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my sleep physician says i have obstructive sleep apnoea and what is basically narcolepsy (my sleep latency is too long but they think it’s linked to my cpap use or something) and he’s prescribed modafinil. do you have any thoughts on it? i seem to remember you talking about it at one point but obviously tumblr search function sucks.
also kudos to him for being maybe the only specialist who took my concerns seriously in our first appt and scheduled sleep studies there and then and i didn’t have to look for another doctor who wouldn’t just tell me to lose weight.
modafinil is a really interesting drug, lets see if i can summarize what i think i know about it without misinforming anyone.
modafinil is still sort of a mystery drug. we know it works and that it has a good safety profile, but we dont know exactly how. it's a central nervous system stimulant, but the more occult behaviors of the drug aren't clear. it temporarily blocks the part of your brain that perceives that you are tired. it does not actually rest you, or lessen your sleep debt, but it allows your brain to temporarily ignore it. if you have chronic sleep deprivation and/or fatigue (these may be the same thing but thats a different post), then shutting off your interoception of tiredness can make you smarter, more alert, less anxious, more focused, etc. this is theorized to be what is causing the "nootropic" effect that modafinil is credited with on reddit. its unclear if modafinil provides any cognitive benefits to people who arent sleep deprived, but so far most studies have said no.
so even though its an excellent temporary way to ignore fatigue, i dont think doctors who deal with sleep disorders are focusing enough (or sometimes at all) on making sure the patient improves the quality and duration of their actual sleep. without actual decent sleep everyone just continues to sicken gradually. modafinil wont help with that, the doctor also needs to be actively working on fixing whatever is going on with the narcolepsy and apnea (although the narcolepsy may just be a manifestation of your sleep deprivation).
modafinil can give you a mood boost but usually doesnt cause euphoria like many other stimulants can, so it has largely replaced amphetamines in the united states military (especially air force) as a combat drug. it stacks well with caffeine. in my experience it does not stack well with adderall and will also sometimes just block adderall completely. everyone's drug metabolism is really really different so you wont know until you try it how it can affect you
contraindications/warnings: modafinil is a histamine-dumping monster. if you have allergies or problems with mast cells, modafinil has a strong likelihood of making them worse (until the dose runs out, not permanently). it can also shoot itself in the foot and end up being useless or making you sleepier if your histamine load gets bad enough. theoretically you could derail the histamine dump with antihistamines but i havent found a combination that works yet
modafinil is also sometimes dogshit for people who get migraines, depending on what is causing your migraines. modafinil causes neck and shoulder clenching and dehydration, and those two things in combination with the histamine load = instant migraine for a lot of people including myself
its important to drink 10x the amount of water (with electrolytes) you usually drink when youre on modafinil (another reason i cant take it successfully). dehydration is the hardest side effect to manage. also, it often takes many hours to kick in, so if youre in that boat, it's annoying to time correctly. a lot of people set an alarm for like an hour before they have to get up, take the modafinil, go back to sleep, and it's kicked in by the time they have to get up. you can take it sublingually but it tastes sooo bad. also the half-life is about 8 hours, so it can sometimes still be active when youre trying to go to bed that night
modafinil is a cyp3a4 inducer, which means it will interfere with the metabolism of a lot of other drugs, any drugs that use the cyp3a4 enzyme to function, which is a lot of them. in addition to the case study i just posted where a guy got so low on salt after a modafinil OD that his brain swelled up, there is also this elderly lady who took too much modafinil and had an adrenal crisis (and also got so low on salt), apparently because hydrocortisone uses cyp3a4 for metabolism (which explains also why i cant seem to get modafinil to work for me, im chronically low on cortisol).
