#its ok i only work for 5 hours so ill be fine

[edengrown]

basic information: pamela travers

info under the cut

NAME. pamela lyndon travers AGE. appears to be 24, is actually 91 GENDER. female ALIASES. p.l. , mary poppins AFFILIATIONS. former coven, unaffiliated ABILITY. none the great exception ➢ an "ability" that seemingly allows pamela to do a seemingly endless assortment of parlor magic tricks ( flying with an umbrella, teleporting to wherever she thinks of, giving life to inanimate objects, bottomless carpet bag, etc. ) ➢ while she claims her magic to just be an ability, pamela's magic is genuinely real magic ( similar to how lovecraft's "ability" isn't actually an ability ) ➢ this means that pamela is capable of performing other forms of magic with enough practice and knowledge of the spell / magic used OTHER INFO. ➢ both of pamela's arms are prosthetics. she uses her magic to control them as if they were her own flesh and blood. she lost them during an attack against her old coven when she was barely an adult. ➢ as an unaffiliated witch, pamela spends her time performing odd jobs both magical and mundane in order to make ends meet. she's currently making a decent amount of money as a nanny for hire. ➢ while she has full use of her magic abilities, pamela would rather do things with her own skills instead of relying on magic. this has resulted in her becoming a jack of all trades as she has learned to be less magic dependent. she will still use magic when needed, however.

[gibbearish]

the thing with autism right. is i know if i was having a full mental health crisis what i would end up doing is going to the emergency room and being like "hello, my name is (x) birthday (y), um i was hoping to talk to you about potential mental health inpatient care? i'm currently having a mental health crisis and don't think i can be trusted on my own" like if there's one thing i can be sure will live on in me no matter how hard the brainworms try. is my fucking customer service voice

[seasidefae]

ill water the seed for you :) hear me out carlos in a truck a firetruck. different jobs au where carlos is a firefighter who has had dates not like the way he smells. Meets oscar who has a weird little obsession with how he smells. boom a small flower, im not that good at writing sorry 🩵

anon omg! let me shine some sunlight on this now

ok so carlos is never late to things—especially if he’s going on a date. not only is it bad form, it’s just impolite and his mama raised a gentleman.

but with a job schedule as wack as his, there are times when he’ll have to rush out of a 12-hour shift just to be on time to stuff. and on those times, showers had been quick and soapless. he hosed himself down, it’ll be fine!

(it’s not)

after about the fifth time he’s been rejected because he always smells like he just jumped out of a burning building (which—come on, firefighter is stated in his bio, it’s not like they shouldn’t know) he wants to give up.

except he meets oscar. and oscar is funny and endearing without trying, smart and easy to talk to. he wants to make this work.

but he’s just gotten back from a call. a burger joint burned down and it took a couple of hours. he’s about 5 minutes late, fuck the shower. he drives to their meeting place, a bar midtown, and he’s so relieved to find oscar still there that he just—hugs him. almost tackles him in front of the bar.

carlos thanks oscar for waiting up and apologizes about a dozen times in a row. this is all before he realizes what he’s doing.

“fuck— sorry—“

carlos lets go of oscar like an octopus releasing its hold but, to his surprise, oscar just pulls him back and buries his nose on his shoulder. carlos hears sniffing sounds; he thinks it’s the wind.

“i smell like shit right now.”

“no, it’s nice,” oscar says. he sniffs; so okay it’s not the wind. “like beef.”

now carlos has to pull away to look at oscar, holding him by his neck as gently as he can if only to glare at him. is he joking?

but oscar isn’t smiling exactly. he looks contemplative, big eyes still eyeing carlos’ shirt.

“you. you are being serious?”

“first thing to know about me is that i’m always serious,” oscar says. now he’s smiling. “except when i’m not.”

he’s weird. and carlos likes him so much.

he takes oscar inside the bar and orders him a burger. it’s their first date of many.

[lighthouseshepard]

I know you just had top surgery - how was it? How was the healing process? I’m scared to death of surgery but I desperately need these off

HI NYX!!! ok im gonna try and be as brief and concise as possible because theres honestly quite a lot i could talk about but! heres some thoughts under the cut

so honestly as someone who has had a few surgeries in the past for other medical issues - this ranked VERY low on the pain scale. maybe a 4/10 tops at its worst (although i do understand everyone is different). the surgeon kept telling me "many people do not find this operation particularly painful" and i did not believe him one bit until afterwards. i had prescription pain medicne and antibiotics to take, but honestly i only needed the prescription medicine for about 3 days, and then after that i was fine with tylenol. after a week really i didnt need to take anything consistently, it was here or there if i happened to start moving around too much.

the worst part for me overall was the BANDAGES. after you wake up youre gonna be wrapped within an inch if your life with ike 2 inches of gauze and tape and an ace wrap holding it all together. if you have drains (which i did) you can't shower until they're out and the bandages come off, anywhere from 5 to 7 days usually. mine was 7 days and i was miserable. the drain emptying wasnt that bad tbh, someone helped me the first 2 times and then i was able to do it myself afterwards. if youre bad with blood or bodily fluids then youll def need someone to help you there. the drain removal process, to be completely honest, was. also bad. it lasted maybe five seconds per drain but i didnt breathe right like they told me to and had a vasovagal reaction and passed out. i dont say this to dissuade you! but it was not pleasant

the main thing probably is gonna be stiffness and soreness. you literally won't be able to do anything with your arms for at least a few days - its bordering on 2 weeks for me and im just now able to pull a shirt over my head without stiffness. you DEFINITELY will need someone to help you with basic tasks those first few days, getting food, getting dressed, etc. some ppl get bruising on their chest just from the skin being manipulated and etc but surprisingly i havent had any bruising yet?

also!! again some places differ, but mine was a same day surgery. after a few hours of waking up i was able to be bundled into the car back to the hotel. youre gonna be really groggy but i was able to walk just fine, albeit very slowly with help. the surgery itself was the blink of an eye to me. i remember them putting an o2 mask over my face and then i was OUT. seconds later i was being dragged up out of unconscious well by the nurse's voice.

ill say too, i 100% understand the nervousness and fear. the 2 weeks leading up to the surgery were like. awful andnsnjf. i was so anxious and terrified of the pain only to find it genuinely was not that bad at all. you know the this too shall pass lighter i have. i slept with that clutched in my hand the entire night before surgery. it was very much a "do it scared" situation and having those things of comfort and reassurance whatever they are to you can help immensely. and i did do it! and the relief i felt a week after when i finally got to see made literally all of it worth it. theres still healing to go (i took a month off work also) but im taking it very slowly and trying not to rush enjoyment of this body c: most of the healing process has been letting the body do its natural work and being patient with it, a thing i am usually not. i still have to dress the area for another 2 weeks maybe, but then i can start scar care!!!

[tgwdlmreprised]

"i love bitching about musicals ask me about musicals" PLEASEEEE bitch about Black Friday 🙏

ok it makes me a little sad that black friday is the unloved middle child of the trilogy because it isnt THAT bad, not bad at all honestly, it set up a lot of stuff to come in the later and its soundtrack is just banging. i also just dont rly agree with it sounding bad, i never even knew the entire cast was sick until well after the fact.

my biggest problem with the show is there is just too many fucking characters, starkid in general has a big problem with their bigger casts where they gotta give all these subplots so everyone gets a chance on the mic but bro sometimes ensembles can stay in the ensemble. this show has 4 plots going all on at once n they dont rly mash in until the last bit, and they have to do a LOT of exposition for it all to work. its basically a character tells the audience about another characters backstory (emma talking about tom, frank talking about lex, linda talking about becky) and then song happens. its like youre reading a bunch of wikipedia articles

ill also complain til the cows come home about this one but i dont care for ethan in this show, his death is almost comical by what little purpose he serves and lex doesnt even ask about/mention him ever again. hes ust there because ppl were so in love with robert manion and his death before the end of act 1 just feels like they knew that too like Fine heres your bait now get out of here

idk i think they shouldve just stuck to maybe one or two plots, despite all of them pretty interesting it just feels too bloated n we only get like a little bit of time with everyone. this structure worked WAY better in nightmare time but not a 2 hour musical.

tgwdlm works cause it has one main character than 5 secondaries all with their own subplots and themes and shit but we dont need to literally pause and go pay attention to something else for the next 10 minutes to deal with them. everyones always on the move together save for the beginning of act 2 when paul and bill split off from the rest @ hidgens bunker but then they get back together sharpish and it carries on along. we dont need to have like 15 minutes of introductions for each individual character , they give you all that story and character while the story progresses

that being said i like it better than npmd because the stories themselves ARE interesting, the characters are interesting, its just the writing/excecution is very convoluted and expositiony. npmd has 3 good characters and the rest are either lame or annoying (and officer bailey hes funny idc)

[eddie-rifff]

tagged by @carcarrot to share 10 pieces of music ive been listening to recently thakknkn uuuUuU

ok soooo. this could very easily be 10 boomtown rats songs because since may 13 (the day of reckoning aka when i went insane abt bob geldof) i think ive spent the majority of my waking life listening to them. but i will limit it to just 4. ill get them out of the way

Like Clockwork - The Boomtown Rats

fav boomtown rats song may be one of my favorite songs of all time now. the chorus scratches an itch in my soul idk!!!!!

