#it’s not that ur points are wrong or that ur invalid for ur thoughts

[saetoru]

About that entitled ass post about x reader, op was definitely wrong but a small point was made.

I agree with your response but I'd like to add that, unless you've stated that certain characteristics or features will be present in reader, certain kinds of ambiguity is necessary, especially in appearance.

To make a character completely void of any backstory or personality is just bad writing period but to add an appearance is a little ...

As a black reader, reading about certain things that are supposed to reflect the reader is genuinely disheartening. I'm talking about things like referencing imagery of lighter skin (such as refering to readers skin as pink, pale, creamy, etc) or something like a character running their fingers through the reader's hair or having a hair washing routine that can be done in the time it takes to have a regular shower. I know with people with big bodies, having descriptions of small, light bodies is also disheartening.

Bc, once again, unless it's been stated that those are a part of reader's appearance, it's a little unnecessary bc it shows that although it's x reader it's definitely not for us.

I don't expect writers to write about specific events or characteristics about different cultures and such bc that can also go south REAL quick if you aren't properly educated or aware but a little diversity never hurt anyone

I know that some people do this out of genuine dislike of darker skinned/bigger people but I know most people do it out of genuine ignorance.

Unfortunately, you cannot bring up including people who don't fit typical beauty standards (pale/light skinned, long straight hair, thin/slim bodies) without people telling you that not everyone has to cater to you.

But the thing is, we're not asking you to cater to us; we're just asking you to include us in your vision of reader. You don't need to add specifics of everything regarding different races or cultures but you don't need to add specifics that exclude them.

And then when we go to create our own stories that do envision us, we're met with so much hatred and backlash about it like that one deleted comment on op's post.

I'm sorry for ranting about this but it so frustrating sometimes when people don't understand this. I brought up something similar to this topic once before and got death threats in my mentions for weeks (that's why this is anonymous)

ALSO, I'm not accusing you of any of the things I've mentioned in this ask. Based on what I've read from your work so far, the reader is actually someone you can enjoy reading about without feeling excluded when appearances are mentioned

Btw I adore your rich boy gojo series and would love to continue reading your work ❤️

im afraid you missed my main point and also, u are talking to someone who is literally a POC so i am definitely not in need of a rundown of how important it is to write reader in a manner that does not perpetuate western beauty standards. writing a reader that is inclusive for people in a manner that doesn't solidify western norms is important, but writing a reader that is an all encompassing fit all type of thing in terms of personality and decision making is not

its not that their point ab mistagged gn! readers and white/western physical features weren't valid—it was, but it was sprinkled in their main point that writing reader with personality is an oc and is not belonging in the tags and writers should focus on writing generic hcs instead. they used the issue of race and gender and other minoroties to support their idea that readers have to be ambiguous from all fronts, and that is a very twisted way to use actual real issues to justify your tantrums ab not liking dialogue or what the reader chose to do. my point that i was trying to make is that writers are entitled to write however they please as long as they tag what features of reader are set there. if they mistag that, then yes, that is something you should bring to their attention (politely) because then it misleads ppl to think this fic includes them. but that also is not done through a rant in the tags because that does not belong in the tags

quite frankly, to pair racial and gender representation issues as comparable to not aligning with the choices a reader takes to develop as a character and to put those two on the same boat takes away from the issue of inclusivity. inclusivity of a reader does NOT equal to how they think, process, feel, and progress in the storyline. not fitting in with the actual character of reader is incomparable to racial representation issues and misgendering tags and etc. the latter are REAL issues. the first is simply complaining bc u did not see urself in a plot

the actual problem with their rant was that they were using REAL issues to justify entitled complaining and that is why i did not validate them in that. yes writing reader as white and not tagging it is an issue. yes giving little to no thought to poc readers in writing is an issue. yes mistagging something as gn! while using gendered terms is an issue. but they should not be the backbone to an entirely different argument that essentially censors people

[starrstruck-xx]

An In-depth Look on the Day of the Meteor Shower (The Necklace and The Sword)

a soriku endgame deep dive: part 2

This is part of my soriku endgame deep dive series, a series where i'll try to dissect everything and anything related to soriku.

Part 2 is going to be more of an analysis rather than a prediction. Specifically about the necklace theory, about Sora's and Riku's meteor shower memory. More specifically, my variation of the memory, and why I think it was Sora who made the promise first (with toy sword), then Riku made his vow back (necklace).

I'm not saying that other interpretations are invalid, this is just one other way to look at it. I will also be writing my opinions and thoughts on the matter, and how this version impacts sora and riku's relationship.

Start of Analysis

What actually happened

To start off, I want to say that I'm not a certified KH fan (a lot of things under my assumptions could be wrong), since I'm still considered to be somewhat a new fan (i got introduced to KH in 2019) and i haven’t actually played any game except 1/3 COM GBA. So take this with the grain of salt.

I assume that most fans believe the necklace theory memory goes as follows: Sora got scared of the meteor, Riku made his vow with his toy sword, Riku gave the necklace to Sora.

And I thought so too for a while because of Riku's heavy association with the word 'protect' and 'vow', but after reading multiple posts and thinking about it for a while, i think it goes more like this: Riku is upset (for reasons that is not the meteor shower), Sora cheers him with his toy sword (sora did not chew onto the actual matter, opting instead to make a promise, to be together with riku), Riku gave the necklace to Sora (riku then made his vow to protect sora).

For the longer version:

Riku got jealous when Sora's started to hang out with his new friends (Wakka, Tidus, and Selphie) and stormed off. Sora noticed that something is off and the FF gang sent him off to go catch after THAT GUY (aitsu). Sora and Riku argues, coincidentally a meteor shower started happening.

It’s probably a pretty scary experience for a 5 YO and a 6 YO who were standing alone on the islands at night at that time, and this situation might be more frightening than your usual meteor shower (given that it is chunks of a world being destroyed near the islands).

But even if he's scare to the point of tears, Sora still forces himself to put on a brave front for riku. He shakily assures Riku not to worry with the toy sword that he's holding. Sora promises to always be together (issho ni 一緒に) with him, to fight alongside him and to protect him.

In that moment Riku was probably really stunned at this kid, who’s such a crybaby at his core and stupid but brave at the same time and somehow managed to spark weird feelings inside of him. So Riku muttered a thanks, and gave his necklace to Sora, vowing to protect him and never let him go.

Why this version?

another disclaimer that my version could be wrong, but even with variations of details my key points are still: sora's promise is symbolized by his sword, riku by his necklace.

now let's actually get into the analysis!! (tbh this is just my reasoning on why i chose this, why i chose that etc)

AITSU: Destiny Islands

i based my interpretation on the aitsu scene of card destiny islands that happened in COM

Yes this infamous scene.

Every world on COM is a manifestation of Sora’s heart, so i believe the actual memory played out in a similar fashion with how this scene goes 

🔽 selphie wakka tidus urging sora to go meet THAT GUY (aitsu)

🔽 riku banter of "oh sora ur so pathetic without me"

🔽 sora finding namine here (in literal chaos -> meteor shower), “i finally found you!!”, namine (riku) clenches fist. And here sora brings his keyblade (sword) 

*and this is probably the closest thing we've ever got to a real life action scene of the necklace theory

riku’s psychology (pre-ddd)

a.k.a. why i think riku's promise is symbolized as sora's necklace, not sora's necklace + sword

Riku’s main flaw that I’m focusing here is his drive to be ‘the best’ which manifests in the form of his tendency to be possessive and being dishonest about his feelings

Via BBS, from a young age riku has already stated that he wants to ‘protect the things that matters’ (daiji na mono), hinting at his obsession for things (necklace and sora) that he holds dear to him. 