so modafinil is pretty safe, doesnt seem to cause long term effects once discontinued, and is worth trying. it works great for a lot of people. watch your water + salt intake while youre on it and double check drug interactions
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Hii i would like to submit a request!! Its just a thought and u dont HAVE to do it but some thing like skz member texts the wrong number by mistake and then they text and get close. They keep themselves anonymous and reader is a stay but doesnt know who thier texting (thier bias?🤨) and find out gradually but they already like each other and skz member (anyone is fine) is down bad already. Yea i just thought of this and ur a pretty good fic writer (maybe.. my fav😉) and so I requested it. Again u don’t have to do it if u don’t want to fr no issues if u don’t want to for whatever reason
P. S. Sorry for the long request ♥️♥️♥️
Mystery Boy
A/n: omg omg I'm so happy for this request honestly. And no one has ever called me their fav writer so thank you love 🤎 You also didn't say a specific member so I decided to one for all of them
This is my first time using a texting app like this so please bare with me 😭
Warnings: suggestive content, cringe, hyper reader
Bangchan (pt 2) | Lee Know | Changbin | Hyunjin | Han | Felix | Seungmin | Jeongin










I made these but idfk how to navigate this app 😭
#stray kids#skz#skz reactions#stray kids x reader#skz scenarios#stray kids imagines#skz imagines#stray kids bang chan#bangchan#christopher bang#christopher bang chan#bang chan#bang chris#skz texts#stray kids texts#texts#fake texts
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milk taste from kings of hell (whb): (cw: suggestive)

I, as one does, have experience with man lactation and would like to expand and share it with YOU in regards to hell leaders:
Satan - good contender, but sadly with alcohol contents in his bloodstream,, even if he stops for a millenia only thing that will stop would be his liver bc it got used to alcohol far more than water. If you like slight burning sensation you can squeeze them harder to adjust spiciness. May prefer more violent sucking, so sharpen ur teeth with my coupon "cringe-worthy-simp-666" for 10% off on hell claires to satisfy your king in return! 5/10, take better care of urself
Mammon - as my dear subordinate/fellow test subject suggested - would produce chocolate milk.
Reference:

<- which would make him top of my rating if i wasnt more biased. The texture is creamy and comes out pretty easily when Mammon relaxes his pecs. Simple press is enough. Mammon u didnt have to wear cow outfit but thanks for staying on theme. No it doesnt get u extra points. BUT the taste does intrigue me, and for that Mammon is above all for now. 7/10, Bimet u owe me 13.56 for that claires coupon promotion.
Belphegor - perfect milk, hard to get it bc this man is a washboard, but fpr perfection a bit of further stimulation is not too much of work-- Wait what... what do you mean results were tampered with?... uhuh... hm...Sorry, i must take back my praise - Beleth curated kings meals so they would show positive results which is CHEATING. you heard it. The laziest king and his overworked second in command CHEATED. I guess ill need to do more testing after a few days. >:) ?/10, pending
Beelzebub - look, the fact that i was sucking for last 20 minutes just means that i have hard time deciding if its good or bad - NOT THAT HES WINNING BY A LARGE MARGIN - so please let me continue with testing in peace for next 12 hours and then ill give you my answer...maybe. ???/10, pending.
Leviathan - cheated and tried to threaten the judge for saying his tits arent built to be milked with as much intensity as the king desires so now im being hanged. Disqualified. Pls dont hang me or im gonna bang all ur nobles and force u to cuck for the next month.
Lucifer - theyre great. If u like shitty tea after taste and Gimigin salivating along with you on his other titty. l, myself, not a big fan of sharing. But if the big brother of hell AND heaven keeps his milks warm for my mouth and tongue - i may consider. In the moment it has this unique quality of having blood mixed in so i had to take a few points out. 6/10
Asmodeous - youd hope i disqualifie him, but sadly no, he followed the procedure like a good boy. Actually good texture, i would say chunku but maybe im just feeling things after spinning his nipple for so long, part just fell off. His moaning was grating on my nerves but pheromones mixed in with milk do eleviate the taste. It tastes like hazelnut milk and im horrified by that fact but sadly its too good to denu myself simple pleasures. Did ask to milk me back (i dont feel my dick or balls). 8/10 9/10 10/10
I'll be sucking his(Asmos) tits from now on until next competition of that sort. If youd like to add or have your own experiences with lactating kings or other nobles (or even common devils) please write it down in the comments or tags or mention me in your posts! Thx for reading.
