i associate with them: no thoughts on this actually. sorry dazai u infect my brain at all times ur not allowed into my music too!!!

favourite picture of them: listen. its. hes got a disease and hes imparted it onto me.

[demadogs]

what dynamics are you most excited about seeing in s5? 2. what's your ideal way for byler to play out?

im most excited for nancy and mikes dynamic!! theyve been so long overdue for a heart to heart and i really hope that shot we saw in this s5 video is mike coming out to her. potentially a hot take, but id so much rather mike come out to nancy than karen. i also think itd just make more sense because of all the stancy parallels to mlvn and just the fact that karens not as big of a character. honestly id rather mike come out to JOYCE than to karen. i feel nothing about the concept of him coming out to karen im sorry dont cancel me.

i have written a LONG ass post about how i want byler to play out. i just reread it and most of what i wrote still holds true. i have a few updates and changes and i definitely want him to come out to nancy. i posted it in 2023 and i think im gonna rb it with an updated version. i was going to answer how i want byler to playout here in a concise way but i cannot be concise about byler to save my life. every time i tried to answer, it was long as hell so i think im gonna save the hella long answer for when i rb the original post with my updated s5 vision cuz itll take me weeks.

that being said, i dont wanna leave you with nothing so im gonna tell you what is most important to me with how byler plays out.

mike and el's breakup being the same scene as mikes first time coming out to someone. it should be a BEAUTIFUL scene. ive said it before and i'll say it again, i HATE when people brush off the breakup and hope it'll be a quick meaningless scene in the first episode just to skip right to byler. its important and it has the potential to be one of the best scenes in the entire show. i want it to make me cry. it should be heartwarming and show that they do care about each other and love each other so much, just not romantically. i want el to tell him that she also didn't love him, she just thought she did. they both were just trying to be normal instead of doing what they wanted.

i want the painting lie to be a symbol of HOPE for mike!!! not something that triggers a massive fight. i want mike to ask about the painting once el admits she never loved him either and once she asks "what painting" mike realizes everything will said in the van was a lie, and INSTEAD OF BEING MAD ABOUT THAT IT GIVES HIM HOPE THAT HE MAY FEEL THE SAME WAY!!!!!!!! I AM A PAINTING-INDUCED FIGHT HATER!!!!!!! I WANT IT TO BE A SYMBOL OF HIS LOVE BECAUSE IT LITERALLY IS!!!!!

i want mike to accidentally see robin and vickie together as a happy queer couple and this completely rocks his world (inspired by the book i'll give you the sun, my beloved). i imagine this happening after his first kiss with will. i think it happened in the upsidedown and once they were back in hawkins he started shutting him out again. he still has so much shame and internalized homophobia. and then he happens to look through the window of a room and sees robin and vickie kissing and smiling and laughing. i see a lot of people talking about what can be done with robin and vickies characters in regards to byler. robin clocking mikes feelings, mike asking robin about vickie, stuff like that but honestly this is what i want the most. i want mike to just see queer happiness right in front of him. i want him to start crying and not be able to look away from them. i want this to completely change everything inside him that hates himself. i want this alone to be enough for him to allow himself to be who he really is. or at least start to try. i really really hope this scene happens it would probably be my favorite scene in the whole show.

[helpallthenamesaretaken]

EPISODE 5……..🥺

Right off the bat, i love the idea of percy’s forehead peeking out of the water, like the mysterious mermaid he is

Annabeth was the best part of the episode as always

Thought they were gonna talk more about thalia percy parallels grover just looked a lil tad distressed and that was it but whatever

Percy and his lil ‘hi’s will never stop being funny

the usual “i thought annabeth was gonna punch me but she was actually nice to me guys who would’ve thought someone would be happy to see me” narrative still shining through WITH THE HUG PLS CAN WE TALK ABOUT HOW SWEET THE HUG WAS

grover’s so confused like “literally an hour ago you guys hated each other….am i missing out on some plot point”

dude was ‘looking for new tickets in the st. Louis arch as if they were going to be on the floor lying somewhere💀

Percy’s face when he addresses grover after the hug, he’s so proud someone actually hugged him 🥹his face is just like “hey grover look SHE’S HUGGING ME🥺”

