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The Finale!
Or, start at the beginning.
Summary: Having been forced to bear witness to his parent's toxic soulmate bond, Eddie Munson promises himself he will never fall in love. Promises himself he will never curse another with the touch that will bind his soul to theirs, promises himself to never let another do the same to him in return. But in the spring of 1986, when Chrissy Cunningham is murdered in front of him, breaking those exact promises may prove to be what saves him. Excerpt: Eddie Munson is lucky for a lot of reasons. Lucky to be alive, he’s sure. Going off of the heavy bandages on his arms. The ones he can feel on his back and legs. Lucky for the friends whose words he has clutched tightly between his fingers. Lucky for Wayne. Lucky, though, more than anything, to have Steve Harrington as his. The thought ignites his chest. His. Their night on Steve’s couch far from forgotten as Eddie remembers the ardent way Steve had avowed that he’s Eddie’s. Forever.
Nothing in his life has ever been forever. Not his parents. Not his home. Not his schools. Even with Wayne he’d always felt balanced on the razors edge, on the precipice of CPS taking him away, of his dad’s release and subsequent ripping away from the only sense of stability he’d ever known. Steve sniffles again, shifting, his head bobbing to expose the other side of his face, and— At first Eddie thinks it’s moonlight. But Steve shifts further, and the marking on his cheek doesn’t move along with the rest. Too unnatural for moonlight, the marks across his cheeks are circular, small, framing—framing— A palm print. Eddie’s palm print. His fingertips had left framing circles around his palm print on Steve’s cheek—and it looks like moonlight. A radiant, iridescent white against his tanned skin like Eddie left the glow of the night across Steve’s face. He very nearly starts crying all over again. Feels his throat constrict as he looks at the bright, nearly luminescent marks on the side of Steve’s face—and he’s beautiful. He’s so beautiful it hurts, and the nagging worry—his anxiety that he’d left Steve with something horrible scarred across his cheek—dissipates. Because he hadn’t. It’s not red. It’s not green. It’s him. Both of them: the sun and the moon.
And now I get the privilege of thanking my betas, one last time: @ghostdeb and @theheadlessphilosopher. I couldn't have done it without you both 💗
And thank you to my friend, @hitlikehammers, who held my hand and gave me such amazing advice throughout this entire process. This fic would not exist as it is without you ✨
And, one last time, tag list: @littlewildflowerkitten @finntheehumaneater @hbyrde36 @hotluncheddie @sleepy-steve @starryeyedjanai @babydollbaron @thefreakandthehair @steddie-island @acasualcrossfade @stevespookington @devondespresso @littlewildflowerkitten @chaotic-waffle @westifer-dead @perseus-notjackson @finntheehumaneater @hellfirebaby-86 @spectrum-spectre @itsall-taken @marvel-ous-m @bookworm0690
(Permanent tag list, I'm adding you because this fic is now complete. My apologies if you're sick and tired of these posts 😂🫶)
#steddie#stobin#steve harrington#eddie munson#steddie fic#soulmates#fluff#domestic fluff#first kiss#trans eddie munson#leigh writes#god this fic has been the last 6 months of my life#it feels... very strange#to be posting the final chapters#thank you to everyone who has followed along with this#i appreciate you all so much#💗✨💗✨💗✨💗✨
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SUNSETS ON MARS
#ena#ena dream bbq#dream bbq#ena fanart#dream bbq fanart#ena joel g#rameiixo#peculiar feelings associated with a peculiar game#these colors make me feel strange so i have to keep them!!#the wispies are distorted official eva art set on difference/exclusion#i wasnt even very proud of this ;; i think it’s always lovely when peoples’ support makes you more excited about the thing you created
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I drew some creatures for an exhibition at beloved local queer bar the Bearded Tit, loosely based on my fellow bar-goers.