#whb#what in hell is bad#what in “hell” is bad?#wihib#whb meme#whb headcanons#whb hcs#whb satan#whb mammon#whb asmodeous#whb lucifer#whb belphegor#whb beelzebub#whb leviathan
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i mean i kinda get it. ao3 does go against a lot of my beliefs, both the content on there and some of the actions of ao3 itself (mainly their stance on ai), but also. that’s just how social media (is ao3 a social media idk) is. just like how i don’t agree with every video posted on youtube but can still enjoy the ones i do agree with, i don’t agree with every fic posted on ao3 and still enjoy the ones i agree with. sorry if this doesn’t make sense, not too good at wording things
Firstly, A03 is not a social media, is a fanfiction archive, so think its similar to a library but online. Its doesnt have an algorithm, it's got no censorship other then U.S law, because it's Servers (where they store data) are ONLY in the U.S. and their own tos (being that fics can't be paid for, although that is also u.s law, the things posted on their site is only fanfic, or an original fictional work.
This is also where some people get mad claiming that a03 takes down works speaking up about politics, which is inherently false. If you post a work that is completely just speaking out about politics they will take it down because it's not a fic and it's not an original fictional work in the terms of service.
However, write a fanfic with politics in it? That's fine. They host peoples work about the current and previous U.S president having sex, which often included the authors opinions on how each party rules and argues.
Secondly, sorry it took forever to get here.
I agree, I also don't agree with everything they host, nor do I agree that they should host ai generated work. Important to note regarding the a03 data scrape, A03 was not at fault here, and infact fought for us writer's in court against the company that scraped our data, and WON. The other company had to pay out and delete all the data.
I don't agree with everything, but my stance is anti censorship and anti harrassment. I don't agree a03 should be censored since the whole point it was created was to be anti censorship. I don't agree it should be censored because I lived through the last battle of censorship vs fanfic community. Unfortunately it's never just one bad thing, it ends up being good things too.
Which is why a03 is anti censorship, it was created to go against the censorship that was happening here and on other sites, like ff.n. they follow their country's law completely, and should the law change they will have to change. There is nothing illegal on a03, just morally not great things.
Antis on a03 makes no sense, because the whole site will never bend to them just because of what it is, and being an antishipper is more then just being against dark ships, it's inherently pro censorship, and pro harrassment.
I stand by the opinion if they cannot be quite and just block and ignore the tags and the people who make works then they shouldnt be on the site.
Antis aren't just against the ships, they are inherently against the whole platform because A03 is anti censorship and anti shippers are pro censorship. Social media is different, it's more then the content there, it's a chat space, and community, A03 is not a chat space, it is just the content. Even the community for a03 is hosted elsewhere, like here, in Tumblr.
I have no issues with not wanting to see things you don't agree with, I think you should block, and move along, OR, instead of fighting a03 (which is literally like fighting a brick wall) change the laws that are in place in the US. Its not illegal so a03 is allowed to say it's okay there, no matter the morality of it.
Antis go out of their way to harrass and abuse people who don't agree with them, which I don't agree with, I don't think harrassing and abusing anyone is valid for any reason. I am a stranger on the internet, they aren't going to listen to me, especially while I'm screaming at them. Antis go into the comments of a fic and rate the fic or just straight up harrass an author. Fanfic is a gift, we don't have to write it to your tastes, we write it and share it to the masses just because we can.
So yes, you can disagree with things on a03 and still enjoy other things posted there.
However you can't harrass others for posting within the tos, and if you're upset that a site let's these things be on there, and the site has told you they will not change, then I don't think the site is for you. Not if you're going to be kicking and screaming. There are other sites, ones that aren't as lax with their censorship, and you can go there. A03 has said they won't change, so either antis sulk quietly and accept that and start blocking things they don't want, or they move off the site. Change the law, or deal with the fact an archive of all things fanfiction hosts all things they are legally able to. A03 stands for archive of our own. Its their, and our, archive, they made it as a safe anti censorship space to flourish their werid and not so werid fics.
And like a library, you don't need to go into the si-fi section if you don't like si-fi. If you find a book that is sci-fi in the wrong section, you close it and hand it over saying it's been tagged wrong. Or you read it, but nobody forced that on you.
