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Seeing people call Ragatha an "abuser" post episode 5 is actually insane to me because for me, episode 5 singlehandedly sold me on her character, whereas before I was kind of apathetic.
She's not "toxically positive" - she's just got some sort of fawn response given her mommy issues and feels like she needs to be "well-behaved and proper" in order for people to like her.
One of my closest friends from college was exactly like this and it was hard to see them go through the recurring issue of being unable to break past surface-level acquaintanceships with people precisely because they were "too nice". Like, do you know how uncomfortable it is to have to explain to someone they'd probably have an easier time connecting with people if they, just, stopped being overly helpful? It's a really weird conversation to have: like, am I actually encouraging this person to be worse? I kid you not at one point I think I actually said "you'd be better of if you were meaner", but, like, no one else was willing to say it and he was desperate so I guess I had to.
But unfortunately the only person who'd ever be bold enough to do that in the show is Jax (because he's literally already done it) but it's hard for Ragatha, or anyone, for that matter, to take any advice he gives sincerely even if he's kind of right because he's already such a jerk (and might be projecting some of his own mommy issues if we're being honest).
Looking back at the pilot, Ragatha's behavior towards Pomni seems all the more depressing. She literally pounced on the opportunity to befriend Pomni from minute one because newcomers are rare and I imagine she's been lonely for a very long time. Which is why seeing Jax do a better job bonding with Pomni gets under her skin because from her perspective she's put in way more effort and therefore deserves her friendship more. That's obviously a very transactional and problematic way of viewing relationships, but isn't surprising given what we've learned about her upbringing. She's likely been taught that love is something that can be earned with enough effort and is now reaching her limit having to come to terms with that not being the case.
The best things in life come free. Genuine connections have to form naturally. While I'm not totally convinced that Jax is being fully honest in his attempts to befriend Pomni, I do think he understands something that Ragatha doesn't. People want to be friends with people they can relate to and trust. And even if Pomni isn't a jerk like Jax, she at the least can rest assured she's seen the worst of him, whereas Ragatha could reveal her "real self" at any time. It's about taking a calculated risk - even if Ragatha deep down is still a nice person (which I personally think she is), there's no way for anyone else to know that for sure. It's less risky to be friends with people who are more open about their flaws than with someone who feels like they could crack at any moment and you'd have no idea what would spill out.
Ragatha is a really tragic character but also so incredibly real. Unfortunately even if she did decide to be more "genuine" with who she was as a person she'd still have a long journey ahead of her, since I'm not very convinced she even knows who she is.
Wow this episode was good.
“We need more complex female characters”
YALL COULDNT HANDLE HER

It’s crazy that her character flaw is thinking that if she ever expresses a negative emotion everyone will dislike her and yall immediately proved her right. Goddamn.
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RE: Egg jokes, I always kinda thought a cardinal rule of the queer community, and especially the trans community, was never calling someone something they don't want to be called? What the hell happened to that?
Like it really feels like the two sides of this are arguing different points, like the "don't make egg jokes unless you know the person is cool with it and stop immediately if they aren't because some people might like them but for some it genuinely makes it a lot harder for them to come out or is just uncomfortable if they genuinely are cis" side is clearly just arguing that you should respect people's boundaries and maybe consider that not everyone is validated or helped by the same things, and that's okay, which is extremely fucking reasonable, and the other side is arguing that not wanting to be the subject of egg jokes or having a bad history with them makes you a transmisogynist because some trans women were helped by them and being called a woman isn't a bad thing ever no matter what, so the only reason you'd be against them/uncomfortable when they're directed your way is if you hate trans women and want them to suffer, which is frankly insane.
I just wanna grab "hating egg jokes is bigoted" types and be like "your expiriences are not universal, someone else not liking the jokes doesn't invalidate your gender or journey, it's literally not about you, and you should have learned to not call people things that make them upset in fucking kindergarten, so why are you, an adult, acting like a 4 y/o who hasn't figured out that other people exist and have feelings??" I mean, I hate being called "a person with disabilities" or "differently abled" but if a disabled person genuinely prefers those terms I'll fucking use them, or at least not call them a disabled person, because it's not about me anymore. Seems like a no-brainer.
If the person likes the jokes or feels like they helped, fine, who cares, use them all you want or simply acknowledge and accept that different things help different people and it is good that another person could help them, we should be glad they have friends who are there for them when they need it. If a person asks you not to make those jokes or talks about how they personally were extremely uncomfortable with them and it made their transition harder don't make those jokes around them, and validate their struggle and be sympathetic to how hard it is to have friends not respect your boundaries. Like people who don't like egg jokes aren't arguing that being called trans or a woman is an insult, we're arguing that you should respect other people's boundaries and the response to that is never "well your boundaries are problematic so I'm ignoring them fuck you" like??? This is kindergarten level stuff, how is it hard to grasp???? Y'all need to stop holding someone's head underwater while insisting you're helping them. That's all we're saying.