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my blorbo from 2015
#artists on tumblr#nyo prussia#hetalia#nyotalia#my art#procreate art#digital art#feels strange using those tags in the year of 2025 lol. I wanted to see how she'd look if I drew her now. I used to draw her a LOT#she was practically my OC at one point#I'll be back to my hedgehogposting very soon dw
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and yet he is not the blind one
#art#s.t.a.l.k.e.r art#s.t.a.l.k.e.r. game#s.t.a.l.k.e.r. 2#s.t.a.l.k.e.r. faust#I have... strange opinions about him. I like the concept and he's a very intimidating enemy bc of who he ACTUALLY is... and i like that#and he has a very good boss fight ost that makes him even more scarier props for that too#but then he just fills me with rage. What he's doing and what he believes in like an actual person just makes me go nuts. although there ar#-worse things like SIRCAA#poor strider#poor everyone actually. anyone who stood near Faust i feel sorry for you
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The real reason Oda had to get rid of her was not for plot convenience, but bc she would have kicked everyone’s ass. (Source: trust me bro)
#Art block auggh but must draw pretty lady aauugghh#also fr thought you mean to tell me this lady with the D. in her name wasn’t out here being an absolute menace#like I feel like she and Roger had to be in the same wavelength of fuckass crazy like cmon now#Rouge and Roger backstory when? (I am delusional)#also her being portrayed as this saintly dead mother figure feels very strange to me. boo to women being killed for plot convenience🍅🍅#also I really tried to draw her similar to how I draw ace bc he is literally a mammas boy#copy and paste of his mom with his dads hair#AGGGHH I NEED MORE OF HERR#AND IF I CANT HAVE MORE I WILL MAKE MORE💥💥#art#digital art#my art#fanart#drawing#digital illustration#one piece#portgas d ace#portgas d rouge#rouge#op#one piece fanart
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... and then he sewed him into his DNA.
#rendog#treebark#trafficblr#itlw fanart#life series fanart#inthelittlewood#rendog fanart#wild life smp#wild life fanart#trafficshipping#<-kinda not really#martyn inthelittlewood#inthelittlewood fanart#<-but also not really#he's theretyn#ren my beloved <3#if you feel the pose i drew ren in is strangely familiar no you dont#and if you feel you might have seen the text in the dialogue bubble before no you have not#this is very self indulgent
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Peepaw Starlo struggles. Autism 2 autism communication struggles.
#undertale yellow#uty#uty au#lucky clover au#frisk ut#starlo uty#ceroba uty#martlet uty#dalv uty#feisty four uty#the cowboy hat draws#FALLS OVER. THIS TOOK OVER A MONTH.#Mostly because of being busy IRL but also because I decided on a new rendering method#Aaaand it was ten times as time consuming and I don't like the end result at all. LMAO. You live and learn I suppose#I hope this is comprehensible um. I think a lot about Starlo being so used to understanding Clover easily and being one of their favorites#And going to Frisk and 1. not really understanding how they communicate and 2. feeling like he isn't their favorite LOL#Idk how well that reads but! Peepaw Starlo musings#Starlo tries his best and doesn't always get it right but he's in a better place now#I know Clover's absence feels very strange here but I just couldn't find a place to put them oops.#Drawing this made me realize I really gotta practice my backgrounds. Hough. Definitely in the new year!#Also I haven't played poker in years so anything that's wrong? Uh monster poker is different. Yup. Thumbs up emoji
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Two Peas in a Pod: part 2/?
*slips another piece into your mailbox*
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Jazz was still feeling a little woozy from his donation in the dark hours of the morning. Blaster had breakfast changed from the usual to something that felt more like a treat, probably a reward for his good behaviour, and to help his body recover. Fish heavy in proteins, fat, all that healthy stuff. Something that normally he would have tried to savour, but he wolfed it down from excitement. Too many questions ran through his head, and most he couldn't bring himself to voice.
The mer, the mer would pull through. Blaster told him about how he had saved their life with his blood. Praised him high and low. Because Blaster knew how Jazz felt about seeing blood, about how hard blood tests were for him, and that was only a tiny vial. Not three big bags of it. Jazz hadn't seen how much they had taken – because he had kept his eye closed until they left in a hurry –, and hearing about it made him dizzy for other reasons, but he honestly felt real proud of himself.
It was a new feeling, different from other moments of pride – like when he figured out the lock codes. Yeah, this gave him butterflies and the drive to help more.
Blaster laughed when Jazz offered that the vets could take more if the other mer needed it. His handler didn't think it would be, but he would pass it on to the vet team.