Sora recalls that namine had her paopu charm since she was a baby, which made sense that the necklace holds great importance to riku as a family heirloom, one of the ‘important stuff’ (daiji na mono) that he wants to protect.

This later aligns with how ‘things that matters’ evolved with riku’s character because at the night of the meteor shower:

riku’s ‘important stuff’ (daiji na mono), turns into -> ‘precious stuff’ (taisetsu na mono) referencing to sora / riku's heirloom that sora is holding onto, because now that object has multiplied the value of worth

and later to -> ‘precious person’ (taisetsu na hito), because riku finally realized 'the things that matters' or precious person is Sora, and by realizing that his love became more unconditional, because he is discarding himself (the necklace) in the process

(Beautiful no? I think so too)

And to add, this possessiveness is what caused him to go ballistic in the first place when he saw that 

Sora has the Kingdom Key (Riku is the original owner of said key; via nomura interview, riku is the light) 

Sora has discarded him AGAIN for his NEW friends: donald and goofy 

Riku thinks sora discarded him for real this time because other than new companions, for once Sora is better and stronger than Riku so he won’t need Riku anymore to protect him

Second, in KH1, Riku is described more as a cool, older guy, who teases sora a lot, and is better at everything than sora.

It is important to note that soriku dynamic KH1 is a bit different in comparison to it's KH3 counterpart. Although they both might look the same at front value, if you squint, KH3 riku became more of a reliable figure, giving guidance, protection, admiration, and a safe-space for sora

Unlike KH1 where it’s sora who’s more of a safe-space for riku because atp because riku masks his dislike and true feelings behind playful teasing and bantering, the most damning example: riku’s paopu scene, riku putting up a ‘cool guy’ front 24/7 non stop no break, and sanctuary is written for soriku renunion (yes this is true, you can search it up) which had reverse lyrics how cool is that.

*lyrics of sanctuary (KH2 Opening)

In KH3 you can see that both Riku’s actions and words are more genuine, he is actually honest about what he felt, and give honest encouragement to Sora, example his sacrifice scene at KB Graveyard (in english there's a slight mistranslation)

“Sora, I believe in you, you won’t give up”

Opposed to this which was previously used by Riku to motivate Sora in KH1 (example scene is sora's fight againts ansem in KH1 & roxas riku Days fight):

“Giving up already? Come on Sora, I thought you were stronger than that!”

*this is riku talking on screen

So following all of this, i’d say it’s more fitting if riku's vow is symbolized by necklace not sword because by this action:

The necklace is a way of saying that Riku entrust his heart / identity to Sora without explicitly saying it

A reminder for Riku for the precious vow that he made 

An implicit bind that Riku unconsciously forced on Sora that says together means TOGETHER FOREVER and that you can never escape from me EVER

Which: if riku is the one who first raised his sword to made his promise, it would be more of a ddd/kh3 riku thing and riku would not gave his necklace to sora because he would not want to bind sora to be forever with him as that is a selfish thing to do

Yes, Riku may also raise his sword to offer protection in that scene, but it was done after the necklace / vow is made on sora.

Sora’s association with the sword

Okay but does that actually changes anything?

Yes, because the promise is now mutual because its no longer just riku being unhealthily obsessed with Sora, it also goes the other way, via FF kids convo:

It also fits Sora’s character to dashingly comforts Riku with his words and assurance because if he doesn’t exactly understand what’s going on, Sora always managed to find his way around people’s heart

And, it also fits with Sora’s character issue, the tendency to mask and ignore things that really needed to be discussed with a happier, cheerful front in order to distract them from the actual problem.

Now for Sora = Toy Sword relation

Reminder that I don't play Kingdom Hearts so this is based on what I know, in Kingdom Hearts dive to the heart, there are 3 weapon types or path that you can choose to manipulate your stat, the dream shield, path of the guardian (goofy or riku), dream rod, path of the mystic (donald or kairi), or dream sword, path of the warrior (sora or mickey)

And then there’s also this panel during COM Riku Boss Fight II, when Sora reminisced about sparring with Riku. The sequence is Sora fades to his memories, an image of child sora with the toy sword is conjured, then sora spare with riku.

There is also the previously mentioned keyblade (sword) that Sora is holding when coming into contact with namine on card destiny island, when everything is surrounded by chaos (view AITSU: Destiny Island panel 1)

And now I'm going to take parts from Kingdom Key & Kingdom Hearts analysis which help me conjured this whole post in the first place. In KH1, Riku's light touches Sora, bestowing him with his keyblade (crown)

And how Sora had also entrusted his sword (heart) to riku

What I'm saying is, at the night of the meteor shower, sora and riku had exchanged symbols (the heart and the crown) to eachother at the night of the meteor shower when sora gave protection with his sword (heart) and riku with his necklace (crown)

THIS IS GOING BASED ON THE FACT THAT THEIR SYMBOL IS SORA = CROWN, RIKU = HEART

*these are the chess pieces of sora (crown), riku (heart), kairi (star) in kh3 (there are still more, but mainly these symbols is always used in sora and riku's visuals)

Moreso if crown = sora, heart = riku from the beginning it would not make sense with their character origin because crown can be meant as chosen one, special one, royalty, which sora has been stated multiple times to be just an ordinary boy despite the bajillion crown symbolism on him while the heart means to connect with people which is more associated with sora rather than riku who's whole theme is isolation and hidden truths

alternatively, sora has given his heart to riku, while riku has given his throne to sora on the night of the meteor shower which also aligns with the boys character issues: need of validation (sora) and need of affection (riku)

Scene Analysis

now with the assumption that sora -> sword, riku -> necklace, a few scenes started to hit a little deeper

KH1 Hollow Bastion

here riku is basically saying "i don't want your heart anymore, you can have it back" but he can't directly took the necklace so the kingdom key will have to do

COM Riku Boss Fight II

the line "you always try to warm your way into my heart!" and "it never mattered to you" from repliku makes so much sense because the real riku probably feels manipulated by sora's false promises and empty words, that it tricked him to gave up his precious family heirloom and essentially his heart that he trusted to sora

**in addition, repliku started tweaking after sora implies that they should work together (issho ni) instead of fighting

and many more.... (we've hit the image limit)

there's probably a lot more scene that can be seen in a different perspective with this mindset in mind especially in kingdom hearts I and chain of memories, but those are the MAIN examples that i've listed (i might do more in the future, i'll put a link when i do!!)

THE ENDD!!!!!!

that being said, this analysis had come to an end!!!! tysm for reading!!

other parts

part 1 (the paopu fruit)

[brookslostarm]

Regarding the dinostar hate recently, I don't really think Darius did anything wrong. I get why people might think his confession was unhealthy, but put urself in his shoes. He got stranded on an island full of dinos at 12 and had to become the leader of a group of people older than him, a few months after his dad's death. He saw his best friends- Brooklynn and Kenji, get together and was 100 percent fine with it, even happy for them. A few years later, they break up and Brooklynn comes to stay with him for a week or so. He's never had feelings for anyone at this point, but that was because on the island, he never had any time for romance- always focusing on protecting his friends, and even after getting off the island- focusing on his mental health and DPW. But now, his dealt with all that and is at a good place in his life, likely ready for a relationship and focusing more on people he's interested in. Coincidentally, his girl best friend recently became single and stayed at his place for 1 week. It isn't like living on nublar since it's just the two of them. Feelings are bound to develop.