2. He Watches It All - The Boomtown Rats

one of the most unusual rats songs not because its unlike anything anyones ever made but its very unlike the rest of their catalog, and a strange choice to start the album with since it gives you no indication of whats to come. dramatic and moody and slow. very similar vibe to song 5 on this list, actually. luv it

3. Keep It Up - The Boomtown Rats

erectile dysfunction win

4. Windchill Factor (Minus Zero) - The Boomtown Rats

the one that started it all. prior to this song i literally only knew i dont like mondays. i was listening to my spotify day list i think and this came up and i loved it immediately, its very oingo boingo. then i was like ok let me try the rest of the album its gotta have more songs like this one - listened to it - was disappointed - moved on with my life. a couple weeks pass. im like cmon i love this song so much there HAS to be more like it! played their discography this time. still not impressed BUT i found another i really liked (like clockwork). a few days after finding that song, the day of reckoning occurred. at which point i was like ok if im going to be completely fucking feral about this guy i need to get into his music i cannot obsess over a guy and only like TWO of his songs. listened through the discography again. for some reason, this was the listen that did it. i now have an hour and a half long playlist of boomtown rats songs i listen to in full at least twice a day at work

5. The Chauffeur - Duran Duran

no. 1 song to sway back and forth gently to with a pensive look on your face

6. Right on the Money - Tim Curry

yes tim curry made music!!!!! this album has a couple decent songs on it but this is the only one i'd call Good, but it really is Good

7. Apollo 9 - Adam Ant

banger to end all bangers, cannot recommend enough

8. I Don't Remember - Peter Gabriel

gloopiest bassline ever everyone say thank you tony levin

9. Play Don't Worry - Mick Ronson

i wrote off ronno's solo work for like 13 years because when i first listened to this song i guess i was some kind of idiot because i found it pretty boring at the time. listened to it again after discovering growing up and im fine (which is also amazing) bc i was like Hey i need to give him another chance! and while the aforementioned song and this one are probably the highlights of his solo work, they are tremendous highlights.

10. We're Off You Know - The Beatles Klaatu

song that oozes happiness and joy. like i dont typically envision music vids when i listen to songs, but for this one i do: ur boarding a hot air balloon with your closest friends. ur all wearing cool sunglasses. ur laughing and smiling and having a good time. its a beautiful sunny day with big billowing clouds. as the chorus starts, they cut the hot air balloon free, and you take off into the sky

tagging uhhhhhhhhh @blunderbussin @girlinthebrightbluejeans @milkyway-ashes and anyone else. say i tagged u. no one ever does that but u can. its ok. u can do it. if u want

[st4rgzer]

NOW PLAYING…

↳ WELCOME TO NEW YORK (1980 TV) MATT STURNIOLO

genre: fluff, with a touch of angst

cw!: cursing, fem pronouns

summary: in which the reader is, half ready, to move to new york after booking her first major gig

a/n: this is the first track and i hope ill release one every weekend, maybe more, thank you for reading!

after 7 years, no, all my life working my ass off, going to every audition I can get my hands on, reading too many scripts a day, I finally got an audition.

And the best thing, it wasn’t because of the triplets! me being friends with them, and dating one, had made it incredibly difficult to make my own image, be my own person, even though I love them, I want people to know me for me, not know me as “matt’s girlfriend” or, “that girl that hangs out with the triplets”.

The only problem about getting a major gig, it’s in New York, and it’s going to be a pretty long time rolling, so I’d have to move there, at least for a year. That means leaving thee triplets at home. Leaving Matt home, and its not like NY is next to LA or Boston, 5 hours on plane. And it´s already difficult when they have leave for LA.

“babe, c’mon, just, come, spend the night here and in the morning we can drive you to the airport” Matt wined, pulling me towards him on the sofa, he had been trying to convince me not to leave early all day, and that they were closer to the airport so they could be the ones to take me there.

“well…maybe…” I sighed, the airport anxiety making me doubt wether or not to stay tonight, well, they are closer to the airport than me…fine, I sleep better with him anyways.

“yes! see i always win” he says lifting his arms up in victory, earning a laugh from me, he may be very persistent but it was sweet to see how he celebrated when he finally won.

He tugged me towards him and I laid my head on his chest, closing my eyes in a moment of peace before I had to worry about the move.

I nearly fell asleep when his hands started caressing my hair and detangling all the knots, slowly putting me in a trance, then I came to the realization that my bags were still in my house, and sighed, taking his hand away from my hair gently and sitting up.

“I just remembered my suitcase is still in my house, we have to go get it before anything” I kneaded my forehead and breathed deep, then I felt Matt’s hand on my back.

“relax ok, I can take us there in a minute, don’t worry about anything, the important things are already being shipped to your flat and the flight leaves at 10 am, enough time to sleep in a bit or have breakfast.” he said stroking my shoulder reassuringly, I grabbed his hand and placed it on mine, sighing as I backed myself against his chest once again, grateful I had an organized boyfriend opposed to the mess I was with this kind of stuff.

We pulled up to my driveway, I fiddled with the keys before finally opening the door. I went up to my room to get my big suitcase, them I realized a staircase and a big suitcase wasn’t a good match for me, I yelled Matt’s name but I saw him already going up the stairs, probably cause he knows me too well.

“thank you” I said with a sly smile. Grabbing the other end of the suitcase to at least help a bit, though he took all the weight.

We got into the car, the sun was setting and the weather was perfect for reminiscing and being nostalgic.

I laid my head against the damp car window , I started to think if this gig was going to be my big break. Even though I’ve wanted to be an actress since I was a young child, I never liked change, I despised it even.

This was going to be a big change, I had the last month to think about it and get used to the idea, but still, the thought of me and Matt breaking up because of long distance…

I felt a hand be placed on my knee, snapping me out of my thoughts, my mouth curved up into a slight smile, I placed his hand in mine, he rubbed small circles on my knuckles, and pulled it closer to him, placing a soft kiss to them.

“I’m so happy for you, do you know that?” The corners of his eyes crinkled as he smiled at me with genuine joy. I tilted me head slightly and pursed my lips together.

“Do you think we’ll- survive the long distance…?” I looked down, guilt lingering in my voice, It was my fault I was moving to NY, I took the job, if the relationship went down the drain…I wouldn’t help to think it was my doing.

“What? That’s stupid, of course we will, Its not like you’re moving to a whole other country, phones exist, planes do as well” He insisted, tilting my head up to meet my line of view.

“trust me, okay? I’m a professional at the whole moving stuff…” He saw I was still unsure.

“baby I wouldn’t care if you moved to a whole other continent, I’d still book the flight every weekend to come see you” He said, gently moving a strand of hair out of my face, he wanted me to look at him, and I did. I half-smiled at him, feeling a bit more sure about the move thanks to his pep talk.

I realized I didn’t recognize where we were heading to, turning confused to Matt as he kept his eyes on the rode.

“Matt, where are we going? As far as I know, your house isn’t in a forest” I shook my head when he didn’t respond, scoffing as I laid back into the carseat.

As we parked in a rocky spot, he got out and went ‘round the car to open my door, what a gentlemen.

“What? are you gonna murder me out here or…?” I laughed as I got out of the vehicle, closing the door behind me. I was shut up as he placed a hand on my cheek, pulling me closer, and planting a sweet kiss onto my lips.

“oh?” I grinned, resting my hands over his shoulders, he grabbed one gently and led me in front of the car.

“ok, so, you know how I decorated my room all foresty?” He finally spoke, turning so he could make eye contact with me, I nodded.

“well, that’s cause the woods, mountains, they help calm me down, ease my anxiety and worries about things. After our first argument I came here, to clear my head. I come here a lot, and…I thought maybe it would help you a little? at least give you some peace of mind for while…”

He said, sweet words spewing from his mouth, I could’ve melted then and there. God, he was thoughtful. I smiled at him so widely, pecking his lips gently, I then peppered his cheeks and forehead with some more, he was right, this WAS giving me peace of mind. There was a slight fog surrounding the trees, and a soft breeze.

“thank you, Matt, this means a lot, like, really” I sighed as he opened his arms and held me, I closed my eyes at the smell of his cologne and the soft fabric of his plaid flannel.

“anything for you, lovely. I just wanted to give you a good afternoon to end with before the exhausting week that awaits you” He said kissing the top of my head and resting his chin there.