Jazz's morning checks were a little off, expected with having a little less fluids and feeling off-balance, but it was kept short and quick. Blaster told him that if he learned anything more, he'd tell him next time he came by and then hurried back down to the staff area. Blaster was needed elsewhere, understandably as there weren't many mer experts here, though he did leave Jazz his waterproof stereo if he wanted to play some of his favourites.
But, the orca mer was far too busy causing a whirlpool from the laps he was swimming. He was too excited to sit still, and embarrassment be damned he started practising old vocals. He didn't remember much of his mother tongue, and he was pretty sure that his pronunciation was off, that or had one hell of an accent. Echo-speech was even more rusty. And once he had gone over and over what he could recall, Jazz began to really worry. A few sentences and handful or so of words was all he had? Gods, I hope I can at least make a decent first impression. Blaster said they were just like me, so hopefully, that will give me some starting points.
More than he cared to count, Jazz would swim into the shallow waters of the medical bay and hope to see something through that window. But no one ever came close enough for him to hear any news of the mer. He couldn't even see anything on his radar, wherever they had done treatment, it wasn't in the hospital ward. It almost felt like he was being purposely kept in the dark.
And just when Jazz was starting to worry that things had taken a bad turn, a group of staff turned up around four pm. He wasn't able to ask any questions, or rather they refused to answer. Shooing him away as they got to work. Starting with closing the gate to the bay to 'keep him out'. Jazz could easily climb those walls, but that wasn't the point. Even if the gate window was closed, he could pick up that they were setting up the water hammock. But it wasn't until he heard the cautionary beeping of the hoist lift approaching that it dawned on him – the mer was coming. Now.
"Jazz," Blaster called, "… Jazz," he blew the training whistle and finally got his mer's attention. "Stop pacing and get over here."
"But–" Jazz looked back longingly up the wall.
"Jazz," his tone dropped to a firm one, and Jazz begrudgingly swam over to the pier. The human crouched and made sure that they held eye contact before he spoke. "I need you to promise me that you will stay in your enclosure."
He sunk a little, trying to play into his cuteness, but being far too anxious to really pull it off. "What do you mean?"
"Jazz," now warning him. Blaster knew full well that he was more than capable of getting into or out of places he shouldn't, bloody Houdini mermaid, "this is serious. Things are going well, we want to keep it that way. Which means keeping things calm and feeling safe. You're excited, I get it, we all are. But in about an hour, they'll be waking up and – from past experience seen with wild Mers – they will likely freak out. And the last thing we need is you hauling your tail over that wall and making things worse. Understand?"
The beeping was louder how and the hiss of hydraulics caused Jazz to look up. The arm of the lift was visible over the wall. They're here!
"Jazz," Blaster hopelessly called for his attention once more.
Within moments, a massive bundle was carefully raised, the staff calling out and coordinating. Jazz's gaze was fixed on the black and white fluke poking out, it was the only part of them he could see, and his heart began to race. Once they became hidden by the wall again, Jazz moved back to pacing by the gate without even thinking. Listening to people hopping into the water to unstrap the mer and call back n' forth. "Careful, careful! – Watch the head! – Someone give me a hand over here! – We're clear on this side! – Keep the head up!"
Really starting to sound like a broken record, Blaster chirped the whistle and called out to him again. The expression he wore must have been pretty pitiful because the look on Blaster's face dropped. "If I open the view port… will you promise me that you will wait, that you will stay in your enclosure?"
"I promise," he answered hastily, placing his hands on the gate, over the panel that would slide open.
"And that you will wait until everything is in the clear, till the staff come to oversee the integration. There will be no rushing things and no asking staff when we will open the gate."
"I promise," he repeated, trying not to beg.
Satisfied, Blaster pulled out his radio, "Blaster to Control; when the team is out of the Mer enclosure's medical bay, open the view port. Jazz's stress is mounting without a visual."
"Can do," came a quick reply.
Though, opening the panel was not. Several minutes went by, the hoist had cleared out, and much of the staff had returned to their other duties. Only two remained double-checking the mer's breathing and pulse. The moment that the last of them left, Jazz heard the lock disengage, and he retracted his hands as the panel shifted and began to slide open. The window was too small to get more than his hand – maybe up to his elbow if he wanted to push it – through, and sat just at water level– any movement sending water hopping to either side. But it gave him a clear view of the surface area inside.
Oh.