Now, his confession, a lotta people r saying that Darius is putting Brook on a pedestal, because he said something about supporting Brooklynn's work no matter what, but I don't really think that's true. The reason some of the audience is mad is because we know the extent of Brooklynn's obsession with her work, and so does Kenji, but does Darius know? It's not very likely, since Brooklynn doesn't talk much about her work. Also, when u get a crush, that too for the first time, ur gonna wanna impress them- say nice things to them, support them, etc. and that's literally what Darius was doing. He loved her and felt comfortable around her enough to say those things without putting much thought into it.

Another thing I've noticed is people saying that the "if he loved you half as much as I do" line is invalid because he left Brooklynn when she got kidnapped. In my opinion, that's just not true, he didn't want to leave her, he was just following Brooklynn's directions, and knew that if he stayed, him and yaz would also get captured. Also, didn't Kenji betray and lock his friends, including Brooklynn, in a room? I get that it wasn't his fault as he was manipulated by his dad, but I don't think it should be glossed over if we're using the "Darius left Brooklynn, and Kenji went back for her" argument against Dinostar.

As for the "he's dating his best friend's ex!" Thing, I get it goes against bro-code, but Brooklynn isn't just his best friend's ex, Brooklynn is also one of his best friends. They've supported each other through thick and thin and had SO much chemistry in season 2,3 and 5 of cc. Also, Kenji seems to be okay with him having feelings for Brook, based on s2 of ct. He doesn't seem to have any anger or resentment towards Darius and jokes with him like he normally would, even after knowing Darius' feelings. Also, a large portion of the fandom seems to enjoy dinostar more than kenlynn, and dinostar wouldn't be introduced in the first place if it wasn't going to be endgame. I don't think it was introduced just for drama, because if it was, it's gonna make even plantonic dinostar extremely problematic and unlikable, in my opinion.

That being said, I'm honestly fine with whatever route they decide to go through, whether Brooklynn ends up with Kenji, Darius or single, though I would prefer she end up with Darius. To the people who don't agree, I don't mean to cause any drama or anything lol, this is just my opinion. Ig we're gonna have to wait till season 3 to find out what happens😭

Maybe Brooklynn x Soyona tho🤔 their enemies to lovers potential is 📈📈📈

[mysterycitrus]

You’ve talked about how fandom treats jtodd & dick, so what are your thoughts on how fandom treats dick & tim?

There’s this post that’s asking about people’s batfamily hot takes, and I was scrolling through the reblogs bc I love drama. One of the “hot takes” was calling dick a bad brother bc of the bruce lost in time comic era. Specifically saying that fandom excuses dick’s shitty behavior towards Tim bc his dad (Bruce) died and because of the stress of taking care of the city by himself. While Tim was hurting because of the deaths of Kon, Bart, Jack, Steph, and Donna (idk why they included Donna as Tim’s grief and not Dick’s??) and therefore Tim’s & Dick’s hurt and stress aren’t the same. According to this person, Tim was going through it and Dick was making it worse.

Now, I’m not going to claim I know how everything went down since I haven’t read those comics yet, but this feels like a gross misunderstanding of the arc.

From what I’ve seen, fandom tends to invalidate and villainize Dick during this time in favor of Tim. Dick is not being excused, in fact he’s being blamed for things that are either not his fault or just made up in order to whump Tim. Idk that “hot take” just rubbed me the wrong way because of how one-sided it was, and I guess it made me wonder about your thoughts about Dick & Tim since I tend to agree with your opinions lmao

fundamentally the issue is this — dick grayson existing and being a good person is an obstacle for fanon angst. dick grayson being a good brother means that jtodd can’t just slot into his pre-existing relationships with tim and cass and damian. dick grayson being a good friends means that he’s close with the titans and the league because he’s competent and trusted. dick grayson being kind means that he didn’t abandon tim, he was literally trying to keep everything together after bruce’s death.

not to try and make it a grief olympics but as much as people talk about everyone tim has lost (and i think they must have been talking about dana winters in that post?) people seem to forget that dick’s city just got nuked + the fallout of nightwing 93 + donna dying + jade dying + the titans falling apart + he was just locked in arkham himself. like… his dad has just died, he’s had to fight off his brother who’d just tried to kill both tim and damian and been given custody over a kid who doesn’t trust him

red robin 2009 has done irreversible harm to tim drakes character. people using that as the starting point for reading about him is bad. it’s a comic about a grief spiral, and it isn’t an amazing depiction of him either. but even then, people just seem to love straight up fabricating what’s in it.

dick tells tim that therapy might be a good idea. tim tells dick that he’s leaving because he trusts dick to let him do what he needs to do. even at his lowest point, dick is who he trusts most. those takes that’re like “tim drake was at his lowest point and then jtodd sees him and realises that he’s cool actually and they bond #jasontoddisagoodbrother #dickgraysonisabadbrother etc” because they like to posit that dick threatened to throw tim in arkham are so silly

that’s even ignoring how people just straight up lie about damian’s actions and how weird everyone is about ra’s al ghul. no, tim isn’t the only one he refers to as detective aside from bruce. no, tim isn’t one step away from being a mass murderer. no, damian didn’t try to kill tim— he was reacting to tim being suspicious of him. tim was beefing with a ten year old. why are u being so mean to the ten year old? (We Know Why)

ur right — it is extremely one-sided. im not one to pretend that canon is flawless by any means, but acting as though fanon is better just because someone online came up with it is also stupid. there are many many racist undertones with how jtodd and tim are interpreted, both separately and with each other. a lot of it is yaoi baiting dynamics, that a lot of fans don’t seem to want to admit. i won’t comment on how white people writing jtodd as latino and tim as asian can be Bad but like…. it’s all tied up together. people want these two characters to have suffered the most, because that justifies everything fans want them to do. they want them to be wronged. they want their idea of justice in their name

[vorecommunitywoes]

how are all of u dedicated to maliciously misinterpreting everything i say bc ur feelings r hurt when i say u shouldnt shield groomers AND SHOULD BE AWARE WHEN UR DOING THAT SO U STOP, not use slurs against others and not encourage children into fetish spaces even if u put it under a "pretty" name. also vore being a fetish doesnt invalidate nonsexual enjoyers i keep saying this i am a nonsexual vore fetish enjoyer + im ace and sex repulsed

answer quickly: do you support children in bdsm/feet/piss/incest/noncon spaces if ppl make "sfw" blogs ab it? why is that any different than making "sfw" vore spaces?

esp since "sfw" noncon spaces alr exist with noncon vore that kids participate in. why the fuck is that ok to u ppl?

also i never said i was here to protect minors i just think its fucking weird for adults to invite them into these spaces and how that creates grooming and exploitation of minors. that was wht this blog was mainly ab but now im mostly here to just point out weird ass behavior

and u can be against grooming all u want but that doesnt mean shit when u do literally nothing to prevent it and just pretend itll never be a problem in ur space, or when victims do speak out u say their entire claim is false bc they got one name wrong and CORRECTED it. afaik im the only person who actually cares enough to point out harmful behavior but bc im not "nice" ab it ppl lose their shit

and why does it just have to be me that does all the work with fixing the problems i point out in this community? i keep asking for self reflection and critical thought (and ive pointed out actual grooming behavior) but bc im not saying it in a perfectly nice and pleasant way, or its one of ur friends doing harmful shit, you ppl keep making strawmen out of me to get mad at instead of... putting in the effort to cause less harm to other ppl. bc thats easier for you to only point fingers and not actually do shit

[our-hyperace-experience]

I'm not sure if I count as hypersexual, but I found p*rn when I was like.. 11, and taught myself enough about sex that my mom said I probably knew enough to consent in some weird car argument she and my brother had about why p*dophilia was actually wrong which devolved into eugentics, but that's beside the point.

