#it simply is

[omnisentient]

Rafayel walks around commando under his robe sometimes.. when he's just rolled out of bed, mid morning, looking for just the right color of red for his painting. Robe loose around his waist, slightly swinging as he walks, poking through, carefree on his luscious island..

[merbear25]

Life has thrown its fair share of curve balls my way, some of which resulted in near death experiences.

When I was a teenager, I remember being so angry with God for letting me live. I was told he was a merciful God, so I interpreted his refusal to end my suffering as blatant cruelty.

I thought that I had to live up to some great purpose, that I couldn't have just been spared without such a reason. However, each close run-in with death following left me feeling more and more distant from the pressure I was putting on myself. The anger I held towards God faded, because I started to realize that none of those instances were my time.

I think about how the air smells, how the wind combs through my hair, the feel of the sun on my skin. Life is beautiful. Even when I struggle to find my way out of the darkness, those little things I once took for granted help ground me.

Maybe I'm just meant to experience the joy I never thought I would. No larger than life meaning to the days that rise and set, other than to enjoy them as they come.

These are just the thoughts that have been with me for many years and hopefully many more to come. No real purpose to share other than to simply do just that.

[bruised-punk]

Fuck it, Gerard Way’s your Maven Calore

(if ima do anything it’s give Maven his little heart-shaped bangs)

The reference picture:

[williamvapespeare]

i feel In Memoriam by Alice Winn coating the inside of my ribs like it's atrophied to my bones and i will never get it out it is constantly pounding me from the inside saying "hey! hey you!! feel!!!!" and then i DO

[buzzfella]

my favorite thing about the jeopardy tag is that its half people (mostly the same 3 people shout out) talking about jeopardy! the awesome quiz show and the other half is some guy with their oc. its like a little treat to get to scroll past i love it so much

[thinkingofthedas]

In war, victory. In peace, vigilance. In death, sacrifice.

I played Origins for the first time in middle school on the family computer in the computer room which was at the front of the house we lived in at the time. One of many houses and states and schools and friends. It was a rotating cycle of change that I wouldn't really begin to figure out how it might have affected me until... Now, ish.

This game became such a part of me. I think it was partially it's fault, and I also think it's because of every other part of my life that had and was yet to happen

I was always wrenched from my situation to another because of things, ultimately, out of my control. They were almost close enough that little me could feel like they were my fault. Sometimes it was such a relief to have an excuse and such a good reason, an inevitable reason, for running away.

I grew up and still feel on the outs in a way that very few people around me can ever seem to be on the same page with. Chronic health things, neurodivergence, queerness, all of it. Some people do. Some people get it, and you don't get to choose who gets it. And you don't get to choose who doesn't but stands by you the whole way anyway.... And it got me thinking

In war, victory

I always needed to justify existing... As me. Little things, social interactions, tests, ordering a sandwich in a restaurant, moving across the country. Those were all my own little wars. I made sure. I always won.

In peace, vigilance

I still can't shake the idea that if things are going well, the other shoe is about to drop. Everything is about to get bad and get so bad. It's always something damn near earth shattering, and it's always something that makes me feel the texture of the hand I was dealt.

In death, sacrifice

I never thought I'd make it this far. Each milestone is confusing and strange and good. But it is weird. Each year I'm alive feels like borrowed time towards the inevitable. Every bad thing that's ever happened, I do my best to make it something that can help other people. I've succeed. Not earth shatteringly and not every time. But, I've managed to win that too. If one person can be better or have a chance because of the ways I suffer, it can be worth it. It has to be worth it

In Origins, you're dead from the beginning. You start the game at the turning point that brings you past the point of no return. You can never go back. You can never change it. You can only go forward, and you can only go forward knowing you're already dead, just waiting.

And it's worth doing. It's all worth doing. You stop the blight. It has to be worth doing. It's not that it has to be worth living for. By whatever gods might exist, it has to be worth already having died for.

In war, victory. In peace, vigilance. In death, sacrifice

[desire-mona]

We r in the same time zone, which I find fascinating

It's like being in the same jelly bean bowl

hell yeah est buddies! u were up late!!! est best timezone btw

[pangolin-404]

buddy woulje be a servant of the stranger

[lemontartyellow]

It is an inevitability that I will eventually watch 911

[girlfriendsofthegalaxy]

got my ears repierced and i was focusing so hard on “do NOT stand up too fast CONTINUE to do sitting calf raises bc if u get lightheaded when u stand up everyone will freak the fuck out” that i barely noticed them being pierced. yay?

[lieutenant-sarcastic]

For Years my brother has been fucking with me by periodically texting me to say Jimmy Carter had finally died. Today the bit has paid off.

The response to my reaction at work was “what do you MEAN ‘for real this time’?????”

I fucking hate it here I’m crying

[tallsuperstar]

Breaking my several year harry potter silence just to say that in the Apollo Justice Trilogy, they removed the harry potter reference they originally had in the game. Which means that if you still consume hp content and talk about it, you are doing worse than fucking capcom

[bookwyrminspiration]

god I would be UNSTOPPABLE if I was capable of consistently initiating tasks. just you wait. you'll be waiting a while but just you wait

[cellarspider]

Shout-out especially to outsider characters that present things in a new light. Sometimes a different point of view on your pain is what you need to get a breakthrough.

not to go all cringe on main but fictional characters have genuinely helped me through some of the worst shit in my life n i’ll forever be grateful to fiction for giving me comfort when i’ve needed it most

[an-adhd-infested-nerd]

Let’s bask with mama