(Keep anon if it breaks pls <3)
it's truly an excuse to just not have to make any alterations to your behavior or ever show any restraint whatsoever
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THEORY TIME WITH DETECTIVE KEY!!!
Okay, so. Potential spoilers for "The Ex-Morning," so proceed with caution, oui?
We're finding out in episode seven why Tam left, so!
TIME TO SPECULATE BEFORE WE GET TOLD!!!
First things first, they've got the same outfits in these two scenes:
So it's the same day, just different times of day. I'm gonna guess that since Phi sounds like he's on the verge of crying when he says, "I know why you left me that day," the top image is the scene where he and Tam finally talk about it. He certainly looks the appropriate level of distressed and traumatized.
The bottom image is likely later that same day, and Phi's clearly come to terms with whatever it is, enough that he's not angry with Tam. The whole vibe of that kiss seems fairly composed, so I imagine they're on more even footing by then.
And I mean, even in the top image, Phi's crying, but he's also hugging Tam pretty tightly while Tam strokes his hair, so….
Obviously there's no excusing how he left, but I've been banking on the reason being a mix of external and internal from the beginning.
'Cos here's the thing: I'm pretty sure there was some kind of threat behind it.
The series literally began with Phi and Tam investigating illegal activity as students with Phi talking on camera about how this local drug business could be connected to a member of government. They made this video for a competition, so I doubt their footage was ever made public, but they did get multiple people arrested, so it probably made the news news. The actual news.
And in the trailer, we have Phi saying, "Sorry for putting you through all this."
That, to me, seems like he could be apologizing in general: if he hadn't blown up at Tae, Tam wouldn't have come back, and maybe if they hadn't been so clumsy about their first major investigation together, whatever theoretically happened to make Tam leave wouldn't have happened, either.
I think Yong knows, and I think Paul found out through him.
And I think Paul told Phi.
I actually suspected Tam wouldn't be the one to tell Phi in the end. It seems like he's struggled with open communication all along, but also:
If the reason he left was that the award that landed Phi his job also endangered them, I can see Tam not wanting to tell Phi that it was technically his own fault in the midst of Phi trying to rebuild his career - a career he only got because he broke down crying during an interview after Tam broke up with him.
Then I can see why he's reluctant to tell Phi. If it's also Phi's fault, he doesn't want to kick him when he's down.
Like, "Okay, so not only was your career breakthrough ruined by my leaving, I'm also going to ruin one of your happiest memories by telling you the thing we won an award for also ended up fucking up everything."
It's also super possible that if this theory is true, then Tam doesn't blame Phi at all. After all, they were a team, and Tam did the research side of things. He might entirely blame himself.
Anyway, I think that's what that scene with Paul is: telling Phi the reason why Tam left because it's urgent enough that Paul feels okay with going over Tam's head.
Like, Yong definitely knows. There's this shot of a flashback scene from the behind-the-scenes special of Tam going in to talk to Yong, and he's
Same outfit from the flashback that starts episode 3 in which Phi gets the interview he'll fall apart doing because of Tam's breakup text.
Interestingly, we also get these flashback shots of Yong presumably back when he and Gaogie were dating/engaged:
So we might find out some stuff about him too.
Still many missing pieces, but I'm delighted with this week's episode. Went in a total curveball that made me go, "Ooooh," as a writer because it's not the direction I would have gone, but it's also really good. I would've been a little sad if they only got together at the very end, and I like that Phi took that leap of faith.
Time to rewatch again byeeee!
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There's two emerging conversation points, I think, about this franchise, especially since you've been involved. One is, I think a lot of people now are like, oh, this is actually the best franchise. It's the most fun one to partake in because it doesn't come as larded with all of this mythology in a way. And then the other one is Tom's breakneck commitment, literal breakneck commitment to doing the physical. And it seems like there's something connected there, but that also seems kind of perilous, especially long term. I mean, do you see a connection between those two things?
Well, it's funny, Tom does not come without his share of controversy. And that's an element of these movies. And what I've watched happen over the course of three of these movies is there's a segment of the audience that prefers to look at the controversy rather than the movie. And I have felt that segment of the audience just eventually look at it and go: alright, fine, just alright, I come to the damn movie, you know, and they've reconciled. I feel that, I feel that in this movie. This is the first time of the nine movies in twelve years where I really feel the wind in our back.
We, Tom and I, are always a little bit, we're a little bit the underdog. There's a segment of the audience that's rooting to see the movie take a hit when, you know, the guy's been that successful for that long. It doesn't feel that way anymore to me, honestly. No, I feel like, look, I feel like if The Mummy had happened two years earlier, they'd have crucified him. They'd have been like, this is the one we wanted. This is the one we've been waiting for. And I think at this point you look at him and go, yep, there's some that work, some that don't. But overall, you know, the guy's really delivering quality.
I also believe there was a perception for a long time that Tom doing what he was doing was for his ego. It was hard to separate the motive for why he is as dedicated as he is. And I saw a segment of the audience looking at that as this is all just a guy stroking his own ego and showing off. No, he's really killing himself for your entertainment. He really loves making movies. He loves nothing more than the process of sitting in the audience and watching the movie with them, he goes to every test screening and he reads all the cards. You know, everything you're saying about Tom Cruise. He's read it and it's water off his back.