Hours passed. We were crossed legged, sat on the ground, watching the sky get darker and darker, contemplating as the stars slowly appeared.

My head was rested on his shoulder, his arm intertwined with mine, and his head laid back on the front of the car. It was simple and sweet, but better than anything I could’ve asked for.

It was silent, the comfort of our company being enough substitute for meaningless conversation. He sighed, contempt, we both knew the night was coming to an end, as I still wanted to get in at least 9 hours of sleep.

“do you think we should go now? its getting a bit late” he said stroking the palm of my hand.

“mhm, it is” I hummed, I gave him one more kiss before getting up and grabbing the makeshift blanket beneath us.

We drove to the car humming songs on the radio, his hands always resting either on my knee, my thigh, or my hand.

As the car pulled into the garage, Nick and Chris’s voices were heard, I think they were screaming something along the lines of “fucking finally”

We both looked at each other and sighed, holding in a laugh as he turned the doorknob, we were greeted with an angry blonde haired boy and a hyperactive Chris.

“where the fuck were you guys?! we wanted to do a going away movie party for tonight!” Nick yelled, he breathed and tried to calm himself, me and Matt were delighted watching the scene unfold.

“I took y/n somewhere.” he smirked slyly at him. Nick scoffed, he wasn’t too mad, after all, they were going to see me just next week.

After some more banter and such, Matt and I headed up to his room. He had his hand intertwined with mine and wasn’t dropping it anytime soon.

“m’lady” he said with a country accent, that always earned a chuckle out of me, opening the door for me, following behind. I sighed, letting myself fall onto the soft sheets of his bed.

He laid down next to me, as routine, I placed my head on his chest, he wrapped his arm languidly around my waist, pulling me close.

“im tired” I yawned and felt the vibrations from his chest as he laughed.

“of course you are, we’ve had a busy day, huh? He said kissing my hair softly, rubbing small shapes on the exposed skin of my waist.

I nodded, closing my eyes, sighing, I grew more tired every heartbeat of his I felt from his chest, the lullaby of his heart clearing my mind.

He felt I drifted off, he kissed the top of my head once again and whispered goodnight.

“I love you.”

“i love you too” I mumbled.

I recounted the previous moments in our day, everything from the starbucks he bought me when picking me up, to watching the sun set in his favorite place, with his favorite person.

Im scared of new beginnings, but New York can’t be so bad, right?

…

‘welcome to New York’ The big sign I was met with read, people were hustling and seemed like they had somewhere to go, I could here sirens blaring and people yelling “taxi!” I smiled. Everyone here wants something more. I guess I maybe could get used to this.

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[gatsby-system-folks]

Hi besties

I didn't feel like deleting this commission post. Thankfully, the friend who I opened commissions to help has stable housing now. I'm not saying commissions closed, I'm just busy lol.

Illustration:

Some examples of my work

I'll also do relatively short comics. This is a snippet from my webcomic. A sketch is $10, colored sketch is $15, lineart is $10, colored lineart is $15. Shading or lighting on anything will add $10. I'm not separating character art and landscape art, both have the same rate, but something with more than 5 characters or something set in a city (or otherwise densely populated/elaborate area) will be a little more ($5 for every character above 5, and an extra $10 for an elaborate scene). Comics are the same, each page (not each panel) will be treated as a piece.

Writing:

I'll write for ocs, and from:

Homestar Runner

Rise of the tmnt

The Usagi Chronicles

Gorillaz

Good Omens

Undertale/Deltarune

Homestuck (and its affiliates, such as pesterquest or friendsim)

Venom

Moon Knight

Treasure Planet

Hellboy

Doctor Who

Our Flag Means Death

The Chronicles of Narnia

The Lord of the Rings/The Hobbit

The original 6 Star Wars movies

The Spiderverse series, itsv and atsv

The Davina skit from Rab C Nesbitt. (I see yall shipping Davina with Mrs. Robinson and I love yall)

If something's not on this list, you can still ask, and if I've seen whatever the media is I'll probably write it. On the other hand, if i haven't seen all of the content for the medias listed above, I'll have to do some research so it might not be the best work (ie the only reason I'm limiting this to the first 6 star wars movies is because I haven't seen any more than that)

I'll do ships between canon characters or between ocs, I'm not comfortable doing x reader content at this point. Also.. they don't have to be ships lol I also do just. Fics.

Some examples of my work:

I'm gonna keep it simple and do $20 per thousand words, but there's not a minimum word count. That's $0.02 per word lol. When you describe the fic ill give you an estimate of how many words I can do it in, and we can adjust. If the fic goes more than 150 words over the final estimate then it's flat-rate (as in the price doesn't continue to climb)

Poetry

Any subject really. I'll add examples of my work when the website I post on is fixed. Poetry is twice the price of fic

Editing:

Keep it under 5,000 words for now. $8 per hour. I'll edit fic, essays, etc.

Worldbuilding:

If you need help figuring out a magic system, how pipes connect your city, weird biological facts about your aliens, or even just where to put the castle parking lot, I can help. Same rules of fic writing and editing: if we chat worldbuilding for an hour, it'll be $8. If you want a 500 word summary of your new worlbuilding, that'll be $10. The text of the chat of course is free, you can pause your time of course, and whatever time I spend writing the summary isn't double charged. So an hour of chatting+ a 500 word summary would be $18

What I won't work with, in any format

Heavy nsfw- light is ok

Incest, pedophilia, noncon etc

Hate, bigotry, overly political work, bullying

Torture

Glorification of not good things. Depiction does not equal glorification

Case by case: real, living people. Context below.

What I won't draw, specifically:

Gore

abuse (such as beating, verbal, emotional)

Self harm

Everything is case-by-case, if something makes me uncomfortable I'm not going to do it. You may not put my work into an ai scraper of any kind. Also I'll say it again, depiction does not equal glorification.

Context on real people: I mean if you want me to just draw a picture of Margot Robbie that's most likely fine, or write about the wacky secret society that Laura Ingals and St. Patrick were running that's probably fine, or if a real living person appears in the background that's probably fine (I see you good omens fans having Crowley and Hozier hang out at a bar), but I won't write shipping for real, currently living people, nor will i make them the mc of a story. I'd prefer not for dead people either, but that's not a hard rule. Once again, case by case.

[cherrysfeelings]

Summer 2023, I decided to aply for the 2nd path after finishing 10th, 13 year old me would hit me (let's not bring her out ok). The 2nd path is basically getting 2 years of training/education to get a specific job. My first option was APSD wich translates to 'Care of People in a Situation of Dependecy' (disabled people, people with mental illness, neurodivergent people and mostly eldery people). Not gonna lie, I had a crying crisis bc I thought that I wouldn't get in, even though I finished the 4 mandatory years of highschool (7th-10th grade) with a 7.15/10, but the thing was the extra points and I didn't get many of them, only 2 for living near the school, than other people, one of my actual friends got 7 extra points. So my grade went to 7.15 to a 9.15 wich is not bad its just that I was 16 and went to a toxic school for 8 years and a half and a toxic highschool for 3 years and a half, and I craved so much for 'Perfect' grades (for me a perfect grade is atleast a 7 out of 10). A week later, I got in, in fact I was the 3rd to appear on the list, I was officially a new student in my actual highschool. Last year was amazing, sure we got a lot of problems, but we studied social skils so now everything is fine. I had 5 subjects.

Apoyo domiciliario = Home Support, the ones who were here Last year know about this one, god I hatted this teacher bc she actually didn't even know what was she teaching us. (She's actually an English teacher) She made me do the same exam 2 times bc I wasn't able to pass, but in the end I passed with a 7/10. Now I miss this teacher, I'll tell you why.

Atención y apoyo psicosocial = Psycology (is not the same at all but has a few things related) Why the hell we had 8hrs every week of this subject? Crazy how the subjects that are way easy are the ones that we get more hours. At the end of the school year she decided to not do any test if we go almost every day at class, and make the few works she would say, we would pass the subject, don't ask me how a perfect attendance and 5 works made me have a 8.5/10. This teacher was actually a music teacher (notice how we have teachers that have nothing to do related to the subject they teach us, but that's the funny thing isn't?). Now let me tell you she was actually a little bit out of her mind. She ended the school year pround of me bc I finally learned how to cut paper with my hands

Atención Sanitaria = Health Care. If you were here Last year you also know about this one. It felt like a betrayal when we got a message from her saying that she wont be our teacher anymore. I hope she shows up at the graduation bc after all she was our tutor, and we were her children just like she said 🥺. I passed this subject with a 7/10 our a 6/10 I don't remeber anymore and I wont try to find that paper. Miss you ma'am. She will always be a mother figure to us

Características de personas en situación de dependencia = Characteristics of people in a situation of dependency. I had class with this teacher once again, he's one of the only 2 male teachers that I had in this school. This man is very nice, even though his classes are lowkey boring bc he talks a lot with a monotone voice, but he's funny, and a girl dad, sometimes he spills teenage vocabulary at his 60s. The thing is that for his subjects you have to know like 90% of the units that would be on the exam, but thank got he's a good teacher and you can pass his subject with a 4.5. I passed his subject with a 7/10 he really liked my document about bpd.