Can I just say the writing for percy is perfect

like he’s so 50% there like he’s so good at communicating and asking what’s wrong and trying to understand the other person’s feelings (sally jackson’s son for you) but at the same time he has NEVER had a friend before so he ends up embarrassing himself 😂😭

”im pretty sure that’s what friends do” “….at least i think that’s what they do” pls 😭

grover’s face too help you’re already tired of being third wheel???oh honey this is THE FIRST HALF OF THE FIRST BOOK get comfortable

not their lil heads popping out and going back in. Peak comedy right there

Seriously adam did reallyyyyyy good as ares. Theres no one else i can imagine anymore as ares. The delicateness of his ‘good mood’ as if it is gonna break any second, the rage and fury but at the same time being extremely funny???

the diner looks so cosy it’s so cute

was kinda missing some percy rage in this but it comes out at the last so its fine

The real reason for grover to be so okay staying back is not the strategy of getting answers out of ares but because of how tired he was of taking care of annabeth and percy.

I feel like they should be showing luke more (later on they will, i have faith) im already forgetting about him it wont hit as hard if i dont remember him

Percy “ive not seen many movies since im broke” jackson x annabeth “ive never seen a movie since i live in a magical camp” chase

but the fact that annabeth’s never seen a movie kinda erases the fact that later on in hoo, annabeth talks about watching cheesy old romance movies with her father which kinda contributes to their dynamic but

the fact that percy would probably be the first one to take her to the movies makes me not care

honestly tho IM REALLY REALLY HOPING THAT THEIR FIRST MOVIE WONT BE THE ONE AT THE START OF BOTL I’d rage as much as annabeth when i see percy with rachel (not that im a rachel hater, im a circumstances hater)

grover is such a good therapist, like he is THE EMPATH. He tripped the god of war into talking about his life this is a grover appreciation post

annabeth zoning out with fascination at the mechanics and also i love the “percy being done with annabeth” representation

i cant see anything so nothing to say here

SEAWEED BRAIN THIS IS A HISTORICAL MOMENT IN PJOTV HISTORY THE FIRST SEAWEED-

grover manipulating ares through his emotions>>>>>

also ares roasting athena

Percy sacrificing himself AGAIN like the depressed kid he is

annabeth immediately reassuring percy that she would save his mom the character developmentttttttt from being inconsiderate about percy losing his mom to promising that she would save the lady EVEN THOUGH SHE BARELY KNEW HER

This is giving me too many feelings guys the lady she’s promising to save is the lady who will be the best mother figure who will singlehandedly heal her mommy issues AND BECOME HER MOTHER IN LAW

“Its warm” i thought this was gonna be the last thing he says before whatever was gonna happen to him so i was like lol famous last words

but fr tho the intenseness of annabeth crying for percy to GET UP and percy’s just fading out of the world trying not to cry trying to reassure annabeth that he’s okay IN WHAT WOULD BE HIS LAST FEW WORDS, literally everything he does is for someone else even in his dying moments its just magelhi”gdsjihoawerhoudfjls

especially with the “im not…..” [okay] lol we have always known that percy, it aint a big surprise

i got to applaud leah for how she portrayed annabeth’s brain chemistry altering every minute with percy and how that influenced her speech with hephaestus

i cant believe thats leo’s dad hes giving santa claus i do like him tho

Now that i think about it the percabeth hug should have been after percy comes back to life not after the louis arch scene since they were just starting to have two minutes of chemistry there and have the “you dont have to feel bad about the hug” in the zebra truck scene

percy trying to intimidate ares lolllll walker scobell did his best to make it look real tho so good for him for not representing it as it was; a lil 12 year old child threatening a wrestler looking god of war

”Thanks for the emotional abuse and the cheeseburgers” will forever be in the cinema hall of fame

i feel like grover either is going to say the wrong person or he’s going to figure out it’s luke but something’s going to stop him from saying it out loud

or he’ll say it which causes some angst amongst the team who dont trust him cuz both annabeth and percy worship luke like there’s no tomorrow

RAINBOW?? OHH THEYRE GONNA IRIS MESSAGE LUKE??

LIN MANUEL MIRANDA

[aanabear2803]

hi i've seen your posts about body weight and I as a fat girl, was wondering if you are open to talk about it or give advice about it

I have been struggling real bad with it lately, I thought I was ok and had been for a few years, turns out I hate my body so much and you seem so confident, you got any advice? would you be open to talk about it in dm's?

feel free to ignore this if it's uncomfortable tho

Hi :3 um... so. I struggle with my own body weight a lot. I wont really talk about the bad thoughts that lurk about.