How does he process that information? That must be bizarre.
Look, he's very confident in terms of his, for lack of a better word, his character and his intentions. And he's really got it in perspective that you can think what you want about me. I know what I'm here to do. I know the person I am. I know the way I treat the people around me and I've seen him do it. So, you know, and I have people ask me all the time. They have their preconceived notions about Tom, and they come up, and you know. I've been confronted about stuff, and I'm just like: I don't know the man you're judging and I don't judge the man I know. I am very comfortable in terms of my understanding of this man's character. And if I had doubts about this man's character, I wouldn't have made nine movies with him. I wouldn't have made two.
And so that what's interesting now is watching as that seems to have reached an equilibrium.
It's evolving.
Yeah. There's a certain point at which you see two people arguing on the Internet and one of them is going, whatever, man, the movie's going to be good. I just know the movie's going to be good if you've been doing it for thirty years. I don't care how big your ego is. I just don't care. You don't dedicate your mental and physical energies to something with that much discipline if it's really all just about your ego. It's his art. It's really the thing he loves doing. And I don't apply that term. I don't consider myself an artist. I consider what he does really to be an art, his inherent understanding of how an audience is responding to the material.
When a test audience says the end of Rogue Nation feels like it ends five times. The studio solution is cut out one of the five scenes at the end of the movie. And Tom's solution is no, no, no, no, no. He turns to the composer and he says score the whole thing like it's one sequence. Just change the music. Movie goes up twenty points. Yeah. And it's because what he wants to do, he wants to deliver for you. He's really working his ass off.
They always praise and show affection for each other, but hearing McQ speak this sincerely about Tom when he’s not around really shows just how deep their bond is. Tom is so lucky to have a friend and soulmate like him. And McQ, you’re a true artist yourself.
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cis people will "not understand" nonbinary identities and see you as Quirky AGAB. maybe Quirky Man bc masculinity assumed default.
progressive cis people (including cis queers) will see any kind of nonbinary identity as Woman-Lite.
trans men, transmascs, Genderfuck Boy Dykes, fluid-flux-complex-eldritch-beings etc. ie ANYONE WHO IS TRANS BUT NOT A TRANNY, NOT TMA, NOT TRANSFEM* will put us in the Quirky Man zone bc "ooh gnc genderfuck goals 😍".
Allure of the Tranny is a real phenomenon and y'all wanna wear us like a cute aesthetic, able to point at folks whose transfem identity you've erased as some sort of a justification/pass.
like calamity.sys, we're some kind of nonbinary girl. we have complexity. headmates makes it more complex as well. we're part girl part Thing, dog, cyborg, a Creature, faggy w/ it and very importantly...transfem. I'm a tranny first.
coming out as nonbinary was a Bad Idea. using they/them ever was a Bad Idea.
y'all will look at a girl 2 years on E, noticeable tits, cute dress, dangly earrings, and last thing you'll think is "some kind of woman". maybe you'll homour us if ur feeling nice and we keep quiet. can't have shit, can't give an inch, have to cut off entire parts of ourselves bc playing the role of "binary trans woman" barely get us treated with respect. dickhead.
*fighting over terminology is a distraction at this point. I like having terms that r unambiguous in context and in intent but y'all won't let us have shit no matter what terms we use.
it really is so tiring how people have endless patience and understanding and nuance for the complexities of nonbinary genderqueer identities until you're transfem. the amount of girls who would love to be able to be treated like something other than "binary trans woman" but can't cede any ground without getting relegated to the "genderfuck man" zone is staggering. myself in-fucking-cluded. people love to yell at me about how tma/tme is a harmful binary that excludes nonbinary people AS IF IM NOT A NONBINARY GIRL YOU FUCKING MORONS. but you forgot that was an option didn't you. tired of it
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[ door creaks ]
Kai: Taryn? You’re home early- Oh god, what happened? Are you alright? Did someone hurt you?
Taryn: N-No, I think I need a second. I’m sorry.
Kai: Okay. Let me run you a bath?
Taryn: Yeah, yeah that’s fine.
Taryn: [ mumbles ] Hey…
Kai: How are you feeling?
Taryn: Hungover and dead inside.
Kai: Ven. | Come.
Taryn: This is so stupid. I shouldn’t care this much, right?
Kai: Depends on who this is about. The stranger that left you in this state or Atlas?
Taryn: Both.
Kai: Well, if spending the night with a guy leaves you like this, maybe they aren’t the right person.
Taryn: He was kind. Gentle, even. A perfect first. The issue is me. I thought I was supposed to feel some type of way but I felt empty afterwards. Maybe I’m not built for one off things right now and that’s embarrassing to admit.
Kai: Hey, that’s completely alright. Everyone’s got different ways of going about things and you’ve been through a lot. As for Atlas.
Taryn: I, uh, I don’t want to be bitter, Kai.