Formación Orientativa Laboral = Job Guidance Training. Lets talk about this one, really hard you have to learn a lot of laws, and if someone tolds you that in a formación profesional you don't have math, they're lying to you or they're just a science theacher that never heard actually about a formación profesional, he told me not to go to 11th grade bc of maths, but he didn't tell me about this subject. Thank god the teacher is so so nice, and pretty and made it easy, she's that kind of theachers that explain you what you don't understand even though is the 100th time. I passed this subject with a 5/10. And I had class with her again this year

Now lets go with this year, the last one, it destroyed me. That's why you didn't see me that much around here. I have 7 subjects and sadly I failed 4 but thankfully this week I got a chance to pass those 4 subject, I finished yesterday (its saturday 2am rn). And at 2nd is only 6 months at school and the 3 rest of them is just practices at companies (working without getting paid). Lets go with those subjects.

Apoyo a la Comunicación = Support with Comunication. I have a love-hate relationship with this teacher. She's nice but her exams are a war battle, I failed this one on the 1st trimester and in this one too. The worst thing is that she reminds me of a teacher that I had in 10th grade, that just happends to teach now at my highschool, thank god I don't go to morning shift anymore. But yesterday I asked her if I passed her subject bc let me tell you, I had no faith, everyone was mad bc of the test she did on Wednesday. I even turned red when I saw the questions, bc when you give a chance to a student to pass a subject with a test, You're supposed to make that test easy or the same, not completly different, but after 13 hours wating for her response. I passed !!! Idk the number of the grade but i don't care, I did it

Atención Higienica = Hygene Care. This one is one that I passed at the first try. I don't know my grade but in the first exam I got a 6.4/10 and in the 2nd one (that wasn't supossed to exist) I got a 5.24/10. I hope my final grade would be a 6/10. She teaches way to fast but her exams are easy, the only ones were I had confidence this year. Thanks of a recent school trip (I'll share photos bc it was amazing) we get to know that she lives near a village that belogs to my town, pretty house she has.

Destrezas Sociales = Social skils. The same male teacher as last year, at the start when they told us that we would have class with him again I whispered 'Yey'. Sadly I didn't pass his subject, I did the exam today and im wating for his message. If I don't pass reminder to myself that the world won't end. Forgot to say he reminds me of my math teacher of 8th-10th grade. Miss that man too

Empresa e Iniciativa emprendedora = A subject about making your own company and all that stuff. The same teacher as Job Guidance Training. Tbh i didn't have faith on passing this subject even before I applied to study this, bc I had it in 10th grade with a horrible teacher that she even humilated in front of everyone just bc 15% of the project was wrong and other 15% wasn't finished. Mind you it was your fault bc me and my friend asked for your help. So every single class this year I had thoughts like 'I won't pass this subject is hard to learn, and I'll have to re-do the school year just bc this subject, but its fine, this teacher wont humilate me' Sadly I didn't pass neither the 1st trimester and this one, on Thrusday I did the exam, I left so happy and even more when an hour later I got a message from her saying that I passed with a 5.9/10 in the exam. I was at my dad's work at that time bc I had 2 free hours and I was thristy and tbh a bottle of water would be always cheapper in my dad's work. I started to clap my hand and scream, I got weird looks from my dad's workmates. I cant believe it, I passed, it gave a lot of energy I swear. It's sad bc I wont have more class with her, but good news. SHE LIVES IN THE SAME TOWN AS ME, never saw her, she might live in the rich zone, but I know where I can find her since she say it at class

Organización de atención a personas en situación de dependencia = Organization of care for people in a situation of dependency. Don't ask me what this subject is about. This woman is so two faced, she didn't even teach, just two big ahh projects. SHE'S THE REASON I MISS THE HOME SUPPORT TEACHER, SHE WOULD MADE US DO THAT. Every single class I thought about the home support teacher like 'What is she doing rn?' 'Why did she have to leave us?' But I passed this subject at the first try, also she reminds me of my geography teacher of 9th grade the one that read my 2nd surname wrong but really worng.

Primeros Auxilios = First aids. Same teacher as Hygene Care. I didn't pass at the first time but also yesterday I have her exam and I passed with also a 5.9/10. I hope it would also be a 6/10. I had so much fun in this subject bc when we have to do practices like carrying someone (most of the times I was someone) or pcr was like we forgot that the class is divided in 2 groups and we laugh with eachother, gonna miss it. OH also, everyone passed both subjects of this teacher.

Teleasistencia = Telecare. At first I hated this man, but then its just a funny guy that actually barely has experience in the subject his teaching and also at teaching, he's even better than the teacher of the morning shift. He's so random wdym that you wanted to come to a school trip 0% related to your subject and you fell out of your bike on the way. He's just like a kid exaited for eveything, even if you just want his help, He's happy that you rely on him. Going to miss him. I passed at the first try with a 7.9/10 (higest one)

Basically not its 3am, and Im wating for a masagge of a man in his 60s just to see if I passed or not, bc is the only one i have left :D and if I don't pass, I have another chance on June and the trimester of work would be Octuber-December. Sadly is already confirm that atleast 2 girls in my class didn't pass all the subject so they'll have to make it on June. I believe on them. Still they have the right to do graduation bc they paid the 15€ of the graduation photos. Lets hope I passed Social Skils, and if not, well, I said there's another chance, and its only one subject, 4 units. One thing about graduation, It would be before my 18th birthday so if this mfs want to party I cannot go. I guess I can always rely on my 45 year old classmate blind af. Also if we pass Social skils together we will go to the work phase together at the same company (maybe not same hour and we wont work actually together but still, I'm happy) Goodnight. I wont sleep yet. CAN THAT MAN JUST WAKE UP AND TELL ME MY GRADE?!

[cluelesslesbian]

hahaha

(ignore my tags- just needed to... vent rn)

[phagodyke]

nvm im too tired and overstimulated for this shit

[separatist-apologist]

Ok let's talk about very serious things though

Rank 10 acotar characters on how badly they deal with having the flu. Ladies or gents or both, dealers choice

I'm doing the men because we have a chance to hand someone a victory who has NEVER ONCE WON (or maybe he has and I forgot). Anyway blah blah disclaimer I dont care if you think I'm wrong blah blah burden of only correct option etc etc

10. Eris- The absolute WORST. Is he dying? Oh...it's just a 99.2 degree fever. Sir, that isn't even a fever anymore. Why are you moaning? Get up and assassinate your father

9. Jurian- Blaming everyone else for his illness. Suspiciously recounting that sneezing toddler at the store four days earlier. Are you in a full hazmat suit? Then you better get out.

8. Tamlin- "real men don't get sick" so he's gonna let it fester until its a trip to the ER. Coulda fixed this with some cough and cold, now you have to sit here in the waiting room for five hours to see a nurse with cold hands. You proud of yourself, sir?

7. Helion- Heard the word sponge bath, is now VERY ill. Would risk it all to help him, though.

6. Rhys- Milking it for the attention, though. Likes to be fawned over. Can't a guy be treated like a princess? yes, only when he's sick. 60% chance he is mysteriously cured if sex is on the table (literally or otherwise)

5. Tarquin- insists you don't need to wait on him, but wouldn't say no to a bowl of soup. Worst cough you've ever heard, he's trying to go to work despite it. Lay down before you take out the whole office.

4. Lucien- annoyingly will not accept help unless its from his mom. Only she knows the right broth recipe (its BROTH lucien, how complicated could it be?). reeks of vicks for days afterwards

3. Kallias- the cold never bothered him anyway. But can you bring him some socks? His feet are chilly.

2. Cassian- cheerful, if not a little delirious. Ass grabbing whoever is nursing him back to health. Chugging water like his life depends on it, already downed Emergen-C at the first sign of sniffles

Azriel- Oh my god, you were sick??? Why didn't you tell anyone? Didn't want to be a burden, is fine now.

[wanda-little-baby]

Rainy Run - Wanda x Readear

Summary: Retrace the path that led you to this point, starting at the lowest point.

Warnings: angst, a lot of angst also on the next chapter but it will be better

A/N: Please going easy with me its my first work ❤️!

Words: 1.654

This morning started like all the others, I woke up at 5 and after a cold shower I got dressed and left the compound to go running.