Ive been overweight since I was a wee lad. It especially hurts when my meds make me constantly hungry. Like I am always fucking hungry. So I just snacked the day away without any thoughts of consequences. I still eat these meds to this day. I am still as hungry as ever.

Id say I wont have very awesome advice? Because what I would normally do when those bad thoughts do happen is... post nudes on my kinky tumblr? Which, you know I dont expect others to do. Im sure there are healthier ways to express yourself than to go on tumblr and do shit like being half naked. However there are tons of gorgous women who dress in lingerie and post on tumblr all the time. You kinda just need to know where to look.

Ive also been trying to loose weight. But its more for a health thing since Im close to being diabetic and Im super duper not down for that myself. Im already tired of the meds Ive eaten I dont want to have to subject myself to stabs of insulin.

Im not on a fad diet of any kind. Im just eating 1200kcal a day watching as my weight slowly goes down~ I calculate all of this stuff too.

There's also the difference in how being fat and being unhealthy are wildly different. There's also that thing on how genetics have a say in the weight a person can be. But that is not my expertize at all! But you can be more than welcomed to go search and read up on those.

Ive been more open to exposing my skin a little at a time? Like wearing a bikini while in the pool when Im exercising. Ive been very recently trying to get corsets to work out too! Altho whether you like it or not there will be stares from people. But I would say start from the clothes, buy stuff you think would make you strut a runway. Dont just buy tshirts and pants and call it a day. Find a top in your size and fucking go for it. (Altho I understand many curvy people will not be able to find it cheap and Im just saying if you are desperate for the cash.... you can try Shein. Which I understand many Americans are banning and all the problems with fast fashion into overproduction but they do have many plus size clothes that most store dont normally have for people like us so you know its entirely up to you! But I was close to tears when I bought something and it just.... fits you know? Just dont go all out and buy their entire stock. I buy 5XL on there and dont worry about the number being so high, its probably based around the chinese style with their insane standards)

But hey look, people are going to judge no matter what ok? They always will. They will always find a way to trash talk. Its hard to ignore them, I get it. But theyre not you. They dont know if youre trying to loose weight or whether the food youre eating is a reward for having done a week of gym. Id honestly just say the fries are delicious and they should try it and we move on with our day. Its like online haters, you dont waste an hour of your life justifying things to them, so you have no reason to need to justify things to irl people.

I do hope this helps a little? I dont mind dms if you have any other questions of course :3

[waspstar]

nobody literally ever sends me asks so im going to answer all of these, original post here

🖖 First Trek media you encountered? a compilation of kirk being gay on tumblr. its what convinced me to watch the show 🥹 Favourite behind the scenes picture. this is hard, but probably this one.