Kai: Understandable.
Taryn: But it’s really fucking hard. I wish I hadn’t opened up, it backfires, it always does.
Kai: So you were vulnerable for a moment and it didn’t work out. Doesn’t mean you can’t try again. Taryn, you can’t let this be the reason why you shut people out.
Taryn: I know, I know, I just… Feel like every aspect of my life is an opening for rejection and he was the final blow. I shouldn’t blame him.
Kai: But it’s easy. Like you said, the final blow.
Taryn: Do you miss him?
Kai: Y-Yeah. I think I miss my friend most of all. Before everything got so messy.
Taryn: Isn’t it strange how things change all of a sudden?
Kai: Like I picked the wrong choice in a game and all the companions die.
Taryn: That’s so brutal!
Kai: A bit. There are a lot of things I need to make right with people. I don’t want my life to work like some sort of confessional. The constant need for repentance, you know? I guess I need to find the courage to actually reach out.
Taryn: You could… Always restart.
Kai: I will if you do.
Taryn: Maybe I’ll nut up someday.
Kai: PFFT- What?!
Taryn: Some kid told me that the other day.
Kai: Holy shit!
Taryn: I mean… There’s some truth in that. Hey, you think you can help me with something?
Kai: Sure!
Taryn: You still good with scissors?
Kai: Yeah, why?
Taryn: I feel like it’s time for a change.
Kai: Oh? This should be fun.
#it feels like... it feels like we're coming to terms with things...#when one door closes another... opens... anyways#how short we thinkin taryn?#tessellate#ts4#simblr#show us your story#sims community#tessellate: kai#tessellate: taryn
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Everytime i see that New Girl/Buddie gifset, i think about that post you made (or was it an answer to an anon? Idk) about straight pairings and years-long slowburns wayyy back when season 4 aired.
I'm pretty sure i told you this back then as well, but as someone who has been pretty firmly believing in Buddie endgame since Eddie begins, that post was so validating. We could never (and still can't) know exactly where this story is going, but to see that someone else recognized the pattern and believed that them telling Buck and Eddie's story like that was an actual possibility felt really great.
I'm such a sceptic by nature, but i actively chose to be an optimist this time and i just...can't believe this is our life now. Investing in that clown make-up was so worth it.
Ahaha that was a post I'd made, yeah. It was probably also an ask, too - I've talked about this quite a few times starting in the season three hiatus. The deal for Buddie was sealed, to me, when Eddie said there's nobody in this world that I trust with my son more than you. Because now to give either of them a love interest was to supplant Buck in Eddie's life as the co-parent and earn Eddie's trust with Chris more than Buck had, and would supplant Eddie and Chris as priorities in Buck's life - and the audience was going to have a very hard time accepting that.
Of course I wasn't 100% sure at that point but that was when I went from "okay yeah this is a fun ship but people have the shipper goggles on" to "...wait this actually is a possibility."
From that point we've seen the classic slow burn tropes that I haven't seen recently as we have, sadly, moved away from longer seasons and guaranteed renewals and once-a-week episodes into short, bingewatching, constantly-about-to-be-cancelled formats. I don't necessarily blame people for not recognizing. I certainly don't blame singed and exhausted queer shippers from being unsure. But I admit it is quite the vindication to see that I was right to compare Buddie to seasons-long slowburns that we've gotten with straight couples for decades.
I'm so glad that I could help validate your own feelings. I feel season three was truly the testing ground for Buddie and season four they went in fully prepared to make it canon, and have just been forcibly delayed since then. It's been a frustrating experience at times, and disheartening. We never would've gotten canon on FOX, we would've gotten canon in season four/five like originally planned if they'd been on ABC... etc.
So it warms me to know that with all the ups and downs you felt that my meta and observations could help support your own feelings and be a reassurance. That truly means a lot to me. I feel we're genuinely in the home stretch and it fills me with buoyancy. I'm all floating and giggling ha ha.
Investing in that clown makeup was SO worth it! *honks my big red nose*
#lincoln answers things#hail-the-underdogs#your url feels especially apt today dear ha ha#911 meta#it ain't over 'til it's over#but at this point if we don't go canon#it will be because of something major and possibly last-minute BTS#and it will be obvious to us the viewers that is the case#I think at the very very VERY least#we will see Buck admit that he has feelings for Eddie and come to terms with that#Eddie is more of an enigma right now#I think we're going to get him having a season five breakdown redux#only actually admit to feelings for Buck this time#it would not surprise me if Buck went to Texas#no longer the 'settler' as he himself has stated he always has been#not waiting for his love to come home like he did with Abby#but actively chasing what he wants and saying I deserve this I deserve you and y'know what you deserve me#and showing up and telling Eddie how he feels and saying c'mon let me take you and Chris home#however it also would not surprise me if Eddie said 'fuck it' and chose happiness#chose what he wants realizing that if he does what makes him happy#without guilt or remorse or hiding#it will actually also be good for his son#because his son can't be happy and fulfilled when his parent is unhappy and unfulfilled#and if Eddie told Chris we're going home to LA and we're going to Buck#and if he showed up at Buck's (which is also Eddie's) doorstep#and said hey we're home we're here to stay also I'm in love with you#we have lots of options but those are my two guesses! either way preceded by Eddie breaking down a la season five
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Hi, also diagnosed traumagenic system here o/
Someone's already linked our document of sources for endogenic systems,
So we'll just try to answer this a bit
-"a system is caused by a TRAUMA DISORDER. you cannot "make up" your own system because they need formation from TRAUMA."