#fanfic#a03 fanfic#anti censorship#profic#proship#writers#writing#ao3#fandom discourse#a03 is not a social media#archive of our own#proud anti censorship#anti harassment#anti anti#anti ai#proshipper#pro ship#profiction#proshipping#proshippers please interact#pro is a prefix#antis shouldn't be on a03
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samjess kink hcs? ty
• exhibitionism. under the table hand/footjobs while going out with friends, oral and handjobs at the cinema, frottage and actual hiking-up-her-skirt penetration or intercrucal at concerts, back of the bar oral. once jess gives him a through the pants handjob in class and later sam has to walk out holding his books in front of his crotch and a red face and jess is just being all 😎
• voyeurism. watching each other jerk off and hump stuffies/pillows, maybe instructing each other. one of them making out with another person (maybe rebecca and/or zach from 1.06) in front of each other. i think jess is really into sam making out with guys and sam is into jess making out with girls
• age play. kid (like 6 to teens) x caretaker. sex ed sorta scenarios. both being on either end depending on their moods. also Sorta mommy kink, not necessarily with "mommy" as a word (though i can also see that) but like. nursing handjobs, nursing during penetration etc. maybe some puppy play
• bondadge/sensory deprivation. like one of them tied to the bed posts hands&feet, blindfolded (and sometimes headphones) while the other works them over with a vibe. jess riding his face and only letting him breathe when he taps/a certain time has passed etc.
• jess also really likes to get her face fucked brutally and getting choked. maybe one day theyre sitting on the couch and jess is just looking at his hand size like. You should really choke me to the brink with those🤔 and sam is like 😧
• spanking. majorly jess' kink. sam is reluctant bc hes very strong and sometimes underestimatis his own strength and doesnt wanna hurt her (but hes not actually against it) so jess has to convince him its fine and also likes to rile him up a bit first with like. leaving laundry on the floor or drinking his special oat milk or whatever bc she likes it when it has that Punishment feel. she also wants him to call her stuff like Bad Girl or Brat or something and hes really awkward with it at first (but he does get into it and confident with it quickly) but that also turns her on bc it feels a little like shes corrupting a good boy. which brings us to:
• gender switch roleplay with jess being a rich misogynistic frat boy and sam the virginal nerd girl, jess being a male professor and sam the pretty girl student who Really needs that grade. all types of porn tropes. wearing each others underwear and clothes
• roleplay and costumes in general
• also general feminisation for sam, which then turns out to be Not Just A Kink Thing. who would've thought
• feet
jess is definitely the one who introduces/suggests most kinks and shes really casual about it like. "so ive thought about this thing. its fine if u dont want that tho" and sam is like "oh... i dont have to pretend to be completely normal with her? these things are things that many people do/like?". like jess kinda gets him out of his shell sexually and helps him embrace and explore his kinks and likes. i like to think of them maybe going to a sex club together too
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rq request for some writing advice
how tf does one write duncan??
he is. a teenage boy and also a delinquint. i have been neither
Ive only minorly been a teenage boy and minorly been a delinquent but some messy teenage and messy adult honestly traits I try to stick to with Duncan are
Impulsive: the guy makes impulse decisions all the time. He has a diagnosed impulse control disorder (pyromania) he says shit off the cuff and does things without thinking, anywhere from tripping Harold while he walks by to saying shit that if he thought about it he knows would get him punched. Write him as adhd or as just really bad at thinking ideas through as you want. He looks down at his hands and realize he accidentally stole something again just cuz he didt realize he picked it up. He steals again because that shits funny. He feels like the type of guy to set his exs car on fire and then get surpised when this gets him in trouble. Hes reckless, hes craving adrenaline, he wants to be funny and cool. With leads me to
Attention: He wants attention so so bad. He likes it when people look at him. Half of the reason he does delinquent things is so people turn their heads. Hes on Total Drama to get money for bail, according to his parents, but as with everyone on that show a good half of the reason is fame. If he likes a person (isert whatever ship or use the canon idea of Courtney) being ignored by them is almost painful. Dude needs to know someones watching him make sarcastic comments or light shit on fire. He wants to control how hes perceived. He wants to be edgy and the bad boy and wanted. He doenst express this honestly though of course because Duncan is
Emotionally Constipated: he can have a lot of feelings going on but rarely will he share them. They get forced out of him. At his core hes sweet and even sentimental but its surrounded by layers of defensive asshole. Hes more real with people he knows more personally, especially with people he thinks wont mock him for gasp having feelings. But he deflects with humor either aimed at himself or more likely others. Nice comments get sandwiched between insults. He can't say something honest about how he feels without undermining his words in the next breath. He is, an asshole. Its frustrating trying to talk to him when hes decided he doenst want to. He takes things lightly and doesnt respect most people. Authority pisses him off. Hes an anarchist but only in words typically because hes also lazy. I personally write him a bit more genuinely punk but thats personal hc. He says the wrong thing more than half of the time and laughs when your upset.