i do however like another one of levar and brent together. 🌀 If the holodeck was real, what would be the first thing you'd use it for? meeting xtc ❤️ Your ST comfort character/s. the emh first and foremost. but also mccoy. 👕 Character whose fashion you like. LWAXANA DUHHHH 🎼 Song/music you associate with an aspect of ST. garden of earthy delights and across this antheap both by xtc remind me so so much of chekov. oh, and one of the millions by xtc as well! supersonic by jamiroquai reminds me a lot of the emh 😒 Character who annoys you. if there are no kai winn haters im dead 🍻 Hangout at Quark's or Ten Forward? see, at ten forward i have a chance of running into barclay and he wont try to scam me. but i think id go to quark's just cuz i like the ds9 cast more. 👩🏼‍❤️‍💋‍👩🏿 Do you ship any characters? Who? yesss my number one favorite will always be qcard, but i also love jiles and tom and harry. ❌ One storyline/plot point that you hate from your favourite ST show/movie. this is so hard, i hate so many. i think my favorite st show is ds9 (though voyager is like, really becoming close to my heart) however i will have to sayyy umm. fascination is a pretty bad plot. i did not like that. that was really weird. i love lwaxana but that was a really bad plot. i guarantee you theres worse i just cant think of any >_< 🫂 Character you'd like to be friends with. i wanna say barclay, but i feel like being his friend would be so emotionally taxing. so perhaps bashir or miles. or tom :) ✨ Has Star Trek had a personal impact on you? extremely so. star trek is a very important part of my life and i think about it every single day. i consider it a special interest. 🖊️ Do you have a favourite quote from ST? its actually not technically a star trek quote, as they took it from a book. however, the line the emh reads at the end of latent image. 🪐 Favourite alien planet. ive always been fond of risa i wanna go there 🥲 ST moment that makes you cry. lal's death. also spock dying duh 📚 Favourite ST fic you've read. theres definitely a really good qcard one ive liked but i dont remember the name and dont feel like finding it. theres a really cute quodo one i remember too. thats hard. ive read a lot over the years ☄️ Your headcanon/s about a favourite character. the way that i have all kinds of headcanons and think of some often but now theyre all gone upon being asked this. umm. oh i headcanon that barclay had a cat early on in his starfleet career that passed away. i even came up with a name for it...i cant remember what it was but it was a space themed name. i also headcanoned that he had no father and only a mom and that he was raised on mars! and that his mom died early into his childhood. thats all i got tho 🎨 Favourite piece of ST fanart. i straight up do not have it, but its this beautiful art of q holding an orb with picard suspended within it. i have it saved somewhere. 🍽️ What alien food/drink would you want to try? UGGHHH HASPERATTTT every time i see anyone eat hasperat in ds9 i get so hungry i want to try it so baddd i imagine it has a very plant based spice, a fresh kinda spiciness...and kinda like a cilantro type taste going on. it looks so goodddd. ive also personally wanted to try klingon food. unpopular opinion ig but it looks yummy 👋 An actor, writer or creator on the show you'd love to meet. id sacrifice everything to meet robert picardo. hes done everything for me simply by playing the doctor and i just want to hug him and thank him and give him a kiss on the cheek if possible. also the same goes for john de lancie, esp bcs john not only played q but also discord from mlp, another character i love.

[ubike-official]

my dear friend ive been thinking of you talking about having self hatred blinders on with your trip and it really resonated with me like yeah thats exactly what im dealing with rn and trying to pry them off myself but still struggling with it even as im aware of it, i was wondering if u had any tips for moving forward and out of that kind of self hate and trauma fueled horse blinders mindset (aside from yknow. general healing and unpacking it all). no rush or pressure for replying i was just wanting to pick ur brain a little about it ily i hope ur day is going well

Hi Rey, my friend Rey! Thanks so much for being patient with my reply. I wanted to really sit down and give you a good proper answer here so I reviewed the Ancient Texts (my old journal entries). One thing that really helps for me dealing with the trauma self hatred blinders is the feeling that I owe it to myself to be confident. I think of sad little child me and how I know she wanted to be confident and accepted. And when I think of how others made me feel this hatred and that it's not a natural state. That my natural state was happy even if it was short lived, that i deserve to return back to that state.

Now thats easy said but very much not easily done. I still have moments where I realize after the fact i was isolating and falling into bad habits. Like when I was abroad i remember once the guy sitting next to me said hi to me outside of the school gate and was inviting me in to come talk with everyone and i literally ran away and tripped down a flight of stairs where no one saw me, cried, and dragged my bloody knee to a pharmacy to buy a bandaid and no one batted an eye. At that moment i felt like what just happened was proof that I was awful and no one cared about me. But in hindsight that wasn't true. Those people were inviting me in and i ran away. And i wasnt a bad person for that! i just had a lot of trauma and needed some grace and time to process it!

And it took me around 3 months to muster up the courage to try again. And I mustered it a couple of ways. One of my very bad traits that I'm working on is judging others. I remember there was this guy that took the same bus as me, that had such an obnoxious Australian accent and was so Caucasian and had the audacity to just talk to anyone. And I haaaated him. But like, one day it clicked while i was being a hater, this dude legit did not know or care who i was. he had friends and did so many things i wish i could've done. I stopped seeing him but soon a similar guy appeared that was of the same type of person, and one day I talked to him. And it didnt amount to much. But it helped me get over that block. Because if i was gonna spend all that time disliking him, i wanted him to at least know who the hell i was. at least once. Not for external validation, for me. And I feel like sometimes having that awkward, scary conversation can really help.

