#ive grown to hate maths

[jupitercl0uds]

ignore this I can't find notes app and don't want to use krita/paper

it's just maths homework dw

1A: WHAT EVEN IS THIS WHAT THE HELL IS A FRUSTUM

a) 120pi

b) 120pi + 4pi + 100pi = 224pi

naur :(

I hate watching these stupid videos

WHAT. THAT WAS IT. WOW. OMG. I HAYE THIS.

a) 150pi - 6pi = 144pi

b) 144pi + 4pi + 100pi = 248pi (I feel like I got that wrong somehwo)

no I got it right

1B: literally only doing this with the knowledge I won't do it next year

img shut up

why is everything split into a and b

a)KILL YOURSELF

9 - 45 = 36 × 4pi = 108pi

339

NONE OF THAT MATTERS NVM

36 ÷ 9 = 4 sf=4

x = 16! yay! answer!

b) 576pi - 36pi = 540pi

IM GOING TO KILL MTSELF I GOT IT WRONF

a) I can't be bothered im skipping

1C: WHY ARE THERE RIVHT ANGLES NOW OG MY GOD

I swear if this is co-interior angles or something

RRRRR I HATE THUS

I NEED TO BANG MY HEAD ON A KEYNOARD BUT IM TYPING ON MT PHONE

OK but how do I figure out h

THAT TELLS ME NOTHING

I'm guessinf

15² + x² = 25²

225 + x² = 625

root 400 = 20

NOO

noo

I DID THE WRO G XALUCTLATION

15² + x² = oh my god I'm gonna kms

skip time ^^

james roach save me

James roach...

save me James roach

FINALLY

[bestlilithian]

The lilithian experience (lilith dominant chart)

Personal experiences w having heavy lilith influence

- Older people being creepy subtly or overtly, but usually subtly with certain looks or touches or comments, especially strangers in public or distant family friends

- Being told Im scary or intimidating, or that I look mean (a girl once told me she thought I wouldnt want to hang out w her and her friends because I looked 'too pretty and kinda mean') [this is esp w lilith/asc harsh aspects]

- Lilith square asc culture is walking into a room a little pissed or in a hurry and everyone shutting up (also works for mars/pluto)

- Now Ive never heard anyone else talking about this but as a lilithian woman Ive always been disgusted by the idea of having sex with a man because in our culture a woman who has sex w a man is seen as having been dominated and degraded by him ("I fucked her" "I hit that" "I scored") also the act itself is very power struggle-ish like no *I* want to bend over a man and make him suck *my* dick

- Being hyperaware of people looking at you (even if youre dressed extremely modestly or without makeup)

- Lilith/moon aspects 🤝 your mom making inappropriate comments about you and your body

- Lilith/sun aspects 🤝 your father insulting you or making weird comments (more subtle w soft aspects so you might brush it off but its still not okay girl)

- People thinking youre flirting with them or others (esp men) but youre just hot and talking, and you cant help that ppl have strong reactions to anything you say really

- Loving eye contact <3 (w the right people)

- Lilith square saturn culture is not being afraid to stand up to authority <3 and having to quite often because they have a pick on you and try to tear you down

- also w lilith square/opposite saturn grown ass adults will have beef w you when youre a kid, esp those w authority over you like teachers, coaches etc

- Lilith/asc harsh aspects and overthinking whether a fit is too revealing or not (because you dont want to get harassed and looked at again) (but then youll grt harassed even if you go out in a priests suit so 🤩)

- People (esp men) trying to use you for sex

- Always being the one guys want to be friends w benefits with while theyre crushing on another girl

- "I dont like what you do to me" - most men Ive interacted with for a while

- A guy told me he liked me for who I am but he couldnt stand "the effect I have on him"

- lilith in 4th house culture is attracting men w mommy issues and being looked at by guys in relationships

- lilith/mercury and needing to know all your friends bdsm test results

- People liking when youre mean 2 them

- People who hate you often want to have sex w you

- Ive had so many guys in my class literally have to gather up courage to talk 2 me, even for basic things like asking me to help w something, they approach me looking all tense and worked up like Ill slice their head off for asking me to help them with their math lmao

- A classmate (and friend, apparently) of my friend once didnt want to come out and meet me when I went to my friends school to give her something because she thought Id beat her up (for context I found out she said some nasty things to my friend and was not happy about it)

- Being told by ppl (esp men) that I remind them of characters who are villains

- People esp girls not liking me for no reason or being rude

- Guys in relationships being extremely cold and rude to me or even shittalking me to their gfs (you can guess why)

- People trying to 'put you in your place'

- Recognizing other lilithians immediately

- Being insecure about your private parts, your body in general and your appearance

- Sex obsession since a young age

- Sexual harassment unfortunately

[bloodypawwz]

guys the future is so fucking scary.. like ive got loads of mocks coming up soon ( gcses next year wtf.. </3 ) and im so scared !! i can barely get up out of bed in the morning and ive got to do good in school ??? the thing im most scared about is that everyone thinks im so smart.. i do computer science and triple science and everyone thinks i love them but to be honest i cant even stand them. im good at them and im good at maths and stuff and i feel like im wasting everything younger me worked towards but theyre just not me.. everyone expects me to do well but i just cant i cant bring myself to do this i cant do this.. i was always the smart one growing up but now i feel like ive lost it and my whole life is a waste. everyone probabaly expect me to do something stem based when i grow up but i really dont want to.. i realy dont want my stupid life. why cant i have grown up with people thinking im stupid so it wouldnt be so much of a shock now i hate my stupid fucking life so bad i want to end it alll

[rx-aysgl]

Do you have a headcanon for which major each South Park (main) boy would choose to study in college?

ofc! im very excited to answer this, ive been waiting for this ask for so long 😔🤙so here we go:

What Major The South Park Characters Would Study In College:

stan strikes me as someone who would have a hard time figuring out what he really wants to pursue in life so out of all the other kids he seems more likely to study something he has no interest in, like economics or finances. which is really sad. however if we are talking about a situation where he can find something he is passionate about, stan would imo study biology or go to veterinary school, tho i can also see him dropping out or quitting his job to pursue a career in music. worst case scenario he drops out and winds up taking on the tegridy farm business :(

kyle would study psychology. can see him later getting a phd and becoming an academician. i feel like his dad would encourage him to go to law school and continue his business as a father son practice but kyle would hate the idea. honestly the only way law would be enjoyable as a headcanon is if him and cartman both go to law school and become lawyers and are constantly pitted against each other in court lol.

cartman would do amazing in business school. another option is him thriving in fields like music or law as a defense attorney but business fits him best. gotta love the evil ceo with shady deeds headcanon.

butters would also major in business, he is more than capable. i can see him and cartman two being classmates for 16 years straight lol

kenny would go into either mechanical engineering or chemical engineering. maybe biochemistry, idk. but definitely something science and research based. he is pretty inventive afterall.

here are some bonus ones while im at it:

craig seems like the type to do well at more direct subjects like maths and physics but suck at literary arts, history etc. so him studying maths or physics seems plausible to me. in a country like mine he would prefer to major in some engineering field due to lack of job opportunities.

tweek wouldn't really want go to college and would eventually take on the coffee shop family business. imo he would see collage as too much pressure

tolkien would major in chemistry. i think his mother would encourage it. my headcanon is that her mother would help him in his school work and he would grown to like science overall as he grows up.

clyde the type of dude to go to college just for the campus life and thats why he would major in something very unrelated to him like history or english literature or gastronomy aiidçtkpq0elgmy9w0q

for wendy im so torn between med and political sciences because it seems like she would want to make a change in the world and become a politician but my personal bias is wendy would go into med school because she is just that neighbour's daughter that got into med school i recognize one when i see one rjoqğktntowğqödot

bebe would study either communications or journalism. personally leaning on journalism

im not very sure about heidi but im gonna go out on a limb and say she would study psychology just like kyle because the idea of them running into each other in a psychopathology class about personality disorders after years of not speaking to each other would be so fucking funny

ike would def study computer science

not sure on shelly but one thing i know is that she would apply for as many colleges as she can as long as they are out of state. so she would end up applying for any department without prioritizing what she wants, i dont think she would be certain. all she is certain for is that she would want to escape south park and be as far away from her family as possible.

thats all i can think of for now, i will def add some stuff when it comes to my mind

thanks for asking!!

[doegirldaydreamerarchived]

Diary entry #1 - 20/01/25

Sooo first diary entry yaaayy!! Also we dont talk about the fact I’m writing this the day after I was procrastinating okay.