Oh. Jazz stopped breathing. While the mer's body was mostly supported by the fabric of the hammock, cradling them on their side, effectively hiding most of them from Jazz's angle. Propped up on a soft floating platform was the mer's head, face towards the gate. Sharp features and elegantly shaped finials, with flattering lines of their markings complimenting the peaceful expression as they slept. The butterflies from earlier came back stronger than ever, his heart thundering as words fumbled from Jazz's lips, "he's beautiful…"
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-GLC
Orca Prowl really is just-- too fucking pretty, omg, I'm living through Jazz in this moment like when I first saw your designs of him.
I'm more than happy to continue writing for you, you bring me so much joy. I screamed when I saw how much you liked it. If you have any requests you would like me to add to the story, leave it in the tags or comments ♡ I now plan to continue until the tsunami and a bit afterwards, maybe more, we'll see~
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I'M ABOUT TO START PACING IN CIRCLES JUST LIKE JAZZ OVER HERE KDLCNFJFLFB PL E A S E THIS IS SO GOOD. The tension?? You can fucking TASTE it IT'S SO GREAT GLC I LOVE YOU
The way it all starts at night and then you (as a reader) have all this additional time to boil in your anticipation?? So fucking great. Like you can really feel how little power Jazz has over the wholse situation. The plot is moving but he doesn't have any saying in it. Well. Yet heheh

Anyway haha. Im normal and I made some art>:D

#apocalyptic ponyo#jazzprowl#jazz#prowl#blaster#ponyo jp writing#GLC#merformers#maccadam#transformers#damn imagine living your whole life with stupid dolphins and pretty much equally stupid captive merfolks#and then meeting a guy with an Engineering degree#must be wild~~~~#Wait I just realized. Those workers never had any experience with sapient merfolks besides Jazz#they all are like “he will freak out” but their understanding is based mostly on animals and captive mers#and those tend to become VERY stressed if they suddenly wake up in some new strange environment and discover they have a company#while with Prowl it would be the exact opposite I imagine??? omg. After all the time he was kept in those tiny ass temporary pools???#having no company besides humans who are constantly poking him and staring at him and making him take their weird medication an-#-d sometimes drugs if he acts aggressively?#like after all this shit???#I have a feeling he would see/hear other orca nearby and his first initial reaction would be OH THANK FUCK there's a company#orcas are very VERY social after all~#I got carried away haha. I LOVE THE FIC SO MUCH#MUAH#this is freaking amazing#.....damn okAY one more thought I just had#there's only a small window for them to look at each other#Prowl wouldn't properly see Jazz ehehehjfkfnfmfj. He would sorta kinda see him right. But then he would ACTUALLY look at him. like.#for the first time see his entire body? and Jazz looks SO wrong#Okay I'm done spamming haha
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I love rendering fantasy hair and skin colors because it's like, "what if there was a normal human skin/hair color but purple?" and I think that's neat.
#I'm already very enamored with regular human skin tones and hair colors#so fancy colors make me extra enamored#idk does that sound profoundly strange and odd?#It feels weird to say I'm enamored with skin#anyways#comic aurora#aurora comic#my art#alinua aurora#tarren aurora#are those their character tags? idk
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thinking abt how my therianthropy is such a casual part of me now. when i first realized i was nonhuman i thought that if i wasnt constantly thinking abt my theriotype and how unhappy i am abt physically being a human i was a faker and a fraud who just wanted to be special. but now i can confidently say "yeah im a wolf" without feeling like I need to prove myself to anyone.
#rainy.txt#feels good to be secure in my identity#this is just my experience as a therian btw everyone's experience being nonhuman is different#this is also why my blog tends to go through long periods of inactivity at random times#bc my therianthropy is just such a normal part of me i sort of forget abt it sometimes#which is strange bc i feel very “other” compared to the humans in my life but ive become used to the otherness#therian#therianthropy#wolf therian#cat therian#cladotherian#fox therian#otherkin#nonhuman#dog therian#dogkin#wolfkin#catkin#foxkin#alterhuman
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WE GOT ON SOME SORT OF NEWS?