The definition of an endogenic system is a system that formed without trauma, or from something other than trauma. Nothing about CDDs. They're just plural. You're correct that systems can be caused by trauma disorders, of course, but that's not and never has been the only thing they're caused by.
Some endogenic systems have trauma, just know they weren't formed from it. A lot of the time they've seen professionals about it, who've agreed with them. Some endogenic systems even have a CDD, often because of their trauma, like how some traumagenic systems don't have a CDD.
Link 1 - "The current system surrounding DID/Other Specified Dissociative Disorder (OSDD) being the focus within mental health support is not adequate or appropriate for those who do not feel they fit within the diagnostic criteria used. These diagnostic terms are also synonymous with the experience of ‘disorder’ or ‘distress’, which was not always seen as relevant for the respondents"
Link 2 - "many individuals do not meet clinical criteria as a result of a lack of negative impairment; however, they do align with other descriptors of dissociative experiences. Thus, there is a need to understand the wide spectrum of experiences multiplicity encompasses to consider how an awareness of multiplicity can exist outside of an illness model"
Link 3 - "Plural experiences are not limited to tulpas and dissociative disorders. In fact, when the diversity of plural experience is considered, multiplicity may seem to be less of an extraordinary achievement and more of a fundamentally human experience. Many fiction writers, for example, report that the characters of their design seem to come to life in their heads, behaving autonomously and being perceived as full-fledged consciousnesses. Religious individuals of faiths where the God, Gods, or spirits they believe in can interact with them to a degree report similar phenomena, regardless of their specific religion or culture. There are also online communities tangential to tulpas where members report being plural as long as they can remember, but do not experience uncontrolled dissociation. And, of course, there is also tulpamancy. Tulpamancy is one way to willfully create new identities. It is a means to become plural."
Link 4 - “Plurality and dissociative identity disorder are not exactly the same. Being plural, or having two or more people existing in one body or space, is just one part of the diagnosis of dissociative identity disorder. Many people who are plural do not experience distress from the existence of others within themselves although dissociative identity disorder and plurality are frequently associated with trauma, there are those who are plural and report no history of trauma. The case presentation in this chapter describes someone with severe trauma, but this is not a definitive or universal reason for the existence of plurality”
"this is not a fun disorder." "this is not something for you to glorify."
No, it's not fun, and that's why non-disordered endogenic systems aren't saying they have a disorder. They can't glorify something they're not saying they have
"i'm kind of sick of all these hardcore endo-defenders who have absolutely no idea what being a system is like"
Hey so this is fake-claiming pro-endo traumagenic systems. We discover lost time constantly. We're missing 16 years of memories that we're never going to get back. We dissociate, have flashbacks, have PTSD and CPTSD, experienced abuse, forget who we are, and all the shitty parts of the dissociative and trauma disorders that we are diagnosed with.
We are a real system, and our experience is that medical professionals and medical books support the existence of endogenic systems.
We'd add a bit more but we're a little busy, though if you have questions we're happy to answer them
-Desmond
might end up deleting this post because i've never been much of a discourse person online but part of me wants to rant right now. y'all know that endogenic systems are not an identity like a physical alterhuman is right?? you guys are aware of this right?
a system is caused by a TRAUMA DISORDER. you cannot "make up" your own system because they need formation from TRAUMA. systems formed through trauma, even if they don't remember the trauma, are traumagenic, and not endogenic. this is common medical knowledge if you were to actually look into DID or OSDD or any other system trauma disorders.
this is not a fun disorder. this is not an identity thing you can just decide to have, and it's not an "alterhuman identity" on it's own. this is not something for you to glorify. it's similar to deciding you have autism because you want to have autism, because it's "cool" and "in" online/on tiktok (i am NOT bashing on self-diagnosis, for the piss on the poor part of the website). this is absolutely not how it works, and frankly, i'm kind of sick of all these hardcore endo-defenders who have absolutely no idea what being a system is like, or any components making it up. my lost time is scary, and my lack of memories that other people have can be a very difficult thing to live with. listen to some real systems and their experiences, please. or at the very least look into any sort of medical book like the DSM-5...
- sincerely, a long-time diagnosed traumagenic system.