Anyways, I maaayyybbee took notes about today… def weirdo stuff but honestly i think it kept me kinda, like.. anchored in reality?? Sorta?? Not in a mentally ill way just in a sorta locking in (and not just saying it for once..) way?? I dunno /ᐠ - ˕ -マ Ⳋ

Anyways anyways!! About today. Firstly, I took a bath w this really cute shower gel i got gifted and the scent sorta stuck! It’s like a strawberry sweets scent and I actually love it sm i would acc drink it if I could. The scent doesn’t really stay after tho which really sucks. Like pls I want to smell sickeningly sweet let me liiiiivvvveee </3

But then I had to go to school.. which acc isn’t that bad anymore, js annoying. Glad I’m not as terrified of it anymore tho! But I did have history first which is kinda boring. I daydreamed most of the way thru it. And thinking about my spiderman box set (ofc the amazing spiderman ones) otw bc andrew garfield save me.. anyways there was this kid I’ll call A who was being annoying as usual. He kinda acts like those annoying loud kids if they were actually never funny. Also my teacher (who I love she’s so pretty) made a kid with a lisp or like speech impediment say this acronym that was like ‘kitchen, church, children’ (bc we’re learning about Germany during WW2 and uh.. you know who!) and i felt really bad like let him live pls!

Okok then second which is always english. I actually love my english teacher so obvi it was nice. She made a joke about this show that my dad watches (that i learned the intro to when i was little to impress him giggle) and i was mentally like ‘omg u get me’. Also this other loud kid (I’ll call him Mz) was being loud as usual.. also he called something a device instead of a tablet and it’s stupid but it did kinda sound like he was talking about a b.mb or something. And we were doing like a mock paper about g^ng v!.lence (yes censored i dont trust tumblr) and it was rlly rlly depressing. I feel rlly bad for people who get stuck in that stuff. But on the good side i was daydreaming and i caught myself literally like smiling outloud or whatever bc i was thinking about her (the girl who has a whole tag on my blog.) and AHH. But then my headteacher (who i hate bc he’s an actual bigot) walked past and ruined it.. sad </3

Anyways then we had break which was chill bc I’m sat w my amazing friends. They were talking about their siblings being super annoying and like.. incapable of doing stuff themselves at their grown ages. Like one of their siblings (whos like EIGHT) was waiting for his mum to put toothpaste on his toothbrush. My other friend’s literally TWO year old little sister (who i adore shes such a sweet little thing) can do that by herself. Idk I’m kinda grateful i dont have siblings. Me and one of my friends also talked abt the higher maths paper we got given bc OH MY GOD it destroyed me. Thought I knew gifted kid burnout until i saw that paper gosh. My friend did mention this one shop tho that apparently has a lot of cute self care stuff (which i didnt expect bc it feels like a sorta home improvement store to me but a win is a win) and the urges to spend money are coming back.. oh also they mentioned not liking 1984.. like i litro asked for it for christmas i love that book. Animal farm is more eh to me but dont diss my tastes ok </3

Giggles anyways now period 3 whiiich was biology. It’s kinda awkward now bc im like sat in the middle of 4 girls in a friendgroup but ive gotten mostly used to it. Theyre pretty blunt but not mean, im just sensitive.. the girl next to me tho (ill call her L) had her hair done different and it was really pretty. She also drew a smiley face in my book and i drew one in hers giggle. Omgg also my throat kept making this weird noise whenever i swallowed and it only happens in that class and it actually makes me feel like im devolving. Also also i was mentally blasting Doechii in my head in lesson bc honestly i love her rn. Oh also i think the girls in the friendgroup have beef with someone else in my class?? Like they were passing notes abt it and honestlt i got a little scared they were about me for a second but ive got better at reminding myself that like.. not everythings about me in an anxiety way yanno? But anyways when L got the note she looked at a girl infront and said gave her friend a look so I think they have drama? And the girl she looked at seemed kinda stressed and the teacher got onto her bc she was like ripping her book bc she wanted to get rid of a mistake and its like. Damn were both perfectionists forgot humans are fundamentally interconnected. Omg also the loud kid (Mz) actually spoke to her which is suprising bc he never really talks to anyone. For a sec i was kinda scared shed like jump him or sumet but she just snapped at him (which tbh i cant blame her for the guy acts like a teachers pet and it is really annoying sometimes).

Now period four!! Which i was excited for bc i got to use my phone.. which is harder now bc they changed seating plans sigh. Anyways my usual teacher wasnt in bc i think she’s like getting replaced with a new teacher, which i think is bc she was sorta volunteering here and this new lady is acc working. Honestly this feels weird to say but i kinda miss her.. anyways the day acc went really fast which i kinda think was maybe because the notes?? But either way i was still stressing about last period because i had an exam (one of the like multiple lesson ones) that im really not confident with because like i didnt study the right stuff.

Anyways lunch was mostly fine. We were inside because it was raining but we litro just yapped. Also this group of girls in like a year or two below us came and stood behind us which kinda freaked me because like. Theyre giving popular girls and the younger years arent scared of us anymore </3 Like i thought when i got to this year id get to scare the lower years a little but no! Theyre kinda brainrotted and def feral. I tried i guess idk giggle

Aaannnnffd now last period and the exam. Not much to say bc like.. obvi it was an exam. My friend gave me an earphone tho so we listened to some music. And i really didnt get too much done bc again i didnt study the right stuff so i was a bit stuck. I got some stuff down tho and im gonna fact check it next lesson. I also wanted to stay after school to finish but there wasnt much point bc.. i didnt have anything to write about.. but i have revised it more now so i hope ill have actually something to write about next lesson. Its just hard bc its really like repetitive info and i get it mixed up. But ive studied what i can so i just gotta trust i can do this!!

Aaanndndnd now afterschool.. tbh i never have much to say abt this. I revised the exam stuff which.. honestly wasnt that productive bc i still get stuff mixed up but thatll get better with practice. Also i feel bad bc i got a little frustrated with my mum who was helping me and its like.. pls shut up shes literally helping u dont be mean. Anyways yeah otherwise i just scrolled tumblr and read some fanfic. I tend to get stuck in this hole afterschool bc i just feel too tired to do anything else. I cant wait to leave school so i can try my best to fix that. Why i think id actually do better without school lol. After i get a proper routine.. but honestlt a job would kinda help with that bc i neeeed structure so.. im not dreading it that much giggle. Also excited to spoil my friends and family when im stacked ofc >(ভ⤙ ভ )<

Giggle fr today was good! Honestly life is feeling good rn (touchwood bc im terrified of jinxing it..). Anyways, thats all, ty for listenijg to me yap giggle. Also im posting this right before i get to school so please blow this up ily all

Rue, signing out 𓂃۶ৎ

[goat-shoe]

ok, i Rant time

ive been reading this fic Knowing itd be a mess and im just... ive had it with this characterization! aimless rant below ^^;;;

tw for bullying, harassment, abuse, homophobia

so a lot of highschool AUs are just..... Bad? like LOL sorry :x but. youre taking away everything interesting about the miraculous holders, And youre trying to make Fully Grown Adults into children. ??????

n e ways, i found this highschool dropout au,,, im Sure you can guess how i feel abt dugout and tiderdrop together, but personal biases aside (its Icky to me and someday ill figure out why)..... lets read this fic.

(to prove i am Not taking things out of context, heres the whole fic)

FIRST of all, youre ognna notice that the prose is Boring, written in long and uninspired runon sentences. i dont wanna just bash on an inexperienced writer, but if youre gonna be this lazy about it.. who is it for :x

second, headcanoning mariquitas name as the Only spanish name you can think of that starts with "mari"? is just uninspired. mariquita wouldnt Choose a hero name so obviously close to her Real Name.. again im not an unmasker, but this headcanon is ridiculous....

finally, and most importantly.... "he sighs wearily". umm, No actually. he Doesnt. you dont even get an insight into dugouts thoughts other than "im nervous about school >m<"

Needless to say, this and his whiny, whimpering demeanor is incredibly infantilizing,. Furthermore in this context, all it does is plays into the ""yaoi"" trope of a big buff bad big boy x boy who says uwaaah! (i hope it goes without saying, this is Not a condemnation of boys who say uwahh, yall are doing gods work and ily)

cramming tigerdrop and dugout into this trope comes off as (and actually is) incredibly homophobic and harmful. need i remind you, these are real people. i wouldnt be surprised if this author was a fujoshi or something too :x

anyways.

im a dugout fan Because hes reserved, but in this fic, thats being watered down to him just being sad and whiny.

its just so insulting to be written shrugging every 3 sentences. dugout im so sorry theyre doing this to you ;;;

guhh. ill give them points for this cute relationship with mariquita...

but again, the prose is just.. clumsy. and again, all dugout does is whine about change. its not even a realistic portrayal of adjustment disorder :x

speaking of disorders Lol,

we Know how i feel abt tigerdrop, but i tend to actually like fanfic portrayals of him.

but this one is just... Confusing...