Anyways.. I'm thankfully not sex repulsed, but I'm not really favorable either. But randomly I get these random thoughts of 'What if I'm fucked right now' -not by anyone in paticular, like just the parts used for sex- and it feels weird, like.. I don't just think it, I hallucinate it actually happening to me. Not helped by the fact I have a libido so I can't tell what is what :/

I've told people about most of the hallucinations I have, but I haven't told anyone about this one yet, it feels too weird and personal and I'm still just a teen!

And none of my classmates even know abt sex yet besides sex jokes so yay!!

I also was like.. extra horny when I was 11 itself.. I cooled down

Okay I'm probably hypersexual

I should tell someone lol, this is the first time I've written about or told anyone about this

~ 🫧 anon

ur case of hypersexuality is interesting tbh, intrusive thoughts about sex is normal within hypersexual people but never hallucinations

you could be hypersexual tho depending on how often the hallucinations and intrusive thoughts come, especially since you got early exposure

then again, could be a high sex drive. of course not trying to invalidate you, since i don't know much, hopefully this isnt so stressing for you and its just a high sex drive

but one thing im curious about is how much porn you watch that you learned sex-ed, porn isnt a great place to learn about consent so im surprised but pleased

[daphwritesworld]

sorry mate i have to vent this to someone but no one that i know listen to me and invalidate my feelings, idk what is wrong with me

i draw, a lot in fact, but lately i have a huge art block at the point that i feel like i cant draw anymore, literally it’s terrible i didn’t sleep tonight for this, i tried and tried and tried to do something, but it all came wrong and ugly in my eyes, it’s like i don’t know who i am anymore, my art style feel empty, i can’t draw like i did before summer, i feel like i’m going downwards, i tried to ask to my friend that also draws some help but they just dismiss me, and my family that doesn’t really get it keep saying “what do you mean, ur still good” but i feel like everything i do is empty and horrible 😭

my god i live for drawing i can’t do it anymore, i’ll keep trying but damn this shit is tiring

i’m so sorry. i know exactly how you feel. well not exactly, but with writing i get it. i suck at art. like really really badly. i’d show you my highschool art projects from school, but id rather not embarrass myself LMAO. but i understand being so good at something and then struggling with making anything up to par with what you know you’re capable of. that’s how i was with poetry. i love poetry and it’ll always hold a special place in my heart, but i can’t write it anymore. i’m not as good as i was a year ago— hell not even a few months ago. so after i wallowed about for a while, i started getting inspiration for long form content again. which i haven’t written in years before now lol. so i practiced and then after a couple months i posted on here. i still don’t think my work is as good as it use to be, but im slowly getting comfortable and building my confidence back. so this could be super shitty advice and ignore it— but maybe try switching up styles? play around and experiment with things you might not of thought to before. maybe go back to the basics and just practice those until you feel completely comfortable again. artists of all kinds burn out and need change all the time. i’m not saying that’s what you need or is happening at all!! i just know it was the last thing i ever thought id wanted to do, but now I’ve found the best community i could ask for! and i’ve found an even bigger passion for writing then i ever did before. so while i can’t give you actual tips on drawing because my art skills makes van gogh roll in his grave— i can give my advice from a writers perspective. idk if that helped at all, but i am so sorry about this. i felt like my world was ending when i couldn’t write good poems. like the one thing that made me— me…was gone. i had a literal identity crisis for a while. (the breakup did not help that was happening at the same time lmao.) but just know i’m rooting for you. trying is always better than giving up. hard times are a part of life— set backs too. we just have to be strong enough to push through them. and if you ever need anything i’m always here to listen. sorry if this is long and you just needed someone to listen to and did not want a response lol. i just felt a personal connection to it is all, and i wanted you to know that i believe in you and your art 🩷

[strawbrrycuteblog]

I wanna try to be as nice as I can because I am not a mean person but when it comes to protecting Enhypen I can be.

write whatever you want okay? no one is stopping you and that's the problem. you have no one in real life who knows what ur doing and what you are doing is writing porn about a child (child pornography). typically people see child pornography as something that is only videoed but many versions of it just fly past people.

oh, but Ni-ki isn't a child? yes, he is. In South Korea, the age people are classified as adults is the age 19. now I want you to think about what you are doing (writing child porn) and start to think about the consequences that may occur when you have fully matured.

your account is all over Tumblr because people are being warned about you. Is this really how you want to grow your account as a writer? I know that I would want to be known for doing something that has my name going around Tumblr for a good Ni-ki fic that included no sexual references. even big writers like @jaylaxies are putting your name out there.

I would like you to answer this on your account so I can know why you do this and what good this really brings to you.

regardless of everything I wish you a great holiday.

from @rikiluvly.

………I’m gonna be so honest I don’t know how to respond to this. Okay well first I don’t really gain anything from this I guess?? The last time I looked up legal age in Korea it said eighteen so I didn’t see a thing wrong with writing about him. The whole part where you said, you’re is all over tumblr because people are being warned about you. Is this really how you want to grow your account as a writer? And the rest with the jaylaxies putting my name out there.

That actually kinda changes my point of view on this whole thing because no that’s not how I want my account to grow as a writer if it’s people being warned about what I write. I started to write about it because I got an ask and I was curious to see if I could do good at it and then posted it.

I honestly didn’t think more than five people would see it since my other posts didn’t do well and I don’t genuinely like to write I mostly just read and jaylaxies was in my top three for that. I’m now regretting this because I feel bad and I wanna cry, it didn’t bring me any good and doesn’t satisfy me honestly because I just don’t like writing but I’ll be honest if felt good to get sooo many notifications and so on so forth.

I see that this is wrong and I understand I won’t be writing for Niki anymore probably for a while because I would rather not have an account than have one and it’s only people warning others about me.

I see where you’re coming from I’m guessing I should delete the posts and not write for him ever again, which I’m fine with but should I delete the whole account? I wouldn’t want to make anymore people uncomfortable that I already have, I notice now it’s wrong and probably would make Niki uncomfortable.

I don’t know how else to respond to this and I’m so so so so so sorry for what I’ve written. It honestly stung when after I read that and searched for jaylaxies account and nothing came up meaning I was blocked but of course I understand that and everything because I think I’d do the same if I was her.

I don’t want to be seen as a bad person and especially not one who writes child porn. I thought Niki was an adult and legal in both where I live and he as well, clearly not and I was thinking very idiotically, I was being stubborn and a bitch entirely invalidating people’s feelings, I thought if they didn’t wanna see it so bad then block me but then i realized aria blocked me and more than likely reported me to that changed how I saw all of this.