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if you could add the werehog to one game he wasn't in, which one would it be and why?
this isnt even a game i would consider one of my favorites but honestly sonic generations is the big one coming to mind right now. because if they were to bring the werehog back for just One game id like for it to be done in a way that makes sense for the story being told/the gimmick of the game and out of all my already existing options i think the one where the whole deal is celebrating sonics history and revisiting past games would be a good fit . and i dont think this hypothetical version of the game should be heavily werehog focused since its meant to be celebrating the series as a whole and too much unleashed stuff might feel weird/out of place but maybe they could make it where the time eater thing allows sonic to use some old one-off abilities associated with certain games and werehog is one of them . like maybe rooftop run act 2 is a nighttime stage now . idk if thats a good idea im just talking here
also i think it would be fun to get to see more of sonics friends interact with him as a werehog and sonic generations has a lot of characters in it
#i Have thought before about what could happen in other stories if the werehog was there#but thats more in the context of ''what if sonic never lost the werehog form in the first place'' which is obviously not the case in canon#and also not what we're talking about#so again im trying to think of a game where theres an obvious easy opportunity to bring it back temporarily#in a way that fits the game to a degree and also doesnt feel too repetitive when unleashed already exists#(not that i wouldnt Like to see a werehog focused story where sonic has to deal with that whole thing coming back#i just think maybe it would work better in the form of a comic or animated short or something over a game)#asks#a downside though is sonic generations is kinda nothing in terms of story so there wouldnt be much done with it in that department#but also like i said . i wouldnt make the werehog a major focus in this version of the game anyway#also when i say sonic generations isnt one i would consider a favorite im talking about sonic generations.#shadow generations is a different story . i love shadow generations
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we need to learn to breathe and relax and slow down. we're managing to do it now after reminding ourselves (and deleting multiple posts we were going to make originally). emotions get so intense, especially when they're bolstered by anger. we need to learn how to remind ourselves that no matter what others think, their thoughts are nothing to our self-perception, because they are not us.
(kind of hard to keep track of that last bit when we struggle to define "us" vs "other", but trying is better than nothing even when it's hard?)
#it's me#tw vent#we get so deeply fucking pissed off when people say things that imply they think we're delusional#or when we see them say things that lets us know they would think we're delusional if they knew us#we're *this* close to dropping CL/CZ as a term right now but we know we're probably overreacting because night time and anger#it feels like our skin is eating itself from the sheer hunger and wrath#we're a werecanid. a werebeast. right now we're a werewolf. what other people think won't change that.#and if they piss us off bad enough we can block them and never have to think about it again.#almost miss the days of calling ourselves a p-shifter because at least back then we didn't have to deal with people treating us as though--#--we were delusional AND belittling us at the same time.#they'd just treat us like we were delusional and evil instead lol#and one of those is way easier for the npd to handle because one of those respects the autonomy and power we have#we can't STAND people treating us as though we're helpless. as though we can't decide what's good for ourselves because of our schizophreni#CL/CZ were coined as delusional misidentification syndromes yes. it's *also* a label that is forcefully applied to us by humans#and it is easier for us to use in that way specifically because it means we're not fighting as much#but fuck man. some day someone in the street is going to see us for what we are and will fear and will fear greatly after seeing their--#--first ever werewolf (or whatever we are in that moment. probably wolf or coywolf.)#we just have to hang onto knowing that day will come and we will be fucking vindicated
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the bittersweet but absolute flood of relief that comes from admitting defeat at living independently, to have to move back in with parents. we tried! we gave it our best shot for almost 3 years! but living like this (being on our own) is just not possible for us at this time of our lives. we've finally proved it to ourselves that we can't do it. it'll be okay to let ourselves rest now
#latimers parents not mine!!!! i am NOT moving back to florida LOL#really hope that the changes will be good for my mental health. this apartment is toxic to us#ive been on the verge of meltdowns Kind Of A Lot lately. imnot doing great#extremely dependent on substances. just to reach a baseline level of functioning. but even that isnt working as much anymore#the only things i do on my phone or tablet these days is like. 2 mobile games. and skirting past my dms to check latimers blog#its too overwhelming to even open discord these days yknow. everything on earth is too much for me right meow#i havent been drawing i havent been social online OR irl i havent been cooking or creating#i havent been keeping up with personal hygiene like at all im particularly ashamed about that one#i've been really bad about doing my T the past few months which is a HUGE shame because im SO fucking hyped to be on it#theres just. too many obstacles in getting it done half the time. and the other half of the time i just forget#anyway. anyway.#our lease ends in july so between now and then we're just gonna try our best to tolerate our living situation enough to get by#there's a light at the end of the tunnel. and its called 'i only have to be in charge of like 2 rooms at most. and not a household!'#we're gonna try to slowly comb through all our things between now and then so the process of moving wont suck as bad#cuz listen. its pretty fucking bad right now#maybe not for other people. but it is for me. and its okay to let myself come to terms with that#im just. so relieved. still very stressed! but theres at least light at the end of the tunnel and its only like 2 months away#ill be able to draw guilt-free again. ill be able to just EXIST guilt-free#i dont think ive felt guilt-free for just existing the way i do since like. turning 20#i know my mom wouldve loved if i stayed home forever. and im sad i cant be there for her#but ever since i had a fight with my dad at 15 or 16 it just really felt like he didnt want me there more and more#maybe as the youngest he was resenting that i was preventing him from becoming an empty nester or something. i dont know#because all the other kids had been moved out and on their own at least once but i had never left home before#i dont know if he'd be heartbroken or not to hear that i feeling like he was resenting me. but thats the energy i was picking up for years#i dunno. i dont know#anyway. back to housing. for now im going to try to relax and store energy for the moving process#the huge pile of things by the kitchen? i dont have to worry about that becoming permanent because we're leaving in 2 months#the general discord of the state of our possessions? we have to go through everything to pack it all anyway. we can move in RIGHT this time#when we moved in here we didnt have a car or license so we were dependent on latimers 3-hr-drive-away parents to help us move#just /across town/. and we had a whole month between leases! but it still had to be done in a weekend
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idk how to even like. put this pain into words and i would normally vent about this shit on twitter, but the person its about follows me on there so like. anybody have skills for coping with the crushing realization that the person u love most in this world and have built ur life around sees ur current situation together as a temporary hurdle that's preventing them from their truest and happiest self which. is separate from u entirely? anyone know how to deal with this?