(also we have mandatory "describe their entire outfit in vapid detail" LOL i should have made this a bingo)

i havent really been talking about the plot, but heres what it took the author two chapters to get through:

dugout it new in town, hes nervous about the changes. (we dont even know why he misses home??? just, make it up i guess, god forbid a fanfiction Make That part up!!!!!!)

tigerdrop has lived in new york all his life, and he appears to be pretty bored with life (ex: pushes pipsqueak over just because he thought itd be funny, no doubt an allusion to the canal street incident last july)

his characterization is actually really confusing and i think its supposed to be like, Alluring??? but its just disconcerting :x

thats It. Two established characters and empty conversations with others (the mariquita mischaracterization especially drives me up the wall ever since i confirmed my kin with her)

they meet in math class when dugout unknowingly sits in tigerdrops seat..... girl, Literally no one in high school acts like this.

at this point, this fic is no better than glee and the millions of other incorrect and careless portrayals of highschoolers. tigerdrop has some weird banter with the faceless teacher (yet Another reason i hate most highschool fics)

:/ i Kinda saw it coming, but....

tigerdrop apologizing and not meaning it? In character. But, hes just acting like a greaser, and its Weird

dugout wouldnt care! he would not look like "a deer in the Headphones."

i Realize the author doesnt have a beta reader but :x that doesnt excuse pawning off lazy work btw, in case anyone was wondering....

last but probably Most important: this is setting up such a toxic dynamic. tigerdrop is actively pushing the message that dugout is taking up too much space and he doesnt belong. its alienating and shitty. and this is a fic Shipping Them :x

but i Clicked on a dropout fic, so.... should i be surprised :/

like i said. dugout is Already afraid of him.. his body is reacting just to the sound of his voice, not unlike trauma in PTSD victims!

like. guh. this is literally so toxic. also..

take a shot every time you see the word "smirks"

lips ghosting his nose And ear? Lol.....

likely The Worst way to incorporate their miraculous personas :x reading this literally made me nauseous.

anyways.... thats all of the fic thats been posted so far. so to summarize: this is just Icky. its even worse, setting this kind of relationship in their high school years :x imagine if someone treated you this way! youre Not gonna grow up and marry them.

i Cant even.

~ ty for reading <3 ~

[slyviaplathoncocaine]

i don’t feel comfortable around people with authority over me (teachers, police officers, etc.) especially guys. throughout the years ive had problems worth a lot of teachers. ive only even felt comfortable or even safe around one male teacher and he was and still is my favourite teacher. although, that wasn’t the case with another teacher. he was my math teacher. i hated his guts. my mum used to drop me off throw our schools drop-off zone. he used to run over to open the door for me. every time. i told him to stop, nicely. he didn’t. i told him it made me uncomfortable. he laughed at me. I slammed his hand inside my car door. I didn’t feel bad at all when i did it and i can still hear his literal screech.

He scolded me afterward in class so what did I do? Of course, pin any blame that could be on me, on him. I exaggerated some bits but i basically just forced some tears and explained everything very fast to my principle.

I got off the hook and this grown man with a wife and two kids forced out a “heartfelt” apology to me. This teacher has a math podcast and multiple times had asked me to stay after class to listen to it. I know he most likely didn’t mean anything by this but i was very paranoid at that time and going through a literal crisis. (All my teachers knew so i got off with any attitude or if i left class early). He knew this. I was very much triggered by this and left immediately, he pulled me back by my shoulder and i literally said with tears rolling down my cheeks, “fuck off you old cunt”.

Never been more proud. There’s a lot more to this whole ordeal but I’ll leave it at that as it’s getting late.

[fleursfairies]

thanks for the tag this is so fun!

1. origin of your blog title? i literally dont even remember i made it so long ago lol, i just picked random words that sounded good together

2. favorite color? orange?

3. favorite game? oh shoot idk i like the sims

4. song stuck in your head? im listening to upside down by jack johnson rn! (i <3 jack johnson)

5. weirdest habit/trait? ok this is something ive noticed recently but every time i get up from the ground or stretch or something i make a weird noise LMAO it needs to stop im so serious i sound like my father

6. hobbies? hmm...drums, professional movie watcher, professional music listener, professional arts and crafter, tennis, a million other little things

7. if you work, whats your profession? i work at a kids swim place currently

8. something you're good at? fixing things, im the family handyman

9. something you're bad at? reading comprehension, im not as bad as people on the internet but if you give me a paragraph to read i most likely will not be able to tell you what its about

10. something you love? i love community. i love when people come together and be excited about something

11. something you could talk about for hours? super random but connections between celebrities. im the master of 6 degrees of kevin bacon

12. something you hate? im stealing yours but also injustice. also loud chewing.

13. something you collect? cds, dvds, birthday cards

14. something you forgot? i was trying to find my sun sign and i forgot what city i was born in LOL

15. love language? "this reminded me of you"

16. favorite movie? super random but soul surfer. idky i love it so much

17. favorite show? idk actually. a few years ago i watched julie and the phantoms like 5 times in a row and i havent done that with any other show so

18. favorite food? honestly.....pizza

19. favorite candy? anything chocolate/peanut butter or chocolate/mint

20. favorite animal? im a zoology major and this is like asking me my favorite child. maybe jellyfish, big cats, elephant, octopus, i have no idea

21. what were you like as a child? i was super shy but also friends with everyone, both boys and girls. somehow i was both a tomboy and super girly. i am exactly the same as i was as a child, absolutely no character growth LMAO ive always been an optimistic go with the flow type of person. ive grown more into my humor though

22. favorite subject in school? history and science

23. least favorite subject in school? math

24. whats your best character trait? im authentic

25. whats your worst character trait? speaking without thinking

26. if you could change any detail of your life right now what would it be? i just want my chemistry grade to be higher man im doing the best i can. also my psychology grade! why tf do i have a c in psychology i literally missed two days of school and it ruined my entire semester

27. if you could go back in time who would you talk to? my nana nancy

this took me forever to do but it was fun!

@starcrossedmoony @sparklingstarr-tv @aeterna-auroral-avenger @reo-bylerwagon @miwiromantics

ooo thank u @joyful-soul-collector for the tag <3

Get to know your mutuals!

What's the origin of your blog title? i love snoopy and viktor and i think they'd be best buddies in another universe

OTP(s) + Shipname: currently i loveeee jayvik!!! but im also a massive fan of zelink (zelda + link). and loumand hehe

Favorite color: baby blue!

i'll put the rest of the questions under this so this post is not too long!

Favorite game: any zelda game!! it's my favourite game series of all time. i also love bg3 / DnD, twd telltale series, outer wilds, minecraft, acnh, and i'm currently playing RDR2 for first time and enjoying it!

Song stuck in your head: which witch by florence & the machine

Weirdest habit/trait? i have hypermobile/double jointed hands, as well as shoulders and hips. so i'm always popping out my shoulders, hips, and touching my thumbs to my wrist lol.

Hobbies: writing, figure skating, swimming, i also do casual ballet classes and i'm learning violin :)

If you work, what's your profession? studying to become a phlebotomist for now but in the future i'm wanting to go into medical imaging!

If you could have any job you wish, what would it be? my dream job is a cardiac sonographer. hopefully in about a decade i will be one

Something you're good at: figure skating, i like to think writing (but that's maybe debatable lol), and tetris. yea. the game

Something you're bad at: quite a lot of things, and thats ok

Something you love: role playing/story based games!!!.

Something you could talk about for hours off the cuff: my special interests - zelda, post-apocalypse media with a focus on zombie genre and skating (especially yuzuru!)

Something you hate: leather. it's a sensory thing

Something you collect: azura blind boxes, fruit stickers and cute tags from clothes

Something you forget: where i last put an item

What's your love language? physical touch and gift giving

Favorite movie/show: currently arcane! but i also love the walking dead (up until about season 6), iwtv, james cameron's avatar, Coraline, wallace and gromit, and spirited away.