All I know what to do is apologize but lmk if I should delete my account entirely or just the Niki posts because I’m in an emotional frenzy now on two sides.

My original plan for this blog was to not do any nsfw but then i remembered the first Jake one I did and figured it was an oh well thing and did it anyways, I wasn’t entirely by myself comfortable writing smut for any of the members because I’m not that good with sexual stuff as it would usually make uncomfy from past experiences I’m genuinely sorry and regret writing all of what I did.

Edit: I also now am thinking I should say that it shouldn’t have taken you to tell me this for to realize how wrong it was.

[burning-sol]

Too much of a pussy to interact the post directly but um. Re: genderbends and feminism

I think you’re entirely right to bring up how easy that passive hostility can become transphobia but I also think the idea that most genderbends are trans hcs is a bit of a spiders George moment. We (you and I) have cultivated a space we feel safe in that is predominantly populated by trans people who will talk about trans things- in the wider fandomspace there are still a lot of cis people who completely misunderstand what a genderbend has the potential to be. Obviously the years have brought good things and a lot has changed for the better, but there are still a lot of people who do in fact genderbend a dude character they like into a cis girl and you can tell by the way they write her they have no idea what they’re doing and generally little understanding of girls or girlhood. But attacking all genderbends and making the assumption that they’re all that is certainly not the way to go about it; like you said, a lot of people actually have trans hcs and sort of reclaim the r63 trend. But it is important to recognize there’s a larger problem of media not having girl characters with depth, or having those characters but they’re massively set aside for a dude. There’s no shame in enjoying the guy character more, speaking from experience, like you said let ppl on the internet do what they want. But also indulge taking a deeper look at the women, and recognize the bigger issue. I will defend every badly written woman with everything I have but I will also defend every fandom-decided transwoman with everything I have as well. They’re sisters. Super Sorry if this is a weird ask I felt like adding my perspective, bc ur right but I see. More

No need to belittle yourself, I know how anxiety inducing it can be to reply to something off anon, what matters is that you were polite and thoughtful. So lemme address your point. Post being talked about for context.

I think I did misword my post, you're absolutely right, but what I was trying to get across is that I suppose I hypothesise a lot of "genderbends" may only be perceived like that from the outside without the neccessary context. This is based on how I reflected on my own headcanons and how they can be outwardly percieved, and also my experience in fandom. For example, my interpretation of an AU character (William Wight) could easily be viewed as a genderbend without the context of personal thoughts and the fact I headcanon William Wisp (the og character) as PRE-transition, especially since another character from that AU I have genderbent. So it wasn't strictly about genderbending actually being trans headcanons, it's about how if you're without context, genderbending can be a misinterpretation of a trans headcanon.

But you're right, I too closely conflated them, giving overall the wrong message about genderbending and invalidating the feelings of people who just enjoy the trope without the trans aspect. There's a lot of people out there who genderbend not knowing anything about transness, that could easily be a misinterpretation, it was based on my experiences and not any hard data. I also projected onto the people reblogging that post that they wouldn't have the eye to make a disceration between the two.. Which, I have no clue either way, who knows. But thankfully, I don't think any of this takes away from the point being made or hurts anyone too severely. I hope that anyone who feels misrepresented can still understand the post regardless of how I may have offended them, because the underlying transphobia is the bigger issue. And also, to reinforce it again, I AGREE with OP in the right context, I think it's a real phenomena, but I try to be critical of posts if they start to widely circulate without anyone pointing out what can be a potentially harmful idea.

Also to consider as a note though: genderbending can be a precursor to being trans as a form of experimentation. So yes, it is still worth taking into the consideration what you're saying about people who genderbend characters, you have no idea what they're going through even if they claim not to be trans, things can change. But even further beyond that, I focused on trans people for obvious reasons, it's shitty to be targeting a minorty.. But if you're nodding along with my post like, "oh yeah, it's okay if TRANS people genderbend characters, but ANYONE ELSE isn't allowed to" umg. Well. That can still be transphobia, or just generally a dick thing to do. Again, I just think we shouldn't assume that misogyny is involved when there are other incredibly viable reasons for genderbending.

I didn't even bring it up because I didn't want to tbh, but, also a lot of people who genderbend are just.. Into that. That's also a notable reason but again, that wasn't the point.

Btw, this is all coming from the fandom where people rampantly post abt an mlm ship and overlook the other lead that is girl. So. I first hand have experienced the EXACT issue being discussed, but I still wouldn't wanna go and make the wide assertions OP was making. In the end, we are all people on the internet in our niches making assumptions about wider groups even if we don't actually know jack shit about each other. Hence I preach love and tolerate, and to generally not judge people.

I hope this was a decent response and maybe even added something to my previous post. Or maybe this was a jumbled schlock of nothing that went off the rails, I'm sorry if that's the case.

[iiinkos]

YEAHHHHHH YIPPEE THANK YOU FOR THIS!!!!! i have wayyy too many thoughts on the fears and like. yep

honest to god spiders and what fear the web is supposed to represent is like at best tangentially related. the only good argument i could see is that someone could be afraid of getting caught in a spiderweb which yes, leads to the manipulation and control stuff, but it doesn’t encapsulate all of what makes people afraid of spiders, and by its own damn definition it shouldn’t! spiders are too material and multifaceted to fall under one fear. webs are a good metaphor for manipulation and control, but that’s all it is! a metaphor! it should not be representative of the whole reason why people are scared of spiders!!

i do kinda disagree with ur points about the flesh though— not to say that your points are invalid! they are very much flaws to the system. being meat for the slaughter and body image are still connected to meat, despite their differences. they still fall under category of “the meat/body is fucked up” that the eye and the slaughter can’t fully capture on their own. and while the nihilism part of the flesh is a lot more of a stretch and more debatable for “why isn’t this under x fear” (in this case the vast) it still covers things that the vast cannot fully cover on its own

i think the problem is that people treat the fears too objectively and literally. they are guides. they’re jumping off points meant to inspire thought, not objective systems to be followed mindlessly without question. the fears and their differences are meant to help fill the gaps where other fears wouldn’t be able to, i think.

like with your eye stuff. yes, the watcher and the watched are experiencing 2 very different things, but both still fall under the general category of “knowledge revealed”. i think the difference between them can also be argued as a difference between the one causing the fear and the one fearing, but that’s a different thing. either way, the watcher and the watched still fall under that category. knowing too much can also relate to those as well, which is why they’d all fall under eye. i think. i hope im making sense

or apply this to your eye stranger dark stuff. maybe think of it like colors again— eye would be white, dark would be black, and stranger would be grey. technically you could just call instances of black and white mixing together black white. sometimes stuff of the stranger leans more heavily on the “you know something’s up”, and sometimes it leans more towards “you can’t point at what exactly is wrong”. however, grey has its own depths and complexities that can’t only be summarized by black and white, just like the stranger. while technically the uncanny is a mix of knowing and not knowing, there’s a bunch of things unique to it that “eye + dark mixed together” can’t quite describe. i hope that got my point across okay?

the fears are messy. they mix together and don’t make sense a lot. but they can be distinct and different in some factors, and while it isn’t entirely correct to call them all completely separate and call it a day, it’s useful to tell the difference, at least, on a very basic level.