#live with my best friend in the whole entire world who. honest to god makes me the happiest person alive.#like im always waxing poetic about her in the tags on posts about platonic love#and i talk about her like she put the stars in the skies because for real it feels like she did for me#she is. the most important person in my life#and every day i feel grateful just to come home and sit with her#like honest to god i cannot imagine a future that is better than this#if i have a bad day i get to come home and my best friend in the world will make me laugh#what more could i ever ask for#but tonight we talked and she made it abundantly clear that. even if i do everything right#even if i'm the perfect roommate and the best friend i can be#in just over a year#when she's making enough money for it#she plans on moving into a place of her own#which like. makes sense for her. of course we were going to get to this point.#but i just. don't know what i'm going to do.#and it kills me that we're on different pages because for some reason i thought this was a long term thing#i thought we were going to move into a house together#i was just telling my coworker this week that we need to move into our forever home soon which was partially a joke#but also. even if i was making a million dollars a year.#i would still want to be here. with her.#or somewhere else. with her.#like it's so hard to imagine a future without her. it breaks my heart and scares the shit out of me.#and i know i can't afford it here. and i can't move in with strangers. and i'm working my dream job but i'm scared that i'm going to have t#give it all up and move back east because. i can't do this alone. and she's all i have. and all i ever wanted.#and she's leaving.#she doesn't want to be with me.#sry this is so fucking. ugh. idk. i just don't know what to do.#for real might just drop everything and move to chicago if it comes down to it ksdkfljdfs#its what sufjan would have wanted#fucked up terrible no good week
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Dammit heart why are you like this ik she's like the exact damn girl you would've thought up to be as attractive and friend as humanly possible to me but you still don't have to be this whiny about it.
#yknow i was pretty settled on thinking i was aro for a few years there and um now lets just say there are questions#like idk ive been sexually attracted to close friends before and this is different#but on the other hand does it fucking matter because we're not gonna be a thing longterm#and holy shit am i having a hard time coping with that#i figure ill get over it i have before#but on the other hand idk ive been so lonely and she came back into my life and i was naïve enough to think#that we'd live together and be a thing long-term and that things were going to be okay and id found someone i could be with forever#and that meant so much to me as someone who's always feared being alone and being aro and living in such an allonormative society#as well as heteronormative and mononormative(?) and generally not cool with deviations from the nuclear family#and i thought that yknow ill still have trouble finding friends prob but ill have someone i can come home to be with at the end of the day#and then ofc reality happened#fuck man i see why allo people are so fussed about breakups now#oh yeah btw irls if you know who this is about just like idk dont tell her this i want to communicate some of this to her myself#and the other parts frankly i dont want to share because itd feel manipulative#so yeah i love her#oh and if anyone has read this far an encouraging dm is more than welcome
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and btw im in my hater arc rn. as time goes on the more i find a lot of 'fandom' stuff insufferable (i like art n stuff. just the way that fandom refits every media to fit a single mold and set of boring archetypes is exhausting.)