The temperature was still quite low, perfect for anything but not for running, typical of full spring here in New York. I decided to take a path to the nearby woods, just to change my routine, as I ran I noticed the rapid change of the already multi-colored leaves, almost ready to fall. Running, I began to remember all the times that for some reason, if only to disconnect the tension, I would take refuge there protected by the branches of the forest.

The first time was two years ago shortly after the Avengers rescued me from under the rubble of the building where I lived with my parents. At the time I was only sixteen and I still didn't know how to control my powers well, it often happened that when I felt very strong emotions I let them take the lead and bad things happened, like that time...

Immediately after I realized what I had done everything became dark and I thought I was going to die, at least I would stop suffering, hurting others and myself, but the universe had more in store for me. Suddenly a strong glow blinded my sight and prevented me from looking at the person who had raised the concrete slab above me, ending breaking the magical barrier that had self-created during the collapse, it took me a while to readjust to the light ... before realizing that the man in front of me was none other than Captain America!

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It all started with a simple quarrel, one of those things that mother and daughter have, but usually it does not end with a collapsing building, many victims and the Avengers walking in search of survivors or rather looking for you above the remains of that which until half an hour ago was your home.

With many wounds and unable to utter any meaningful words the only sounds were various moans accompanied by tears caused by both anger and sadness, offset by an excellent process of fainting. "Nat prepares the Quinjet, I found someone," Steve said as he pressed a finger into the earphone.

The slight moments between fainting caused by the huge blood loss were hardly enough to understand three things: the first was that Captain America was picking you up and carrying you somewhere, you were on a sort of plane headed for who knows what place, and in conclusion you were terribly ill ... for everything.

When I woke up I was in a kind of hospital bed with a nasal tube and an IV in my arm; it was like waking up from a nightmare one of those who make a "cold sweat" only this was true, it was all true. I carefully tried, even if still a little dazed, to look around me without picking up any clues as to where I was except perhaps that it was very expensive; trying to make a brief summary of all the memories suddenly, the emotions came back to the surface trapping my heart in an excruciating grip, instinctively I tried to get up by triggering a kind of strangely calm voice that warned me to stay calm because the "Mr. Stark" would have arrived soon, at those words it is as if a world had opened up to me "Mr. Stark, did you say? Iron Man? Where am I? Why am I here and especially where are my parents?" behind me suddenly a voice came up "Whoa, calm down, it's okay, how many questions, do you need something?".

Already the one in front of me was Tony Stark, until a few seconds ago I had only seen him on the news, but now he was right here and he asked me a question "No, I'm fine ..." were the only words that came out almost like a whisper "Ok it doesn't seem but ok for now I accept it" he said reducing the space "Let's start with order, what's your name?" "Y/n!" I almost shouted trying to escape from that situation "So, JARVIS made sure to get your clothes back, I don't think you want to stay in that shirt much longer," he said pointing to a chair in the corner with the clothes "Yeah, it's not very comfortable" I said quickly putting on my old clothes. "Ok Y/n, remember what happened, the reason for your injuries" without answering I lowered my eyes full of tears at the thought, it was enough. "Then I guess from the questions you know who I'm, right ?" without answering, I nodded slightly, "Well come with me I'll help you distract yourself, let's go talk to the others".

That was the first time I met the Avengers, but definitely not the last. At this point in the boulevard of memories the thing that brought me back to reality was a drop of water on my nose followed by others very quickly and in no time I became a walking puddle that ran quickly back to the compound.

Once I arrived, in a heartbeat I sneaked back into my room without wanting to wake anyone, and straight into the bathroom for a nice hot shower eliminating all the accumulated cold. The warmth of the shower allowed my mind to prepare to take another leap into the maze of my traumas.

I've always never liked introductions, all this embarrassment as if talking was the most humiliating thing in the world, it certainly didn't improve in this situation. Coming out of the room that "Tony" had said was some kind of infirmary he led me somewhere looking at me as if I were a broken vase about to split into many small pieces, he was right ... I had just killed my parents and it was all my fault.

"You know Y/N you can call me Tony if you like" "you're very quiet eh" "don't press too hard, you'll like them" I continued to follow him without however countering his constant attempts to open a conversation because it wasn't the most important thing, I had to knowing where my parents were, why I was there, what Earth's mightiest heroes wanted from a simple girl unfortunate enough to have powers she can't handle.

At the end of the one-sided chat he motioned me to enter a "conference room", I don't have time to take the first step that all the eyes of the four people inside were turned to me, their looks were filled with sorrow mixed with fear ...

... if I had known, I would have too

"Where are my parents !? Are they okay?" Were the first words I said to break the awkward silence, words that only later would I regret having uttered; Bruce, who at that time did not yet know sayed "Your parents .... your parents died under the rubble".

At those words it was as if everything collapsed but at the same time clear, it was my fault, from that belief my body collapsed to the ground bent in an excruciating spiral of pain all around, pain that became anger to be the cause of everything that, anger at being too weak to handle these powers, anger at not dying with them and surviving, all of this pain almost exploded inside me, almost.

All this happened in a few seconds, making only a glimpse of what was inside me on the outside, immediately Steve, as usual, rushed to "save" the same girl for the second time in the same day "Don't worry, we're not going to hurt you, we heard about the explosion and came to check its source, we didn't know it was you but we're not here to question you "he said with a rather sorry tone looking at the rest of the team; "For the moment you can stay here if you want. Tony, we have a room for her right?" "Yes, of course we have Steve, when there are only 5 of us and most of us are never there" "is it my fault that I have a life?" with my eyes barely open I caught a glimpse of a man laughing together with a redhead "no Clint, it's just that we are very busy no matter how but we are" said the redhead, moderating her laughter, looking back at me.

Seeing that scene, uncommon people laughing and joking as if they were old friends brought out a faint smile flickering enough for Steve to break away and try to compose himself. "I think I'll accept, I have nowhere else to go" I stammered trying to get up trying not to sink in shame for having collapsed in front of people who don't even know me, "you don't have to be ashamed, the pain will pass over time, you just have to find it, for now it is understandable that you want to let off steam "I looked up just to see the other woman smiling at me "by the way, I'm Natasha "she said approaching" I would like to go to this hypothetical room now, if only I knew where" with a still scared look I answered trying to stop all these people getting closer and closer; "Yes, of course, this way," said Tony, picking up the subject again and pointing to the exit.

He led me through a quiet corridor filled with rooms to what I understood was going to be where I was staying. Before I took refuge inside ready to cry he said in a worried tone "If you need something, anything, just a nod, for the moment we should all stay here" nodding I said a miserable "Thank you" before letting go of the handle and to be alone again at the mercy of silence, in pain as it should be after what I had done.

[kerink]

ok i can trust the autism website to help me understand something that bugs the fuck out of me about myself

can you guys explain the appeal of music to me? like the extent of my interaction with music is hear a song, download it, listen while i drive. it takes an act of god for me to download a song and takes nothing at all for me to delete the download

ive never understood enjoying playlists or albums or following artists or going to concerts, and at work they talk about it constantly and it feels so alienating. i cant imagine enjoying a discography or waiting for a release or even knowing enough songs to make unique playlists for characters

i literally cant stand listening to music that i dont like, and i can tell in 30 seconds or less usually if ill like it. im fine listening to other peoples playlists it doesnt bother me at all, but trying to make myself listen to music i dont like is painful, i can usually only work up the nerve to actively seek out new music every 3-5 years or so and even then thats only for an hour or two at most

i know you guys are all Music Enjoyers so can you please explain to me the appeal because its really, really bothering me lately and making me feel very Othered

[pradaksj]

the swimming lessons

all rights reserved © pradaksj

↳do not repost, translate, or claim as your own.

❧ pairing⟶  jungkook/reader

❧ genre⟶  swimminginstructor!jungkook , fluff, a bit of comedy? head canon/bullet points 

❧ rating⟶ e for everyone??? none??? idk how ratings work lol i just know that m = the dirty, which this story has none of

❧ word count ⟶ 5,000 

❧ summary ⟶  accidental swimming lessons with jungkook were definitely worth the money 

❧ a/n ⟶ i literally dreamt something similar to this in like january and told myself i'd write about it when i had the time so hear i am :)) this goes out to all my folks who can’t swim !! i'm on the same boat with you , get it?  cause we can’t swim ... ok anyways ... enjoy ! (note: i have not proofread this yet so sorry for any mistakes!! ill get to it soon !! ) 

“hello, welcome to lucky duck swim school, how can i help you?” the receptionist, who was loudly chewing her gum, sounded more like an automated voice message than a person...

see today was your first official swimming lesson

yay!! 

how fun!! ...