In terms of processing and healing I really love physical journaling. It doesn't need to be fancy or coherent, but writing it down, especially before bed helps me really process whatever things are weighing me down. I like to get it out right before bed so i can go to bed with a clear mind and not have the 3am lying in bed spiral. And def try to gauge what things you can unpack and resolve with a session otherwise it can leave you worse off.

One thing that helps for me that may not work for you or others given your health situation. I think a casual low intensity amount of drinking with friends or at a bar in a safe space helps. For me being just a little tipsy makes me put my guard down and connect with others and gain confidence from small, low commitment, one off interactions with strangers. This can also be replicated Non alcoholic/substancy in like a cafe, library patio, or community setting. If you're able to find somewhere accessible to you and be a regular and say hi, get some low level interaction. When I came back home from Taiwan I made it a habit to try and say hi to people when i went for walks and just get comfortable doing that. Or I'd make small talk with checkout clerks at the grocery store and juat add a comment in. Like sometimes I'd just rehearse saying something about the weather or the week or idk, anything. And just whip it out of your back pocket. Sometimes it'll land, sometimes it wont.

Hope this is at least somewhat helpful! you've got this, we're in this together^^

[meltedbluecaterpillar]

You aren't Alone on that Absol.. ◑.◑ You know,,Its quite often I get too hyper when sending an ask. I get very excited to type away..so much so I forget to kindly mask my identity at times..It's often I make myself stop and..restart sometimes. I say too much. It is very necessary I practice a calmer? writing style,,,

Ah, but yes..i get that..maybe that's why yana procrastinates things like that. All lighthearted of course, but we want content yana. ◑.◑ I really enjoy those ideas actually. Especially our lovely boy Deuce..I'd like to see sebs in an event again too. I enjoyed him in harveston so much so that I went from not really caring for him to really enjoying him..i'd also love Jack to be there. And Maybe Floyd. They can sneak off and harvest fresh,,,herbs..ahem. Rook,,oh Rook Hunt...I am his biggest fan and his biggest hater...Me and Vil would at least be able to agree on that statement.. - 🐍

P.S. Ive made my "spam" account,,yay. Eels. Or just one eel if we want to get specific..

It feels like a game of "catch up with the white rabbit" trying to figure out how I want to operate it,,aahhh..im talking far too much. I'm done now promise,,

Good afternoon Viper… I apologize for my late response… I woke up very late today. I understand you. I think before I came off as too much… So now I want to present myself differently. Even when I get excited… I cannot express that. Not as genuinely.

She procrastinates and gives us what she thinks we want. I want lore. I want food culture. I want to finally see Riddles mom. That reminds me as well Sebek is absent in events too. There was Harveston and… I do not count the Halloween ones simply because all of the boys attended Halloween in one way or another. To my knowledge Sebek also has had only one special event… Which is sad because I assumed he was popular. I think it would be nice to see him in a tropical setting or even in something for White Rabbit Fest… I feel like there are definitely favorites for the off campus events…

Oh my… Viper… Do you not like Rook? Is there a reason why? I personally like him but it is hard to explain why… I think he is weird. But that makes him interesting to me.

Your spam account with an eel… I will have to find you then. How exhilarating. The white rabbit is always the hardest to catch. You would have an easier time catching cold before you caught the white rabbit. I look forward to seeing you.

[ohsoohso]

Journel Entry 1

30/10/2004

Today has sure been a day, I find I talk a lot like that, When someone asks me how's your day going I reply its sure going. I started toady at 12 at night no fucking idea what I was doing not sleeping is the only thing I can deduce But noticeable things were done in the time between then and now. I'm not going say its in the right order remembering is a skill I think I've purposely sabotaged, I talk to two people and I think I ordered an electric razor and I can check what else a gaming headset and rei plush which is certainly special, I also jacked of then then spent the rest of the day trying to obliterate any thoughts using feel the good chuckles that social media has become(I'm just being a hater and lazy) and then I had a mental breakdown because like reasons I guess :) I know why i just spend all my time over thinking about this shit and judging myself on progress made and what I should do like rn buut i read a post on reddit it said to be nice to your inner hater and im really giving of patronizing sarcastic vibes to it . I find whenever I do these things I'm in a good place through all the little picies of my history scattered in the huge pile of notebooks I hoard dating back to high school, fragments of the many times ive tried to do this. Welp all said and done I don't thinks its possible to function without hope or least it is for me which is annoying hate telling myself its going to be all okay. I love how fucking retarded that sounds when you type it out, I don't love how unironically retarded it is that I pick on myself like that and on and on and on… I'm oddly fond of my melodramatic skitzo posts feel like that's (being those words) an accurate representation of the experience.