i just get really easily annoyed lately. and have been unfollowing people on a whim a lot. its not personal i promise
#fandom culture has made me actively dislike shit i was fixated on a year ago. looking at your ninja turtles#its not even like what they were doing were particularly offensive it was just exhaustingly boring#im sorry i just really dont care about ur 2 million fics about leo being a sadboy. or one million seperated aus.#theres definetly a part of the whole situation in general which has been me coming to terms with my own internalized misogny#actively re-examining my tendencys to gravity towards male characters#idk maybe its making me dislike art more. but idk. ive always analyzed why i react certain ways to certain things. this isnt new for me#anywaays. i had been following a bunch of ninja turtle blogs and they sorta kept messing around with shows like ninjago too#and at some point i was just like. i dont know if these shows are actually that good guys. i think youjust like shows for little boys#and fandoms tend to shaft female chars so it sure helps that their casts are 98% male .#maybe theyre not your blorbo maybe theyre just Guy McAverageMan. thats not inherently bad but you have to consider it.#guys rottmnt is isnt even that good . its not that good ok. its alright/pretty good. and the movie does a few neat things#i feel like ive become one of those people that turn 18 and then immediately go 'minors dni'. im not there yet but i just.#we're watching kids shows. its ok . you can say it.#you may have noticed ive been reblogging a lot of dungeon meshi stuff. i read it all over the past week.#but here's the thing. i thought it was mid/good for like 70% of it.#i think its got some really really cool worldbuilding ideas and stuff#but i think a lot of the writing was sorta. uninteresting to me.#my discord friends have been raving over izutsumi for months.#but i found her presence in the story to be weird and underdeveloped. she felt out of place and her introduction felt clumsy#i felt when the story was ramping up the manga got a lot better. because again theres some rlly cool ideas at play#all the shit with the lion? incredible. the way all the infighting led to more problems bc the elves refuse to explain anything? rlly good.#marcille landing in power? reallly good shit. (i still thought it was a lil undercooked still tho)#i cant stop thinking about laios in that climax scene. i think he shouldve been feral a lot more often#uhh. i got distracted. fandom bad and annoying.#saw a post talking about marcille realizing izutsumi is only 17 and then describing how 'omg shes a mom now' and i wanted to throw up#im done. i swear. im done talking for real. aagh#text
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#so that dotd rewrite is out and i have some thoughts on it but i wouldn't know where to put them.. maybe in here bc i don't actually feel -#- like making a whole ass text post. this is coming from me as criticism and not hate.. just some crit from one fan to another if you get m#SPOILERS AHEAD >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>#first off props to the team because this was obv a labor of love - 4 and a half years to make a feature long fan movie is hard work#and the animated stuff was a really nice touch and very commendable - you don't see them too often in big fanworks#in terms of the story well.. there are some things i like and some things that i don't (personally) again no hate#i'm aware this is a rewrite and boy howdy it IS a rewrite - though i am a bit sad that percy doesn't end up being the protagonist and it's#- thomas that has to play hero again.. like i kinda get it but what made the original dotd stand out was that percy was given the spotlight#so i spent an ungodly amount of time wondering when percy was gonna take charge or step into the main story to resolve the problem.. sigh#i liked that they tried to give norman more of a character bc a lot of characters do often get neglected in the series but it was kind of -#- hard to sell that for me? the twist in this rewrite was very creative and i do appreciate it but i guess it just ain't for me#“different” is ok and this is just one of many fan rewrites for this particular story#if there was something i enjoyed.. i guess the beginning was still kind of exciting because the set up was honestly like hype a bit#i liked that diesel and d10 actually got to interact face to face and there are clearer dynamics established for the diesels#and also. silverband's performances as d10 will always be fun he does a fantastic job voicing him (how d10 stole xmas will still be my fav)#my criticisms for this movie also derive from the pacing and the voice acting - i found it hard to try and understand tones sometimes -#- because the delivery felt so off.. like don't get me wrong not everyone in the fandom is a voice actor but if we're using static faces -#- for these fan works the delivery has to be a little more clear or else it'll sound like you're reading from a script.. sorry yall :"|#for the pacing i found it a bit hard to parse when some things were going on and how fast things were progressing#as well as the crashes.. that's also another thing bc i couldn't tell bc of the sfx and audio balancing - it could be better..#i wanna say. muffled voices do not substitute for a “far away”/off-screen voice bc i still can't hear it :“|#there were a lot of throwbacks and references to older thomas media/movies but some of them felt a little.. much?#if this is a dotd rewrite why are we getting some parallels with tatmr.. but i digress. at least they made diesel beef with duck a bit#there's a lot more i could say but i'm keeping those to myself. at the end of the day this fan movie was hard work for everyone involved#and you can tell some of the folks were having fun in there - props to them! i'm always glad to see more fan works in the community#we've come so far we're making feature length fan stories and rewrites that's crazy! i hope to see more in the future#fauxtrainpost.txt
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I think... people should cultivate a skeptical, questioning mentality towards news reporting, and perhaps especially if that reporting confirms your worldview.
#and like I get it--it's hard! and requires a lot of effort!#and it doesn't feel good to feel confused and not sure what's true and what's not#or to have a conviction shaken or to have actors working towards a goal you share commit actions you don't agree with#it's so much easier and comforting to settle into an understandable narrative that casts things in black and white terms#but if we're being honest with ourselves it's never that simple#people are complicated and messy and contradictory (aren't you?)#and systems--made by people--are complicated and messy and contradictory#and no. holding space for nuance does not equal “centrism” or “both sider-ism”#you can maintain a strong stance while acknowledging complexity#but to cast any information that complicates or contradicts your world-view as 'propaganda' or lies is intellectually dishonest#it might not be true--and perhaps verifiably so!#but it also could be true--and until proven one way or another we just don't know!#and truth should always always always come before ideology#because at the end of the day it is the truth that matters
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