i love your point about it sometimes getting far too caught up in metaphor, though! sometimes people genuinely forget that material does not always make fear, and i think there’s lots to be explored from that!

smirke’s 14 is inherently flawed, yes, but there is use in it :) it’s not entirely objective but it helps with understanding

uhhh another tangent on the differences in the fears because i thought of another one!!

lgbtqia+ identities are a spectrum. fear is also a spectrum! many people experience gender and sexuality in different ways. however, 2 people with very different experiences of gender and sexuality can still fall under the same, broad category. a demisexual person and a cupiosexual person can have very different experiences and feelings when it comes to asexuality, but either way, they are both under the umbrella of asexuality. and while being trapped in a spiderweb is a very different experience to being in a relationship with a power imbalance, there is still that unified theme of lacking control. they aren’t entirely the same, yes, but it’s a broad explanation that can be expanded on in different ways.

i hope this made sense :) if not i understand, i did this all pretty much in one go lmao— i have. a lot of thoughts on the fears :3

I have strong feelings about the Magnus Archives. I just finished a third or fourth listen through and I finally feel like I understand why the whole system of the fears felt so off to me. It doesn't follow its own rules at all. It isn't about the feelings of fear that it puts into you like they all claimed they tried to do that but they were too obsessed with the metaphors.

What does being meat for the slaughter have to do with your body image? Just aesthetics. One belongs more with the end and the other the eye, but they're both treated like meat.

Spiders don't belong anywhere near the web apart from as a fun visual, real people aren't afraid spiders somehow control them they're afraid of spiders because they crawl and hide and itch and make you feel like they're on you just by seeing them.

Why does the stranger have the unknowing instead of the dark? The stranger and the eye should be connected if anything, because it's all about knowing something is wrong.

Even the eye doesn't really make sense. What does the fear of being watched have to do with the people watching, really? They experience opposite terrors linked together because the watcher must know to be scary, and why not grab some fear of knowing too much on the way out?

I don't know if this is an intentional irony or flaw of the writing, I genuinely can't decide. Can even the powers themselves not understand what they are because of Smirke? Or did Jonathan Sims simply have weird ideas about fear? Maybe this is all answered in the sequel, which I haven't listened to in full yet, but still I think it's interesting to think about

[shiftingxsparkles]

( pls let me know ur opinions on this ) so basically i keep hearing people mention mini shifts and i am quite confused by them - reason being is i have a slight inkling that most so called mini shifts are in fact lucid dreams that people are unaware of - now hear me out - i am obvs not trying to invalidate anyone’s experience and i do think there is a probability that this is not a 100 percent true !! however!! i have also noticed people’s dissmisal of how fucking realistic lucid dreams are - i have had dreams (lucid and not) that i have felt lasted a whole day(until i woke up) i have had lucid dreams about shifting where i genuienly thought i shifted (again until i woke up)

in lucid dreams you are able to use ur five senses!! idk why this is such a huge misconcetion and people think you cannot - you absolutely can - however they last up to 1 or 2 hours - not more. you cannot dream for weeks at a time(which is one main reason why shifting is not lucid dreaming) they also obviously feel like dreams and weird shit happens all the time. and even if you clarify your LD and some point it gets hazy and dizzy.

so in my opinion i think in order for a person to be completely sure they shifted you need to either 1. stay in your dr for more than a day. 2. go to sleep there and still wake up there. 3. eat,pee and poop there (since i dont think you can do that in a LD lmaoooooo)

also i dont understand the whole ‘’i was so excited i shifted i woke up ‘’ because that is literally what happens when you lucid dream and you get excited - for example i had a lucid dream and i wanted to call my crush from my dr and i called him and when i saw him i felt extremely excited, giddy whatever and the moment i hugged him because my heart was beating extremely loudly and my emotions were so high i woke up. 

so how is it that some people shift and they are obvs still scared, excited, confused and they stay in their dr’s and others wake up? it kind of doesnt make sense?? i mean i am more than open to people’s arguments and thoughts about this i have just been thinking about it for so long and it confuses the heck out of me lmao. 

again not trying to invalidate anyone’s experiences i am not dead set on any opinion, theory or idea so feel free to let me know if you think i am wrong!!! edit; i am also not talking about people who shift and get scared and say their safeword or safeaction and come back obvs this is what a safeword/action is for so that one is up in the air whether the person shifted or not 

[seita]

some coping mechanism are wrong and do need to be discussed or changed!! neurodivergency doesn’t give u an excuse to hurt or trigger others!! coping mechanisms don’t exist in vaccums... and you and ur followers are harming real people by saying such

i was going to ignore most everything i got on the subject because quite frankly i'm over it. every opposing take either doesn't make sense, is completely ignorant, or is just plain stupid.

this one? is just idiocy.

so i'm gonna take the time to explain some things to you.

i cannot begun to express the ignorance and privilege that is seeped into every single word of this ask. i am actually baffled that you genuinely thought that this was, in any way shape or form, okay. or that you even thought this was a hot take at all.

you do not have any jurisdiction or power to tell other people that the way they cope is wrong. that is so beyond disgusting.

do you know why people choose to write dark content to cope?

a few reasons that range from: gives power/comfort over their trauma to lets them release emotions that otherwise have no outlet.

beyond that is that some people don’t have the resources or support system needed to cope in other ways. all they may have is a pen and paper or a laptop. they may not live in a home where they were believed, they may still be trapped with their abuser, or they may just plain not be able to afford therapy.

but do you know what the fun thing is? plenty of these people who choose to cope in this way are advised by their therapists to do it. like myself.

i used to write in little notebooks as a child -- really dark, foul shit and i didn’t understand why i did it. i talked to my therapist and i was told it’s a great outlet! i have to say writing is probably one of the top reasons i managed to get to the space i am in today.

when i learned the wonders of the internet growing up, i also sought out to READ the content. of course, it was very hard to find because of people like you who do nothing but shame it simply because of the real world values the crimes possess and for some reason refuse to see it in a fictional, helpful way.

it’s a very real and very valid coping mechanism: both reading and writing are incredibly beneficial.

this outlet also helps people just the same as it can hurt people. i don’t know who or what you think you’re doing but survivors who are triggered by the content of a darker nature WILL NOT CLICK ON IT TO READ IT. why are you acting like survivors and victims are brainless, mindless idiots who will read something clearly labeled with their triggers as if there’s some invisible force dictating them too?

and who are you? a highschool student? a college student? a therapist? what right gives you, a random person on the internet, to dictate something that has been ADVISED and PROVEN to help with coping to trauma to deem it wrong?

im gonna go ahead and say your morality. nothing beyond that.

you see dark content as just disgusting porn fucked up people jerk off to but it’s beyond that. and very obviously something you do not understand and most likely refuse to understand.

you think because you think something is wrong that it should be wrong all around. you don’t like it so it shouldn’t be done.

i hate to break it to you but the real world isn’t going to cater to you. i sure as fuck won’t. i’m not in charge of making you feel happy or content on the internet. if you log on to your computer and expect people to babysit you and make you feel comforted and safe -- you’re doing the internet wrong.

you only choose to see the negative side to this. you see that people can be triggered or hurt by this content and that’s valid. people can and will be. but there’s also a HUGE number that people like you choose to ignore and invalidate under the guise of protecting survivors only to hurt them at the same time. it doesn’t make sense.