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totally not embarrassing for someone your age !!!

honestly, it wasn't your fault you didn’t have any family members or friends with a big pool you could learn in growing up 

and by the time you did, you were too much of in an awkward phase to be properly taught

aka your body absolutely refusing to float on its own anymore

but after several trips to the beach with friends and attending different pool parties, you were tired of being made fun of !! 

no longer would you remain at 5 feet and under !!! not on your watch ! 

and so here you were, ready to start your journey into the world of swimming :)) 

“hi i um have a swimming lesson at 3 with um ... i believer her name was um—” 

hmmm what was her name ??? jennie??? no, maybe it was aaliyah ??? no that wasn’t it.... 

the receptionist taps on her keyboard buttons, her long nails making a noise 

pop, her bubblegum goes 

“jungkook” 

“yeah jungkook” you mindlessly say. 

wait 

WAIIITT

jungkook????

ummmmm 

that was not the game given to you by the last receptionist 

jungkook is a boy’s name !!! 

you didn’t want a boy instructor !!! 

not with the way you were looking 

“i um—i had asked for a girl instructor—” you awkwardly mention 

she rolls her eyes

um RUDE 

she continues clacking with her keyboard, looking for god knows what 

she sighs 

“there’s no slots with female instructors available for today, nor for the rest of the month, the earliest i can probably squeeze you in by is july.” she bluntly states. 

JULY??? 

july was when you needed to already know how to swim !!

that’s the peak of summer ! 

there was no point in knowing during winter or any other season besides summer for that matter 

and you were not going to get made of by your friends this year

no no NO

“soo do i reschedule you or.....” 

you sigh 

“no ill take it” you pout, resembling a child. 

“it it makes you feel any better, jungkook’s our best instructor, most popular too” 

wink 

oh yeah that makes you feel so much better 

>:( 

you were going to make a complete fool out of yourself in front of the so called “best instructor” 

“well go get yourself washed up, get into the pool, and jungkook will be with you shortly” she smiles, her attitude now changing now that (what looked to be a supervisor) was passing by. 

what a bi—

flip flop. flip flop. flip flop. 

your sandles press onto the water on the floor of the girls locker room, a grouchy look now on your face 

this wasn't fair 

you made an appointment with a female instructor!! 

you didn’t care if he was the best instructor or the most popular ...

squeeaaakkk , you twist the rusty shower handle

...because now you were you were going to be judged for your lack of skills 

not that you had any to begin with, but still! 

god, you sounded like such a karen ... 

it’s just ...

a guy instructor ??? 

really??? 

you understood that this wasn’t elementary school anymore and boys certainly didn’t have cooties anymore but like :// 

no no, you had to give this jungkook guy the benefit of the doubt

if he was one of the best, it was clearly because he was professional and good at what he does 

putting your worries to rest, you turn off the shower 

this was going to be fine

just fine 

clearly your worries were not put to rest 

just a temporary halt 

:) 

pat. pat. pat. 

okay let’s get it ! 

making your way out to the pool, you dip your foot in 

ooooo 

cold

VERY cold indeed 

1 ...2...

you dip your whole leg in, quickly using the momentum to place your whole body in 

“5 feet and below ... you’re my bitch !!” you think to yourself 

your hand still clearly gripping onto the ledge, still afraid of accidentally reaching 6ft

.... now to wait 

“megan seems to have fractured her leg last weekend on a rollerskating day gone bad, so you’ll be taking up her appointments for the next month of two until she’s cleared for work” 

huh ???

“but—” 

“also she, well now you i guess, have a lesson to teach at..” 

jungkook’s supervisor looks down at his watch 

“oh i guess in 30 minutes, could’ve sworn it was at 4..” he mumbles that last part to himself

30 minutes?! 

“don’t worry i’ll up your pay for the remaining time that she gets better” 

he winks ;) making a clicking noise with his mouth before leaving the staff room 

jungkook sighs 

today was supposed to be an easy day :/ 

a simple cleaning of the pool along with a couple of measly hours of being the lifeguard and that would’ve been it but noooo 

he just had to be the highest rated swimming instructor on the company website 

he couldn’t complain though, sometimes it was fun reading the reviews past students left, even if sometimes they were a little too...

whats the word...

provocative? 

it often made him wonder if he was in fact an actual good swimming instructor or if the high highly rated reviews were for other reasons.... 

honestly it’d be dumb of him not to acknowledge the amount of googly eyes he’d get ranging from the mother’s of his younger students to his actual adult students (female and male) 

he just liked to think that didn’t come into play when they wrote their reviews 

hehe 

changing into his black fitted rash guard, he glanced at megan’s schedule 

name : y/n 

age: 23 grown

swimming level: beginner  aka noob. 

he chuckles to himself 

well won’t this be fun 

he couldn’t lie beginner adult swimmers were always a spectacle to watch 

they almost reminded him of baby ducks learning how to swim 

only that they’d verbally curse their frustrations here and there 

quickly showering, he begins to make his way to the pool 

hmm, he wonders..

what should he eat after today’s lesson? 

a bacon cheese burger sounded really good 

maybe even grab himself some birria tacos from that new restaurant that just opened near his apartment 

hmm no he had to start spending less on takeout 

sigh 

looks like it’d be rame—

woah 

as corny as it sounded, he could’ve sworn he felt his heart skip a beat 

because whoever it was in that pool was pretty, like really pretty 

hOly ????? 

wowzers 

you couldn’t be y/n ... could you?!?!?! 

you were the only person who looked 23 years of age in the pool ...

ermmmmmm 

mayday mayday 

jungkook.exe has STOPPED WORKING  

whoever this jungkook person was, sure was taking their time 

deciding to have some fun before your lesson, you begin to gently play with the water 

swish. swoosh , the water goes 

soon you’d be well on your way to becoming the next michael phelps 

hehe 

maybe with time you’d even be able to a somersault in the water like your friend always—

“y/n?” a voice from behind says your name

ah finally 

taking in a deep breath, you turn your attention to the so called “best swimming instructor” 

OH.

MY .

GOD. 

WHAT ?????? 

this man looked like he came straight out of GQ magazine !!!! 

this HAD to be some mistake , there was just no way ... 

your cheeks feel as if they were burning up 

probably because they quite literally were 

there was no way you’d be able to come here every saturday for the next month, not without fawning for this dude every single minute 

“u-um” 

of course you were a stuttering mess

of FuCkiNg course 

“that’s me” 

cue the awkward smile 

:) 

“be professional” jungkook tells himself

at the end of the day, you were his student 

any crush on you would just have to wait until of course ... you were no longer his student 

for now the only goal was : teach you how to swim 

the next one down the list being : to take you out on a date ! 

he offers you a handshake 

wow he had a strong grip 

“i’m jungkook, i’ll be your swimming instructor for the next month” 

he flashes you his all too famous smile

there was just no way this man was real

just nO wAy 

“um..” 

crap, you were still holding his hand! 

idiot, idiot, idiot ! 

“sorry” you awkwardly laugh 

ha ha ha 

so funny 

:/ 

god did you just want to hide to disappear 

“it’s fine” he laughs 

even his laugh was attractive :( 

ugh 

“so y/n, before we begin with anything, i think it’s important to review about what kind of things you already know and what you don’t” 

oh right ... 

for a moment you had COMPLETELY forgotten you were here for swimming lessons 

how embarrassing 

“oh um..” 

um, um , um. 

IS THAT ALL YOU KNEW HOW TO SAY???? 

“so like floating, holding your breath underwater, pushing, gliding, arm movement, that kind of stuff,” he explains 

you knew a cool trick to make it look like you were water bending :D 

of course you weren’t going to admit that here 

silently you nod your head no 

he gives you a reassuring smile, sensing your timidness 

“that’s fine, only more for us—” he corrects himself, “for you to learn,” he laughs 

hey you weren’t complaining 

;) 

“so i personally always like to start off with teaching my students how to float. as long as we get that down then you’ll have no problem learning the rest” 

gosh his smile was so infectious 

shaking your head, you reminded yourself that this was your teacher 

+ you paid 300 bucks for these classes, so you couldn’t afford to be giving him the googly eyes all day 

you were so cute :( 

jungkook couldn’t help but find you so endearing 

the color of your swimming goggles even matched your swim suit :(( 

so cute ! 

“okay so the first thing i want you to practice is going underwater for a couple of seconds, just so you get used it,” he instructs, “i’ll demonstrate” 

taking in a deep breath, he goes down under 

1...2...3 

he’s back up 

pausing for about another three seconds, he takes in another deep breath of air before going back under 

1...2....3...4....5

he repeats the same thing over and over, until the max count becomes 20. 