Favorite food: braised beef noodle soup

Favorite animal: bears and whale sharks

What were you like as a child? incredibly autistic lmfao . i used to stack things together and organise canned food into colours

Favorite subject at school? history, it was my best subject and i had an amazing teacher who encouraged us to think critically. i'm still in touch with her even 7yrs after graduating

Least favorite subject: general sciences. i love biology, but i found general science to be boring because i'm not that good at physics or chemistry.

What's your best character trait? well, my self identity is all over the place on most days, so i'm not really sure lol. maybe it's that i'm kind? haha

What's your worst character trait? i can get quickly overwhelmed / overstimulated and then i'm not the greatest person to be around. it's a lot better now that i'm older, though

If you could change any detail of your life right now, what would it be? i would like to feel safe :')

If you could travel in time, who would you like to meet? ooooo... is this meant to be about historical figures? because my answer would be my great grandmother when she was younger. it's been six years since she passed away and i miss her so deeply. the kindest woman i've ever known! <3

Tag as as many mutuals as you want!! omg ok. here's me trying to remember who all my mutuals are . @arkaniske @cheriekos @voxconcordia @awretchedthing @juuzousmom @softandslow @ttwwiiissttyy @oraccles @patheticjayce @maniiix @itsfheang @mementokore @cloudrcs @decayingstarchild @j1mmycreat3s @mothgardens @rams0up + anyone else who wants to do it :p

[technitango]

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[sandwicz]

Twisted Wonderland as quotes me and my friends said + teachers too pt. 2

Warnings: profanities, mention of cockroaches, some might be ooc, Rook

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*in the science club*

Rook: "i made a reverse filter :D"

Rook: "i turn clean water into dirty water"

Trey: "..."

Vargas: "Trappola... This is why you won't have a girlfriend in the future"

Epel: *shows a poster he made thats just memeable and very messy, kinda like a sh*tpost. Its for his presentation that's 30% his grade*

Epel: "Apple to coconut how bad is it"

Epel: "Apple = good, coconut = bad"

Epel: "all the fruits are included in between"

Ace: "its cherry then"

Epel: "idk if that's good or bad. i like cherry so its good"

Yuu: "Pear. Actually no its mango"

Epel: "I like mango so its good"

Yuu: *made a huge robot cockroach the size of a basketball(that walks slow) that's made out of cardboard for a project*

Yuu: *shows a pic and video of the project to some students*

Yuu: "cock"

Yuu: "this took forever"

Yuu: "i hate it"

Yuu: "it hath grown wings so it shall fly to the sun"

Yuu: "and i will sit and stare and salute as my papermade icarus flies ever onward”

Yuu: "... i think i lost it"

Floyd: *pokes jamil to show him the cockroach monstrosity* beetle?

Yuu: "i gave him wings don't you dare call him a beetle"

Jamil: *distraught and trying so hard to stop himself from burning the cockroach down* ...

*lets pretend NRC teaches students other languages other than english*

Leona: "what the f*ck the teacher slapped my hand"

Ruggie: "LMAO"

Jack: "what. ...why?"

Ruggie: *while laughing hard* "HE KNOWS YOU'RE SMART ITS JUST THAT YOU DIDNT WANNA PUT EFFORT"

Leona: "... this is why"

Ruggie: *still laughing while wheezing* "in the maths part of the (insert language here) exam Leona doesnt wanna calculate so instead, he wrote 0s to some of them and called it a day”

Jack: "..."

(yes our teacher did put math questions in our language exam)

Ace: “people are doing math the wrong way you guys be talking about x and y but never u and i”

Cater: “if i could rearrange the alphabet i’d put u and i together”

Cater: “you know why i like RNA better than DNA, because there’s U”

Riddle: “all these pickup lines and u all still single”

Deuce: "how do i fix my bad haircut"

Ace: "grow hair"

Deuce: "great idea"

Deuce: "never thought of that"

Deuce: "any other ideas"

Epel: "bald"

Ace: "bald"

Epel: "it's about drive it's about power"

Epel: "we stay hungry we devour"

Student A: "Sir Trein sucks, he doesn't deserve any teacher's day letter"

Deuce: *is pissed off* "HAA??!! U SHUT YOUR ASS"

Deuce: "What's your beanfest team HAH?"

Deuce: "I'll wipe it out."

Student A: " Your team."

Deuce: "oh."

Student A: "💀"

Vargas: "do you have a partner?"

Riddle: *confused at the sudden question* "...no?"

Vargas: *pats his shoulder* "no? Find someone in the future"

Yuu: "i read fire balls as furry balls"

Ace: "HAHAHAHA JACK'S FURRY BALLS LMAO"

Jack: "..."

Jack: "i hate you."

Riddle: *flabbergasted* "Cater. Yuu played tetris during class? Around the teacher?"

Cater: "Yeap"

Yuu: "ehe"

Riddle: *dissapointed noises*

Trey: "i'm surprised you didn't get caught"

Yuu: "ehe"

Floyd: *gets grouped with Epel, Lilia and Riddle for a group project*

Floyd: *decided to make a gc and determine the name of it*

Floyd: *names it "adorable midgets + floyd gc :D"

*few moments after they finally realized the gc name*

Epel: "FLOYD YOU MOTHERF*CKER IVE JUST REALIZED THE GC NAME"

Riddle: "YEAARGHHH FLOYD IT'S OFF WITH YOUR HEAD"

Lilia: *enjoying the chaos*

*in the middle of class*

*sound of a notif from an online shopping app*

Trein: "Who's notification is that? It must be from Cater, isn't it? Always shopping and checking social media"

*a few seconds later*

*sound of a notif from another online shopping app"

Trein: "Tsk tsk tsk... who is that? Who likes shopping so much? You already have an app for it and you have another one?"

Idia: "..." *hiding behind his tablet*

Bonus for all of yall, in case yall need it:

Yuu: *jokingly* "so how's the exam results? Were you dissapointed in us?"

Staff/character of your choice: “You can never disappoint me, i’m always proud of you”

Everybody: *tears up*

[damegalantea]

Ingrid on marriage, romance, and self-worth

ooc; this is the meta ive been meaning to write re: ingrid and her thoughts on marriage as a crest bearing heir / how it affects her romantic inclinations and other relationships. it's a bit long but will tie into some of the hc asks! c: thanks for reading~

The first section of Ingrid's profile in Three Houses has the date 1162, marking two things: the day she was born (1 / 4) and her betrothal to Glenn Fraldarius. As we will go over later Glenn is most likely around five years older than Ingrid so while the specifics of this agreement are never mentioned it seems clear to be a gesture of good will from House Fraldarius to House Galatea.

(There was no way to know Ingrid would bear a crest, and we can assume Glenn, based on Felix, did not bear his family's crest so most likely it was along the lines of "my first born male heir will marry your first born female heir", something the poorer Galatea dukedom could sorely have used).

Whenever Ingrid speaks of Glenn there is admiration there but also a certain nostalgia. I am certain that since her birth he was always a central figure in Ingrid's life, and equally certain that presence was a comfort rather than a burden; while the way she talks about Glenn is indeed tinged with grief they obviously had a good back-and-forth, and often (understandably Considering how young they both were) Ingrid's mourning comes off not as one mourning a lover but a dear friend.

This is important because unlike many other women of noble houses Ingrid knew who her husband would be since she was a child, and she welcomed it.

I think it's also important to note both Glenn and Ingrid seem to have wanted to become knights of their own volition! Ingrid's admiration for the duty seems to stem from the chivalric tales of old Faerghus she would read as a child, at least according to her Ashe support. Every other time she's asked she simply says it was an early dream of hers. I think this was probably something she and Glenn talked of an encouraged each other about – the type of children idealistic enough to envision themselves married and fighting for their kingdom side by side.

We know from Rodrigue Glenn was knighted (presumably made a squire ala Felix during the Western rebellion) at 15, and doing some quick math leads us to the revelation that Ingrid had just turned fourteen the year the Tragedy took place and both Glenn and the king died. I am going to extrapolate then that Glenn was most likely in his early twenties, perhaps finally ending his time as a squire, when he was sent to Duscur.

Ingrid lost her fiance as a fourteen year old girl, and while I don't doubt she was given some time to grieve it seems her father went right about trying to find someone else to marry his crested daughter.

It isn't really a matter of if we can fault him for it, Ingrid herself hates the idea but understands. Three Hopes confirms that Ingrid has elder and younger brothers who could easily take over Galatea territory if she were to be shipped off somewhere. Of course, Ingrid's father does not seem to be a bad man but he is a desperate and a poor one (poorer now than at the start of the war) and Faarghus is a crest based society.