you’re not trying to advocate and protect people -- you’re trying to make the fandom and content match up to your puritan ideals and fantasies. the world isn’t like that. people are always going to do things you don’t like and have opposing opinions on things. stop trying to act like you’re doing this for the greater good -- a martyr, hero complex isn’t a cute look and we can see exactly what you’re doing.

i don’t understand why it’s so hard to accept that dark content does not have as big of a negative impact as you think it does.

i also don’t understand how other survivors can see what people like me do and tell us we’re wrong. i don’t go out of my way to shame you and say “oh you don’t like dark content? weird.” i mind my own fucking business and stay away from blogs that don’t want to interact with dark content writers.

i am respectful always. i never attack people for having opposing opinions. i never attack people personally. people who write dark content don’t do that shit.

you know who does?

your side.

you know what someone said to me in an effort to shame me and bully me for writing what i write? they called my writing shit -- the thing i use to cope and help other cope. i’ve never gone on anon or off anon and told someone their writing was shit.

i also had someone ask me why i think being a victim made me special. i’m gonna let you sit and figure out exactly what is wrong with that question.

those are the types of people you’re enabling and encouraging. if you people just left dark writers alone we wouldn’t hurt anyone. you all preach this shit about how dark content is SOOOOO easily availble anyone can read it. that is false. the only way to find dark content is to ALREADY BE ASSOCIATING WITH PEOPLE WHO CREATE OR CONSUME DARK CONTENT. it’s not tagged in the main tags. it will not show up in your orbit or be blasted on your page because someone posted it.

and then you people say “oh minors will be convinced it’s okay!!!” no. minors aren’t as stupid as you seem to think they are. they fully know and understand exactly what they’re getting into. they see the word rape and know in real life THAT’S BAD.

you don’t want a slasher film and think  “oh wow look at him killin all those people but not getting caught I COULD DO THAT TOO!!!!” no. you don’t. because you know it’s wrong.

y’all are so high up on you moral horse that you think everyone around you is fucking stupid and has no common sense.

if someone thinks what they read in fiction makes it okay in real life, there was already something wrong with them to begin with.

but no, you’ll pull out anything on earth to try and get your point across. from secondhand trauma to it just being offensive.

and i hate to be the one to tell you this but...all this crusading is doing basically nothing in the long run. you know what happened yesterday from being called out? i lost 9 followers.

and then i gained 20. and now im only 100 away from 16,000.

what did all of this achieve? what does any of this even do?

whenever you people do this what exactly is it you want? do you expect us to just...stop...because you don’t like it? are you really so self-centered and self-righteous that you think you’re THAT important. do you really believe your opinion and voice is the loudest and most important to consider?

because it really isn’t.

just as you’re sitting here telling me you’re wanting to protect people -- i’m wanting to help people. do you know how many people i’ve had thank me for making them feel better about their owwn fantasies that they’d previously been ashamed of because they’re a victim? or how many people thank me for providing the content they rely on to cope?

i’m gonna go ahead and say those are the people i want to help. those are the people i care about. and i don’t know what it’s gonna take for you people to understand that i will not stop until i DECIDE to.

this is the internet. none of your opinions or words have any long-lasting, realistic effect on me, my person, or my life. i could delete my blog and in a month nothing any of you have said to me over this course of time will have impacted me in the long term. of course, other people are more sensitive and can get hurt by this discourse.

but i don’t. i’m a lot more stubborn and thick-skinned than you people may seem to realize.

your words will continue to go in one ear and out the other. i know where i stand. i know where i want to remain.

your morality nor your opinions are blanket rules that everyone should abide by. get some perspective and learn your place in the world before speaking on things you clearly cannot understand.

[seoafin]

ahhh the "harsh" anon.... i want you to know that i love you for speaking the truth. i really do.

as for you morgan !!!

i love that romance in your gojo fics aren't the type of romances in other fan fics you can just casually find just by scrolling once or twice. there's so much thought put into it. and it's not just the angsty or hurt/comfort type of fics you write for him, it's also just those silly drabbles of him, or just short scenes

we haven't really seen gojo and his romantic life, all we've been given is akutami's notes about not seeing gojo being faithful to a particular woman and wearing his glasses out to meet women 💀 (you could also count satosugu's subtext too) but you've actually analyzed him (without a certain bias) and thought out how someone, as complex as he is, would be romantically! (or just in relationships in general! it's hard to get that accurate when he's a lonely guy) but even without relationships, you got him down so well.

but what im trying to get at is that you put his character first, then all the different scenarios after that !

satoru being slightly toxic where he doesn't address certain issues w rip!mc!!

where he invalidates her sometimes because he thinks he knows best and is just trying to protect her! (the "i'll take care of you" line jfnndjd)

case in point, gojo isn't gonna be that boyfriend that people want because there's just certain things about his character that won't really compliment it. don't get me wrong, he's this all powerful man infront of everyone and just satoru infront of the ones he truly cares about, but sometimes even that can be butchered by fanon interpretations

anddd gojo isn't being constantly "saved" or coddled by rip!mc. she isn't that type of mc that can just "no gojo look at me ! 🥺🥺 this isn't you ! 🥺🥺" just to keep gojo "sane" or whatever the case is cuz im pretty sure gojo just... wouldn't fold for that,, he's a morally grey man, if there's a good reason to it, he would be willing to get his hands dirty.

and for reasons like this, i can understand why you don't really like modern aus/college aus lmao cuz everytime i come across a college au or something, gojo is just.... completely different. just a "white frat boy named gojo satoru" (no shade! but like... gojo my poor man 💀)

and btw,, for rip!mc, i read ur rics and just think,,, if she were actually canon in jjk i really wouldn't question it LMAO she's so well fitted to the themes of jjk and not only that, she actually has lots of depth ! she isn't just on the side lines helping satoru cope w suguru's defection. or just megumi and tsumiki's caregiver, she's actually struggling too !! and she has lots of complexities that i just love analyzing!

this is an extremely sweet message i spent like 2 days burning it into my retinas

[behxafb]

25 DAYS OF HAIKYU

Day 6 Sugawara christmas movies

GN! Reader, swearing, eating

“pitta patta pitta patta, louik moiy heart it doesn’t matter..” you singsong to suga. he laughs as he sets down the bowl of popcorn.

“your so full of it Y/N” he sits next to you cutting on the tv.

“i’m so glad it’s raining hard outside. literally my favorite weather, and i get to sped it with youuu!” you pull suga in to a hug and fall backwards onto the couch so now he almost laying on top of you.

“hey dumbass i thought we where suppose to be watching a movie.”

“yea but why do that when we have each other?”

“why r u being so cheesy today? like i thought i was clingy.” you take a moment to ponder what he just had the audacity to say.

“you know kou, you bring up a pretty, INVALID point thank you.” you squint at him.

“sure “invalid”” he mocks.

“plus how are we suppose to watch the polar express with out hot chocolate?”

“i’ve got a plan don’t worry abt it.”