I dont have a lead in but
Sentimental: like genuinely. In canon examples, he carves a skull for Courtney and gives it to her as a parting gift. He writes her initals in things. He keeps a photo of her under his pillow. He keeps scruffys box with him after scruffy gets killed. Scruffys whole existence. He, without even knowing the real story about Geoff accidentally getting Bunny killed, hears Bunnys missing and how upset DJ is and like immediately leaves to go find him. He cried over the idea of hurting a bird. Hypocritical king. I think he gets better at this as he grows but you can put him in emotional torture hell all you want.
And final thing because this is getting long
Delinquent: he likes to act out. Hes a punk, hes anti authority. (Im not gonna make this a separate thing but he does also seem to crave control in his personal relationships though based of canon relationships and dialog about past ones? Idk) He would call his dad pig to his face. He likes to vandalise things. This is where i project my own experiences so feel free to pick pocket what you like. More than half of the time you do "delinquent" shit is just because its fun. There can be some deeper emotional reason obviously but you arent really thinking about it in the moment, its not even a moment. Its just casual. I think its same with Duncan considering how many cut aways we get of him just idly vandalizing shit. (I realize this sounds hypocritical but to me he does both show off being a delinquint for attention and is also just lowkey like that. If he didnt want attention so bad he wouldnt do super attention grabbing shit that actually lands him in jail. But he wants to be cool and edgy so he makes sure someones watching.) Bored? Scribble a tag on the wall, you have your marker on you already. Cops are here? when they turn around you sprint, half the time they dont care enough to chase you down. Trespass casually. Spraypaint over camera lenses. Hang out in a decrepit place cuz fuck else are you gonna do and it looks cool. Boredom should be gunned down, go light your textbook on fire. Yes these are things ive done I was 16. Also i think more people should lean into him being a pyro more. Dude is figiting with his Winston constantly, hes always eager to help light a campfire. He zones out looking at flames. He burns shit when hes bored.
I need to be done now i could just keep going until the sun explodes
#i really need to write more fanfiction#thanks for the ask!!#sorry its so long#hope it was helpful!#total drama#duncan td#td duncan#character introspection#kinda#headcanon#total drama island#duncan total drama#jester jabbers
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how to scare a goody two-shoes ravenclaw 👵🏻
#based on a scene from chap 4 of my fic ( lowkey its kinda giving “or worse... EXPELLED”)#inferi and spiders and dark wizards?? w.e.....SCARY LIBRARIAN THAT MIGHT GIVE YOU DETENTION?? now THATS spooky#someone commented on this chap recently and i always re-read/skim chaps that ppl comment on LOL#so when i read this again i had to draw it (even tho it doesnt actually happen and seb just THINKS about doing it) but this is how itd go😊#choccyart#hogwarts legacy#sebastian sallow#sebastian sallow x mc#sebastian sallow x oc#sebastian x mc#clora clemons#agnes scribner#one of the few things i have in common with clora is being a simp for authority...i loved being my teachers favourite LOL#even if i was a bad student i won them over by being the class clown LOOL#idc if my teachers think/knew i was stupid (i am) but they MUST think im funny and thats all that mattered🤡🤡🤡#for clora its the opposite tho ig LOOL she needs the teachers to know shes a good student BAHAH#being pegged as a delinquent is the worst thing that could ever happen to her😱😱😱😱 rip
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sock :]
#i have to be real w you guys i loooove dpns#truly some of the best things humanity has created#i also love these stitch markers so bad#i paid 8 reais (not adding shipping) for a pack w 100 stitch markers ...#1 dollar equals abt 6 reais so . would definitely recommend they are So good#anywayyy the sock doesnt fit me yet but it might be bc its still on the needles and cant stretch properly#also it might after blocking . so . we'll see ! i might just have to redo the whole thing#not mad abt it tbh. i dont have anything else going on rn cool w it#knitting
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He identifies as a villain and he wants to become a god but he's not doing the best job at being bad. Aside from ticking off the gods, he's done nothing but good - though claiming it's in the name of evil.