Ingrid B support:

She clearly understands where her father is coming from, but hates being treated as collateral. As an object. I think it should also be noted it isn't some all abiding love for Glenn that makes her unwilling to marry - she loved him, certainly - but it is her freedom and her future as a knight that Ingrid fears losing not some maidenly honor (laughs).

My noble family—House Galatea—branched off from House Daphnel in the Alliance.

Shortly after, we were lucky enough to receive the support of the royal family, allowing us to attain nobility...to some extent.

But the territory we watch over is poor, its harvests meager. And our noble blood, too, has grown thin. Neither my father nor my brothers bear a Crest.[...]

A Crest is highly prized among nobles. Were I to marry into a greater noble family, that financial support could soothe our woes...

Glenn was the ideal as her husband not just because she grew up and felt comfortable with him but because, as far as we know, he respected her wishes to become a knight and respected Ingrid as a person. Ingrid admits that unlike other noble girls who would dress up for potential spouses she never needed to go the trouble:

I haven't the time to bother with such frivolities. As long as basic hygiene is being met, then I'm happy. But my time is precious to me, and my focus is on knighthood. Taking time to paint my face simply isn't a top priority.

Ingrid and Annette support:

(on makeup)

Furthermore, in her support with Dorothea, she says with some judgment  "gussying myself up to attract someone has never played an important part in my pursuits as a knight" and acts indignant when Dorothea shrugs off the idea of dressing for herself and continues to flirt with her.

Ingrid does not want to be seen as an object. She has been sheltered, so to speak, from that aspect of misogynist noble society and you can bet that she will fight it tooth and claw even as she feels conflicted due to her lack of filial piety.

This is important in any marriage related political situation or romance in general for Ingrid, as if she feels she is being objectified she will back out. It is a great fear of hers, and furthermore in her eyes as moral, upright person a great injustice.

(This is why she does not take to flirting well, and probably never will. If Ingrid were to grow to love someone romantically it would have to stem from a profound friendship first.)

(Also I do headcanon her as bisexual but that's neither here nor there).

A theme across Ingrid's character arc is that she is still learning: still learning Duscur was not to blame for the Tragedy and its people deserve respect, still learning what it means to be a knight, and learning (but not necessarily accepting) what it means to be an unwed woman in Fodlan's Faerghan society.

[obessed-with-fictional-men]

time lines, confusion, theories and pictures-a bulgasal run down?- really long post and spoilers

ok so, this is all just what ive seen in the 12 episodes so far, a deep dived/ rabbit hole and trying to connect stuff. I feel like a crazed person with a board with pictures and strings all connecting stuff.

Time line: so the show begins in 2021. We have a few different times that have been given or tossed at us but they are important with history and connection to dynasties, religion and important symbolism in art. The first 2 are the “600 years ago” and the “1000 years ago” we are often told. With some simple math we know that all this ish started in 1021. This is the Goryeo period for Korea. Eul Tae’s character, of unknown age but an adult, is the older son of an important figure head of a village. He is sickly and has found out his father is planning to abandon him and take his younger son and look for more opportunities for power and financial growth. He has managed to lure his brother out into the woods and murders him. He is spotted in the act and is accosted by the OG Sung-un bulgasal* (ill get into more about why i dont think she is a bulgasal). Eul Tae lies to his father about his brothers death. Thanks to episode 12 we learn that OG Hwal was around and a grown man and a bulgasal* and makes Eul Tae into the monster is he now with the black hole and also takes his soul, making Hwal a human before dyng. Hwal, as we know him pre-bulgasal and as a child, was born in 1394. He is born from a dead mother and shaman lady states that he should have died, for it would have ended the curse/retribution. Skip 27 years later he becomes the bulgasal we all know and love/hate currently. At this time it is 1421 and thus the “600 years ago”. Before he becomes bulgasal he believes OG Sung Un is the bulgasal that has killed his family and amry bros, I am unsure at this moment why she is bathed in blood and runs him through with a sword but she takes his (Eul Taes) soul by accident and becomes human (she looked dumbfounded as to why this happened), Hwal stabs her twice with two swords. Before she died she cureses him and pretty much tells him she’ll be seeing him again. 199 years pass and Japan is up to their historical bullshit and invading korea, and we learn that Hwal is feeding off animals. Good for him for keeping his promise. 3 years later we get our first mention of Sung-un being reincarnated but aling with that info we learn she is also being hunted by “black hole” aka Eul Tae and that the monsters Hwal hunted down are now following her because she has Hwal’s soul, Which is actually Eul Tae’s soul. Skip to present day and we learn that Sung un is actually a twin. Sung-un is the bearer of Eul Tae’s soul and has the ability to sense monsters (also is able to black out and beat the shit out of monsters is she is stabbed, cool defense trick) while her sister sung yeon has all the memories and curse mark from her previous lives. We also learn that they are on their 8th reincarnation and wont reincarnate again after they die. Shenanigans ensue and Sung yeon and her mother are both murdered by Eul Tae but we learn that Sung Yeon did something to Sung Un’s soul/ body/ being that makes it impossible for Eul Tae to kill Sung Un. Present day episode 12 and Sung un still doesnt remember anything on her own except for what reincarnated shaman lady states or her sister si-ho sees from her soul memories, until she is attacked by a cop and is stabbed. After she sees her stitched up wound and touches it we get some interesting flash back memories and she proceeds to stab Hwal. Let me just say, full on monster looking hwal was hott.

Important art and religious connections: if the writers did their research on art symbolism  and art through history then oh my god.

Here are some shots and angles of this painting that is always in the background. This painting was done after the monster hunting era, so its a Joseon style painting and the main religion during this time was Buddhism. I was an art major in college and took several religious studies classes while in college and i squealed when i saw this. Its beautifully drawn and there is so much symbolism in this painting outside of the obvious stuff. If you look past the monsters you still see many things. Lets looks at the bigger details. You have the monsters that hwal hunted and their respective human forms/ shapes. The hand in the center in the water, the charka symbol stands for balance or balancing your chakra/soul. Everything is near or surrounded by fire, and when used in paintings symbolizes purifying or cleansing. This is also great because the mythology of bulgasal is its either immortal or can be killed by fire. The way its written in chinese means its “impossible to kill” and if you change out one of the letters its becomes “killed by fire” We see two caves that are in close proximity to the two haloed figures. We see these caves in the show being used as residence of the bulgasal*.

 This was OG sung uns cave.

This is hwals cave. (im sure to budgeting reasons they reused the cave but to stick with the paintings they are two separate caves.

Next we see the two main figures. The first and slightly more centered is the female, dressed in red with gold lotus flowers and a golden halo. Within Buddhism halos are seen as an aura of sanctity, or perceived goodness/holiness. Its also given to individuals who are deities within korean mythologies. The female is positioned in a way you notice her first and for koreans red is used to ward of evil and bad luck but to wear red is a sign of bad luck it is in opposition of the color blue. In korean art the golden lotus symbolizes creation, birth, reproduction and livability. This is interesting given that its on an individual who is supposedly immortal and seen as a god like being. Next we have the male who on the right and slightly further back. He is turned away and is presented as aloof and mysterious. He clothing is simple with only a belt. He also has the same halo and in the same colors. He is also seen as a deity/godlike. Blue stands for the element of wood, the east and is the balance to the color red.

let me mention that all these symbols in this painting were probably drawn and painted by Eul Tae himself. He has been around to witness all the monsters being killed. What i find interesting is that he didnt insert himself into this painting given his ego and narcissism.

i got a closer picture of this painting because i wanted to focus on the halos and the color symbolism. this painting was painted by a reincarnated monster. He states he saw Sung un and was captivated by her beauty and had to paint her after killing her. Sung un is clothes in black and gold. In buddhism, black is used for primordial darkness and mysteriousness. It is the color of hate. She wears a grown of gold and jewels upon her head and body. This is a status marker. The painter is stating she is powerful. She is once again painted in flames and surrounded by monsters, stating she is either cleansing these monsters or that she is surrounded by bad luck from these monsters. She is painted with halo rings, and for this painter he has perceived her as good and holy, another deity. This reincarnated monster got the feeling that she was an older being that which held a lot of power and hatred. 