tdlr: groiper love interest, scared of eating and very sad :(

did have fun writing this

i fucking hate john grammar fucking cunt

edit¬ wrote 2004 instead of 2024

[redr0sewrites]

oh someone hold me back right now. i want to punch the anons who hate on you so hard they bump into next month. I want them to get so much hate themselves that whenever they even think of trying to give someone hate, they get flashbacks and the idea skitters back, tails between its imaginary legs, back into their mind. The very idea that you would read and pay attention to a blog and decide to comment hateful things WHEN YOU COULD JUST IGNORE IT is beyond me. Love you rosie, I hope the positive comments always outweigh the negative ones (if they ever dont, DONT HESITATE TO REACH OUT!!!)

but yea i'd love to give the hater anons a piece of my mind, especially because you haven't done anything to them!!!

-🤭, much love!!

AAAA TYY POOKIE!!!! i appreciate it ajdjdje, i've received some really sweet and uplifting anons recently after that shitty one and im so, so grateful. however, i really don't want to wish any harm on that anon, it must be so exhausting being so miserable and rude all the time- i just hope they find their peace and (respectfully) stop harassing/being hateful to writers. imo, responding to harassment with more harassment only perpetuates the issue, but i definitely dont want to interact with them (the anon) again.

on another tangent, ive seen sm fic writers disappear/recieve hate recently, and its so disappointing. i wish that some people could respect content creators more and keep their opinions to themselves, its just really frustrating to watch fellow (AMAZING) writers recieve hate for no reason whatsoever.

[urdadthinksimfine]

Day 2

Checking that ilayda-girl out really bumped me. it made me feel very very worthless, old, like chances are over. thinking about the austrians, too, them they made it, now working in japan.

really stressing me out, i cant just try and go their way, right? in the end it wouldnt matter, they wanted to live in japan, and me too, so.. but still.. its not MY way of things, im not as confident as neither of them, i cant even have chill conversations with my family.. but maybe thats different too..

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coming down a little bit tho. i am not her, nothing like her. i am that weird looking woman, no sense for fashion, weird body, horrible skin, very old but young looking face.

i am not like them, i just am not passionate about things. never was, actively.

but i remembered what i thought yesterday: all i can do is, being passionate now? like try start doing stuff, looking what it will do to me. im happy to feel comfortable sitting and spending time in the library these two weeks. thats a change that happened.

"do what you want, say what you want" yoongi and psy sang. "Haters gonna hate, players gonna play anyway".

do what you WANT. started to do and be passionate and active about what i WANT. thats maybe all i can do right now, not wondering about it will give me certain results.

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walking past some haus der jugend, very small, old looking dude sitiing infront of it. i thought, if im older maybe id wanna do that. having that place, always open to young folks, giving them something, the motivation to spend their attention and time, dedicating it into something.

yes but i think id only be able to do that, if i was passionate about something myself. everything comes to that, regardless of the outcome and results and goals.

maybe thats what i need to do now:

find out how it is for me, to be passionate.

wondering about the outcome.. well maybe thats what i should do. be dedicated and aim high.

but aiming high.. ive always done that but without being active. if paralyzed me.

yesterday i found out about papa's and my impatience that paralyzed us. so lets focus and take the time thing take (TTTTT, 5T, hehe).

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Tonight i remembered that the people from enaka hostel told me, that i could talk japanese when i was very drunk. so.. things that give me joy, that i might become actively passionate about:

japanese

korean maybe, its fascinating to me at least

rapping, singing, using my voice, always a desire

drawing sometimes still bubbles up

stories and ff as ventil and projection paper for ideas and desires

making insta art and tumblr blog for urmomthinksimfine, picture and photo editing in viby aesthetics and free writing poems

sport so my body becomes more elegant and dancing

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using my room as a tumblr room to make me less paralyzed, had the vision yesterday of having huge long posters that i can write stuff on, huge style, maing my room mine finally somehow. maybe.. in some way.