#My favorite part is them calling us a throwback and early 2000s styled when i wasnt. on the internet back then#in fact i think the humor is very modern tumblr styled but anyhow feels so strange sealsdaily is big enough to have an article about it#mod ribbon#not daily#this is crazy im looking at the writer and they probably have a blog ehre and shit...posting about the food disgust test
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2024 art summary! it sure has been a year
#ever makes art#i bsky tweeted a bit but it feels weird talking there still so ill do my usual rambling into tags here :)c#i burned out super bad in the middle of this year for months where it felt like i couldnt draw anything good no matter how hard i tried#and the harder i tried the worst it felt - to the degree that i legitimately thought i wasnt going to be able to draw anything again#which sounds SO dramatic i know i know. but feelings arent always rational!!! and so many others things were going wrong at the same time#so it was strange putting together this year's art summary and realizing Huh. i did still have paintings to put in every space#that fear/anxiety spiral seems even sillier and more meaningless now that i have distance and proof of how irrational it was...#...but in reflection i'd like to think of it as proof that even when you feel at your worse it's worth it to keep trying...!!#after the Black Hole of Nothing i've been working every day on never ending doujin and xv anthology and orv sketchzine and merch#i can't say that i feel my artistic skills have like. improved or anything... but the passion i feel for the stories i read and#the stories i want to tell is still there!! and the happiness from getting to put form to those feelings large or small is worth it too#anyway......... lotta words to say tho i haven't posted much anymore and socmed is imploding and the world is dark#thank you very much for staying with me another year. i am - as ever - always grateful
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#im going to give you some advice today i think. you should strive to be uncomfortable at least once a week#not in a distressing way. you should try new things very often#its very nice in my opinion. ive come to enjoy the feeling of being in uncomfortable situations in strange enviorments#you do not truly learn anything if you stay comfortable. its fine to screw up yeah? the world doesnt end due to mistakes#or perceived mistakes for that matter. you should simply strive to try and fail many times without getting upset at yourself for it#because getting upset takes away from your achievements. it is better to start and stop than to never start at all#okay thats your advice today! :} hope you can take something from that hehe#sometimesanequine#equine art#horse art#my art
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been thinking about something wicked a little too much lately. no harm in romanticizing the ominous dreadful unstoppable force
#ultrakill#v1#v1cked#<- unsure if ive ever officially decided that was the tag id be using but i dont recall anyone else having an idea for it#v1 and something wicked... ouhehehe#in a game like this... with conflict and violence and unceasing demand for a spectacle it is a step back to have v1 find themselves in a-#dark and quiet labyrinth belonging to a force that scares even them#idk. i think about it. its so unlike everything v1 has gone through thus far (though albeit not much as 0-S is in prelude. but i assume-#-there was some killing before they decided to drop down)#maybe it reminds them of their home? where they were built? light humming of wicked passing feels like the buzzing of bright artificial-#-lights that were routinely shined down on them for maintenance#a strange but welcome connection...#and something wicked is very lonely. i dont think it has much of an issue with this seeing as it knows its maze so so well.. im sure it-#-cares for it extensively. but a machine? coming here? i wonder if something wicked has the ability to interact with the terminals at all#terminals do really only talk to machines#but this one seems quite lonely. i dont think itd mind if something wicked happened to take a look#ok im done#gen art
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it's just lucanis dellamorte and his little coffee cup against the (end of the) world out here




#do not speak to him or unleash the apocalypse until he's had his coffee!!!#I love him. he delights me on every level. he's such a strange little man and people don't realize just because he's also hot#I'm so glad I picked up on the very tired autistic malewife vibes so early on I feel like that helped my experience and understanding a lot#viago is standing next to him all mysterious and cool and lucanis is hunched over his morning coffee like a little gremlin <3#dragon age#dragon age: the veilguard#dragon age: the veilguard spoilers#dragon age spoilers#lucanis dellamorte#he's just had the first good sleep in like. two years here and is desperately in love AND he's got a cup of hot joe.#the sleep deprivation debuff has gone down like three stacks he's unstoppable now#in The funniest screencap in my collection of this scene he's just holding a ghost cup. but that ghost cup is cradled so tenderly#between his hands. like an innocent babe or the hand of a lover.#between that and rook stabbing a wedge of cheese all matter of factly like it's a perfectly normal thing to do... made for each other#weirdo4weirdo#see. people who complain that he's just coffee memes miss the point. it's the WAY he is the way he is and how consistently
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