(edit) I want to talk more about symbolism with colors. We see a lot with OG Hwal and OG Sung un the constant use of reds and blues for their respective characters. If we look at Eul Tae’s pin board we use the use of colored strings. Red for Sung Un and blue for Hwal. if we look closer at it we see that sung un has a lot more connections to hwal than the other way around. Sung un plays a heavier roll in hwals life than the reverse. There is like, 3-4 stings max of hwals connection to sung un where as we see half of the stings pinned to hwal are from sung un. i just thought it was interesting. Also if we look at the old paintings they belong to hwal.. meaning Eul tae has been following hwal around since the beginning. (Im only saying they belonged to hwal because of the ink and flow style of the drawings are soooo similiar)

(im going to be inserting pictures from different episodes and not following episode order so spoilers if you havent watched all aired episodes yet)

So in the very beginning, we learn that the bulgasal curse is a blood curse as well as the stab would on the right hand. Hwals mother KNOWS that her child is cursed but we are not explained to as to HOW she knows. She offers her child to the jomagu monsters on the mountain while she is pregnant and the monsters want nothing to do with it. They can sense something is wrong. The mother hangs herself and then hwal is born. After that we get this from the resident shaman.

This bit confused me because of this...

if no soul then why did OG sung un get a soul after stabbing Hwal? was it because he wasnt supopsed to have a soul but had OG Eul Tae’s soul? It would explain her confusion. When Hwal was a child and being tormented by the other villagers OG/OOG (because at this point we dont know unless her eyes are glowey what she is) she steps in and saves him, JUST to end up getting stabbed in the back when trying to shield him.

Right after this hwal gets adopted and leaves the village. 17 years pass by and he returns to the area in hopes of killing bulgasal. At this point he doesnt know who he is looking for but through coincidence he meets OF sung un again and she hasnt aged.

Arrows going flying and they both get hit, and she bounces. Hwal and the military group make camp with hwals family. Hwal leaves to go in search of bulgasal and while he is away shit hits the fan. At this point we know its Eul Tae but hwal doesnt. I dont know what happens while Eul tae is killing everyone but Sung un appears and guts Hwal. Like, wtf, what happens between her getting shot at with arrows to 2 seconds before she stabs him that she is covered head to toe in blood. Was she fighting Eul tae or other monsters under Eul tae’s employment? Anyways, these two have a telepathic/non-telepathic convo and she tells hwal that essentially she has cursed him and because of him the retribution will continue... and hes dumb and blows a raspberry before peacing out.

Fast forward to present time we learn that monsters are still gunning for Sung-un. We learn that other monsters think her soul smells terrible and makes them sick. Could it be the smell of a soul that belongs to a person who is also sick? both mentally and physically? im call you out Eul Tae! Monster attempts to kill Sung un and we see her black out for the first time. When she comes to he see that he is badly hurt and is freaking out. Wanting to know who she really is. Interesting, we’ll be seeing this happen again.

After a brief encounter and a non-murdering time between sung un and hwal we see that when sung un touches hwals blood for the first time she unlocks memories that arent originally his from this current life, and they include OG/OOG sung un.

Isnt she pretty? i think so. At this same time though we see Og/OOG hwal (but we dont know that unless youve seen ep 12 and can connect dots) He is clad in that ratty shawl and blue outfit and is inside a cave.

We know this is OG/OOG hwal because thanks to episode 12 we get these stunning looks and views.

We learn in episode 4 that Eul Tae kills/ drains the blood from his victims through biting their necks. You know who else got their necks bitten and died? everyone that died that hwals blames OG sung un’s for. Hmm. We only ever see OG Sung un get a little stabby, no bitey. Eul Tae also learns that Sung Un doesn't remember him and he seems legit upset.

then he just decides to reverse tokyo drift his way into her heart but with murder instead of flowers. Eul Tae get a little handsy and flirty with Hwal in a tunnel and then they go on a date. What even is this show at this point. At this point we learn, or think we learn, that Eul Tae knows the real reason why Hwal was turned and we also learn that Eul Tae has been around for longer than Hwal. This makes us think that Eul Tae is an OG bulgasal but nope. In ep 11 or 12 we learn he is half bulgasal and he tells hwal that its OG Sung Uns fault he has the black hole curse buuuttt like everything Eul Tae, its a lie.  OG Hwal in all his almost dead glory is being begged by Eul Tae to be turned to what ever Hwal is. Eul Tae no longer wants to be sick and not important. He wants to have a normal life and not be abandoned, but oops. Hwal died immediately after ripping out his soul and absorbing it. Bring on the life wheel of fortune.

We are made to believe he is bulgasal but i dont think that is what he and OG sung un are. Hwal digs his fingers into Eul Tae and takes his soul and gives him that black hole curse. The curse is given to him by hwal, not sung un but that makes things complicated because of Sung Yeon making it impossible for him to hurt Sung Un. i dont know what the hell to think, i just need the next 4 episodes to clear some shit up.

anyways, im gonna skip the whole road trip and spending the night together in a single room.

We learn that OG Sung-un was around when Eul Tae murders his warrior brother and blames her for it. We get that slow motion reveal with nice dramatic music so that we know its from his POV and le-gasp, shes beautiful but also indifferent towards him. Just dont kill in her woods!

She also has the same ratty shawl as the OG hwal. im diggin it.

in Episode 10 we learn that Eul Tae was the bulgasal that killed his family and he is out to do it all again if he cant get Sung Uns soul AKA Hwals soul AKA Eul Taes soul. All this hot potato is getting annoying.

In the next episode we see that hwal is now hell bent on killing Eul Tae for what he did to his family and those he cares about. These two meet at hwals well and attempted murder happens, we learn that bulgasal are born as pairs and that Eul Tae is only half a bulgasal due to OG Sung Uns curse. I dont know if Eul Tae was spinning lies again but she declares that hwal is to blame for all of this mess and that OG Sung un has been trying to get them to kills each other. Hwal cuts the conversation short and Eul Tae flings them off a bridge into an aqueduct.

the only flaw in this is that Sung Un has human emotions and has fallen in love with Hwal, thus ruining the plan. In order to kill a bulgasal another must be used and they kill each other. Sung un, now with the ability to understand love towards a man, no longer wants hwal to kill Eul Tae because this means he too will die. Oh No! Time for another plan. Eul Tae hasnt made it out of the forest yet, looking like a corpse, he waits for hwal to come to him. Hwal finally appears and they talk for a bit. Eul tae tries to bargain for Sung un with knowledge and answers but hwal doesnt care about them, and proclaims he wants to save sung un. Here we learn that 1000 years ago OG hwal had a one sided love towards OG sung un and that he gave up his life for her and protected her. Eul tae begs for Hwal to choose him and stay with him, all while buying time for a bad cop to show up and try to murder sung un. We see again Sung un black out and this time has beaten up a cop.

Skip some scenes and hwal and sung un are back at his place and he stitched up and cleaned up a bloody sung un. She is in the bathroom and waitin on hwal to come back and change her bandages when she notices her stab would is in the same exact spot at sung yeons and OG sung un sword stab would. She touches it and get some interesting flash backs, of which i believe are of a different time period than when we saw her with Eul Tae.

During this memory, OG hwal is killing people, and ms OG Sung un isnt happy. I dont know the context for why he is killing or who he is killing and we see where Hwal has gotten his curse mark on the right hand. Im hoping within the next 4 episodes it explains it.

Sung un comes out of her memory but is still haunted and confused and upon seeing present time hwal with a similar haircut grabs a paid of scissors and stabs him with them, all the while seeing the OG hwal. its reflected in her eyes.

Im really curious about the whole “one-sided” love thing. Eul Tae repeatedly states that OG Sung Un hated him and hwal and for a monster/ deity can one even show love? Up till she stabbed him and accidently took his soul she never spoke to him and saved him a couple of times. Monsters and Eul Tae both keep saying that sung un is incapable for human emotions and that she is using hwal for her own purposes but this whole show is about her love for others and the idea of family that she put herself at risk for others.

I want to know about this weird triangle of obsession. eul tae has this weird obsession for hwal, even outside of him being bulgasal. He never went out of his way to harm Hwal unless he was in the way of Sung Un. he is soley fixed on Sung un. He has stated that he has regrets for what he wished for and wants to end it. Does he mean to kill Sung un just to get rid of the black hole curse and live forever or is he tired of being alive. He is so lonely and his existence is painful.

Did after OG sung un curse OG hwal did he get away hurt and injured and run into Eul Tae? Is this scene happen directly after sung un? He was shot from behind with an arrow. He could have taken Eul Taes blood and healed but he chose to take his soul and die. Did he act as a decoy for Sung un to live? i need answers!

what about Si-hos baby/ hwals baby girl that died from being stillborn. What was the connection between Do hyun getting stabbed and Si-ho having pain in her side?

What will actually happen if Sung un regains all of her past lives memories? Will her inner bulgasal/ deity awaken?