“use my finger as your reference of when to go up, but come up for air whenever you feel like you need to. it’s important to go at your own pace, so don’t feel pressured to get it the first try” 

no pressure at all 

okay 

“you ready?” 

you nod your head 

“okay, deep breath in”

you sink your head underwater, mentally counting the three seconds before going back up 

“good job,” he gives you a high five, and you almost feel like a schoolgirl, “now let’s try to five seconds” 

woo!!! 5 seconds here you come !! 

taking in a deep breath you go down under again 

1....2.....3....4...5

easy peasy ... LEMON SQUEEZY 

“okay now to ten” 

1.....2......3......4.....5......6....7

umm

now why were these seconds going by slow all of a sudden? 

sucking it up you manage to make it to 10, but not without being out of breath 

“you okay?” he’s quick to ask 

yup, totally fine ! 

you definitely didn’t see the gates of heaven for a quick moment :D 

nodding your head, you enthusiastically say, “let’s go for 15″ 

he smiles at your enthusiasm

ahh so cute 

“1....2.....3......4......5.......6......7......8......9.....10.....11.....12....13...

nope nope nope

you were not going to make it to 15 

immediately you make your way back to the surface, trying to catch your breath 

“hey you did amazing,” he immediately reassures you, “remember as long your going your own pace then you’re doing just fine” 

<3 

well doesn’t that make you feel better 

you wonder if he’s this kind to all his students 

besides the most obvious reason, there was no question as to why he was the “most popular” instructor 

and to think you had been complaining earlier !! 

and soon you’re back underwater, going at your own pace until finallyyyy you’re able to make the 20 second count 

“nice !!” he genuinely celebrates with you, making you feel completely proud for yourself 

“okay now that we have that done, we can move onto learning how to float facing both front and back” 

ohhhhh

he was just thinking ahead 

cool :o 

“so what i want you do is first relax,” he laughs, gently pushing your stiff shoulders down 

as if your blush couldn’t get any deeper 

“now my personal belief is that all humans can naturally float, just that for others, it takes a bit of a push to get them at that state,” he begins to explain 

others meaning people like um you 

“the key to floating is to relax” 

oh you’ve heard that before

many MANY times and each time you’ve tried to so called “relax” you just end up sinking 

“the moment you fight or stress for even a tiny bit, you will sink. now i know what you’re thinking, ive heard that before” 

damn 

he was good 

“but sadly it’s true, until you learn to relax then you’ll be able to swim” 

you sigh 

this was where it became hard 

you were the queen of stress 

you and stress went hand in hand almost like a married couple 

it was just that deep water was scary !! very very scary !! 

the amount of horror stories you’d seen on tiktok was enough for you to know, ocean = scary 

“so here’s what i need you to do, i need you to place your arms on top of the water like as if you’re going to fly” 

you follow his commands 

he separates your arms, which had been too close together, giving them a small rub 

“remember you need to relax y/n,” he chuckles, feeling the tension in your arms

“relax, i need to relax,” you repeat 

“okay now right now when i tell you, you’re gonna take a deep breath in and look down, from there you’re gonna let you body move forward. so remember you’re not gonna jump, you’re just gonna let your body glide forward and float. almost as if you’re flying to me,” he explains 

mm it was easier said than done  

“you ready?” 

“okay deep breath in” 

you inhale a deep breath in 

“look down” 

you do that as well 

“and let go” 

slowly your body begins to rise on its own 

oh my god !!!!! 

you were about to float!!!!! 

the day has come !!!

no more staying at 5 feet and under 

you were ready to hang with the big kids :D 

but as quick as the momentum came, the faster it left because soon you felt yourself sinking, the breathing exercise jungkook had made you do now coming in handy 

no!!!! 

you almost had it :( 

it was right in your grasp, only to have it snatched away 

not wanting to offend you, jungkook keeps his giggles to himself 

“hey at least you almost had it,” he comforts you, “let’s just try again” 

you sigh, now letting your doubts creep in 

because of this, this time your body almost immediately sank this time

he frowns 

you were losing confidence :/ 

“come on i’ll help you” 

grabbing your hands, he signals for you to follow his breathing pattern

“deep breath in” 

“deep breath out” 

god, was his voice soothing 

“i need you to relax y/n, let everything go” 

a soft feeling of relaxation washes over you, similar to that feeling you’d get when you were on the verge of sleeping

“i’m gonna let you go at the count of three, and then you’re going to float, okay?” 

silently you nod, knowing that speaking would only cause you to tense up again 

“1...2....” 

he lets go, and soon you’re floating, just like he said you would 

you hold your breathe for a good while before standing back up, a huge smile on your face 

“holy shit! i did it!!” 

he gives you high five with both of his hands, for a second holding them before letting go 

“now let’s try floating on your back” 

he notices that there’s now a fire in your eyes that wasn’t there before

clearly you were now more determined to learn, excited too

preparing yourself to float once more, you realize you were missing something.... 

“jungkook...” 

he tilts his head, confused by the faint blush on your cheeks 

“do you think you can um—” 

now it was his turn to blush 

“o-oh yeah” 

what was his problem??? 

you were a student asking for help 

that was all ...

point blank. 

he helps you get on your back, his hand placed under your back as a way to keep you up 

“1....2....” 

you float easily again!! 

“nice!!” he smiles 

summer, here you come !! 

“okay so we’re gonna keep practicing that for the remaining time that we have and next week i’ll start teaching you about stroke techniques and which ones are easiest to do” 

nodding your head, you practice your floating by the end of the hour  having it practically mastered 

the two of you get out of the pool, now drying off 

“you’re a really fast learner y/n,” he compliments you 

hehe 

you mean, you didn’t wanna brag butttt 

you were a fast learner indeed 

“thank you,” you say in return, “but that’s only because you’re a great teacher” 

woah 

did you really say that :o 

aren’t you feeling a little bold today y/n  

his blush returns for the second time today

well technically you weren’t in class anymore ... 

a little flirting wouldn’t hurt right? 

if only he knew what to say .... 

hmmmm 

“well at least you won't ever drown!” 

HUH???????

jungkook, you idiot !!!!! 

someone needed to smack him straight in the face for that ! 

at least you won’t drown????

no fucking shit 

well there goes his chances with you now going down the drain 

but to his surprise, you laugh 

“you’re right, i won’t,” you say in return, “well i’ll see you next weekend jungkook” 

you flash him a smile, and he was certain he felt butterflies in his stomach 

walking into the girl’s locker room, you let out a sigh of relief

wheeeeew ! 

faking confidence was hard ! 

very VERY hard 

“so today you’re going to learn how to stroke so you can officially be called someone who knows how to swim, next week you’ll learn to tread water and continue perfecting your swimming, and then the final week i’ll teach you some fun extra things” 

“sounds good,” you say, definitely excited to learn more. 

“okay so now that you know how to float, right now when you float facing downward, you’re going to pull against the current with your arms, alternating each one. now the tricky part is that while you do that, you also have to paddle your legs a little and come up for air when you need to, and when you’re back in the water you should slowly be exhaling bubbles of air rather than holding your breath” 

well that sounded hard :/ 

“let me give you a demonstration,” jungkook says

he’s quick to float facing downward, showing you the maneuver he wanted you to learn while coming up for air every five seconds

thought it was a little childish, he somehow still looked good doing it 

he truly was blessed with the looks of a god 

he comes out the water

“okay now your turn” 

you nod your head, that determined look you had on your face last week now returning 

following his example, you begin your attempt at paddling and stroking your arms at the same time

SPLASH! SPLASH! SPLASH! 

immediately you begin to panic and water begins to splash everywhere, including on jungkook 

noticing your panicked state, jungkook is quick to grab you and place you back on your feet 

“hey hey, i got you,” he comforts you, not wanting you to feel discouraged 

you sigh 

:/ 

well that was embarrassing 

“remember y/n you have to learn to coordinate everything, so think of it this way. your legs have to always be paddling, it’s the arm and coming up for air that switch roles. when you come up for air, it’s only your legs paddling, while when you’re head is back underwater it’s both your legs and arms paddling. once you get that pattern, the bubbling will come naturally” 

you make an ohhhhh face

you could do that ! 

“remember what i told you last weekend y/n, you need to relax and be comfortable so you can build confidence. there’s no need to panic because i’m here,” he smiles at you 

gosh this just wasn't fair >:( 

cute and charming ???? 

this boy really had it all 

not wanting to disappoint, you try one more time, failing once again 

now you were frustrated :/ 

“damn it,” you mumble to yourself, a sadness to your voice

jungkook feels his heart swell 

he didn’t like seeing you sad :( 

but doggy paddling was the most basic technique he could teach you so he couldn’t really cheer you up by offering a different technique 

you needed to learn to doggy paddle before you could move on to the more bigger strokes

damn it ://  

“hey don’t feel bad about not getting right away,” he gives you a small smile, “i remember when i first started learning it took me forever to even learn how float, so the fact that you’re already at this point is enough of an accomplishment” 

well that makes you feel little better ... 