Himst: WHY would anyone of actual intelligence rely on such petty tactics as brainwashing or enchanting? So much can go wrong! On the other hand, I have a devoted following who will do as I say! (because he quite literally saved the lives of a town and they appreciate their savior)
#my characters#he wants to be a villain SO BAD but he needs a devoted following that will stay devoted once he reaches godhood#so hes like no i must cultivate my large following before then so once i am a god i will be unstoppable#and also hes like really super stressed when he hears Other Evil People trying to get their army through force or manipulation#because dude they are GOING to turn on you what is your PROBLEM#you have to get a fully devoted cult THE RIGHT WAY#so he is always helping and saving people to grow his following and its in the middle of the road to his villainous schemes#but everyone else is like oh him? he is SO wonderful we adore him!#mr villain guy just curing plagues and taking care of bandits and killing monster packs#to protect his followers bc in the long run its for his evil plan#and hes doing literally all the good things#and he refuses to acknowledge it as good#he just doesnt understand pointless violence - thats simply beneath him
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ik comic! charles did bad things but people (not everyone btw) being ableists towards him pmo
criticizing charles is fine and 1000% acceptable and it can be done without making stairs jokes like...... what are we doing here.....
#snap chats#i do my best to avoid discourse in general cause like. im tryna just chill in my own lane...#but that doesnt mean i dont catch stray comments and its like.... oh yall are FOUL foul what is wrong with you#most of the time people who make ableist comments towards charles barely have valid critiques anyhow ether so#my brother theorizes part of it is because charles is meant to be a 'good' figure so him doing wrong is especially egregious#but there HAS to be an extra layer to that: 'good' characters make bad choices all the time but don't face that kind of anger#like with decades-old comics of COURSE everyones gonna do some shitty things so its wild charles is demonized routinely#is it because he's supposed to be a 'father' / 'leader' figure as well? much to dissect with charles criticism..#the comics themselves arent even generous to charles like how many times do they refer to his disability derogatorily#lord in heaven if there was ever like. an essay on disability rep ableism and charles xavier id read it in a heart beat#i mean i know there was that one book(? it mightve been an essay) talking about disabilities as a WHOLE in comics#but one focused purely on charles' history.... id love that... again its such an interesting and crucial topic
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rin 1000000% has a list somewhere of things hes good at that yukio is bad at
#in my mind yukio has kind of become a failboy because i read salaryman exorcist but rin would totally do this#yukio is like 'thats stupid' but secretly he doesnt want the list coming out of all his minor failures#heres my proposals for the list: cooking(obvi) video games board games woodworking dealing with animals and kids sewing cleaning#im putting mileage into rins 'good with his hands' trait from his bio#if anyone comes in here and says 'he doesnt have the patience for that stuff' i think he would be good at menial repetitive tasks#cuz i am :)#thats it lmao#jk but really i think its one of his strengths#tell me what things YOU think that rin okumura is good at that yukio okumura isnt#oh also if ur rebuttal is 'rin is too nice to have a list like that' rin put his brother below his cat on his cool guy list#both okumura twins have a pretty big ego (from trauma)#tho he wouldnt mean anything bad but such a list let me be clear#okumura twins#i need to go back and tag all my yukio and rin posts with okumura twins so my blog is consistent#blue exorcist#ao no exorcist#yukio okumura#rin okumura#the yukio tag really shouldnt be here but whatever these are technically hcs for things yukio is bad at too#hes haunting this post#all of these are sorted into 'yukio focuses too hard on winning and loses' and 'yukio doesnt like menial tasks'
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#this one's for choso#my baby boi#his kind of devotion is something you could search the world over for and only find once#its not necessarily a good thing in some cases which i find compelling in a character#but im glad a lot of ppl seem to like him. it would be sad for ppl to sleep on him when he does so much for yuuji#somehow he manages to keep from becoming a Plot Device though so mad respect to Gege for that#i love my baby. i would have done more quotes just about him and his mindset but#you cant have choso without his little brothers#its part of who he is#so.#and it does mention i think (and if canon doesnt im hcing it) that he did love his mother as much as he could without really knowing her#if only bc she gave him his brothers#and i read a fic once abt how she tried to protect them even when she was in such a bad situation herself and how choso never forgot that#and always remembered her because of how she fought to protect him and his brothers#so. yeah.#i love choso#jjk#jujutsu kaisen#choso#i will not do him the dishonor of calling him kamo choso he would have despised that#who would want to carry the name of the man who ruined your life and your family and left you festering in your own juices for 150 years?#and we dont know his mom's name so just choso will have to do. its not as though he's ever been unhappy with it. my good boi.#web weaving
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"Angry robin" "violent robin" "misbehaving robin" shut up and accept my alternative; spunky Robin. Determined and head strong, can out-stubborn the Batman, has a strong moral-backbone and does what he thinks is right regardless of what anybody else says, Robin. Jason who was sassy and quippy and made crude jokes with a smile on his face. Jason who hid in Bruce's cape and whispered gossip to him. Jason who, if Bruce refused him something, could keep bothering endlessly until Bruce caved. And also dramatic Jason. If Bruce tells him no, it becomes a whole theatrical show; a monologue, a narration, embellishments, and falling onto the floor in his grief upon the fact his cruel father has denied him once again.