Is OG Hwal and OG Sung un the original pair? Was there another pair and Sung un isnt actually a bulgasal but a creator deity?

Why does the bulgasal eye color change all the time? Gold, yellow, red, purple and white?

Why is OG Hwal super hot when bloodied up?

[freebooter4ever]

Italiannikisix and i have both been tasked to learn unreal now, so we're doing the same 5 hr tutorial and its miserable but at least we have company and its really funny to occasionally turn around and discover both of us are fucking around in the tutorial with things that are definitely not on the tutorial

More than once ive had 'THAT WAS STOLEN FROM MY 2011 COMPUTER GRAPHICS TEXTBOOK' moments. I fucking hate that side of CS i didnt want to learn this shit \o/ i think it comes from learning coding in an era when it was literally a notepad, syntax, and nothing, but i always feel extremely frustrated by math shit wrapped in pretty nodes/boxes (i dont want to take the result for granted TELL ME HOW I GOT IT DAMN IT). Give me strength not to throw my computer out the nearest window which would require hauling it down multiple hallways.

Ironically as someone who spent the first seven years of my career helping teach grown educators how to teach kids computer science in a 3D graphics drag/drop IDE...i....understand the teachers pain now. We used to complain that teachers made the worst students :P now i think i am one.

[blackmoldmp3]

dont even read this its nonsense

if ur not a friend dont start shit on this post btw i dont want to court disaster BUT

ive been feeling lately that whats been bothering me abt the way ppl converse/engage with like stories/art in an ‘sj context’ is that the discourse (as in debates and conversations and criticisms etc) seems to be dominated by like. equations. like its math. and depending on certain factors and the way they converge then the formula thats being used calculates if something fails or passes, or determines how you are meant to interact with any given element. which just seems weird to me personally kjadhs like its art dude

im not making sense btw like i Know but also it feels tied up in how the term ‘consuming media’ has seemingly come out of nowhere in the past few years idk i dont think u can do nutritional analysis but w art instead of oatmeal or whatever. it positions the person exploring a text as a passive component of an equation instead of like. an engaged human being interacting with the thoughts and actions of other human beings. its 5:30am i think this whole post is about how much ive grown to hate the words Consume and Media both together and apart and also frustration and fear abt how ppl interacct with both art and artists online like i simply cannot stress enough how every artist is truly Just Some Guy and they will not save you and they cannot absolve you of some kind of sin and its also literally not their responsibility to do that. stop being weird and catholic abt teevee or whatever

[honey-makki]

It was a normal day for Ashleigh Styleson. Walking to school and zoning out for a few hours. The end of the day was not what I expected at all. Instead of sitting at my desk doing homework I was tied up in the storage room of a gym.

Today I was kidnapped by older (and very sexy) men?

I don;t know why they took me, I don’t even kow who they are. One of them is tallish and blonde and looks like he would play troy bolton in a remake of high school musical. He keeps staring at me and im nervous that my bright blue jeans and band tee paired with my knee high converse aren’t cute enough for him.

Maybe they wont want me anymore, i wondered. my doubt was quickly replaced when three more men walked in the room. One had blonde hair tied back with a headband and i could just tell he was in charge by the bde he had. The other two were meeker and didn’t really catch my eye, a tall skinny nervous blonde and the only brunette.

“Who are you”

Don’t worry about who we are baby girl just what we can do for you.

“Do for me?”

The one in charge laughed. “Maybe if u are good enough we will let you go home. smothing tells me you are a bad girl tho, maybe its the outfit you are wearing”

My parents did hate this outfit, they said it was too eddgy but i didn’t want to be the preppy bithc of their dreams. No i am hardcore. Punk through and through and obviously these men could tell.

Would that be my escape or downfall?

Do they think my confidence is sexy or annoyin??

a/n definitely sexy. she is so confident and no one can fuck w her

“Do you want to listen to music” he doesnt let me answer before using pandora to open up a one direction station, “hows this”

My eyes almost roll out of my head, “im more of a.. Um 5sos person.. A person w taste”

a/n i don’t hate 1d but being a 1d stan?? couldn;t be me (◔_◔)

Of course you are, because i also love them, and he quickly switches to the beter station.

I can’t help but start to dance in my too tight biinds when good girls play out from his phone.

“If i untine you, will you dance fro us like a good girl?”

Only f you tell me why i’m here

Depends on how good you dance. Theres a daring glint in his eyes and ive never been one to back down from a challenge.

The song flows through ym body and i cant help the way my hips mve in a seductive circle, his eyes zeroed in on my rainbow studded belt. Suddenlyan idea sparks in my mind.

I might be punk but that doesn’t mean i don’t learn tiktok dances at night for fun. Its one of the only things i can do when my mom grounds me and takes my laptop away. Idk why she doesn’t take my phone but its not like i have a ton fo friends to text anyways

It’s not the right song but i think the moves to the savage dance will work well enough. If i sing savag in ym head i can keep on beat and maybe he’ll like my dance moves. I can’t see how the others stare at my ass while i put on a show for the man in front of me but i wouldn’t care anyways.

When i finish he walks up and whispers in my ear, “those moves aren’t necessarily what i would call good, you wouldnt want your mom to see you shaking your ass infront of a grown men woul you?”

Well i do what i want so if i want to be sexy in front of you then i will. A pout is evident on my face but i take the time hes laughing to check him out in front of me. Hes bigger then all the boys in my grade and theres a warm tingling in my tummy that i don’t recognize.

One fo the men speaks up behind me and says, “ we took you because you are hot.” i blush unwillingly at the compliment from an attractive older man, “and we want you to stay with us” says another.

I pause, leaving ym life behind? The pink bedroom walls and strict annoying parents and school? And instead i get to live with four ripped men who think im sexy and cool? Easiest decison of my life

“Am i living in this gym? Because i need at least a shower and bed and i dont’ see any of that hear..

“Don’t worry kitten you can come bck to our place and sleep in anyone’s bed you want.”

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Maybe geting kidnapped isn’t the worst thing thats ever happend to me/ now i dont have to do my math homework and i can probably have my first kiss with one fo these hot dudes.

they take me to thier apartment above a store and before the door even closes the man has his warm muscle shoved down my throat. i don’t know alotbout jissng but i felt like we skipped a few steps! but when the next man came up he’s much gentle with me and it wasn’t long before i was confident and our tongues battles for dominance

the second pair of hands moving on my body from behind only spurred me on to pull the first one even closer. not to mention he was super hot.

the man still at the door had a dark glean in his eyes and commanded me to strip. everyone else looked at me bungryily and i felt like the power shifted in my favor and that my feminine wiles would get me anything i wanted.

maybe i could get used to living like this

a/n this was a dream i had and i wish it was realll!1! where are my sexy men!!!

a real a/n: this is part of the miki mouse whore house collab! check the others out here

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ACH

Do you listen to anything by Bach? I’ve probably encountered some of his material since I like looking for classical musical playlists to listen to on Spotify, but I’m nowhere near being a devoted fan or anything like that.

ASH

Do you like ash trees? I’m not attached to any kind of tree, really – but I know I have nothing against this kind, haha.

Do you have the ashes of a family member or a pet? No. The only ashes I’ve gotten to encounter are my grandpa’s, but we’ve since placed them in our local ossuary so that he can rest in peace.

How often do you feel like you want to bash your head against a wall? Before September, quite seldom. But with this month being so turbulent, chaotic, and nothing like I expected it to be, seldom has turned into every day.

Has anyone ever thrown you a big birthday bash? Sure. I had a big party when I was 7 and I also had a nice slew of celebrations when I turned 18. But if you mean a surprise birthday bash then no, no one has thrown one for me.

Do you know anyone who is brash? I do, but fortunately I haven’t had to work with her for a while now. I certainly often felt annoyed when I used to have to.

Do you typically carry cash or a credit/debit card? OMG Y’ALL I finally opened my own bank account last Friday I’ve never felt so grown-up until now haha. My dad helped me set up my first card, which is a debit card. :)

Have you ever crashed someone else’s party before? No, that sounds so annoying omg. I’d never want to be known as a gatecrasher. I know I’d be pissed if someone showed up to any of my parties uninvited.

Have you ever been involved in a car crash? Yes but fortunately they’ve all been super mild ones. One of my biggest fears is getting involved in a car crash where things would be out of my control and becoming seriously injured, like if a drunk driver crashed into me or if a 12-wheeler loses its brakes and slams into my car or something. I think I’d live in resentment for the rest of my life if that sort of thing happened to me and still ended up alive.