“but you were probably a kid, im ...” 

old , is what you want to say 

figuring what you were gonna say, he only laughs 

“who said i was a kid? i was probably like 19″ 

whaaaaaattttt! 

assuming he was your age (which he was), you do the quick maths in your head 

that was like .... 4 years ago ! 

how the hell did he get so good in such little time???? enough to be teaching courses ??? 

“not knowing how to swim is nothing to be embarrassed about y/n, if anything it takes a lot of courage to even sign up for a class so don’t beat yourself up too much for not getting it right away” 

he ruffles your wet hair, a small affectionate gesture 

you didn’t know how it was possible but you were falling for this man and QUICKLY at that 

he was just so ??$%@^! 

UGHHHH

“so let’s try one more time, and if you still can’t get it then we’ll push it to next week, a free extra lesson on me” 

eeeeek 

though the temptation to purposely fails was very intriguing indeed, you still had to try for the sake of it 

if you got it, you got it, and if you didn't well .... 

an extra week with jungkook it was :D 

“you ready?” 

you nod your head 

“1...2...” 

you float and begin to paddle, this time actually getting the hang of it !!!

you hear jungkook’s muffled voice from above the surface, “there you go!!” 

holy shit ! 

you officially knew how to swim !!! 

at least enough to save your own life if push came to shove 

once you were out of breath, you stand back up, a grin on both of your faces 

for jungkook it was hard not to tackle you in excitement so instead he settled for a very enthusiastic high five 

“you did it!” he cheers 

“ahhh!” you giggle like a child 

“from here on out, the rest is a piece of cake!” 

yay yay yay !!! 

“now let’s start working on deeper strokes, maybe we’ll even have time to throw in backstrokes!”

:////

noticing your changed expression, he awkwardly laughs while scratching his neck 

“or maybe not” 

this week was the final week of swimming lesson with jungkook

:(( 

last week’s lesson of treading water and perfecting your swim seemed to had gone by in literally the blink of an eye ! 

and so today was possible the last time you’d see jungkook unless you managed to grow the balls and ask him out once that clock hit 4, once you were no longer his “student"

by now you were 100% sure you liked the dude... like a lot 

and he was definitely someone you wanted to get to know outside of this pool 

you just weren’t sure if he liked you the same way 

you mean yeah there were definitely times that had you raising an eyebrow here and there, but you always excused it as him simply being a kind hearted person by nature 

because clearly his five star rating on the company’s website had to come from somewhere 

not that you checked or anything....

who were you kidding 

yes you did

your favorite review was the one that went..

“wow!! this dude is amazing !! came here for beginner lessons and even i found myself fawning for the dude , and i don’t even play for that side of the team !! not only were his lessons thorough, but he’s a very charming person ! 10/10 recommend!” 

and so you were stuck 

did he liked you or was he just treating you like he treated everyone?? 

“ahh y/n,” jungkook’s voice suddenly brings you back to reality 

“today’s our final lesson!” he announces, not sounding too sad

in fact he sounded excited  

damn :/ 

he playfully jumps into the pool, today being his so called “fun day” 

“so since today’s your last lesson i thought i could teach you how to do a.....” 

he pauses for dramatic purposes 

“SOmERSAuLT!!”

immediately your eyes light up 

ahhhhhHHHH!!!! 

you always wanted to learn how to do a somersault in water, remembering the number of times you’d look at your friend in jealousy whenever she did one 

“you ready??” 

eagerly you nod your head yes

“okay so the steps to doing a summersault is first of course, you need to take a deep breath” 

okayyyy 

“from there you tuck your chin to your chest, next you do the moment of the somersault by swinging your chest forward and gently kicking out your legs, so basically forming a ball and then kicking out.  naturally, if you have enough momentum, you’ll spin, but if you don’t just use your arms to complete it” 

“think you can give me a demonstration?” you innocently ask 

he winks at you, “of course i can” 

taking in a deep breath, he follows his own instructions, and you watch he perfectly executes his somersault 

“woahhh, that was so cool!” you say, even now finding the trick to be amazing 

“now i dont expect you to get it right away, so right now that you try i’m going tog hide you thought the movement so you get the gist of it” 

sounds fair enough 

you weren’t trying to drown on your last day either 

“okay, you ready?” 

“yes” 

“let’s get it!” 

taking a deep breath in, you feel jungkook’s hand get placed on your back, ready to push you so you could do the somersault 

“1...2...” 

and slowly you feel yourself spin with the help of jungkook, a smile already forming on your face 

“ahhh!” you smile big and wide, causing Jungkook to smile along with you 

“you think you’re ready to try it on your own???” 

“yes sir” 

“okay 1....2....” 

mustering up as much as force you possible could, you push yourself into ball and successfully do the somersault 

YUPPPPP 

WHOSE DOING IT LIKE YOU???!$%@$!

feeling an immediate rush of adrenaline, you begin to splash water all over once you come back up for air, declaring an all out water fight with jungkook 

soon the two of you are chasing one another, you now using your new swimming abilities to get away 

hehe 

you’re a swimmer 

:D 

the sound of jungkook’s infectious laughter fill the air and soon you feel him grab your waist at an attempt to stop you 

“gotcha” he says, and he turns you around to face him 

slowly each other’s heavy breathing becomes relaxed, and it’s as if you’ve felt a shift occur in what you considered your new “friendship” 

“so....” he awkwardly says, hands still wrapped around your waist 

his was was RED

like cherry tomatoes red 

this only makes you giggle 

if you had doubts before, you DEFINITELY didn’t have em anymore 

he liked you :)))) 

and you liked him :)))) 

and in ten minutes you were officially no longer his student so......

“there’s this new restaurant that opened near my place....” you say 

immediately his eyes light up 

“cancun eats?” 

you nod your head and he gives you a toothy grin 

“i was wondering if you’d want to go out some time...” you muster up the courage to ask him out 

%^@%!@&!@^&@%! = jungkook’s brain 

holy crap !!! 

you liked him!!! 

he wasn’t just delusional !!! 

“hello?? jungkook??” you laugh, waving a hand in front of his face for jungkook.exe had truly stopped working this time 

nodding his head yes like a child,  the two of you being to lean closer to another, the clear goal in mind being each other’s lips

because honestly you’d come this far now, might as well give him a .... 

“wait!” he suddenly interrupts  he glances at the digital clock on the wall, remembering your final lesson officially ends at 4

because no way in hell was he going to get fired for kissing a student on the clock 

3:59 

.....

4:00 

“okay now,” he smiles, and you only roll your eyes, happy to have taken up on those swimming lessons. 

a/n : i was gonna make this longer but this was always meant to be a small little head canon so :))) pls give this a like, comment, or a reblog if you enjoyed it !! (if u can of course) and my ask box is always open for whatever !! :)) see yall next time 💞

[princeanxious]

Ok I know I havent posted much recently and my activity has been sporatic and im sorry but I gotta vent about smth stupid(stupid as in frustratingly unfair, not stupid as in unimportant) cause I need to get it out before I break and scream or break and cry.

(Cw for below the cut, this is mostly abt boring adult stuff like dealing w/ insurance and dental visits and shit American healthcare)

I got dental work done, at least 2-3 months ago at this point. It was more than a hassle bc it took 3 seperate appointments for the main work to be done and due to stupid insurance rules, every trip was around 2 and 1/2 hour drive one way, each, bc i had to be in my homestate for it to cover me. It was exhausting. I had so much work done, I had to pay so much and ill be paying that off for at least another year.

I had to go back at least once more, 2 weeks later, because after the last proceedure, my teeth didnt like up right, and it was causing a massive amount of sensitivity to my front teeth. So another 5 hr roundtrip drive on my single day off for 15-30 minutes of an alignment adjustment on my teeth that maybe worked a little, I was giving it time bc i had been holding my jaw weird and theyd given me medicine for my teeth.

Funfact, i couldnt floss between one of my front teeth, mentioned it at this time, and they did an adjudtment by using some dental sand paper floss thing, idk, and it worked fine.

Well. I stopped needing the medicine for the sensitivity for a while, till it came back with a vengence this week. Except now its not sensitivity. Its. Constant. Pain. On the one tooth. They'd sanded a little. My guess is that it exposed or damaged one of the fillings.

Its not even been a month since my last trip back up there.

Ibroprophen every 4 hours helps only a little. I move house in 2 weeks. I havent had any time to pack anything of mine yet. I'm so fucking exhausted of being in constant pain.

I have a window of time to finally set up new insurance this month which I will be doing, but it likely wont kick in until december.

So my ultimatum is going to the same place to get them to fix what they fucked up and not pay more while also making another massive drive with time i dont have to maybe fix what theyved fucked up, OR risk going to somewhere new, without insurance, in my current state, and having to pay out even more money i dont have, or wait till december to fix this issue, which is not an issue that will wait that long without causing serious complications.

I'm so tired, yall.