(Jason who has suffered through abuse and homelessness and poverty and starvation, who is the Fight out of Fight or Flight, who's built up defenses and walls and when pushed and triggered responds with the thing that's always protected him; anger. He's sweet and kind and funny, and when he sees a pimp hitting a prostitute he gets furious and responds with violence.)
#my dc posting#dc#jason todd#jaybin#im having so many thoughts abt jaybin and he is so important to me#in one fic he went on a hunger strike bc alfred didnt eat w them and did it for so long they had to compromise#i love a jaybin 100% willing to menace and bother batman until the man folds. as is his right#the thing abt jason's backstory is that it shows him unwilling to suffer for a home#ma gunn's is bad; he gets beat up and she tries to get him to help rob a place. so he leaves! and rats the whole thing out to batman#and shows up himself cus he didnt think he had been believed#and lets not forget the fact he hit batman with a tire iron and called him a 'big boob'!#the boy's got moxie!! let jaybin be crass and angry and sassy and flawed and traumatized without reducing him to 2d caricature of a 'troubl#d kid'#i dont like a jason who did nothing but use excessive violence and disobey orders and be cocky and all that shit#i like a jason who was. oh yknow. a complex person!! a child/teen who has been fucking abused!!!#you shouldnt erase the fact that jason's reaction/response to stressful situations and triggers IS anger#it's not an indication that he was always gonna become a criminal/red hood or whatever. get outta here w that shit#but like. let us not go so far in the other direction we forget to have him react and be affected by the abuse he's suffered#anyway. if anyone should be a drama-queen it should be jaybin. once he becomes truly comfortable w bruce he should dial it up to 11#a lot of red hood's appeal (to me&many others) is that he is an 'imperfect' victim. meaning he is angry and flawed and doesnt suffer quietl#but is loud and obvious abt it#so when i see jaybin written as the opposite its like. man whats that about#anyway. jaybin is good and cares and wants to help and protect people. and by god if i ever see anybody writing#him having arguments with bruce about the no kill rule WHILE robin again im gonna throw hands istg-#my tags are like a hidden treasure box. most of what i say is in here lmao
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i feel like im not making any sense but does anyone else feel like there are stories that let u run with them and ones that spell everything out for you
#im reading that post that says artists are directors of audience reaction and not its dictator:#'you cannot guarantee that everyone viewing your work will react as you are trying t make them react. a good artist knows that this is what#allows work to breath. by definition you cannot have art where the viewer brings nothing to the table ... this is why you have to let go of#the urge to plainly state in text exactly how you think the work should be interpreted ... its better to be misinterpreted sometimes than#to talk down to your audience. you wont even gain any control that way; people will still develop their opinions no matter what you do#im thinking abt this again cuz i was thinking maybe the thing that lets adventure time work so well the way it does is cuz it doesnt#take itself too seriously that it gives the audience enough room to fuck with subtext and then fuck with them back yknow. i think it was#mentioned somewhere that they werent even planning to run with the postapocalyptic elements that are hinted in the show but changed their#mind after the one off with the frozen businessmen and dominoed into marcy and simons backstory. on the other side there are stories that#explain too much to let the story speak for itself and i think it ends up having to do more with the crew trying to lead ppl in a certain#direction than expand on what they have and i see a lot of this with miraculous. like when interviews and tweets are used as word of god in#arguments and it becomes a little stifling to play around with it knowing the creator can just interject. u can say its the crews effort to#engage with its audience but it feels more like micromanaging. and none of this is to say there ISNT room for stories that spell things out#theyre just suited for different things. if sesame street tried abstract approaches to themes and nuance itd be counterproductive#a lot of things fly over my head so i need help picking things