***

after a while y’all had finally settled down long enough to watch the movie. y’all where cuddled up in the corner of the couch, eating popcorn and overall enjoying the movie. being that you had started it relatively late in the day it had now bled into the night, oh but boy oh boy what did that mean? hot chocolate scene.

suddenly the movie paused and you looked at your boyfriend with the most “what the fuck” look possible. “it’s time for my plan.” he stated.

with that you both got up and wandered into the kitchen. layed out was water that was on low now that y’all have gotten back to it was reasonably hot. and 88 different shades of hot cocoa paradise, with toppings galore. “koushiiii, my little planner. no wonder you teach third grade look at how sweet this is.”

“i don’t know if i should take that as an insult or not. so … thanks?”

“NO, i’m jus saying it’s very much like what i would find in third grade. it’s cute. it’s nice. it’s sweet. it’s fun. it’s romantic. it’s everything and more.”

you hugged him close after everything. “mhm sure. go ahead and make ur overly sweet hot chocolate i’m ready for the movie.”

and he wasn’t wrong. you made up what would LOOK TO BE a third graders hot chocolate. so u couldn’t really retort back with anything cause he was right. what could u say, “oh no my lover knows me like the back of his hand what a shame” ? NO That’s a problem if u where to say that. instead u pad ur way back to the living room to enjoy the rest of ur movie date with your lover.

should i start posting these earlier in the day? also i’m sorry if this is absolute shit i’m tired and i’ve had a long day. but here we are now. i’ve had this in my head for a while though so i just used it now. again tho is u want to be @ in anything lemme know and suggestions are 100% open y’all have a nice day/night :) <3

[gurilovesyou]

france headcannons with an s/o whos insecure about their hyperpigmentation and tries to lessen it a lot?

hello, YES! i really like this idea, its very cute yes yes. thank you for the req, love guri.

𝚏𝚛𝚊𝚗𝚌𝚎//𝚏𝚛𝚊𝚗𝚌𝚒𝚜

- francis arrived home earlier than you expected, you thought he had a meeting for a few more hours, perhaps it was cut short?

- you were in the bathroom, hair tied up and several creams sitting lined up like ducks on the countertop

- francis called for you the moment he stepped in

“mon amour ive returned~” “where are you mon chéri”

- you called back, indicating your location

- he swooped in like a true gentleman and wrapped his arms around your waist, a rose held gently in his hand

- he cooed about how much he missed you and how good you were looking today before releasing you

- incidentally he knocked over a few of the cream bottles

“oh! mon Dieu im sorry, i didnt mean to knock over the…”

- he picks up a bottle and reads the label

“ah whats this for, mon amour?”

- his petnames are relentless

- you explain its to cover/lessen dark spots and hyperpigmentation

- he hummed, asking why exactly you had so many bottles of creams

- you kinda just look down and say you're just trying out different brands and all to see which works best

- francis isnt dumb nor is he insensitive, he can tell you're insecure about this

- obviously he thinks its absolutely absurd because how can someone so perfect and gorgeous think ANYTHINGS wrong with them

- but hes not gonna invalidate your insecurities

- 100% is going to start subtly expressing how beautiful he thinks your skin is

- will place a big old smooch on any of your hyperpigmentation

- hes not DIRECT but hes direct, ya know what i mean?

- he doesn't want you to feel like you have to change anything about you but he doesn't want to stop you if its what will make you happy so hes kinda in a situation where hes supporting you but also is like “ur like so hot btw wink wink”

- if you are at the point where you ACTIVELY think that your hyperpigmentation makes you less attractive in any way tho...

- he wont allow this. its simply not ok for the love of his immortal life to feel like that

- 110% insists you're GORGEOUS even if you're insecure about dark spots, does not care if you have ANYTHING like hyperpigmentation, stretchmarks, acne scars, ANYTHING

- he thinks you're the loveliest person hes ever met and since hes immortal that means QUITE A LOT

- can and will work to build your confidence in your appearance just the way you are <3

[gaylivia]

oh my God it's so nice to know I wasn't the only one who thinks that and r you kidding I would totally LOVE ur white flowers analysis plz post it!!!

Alright anon, you made me feel more confident so I’ll do it <3

Here is ‘White Flowers’ by Olivia Rodrigo, analyzed by yours truly.

This was done hastily just now so it might not be that good. I didn’t proofread or anything.

Little disclaimer tho: In no way am I saying this is the actual intention behind the lyrics and that it’s what Olivia is singing about. When I say ‘she’ or ‘he’ (important in this case) I’m not referring to Olivia herself or anyone particular in that manner. This is simply how I, as a bi person and as someone who has felt this way, interpret the song. Music is subjective.

Let’s gooo.

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“white flowers and love letters, you say i’m yours forever, but it don’t feel romantic somehow” 

love letters and flowers are considered to be something romantic and have been referenced in pop culture as a symbol for romance many times for example the famous trilogy ‘to all the boys’ has love letters as the focal point and everything is about a heterosexual relationship. so flowers and love letters? it implies a straight couple and it’s supposed to be cheesy yet the person in the song does not find this romantic at all because yeah, that person is not straight. heterosexual things just don’t work for them.

“i’m pacing and i’m losing sleep” 

the relationship is making the person anxious and possibly a little paranoid too. she can’t sleep and she’s constantly worrying-- this isn’t what a healthy relationship looks like and she could be overthinking if it’s right for them to be in the relationship. but she knows something is wrong.

“if you don’t call i start to weep” 

at this point she is aware something isn’t right with her/ she just doesn’t feel right. the relationship isn’t to blame. if the other person doesn’t call, she seems to think it’s her fault and she's doing something wrong -- not being straight. she feels out of place.

“you’re everything i cannot live without”

“i don’t know who i would be if i wasn’t your baby”  

the other person-- aka guy is the only thing validating her conviction that she’s straight and she needs him to erase her denial and insecurity so if they break up, she knows she’ll actually have to accept that she really isn’t straight.

“i built my life on your attention, i’m being an object of your affection”  

she makes her whole personality about him and focuses only on what he wants and needs. she is being ‘an object’, she craves his attention and desires while completely ignoring her own. all of this is a coping mechanism. she doesn’t want to deal with her feelings and her actual identity so she’s projecting onto him basically.

“now crazy in love don’t feel sweet, I’m with you but i miss me” 

suddenly she is realizing how toxic this is and how not in love she feels. she understands this isn’t what love is supposed to feel like and she knows something is missing. and that something is her.

“wish someone had told me what i know now” 

she went through all the anxiety and denial and all she could’ve done is just simply accept herself. but she was so busy trying to make this straight relationship perfect because she didn’t know who she is and the thought of having to face it scared her so much she was willing to risk her happiness just so she feels normal and gets the white-flowers and love-letters romance she has seen in movies.

“losing yourself in someone isn’t heaven it’s hell” 

she purposely focused on the guy and his attention just so she can deny she’s not straight. and in the end all she really felt was lost and out of place. and she knows it now.

it is funny how she starts the song with ‘white flowers and love letters’ but ends it with ‘hell’. those two correlate because for her, the heteronormaitive depictions of romance like flowers and letters aren’t romantic at all-- they are hell because they make her feel invalidated as she's not straight. 

and a side note: the use of  ‘heaven’ and ‘hell’ here is interesting because considering the discrimination lgbtq+ community has faced, those words are very specific. ‘gay people go to hell’? i think she is assuring herself in the last line. she knows not being who you are means hell. but being proud of it? it feels like heaven.

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I hope you like it anon. Feel free to share your analysis! Or ask me to do other songs because I love analyzing songs, I’ve done it with Taylor’s for years. Sending love.