Do you use Door Dash? I didn’t know what this is so I had to look it up, and even though we don’t have Door Dash we do have several apps that do exactly the same services.

How often do you use a dash in your writing? I like using them in more casual contexts like survey entries, personal essays, feature articles, etc. I avoid dashes in academic writing since dashes are not really the most formal of punctuation marks.

Last place you made a mad dash to? The car repair shop that my dad asked me to meet him at because his situation was a little urgent at the time.

Do you make it a habit to flash people? Oh wow, no I don’t. That’s one of the last things anyone can expect from me. I like wearing revealing or skin-tight articles of clothing, but that doesn’t mean I like giving absolutely everything away lol

Do you prefer flash or no flash on a camera? No flash, always. I hate the effect that flash does and I never go for it, unless I’m in an area where lighting is poor.

Is the Flash one of your favorite superheroes? No. I’m not very big on superheroes to begin with.

Do you use the phrase “I’ll be back in a flash”? Not really. I find myself using “I’ll be super quick” more, or using ‘jiffy’ instead of flash.

Have you ever had a gash in your head before? Anywhere else on your body? I sported a gash near my eyebrow once because of some cousin who tried to blind me by hurling a glass jar towards my left eye and just narrowly missing my actual eyeball. Now there’s a scar in its place. Currently, I have multiple gashes on my arms and legs because Cooper.

Do you like hash browns? They’re okay, but I can’t have them all the time because I find them way too greasy for my enjoyment.

Do you do hash? No.

How often do you use hash tags? Almost never, unless I’m fighting for a political cause like BLM or calling for free mass testing. Hashtags got real lame real quick when they started getting popular around 7-8 years ago.

Do you have long eyelashes? Yes, it’s my favorite feature of mine and I get compliments on them fairly often.

How often do you lash out at others? For what reasons? Not often, but when I do it’s almost always because I’m already buckling under immense pressure and probably have nowhere to release my stress onto. I don’t turn it into an automatic mechanism though, because I don’t want to make others feel like shit for things they didn’t do.

Do you like mashed potatoes? I enjoy them but they’re not really my favorite dish. I can do 4-5 spoonfuls of them before getting over them haha, like I can never seem to finish a serving of it.

Do you typically gnash your teeth together? No I HATEEEE the sensation and the sound that it makes. My sister grinds her teeth in her sleep and it drives me nuts whenever we’re on a family trip and we share a room.

Do you know someone who speaks balderdash? Sure.

What color is the backsplash of your kitchen? White.

Have you ever had any rashes before? What kinds? Yes. Back in high school I used to occasionally get a random itchy area on my leg and whenever I’d scratch it, it would turn into an ugly patch of rashes. I never figured what the condition was but I’m just glad it’s never happened again.

Do you typically make rash decisions? Sometimes. I really tend to impulsive. The last one I made was swapping a full-time job opportunity for an internship with much lesser pay. Even I was surprised by how quick I jumped into the latter, but I like the nature of the work of the internship SO MUCH MORE, and I dunno if I’ll be happy with what I would be doing in the full-time gig. Plus, internships here are never even paid ones, so the fact that they even offered to give me an allowance per day just goes to show how good the company I’m interning for is.

Have you ever worn a sash before? I probably have but I don’t remember what for anymore.

Do you often find that your personality clashes with others’ around you? Yes, but I’m also good at adjusting to all kinds of personalities so I’m not too bothered by the clashes.

Whose tires would you like to slash? Any racist’s tires, really.

Who would you like to smash with? No one at the moment.

What was the last thing you smashed out of anger? I don’t really tend to be violent when I’m angry. The last angry thing I did was to throw my head against a pillow, but that’s it.

Do you have a secret stash of something hidden anywhere? Nopes.

How often do you take out the trash? My parents prefer to do it so they don’t really ask us to.

Has anyone ever told you that you look like trash? Other than myself, no.

Do you like to splash in the pool, the bathtub, or in puddles? I wouldn’t call it my favorite thing to do; I hate the mess that it makes, ha.

Have you ever thrashed violently before? What was the cause? Yeah. I probably embarrassed my grandma for life when I did so, but it was when I had to be confined to the hospital and they needed to insert the IV thing on me. It sent me into the worst panic attack I’ve ever gotten and I ended up thrashing a lot and several people had to hold me down so that the nurse could stick the thing into my wrist.

Do you own and use an eyelash curler? No. Those make me cringe so bad...I hate how they get so close to the eyeball. Kate brought her makeup kit to school everyday and she always made me try to learn how to curl my own lashes, but it just made me feel so nauseated lol

Have you ever experienced backlash from others? A few times before.

Have you ever had whiplash before? Never.

ATH

Do you prefer a shower or a bath? Shower. Much more efficient. Baths are relaxing, but I don’t like how I end up bathing in what’s pretty much dirty water.

Have you ever given another person or an animal a bath before? I’ve only given Kimi a bath. I let my dad bathe Cooper since he’s too much of a handful for now, plus I think it’s fair if we bathe one dog each haha.

How good are you at math? I can answer advanced algebra, statistics, and geometry questions if you give me enough time to review and get reacquainted with the formulas, but I’m perfectly alright with no longer revisiting trigonometry and calculus for the rest of my life.

Do you feel like your life is on the right path? Career-wise it definitely is; I’m happy with the direction it’s going right now. Everything else seems so turbulent at the moment and I can’t say I’m happy.

Are there any bike paths or footpaths in your area? We have sidewalks, if they count.

Have you ever gone on the warpath before? Not really. I do get very angry with certain people if I think they’ve been behaving badly, but I rarely get confrontational.

Is there a birdbath in your yard? No, those aren’t common here at all. I’ve only seen those in cartoons, I think.

Have you ever had a footbath before? Nopes.

What’s the last thing you’ve had to deal with the aftermath of? I can think of one thing but it’s still pretty triggering so I don’t feel like bringing it up at the moment.

Have you ever witnessed a bloodbath? Thankfully I haven’t. I get so queasy when I see blood though; it’s so much better off this way because I wouldn’t be able to deal with one at all.

Are you a sociopath or a psychopath? Do you know anyone who might be? No lol. I don’t think I know of anyone who could possibly be either. I wouldn’t want to associate myself with one in the first place.

Who’s the last person that you faced the wrath of? Myself.

AMP

Do you have an instrument that you plug into an amp? Nope, I own 0 instruments.

When’s the last time you felt amped up? What was the reason? Thursday morning when I parked in front of the office I was gonna have my job interview in. I needed to hype myself up to feel confident so I spent a couple of minutes in the car pumping my chest and screaming and shit, lol

Have you ever gone to day camp or overnight sleepaway camp? No. My mom wouldn’t have allowed me as a kid.

When’s the last time you felt like a champ? It’s been a while. I haven’t exactly felt like I’ve been winning in anything.

Last time it was damp where you lived? This afternoon. It was really humid for a good few hours and then it ended up raining.

Weirdest place you’ve ever had a cramp? My index finger whenever I’d try to use chopsticks; and my toes when I hiked in Sagada. The toe cramps were so bizarre I was actually laughing-crying the whole time the tour guide was treating me; my dad was taking photos of me too loooooool

Do you refer to your grandfather as “Gramps”? No. I call both of them Lolo, which is our local version of Grandpa.

Have you ever worn a headlamp before? No, I’ve never really had to.

Do you have a ramp anywhere in your house? I don’t think so, no.

Has anyone ever called you “scamp” before? No.

How many lamps are in the room you’re in? How many are actually turned on? There is one lamp, and it is currently turned on.

Do you stamp your feet when you are angry? It doesn’t tend to be a behavior of mine, no.

Last time you used a postage stamp? Not sure...grade school, probably? I never used those a lot.

Are there streetlamps on your street? What time do they turn on? Yep. I don’t keep track of their schedule but a safe guess would be either 6 or 6:30 PM.

Last place/area that you wanted to revamp? My room.

Do you know anyone who is a tramp? No.

Have you seen Lady and the Tramp before? Not the full movie but I’ve seen a lot of excerpts from watching Magic English as a kid.

Do you know anyone with a “tramp stamp”? I don’t think so.

AWK/AULK/ALK

Is the squawk of certain birds annoying? Which ones? I’ve never found any of them annoying, but maybe that’s also because there aren’t a lot of different birds flying around where I live.

Do you prefer hawks or falcons? And…why? I don’t have a preference; I’ve never encountered either.

Has anyone ever watched you like a hawk before? That sounds a little creepy and I wouldn’t want to know if anyone has.

What was the last thing you used caulk on?   I’m almost positive I’ve never handled that, haha.

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