apart to get it- but it doesnt have to be from the story itself. ive picked#picked up or built on my own interpretations listening to other ppl share their thoughts which creates conversation around the same thing#sometimes stories will spell things out for you without being so obvious abt it that it feels like its woven into the text. my fav example#for this might be ATLA using younger characters as its main cast but instead of feeling like its dumbed down for kids to understand why war#is bad its framed from a childs point of view so younger audiences can pick up on it by relating to the characters. maybe an 8 year old#wont get how geopolitics works but at least they get 'hey the world is a little more complicated than everyone vs. fire nation'. same for#steven universe bc its like theyre trying to describe and put feelings into words that kids might not have so they have smth to start with#especially with the metaphors around relationships bc even if it looks unfamiliar as a kid now maybe the hope is for it to be smth you can#look back to. thats why it feels like these shows grew up with me.. instead of saving difficult topics for 'when im ready for it'#as if its preparing me for high school it gave me smth to turn in my hands and revisit again and again as i grow. stories that never#treated u as dumb all along. just someone who could learn and come back to it as many times as u need to. i loved SU for the longest time#but i felt guilty for enjoying it hearing the way ppl bash it. bc i was a kid and thought other ppl understood it better than me and made#feel bad for leaning into the message of paying forward kindness and not questioning why steven didnt punish the diamonds or hold them#accountable. but im rewatching it now and going oh. i still love this show and what it was trying to teach me#yapping#diary
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zonked out on the dog bed snoring up a storm. you come over and rub the soft spot on the top of my nose. i let out the most contented sigh
#blllllaggggh busiest doggy everyday of my life and i am exhausted#ye beware of sadposting ahead. more like just need to get thoughts out of my headposting yk. im ok just tired#friend said to me today 'youre always doing something these days jasper when do you rest?'#and i was like huh good question! i dont hahaha. damn#which is not a bad thing always. but my plate is incredibly full and i have no one to help me#im in a really good place. things are happening that ive wanted to happen for years. but i have no time to take care of me#and the ppl who are supposed to take care of me dont. and they let me down everytime i try to ask for it. which im used to#but it doesnt make it any easier. theres just not enough hours in the day and not enough energy in my little doggy body#i used to be able to push myself past the wall of exhaustion. but after my therapy program ik i just can not do that anymore#im really proud of myself. being an adult is hard. im doing everything right. but i just wish i had someone by my side to help me#anyways.#i am a very good boy#yapping#if youre reading this hi im just venting im fine. its just been a long day and i want someone to give me a head massage#jasperbarks
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whoever is elected president of the United States will immediately become a war criminal upon being sworn in if they are not one already and captain america was already about nationalism and if you didn't notice the MCU being racist about arabs in the very first fucking iron man film WHICH WAS SPONSORED BY THE US MILITARY I simply do not know what to tell you and I'm going to dunk all of you into a big old bucket of ice until you are damp and chilly
#YOU SHOULD SEE MY FUCKING KEYWORD BLOCK LIST I SWEAR TO GOD#SO FUCKING HELP ME#SOCIETY IF REFUSING TO VOTE OR SEE A FILM SUDDENLY RENDERED YOU NOT COMPLICIT IN LIVING IN THE US.#PLEASE hit me with a flying car!#GLAD YOU HAVE ALL JOINED US AT THE GROWN UPS TABLE. AS THAT ONE POST SAID.#sorry to be clear this is frustration w people acting like this is presidential election is uniquely morally and ethically complex when#its just literally the same. thing. as ever. actually. ITS ALWAYS BEEN BAD.#ITS ALWAYS BEEN BETWEEN NOT GOOD AND MUCH WORSE#scream#it materially makes a difference to my life as a disabled queer person in Georgia if we have a Republican or Democratic administration.#IF IT DOESNT MATERIALLY MAKE A DIFFERENCE TO YOU. CONGRATS I GUESS!
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